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The Three Times James "Bucky" Barnes Broke your heart

This was inspired by @msmarvelwrites 2k Writing Challenge because I'm a sucker for Taylor Swift especially sad Taylor Vibes. I chose the all too well lyrics.

Apparently, I can't do anything small so it's in two parts.

Part 2 Here

Pairs Bucky x Reader and Pietro x Reader. (Not at the same time)

No smut but mentions of sex so 18+

Themes: highschool, cheating, college/uni. Friendship

Words 5659 its Suburban AU.

Winter 2018

You sat on the window seat, head resting on the cool glass a mug of hot chocolate between your hands. Winter in New York was something else, the way everything sparkled in the blanket of snow. This wasn’t your first December in the “Big Apple” but it was your first after moving here. Like the walking cliché you were you had moved here for a Fresh Start, after being offered a once in a lifetime opportunity of working for Tony Stark. You hadn’t planned on taking the job working as head of advertising for Stark Industries. The idea of moving from your small town in Michigan away from your family, everyone you knew and loved, and most importantly away from your best friend and your on-again-off-again boyfriend Bucky seemed ludicrous. You knew James or Bucky as he was to those who knew and loved him would never leave Michigan not if it meant leaving her.

James and you had been friends since, well as since long as you could remember. You had lived on the same street, gone to the same schools, played in the streets on your bikes when you were 8, played in the local park between the ages of 10 and 12. When you both hit 13 everyone assumed you would both either stop being friends or would fall romantically in love. Neither of those happened at least not right away. You two carried on hanging around each-others houses, playing video games and watching movies. Bucky had always been fiercely protective over you, his blue eyes narrowing at anyone who dared to pick on you when you were younger. His eyes would light up when you walked into the room, he loved Friday nights saved just for the pair of you to watch cheesy horror films, lounge around his sofa and stuff your faces with popcorn.

2008

Everything changed when you were 15, you and Bucky had always been inseparable, when no one asked you to combined Prom in your Freshman year, Bucky had surprised you. Showing up at your house dressed in a suit and tie with a white rose corsage, his long brown hair slicked back. You walked downstairs in your ballet slipper pink chiffon dress, your locks twisted into an intricate bun, this was the first time you’d worn heels and you nearly missed the bottom step when you saw Bucky in his Grey Suit stood in your living room. Bucky had tried out for the football team and obviously to no ones’ surprise had become the Star QB. As a result of that Bucky’s grey suit stretched across his muscular frame. Once you’d saved yourself from falling face-first down the last stair you walked over to Bucky grinning like a fool. “Bucky, what, what are you doing here? I thought you were going with Sam and Pietro and the rest of the football team” you said. “Well, I couldn’t leave my best girl flying solo at our first prom now, could I?” Bucky grinned down to you. “Besides the rest of the guys were meeting dates at the dance, so I told them I’d meet them there with you” you felt yourself blush at Bucky’s term of endearment. You and Bucky posed for photos for your Mum and Dad, your Dad trusted Bucky like his own son so there was no awkward father stare down there, you even had your curfew extended to 2 am.

The prom itself was magical, Bucky introduced you to his teammates and their dates. Sam was there with a cheerleader, Jane Foster she was friends with the cool alternative girl Wanda Maximoff who was Pietro’s twin sister they were Sophomores but made you feel welcome at their table. Complimenting your hair and shoes. Pulling you onto the dancefloor to dance with them and the rest of the cheerleaders and co to the pumped-up pop songs that blasted out. The way the gym had been transformed was nothing short of breath-taking, led fairy lights strung up in waves from the ceiling, silver stars hanging against the velvet blue backdrops made you believe you were spending the night under the stars. When the music changed to a slow song -Tim McGraw by an up-and-coming artist Taylor Swift. The Group of girls surrounding you soon dissipated to slow dance with their respective others. You started to make your way back to the table you’d been sat at, happy to finally take a breather when you felt someone tug on your wrist. You turned around fully prepared to slap whatever creep had felt it suitable to touch someone they didn’t know but your face softened to find the familiar blue-eyed, muscular brunette smirking at you. “Miss Y/N” may I have this dance?”, he asked. “Why certainly, MR James Buchanan Barnes” you replied chuckling to yourself. Bucky cocked an eyebrow at the use of his full name before pulling you tight towards him. He wrapped your arms around his neck before wrapping his around your waist. Your breath caught in the back of your throat, you and Bucky had never been this intimate, sure still hugged and had kissed each other on the cheek when you were like 5, but this felt different. The way Bucky enveloped you, the scent of his aftershave mixed with his mum’s washing powder he smelt like cherry blossom mixed with sandalwood. You rested your head on Bucky’s chest, closing your eyes deciding to take this all in. A small smile tugged on your lips as you felt Bucky stroke your hips. You didn’t know it, but he looked at you with such love and adoration and his heart squeezed watching you rest your head on his chest the smile on your pale pink lips. Bucky moved his right hand from your waist and brought it to your cheek, slightly stroking it before lifting your face to look him in the eyes. His eyes shone with affection; his eyes so blue like the ocean you felt like you were drowning in them. Then his lips were on yours crashing against your slightly chapped lips, you cursed yourself for not wearing Chapstick like the cheerleaders and Wanda did. However, as the kiss deepened, and you felt Bucky’s left-hand grip on you together and you melted into the kiss everything else faded away. Bucky drew back and looked at you. Your smile dazzling him as your eyes shone back at him. Neither of you said a word as he pulled you back to his chest whilst the DJ played another slow song.

