#i am simply at a loss

[kindahoping4forever]

Ash @ The 5SOS Show Tour Detroit

via kelleysvideodiary on TikTok

[gingermintpepper]

One of my biggest pet peeves is the assumption that something has to be sad for it to be tragic.

I've always been a big believer of the 'Apollo has an awful love life'/'Apollo is plain unlucky with love' line of thinking but it does bother me that the general reasoning for that statement is given to the concept of 'Apollo is somehow undesireable and thus rejected' (Cassandra/Daphne/Marpessa) or 'his lovers die young and thus their love is unfulfilled' (Cyparissus/Hyacinthus/Coronis). I personally think that's a very unfortunate way of looking at things - not only because it neglects the many perfectly cordial entanglements and affairs Apollo has had, both mortal and divine - but because it presents a very shallow interpretation of the concepts of love and loss and how loss affects people.

Apollo can still grieve lovers that have a long, healthy life. The inherent tragedy of an immortal who knows his lovers and children will die and cannot stop it does not stop being tragic simply because those lovers and children live long, fulfilled lives. The inherent tragedy of loss does not stop being tragic simply because someone knows better than to mourn something that was always going to end.

What is tragic is not that Apollo loves and loses but that loss itself follows him. Apollo does not love with the distance of an immortal, he does not have affairs and then leaves never to listen to their prayers again. He does not have offspring and then abandon them to their trials only to appear when it is time to lead them to their destinies. He raises his young, he protects the mothers of his children, he blesses the households that have his favour and multiplies their flocks that they may never go hungry. He educates his sons, he adorns his daughters and even in wrath he is quick to come to his senses and regret the punishments he doles out.

Apollo loves. And like mortals, there will always be some part of him that wishes to protect the objects of his affections. Apollo, however, is also an emissary of Fate. He knows that the fate of all mortal things is death. He knows that to love a mortal is to accept that eventually he will have to bury them. There is no illusion of forever, there is no fantasy where he fights against the nature of living things and shields his beloveds from death. Apollo loves and because of that love, he also accepts.

And that, while beautiful, is also tragic.

[cheese-water]

The best option was to kill Ranboo. Everyone begging for him to “live” assumes that choice would be the merciful option is naïve for thinking Hatch would simply set him free. No he said verbatim that Ranboo would continue to be our plaything until they became “unusable.” That isn’t being alive, that’s torture, especially for someone who was begging to be killed in the end.

People pushing for a 50/50 split are also naïve in the way Showfall Media operates. While we never know what would happen if the vote split, it wouldn’t of mattered anyway. Hell, it doesn’t matter that we choose to kill. What has been the constant sentiment throughout this series?

OUR CHOICES DO NOT MATTER

Ranboo was dead man walking before the show even began. Do you really think Hatch really is gonna let Ranboo die on his own accord just because twitch chat felt bad for him? NO! He is probably being reprogrammed as we speak, up and ready for their next show. None of this matters. All of this was for data on the newly implemented live audience Hatch installed to see how we would react to certain things.

How could Ranboo’s death be our fault, when our actions and emotions were also being used by Showfall Media?

Who says we weren’t just as trapped as Ranboo, only we get the privilege of remembering his death.

[yeahivegotanaccount]

The train will go to the next station without fail! @battle-couple-battle

[suffercerebral]

me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

[courtney-deserved-better]

I mean B is totally the obvious one, being nonverbal and all. I don’t know where I fall on that tho shrug emoji. I feel like he’s the type have his hearing aids turned off like all the time. But I also hc Ella as hog for no real reason I just like it for her wait nevermind ask is about something else now I just realized that says hog yaaayyyyy hog typo

Oh also btw Katie + Sadie are sooooo autismal it’s unreal

hog ella!!!

[knbposting]

(fuck last game btw, that is not canon. i refuse to believe that kagami just FUCKS OFF. he stays and completes high school. he stays and gets to play against everyone again.)

[frigginconfused]

A vent post/condensed list of my grievances regarding the state of my current place of living. Well, partially to vent and partially as a cathartic way to keep tabs.

Either way, there is no amount of commission I could do to improve this. I have lived here for maybe two months, and all of this was found out through experience and not actually looking for problems. To preface, I know the question. Why didn't you get a home inspection? Well, you see, had I been involved in the buying process I would have.

It was heated with open flame gas heaters

Undisclosed roaches

Stove top is rusted so bad there's a line on one side that's just missing (not entirely sure if the oven works actually)

Two windows lead nowhere

One window shattered

One window removed and replaced with ply board. There is a window ac unit caulked into it.

That window ac unit does not have a filter… only old dish towels stuffed into it…

Something also lives in that window ac unit.

water pours into the garage when it rains

It looked like a junkyard (we had to rent a dumpster and even that wasn't enough)

There's a blanket hung on the wall, it's hiding a giant spot… I don't know what the spot is.

the furnace is all sealed off, including the vents

the wiring is ALL fucked (and might also all be piggybacked)

there is a circuit breaker AND a fuse box

A single bad outlet may have taken out the power in 2/3 of the house

I don't think under the trailer is insulated at all… There is a fan that leads under it to move warm air down there, intended to keep the pipes from freezing.

The bathroom floor is not secured, and boards are popping up

There is no ventilation in the bathroom and the walls have pieces taken out

pretty sure one of the pieces is screwed in over where the ventilation used to be

there is a draft in the bathroom so bad, that on windy days it blows the bathroom cabinet under the sink open

the toilet is less than two inches away from the claw foot tub

why is there a claw foot tub in a trailer… the step up into it is too high for my mother and there is no grab bar for safety

There is at least one hole in the roof that I suspect an animal lives in

While writing this list I was informed it was indeed a bad outlet which has since been replaced, but also “It is replaced, but the wires are too short and not attached very good” so we cannot use

I also don't think they understand that this is an active fire hazard

I don't have a bedroom, I have a bed in the living room

There are three doors that lead outside. One is the front door. The other two are held closed with boards. (honorary mention the door that leads to the garage, who's handle came off in my hand)

[thebirdandhersong]

Hm

[owlyflufff]

it’s a big win for the jjk and bokuaka stans worldwide OTL

[poke-is-a-dork]

The goo-ality of slime

[littlethoughtsat3am]

It’s not that I miss you less

Now that time has passed since I’ve lost you

It’s like walking with a limp

I have merely learned to live with it’s existence

[magpiesbones]

worst thing about being disabled is that now I am fully and completely aware of exactly how much I am worth to everyone I know. And it is not a lot!!

[pirpintine]

rises from the grave to draw my wol once again before returning to the dirt

[beyondthetemples-ooc]

You know what I haven't seen?

A Harrowhark cosplay wherein the full human rib cage corslet actually has floating ribs.

I do understand that this is Structurally Difficult to achieve, but its anatomical accuracy would be a secret delight for me.

[bunnihearted]

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