#i know it's all rather sad but frankly i think there are some funny-ass bits here đ
Excellent Emily and The Three Railway Enginesâ˘ď¸... BUT IT'S THE BAD TIMELINE đ
also, Togethernessâ˘ď¸! ... BUT IT'S THE BAD TIMELINE đ
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The Swan and her Handler
Emma Swan was cursed, and the only way to break it is with True Love's Kiss. Try breaking a curse with True Love's Kiss when you're a damn swan.
Yes, it's true, I've written a CS AU based on Walnut the Crane, a crane who fell in love with her handler. I'm ashamed at how idiotic this is. Itâs by far the dumbest thing I've ever written in all my life. Itâs nothing more than crack written in about an hour, un-betaed and barely edited. Sorry, and youâre welcome.
Rated T for language
~2000 words
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These damn idiots canât get anything right. It was bad enough when Emma showed up on their doorstep with perfectly clear care instructions that were completely ignored, but now they keep trying to get her to reproduce as if sheâs some kind of zoo animal.Â
 Of course, given her current living situation, it does make at least a tiny bit of sense.Â
 Ever since the curse, Emma has been stuck in a wildlife refuge and has been unable to get any of her stupid caretakers to figure out how to help her. She knows exactly what she needs, but unfortunately, no one here speaks swan and she canât exactly hold a pen. Her care instructions were translated upon her transformation, so the one thing that could have helped her now looks like chicken-- er, swan scratch.Â
 âShe needs a mate,â one of the jack asses points out. âSheâll probably want to mate for life.â
 True, she thinks, although, not with any of the stinky fluff balls you have sent my way. Â
 First it was Neal. He tried to mate with her, so she killed him. Last week, they put Walsh in her enclosure, and she pecked at him violently until they took pity on him and sent him to the medical unit.Â
 Although today seems different, because her newest caretaker has shown up, and she realizes that he just might be exactly what sheâs been looking for.Â
Emma Swan, unfortunately very appropriately named, requires a mate who can break her curse, True Loves Kiss the only thing that can bring her back to her truest form as a human adult woman. And when the new dark haired, stunning eyed veterinarian comes strutting into her enclosure, she hurries towards him to get a closer look at his name tag.Â
 He jumps away, making some comment about her being fiery , and she blushes, squawking at him as she tries to get closer. Killian , it reads, and if she had lips and not a bill, she would smile.Â
 âWe think sheâs depressed,â the stupid one with the big eyes says. âSheâs killed every mate weâve tried to pair her with.âÂ
 Good, she thinks. I must have done more damage on Walsh than I initially thought. Â
 âYouâre just misunderstood, arenât you, love?â the angel-man asks, making her squawk in agreement. She thinks she could make this quick, this man obviously understanding her horrible twist of fate, so she lunges for him once more, trying hard to kiss his hand and hoping beyond hope that it will transform her back into the woman she's supposed to be. No more feathers, she prays.Â
 He exclaims again, jumping and complaining of his hand hurting as she pecks him, so she rolls her eyes and squawks angrily. âAlright, darling,â he says with his hands up, his smooth, accented voice making her heart flutter inside her chest. Her breast? She knows very little about swan anatomy, despite having been turned into one. âPerhaps sheâs stressed about her environment. Have you tried giving her a dark, quiet place to nest?âÂ
 âNot yet,â the dumbass admits.Â
 The handsome one, Killian, a name she could get used to rolling off of her tongue, steps away from her, so she hurriedly follows. âPerhaps here in this corner will do.âÂ
 I would love to spend time in a dark corner with you, she thinks, giving the man what she hopes is a salacious smirk. She watches appreciatively as he sits down, crossing his legs as he starts to fiddle with some sticks as if she would be interested in them. Rather than helping him to make a nest out of the twigs and leaves, she plops herself right in his lap, nestling herself into his crossed legs and gazing up at his beautiful features, earning a smile from him.Â
 âThere we are, love,â he says happily, clearly surprised that she chose to plant herself upon him, although he shouldn't be. Just look at him, for godâs sake. âComfortable?âÂ
 She squawks loudly, making him cringe, then fluffs her feathers in an attempt to gussy herself up for him. If sheâs going to earn True Loveâs Kiss from this perfect specimen, sheâs going to have to work for it. The man chuckles as he looks down at her-- is he gazing? -- and lifts his hand slowly, placing a finger gently upon the top of her head and petting back down her neck, sending a chill down her spine, at least she thinks itâs her spine. She pushes her head towards him again, demanding more attention in an effort to get him to fall for her. It shouldnât take long; sheâs very enchanting.Â
 âSheâs never been this calm,â the dumb one says, making her snap her head towards him with a glare, shouting at him in disapproval. Killian shushes her soothingly, his finger softly stroking along her stupid feathers once more and making her shut her eyes.Â
 âShe just needed a bit of attention, it seems.âÂ
 âWeâd best be careful,â someone else says, the bookworm who always thinks she knows everything about swan science. Of course, she probably knows more than Swan Emma. âWe wouldnât want her to imprint on you ,â she seems to joke.Â
 âThatâs quite alright, isnât it love?â he asks her, essentially giving her permission to fall in love with this handsome bastard.Â
 He comes by a few times a week for the next several months, each time sitting with her in her tiny, dirty nest and not seeming to care that his pants get soiled. Sheâs always careful to do her business elsewhere, making sure that her prince can sit in comfort when he arrives. She gets angry with him when he brings someone new, a sickly looking male named Graham who she assures is not welcome, so Killian gives up trying to get her to mate with someone. For some reason, they're concerned about her procreating, but she can assure everyone that she will not be giving birth to a damn swan baby while sheâs under this curse.Â
 One day, when Killian visits near the end of his shift, heâs finally alone, leaving behind the dumb one and the book worm and giving her all of the attention she desires as his strong hand softly pets along her soft feathers. She canât wait to get rid of these stupid feathers.Â
 âYouâre quite funny,â he remarks as the sun starts to set. âUnlike any swan Iâve ever met.â
 She squawks at him-- Iâm not a damn swan-- and he smiles. âQuire the personality. It always seems like youâre trying to communicate with me.âÂ
 Yes, you stupid handsome man, thatâs exactly right! She tries to nod, lifting and dropping her head in quick succession and making the beauty laugh. She nudges her head against his hand in demand of more pets.Â
 âWhat is it you want me to know, darling?â he asks gently, his voice soft and soothing and deep.Â
 She groans, a sound that comes out like a pained cry, and his face shifts. âAre you alright, love?âÂ
 In pure frustration, Emma drops her head against the manâs chest, likely assaulting him with how badly she smells like bird shit, and he chuckles again, letting his hand run along her feathers some more. âThere, there. I know life as a swan must be difficult. All you seem to want is for someone to listen.âÂ
 She looks up, hoping that her expression conveys her complete and utter irritation at the fact that heâs literally hitting the nail on the head and yet he has no idea.Â
 âSuch a personality,â he says again. âIâve got to head home now, love. Iâm looking forward to having Chinese for dinner. Perhaps I'll bring you an eggroll tomorrow, or is that insensitive?âÂ
 She squawks, half because sheâs laughing, and half because she would quite literally kill another potential mate for an eggroll. Wanting to beg him not to go, she gives him her best sad face through her inability to emote, and nestles her head against his palm one more time.Â
 âIâll sneak you one, love,â he laughs, and as he does, he finally, finally , leans down towards her, and plants his stupid, dumb, lucious lips upon the top of her stinky bird head.Â
 Cramps start to run through her whole stupid bird body, the same ones she felt when she was cursed on Halloween decades ago. He stands, not seeming to notice her pain and discomfort until heâs a few steps away, and he turns back around. âSwan, are you alright?â he asks, as if she could answer, and she shouts back at him wordlessly.Â
 She praises whatever gods might be listening as she feels things start to change, her feathers shedding as her skin is exposed to the chilly fall air. The webbing between her toes retracts, her legs turning flesh colored rather than that horrifying orange. Her bill turns back into her nose and mouth, preparing her to smooch her savior rather than peck at him. Finally, sheâs back!
 âBloody fucking hell,â Killian breathes as he stares on, Emma transforming back into her old self, laying in a heap on the ground as she brushes off the dirt and twigs and leaves.Â
 âYou did it,â she praises before clearing her throat, raw from misuse after all these years. She grins at him as sheâs been wanting to since they met, and is met with a horrified, shocked look on his face. His jaw is gaping, his eyes wide as they catch the light of the setting sun. âI knew you would.âÂ
 âWhat the fuck?âÂ
 âYou broke the curse,â she says happily, standing up and exposing her nude form to him, cursing the lack of feathers although she vowed she never would. Immediately, he removes his jacket, despite his shock still clearly running through him, and hands it to her.Â
 âI did what now?â
 âI was cursed. Why do you think I was such a miserable swan?âÂ
 Heâs looking around, his mouth snapping shut and dropping open in succession as he tries to process the fact that there was a swan in the enclosure just a second ago, and now thereâs a frankly beautiful, naked woman standing before him. âYou were cursed,â he says doubtfully.Â
 âYes, I was. An evil witch cursed me on Halloween decades ago and I've been stuck in that infernal bird form ever since. All I needed was True Loveâs Kiss to break it, but imaging trying to fall in love with someone as a damn bird.âÂ
 âSo you⌠you fell in love⌠with meâŚ?âÂ
 âObviously,â she smiles, taking a step towards him on shaky legs, tripping and falling into his waiting arms as he catches her, careful not to grope her, although she isnât sure she would mind. âAnd you broke the curse, so⌠Do I have to tell you what that means?â
 âI-- Iâm having a lot of trouble processing the fact that I've evidently been in love with a swan for months.âÂ
 âWell, my name is Emma Swan, so you can be in love with a Swan for the rest of your life, if youâd like.âÂ
 âEmma,â he murmurs, staring into her eyes and smiling when he seems to recognize her. Sheâs never been able to see herself in the mirror, because the book worm was worried she would attack it, but based on the way heâs staring, she would guess that the evil witch let her keep her eyes. âDo you know it just happens to be Halloween tonight?â
 âKismet,â she says softly, gazing up at him. He lifts his hand like he did while she was planted in his lap, and sheâs finally able to feel his calloused finger along the skin of her cheek, then of her neck, just as he had done before.Â
 âAye,â he agrees. âThe spirit of the holiday does make this whole thing a bit easier to accept.âÂ
 âYeah,â she says dismissively. âNow take me home. I was promised an eggroll and I haven't eaten anything but grass and stale bread in almost thirty years.â
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Au where Saionji goes to Willy Wonka's chocolate factory with Mahiru and she gets stuck in one of the tubes. Cue Ruruka eating blueberry gum, swelling up and turning blue, Kokichi is also Willy Wonka in this AU so when he sees Saionji he smiles and says, "Ew."
