#i just wanna die. i just wanna sleep i just wanna rest i cant fucking do this

[magnoliamyrrh]

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[xxlelaxx]

My daughter is in a screaming phase. She just spends the whole day shrieking and screaming and I have had the most terrible headache. The last night's she cried for a Minimum of two hours because of the teeth and today everything was fine. I did everything I could and it was fine. We fell asleep. I wake up 45 minutes later to her screaming again and I just can't take it anymore. I've had too little sleep and I've been around her for the last 3 days... Even when I was interacting with her she was still in the same room screeching. My husband complained after two hours and honestly next time he does I'm gonna tell him to shut up about it. I haven't stopped crying for an hour cause now I can't sleep again cause I'm so agitated. I hate mother hormones. I hate not being allowed to sleep. I hate headaches. I don't want to get up and finish all the chores.

[thepepsislvt]

Hello! May I request for more HCs of Kid and Killer being in a polycule with gn!reader? I love how you write them!!! It's fun reading your work, you got me liking the idea of being in a polycule with Kid and Killer lol. Thank you and have a nice day/night!

I did it finally! im sorry it took so long i was sick for the past week and a half

but here it is!

Warnings: Cursing, Kid

okay so heres how the bed sharing works

Kid sleeps all sprawled out on his back (snoring so loud)

he takes like 76% of the bed

Killer takes like 18% of the bed cause he sleeps on his side

that other 6% is yours and you gotta figure out how to sleep comfortably on top of Kid

its rlly hard since hes either fighting god in his sleep or snoring so damn loud in your ear

Killer doesnt snore he just breathes really loudly

Kid literally hates when you leave the bed for literally anything

queue to you having to literally body slam Kid back into the bed just to get him to shut up and stop yelling at you

anyway so to avoid that happening again you have to walk to his snoring pattern

imagine trying to go to the bathroom and his snoring stops for like half a second

mini heart attack

When Kid gets sick

oh my fucking god

this man is insufferable

will complain about EVERYTHING

“i cant BREATHE”

“my neck hurts”

“i DONT WANNA TAKE THE MEDICINE IT TASTES LIKE SHIT”

this man will not shut up unless hes alseep

he doesnt do anything in the period hes sick

he gets better in 2-3 days easily but god those 2-3 days are the worst

When Killer is sick Kid acts like hes gonna die

Killer will still do his duties but with lots of breaks to rest

Kid constantly tells him to rest more and the rest of the crew will do his duties

Killer once listened and when he came back the Victoria Punk was in shambles

he’s not doing that again he just takes more breaks

he blows his nose so much and Kid always goes “eewww”

mf acts like he don’t cough up mucus all the time when he’s sick

Killer is usually better in 3-5 days

When you get sick Killer constantly checks up on you and makes sure you don’t push yourself

Kid will just down right avoid you

“you ain’t getting me sick with your damn virus”

Kid makes you sleep in a different room

it’s okay Killer sleeps with you anyway

if you’re sick longer than 3 days he eventually sucks it up cause he hates sleeping alone

when you play board games with them Kid makes up rules as he goes along just to win

but Killer kicks ass in Uno and even if Kid cheats Killer will win

I have so much stupid shit to say about Kid hes so funny

[rodolfoparras]

So in SSKTJL, the suicide squad gets infected with Fear Gas because of Batman

For context, Fear Gas is a gas created by Scarecrow or Johnathan Crane, and when inhaled, you live through your worst fears until worn off.

And Digger's worst fear is everyone leaving him behind, being unwanted and forgotten. In the scene, George talks to himself, saying they've probably already left him. Calling himself a loser and and a coward and shit. He sees "NOT WANTED" posters of himself hung up around

(I can't do this anymore, bro)

What if Reader's worst fear was watching all of his friends/teammates die and losing them all🥰

Running around trying to listen to Harley's advice (because she knows Scarecrow and the toxin) but he just keeps hearing his friends scream for help and their bodies everywhere but he's literally unable to help them, because they're not fucking real but it's scary asf

And once it's all over, Reader is all over Digger the rest of the night. They're the closest, so it's already not that weird, but he's literally not giving Digger a MOMENT of peace. a hand on that man the entire time, following him everywhere, fucking sleeps on top of him to try and keep him safe

Mumbles to him all night about being scared of losing him and how much he cares about him and Digger's just "🧍‍♂️wut?" Because he genuinely believes that despite working with the team, he's very easily disposable and they could all replace him but don't because of Waller

Reader ramping up his affection for Digger after that because he's not gonna let him think that shit??

Idk where I'm going with this but I love him so much. Just wanna play with his hair and kiss his face 😞

-🐧

Cw: tooth rotting fluff, x male reader

Okay but thinking about you being unable to calm down even though the gas has long stopped having effect, even though you’re back in your current reality with all your friends where they’re all very much alive and doing well but no matter what they say or do you just can’t calm down

It’s like you’re still stuck in that place, watching all your friends die in front of you without being able to do anything, and Digger being Digger starts joking around, telling the rest of the team how they should just knock you out to make sure you get to sleep through the night.

But his words turn into squeaks as you pull him into a bruising grip, his head shoved into your chest, and your arms locked in an iron grip around his waist.

Unintelligible sounds escape his lips as he tries to push you away from him but you don’t budge an inch, if anything you hold him tighter, nuzzling your face into his honey blonde locks and inhaling his scent, and for once you actually seem to relax.

“Uh hello big guy? cant breathe here,” the sound of Digger’s strained voice sends the whole squad into fits of laughter, with them even making comments about how you’re his responsibility for the night before splitting up to get some rest.

“Alright alright that’s enough” digger says as he finally breaks out of your embrace “jeez I know I’m a lovable guy but even that was a bit too much eh?” Digger says, clearly being sarcastic as he proceeds to prepare his make shift bed.

He doesn’t even get to lay down properly before you’re on top of him, your body weight pinning him in place an arm once again locked around his waist.

“God dammit,” Digger grunts out as his back meets the harsh impact of the ground. “What’s with you tonight eh? Gas scared you that bad? What did you even see?”

And maybe it’s the hint of concern in his voice or it’s the exhaustion from todays events, but you decide to tell you him what you saw earlier today.

Surprisingly enough, Digger listens intently to every word you have to say, at some point you think he’s fallen asleep or spaced out because it’s so unusual for him to not interrupt but when you look up, you see the very much focused look on his face as he continues to listen to you.

