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leftythehelpingtankengine · 4 days

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The Princess, the Pea, and the Beast

Chapter 1: Grief

Word Count - 1.1k

Also available on AO3 & WattPad

Summary: In an attempt to provide aid to a runaway princess, Luigi gets himself mixed up in an arranged marriage to a prince of a neighboring kingdom, what he doesn’t know is that a certain evil king also plans on having the princess’ hand in marriage regardless of whether or not (s)he’s partial to it. Will he find a way out of this, or will he end up falling for one of them? (or both >;))

Content Warnings: none yet

It took Luigi about half a day to reach the castle, the sun could be seen along the horizon peaking over soft, lush green hills that seemed to stretch on forever. His attention was on the castle ahead of him. Princess Peach and her handmaiden, Toadette, were already at the gate waiting for him. They wasted no time ushering him inside, leading him to an empty room. Peach walked to the center of the room while Toadette closed and locked the door behind them.

“Alright Princess, I’m here, can you please, tell me what’s going on now?” Luigi said following the princess to the center of the room.

“I need you to attend an upcoming ball for me, I must leave the kingdom posthaste. I’m needed elsewhere, some personal issues have arisen and can no longer be delayed. Toadette will help you make sure you’re well-prepared for the ball and any other situations that may occur in my absence. I will be writing you as soon as I arrive at my first stop, the Flower Kingdom, in Sarasa Land, as I promised to keep you and Toadette updated.”

“Princess, you’re still keeping us in the dark, why can nobody know about what we’re doing?”

She was nervous, so she took a second to think before responding, “Mario would try to stop me, he wouldn’t approve of it. I cannot risk anyone preventing me from doing what must be done. I apologize to both you and Toadette for being so vague, but please, trust me.”

Luigi sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. Going against his better judgment, he decided to trust her. He dropped his stuff onto the ground and turned towards Toadette who was now approaching him.

“Alright, what first?”

Toadette spoke up, “We need to get you fitted to Her Highness’ garments, we have also prepared a wig and a cover for the lower half of your face. Follow me, Sir Luigi, the Princess will wait here for when we’re finished.”

Toadette took him by the hand and hurriedly led Luigi to the Princess' chambers. The garments Luigi needed to try on were lying on the bed, seemingly prepared before Luigi’s arrival. Toadette instructs him to change into the chemise and she’ll take his old clothes to his other belongings and then lace his corset. Luigi went behind a dressing screen in the room and handed Toadette his clothes.

He was left alone to think about what he’d gotten himself into, getting himself in the chemise and stockings. He was beyond embarrassed, he couldn’t bear looking at himself in the mirror on the opposite side of the dressing screen. He knew he would have to at some point but chose to wait until he was in the full disguise. Unfortunately for Luigi, Toadette returned motioning for him to sit and lift his arms. She made quick work getting the corset on him and then promptly lacing it.

“So, what do you know about the ball, Toadette?” Luigi asked, breaking the silence.

“I know that it takes place on the Winter Solstice and it’s held in Her Highness’ honor. And… that we’re going to need to do something about that mustache…”

“Absolutely not, this is where I draw the line-”

“Sir Luigi we don’t have a choice, you can’t use a fan all the time to conceal the lower half of your face.” Toadette was stern.

“I want answers from the princess before we discuss this any further.” Luigi stood up and marched to the door, irritation and fear plastered to his face.

Toadette chased after him, calling out in a vain attempt to get him to slow down or stop. Luigi threw open the doors to the Princess’ bedroom and found she was nowhere to be seen. His face paled and Toadette, panting behind him, was confused until she caught up to him.

“Oh… oh no.” Toadette gasped, her hands covering her mouth.

Luigi turned towards Toadette fighting tears, “Toadette. I’m done playing mind games with you tell me EVERYTHING.” Luigi’s voice cracked.

Toadette shrunk, “All I know is that since she was pulled aside and notified of the ball, she hasn’t been the same. I don’t know what about it has got her so worked up, she said the ball was celebrating the Winter Solstice, however, I doubt it now. I swear I know nothing more, she’s been unusually distant as of late. She was just here! She was here when I dropped off your clothes.” she sounded like she was one second away from crying.

