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warabidakihime · 1 year

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Love's Melancholy Farewell

Characters: Chuuya x Reader with a little bit of Dazai

ANGST, ANGST, AND ANGST! DID I MENTION ANGST? YEAH, ANGST. ANGST? ANGST!

Synopsis: Love is like a game of Russian roulette, except the bullets are all emotions and the gun never runs out of ammo.

Years had passed since Dazai left the Port Mafia, leaving you shattered as you tried everything to keep him from leaving. However, it was Chuuya who picked up the pieces and became your solace. He was always there, even when you couldn't stand to be with yourself.

You started off as friends, but eventually, your relationship grew into something deeper. Yet it was clear that Chuuya was just a rebound. You still loved Dazai dearly, but you refused to admit it. Despite your attempts to make things work with Chuuya, you couldn't help but want what your heart and soul wanted, and that was Dazai.

Chuuya had always been painfully aware of this fact and carried the weight of your doomed relationship on his shoulders. He never said a word because he believed that things would eventually fall into place, and you would see him for who he truly was, not just a convenient replacement.

Sadly, your relationship had been teetering on the edge of a knife for weeks. Your avoidance had been driving Chuuya insane, and the more you pushed him away, the more he clung to you. It was a vicious cycle that had to come to an end.

One night, it all came to a head. You had been distant for days, and Chuuya had finally had enough. He cornered you in your apartment, his eyes blazing with a mix of anger and hurt.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" He spat, his voice rough and full of emotion.

You tried to deflect, but Chuuya was having none of it. He knew the truth, and he was tired of living in a world of denial.

"You're still in love with him, aren't you?" he accused.

Your eyes widened in surprise, but you quickly regained your composure.

"That's ridiculous," you scoffed, crossing your arms defensively.

"Don't lie to me, Y/N," Chuuya growled, taking a step closer to you. "I can see it in your eyes. You still love him, and you always will."

You opened your mouth to respond, but Chuuya continued.

"Do you have any idea what it's like to love someone who will never love you back?" he asked, his voice cracking with emotion. "To be second best, a consolation prize? Do you have any idea how much that hurts?"

Your heart clenched in your chest, but you refused to back down.

"I tried to love you, Chuuya," you said softly. "I really did. But I can't help how I feel."

Chuuya's eyes filled with scornful sorrow, and he took another step closer to you, his voice barely above a whisper.

"Then why did you even bother, Y/N?" he asked, his voice raw with emotion. "Why did you lead me on like this? Why did you make me believe that I had a chance when you knew all along that I didn't?"

Your eyes started to sting with tears, but you refused to let them fall. You had to be strong for both your sakes.

"I didn't mean to hurt you, Chuuya," you said softly. "I really didn't."

Chuuya laughed bitterly, and the sound sent shivers down your spine.

"Didn't mean to hurt me?" He repeated incredulously. "Y/N, you've been hurting me since the day we met. You've been using me to fill the void that damn Dazai left behind, and you never even realized it. Do you have any idea how pathetic that makes me feel?"

The accusation hung in the air, and you felt the sting of his words like a slap across the face.

Your frustration boiled over, and you couldn't hold back any longer. "I tried to love you, Chuuya! I really did!" Your voice rose, matching the intensity of the argument. "Don't think even for a second that I didn't try! You wanted me to move on from Dazai, and I tried to give us a chance. But you can't force feelings, and I won't apologize for being honest about that!"

Chuuya's eyes narrowed, anger etched across his face. "Honest? You call this honesty? You played with my feelings, Y/N, and you're using Dazai as an excuse for your own indecision."

"I'm not using anyone as an excuse!" you shot back, your fists clenched. "I admitted my feelings for Dazai, but I also tried to make this work with you. If that's not enough for you, then maybe we shouldn't be together."

Chuuya's laughter was bitter, echoing through the room. "Maybe you're right. Maybe we shouldn't be together. Because I refuse to be a pawn in your game, caught between you and Dazai."

The tension escalated, and the argument became a battleground of harsh words. Accusations and regrets flew between you like arrows, and with each exchange, the relationship crumbled further.

"Oh, spare me your self-righteous act, Chuuya!" you retorted, the anger turning your words into a venomous hiss. "You knew what you were getting into. Don't pretend to be the victim here. If you couldn't handle the truth, you shouldn't have pushed me to open up in the first place."

Chuuya's eyes blazed with fury. "Pushed you? I pushed you because I cared! I thought we had something real, but all you did was use me as a placeholder until Dazai decides to grace you with his presence again."

Y/N's heart shattered into a million pieces at Chuuya's words. She had never intended to use him as a replacement for Dazai, but she could see now how her actions might have led him to believe that.

Chuuya's heart was racing as he stared into Y/N's eyes. He knew he was throwing his last ounce of pride and dignity away, but he had to do it. He had to try one last time to save their relationship and prove himself to her.

Without a word, he stepped closer to her and cupped her face in his hands, pressing his lips firmly against hers. It was a desperate kiss, full of longing and passion, hoping to ignite a spark inside her.

Y/N initially tensed up in surprise, but eventually she gave in, melting into the kiss. Chuuya poured all his love and emotions into the kiss, hoping to show her how much she meant to him.

Between desperate kisses, Chuuya begged, "Please, Y/N. Choose me. I'll do anything to make it work. I can love you more than he can. I know I can. Please, Y/N--I need you. Take a chance with me instead."

His voice wavered, and with each plea, he sounded more desperate and pathetic. As they pulled away, Chuuya looked into her eyes, hoping to see a glimmer of hope. But instead, he saw the sadness and resignation in her gaze.

