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moe-broey · 5 months

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Jesus fucking Christ .

#you know when i heard henriette was appearing in lumera's fbs i was really intrigued.#esp w all the character development she's been getting/playing a much more active role #and like. esp A convo she had good lines/insights about why fallen lumera is like that #but jesus christ. f!lumera actually triggers my fight or flight response SO FUCKING BAD. INCREDIBLY fucking tense the Whole Time #crazy fucking fb. lumera is actively freaking me out and when henriette tries talking her down #saying 'i'm a mother too i understand what it's like to want to protect your children'. i don't believe a damn word she's saying.#not even in a character analysis way though i always had trouble placing if henriette is trustworthy #i just. have some sort of skill issue.#anyways uhhh. happy upcoming mothers day. every year it rolls around i'm always either really stressed or really guilty.#i am a normal man. with no problems.

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rafesbbyy · 4 months

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Thinking about the fact that in s1ep6 when Barry burns Rafe's arm, poor baby probably had to bandage himself up all by himself. It just makes me so sad for no reason because Rafe's always alone and he literally has zero support system. And, his hands were shaking when he attempted to steal from his dad's office and when Ward catches him, he doesn't even look concerned or notice the burnt arm of his son??? Something about that just makes me so mad and sad like wtf. Rafe needs a big hug, man. I soo wanna be his stress reliever, his balm that calms him and more. I am literally not normal about this man. Like imagine someone burning ur arm on a fucking motorbike and having no one to turn to but yourself :(

#rafe cameron #rafe obx #drew starkey #rafe cameron x reader #obx #and yall dont come for or @ me for babying this man #i am not normal about my fav white man ok???#rafe just needs a big ass hug and pussy and so much more #god i will die for him #i cant be normal #not when he looks and acts like that and has a shit life/parents #anti ward cameron #anti barry #Rafe also could've also just went to the hospital or whatever but i doubt he'd do that since thats so ooc as hed have to explain #where he got the injury from and more #plus he literally likes handling his problems on his own so I cant see him going to someone else for help #especially when hes vulnerable and injured

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blue-lollipops-and-ice-clouds · 2 months

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I...okay, listen, DE, you can't just make the most beautiful man and expect me not to be head over heels and heels over head and in need of 1999 this very instance.

And then say, oh, yeah, give him a great voice and I definitely didn't just go back and forth in a relay for reasons.

And then, oh, and then say, oh, you can romance any one of them. Oh, DE...

Cyte-09 will be my new main for Gemini purposes.

Sorry, Harrow.

#warframe #warframe spoilers #tennocon 2024 #warframe 1999 #tennocon spoilers #i saw one post about this beautiful DE creation and that needs to change immediately #noah has a voice thing who would have guessed? everyone. everyone would have guessed.#should i post this or not?#i ask before realizing that i can just push a button and make it everyone else's problem how gorgus this man made of pixels is #gotta wait until winter 2024 #listen he showed up on screen and the hair physics did its thing and i was 10 trillion percent sold then he opened his mouth and turned aro #and #anddn #tonight i am normal #tomorrow i am

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bruhstation · 11 months

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you deserved better from me than an oversized uniform and a world full of troubles

#this is tugs #tugs zorran #tugs zip #fortezza bigg city #senjart #quick doodle before bed (1 am)#when you're only 18 and got force-fed a world full of crime and shady hard-to-trust folks #and the middle aged man that you adore and treat as a paragon of salvation is distant and cannot love you ''normally''#while the person that berates you is the one that genuinely loves you but your brain automatically registers any ''insult'' as ''bad''#and you don't know that he cares for you #family'd so hard they started to develop genuine traditional family problems #we're not beating the complicated doomed familyhood allegations with this one 😂😂😂#the faint ''have to'' in the background is like.#''do I care for you because my boss handed you to me as part of my duty''#vs #''do I care for you because I don't want you to end up like me even though I am NOT warm or nice''#also them without their hats. the one thing all z-stacks have in common that indicates them being from the same group #theres lots of details and themes and whatnot in this doodle but my brain is a mush..... erm..... have fun staring #(fixes my glasses and grins like an ape)

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25volarsleet · 19 hours

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Uuuh... made this fire comic, I think a new talent unlocked XP

(Help me, i've been obsessing over these two lmaoo, they literally belong together)