I suspect you picked Kokichi as your Wonka because he kind of looks like Johnny Depp's version of the character? Heâs got similar hair and that same impish look about him. (By the same token, Ruruka looks rather like the 2005 film's version of Violet Beauregarde. So that fuels my theory on how you cast these parts.)
But I think I want to pitch matching the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory characters to their closest analogs in DR in terms of shared traits and overall personality.
- Kokichiâs not a bad pick for Wonka, frankly. I think Iâll keep him. :) Although Kokichi is clearly the more sinister of the two, they both are pursuing a theoretically positive end goal through bizarrely cruel means that will leave permanent damage on all involved. Hooray...?
- Charlie Bucket is selfless, honest, generous, devoted to his family, and uh, is a good kid who is good. He worries a lot about his familyâs poor medical and financial situations, to the point where he starts doing a paper route in the morning before school to assist. Hrm. Well, given that heâs a worrier who overworks himself, maybe this could be a part for Mitarai? Kind of a stretch, but I donât really know what else to do with this thin-ass protagonist role.
- Grandpa Joe is an old man who is supposedly one of our heroes - an excitable, stubborn guy who is defensive of his grandson and angry when things seem unfair. But I say âsupposedlyâ because the Internet has decided heâs actually a secret douchebag hiding his true nature. So Iâm tempted to give this to Tengan. Yâknow - for the meme.
- Ruruka Andou becomes Veruca Salt. Obviously! Because Veruca is known for being demanding, spoiled, and utterly entitled. Easiest casting here.
- Mike Teavee is portrayed as having some really violent and destructive tendencies in the 2005 movie and in the more recent Broadway musical. In movie, he just repeatedly breaks and crushes objects for fun, and he likes to scream âDie!â at opponents while playing competitive video games. Whereas in the musical, heâs literally killing animals and attacking adult women for fun â a legit psychopath. In both cases, heâs got a bit of an ego on him that lets him feel like he deserves to do whatever he wants. The Broadway version makes me think Jataro or Korekiyo (or Hiyoko because of the animals), but overall, Mike gives me Masaru Daimon vibes. Heâs certainly violent and egotistical enough for the part. So Iâm gonna go with Masaru.
- Violet Beauregarde has a different personality in every adaption. The only consistent thing about her is that she chews a lot of gum. 1971 Violet is arrogant, vain, and self-centered â so, Hiyoko? 2005 Violet is overly competitive, kind of rude, and into martial arts â Akane would fit that. And Broadway Violet is a fame-hungry child who is mass-marketed at the behest of one of her parents, often seen in pink. So that oneâs best aligned with Kotoko, it seems. Itâs really hard to congeal these different Violets into a single character... but if I had to do it, I guess Iâd say Junko gets the part. Enoshima is certainly mass-marketed, sheâs plenty competitive and nasty to others, 100% self-centered and arrogant.... itâs a decent mix.Â
- Augustus Gloop isnât a character; heâs just a sad, fat-shaming joke with a supposedly comedic accent. He goes down first and has almost no backstory. You might think, then, that Iâd pick the Ultimate Imposter to be Augustus, because heâs the fat joke of the DR franchise. But no! Because when I think âcharacter who loves food, dies first, and talks in a way thatâs supposed to be funny,â I think Daisaku Bandai. For sure.
Any remaining noteworthy roles are comparatively simple, both in depth and difficulty of casting. Slugworth â aka the rich suit who is seemingly after profit at any cost but secretly is part of a manipulation with overall positive intentions? Thatâll be Togami. The singing, dancing, short little race of clones? Monokumas, naturally.
And there you go! Weâve got ourselves a cast for Danganronpa and the Chocolate Factory.
Willy Wonka - Kokichi Ouma
Charlie Bucket - Ryota Mitari
Grandpa Joe Bucket - Kazuo Tengan
Veruca Salt - Ruruka Andou
Violet Beauregarde - Junko Enoshima
Mike Teavee - Masaru Daimon
Augustus Gloop - Daisaku Bandai
Slugworth - Byakuya Togami
Oompa-Loompas - Monokumas
I like it.
Itâs interesting that I wound up with so much DR3 representation here. That wasnât a goal at all.Â
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Youâre You
Summary: Reader is Hispanic/Latina. Sebastian Stan likes you but hasnât said anything. Itâs a little bit based on this interview in the video below;
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3NTd3ROMmYÂ
Sorry it is a bit long! Love you all!!
âSo (Y/N), looks like you got moved from your original promo groupâ the interviewer stated.
âYes, apparently, the Chrisâ and I are too chaoticâ you replied
âYou got that right, those three are horRIBLEâ Anthony Mackie added while elbowing you softly.
You shook your head while smiling and said, âNooo the thing is that Sebastian is too quiet so they brought meâ
âI heard otherwise hahahaâ added Winston Duke who was sitting on your right side.Â
âWhat? I am not that quietâ Sebastian said pretending to sound offended.
âSo some people uhmmm white people were saying that they donât want to offend anyone when they do the Wakanda signalâ the interviewer said causing the four of you to do the Wakanda motion.Â
âWell (Y/N) is Latina and Sebastian is uhhh Romanianâ Mackie said
âRightâ confirmed Sebastian, you nodded but scrunched your eyebrows in slight confusion
âSo thatâs differentâ Mackie added, âIâll take thatâ Sebastian replied. Mackie, Winston, and you bursted in laughter
âSooo what youâre saying Mackie is that Sebastian is.....spicy white?â you asked while laughing so hard you were getting tears in your eyes.Â
âYeah remember when we went to Romania?â Mackie asked you
âUhh huh and?â
âAnd every Romanian did the Wakanda thing saying youâre Anthony Mackie rightâ he replied
âOh and you got hit on a lot!â he continued
âWho did?â asked the interviewer
â(Y/N)!â Mackie said, the interviewer looked at you.
âYes, not to sound conceited but I get hit on constantly BUT when I went to Romania....it was something elseâ you said laughing
âWhat! Where was I when this happened?â Sebastian asked almost yelling
âIt was when (Y/N) and I would go get you guys coffee or hangoutâ, Mackie said
âI always went with you guysâ, Sebastian replied
âWell when YOU didnât go, she would get hit on, well when I would walk away...sometimesâ Mackie explained. Sebastian didnât say anything else but he looked a little annoyed.Â
âSo the Romanians loved youâ the interviewer said
âOhhh they sure did. Iâm surprised I didnât return home with one, they were so nice to me and oh my gosh very handsomeâ you joked
âWell you have one hereâ Mackie quickly said, motioning to Sebastian. You felt yourself blush, you had always liked Sebastian as more than a friend but never felt like the feelings were reciprocated.
âYeahhh but I am not Sebastianâs typeâ you jokingly teased
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â Sebastian asked rather sternly
âYou like the blondes Sebastianâ you replied.Â
âOooppâ Mackie and Winston said at the same time. They both had noticed that you and Sebastian liked each other but were too dumb to realize it.Â
âI donât only like blondesâ Sebastian said
âMhmmm you can believe your own lieâ you replied
âI think I am more Evans typeâ you added. Mackie felt Sebastian tense next to him.
âI mean she is not wrong Sebastianâ Mackie chuckled.
âWhateverâ Sebastian said.Â
There was a slight awkward silence until the interviewer asked about how long you had all been in the Marvel franchise, âYou and Sebastian have been here the longest right?â
âHmmmm, I think I came first and then Sebastianâ you answered nonchalantly.
âAt least heâs a gentlemanâ Mackie joked
âShut upâ Sebastian said.Â
Once the interview was over, the four of you went out for a few drinks. Sebastian was talkative with the boys but not with you, which was weird.
âAre you okay?â you asked him
âYeah why wouldnât I be?â he asked
âYouâre kind of quietâ
âNo Iâm not, Iâm talkingâ he said annoyed
âThatâs what I mean, what did I do? Because youâre fine with them but apparently not with meâ you explained
âGee I donât know maybe because youâre not MY type rememberâ Sebastian gritted. You gasped at his response, you didnât think he got butt hurt over that comment you had made during the interview. You and Sebastian stared at each other for a few minutes, Mackie and Winston both looked at you two.
âYou know Mackie, we should go get a few more drinksâ Winston said breaking the silence
âIâll go get themâ you said
âNo no, we willâ Mackie said in agreement with Winston.Â
âIâm sorry if my comment hurt you, which I donât know why it didâ you said.
âReally you donât know why?â Sebastian scoffed.Â
âNo I donât, I wouldnât have gotten butt hurt over itâ
âWhatever, Iâm leavingâ Sebastian said getting up from his seat but you stopped him.
âNO, I am leaving since you have no problem with the guysâ. You grabbed your purse and left with your jacket in hand.Â
Winston noticed you leaving, âI donât think our plan worked Mackieâ, Mackie turned to look, you looked sad and you were booking it out the place. Sebastian on the other hand looked pissed.
You walked out of the bar, putting on your jacket and headed back to your hotel. Sebastian had never talked to you in that way, he had always been nice. Your hotel was a bit far but you needed the long walk to clear your head.Â
Meanwhile Mackie and Winston were grilling Sebastian about the incident.Â
âNothing happened guysâ he said over and over
âCut the shit Sebs, she looked pretty sad walking out of hereâ Mackie said.
âWe know you like each otherâ Winston added.
âFINE, I told her that I wasnât talking to her because she wasnât my type, I didnât actually mean that but she did say that earlier so I used it on herâ he explained.Â
âYouâre an idiotâ Winston said
âI knowâ Sebastian replied.Â
You were walking for about ten minutes when you heard someone call out your name, you turned to look, it was Mackie.
âHey! Hold on why are you walking this late?â he asked
âI needed to clear my head, I canât believe he said that to meâ you said almost in tears.Â
âLook I know you and him like each other. You need to talk with him about it (Y/N)â
âI tried to and look where I am for doing so Mackâ
âYou didnât tell him you liked him thoughâ
âOf course not, I donât chase men Mackie, plus I meant what I said, I am not his type and I am not changing for someone elseâ
âHe likes you tooâ
âOh stop thatâs not funnyâ you said
âHe DOES. Think about it, every time we would plan to hang out even if it was just the guys he would invite YOU. Every time we would hang out where would he sit? Beside YOU. Whenever someone would flirt with you or talk about you, he would either get antsy or annoyed, which is funny to seeâ he said chuckling. You stood there looking at Mackie in shock.Â
âWell I wonât say anything until he does and that is not happeningâ you said.Â
âFine but stop being miserable about itâ
âIâm not miserableâ
âOkay stop being an assâ he joked with you. âCome on let me walk you, youâre crazy you know, walking out here this lateâ he said.Â
The next morning you walked in late for breakfast since you spent a longer time in the gym to work out your frustrations. You guys were almost done with part of the promo tour before heading to another city. When you walked in, the three were almost finished eating, which was another reason why you took longer, to avoid Sebastian.Â
âGood late morningâ Mackie said to you
âGood morning guysâ you replied. You grabbed your breakfast and headed out since you were planning on checking out a bookstore. You were about to get in your uber when you heard Sebastian call for you
â(Y/N), can we talk?â he asked, you looked at his face, he looked exhausted.