Luigi frantically began looking for the belongings he had brought with him. Gone. All of it was gone.

Luigi is overcome with panic, “She deserted us… She-”

“Sir Luigi, we must get back to the fitting now that the princess is no longer here.” Toadette regained her composure, the gravity of the new situation donning on her.

Luigi did not attempt to resist and followed her to put on the rest of his new clothes.

He looked at himself in the mirror while Toadette laced the back of the bodice and adjusted his wig. It was uncanny how much he resembled the princess.

“Sir Luigi, we must remove your mustache now. Do you know what they’ll do to us if they find out we let the real princess disappear?” Toadette’s tone is stern and serious.

“How are you going to explain the nose?” Luigi scoffed, folding his arms.

“We can say you were stung or bitten by something if anyone asks, now hold still, I don’t wish to nic your face.” She responded quickly.

It seems she had thought everything through, she turned him to face her and began to prep his face for shaving. Luigi was still fighting against it until she brought out a blade. He froze and she took the opportunity to shave his mustache off in two flicks of the wrist.

Luigi whipped around and began mourning once he saw a clean-shaven face staring back at him. He crumpled to the ground clutching his face, silent sobs racking his body.

“I do apologize, Sir Luigi, it had to be done. I’m hoping you will not have to do this for too long. The princess ordered me to make you look the most like her, including mustache removal.” Toadette apologized, her voice was sincere and remorseful.

She took this as her cue to leave as Luigi didn’t respond. After hearing the door click shut, he couldn’t silence his sobs any longer. He moved to the bed, his crying filled the now empty room.

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AN: hey sorry its been so long I'm working on the requests and the next chap, ive been super sick and busy ;( I hope you all are having a great day/night <3

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hiding-under-the-willow · 3 months

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Juppet of a man

#atlas.art #artists on tumblr #mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitcraft 10 #joe hills #joehills #juppet #look i. may have committed to the bit a little too hard. i will admit that this may have gotten out of hand #yes this was all for the 'juppet of a man' joke #i've been listening to the song on repeat the entire time i'm never getting it out of my head ever please enjoy this stupid reference #is he a man or a juppet who's to say

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shima-draws · 2 months

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IT'S LUSAN WEEK!!! I probably won't be participating the entire week but I will try my best 😤

Day One: Food | All Blue

(Thanks for hosting this @lusanluweek!)

#Did I commit way too hard to this? Yes. Do I regret it? No :)))))#Does my back regret it? ...A little. A little bit. LOL #Sanlu #Lusan #Lusanlu week #Lusanlu week 2024 #One Piece #Sanji #Luffy #Monkey D Luffy #Black Leg Sanji #All Blue #Digital art #Art #Shima arts #Drawing #Anyway just pretend for two seconds that Luffy wouldn't be drowning in this scenario. LMAO #Illustration #shima-draws

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totally-not-an-awkward-okapi · 2 months

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Still thinking about that little angel I dreamt about a bit ago so I’ve been binging other angel stuff and felt inspired to try to draw him as @hoaxghost ‘s style of angel.

#weirdly the halo was the hardest part to figure out because he very explicitly doesn’t usually have one. but man I’m charmed by it now #I was worried about balancing what’s damage he received VS slight cracks that ended from that damage making him a bit too human in nature #but it turned out pretty nicely even if it was hard to keep them simple and contained #still very proud of the stylization on his eyes making it look like the bottom one is a teardrop #nope he’s a freak #also yeah committing to he/himing the angel #less in a Boy Way and more in a like… gendering a hen male because you need to refer to that specific hen instead of the group #the boy vs the girls #idk if that makes any sense but that’s my own grammar and how it affects the little grub #my art #my ocs

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emdotcom · 3 months

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My'eah, some Sonic stuff I drew, playing with a different style!

Last 3 pages feature Terios, & the last page features Violet -- both are characters co-adored by @carnation-damnation !

