#i am allowed to do this??? whag?????

[dsm--v]

guysv did you knowg. you donf need to look like a boy to use he him…..🤯🤯

[zarovich]

it's so stupid

[starburns]

my mother has gone hungry for nights and given me her food when i wanted more, she never told me to take only a little, never told me to keep some for someone else, never served me less than i wanted and i just had my grandfather told me to not take too much of a bhaji to save it for my father. i do not know if this is as raging to u as it is to me. i am the daughter here. i am the CHILD here. hello. wtf is wrong with u.

[s0apmactav1sh]

Part 2 of Widowed!King!Price x Devoted!Knight Reader.

Knight!You who suddenly finds yourself wandering the castle during the night after your conversation with Price unable to stop the words that were constantly repeating within your mind. Why had the king seemed so interested on why you hadnt any body? Did he not appreciate your willingness to deprive yourself of the love and touch of another so you wouldnt worry more about them than him?

Of course you were constantly distracted now, letting guards you sparred with take you down so easily all over being stuck inside your own head. And this wasnt sitting right with King!Price who was wondering why his prized knight now suddenly couldnt beat the other royal guards like you used to.

King!Price who ends up calling you to a meeting in his chambers. Forget the throne room or his royal office. His chambers were where he'd like to speak to you. And like the loyal soldier you were, you were there on the dot entering in after he gave you permission. Other guards and servants around the castle certainly found this strange but it was by the request of your king.

King!Price who doesnt even allow you to speak your reasons. He's just so disappointed that youve lowered your standards. Thats not what a knights meant to do and he makes sure you know that in the most humilating way possible. By having you on your knees looking up at him while he smiles down at you, your head tilted up by the grasp he has on your hair. And its not to be mean, no Price could never. Your his prized knight after all.

"Wheres that devotion gone? Have you suddenly lost it. Is that why your letting those pathetic guards beat you down?"

At that he can see the shame that washes over your face. He wasnt meant to see or hear about your faults. You were meant to be perfect in his eyes no matter the cost. Didnt he understand that the only reason you were acting the way you were was because of him. Your loyalty and devotion for your king ran as deep as the oceans and nothing could change that. So how could you make it up to him? How could you get rid of that disappointed look in his eyes that was practically like the devils glare to you. By offering yourself to him.

"No. My king. Please my devotion and loyalty still lays in your palms. Take what you need of me. Leave me as nothing more than filth if you please, just dont be disappointed in me."

And as those words came tumbling from your lips King!Price knew he had you. He would always have you. Even if any others came along and tried having you for themselves he knew your eyes would always stray back to him because he was your god. You worshipped the ground he walked on, took in his words like water and kept the sight of him embeeded in your brain just for a reminder that he was your king.

Plus who was to blame him when he accepted your offer of yourself? He had already been without a warm body in his bed for a few months because of his late husbands death. What did it matter that he filled that empty spot beside him with your body instead. What did it matter that he filled himself with your cock at the end of every day to make up for the months without any relief.

And like the devoted knight you were, you complied with his ever ask. If he needed you youd remove yourself from your duties, replacing yourself with a capable knight to continue them to rush to him and give him exactly what he wanted. Which more than likely was your cock in his hole while he worked, relaxed or even when he was "napping". You would always come running and he knew it.

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Am have this Ig? Does it tie in with the last part not at all. I literally need to sleep 😭 its been nearly 3 days without and im barely able to register whag I wrote. Ill make a part 3 in a few days thats just smut for this.

@rodolfoparras

[alexa-fika]

Reptiles 101 ( Crocodile x f!reader)

A/N I don’t watch game of thrones so I had no idea who this is I still am quite insecure as to if I capture her character right but I hope you enjoy it! @djloveyou3000

Reader here is replaced by Dokucha which stands for Reader in Japanese

Dividers by @/drinkthesky and @/fireflygraphics

Dokucha gazed at the small creature in her hands, marveling at its unique features. The creature, in turn, seemed to appreciate her touch, emitting a contented hiss as she stroked its spine.

A small smile played on Dokucha’s lips as the Banawani siblings, in their playful nature, tugged at her dress, vying for her attention, wishing for the same treatment their siblings were enjoying.

“Don’t fight,” she softly spoke as the small creatures began snapping at each other, trying to get leverage over the other.

“How about you make a line?” She gently asked, nudging the fighting reptiles away from each other, letting out a small laugh as they began to jump on top of each other in order to do as she requested

“There you are, Dear. I should have guessed you were going to be here,” Crocodile drawled, walking into his aquarium-like room.

“Guessing is not necessary; you already know me to be here.”

He let out a chuckle at her words, smoke leaving him as he did

“You spoil them too much, anymore and I will be doubting they can continue to do their job anymore,” he drawled, approaching her.

“These ones are still small; I would be worried if they served as part of your disposal team.”

“It’s never early enough to pull your weight; even the young ones need to eat.”

She shook her head at this, her attention being brought back to the small reptiles at the sound of their jaws snapping impatiently; she smiled as she lifted the first one up and gave them a small kiss, putting them down and taking hold of the next one who by now was wiggling with excitement.

“I do implore you to let the young ones grow some before you begin using them to get rid of those who wrong you; I fear they are unable to digest something so big just yet.”

“I will allow them to grow some more if that is what you wish, dear; however, do remember I am not a patient man,” he conceded after a slight pause.

“I know you aren’t, Dear, but it will do you well to wait in this case; nothing is stronger than a Bananawani’s jaw once they are grown.”

“I will trust your word then.”

“Of course, you will; I know more about their growth and attributes than you do,” She replied bluntly, not missing a bear.

He let out a small tsk at her reply, but a smirk could be seen growing on his face shortly after

Their attention was quickly diverted as screams and crashing sounds began to echo through the aquarium room as they glanced to the roof of the aquarium where the casino was located.

“Looks like their next meal will be soon,” Crocodile growled as he swiftly headed to the exit, only to be stopped by his wife’s call.

“Would you take care of this promptly? I rather miss spending time with you.”

“As the Queen of the Desert wishes,” He calls, making his way out of the aquarium.

Next up is Whitebeard pirates 👀; also whag we thinking of the new headers?