Once you’re done speaking you peer up at him - only to be met with the sight of his furrowed brows as he worries his bottom lip.

This time it’s your turn to ask what’s on his mind, digger doesn’t waste a second before he starts to explain, telling you how he can understand why you’d be worried about losing king shark- he was a great asset to the team - or Harley - she was a smart cookie or dead shot - look at his name! who wouldn’t want a guy like that on his team ? but he can’t understand why you’d be worried about losing him.

He doesn’t say it in a self deprecating way, but rather as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world, as if he’s speaking of the way the sun is bound to rise tomorrow and maybe that hurts more than if he were to say it in a self deprecating tone.

You’re swift to rise up, knocking the air out of his lungs as you go on a tangent about how of course he’s an important part of the team, promptly mentioning the many times he’s saved your ass or saved another member of the team, the many times he’d been the reason as to why they succeeded in whatever mission you were doing.

By the time you’re done you’re all out of breath, chest rising and falling at a rapid pace hands still hanging in the air and staring wide eyed at the Aussie man.

“Alright alright big guy I get it,” he says, now sporting a blush on his face and avoiding your gaze while bashfully rubbing at the back of his neck. “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you have a crush on the ol’ captain” Digger say with somewhat of a forced chuckle , and peers up at you beneath soft blonde lashes.

“Maybe I do,” you shrug.

“Wha-“

“Sleep digger, we have a long day tomorrow no?” You say, suddenly laying down again and pulling him into your arms before he can protest. You can hear him cursing under his breath but he doesn’t do anything to try and get out of your embrace. “Goodnight captain” you say with a smile on your face.

“Goodnight” he grumbles back as he tightens his hold on your waist.

[bladeoftruths]

ok so while im at it i guess i'll just share my thoughts on ff16's story overall since i have a fair share of yays, nays and other abt it. SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!

the yays:

- the prologue is still a banger no matter how many times u watch it. it was such a solid opening.

- cid's arc is a banger, even tho im sad that he died halfway thru the story but this is final fantasy. your cid can either live or die so that mid could run, or vice versa.

- jill's arc is my favourite. killing your abuser is ok but again, i have a bias with her.

- i like that they give each of the main cast a time to spend with clive in respective arcs.

- kaiju battles. yes i am a sucker for that. i grew up watching tokusatsu so this is nothing new to me. titan fight is my favourite among all, bahamut second.

- clive and jill's slowburn romance is just AUGHENSKSKDKS I FRICKIN LOVE IT. the mutual pining, the slowburn and the payoff just feels... AUGHHHHHH GRAAAAHHHHH SO EFFING GOOD I CANT DESCRIBE IT IN WORDS *eats a brick everytime i see them hold hands, hug or kiss*

- the worldbuilding is also good especially in the sidequests.

- i like how they portrayed dion and terence's relationship. its not everyday u get to see a well written gay relationship that didnt feel fetishized. we need more of this. also they are both childhood pals to lovers so it hits a soft spot on me.

- the side characters are also loveable in their own right!! enough to be in the top 10 even.

- i think im lowkey glad that they decided to go for an all white/white passing cast for the game bcos god some parts of the game is super fucked up esp wrt the bearers and how the ppl of valisthea treated them. i cannot imagine the sheer backlash yoshiP and his team will get if they have a brown/black/asian character in especially if they are bearers/dominants :')

nays:

- i didnt like how benedikta just comes and goes at the same arc. like i really wish we get to know her more or at least, after she went berserk she could at least be saved so that cid could take her in and we get to know her more. GIVE US A DLC, CBU3!!!

- waloed arc to me is my biggest downer. i want to know more abt waloed. i want to know more about barnabas and how did he get influenced by ultima. the part after jill gives away shiva's power to clive at the shadow coast just... drops and until they arrived at drake's spine it just feels... eh to me. kinda like the idyllshire/hinterlands arc in HW (given that ff16 story is written by the same guy who wrote HW in FFXIV, i am not even surprised).

- i understand that they want to make waloed and origin arc the time where clive and joshua finally gets to bond together but damn i wish they didnt just leave out jill like that in the last two arcs. poor girl, let her fight even tho she can no longer use her eikon power anymore.

- i know i have beef with waloed arc but god, odin fight is so underwhelming. no kaiju battle??? i sleep.

- i want to know more abt the rest of the dominants apart from the rosfield bros!! jill's life before she was sent to rosaria, dion in general, kupka's backstory and his relationship with benedikta, cid in general, benedikta again and again, barnabas. hell, i also wanna know more abt leviathan. GIVE US THE DLC OR FIT IN THEIR LORE IN THE ULTIMANIA!!!

- i think most of us agree that the sidequests were better at telling the worldbuilding and character insight more than the msq itself. the msq focused a little too much on clive over how he and the comrades react to the world around them.

- i think we also agree that we need more characters bantering over each other especially the dominants. im sad that dion didnt get to interact with clive and jill more, nor even we get to see the rosaria trio bantering and reminiscing the good times together at the hideaway.

other thoughts:

- i'm very mixed abt the ending tbh. i like the ambiguity and open endedness a la FF tactics but at the same time WTF??? i was high on copium when i first see thru the ending but now that i looked back my brain is just on hopium. im just gonna cling to the subtle hints that were mentioned in the game where they point out clive, dion and joshua SOMEHOW survived.

- i dont get people saying that ff16 didnt feel like final fantasy... like all FFs are different in its own right?? ff15 is like contemporary modern meets fantasy, ff6 is steampunk fantasy, ff4 is fantasy with airship... the settings are different sure but as long as you have crystals being the core part of the story, as well as anime fights with giant monsters and summons plus its own unique FF-schtick its still a final fantasy.

- i also dont get the hate on 16 for being more game of thrones-ish... like this is not the first FF to have gone this route. you have effing FF tactics being the first one to do that. the only difference is how they present it. i personally feel that 16 deserves the M-rating so much bcos of how technological advances gives you more creative freedom on how u want to tell the story. back in the day you could only work with what u have so yasumi matsuno really had to restrict with how he want to write the story for tactics. also his writing inspired the ff16 writing team a lot if u notice. and while this is not the first final fantasy game to get an M-rating (FFO did it first) it is the first mainline to get one.

overall i think the game isnt bad nor is it perfect. it manages to hit the right spot but at the same time i have my fair share of nitpicks. i just hope that it makes enough sales on ps5 and wait for the announcement of a pc release bcos god i would still love to play this game even if i probably suck at action rpg games.

