#i dont know how to develop and have ocs without imagining interacting with them so its hard...

[skunkes]

out of all of ur ocs I’m still Wyatt’s #1 fan,,, holds all of my nonexistent wyatt merch…. But all of ur ocs are so great and I e loved seeing ur art evolve over the like. oh my god it’s been like a decade almost NDKENDOROANDOE scary

wyatt u will always be famous and the original fan favorite... honestly i wish i cld control what my brain fixated on bc i do want to bring her back for a bit since her and talon are the same breed of person (they're both cats.) and they wld have some good interactions! ive thought of two good ones and a text post one inspired one and i wanna see if i can be motivated to doodle em soon if at all lolll ^_^ havent drawn her in a while so im rusty but:

(also thank u for sticking around ^_^)

[etincelleart]

Hey, I have a stupid question in terms of fandoms, if that’s okay with you? Is it weird if you get obsessed with one series, but never got around to see or go through the series? I remember being told that I tend to hyper fixate on things, in which I either see a series or a character that I get obsessed with, in which I either gave the series a shot or not. I recall with a couple of series, such as RWBY where I became a huge fan of Penny, but I never watched the show and thought about watching. But in the end, I chose not to watch through the series, but did gain a couple of ideas when researching the RWBY series for my OCs. Another example was with Vox and Alastor from Hazbin Hotel, but unlike Penny and RWBY, I gave Hazbin a shot and became a fan after going through the first two episodes (which I still need to watch the rest of the series haha.)

I’m sorry if it sounds like I’m rambling, but that was kind of how I was feeling when it comes to fandoms and characters lately, ya know?

I'd say it's your way to enjoy things and there's nothing wrong about it, maybe you just like characters and to develop them on your own and not knowing the canon story and elements is fine, honestly this is a fun concept aha

Most people like characters from stories they like for sure, but if you like a character before even knowing the story it's okay to enjoy them and just do your things in your corner, and maybe if you want youcan check the story later

To me that's kinda like when I fell in love with Ori and the Blind Forest OST, I listened to this soundtrack for years before actually play the game, and it made me like it even more aha

You can like characters for various reasons before you actually get to know the story, the lore... Penny for example has an amazing design and vibes, and I can totally see how you could like her without knowing her

I remember when I watched V8 I did a couple of fanarts of her but it never got as much audience as I got during V9, but during V8 I was also mostly enjoying it on my side and checking images and screenshots on Tumblr without interacting much with others. No matter if you know the story or not, you can also totally do your thing in your corner and you don't have to interact with a fandom

(pretty funny but these terms of "fandom" and all were pretty vague and unknown to me not so long ago and I still hate that word and I also hate the word "content" and all, to me it always has been a community/group of people who like the same thing but idk I just imagine it as a crowd of people chilling together instead of a closed and specific group with specific rules)

I dont know where I'mgoing with that but yeah. In any case as long as you're having fun on your side, it's all ok :)

[hey-its-cweepy]

Okay so first off, idk if its alright I do smth like this or not, if it is please let me know-

ALSO- I wanted to try my hand at other characters too! So I kinda just yeeted some of my/your ocs into a wheel and hoped for the best lol

Credit where credit is due: Tiam, Mythra, Leroy and Mellow belong to @fumikomiyasaki!

Anyway-

Marinus and Tiam:

As much as I joke around that he'd just violently grab Tiam and drink from the little straw on his head, (,,, which technically isnt a joke bcs he would and then say sorry while feeling really bad, especially if he left bruises,,,) Marinus would definitely still try to be careful to not hurt Tiam real bad- he'd also always thank him for the drink and be apologetic if he scared/hurt him, unless,,,, yk,,,, you like that sort of thing,,,,,,

Bullies? No problem! With Marinus by your side they probably already went "missing" got eaten but if you asked if he'd seen them, he'd just go "Nope, no idea where they could be :)" and then resume gremlin thoughts

Marinus will sometimes forget certain words from time to time, considering his mom didnt even really want him to get an education and just wanted him to be like a feral siren-

Expect minor things like "Holy shit, Tiam, its a bunch of quack quacks!" And they're freaking ducks-

And speaking of ducks- Marinus hates birds (mainly seagulls/pelicans) but ducks are an exception because "They're the only birds that are nice to me" so I dont think he'd get along too well with winged characters like Rubina-😔✌️

MARINUS WOULD NEVER BITE, SCRATCH, HISS OR GROWL AT TIAM- Unless of course he asked him too

Marinus WOULD however h*ld h*nds (how sinful) and Tiam's crooked smiles will be met with a sharped tooth gremlin smile <3

Also yes, you are right, a LOT of characters (my own/discord friend OCS) are afraid of Marinus or wanna fight 😔🤣 (I think its funny-)

However, just because Marinus has people scared of him, doesnt mean he isnt scared of things too! And he will absolutely freak out if anyone/anything covers his mouth (actually, I think being restrained in general could go here), if someone sees him while he's in siren form, etc (I'll probably add on more another time lol)

I almost forgor to mention, but hair is kinda a big thing for sirens (at least in my head, idk if disney will take it and throw it in my face that its not 💀) so, if Mari is comfy enough, he'd definitely be letting Tiam touch his hair, style it, do whatever with it tbh lol and expect him to do the same with Tiam's! (No, he doesnt care if its sticky-)

Im starting to think of ideas that are more dating-like and idk if thats ok so next character

Amos and Mythra:

THE DANCE COUPLE!!!

Probably only see each other on few occasions bc different schools 😔✌️

Maybe they could teach each other new moves too 👀

Amos, however, will dip just as fast as my dad did the moment somebody from her school/dorm walk in 💀💀💀

He's honestly a real charmer tho and knows how to treat a lady :tantrums:

I imagine ears/tails are also important to beast-people (?) just like hair is for sirens (unless Disney will yeet that im wrong in my face too-) so maybe some nice scenario of Mythra petting/gently scratching his ears while Amos purrs? 🥺 And then he gotta dip bcs Sindren 💀/LH /NF

I'll be honest, Amos is one of the newer characters and hasnt been developed as much as older characters that I havent introduced lol

Momo and Mellow

OKAY so- Momo (blue haired plant baby, I have posted him here before but I need to post a ref lol- I WILL DO THAT SOON THO-) has a habit of straight up running away from people that are taller than her, I mean freaking BOLTING the moment someone bigger than 5'10 (177cm) is in her vision-

But luckily, Mildew seems to be smaller than that, so she'll at least stay! :D

In order for them to be friends tho, they'd have to interact without Dallas in the picture (another piss gremlin I have yet to post a ref of, but basically he tells Momo bs to isolate her from everyone and she'd believe it because toxic relationships✨)

Momo would be really shy at first though, but I think it could work! Like a slowburn friendship (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

Momo is a little passionate about art (maybe not enough to go into full on rambles about different styles n stuff but enough to try it out herself although she doesnt usually share her artworks) so he'd probably occasionally glance over and stare a bit if she notices him making something but looking away immediately if Mellow looks back

(some Momo art for reference!)

Dallas and Leroy

I do not know if Leroy understands that Dallas is just being a crotch gremlin because his parents spoiled him rotten (and he's also only like... 15 💀) but regardless-

Dallas would hands down find a way to try and "egg on" Leroy to do something and then play the victim card in front of Crowley like he does to all the "big spooky" OCs

Like bullying the clothes he wears when he finds out its a heating issue and not "because he dresses weird", probably like "You're telling me a little bit of sunshine is going to screw you over? Quit being so sensitive"

HOWEVER, I feel like he'd just end up annoyed at the spiteful pranks and then the tables would turn as now its Dallas being served some humble pie (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

(Some Dallas art for reference!)