You rolled your eyes, âFine but I really want to check out this bookstore Sebastianâ
âIâll go, if thatâs okay?â he asked
âOkayâ.
He held the door open for you to get in. The ride there was quiet, you were looking out your window, trying your best to avoid his gaze.Â
You arrived at the bookstore, you immediately headed to the crime genre section. Sebastian walked around for a bit, trying to build his courage in telling you how he felt about you. âFuck itâ he said to himself, he went to where you were, when he found you, you were sitting on the floor, focused deep in a book. He was so in love with you it hurt.Â
He sat down next to you, âWhatâ you said but didnât move your eyes from the book.Â
âIâm sorry for what I said last night and I know itâs not an excuse for me saying it but you hurt my feelings when you said you werenât my typeâ he said softly
âOkayâ you replied.Â
âYouâre really going to make me work for it huhâ he smirked to himself.Â
âWhat?â you asked finally looking at him.Â
âThat is why I like you. You arenât my type but youâre YOU (Y/N). You make me feel things that I never have before, it scares the fuck out of me because I know youâll never hurt me but I donât ever want to hurt you. And I did last night which I felt so bad aboutâ he said, âI like you because you donât change yourself for anyone, youâre beautiful, funny, adventurous, you make me feel alive and youâre just youâ.
You didnât know what to say at first, âSebastian, Iâve liked you for a long time, you scare me because Iâm tired of getting hurt by guys, I donât want to lose you and frankly I know what you go after plus I know Iâm the bestâ you said winking at him.
He chuckled at your last remark, âI can definitely agree with that, now will you agree to go on a date with me? Letâs see where this goesâ he asked you.
You looked at him, looking into his eyes for a bit, âOkay, letâs see where it goesâ.Â
Three years later
âAnd like a dumbass, he let her walk outâ Mackie said on the microphone at yours and Sebastianâs wedding. Sebastian laughed at the comment but he wasnât wrong about it. âBut I am glad that they worked it out because they are just perfect for each other. I want to toast to these two amazing people, I wish them all the happiness in the world, cheers to (Y/N) and Sebastian!â everyone else clapped, you and Sebastian were definitely going to make it.Â
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hey alle, so for the prompts i'd love some cute and funny winteriron with bucky wanting to impress tony with his cooking, but tony being a very picky eater. which leads to a lot of frustration on bucky's side, and obliviousness on what is even going on from tony's. if you feel like it. thank you! <3
Here it is! The long-awaited His Girl FRIDAY remix! I hope you love this as much as I do!
As always, everything I write is on ao3 too
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The first time Bucky left food in Tonyâs workshop and come back to find it untouched, heâd figured it was a fluke. Tony had probably been caught up in a zoneâlike Steve had warned him about when Bucky had decided he was going to woo Tony with foodâand hadnât noticed the food was even there.
The second time, he made sure to catch Tonyâs attention as he was dropping off the plateâlasagna because Natalia had said Tonyâs mother was Italian and Bucky made a pretty decent lasagna if he did say so. Tony had glanced at him and then at the plate before turning away with a slightly bewildered frown. Bucky had taken the frown to mean that no one else had ever bothered before to take care of Tony, which was a fact that had just about broken his heart, and left the plate there. Heâd gone back later that night to find the lasagna untouched. That had been a little harder to explain away, but heâd eventually decided that maybe Tony was one of those food snobs who only liked Italian food made by actual Italians.
The third time he made oatmeal with a little bit of honey and cream, perfect for someone with as much of a sweet tooth as Tony had, and brought it into the workshop for Tony, who had spent the entire night working on new arrows for Clint.
âTony?â he called softly, not wanting to startle him. Tony was uncomfortable enough with all the new people moving into the tower after everything with SHIELD and Hydra; being Hydraâs pet assassin, he didnât want to make it worse by sneaking up on him. âI brought you some breakfast.â
Tony popped up from underneath a table, visibly brightening. âOh good,â he said cheerfully, making grabby hands at the bowl. âI was just starting to get hungry.â His hair was mussed, two perfect rings of black smeared around his eyes, likely where the goggles currently perched on top of his head had been resting earlier.
Bucky smiled at the adorable display and held out the bowl. Tony eagerly grabbed it, only to blink at it as soon as he saw what was in it.
âOatmeal?â he asked delicately.
âI thought youâd appreciate having something a little more delicate after not eating for a while,â Bucky explained.
ââŚOh.â After another awkward moment, Tony said carefully, âThanks.â
Satisfied, Bucky left him to his work. This timeâthis timeâTony would eat it all and then heâd see what an amazing cook Bucky was and how he would absolutely be able to provide for Tony and then heâd swoon into Buckyâs arms and demand that Bucky take him right there.
Okay maybe not right thereâthe workshop didnât seem like the best location for amorous activitiesâbut that was why they called it a fantasy, right?
Too bad Tony punctured that fantasy like a balloon.
Bucky went back downstairs long to pick up the bowl after Tony had come up to the common areas, yawning widely and telling everyone he was heading to bed for the next twenty-four hours so donât bother him unless New York was on fire. It had been a bit of a disappointment that heâd just nodded at Bucky without saying anything about the breakfast or about his everlasting feelings for him, but not nearly as much of a disappointment to walk into the workshop to find the bowl as untouched as all the other meals heâd so painstakingly prepared.
~
âI donât get it,â he whined to Sam later that day. âIâm a good cook.â
Sam gave him an unimpressed look. âAre you sure? Itâs been, what, seventy years since the last time you made anything. Maybe youâre not as good as you used to be.â
Bucky gasped dramatically. âYou take that back!â
âNo. You promised me youâd offer dating advice with Natasha and instead youâre sitting here mooning over Tonyâs ass again so Iâll say whatever I like about your cooking.â
âSorry,â he muttered guiltily. Sam was right. He had promised that. Or, rather, Steve had promised advice and Bucky had taken one look at him still pining over Peggy and feeling weird about his current interest being Peggyâs niece (a valid way to feel) and declared him hopeless before telling Sam that he would help him out instead. After all, he remembered Natalia from the years sheâd spent training with him during her childhood. Who else would be more qualified to teach Sam how to woo her? Well, besides Clint obviously, but he was taking some personal time away from the team.
âShe likes the ballet,â he said. âShe wanted to be a ballerina when she was younger, said they were as graceful as any Widow only they didnât have to kill.â
âAnd youâre sure that wonât just make her sad?â Sam asked dubiously.
Bucky glared at him. âI might not like you very muchââ Sam rolled his eyesâ"But I like Natalia a whole lot. I wouldnât do anything to hurt her. Take her to the ballet and take Steve and Sharon while youâre at it. A double date will help her feel less trapped and maybe Steve will stop moping and ask Sharon out.â
âItâs a little weird, you know.â
âSure, but he kissed Peggy once and itâs not like heâs ever gonna go back to the war and live out the rest of his time there, so he might as well move on.â
Sam laughed. âGuess thatâs true.â He sighed, smile fading away. âI donât know why Tonyâs ignoring your meals. Sorry about that though. It sucks.â
âIf I may,â JARVIS cut in. Both of them jumped, though Bucky would deny to his dying day that he yelped. Sam, on the other hand, shrieked like a kid and Bucky reminded himself to go back and access the audio footage so he would have blackmail.
âSorry, JARVIS,â he apologized. âKeep forgetting youâre up there. Didnât exactly have AI back during the war.â
âOr even in other houses,â Sam added.
âMy apologies,â JARVIS said, and heâll be damned if JARVIS didnât sound extremely apologetic. It was incredible, really, how much life Tony imbued in his creations. âI only wanted to offer my advice about Sergeant Barnesâ attempts at wooing Sir.â
âOh yeah?â Bucky asked. âGo right ahead. Canât be any worse than any of the other advice Iâve gotten.â Seriously, Clint had even suggested truth serum, like that wasnât the worst idea ever suggested.
âSir is an extremely picky eater,â JARVIS explained. âHe does not enjoy cooked tomatoes, ricotta cheese, or the texture of oatmeal.â
âŚAll of which had been in at least one of the meals heâd prepared for Tony.
âFuck.â
JARVIS wryly said, âIndeed.â
âWhy didnât you tell me this earlier?â
âYou requested that I remain inactive on your floor while you were recovering. But youâre in Sergeant Wilsonâs quarters at the moment so I may share my expertise.â
He had said that, hadnât he? It had been in the early days when he was still having trouble remembering what heâd said moments earlier, but he had a vague recollection of being overwhelmed by the idea of constant monitoring and asking if JARVIS could be turned off.
âWow, way to go, Barnes,â Sam commented, hiding a grin behind his hand.
âFuck,â he said again, more emphatically. âBest tool at my disposal and Iâm not even using it. JARVIS, I bet you could tell me all sorts of things about Tony.â
He got the impression that if the AI could sniff, he would have. âI would not dare to air Sirâs âdirty laundryâ so to speak.â
âNo, no,â Bucky said, waving his metal hand. The hand made a concerning grinding sound and he frowned. That wasnât supposed to happen. Heâd probably need to ask someone to take a look at it. Sam was capable of performing basic maintenance, and Bucky trusted him not to sabotage the arm, but anything worse and heâd have to go ask Tony about it.
âNot what I meant,â he continued. âJust that you could tell me what Tony likes and doesnât like. Uh, how do I turn you back on in my floor?â
âYour request is sufficient,â JARVIS said.
âGreat. Iâll meet you up there in a bit. Weâre gonna make something so incredible Tony will have to fall in love with me.â
âYeah, good luck with that,â Sam said, kicking his feet up onto the newly vacated spot on the couch now that Bucky was standing. âIâm going to see if I can find reasonably priced tickets to the ballet.â
Bucky blinked. âI think youâre gonna have worse luck than me.â
Sam threw a shoe at him.
~
On JARVISâ advice, he baked blueberry muffins because those were apparently Tonyâs favorite fruit. Bucky didnât really understand it. Frankly, he thought blueberries were almost as bad as bananasânasty, taste-changing fruit that they wereâbut if Tony loved them, then he would be willing to have them in his kitchen for as long as it took to bake the muffins. Fortunately, he was just as good a baker as he was a cook, so it was a breeze to whip up a delicious batch that had him grateful he couldnât get salmonella from the mix.
Unfortunately, Tony hated the muffins. Or thatâs what Bucky gathered when he went to pick the plate up, hoping that it would be empty for the first time, and found it just as untouched as everything else had been.