Haha

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unopenablebox · 30 days

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unfortunately my experience is that it's very easy and straightforward to say things like "i'm feeling stressed out right now and having a harder time than usual not sounding irritable, sorry about that". and also that it's pretty easy to connect your current emotional state to the various specific life events and physical discomforts that caused it, even if these causes are not the exact thing that happens to be going on in front of you right this second that an unrelated person is doing. and what's more you can use that knowledge to make deliberate choices to only act on that emotion as it relates to its actual cause or at least doesn't harm random people nearby to no particular end

all this makes me more or less incapable of sympathizing with anyone who has yelled at me ever

#box opener #it's also pretty easy not to scream at a roomful of normally well-behaved slightly talkative children for talking a small amount.#you know. while we're here.#i realize that i should instead sympathize with these people and their putatively non-voluntarily-controlled versions of these problems #and that i am the one who is a huge weirdo mentally speaking #but also consider: come on man #you seriously have no choice but to severely upset me to absolutely no purpose? like are you sure?#you can just keep choosing not to yell at other people forever. or at least it works very well for me and i plan to keep at it

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feline-evil · 1 year

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Hiding my shirt that says 'i am not normal about narratives that imply an inanimate inhabited structure is a living breathing organism' as i walk into a board room and pitch my idea that we should make more horror revolving around living architecture

#jay talkin #I JUST. I JUST. i'm thinking about old haunted house movies that have this grimy sticky feeling to the house #where the evil is not just afflicted to wood and bricksbut eminates from it as a hatred #the house itself hates you. the voice screaming get out is born on the vocal chords of the hallway #i am also thinking about The Hotel the podcast you should all already be streaming CHOP CHOP CMON NOW #which is of course a more unique and i would say more abstract sister to this concept #(said deeply positively the concepts and horror explored make my brain ping pong rapidly)#which is another reason you should be listening because it does its own thing that i think you should listen to and discover yrself :)#(and also it is far more than this this is just a tiny SLITHER of what is explored go listen NEOW)#and i am also thinking about. drum roll please. you know whats coming. yes it could be nothing else #kitty horrorshows anatomy which is TO THIS DAY one of the best and most influential games upon me i have played #a game that pushes this concept to its core grotesque emotional fleshy pulp and runs with it #anatomy is a game that breeds in anxiety and discomfort and bleeds a sincere love in the horror it portrays #that love is something i yearn to see in horror media! it is also present in the hotel AHEM AHEM #but yes anatomy is an experience like no other that you really should experience for yourself #(glances down at my shirt) um. um ok so ill leave the board meeting now thank you for listening #dear god my pain medcin kicked in and i instantly became the worlds least normal man didnt i. WELL!!! thats all of youse problem now

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laracrofted · 4 months

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personally, i think adria and glen have the best chemistry of any on-screen romance pairing of his. and as a proclaimed lover of set it up, i will die on this hill.

#but also if you don’t agree with me — i don’t care lol #him and zoey have great comedic chemistry #but set it up is more of a slow burn and has very little actual romance in it #and while i believe most of the problems with ABY are related to the script and the director -#glen is too old for her in that movie #and i can’t help but feel like hit man is so sexy and mature because him and adria are around the same age #and feel equally matched in charm and charisma #anyway — we’ll see how he and daisy are in twisters because i am kind of half and half on her in things that aren’t normal people #hit man

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tiredangellydia · 7 months

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Huey is giving apathetic asshole who's got bored of life and everyone has to suffer for it, it's not intentional and that's probally what makes it worse??? He does not care and everyone is suffering the consequences because of it even after he's long gone.

#like yeah he cares in a certain way because he put the world to order or whatever #but at the same time everything is going to shit and people are traumatized because of him #he's so powerful and smart but does not care about the other clan member enough to give them directions about anything #hes all vague and for what??? urghhh i want to put him on a jar and shake it #everytime he appears on screen you just get pissed of what is his damn problem #nu carnival #nu carnival huey #i am very normal about this man and the influence he has on the world even after hes long gone🙃

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adhderall · 16 days

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well as you can see besides being ugly as all fuck I'm also extremely bitter so that doesn't help at all in making me appealing. but it also comes with the territory you see, being treated as a hideous freak of nature for your whole life kind of does things to your psyche.