"Chuuya, I'm sorry," she whispered, shaking her head. "I can't do this anymore. I can't keep hurting you, and I can't keep living in denial. You were right. I love Dazai, and I always will."

Chuuya's heart sank as he heard the truth, knowing deep down he had clung to false hope for too long; it was time to face reality. He took a step back, his hands falling to his sides, and looked down at the ground, trying to hold back your own tears.

"I understand," he said softly, his voice breaking. "I'll always love you, Y/N. But if loving you means holding onto something that's never going to happen, then I have to let you go."

After pouring out his heart and soul, Chuuya's last attempt to salvage your relationship failed. He stood there, looking at you with eyes full of despair, his last bit of pride and dignity shattered. He couldn't believe that it had come to this.

You gazed at him with a mix of pity and sadness, your heart aching for the man who had loved you so fiercely. You could see the pain etched on his face, and it broke your heart.

"Chuuya," you said softly, reaching out to touch his arm.

Chuuya looked at your hand on his arm and then back up at you, his eyes swimming with tears.

"I'm sorry," he whispered. "I'm sorry for everything."

You felt a lump form in your throat as you observed the broken man in front of you. You had never seen him like this before, and it was a humbling experience.

"Chuuya, please don't cry," you said softly, stepping closer to him.

But it was too late. Chuuya had already broken down, his tears flowing freely as he looked at the woman he had loved with all his heart.

"I just wanted to make you happy," he sobbed, his voice choking with emotion. "I wanted to be the one you loved, the one you needed. But I guess I was never enough."

Your heart shattered at his words, and you instinctively reached out to embrace him. Chuuya reciprocated, enfolding you in his arms, and together, you shared a cathartic moment of shared tears.

"I'm sorry, Chuuya," you murmured, your own tears tracing down your cheeks. "I never intended to hurt you."

Chuuya loosened his embrace, studying you with red, swollen eyes. "It's not your fault," he uttered gently. "I knew the risks, but I couldn't resist. My love for you was too strong."

You nodded, burdened by the sorrow of your crumbling relationship. "I understand," you whispered. "I loved you too, Chuuya. But we both knew it wasn't meant to be."

Chuuya nodded in mutual understanding. "I know," he replied softly. "I just wish things could have taken a different turn."

You managed a sad smile, leaning in to share one last bittersweet kiss—a poignant blend of love and farewell. "I'll always remember you, Chuuya," you whispered as you parted.

Chuuya acknowledged with a nod, his eyes welling up once more. "Goodbye, Y/N," he whispered before turning away, leaving you standing there, solitary, your heart burdened by the weight of unfulfilled possibilities.

Sequel: A Love Discovered in the Darkest of Times

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 7 months

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so how would you have this play out. say buck and tommy start experimenting halfway into this season and then eddie gets wind of it gets pissed and shit goes down and by seasons end tommy leaves, buck is going to be comfortable with the idea of being with men, tommy probably gives buck a hint about eddie and well marisol and eddie probably break up as well cause homegirl is gonna be like you're more interested in your best friend dating a man then me, tell my why that is? oh it's so juicy.

I've said this before but I don't know if I've ever said it publicly: I am betting on a Bones season six situation.

For those of you who don't know, in the television show Bones, at the end of season five one half of the slow burn, Booth, confessed his love to Brennan, the other half, and she turned him down. She was terrified that their relationship wouldn't work out and she'd lose him. Booth, brokenhearted, quit the team and got himself a new girlfriend (Katheryn Winnick, hhhnnngghhh).

In season six, Brennan breaks down and confesses to Booth she does love him and wants a relationship with him, and begs him to tell her it's not too late. Booth is hurt, and tells her that his current girlfriend is "not a consolation prize" and he's not going to break up with her to get with Brennan - he cares about her and is going to stay with her.

He and the girlfriend then break up because they want different things in life, and Booth is able to go to Brennan and be with her (after a period of adjustment).

I'm deeply inclined to think that we'll get something along those lines. We all saw how hurt Eddie looked when Buck said "she sees me" in that graveyard scene. I think that Buck is going to realize his feelings and confess to Eddie and Eddie is going to fight him, hurt and upset, telling him that he waited for ages for Buck to realize Eddie was right there, and Buck just went off with another woman. Again. And Marisol isn't someone Eddie's going to just dump the second Buck gives him a chance, he's not going to do that to her.

We'll have angst and pain and Buddie separation, Eddie and Marisol will break up, and Buck and Eddie will get together in the season finale.

(Which, for the record, I'm betting the Madney wedding is the finale. Just saying.)

I would not be surprised if they pushed Buck and Eddie getting together until the next season and instead focused on the angst to be evil and give us an emotional cliffhanger. Especially with only a ten-episode season. But I'm currently betting on them getting together in the finale.

That's my line of thinking! And if we could get Tommy asking Chim how long Buck and Eddie have been into each other while Chim astral projects his way through the last six years and bluescreens, that would be the icing on the cake.

#lincoln answers things #911 spec #I just want Chim to have a leetol crisis because of Tommy #I want Tommy confessing to Maddie he had a huge crush on Chim while Chim has 'hello darkness my old friend' playing in his head #I want Tommy to be like yeah I ended things with Buck he's a great guy #but I'm not getting in the middle of him and Eddie #and have Chim be like I'm sorry my good sir what the actual fuck are you talking about pray tell #I just. Kenny is such a great comedic actor. I need it.

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