âWhat the fuck, JARVIS?â he complained. âYou said he liked blueberries.â
âI donât know, Sergeant Barnes,â JARVIS said, sounding as baffled as Bucky felt. âSir has always appreciated them.â
That, Bucky reflected later that night, was possibly to be expected. For all that JARVIS had the inhuman ability to remember literally everything heâd ever seen or heard, he was still just a program. He couldnât necessarily extrapolate about preferences or tastes. For all either of them knew, Tony did like blueberries but didnât like muffins or something. It didnât really explain why JARVIS knew that Tony didnât like cooked tomatoes, but maybe that could be explained by Tony mentioning it out loud and the other stuff, JARVIS had had to figure out on his own.
He sat up in bed, thinking about it. Maybe that was it: Tony didnât like muffins. But there had to be other recipes out there that used blueberries that Tony would like. In fact, he was pretty sure heâd come across a blueberry cupcake with brown butter frosting recipe earlier that day. And Bucky didnât know anyone who could say no to his brown butter. He was incredible at it, and that was being modest. Just the other day, Thor had declared the brown butter sauce heâd made for their chicken to be worthy of an Asgardian feast. Thor was a god. He probably knew things like that.
âJARVIS, you up?â he asked into the dark room.
âAlways, Sergeant Barnes.â
âYou donât gotta keep callinâ me that. Buckyâs my name. Iâd rather answer to that.â
âVery well, Bucky.â
âCould you pull up some other recipes with blueberries in the flavor profile please? Filter out anything that has something Tony doesnât like and recipes similar enough to each other that they could be repeats, uh, letâs say anything with a higher than 85% similarity.â
When JARVIS was finished compiling his list, there was a lot less than what Bucky had hoped for, but it was still something he could work with. He looked through the list: cupcakes, pancakes, cookies, more than a few salads, something called a Panzanella. He starred the ones he thought would catch Tonyâs interest the most, putting the others aside to possibly try later down the road. Content with his plan, he laid back down, falling asleep within seconds of his head hitting the pillow.
~
None of it worked. Despite his supposed love for blueberries, Tony continued to turn away everything Bucky made for him. So he branched out, trying other foods that JARVIS said Tony was fond of. Nothing came back with more than a couple bites taken out of it and Tony had taken to giving him worried looks every time he appeared at the workshop door with another plate. Bucky was starting to lose hope that he was ever going to woo Tony with food and that was⌠not great.
Traditional dates were pretty close to impossible. Despite his rapid recovery in the tower, going outside was still too frightening with the crowds of New York, the inability to pick out threats around him, and the lack of sightlines all driving Bucky back inside and to the highest floors of the tower where he could look out over everything.
And as for anything else, well, Bucky was an ex-brainwashed assassin with no money to his name and only half the social skills he used to have (Sam said he had more than he thought but arguing with Sam wasnât like trying to get someone to like him). He didnât have much else to offer other than making food and giving Tony a project to work on. The first wasnât going well and the second made Bucky feel too much like he was taking advantage of Tony to use more than once or twice.
Disheartened, he made his way up to Nataliaâs floor to ask her for advice. She and Tony got along almost as well as she got along with Clint. Maybe she would have insights that JARVIS wasnât able to offer. As he neared her room, though, he realized that she wasnât alone.
ââto kill me,â someoneâTony, Bucky realized almost immediatelyâwas saying. He stiffened. Who was trying to kill Tony? Bucky would kill them first! Was murder a good way to woo Tony?
âкОŃонОк,â Natalia said patiently, âheâs not trying to kill you.â
âYou donât know that!â Tony exclaimed wildly. He sounded like he was pacing. âHe could be! He keeps bringing me things everyone knows I wonât eat.â
And now Natalia sounded amused as she said, âAntoshka, I donât think heâd be trying to feed you if he wanted to kill you. Itâs more likely an honest mistake.â
âIt could be poison.â
âItâs not poison.â
âYou donât know that. You havenât tried any of it.â
âItâs not poison because thatâs more my style than it is Jamesâ.â
Oh, they were talking about him. Tony thought Bucky was trying to kill him. âFuck,â he said mournfully, leaning up against the wall. No wonder Tony wouldnât touch any of the food he made for him.
âWell, I donât see why else heâs bringing me food!â Tony said.
âReally? Not a single reason?â
âItâs food I wonât eat! He clearly doesnât like me or heâd be bringing me actual food I like.â
âDoes he know why you wonât eat it?â
âNo, but why does that matter?â
âTony, darling, have you ever once informed him that you have a sensory processing disorder and you wonât eat a lot of cooked foods because you canât handle the texture?â
Bucky straightened back up. Tony has a what? Heâd never even heard of that before. Why didnât JARVIS say something? He thought back to when heâd been building the list of blueberry foods and how heâd wondered if JARVIS didnât necessarily know about the pattern for Tonyâs likes and dislikes in his food. Maybe JARVIS hadnât known about Tonyâs disorder, so he hadnât known to tell Bucky about it. That made the most amount of sense to him though he couldnât imagine why Tony had never told his AI about his disorder.
âWhy would I tell him that?â Tony asks, sounding confused.
He could just picture Natalia shaking her head as she said, âOh, Antoshka.â
âWhat? Why are you looking at me like that?â
Armed with his new knowledge, Bucky crept away from the door, already planning out new meals to bring to Tony.
~
That very night, he went downstairs with a bowl of salad. It had nuts to provide a small amount of protein, though heâd also put some baked chicken in a Tupperware as well, in case that was something Tony could eat. Tonyâs music was playing at a manageable volume by the time he got to the workshop, likely because he was drafting plans for some sort of irrigation system, rather than any sort of consideration for Bucky.
Tony caught sight of him before he got the doors open. Bucky watched as his face fell for a moment before he plastered on a bright, fake smile. Hydraâs programming was still too ingrained in him to do anything as obvious as wince, but he still felt a twinge of shame. Why hadnât he thought to ask Tony what he would like to eat instead of relying on his own preferences?
âUh,â he said, sheepishly rubbing the back of his neck. In his other hand, he held up the Tupperware with the salad bowl on top of it. âI brought you some dinner. Itâs just a salad, but I included some baked chicken on the side if you want that. I hope itâs something you like.â
Tony blinked at him. âWhat?â
âIâokay, Iâm just gonna come right out and say it. I overheard you and Natalia earlier. I didnât know you couldnât eat anything I was making for you. I wasnât trying to poison you or anything, just thought you might like some food since youâre down here all the time. Sorry for, you know, eavesdropping and making you think I didnât like you.â
A cautious smile spread across Tonyâs face. âYou could have asked JARVIS,â he pointed out.
âYeah, I did, but I guess he didnât know you donât like cooked foods.â
âWhat?â Tony cocked his head to the side. âNo, he should know that.â He spun around in his chair, waving the glowing blue drafts of the irrigation system aside in favor of pulling up JARVISâ bright golden code. It was a beautiful display, and Bucky found himself moving closer, mesmerized by the sight. He had no idea JARVISâ code was so complex.
âJ, buddy, what happened to your code?â Tony murmured. He reached out a hand, groping for Buckyâs shirt to tug him closer. âGimme food.â
âSo you like salad?â Bucky asked, relieved that heâd finally found something.
âAnd baked chicken,â Tony added. âBut it has to be baked. Otherwise, the textureâs too rubbery for me.â
âI can do that,â he promised. âDo you like breading or marinade with the baked chicken?â
âMarinade, yes. Breading, no.â
âOkay. Iâll remember that.â
Tony paused in tearing through JARVISâ code to give him a small, genuine smile that made Buckyâs heart light up. He returned the smile, which grew bigger when Tonyâs gaze darted down to his lips, snagging there as though caught by the sight. He knew he had a nice mouth; heâd been told that plenty of times back in the forties.
âI have another confession to make,â he said once Tonyâs attention returned to the code.
âUh-huh,â Tony said distractedly.
âI wasââ
âThere you are!â Tony exclaimed. âJ, who made those changes to lines 894 through 1036 in your code?â
JARVIS immediately said, âThe last time those lines were accessed was in 2008 by Obadiah Stane.â
Tonyâs face fell. âOh.â
It took Bucky a moment remember who Obadiah Stane was. Heâd appeared in one of Buckyâs mission files as the Winter Soldier. Back during the nineties, following Tonyâs parents deaths, Tony had been planning on shutting down SIâs weapons manufacturing division. Hydra, whoâd been buying black market weapons from Stane for years by that time, had ordered the Winter Soldier to assassinate Tony to give Stane complete control of the company. But before heâd been able to complete his mission, Stane had convinced Tony to see âreasonâ and Bucky had been put back in cryo. That unfulfilled mission had been one of the reasons heâd been so hesitant to move into the tower before his programming had been completely removed. Steve had tried to push for the move anyway, but before either of them could successfully argue the point, Tony had put out a call to the worldâs top experts on brainwashing and three whirlwind weeks later, Buckyâs mind was programming-free. And just like that, without even meeting the guy, Bucky had developed a crush on one Tony Stark.
âSorry, doll,â he said, dropping a hand to Tonyâs shoulder and squeezing it gently.
Tony sighed frustratedly. âEvery time I think Iâve taken care of everything Obie fucked up, I find something else heâs done. He was probably hoping Iâd starve to death or something without anyone making food to my exacting specifications, that asshole.â
âHe sounds pretty terrible,â Bucky agreed.
âJ, are you able to access the last backup on those lines to restore them?â Tony asked.
âYes, sir.â
âOkay, letâs get those fixed, and uhââ
âAnd weâll go out for dinner,â Bucky interrupted.
âHuh?â Tony asked, turning to look at him.
âSeems I owe you an apology and I figure taking you out for dinner is a little nicer than a salad. âSides, if I take you out, Iâll have a better understanding of what you like to eat.â
âCareful there, Buckaroo, or Iâll start thinking this is supposed to be a date.â
Bucky would probably never know what possessed him to firmly say, âYeah, thatâs exactly what itâs supposed to be.â He certainly hadnât planned to. He really had been planning on their dinner being a way to figure out what Tony liked so he could make it himself and continue with his wooing process from there, hopefully slowly easing Tony into believing that Bucky really did like him and wasnât trying to poison him.
âSorry,â he said, rubbing the back of his neck. âThat wasnât supposed to come out like that.â
Tony stared at him, then abruptly said, âDid you mean it?â
âMean what?â
âThat this is supposed to be a date.â
He could deny it and go back to his original plan. Heâd probably even be able to pull off a lie like that. But there was a hopeful look in Tonyâs eyes that stopped him from denying anything.
âYou didnât even know that I liked you until five minutes ago,â he pointed out cautiously.
