#hurts so i cant turn my brain off and sleep

[steampoweredskeleton]

Every day I'm just like "oh god yeah that's painful but I think I can live, i can carry on" and then every night I MENTALLY SCREAM

[caffeinatedopossum]

Events of last night:

Me: *crying*

My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(

Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful

My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.

[devildairymilkfairy]

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[yourelliewillms]

i saw ur post and figured you received my request(my 2 brain cells worked hard on that)

if it was me then i was requesting for a clumsy and chaotic reader with a tired ellie/she is so done (i think that was it, my memory sucks btw😍)

ellie x chaotic!reader

headcanons

YES THAT WAS YOU THANK YOU FOR SENDING IT AGAIN. i hope you like it !! <3

cw: little nsfw mention at the end ?

☆ when you two are pillow fighting , you'd hit her a little too aggressively on her face and all she'd do is stare at you in silence while you hug her and kiss her face as an apology. "it's okay, babe. wanna cuddle instead?" and she'd sigh when you kiss her face pretending to be tired of it but it's actually making her cheeks all red.

☆ "how did you get that bruise?" she'd ask you while looking at your knee and gently caressing the purple injury in your skin with her thumb. "no idea" you'd shrug your shoulders and just ignore it but then she'd roll her eyes and run to get you a bag of ice to put on your knee so the purple mark would go away faster.

☆ everyday she comes back home from her job, you'd run to the door as soon as you hear her keys and then greet her as a puppy. you'd jump and kiss her all over her face while she just closes her eyes and smiles as she waits for you to calm down. then, she'd give you a little and gentle kiss on your lips.

☆ when you two were teenage lovers and you had an argument in which you clearly were the one that was wrong, ellie wouldn't talk to you for days until you formally apologize to her. that apology is you standing outside her house at 3 in the morning holding a big ass sign with an "i'm sorry elz" written on it and some cringe clingy song playing loudly on your car which is usually "wouldn't change a thing" from that "camp rock 2" movie.

and if she isn't responding, you'd send her dramatic texts.

you: we're venus and mars ...... 😭😭😭😭

ellie <3: i cant.

ellie <3: sleeping.

ellie <3: 😴 zzz

you: my heart literally hurts baby pls

you: YOU (me) WE'RE FACE TO FACE BUT WE DON'T SEE EYE TO EYEEEEEE

at some point, she'd open her window and look at you until you finish singing the song. then she'd open her door and you'd run to hug her.

☆ you'd take 0.5 forehead pictures of her ALL THE TIME, you literally have a folder of pictures like that and she'd be so pissed.

☆ sometimes when she's lying on your lap and you're with your phone, you'd accidentally drop it on her face and her nose would crunch and her eyes watery. you'd gasp and cover your mouth for a few seconds and then kiss her nose gently whispering 'sorries'.

☆ ellie loves playing sports but you don't, specially those that require a ball because everytime you play volleyball or football the ball hits your face. ellie'd feel guilty and she'd run at you concerned thinking it was her fault but it's actually you who's not good at sports.

☆ you'd send her those cat memes all the time.

you: hey bbg wanna hang out

you:

ellie <3: BBG????

☆ and during sex, countless times you've hit your heads or kicked/punched her during the most interesting moments and that would just turn ellie off immediately.

[bunnylove1]

.•Vox HC•.

•.~vox x bimbo!reader/vox x fem!reader

•.~warnings! Smut! Fluff! And some sensitive words! NOT PROOFED 

•.~how have I not done a vox x reader on my account yet he’s literally my husband ANYWAYS enjoying baby’s!

•Vox loves when you give him your big doe eyes he finds them to be your sweetest feature

•If your talking to someone who’s way to touchy but your little brain cant realise it he’ll grab your hips and pull you close to him and he’ll introduce himself to the person that was grabby “hi I’m Vox the owner of Vox tech see you’ve meet my girlfriend”

•When he’s working he lets you and Velvette to hang out knowing you and her both like fashion he thinks it’s good for you to be around someone who likes the same things you do “baby you can go help vel with her new line she doesn’t mind, don’t go out of her sight got it” he most definitely tells Velvette to not let you wonder without her there 

•He knows your not stupid (maybe a little)  just a little (A-LOT)  oblivious so he keeps you close weather it’s around others or around the towns of hell

•He calls you: “Bambi”, “Sweetheart”, “Sweetie”, “Sugar”, “My little girl”, “sweet cake” “baby cakes”, My whore”,   “Baby”, “Slut”, sometimes “Dirty girl”

•He LOVES when it’s night and you both can’t sleep so y’all are in the kitchen getting glass of water and your sitting on the counter babbling your little head off and he just goes “Baby, why don’t you drink this and rest your pretty little head huh?” MAKES ME CRUMBLE 

•Vox never EVER lets you near Val, he knows you and Val to well. “No baby you can’t talk to him” “but vox whyyyyy” “because I said so”

•If you have to be in a room with Val, Vox has you stuck to his hip no matter what “No little girl you stay near me okay”

•He loves when your babbling whatever you heard today while helping vel or whatever you watched on tv and Vox just simply kisses you to shut you up

•He loves walking around hell with you, it feeds his ego knowing that the sinners around hell would kill to have a taste of you but your Voxs and everyone knows that and he loves that he feeds off of it

•Now if you say something bratty or start having an attitude he will not hesitate to put your pretty mouth to work “Aww look all that big talks gone now that you have daddy’s cock huh?” 

•MASSIVE DADDY KINK can’t tell me other wise

•He loves when you wear your short skirts but he will not let you wear them out unless your expecting a hell of a night from him

•He likes when you wear a choker with his initials on it 

•everyone knows when yall had a intimate night because you have dark purple spots big and small everywhere on you and big teeth marks everywhere as well

•I have this head cannon that Vox doesn’t let you leave things on him one he’s a big owner and needs to look professional and two he likes being the only one to do that 

•he’ll let you leave small bits but nothing to much but that’s only on good days 

•Vox likes to dress you up, mostly like him but still in your bimbo look he liked matching he finds it endearing 

•when Voxs comes home stressed from one of vals temper tantrums he likes to use you like a big fluffy pillow and just cuddle you 

•never lets you drink while your out unless it’s a special celebration but even then you have to be supervised, can’t let his sweet girl get spiked can we?

•he has a huge turn on for public sex idk why but I think he likes the feeling of being caught/ being watched letting everyone now you are owned by him and him only

•He’ll carry your heels if your feet hurt and even carry you princess style 

•I feel like he knows how to do hair there’s no way vel hasn’t taught him, so he likes doing your hair in the mornings 

•he likes to pat your head for no reason just likes how your shorter than him so he just kinda does it 

•vox definitely likes to fuck you silly, likes seeing you drool and become a mess in front of him 

•he likes giving you baths, cause he can’t himself so he likes to wash your hair and wash your body take a load off of you 

•he’ll let you dress him up time to time 

•has a special seat for you while he’s doing a commercial or anything on tv. It’s always next to him 

•he has a good memory unlike you so he tells you what you need to grab or what you forgot you were doing and what time it is and what your doing today, basically a human calendar

•.~I DID IT OMG, I know some of them went just for bimbo reader so it’s like bimbo reader and just box head cannons, I love you darlings thank you for reading!

[neymarismyfave]

MY LOVE

Paring(s): Zayn Malik x Y/n

Requested: No

A/n: Bare with me here I have covid brain.

Summary: Zayn is mildly upset with Y/n because she wants to "ditch" her weekly date with him to go out with her friends (Sabrina Carpenter and Selena Gomez).

Warnings: Angst, smut, cursing and fluff.

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Zayn is slowly pulled out of his sleep at the sound of high heels clicking against the wooden floor of the spacious bedroom. He yawned and looked over at his beautiful girlfriend, Y/n who was putting her diamond earrings in.

"Baby? Where are you going this early?" He questioned.

"Out with friends. And it's 12:00 P.M. you slept in late." Y/n replied, putting the back of her last earring on, looking in the mirror for guidance.

Zayn pulled the blankets off of him and slowly climbed out of bed. He made his way over to her and put his rough hands on her hips.

"But what about our date tonight?" He asked.

"Shit." Y/n cursed as realization took over her. "Baby I'm so sorry, I totally forgot." Y/n turned and faced her boyfriend.

She placed a small hand on one of his bycipes.

"I already promised them I would be there." She mutters.

Zayn let out an annoyed sigh. "Cant you just cancel?" He asked.

"But I barely get to go out with my friends Zayn," She protested. "Plus we always go on weekly dates. It wouldn't hurt to miss one."

"Baby please just cancel. I'll make the date worth your while." He says, his deep brown eyes clouded with annoyance.

"Zayn I cant. I promised them. And plus I'll be back in time!" She said as her brows furrowed. Her hand dropped back down to her side.

