#he rebuild even for him

[youchangedmedestiel]

My thoughts just after finishing Supernatural

One year ago on this exact same day I finished SPN. I watched 15x18, 15x19 and 15x20 in a row. I just ate dinner between 15x18 and 15x19 (weird dinner). After watching episode 15x20, I wasn't that pissed off about the end. It changed now, because I got the time to think about it.

See, I knew Cas wouldn’t appear in the last two episodes, but somehow I still hoped that the deal with the Empty wasn’t the reason, because he deserved to be happy. As I progressed through season 15 I felt it coming, even though I was hoping until the last second. And when I got to episode 15x18, I understood that it was this deal that was going to kill him but I didn't know how. That confession scene destroyed me but anyway I went to eat my dinner while being destroyed and then I came back to SPN to watch the last two episodes, knowing I wouldn’t see Cas anymore.

Then came episode 15x19, I've read often that people prefer to ignore 15x20 and I can totally understand (Dean deserved to live free and happy), but 15x19 is NOT a satisfying ending for me, because Cas is still in the Empty (well maybe not, but we don’t know that yet) and I just can’t, he can’t stay there, dead, I can’t accept that.

This is what allows me to appreciate 15x20 a little bit. But it’s not the only reason, because in this last episode I spotted several empty bottles of alcohol in Dean’s room and you all know why. He misses Cas, for sure, at least it’s my headcanon because I need it. Plus, he doesn’t stay long alive after Cas’s death, there is no real timeline. He couldn’t ask Jack to bring him back because Jack told them he wouldn’t intervene anymore and left. So maybe their hopes to get Cas out without Jack were at zero. But I’m sure Dean searched in the bunker’s library when he had the time to before he died. He searched for a way to get Cas out. And then he died (unfortunately, it still hurts). 

Which brings us to episode 15x20. The end of SPN is “good” in a sense that Dean wanted Sam to have a life, a normal apple pie life, so it’s a happy ending for that, because he achieved his goal but HE DESERVED to have that too, for himself, that or anything he wanted, not only for his little brother but FOR HIM AS WELL. 

AND ABOUT CAS? Well about Cas, especially the crumbles we got with “Cas helped” I totally understand why people feel pissed about it, I kind of feel like that too now. But when I first saw this scene, I was happy to hear about Cas because I already knew he wasn’t in the last two episodes so I wasn’t going to be as disappointed as people that waited to see the episode when it aired.

We learn that Cas remade Heaven (with Jack’s help) to do a Heaven Dean deserves, and I - for me it was like Cas fucking succeeded to give Dean what he deserved. He not only saved his life multiple times, but also told him he loved him, made him believe that he did and gave him freedom (for a short amount of time, I’m really pissed about that for sure and I’m sure Cas is too, like he wasn’t expecting him so soon) but he also changed Heaven for him, to make one he deserved.

HE CHANGED THEE ENTIRE HEAVEN FOR THE MAN HE LOVES. I’m going to cry writing this, because that’s like the greatest love story ever told. And yes I would have done things differently, but I can’t and with what they gave us I do what I want. And we have an angel of the Lord, that rebelled against Heaven and that was dead, being back and building a new Heaven for Dean to enjoy eternity with the people he loved. He knew Dean was made of love and he needed a space to express it, and Cas gave it to him (with Jack of course) but damn *typing with tears in the eyes* that still hits me soooo damn hard. Because when someone love you enough to tell you they do without excepting something in return, sacrifice themselves while doing it without having an answer about whether their feelings are requited, and remake Heaven for you to have the afterlife/eternity you deserve, nothing can beat that. THIS here, this is what grabs my heart and clenches it every damn time. The greatest love story ever told. No one, NO ONE can change my mind.

[livzees]

Beach episode when

This was totally not an excuse for me to draw him with a robot body

[astoryisqueer]

luke arnold woke up this morning with one thought and one thought only and that was the silverflint agenda happy fucking pride month

[veveisveryuncool]

havent drawn them in a while

[hellolulu]

[Damian in the Minecraft server excitedly showing Jon his extensive (and ethical) farms that he made while Jon was banned from Minecraft to focus on studying for tests at school]

Jon: ... yeah, you're so shit at Minecraft. Looks nice though!

Damian: ?! what do you mean? I worked hard on these????

Jon: *sigh* I'll show you what a real Minecraft farm looks like!

[Jon brings him to his "farm" and proudly shows off the fact you cannot tell the pixels apart as there are so many animals in one spot]

Damian: I....... have no words for this. Our friendship is about to end over this. Think of their feelings.

Jon: but this is how you play Minecraft 😭😭 next you're going to tell me you don't even eat the animals at your farm and they're just decorative 😭

Damian: I'M A VEGETARIAN. 😡😡😡😡 I MAKE BREAD. 😡😡😡😡😡😡 LOG BACK OUT. 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡

[soaked-ghost]

girls that struggle to breath and can't maintain a stable form and who hate each other

[hikkokoro]

I swear if theyre going to release a "SUNS death in VRCHAT" episode right after a normal gaming videos im gonna lose it.

[swordmaid]

i am wide awake thinking about that post canon jb au again when I should be sleeping …!!! such is the nature of the jbrainrot…

[rystiel]

btw guys what happened to jack? if he always comes back from the dead does that mean he came back after getting dusted? or did sutekh finally put this guy down and keep him down?