2009 - 2010

Bucky and you dated from the end of your Freshman year right up until the summer before your senior year. Bucky and you had been inseparable for most of your High School life, he even convinced you to try out for the cheerleading squad in your Junior year, usually you sat on the Side-lines with Wanda and Carol Danvers, it wasn’t that you didn’t want to be a cheerleader it's just you were comfortable being “Bucky’s Girl” the one everyone knew without being in the spotlight, however after Wanda and Carol egged you on saying that you had the moves you went for it. You surprisingly made the squad. You couldn’t wait to tell Bucky, warmth spreading through your cheeks at the thought of how he’d be so proud. You decided to keep it quiet until you had your uniform. Jane and the girls had also promised to keep their mouths shut until you’d had the chance to surprise him. So, when homecoming rolled around, and you got your uniform for the first time you went along to the locker rooms where the football team would be heading off to change before the big pep rally. You stood against the wall one foot pressed against it, your knee bent whilst you waited. You heard Sam and Pietro before you saw them. They turned the corner roughhousing one another playfully. “Looking good Y/N” Sam shouted as he clocked you in your brand-new uniform. “looks like Bucky’s personal cheerleader now cheers for us all,” he said walking over to you and enveloping you in a hug. You giggled and at that moment Bucky Turned the corner with Peter Parker a freshman. He couldn’t see your uniform from the way that Sam’s body was covering yours, but he saw your face and started running down the hallway to you. As Sam and Pietro headed inside, he finally got to see the big reveal, he stopped in his tracks for a second. His eyes taking in every inch of your body, the skirt shorter than anything you owned, the top hugging your curves. He ran over to you picking you up and spinning you in the air as you squealed. “I knew you could do it Doll,” he said as he peppered kisses over your head, cheek, and lips. You blushed at his praise. Your Junior year with Bucky was a blur, between the football games, classes, parties’ dates with Bucky you felt like time was rushing past. You Even won Prom King and Queen at your Junior Prom. To no one’s surprise. However, that summer everything changed.

Summer 2010

You were on holiday with your family, visiting your grandparents in Miami. Every year you for as long as you could remember you and your family would spend the last 3 weeks of summer break at your grandparents. You had begged Bucky to come with you as he had in the past, however, due to football camp, he had been unable to swing it. “Hey, I’m sorry doll, it’s just coach said if I didn’t go he wouldn’t consider me for team captain,” he said hugging you from behind as you sat on your porch steps, his chin resting on your head. He had sworn to you that you would text every day and would skype at least once a week for the three weeks you were there. However, after the first week, Bucky’s texts had become less and less frequent. He’d only Skyped you once and you’d get texts from Various friends asking where you were as you weren’t at the latest party. On the final night of your holiday, as you walked along the beach by yourself taking in the last of the holiday feel your phone rang, you looked down it, confused when the caller Id said, Jane. “Hey, babe. Look I’m not sure how to say this” but uh we’re at a small party at Wanda and Pietro’s there’s about 15 of us, including this friend of mine Nat and uhm well, Bucky’s pretty wasted and well after I noticed I hadn’t seen him for a while I went looking for him”. Jane’s voice sounded stressed. You squeezed your eyes shut as tears tried to escape, not liking where this was going. “And uh, oh god I’m really sorry girl, but I, I kind of walked in on them fucking” Jane blurted it out, going for the band-aid approach as if saying it quicker would make it the cut sting any less. You didn’t say anything, you just stood there staring out the black ocean, the warm sand between your toes, feeling your heartbreak. You couldn’t believe it. Your sweet protective Bucky who had beaten up Miles Morales in 8th Grade for standing you up for an arcade date and breaking your heart. “I, I, I got to go my flights early tomorrow. My, my family will be wondering where I am” you stumbled over your words trying to get off the phone as quick as possible not wanting anyone to hear you cry.

Senior year was one of the most painful years, Bucky had met you at your house the day you got back, sitting on the wooden steps to your porch. He looked like he had barely slept, much like you. You were an only child, but your older cousin who was transferring to Michigan State University for his second year had come home with you. He took a look at Bucky and then back at you, you nodded telling him it was fine and that you had this. He walked inside but not before muttering punk under his breath. Bucky winced, he looked at you his blue eyes that once shone with nothing but love and adoration for you, now looked blank, empty, and almost unrecognisable. His brown hair which he had cut in his Sophomore year looked a mess. He started towards you, but you held your arm out.