"Fine." He muttered letting go of her hips. "Who are you going out with anyway?" He asked, his eyes rakeing down her small frame.

"Sabrina and Selena." Y/n muttered in response.

"Ok then the date is at 6:00. Have a good time with whatever you're doing." Zayn muttered before turning and walking into the bathroom.

Y/n jumped as she heard the door slam shut. She sighed before grabbing her bag and making her way into the kitchen where her keys lay on the black kitchen table.

She grabbed them and made her way over to the front door. She opened the door and walked out before turning and closing it.

She then made her way down to her car and unlocked it. She opened the white door before she climbed in and started the car.

She let out a sigh before backing out of the driveway.

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Y/n sat in a small, fancy cafe with her two friends.

"Oh and then he asked me for my number!" Selena says with excitement.

"Shawn Mendes asked for your number!" Sabrina and Y/n say in unison.

"Yep! And now we have a date scheduled!" Selena said, smiling ear to ear.

"Holy shit! I'm so happy for you!" Y/n said, placing a hand on top of one of Selena's.

"Same!" Sabrina said.

"Thank you!" Selena said, her smile still very visible.

Y/n glanced at her watch. "Shit!" She yelped.

"What?" Sabrina asked.

"Yeah what's wrong?" Selena said, her smiling fading.

"Zayn's going to murder me. We have a date tonight!" Y/n whined. "I've already missed half of it."

"Well go!" Sabrina encourages.

"Thank you." Y/n said.

She quickly stood up and walked out.

She sped walked over to her car and hopped in.

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Soon enough she arrived home assuming Zayn had gave up waiting for her. She quickly made her way up the driveway and inside.

She looked around for any sign of her boyfriend before setting her bag and keys on one of the stone counters.

She removed her high heels and sat them by the front door before making her way into her and Zayn's shared bedroom.

"Where the fuck were you." Zayn questioned, his arms crossed over his chest as he lay in bed.

"Baby. I'm so sorry." Y/n says. "I just lost track of-" She was cut off.

"Save it." Zayn muttered. "I'm taking a shower." He said, as he climbed out of bed.

"Can I join?" Y/n asked quietly.

"No." Zayn muttered, grabbing out some gray sweat pants and boxers.

He then made his way into the bathroom.

"To bad I'm not taking no for an answer." Y/n whispered under her breath.

She walked over to the closet and grabbed out one of Zayn's over-sized T-Shirts and a clean pair of panties and pajama shorts.

She then made her way in the bathroom. She sat her clothes down next to Zayn's.

"I thought I said no." Zayn spits out.

"Well I took your 'no' as a 'yes'." Y/n spat back.

"Fine." Zayn muttered.

He pulled his shirt off along with his khaki pants, leaving him in just his black boxers.

He got the water going and warm before removing his boxers and hopping in.

Y/n hoped in soon after him after she had removed her tight blue dress.

"So was it worth missing our date?" Zayn whispered after a long silence.

"Mhm." Y/n hums in response.

Zayn shakes his head in annoyance before turning around to face Y/n.

He carefully pushes her up against the wall pinning her there.

Y/n's breath hitched.

"You told me I was the best thing that's ever happened to you Y/n." He whispered in a hoarse voice.

"Y-You are Zayn." She replied in a shaky tone.

"Then let me ask you again. Was your time with your friends worth missing our date?" He asked, his eyes darkening.

"N-No." Y/n stuttered.

"That's what I thought." Zayn whispered before placing messy kisses along her neck.

Y/n let out a small moan as she gripped Zayn's shoulders.

Zayn's nails dug into the soft flesh of Y/n's hips as he sucks on her neck.

Y/n bites her lower lip, digging her nails into his shoulders.

Zayn hissed as he continued his relentlessly attack on her neck.

He pushed his hips against hers, causing her to gasp as she felt his hard, throbbing tip press against her entrance.

Zayn groaned his hot breath causing a trail of goosebumps along her neck.

Zayn slowly lined himself up with her entrance as he distracted her with pressing his lips against hers.

Y/n gasped as she felt Zayn's cock suddenly fill her up.

"Zayn." She moaned as he began to thrust in and out of her.

Zayn continued thrusting into her just how she normally likes it.

"Fuck." She moaned, his fast thrusts were bound to bring her over the edge soon.

Zayn loved the way she felt around him. He also loved the feeling of the warm water against his back.

"God your fucking tight." He groaned.

He continued thrusting into her roughly, going back to placing rough kisses against her neck just like earlier.

Y/n moaned. She felt her release building up in her abdomen.

"I-I'm so f-fucking close." She managed to stutter out.

"I know baby. Me too." Zayn whispered in her ear.

"Zayn I-I'm-" But before she could finish she was cut off by her own release.

She let out a loud moan as Zayn helped her ride out her high.

Zayn followed soon after her, pulling out cumming on her thighs.

They both held each other as Zayn whispered sweet nothings in her ear.

After they had both had a moment to breath Zayn pulled away.

"Let's get you cleaned up." He whispered.

Y/n nodded, still at a loss of words.

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The two were now laid in bed, cuddled up against eachother.

"You look really hot in my shirt." Zayn whispered.

Y/n giggled a bit. "Why thank you. You look really hot in those sweat pants." Y/n whispered in response."

"Oh yeah? Wanna take them off me?" He joked.

Y/n let out a playful scoff and slapped him gently on the chest.

"I literally just fucked you." She protested.

"So?"

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[blackbeauty15]

📺 TV 📺

Neteyam x poc!reader

summary ; when the two people you love the most die and you cant do anything to save them

warning; angst, hurt , I might have cried a little

You didn’t think the war was coming this fast , but it did and there’s no turning back. You were scared the most for your family, mostly Neteyam and your father.

I don't wanna talk right now

I just wanna watch TV

They were everything to you, the wings that made you fly to the highest mountain, the creativity in your brain when you created tops for the village . You just couldn’t lose them, you wouldn’t know what to do.

I'll stay in the pool and drown

So I don't have to watch you leave

Your father has been a single parent the moment you were born into his planet. Your mother died from natural childbirth out cold before she could even see your lively Eyes. But being an only father did not discourage him, it only made him work smarter and work harder. Jake and your mother had been best friends before Pandora talking about each other's kids going on playdates together but that never happened and it killed him inside. Neytiri loved your mother, her spunk, her fire and excitement. And she saw it in you, they helped raise you with your father the best they could with other responsibilities on them. But while they tried your dad was the only one who understood you the most.

I put on Survivor just to watch somebody suffer

Maybe I should get some sleep

“Calm down child“ your father says following your short figure threw the woods chuckling you Turn your body happily towards your father “ I cannot father, I can finally fly on my own.” you said gleaming “ I’m a big girl now.” You say gleaming. Your father caught your shoulders and kneeled down you “ ah yes a big girl. But even if you are a big girl you will still be my small flower.” He says kissing your nose. You wrap your arms around his neck hiding your face in his neck. “ I love you father” you say sighing happily ‘ I love you to my little flower’

Sinking in the sofa while they all betray each other

What's the point of anything?

You and Neteyam were inseparable since the day you later laid eyes on eachother. It was like you both knew you would be promised to each other before Eywa. The older you got the more your friendship changed into romantic feelings. Both so Stubborn with the feeling carrying in your heart ,Lo’ak was actually the one who got you together. He was tired of seeing you guys swoon over each other but he loved you together.

All of my friends are missing again

That's what happens when you fall in love

“ I cannot hide what I feel for you anymore. You make my days brighter than the stars in the sky.” Neteyam says taking your hand and putting it on his beating heart. “ my heart only beats for you, my love” the love in his eyes sent you flying “ oh Neteyam” your eyes water not knowing what to say. “ Oh my Fucking god just kiss already.”You hear Lo’ak in the background say. Making Neteyam roll his eyes and you laugh a bit. He placed his hand on your cheek connecting his sweet lips to yours and that’s when you became official.

You don't have the time, you leave them all behind

You tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love

Those two men were the only ones who understood you.

Don't know where you are right now

Did you see me on TV?

That's why you never thought this would happen. The bullet went straight through your father, through his heart, protecting you. You could stop the tears flowing down your face. “ Father! Please! Father. I-“ you cried out loud but they could not be heard due to the guns that shot your father going off. You dragged his body to the sullys it never occurred to you the reason why they were sitting in a circle until you got there. “Ma’Neteyam. No please Eywa no.” Laying your father down to Neteyam Jake and Neytiri's eyes became wide, two deaths in one day. “ please.” You cry out holding your fathers cold clammy hand crying into your lost lovers chest.

I'll try not to starve myself

Just because you're mad at me

they were the only ones who understood you and now there gone.

And I'll be in denial for at least a little while

What about the plans we made?

tell me what you think

@uwunuggetchan

[hand-writxen]

Bruises

TW// Mentions of abuse and bullying.