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omake: my favourites among the cast overall:

boys (top 5):

- dion, clive, cid, joshua, gav (bonus: byron)

girls (top 5):

- jill, mid, tarja, martha, isabelle 'the dame' (im so sorry benedikta u deserved better :'))

all (top 5)

- jill, dion, clive, cid, joshua

i have a soft spot for jill bcos she is very much reminded me of ysayle and im weak to ice coded ladies, and dion is just aymeric but a dragoon and bahamut fucker. i know what u did there CBU3

and this comes to no surprise but i fucking love clive/jill. i am weak to childhood pals to lovers with a mix of mutual pining and angsty slowburn romance, and they just hit the right spot for me. im so glad they managed to pull off an adult slowburn romance for them so well auuughhhhhh

[laplupludetuvida]

Episosede 8 of house of the dragon in my house is...

My mom's boyfriend, seeing viserys: he looks like absolute shit!

My mom: and he is alive! Still alive! Why he doesn't die already so we can have the rebels and the killing and the blood and war!

The bf: what he has? Lepra?

No but like what is happening to viserys he is a rooting corpse

My mom's bf: why they don't kill him? Like... in a little help?

My mom: it would be treason

...

Why is this child crying. Dyana. Im scared. Ohh no

Alicent: what a beautiful name

My mom: for a dead woman.

Me: oh shit. Alicent i know you wont do it

And she didn't. In your face mom. Dyana sweetie run away from this shitshow

...

Aegon you disgusting little shit

Good slap, my mom snorted from the kitchen. What an absolute win

...

i cant tell luke and jace apart shit

Ooooh i got them, dark hair is luke AKA the youngest and brown hair is jace AKA oldest okokok

aEMOND

LOOK AT HIM GO

Oooh the velaryon have arrived bitches

...

rhAENYS

She is so hurt for laenor :(

Ehehehe rhaenys knows Whats up

My mom's bf: what just happened??

My mom: she is telling the princess that is a good idea but if tomorrow the hightowers do their best to fuck with her and win, rhaenyra will be fucking alone

...

My mom, forgetting what she said at the start of the episode: well can we kill the King already?

My mom's bf: they can last that long?

My mom: usually? In that time? No, but he is very stubborn.

Rhaenyra what are you saying? That you do not want the realm?

Viserys really said im going to sleep, good bye

Oh shit is he dead?

finALLY?

Oh he isn't, but it would have been hilarious

Viserys: i wanna eat with my family

My mom: bc after it im gonna die, not before i do another little fuck up. As a goodbye for everyone

...

Yeah you go vaemond

Ooooh RHAENYRA STOP everyone knows

Lets see what bullshit she will say

OH MAN VISERYS IS UP AND WALKING

My mom: he is so SLOW, can anyone give him a piggy walk to the poor old man

My mom bf: until he gets there...

My mom: THE EPISODE WILL END WHEN HE GETS THERE

you know i dont like viserys but man they could have dressed him with something lighter, poor man cant walk and you put him in THAT

My mom, when daemon helps viserys: shitty fucker started hating him now he is a Goodie. Why you doing that

Oh shit rhaenys, well, im still with you, Lady. You rock

Vaemond im so sorry for you

OOOOH VAEMOND HAS HAD ENOUGH

Yeah dont allow it vaemond

OOOH VAEMOND SPITTING FACTS

oOOH HE SAID IT >:D

OOH HE SAID THAT :0

NOOOOO VAEMOND

Daemond you bitch

Aemond what are you thinking you little scheming blondie

...

Not alicent being so religious... religius... religeus... RELIGIOSA, what the trauma does to a lady

Aegon you little shit shut up

My mom: viserys will drop dead in his potatos

ohhh he is

Oh god his face

Viserys: i love you all guys

My mom: except the hand of the King, who is very much a son of a bitch

Ohhh rhaenyra said sorry? Alicent and rhaenyra bien kind and nice to each other??

My mom: at least for tonight

Mi brother: they have to keep appearances

Aegon pls youre embarrasing me in front of my Team Black Mom

Jace: i have good memories of our childhood

The rest of the damn table:

Halaena BABYGIRL YOU DESERVE BETTER

My mom: and now, in such a little moment of family and laugh and dances and utter stupidity, viserys dies.

He didn't.

Thats it, viserys fucked off, its time for killing each other

OOOH AEMOND WHAT ARE YOU DOING

Aemond: they are like their father... strong

Yiss this man is a little shit, but a different kind to aegon

OHH RHAENYCENT MOMENT? AN HONEST MOMENT?

AAAAA

....

MYSERIA? MYSAIRA? MISEYRA? LA DAMA MISERIA

What are you plotting beautiful Lady?

....

Well no one can deny that alicent is trying her damn best with viserys.

Oooh the King is fucking it up one last time

Shit

oh nonono

Alicent's FACE

Oh shit is he going to kill himself? Oh he didn't

Episode ends

My mom's bf: is he dead?

My mom: we dont KNOW. UNTIL I SEE A DAMN FUNERAL HE ISN'T DEAD. and even then i will doubt it. He lasted this much seems pretty sus that he just dies now.

Once again, my mother is upset bc of the lack of murder and blood and war, she gives a 0/10

[indescriptequilibrium]

ive legit just forgotten all of my stress management skills thanks to being so busy and having brain issue n whatever. which is not optimal n probs part of why ive been feelin insane at times. i remembered spoon theory for the first time in a while n was like woah damn im a spoonie... been throwing all the utensils away every day for months. yesterday i watched a movie all by myself n went to sleep fairly early n combated the Stressful Thoughts w/ deep breathing n imagery exercises or whatever n was like wtf this works damn. even tho ive done that shit intermittently for years now!!! my summer vacay went by doin R&R n i rly didnt wanna spend it Getting Ready To Work so i kinda just ignored the big stress but now im back n the vacay gave me perspective but im still very unequipped to deal with these stress levels n overthinkin n rumination. n i underestimate my need for restful sleep, im not 15yo anymore i cant function with 5h of sleep without feeling like my brain is pushed against an angle grinder. it makes a world of difference my whole mind n self feels different im still tired today but i dont want to actively die so that's a W. n i can Think n Manage Stress it's crazy. ive changed my perspective on sleep as ive Gotten Older cuz it rly feels like i get more out of life if ive slept even tho my brains scream to get one more hour of alone dark time n not let tomorrow come. it comes anyway n i can make a difference if it fucking sucks or if i get the most out of it. fuckkkk. happy disability pride month spoonie comrades <3