[ihavenosoul12]

continuing from the eggdad post i made a month ago, issue #60 (and #59. and #50) has given me so much more to think abt in like. one panel.

metal sonic WANTS to be the golden child so bad he wants to be the best kid ever and formerly, when it was really just him vs orbot + cubot and the general badniks, that was easy. like. they don't even know there's a competition, they aren't even trying, most of them aren't CAPABLE of trying (not as much as metal). he's winning by default

then comes belle. she's not competing with metal but she's interesting. eggman finds her interesting enough to extend a hand out for her to join her - she's fine work, intriguing, even if she's against him. he made her and look at her. she doesn't know there's a competition and she doesn't even want to win but she's neck and neck for eggman's interest`

that's not fair. that's not fair.

then the shadow androids. i can't remember who it was but someone pointed out how metal seems to be jealous, unhappy at least, that eggman is so proud of the shadow androids. i don't think he's shown as much interest in eggman's creations before - maybe the metal virus but that doesn't quite slot into a creation in terms of metal or belle or the androids - or maybe i'm wrong. even if he has, i think his 'interest' (bad way of putting it but i can't think of another word rn) is sort of built from this new competitor in his internal competition

he's never had to worry abt eggman finding someone, or something else, useful, bc he's always been the top choice. the golden child. the one who obeys his father to the end. the one who's programmed to do nothing else. belle's rattled him. eggman directed attention to her. she's not even on their side! why does eggman care?

why is eggman so proud of the shadow androids? he's right there.

i think his pursuit of tangle, even though it left eggman in an arguably vulnerable position (the city was recovering from shadow's chaos overload, there were just three intruders, sonic and co. were trying to find him), is indicative of this. get rid of the present threat. focus on her capture. do something right. prove to eggman he's the successful child. show him he's the best

he made metal to be.

it just makes eggman's line in issue #60 so much crueller - metal did his best, taking on sonic and his friends alone, trying to get rid of the problem, and all eggman can think abt is the wrong he's done. how he needs to be corrected.

how bad metal is at being the golden child when it's all he's for.

he's never going to be good enough. but his system won't let him realise that. his coding will convince him otherwise.

metal will keep trying because it's all he can do.

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Every now and then I remember how some people were trying to diminish Jon’s importance by going “oh he’s not Aragorn, he’s at best Frodo!!” which….one is just super false, Jon is an Aragorn analogue (learn how to deal with it). But also, in an attempt to disprove Jon’s importance they actually proved it. Because what you mean he’s “at best” Frodo? Y’all know Frodo is the main character, right? Not Aragorn. It’s Frodo.

[darlingpwease]

WEI WUXIAN, who is afraid of childbirth and pregnancy, and wants to have adopted puppies sooner than ever give birth to them, because he knows a lot of stories about painful childbirth and death during them, and the very thought of pregnancy makes him feel terrible —

♡

alpha!reader who makes a lot of nests and brings clothes so that your omega can hide in them, but at the same time you completely lack any desire to have biological puppies, even if your parental instinct is very active and even aggressive in manifestation — but you completely spend it on your husband, who remains an eternal puppy.

[science-lings]

You all know how I like to make botw Link a nerd when it comes to potions and botany but I have now decided that it would also be neat if he was also more interested in mechanics and physics than he seems, like even before the calamity. 

I mean, just imagine, this kid who since the age of four has been naturally great at fighting, the latest in a long line of royal knights, his path only being reinforced when he’s discovered to be the reincarnation of the hero, his duty to the crown being reinforced in his head for years and years, and maybe at first he thinks that he and Zelda would get along due to their similar interests. But she immediately hates him for the sword on his back. 

So every time he escorts her to the royal tech lab, he desperately wants to participate and tinker but he’s just a guard, and all he can do is listen. He loves it when she rambles about what she’s doing and he finds it all fascinating but it’s also been fused to his being that he’s just a soldier meant to gladly die for her and his thoughts don’t really matter. 

Then, when he comes back from the dead, in a room full of mysterious ancient tech, the first thing he’s given is the sheikah slate. And the whole theme of the game is curiosity and discovery and exploration and why should that be limited to just the world? He should be so excited to get the runes and learn how to use them and be baffled by how they defy the laws of physics. He takes pictures and figures out puzzles and has a blast working through problems with the tools he’s given. (also the implied building mechanic in totk... you cannot tell me that he’s not super hyped about making his own car) 

He would think that the champions dlc would be totally worth it when he’s given the master cycle zero, he even gives it the new name of Vah Epona. He powers it with his near infinite supply of apples as if it were a living horse and balances zooming around with teleporting to shrines because that’s just as exciting. 

But in the end he’s still supposed to be the hero, so he can’t stay to talk about tech with Robbie and Purah, he’s happy with waiting for those lectures until Zelda is freed, he has a feeling she’d be interested in it too. 

[engagemythrusters]

What does Withers even need with that gold, anyway

[llycaons]

ALSO something I notice is that when a fic refers to 'jiang wanyin' and its not in lwj/a stranger pov, the author either loves him and wants to emphasize how mature and respected and powerful he is (HA) or hates him and wants to emphasize how evil and dangerous and alienated from wwx he is. they're both wrong he is jiang cheng always and forever amen

[goldkirk]

I’ve been mentally lying on the ground in a forest glade being SO fucking Normal about Gandalf calling Frodo Bronwe athan harthad, Endurance Beyond Hope