also going into shit in the tags as an extreeeemely jaded individual who's been on every side of the discourse and KNOWS it all VERY PERSONALLY so I know many people will find all sorts of different reasons to hate me (if they want ig) because I'm ~politically homeless~ at this point because I'm sick and tired of everything but whatever

(also fuck I ran out of space in the tags so another post maybe idk. )

#so. i get why people are against children transitioning i really do. and i have my own nuanced complicated feelings about it #but honestly. im beginning to believe id be more well-adjusted by now even if just a bit if i had started larping as male by 15.#would it fix all of my problems? no. but it would make a lot of things in my life much smoother and easier.#but i was sooo deep into raddie/gc shit that i had this fucking. complex about not wanting to troon because its ~cheating~#and 'omg all the butches are leaving!!1 butch flight i cant be one of them!!!1'#'i MUST be a good example for all the young girls!!!1' a weird sort of almost martyr-like complex if you will.#but as i get older im like... honestly man fuuuuccckkkkk this.#barely anybody expects straight or even bi women to abstain from dating men forever For the Good of Womankind #its not seen as Expected but rather Exceptional and Wow Amazing if you do.#and anyone who Expects it is seen as a ~crazy extremist~#meanwhile lesbians and especially HSTS are almost fucking Expected to sacrifice themselves for the ~greater good~#and ngl other lesbiams perpetuate this shit too.#oh you CANT transition even if you feel it'll make your life easier because because because #[arguments that would really only apply to OSA females transitioning]#[strawman] [misinterpreted stats] [unverified reddit posts]#and if all else fails 'think of how the very act of doing so will HURT ALL OF WOMANKIND'#no fucking wonder dysphoric lesbians develop an fucking insane martyr complex and start to treat hrt/transitioning like its fucking crack #'ill give into the temptation if i see a happy trans person ohh nooo so nobody should be allowed to troon'#like thats not fucking normal! you realize thats NOT FUCKING NORMAL right?#youre acting like a deranged christian who is so afraid of sinning by wrongthink #and disclaimer no. i dont inherently hate being female or a lesbian but with the way i am physically and mentally #i would have/have had a Much easier time integrating into society as a ~man~. just because of how i am physically and mentally.#now i wont say internalized homophobia/etc. NEVER has anything to do with transition or etc. but im gonna be real #for HSTS (which are extremely rare in the first place) thats often only a very small part of it at most.#its often more about making our lives easier and integrating better without having to completely remold our entire personalities.#thats the reality.#would we not transition if society have patriarchy/gender roles/sexism? perhaps. i wont deny that possibility.#the fact of the matter is however #that it wont be happening any time soon. so we just want our lives to be easier.#'oh but youre lying to yourself' not necessarily. i dont have a ~gender identity~ and im well aware of myself and my situation.

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morrigan-sims · 3 months

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My 2am brain got the idea to attempt to make a mesh edit and create Rook's rapier, which is FAR beyond my current skill level for meshing (which is zero), but I'm getting desperate here. We shall see if my awake at normal hours brain tomorrow is determined enough to attempt to follow through on it. I know it's not gonna work the way I want it to, but if nothing else maybe I can learn something from the failure???

#if I knew anyone who was talented enough at mesh work for this kind of thing I would literally be willing to pay them to do this for me.#but I don't so...#it's not just mesh work it's fine detail mesh work plus probably creating new textures.#the problem is that I got an art commission that got Rook's rapier PERFECT to a T and now I won't accept anything less than that for his si #why am I like this?? why can't I be fucking normal about this man???#morrigan.txt #delete later #and of course right as I'm typing this his song comes on my spotify.#gods that's... auspicious timing.#well I'll see how motivated I am tomorrow morning I guess.

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our-transmasculine-experience · 9 months

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i wish i was closer to my half-brother. or that he wasn’t 16 years older than me. i haven’t told him i’m trans yet, but desperately want a sibling who knows & supports & talks to me regularly

a sibling with that age gap might be difficult to really be friends with, you know? i’m sure there’s (likely trans) guys out there that could take you under their wing. i’ve done that with kids a year or two younger before and they all feel like family to me.