DONT LET THE EYES FOOL YOU HE'S A LITTLE TOXIC AND HATEFUL GREMLIN

[flooficandii]

the oc interaction special™

alrighty folks this is the moment youve been waiting for this is a handy dandy little compilation of nuniq and valotumblr ocs interacting

note:: these will mostly be one-sided since i won't write your oc's dialogue without your permission teehees .

starting off with her more "canon" interactions since me and stars (@starstainedarts) write together a lot 👍

lakan

in the storyline where we mush up all our ocs together, lakan is the one that convinces nuniq to join the protocol

nuniq saw the kingdom logo on brim's pauldron and immediately decided these people were not worth listening to

soOOOO naturally youre gonna wanna bring out the radiant professor who spent the past few years being a sore in kingdom's neck

lakan and nuniq have pretty similar experiences. they're part of the "kingdom fucked up my home" club

although nuniq was still wary and standoffish to the rest of the protocol at first, she and lakan got along really quick

she trusts them enough to take her blood even after seeing them on the field lmaO

lakan is sorta like an older brother figure to her. they're like an unhinged version of her old friend amaruq

they steal her dog sometimes. it annoys her but she can't do anything about it because aput loVES lakan

overall they have a very deep trust and they both empathize with eachother. theres so much lore to go over with both of them but i'll shorten it for the sake of this post hHFJDJGK

tefnut

if lakan is an older sibling to nuniq, tefnut is sorta like a little sister

...a little cousin, more of

their radiants are interconnected (tefnut to water, nuniq to snow) so i like to imagine they help eachother develop their skills

they play this little game where tefnut tries to turn a snowball into liquid, passes it, and nuniq tries to freeze the water blob

its like .. liquid tennis

eventually it gets bigger and bigger , cleo for example would send a wave towards her and nuniq would turn it into a thin sheet of ice

clean, just like that

unfortunately tefnut is a duelist SOOOO theres a bit of babysitting involved /j

especially when it involves yoru

cleo will sneak back into the base from a late night out with him and theres nuniq in the lobby picking tangles out of aput's fur

"you went out with the punk again? mhm. alright, tef. i won't tell your mom."

overall wholesome friendship but they can be very scary when synergized

shatter

nuniq respects cairo very much as a leader

cairo on the other hand, treats nuniq the way she wished she was treated

theyre both people who knows what it feels like to look after/worry about a team, except shatter is much more experienced whereas nuniq was forced to take on that role

shatter helps nuniq feel at ease during missions. this is a competent and capable woman who knows when to call the shots

she's the protocol's mOM lmao

"you're deadly, shatter. i think we'll work together just fine."

"you've got glass, i've got ice. what say we cut 'em up?"

side note!! brim's relationship with shatter, tefnut, and kj helps nuniq further trust him. she respects that he fights for a safe future for and alongside his family

(i am once again advertising how much i love sandstone . shatter and brim old married couple fr fr)

--alright!! i just about covered the lorey interactions so valotumblr oc funsies below this line--

tao (@rerenah)

kingdom. (derogatory)

alSO THE RBF🤝🤝🤝 ITS SO REAL LMAO

theyre both the intimidating quiet type so seeing them together would be . intimidating squared

but do approach them

i dont think tao wants to let on as scary + nuniq will show trust as soon as her gut decides you're good

she admires his selflessness in that his healing requires the draining of his own life force

her respect towards him is in a way similar to the way she respects sage

except in a more relatable way because it involves sacrifice

i honestly feel like she'd yell at yoru to get off his ass because she thinks tao is trying his absolute hardest

she's 100% willing to stand up for him tbh . but this is something tao and yoru will settle on their own so she lets them be

"tao. no need to break a leg for me, alright? if i get hurt, save your stuff for someone else."

"you do so much to protect us, tao. i'm proud of you."

noura (@lemonssoda)

the whole noura situation would throw her off tbh

like

*looks around* CYPHERS KID IS ALIVE???

having noura around helps nuniq better understand cypher. whether he likes it or not his dad side WILL be vulnerable to the rest of the team and nuniq just appreciates that

as for noura herself, nuniq is surprised at how.. different noura is from cypher

if cyphers conniving and secretive noura is very bouncy and peppy

its almost funny

but there are a few similarities, like their wits, info-gathering and maybe even their laugh

(yes this is a suggestion to give noura and cypher the same laugh haha wink wink nudge nudge)

from her abilities and personality i take it that noura can be a little . brash in battle lmaO so that means nuniq would have to keep a very close eye on her

it pays off though, sometimes it takes brute strength to reinforce a tight defense

i think these two would get along!! noura might (lovingly) annoy nuniq but she cares for her. on a mission nuniq might try to protect noura specifically because cypher's already lost his family once, and she'll try to stop that from happening again.

"noura, put down the snowballs. only i can use those. okay? okay."

"i gotta hand it to you, noura. that was fantastic. this isn't permission for you to run into the enemy again, but.. good job."

aurora (@a-valorant-effort)

dude i wont lie i feel like nuniq might turn to aurora for mentorship sometimes

nuniq had noone to turn to when she was still figuring out her radiance so most of it is self-taught, but aurora could possibly give her some wisdom that she could never grasp on her own

if ever she hears about how aurora acquired her radiance she'd be so.. surprised

after something so scary and life-altering it's amazing to see how composed she is

she has the experience of a school teacher and the radiant mastery of a goddess

she FEARS this woman. in a good way

i think the closest comparison i could make is with astra?

both astra and aurora have the capacity to fuck up the world as we know it but they're on the good side. thank god

"aurora, nakurmiik. you make my job so much easier."

"i'll try my best to help you protect this place, aurora."

koi (@niagaragrape)

KOI IS SO SWEET.

KOI . IS SO . S W E ET

shes an aggressive and mobile pusher but shes polite and follows orders so shes nuniqs type of person fr

i feel like these two would make snowmen together no doubt

then koi would slap some ink and stickers on them

koi is everyones little sister i said what i said

nuniq is not exempted one bit

in that sense i feel she'd be the most protective with her? not so much as to smother her of course, koi is still a grown lady

but she wants to make sure nobody takes advantage of her kindness

glares at yoru

now of course yorus nice to her and everything but nuniq just wants to make sure he doesnt say anything stupid

hes just.. blunt and insensitive sometimes so its hard to trust a person like that with koi yknow

koi? nuniq will let you cry into her dog just putting that out

"koi! i have an extra parka in the back of my closet. just say the word and it's yours. i'm sure you'll spice it up with some cartoony patches, yeah?"

"if you find yourself in a pinch, koi– run to me. i'll provide you some cover."

cub (@fishincherrycola)

ok wait interactions aside could i as the writer just say i love how droopy cub is HFJDKGKDK

she's so sadness from inside out-coded /pos

fish put this interaction in the comments and i loved it so im gonna put it here

"cub— CUB. you're not supposed to put that in your mouth. it'll cut up your tongue and freeze it, cub. goodness."

.. context, cub was Consuming her snow

nuniq WILL question cub's choices for being into chamber but like. oh well theres nothing she can do

(same with lakan i will mention)

(or any chamber-dating oc in general. but her opinions aren't mine i encourage you all to get his french ass)

she will gladly keep him from interacting with astra he gives her the nasties lol

but since cub chooses to associate herself with chamber,,,mmm,,,, maybe she won't try to interact with her that much outside of work

sort of a silent agreement but it's a teeny bit selfish on nuniqs' part because its mostly her own motivation to keep astra safe in case chamber wants to weaponize her

aqua (@aurorasoratumbles)

similarly to tefnut, i can imagine aqua and nuniq practicing their radiants together!

i think this is a given for any water radiant oc lol

hehehe theres the little prompt of aqua and nuniq dishing the dirt on anyone in the protocol.. tfw you love your teammates but sometimes they just irk you and you HAVE to talk about them

okay though

aqua being close to chamber?

and nuniq being on good terms with aqua?

that forms a little bit of a strange triangle

nuniq can't exactly break a tight bond because of her distrust towards chamber, so in this scenario,,,, she might actually learn to *retches* trust chamber a bit

especially with how chamber genuinely seems to be a good friend towards aqua

im not sure how it would come to light exactly, but if nuniq ever found out about what aqua did to her brother? she'd sympathize so hard

she's heard many stories about how the vp's radiance costed them their normal lives and their loved ones. she's been there too, just not on this level

angsty lore aside (aqua may you find some rest gHFJDJGJ please take a nap and eat some gummy worms) nuniq thinks aqua brings a lot of value to the team

ukiyo (@melonnmiru)

any kind of radiance that involves things not immediately visible to the eye (such as astra's cosmic powers, or spiritual/otherworldly interference) catches nuniq's attention

i think nuniq does believe in a few spiritual things herself, mostly from inuit mythology

so for ukiyo to bridge the gap between the dead and the living,,,,a scary power, but an amazing one when used correctly and put in the right hands

that being said i'm not entirely sure nuniq would trust in her abilities yet

she'd rather have ukiyo train her radiance first, or keep watch on her if ever she has to go into the field

so as much as she doesn't want to, she'll be a bit strict around her

its for her safety mostly, its one thing to be given radiance– another thing to be in charge of literal spirits

chameleon (@lianecamoufle)

canonically...there might be a bit of wariness/hostility because of chameleons history as a kingdom scientist

as with all kingdom employees it will take quite a while for nuniq to trust her

especially considering chameleon hasn't shown any clear resistance to kingdom, and was only taken in after her radianite exposure

in fact, nuniq wonders if shes aware of all the atrocities kingdom has done

viper acknowledges her faults as a kingdom chemist, brim wears their symbol almost as an act of rebellion (in my headcanon at least) but chameleon hasn't shown any remorse whatsoever for what kingdom has done. either she's naive to their actions or she directly helped in them, which nuniq fears

her being childhood friends with chamber unfortunately does not help the case ,,,,,

as much as nuniq wants to trust her friendly face her gut instincts make it difficult to do so. she'll respect her as a colleague but she'll try to keep her distance

"all these processing plants. reminds me of the one that they built over my home. maybe you might know something about it, chameleon?"