“Don’t,” you said. He looked crestfallen and his heart shattered as you struggled to hold yourself together. “Doll, I’m so sorry, I don’t know what came over me, please, look at me, ill make it up to you, it will never happen again” he pleaded with you, his ocean blue eyes stared at your red brimmed eyes, cheeks puffy and streaked from all the crying over the last 16 hours. “Just don’t” You warned him. “Look, baby, it was a mistake, it meant nothing to me” he continued to plead despite your warning reaching out for your hand. His words hit you like a knife, you two hadn’t slept together yet and here he was claiming this meant nothing. You wrenched your hand free from him his touch burning you with his betrayal. “It meant nothing. It meant nothing!?! If it meant nothing you wouldn’t have slept with this Natasha James” you whispered. Bucky flinched at the use of his real name. Oh, how you wanted to shout, thrash scream at him and tell him you would forgive him, but you couldn’t. You had looked up the girls Instagram that night when you laid in bed crying and you couldn’t help but compare yourself to her the gorgeous read head with curves in all the right places. You started to walk towards your house. Unable to keep the tears back and not wanting to give him the satisfaction of seeing you cry, Bucky called out for you, pleading with you. “I thought you loved me James, but it clearly meant something to you, or else you wouldn’t have thrown away two years of dating and 12 years of dating for sex with someone that wasn’t me, we were meant to be each other’s firsts, but you decided you couldn’t wait to get your dick wet so you went and fucked this chick you’ve known for what 5 minutes?” you cried out in anger, Bucky flinched again as if you’d slapped him. “Actually, I met her last year at one of our away game parties” he mumbled, his feet kicking the dirt around his feet. “I think you should leave” you whispered, choking back a sob before you ran into your house slamming the door behind you.

You and Bucky barely spoke that entire final year of school, you had been voted cheer Captain at the end of the summer semester, much to Jane’s approval, and you loved being a cheerleader, so you threw yourself into that as well as the school’s production of Little Shop of Horrors. You cheered at the games putting on your show face and hyping up the crowds. You wowed in the role of Audrey in the show, avoided parties with the football team and buckled down focusing on your exams and audition for the performing arts programme at the University of Michigan. After Bucky had realised, he was never going to get you to forgive him he had ended up dating Natasha. The news hit you like a sucker punch to begin with but after meeting up with Wanda, Carol, and Jane during the spring break you made your peace with it. You even smiled at Bucky in the hallways when you saw each other. By the time Graduation rolled around you had healed.

November 2011

You ended up getting into the University of Michigan on a partial scholarship thanks to your cheerleading and you were enjoying the performing arts programme, the performing arts programme at the Uni had really blown up after the whole viral “A Very Potter Musical” back in 2009 and you were thrilled to be there. You had settled right in making friends with a young lad from your course Loki Laufeyson right away. He was attractive in an unconventional way, with long black hair, a tall skinny frame but he still had muscles. You two had been cast opposite each other in Romeo and Juliet during your first year and had become good friends. You even ran into Pietro frequently he had gotten a football scholarship and couldn’t believe his eyes when he saw you on the sidelines one November game. Pietro didn’t really “do” social media and hadn’t paid any attention to Wanda as you had told her, after Bucky’s betrayal you hadn’t spoken much with Sam or Pietro, after all, they were his friends and were now Uni students. “Well, well, well, if it isn’t Bucky’s girl,” he said grinning at you after the game, ruffling your hair like you were 5 again. You couldn’t help but wince at the old pet name, everyone in the group had called you it, Sam, Wanda, Carol even Jane but you hadn’t been Bucky’s girl for a year, well longer if you take into consideration the fact he’d been chatting with Natasha on and off for the entire year before they slept together. “It’s just Y/N” or you can call me cutie you said winking at Pietro, he chuckled. “How about I just call you tomorrow?” he retorted, you felt yourself blush. Pietro had always been a cocky confident guy, his silver-blonde hair covering his ice blue eyes, he had always been a hit with the ladies, but he seemed that bit more attractive, slightly leaner, still confident but not arrogant. You shrugged before pulling out a sharpie from your bag, you wrote down your number on his arm. He cocked his head puzzled. “I changed it last year after Bucky wouldn’t stop blowing it up with apology texts,” you said simply. Before Pietro could respond you ran off to join the rest of your squad and headed for the changing room.

True to his charm and word, Pietro called you the next day offering to be your personal guide and show you all the hidden beauty spots of the campus. You accepted; even though you had been here for two months already. You walked around the campus and had a great time, you felt yourself really relaxing and laughing at his corny jokes and the way he wiggled his silver eyebrows at you whenever he made a bad joke. You couldn’t remember the last time you laughed, and you meant really laughed, the kind of clutched over struggling to get air into your lung’s laughter that the Silver-haired, blue-eyed cutie gave you. By the time Pietro had finished his tour the sun was beginning to dip, he walked you back to your dorm ever the gentleman. However, this time when your hands brushed against each other he grabbed your hand and spun you around. His hand was cool and smooth, a stark difference to Bucky’s warm calloused hands. The pair of you walked back hand in hand in comfortable silence. When you got to your dorm you leant against your door, your eyes meeting Pietro’s ice blue eyes, the almost sparkled. Pietro positioned himself so that he had one hand above your head, the other to your side trapping you between the door and himself. He leant down and kissed you. It was soft and delicate, his cool lips sucking the air out of your lungs. He pulled away winking at you before he sauntered off to join his teammates at some frat party.

That was the beginning of a three-year relationship with Pietro, you two had been on multiple dates, some official, some were just bumping into each other at the same party and then spending the rest of the evening together all through November and early December of your first year. He even came to support you at your Cheerleading competitions. Neither of you had put a label on it, but he had changed his home screen to a picture of the pair of you, it was one captured by Peter Parker, funnily enough, he was visiting the Uni with his photography club and captured the moment Pietro had picked you up after the Wolverines won their 6th game. He spun you around before dropping you down and kissing your forehead. Pietro didn’t know that you had seen his home screen. However as you were both travelling home for the Holidays you had agreed to travel together, Pietro had offered to drive but you had refused. Telling him that it would be easier for you to drive as you would be running lines late and therefore you could swing by his apartment on the way out of town. It was only a short drive to Dearborn but with the extra holiday traffic, you estimated it would take at least an hour to get to your parents. You connected your iPod to the car via AUX and pulled up your playlist you had made for the drive. You avoided all Christmas songs, and you were sick of them they played everywhere you went. Instead, you opted for Taylor Swift, damn she had blown up since 2008.