#emeraldart #terios #knuckles the echidna #sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #amy rose #rouge the bat #sth #blaze the cat #silver the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic oc #chao #Idk how well it comes across but knuckles not only has his hat from the ova but also a vest with the same pattern as tikal's skirt #the general goal was to give everyone at least a bit of clothing bc the inconsistency in whether mobians wear full clothes or nothing #with little to no inbetween makes characters look overly simple or complicated to the point of straying stylistically too far #I didn't commit too hard here. Just gave people 1-2 accessories.#sonic has a neckerchief & pilot goggles bc I liked how it looked for boom & to reference that he ya know. had/has a plane.#I imagine he prolly wears them when he runs mostly bc he doesn't fly so often & it keeps the wind out of his eyes #I only gave tails a tool belt. felt that it leaves him a bit bare but looks overall okay.#I changed rouge to having this suit then realized i was literally just yoinking blaze's drip & felt bad :(#Silver has a gamer hoodie. I started doodling blaze with this cape she is sometimes mentioned as wearing but not shown in except concept ar #oh yeah there's also a tiny biolizard & i drew chao with paws. for fun #em.txt

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rosewheresheshouldntbe · 2 months

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> Rose: Confess to Kanaya!

Rose: I love you.

Kanaya: Y Yo Ati, Rose.

> Rose: Get swallowed by something that looks like Venom.

> Rose: Get sent to super hell!

> Kanaya: Have something very gay and homophobic happen to you.

Kanaya: ...

What an absolute diversity loss. You find yourself thinking "love loses!"

#Okay this is my highest possible effort post so far; please spread it around like it's the flu or something #I put so many hours into this like actually lmao I surprised myself with how late I stayed up #going on a content hiatus soon so I suppose that fits that I put out a high effort destiel meme & scene recreation as a last hurrah #send in requests though; i'll get around to them when I get around to them! love to see what you folks come up with!#the sprite assets are up on my main but I'll reblog them here later; not sure if I'll have a tag system or not for it yet #new supernatural & homestuck memes format dropped along with a couple of spn AU designs & beyond canon too #yes I even included a shot of super mega turbo hell; it's got a little bit of everything as it should 🔥#rosewheresheshouldntbe #kanaya maryam #rose lalonde #rosemary #homestuck #originals #hs rose #hs kanaya #spn #supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #please don't expect me to commit to the bit this hard every time because that's absolutely not realistic; I just got super into this 😂#I can't believe I designed entire new outfits around rosemary just for the bit of doing this joke; just for this little side blog #the rose outfit is just an edited version of her hs beyond canon outfit; but still! I'm happy with how she & her wife look 💜

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jestiamy · 9 months

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qsmp makes me feel like a conspiracy theorist almost constantly. I see someone go "yeah bad almost exclusively chooses tophats in games when given the option" and I immediately run back to my conspiracy board and pin that next to the photo of q!slime and q!mariana saying they'll adopt juanaflippa because she has glasses like q!slime/q!mariana respectively under a sticky note captioned "??? the original spanish-english egg pairs were designed in a way meant to attract certain parents to adopting them???", that's connected by red string to a note pad page stating "how random was the parent pairing REALLY?" with nothing under it - which is then connected to a string that leads to several polaroids containing the ending(s) of the wall and the wreckage of the button, captioned "why build a wall that big only to have it end at a certain point?" followed by a string connected to a notebook page in the middle of the board reading "the illusion of choice?" - connected to several other seemingly dead-end questions and theories, as well as some slight stragglers only connected to eachother and not the middle. and then I look over my board covered in feverish notes and I go. yeah okay so I may just have like a slight problem

#quesadilla island and the illusion of choice.#i am so normal #I spent. a little bit too long on this bit I think.#saying stuff #I have more thoughts but it's just the generic stuff.#why does the federation want the residents on the island so badly. how did wilbur even leave the island.#why did islanders from the island itself vs others who aren't arrive the same way. what the fuck is up with the codes.#why do the feds insist on having a good rapport with the islanders. why do they try to desensitize them to their presence via tasks.#why do they try so hard to look non-threatening to the point even grunt workers carry around bubble wands to blow on the regular.#a lot of this is easily “the federation wants to build trust” but that's also a why. what do they stand to gain from doing that.#hold on where's my nerd tag #i think.#oh my god really.#that's. okay yeah that checks out actually #qsmp #quackity smp #q!cellbit a man of the people (I am burning with questions about the federation all of the time oh my god.)#edit if you see spelling mistakes in this post do not correct me please I have a fragile ego #I did not notice until four hours had passed and now I'm committed to pretending I do not in fact care about it

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age-of-moonknight · 11 months

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“Danse Macabre,” Moon Knight (Vol. 9/2021), #25.