"gotta say, turning invisible is a really good fallback. running is what kingdom does best, right?"

[panickedforcefield]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE: MUN & MUSE

Fill out & Repost ♥ This meme definitely favors Canons more, but I hope OC's still can make it somehow work with their own lore and Lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multimuses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

Tagged by: @ifthearmorfits , @polyhexianchicken

Tagging: @raysofsinshine @eloquent-music @symphonicdemise @omicrontheicequeen @wild-at-spark @rebel-heart-icy-spark @knockoutsapprentice @kups-war-stories and anyone who wants to it^^

MY MUSE IS.   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless

* is your character popular in the fandom? YES/NO

* is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  WELL… / NO / IDK. (I mean, I really like the Bot)

* is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

* are they underrated?  YES / NO.

* were they relevant to the main story?  YES (Sorta??) / NO. (I am so sad about that. He deserved better)

* were they relevant to the main character?  YES (In a way. He was kind of a turning point) / NO

* are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO. (No idea)

* how’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?

That is quite hard to determine. I try to follow canon up to the point of where Kaon killed him. But the more I play and write him, the more new aspects he gets, the more things he experiences and the more off-canon he gets. But thats Character development.

SELL YOUR MUSE! (aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutual.)

This Truck can carry you anywhere you want to go! Just dont let him run out of fuel and Highgrade, don't abuse him and you have one of the loyalest souls in the Universe on your side. This scared and scarred Bot is build like a brick wall and even has some special abilities. I am not talking about his Magna Clamps, which lets him magnetize himself to different surfaces, I am not talking about his Outlier Ability to generate Forcefields!! I am talking about his empathy! This is one, maybe naive, Bot that can think about others viewpoints and where they come from, he is thinking about what he can do about it. This steady Bot can hold so much fuel, you won't believe it! He even always has some juice packs with him, that he offers others. He is the perfect guy to take with you for any occassions. Not bad looking, not as dumb as others perceive him to be and with a strive to show himself to others!

NOW THE OPPOSITE! (list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?)

Even if you think you know him, you don't. He learned that people judge what they see, so he tries to be perfect n their eyes, helpful and polite. Its a mask. He seldomly lets someone get past behind those masks anymore. He is very unsure of himself, very easily guided along with pretty words. But if he likes you and calls you a friend even behind his mask, he would lay down everything for you, which is a nice point for him but an even bigger one against him. He is a drunk, his frame needing way more fuel than other mechs of the same build.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?

To be honest. The first time I saw Teebs in any comic was in the Wrecker-series. And he was just a guy breaking into a situation and smiling that warm smile of his at a friend in need. There was no judgement and no pity there, just a very happy and warm smile. This was the moment I wanted to see more of him. And then I kept on reading. And I was getting more and more desperate to see more about Trailbreaker/Trailcutter. And the more I saw and read up on, the more my heart sank. This was a bot struggling with himself, but smiling for others, being there for others. Someone who wants so depseratly to change and even making true friends along the way after all the shit he had to went through, only to be cut down way before his time, way before anyone could breach all of his walls. And I was crying for him. My heart broken. He deserved so much more, I kept thinking.

It took maybe a few days and a few talks with a friend before I found the courage to really do it, to RP him.

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION

The Teebs in itself is keeping my attention. The many different layers his char gets the more i play him. And the different people I interact with. Gosh, people. I couldn't do it without you. I love the reactions, I love all the little snippets, I love rereading threads or just mentions. It keeps me going and it keeps my love up. Its awesome.

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO.

* do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO.

* do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO.  

* do you think a lot about your muse during the day? YES (Very very much so.) / NO.

* are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO. (I dont know. I wish I could say yes, but I think im making to many mistakes. But I try to get better.)

* are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO. (Most of the time)

* are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. (No comment)

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?

If it's constructive. Constructive Criticism is all well and can only get me to better my writing or to face things I didnt think about before. If its just flames, I delete it right away. Really, just comming in to tell me they hate my portrayal is nothing you do. Flames are used to roast my marshmallows, enough said.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?  

YES!!! Yes, I love those! I can't get enough of those, because really, you can only wrap your brain around issues and questions and HC for so long before you get stuck. Those questions keep my brain and imagination in the loop and I have so much fun to think about those, to come up with reasonings.

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?  

Eh, I mean. Normally people tell me why they think different. There can be quite some good discussions stemming from that, but mostly, we are humans with different ways of life and different experiences. So naturally we will see some things differently. My Muse is following my own way though, so it all makes sense to me and fits the puzzle in my head.

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?

I would ask myself why they would read what I wrirte then. They can just unfollow me if they hate what I do. You can't cater to every whim. You can't play nice with everyone. But really, if you hate my Muse, why coming back to my Blog then? You have your own opinion and thats all great. So, it really doesnt face me to be honest. As long as it doesnt blow up to hate against me or all people liking what I do.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?  

I hope so, but I know or imagine that I am not. I have my problems, my work and time zones to work through. But I dont want to let those get in the way of nice interactions. I am a scatterbrain, I sometimes forget threads. Its not because I dont want to continue, but because my RL is getting really stressy or something is eating my brain capacity. I love my time on tumblr and try to be open minded and nice to everyone. I hope that gets across^^ So, all in all, I want to be an easygoing Mun. And I love others getting in contact with me about everything.

[aggressiveviking]

so-- i want to express my love for something (and im doing it a post here because i tried dishing on chats and nobody seems interested lmao or knew what i was talking about)

ive been a big fan of interactive fictions since i was little - i would play these really old scruffy game-books. that is what we called them here. they were basically books that allow you to make choices as the main character (sending you on a different page according to your choice), having you write down inventory, stats etc. and i absolutely loved them. they were actually the first thing that made me want to write stories myself)

while im at the subject i suppose some of you are aware that I write a bit. I want to explain to you WHY im such a disappointment as a fandom writer (u can skip this part if you want. ill keep it in 1 paragraph) I started writing when i was around 12 years old~ and i basically kept at writing original stories in my native language (Bulgarian) which nobody wanted to read. I moved on from writing solo when I was around 15 – and I started writing in a duo, again original stories. I wrote with different partners - different stories.  4 years ago (20 years old at the time) I found myself at a place where I moved cities and I had grown apart with my writing partners. Unfortunately I had become too accustomed to working with a partner – I found myself completely crippled as a solo writer. I was unable to put together 2 pages before I felt drained and without motivation… which led me to completely stop writing (which was a miserable time because it was also when I stopped drawing altogether- incited by my loss of inspiration and motivation which was closely tied together with my writing) // 2 years ago I started drawing again and I felt motivated to go back to writing so i finally cracked and tried to write fics in english in the hopes that those at least someone would enjoy and i wouldn’t have to feel like i sucked balls as a writer (because that’s how it feels when nobody wants to read anything you write. Even more try keeping that up for almost 10 years. No interest from anybody except for my writing partners. Actually having partners was the only thing that kept me motivated to continue as long as did)...~ writing fanfics turned out to be vastly different than original stories - first because of world building, second because of character creation - both of which is what i most enjoy about writing. Without those i suppose my imagination gets stumped and i can’t think of a plot or character arcs/development (because I don’t feel completely free with the characters or the world~ because they are not mine and I want to honor their original setting as much as I can) which leads me to abandon the projects i start. Another obstacle is the language. While I think im fine as an English speaker I find myself lost when it comes to literature flow – simply said, sentences are structured differently. Also more often than not my vocabulary feels lacking and I don’t know how to best express my thoughts when I can’t think of the right word – something that I have no problem in my native language. These things together lead to a difficulty in my thought flow which in turn leads to me being unable to write or writing very slowly and loosing motivation or focus. When you put all of these together, they make me angry and make me lose confidence in my writing skills and also my language skills so in the end I drop whatever im writing. I tried adapting in a different way – writing first in my native language and then translating it but it takes 3 times longer to write, first to translate the words, then to rework the structure on the sentences and paragraphs. An example for this method is my Fairy Billy fanfic (which was also first an original story that i adapted into a fanfic because my main OC felt flat. it felt a lot more rounded up and complete when i combined it with stranger things lore and harringrove dynamics) In my opinion, yes, it sounds better but it’s hardly worth the effort and time.~ i guess all i wanted to say is that i hate disappointing anyone that follows my fics and also i really miss writing original stories with a partner...