The beeping of your phone jolts you out of your sleep, you struggle for a moment as the phone vanishes into your sheets. After a few moments of getting tangled in the sheets, you are able to snag your phone and pick it up.

“Hello?” you ask, your voice raspy with sleep. Theres soft sniffles and a hiccup on the other line that causes you to pull the phone away and check the contact name which read ‘Bunny’. “Leo? Are you there?” The hiccups freeze a moment before shuffling sounds and the line gets clearer.

“Oh gosh- Y/N, im so sorry I thought I hung up. Please dont worry about it.” His voice was raspy and cracked with tears, the sound of wind and rain splattlatering in the background could clearly be heard. Your head rises as you glace out the window taking in the sight of rain and thunder.

“Leopold Stotch, Are you outside right now?” You quickly get up and start to pull on a hoodie and some sweats overtop your sleep wear and pick your way across your room to your boots, silence on the other end of the phone being the response to your question. Knowing the blonde wont answer you quickly struggle your boots on and race out of your room and out the door, your brain running a mile a minute as you slip through puddles and ice. “Leo you gotta tell me please?” The sniffling finally settles a bit as he takes a breath.

“M..My Lair.” His voice is soft but still full of pain and tears. You utter a soft farewell and push yourself to run faster as you put your phone in your pocket. Turning the corner past Kyle’s house the U-Store it facility looms ahead as you quickly prepare yourself to scale the fence like you had as a kid, Quickly throwing yourself at the fence you scrabble for a hold on the wet metal as you struggle abit to hull yourself over. Once you get over the top you let yourself jump and roll before quickly jogging off into the maze of buildings. 

The pace of your jog lead you quickly to the storage locker you knew as ‘Professor Chaos’ base’. You knock softly before pulling open the side door of the storage locker. 

“You know Leo, I still find it funny you’ve had this storage locker for 9 years and they havnt once questioned the fact you all but moved in here.” You say as you scan the cozy set up of the locker, Leo had hung string lights and set it up like a studio apartment minus the bathroom. The tall blonde laughed a little, looking over at you, the smile wiped off your face quickly upon seeing the bruise shining on his cheek. Without another moment you quickly rush over and take his face into your hands and softly rub your thumb across the black and blue skin causing him to flinch and whimper. 

“Y/N, that hurts..” his voice is a croaky whine as you withdraw your hands away from his face with a muffled apology, taking the spot next to him on the bed. 

“Leo, hon.. You need to tell someone, you cant just keep hiding the fact that Steven hurts you. I can only hold back so long.” your voice is hard but soothing as you take in his face, scanning for other injuries on his soft pale skin, the scar over his left eye standing out against the dark color of the bruises causes anger to flare up in the pit of your stomach. “Im willing to add another assult to my record to protect you, you know this.” This sentence caused a small giggle and grin to brake out on his lips as you lean back against his arm. 

“I dont know why, what even am I to you? A friend? A sibling? You’ve been following me around since elementary school yet you’ve never once stated what we are, You just get into fights on my account.” He says, his face pulled into a frown. You look up at him before shifting into his line of sight and settling on your knees. 

“You really want me to put into words and actions what you mean to me?” Your eyes are serious but your voice soft. At the nod of his head you lean in quickly and kiss him, The poor soft hearted boy went rigid never having been kissed before. You pull back from him as a small smile graces your lips. “I-I know you might not feel the same but i just had to-.” your words are stolen from you as Leo takes the initiative to kiss you this time, his hands grabbing your hips to drag you into his lap. Your hands quickly find place against his neck, gently cradling his head before you two separate, softly panting with grins. 

“I love you Y/N, Ever since we where kids. I just didnt think you’d want a scrawny screw up as a partner.” His words where as shy as the look on his face, melting your heart in an instant. 

“Leopold, I fell for you the moment you smiled at me on the playground. Thats why I’ve been by your side this whole time.” you could hardly get the words out before Leo was squeezing the air out of your lungs in a tight hug. The two of you laughed and lays next to one another on the bed, looking at the glow in the dark stars you both put on the ceiling. 

“I think I could stand up to my dad if you where there with me.” His whispers as if to not brake the spell over the moment. You grin and slide your hand into his as you laugh softly. 

“I’ve always got your back Leo, and I’ll back you up no matter what.” Your voice was just as soft as your laugh as the two of you share another gentle kiss.

[steampoweredskeleton]

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[cervideity]

YOUR IDEA ABOUT LINK HAVING DREAMS AS VIO IS SO COOL!!! IT'S SUCH A GOOD AND INTERESTING IDEA!!! I have to ask, how do you think Link feels when he wakes up from dreams where he's only one of his separate selves? How do dreams for Green, Red, and Blue tend to play out? Do they have dreams related to their trauma/personal baggage as well?

AWA THANK YOU GENUINELY UR FLATTERING ME.. i was struck by lightngihg. (inspiration, all at once.) Thank you for asking ! this inspired me to flesh out the idea more so here you go :]

Well my logic abt this is based in my own experiences, so id say Off the bat, disoriented. takes a bit to remember hes Link and not one of his parts. could take 5 to 25 minutes. yknow the kind of half asleepness where you dont know youre a person and everything that happened to dream you was Real. that. [perhaps he will seek relief in his companions, only to find them not there.]

if hes Jolted awake by maybe zelda or of his own volition (i can see the two sleeping in the same room for a while directly after the events of the manga. dont wanna lose track of one another n wanna take care of each other). the same but hed snap out of it faster. shed comfort him best she can and then theyd both get up and hang out for Realsies smile. based on what info we have on link im unsure if hed feel comfortable thinking about it too long. i think hed try to distract himself with training or talking with zelda or somethin before confronting that

anyways YEAH i think they would all have their own seprate nightmares, so links brain can process Everything that happened to all his parts. thats what dreams do, they help you file away memory, and links memory is going to be. pretty... fucked. it has to deal with 4 times the amount of information in a single span of time.

[i have a lot of ideas on link recovering (if he needs to) from re-fusion. but tthats for later. i dont really have a single interp its just a playground for me]

funny gif so u dont lose ur place reading. LOL.

some of these are more developed than the others. dw about it

green. i have a concept in my head of him and the others fighting ganon but they fall one by one until just green is left, i think i need to elaborate on that in my head... because of many events, i think green would get nightmares about the friends around him being controlled or secretly monsters.. or hurting a monster that was actually a friend. ahg.g.. grips my hands together so hard they turn white

i think red would have a great time in a nightmare specifically sporting that Fucking coffin, where he is all alone, knows internally (yknow when dreams do that? you dont see it happen you just Know) that all his friends are fucking dead. and he doesnt have his gear. and hes maybee in the temple of darkness and the spooky monsters know hes there and though they arent here yet its just a matter of time. and he needs to sit there and wait to die. because red cant fight back! hes the weakest link! (untrue these are his own thoughts) theres no one to save him, or even die with. he failed. (imagine him with that hopeless depressed expression he makes you know the one)

blue .... i honestly think The Cave on its own is a pretty good nightmare scenario for blue. an enemy you cant touch. a state where you cant move. (blue is a very physical person)........ maybe dreams where hes strapped down to a table or cant move or otherwise in a claustrophoic space. doesnt gotta be freezing just anything to represent paralysis. cuz that happened to him several times. maybe he can watch someone hurt his companions while hes stuck. (thinking of the several green+vio dying scares)

vio.let. this nightmare is the most specific because i saw it in my head before i came up with possible ideas. this dream is meant to process shadows death among other things, so i think itd be reoccuring. It starts with him wandering an empty hyrule castle. he doesnt cast a shadow. hes completely and utterly alone. He wanders room to room. Theres the idea that theres Something wrong in the back of his head. the dream could end here, or it could desend into nightmare territory, he stumbles into a long confusing maze of mirrors. he cant look anywhere but at his reflection, but theres nothing to look at, theyre motionless silohettes. he cant focus he cant make the maze make sense he cant figure out how to escape and he keeps panicking more and more in an internal loop but he doesnt know whats wrong whatd he do ? the final scene is something i didnt draw unfortunately, he finds the room with the dark mirror. his throat goes dry for a reason he doesnt know. he subconciously moves closer. its only the frame. he can step right through it. a portal to nowhere. usually the full weight of the situation clicks Right here and link jolts awake with tears in his eyes.

link also has nightmares where he Isnt these guys and is himself and those ones tend to be what they all experienced. theres a lot of My Loved Ones Are In Danger and i Cant Do Shit. Someone getting injured on his watch, being powerless in one way or another. Powerlessness is a running theme here, haha. I also think sometimes link would get fucked up dreams about being the one physically hurting innocent people. just to fuck with his idea of being a hero. :]

[tblsomedoodles]

. . . a brain geared towards body horror really would have a field day with the family web au (it's me). Bc like. If Raph already had red eyes I imagine the further mutation at maturation would be along the lines of like. Seeing through cloaking magic & Illusions maybe? Maybe he had a migrane for a while while that manifested. And the twins holy mackrel the possibilities. Perhaps one of their arms getting stuck on the bridge of one's shell in the growth process? That could hurt. And with Mikey's eyes I would wager another migrane, one that aches to the bone as his skull reconfigures (part of me wants to write a horror sequence where he wakes up after, not quite sure whats going on, eyes crusted over-with what he assumes is typical sleep crust. but growing 4 new eyelids cant be a bloodless process and head wounds of any sort bleed. Bad. And then someone sees him stumbling blindly to the bathroom, blood smeared all across his face, and screams bloody murder.) Adding if they assume that's all the changes that will occur, Mikey having a simple cough, an aching throat that turns into a mess of built up web and the retching and heaving ribs because he doesn't realize there's something caught, doesn't know what to do or how to loose it

. . . . . . I adore all the fluff but I'm built for horror

Oh definitely, especially early on in the fic like this. (This is pretty much were i'm starting it since it's kind of shifted from a 'sad alternate backstory' fic to a 'solving mysteries about sad alternate backstory' fic.)