Taglist:

@Imaginarydreams

@amethystviolin

@h0n3y-l3m0n05

[resident-idiot-simp]

Teacher AU 3rd option -

Gaz: So today we I'm going to continue on the chapter 5 unit and-

Soap: bursts through door LOOK I DON'T HAVE TIME YOU HAVE TO HIDE ME

@steriotypicaloutlaw : I can see Gaz being like.. a history teacher or something and Ghost just straight up says shit from the corner of the classroom that is definitely not true

@myriadblvck: the fuck you mean mammoths are extinct??!? WHAG DO YOU THINK THAT WAS IN RUSSIA GARRICK???? HUH???

Price: *trying to teach a lesson*

Soap desperately knocking at the window

Price:......

Price who had to run to the bathroom and left Ghost to watch over everyone

Ghost: Did you know that depending on how you butchered a human if you cook them it would taste different?

StO: Price comes back and he's explaining how a vivisection works

'I won't show the scars because I think I would get sued '

StO: Says that it may be different for them if they have one done in a hospital though, because hospitals have anesthesia and pain meds

He says it as a passing mention like it's not a big deal. No one is quite sure if he's joking or not some say he is some say he isn't.

'also a lot lower chance of getting an infection.... I'm still not sure how I didn't get one.... Especially after being buried with a dead body..... ANYWAYS '

If Soap is left in charge he starts explaining how bombs work.

In between that he starts dropping the most insane lore you've ever heard.

'Oh yeah I am banned from Austria because I slept with prime minister that one time and then blew up half their army....'

Everyone thinks he's lying every single one of them. Until Price comes in and tells him these things are classified and he signed so many documents for him to not talk about this SHIT.

Every time Soap gets caught telling one of these stories (because there are hundreds of them) They get more and more Price lore.

'I HAD TO PAY LASWELL SO MUCH MONEY FOR THAT'

'DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY FAVORS I OWED TO THE LEADER OF CAMBODIA BECAUSE OF YOU'

'I NOW I'M NO LONGER ALLOWED NEAR AUSTRALIA BECAUSE OF THAT DEAL'

Gaz is downright normal compared to them. 'Yeah I regularly fell out of helicopters'. That's old news Gaz. Soap just explained how there is now a crater in New Zealand because someone lost a game of poker.

Gaz is honestly just relieved he doesn't have to deal with the BS anymore (he does he can never escape)

(I say that as if falling out of the helicopter was the most extreme thing he did when he literally got kidnapped by Price). That's probably a regular point he makes

[tadsweep]

hi there person that is totally not me . why exactlg should i vote for tad?

Hi there, not me. I will gladly answer this question that was totally asked by another person

There are an infinite amount of reasons why you should vote tad, but for today, I'm going to focus on three so like uh,,,

1. Tad is an incredible writer. Bro can spit out masterpieces in twenty minutes and has the GALL to undermine themself. Have you seen their writing??? That shit is like. Laced with crack cocaine. Every time I have the luxury of reading some of their writing a bit of my soul detaches from my body and ascends to heaven where I drink tea with God and play checkers with archangel Gabriel. That shit can't be legal . It has to have like. Drugs or something embedded in it no human mortal should be allowed to write thay well

2. Tad has sooooooo manh good ideas like WHAG !!! WHERE DO THEU COME FEOM!!!!!! Like I was developing my own au and then tad comes in with an idea they called "stupid" when in reality it was the most jaw dropping eye watering sob wrenching heart attack inducing thing I've ever read and I just. Everything they help me work on becomes like 30000000x better!!!!!!!!!! Ge has the mind of a genius and also the GALL to go "Oh but it really isn't that much" MOTHERFUCKER IT IS THAT MUCH!!!!!!@!@@@@@@!!!!!!!!

3. They're just . Great. In general . Tad is one of my Best Friends Ever and they're sooooooo nice and soooooo fun to talk to and also sososos9s cool and sososososos talented AND OUVH I am the number one tad stan!!!!!! I AM THE NUMBER ONE TAD STAN!!!!!!! It is Sufh An Honor to be friends with a mysterious phone creature like tad so . If you want to support this beautiful beautiful boy please vote tad . Thank you in advance

#TADSWEEP

[yelenasdiary]

Those anons have no right to say any of that to you. I'm also a victim of sa most being of mean from my family other being friends of family. I understand the fear amd everything the experiences have made my sexuality whag it is to an extent and I'm terrified of men. You are allowed to be a Virgin and still write smut. Many people do it and there is nothing wrong with that. You can also know things without having any sexual experience. There's books, there's videos, there multiple things you can learn stuff from. Just because someone is a Virgin doesn't mean their clueless.

As you are dating my friend i shall fight any and all anons that are ride or disgusting to you

(For 🌊. Keep her safe she's nice)

- 🌟

You’re so strong and I appreciate you for sending this! If you ever need somebody to talk too, I am here for you 💜

I’m sending you a giant hug xx

[whim-prone-pirate]

TOH FOR THE FUTURE LIVE POSTING!! EDITING AS I WATCH

KING AND LUZ GOODBYE RIGHT OUT OF THE GATE ???☹️

RAEDA THEME SONG WHAG THE FUCK !!!!!

THE OWL HOUSE JS BACK ON DISNEH CHANNEL😏

HUNTER THE LOVE !!

YAYAYAY YHEYRE IN THR BOILING ISLES AGAIN!!!!

huntlow .....

THROUGH THE FACE🤞

YHEY GET TO HAVE THEIR POWERS AGAIN EVERYONE STFU !!

weirdmaggedon ass planet😭😭

CALEB😦

no actually i don't think you deserve a new body

THE OWL HOUSE !!!! LITERALLY !!!!!!!

WELCOME TO THE OWL HOUSE OH MY HOF😭😭

camilla noceda i love you so so so much

i ran off to live in a cave in the most dramatic way possible☺️🫶

they have to chain up their homework😦

GUS ANGST !! NO !!!

willow....... my love..,,,......

god she's got to stop OH GOD THE PLANT TRAILS☹️☹️

LUZ IM SO SORRY AEUGH EUGAH AUGHEHGF [cry]

hehe ghost

it's going to hatch this episode it HAS to

oh my god what if it hatched when she lets herself live in the boiling isles

EIGHTIES PORTRAIT .... FORHEAD KISS..,.,, IM NOT STRONG RNOIGH

EDAKING THEYRE BACK !!!!

