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tiredfoxtf · 1 year

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#> tired shitpost #why am I such a hopeless being #i am everything but good #not a good person not a good child not a good friend not a good artist not a good writer #not good not good not good not good #im never good #never good enough #i was promising #not gifted #me and gifted never should stay in the same sentence #but look at me i failed everyone and myself included #i fucked up myself #i fucked my chances for future #im such a failure #im tired #im so tired #i can't fight anymore i don't want to fight anymore #i want to live a life too #i want leave something that will inspire others #i want to create something meaningful #i can't give up now #its gonna get better its gonna get better its gonna get better #please get better #i want a hug #i want to go home #i want my childhood back #i want my happiness back #do I really not deserve this #or do I just keep losing the life lottery #its going to be okay

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hinamie · 19 days

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spiraling

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #gojo satoru #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11 #i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having #cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right #until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible #but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god #it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised #which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED #when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333 #filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think #im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood #but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes #had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately #anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268 #bc that panel is S tier #i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like #u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane #art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok #so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row #:)

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erabu-san · 4 months

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I enjoyed every second of this quest

[This art has platonic intention. Thank you for not tag ship!]

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giselles-dumping-hat · 1 month

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So Act 3 is going great,

#isat #isat spoilers #(?) I suppose #isat siffrin #in stars and time #god this game’s writing is so good #AND I AM SO INTRIGUED…. by Everything. all of the time #also all of the friend quests are so fucking good and well written and hit so hard awgh #I think Odile’s and Mira’s have to be my favorite simply because they hit harder for me personally. but they’re all So stellar and flawless #looking forward to continuing the game as always!#my art

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shuaaflower · 1 year

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I‘m a burden for everyone. I’m even a burden to myself.

#tw depressing thoughts #alone with my thoughts #depressing shit #feeling alone #sad thoughts #mentally exhausted #mentally tired #sadnees #overthinking #self h@te #i dont want to be here #self h@rm #i hate everything #overthinker #tw selfhate #i am useless #im not feeling good

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flickerintwilights · 9 months

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okay yes you’re being very normal BUT. “what makes you think he was a hero?” “because he kills monsters.” “what makes you think that she was a monster?”

“not everyone who looks like a hero is a hero, and not everyone who looks like a monster is a monster”

“…and against all odds, he managed to find his way to a happy ending”

#pjo #i was mouthing the words in absolute glee #like YES thats the good shit i am Eating #the luke foreshadowing. the everything #the THEMES #because a hero isn’t just someone who kills monsters!!#percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year

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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd)#because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months

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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 5: Flip Slip.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #Yungmang Jiang Training Arc AU #lan wangji #wei wuxian #digital art #Trying out some digital techniques to see if I can get closer to feel/style of my traditional comics.#So far the biggest difference is *colouring* Digital colouring feels...not good. I have complained about this before and I'll complain agai #Before we get into the sad stuff with Yungmeng Jiang in the PD-MDZS comics lets have some lighthearted fun!#Remember that if anything bad happens to these Jiang disciples in the canon comic - they are happy in this AU B'*)#I think one of the funniest things about the teenxian dynamic is how WWX accidently finds things that get LWJ to feel flustered.#My guy wwx goes 'I'm going to lightly bully/tease this nerd 'cause his reactions are funny.' and LWJ goes “My god. He's everything to me.”#Part two of the fun part of this dynamic is that LWJ is ever so lightly self aware enough to LOATHE THIS CRUSH.#Hence why I have been marinating on this 'Accidental Lan headband miscommunication' concept.#This is how LWJ assumes that WWX knows what the band means in this AU. This will be relevant later.#And YES! I am still going to be making comics for this AU. I have so many ideas I simply can't hold onto forever.

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thatsitso · 4 months

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So I finished orv

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscent reader #kim dokja #orv #orv fanart #Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint fanart #My art #Drawing #Sketch #And uh I was fully expecting it to be the most tragic and depressing thing that I'd never recover from but?? It ended on a positive note???#That's NOT the impression I was getting from the fandom 😭#I mean it was indeed the most tragic and depressing thing I read but the last chapter healed me idc #Like the ending literally depends on us readers 🤨 so I choose to believe everything is great and they live in a big house together #But yeah IT WAS SO GOOD IT'S CRAZYYYY I can't recommend it enough and I am forever changed #Don't be scared read orv guys.........