After about 30 minutes of driving as you hit the peak of the holiday traffic, you leant over to turn down the volume of your music. Comfortable with the pace of the traffic, you turned your head to Pietro. “So,” you began. “What’s up Bunny?” Pietro asked snapping his eyes up from his phone. “Well, I just thought now might be a good time to talk, we’re obviously going to run into a lot of our old friends, and there’s no way Wanda won’t know something is going on here, and I, I saw your lock screen,” you said, you could feel yourself blush, there was something about Pietro, he made you feel like a high school sophomore all over again. “So you were wondering what we are?” the amusement in Pietro’s voice didn’t escape your notice, you could feel yourself getting embarrassed. Of course, he was a college Sophomore, you two had never had the exclusive talk, how could you be so silly. You stared straight ahead focusing on the slow-moving traffic. Oh god, you wanted to die. Pietro noticed the change in your demeanour and instantly felt bad, he grabbed your right hand from the steering wheel. “Hey Bunny, look at me,” he said softly, you turned your head to face him. “We are exclusive, we are a couple, I’m sorry you felt the need to ask, but I adore you, so we are a thing,” he said stroking circles on the back of your hand. You smiled and nodded to yourself.

Almost everyone had made it back for the Holidays, excluding a few people, Bucky, Carol, and Jane, they all had their reasons, but you couldn’t help but feel a little sad that Carol and Jane had been unable to make it back. Wanda was elated for you and Pietro, to your surprise she threatened Pietro and not you. Christmas break came and went all too quickly. Pietro even brought you a small gift even though he didn’t celebrate Christmas, what with being Jewish. He was also very touched at your gift a small, framed copy of the photo of his lock screen, only in black and white except for the ribbon in your hair, the number on his Jersey matching his number painted on your cheek. The next year also seemed to rush by, between keeping on top of your studies, your rehearsals for the play, football matches, nationals for your cheerleading competition. It felt like you had barely any time to breathe.

2012

The summer between your 1st year and 2nd year was a small respite, Pietro had decided to stay in his apartment for the summer, he had a summer job and you decided to stick around after trying out for a local theatres summer production of Grease, unsurprisingly you had been cast as Patty Simcox a cheerleader. “How ironic, my little cheerleader playing a cheerleader” Pietro joked. You just rolled your eyes at him, that night Pietro stayed in your dorm, you were going to have to move out for the summer, your roommate for the year had decided she was going to move into her Sorority House next year and was going home for the summer. You and Pietro were cuddled up on the sofa watching Grease, you had your legs over Pietro and the arm of the sofa. To your surprise, Pietro had confessed he’d never seen it and had asked you to watch it with him so he could see who you would be playing. You let out a sigh. “What’s up bunny?” he asked not taking his eyes of the movie, he was rubbing small circles on your legs. “Student housing emailed me today, they said since Sophie is moving out and going home for the summer. I can’t stay in my dorm this summer. I’m trying to figure out where to go as the apartment I want to rent isn’t available until August” you said, blowing your hair out of your face. “Move in with me for the summer,” Pietro said without skipping a beat. “We’re not going to be around much in the daytime, you’ve spent a lot of nights at mine recently and it’s just for the summer, theirs a spare bedroom where you can store your stuff, and Wanda will be visiting in 3 weeks, it’s no big deal,” he said as he continued rubbing circles on your legs. You stared at him for a moment, your mind racing. “Okay,” you said nervously biting your lip. “Okay, I’ll move in for the summer,” you said again this time sounding surer of yourself. You picked up the remote and pressed pause on the DVD. You and Pietro had been dating for most of the school year, and he had been nothing but a gentleman never pressuring you for more than you were comfortable with, he knew Bucky had hurt you and you still hadn’t had sex yet as a result of it. You stood up a peeled of your jumper, Pietro cocked his head with his cute, puzzled expression. You didn’t say anything, instead, you removed your athletic shorts leaving you in nothing but one of Pietro’s football jerseys and your panties. You walked to your bedroom. Pietro didn’t move. After a few moments of waiting for him to follow you walked to your door frame and coughed, Pietro looked at you. “Well, are you coming or not handsome?” you asked leaning against your frame, so his jersey rid up slightly exposing the skin of your stomach. Pietro chucked his phone on the sofa before throwing you over his shoulder. That night you and Pietro had sex for the first time.