CAMILLA DONT CRY OH MY GKD😭

camilla the silly .. i need edits of her immediately

"CLOSED

forever :)"

oh my god the collectors making dolls out of them

HARPEDA NO☹️☹️

oh my god they just wanna be a hero oh my god oh my god THEY WANT TO BE LIKE LUZ OH MY GOD OH MY GDODD

collector! buddy! u gotta stop doing that😄

collector you make me wild tbh

fist bump🙁❤️

CAMILLA LOVES KING OH MY GOD☹️

"do you think everyone who gets turned into a puppet gets locked in the archives" ARCHIVES ?? MA?? MAGNUS ARCHIV???????

disney channel commercials i hate you HELP

back to the magic the owl house is back on disney xd🫶

"the golden guard— i mean, hunter" yay🙁🫶

THOSE EYE SHITS ARE SO COOL

matt holy mule i love you i'm so glad to see you again💔💔

gus don't make that face at your bf😭

new hexside is so COOL I WANNA GO

IS BUMP DEAD OH MY GOD⁉️⁉️

WILLOWVINEY AHHHEEGHEHFH !!!!

BLIGHT SIBLINGS OH MY GOD

EDRIC⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

there were ROCKS at the bottom😜

HIS LAST NAME IS THOLOMULR I CANT ICC CD ANT😭😭😭

oh boy !😄

the collectors kingdom looks like a tiara

i do in fact eat gravity yeah

MAMADALIA ?????

is her hair lighter or something she looks wild

WHOOF😦

THERE ARE MORE COLLECTORS ???

i love how short the commercials are this is fantastic

boscha looks GORGEOUS

amity canonically tried organizing a student council .. if that's not a fucking lmp reference idk what is that's actually insane

EDRIC NOOOOO

i'm shocked they're allowed to say the word suicide on disney tbh

yeah fuck you miki

color pallets going wild

RAEDA ARE STANDING ENCT TO EACH OTHER [most normal shipper reaction]

EDAS HAIR ??? "I JUST LIKE VIDITING RAINE?????? GOD AHEHEHD LILITHS HAIR TOO AHEHEIEIRHR !!!1!1!5!72););

LULU HOOTSIPHER REUNITE !!!

i just noticed eda's arm she's so .. design.

LOVING ginger curly haired lilith rn i cant stop thinking about them

"keep it in keep it in" elsa era [i am begging her to stop]

GUSTHOLOMULE INTERACTIONS FR

willow what are you going to do to her😄

is it absolutrly morbid if i say i need a willow breakdown in this ep

BELOS!RAINE WHAT☹️☹️☹️☹️

i forgot that's how they get memories tbh

WAAAAA FLAPJACK

god hunter i love you

WILLOW NO☹️☹️

Camilla Go After Her Go Go Go

her little tail i can't dobthis

willow kill her please

OOOOO SHE'S KILLING HER

hey willow hey what are you looking at. hey willow. hey w

GOD I FUCKING KNEW IT FUCK YOU KIKI

i do not want an ad for pretzels rn.

belos is OOZING OUT IF THEM jesus

little red kitten so true

AMI ??? FUCKING AMI ????? JESUS CHRIST

boscha you have such a crush on amity it's embarassing

oh my gif thehre playing grudgby

boscha you're in LOVE [cry]

willow😦😦😦😦😦😦😦

oh god oh god willow oh my god

AEUGH EUEGH UFHEAGG☹️☹️

i know they're not going to use they/them for the collector in canon but i definitrly want them to

pyramid scheme camilla😭😭

astral oath ?? AWW ITS A REFERENCE STOP IT

YAYAYAYAYAY WHAT USBUT

she wants to be understood.

luz noceda you're so me

OH FUCK TOU GUYS WHAT IS IT

WE CUT THUS IFF FIR WILLIW ANGST STOP IT WVERYOBE STOP

HUNTER I LIVE YOU SI FUCKING MUCH

WILLOW MY ABSOLUTR DEAREST YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

MAGIC HUBTER MAGIC HUNTER MAGIC HUBTER

IS HE A SPEEDSTER AHHHHDHE

girlie is your palisman an orb

why r u hitting hrself

[huntlow interaction] I MISSED A LOT😠😠 /j

maybe huntlow is cute. maybe.

PLEAASDEADE PLEASE WHAT IS IT WHAT IS IT LUZ

luz's gliphs look like gallifreyan

BEMA US UP BEAM US UP

WHAT IS IT

A BAT !!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS A BAT FIR A SEC

STRINGBEAN THE SNAKE SHIFTER☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

PINKIE HOLD CINEMATIC UNIVERSE WHAT THE FUCK

guys i'm tearing up like actually

how did dana make me care about huntlow deeply in the span of an hour

ok. ok.

ok.

bye.

[lenabenaacena]

ykw i think i feel better tbh like. i had to take my time to really feel it out and i saw her car again today. it reminded me i had a choice to not go in again and fuck up whag i worked up so much to go. i’ve been studying so hard now and playing guitar for fun. it’s not everything but it feels like something for now. also went to the gym today. keeping myself busy is nice but until it comes to nught in the weekends then idk. it’s different i’m different.

i feel like i have to keep up w others and do this like they want me to. someone reminded me i shouldn’t have to. they’re so right really. i realllg told someone my reasons for moving back to my parents house. to be completely sober. to be closer to my family i miss them so much and to get away from this. i feel like i’ve really grown out of it. i don’t wanna feel like my brother and attach to old friends and old life to feel something. i see him and i feel so bad cause i know he can do better if he allows himself to. maybe i’ll talk to him on this trip soon about this if i can. maybe i can convince him to do better hopefully. if i can’t idk who will. my family needs me most now tho. so much happening but i can’t help anymore for almost two years now. i feel so bad when my grandma told me she was 70 this year i was like fuck bro like goes so fast cause i’m thinking she’s still 50 at least. i was 3 when she was 50 like fuck bro. i wanna spend so much time w her as much as i can in the lifetime i have with her idc about anything else here now. i wanna spend time w my mom and let her know i care about her. i wanna spend time w my siblings and let them know i’ll hear them for anything. i prolly won’t be good but i’ll try so hard for them and eventually maybe for friends that i should really keep in touch with like M and S. i care so much and i don’t know how to express it at all. i wanna express it and i feel like this way i can express it. i wish i had my family here or i should’ve moved w them this year but i had some thing to really take care of.