ANYWAY! back to what i wanted to say in the first place->

im so obsessed with these interactive stories i found a few days ago (RPG for android called Delight Games) its extremely fun! there is this series in their library called Ring City (its classic medieval fantasy) and you can play different characters (warlock, demon, rogue, ranger~) basically in the same world (kind of overlapping in places). its such an awesome world build and ive played 2 characters (there are 2 more i havent) and im so in love with it!!  but i played all the chapters they have so far and i have to wait for more (im crying) and i dont know what to do with myself!!! AHH i wanna talk about it so much with anyone else who had played it to compare choices and geek over it lmao

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answers (16)

Anonymous said: A lot of these secrets are really serious and sad so heres a lighter one: me and my sister are knitting christmas socks for the whole family as a surprise. Ive never knit a pattern before but im really good!!

Amazing!! 

Anonymous said: idk if your still doing this but my secret is I fear im a terrible person who only acts nice to rick people into liking her and ik that actually does make me an okay but i still feel im doing it for the wrong reasons and someones going to get too close and find out the truth and hate me

That’s very self aware of you, I think-- probably too self aware. You’re absolutely right to say it’s the trying that matters, but I’m not gonna blame you for worrying about it. I have similar concerns about myself sometimes. I’m aware that for me personally they’re partially justified. Some of my kindness is self motivated. 

I think though (and it seems like you already know this) it’s the effect of the kindness that matters. Maybe it’s better for me if I have “pure” intentions, but if I don’t, I should still do the kind things anyway, right? Because at the end there’s still going to be good. And there’s nothing bad about actively trying to be good, which is all we’re doing. 

Anonymous said: my secret is that ive been chasing after a dream my whole life but im not sure ill ever achieve it. times running out and i dont know what to do if i cant. i feel like my whole life has been put on standby and i dont know the way out. i know ill be okay in the end but i dont know what the end will be and that scares me.

Shit that’s relatable. You really will be okay, but it’s terrifying in the meantime, isn’t it? To have those turning points bearing down on you?

Things will happen. You can’t stop that. Time is gonna continue, but you’ll still be there at the end. Your head’s already in the right place. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that I really, really like one of my friends, but he has a girlfriend and slept with one of my best friends when they were both super drunk. I want the feelings to stop and go back to being just friends, because I honestly think I don't have a chance, but there is a small part of me that doesn't want to let go. I don't know what to do.

Well that’s a bitch of a situation, isn’t it? Romantic feelings aren’t really my area, but I understand holding on to things you consciously want to let go. Emotions always feel like part of me, you know? I don’t want to tear them away. Sometimes it’s better to do it, though. I don’t know from a few sentences if that’s the case here, but I hope you find the way that’s the best for you 

Anonymous said: My secret is I used to be suicidal, in my pre/early teens. I had realised I was lesbian in a small, largely Catholic town and hated myself for it. I was awful at social situations and couldn’t make friends. I hated myself for having baby fat because I danced part time. Then as I got older I slowly got more confident until one day a friend died I realised that holy shit I used to be suicidal and I could have killed myself. I’m terrified that I might get like that again and actually do it

Honestly, and I know this is gonna sound cliche, but I’m always in awe of folks like you. I don’t handle my own mental health issues super well most of the time, and to hear about someone growing? Changing? Getting better? Amazing

Anonymous said: If you're still taking these... my secret is that I don't want to give birth to children ever, and would consider adopting instead (when I'm older), but if I were to voice that to any family member or even an acquitance, they would shun me for it and make sure they try to talk me out of it. I really hate how conservative people put so many expectations on my shoulders

Heyyyyyy same. I’m not planning on birthing any kids, but my parents have come down pretty heavily on the single-women-should-not-adopt-children thing, which is.... bullshit. I’m gonna adopt some kids one day, whether they like it or not. 

You know your own mind and your own plans. Other people don’t have to be happy about them, even (maybe especially) family members. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that I’m a bad friend. I don’t make time for the few friends I have and spend most my time working or being in my room. They deserve better than me.

I don’t think you’re a bad friend. Not being around isn’t bad-friend behavior. You’re not hurting anyone. You’re not doing anything wrong. And I certainly don’t think that it justifies the idea that they should leave you. Relationships are always kinda a difficult balancing act, but you don’t have to be perfect at balancing it, you know?

Anonymous said: My secret is that I'm extremely self-sufficient, I've always had to be. But because there's no one else taking care of me it's so hard to invest my time in others because I'll neglect my own mental state. It make sit hard to develop stable relationships. Every once in a while I re-realize that I'm no one's priority so I have to be my own. And it just sucks.

Shit anon that’s really really rough. It makes me sad with you. I’m not going to tell you you’re wrong, because I don’t know, do I? But I hope you are. 

Anonymous said: My secret is I imagine myself as OCs I create for certain fandoms like Young Justice or Castlevania, and I spend all my time daydreaming of how I would act in episodes and how I would interact with the characters. I think it’s because I’m not satisfied with my life, and I’m also afraid that this makes me either weird or crazy.

Oh biggest mood

I do that too. I’m not in a position to say whether that’s a good or bad thing, but I like to think it just makes us creative. For me, it eventually found an outlet in writing, and that’s been a big source of joy in my life. I had some unpleasant experiences sharing that stuff with people in the past, but for me? I don’t worry about it anymore. I know a lot of people that do similar stuff.

Write some fanfiction, maybe :) You might be real good at it

Anonymous said: My secret is I’m secretly attracted to people who are better than me at stuff

That’s not really my area, but seems to me that’s a pretty good thing to be attracted to. One of the sweetest things I hear around school is people talking about how their partners are going to be such good lawyers. It’s cute. 

Anonymous said: My secret is that my anxiety is crushing me. I don't want to feel this way anymore.

Oh, anon. I just.... feel you. I’ve been really struggling lately with the idea that other people move through life without that handicap, and it amazes and angers me. Why don’t I get that? Why am I like this? It isn’t fair. 

And it isn’t. It just isn’t. You didn’t ask to death match your brain every second of the day. You’re not any worse than everyone else, so why do you have to suffer? I don’t know. I really don’t.

The only happy thing I can say to you is people do heal. It’s bullshit that it takes so much time and effort, but it is possible. I’m better off now than I was five years ago, even if it did take five years and a whole lot of therapy, medication, and energy. You shouldn’t have to fight like this, but you can, and you can win. 

Anonymous said: My secret is Im so bitter most of the time that I cant be happy for others. Me and my best friend are both singers but I can never be happy for her when she gets compliments or any success bc im jealous and im scared I'll never learn to be selfless and happy for other people

You’re only human. You have human emotions. You have every right to feel them. The only thing that matters is your choices, because that’s the only thing you can control. 

I’m so sorry you’re scared. That’s another emotion you have every right to feel 

Anonymous said: My secret is that sometimes I hated myself for not express what I felt because I thought they'll hate me or make distance of me but I'm learning to express my feelings to others and try to be more confidence :) I hope you'll be brave too and do whatever you want to do 💜

I wanna be anon when I grow up 

Anonymous said: My secret is that my hands hurt all the time but in different ways, and I’m scared to get help because I’m scared they’ll tell me I’m making it up or being dramatic.

Man do I hate the shit people put you through to get medical help. Everybody’s entitled to ask, aren’t they? So why are we all making that difficult? Why are we making people feel bad about their own pain?

I understand your fear, but I hope you start asking questions anyway. Other people’s opinions about it aren’t your fault

Anonymous said: My secret is that my dermatillomania has gotten way worse since I got to college, so I’m having to wear headscarves again to keep myself from picking my scalp. I smuggled my scarf collection out of my room without telling my parents.