I Really like Raph's eyes not just changing color but having a little extra ability with it. Especially if they end up seeing things like Donnie's goggles do, but he doesn't notice immediately. Like it's Raph. I love the kid but he'd probably go around for a week just assuming that there was a sudden influx of yokai not wearing cloaking broaches lol.

(putting in a break b/c it's kinda long and body horror stuff) (just more developing spider traits stuff)

Honestly, the whole thing starts out pretty slow. Like Raph has some itchy eyes that no amount of sleep or eye drops will make stop. Mikey starts out with just some headaches. Donnie's side ache but not enough to be a problem (just enough that Leo tells him he should take a break from his battle shell until it's better.) Leo's the last one to start developing anything for various reasons.

But yeah, they don't really notice anythings wrong until they wake up one morning to find that Donnie's sides hurt so bad that he can't move away from his desk. And those arms coming in, hurt. Especially at the start. As far as Leo and Donnie are concerned, they still have the tiny bit of development those extra arms accomplished from before mutation. (basically just quarter sized bumps on their sides hidden under the bits of shell on their sides. they are well aware they're there and can feel if their there by touching them but it's not viable.) So when they begin developing again, the will-be arms have to force their way through that bit of shell first, kind of like how a tooth grows in through gums. And that's the most painful part of that process. That's what makes Donnie basically unable to move and Raph so concerned that he all but drags Leo out of bed to look at him. (b/c Medic Leo is my jam lol)

Raph, i think would mostly deal with some aches and burning sensations on (or behind) his eyes as his fully develop. Maybe a migraine with heightened light sensitivity so Leo tells him to stay in his room with the lights off.

And you're so right about Mikey! i feel so bad for him now! B/c those headaches would just get worse, and turn to bad migraines that feel like his skull is splitting apart. Eyes can't develop without a spot to develop, so spots would open up for them and, as you said, head wounds bleed a lot so yeah. Poor Raph would just see Mikey and just panic. And i imagine Leo's just starting his own arm development, but regardless of whatever pain he's in, he bolts out of bed b/c Raph screaming at 4am cannot be good. (and with the way things have been going with their mutations, someone probably developed a third eye or something. Scratch that, a third, fourth, fifth, and sixth eye.) But that's not it for Mikey, b/c he's developing webs too and oh that poor kid.

but yeah, early on when it's all developing, is most certainly very rough for the boys. It's painful, and scary, and they're just so confused. (and Leo's just trying to medic everyone while no experience in this or have any good idea of what's going.)

Thank you! This was really cool! Especially since it's dealing with the fic content i'm actively working on. : ) Very helpful, thanks again!

[slashingdisneypasta]

💛RE anon, here. I mean, I was gonna just say that names fine, but then I read your whole reply and started vibrating into another dimension and muffling my screams because OK OMG OK jealous Blackie, right?! I had this thought the other day. So, this is, again, entirely your fault because even though Freddy turns up in my dreams with…slightly alarming frequency and I’ve written myself so many self-indulgent things in other fandoms over the years, the Robert parts of my brain have been sadly neglected for some time.

Anyway anyway anyway: you know that part where the creepy sheriff is hitting on Fay just before Blackie pays the bribe and does that cute little “I’d like to strangle him” claw thing? The sheriff is being too familiar with the reader/oc or what have you while Blackie is at the register and clear as day I’ve got the image of him coming over and clapping the sheriff on the shoulder a liiiiiiiiittlle too hard. Laughter just a bit forced. Teeth gritted. Nearly growling. “Now, sheriff…reckon you oughta be a little more RESPECTFUL to my wife.” He does the claw while the sheriff gives an oily apology, she feels a sudden pressure on her hand at the same time, looks down to see a ring. The matching one is on the hand Blackie was resting on the counter. Cue the eyebrow raise but she’ll call him on that, later, if he’s through dancing around it.

But, no, he’s not admitting anything. Not Mr nonchalant “oh, I was having so much fun watching you all run I wished you were here. Iced tea?” It goes about like the “you think I’m gorgeous” scene in Miss Congeniality. You know, one with the candy bar of rejection? Rings disappear. He was just being nice because she was uncomfortable. She’s very annoyed. And kinda hurt.

Post attempted firing squad, when he was clearly keeping her behind him, she gets up the nerve again and with the close call it goes like the second “you think I’m gorgeous scene.” With the smooch.

So, after that possibly unhinged digression…which should probably be a warning that when I have time to turn up I’ve been writing too many headcanons…you may also call me the madly inspired anon, if you like. (PS, feel free to answer this on whichever blog you’d prefer. I’ll definitely be checking both.) And for now, I’ll say goodnight 🙋🏼‍♀️

💛 Madly Inspired Anon!! Thats a beautiful name actually, I'll use that one so long as you like it too! ^^

Y E S Jealous Blackie XDD For my own ideas, I've been on and off considering a fic where reader is another cook or waitress, or maybe a dishwasher or a cleaner, or something at the cafe, and she l i k e s Blackie. Right? And he knows it- she doesn't make any attempt to hide it. She's trying to get him, and he's acting like he's not interested (because, immortal trauma)... b u t, whenever a visitor gets too comfortable with Y/N (And maybe she's liking it- enjoying the attention she's not getting from Blackie) he always swoops in and ruins it for her. And she gets s o f r u s t r a t e d by him she ends up confronting him about it like 'you are acting like my boyfriend but without any of the benefits. if you want me, tell me. if you dont- leave me alone!'. I just cant figure out where that quote comes from though 😅 I know the first part did not come from my head but I cant remember what I scooped it from and I must give credit!!

ANYWAY though- your idea is way better XD And- y e s I know that claw thing XD Here:

I do that myself all the time XD 😂😭 He is my spirit animal.

I'M VIBRATING AT THE IDEA OF BLACKIE GOING FREDDY-EYED (BASICALLY GLOWERING BUT WITH THE POWER OF THE CHARCOAL MAN) AT THE SHERIFF FOR BEING GREASY WITH Y/N AND THEN B R U S H I N G I T O F F, oh my goodness. And, uh, STEPPING IN FRONT OF Y/N DURING THE FIRING SQUAD SCENE!?? OH MY GOODNESS. And Y/N teasing him about it??? Oh my goodness XDD If he doesn't kiss her to make her shut up I'm gonna sue XD

You've given me so much material for before-sleep fictional man fantasies XD

[charismat1c-megafauna]

Godddd I know I got into my relationship with The Terror re: illness, but covid brain damage means spotty memory so. Part 2.

I think I also really connected with this show in part because I know how it feels to be completely blindsided by a natural disaster you think isn't gonna be so bad. It's a little cold out. Then the power goes out while you and your friends are making bracelets. It isn't coming back on. You can't find any information. You laugh it off and go your seperate ways. Now youre walking up five flights of stairs to use your friend's shower because they have water but no power and you have occasional power but no water. You get an email from your professor at trade school an hour away saying youre still coming to class right? Now you're finding out people are dying. You leave the door to the laundry room unlocked in case someone needs shelter. You're washing with melted snow. You settle into a routine of doing nothing but sleeping eating. Walking to the store and finding nothing. Your car is frozen in so you bash the ice on the concrete with a hammer to get it out and then you give up. Start getting really dark thoughts. Huddle for warmth. Boof rotation in your roommate's room. Play guitar to keep the spirit up. Your skin is erupting in a deep rash that's getting worse and you're really, really, really tired. Is it stress? The freeze itself? Am I sick? (Turns out it was my first ever lupus flare up and the beginning of five months of pain and exhaustion before the flare up ended). Tie dye shirts because morale but cant rinse them. Sleep fitfully for hours on the floor of a friend's house when she comes to the rescue and its the best sleep you've ever had because you're fed and warm ecen though your joints hurt. The water coming back feels like Christmas morning as a child.