[poisonouswritings]

Hehehehehe I imagine once everyone split their separate ways for their rooms, their was a group chat/ group call going on between everyone except Sage and MC congratulating themselves on their plan that night…I love these idiots

Roadtrip Part 1

Roadtrip Part 2

This group has one braincell I don't think they can stay on topic long enough

2:03 am

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: ugh finally in the room ಠ_ಠ

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: You had just as much luggage as I did, darling

🐰Trixareforgays: f u both yall had way 2 nuch

🐰Trixareforgays: *much

🐰Trixareforgays: I think it is far more pressing to discuss the events today?

🐰Trixareforgays: This is Elowen. My phone is in my suitcase some where

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: pendeja unpack ur own bag >:/

🐰Trixareforgays: No 💅✨

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: Why is Anisa not online?

🐰Trixareforgays: bathroom

🐰Trixareforgays: I believe she is doing her skincare routine

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: oh fuck tell her to bring her creams over i wanna use the rose one

🐰Trixareforgays: eat ass

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: 😈

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: If we can stay on topic?

🐰Trixareforgays: felix cant believe u get ur ass ate

🐰Trixareforgays: wait ye i can

🐰Trixareforgays: I do hope you wash beforehand

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: IF WE CAJ PLEASE STAY ON TOPIC

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Rime use yr own creams

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: *your

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: no gimme gimme

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: plz

🐰Trixareforgays: bets?

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: What time shall we leave tomorrow?

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: Bets on?

🐰Trixareforgays: Give me fifteen on the mutt trying to make a move and chickening out

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: fifty on me and fe fucking before Sage gets the balls to try anything

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: R I M E

(💅Pretty_Deadly💀 has been muted)

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: anyways

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: not cool annie

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Get off Felix's phone or ill mute him too

🐰Trixareforgays: Shall I add Lucan and Balsam to the chat?

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: When are they leaving?

ElowenTheMighty: Tomorrow, supposedly. They should catch up with us in two days.

ElowenTheMighty: Also Tulsi got my phone for me

🐰Trixareforgays: die

(💅Pretty_Deadly💀 has been unmuted)

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: FUCK BITCH ASS CUNT

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: o you unmuted me

(💅Pretty_Deadly💀 has been muted)

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: heh

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: Add them tomorrow I suppose

🐰Trixareforgays: im putting 30 on sage bing a bit h

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Ill raise double for that

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: Assuming they can keep it a secret

(💅Pretty_Deadly💀 has been unmuted)

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: Ann that isn't how betting works

ElowenTheMighty: They can

🐰Trixareforgays: shut up bambi let her bet hows he wants

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Rime I can mute you again

(✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨ has been muted)

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: BET

ElowenTheMighty: At least Balsam can

🐰Trixareforgays: uh oh an just left the rom

🐰Trixareforgays: room

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: No one ever answered what time we should leave tomorrow

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: I told you earlier you just weren't listening darlnk

🐰Trixareforgays: darlnk

🐰Trixareforgays: cant we leav later

🐰Trixareforgays: I HATE TTPJNG KN THIS FUCKING PHONE

🐰Trixareforgays: THE SCREN IS FUCKINF SCEAXKED

ElowenTheMighty: I'm astonished you haven't just gotten a new one yet

🐰Trixareforgays: gotta wait abogfer week before I can tuen it in

ElowenTheMighty: being sleep deprived likely doesn't help

ElowenTheMighty: where did Anisa go?

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: She's here bedding up Rime

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: *beating

🐰Trixareforgays: lmaooo can't believe Ann is fuckibc rudolpg

(✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨ has been unmuted)

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: back :)

ElowenTheMighty: So we're keeping these sleeping arrangements for the rest of the trip, yes?

🐰Trixareforgays: ye i don't wanna deal with dages snoring

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: yeah it's gonna take that knucklehead forever to actually use this to his asvantage

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: congrats to me for thinking of this

🐰Trixareforgays: UM EXCUSE ME MOTHERFUCKET

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: heh

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: fucket

ElowenTheMighty: Fucket bucket

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: heh

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: It was an excellent idea

🐰Trixareforgays: THAT WR ALL CAME UO WITH

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: alright alright calm down bunny

🐰Trixareforgays: I WILL FUCKING END YOU

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: I'm honestly shocked the car plan didn't work better

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: I cannot believe you all left me out of planning that!!

🐰Trixareforgays: hah

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: love you're horrible at keeping a secret

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: I am not!

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Felix

ElowenTheMighty: Yes you are

🐰Trixareforgays: ur the worst actually

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: I am refusing to further entertain this ridiculous notion

💀TheBellTollsForThee💀: I am going to sleep. Good night.

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Sorry fe

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: ill keep him up for longer 😈

🐰Trixareforgays: gag

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: Rime please shut it

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: hey tulsi if your dumbass still doesn't hit on mc maybe you should threaten to

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: light a fire under his ass

🐰Trixareforgays: ill thnik about t

💅Pretty_Deadly💀: ANN DID GOU STEAL MY CONCEALER

✨🌸Anisa_Pizza🌸✨: ✨😇✨

[handbagman]

may I hear about the lore to your ocs (you don’t have to answer this but I just think your ocs r cool)

thank you 4 asking herws a braindump from what i can rmemebr 😭😭

charlie is a cloud god and his son mariel is a little water dude abd also the prince . charlies eye is also Fucked up(cause of stupid grandpa lore LMDAOOO) and its so like. dense i guess(????) that half of his body is slowly disintegrating. he gets help from A Doctor but doesnt actually pay attention cause of the disintegration so he just gets his medicine and never takes it. after a while of not taking the medicine he doesnt notice anything wrong until He starts Rapidly Disintegrating

okay hes not Rapidly rapidly disintegrating hes just getting fucjed up faster so he calls a cool company over to give him a body guard and his bodyguard is a guy named sirius vega (who is. importabt later LMFAOOO)

when he still has a bit of him left sirius (<- guy for later) literally has to give him like. 40 million stardust (<- important later) pills a day just so that he could stay conscious (<- ALSO IMPORTANT LATER)

when he gets rapidly disintegrated the only surviving parts arw the side of his body with the eye so he just lost his left brain left arm most of his heart his leg its like that one tiktok audio where its like "his leg got turned inside out" LMFOAOAO the reason he isnt dead is because of the jackload of stardust (<- still important) he had to take

sirius starts having to watcg mariel and keep charlie in check . problem is that sirius also has basic (not-human) needs and sleeps as well so whenever he sleeps charlie goes like "oh its time to get silly" and then starts grabbing people from Down Below (the planet below has other kinds of people) for experiments and also killing them 😭

mariel hears all this shit and as a little like. 14 year old (damn i never said his age) he goes in to investigate (when charlies not there) . when he sees all the deadbodies and Very Sad People hes like "NAHHHH" and runs out the room .