like a binge rn. i’m so drunk and high now writing this and it feels so crazy now. i’m literally outside my apegsmft now just writing this. idk i’m sorry for that last work if u can’t figure it out it’s apartment i think. 1:51 am i’m still thinking about what was last weekend a few hours before this. i had the offer to go in and have the chance to see her again after that night but i couldn’t. i respected her wishes to never contact her again. she wanted that closure and she got it.

although that wasn’t really closure. i’m saying we really never talked about anything other than how much her old friend wasn’t a good friend. nothing i could’ve done at this point it had nothing to do with me now. she said why i didn’t tell her i told her i did tell her but she didn’t care. she started crying and she asked why and i realized that’s when she just wanted to hear when she wanted to hear. i told her she would’nt have listened anyways. it didn’t matter. what information would’ve changed that. she knew at the begginging of our relationship i didn’t like her friend after what she did. she still kept being friends what was i gonna say 5 years later after gonna change fr. she said she wanted me to say nothing i said nothing. she yelled why i didn’t say nothing then she said she’s talking to a brick wall. whatever i said wasn’t gonna heal her hurt. i tried to leave so bad. i had my fiend in the car thinking it was gonna be quick. no 2 hours later i’m with her still.

anyways she kept saying shit i wanted to hear 3 year ago when she broke up with me. honestly she broke up w me and tried to so long after her dad died. after she met the girl she cheated on me w emotionally it was just downhill after. she connected w someone else and it’s cool you know i couldn’t be there for her i didn’t know her pain. she found someone else she could understand her pain. but at the same time why would she cheat on the person she’s left me for ?

she said she wanted closure and that we never talked about what really happened after we ended it but at the same time why did we did we need to? she moved on obviously in that time and i had to as wellll. but for her to cheat on the person she left me for is crazy realllu.

i know she’s not happy at all i do feel bad for her. like she said she doesn’t have any friends but just work friends and it’s like fuck. i do wanna reach out to her and let her know i’ll always be here for her as a friend if she needs to talk but my last email i sent listed that. well said if she needed closure then i’ll be here. i was drunk when i sent it tbh or recovering drunk. idk i had my friend that was w my the whole time and it felt right bc she salad it was. said. whatever. then i couldn’t sleep that night cause i felt somebbtinf wasn’t right. i checked mg emails and i saw she she replied. i was like wow after all of that you said you said to never contact you again. but you never said anything was a mistake or anything so you wanted to do what you did don’t blame anytning kn you being drunk yk. cause after a while i knew you weren’t drunk anymore. you saw my friend that helped us w our problems and officially was sobered up. telling me that you would believe me if the sky was falling bc you loved me so much was insane. telling me you loved me the whole night as insane. telling me i was the best thing in your life was insane. telling me everything i wanted to hear 3 year ago is insane.

i didn’t feel anything anymore. all the things i felt in the moment was just list and nostalgia. wanted to give her my number and telling her i’ll email hee or something. what’s crazy is that she mentioned a girl i was sleeping w. i kept it so low key but she had mentioned the name A. i was like what the fuck how did you know but she changed the subject realt quick. she kept trying to fuck me thst whole night. i kept trying to stop i didn’t feel right doing it rwhen she was going home to a whole different person. even then i didn’t feel like a good person doing that. even i’m my soul i knew i shouldn’t have but i did anyways because she kept saying i was playing her by doing this and she eventually got so aggressive with trying to fuck me. idk man if was a good reminder of why we should not be together or why i should not see her after that anymore even though how much i want to. life is hard bro. you just gotta move on. from everything. i know life is so hard for her and for her whole family. idk how hard it is now but i’m it’s hard. i wish i could help her fr in any way possible. i loved her so much before and i always will. maybe not in the same way but in a way that’s comfortable with both of us.

everything we used to be is nothing more. until she realizes what had really happened. until she sits down and just cries so hard to realize why it didn’t really work out. she thinks why we didn’t work out was bc i stopped trying. i agree with her that’s one reason why i stopped trying. but there was so many other reasons like why she always wanted to fight me everything she got drunk. or when she always accuses me of cheating after that one accusation that i proves to be wrong. it was constant every time and there was nothing to do anymore until she realizes what she did wrong. i realized what is did wrong in that relationship. i told her i thought about it a lot. obviously i had to in order to be better.

i’m drunk i’m tiedd good night

[pedantichoe]

Rhythm of War spoilers under the cut

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Perfect I’m glad that actually worked :)

1. WHAT THE NUTS?!2?:??:?:? I’VE LOST MY GOSHDANG MARBLES NOT TO MENTION SEVERAL PIECES OF MY SOUL AND ALL MY SANITY (clearly since I already said marbles r gone) HEAD IS EMPTY FELLAS

I’m honesty just still at a loss for words. The implications every major investiture-related reveal has are enormous. The light. The harmonies. The spren experiments??? Ishar what the eff word are you doing dude!??!???

I was under the delusion that there was going to be a mega battle between Moash and Kaladin at the end of the book that was gonna be Uber painful but then have that allow Kaladin to swear the fourth ideal (in my head it was smth like Dalinar v Odium in Oathbringer but I am aware that would be way too clean a parallel and branderson just doesn’t work like that). INSTEAD we got an altercation that caused me to BAWL MY EYES OUT FOR FOURTY-FIVE MINUTES

Some lead-up. Somewhere around the time Moash got the spren-killing dagger I could just feel an awful build-up of tension and anxiety. I may not be able to hear the rhythms of Roshar but let me tell you if I could..... I would be attuned to terrors m8. So anyways I knew shit was gonna go DOWN but I didn’t know exactly what. Then Moash got the knife and my brain was just like “if he kills Sylphrena....” but I was just like HHHHH GOTTA KEEP READING

I’ll need to go downstairs and actually grab my book at some point to make sure I have the timeline right but there was a point where I had to set the book down and do some breathing exercises and walk around a little. And then Oho boy. When Teft walked in and saw Moash I just... I lost it a little. And then what actually happened????? My dogs woke me up at 5 AM and as I’m struggling out of some weird cosmere-related dream I remember whag Moash did and I’m just sitting there in the dark dogs whining to go out -crying- because how could he do that how could he how could he