Tony scoffed. âWhat, like youâve never liked someone who hated you.â
âUh, no. Iâve never done that.â
âReally?â
âNever.â
âHuh.â
âAre you⌠are you saying that you do like me?â Bucky asked.
âWell, yeah. You never mind that half of my engineering babble goes over your head and you bring me food even if you didnât know it wasnât something I could eat and youâre really fucking gorgeous when youâve showered and your hair isnât falling in greasy clumps around your face.â
âLook whoâs talking,â Bucky said amusedly, reaching out to run his fingers through Tonyâs hair, matted down with machine oil. Even filthy, he could feel how soft it would be when it was clean. Tony leaned into his hand, humming happily.
âSo is that a yes on this being a date, Bucky babe?â Tony asked. âCause Iâll be honest, Iâm not usually left hanging.â
âYeah,â Bucky said, nodding. âItâs a date.â
Tony grinned and turned his head just enough to kiss the inside of Buckyâs wrist, making Bucky shiver. âLet me get cleaned up.â
âYou want me to join you?â
Tony winked at him. âNext time, honey.â
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But here is is. Itâs the one youâve all been waiting for.
Kirk bod appreciation #7: The RIDICULOUSLY BEAUTIFUL FACE. A highly technical and academic review.
This is a rather nebulous one. And not, on the face of it (pardon the pun) very philosophical, as itâs essentially about Kirk being stupidly pretty. This post probably will (it will) descend into just screaming and sobbing, but there will be, I promise, *some* meaningful insight into the meaning of âbeautyâ and textual analysis of its role herein.
Beauty is subjective. But look at him. Itâs not just being aesthetic, but itâs the *way* heâs aesthetic. Here I might repeat myself a bit, but stay with me. I may have mentioned before once hearing him described as âbeautiful in the way women are often described as beautifulâ. He is PRETTY. He is indeed often conveyed in the way the women stereotypically (not necessarily rightly) are on screen: perfect, smooth skin; soft, big eyes; luscious lips (his body is sensually curvaceous and furthermore itâs emphasised). Heâs not androgynous though. Heâs masculine. And yet I still sense what was meant in describing him as âbeautiful in the way women are often described as beautifulâ. He is a rather uncommon form of gender fuckery. He is a form of stereotype-subversion not commonly acknowledged. He seems to be everything at once, ALL THE GENDER; combines whichever traits he desires from those categories, and yet is undeniably a man and masculine whatever the ingredients. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE, one might wonder. The fact of the matter is, that it IS. And it teaches us something.
The FUCK. nO. You are not allowed to be that pretty, and you are NOT allowed to look at her like that. Weâre trying to have a SENSIBLE DISCUSSION here.
Sorry, that was a non-sequitur / nothing to do with what we learn by Kirkâs embodiment; I was just ambushed by my own gif. Only the control of a Vulcan. ONLY that could possibly withstand this onslaught. And even that wonât hold up forever AS WE WELL KNOW
God.
This is going well, as you can tell.
OK. So, itâs claimed he has Eyes and Stupidly Long Weakness-Inducing Eyelashes. You know, from all that fanfic that goes on about âbig, sparkling eyesâ and him fanning his âlong, copper eyelashesâ. I mean, yeah right, tropey mc tropeface -
ITâS TRUE. HE IS LITERALLY AN ANIME PRINCESS.
There are some moments where he just BLINKS and, how to describe it...how does a BLINK have that effect. Itâs NOT ALLOWED.
...Iâm sorry. It IS allowed. All of it. I am not shaming you your beauty. Never change, Jim. Never.
OK. Iâm ok. 3 pics down, we can get through this -
Oh you are joking. Stop.
I donât understand how anyone can be so beautiful. Life is a lie. Reality is fake -
- you did NOT just turn your big anime eyes on Spock. You do know this is why he ran away to PURGE ALL HIS EMOTIONS?
And for that matter, you know when Kirk looks his most beautiful? Literally WHEN HEâS LOOKING AT SPOCK. Spock talks some bollocks and Kirk just sparkles like a fucking angel:
Unbelievable. But utterly undeniable.
Sigh. Moving on.
Oh - someone once suggested I talk about The Lips. Lips are so wonderful arenât they. So many wonderful things they can do.
And Kirkâs. Theyâre there in every picture: perfect, rosy, soft and madness-inducing. My advice is just...donât think about them. But since Iâve been asked to draw attention to them, well, youâve just sealed your fate. Scroll down at your peril.
I WARNED YOU.
I am pulling NO punches.
Iâve seen this great meme going around:
Excuse me though....CUTE?
Thatâs the understatement of the 23rd century.
Try impossibly beautiful, mind and body: heart of solid gold, soul deep in love with you. Those eyes and all their passion burned into your memories a thousand times over, along with - maybe, suggestibly, idk Iâm extrapolating from all the goddamn tension - even the one unforgettable time he laid between lily-white sheets and gave himself to you; every gift of the mind, body and soul - and your ostensibly-forced Vulcan conditioning, that completely ignored how incompatible one part of you was with it, caused so much dissonance that you thought the only possible course of action for you both to survive was to BREAK UP, tear yourself from this beauty and love and sweetness to PURGE ALL EMOTIONS because nothing, nothing equipped you for this; you were set up specifically to fail, and fail hard in the face of transcendental love and beauty by those who rejected such things and didnât understand you and could never imagine this for you and who instead of helping your beautiful neurodivergent brain flourish taught you to repress and caused you pain and shame and Gol was so hard and Kirk was so sad, so very sad and depressed and hurt and yet he couldnât stop loving you with a bond so strong he called to you across the stars and Gol was all for naught yet you still didnât know how to live like this, it was torture, torture until the mind meld with the living machine flashed your BIOS and you knew, love.exe was suddenly running with no errors and he came after you and held you and you held hands and, and -
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*sobbing*
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just...give me a moment
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YOU WONDER WHAT THE SUBTEXT (FRIKKINâ MAIN TEXT) OF STAR TREK: THE MOTION PICTURE WAS ALL ABOUT???
The pain?? The angst?? The two logical entities seeking contact, love, THIS SIMPLE FEELING? That fucking moment when spock walks on the bridge and the only way he can control himself is to be SUPER Vulcan, while his love gazes at him with those EYES, fucking huge and glittering and hurt and loving?? Is it so much a mystery what memories these two are carrying, whatâs behind the searing tension???????
Love him. Love him Spock. Take him in your arms and love him. Heâs for you. All for you. Fucking hell guys. The fuck. This movie.
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ok.
ok I can do this
CAN U NOT
those damn eyes I swear
Itâs obviously not all just superficial physical beauty. What IS beauty? Narratively we do sometimes find this âprettinessâ enhanced and emphasized like the old vaseline lens to set the tone of a scene (heâs vulnerable and delicate, or someoneâs indeed in love with him so we see their âlensâ on him); but it is somewhat intangible and nebulous and changeable. I donât think aesthetic beauty, if one deems it so, on its own, would be enough for the likes of Spock (indeed, no woman could charm him thusly); it's about something deeper. Itâs about who he is. Who he is inside: the beautiful AND the imperfect. How his good and bad - how his âallâ - chimes with Spockâs 'allâ. The Enemy Within deals with this, and shows how Spock loves all of Kirk, wants him complete, with both his light and shadow. The beauty of all of us is this totality and variance, not one intangible quality.
Iâll bet Spockâs parents knew immediately. Can you imagine Sarek trying to be a total bitch over Kirk, having heard the rumours and just wanting to have one more thing to reject Spock over, immediately projecting onto Kirk as some blow-up pretty-boy and how Incredibly More Disappointing My Son Is for being Obviously In Love With Stupid Illogical Human Doll Face Bubble Butt Bimbo Captain, and Amandaâs like, stfu, let me remind you Kirk is actually a Fucking Amazing Highly Decorated Starship Captain who Saves Your Life and donât you DARE resent him just because heâs got tits/ass/tum/lips that wonât quit and is obviously the freakinâ sun Spock orbits. Mr âI married a human but that was special because it was logicalâ or some bullshit. How is Kirk an illogical choice? I mean literally, Spock is a Science Genius⢠on the federationâs FLAGSHIP whose well-matched Genius Captain⢠understands him, accepts him, brings the best out of him, helps him fulfil his whole potential and is in love with him in the deepest and purest way and will be his bonded soulmate for ALL OF TIME and that fucking sour-faced bih at the start of that ep, ffs.
Of course Amanda stays in touch with Kirk, adores the fuck out of him, sends him old Vulcan lit on tâhyâla bonds (yes sarek, a TâHYâLA bond, so revered freakinâ poets write about it) etc because frankly her son could do FAR FUCKING WORSE.
FAR. FUCKING. WORSE.
Donât...just donât slip the bod into the equation, the face is enough for one post. Weâre all in therapy for this already, letâs not relapse.
Oh, whatâs the use. Iâm gonna die. This is it. This is like the Monty Python joke that is so funny it kills you. This man is lethal. I need to stop this thread and purge all my emotions
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Thatâs it. Iâm dead. Youâre dead. Weâre all dead.
I hope, however, seeing this post was worth it. See you at Gol everyone.
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The Forbidden Texts, DO NOT READ:
Kirk bod appreciation #6: The Curves. The Front. The...chest. AND THE AMAZING GREEN WRAP
Kirk bod appreciation #5: The Paws
Kirk bod appreciation #4: The Curves. The Back. Poetry in motion. Â
Kirk bod appreciation #3: Season 3 (Part 1)
Kirk bod appreciation #2b: The Gluteus Maximus
Kirk bod appreciation #2a: The Gluteus Maximus
Kirk bod appreciation #1: The Tum
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Suspicious With A Side Of Concern
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Warning: a little cursing and a tad bit of suggestive themes. seriously, just a smidge. this is v mild and v soft
A/N: uhh hi there đ it's been awhile heh but it's San's birthday (one of my ults) and I managed to write this! it's probably not that great and it's not edited (bc it's after 5AM đđť) so I'm sorry if it sucks or is full of mistakes, I may come back to it and fix them if there's a lot. but uhh yeah! I love my sweet boy so much and I'm so proud of him and I'm feeling v mushy lately hehe đ¤ and yeah, yeah, I know Iâm not funny but I make myself laugh and thatâs all that matters right? lol also this is pretty self-indulgent (hmm Iâm noticing a theme in my recent works haha) but I hope you enjoy it anyways! happy birthday Sannie!!! I love you to the moon and back â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
San was suspicious. And a little concerned, too. The kind of 'suspicious with a side of concern' that can make feelings of offense and being forgotten crop up. In other words: not good. And what time could be worse to feel 'not good' than the days leading up to your birthday?