I’m sorry, anon. That’s difficult. That sucks. That’s bullshit. 

Anonymous said: my secret is that when one of my family members says something homophobic I'll laugh and agree because I'm afraid that they'll disown me if there's any shred of proof that I'm LGBT and it makes me feel like such filth

That’s not your fault. It’s theirs for making you feel unsafe, because your safety really should be your first priority! That’s okay! You’re not being a bad person by doing it. You’re just protecting someone. You’re allowed to make that someone you

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Uhhh,,,I think I may have an obsession problem. I don't crush on people a lot, but when I do it's extremely intense especially when it comes to fictional characters. I've been obsessed with shiggy for about 6 months now and I literally think about him 24/7. I feel like I can't function properly because I'm always thinking about him. It's like my whole life revolves around him and I know it's bad to think like that, but I don't know how to stop :(

so this is an interesting thing to discuss, and i dont really have advice on this, but i can offer my perspective. 

i think i can relate to your experience, anon. but i actually dont consider it to be a problem in my case. i hyperfixate on f/os constantly. i’ve done it for more than half my life, and it brings me immense comfort. whenever i have time to think to myself, i am always imagining scenarios with f/os. and much like you, i tend to have a “flavor of the year” f/o where i can only think about them. i develop intricate stories and love interests for these f/os so i can project myself onto these ocs, and i live in this world any chance i get. this is my way of feeling in control of relationships, interactions, what affects the oc (and by extension, myself), etc. i dont know where i would be without doing this. 

i am not sure how detrimental this is to you. maybe you are unable to focus on tasks because of this, and if that is the case then i understand and completely sympathize with you. i think that daydreaming about fictional crushes is ultimately some kind of defense mechanism. i hope you find some kind of balance in your life, anon. i talk about it with my therapist, so i always encourage anyone struggling with mental health to do the same. 

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The Future of This Blog

I've been rping on tumblr since around 2012, diving into the indie world in 2014 with my beth blog. It was a fun hobby for a long time, but by 2015 it had become more like a chore. Soon enough I made new blogs, moved every month or two and hoped like hell itd have that spark back. There were moments, people, that made my time here truly amazing. I'll talk about them later. For now, I have to look to myself and to the future.

Which brings me here. While I love my muses and I genuinely adore writing them, something on this blog isnt right. Not just this blog, but all of them. I'm burnt out on this site, its multiple issues not helping, and my constant need for external validation is only making this worse. You've all noticed it, begging for poll responses, asking if a character should be added and making the choice based only in how many votes each option gets. Everything on this site is governed by notes, by reactions, by the thought that what I post here is important or interesting to people. That's not why I was here, it's not why I wanted to write, and as long as it's there i dont know that i can continue to be here.

As 2019 draws near I have to make choices to better my life. In 2019 I'm giving up work to study and follow my dream, I'm giving up my home that I've lived in for my whole life to have a shot in a completely different city, a completely different world. And with that, I'm giving up this.

Writing is so important to me, I've grown as a person so much from doing this, I've made friends who mean the world to me, but this has also been so toxic. My deep and constant fear of duplicates - and yes that includes the ones I follow. My desire to be the best version of my muse, preferably the only version of my muse. I crave attention, crave the glory that I've somehow managed to believe comes from the number of people who follow me. It's stupid. Its toxic. It's made me act like a person I dont want to be.

I dont know when I'll come back. Ideally, I want to be more emotionally and mentally sound before coming here. I want to be less busy. I want to be able to have fun rather than cry because I cant decide what to do with a fucking tumblr blog.

I want to mention some people, talk about what they mean to me and how theyve shaped my experience. That's below the cut. But first: means of contact. I dont want to lose friends, but I cant promise tumblr will be a place I go ever again. For now I'll be on my personal @distortedrebel and probably on @greene-rph but come 2019 theres a chance I wont even be on those blogs. So, heres where to find me:

Facebook, snapchat, etc. are available if you message me, I'd message my personal or one of those accounts though because I wont be logged on to here.

@selfsaving - izzy, you alone have given me so much muse and such a strong feeling of being somewhere I belong. You've been amazing to me, from liking starter calls and interacting with a muse no one interacted with to inviting me to discord servers and being excited to write with me. I genuinely can't describe how great you've been to me.

@mrbisected - kate you've been amazing. You've followed me through so many blogs, even when I never knew who Kenny was. Honestly, I kind of dreaded watching Texas chainsaw at first. I really thought I'd hate it, especially for the first half hour or so. After watching I didnt care that much for Kenny, but the way you cared for him and the way you crafted him into a real person really inspired me and made me fall in love. I fell for nikki because she was hot, but with your help she became someone real and I never imagined giving up on her because of how it had felt having a muse I cared about so much.

@withumans - kacie idk if ur on this blog or using this alias but hey, you're amazing. I know we haven't necessarily been the closest, but you've been a really good friend. You've been through a lot and I know you relate to the need for validation here. You're still young, you're going to grow and change over the next few years more than you could ever believe. I love you, I believe in you, I know you'll get through this. I'm sorry I wasnt super invested in some of your muses, you very clearly love rain more than anything and I really struggled to interact with her, not because of who she is but because of how emily kinney was her fc originally. I know its dumb and petty and I hate that it continued into when shed stopped being the main fc. Rain is a brilliant oc, I genuinely love her and her story. Shes developed, she clearly means the world to you. Tumblr, and quite frankly everywhere else, doesnt care about ocs. They dont care about multis. That puts the two of us in a tricky position. Dont give up on rain, dont give up on ocs. Dont give up on things you're passionate about. You have it in you to do incredible things.

@valorfated - ellie weve talked less lately and I want to apologize for that. Weve had issues in the past, the most obvious being the way I acted with the rph in 2017(?). Theres an age gap between us and clearly a maturity gap there too. Looking back on the way I acted and responded and avoided responsibility is clear. I am sorry for that, I know you were going through rough times and it was rude of me to try to make things go my way simply because you werent there to stop me. Its something I've been working on and I'd like to think I've grown as a person since then. I do want to tell you that you're an amazing writer, and I really hope things are going better for you. Writing beth and Maggie was a really great experience, I loved the dynamic because I've never had much of a bond with my own sister. You helped me realize how sisterly bonds should be and because of that I've started to work towards mending my relationship with my sister and its changing my life. Thank you, good luck with everything..

@gavinsaleks - I saved you for last because this might get long. I'm gonna avoid the literal thousand word letter I usually give you on your birthdays because wow I write a lot, but you already know by now that you've changed my life. The ocs we made meant the world to me and really taught me about relationships and perspectives and what's right and wrong in relationships. You, though, you taught me more. You gave me the courage to come out, you gave me the strength to stay alive in times where I felt like that was impossible, you gave me happiness that i never thought possible. I watched you grow up and you watched me mature and everything changed after meeting you. I never wouldve lasted on this site without you, or in real life really. You're an incredible girl and I really hope that I gave you the same happiness you gave me because you deserve it all and so much more.

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It’s time for...The oc presentation of (last) week (yes im late xx sorry) 

It’s Tsubaki’s turn now. Next time it will be a girl, but I dont’ know which one yet, so don’t hesitate to point me one if you want. 

Tsubaki Chuzenji

Writer comment about his development : It is one of the first i created for the class and he was almost completed in one go. Yet he keeps surprising me every time i write him. He’s the kind of character you only get to really know when you put him in action i’m afraid. It is also troublesome because the more i write him, the more he gets on autism-spectrum (which is okay i’ve never written one it’s interesting) but just like Mahô and her mental trouble, i don’t like to state the name of their particularity. Because when you do that it’s easier to say “then it’s her disease speaking” “that quality/flaw is due to the disease” or even to just sum up a character’s identity to that disease name (or sexuality, for all that matters). I prefer only stating facts, actions and emotions, and let the reader choose if he wants this to be this mental disease, or something else. Maybe I'm wrong to do it but I feel more confortable writing this way. 

His character in five words : Introvert, independant, harsh, imaginative, loyal.

His quirk :  Tsubaki’s power is hard to understand, one of the reason why is because as Tsubaki barely talks, he can’t explain it well. But what is sure is that he controls the sounds coming from him. He can change the tone of his voice for example, twist it to make it sound girly or correct it so it sounds right when he sings. When he plays a musical instrument he often let out a small sound, barely audible, so it mixes with the instrument’s sound and make it his own.  