And I know at the start of the book when Godeke or whatever edgedancer came to get Kal out of the manor fire was standing in the doorway and Moash had some kind of.... bit of his soul? Smth??? Show a version of who he /could/ be (wait that wasn’t Renarin was it cuz that would make sense...... hmmmmmmmm). That COULD mean he will have some opportunity at redemption which. If there is ANYBODY I trust to do it well and with feeling, it’s Brandon, but also a huge part of me does NOT. WANT. HIM. REDEEMED. I want him crushed and broken in every way with the full weight of what he did bearing down upon him but also hhhhhhh I’m sure we will get smth much cooler than anything I could think up ANYWAY

Why are the splits between paragraphs getting so big tumblr what is wrong with you

See this one is normal

Okay ANYWAYS

Kaladin. Bitch this man is a LOT. he’s just. I think the thing I appreciate most about these books is that the heroes aren’t perfect. They’re often damaged. Feel broken. And IN that they expand upon their ideals and ultimately make the first one just such an inspiring message. Life before death. Strength before weakness. Journey before destination.

So Kaladin. He is just uhhhh amazing??? What I think truly encapsulates what I love about him is when it’s just he and Syl and the stonecast statue of Teft. The sadness is still there and I know it hurts him so much. But the guilt? The ability to grow in your losses and find yourself stronger and more human and more understanding because of it??? Ultimately THAT is where Moash and Odium are wrong. Kaladin and Dalinar have found and CONTINUE to find how to grow in their pain. How to not just deal with, but ACCEPT and OWN their pain and sorrow. They are finding the peace that Odium would have brought through numbness and loss. I don’t really know how to phrase this exactly how I would like. But I’m proud of this message. Im glad for this message.

When Wit helps Kaladin into that warm bubble and tells him he will be warm again, that just hit. The message in these books is about oaths and ideals and promises. It’s about growing into something so much more than you ever could have dreamed, and NOT by giving up your pain or your guilt or your loss or your anger to someone who would leave you a shell as a byproduct. When Teft died he died full of hope. He knew he was forgiven. He didn’t lose to Moash, to Odium, to the moss or to anyone or anything else. He lived and died with Honor. And in doing so proved that the power to change existed within him. It just needed support. Like a small flame. You can’t leave it open to the winds, or it will extinguish, but it DOES need air. It does need to be stoked to grow. Teft did it. So can you.

I went on both Instagram and Snapchat to try and talk about how deeply connected I feel to these books and the messages and characters in them. I wasn’t nearly as eloquent as I would have liked. But at the end of the day I am so grateful for how I’ve been able to grow and change and be shaped by my trials and experiences. I didn’t spend this year in as dark of a place as Kaladin, but I did feel trapped and stuck. I felt like a failure. I felt weak and angry and like there was no way to get to where I had been. Like I couldn’t remember the words.

And not just this book, but so many things in my life have helped me to see that I am valid and I am growing and I will stumble and make mistakes but through it all, the oaths that I have made, and the ideals that I keep are what make me me, and will continue to temper my soul and my spirit as I go along this journey.

I don’t need everyone to love these books as much as I do. Or feel as strongly about the messages or be as affected by the characters, the plot, and the INSANELY good writing. But I hope everyone has, finds, and clings to what makes them warm. What brings them light. We all make mistakes. We all will continue to mess up. We need to be corrected and shaped and we need to grow and change. But I for one am sick of hating people on principle. I’m sick of the feeling in my stomach like the world is falling to shit and that nothing I do or say will ultimately have any positive effect. I’m sick of living in a shade-darker world where I hate everything and feel like I should hate everything. I’m sick of being angry.

As a related side note. As we get to know more about the shards I hope someone makes a “which shard of Adonalsium are you!” Quiz because that would be very interesting. As is?? This year I have been Odium. I am passionate. But I am angry. I am so so angry. And I don’t -want- to be so angry anymore. I want to have hope. I want to follow light. I want to CHOOSE life and strength and journey and I want to sacrifice what I need to to get there. Kaladin’s fourth ideal is recognizing he can’t save everyone. I want to follow the ideal that those out there deserving of love and compassion outweigh my need to feel angry and unjust at those that destroy those things. I’ll work on phrasing as I go. I’m not quite ready to swear it, but the words are coming. I can feel them.

What Maya did was reveal that in the darkest of times for Radiants and their bonds, there was a choice that was made. And -no one,- spren, god, or otherwise, can take away the fact that it was THEIR choice. It is my choice whom I serve. It is my choice what I sacrifice and what I hold on to. And I will not let the voices of those telling me I have to hate everything and everyone take charge over me.

I hope everyone out there finds their ideals. And keeps to them. And knows that there is hope and light and life. That there is strength before weakness. And courage before cowardice. And a journey before their destination.

And that ultimately, the most important words a person can say are: “I will do better.” And the most important step they can take is the next one.

Life before death. Always. Life before death.

[tpwksienna]

Fine Line - Harry Styles

GOLDEN:

The initial light top hat & piano together, such a gentle and beautiful way to ease into the new era and doesn’t just drown us with a whole new vibe straight away we stan.

UGH YES THERE SHE IS THERE IS THE DADADADADADA THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR !!!

Love this whore

the unity of the psychedelic guitar and the vocals of Harry is incredible! Like it’s so subtle but so unified, so rare in newer music.

this is literally exactly how Harry described it, perfect summer song to just drive along the coast to

Harrys overlay echoing vocals is INSANE! Took me a second to even notice them that’s how well integrated it was, genuinely what a song!

AHHHHH THAT GUITAR SQUEEL AT LIKE 2.40 IS SUCH A GOOD TIME KILL ME MITCH PLS AND TY

What a pretty song AH so so pretty we love this dumb bitch

CHERRY:

idk how I feel about her... like it’s good duh but I don’t think she’s THAT bitch

it’s a very like strolling in the meddow type song that you’ll hear in like an old school movie.

It is a VERY European sounding song, with the forefront of the song being the guitar (banjo?) like this is so different to the previous songs where harrys vocals are used to carry the song while this truly lets the light shine on the instrumentals with the vocal effects on Harry’s voice used to grain and soften (maybe?) allowing for it to be such an easy listen.