Start feeling a twinge of panic every time the temperature gets low. Start feeling afraid of snow. Wonder, every time it snows, if the power will go out. How long will it be out. Will it come back on in bursts or stay off? Will they cut off the water? Where will we go? Will we have enough food if it comes too fast to go to the store?

And yet, weirdly, unnaturally, I miss it, and I'm proud of my five ish mile walk in the ice and snow to get essentials last winter, and the fact that I assembled the perfect winter outfit that kept me dry and warm but not too warm. Anyway I can walk on ice in fucking crocs without slipping now.

Anyway uh yeah all this to say I'm from Texas and rhe government tried to let us die and in many cases, um, let people die.

Anyway The Terror is helping me parse these thoughts a bit easier after not thinking about them for so long.

[haikyu-after-dark]

Korai Hoshiumi x Tall, Chubby Fem! Reader (she/her)

Warnings: swearing, emotional and mental abuse, pet names used, YN’s manager is the bad guy if you haven’t already guessed, Korai being a horny man again 🙄, possessive Korai, exaggerated descriptions of being a model

WC: 6.6k

AN: this is a long boi 😅 I didn’t want to break it up so you get this instead! Also I probably should have put this sooner but this is a FICTIONAL situation with FICTIONAL characters, so please keep that in mind ❤️ it’s very exaggerated and over the top

10am, Wednesday Morning

*RING RING* *RING RING*

“What the fuck?” Korai grumbled, arm moving from over his eyes as he slowly opened them. He had slept hard, really hard in fact that he didn’t even remember falling asleep. He heard a groan from besides him as he turned to see locks of beautiful hair sprawled across a white pillow. He blinked a few times as the annoying ringing continued to sound.

You rubbed your eyes as you slowly came out of sleep, exhaustion hitting you hard as you tried to wake up. The incessant ringing continuing as you slowly took in your surroundings. That’s right, you were in a hotel room. That means that you weren’t dreaming, which means that you’re apartment really did flood. Your brain continued to register everything as you realized that if you, in fact, weren’t dreaming then that meant that-

CRASH

You suddenly fell to the ground, landing hard as you winced a little, your thigh and hip already being sore from hitting the table the day before. You quickly adjusted as the ringing continued.

“Fuck! YN are you ok?” Korai, said sitting up quick and tossing the covers off as you nodded. You looked at the screen, bracing yourself for the call you knew was coming. You sighed, took a deep breath and swiped to answer.

“Hello?” you croaked out, rubbing your eyes with the sleeve of Korai’s hoodie. You turned around, kneeling and facing the bed as you rested your arms on it.

“YN darling, I got your messages and called your superintendent this morning! He said you were at a hotel with some professional volleyball player? What is that about?” Michael shouted as you pulled the phone away from your ear. You were sure Korai heard him because his eyes narrowed on your phone before turning back to meet yours.

“Well good morning Michael, I’m doing great how are you?” You said sarcastically as Korai held his lips together, trying not to laugh as you smiled at him.

“YN none of this is funny!” He growled out, “what is this about you being shacked up with some professional volleyball player?”

“Korai is my neighbor Michael and I’ll have you know, if it wasn’t for him I’d probably have drowned. We aren’t shacking up, we are homeless together!” you yelled in return as Korai watched your reactions closely. He really was starting to not like this guy at all.

“Still YN, you don’t need a scandal right now and this situation is just screaming for the tabloids,” Michael said as you rolled your eyes and shook your head.

“We are in a hotel room because we are homeless Michael, not because we are having an affair! I’d really wish you’d put some trust in me and stop treating me like I’m stupid-” your voice raising as you went to stand up. You wanted, no needed to get out. The way Michael talked to you was embarrassing, like you didn’t know how to run your own life. He was constantly belittling you and telling you how awful your choices were. It hurt to stand as you winced, feeling pain in your hip as you quickly sat on the bed.

“YN!” Korai shouted quickly standing up and making his way around the bed to you. He knelt before you as he noticed your hand gripping your thigh, “show me where it hurts, ok?” You nodded, completely ignoring your phone call with Michael as Korai gently positioned his hand on top of yours.

“What was that YN? Did you get hurt? You have a swimwear shoot next week YN, you cant have imperfections,” Michael shouted as Korai gritted his teeth. How could this clown talk about imperfections? You had absolutely no imperfections whatsoever, the way you laughed to your perfect body, everything was so amazing and so quintessentially you.

Korai gritted his teeth, standing up and kissing your forehead before walking away to the bathroom. Wait- did he mean to do that? Your eyes shot wide as you realized what had just happened. Your hand was still rested firmly on your thigh as you heard the water running in the bathroom. A voice began to register as you snapped out of your trance, “Michael I’m fine! Please stop yelling, I’m getting a headache.”

Korai came out from the bathroom, heading your way as he motioned you to stand. “Alright drop ‘em,” he said motioning for you to pull the sweatpants down as your eyes widened and your mouth fell slack.

“Korai no-” you said shaking your head as Korai stood looking unimpressed.

“YN just pull the hoodie down, it’s long enough to cover everything,” he said as he again motioned for you to drop the sweatpants.

“I don’t have any underwear on,” you whisper shouted as he tried to remain straight faced. He hadn’t thought about the fact that you wouldn’t be wearing anything underneath his sweats. It made sense, you clothes had been ruined from the pipe water but somehow it never occurred to him that you’d been completely naked under his clothes, not anyone else’s but his!

He shook his head, this was not the time to be thinking about this. He had to make sure you were ok.

“YN I’m coming over now,” Michael shouted as the phone went silent and you sighed. What was your life right now?

“Now YN! Korai growled as you continued to look at him dumbfounded, “listen either you do it or I’ll help you. We need to make sure you didn’t hurt anything further up!”

You sighed, admitting defeat as you sat down, slowly pulling down the pants. You made sure his sweatshirt was covering your private area as the bruise slowly started coming into view. You winched and whined a little, the bruise much larger than you had first suspected. Korai sucked in a breathe, gently placing a cold cloth on it to soothe the pain.

“It looks like just your hip but it’s a pretty awesome one!” he chuckled as he delicately whipping the cloth over your injury. You nodded in agreement as he pulled away and you pulled his pants back up. It’s true, the bruise was pretty gnarly and you were certain Michael would absolutely throw a fit once he saw the injury. You stood, figuring there was no way you could possibly avoid the inevitable.

“I’m going to shower before Michael gets here,” you say standing up and making your way to the bathroom, “oh and I apologize in advance for everything that will happen once he arrives.” Korai laughed as you stared, deadpan.

“I wish I was joking Korai-”

“YN I’ve dealt with managers before, I think I’ll be ok,” he responded, rolling his eyes at your confession. Surely this guy couldn’t be that bad right? I mean, he did sound like a pompous asshole but most managers were.

“Well you haven’t dealt with Michael, and trust me when I say he’s the definition of drama,” you say, sliding the door closed heading to the shower.

The shampoo, conditioner and body wash provided by the top tier hotel was high end and it felt amazing to just stand under a rain shower, cleansing your body of all your stress. The past 8 hours had been a nightmare but you we’re finally granted reprieve under the hot steaming water. You had just finished with your shower when you heard the knock on the door. You scurried, grabbing a towel and wrapping it around yourself as you heard his booming voice flood the small entry way.

“Where the hell is she? Yn!” Michael shouted as he went to grab for the sliding door of the bathroom. Korai grabbed his hand, pulling it away as Michael scoffed.

“Not on my fucking watch dude! Chill out, she’s just finishing with her shower, ” Korai barked as you quickly combed through your hair with your fingers. You had to get out there before Michael lost his mind. You exited, completely forgetting you only had a towel on for cover.

Both Michael and Korai looked at you, their looks both saying completely different things. “YN my god you look awful!” Michael yelled in his dramatic voice as you stood there, water dripping down your skin, barely covered by the hotels lack of large towels. He came close to you, fussing over every part of your exposed body like he did on a daily basis.

Korai couldn’t help but stare. You didn’t look awful, not in any sense of the word. In fact, you looked immaculate. His eyes raked over your semi-nude form covered by the barely concealing towel. He had always thought hotel towels were small and annoying but now? Now they were the only towels he ever wanted to own. You looked stunning, wet hair cascading down your shoulders, your face looking fresh and flushed from the hot shower. His thoughts were snapped back when the agitating voice of your manager rang out. If only he hadn’t been present to ruin the moment.

“I swung by the store and picked these up Yn, I know how much you love these cheap things,” Michael said, ignoring you and handing you a bag with a crop top, leisure shorts and a sweatshirt. You noticed the lack of underwear and bra but figured you could go without until you could get to a store. Your face lit up at seeing the new clothes in your favorite color and style. It wasn’t often that Michael thought about your tastes but you were thankful he did today.