charlie is about to enter the room when that happens so hes just like "damn bro 🤣 wanna help" and mariels like "DAD WHAT THE FUCK" and charlies like "🤣🤣🤣🤣"

their house castle thing is coincidentally on the Edge of the Highest level of cloud so mariel just runs out the house (sirius still sleeping like a boat engine LNFOJAOA) and Jumps off and charlie watches like "damn ☹️"

the next day while charlies getting in a argument wirh sirius "WHERE THE FUCK IS HE" "BRO HE JUMPED OFF" "HE WHAT???" mariels on The Planet.

on the planet theres 2 other types of dudes the fire and the plant dudes (long story short he doesnt actually know much about these guys other than whatever he got in school and the last thing he remembers is The torture room so he doesnt think about it). mariels about to make the third kind on Complete accident

LONG LONG LONG story short stardust gives life to people theres cool star guys that live in space that dont actually kill people by heat and stardust is like dandruff to them so it just gets Everywhere and everyone has Some stardust in them

EXTRA LONG STORY SHORT water people (from the clouds) are made from fish. how are the fish made? idk 😭 when water people evaporate (grow up) the fish slowly die and they turn into cloud people . since mariel is Not in the clouds his ass is NOT gonna evaporate for a while

AANNNYYYWAAAYYYYSSS jesus christ okay so mariel starts crying over the river when he sees that he cant live the rest of his life as a little fish guy and fish have started gathering around him and when he cries theres Little Bits of his Stardust in the tears so when they hit the water the fish (that are already alive) come alive as well (cause now. the water is alive(???))

the fish are like "what the fuck is rhis what happened" and mariels like "AHHHHHH AHHHHHHH AHHHHHH" cause hes like 14 and all tjat Other Stuff

the fish cant go back into the water and because theyre all like. 2% mariel (the stardust) (like skim milk!) they vaguely understand the world around them . and considering The World Around Them for 100% of mariels life was living in a little castle with a king in a monarchy thats what the water people start making with mariel as their leader

fastforward like 5 years the waterpeople kingdom shit were doing. alright. not horrible. they started making their own water people and stuff very fun. mariel didnt really do much (cause he didnt need to do anything) and nobody actually attacked each other cause most the fish beef was with the fish personally and not the water people themselves

what mariel Doesnt know is that his dad was actively trying to find his ass in the last 5 years . when he got in that argument with sirius (sirius got forced to stay in the castle with him) (+ felt like he had to so that charlie doesnt kill anyone else) sirius was like "TELL HIM YOU'RE SORRY FOR SHOWING HIM DEAD PEOPLE OR SOMETHING??? WHAT THE FUCK????" and charlie was like "oh but i have to find him to do that" and sirius was like "ohhh my god GO FIND HIM THEN"

his dad Finally found him with a cool ass telescope and was like "hmmmm yes. maybe when i say sorry i can also tell him to come home"

charlie doesnt actually Know what hes apologizing for but he gets sirius to go sneak in there and give a envelope to some guy that passed it over to mariel and mariel was like ".Well."

envelope basically said (in shit handwriting) "SON PLEASE MEET ME I AM SORRY THERE IS A COOL HILL NEAR YOUR KINGDOM PLEASE GO THERE I WILL SAY SORRY. NOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER PEOPLE THOUGH THEY SCARE ME"

charlie actually was gonna apologize and he even made a Cool Lightning Bolt to do it

sirius was still on the planet so he kind of just. watched from a distance as mariel went over to this hill

charlie wanted to be Dramatique with that shit so he was gonna shoot a lightning bolt down before he came down

problem is 1. shooting lightning is hard 2. he only has 1 (VERY BLURRY) eye to see out of 3. hes fuckinf stupid

so. mariel gets there. and charlie Shoots the lightning bolt Right At His Arm and Demolishes it Entirely

sirius is obviouslt panickinf now cause hes like ">,9!,]@0?@0" got out his hiding spot to try and help and mariel is just laying there like the familg guy death pose

sirius gets over to his dead body and is like "😭" (<- literallt he starts crying)

SIRIUS LORE SPEEDRUN TO EXPLAIN WHY HIM CRYINF IS IMPORTANR

1. sirius is the doctor from before thats how he knew how to help-ish with the meds

2. he got kicked off the doctor team for wanting to Actually Help Peoplw

3. he was a Very Good Doctor so people actually requested for him before he got fired

4. he got shot in the head by said doctor team but still lived + multitude of other injuries

5. he lived because Hes not actually fully cloud

- His ass is actually a star guy covered in cloud skin. Long long long story short this star person was beefing with some other star person and lost So Fucking Bad that they defied the laws of. space i guess and fell onto the planet below. as soon as the star person fell they got attacked and i guess some cloud guy had a Very sharp spear so it cut a small piece of the star off

- that small piece of star is sirius, whos stardust slowly brought the cloud ground (cause they live on clouds. cause theyre cloud people) alive and wrapped himself in it

- the very large piece of star Still doesnt know what happened

- random fact but stars in space have 1 set form but stars in any place with gravity can get as big or small as they want . the star person 100% couldve killed everyone on the cloud land they just Didnt Know where it was or what they were doing

-said star person lives under the top layer of cloud and (yeah it filters in light and rain LMFAOO) helped mariel get on the planet withoit him dying

6. also sirius is trans the reason charlie didnt properly recognize him is cause doctor him was pre transition