OK, so that clearly was not your intention when you had initially conjured up your plan for your, frankly, rather significant and audacious gift for San's birthday this year. Typically, you go all out with anything you get or do for San because he's just fun to spoil like that. Like in past years, you'd taken him on mini vacations or got him lots of small gifts and gave them to him over a period of a few days. And you always spent the entire week celebrating, not just the day of. So, logically, if you had actually formed a plan instead of just devising the end result of said non-existent plan, maybe you would have thought of how San might react to things being so different than years past. But 'foresight', what's that?
When you noticed San was more moody and petulant than usual, you tried your best to make things seem as normal as possible, not wanting him to catch on to your surprise. You had found him pouting at the kitchen table late one night, a few days before his birthday. "Sannie, baby. It's three in the morning, is everything OK?"
"Are you mad at me?" he blurted out unexpectedly, not answering your question. When he saw your confused expression, he continued, "I mean, did I do something wrong? Something to upset you? I swear it wasn't intentional and I'm sorry that I don't know what it is. I-"
"Of course not, babe!" you cut him off, "I was just worried because I rolled over in bed and you weren't there when I tried to cuddle up to you. But what makes you think that I'm mad at you, lovebug?"
You slid into the seat next to him as he sighed deeply. "I don't know, I just⌠God! This is gonna sound so stupid and selfish and spoiled!" Taking his hand in yours to silently reassure him, you squeezed his fingers slightly and softly rubbed your thumb along his knuckles. He took a deep breath before he tried to explain himself, "Umm, this whole week has been different than other years? Like, usually we do lots of stuff for my birthday and this year we haven't done much of anything and I'm not complaining because it's not that I expect a lot of presents or a vacation or something and I haven't said anything because I don't want to sound spoiled or like I think I'm entitled to a lot of big, expensive things, it's just that I'm not used to it I guess and I think it's making me feel like I did something wrong to upset you so you aren't treating me like you usually do as some sort of punishment, not that I think you'd actually do that to me because you're the sweetest thing in the world and I know you love me and I love you so much and I just-" San let out a frustrated groan and dropped his head to the table with a loud thud. He sighed again and lowered his voice to almost a whisper, "That did not come out like how I wanted it to."
The gears in your head were turning as you stared fondly at your boyfriend, a small, sad smile curving your lips. You felt horrible that San thought you were upset with him because, after all, that's the last thing you want. San and his happiness and contentment is the most important thing in your life. You also weren't sure how you were going to explain yourself without revealing the secret you were working so hard to conceal. Winging it seemed like the best option at the time since you could tell San was getting antsy about your silence.
"Sannie, can you look at me, please?" you began. When he lifted his head, your eyes found each other's, while your empty hand searched for his. "I'm so sorry that I made you feel like I'm mad at you! I promise you that I'm not even the slightest bit upset with you. You did absolutely nothing wrong -- you're perfect, baby." Releasing one of San's hands, you reached up to gently push away some stray hairs that had fallen into his eyes before running your fingertips across his pretty cheekbone. "You should know that none of what you said sounded stupid or selfish or spoiled. We've built up a sort of routine and a sudden change to that can be kind of disorienting. You have every right to be confused and I'm not going to make up excuses for how different things have been the past few days, I won't do that to you. In all honesty, I've been preoccupied and a little distracted. But I'm sorry that I let that get in the way and I promise that it won't happen anymore. And I'm so sorry that I've already made this your suckiest birthday ever and it's not even your actual birthday yet! That's definitely a new record for me, ruining something before it even happens." You mumbled the last part, ashamed at yourself and silently hoping San wouldn't hear that bit.
He let out a small chuckle that sounded much closer to normal San, easing your worry slightly. "It's not sucky and you didn't ruin anything, which by the way, you know I don't like when you put yourself down like that," the evident pout in his voice faintly reddened your cheeks with embarrassment despite the fact that he wasn't even scolding you. You whispered a quiet apology and San brought your left hand up to place a kiss on your knuckles. "You said you're preoccupied and distracted but I'm not going to press because I know you'll tell me when you're ready." When you thanked him, he tilted his head and looked at you with pure adoration and you felt his gaze travel over the planes of your face. "Thank you for understanding me, even when my words are messier than all us boys in white shirts eating wings with no napkins."
Trying, and failing to keep a straight face, the two of you dissolved into fits of giggles. "I thought you were going to be romantic or something but you said that and-" you cut yourself off with another loud laugh and shook your head, smiling endearingly. "I love you, cutie! But you're saying weird things so I think we should head to bed. Not that sleep will actually help you but we can always try." San shoved your shoulder as you stood before scooping you up in his arms and peppered kisses all over your face.
San had been in a great mood the morning of his birthday, considering he had woken up to you bustling about the kitchen making his favorite breakfast while wearing nothing but his oversized t-shirt. Strong arms and the frigid tip of San's nose against the junction between your neck and shoulder startled you, causing you to drop the spatula in your hand. He giggled softly at the small squeak you let out in surprise and squeezed you a little more snugly into his broad chest. "Mornin'," he mumbled against your skin.
"Hi," you chuckled as you shrugged him off to bend down to pick up the utensil that had fallen on the floor. You knew he was pouting when he had to let go of you and you could easily imagine the smirk that made its way onto his handsome face as he came up with his next idea, smacking your ass before you stood back up to place the dirty spatula in the sink.
You gasped in false offense, "How dare you!"
"Well, when you look likeâŚ" San gestured at you, his stare sleepy but very interested, "That, can you blame me?"
"I most certainly can! No 'Good morning! Happy Birthday!' kiss for you, mister!"
The pout returned to his face and damn, you're really weak for that pout. You sighed exasperatedly and threw your arms around his neck. "Good morning! Happy Birthday!" you announced with feigned emotion before pecking him on the lips and making an attempt to return your attention to breakfast. San had other ideas. He let out a sort of growl before effortlessly tossing you over his shoulder and strutting back towards your bedroom. "Wait!" you shouted weakly on account of San's shoulder uncomfortably pressed against your diaphragm, "Breakfast is gonna burn!" He paused in his stride, seemingly to try to decide on what to do, before turning and rushing to the stove to switch it off and then made a beeline for the mess of pillows and blankets he had left only moments before.
That afternoon, San was sprawled out on the sofa, a dreadfully bored look etched into his features as he flipped through the channels. Finding nothing to watch, he switched off the TV and turned to stare at the ceiling. The oscillating fan sat on the small end table next to the couch ruffled his hair and thoughtfully provided an awful high-pitched squealing sound as background noise for the otherwise quiet living room. Nervously staring at the clock on your phone while draped over a chair opposite the couch, your mind was racing to come up with an excuse for leaving the house a few minutes later. You had an appointment to keep aka "The Plan". Making a disgruntled noise, you pushed yourself out of your seat and made a command decision on what to say, "Uhh, I'm gonna go to the store to pick up some stuff for umm, for later." Failing miserably at sounding natural, you gestured toward the door and faced it.
"Ooh!" San shouted and you heard rustling like he was getting off the couch. "Let me come! I'm so bored."
You couldn't help the mischief that made itself evident over your features as you turned back around. "But coming along will spoil the surprise, don't you think?" Pleading puppy dog eyes and his cutest pout decorated San's face in response. "Nuh uh, not even that will work on me today!"
Sam's expression morphed into a combination of astonishment and amazement as he plopped back down onto the sofa, "Shit, this is serious if not even the pout can sway you!"
You nodded ruefully, "It's a special day."
Ping! A message came through on your group chat with the boys, made specifically for this plan and thus excluding San, and when you went to read it, you heard San mumble under his breath but couldn't quite make out what he said.
Joong-bug: outside with Woo! let's goooooo!!
Several more text alerts sounded off and San eyed you suspiciously.
Woo đť: C'MON I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!
Joong-bug: aaaaaand this is why he's forbidden contact with 'The Target' until 'The Plan' is completeâŚ
You: Be down in a minute!
Joong-bug: hurry up!! he won't stop whining and pouting đŁ
Mingo Mango: getin' ready 2 bust the door down now đ
You: Jongho, I'm trusting you to keep them from breaking things
Hulk đ: You have my word đ
Yeo-Yeo: Pfffft like that means anything đ
Y'know: hey, i asked you to chop vegetables!! why are you on your phone?? đĄ
Yeo-Yeo: You're on yours!
Mars: âŚâŚâŚ.help
Suddenly, you could hear two rather loud voices outside, gradually getting louder as they made their way to your front door. "Ah, you're in luck, sweetpea! Here comes your entertainment now!" Without giving Mingi the opportunity to "bust the door down", you quickly threw it open and in he stumbled with Jongho trailing more gracefully behind him, chuckling. San's face lit up in excitement and he bounced gleefully over to his friends. Mingi shouted something about playing ball and San whooped in agreement, causing you to chuckle fondly as you snuck out the door they had just come through since your boyfriend was already well and truly distracted.
Hongjoong and Wooyoung quickly came into view as you made your way down the last of the stairs, the younger hopping around like an over-excited bunny when he spotted you. He called your name loudly and ran to squeeze you and consequently hang off of you, grin bright and eyes sparkling with enthusiasm. "Hi there, bear," you giggled and squeezed him back before turning to Hongjoong. "You said he was whiny but you didn't mention he was extra clingy, too." No hint of annoyance in your voice, Wooyoung nuzzled into your shoulder and sighed happily.
Hongjoong shrugged, smiling affectionately at the younger, "I thought it was to be expected."
"It is a little hot for cuddles though, Woo," you told Wooyoung honestly and he nodded in agreement, letting go and scurried towards the parked car, screeching about being late. Hongjoong shook his head as he watched Wooyoung abruptly fling the door open and sit in the passenger seat, eagerly bouncing in place and urging the two of you to hurry up. "Everything all set?" you asked the older as you walked side by side to the car.
Rascality twinkled in Hongjoong's eyes, "Yep! All the stuff is either in the back seat or the trunk, ready to go!" You smiled and scrunched your nose at him before you both joined Wooyoung in the car and headed off to your destination.
A couple hours later, the three of you returned to your house, San's birthday gift sat on the back seat next to you. Wooyoung was animatedly squirming in his seat, teeth clenched together in a wide grin in an effort to suppress his squeals of joy. "Good grief, Woo! It's gonna be somewhat of a let down if you're more excited about this than San ends up being," you teased him fondly, reaching for your phone to get updates from the group chat.
You: We're back!! đ¤
Yeo-Yeo: Lemme guess, Woo's about to piss himself from excitement
You: đ correct. Update on 'the Target'?
Hulk đ: 'The Target' is about to get in the shower, Mingi and I will head down now
Y'know: you can't just leave him!! you gotta at least give an excuse!!
Hulk đ: You can't see me but I'm rolling my eyes right now. Mingi told him we're going home to shower, which isn't an excuse, it's the truth. We'll just jump in with everyone later đ
Y'know: you didn't give anything away did you??!!