Writer: Jed MacKay; Pencilers and Inkers: Alessandro Cappuccio, Alessandro Vitti, and Partha Pratim; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Moon Knight vol. 9 #Moon Knight 2021 #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Steven Grant #!!!!?! this is quite the direction to take Steven’s character but the more I think about it this does line up with how Mr. MacKay has been #writing Steven (in what unfortunately little time we’ve spent with him in this volume RIP)#I remember a while back getting an ask about my take on each of the guys and I was trying very hard not to describe Steven #as too much of a shark but that seems to be the direction they’re going with here #And I’m not complaining I can see Jake being the avuncular rogue with Marc as the wild card and Steven having a (very) analytical bent #I guess sometimes I can get a bit hung up on the early Moon Knight comics before the writers had committed to Moon Knight being a system #when Steven Grant was rather another cover identity where Marc was specifically trying so desperately just to escape his past and be normal #but in this day in age #with our current understanding of the Moon Knight character #I fully support Steven Grant being just as tactical and capable as Jake or Marc #he might prefer different methods but he can still definitely and efficiently get himself out of a scrape

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busaikuknee · 2 years

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kentucky chainsaw massacre

#aew #chuck taylor #art #my art #read the sentence “i bet people are going to make slasher chuck art after the chainsaw bit on dynamite”#and while i'm at best ambivalent about mr taylor i do love committing too hard to the bit #fun fact! there is an entire alternate piece i made in a six-hour fugue state after dynamite yesterday #i liked it conceptually but i think making good on that concept is a little beyond my skill level atm. so i just redid the whole thing

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leftythehelpingtankengine · 2 months

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Beauty, the Pea, and the Beast

Prologue

Word Count - 1k

Also available on AO3 & WattPad

Summary: In an attempt to provide aid to a runaway princess, Luigi gets himself mixed up in an arranged marriage to a prince of a neighboring kingdom, what he doesn’t know is that a certain evil king also plans on having the princess’ hand in marriage regardless of whether or not (s)he’s partial to it. Will he find a way out of this, or will he end up falling for one of them? (or both >;))

Content Warnings: none yet

It was a windy autumn morning, not enough to be chilly yet. Luigi was still snug in his bed sleeping with his brother in the other room. He was rudely awakened by a loud banging on the door, he did his best to ignore it and hoped his brother would get it. He was sorely mistaken. He sighed dramatically and dragged himself off his bed, through the house then whipped the door open. His irritation was wiped clean off his face when he saw the Princess of the Mushroom Kingdom.

“Oh! Your grace, to what do we owe the honor of your presence?” He stepped aside to let her in and threw a shoe at his brother’s door while she wasn’t looking.

“I’ve come here to ask for your aid Luigi.” she smiled nervously. Luigi noticed that she came unaccompanied by guards or chaperones.

“Of course Princess, what can I do for you?” He was beginning to become concerned.

“I need you to take my place as ruler of the Mushroom Kingdom. I understand that this is a huge favor to ask of you-” she pleaded, “I beg of you Luigi, I shall explain soon. Please, won’t you do it?” She finished, clasping her hands together.

“Why me? Why not Mario or anyone else?” Luigi was absolutely baffled.

“You’re the only one who could easily pass off as me if you wore my clothes and a wig, you’re around my height and body shape after all-”

Luigi held his hand out and winced, “Alright, I get it, your highness. I’ll do it, I expect to be updated consistently.”

The princess relaxed significantly, “Oh thank you Luigi! I also trust you to run the kingdom as I would more than anyone else. Meet me at my castle in two days, under no circumstance do you tell your brother, he mustn’t know yet.”

“What do you expect me to tell him, your highness? I can’t up and leave without a word.”

