#i choose to believe i can be happy.

[cometchasr]

my sole ascientific belief (i will go to some magic illogical place where i can be with rax and azhar/all of them(tm)) flies entirely in the face of logic and i do not give a shit

[whollyjoly]

i want the whole SEASON of bucktommy

i want buck being wooed - flowers and being taken out and a little protective hand on the small of his back

i want to hear all the soft ways tommy can say evan and the look on buck's face when he does

i want to see them at tommy's karaoke trivia place because holy shit buck would love it (and didnt oliver say that we're getting buck singing this season cause uhhhhh)

i love that this is such a fling, such a happy thing for buck - he is finally feeling that puzzle piece click into place and it is freeing

and i cant wait to see all the small ways we see that play out!!!

let buck be happy challenge 2k24!!!!

[matd0]

he's vloging :3

(background pic isn't mine btw)

[marauders-poets]

[benevolenterrancy]

this is a little belated by I saw @dayinthedeath's discussion about who in torchwood is most likely to be spiderman and I needed to join in with this proposal: it's a team effort in united nerdy idiocy

[eggs-can-draw]

More despair disease au since @lavalave wanted more ✨

[andragoras-in-vanity]

MY BOY, he got started today, i have like 5 more sessions to do his wing and his body and then some colour but now that im not all red and swollen he looks amazing!! his name is Bartholmeo

[longmaxsilvarg]

will forever have a soft spot for chloe cause yeah dawg i get it we can try to avoid becoming attached out of the overwhelming fear of being abandoned again but miserably fail together

[buildingunderstanding]

Don't mind me, I just need to ramble for a minute.

I was just watching this video about who the concept of monotheism isn't actually in the Bible like I was taught, and I've seen several break downs about how the concept of the trinity isn't really an accurate idea.

Now, I was taught which verses to use as evidence for the trinity, and there was often a stress on being able to prove my beliefs, didn't matter what it was if I believed something about the Bible then I needed to be able to prove it with the Bible. I was also taught that the concept of the trinity was beyond human understanding and it was a concept that just needed to be accepted by faith. That while it could be proven through specific verses, it wasn't a concept that our human minds could fully understand and just needed to be accepted by faith.

This has made the shift to Norse Paganism specifically...almost comical? For example, I remember watching another video, that was discussing Loki and how examining different texts and different kennings for Loki, it's reasonable to draw the conclusion that Loki is actually Lođurr in the Voluspa.

Is this idea absolutely proven? No. Do I choose to believe it anyway? Yeah.

Because I was taught that I don't have to fully understand something to believe it.

The way I was taught faith and a lot of things about religion and whatnot from the church wasn't great. But it did teach me something things that have helped me adjust to this new way of faith.

I was taught that personal experiences with the Christian God and Jesus were evidences of their existence. By that logic, personal experiences with other deities are also evidence for their existence. Yeah, there are still things that I trip over now and again, like being taught that Satan is always looking for opportunities to deceive people, but if I can accept praying that I'd get home safely and seeing a rainbow as a sign from God that my prayer would be answered, then I can accept my interactions with Loki as real too.

The church messed me up in a lot of ways, but teaching me that sometimes you just have to accept things by faith wasn't one of them.

[d-parade]

Can never express my opinions publically without:

“You have a mental disorder delusional tranny go kill yourself like the 40% instead of wasting resources mutilating your body.”

And

“Stop being such a cis bootlicker you’ll never be accepted by transphobes you delusional miserable bigoted terf.”

I can trigger both sides of the spectrum. How cool is that?!?!

[possamble]

Ooff I see that threesome WIP. Appreciate all that warning. I don't think I have the heart in me to read that hahaha. Just feels weird to have two women in a relationship and insert a man for funsies. But hey, maybe it's just me being being into only Farcille and them being monogamous and only for each other. I'm just gonna pretend it's a separate Falin and Marcille from a little creature universe so I won't look at them differently when I read the fic hahaha. Still will be reading anything else from you though. You're one of my favorite fic writers and will be waiting patiently for updates!!

I truly appreciate you being frank with what you want and don't want to read and being civil about it-- but I have to say. I'd understand and accept if you looked at me differently for making that kind of content. Maybe I'm not the kind of creator you thought I was, or my creative priorities don't line up with yours, and maybe you enjoy my content less because of that. That's all fine and well--you have every right to curate your own fandom experience and I encourage everyone to do so.