Tsubaki ’is from the “Recovery” family, and yet he uses his power less for healing than fighting. Two reasons for that ; first sounds is used a lot during healing process (for echo, or relaxing the patient) but is not very effective to actually heal. Second is because he wants to prove that he’s not as weak as his family thought he was and for that he must proves that he can defends himself.

His favorite way to fight is to make a lot of sound (clapping hand, snapping fingers) and confuses the opponent with it, making them hear it everywhere but where he’s. He uses the sens against them. He can also makes a person dizzy, as he hits in fact the inner ear (which control equilibrium).

He has some sort of sonar like ability. It’s more like he can visualize where his sound his going as easily as he can picture himself walking down the hallway.

When he was younger he used his power to erase all the sound he as making, even laughing sound. You could see him laughing bout you couldn’t hear it!

Likes : Music, his walkman (yes he has a walkman because CD are better), music instruments, empty room with good echo. People who doesn’t pressure him to talk. His friends. Internet, social network on it and online games.

Dislikes : His pink hair, crowded place, lot of noise, people touching him, social interactions in real life.

His family : His mother is from the “Recovery” family, she’s the youngest daughter of Recovery Girl. She followed her mother’s footsteps and was a hero for a long time, then decided to become the manager of her elder sister. His father is more ordinary, though he did try to become pianist when he was young he gave up on that dream and took an office job in the music industry. Now the couple are both managers, one for heroes, the other for idols. Tsubaki’s quirk is a mystery since his mother’s quirk is to reverse the decay of anything she touches and his father might be fan of music and has a good ear, but his power has nothing to do with it ; his skin changes color depending of the scent around him.  

Tsubaki likes his parents very much ; don’t ask him which one he prefers it would only makes him shut down completely. On one hand he’s very affectionate with his mother and she’s one of the very few he’s accepting to be touched by. On the other hand he has developed a way to talk with his father, using music instead of words ; like a code.

His mother doesn’t understand why his son suddenly stopped talking and is still looking for answers. She stopped trying to cure him / force him to talk after a few years, and her husband convinced her that, since Tsubaki had nothing wrong physically, he would speak eventually if he had something to say. Until then they just had to wait. It’s still hard for her since Tsubaki does not talk to her, at all, not even with the music-code. His mother had done her best to understand what happened when her son stopped talking, asking the kindergarten staff, seeing specialist after specialists, even hypnotizers ones. It never worked.

His father doesn’t need answer for his son’s trouble, but he does need reassurance regarding Tsubaki protection. For him it’s the future that matters, not the past. He knows that his son won’t ever answer their call if he’s lost and won’t cry for help if someone abduct him, so he’s very concerned about the practical side of Tsubaki’s problems. He’s also very saddened that Tsubaki doesn’t accept being touched by his father, at all, not even holding hands.

Tsubaki has an older sister, but their relation is a bit hard, since she’s very protective of him and at the same time very jealous by the way he’s “favored” by their parents. She was also very afraid that her brother would ruin their parents’ marriage. But that didn’t happen and Tsubaki always been sweet and cute with her so she can’t stay mad at him for long. She’s also the one who introduced him to internet.  She was once abducted by villains and that’s the reason why their mother stopped being a hero and signed Tsubaki in the Peace office program for children.  

Overall, the family is centered around Tsubaki and his problem, and very heaved with guilt. His mother feels guilty for her son’s problem, his father feels guilty for not protecting him from whatever harmed him to such extend, even his sister has guilt, thinking that maybe, just maybe if she wasn’t abducted it wouldn’t have happened. Tsubaki feels guilty to make them feel that way and not being able to be the son they all want him to be.

To escape from that guilt, he loves to be out of the house. His favorite places are Peace office, his grandmother’s house (who he is very close to, since she’s a mix of her father, not pressuring him to talk, but also his mother, wanting to understand what makes him ok). He will also like the dorms of UA.

Secret past : “words cuts like knives, but you can’t see or heal the wound they make” despite not remembering who told him that Tsubaki took this sentence to heart. Maybe it is the reason why he stopped talking, but he’s not sure. He doesn’t remember why he stopped himself and now it’s too hard to try. He’s just not used to it, and comfortable with words anymore. All they know about his “problem” is that it started when he was 3 years old. One day he came back from kindergarten, and he just stopped talking. His sister had been abducted at this time and so it took a while for the parents to notice that their son’s silence was not due to the pressure/atmosphere at home. When they realized it was already too late. The kid had always been a bit awkward, even before that, but losing his voice made his strangeness even more obvious to everyone. What is important to understand though is that Tsubaki is conscious of the problem, he wants to get rid of him too, at some extent, but he can’t. He had try and try, but he never finds the right timing, the energy or the right word, so he shuts up. He feels like he lives one step behind everyone, sometimes he even can’t even understands how the conversation goes to one point to another and feels terribly stupid for not seeing what everyone else is capable of. (But he’s not stupid, he knows that, so what is wrong with him?). The other reason he just can’t change now is that is whole life is based on his mutism. The way he acts, the way he thinks, the way his friends knows him and the way his family treats him. When he tries to think of what would his life look like if he could talk, all he can think of is “i won’t be anything special anymore.” and this thought frightens him even more.

Happiest memory : Tsubaki has a lot of happy memories and wouldn’t be able to choose only one. He cherished the first time his sister took him on her knees while she was playing on the internet, on the home computer. He liked every time she explained how it worked to him and the games they did after a while, when they both had a computer to play on. He always recalls with fondness the way they made up a music code with his father, how he first played whistles, then symbals, then piano. He would never forget either the way his mother always brings him into house chores and turns the whole thing into a game, which always end up into a big tickles fight. The taste of his grandmother’s candy is still his favorite. And to be honest, one of the best place in the word for him is the Peace office music room, where he became friends with Satoru, then Max, Riku, Satsuki and Mahô.

Saddest memory : When he thinks about the sentence he’s always kind of sad and scared. But he doesn’t remember why so it’s not a sadness he understands. He doesn’t have a awful memory that put him into tears every time but he’s ashamed of his behaviour when he was 12. This period he calls in his head “the dark age” was when he was introduced to internet community for the first time. And he found out he could talk on the internet without problem, writing was easier than talking. And he said a lot of bullshit, awful things to people he didn’t know and probably hurt some. It got better after some time, and now he has set some rules to himself so it’s easier. Though he’s very slow to answer.  

Best friends : Satoru and Max are his first and best friends. He met them before UA, in the Peace office program and didn’t let go of them since then. Satoru was the first to reach out to him and Tsubaki is probably one of the few who likes Satoru’s power. For this reason, Satoru is also one of the very few Tsubaki allows to be touched by. The friendship took a ong time to be build but now Tsubaki would be lost without it. Max is his second best friend, and the only reason he’s behind Satoru is because Max’s power doesn’t help Tsubaki to communicate with others. But they are more close in a lot of way, since they both like art and that Max is very shy.

Riku is also Satoru’s friends, and like Mahô, Riku is not the kind of person Tsubaki would have try to know better. Still he ended up liking the presence of Riku, as long as someone is there to recall the teenager that enough is enough. Riku has a bit of trouble understanding that Tsubaki needs time alone. He finds very useful that Riku can talks for three person at the same time though, people never complain about Tsubaki’s silent when Riku is here to fill the gap.

Satsuki is more the type of person he would have gotten along by himself. Her calm and composed behaviour makes him feel safe and she’s rarely stressed or anxious. Besides she wants to become a nutritionist and so understands really well mental health problem -or at least try to- without being intrusive. He likes her very much even if they barely communicate. He just hope she feels as at ease as him in his presence. But, when Satsuki started going out with Satoru in middle school things got a bit harder. Tsubaki felt jealous and anxious that his best friend would replace him by his girlfriend. Fortunately it didn’t happened and now Satsuki and Satoru broke up cleanly so everything is as it was before.

Mahô is the kind of person Tsubaki would have never gotten along in the first place if she wasn’t Satoru’s best friend to begin with. Since he had to deal with her a lot he grew accustomed to her presence, and then ended up calling her a friend. He was even surprised to find that they had a lot in common, as Mahô is blunt and rude when she speaks, often ending up hurting people without meaning to. But she also likes to sing (badly) and it’s the one friend he can do karaoke night without a single hesitation. And they grew even closer when Sator started going out with Satsuki, since they were both afraid to be neglected by their best friend. Hopefully it didn’t happen, but Tsubaki and Mahô still exchanged email adresses and talks a lot via text messages since then. Besides she also enchanted his headphones so he could listen to music and important conversation at the same time.