Hulk đ: đ yes. We told him every detail. Of course we didn't!
Mingo Mango: all good! we made it seem like we were leaving 4 the night! told him happy bday and everything đ
Y'know: ⌠:/ âŚ
You: ⌠I'm slightly concerned but alright. How's 'The Plan'?
Yeo-Yeo: Yunho is worried out of his mind now but we're cool, just waiting on the cue
Mingo Mango: you mean the Q đđ
Hulk đ: He tripped down a few stairs while he was typing that ^
Yeo-Yeo: đ (deserved)
You: Hwa? Still have your sanity?
Mars: *sigh* ⌠barely
You: You replied so I'm courageously going to take that as a positive. You guys can head over as soon as Jongho and Mingi are ready. I'll text when it's good to come up.
Yeo-Yeo: OK
Y'know: k
Mars: yes
Laughing at their insanity and tucking your phone away, you glanced up to find Mingi and Jongho walking towards the car so you got out and attempted to get a little more information. "You guys have fun?" you asked, smiling warmly.
The boys beamed and nodded. "Lots!" Mingi stated, bouncing on his toes energetically.
"San seemed really happy so that felt," Jongho paused and rubbed at the back of his neck, "Nice." You felt your heart squeeze a little, knowing just how much San loved and valued the boys no matter what. "And we didn't break anything, just like I promised!" Jongho added proudly, puffing out his chest a little.
You ruffled his hair fondly before yanking your hand away in disgust, "Ick! So sweaty! Go shower! I'll see you two in a bit." The youngest laughed brightly and gave you a wave before heading off with Mingi offering a salute and stumbling after him. Making your way around the car, you opened the car door and gathered the gift into your arms. "I owe you two," you smiled and Hongjoong shook his head and chuckled. "Thank you!" Wooyoung giggled as you resituated the present in your grasp. "Don't forget the rest of the stuff when you come up later, please!" Hongjoong gave you a thumbs up and you shut the door with your hip before making your way up to give your boyfriend his surprise.
Unlocking the door and being as quiet as possible entering the house in an effort to sneak up on San was quite difficult but you managed. Luckily, he had his back to you, actually sitting normally in a chair for once and humming softly to himself. Stifling a giggle with your hand, you brought everything inside and shut the door, impressed with yourself at how quiet you were and hoped the gift would be just as silent. Slipping your shoes off to avoid more noise, you took one gift in each hand and tiptoed toward San.
You instinctively held your breath as you neared your boyfriend and tried not to squeal or giggle. In that moment, you definitely felt Wooyoung's enthusiasm. Right hand gently setting one gift on the top of San's head and left hand reaching around the phone in his hands to place the other present in his lap, you heard him gasp in shock. "Happy Birthday, sugarplum!"
The small kitten on San's head let out a tiny squeak of a meow and the puppy in his lap timidly licked at his arm. San tried to say something but all that came out was broken words and stutters. He reached up to pluck the kitten from his head and you helped untangle a strand of his hair from the kitten's tiny claws before he set it next to the puppy on his lap and turned part way around to look up at you. Tears were already falling, the tracks they left glinted in the sunlight that came in through the living room window and his bottom lip wobbled slightly, "Y-you. B-but. What?"
You slowly walked around the chair and crouched down in front of San, beaming and a little teary-eyed yourself at his reaction. "What do you think, Sannie? Does this make up for the difference in these past few days?" He choked out a sob and nodded fervently, lip still trembling as he stared down at the animals clumsily perched on his thighs.
San sniffled and lifted the puppy up to eye-level. It leaned closer to him and licked at the salty streaks on his cheeks. San laughed wetly and set the puppy back down before lifting the kitten up the same way and nuzzling his nose into its soft fur. After admiring them for a few minutes and calming himself down, San glanced at you, "This is what you were preoccupied with?"
You nodded and hummed faintly, "But not just this!"
Your boyfriend furrowed his brow and groaned a little, "There's more? I don't know if I can handle any more! I feel like I've had at least a dozen heart attacks in the last 5 minutes already!" You chuckled adoringly as San pouted at his puppy and kitten, talking to them about how his heart wasn't meant for stuff like that. While he was distracted, you shot a text to the group chat.
You: 'The Plan: Part 1' = â
COMPLETE! Commence 'The Plan: Part 2'!
Woo đť: AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Yeo-Yeo: đ
Hulk đ: That emoji may imply that Yeosang is rolling his eyes but he's actually staring at Wooyoung with the most fond, loving look in his eyes
Mingo Mango: heh Yeo just đ¤ Jongho in the đŞ
You rolled your eyes and chuckled, waiting for the boys to come up and actually "bust down the door". Moments later, a cacophony of voices burst through the quiet room as the guys threw the door open.
"Happy Birthday! We brought food!" Yunho shouted as he muscled multiple grocery bags into your kitchen, followed by Yeosang and Seonghwa who were also carrying armloads.
At the same time, Wooyoung screamed, "Babies!" and headed straight for San and the puppy and kitten. The two boys giggled together and fawned over the animals while some of the boys loudly scuttled around the kitchen and the others went to greet the birthday boy and the new additions. You headed into the kitchen to see if you could help with anything.
Seonghwa looked less frazzled than you expected and his kind eyes lit up when they met yours. "Anything for me to do?" you asked him, going over to wash your hands in the kitchen sink.
He gave you a characteristic wonky smile as he bumped your hip with his, "I think you've had quite the day as it is!"
"Me? What about you? You sure have lots of beautiful hair despite dealing with so many children all the time!"
Seonghwa's smile was one of pure reverence, "I wouldn't have it any other way."
You tugged him into a tight hug. "I know," you whispered, "Thank you." Before he could say anything, you pulled away to look him in the eye, "And before you say 'You don't have to thank me' or whatever, thank you. I mean it and you have to accept it or I'll pout." He laughed heartily and nodded, eyes sparkling with joy as he went back to getting food put on the table.
You went around hugging and thanking the rest of the boys for all their contributions to San's special day and then gathered everyone up to sit at the table for dinner. The kitten and puppy played together peacefully and everyone glanced over at them once in awhile to coo at their cuteness.
Chatter was loud and warm, just the way it should be. San absolutely glowed with happiness and at one point when all the boys were laughing and carrying on together, he leaned over to you to whisper in your ear. "Have I ever told you how much I love you?"
"Only every day," you beamed, booping his nose gently.
He giggled and leaned even closer to press a sweet kiss to your lips, "Thank you," another kiss, "Times a million," another, "for making me," yet another peck, "so, so happy," and another, "I love you," and one more kiss. You grabbed his face so he couldn't pull away from the last one but it was a little difficult to kiss when you both were smiling so wide.
A chorus of "Ew!" and "Gross!" and "NOT AT THE DINNER TABLE!" echoed behind you so you reluctantly pulled away, giggling all the while.
"OK, OK!" you held your hands up in defeat before resituating. "Alright, on the count of three," San looked confused all over again but you sent him a reassuring wink. "One!
"Two!
"Three!"
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAN!"
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Hello! Id like to request 3, 5, 13, and 22 for Poe please?
Hello! Stuffâs below the cut, assuming Tumblr has stopped assing around!
3. Who is the most romantic?:
As much as people like to joke about him and play him up as a rowdy boy who takes very little seriously, itâs quite easy to forget that Poe is canonically a sentimentalist at heart. He keeps his motherâs wedding ring on his person so that he can one day give it to someone whom he wants to be with, for crapâs sake! I think what also makes him showing off his romantic side a bit out of place is that no matter what anyone says, love blooming during a war is still something happening during a very chaotic time. Maybe inspirational, arguably a little too optimistic, but always and most definitely out of place.
And considering his rank as general, Poeâs got a lot on his plate. Even when he wants to take you out to a nice dinner and do any usual courting actions, the likelihood is just so low . . . But donât underestimate him.
Poe can be quite resourceful in addition to being determined. Some nights when it seems quiet, heâll set up a blanket somewhere for the two of you to sit on. If youâre on a ship, itâll be by a window; if itâs on a planet, heâll find a nice, quiet spot thatâs not too close to base but not too far just in case; if youâre in more of a bunker, heâll find a nice, quiet corner as far from everyone as he can get and sketch a randomized star chart that probably isnât based anywhere near reality.
Whatever the case, youâll see stars and planets of some kind and heâll encourage you to make a game of it, pointing at random dots and heâll either identify the planet or make up a name for it and then go on to make up silly or amazing stories about the adventures heâs hypothetically had there or the dates you could go on while there. Itâs very sweet, and also rather promising about the future.
5. Who says âI love youâ first?:
It would depend, honestly. I donât think Poeâs above saying it, but I think under certain circumstances, you might beat him to it. Circumstances that include the ship coming under attack and him having to fly out in defense. Youâre nervous obviously. Youâre always nervous whenever he flies out, even if itâs just for a recon mission. But in the middle of a blitz? You canât understand why he seems so calm about it all!
Why does he always seem so sure of himself when he jumps into that piloting suit? How does his brow remain unperturbed whenever he places that bulky helmet on his head? Is it all a facade? Or is he genuinely that confident?
To your dismay, the only thing to rip you out of this fearful reverie was a sudden blast from the attack, the rattling sending you off balance. It was a mere stroke of luck that the man of the hour was already at your side, keeping you steady.
âGogogo, get to one of the pods!â he demands, his unwavering sense of leadership prevailing. âBe safe, okay?â It sounds so simple, yet when he says it, you know itâs not just some phrase to give you comfort. Itâs an actual plea.
Even as he parts, you can see the worry in his eyes. Itâs the only hint you have that he might not be as dauntless as he seems.
As you released, stumbling to keep moving forward, you turn back to see him heading toward the direction of the X-Wing hangar.
You donât know what you feel first: The pang in your gut; the thunder of your heartbeat; the scrambling of your mind as panic hits you.
The only thing you notice (and in hindsight, no less), is that you called after him:
âI love you!â
He stops for a moment. He stares at you. You werenât sure if he intended on doing anything. Maybe some part of you hoped he would respond in turn -- respond at all, really. But before anything could even happen, a shower of sparks from the breaking walls interrupted you, causing you both to stumble backwards.
âGet to a pod, (Y/N), Iâll find you later! I promise!â you heard him call out to you. By the time the rain of static ended, he was gone.
13. When do they realize they should get together?:
Poe comes to this conclusion first. Or rather, he is more accepting of this before you are. Deep down, youâve been wanting to be with him for ages. How could you not? Heâs handsome, brave, smart, sweet, funny, protective . . . But heâs also fighting as a general and pilot in the Resistance. Youâre involved, too, of course, but youâre not anywhere near the front lines as he is. And as selfish as it may be, the fear of one day learning he wonât be flying back leaves your body filled with a heavy, dark bile of sadness and fear.