7. whenever sirius feels Very Lots of Emotion he starts "bleeding" (literal liquid star starts leaking) from every cut in his body + his eyes

when mariel got hit with lightning it also fucked up BOTH his eyes (made them the same thing his dad has)

since starDUST brings people to life and sirius is a Literal Star Wrapped in a Cloud Coat (not like he knows that) when he cried he cried Over tje body and his liquid star stuff brought mariel straight back to life but it also fucked him up heavily

long story short sirius runs away from the castle Properly, mariel rips his cloud eyes out ans abandons his water dudes out of panic + blindness and charlie is now fixated on getting his son back

there is. more. but i have to go now so if anyone actually read this fsr and read rhe entire (i didnt count how many woeds it is) thing Thank You LMFAOOO

doesnt really matter though cause i dont even talk about my ocs rhat much on here

[goshidori]

COD BOYS

Well- back at it again boys, these are Hc's for my friends COD Oc's because why tf not, they all belong too @keiinos-blog

-> Luci tough shell of a man but kinda soft on the inside, I can imagine aggressive love, not mean or bad but y'know, aggressive.

-> Kaj gets peoples phone numbers all, the, time. I can see this man getting hit on constantly and it got to a point where when someone hands him their number- he throws it away in front of them.

-> I Hc that one of the boys drank milk with ice, I don't know why but I feel it in my core that one of them have that atrocious audacity.

-> Adrien takes cat naps. That's it- man curls up into a warm ball with a fuzzy blanket cause to many people Elijah come in injured all the time. So he needs that nice little reset.

-> Wolf, honest to god, I can see this man laying down in the snow just contemplating life. I feel like he's done it once at least, it just feels right cause me too man.

-> Mason as a kid somehow made a small explosion with some sort of household chemicals or just got infatuated with the ones in movies and decided he wanted to fuck shit up.

-> Luci is like- a fucking cat magnet, man has cats following him everywhere. The cat god, with Sake as his faithful right hand women, and his cat army.

-> Hayes, the big beautiful man, probably gave his lunch money to kids who needed it. Actually he probably just gave them his lunch, older sibling energy. Feeling the need to provide and protect.

-> Silvan, the tough man, yknow- can see this man painting his nails, especially if he has kids that want to paint his nails. He likes the look and in that scenario, if it makes his kids happy- who is he to say no? Cant escape it.

-> Adrien is low-key feral, a very sweet pretty man but he'd gut you in your sleep, no hesitation and I'm willing to die on this hill.

-> I can see Mason being a very sweet man, especially alone. Probably has some sort of gentle/soft trinket somewhere in his room that no one knows of.

-> Kaj has an amazing singing voice, I mean holy shit this man sounds angelic. Like that's the voice I'd wanna hear before I die please and thank you.

-> I can see Wolf owning a rescue center after retiring. Would mainly do it for cats as they're less popular and less taken care of, that or he'd always donate new cat toys, food, and litter.

-> Silvan would volunteer to help take care of kids, it just seems like he'd be a real hit with kids, "Uncle Sil" or some cute shit like that.

-> They're all dog shit gamblers and I take no criticism, I'm dying on this hill. Kaj and Mason would get really close but they'd take a risk and bam, all that money gone. The rest are just lucky and know to not push that luck.

-> Hayes wearing this, that's all, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

[gaming-thoughts-by-an-idiot]

"Draugen" Game (part 1)

"Ooo norway"

"Oooo fjords"

"Ah!! AH! MY CITY, THEYRE TALKING ABOUT MY CITY"

"This is very nice, I like the aesthetic"

Game: lead character artist "Hans Christian Andersen"

Me: isnt he dead?

"Unless someone just took snippets from his stories or idk tbh, I cant remember reading much from him... maybe I should"

"Who is Lissie?"

"The main character, Edward, hes like old or more like 40 maybe? Idk, but he have to rest up hills and I honestly judged him, as if I dont have to stop several times too and hold my fucking inhaler in case my lungs decide to test me"

"Oh... ooh no... the flag is half mast.. hehe. That means someone is dead"

"Haha I can see her, but he had to rest"

Lissie: seriously?

Edward, through his teeth: you're not the one who's carrying a f-... suitcase

"Good save"

"Okay so Lissie is 17, so maybe shes his kid?"

"I fucked with the gamma, and theres no reset, and I cant remember if this is how it was oh no help"

"His name is-- A I GOT AN ACHIEVEMENT "

"His name is Mr. Harden"

"Damn, twins marrying twins... odd"

"Is that odd? I feel like that might be? Weird? Idk is it? AAA my head"

"AALESUND"

"Love it when people say it like that, beautiful"

"ITS SO DARK"

"I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SEE"

"ooo, a sailor ship chest thing... I got one of those"

"Okay I think Lissie is his kid"

"We found his sister's scarf, he got super dizzy, he had to take a nap"

"Poor guy"

"Uh oh... child gone"

"OH MY GOD JUMP SCARE"

"IT WAS BETTY IN THE WINDOW"

"OH JESUS MY HEART"

"Yeah the clock is definitely broken, it was 12:45 when he took a nap too, so unless its close to midnight?"

"You didnt even LOOK in the kitchen, u opened it and went OH ALRIGHT NOTHING HERE fucking idiot"

"JUST GO UPSTAIRS AND CHECK FOR FUCKS SAKE"

"I wonder if we're actually gonna see draugen"

"Oo muddy"

"What if draugen is scary"

"Who the fuck is Alice?"

"I gotta google this"

"Okay so Lissie is Alice... and Lissie is not his kid. And apparently Edward is 'young'... this is confusing"

"Oooh, he slipped and fell down rocks, ouch"

"Lissie is still missing"

"A lobster trap"

"Lissie! I found her"

"Our boat is gone"

"Back to the house, get cleaned up, and sleep... let's see what happens"

"Google said the game takes about 3 hours, which is good, cuz my sister is back after that, and she havent played the game yet"

"I can explore upstairs yass"

"Oo piano"

"Draugen waltz.. nice"

"Oh! I got an achievement for playing the piano- OMG A 100??? HOLY SHIT"

"Damn... norway is so beautiful"

"I cant believe I thought he was like 40, how embarrassing"

"Asdfghjkl Norwegian letters and an American trying to say 'vi er desperate' I'm sobbing, oh my god"

"On the door it says "forræder" which means Traitor."

