#i am filled with hate

[crunchybeards]

It's so goddamn easy to write angst like I just pull shit straight out of my trauma vault and can have a bitch spiralling for 2 000 words. But the caveat, the nasty little caveat you see, is that exact same trauma vault is directly in front of your box of good times and being happy and the trauma vault is bloody massive. Like I can't just go through the big vault of trauma I NEED MY FUCKING BOX DUDE.

Fluff is great but at the same time happy box too farrrrr.

[carpwood]

"cannibalism playlist" And then the entire tracklist is soddiken and mother mother

[theaologies]

My mom: you can sign up for text alerts for when a launch is supposed to go off

Me: no thank you. I’m trying to recreate the organic experience of not knowing there’s a launch until I see all the people along the river and going “oh I guess there’s a launch” and in that moment decide if I’m going to commit to running errands and accept getting stuck in launch traffic or just going home

[queer-cackling]

i hate you subscription-blocked news articles i hate you unsharable streaming services i hate you constant ads i hate you publishing companies making authors turn out books like their flipping fucking pancakes i hate you normalization of buying out small business for larger profit i hate you companies that lose sight of what they were built to do i hate you movie production companies that place success over love of a project i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

[falafels]

pt.63: Jean Q&A!! <pt.62 pt.64>

kevin day piñata for jean. as he deserves

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[societal-hazard]

whoever made needles hates me specifically and i am . going to invent time travel and Hurt Them.

[starscream-is-my-wife]

Their diary entries about each other here is so funny to me lmao

[baba-is-blog]

baba whats ur opinion on ladybugs,,,,

BABA IS CONFLICTED

ORGANISM IS IMPORTANT AND CONNECTED

ECOLOGICAL NICHE IS FILLED

BABA HATE LADYBUG

STATEMENT IS COEXIST

[ariddle-diddle]

WIP, beloved Borgin Boy. Just another boring evening at B&B.

[gomzdrawfr]

small habits

[rouge-the-bat]

when i see people against using the term transandrophobia its all "just men trying to steal the spotlight from women again" "trans men just keep bandwagoning on things trans women are already doing" "they dont experience things as badly as trans women do" "terfs focus more on trans women so we should be talking just about that" "theyre just using this to say that TRANS WOMEN are their opressors!! its just transmisogyny!" "a bunch of TME people and theyfabs trying to say they have it worse"

then i see people that actually talk about transandrophobia and theyre just. in their own communities discussing the problems they face, trying to get people to not completely ignore their issues, and that they deserve to be treated decently and not as evil or that theyve become worse or betraying women for transitioning into their proper gender.

i think yall who hate these discussions are just falling into queer terminology discourse and oppression olympics and infighting (and radfem juice for sure), all of which we say again and again does nothing but help people that want all of us dead. this shit is stupid as fuck

[cheaploafs]

won’t you kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor

[scribblesgalore]

I've been Max-maxxing as of late

Sketch maxmaxxing as well 😼

Its a Max dump atp, anyway here's some more max in crazy fits

Uhhhh that's all of it, I think

[minthological]

hello, fwendy-wends!

i bring you my little painting of wiggog y'wrath because i am. not normal about him. haha

sketch + alt pics below the cut <3

the one above is before sealant, these ones are ~30 minutes after sealing! also tilted one a little so you can see the shinies better! highlights my beloved 💚

[tophthedaydreamer]

the fact that the lilo and stitch remake doesn't even have gantu is insane. and it's not just gantu im pissed about. this movie should not exist in the first place but the fact they screwed up this badly is mind boggling.

[willyhoos]

you know for someone who loves metamy so much. i gotta say having it be fully unrequited is honestly fitting with metal's whole arc (or rather his LACK of arc)

he wants what he can't have. he's not anything or anyone, he doesn't deserve it. what would he even do with it?

"i don't think i have anything. i don't think i can have anything. i don't know how to have something." (src: 17776)

whether or not you subscribe to the roboticized metal theory, it doesn't change that metal's goals are not aligned with reality. ironically it's the robot that is unable to logically analyze his situation. he wants to be sonic but it doesn't change the fact that he isn't. he wants to win but it doesn't change the fact that he won't. his desires are narratively and morally unfulfillable because what he wants is wrong (factually and ethically.)

and so if he, in theory, wanted amy rose how could he ever actually have her?

the most she would give him is "you're more like him than i thought."

because he's Not sonic. all he can be is sufficiently Like him (sometimes). whatever metal claims he is (and honestly whatever he ACTUALLY is) is irrelevant because he can't MAKE himself sonic. he can't make himself the version of sonic that amy loves. amy loves sonic for WHAT he is (good) not what he's named. the most she could ever do is passively appreciate the traits of sonic that metal is able to imitate. emulate. simulate. fabricate.

sonic's role (in the meta story and in-universe) is so unique and treasured and irreplaceable. the only way to kick him out would be to, idk, replace him with an identical copy and put the old sonic in a lose-lose situation where he could not possibly be believed or sympathized with. or something.

say he gets "rehabilitated," rebels against eggman... you know those metamy fics. what is he then?

-> another job well done. another good deed for team sonic (y'know, the real one).

because it's not just that he's Not Sonic. (and he isn't. even if you believe he once was, he's not anymore in any way that is relevant to the narrative. the narrative, as you know, is the real sonic's pov.) it's that he's not even really a person anymore.

he's been forcibly depersonalized, dethroned, removed from his role (+ promptly replaced with something canonically better!) and isolated from any semblance of humanization. he doesn't even have a mouth. either it was taken from him or he was never given one. and we are not given any glimpse into his thoughts. (they're not important.)

like. this is a dead end. he is a dead end. there's nowhere to run.

he won't "get the girl" (pardon the term) not because he's evil not because he's not sonic but because he is not a "person" in any sense. not literally not socially not narratively not practically not really

idk. whether metal falls in love with amy genuinely, or if it's just out of jealousy/desire to want what the real sonic has/instinct to emulate the real sonic's emotions... it's doomed. he's just a ghost from a doomed timeline and everything he will ever do is destined to fail. he can't kill sonic. he can't hold amy's hand. he can't do anything but lose.

in that sense, metal "losing" amy to the real sonic (as if metal was ever even a contender, as if he was ever real enough) is just another failure in a long, long string of mostly unpleasant memories of a character who doesn't even get to go by his real name. because someone more important took it already has it.