December 2012

Summer came and went in a blur of a heatwave, and lots of sex. You moved into your apartment off-campus, you spent a lot of time hanging out with Loki between classes, throwing ideas back and forth for an original piece you had to work on for the spring showcase. Pietro and you would always ride to games together, with Pietro being in his third year, the team bus rides were no longer compulsory and as the college couldn’t afford for the squad to have a bus you had to make your own way to the away games anyway. You and Pietro had driven home for Winter break, your family had decided to head to Boston this year, that way your cousin could see his family, however as you and Pietro had a game two days after New Years it didn’t make sense for you to fly out for such a short period off time. This was your first Christmas in years where you wouldn’t be seeing your family, or even celebrating really. However, Wanda and her Mum had insisted Pietro bring you home with him for the winter break. So that was how you found yourself sat in Pietro and Wanda’s basement drinking beer and hanging out with the old gang along with some new faces. Carol had brought home her girlfriend Valkyrie, Jane and Sam were there, even Peter Parker who was now a senior was there he’d even brought his girlfriend Gwen with him. Wanda had brought home her Boyfriend James or Vision as he was affectionately known. Wanda was studying Fashion in NYC; Vision was studying IT and was a whiz with technology. You were cuddled up in the corner of the sofa with Pietro, he was playing some game with Sam and Peter and you were scrolling through your IG feed. Taylor Swift’s latest Album Red playing through the speakers. Pietro had groaned but with Sam being a secret Swifty he was quickly outvoted. You kissed Pietro’s cheek getting up to grab another bottle of beer each. You were technically underage for another few months, but Wanda’s mum had said if you were going to drink whilst you were here, she’d rather you did it under her roof in a safe controlled manner.

You heard him before you saw him. Being the gracious guest you are, you had noticed the beer was low in the fridge, so you were restocking it when you heard Bucky’s familiar laugh. You may have made peace with what Bucky had done but other than a quick congratulations and farewell at Graduation you hadn’t spoken since that summer back in 2010.

Bucky walked over to the fridge, you had changed your hair colour since you’d last seen him at Graduation in 2011, your usual hair was now a chocolate brown, you had your head in the fridge still when he coughed. “Hi I’m Bucky,” he said. You took a deep breath, grabbed three bottles of beer and pulled your head out of the fridge, turning around to face him. “I’m well aware who you are, Bucky,” you said handing him a beer. Bucky’s eyes widened as his ocean blue eyes reached yours. “Hey Buck,” you said softly. “Y/N. I didn’t recognise you” he grinned, moving to hug you. You let it happen, standing stiffly in his arms. “Yeah it's been a minute, how’s school, and Natasha, I heard you got into UDM?” you asked shooting him a smile before twisting the lid of your bottle. “Yeah, I did. Schools great kicking my ass a bit and Natasha and I broke up actually” he said avoiding eye contact with you. You and Bucky made polite conversation for a few minutes Pietro finished up his game with Sam and Peter, noticed you hadn’t returned so made his way over to you and Bucky. “Hey Bunny,” he said kissing the corner of your head before wrapping his arms around you. “Hey Buck, long time no see!” Pietro said. Bucky stood frozen for a few seconds processing what he had just witnessed. “Hey, Pietro Yeah. It's been a hot minute, so you two are a couple? You guys look cute congrats. Oh man, wow is that Peter over there? I barely recognise him I’m going to go say hey. Catch you guys later!” Bucky said practically running over to Peter. You turned around and kissed Pietro. “Come on Quicksilver, let’s see if I can beat you at Mario Kart,” you said pulling him over to the sofa.

December 2012 – August 2014

Winter break came and went. Your second year at Uni whizzed past. Pietro even joined you and your family for your annual summer vacation in Miami, your grandparents were getting on a bit so you decided to skip the summer production of Hairspray. By the time, your third year rolled around you and Pietro settled into a routine between school, studying, games and rehearsals you would steal kisses in the hallways, meet one another at classes with hot drinks, coffee for Pietro not that he needed a boost of energy and usually a hot chocolate for you. After football games, Pietro would drive you back to his apartment. If it were a rare free evening, you’d curl up with a movie at yours. Hanging onto the small moments of peace. You both knew Pietro was going to be moving to New York after he graduated. He’d been studying business and was going to start a fashion company with Wanda. You also both knew that long-distance wasn’t going to work, you’d been majoring in performing arts, but you had also been taking extra courses to help with a career in advertising as a backup. Saying your goodbyes to one another sucked ass. You and Pietro had left your annual Miami holiday a week early to spend a week in Florida visiting the Theme Parks, Wanda and Vision were also going to meet you there. Neither of you had grown up exceptionally wealthy, but Wanda and Pietro’s dad Max Eisenhardt had reached out to them a few years back and had insisted on paying for the four of you to have a group vacation. He had tried to convince Wanda and Pietro to book a holiday in Germany where he was living but they had refused. Pietro had already packed up his apartment and moved most of it back to his family home whilst you finished up school for the year. He had been staying with you for the summer before joining you on your vacation so when you headed to the airport it was time to say your goodbyes. “Be good Bunny, don’t cause too much mischief with Loki and stay in touch. I love you my little Bunny” he said wiping the tears from your eyes. You couldn’t say anything, so you just held him tight and cried.

Tagging the bestie @lannycleave because I have promised to write a sad Steve one as a way to punnish myself

Part 2

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Tim has DID

Hey uhh….. I don’t know if this will offend anybody or not but I’m posting it. If I did something super bad and wrong please tell me so I can fix it. Arcane is my name for Masky but the rest is self explanatory I think. Maybe. I don’t know, but if you ask I’ll answer! I’m happy to explain everything!! If there’s a way for me to improve anything please tell me! I know this isn’t well formatted, I was originally just rambling.

There’s some mention of scars and trauma and other self destructive behaviors but it doesn’t get any more detailed than just mentioning it.

Tim is one of the main alters obviously. You know about him, I don’t need to say anything.