"So the kids died, and it's a curse, god left the land etc etc... wtf wtf someone is knocking on a wall or window in the game"

"I'm reading old Norwegian, game, stop"

"Oh, house creaking, not knocking "

"Just walk inside the houses? Maybe they're hiding behind the doors"

"Out to explore!"

"I'm completely lost in the game, half thoughts"

"Its so interesting, and fun to hear someone try to read Norwegian is always funny"

"I'm scared of draugen tho... like I wanna go 'haha mythical being lmao'... but the kids are gone, killed... draugs steal kids... I'm just saying I might cry if I see it"

"Alright, I've done loads since I wrote so let's do a summary:

The child, Ruth, died, they think her cousin did it. The cousin left shortly after the kid died- the official story is she fell and cracked her skull open on some rocks.

Edward is OBSESSED with his sister, one random noise and hes like 'Betty???'

Ruth apparently went exploring in the mine, found treasure, Edward read about Draugen in a book, it's a man thing without a face, visit u in your dreams, and if u wake you're lucky, but someone near u will die.

Everyone is gone, a man was found, he hung himself.

Twin brothers were very angry, and now the church bells are ringing. And I'm running to it"

"So googled and draugen is a dude who's thirsty for women and children, the one I was picturing Nøkken, and that's a swamp woman so"

"Lissie was a personality thing, not real, then a weeping angel suddenly appeared??? And then they disappeared... Betty was apparently on her way to the mine, hes now around the mine.

He also found Anna, the mom to Ruth, and the dad went to his brother and now I'm in the mine."

"BUT my sister is back and I cant spoil the game soo"

[xxfrankieroindragwithgerardxx]

Tw: mention of self harm, depression

Im so fucking tired. I want to sleep but my adhd medication wont let me. I have so many friends but im always lonely. I feel like none of them actually like me. My best friends assure me they love me all the time but any time im not talking to someone I immediately get lonely. Im always sad, all the time. I want to cry so much. I want to sob, bawl my eyes out and let all the sadness flow out with the tears. At 2 am I get bored and take out my knife. At this point i cant even tell if its sh or just a pass time. I used to sh by using my punching bag without gloves. Too much, too hard, too frequent. My hands were a bloody mess. But now theyre calloused and used to it, they dont rip like they used to. I miss it so much. The dark brown dried blood splotches covering my red punching bag. I want to make more so bad but I can’t. Im too tired, my skin is too tough, it just doesnt happen. But I can’t cut i cant bc I swim so much in the summer and I wear bikinis and crop tops so how do I hide that? I’ve been doing it very lightly, just a few layers of skin. It hurts, maybe bleeds a tiny bit, but it doesnt last. It will heal and it wont scar, and it doesnt give that stinging that lasts all day, all week even. Having scabbed knuckles is mostly socially acceptable, people never suspect it to be a form of sh. It is. And now every time I touch my legs and they dont sting I feel so invalidated. I want them to hurt more. I wish there was a place on my body that I could cut and no one would see the scar. Or that the cuts would just disappear when they heal. So I can still se them when theyre red, but they dont last forever. I want a razor so I can cut deeper, more easily. But I can’t cut deeper cuz propel will notice. My mom was just yelling at me to get off my phone and do my homework but every time I stop and look at my computer I want to cry. Im trying I really am. Im trying to try. I used to try so hard but I kinda gave up. I never get anything done anyways. My fucking meds aren’t working, they’ve successfully destroyed my sleep schedule and thats it. I get exhausted at 1 pm but im full of energy at 1 am. I havent gotten the chance to listen to music all weekend, I missed it so much. I just wanna be home alone and sing and dance to Mcr and p!atd. I dont even like panic! that much, just a few of their songs. But house of memories and I write sins not tragedies make me so happy, especially singing along. I want to sing along to mcr, I want to meet them and see them all the time and learn to play guitar with frank and learn to produce with Ray and learn to sing with gerard and learn keyboard with mikey(and improve my pokerface) and I want them all to hug me and I want to meet franks dogs and gerard cats and go to all of their concerts and help gerard pick out outfits. If I could see them and talk to them for the rest of my life it would cure me. If I could have a pretty gf who would cuddle me and listen to me and understand me, I would be so happy. If my struggling friends got better I would get better. If everyone would just disappear, everyone ive ever met except my best friends and my idols, I would be so much happier. I wouldnt be constantly worrying about what people think of me, about them ignoring me and not texting me. I wish I could live in the killjoy universe, ride around the desert with the Fab Four, surviving off of what we need, running from the government. And having fun. Real fun. Not watching tv or scrolling tumblr alone. I mean playing cards and riding dirt bikes and climbing and killing bad guys. Coming home tired and beat up and covered in sand, maybe bleeding but full of adrenaline and just happy that we all made it out alive and that would be enough. Where people dont have to worry about consequences. Getting bad grades leading to no college leading to no money. Where people just have to not die and thats enough. Doesnt that sound nice? My eyes are barely staying open right now, barely staying dry. Im so tired of high expectations.

[fkyumerica]

each area, circles on the map, to have their kids take care of their kids they left and the rest of them

how tall is she, how big is her head. She got to mate with all those giants then go giant. They made another big fucking everyone whore. Does she put her pussy on their hair too? Yea. Cupid area was they mated with the infants. Anyways. Kentucky ground. Wire. Blow it up.

is that carol. "my opponent" mama right im your mama. stfu and die.

she was running around at the neurologist office

cailigulaaaaaaaaaaa

she was taller than him

holy sht

and

cupid guard

chop off her legs

like in the mummy

holding onto a infant to fuck it

on her back

bent knees

hahahah robo

i googled legs chopped off the mummy

images

now jump

it was the group in the coliseum in the gladiator leading it, knew about it

the groups to kill

the rest was family didnt know or whoever went in it

wtf I wanna be that bitch again. him or her or who. the noroi guy. then full house after. her whole family to let out a bug. then bug houses the rest of the day. after. noam chomski.

uggghh

the water rape

to tko

gtfo

glenis

dead kennedy

yea we raped them

whole group on the ground

alive still

come back the next day begging

why why why

give me something

wtf

queer

make a punk concert

theyre in it

and push you down

wtf my ass

didnt have a kid

and

conceited

i know i got the biggest ass

good here too

alix said they used these

float

invincible

can do it again

cheat rob steal and fuck in your house

kids take it out of it

and if they hand me it i take it in and fucking mess up with it too new mom and dad in here whoa im new and come back and hit them

again

whaa

got the sex

good too

kids says the got the sex good too part

and we married hah take a picture

arm around the kid

her

too

dick

we can find the map to get her too (giant)

and all of it

see the blood man

after mating with 18 see his skull to crack. and they would number off. and his arms out after.

