#i did dishes and laundry

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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[scificrows]

i like to make fun of murderbot for being all "i hate everyone, i don't care about anything or anyone, fuck off" while simultaneously caring very much about the people around it and the situations it finds itself in. i love how it "accidentally" ends up caring quite a lot about the friends it makes along the way. but i think something that i tend to forget is that murderbot actively decides to care - at least at some point in its story.

idk, as a person that struggles with depression, this paragraph from artificial condition really resonates with me. prior to all systems red, murderbot had contracts. it had routine and it had protocols. it knew what it had to do to just get by, how to perform so no one would notice it had disabled its governor module. it was deeply depressed, yes, but it was functioning (for lack of a better word). in artificial condition, murderbot's routine is gone. it cannot go on in that state of numbly going-from-contract-to-contract, putting in as little effort as possible, consuming media to cope. that option is gone because it escaped (and note that escaping the company was not an active choice, it kinda happened to it). murderbot has two options now: it can either gather all its energy; actively do something new and difficult and distressing; change something in its life and try. or it can let the numbness and the emptiness take over and stop trying. if murderbot wants to survive as a rogue secunit, it has to try. no matter how difficult that is. the wording in that paragraph really hits home for me. the way the non-caring sees an opportunity to slip in and to take over. does murderbot even care? does anything really matter? is anything really worth the hassle? wouldn't it be so much easier to just let your mind slip away a little, to go numb, to be passive, to watch media and wait for things to happen to you? wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking and struggling and feeling complicated things? to stop making an effort? you've been dealing with a lot lately and maybe it's time to just shut down. maybe you'll just take a little break. just slip deeper into this chair and start the show. time flies when you're not paying attention. trying is exhausting. who cares if you don't do the things you wanted to do, you were supposed to do. it'll be fine. let's just ignore those things for now. just let the non-caring take over. just stop thinking. you can deal with the aftermath later. just watch your shows. who cares. but murderbot cares. it decides to care. it decides to fight with all it has and i think that is so brave. and i think in the later books caring is less of an active decision for murderbot. once you start caring, it's easier to keep going than to stop; and murderbot, for all its "i'm a grumpy rogue secunit, leave me alone" behavior, knows just how important caring is. so it's not that it doesn't know what's happening; rather, it lets itself care. tl;dr: caring is not the default for murderbot, it's just the more difficult of two options. and it decides not to take the soft option. it decides to struggle. it decides to care. and so it does.

[tethered-heartstrings]

dishwashers and washing machines and dryers take an hour+ a cycle is kind of fucked up for people who have very little motivation/energy and get things done by random and intense spurts of energy where any down/sitting/waiting time will axe the momentum at the throat

[labelleizzy]

Today I had an empty dishwasher 🍴🍽️🔪!

Today is the day of Empty Laundry Hampers!

Today, I have joy in the completion of

Endless Tasks

Satisfaction in a job well done (even as the tasks pile up again already.)

Rebloggen if you deserve a moment of satisfaction in the endless grind. Rebloggen for empty sinks, clean kitchen, folded laundry, and the executive function to do All The Things when you must.

Inhale, exhale, repeat. Take the satisfaction where you can get it.

[yellobb]

Read Nimona and it was EXCELLENT. Gonna have to check out the movie tomorrow after work :)

[bright-and-burning]

masterminding being an adult who can handle living on their own and taking care of themselves (forced myself to do laundry at 10pm AND just spent the 35 minutes of the cycle do all sorts of tasks i’ve been putting off around my apartment. including two that have been on my list since i moved in!!)

[anatheyma]

you guys ever so bad at comforting people you start doing chores you've procrastinated instead

[engelsschwert]

okay whatever demon just possessed my body can come back next week again. I actually managed to do housework like a responsible person.

[bucephaly]

Hiiii everyone hi

[puppybong]

anybody else feeling repulsive in the eyes of god or is it just me and that dick grayson guy

[runakorift]

I think johnkat is good because I imagine it to be like John and Karkat having to go from leading everyone to some sort of victory, to just chilling, but now it's a battle on who does the fucking dishes or laundry and almost always ends up with Karkat getting what he wanted but in the most convoluted fucking way imaginable.

KARKAT: WOW, FOR A GUY WHO SEEMED SO CONFIDENT HE COULD SAVE US AND WITHOUT A DOUBT MAKE A NEW UNIVERSE, YOU SURE SEEM *AWFULLY FUCKING QUIET* OVER A MENIAL TASK LIKE DOING THE DISHES, EGBERT.

JOHN: you want me.

KARKAT: WE ARE NOT DOING THIS RIGHT NOW.

JOHN: your pitch flirting is awful, to make me feel better you should do the laundry. :B

KARKAT: HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY TIME SUCH POOR HUMOR AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT? IS THIS YOUR PRANKSTER'S GAMBIT'S TRUE NATURE OR ARE YOU GENUINELY THAT FUCKING DENSE ACROSS THE BOARD?

KARKAT: DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER THE SHITSLOSH CONVERSATION WE HAVE BEEN FUCKING GOING BACK AND FORTH ON FOR INDESCRIBLE HOURS?

JOHN: no, it's been so long i kinda forgot.

KARKAT: JOHN.

KARKAT: JUST DO US BOTH A FAVOR AND CLEAN THE DISHES.

JOHN: what? no! i dont want to do the dishes.

KARKAT: ARE YOU—

John is grinning at him, and comes over and gives the troll a soft kiss on the cheek, stroking the other one softly. Karkat, shocked and speechless, watches his matesprit walk back over to the sink and turn on the water. He snaps out of the daze for a moment.

KARKAT: THE HOT WATER, YOU IMBECILE!

John 284 - Karkat 12 [amount of times one "won" so to speak] [John's really good at it] [Karkat has his moments] [[Read tags]]

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

The weather properly turning to fall this week and the rain starting seems to have flipped a switch in my head. Suddenly I've been able to actually like... do? tasks?? And some are the sorts of things that I've been putting off for weeks, or even months. No idea how long the momentum will last, but it feels good. I plan to take advantage of it while I can.

[milkweedman]

Coincidentally my usable warp is like exactly as long as my dining room. Point is tho, i am finally done thank fuck

[everswift]

me about any task i need to perform more than once: damn this is just like the myth of sisyphus…

[sqirtle]

there is one task left but i cant do it guys. can someone come pick up a mashed potatoes packet from the store and make it for me :(

[laurellament]

Weekend looks