“Thank you so much! I have to go to the store today and grab more clothes!” you exclaimed as Michael quickly put up his hand, stopping you from speaking any further.

Your excitement died as he spoke, “I have some designers who are jumping at the chance to cloth you YN, so there is no need for big chain, cheap clothing.” You deflated, the prospect of having to wear designer clothing the whole time making you sad. Korai immediately took notice, his face studying yours.

“Michael I don’t want to walk around I heels and dresses all the time,” you protested as Michael paid you no mind, taking out his phone and typing frantically. You knew he wouldn’t listen, he never did.

“YN babe, this is going to be huge for us! Literally these companies are dying to have their clothes on you. Imagine the publicity when they see you out! I can see the headlines now ‘YN shows off a brave face amidst tragedy’ it will be spectacular!” Michael gushed as you signed and admitted defeat, knowing you weren’t about to get your way.

“Ok but I still need personal items Michael, so can I at least get that stuff myself please?” You said, practically begging at this point. Korai watched your eyes literally pleading for this idiot to allow you to do basic everyday things. He hated that you couldn’t live your life without being micromanaged. The fact that you couldn’t wear what you loved and were essentially forced to walk around as a literal billboard. He desperately wanted to say something, to defend you but he didn’t want to overstep his boundaries. He was in no position to push more onto you.

“YN darling- you know what Margo said,” Michael answered, looking up at your face with a disapproving glare. The look of sadness on your beautiful face was nearly enough for Korai to punch your managers lights out. He knew violence wasn’t the answer but he couldn’t stomach seeing you so dejected.

“I’ll take you to the store YN, I’ve got to get some shit anyways,” Korai said, looking at you. You perked up, smiling at him your eyes softening. This was the look Korai loved. Wait, loved? Michael huffed and rolled his eyes in Korai’s direction as Korai snapped from his thoughts, narrowing his eyes and crossed his arms across his board chest.

“Michael- don’t be rude!” You said before being overrun by your less than friendly manager.

“Could you be less brass? You are in front of a lady!” He said returning to his phone and typing vigorously. Was this guy being serious right now? Korai didn’t notice the fear fill your eyes. He was too busy trying not plan this guys funeral.

Korai stood up tall, his face unimpressed as he approached, “dude I’ve had enough of your shit! You come in our hotel room and boss YN around like you own her? She’s not a thing she’s a person!”

His words rang in your head as you listened to Korai stand up to Michael. You had never heard anyone say anything like that to him and you surely didn’t have the guts to yourself.

“You pro athletes are all the same, always trying to corrupt innocent women like YN with your mind games! I know what your play is here buddy. Tell me, how many girlfriends do you have?” Michael sneered, poking Korai in the chest as Korai stood tall and smirked back.

“Yer one to talk about corruption asshole!”Korai snarled as Michael bit back.

“You, sir, are extremely rude! Give me the name of your manager because I’d like to have a word with them immediately!” he said as Korai threw his head back and laughed.

You quickly jumped into action as you went to block Michael from Korai. You faced him as you tried desperately to hold your towel up as well as stop the madness from ensuing. Your hand came to rest on Korai’s chest as his eyes filled with fiery at your manager who was glaring behind you. Neither of them seemed to notice you were even there.

“Listen bro, you can call my captain all you want to but he'll just ask me why I haven’t kicked your ass already!” Korai growled, looking around you and snarling at Michael.

“Korai- please,” you tried to interrupt before Michael spoke.

“Well, I’m sure your captain has more manners than you do! I wonder if he approves of you being here with an innocent woman like Yn!”he said, practically spitting at Korai.

“Please Michael stop-”

“Manners? Dude, you came in here stomping around like you can just control everything in YN’s life! I’m not just going to stand here and let you talk to her like that and I’m especially not going to let you talk bad about her or me and the situation we were forced into!”Korai barked as you quickly grabbed one of his arms and gently squeezed, his fiery eyes shooting to your soft ones as you silently begged him to stop. Korai backed away as you turned to face Michael.

“Michael please, we’ve all had a rough few hours and I’m tired! I just want to be comfortable and normal for once in my life. I lost everything so please- just this once, I’m begging you! Please?” you spoke, your eyes saddened as he sighed in annoyance.

“I expect you to report to my office on Tuesday morning YN and wearing something presentable,” he ground out, turning to leave as he pulled the door open, it slamming shut behind him as you released a sigh of relief.

“Fucking jackass!” Korai whispered as you turned to grab the bag and head back to the bathroom. This whole day had already been one disaster after another. Once changed, you exited and combed through your hair with your fingers again, trying to get whatever tangles put that you could. Korai studied you met his gaze.

“Why do you let him do that YN?” he prompted as you continued to pull through your hair. You gulped, looking away as you tried your best to formulate some sort of respectable answer. The truth is, you really didn’t know why you let him run all over you.

“That’s just Michael, he does care Korai. He’s just stressed,” you said, knowing you were making excuses for the man who had essentially made your career as a model. It was a simple and easy answer.

Korai stood up from the chair, coming over to you and stopping in front of you. He knelt in front of you as he lifted your chin with his finger and studied your face as you tried to look anywhere but his eyes.

“For the record YN, I won’t stand anyone talking to you like that ever. And also, I like you better in shorts,” he said winking at you as he walked past, entering the bathroom and shutting the door. Your face heated with embarrassment, your eyes wide as you tried to process what he had said.

After his shower, you grabbed your tote bag as you and Korai made your way down to the lobby. “Im being spoiled riding the elevator so much with you, I might have to knock on your door every morning just to ride downstairs when we are back in our apartments,” Korai chuckled with a smile as you blushed at his words. You definitely enjoyed all the time you were spending with the athlete.

The lobby was bustling with people as you and Korai made your way to the valet. “Ahh Miss YN!” someone shouted at you as you turned to see a Kei standing with coffees in both hands. You smiled as you made your way over to her, grabbing your wallet and taking money out.

“Thank you so much for being so accommodating with the location change Kei! You’re literally my life saver!”you gushed as Korai watched your interaction from the side. The young lady smiled and waved as she took off out the front door and back to her bike. You turned, walking towards him, hand outstretched with a coffee. He grabbed the warm cup, looking over at you as you continued to stroll towards the front entrance.

“Uhh what was that?” Korai asked, running to catch up with you.

You turned in his direction taking a sip of your drink as you spoke, “Oh, that’s Kei, she delivers my food for me. She brings me coffee most mornings as well as meals! Sorry if the coffee order isn’t right, I kind of took a while guess and went with medium roast with a splash of cream.”

Korai watched you, taking a sip of his coffee. It was perfect, just the way he liked it, “the coffee is great but wait, you don’t cook or make your own coffee at home?”

You smiled a little, but the smile wasn’t genuine in any way, “Unfortunately, I’m not allowed too” you responded, using air quotes around the word “allowed”.

The lobby men opened the door for you, as you walked down the steps to the valet parking zone. Korai studied you as you sipped your coffee happily.

“Wait not allowed? What does that mean?” He asked as he handed his ticket to the valet.

“My trainer has me in a strict diet right now because I have a big magazine shoot coming up, so I’m restricted on what I can and can’t eat unfortunately,” you say, “but on the weekends I cook and make my own coffee and stuff. However I still have to count calories but it’s less restricting.”

The unfortunate truth of the modeling world, or at least the world you knew, was that models were extremely micromanaged, from their hair right down to the color of their nail polish. Even as a plus sized model, the standards were extremely high. Someone was always one step ahead of you, everything was always a competition. Make more money, land more ad campaigns.

He looked at you, not knowing how to respond as you smiled brightly at him desire your grim confession. There was no way any of this was healthy for you. As a pro-athlete, he had learned how to eat properly years ago and the way you were being restricted in food and calorie intake wasn’t at all good for you.

You were taller than him and curvy. He adored your curves, your legs, your hips, your thighs literally everything about you. He didn’t know for sure but he assumed you needed probably twice what you were “allowed” to eat in a day.

“So what are you favorite foods then?” He asked, wanting to change the subject before he called up your manager just to beat his stupid ass. You’re eyes lit up at the question making Korai forget all about his plight.

“Well I love carbs so like pasta and bread, and I just adore sweets. Unfortunately, I usually only get to enjoy the occasional treat on the weekends. But Kei has started asking the barista’s at the coffee shop I love to add an extra shot of sugar and charge it as an extra shot of expresso!”you laughed.

Korai found himself completely perplexed by your behavior, finding it difficult to understand how you could be so happy about simple things you should be allowed to enjoy. You met his eyes as he studied you, a bit embarrassed about how excited you’d become.

“You’re probably think I’m weird for all of this,” you said laughing a little as Korai snapped from his thoughts and shook his head vigorously.