not knowing what any of it is

send it to mar ch again

it is march

once a year wtf go

rain

guitar

see the blood man

who

oo

ahhhhhhh

no fear

we live

so cute her

i do her

and terror

send cuer

wtf

85

one alert for sex

and they all fuck

heard it

kennedy

you and me

take her to, any leg surgery, i dunno i like it

and

went

to

march

i live this long

then sleep

come on

bed

a lot of the world that stayed was just short. and whoreing parties around the world you wanna go? mating was it.

theres the noroi kid

he had no eyes

and

the girl,, her head would go all the way back

isnt decapitated

like it was fabric or something cardboard cut out

and

a giant too

hwo to catch them

part of a litter, she was

her face was the ET

she was a giant

the grudge one

and kept inbreeding, for them to win

that was the point

have a kid throw it in the window

it is that big people go to it

they used the camera to edit their facess

of seecurity cameras

she only shows up when she is giving birth

or puts her son in her

it was her husband

any relative is

there were 44 of her with those faces

senritsu kaiki file kowasugi file 1 operation capture the slit they put face masks on them

it is like reverse bear trap

no shes alive

they will push in their molars to go in their eyes

they are shreks

they take a eye donation of a dead relative

i can draw it

cappa why

hahaha

i got my hair flower in the mail today

it is big

its so pretty i love it

now i gotta sew on the collar

and moddel it

shrek and fiona

she is as big as the garage next door

the neighbor will get them to leave

chris keeps saying no let them over

and thinks they are her kids

to attack me

for anything hahaha

her leader

no

what

well fuck your bear child

WTF was that

WTF was that

GIVE ME YOUR TRASH BAG

these guys did fk their moms

punch her head backwards

dad would drag her

and

shes knocked out

dead

i can fuck her

so her son would

and dad would hold her head and go oh no

so the whole area

would hop

and wtf i cant figure this out

woman didnt talk to her

or him

so they fucked as they wanted

anyone

and kids dump them on her she wants me to teach it

so they shit it out on her

and in too

rapists

abortion to in you

uma

make ghost noise

see i dont go back

make the noise for me to take my kid back

and shes my kid

go walk

hits her i dunno its her

her son would

for her to get raped by everyone

even cared

kids infants toddlers in their arms

sit it on her

flip it around its her

and the sons stay short she hits them on top of the head

she hits her son

and

the mom

and the dad

but super giant

dan and katie

her just born

grandparents

find her

and

again she gave birth 8 times

funny to her not to you, his mother is the one on the right or big boy raped him got him drunk or drugged him right before he said it

lied to a whole town

tommy lee

me and my whole family

the actor

and boomers was this

midget night

edit for grease

they took all the buildings

insane

huge skulls

midgets

clockwork

and

sun

wont be a dad them neither

and their moms

next to them huge too

or gay what is it

ewoks wasnt it

but hits them too to go giant

one on the ground

top of its head in

no cone head

wont set out cones either

wooo

planet of the apes said put it in the garbage, they arent even their word of the lord.

Wed 8:00 PM

they let out mass dope, empty right? the whole house

hole

you know you live young over 400 years

and the old men who fuck no face girls

and those guys to whoreing girls

haha joke

infant what

abortion

happened

fucked old men too wo ho ho hot

abandon house whoa.. uhhh

mmmm

they will just go in and fuck

and hey who wants to live here give her a play house

and school

yea amanda bye

shes et

and no face mask

they were c ommercials so no one moves south

or out

already our family did

i was nice once

to my state no

leaave

hell yea

and go to the map area where the land, have kids again, and float, and just leave wtf ever it flooded float to mee I feel my child make a church and it ended there, we found them, and news too woo hoo tubing the kids mated. Pregnant or not. I dunno leave it. The mummy guy said it. And movie get money go. Move in college area. Why build another one no one else moved in yet.

he brings over the kid after he fucks it

party fowl

it was alawys that if you party you cant bring it with you

oh and caught, oh and caught

tale of gregor, guys caught, suicidal, kill it too. marilyn manson

him hating everyone, is him. the whole time. curtis

im gay i can be your daughter- murder that obsessed italy, i am obsessed

gwen stefani/destiny- no im not you, yea she did it, hi

[taqtu]

umm i think i just need to journal it out bc im soooo consumed by the thoughts and everything yaaas me when im alone nd deal w my feelings all alone and can rely on no one bc thats how i grew upppp anyway

this whole thing is sooo stressful for silly old me im so scared of what it means to not be able to get my needs bc that means another period of me being unstable and suuuper mentally ill like YEA ill buy my meds if i have to but that doesnt mean i want to do it bc the way i see it is if they gave me xyz this is compensation 🧍‍♂️ i cannot deal w being unstable nd suuuper mentally ill for a long time i DONT want to deal with withdrawal symptoms and not being able to get out of bed and being just MENTALLY ILL!!! without them i wish i didnt fucking read that message fr thats on me for being a curious nosy ass and now im super fucking stressed girl i wanna die i dont wanna deal w this bullshit EVERRRRRRR i wanna just die and be put to rest bc i hate it here 🤗🫶🏼

anyway i just need to cry it out for now and push it back and deny and hope everythings gonna be okay bc i dont wanna deal w shit rn and i just need to cry it out bc i dont wanna be alone dealing w my thoughts bc i rly cant rely on anyone at all for support im so stressed fr when all of their responses are just going to be there there xyz like fuck off id rather just deal w things on my own like i always had, like i cant rely on anyone else at all BYE!

im so stressed thinking about it and i just want to sleep fr i dont wanna be awake so me when im training myself for est timezone so i dont deal w anything 🫶🏼

[chrisbangs]

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[bazookajo94]

everyday i think about how in athy's original life she was an orphan and alone and how she probably od-ed on sleeping pills and everyday i think about how she was reincarnated into someone just as lonely and suffering and how she really thought of claude as a father and now she's alone again and she's already let herself die once so she's okay doing it again and

everyday

i

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