It is a very very stunning song that truly allows us, as a listener, to just sit and enjoy.

the voicemail is strange, like it does fit the song and truly completes it I think it would end very unfinished without it. It was a controversial decision on Harry’s part but it really paid off, it’s a very pretty very airy song.

FALLING:

you can never go wrong with a piano intro to a song. With a gentle build behind the piano gives the song a very open feeling, making the listener feel as though they are immersed within the music and aren’t trapped by singular and intense instruments.

FTDT IS FUCKING SHOOK SHES GROWN SHE IS AN ADULT WE STAN

when Harry said FaLleN I felt that

damn this is so emotional I even was like shit maybe I am someone I don’t wanna be around

Harry really fuckin hit me in the soul with this bad boy OUCH

the soft guitar behind everything is so beautiful and angelic, truly opening the song up and creating such a gentle and subtle emotion to the song that has the effect to change the whole song and without it, the song would carry a whole different emotion. Instead of letting go it would created a sound that’s trapping the listener.

AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN HOLY SHIT YES HARRY FUCKIING HIT THAT MOTHERFUCKING NOTE YES KING WE STAN A VOCAL LEGEND

I can’t wipe the smile off my face nor the tears out of my eyes

beautiful.

TO BE SO LONELY:

UKULELE LEGENDS ONLY (very islandy intro)

oof incredible continuation from falling with that opening lyric yes king

having such an easy continuation from the last song is such a gift to a listener because it eliminates the chance for it to feel incomplete because the continuation song allows it to be a seamless flow

HE SWORE OMFG HE SAID BITCH I CANT WAIT TO SCREAM THAT SHIT AT HIM ON TOUR

THIS IS MY FAVE FUCKING THING EVWR YES BITCH

the chorus is so gentle yet packs such a punch, the way the vocals guide the instrumental is such a rare thing to hear.

dude this song is so good, the chorus has be vibing so hard I can’t wait for the live videos of this

The flow between the chorus and verse is so smooth!!!!! The vocal and instrumental just flow so perfectly from a mellow hard hitter to something so soft is so WONDERFUL

This song is going to ruin me live woah can’t wait

SHE:

OH THAT OPENING FUCKING INSTRUMENTAL YES THAT IS WHAT I NEEDED IN MY LIFE

THIS SONG IS THAT BITCH

WE ARE 30 SECONDS IN AND I ALREADY KNOW MY FAVE SONG YESSSSSSS

this SCREAMS 70s, this literally threw a brick at my face and imprinted the 70s on my soul

THE CHORUS !!!! THE FUCJING ‘SHE’ OUCHHHHH

This album literally every song fucking tops the previous one WHAT THE FUCKKKK

dude I love this song so much

This album is such a vibe I am so in love

This song just keeps getting better

THE GUITAR WOOOOOOOOO!!!!! FUCK US UP MITCH HOKY YES WHORE THIS IS UR SONG TO FUCKING THRIVEEEEEE AND SARAH THE FUCKING DRUMS SRE SO GOOD LIKE IT ROCKS UR WHOLR SOUL THIS SONG IS GONNA BE THAT SONG LIVE

he better open the tour with this bitch, this would be the perfect Tour opener

THE GUITAR AND DRUMO SOLO AHHHHHHHHH YESSSSS LET THE STARS SHINE THIS IS ALL I WANTED FROM A AONG AND MORE AHHHHH LITERALLT THIS IS GONNA BE TOO GOOD LIVE KGNEKJTEKSKKSLS

ugh you can just feel the music that inspired this song and Harry did so well

SUNFLOWER:

AHHHH THIS IS WHAG I WAS WXCITED FIR AND ITS START IS SO PRETTY

I LOVE THE INSTRUMENTAL AHHH !!!

this is such an angelic song woah, dude I fucking love this 70s vibe Harry is emitting. Stunning. Truly and utterly stunning.

Dude I am gonna have the best time listening to this live woah like and the visuals for it I can just IMAGINE harrys mind and doing some weird ass fuckin psychedelic shit and I am HERE for it

this is such a revolutionary, decade defining album I am in shock that I am listening to music history right now like as it’s happening

HIS YELLS AHHH

SO GOOD WE LOVE AN ADLIB KING

THE BOOPBOOP AHHAHAHAHAHAHAH A LEGEND

dude the ending of this song is fucking incredible FUCK!!!!!!!!!

CANYON MOON:

initially I get HELLA Beatles vibes, very yellow submarine album vibes I live for it.

This is a feel good song we stan, us girlies are gonna have such good vibe dancing at love on tour to this

The CALPS!! ugh we love a clap

The acoustic guitar is literally what dreams are made of and the Tamborine! Too good.

The vocal effects for the ‘i am going’ stunning!

the harmonising in a diff key with himself WE STAN A KING OF MUSIC YES!

THE BASS!!!!! THE BASS! Fuck me up it’s such a subtle instrument in the song but when you notice it, SHE SLAPS!!!

TPWK:

Ok she’s the weird kid at the table initially

NVM SHES LIKE THE GIRL IN MOVIES WHO GETS HOT WHEN U TAKE THE GLASSES OFF!

oh the chorus incorporation is stunning, no lie the chorus idk if I LOVE her but she’s sweet

This is just a good self love track, like if ur ever not vibing yourself you can put this shit on and just bop around.

It’s very like Christmas movie uplifting vibes

Harry is so endearing it’s so sweet in this song

This is just a sweet song that I feel like is what harrys soul would look like if it was a song

Harry is literally church pastor in this song he’s so baby HAHAH

FINE LINE:

a stunning intro, unusual but a wonderful build NVM ITS ACLUSYIC I WAS FUCKIN PRANKEDNI WAS EXPECTING AN ONLY ANGEL THING BEKKSJFJKSLS

oh the vocal effects are BEAUTIFUL

Dude I fucking love this 70s vibe shit he’s doing it’s such a perfect fit for his voice and aesthetic

This is just a beautiful song.

the repitition of ‘we’ll be a fine line’ genuinely so stunning, so perfect the vocal effects enhances the emotion of the song and you literally are going on such a journey with Harry in this song it’s wonderful. Raw and I am so honoured he’s letting us feel these emotions with him.

The overlayed vocal echo is so stunning like that’s the only way I can describe this song is just it is so stunning.