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ingravinoveritas · 4 months

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David, Michael, and the joy of being together...

| GO 1 press tour, 2019 vs. TV BAFTAs red carpet, 2024.

#david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #good omens #sxsw #BAFTAs 2024 #i feel like the key in the second gif is 'deeply'#because everything about their connection has become so much deeper #in the first gif it's like the gradual dawning of realization #but in the second one David knows exactly who he is and what he feels #embracing the queer in whatever form it may take #the change in his energy is palpable #and i am here for it #they are perfect together your honor #a friendship that's become something more #ineffable lovers #gifs by me

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hinamie · 1 month

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god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 266 #jjk leaks #fr anon thank u fr the request i am once again emo thinking abt them #n denial fv....god end me put me out of my misery #itfs context makes the lyrics more . healing n hopeful as opposed to wistful and lonely :'<#'everything around me looks so different now / yet everything about me wants to show you around'#PLS PLS PSLPSSLPS ILL CRY ILL DO ITTTTT #anyway emo hours aside original plan was striped shirt yuuji but i gave up smile #put him in white t shirt jail yet again sighs i feel like i do tht with him so often.....#like kid megu that's just his canon outfit but yuuji i wanted 2 get a bit more creative. task failed :(#hes got mismatched socks n scuffed knees but thats abt it #i often think abt how in official art they always put gojo in a gd white t shirt and i go smh but then here i go #pot kettle etc etc #megumi voice whatever!!!!! white tshirt in sunlight Looks Good sue me #pls enjoy them :'> anon i hope i delivered

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erabu-san · 4 months

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I enjoyed every second of this quest This art has platonic intention, please don't tag ship

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barghest-land · 7 months

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ata tu corazón, mi amor, y arrástralo por la tierra

#this art hurts so bad #in a way i'd never be able to explain #also it just upsets me a lot because i don't like how i did it:(#idk how to make it better so i'm just gonna leave it as it is #and go to sleep good night #it was supposed to be cool and simple just like that #but in my eyes it's just missing everything and i don't know how to fix it #genuinely thought it was gonna be a good art but here i am oh well. that happens i guess #im sorry javier :(( i'll make more good art i promise #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #javier escuella

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floccinaucinihilipilificationa · 11 months

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#sherlock #it might be the cough medicine but I'm really feeling the bbc sherlock wedding episode today #a good feeling ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡#like finding an old block of cheese in the back of the fridge you forgot about and its gotten super hard and chewy #i currently have half a block of gouda curating in the vegetable cupboard #waiting #how are you doing friends!! C:#I'm good! I still have the cough but I also got a new scarf #I'm still thinking about buying window colors as well but I am waiting if that is also just because of the cough medicine #I can't believe it's already been a year since I have moved! last year I was doing everything here for the first time #and now everything is happening for a second time! that year was both very long and also happened very fast #our floor in the “office” my father wanted to install still is not completly done but he threw up last time he tried #he did not threw up because of the floor but because every time he does a home renovation project he drinks 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola #we are trying to not make him drink 3 liters of Cherry Coca Cola but he doesn't want anyone else to finish the floor I think so we just do #not mention the hole in the floor #have a nice autumn day friends!! I hope you're doing well! ( ´͈ ◡ `͈ )#♥

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sharkylad · 18 days

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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.

Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?

Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.

The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.

Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.

It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.

I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.

He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.

#gravity falls #grunkle stan #stanley pines #STANLEYYYYYY #STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants #Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with #the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten #The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you #that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help #If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once #Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON #I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming #But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything #Like he really mattered so little to the people around him #and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too #I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him #The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things #And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year #Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people #the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better #its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand

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yes-asil · 3 months

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You guys really should go read "The Chokehold of a Broken Family Bond", like, right now

#isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #isat mirabelle #in stars and time siffrin #in stars and time mirabelle #asil and art #I am withering on the ground #Mirabelle's and Siffrin's friendship is everything to me #such a good fic

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