The princess stood for a moment, her brow furrowed, it was evident she was trying to make up an excuse. She snapped her fingers and looked back to Luigi, “I’ll send a letter calling you away on important business, perhaps an embassy or something similar. I’ll flesh out the details once I get back to my castle. It will arrive tomorrow to give you enough time to tell your brother and be on your way.” Luigi nodded in both acknowledgment and agreement. “I’ll be going now, Luigi. I shall see you in two days' time.” The princess gave Luigi a half-curtsy before walking out the door.

Luigi shut the door behind her and went to check on Mario. He slowly crept towards the door and opened it to be ajar before peeking inside. Mario was still asleep, seemingly unfazed by the events that had transpired. Luigi couldn’t help but smile and suppress a laugh, Mario truly could sleep through a crusade, or any massive-scale disaster.

Luigi quietly shut the door and made his way to the kitchen to get something to eat while he pretended everything was fine. He had never been more confused and stressed than he is now. He had to do his best not to show it lest his brother suspect.

He nearly jumped out of his skin when he heard Mario behind him, “What are you making?”

Luigi clutched his chest for a moment before wordlessly handing Mario a plate already prepared for him. “What’s got you so worked up today Luigi?”

Luigi froze before replying, “You just scared me, I wasn’t paying attention, that’s all.”

Luigi turned towards him, went around him to go sit down, and eat by himself. Mario looked like he wanted to say something but ultimately decided to take the plate and sit down with him.

The rest of the day was quieter than usual, neither brother having much to say until they had decided to pack it in for the night. They offered one another a ‘goodnight’ and parted ways to their rooms, for Luigi sleep did not come easily. His mind was filled with thoughts of the unknown, he was tossing and turning in vain hopes of silencing his anxiety. Eventually, he managed to sleep but it felt as though he didn’t sleep a wink. His eyes snapped open when he heard some loud knocking on his door.

“Luigi, wake up! There’s a letter here for you. It’s from the Princess!” Mario shouted from behind the door. Luigi felt his stomach drop as he got out of bed and slowly approached the door. He swung the door open and took the letter out of Mario’s hand, pushing past him into the kitchen to read it.

It read:

Luigi’s presence is required in the neighboring Flower Kingdom on my behalf. Further information will be provided upon arrival. Please begin the journey as soon as you receive this. This matter is of the utmost importance and urgency.

Warm regards,

Princess Peach

“What’s it say, Luigi?” Mario asked, now sitting at the table with his brother.

“The princess wants me to go to the Flower Kingdom immediately. She said I would be told why when I get there.”

He stood up and made his way back to his room to begin packing. Mario went to the kitchen to start preparing food for Luigi to take with him on his journey to help Luigi take less time to get everything together for his several-day-long trek. Luigi decided to take a few days worth of clothes to make it seem like he was going on a longer journey than he was going on while also not having too much weight slowing him down. He grabbed his bag and went into his and his brother’s shared living space.

“Hey Luigi, did she say how long you would be gone for?”

Luigi snapped towards his direction not realizing he was there, “Nope, I’m assuming she’ll tell me once I get there. I wonder why she wants me to go.”

Mario nodded in agreement, his brow ever-so-slightly furrowed. “Sit down, I’m getting food ready for you to bring with you and a hot meal before you go.”

Luigi smiled, his tiredness evident, “Thanks, Mario.”

Next chapter: Coming soon

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birdmenmanga · 8 months

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LAUGHTER IN THE END OF THE WORLD IS SOOOO GOOD I CRIED BC IT WAS JUST A ONE SHOT IN MY HEART IT SHOULDVE BEEN LIKE . IT SHOULDVE HAD THE PLACE AND LOVE DEMON SLAYER HAS. IT TRULY FEELS LIKE IT HAD THE POTENTIAL FOR THAT. SORRY FOR THE CAPS LOCK

LMAOOOO LITERALLY... one shot in my heart as well... I KNOW it was 5 chapter I KNOW it was a whole ass volume but it just FELT like a oneshot you know?? like it was only the tiniest glimpse inside this huge huge world...

It's not even like it was a self-contained story that had no more story left in it either. There was a CLEAR thing that the narrative would have eventually built up to, which is that if their way of living is hunting down the demons they'd eventually collect all the mouths... and then what? it really begs the question y'know???? the demon's coming back?? what's going 2 happen to haru and luca?