Arcane? Unfortunately also a main alter. Incredibly animalistic. No one knows if he’s able to be coherent or not. When he’s fronting he forces himself to be there instead of someone else 99% of the time. Brian remembers Tim saying how he used to talk to Arcane when he was really little, but maybe that was a different alter that ended up disappearing. Or maybe it really was The Operator’s fault. Who knows?

There’s a little (child alter) in the system. His name is Oliver (Oli/Olly/Ollie, yes he’s spelled it all those ways) and he knows absolutely nothing about the trauma they went through. If he was ever told all hell would break loose and he for sure wouldn’t ever front again. He wouldn’t ever be the same. The entire system would break down. He likes strawberries and he’s most likely the reason there’s stuffed animals thrown about Tim’s room. His favorite colors are orange (even though he’s allergic to oranges) and green. Sometimes draws images of demons, “imaginary friends”, or black scribbles that can be interpreted to represent Lee even though he knows nothing about him. Draws on the walls as well. Gets extremely jittery and anxious when inside a building/in one place for too long. Never fronted in public before, but does front more often than people would think.

There’s this bitch named K.M. who’s an alcoholic and absolutely reckless and chaotic. If he ever interacts with Hoodie you might as well just give up right then and there. Not much else is known about him. Very self destructive, and has caused many of Tim’s scars. Yes the name stands for something but it’s literally fanservice for me, s o-

There’s another younger alter, not as young as Oliver, but around an older teenager’s age. He hasn’t said his actual name, so Tim’s called him Hush for convenience. He seems okay with this. He seems to be like what Tim acted like in the hospital: brooding, argumentative, not afraid to insult anyone, and always thinks he’s right, but still generally reserved. Remembers some of the trauma they went through (yes, he remembers Lee). Smokes constantly and will drink even though it’s a horrible idea. Refuses to take medication unless he’ll otherwise have a seizure on the floor. Is quiet unless someone shouts at him (at least if he thinks someone is shouting at him) and is not scared to fight. Is not afraid to stab you. Very sneaky and is able to steal things easily, but he doesn’t get caught so it’s fine. Is only slightly a pyromaniac. He likes to climb trees and write a lot. Gets starry eyed when he sees instruments, much like Tim. Will sometimes ramble on about other patients at the hospital, also like Tim. Is able to and has survived in the woods alone before.

The only girl alter in the system they know of is named Samantha, or Sam. She’s fronted maybe once, but she is co-conscious with the other alters a lot. Seeing as she’s a girl but the body is male, she feels very uncomfortable fronting, though while Tim was little it made sense for her to be there. She likes the cat, Quark, and likes to fidget with things constantly. She’s interested in photography, and gets jittery when in one place too long, like Oliver. Her favorite season is the fall, with the rain and the wind. She wishes she could have longer hair and nails, though every once in a while Tim or Brian or Sally paints them, and it’s a nice surprise. Likes to be outside, and brings flowers in whenever she can. Has shown to have interest in witchcraft/the wiccan religion.

There’s also another alter in the system. They might be a fragment, not an alter, but they’re new so who really knows? Tim dubbed them Latet, which is Latin for “lurks” or “lies”. The few times Tim has caught them on camera they’ve been incredibly cryptic: writing down codes and staring into the camera with empty, emotionless eyes. Tim doesn’t know what their purpose is in the system yet, but they seem to like making masks as well. Or even just face masks that only cover the mouth, like Ann wears. Tim always throws them away. He doesn’t need more than one. Tim hasn’t witnessed them speak yet, as whenever they stare into the camera it’s dead silent.

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ororosmunroe · 5 years

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I’ve been thinking about Voltron (never good) and Allura’s carousel of ships and I’ve got one question: What was the point of any of it?

I’m going to run through the ships and add some theories/rumors that have been talked about because since the show is over we’ll never know so why the fuck not.

Why don’t we start off with

Shallura

During Season 1 and 2, I feel everyone was with cool with Shallura. I mean they got dubbed the Space Parents (tired sigh). Heart and Head. There was a comparing them to a sword...it was chill. Tim Hedrik (Lead Writer and Story Editor) seemed to like the ship and wanted fan art of an unshown scene of Shiro and Allura bathing the mice together), Eugene Lee (Episode Director and Storyboard Artist) compared them to Sailor Moon and Tuxedo Mask (I remember this one distinctly because I was geeking out about it at the time). Kim Brooks and Josh Keaton (the VAs) seemed to be cool with it. Kim said she supported it and everyone went about their merry way.

Until LM and JDS opened their mouths. JDS said, something to the effect of, Allura was just acting as an teenager would.” Huh?

Before this point people had thought Allura was an adult (I mean by the way they wrote her she seemed older and more mature than the rest of the Paladins. And they certainly had no problems fencing her off from the rest of group (the first trip to space mall still makes me angry) no one really questioned it. I mean they did question it a little bit because everyone was curious about the ages of everyone. LM AND JDS were odd about the ages since the start and when the Handbook came out Allura’s was the only one not listed (I mean we all agreed that Coran was the adult-adult of the group).

Honestly I feel bad for the VAs that probably got hit with so many curveballs and then THEY had to smooth it out with fans at Cons. That is super rough.

Anyways chaos ensues because Shiro who was (at one point also said to be a teen?) is now confirmed to be a 25 year old.

Given Lance’s canon crush Allura that put Klancers up in arms and painted a shiny target on Allura’s back. Allura’s tag is in shambles (and has never quite recovered).

