#i don’t know how to interact with people on tumblr

[foolishxprincipalitee]

What is hyperfixation like?

So, I didn’t care about Sherlock Holmes at all until about six weeks ago.

I watched BBC Sherlock as my gateway drug, then read a bunch of fic, started listening to the podcast Sherlock & Co, bought a copy of the new queer anthology When the Rose Speaks Its Name, started watching the Jeremy Brett series, and now I’m reading Bending the Willow: Jeremy Brett as Sherlock Holmes while simultaneously cycling through BBC Sherlock - AO3 - Sherlock & Co - When the Rose Speaks Its Name - Jeremy Brett - misc. Sherlockian googlings on a daily basis.

I can feel dopamine coursing through my veins every second that I get to interact with Sherlock Holmes related media, which is a considerable amount of time. I draw fanart at work and scribble gay little thoughts in my journal. There is not an atom within me that isn’t vibrating for Sherlock Holmes and Sherlock Holmes byproducts.

And yet nobody in my real life wants to talk about it with me, no matter how hard I try. I tried reaching out to my brother who has always been an ACD Holmes fan and he literally hasn’t replied to me in a month. He’s got kids. All I’ve got is a new Sherlock Holmes hyperfixation.

I posted some of my new art on Instagram and received a very weak response even though I was really excited about it and still think it’s some of my better work. I deactivated my account because I was so sad.

The isolation impacts me negatively. It pushes me further and further away from “real life” and into escapismland, because that’s where all the dopamine lives. I find myself on Tumblr or making edits on TikTok where no one really knows me or cares about me but people who care about the same media I do might respond.

It would mean everything to me for someone to care both about me as a human and about my interests, especially in the first few months of a hyperfixation when I literally cannot shut the fuck up about it.

But instead I am doomed to this lonely life of soaring highs, swinging from media fixation to media fixation, telling strangers on the internet that I am desperately in love with fictional characters, and crash-and-burn lows that most people don’t even understand.

I am a 30-year-old woman technically diagnosed with both bipolar and autism spectrum disorder. I am a weird gay aunt who will never have a longterm partner or children or possibly even close friends. I am actually a really nice and cool and hot person.

And I am only in love with Sherlock Holmes.

For now.

[zahri-melitor]

Bringing this discussion back because not that there’s a strict divide, but two very common ways to interact with fandoms have always been: “I want to count and collate everything” and “I want to transform it and play out implications”

And these are not exclusive! They overlap! People who want to count shit usually need to start creating and transforming to make their counts work (this is why we have retcons and Crises to fix the problems identified) and people who want to write transformative stories are often playing out “well this was overlooked or these two things don’t match; let me fix it” and have been playing fix the jigsaw together as well.

But the general stereotypical divide is why Reddit is more about power scaling and “well why is Superman saying he doesn’t know Santa is real, they first met in Superman’s Christmas Adventure #1”, while Tumblr is more about should these two characters kiss and what if we overlaid our own emotions about this story onto the characters and played it out.

(Both sides like winning no prizes and trying to explain how to make Donna Troy or Hawkman’s history function, because the impulses come from overlapping places, as I noted)

But I think sometimes people need reminding that to transform you first have to count (so you can see what you’re working from) and to count you often need to transform (because when you’re building a power scale that’s how you figure out match ups that haven’t happened on page).

[apollos-favorite-child]

ooc post abt some drama

So I’m pretty sure everyone has either interacted with @/demigod-jack-hearth or at least seen some of the posts that were made abt his Circe au. I’ve been trying to keep track of everyone’s thoughts on this (namely @unhinged-waterlilly and @if-chaos-was-a-boy who both have really helpful posts about it) and since I’m capable of producing coherent thoughts every once in a while, I thought I would share my thoughts on all of this.

So I should probably start with the AU, which really was the cause of a lot of this chaos. So first of all, making it in the first place was a very interesting choice. I’m not sure if Jack based it more off the odyssey or the epic musical, but either way it’s just a very weird decision. I understand people like to project on their character which makes sense, but Jack never mentioned being r@ped. (And I hope he never was) but it feels like if he was comfortable enough to make that part of an AU, he would’ve probably mentioned it one of the times he was trying to defend himself.

I understand that HE might’ve thought it was a fine change to make since he was comfortable with it, but I’ve seen a handful of people saying it made them uncomfortable. I’m aware it’s not his job to make sure everyone is happy, but the whole AU was really unnecessary knowing it could’ve made someone uncomfortable.

People even went to Jack saying they were v!ctims and they didn’t like his AU, and he basically told them to fuck off, without ANY condolences or apologies to the people for having to go through that. Those people shared their experiences and he just didn’t care.

And YES Odysseus is a fictional character, but his trauma is still basically being disrespected. I’ve seen a couple of people saying other are being dramatic since they are angry about him being invalidated, but it makes sense to me why they would be angry.

One anon (who was a sa victim of I remember right) came to Jack being rude, and SO many people have been rude to this anon, calling them either rude or dramatic, but honestly I think they were just really angry about what Jack had done (which is perfectly understandable) and they didn’t really think or bother to be polite when they sent that. They made a mistake too, but I don’t think jacks response was any better.

And once he realized that he was wrong (after having to be confronted by multiple people) he NEVER apologized. The words “I’m sorry” were not on a single one of his posts. He basically was just trying and failing to defend himself. This all could’ve been solved much quicker with a simple apology, but he’s more concerned with making sure everyone likes him and that he’s right so he doesn’t have to deal with any guilt.