“No no, I was just thinking how cute you are when you get excited,” he chuckled causing you to blush and turn away from him. The valet arrived with his car as another man quickly rushed to open the door for you. Korai made his way around the car, stopping as he grabbed the handle to enter. He eyed you, smiling and thanking the man as he checked out your ass. He glared at the man as he looked up, his eyes catching Korai’s and widening as he quickly shut your door and moved away.

You sat in his car, practically beaming with excitement as Korai sat down, buckling his seat belt.

“I never get to go to stores like this!”you said as Korai jolted, his head turning to look at you questioningly. You shrugged, “What? I get a lot of my clothes for free and the products I use are specially ordered for me. It would be a waste for me to buy extra stuff and since everything was destroyed, I have to look on the bright side right? It’s honestly exciting to be able to pick out my own stuff!” you beamed as Korai couldn’t help smiling in return. He adjusted his car into gear and took off, ready to take you anywhere you wanted to go.

Arriving at the store, you took a cart and headed towards the women’s clothing, bound and determined to get you favorite clothing.

“Hey Yn give me your phone number and I’ll add you,” korai said as you quickly exchanged numbers and went on your merry way. Korai had gone a different direction to grab what he needed. He didn’t want to hover over you but he hated the idea of not being close. He wanted you to experience as much as you could, enjoy being normal while you could.

You smiled as you filled your cart full of your favorite shorts, crop tops, leggings and hoodies. It wasn’t like you had never seem a store before but being able to shop without the scrutiny of watchful eyes was invigorating. There were so many colors and styles, even some things you had never seen before. You bought bras and panties that you liked instead of ones that were bought for you, hoodies that were two sizes too big because you sometimes enjoyed baggy clothes. You found comfy pajamas and slippers as well as basic tennis shoes for everyday. The freedom to choose was a rarity and oh so invigorating.

After an hour in the clothing alone, you finally headed over to the beauty department to grab all of you hygiene supplies. You walked up and down the aisles amazed at the sheer amount. You had always just used what your stylist or Michael had bought for you, so choosing your own toothpaste, shampoo and even hair clips was enjoyable. You stocked up on scrunches, hairclips and everything you normally used at home. Studying the skin care, you read carefully to try and find the best for your current skin conditions. You had a routine and followed the routine rigorously but there wasn’t any reason you couldn’t try something new. You bought some basic makeup, for everyday as well as lotion and body spray. This store wasn’t high end but it had all the amenities for comfort. You didn’t want to waste an opportunity like this.

Korai walked around the store looking for you. He had given you a little over an hour alone as he picked up his own accessories and called his captain to explain the situation with his apartment.

“For real man? Damn that’s like simultaneously the best and worst luck ever!” Fukuro Hirugami, captain for the Schweiden Adlers, laughed.

��You wouldn’t be laughing if you had a boner like I’ve had for the past 10 hours!” Korai growled as Hirugami laughed.

“You’re right because there’s no way I wouldn’t have fucked her the minute the door to that hotel room closed bro. You’ve got some incredible resilience man!”

“Yeah well I’m not you or those other idiots but hey, I gotta go and find her. I’ll see you at practice,” Korai said before hanging up and going on the hunt for you. His thoughts drifted back to your talk earlier. He couldn’t imagine not being able to go and do as he pleased. It bothered him how much you’re life was controlled, how horribly your manager treated you and how you had to lie even to get something as simple as sugar in your coffee.

Scooping out the aisle, he finally spotted you. He watched you for a moment, mesmerized at how beautiful you looked. You were staring at shampoos with the biggest smile on your face. How he adored your sweet, innocent smile and how he longed to see it every single day. He watched as you knelt on the floor, picking up the two bottles and comparing them to another one. He walked closer, making sure to acknowledge his presence so as to not scare you.

“Find anything interesting?” He said as you looked up at him, beautiful eyes shining as you went to stand up.

“I’m just trying to figure out what the hell the difference is? Like I mean it’s been a good long while since I’ve been in a big store like this but my god have things changed that much? They literally have products for every single hair type!” You said as Korai chuckled to himself.

“I mean, I honestly don’t know know much about chick stuff so I can’t speak on that,”he said as you looked at the items in his hand.

“I can see that, Mr. 2 in 1 shampoo and conditioner!” you said rolling your eyes as he set the items in your cart and he turned to you, a fake expression of shock gracing his face that made you giggle.

“I’ll have you know it’s twice as effective YN! Do you really think big time volleyball stars like muah have time for 3 separate steps in the bathroom?” he mocked as you laughed.

“Korai, 2 in 1 doesn’t mean twice as effective. That shampoo/conditioner combo was specifically made because men are so lazy!” you pointed out as you stuck a separate shampoo and conditioner in your cart.

“It saves time YN and I’ll have you know my hair is extremely soft!” he said as he ran his hands through his white hair.

Rolling your eyes, you smiled, “you’re just naturally good looking Korai that has nothing to do with your generic 2 in 1!”

Korai smirked at your comment as you tried to ignored him, trying desperately to distract yourself with the decision between pomegranate and strawberry or tropical breeze body wash.

“So you think I’m good looking?”Korai asked, strolling up besides you as you continued to focus on the colorful bottles, picking up one of the bottles and smelling it.

“Do you think this smells good?” You questioned, shoving the bottle in his face. He smirked, narrowing his eyes at you as your face began to heat.

“You’re right this is definitely the one!” you spoke quickly, walking around Korai and heading towards the cart, trying desperately to avoid all eye contact.

Korai followed behind you, watching your face turn pink with embarrassment. It felt good to know you found him attractive. “You know YN,” he said, gently laying his hand on your lower back as you froze,” I think you are absolutely stunn-”. A sudden gasp brought Korai back to earth as he turned, hand still on your lower back as he viewed the scene unfolding.

“Holy crap that’s YN LN! And Korai Hoshiumi from the Schweiden Adlers?” voices drifted from behind you as you jumped slightly. You turned your head to see two photographers standing at the end of the aisle. You could see Korai gritting his teeth as he turned to you, letting go of your back.

“Come on, let’s go YN,” Korai ground out, grabbing your hand and the cart, leading you away from the two photographers as they followed behind you. You dared not look back, afraid they would catch a picture of your face. The words of Michael saying “you don’t need a scandal right now” flooding your mind. You felt ashamed, guilty for dragging Korai into this. You had been nothing but a bother from the beginning.

“Korai, you can go on ahead. I can deal with this,” you spoke softly as Korai stopped, turning to you and shaking his head.

“What? No way!! I’m not leaving you here! It’s you and me Yn,” he said before more shouting interrupted the moment.

“YN are you and Korai dating??? Korai I thought you were dating that pro-volleyball player from Europe. Any comments?” the voices chimes. The comment made you cringe, your stomach dropping as you thought about Korai having a girlfriend and this encounter possibly ruining whatever he had going in his life. You can’t say it didn’t make you jealous, the thought of Korai having someone but then why wouldn’t he tell you? Wouldn’t sharing a hotel room with someone be enough to warrant at least a little trust? The fact is you werent part of Korai’s life and he wasn’t part of yours. You had no idea if he had a girlfriend or a partner. You were essentially strangers that had been forced to be together because of extenuating circumstances.

“You idiots know that’s just a rumor and it’s been a rumor for 3 years now! My god would you move on?!?”Korai gritted out, still looking forward pushing the cart and pulling you along as he tried his hardest to keep his composure. He was pissed off beyond all belief and all he wanted to do right now was either punch something or kiss you harder than you’ve ever been kissed in your entire life. Neither option was really viable but hey, a man could dream right?

“Please just leave us alone!” you pleaded as you walked with Korai, pulling your hood up as you made your way to the checkout counter. You lucked out, finding a lane that didn’t have anyone.

Korai quickly unloaded your items, hoping that the people would eventually grow tired of bothering you. Did they really have nothing better to do than intrude on people’s personal lives? He was use to dealing with people shoving cameras in his face. As much as he hated it, he hated them harassing you ten times more. It hadn’t even been 12 hours since your apartments flooded and it seemed like bad luck was following the both of you everywhere. He was growing more and more irritated as the minutes ticked by. He could feel himself losing composure as he tried to remain as calm knowing a fight or shouting match wouldn’t help your current situation.

“I’m sorry ma’am but we are in a bit of a hurry,” he said as he threw everything up on the counter to the nice lady who seemed to understand, wordlessly ringing things up as you desperately tried to hide yourself behind a false cover, tears threatening to spill from your eyes.

“YN, YN are you sleeping with the Adlers opposite hitter? Are you a couple?” a voice rang out from the back as your face heated in embarrassment. This was getting out of hand. Somehow the two people had multiple into a crowd of ten as you tried desperately to hold yourself together. Korai quickly moved the cart ahead, pulling you behind him as you felt the tears finally fall.