Now according the rumor mill, JDS wanted Allura to be with Lance so she got Piotr Rasputin’d (he got aged down because one of the Marvel writers wanted Kitty Pryde and Piotr together). So to kill the ship (can’t have a teen and 25 yr being all intimate on a kid show) and to get rid of Shiro (Lord love Shiro because neither LM or JDS did or do) they killed him off….until DreamWorks was apparently like, uhhhh no bring him back. Thus the creation of Kuron (then they tried to kill Shiro again via Kuron but DW was like NO, HE STAYS). Apparently there was also a writing staff change up? Who knows.

So yeah, that was the long and short of Shallura.

But then things get odd(er)

Mattura

Voltron and it’s inability to keep anything consistent has Matt (who HAS to be the same age or at least slightly younger than Shiro given that they were both on the Kerberos Mission with Sam Holt) starts flirting with/complimenting Allura. UHHHHH WUT? LM AND JDS (and their latest batch of co-workers) seem to love playing by their own rules because no one know what goes on and things get choppy and confusing. Why is a (theoretical, because we’ll never officially know) non teen flirting with Allura?

I think it’s by this time in the show’s life we figure out that LM AND JDS hate confirming things unless it wins them brownie/woke points. They just let things happen and only address it when their hands are forced. Like Shiro’s sexuality, It was at SDCC 2018 where they said Shiro was sexuality was open-ended. They said that he was definitely in a relationship with a man (Adam) but according to LM, they didn’t want to put anyone in a corner and wanted the fans to see it how they wanted to see him (time mark: 1:16).

It was a vague but diplomatic answer (rare) to a vitriolic fandom and then somehow it got changed to Shiro was strictly gay? I mean, I’ve always headcanonned him to be Bi since S1 (and honestly I’m kind of hesitant to admit that because ya’ll will call anyone homophobic/drag them through the mud for having a differing view. RIP me I guess).

Okay but back to the topic at hand, sorry for that mini tangent.

Voltron writers (past and then present) never seemed to talk to one another because easy inconsistencies in writing can be avoided if you have an actual game plan. Oh and time, I still can’t believe all this happened in the span of 2 years, looking back it makes a lot of sense.

Lotura

Lotor has been described by LM and JDS as a space alien vampire and according to the writing he has been awake for those 10,000 years unlike Allura. They have been cool with the ship. VA AJ Locascio has been the ship’s captain and Kim Brooks has entertained the idea. There was even a part of a panel where Kim, Josh and AJ were joking about who would Allura would pick thus throwing everyone into confusion again.

Anyways it seems that Allura seemed to really like Lotor and felt comfortable with him. He seemed to reciprocate but it was always overshadowed but the veil of mistrust. In the end like most things in Voltron it didn’t matter because the ship got tanked unceremoniously by the writing.

Kallura and Allurance

LM has been adamant about VLD going it’s own path (yeah okay) and said that they weren’t doing the Original pairing (from GoLion/etc). Did that stop the shipper goggles? Does it ever lol? People were pissed that it didn’t happen.

In the end Allurance happened but then it got killed off when Allura died so does it really count? I feel bad for the Allurance shippers ya’ll won but at what cost? While I’ve never hated Allurance (I found that they had their moments) it feels like a “fuck you“ band aid of sorts.

As does the whole ending/epilogue but that’s another story.

TL;DR

So why am I writing this? I guess it’s because I’m confused and frustrated and sad. Both LM and JDS said that romance wasn’t a thing on VLD so why include hints at all? Especially with Allura if they were just going to kill her off anyway?

Black girls almost never get chosen as romantic interests in active/growing franchises and it seems like Allura was just a magically convenient swing door. Was she desired and admired? Yes. But was she loved? I guess, but not the way I think she needed to be.

Why do I say this? Well when she was giving herself up to save the universe. No one stopped her. No one even volunteered to go with her. For a show that was “all for one, one for all” they just left her hanging. The writers (and LM/DreamWorks) thought that one was enough. As always the black/brown sacrifices everything for the betterment of everyone else. It’s a old tired trope. One I’m used to unfortunately, but not to the kids coming up. They are the ones who aren’t used to this type of thing. Their rare black/brown hero doesn’t get a happy ending and soon they will see this trope happen over and over again and they might come to think it is normal.

That’s atrocious.

I’m not going to lie, sometimes I still imagine that Allura was an adult. Not for ships but for the simple fact that I can’t stand the idea of a depressed and isolated teenager, a child who had barely begun to live and who has already had everything taken away from her, willing giving up their life for any reason.

Does me seeing Allura as an adult help somewhat quell the bitter sadness I feel? Yes but not really. My fave still got railroaded into a completely avoidable death. It’s still a punch to the gut but life goes on.

Allura, as evident in the writing, wasn’t a character after awhile. She was merely a a plot device waiting in the wings. A shiny sparkly bauble that entranced the viewer with her light.

Ironic, no?

#allura #voltron #meta #??#idk it’s late #suicide mention

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thegeeklee · 7 years

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Review: Thimbleweed Park (PC/Mac/XB1)

In late 2014, legendary game designers Ron Gilbert and Gary Winnick launched a successful kickstarter for their new game, Thimbleweed Park. Who are Ron and Gary? They developed the classic point and click adventure game, Maniac Mansion, which essentially created a whole new genre of games. Thimbleweed Park aims to recreate the magic of those types of classic games. So does it succeed at creating a nostalgia trip that is also a good game at the same time?