#to clarify i am a minor so this isn’t weird #people need to be more normal about age gaps in friendships anyway #we could learn from older queers and i’m sure older queers could learn from us #but that’s another posts problem to talk about #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #transmasc #queer #trans #ftm #trans guy #trans boy #trans man

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mellotronmkll · 1 month

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I need to stop having one weird reaction with someone and then letting the anxiety decide in my head that the friendship is doomed because I ruined it like it's my absolute worst trait and I just have to move past it but it's hard

#i have to operate under the assumption that if people have an issue they will tell me but unfortunately this isnt true .#and it has happened to me in the past that i thought everything was ok because people were giving signals i wasnt picking up on #due to the autism so now im paranoid and constantly looking for signs i did something wrong and people are mad #and then i find them where they arent there which perversely does more to ruin a friendship than almost anything else #like the constant Are you mad at me... so i try to force myself not to do that and just #try to again assume that people arent however. im so worried about being blindsided Also of course i naturally dont want to make people #upset so if i am doing something wrong i want to change my behavior. however the fact its nuanced like #where you have to only do that a little bit and then take people at their word most of the time #fucking sucks like you actually are required in relationships to read peoples unspoken signals but you cant do that Too much #and if you misinterpet them its bad... but you cant ask for feedback too much because thats bad too. IT DOES MY HEAD IN actually like #it makes it so hard for me to interact with people because im just worried All of the time . and i have to be constantly like #ok check the facts and adjust behavior. check the facts and adjust behavior. make sure the facts are facts and not jumping to conclusions.#ok how do i do that . ok when do i ask directly. also people dont always tell the truth when you Do ask directly .#and then this is why my whole life i have mostly kept to myself and im trying to stop doing that but its hard because talking to others is a #puzzle for me that stresses me out more than anything else. man this sucksssssss can i just BE NORMAL!!!!!!#i know like Everyone has this problem its a common issue with relationships Communication but it feels especislly difficult for me .i #like cant fathom how other people manage very large numbers of friendships like even being able to count my close friends #on one hand i feel like im barely managing everything and im letting everyone down constantly but again i think thatsnonly my perception/#worry and not even true. god

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buttercup-barf · 4 months

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Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it #while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble-#-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍#backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft-#-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team.#cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the-#-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends!#backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever-#-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture-#-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under.#cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he-#-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got-#-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory.#backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people-#-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being-#-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao #cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn-#-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent-#-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret.#i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady-#-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way #it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about-#-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly #OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)

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vesuvian-meme · 11 months

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I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the vampire elf. I am so normal about the v

#astarion #fuck not again #bg3 #literally how was i supposed to find out about this man and not fall in love??#to me he gives off opposite asra vibes #thats....probably part of it....#also if they existed together theyd either despise each other on sight or be gosip buddies. tell me im wrong.#astarion brainrot #astarion bg3 #the audacity of larian studios targeting me directly by making him smh #yall have no idea how hard im fighting the temptation to start posting on ao3 again just to write about him #i have a problem. and it has white hair and fangs #i did not!! need!! a new!! hyperfixation!!!!#gdi i have to write abt him now or my mind will never know peace #......i am not normal about the vampire elf...#*comes onto my semi abandoned blog to scream about astarion and then leaves*

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frankensteinmutual · 4 months

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one of my housemates is so fucking sensitive it turns me into a person I do not like

#like i always thought /i/ was 'overly' sensitive but my god. you cannot say ANYTHING around her #every little thing is too much for her everything is a trigger everything makes her tell you it wasn't okay for you to say around her or not #warning her about first like my sister in christ how the fuck should i have known this was a problem for you #maybe print out a trigger list and send it to all of us or something #but breathing is probably on there so #truly i hate how i sound i don't want to be like this but she's just playing the victim so severely it makes me aggressive it's like. primal #and I don't care when she flees from the room all the time when we're just having normal conversations because honestly I'm glad when she's #gone but she projects her issues onto everyone and everything around her like she cannot comprehend that maybe she has a fucking problem and #should maybe learn to deal with the fucking world #people aren't horrible for simply existing around you being themselves like. ny god it just makes me so furious #like i am AWARE that i have deficits; things that are easy for other people or come natural to them that i have issues with and that's fine #I'm learning to live in my way #and i can still love myself and not blame myself for having these problems without turning everyone around me and the whole fucking world #into the problem instead #i don't know if I'm even conveying what i mean #it's just this fucking victim complex that's driving me up the walls #she sees herself as so innocent and actually she's treating people like shit #man do i wish i could smoke about this

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