The acoustic guitar with the occasional introduction of piano is such a smooth and melodic complimentary background for harrys voice

Oh the implementation of drums and the brass instruments is AMAZING! what an incredible mind OH THE SYMBOLS!!! what a soft way to include a heavy hitting feel on a very melodic track YES!!!!!

the gradual increase in each instrument towards the end of the song is such a beautiful conclusion to the album

oh what a finally, this is worth the 2 year wait. Truly a beautiful song that deserves all the praise it’s been given

***DISCLAIMER***

I haven’t included, lights up, watermelon sugar or adore you because there has been enough time for those songs for you to develop your opinions and understanding of them

[floraldrizzle]

for forever

this is 100% self indulgent, i just wanted some tree bros fluff. for forever is such a beautiful song?? and whenever i listen to it all i can think is "god damn it i wish" so like,,

my writing sucks, i know, i’m not even gunna bother proofreading or fixing word choice i’m sorry at how bland this probably is, i just wanted to get this fluff out of my system

enjoy? i feel like the for forever tree bros fanfics are really overdone but u know what fuck it

"Now we can both pretend we have friends." The tall, lanky boy chuckled and handed Evan his sharpie back after signing his cast.

"Uh, y-yeah." Evan mumbled. The two boys stood in front of each other awkwardly for a moment.

"S-so, um, I mean, wedon'thavetopretendthough? Imean, wecouldactuallybefriendsorsomethingifyou'reokayandifyou'renotthenthatsfineimeanijust-"

"Woah, okay, sure. We can be friends. Chill out, Hansen." Connor shoved his hands in the pockets of his worn out hoodie, raising an eyebrow at the anxious boy in front of him.

"How about after school tomorrow. Meet me in the parking lot." Connor more stated it than he did ask. He grinned down at Evan, causing the shorter boy's cheeks to go red.

"Okay! Th-that sounds great!" An awkward smile turned up the corners of Evan's mouth.

"Later, tree boy."

"S-see you!" Evan stood, stunned at the interaction he had just taken place in. He fumbled around his pocket for his phone, shaky hands pressing one of his few contacts.

JARED YOU'LL ENVER BELUEVE WHAG JUST HAPPENED

Evan spent all of the next day anxious out of his mind. What if Connor was messing with him? What if the entire school was going to be there laughing because he had no friends?

Once the final bell rang, he cautiously made his way to the parking lot. Without a lot of trouble, he spotted Connor. He was leaning against a beat up car, scrolling on his phone.

"Oh. Hey tree boy. Get in, we're going somewhere." He looked up, shoving his phone in his pocket. He got into the driver's seat as Evan scrambled in next to him.

"Uh, where? If I-I'm allowed to ask?" He anxiously glanced at Connor.

"It's a surprise." Connor grinned. Evan felt his face heat up. He liked that grin. He really, really liked it.

Stop being gay for five seconds, jeez.

“O-okay.” Evan looked out the window, trying to hide his red face as some alternative music came on the radio.

“You can put on whatever music you want.”

“Oh, no it-this is fine.” He glanced back over at the long haired boy. Connor was drumming on the steering wheel and nodding his head a little to the music. Evan admired the way his hair fell on his shoulders, how soft it looked, how easy it would be to just reach out and-

“So uh, we can like, stop for ice cream first if you want. There’s this little ice cream shop that my family used to go to years ago.” He interrupted Evan’s thoughts, glancing over at the shorter boy.

“That s-sounds good.” He set his elbow on the arm rest, resting his head in his hand. He tried to sort through his jumbled mess of thoughts, which consisted of hot boy, ice cream, surprise, pretty hair, he paints his nails? It looks so good on him wow, I could never pull that off, I’m just me, I wonder how often he paints his nails? Maybe one day he’ll do mine?

“Here we are!” The car had stopped suddenly. Evan looked out the window and saw the little ice cream shop Connor had mentioned, A La Mode.

The two boys shuffled over to the counter, standing a few feet back.

“We can just share a bowl. They give like, way too big bowls. What flavor do you want?” Connor looked at the shaky teen next to him.

“Um, ch-chocolate I guess? If-if you’re okay with that I mean, b-because anything is-”

“Chocolate is fine. You don’t need to be defending yourself all the time, it’s okay. That’s what my therapist told me at least.”

“Oh. S-sorry.” 

The two stood awkwardly there for a second.

“Um, c-could you order?” Evan spoke quietly, a bit embarrassed, “sorry, it’s just, I-I get kinda nervous?” His voice gradually got softer, his face growing red.

“Yeah. It’s okay.” Connor’s voice was a lot softer than Evan had anticipated, leaving him a bit shocked.

Connor got their ice cream and paid, grabbing two spoons. They sat down at a small table outside.

“S-so, your family c-came here a lot?” Evan asked, trying to break the silence. He took a bite of ice cream.

Connor nodded, swallowing his bite.

“Yeah. Before my parents started fighting. And I started smoking pot.” He said nonchalantly.

“O-okay. Um,” Evan took another bite of ice cream.

“Th-the ice cream is good.” 

“Yeah.”

The two sat in a rather awkward silence the rest of the time they ate, occasionally making eye contact but averting their eyes immediately after.

Once they finished, they made their way back to Connor’s car.

“Okay, it’s not too far from here. Hopefully you’ll like it.” Connor glanced at Evan, a small smile gracing his lips.

Evan smiled back a little, feeling his cheeks heat up.

Stop being gay, Evan.

They drove for another 10 minutes, sitting in yet another awkward silence.

Oh my god, this is Connor Murphy. Connor “School Shooter Chic” Murphy. What if he takes me to a field and murders me? No one would find me! What am I saying, no one would care anyway. No, he wouldn’t do that. His smile was too nice. Something seemed almost... genuine about it?

“Okay. Uh, my family used to come here. We would go get ice cream and then come here so. Yeah. I know you like trees or whatever so I thought, you would probably like an orchard?” Connor was gazing at Evan, hoping he would like it. Hoping that he didn’t think he was a creep.

“Oh.” Was all Evan could manage to squeak as they got out of the car. 

“We can go back if you don’t want to go in. I know it’s closed down, so we would have to climb the fence and shit I should have asked if you were comfortable with that. Here, we can-”

“No! N-no. I love it.”