“What the fuck is wrong with you? Can’t two people shop together without you all thinking something more is happening?! For fucks sakes, you should be ashamed of yourselves!” He growled at the people snapping pictures. Suddenly you felt the atmosphere shift, as you turned to your right.

“Korai?” You heard some voices say from beside you to see three giant men looking just a register over.

“Holy shit am I glad to see you three!” Korai shouted as Bokuto, Hinata and Atsumu walked towards you. They eyed you with curiosity as you continued to try and hide yourself from view.

“Holy shit that’s Atsuma Miya, Kotaro Bokuto and Shoyo Hinata from the MSBY Black Jackals!” someone shouted as cameras began to flash in all directions, attention finally being removed from you.

You peeked around you hood to see the three large men standing there, looking a mixture of confused, shocked and a bit unsure. You were fully aware that these men were pro volleyball players, having heard your fair share of rumors about them from your fellow models.

Before you could say anything , Shoyo Hinata came in front of Korai, blocking the camera’s as he spoke, “what do you need from us?”

“Can you guys help block YN please? We are just trying to get out of here!” Korai quickly shouted as the three men jumped into action, making a barricade around you as Korai finished checking out your items.

“YN this is Atsumu Miya, Kotaro Bokuto and Shoyo Hinata from the MSBY Black Jackals,” Korai introduced quickly, grabbing his wallet and swiping his credit card.

“It’s nice to meet you three,” you smiled, peeking from behind your hood and smiling, “although I do wish the circumstances were better.”

The men all smiled at you as Korai quickly finished loading the cart and thanking the cashier for her patience. He grabbed your hand, interlacing his fingers with yours as Hinata, Bokuto and Atsumu followed closely behind, still blocking the view of the cameras. Their height provided a literal wall as you walked towards Korai’s vehicle, his hand in yours squeezing yours in reassurance.

You kept up with Korai as he approached his car, hitting the button and pulling you towards the passenger door. He opened the door, quickly helping you in, “These windows are super tinted YN but keep your head down just incase ok? I’ll be right back!” You nodded, curling your legs into your chest as you tried to calm down, the sudden sound of the car door slamming almost deafening.

He made his way to the back of the car, opening his trunk as pictures continued to snap. He rolled his eyes, already beyond annoyed at the presence of those idiots. “She’s gone now so run along! I know pictures of us won’t sell as good as pictures of her so get lost,” he growled at the cameras as they slowly turned to leave, knowing he was correct.

“Jesus fucking Christ!” he muttered at he shoved the remaining bags in his trunk as Hinata, Bokuto and Atsumu stood around him.

“Hey thanks guys I owe you big time,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck as Atsumu lifted his brow as if he was ready to speak. Korai looked at Atsumu as he crossed his arms on his chest, “Sumu if you’ve got something to say just say it, I’m fucking tired dude.”

“I’m just wondering how you managed to bag YN LN? Like you do realize who she is right? She’s literally one of the top hottest models in Japan, actually probably the world!” He gushed as Korai glared at Atsumu. Of course Atsumu would know all about you, he had a thing for tall models. Korai’s thoughts began to wander, thinking about if you’d ever been with Sumu before. You didn’t seem to know him all that well though and your first interaction seemed genuine.

“We are neighbors and our apartments flooded so we are staying in the same hotel room until they get fixed,” he said, already feeling exhausted. All he wanted to do was get back to the hotel and collapse with you right next to him.

“You mean at the same hotel?” Hinata corrected as Korai shook his head.

“It’s a long story but essentially they only had one room left in this hotel so we are sharing,” he explained.

“But it’s a two bed room right?” Bokuto interjected as Korai again shook his head.

“So you are fucking her! I’m fucking jealous bro! I’ve been trying to get close to her for months but she doesn’t stay long enough at events for me to get close,” Atsumu said, practically shouting as Korai punched his arm. He was glad that you hadn’t shown any interest in Atsumu but the fact that Atsumu even wanted you at all made him extremely jealous.

“Ouch- what the hell man!” He yelled as Korai rolled his eyes.

“What is going on between YN and me is our business and I’d appreciate if you didn’t start rumors Sumu! We aren’t sleeping together, we are literally two homeless neighbors who just happen to be stuck together, that’s all!” Korai exclaimed.

“That’s all huh?” Bokuto smirked as Korai turned his glaring eyes towards him.

“So then she’s single then? Maybe I should ask for her number while I’m here?” Atsumu said looking around Korai to his passanger side where enough currently resided. Korai came in front of Atsumu, blocking his view and only way towards you. No way was he going to let Atsumu Miya get his grubby hands on his girl.

“She’s off limits Miya so don’t even think about it! If you do, I’ll break every finger in your hand!” he threatened, heading to his driver’s side door, “now get lost and thanks again!”

The car door slammed as Korai check his rear view mirror to see the three men had left. He left out a small sigh of relief knowing the entire ordeal was finally behind him. He looked over to see you sitting in the seat, knees curled up to your chest as your head rested on top of them. Your head was turned, facing him as you smiled softly. He reached his hand over, gently caressing your tear stained cheeks. “I’m sorry that happened Yn.” You melted into his touch, his large hands providing comfort.

“I’m sorry if this ruins your relationship Korai. I- I had no idea,” you stammer, a tear falling down your cheek again. They seemed endless at this point and you seemed powerless to stop them. Korai shook his head back and forth, as you raised your head up to meet his eyes.

“YN I’m not dating anyone. That rumor has been going on for years. I’m friends with the player in Europe but nothing more. We’ve never been a couple and never will be,” he explained with a smile. You nodded, placing your legs down and grabbed your seat belt, securing it.

“I’m sorry if your friends were inconvenienced. I’m always such a bother,” you laughed without humor. Korai hated that you thought that way about yourself. You were the furthest thing from a bother. He could see that all you wanted was the live a normal life.

“Hey,” he said as he lifted your chin with his finger to meet his beautiful eyes, “Angel, you didn’t do anything wrong. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be normal.” He said as you melted into his touch.

“Now let’s get back to the hotel room, I need a nap.”

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I'm so sorry to the anon who requested this, I accidentally deleted the ask for it, but I think I remembered the gist of the request

Failed Escape Attempt with Yandere Dave

Dave opened the door to his apartment quietly, hoping to surprise you. You hadn't gotten used to the house enough to be comfortable with him yet, so he usually kept you tied up in his bedroom, where he knew you would be safe. He triple checked the locks every time he needed to pry himself off of you, though that hadn't stopped you from escaping before.

The apartment was silent, which slightly worried Dave, but he hoped to himself that you were just quietly and peacefully and safely sleeping in his bedroom. When he opened the door though, he saw that that was not the case. He sighed as he could feel the anxiety begin to gnaw at him. He tried to rack his brain of all the places he had found you in the past, and he left the house to search for you.

After he had checked every nook and cranny in a 3 mile radius, he began to panic more, you had never gotten out of this area, where were you? He regretted never getting you tracking equipment, as he broke into a dead sprint, letting his instincts and luck guide him as he ran. He found himself on the path to your old house, but heard a scuffle in an alley on the right, and skidded to a stop near the entrance.

When he saw you in tears, cornered by a stranger in an unfamiliar alley, he lost it completely. You heard a metallic scraping sound, and your head snapped to the sound. The man towering above you hadn't even finished turning his head to face the red eyed man speeding towards him before his head was swiped clean off by Dave's sword.

The blood from the man pooled at your feet as he slumped over sideways. You stared at the corpse with wide eyes for a second before you heard Dave talking to you. You looked up to him, listening to only the first part of what he said.

"oh my GOD you have no idea how worried I was for you, what did he DO to you? i cant believe i let you escape i need to be so much more careful you cant take care of yourself i dont know why i thought you would be able to i just..." He continued on, but you had already started tuning him out, watching your tears fall into the spreading blood below you as you tried to remember why you had even bothered escaping.

What had it gotten you, other than more pain that would have been easily avoidable? You heard him shout and you flinched, your gaze jerking up to meet his. "I GET IT! you hate me, i know ive already fucked this up, but i cant keep letting you get hurt like this, it tears me apart each time, it feels like someone is stabbing me in the heart everytime youre harmed, i cant fucking trust you to be alone when you pull stuff like this! god do you even hear how i sound? i wouldnt let anyone hear me like this, but youre different, cant you see what you do to me? youre hurting me just as much as you claim im hurting you, but you dont see me running away, i dont hate you like how you seem to hate me. ive done everything i can for you, i need you to understand this"

He glanced at you over his sunglasses and you can see tears forming in his eyes before he pushed the back on his face. You choked back a sob as he grabbed your arm, dragging you along with him. You didn't even have the energy to try to escape again.

His grip was loose enough that you could have broken away with ease, but after all that had happened over the past couple of hours, all you wanted to do was lay down and cry and be comforted, and you knew that Dave would be one of the only people who would do it for you, and at the very least, the only one who would survive it.