I LOVE BSD I TRULY DO but im trying to do my english dissertation on no longer human the novel right and i just went on a fucking two hundred word spiel about dazai's connection to existentialism ONLY TO REALISE THE SOURCE I WAS USING WAS REFERRING TO HIT ANIME TWINK OSAMU DAZAI NOT THE FUCKING AUTHOR IM GOING TO MUALFDHSAJKFC,LHAKSD
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the reason riz doesn’t have any magical pets or beings that exist for class purposes is because all of the bad kids are his pets and he is burdened with the care of all of them
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Okay but let’s talk about Tashi and Art’s marriage.
How Art was there for her after her injury, one of the first people who rushed to help her. To help her heal, to go through arguably the worst moment of her life while holding her hand. To show her love and validation outside of the sport that was her whole life.
How Art spends the next decade of his life playing for the both of them. Pushing himself past his own limitations because this isn’t about Art, this is ahout Tashi. About her potential, about everything she could’ve been and everything he took away from her.
How the both of them know they shouldn’t have lashed out at Patrick, how it was just easier to blame him when Art knows deep down Tashi blamed him for her injury.
Love as penance, praying and hoping the next trophy would be the one that satisfies her, resentment souring the only thing that tied him to his best friend, the only thing they all shared. Laying his life on the sacrificial altar in the hopes that would earn the love and forgiveness she can’t give
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Sakaguchi Ango, the “lack of identity from having to constantly keep check of what he’s doing and who he’s spying on and how to keep from forming attachments” motherfcker, the “betrayed the only people who could’ve truly loved him because they met in these brief lapses inbetween their inevitable fates where they could truly just relax and be with each other” bitch, the “stuck with the ability to relive memories so he is both drowning in other people’s histories further alienating him from himself but he also has to relive having to cut out the only true thing he’s ever had” piece of shit, the “Still cares for Dazai and Oda, years down the line, still helps Dazai and the ADA using a Port Mafia communication technique even though Dazai nearly killed him because Ango knows the bomb was planted because of his role and its a violent action done out of Dazai losing someone he loved because sometimes violence is the only love they can share, and yet they both loved Oda so much he knows that helping Dazai and the ADA would be what Oda would’ve truly wanted” trashbag, the–
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WHITE RASHOMON TIME
The first time we ever see Akutagawa use rashomon on any other item of clothing except his black coat (in the main manga series), it's this scene.
He uses his shirt, which even Atsushi is surprised by because even if he knows it can happen, this is the first time he (and we the audience) has seen this happen.
And it's so important that rashomon is white in this situation. We all know the symbolism behind red = 'bad' and blue = 'good' (with nuance, since the port mafia has done good before), but black and white is also a significant color scheme. Atsushi's predominant colors are white because he is on the 'good' side, but he has black in his color scheme too because he has that dark past. Meanwhile Akutagawa is predominantly black, but he has some white in his color scheme. He's not pure evil.
The Beast universe leans into this color symbolism heavily, since Akutagawa's color scheme there isn't white but grey. Beast!Aku wasn't as 'good' as main universe Atsushi since he still has that darker mindset that he has to grow out of.
WHICH BRINGS US BACK TO WHITE RASHOMON
The first time we see Akutagawa use Rashomon on any other clothing besides the black coat--the coat that Dazai gave to him as a welcome symbol into the Port Mafia-- he uses his white shirt. And the first time he uses a white rashomon, he didn't use it to attack. It was entirely to sacrifice himself and save Atsushi.
Akutagawa has saved Atsushi many times before obviously. Dragging him off the Moby Dick, working together during the cannibalism arc, etc. But in all those scenarios, he was never putting himself on the line to do it. He either had nothing to lose by saving Atsushi, or mutually benefited from it.
But this time? He knew he was going to die, he knew what it meant, he never intended to be the survivor. And he did it anyway. Some people have theorized that this was still for personal reasons (that he believed this is how he proves his worth to Dazai) but it doesn't change the fact that this was an act purely of saving. It is so fitting that Rashomon was white at that moment.
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Can we talk about how desperate Ranpo looked when he was negotiating with Bram to save Dazai???
Like i imagine convincing Bram to help them wouldn't be that hard but his expression is so intense here.He genuinely worried about Dazai so much i gonna cry
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