I have never watched or read demon slayer so idk how the two measure up but yeah. where I live anyways demons slayer has so much hype. it genuinely sucks (to ME) that miss tanabe's works are always so underrated </3

#asks #anonymous #laughter in the end of the world #I guess they both have guys with a little sister who's cursed in some way?#I will say that just based on my impressions haru seems to have much more agency than that other girl. nezuko?#like just in fanarts it seems like she's either depicted as 'girl who is seen but not heard'#or 'going feral and losing control of herself entirely'#I have so many feelings about haru specifically. I think it she really began the age of completely unfuckable girls for miss tanabe #good for her #like it is SUCH a good subversion of the 'girl who looks young but is much older than she seems'#because like. genuinely. her character design is unsexy. it veers so hard into abstract symbolism there's nothing there to sexualize #and like I think it's such a good depiction of kids too #like you know she's acting but these 'old but younglooking girls' often act childish in a cute way you know!!#but haru's like childish in a 'I have not yet learned self-control and I am going to pull your hair out for saying mean things :((('#which again. completely unfuckable. it's so great #but also the setup between the siblings is so crazy... they're literally built to be codependent #they actually can't live without the other and they will never be able to form longterm meaningful relationships with other people either #just the two of us we can make it if we try type beat #like haru will look like a kid forever. she will literally never be respected and will always need a chaperone in regular society #and then luca committed so hard to the bit that he also can't just... go back to being a normal person either #in my mind if it became a longer series I imagine it'd be a bit like mushi/shi... like standalone stories of a wanderer

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pawbeanies · 18 days

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You can post porn gifs but can't type out the word sex? Wild

no i'm being silly fkskfd i'm used to typing it out that way because i think i'll get shadowbanned ... now i just do it to be silly

#asks..?!?!?!#anon..?!?!?!#also it is wild ur right... but i am silly and wild #i committed too hard to the bit because i thought it would b at least a little funny but it didn't land ...

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cementcornfield · 7 months

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Ja’Marr changed his profile picture on Instagram… our boy is going through it rn 🥺🥲 Also could be because he misses his son

Also Joe Mixon commented “We got you brother” 🥹

i did notice that 😔 and i'm trying not to read too much into it! i can definitely imagine he's taking comfort in loved ones like his son right now to get through it (it is a super cute picture)

loved all the supportive comments on joe's post yesterday, from mixon, to cj stroud, to patrick queen - a bunch of the receivers etc etc. that man is so loved by his teammates and it shows!