Get along well with : Ryota who also likes to sit a bit away from the crowd in the room to draw, shares his interest in art and is calm. Takashi who is a gamer and likes to write. Kyouji and Kahei are also his friends while gaming, but they are a bit too loud when they play so a bit less than Takashi. Yule, Saiya, Kussan are patient and quiet, so being with them is easy. Yume and Reika are his music friends, since they both play an instrument.

Doesn’t get along with : Those Tsubaki doesn’t get along with can be divided into four categories. The first one, loud people that he can’t keep up with (especially during conversation) Shiori, Koyuki, Kohaku and Riichi (who is the worst because he can divided himself into 7 different people all as loud as the original). He can still manage to some extent, with the first category. He needs time and training and people who can accept that he’s slower when it comes to communication (which is not the case of everyone). Second one would be tactile people who can’t understand what personal space is (and that his is one meter diameter) Yuu, and Goro. Again he can manage with the second category pretty easily, it just asks him a bit more of effort since he has to remember to always be out of their reach. The third one would be those who made him feel uncomfortable for one reason or another, Azuma for example, is scary because of his glare quirk, and silence in presence of Hide turns the atmosphere into a scary movie scene. The third category is harder for him, and he tends to never be alone with them. The last category, and the worst one, are those who meddle into his business and try to cure him when he didn’t ask them to. : Hana and Monmen. He avoids them at all cost.

Crush on : Tsubaki is very interested in romance, especially the one they describes in songs. He doesn’t feel anything like that for anyone in the class though. He’s very close to Yuu on that subject and look for the “soulmate”. So far he didn’t find them. He wouldn’t be able to rank people in his class aloud, but he still thinks that Kahei is the prettiest girl, and Satoru is the cutest boy. (He likes people smaller than him)

Conclusion about his relationship in class : Tsubaki doesn’t like going out of his comfort zone when it comes to socializing, and so he is not putting a lot of effort making friends in UA. This is one of the reason why they splitted up the four friends (Satoru, Mahô, Max and Tsubaki) in two classes. He still clinging to his old friends no matter what.

-Evaluation of his teacher Aizawa Shouta-

Potential as a hero : Tsubaki was a surprise, he didn’t rely too much on his family heritage and has his own style of fighting. His lack of communication though, is troublesome and will give him a lot of trouble in the future if he doesn’t find a way to work with it. For now, he seems to be doing fine with his couple of friends who understands his needs, but as a hero you don’t always works with people you know and used to.

Weak points : His lack of communication and his fragile mind is always in the way. He can be as powerful as he wants, as long as he isn’t be able to communicate with his teammates or be able to repeat the information he stole with his power, no one can rely on him. Hence no one can work with him on the field. I don’t ask him to talk, but i ask him to find a way to do his job without talking, instead of denying there is a problem. Without this, he would probably be on the top of the class during practical exams.

Strong points : His power is definitely powerful and versatile. He can used it to support, fight and spy missions.

Commentary : He passed through recommendation and showed great abilities, but even if we ask of you to be able to save yourself, a hero job is to be able to save people too.

[angry-pan-ace]

Intense Pedophilia and Grooming Trigger warning

but, I never really see myself as a "victim" of grooming or pedophilia but there's many times like tonight where I remember that I... really was. by many people actually. theI had a friend trying to get me into giantess and feet fetish stuff when I was as young as 14/15. I literally have art of it on here still. I remember them calling me mature for my age. We talked about sexual stuff all the time and even eventually had a sex rp. I even showed nudes and stuff as well to them. I can't remember how old I was but I don't think I was a minor at the time. Now I don't even want to talk to anymore despite him being what I had considered a good friend. I get a weird feeling whenever I think about him. I remember him pushing me to vore either his muse or someone elses and promised me a commission if I did it. OF course I wanted a commission so I did. I remember a lot of pushyness and red flags I just kinda ignored or didn't see when I was younger. another one of his friends was someone I talked to often that also did sexual stuff with me. Wouldn't tell me off or anything and would instigate it. I can barely remember what but I remembered I talked about sexual stuff with him and a particular "Younger people can have fantasies about older people and I"m not gonna stop that" sort of thing. There was another guy in his 30s that actually helped me figure out I was bi by pretending to be a girl and initiating rp with my female muse. That was also around when I was 15 ish and continued way longer than it should have. It stepped up from muses to wanting to have sex rps as just him and I. He made comments about how my parents had the same age gap. We stopped talking many times and he'd come back with some "id rather be friends without sexual rps than not be friends" but ultimately he eventually went away and bitched me out because I kept not wanting to have sex rps with him but would talk about sexual things on my NSFW blog about myself. Not in a sexual way, mind you. Just talking about my experiences. If I remember correctly this was either right before or around the time I was 18. I also had another friend that I was really attached to. Our main ocs were together for years, had kids, and I had known them since around the same age. We did nsfw rps and stuff too despite an age gap. We talked about pretty much everything. Things I don't even think I'll ever bring up again. They talked about incest stuff a lot. Felt the same way that I did in the sense of it being fake and harmless. They did a lot of things that made me uncomfortable but the tipping point was when he kept making offhand scenario/jokes that their ponysona that I shipped my ponysona with was a "Philly fiddler." AKA pedo. Situations with minor canon chars and his char. when I brought it up when I ended up ghosting them, they mentioned It was a phase, and I'll respect that from them because I also had uncomfortable "phases" that I've mentioned,. but it still made me uncomfortable as shit and I should've talked about it when it was happening. He also had a lot of political ideals I disagreed with but obviously that's a bit of a tangent and not an accusation. I remember seeing something relatively recently when I started missing him and checked his blog out, about that kid that was forced to dance for older men, and there was some snarky comment about "But it's okay for Tumblr because it's gay." and like. I don't even want to go into how wrong and homophobic that is but yeah. They said shit like that a lot despite trying to claim to be lgbtq+ positive. Despite all that I've yet to find a friend like them even after nearly 4 years of not talking with them anymore. Someone I trust and confided in everything with and talked with on a nearly daily basis. I miss the interaction still but my social presence get worse and worse on here as time goes by, and I don't think I ever will find someone I'll connect with like that again and it sucks knowing that they'll be it. I also around this time (and longer than I'd like to talk about) I used to be into horrible shit. I remember drawing incest porn of two of my characters. I used to have a noncon fetish and had a few drawings with that I've since deleted. Things that I defended when I was younger for the same reasons I still see today. "It's fiction. Its not reality." "I'm not actually into noncon/incest IRL and hate it, and know the difference between it and fiction." "Fantasizing isn't the same as actually doing it." I'm sure you've heard it all. Not really questioning or wondering why I thought it was acceptable in the form of fiction when I hated it in reality. Not thinking or understanding how this could hurt people, rather they were victims or NOT. All this, it hurts because I know I instigated a fair amount of these things, being painfully cringy and downright bold and even pushy about how horny I was as a developing kid, and because of that feel responsible for it. But, god damn I was just a fucking kid. Going through feelings and physical changes and shit I didn't even understand, and was nothing but taken advantage of by these people. While part of me feels guilt and shame for my actions, the other part of me remembers that these were fucking adult men leagues older than I was (with the exception of one who was only a few years older than me) that should've known better. It feels humiliating even thinking and talking about the things that happened, yet I can't even fucking imagine talking or dealing with a 15 year old like they did with me. It puts a knot in my stomach. and while I have that I also have instances of people the same age acting 100 percent responsibly with me that I still consider my friends to this day. It's just so fucking awful what happened. The internet can have such amazing things on it but also so much fucking trash and garbage. If any other kid my age came up to me and told me what I've said now, I'd hurt me so much. I'd feel so much anger towards the people who hurt them and I'd look at them like fucking scum. Yet I don't with them. Yet I don't even consider myself a victim. And tonight it makes me wonder how many others experienced a similar or even the same thing that feel the same way. Who feel "Lucky" because they were never actually physically assaulted like I feel. Who feel like it was just a part of them growing up as a woman like I did. Or that feel completely differently than I do and actually hurt but have no outlet to talk about it. and I remember my family trying to stop it. My dad was livid when he found out I was talking with adults online. My sister suspected some of the stuff I was doing but I played it off because I was a stupid kid. They could've helped me if I had just let them. If you're a minor that happened to stumble here, don't trust a single adult that's willing to be sexual with you. Or calls you mature. or approaches you with anything sexual. Don't do it. Even if they seem like a decent person, they aren't. It's not different between you and them.. It's not harmless. It may not even seem wrong to you at the time, but I can tell you it's wrong. It's awful. If you're an adult and a minor approaches you sexually. Ignore it. Tell them off. Do not interact with them even if you think they're "Mature" enough. Dont' be fucking gross and misuse your power over them. You should know better period. You have no rhyme or reason to act this way and have no excuse. You know better. and I don't wonder if this is why I have so many problems with my sexuality, or asexuality rather. Sometimes I even wonder if it's why I'm asexual. Every time I tried to express it when I was younger was either in a completely unsafe environment or it failed miserably. I was fat and "ugly" and the weird kid, no one but the town horndog wanted to fuck me and that went fucking horrible. Plus, sex ed is a fucking joke around here. absolutely nothing about boundaries or making sure your partner is comfortable or anything actually useful was covered, things I frankly feel I need more of than the average person. Rather I think I'm a victim or not, Rather I think about these things or not, They've affected me for the rest of my life on how I handle and do certain things.   This shit isn't okay. It never will be okay, and I will never support it no matter how many people wanna call me an """Anti""" or what the fuck ever, and I get sick to my stomach thinking that I know people who do. Not from a "Fandom" standpoint either. It's something I've felt for years before the stupid "Anti" and "Anti-anti" terms came to be. This shit harms kids rather you think it does or not. Fiction impacts. It's important as hell, especially fandom based writings and fictions. If you don't approach these subjects with tact, and end up normalizing it/defending it, it hurts people. It gets so frustrating to see the same people that talk about how much fanfics and fandom artist drawings have impacted their lives, how beautiful they are to them, but also have the audacity to say that "Fiction isn't real, it's not hurting anyone." or "it's just fiction writing don't like it don't read" when talking about harmful shit like Incest, abuse romanticizing, pedophilia, ect.