Connor smiled. An actual, real smile. His eyes twinkled a little and got crinkly and Evan was pretty sure that no one in the world had a smile as pretty as Connor’s. He definitely didn’t deserve to have that smile directed at him.

Evan felt his cheeks get red, but for the first time, he didn’t really care.

The two scaled the fence with ease and walked along an overgrown trail.

Evan was spouting off facts about trees, and honestly, Connor wasn’t really listening to him. He was just watching how his face lit up and he smiled giddily, pointing at different trees and glancing back at Connor, making sure he was listening. He just nodded along as they walked, nearing a field.

Evan stopped talking as they reached the field. The sun was beginning to set, lighting up the entire area with golden light. The two decided to settle under a towering oak tree, Connor leaning back against the trunk while Evan just laid down in the grass.

The silence that fell across the boys wasn’t awkward this time. It was comfortable. Connor was watching Evan, the way he smiled as a breeze blew across them. The way the sun made his dirty blond hair look golden. Connor’s favorite color was black, but wow, if he could paint the whole world with one color, it would be Evan’s Hair in the Sunset. For the first time in what seemed like an eternity, Evan actually looked... calm. Connor couldn’t recall a time he saw the kid not fidgeting or shaking. But he looked relaxed. 

“Wanna keep walking? This place is huge.” Connor eventually spoke up.

“Huh? Y-yeah. Okay.” Evan opened his eyes. Connor stood up and offered his hand to Evan, which he gladly took. But Connor didn’t let go once he was up.

Connor started walking, leading Evan. His head was cloudy, his thoughts jumbled.

Pretty boy. Warm hand. He’s holding my hand?!

“Okay?” Connor glanced at the shorter boy.

“Y-yeah. This-this is okay.” He nodded vigorously, not wanting him to let go. Ever.

Connor smiled, squeezing Evan’s hand.

“So, got a crush on any girls?” Connor wiggled his eyebrows jokingly.

“Oh, uh, n-no. No.” Evan smiled sheepishly. “D-do you?” He grinned.

“Dude, no,” Connor shook his head, chuckling, “I’m gay.”

“Oh! Th-that’s cool! I-I’m bi actually,” Evan watched the ground, too nervous to make eye contact.

“Nice.” 

The two walked for a while, taking in their surroundings, but Evan was a little too busy arguing with himself in his head to appreciate it that much.

“You okay?” Connor finally broke the silence, noticing Evan’s increased fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, his thumb beginning to rub the back of Evan’s hand.

“Y-yeah, just thinking,” He glanced up at Connor before looking back down.

“We can stop here,” 

They had reached another field.

They sat down in the middle of it, trying to drink in as much of the sunset as possible. Connor still hadn’t let go of Evan’s hand.

They sat for a while, watching clouds pass by, before Connor spoke up.

“Hey Ev, can I do something?”

Evan blushed at the sudden nickname.

“Y-yeah?” He mustered up enough courage to look Connor in the eye. God, his eyes were pretty.

Connor’s hand dropped from Evan’s, leaving him a bit disappointed for a second, before the hand came up to cup Evan’s face.

“Okay?”

“O-okay.”

Connor smiled a little before leaning in. Before Evan could register what was happening, Connor’s slightly chapped lips were on his.

And before he could bring himself to kiss back, his lips were gone.

“Was that okay?” Connor asked gently, his voice taking on that soft tone again.

“Y-yeah, I-I, wh-” Evan tripped over his words, still reeling.

Connor smiled. It was that genuine smile again. It made something deep inside of Evan stir, kicking up some emotion he had never felt.

And before Connor could realize what was happening, Evan was leaning forward and kissing him. Connor moved a hand to his back as Evan ran a hand through Connor’s hair. 

It was soft.

Evan pulled away, shocked with himself for initiating anything.

Connor was still smiling. He laid down, bringing Evan with him. Evan laid his head on Connor’s chest, a hand still playing with Connor’s hair.

“Honestly, there’s nowhere else I’d rather be,” his gaze softened as Evan turned his head to face him. His face was so close that Connor could count every freckle on his face, and God he wanted to.

Evan smiled.

“Me too,”

[poplinn]

Tonight is going to be one of those crying tol I fall asleep kind of nights I suppose. I'm only posting this because I need an outlet and I'm not seeing my therapist for another week and y'all are strangers anyway.

Idk vent upcoming i guess.

I feel so broken. I don't feel whole. He broke me tore me apart. He broke me and everytime I tried to heal he broke me even further. And who is left to pick up the pieces? Me. He doesn't care. He doesn't love me. He never did. Who lives in constant fear because of what he did? Me. Who is completely broken inside and out because of whag he did? Me. And who gets to continue to live their life as if nothing happend? Him of fucking course. Its so unfair. And when I try to tell others involved about this I'm either overreacting or "it didn't happen because I don't remember it" ofc you don't remember, it didn't happen to you. Even if you were there you weren't impacted by the situation at all. I feel like I'm grasping at straws when I'm asking for help because no on takes me seriously or wants to listen to me.

I hate how I have to pretend that everything is okay and nothing ever happened. I hate how when I get angry or lash out about the situation I'm the bad guy. I'm the bad guy for not wanting him in my life. I'm the bad guy for ignoring him I'm the bad guy for having bad thoughts about him. I'm the bad guy for refusing to call him my father. Why can't anyone ever see that I was a fucking kid? Why can't anyone ever see thay he was a full grown adult abusing his own son? Why is he never framed as the bad guy?

It's so unfair, it's so fucking unfair. I just wanted him to love me, to acknowledge me. All I ever wanted was to he known and loved. But he pestered and bullied me so much that I became afraid to be myself, afraid to share stuff, afraid to talk about or do what I liked. No wonder I always locked myself up in my own room. I still live in constant fear because of him.

I was never allowed to be myself in my own house. The place that was supposed to he home. I constantly had to wear a mask, to the point where I've lost sight of who I truly am. I was only ever allowed to be my own true self when I was/am locked up in my own room. She always asked why I never invited friends over. She didn't understand its because I'm so different around my friends than I was at home.

And now the masks feels like it's grown into my skin and I can't take it off anymore. I'm trying but it hurts.

It's so difficult and I hate how slow its going. I fear I may never be healed again.