#as for ja'marr changing his profile pic....oh man #i don't want to speculate (i mean of course i do) and obviously i don't actually know what he's thinking and have no way of knowing #but it does feel a little bit like he's giving up this season #or not giving up - i can't think of the right words #but perhaps not as a committed #he's a professional athlete his body is everything and you can tell this man thinks about his future a lot #(how carefully he managed his hip last year - talking about wanting joe to be here for the future)#and we know how he feels about joe #how much faith he has in him #i don't doubt his loyalty is to joe first and the team second (especially with his other bestie tee being out)#i think he realizes that their chances are much worse with joe out #an objective reality #and maybe he doesn't want to risk getting hurt by trying too hard and i cannot blame him at all!#i remember earlier this year after the titans game and when he was saying the always open stuff and just generally upset #someone during his stream asked him if he had any touchdown celebrations planned for the year #and he said he 'hadn't been thinking about anything like that'#aka he knew with a hobbled joe he wasn't going to be getting many td's #now he DID get one with jake in garbage time last game #and i feel like if jake does well then ja'marr would be willing to change his mind and go for it #he's gonna do the best he can with whatever the situation is #ok rambling too much i've thought about the simple act of a man changing his picture to be one of him and his son (perfectly reasonable!)#way too much!#good morning!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#sometimes i feel like my brain is disintegrating in my head. coming apart like a lump of paper in a pool of water #it comes with this weird feeling of vertigo. like i turn my head and my thoughts are spinning too fast. they keep going despite my standing #still. its also a but when you start drinking something and when u stop your thoughts r hazy and ur breathing is heavy #maybe thats not a universal experience. sometimes when i stop i realize ive slipped half out of my body #and now im stumbling from day to day trying desperately to remember all the things im supposed to be managing #but there are these big holes in my brain. like im missing chunks of grey matter. the bits that would let me stop and start things #i dunno. when im taking measurements i have this image of myself on my knees holding the fragrance pieces of my life together as they #crumble thru my fingers and my insides shrivle away from the walls that contain them. i go hollow like a gord #and ppl say oh ur so passionate abt what u do. and i go brittle bc it doesnt feel like passion it feels like the symptom of an illness #i dont care. im just trying to burn the hours away. make time vanish. and for what? what am i building toward? i have an answer that i give #interviewers but i dunno i never thought id make it this far. but here we r. unhappy and lacking in purpose. its just that this last year #was so weird bc about a year ago i burned out so hard that i never recovered and it just got worse and worse. i feel now that ive stopped #the bleeding at least but the bitterness is still there. still infecting my words and curving my spine around the injury #and in theory i understand the path to healing but its hard when im just so. i dont even kno. angry? im not mad but the word feels right #but i dunno what id be angry about. maybe im just sick of empty tasks and not caring. i used to have passion and enthusiasm now i just feel #fragile and hurt. bracing for pain. and that makes me so sad. i wish i could go out into the woods and wander. just breathe #but no. instead ill start another day identical to 100 others and hope to keep my head above the surface bc im sick of swallowing sea water #anyway. itll b fine. hopefully this week i can commit to a program. hopefully. another program halfway across the country. this time #vertically. landing me still 2 time zones from home. but hopefully there i can breathe a little. maybe. hopefully. well see #unrelated

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orcelito · 10 months

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ok i finished re-editing ITNL chapter 6 & posted it. also i finished chapter 5 yesterday & forgot to say anything lskdjfslkdjf

man. chapter 6 sure is something. lots of catharsis here.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #im now on page 60 of 190 for the overall doc. so. im making progress.#stilllll only about a third of the way thru in word count I Guess. but the latter stuff will hopefully not take me as long.#i was stuck on a bit of chapter 5 for a few days. which held me back. but im through that now.#and there were some wordings and such i wanted to change in chapter 6. minor things. but still things that were bothering me.#chapter 7... nothing major that i can think of. just gonna check for general wordings probably #chapter 8 there's smth that i know i want to fix. shouldnt be too hard to do.#chapter 9 has a sentence i struggled with and was not satisfied with so im probs gonna go back and try to improve that again #but HOPEFULLY it won't take me too long to do. chapter 9 is a pretty short chapter overall.#chapter 10 & onwards is around when i started taking More Time for chapters due to life things #which means they were less rushed AND THUS will hopefully have less things i want to fix with them #aka. they will not take as long to edit. Hopefully.#i know ITNL readers are wanting that chapter 15 already and Believe Me i want it to. but im committed to this full re-edit.#i needed to reread ITNL anyways to get back into the mindstate. and i sure am reading.#editing makes it so i take slower than a simple reread. i could read 75k words in a day Easily if it was just a matter of reading.#but i care about fixing up a bunch of the little issues that have been bothering me. and so im doing a total re-edit.#im making solid progress. best case scenario i could maybe finish in like a week. im gonna try.

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llatimeria · 1 year

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youtubers b like "there's no direct evidence that this easily fake-able story was faked, but it was posted to r/nosleep,"

#cadaber seems alright but he did literally just do this fjfhdhhb #honey.... nosleep is deliberately a fiction sub. it feels wrong to call nosleep stories 'fake' bc most of them arent trying to be real #nosleep def commits to the bit a little too hard for my tastes though. very few nosleep stories are actually good #i feel kinda bad for cadaber though bc like. im sure hes not a total idiot. he probably knew the story was fiction/'fake'#but likely went ahead telling it anyways because youtube is a nightmare career and theres only so many real creepy stories out there #id call him morally bankrupt as a joke but the reason i know any of this at all is because he admitted it in his video that he thinks it #was probably fake #it wouldve been very easy to just not mention what sub it came from and id be like #Well That Definitely Sounds Fake Anyway . but yknow

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