If you don’t know what a point and click adventure game is, you are likely a lot younger than I. Mainly designed to be used with a keyboard and mouse, a point and click adventure is pretty much that… pointing and clicking on things. They are narrative driven games full of puzzles, which were notoriously known for not being logical. Lucasarts and Sierra were the kings of this genre with cult hits such as The Secret of Monkey Island, Sam n Max, Police Quest, Space Quest, King’s Quest and of course Day of The Tentacle, the sequel to Maniac Mansion. Ron and Gary worked for the Lucasarts, and helped create and shape this genre of games that would dominate throughout the 90s until the genre (along with Lucasarts and Sierra) seemed to fizzle out around the turn of the century.

Double Fine Adventure by Double Fine Studios (headed by Tim Schafer, another legendary Lucasarts point and click adventure designer) is known as one of the first major game kickstarters. Originally it asked for $400,000 to create a classic style point and click adventure. They ended up with over $3 million, which lead to scope creep creating a much more contemporary adventure game (which resulted in Broken Age). This probably left at least a few old skoolers yearning for a classic pixel art style point and click adventure game.

Cue Thimbleweed Park. No doubt Ron and Gary would have noticed that is what some Double Fine Adventure backers actually wanted, which gave them the opportunity to deliver a game just like that. Despite getting a decent kickstarter haul themselves, they stuck to their guns and have delivered a game that looks like it could have been a direct sequel to Maniac Mansion, straight out of the late 80s/early 90s. Yes the pixel art is a bit more refined/advanced, but if there is one magical part of Thimbleweed Park, is it totally succeeds at essentially creating a time machine and presenting a game at the same quality level of a classic Lucasarts game from that era.

Thimbleweed Park, much like Maniac Mansion/Day of The Tentacle sees the player controlling multiple characters. In this instance there’s five. Agent Ray and Reyes are two detectives investigating a dead body in Thimbleweed Park. Delores and her Dad are dealing with Uncle Chuck and his obsession with his pillow factory. And Ransome the Clown is dealing with the consequences of his act being to insult people in the audience. Characters are important in these sorts of games. I really struggled to like the Agents at all, to the point of disliking them. The other characters are all likeable though in their own ways, including the various people who inhabit Thimbleweed Park. By the end of the game thought I had grown quite attached to this quirky misfit bunch, so if you are struggling at first, hang in there.

Hanging in there is a decent amount of time too. I was more so expecting a game that would last 4-8 hours, but my playthrough clocked in around the 13 hour mark. I played the casual mode and while I did find a few times where I got stuck to the point of needing a walkthrough, I will say puzzles in the casual mode were mostly logical. It was more a challenge in finding where a certain item was, or who to give it to etc. There is also a hard mode for those old skool hardcore point and click fans, which going by a walk through I read, it probably amounts to doubling the puzzling. I’m sure the puzzles in the hard mode are much more obtuse, much like the classic games of this genre were. This also gives some replayability, if you do your first run in casual mode, you can come back and replay it again with harder puzzles involved.

There are a few minor quibbles with the game. I found in particular near the start of the game, some of the voiceover dialogue seemed a bit lo-fi in quality. I didn’t notice this later on, so I’m not sure if it improved or just became accustomed to it. It was to the point that it felt like some lines/characters were recorded in different locations. Speaking of the start of the game, it’s starts off a bit abrupt and awkward. Sometimes plonking you right into the action can work well, but in this instance it feels like not much context is given. Once you get a bit further into the game though, it does pick up more and more as you progress in particular once you get access to all of the characters. Though one slightly bizzare feature (perhaps due to budget constraints) is that the playable characters most of the time are not able to interact with the other playable characters unless there is a specific item to give to that character. The playable characters often have exactly the same dialogue as other playable characters when they interact with the town’s people. These two factors create a feeling of essentially playing one character split up as 5 for the purpose of being able to do puzzles that need two characters in different places. While playable characters have their distinct personalities, this re-use of dialogue diminishes that. It is perhaps all a symptom of it being a small indie game that makes it hard to create enough dialogue for multiple playable characters. This is fair considering triple A games sometimes won’t even have a male and a female character as they claim it doubles the amount of work.

That said, this game is a love letter to the genre of point and click adventure games, and it does it well. It is unforgiving in not contemporizing it’s gameplay. It is full of game references that only fans of the old classic games will get. It’s constantly breaking the fourth wall. The nostalgia doesn’t just stop with the references, gameplay and graphics. The world and characters are also somewhat influenced by retro TV shows like X-Files and Twin Peaks (both of which had rebirths as new shows recently as well). If you want a piece of gaming history, that is actually new, you’ve come to the right place. Cult fans of the genre will likely think Thimbleweed Park is exactly what they’ve been after. The question is, will anyone outside of that cult following enjoy Thimbleweed Park? It’s hard to say. They might find it too archaic, however with the indie revolution in recent years bringing back pixel art driven games such as Undertale that have been popular with younger generations, there is some possibility that Thimbleweed Park could be an introduction to a much forgotten type of game. And perhaps this is just the beginning of a revival, with Paradigm out this week, and a remaster of Full Throttle about a week later. Perhaps after many years in the dark, point and click adventures are ready for a new golden era thanks to indie studios.

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