But it's very curious that you specifically said that you'd look at the characters differently. I would understand if you wanted to separate them bc it doesn't fit into your preferred image of them and that's all. But at first glance, your wording implies that they would be somehow tarnished for you if they decided to sleep with a male friend for fun some years down the line.

I don't know you, and I won't pretend I have any standing to interrogate you on a minor word choice. But here's an unsolicited heads up, if you'd humor me: you may want to examine where that sentiment is coming from. It could very well just be a knee-jerk reaction to non-monogamous content for your favourite pairing (I get that, I'm usually the one privately bitching when I see Marcille or Falin shipped with anyone else) but it could also be coming from a place that's very disparaging to adult wlw who sleep with men of their own volition. And I hope you'll agree that's something worth being wary of in yourself.

[markiafc]

a good suicide narrative is very important to me tbh!

[aparticularbandit]

So the thing about the interplay between DR0 and DR2 is this - the question of if you went back far enough, could you prevent someone from becoming who they become?

And that's kind of what we see in play out in theory in DR2. If you remove those years from the Remnants, if you remove their relationship to Junko, then they can be - can become - entirely different people.

Which would then beg the question of, well, if you can do this with the Remnants, could it have been done with Junko? And the answer, given in DR0, is absolutely yes. Junko without her memories - Ryoko - is nothing like Junko.

(Which really counters her argument that she was born that way because, clearly, she was not. If she was, then the loss of her memories wouldn't change anything. But it does.)

The question then becomes, well, how far do we have to go? Or, more succinctly, how many memories do we have to remove to make Junko not Junko?

DR0 removes everything but Matsuda. It gives her short term memory loss, and it makes her rely entirely on her memory notebooks. (And, really, I'd argue that it should have removed Matsuda, too, but didn't, which might be a flaw. Kind of like how when Kyoko had all of her memories removed, she could still figure out she was a detective. (And I guess the idea of memories returning gets addressed first in DR1 - because Kyoko slowly remembers her relationship with her father and her grandfather. Junko didn't perfect Matsuda's method; she just shortened the time frame, which made the effects last longer.)) And, of course, when she regains her memories, she immediately reverts back to being herself, as planned. (And maybe this is a form of testing, not of resolve but of...of something else.)

I would expect that Junko would need more than her two years removed, that it would need to go farther back.

But how far? Where is that moment of no return, where Junko becomes, well, Junko?

[forcedhesitation]

I finished act 2 again, but properly this time. and I cannot even begin to put into words how satisfying and beautiful all of that was. I loved act 2 the first time I played, but figuring out how to save the last light this time, properly completing halsin's quest, storming moonrise towers with jaheira and her harpers, seeing aylin reunite with isobel...all of it. I love it even more. and the beginning of act 3 feels all the more rewarding, having fixed my past errors.

[dawnbreakersgaze]

Oh we're getting there 🔗🔗🔗

The blue line shading is so satisfying but takes 1000 years. At least it's peaceful 😌

Bless whichever of our caveman ancestors first drew a picture, because art really is the best therapy.

[00nutritionalvalue]

It is not time nor space that I fear, for Love transcends them It is not possession of your heart I yearn for, but to fill it with my love and my being It is not the jewels of this world from you I seek, but that of your mind and the tenderness of your touch It is not your freedom I wish to take, but your sovereignty maintain It is not distress, but peace that I pray to descend upon you Only truth do I long to hear, for my ears are  now deafened to the cries of falsehood Only truth do I intend to speak, for my tongue is the sword that will cut the ties of deception Only truth do my eyes now behold, for in it, illusion cannot be Only love it is I wish to give, Only love it is I wish for you to know For only in Love is ecstasy found In the depth of your eyes, destiny I have glimsped In the sweetness of your kiss, intimacy I have known In the beat of your heart, compassion I have heard In the safety of your arms, refuge I have taken In the closeness of our flesh, flames of passion I have fanned If, in my silence, it is solace you have found, then no more words to you from my lips shall part If in my absence it is joy you feel, then far from you I will remain But if in my words you have found resonance, then my truth I will continue to utter If in my company, it is comfort you have felt, then by your side I will always be Do you see now how I love you, Unconditionally Beauty lies in what is real I say to you now, this is real. Faith and hope are the bridge to my love, Would you cross it? Millions of stars watch over you, Shining rays of fortune, Casting out the darkness of fear I pray their Light illuminates each and every step of your way Guiding you night and day Hear my words Deny them if you please But in me, love you will always find Only Love, for you there will be