[hey-its-cweepy]

*throws sweet fish boy upon thee*

kidding..but i do offer Cary to see if any of your ocs would interact or ship with him?

HIHI

Buckle up cause we got a lot of OCs to go through✨

Cweepy is naturally very shy, but she'll just need a bit of time to get used to the friendly and outward personality!

I feel like Cho-Hee might unintentionally scare him💀 but he'll try to be slow and gentle! (And guide him back to the right school)

Dallas... I think we can all agree that Dallas is banned from meeting certain characters-

Salvatore and Vincenzo are always a package deal! Sal just has 2 people to look after now lol- But I think Vincenzo's especially gonna like them and question a lot about the sea

Momo is running away Im sorry💀 ITS NOT HIS FAULT!!! She's just spooked bcs he's tall as hell

Dell would probably approach him first! They are registering and taking notes of him just like all the other students! They'd also compliment his singing and say that they think he can make it big

I feel like he might take Faust's teasing a bit too seriously so its probably not a good idea

I dont know if he can tolerate Hextian's smell so maybe not💀 bro cant even get near water/fishes without bad consequences-

Benibara is a no<3

Kenzo is also a no<3 he's very confused as to why he likes forks

Venus also probably approached him first! Gives some advice on how to get used to legs (although she's lowkey confused about the fork thing)

MARINUS IS A HELL NO- he probably joked about eating him once but I don't think its a joke anymore-

Kumo probably wouldn't really talk to him

Aotome is also analyzing/obtaining data from him! Although unfortunately she cant really be near water</3

Banji is only upset he's from RSA, he doesnt like those students either

Kamïk thinks he's interesting, probably more likely to find him when he gets lost though (although if it werent for the uniform, he would've thought he was from octa)

Clover, Avery and Jolie are a NO (unless its just Clover ig lol) but the three of them together are absolute bitches and will definitely set him up in a bad way

Roan probably doesnt even know what RSA is- if he gets lost, he has no idea how to bring him back, he'd also question a lot of the stuff he's collected

Pepper is a NO.

Wolfo, Creek and Poppet are also a NO. Mainly because Wolfo and Creek have had enough of RSA students making fun of Poppet and just automatically think anyone from there is gonna do the same

Seine probably actively tries to scare him at first before being friendly!

Toma probably developed a small crush on him (DO NOT CONFRONT HIM ABOUT THE DOODLES HE WILL BE VERY EMBARRASSED), absolutely head over heels about his singing, I imagine Toma accidently stabbed himself with one of the forks at some point and Cary is very confused as to why Toma doesn't feel it but somebody else does

Vysio is just a GIANT lady holding him in her hands- (I just like imagining giant women holding teeny tiny people ONSODBSLDN) She'd probably only ever leave him just outside RSA however because she's too nervous to step inside (probably introduces him to Yuta!)

Yuta is a blabber mouth, like a little parrot that wont shut up, so he's definitely rambling to him about something (wether its the most ridiculous thing or something more serious), they could show off their collections to each other!!! (Probably introduces him to Vysio!)

Astoria might try to convince him to put on the crown, especially since he seems "clumsy" or "gullible" (A BAD THING)

Elbarnes needs him to pass the clean check first (happens to everybody, including staff), but once that's over, he's more than glad to talk and be friendly! (Although if you show him the collection, he's cleaning everything regardless of how big it is)

Amos is genuinely confused about the sass/jealousy of popular singers on the surface, probably tries to help him get over it

"... No offense, but I'm afraid you wont really be doing much of a positive impact with this envy..."

Enid is very mom-friend like and definitely tried to help him not get lost all the time! SHE WONT LET ANYBODY HURT HIM-

Lorien is intimidated a bit by the height at first, but he'll get used to it! His neck probably hurt from looking up all the time though

Jessica is a NO. Because she envys his figure so much-

Oceana thinks he's really cute!!! Definitely tries to help him with his legs or probably picks him up if she can! She thinks his collection is cool and loves his singing voice!

Indira would probably pay more attention if he's with the fishes/in mer form, she just likes animals more than people💀

Torimiya probably intimidates him on accident in the beginning, but she'll slowly get close with him✨ She's just naturally a bit tough on the outside! ALSO WOULDN'T LET ANYONE HURT HIM

Asahise is definitely interested in the mer-form and probably rambling about something silly the first time they meet- Asahise is showing off their collection of plushies in exchange for getting to see his "junk" collection✨

Tokki is confused as to how he keeps getting lost- (he'd definitely try to help him out with that though!)

Jaiden would love to play the harp with his singing! Asks questions about life in the sea but also prone to rambling about space lol

Mindel is perplexed when he "steals" a fork and uses it for his hair...

"... What did you just do???"

Mindel will definitely ask questions about the sea life and fish friends though, he's just interested!

Frey is babbling about all of their plants and plant life, absolutely loses their shit over the fish friends (they think they're so cute!!!)

Sylvester is definitely flirting with him lmao (will he notice? Who knows✨)

Mao is very quiet so he'll probably have to bend down/lean in to properly hear what he's saying

I think Cherokee's little magic displays might surprise him✨

Omg imagine Shiloh and Cary being friends with the same school of fish- OSNDODNWF- Shiloh is also definitely introducing him to more of his animal friends! (Once he gets more comfortable with him though)

Midge thinks he's cute, but probably wouldn't act on anything, tries to help him get more used to his legs though! (Midge has plenty of legs so he knows✨)

Kendall is IMMEDIATELY designing something from the amount of inspo he gave them

Charlene would also make things for him! You could take her as the mom or grandma friend, she'd definitely introduce him to her friends so its not just her (you may touch the bunny tail ONCE)

Deedee, Janus, "Dolly" and Birsha are a NO.

-Deedee would probably say she wants to take off his face

-Janus is just a terrible person (although honestly its a coin toss), he'd probably trick him into thinking their friends only to do something sinister

-"Dolly" is actually a parasite latching on to someone and she doesn't mind switching hosts if she thought it was worth it (although she mainly keeps to herself so they probably wont interact)

-Birsha will just get him in trouble💀

Lucinda thinks he's very sweet and helps him get back to RSA everytime he's lost (you will probably never catch her without the bear mask though), she's also a quiet one so you might need to lean in close!

Panko just registers him as a cute "little" fish! Would definitely get comfortable enough to sleep on/near him (please dont wake her up)

Canela is a NO because she is literally poisonous and doesnt want to hurt him or the fish friends