And now he’s apparently disappeared and has been self harming and just struggling a lot. But you want to know what I find interesting? Jack never mentioned having a boyfriend, and now Fred has taken control of his account, responding to almost everyone and trying to defend Jack. I might be the only one, but I did NOT understand how to use tumblr at first, and it took me a while until I even learned how to reblog people and tag stuff. Even once I did learn how to tag people, I wasn’t tagging 20+ people on every post like Jack does. Another interesting thing is that the blog said something along the lines of “I didn’t mean to blah blah blah” and sounded like it was Jack defending himself, but then the message ended with -Freddy

If I was Fred, I would’ve made ONE post explaining why Jack disappeared, and not mentioning any of the sh or breakdowns. He could’ve made a post without mentioning all of that and disrespecting jacks privacy. Instead, he’s been responding to every person and mostly trying to defend Jack in every one of them. He also said he locked Jack out of his tumblr account, which you LITERALLY CANNOT DO unless he took away Jacks phone, which just seems really controlling, even if he did think it was best for Jack. So yes, this is me saying that I don’t think Fred is real. Especially since Jack is a ROLEPLAYER, and we are completely used to acting like different people.

Going back to the self-harm topic, I think that parts very weird as well. He’s made self harm jokes, and while I know perfectly well people can use humor as a coping mechanism, that’s just another really insensitive thing to do. It just doesn’t really make sense to me how you can make self harm jokes one week and then let your boyfriend tell a bunch of people on the internet you’ve been trying to hurt yourself.

Overall I think this spiraled into a lot more than it should’ve been, and this all wouldn’t have happened if he had just apologized, or just never have made that AU.

jacks tag list- @zariahthewitch @thegroovydaughterofhestia @if-chaos-was-a-boy @the-gods-strange-children @silena-daughterofaphrodite

@fabulousdaughterofhecate @weakest-son-of-sun @chaos-pers0nified @neoptolemus-achilles-son

@bast-the-best26 @goddess-of-bubblegum @gaygirldoodles @luck-is-crucial

@reyna4ever @vicious-daughter-of-zeus @feral-hermes-child @oopsies-i-did-a-thing @unfortunate-daughter-of-hestia

@that-girl-cupid @ariathemortal @love-lightning-forethought @emdabitchass

@kaiaalwayswins @champion-of-revenge @i-was-never-sane @clown-energy-skyrocketing @zoe-aura-of-d3ath

@itsyourboyezra @lunar-eklipso-r @pink-koi-lovejoy @that-daughter-of-athena

@sleepy-as-a-song @smileyalater @thedaughter-of-death @gellyhelio @daughter-ofthe-moontitan

@demeters-daughter-is-done @the-smart-and-the-dumb-one @trinket-snatcher @southerndaughterofeos

@creature-under-ur-bed @burnt-out-bitxhes

[tertain-the-original]

I’ve never had this much attention to my art on tumblr before, here are some of my favorite tags so far.

@dropoutparty YEAH they’re just as freaked as they normally would be but it’s because NOTHING bad is happening.

@quee-r-code what a wonderful compliment.

@fuguhui-8 I WAS GOING TO but I decided there wasn’t enough room in the drawing.

@rainbow-feather-22 AHHAHAHA YES

@beetle-punk once again, this is such a high honor compliment. Thank you!

@sometimes-sleeby-octopus THANK YOU I love Red Guy so much, he’s so fun to draw.

[iliveinyourceiling65]

guys, if anyone ever wants to talk to me pls do😭😭. I’m very socially awkward and never interact with anyone on here at all but if anyone wants to pls do :)

[adultbeginnerballerina]

I followed the tag adultbeginnerballerina so tag me in stuff? I love reblogging original posts, investing at 3 notes, etc

🫵 don’t be shy, I won’t be, I’ll reblog your personal ballet posts, I’m excited for you too 🎉

🩰 so tag #adultbeginnerballerina 🩰

[deepseawave]

obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D

[wibble-wobbegong]

yes im besties with my mutuals no ive never had an actual conversation with anybody on this app

[weirdocat83]

I wonder why some people see stuff they like but don’t interact with those posts?? Like, If I see anything that makes me snort or think about things in a new, pleasant perspective? I like it! I want the people who made it to see how much I enjoyed it! And if I want to see it later because I enjoyed it so much? Reblog! That way it stays somewhere I can see it forever!

Maybe I’m just weird but I like hoarding the things I like that make me laugh on social media sites and sharing them with others of similar interests. It makes me happy and even if it can get annoying to bombard someone with a bunch of likes I’d think they’re happy someone is enjoying their work.

[midnightt-vice]

I can’t stand social media if it’s anything other than Pinterest or Tumblr.

[ishipmutualrespect]

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[peapod20001]

In my...✨ depression bed ✨ phase <3

[eeunwoo]

ok maybe it’s time to accept I no longer like kpop on a deep level

[sophistikitten]

have most hannibal fans seen silence of the lambs

[sexyleon]

I officially completely unplugged myself as much as I can 🙃🙃🙃 I’m way too reliant on my phone and waiting for people to talk to me is super unhealthy and has made me very anxious. I literally turned off ever single possible notification and will purposefully not be responding to messages because I just need time a space to figure out how to navigate myself without validation from others.

[blonding]

it’s been like 10 years of being on here and i still have no idea how to use tumblr. like am i supposed to make text posts on here or not bc everyone just reblogs images and says nothing i simply can’t keep living like this….. it’s too quiet