Besides, surely a man of his standing would prefer a woman befitting of his caliber? Perhaps another warrior soul with a gorgeous face . . .
Meanwhile, Poe already knows: Youâre the one he wants. Youâre smart, you think fast, you like his sense of humor, youâre loyal and kind -- and those are just the things he can think of on the spot if he didnât have time to go into detail about how you were resilient, a different breed of hero he could respect.
The tipping point that brought him to this, though, probably happened when everyone had gathered one evening during dinner hours and began to swap stories about their lives before the war and what they planned on doing after.
When it came to Poe, he talked about how he kinda liked the idea of exploring the galaxy more, seeing places and embracing them without the cold grip of a looming war, helping to rebuild and maybe potentially help to establish stability on more outer realms . . .
And these were all true, he did want these! But the more he talked about it, processing his thoughts into words . . . the more he couldnât help but feel something missing. He never added that last little tidbit, but it did stay in his mind for the rest of the night. It didnât leave until the next day when he saw you shuffling out of your sleeping quarters, hair a mess, eyes still crusting with sleep.
ââMorninâ,â you muttered as cheerily as your morning-broken body would let you.
And just like that, he knew what his plans were missing: You. He wanted you to be there in all of his efforts, by his side. And, likewise, he wanted to be there with you. To support you, to experience what more life had to offer with you.
He tried after the fact to see him doing any of these things without you but frankly, it just felt wrong. Incomplete.
In short, you had been wanting to be with him after getting used to him. Poe wanted it after realizing he didnât want it any other way.
22. Where does their first kiss happen?:
Sooooo remember when I said you blurted out your love confession at a dramatic and less-than-ideal moment? It stuck with him. Even as Poe sprinted toward his X-Wing, even as he and a handful of other pilots took off to handle the threat. Honestly, it was a miracle he was able to stay focused just enough to avoid getting injured or even killed.
But he did it, and now he had a promise to keep.
Meanwhile, you were dealing with a lot.
All the escapees managed to warp and regroup to a backwater planet for the time being, giving you one less thing to worry about so you could go ahead and worry about everything else. Like if Poe was safe, what the next steps were for this branch of the Resistance, and, oh yes, the fact that you had confessed your love to a general in the midst of an attack. Simple stuff.
Of course you wanted him to return safely. You wanted that more than anything! But every time you tried to even consider what would happen next after the fact, your mind would collapse into a blob. To your dismay, you still didnât have any answers when the X-Wings landed. Against your brainâs screaming pleas, you felt obligated to run with everyone else to the designated landing area and greet the heroes.
The screams only silenced when you saw him.
Your mind just couldnât function enough to make any sounds or movements. You didnât even so much as flinch when your brain registered that he had caught sight of you . . . and was walking towards you.
â(Y/N)?â His voice sounded so distant, and yet you could hear something in his tone. You just werenât sure what. Concern? Hesitancy?
You felt his gloved hands cupping your cheeks. You could smell his sweat, hints of smoke from the mission, trace amounts of the soap heâd used this morning for his shower. You could see those brown eyes that you loved so much, how they practically shined with gladness and adoration --
Wait, what?
You didnât really have time to think back: The moment you felt his lips, warm and needful, connecting with your own, your mind went blank.
. . . I think I went a little overboard đ
 But I hope it came out alright! Thanks for asking!
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10(ish) Characters I want in LEGO Star Wars: The Skywalker Saga! (and not as DLC)
So yeah. Theyâre remaking one of the greatest games I grew up with and itâs coming out in like a year. Well, not remaking, so much as going back to the drawing board and rebuilding it from scratch! Which is awesome!
But from what Iâve seen, there isnât much buzz about this on Tumblr, so imma make a post and see if it gets any traction.
(((((No Legends characters will be mentioned, since I didnât think theyâd make it because of the Mouse.)))))
1. Ahsoka Tano (S1-3, S3-5, Rebels, Rebels Finale, S7)
Ahsoka is straight up tied with Darth Vader and Obi-Wan Kenobi for my favorite characters in the entire franchise! Not only that, but she was in LEGO Star Wars 3 as one of the major recurring playable characters and in LEGO Star Wars TFA as DLC, but only in the Rebels form.
Now, the definitively preferred outcome is for all five versions I mentioned to be unlockable, but from what Iâve heard, the Extended Universe isnât getting much rep in the game, so she might get relegated to DLC. This would be pretty sad, especially since LEGO Star Wars 3 never went past Season 2 of the show, when it honestly got so much better.
Not only that, but each version of Ahsoka would bring something new to the Jedi gameplay. One of my biggest criticisms of the Complete Saga was that most of the Jedi played the same, so there wasnât any incentive to play as them over the Sith. Ahsokaâs lightsaber style, however, could prove to diversify the combat greatly.
2. Asajj Ventress (2D, TCW, Bounty Hunter)
Asajj Ventress is an absolute queen! Among the Seperatists, she ends up being a scalpel amongst hammers. Because of Prequel Rep, we know Darth Maul, Count Dooku, and General Grievous will get their just dues, but Ventressâs fate is a lot more uncertain.
The biggest obstacle in her way might be whether it comes down to her or Savage Oppress, and ultimately, I would much rather have Ventress than Savage! Donât get me wrong, Savage is great too, but with the inclusion of Maul, we already have a Double-Lightsaber wielding Nightbrother on the roster. They could certainly have different styles to it, with Maulâs acrobatics compared to Savageâs brute force, but Iâm not certain TT Games will go that far. Ventressâs dual wielding would force some creativity to come through.
Ventress is also, frankly, a more fleshed out and entertaining character to add to the roster. Her inclusion could a lot of fun banter in all the action.
3. Wampa (Empire Strikes Back)
The Wampa was intended to be a playable character in both LEGO Star Wars 2 AND the Complete Saga. Iâd say the big guyâs debut beyond a cutscene is long overdue!
Some might argue that heâs too big and too one-note to add anything to the gameplay. Iâd argue, however, that the Wampa could play very similar to the big, beefy character in the LEGO Marvel and DC games, slamming into the ground and charging at opponents. In a game full of force-sensitives and bounty hunters, a wall of muscle would definitely be unique!
4. Yaddle (Prequels(I wanna say Phantom Menace?))
Do you know whoâs cooler than Yoda? The mom of Baby Yoda, thatâs who! Yaddle is one of those weird additions to the Star Wars Mythos that came back in a big way with the Mandalorian. While it isnât exactly confirmed who Baby Yodaâs parents are.... câmon, we all know.
Not to mention, Yaddle is one of the very, very, very few character in Legends and Canon to have an orange lightsaber, which would be really cool to see in gameplay. Sure, you can just make an orange lightsaber for your Custom Character, but isnât it cooler to have a character on the regular roster with one?
5. Rey (Yellow Blade) (TRoS)
(((Sorry, that was the only pic I could find and it was too funny not to use)))
Speaking of oddly colored lightsabers, Rey finally made her own lightsaber in the last two minutes of RoS and it needs to be in the game! Honestly, Iâve been wanting Rey to make her own blade since she reached out to Luke at the end of TFA. She never got the chance to really develop her own style whenever she just used the âLegacy Bladeâ as Iâve called it. They desperately need to make this an unlockable in the game and not DLC.
(And was it just me, or did it really look like it was double-bladed from how the bottom looked?)
6. The Inquisitors (any of them) (Rebels, Fallen Order)
Okay, so, truth be told, I kind of hate these characters. Like, really hate these characters. The Grand Inquisitor and the Second Sister were the only ones that ever narratively struck a chord with me, and that was really only even in backstory. As actual antagonists, theyâre all on par with Team Rocket in terms of threat and are far less endearing...
Hence why theyâd be perfect in a LEGO game!! With a more comedic tone overall, the Inquisitors would fit right at home! Heck, mixing the lightsaber combat generally exclusive to Sith with characters only able to do Jedi Force Powers would make for an interesting dynamic.
Plus, the âhelicopter-bladesâ as they tend to be called would honestly kinda work in a LEGO game? Sort of? Like, itâs stupid-looking, but we know itâs stupid looking, and it would help a lot with getting over huge pits and that sort of thing(like Artoo!). So there could be some precidence for them, so long as they were used right.
7. Ovissian Gunner (Battlefront 2... 2)
Just... just look at this doofus! Heâs high as a kite and heâs packing a mini-gun! I donât even play Battlefront 2 and I love him so much. I would take him home and introduce him to my parents. I would treat him right because he deserves the Galaxy. And he deserves to be in this game!
8. Kirak Infilâa (Darth Vader comics)
Ever wondered where Vader got the Kyber Crystal for his new lightsaber? He killed this guy and corrupted his Kyber Crystal to do it, and kept the same hilt for a long while before he rebuilt it to be what it was in the Original Trilogy.
As one of the few Disney Canon characters added to the Prequel Era, Iâd say this guy has earned his stay in the new game, especially since I had to keep Legends characters off the list(((for unfortunate reasons))).
Not only that, but he kicked Vaderâs ass for a good bit before dying, so having a badass grandpa who left the Jedi Order like Ahsoka on the roster would be fun!
9. Cal Kestis (Fallen Order)
I mentioned him before, but this guy and the Ovissian Gunner are the only two characters on the list with Video Game origins, which I think would be fun to explore in arguably the most famous video game series for the franchise!
Not only that, but heâs the only Jedi(besides this one jackass in the Clone Wars) that has a double-bladed lightsaber, which he can also detach into dual wielding blades! That alone brings merit to him being on the list, but the fact that the player can decide the color of the lightsaber in the game also poses an interesting concept Iâd like to see them implement! That idea being, that every time you reignite his blades, it randomly slides between all the Custom Character options besides Red. Either that or it goes in a specific pattern, of course.
((And is it just me, or is his name very suspiciously close to that Kyle Katern guy from Jedi Knight II: Outcast?))
10. The Mandalorian (not gonna spoil his actual name)
Youâve gotta admit, Mando and Baby Yoda took the world by storm when they first premiered. One of their main creators was Dave Filoni, the same guy who directed The Clone Wars and Rebels! I think, from his help with the franchise to the overabundant success of the show, that Mando ought to be put in the base game as an unlockable(maybe as a sort of 100% completion reward?).
Not only would that just be great for the fans, but heâd be tons of fun to play as as well! His evaporating rifle and underhanded fighting style would be tons of fun to play as, and a character who passively deflects blaster fire would add a whole new dynamic to the roster, though heâd have to take damage to lightsabers to not be completely broken.
I canât fucking believe I forgot Leia with her lightsaber!!!
Do i expect these characters to all make it into the game? Hardly. If even three make it in, you can call me impressed. But you canât tell me that these ten wouldnât be a ton of fun in a LEGO game!
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tea pot anon a second time! I was also wondering! when you have a lull in prompts, or if you felt like it, I would love to see, like a sniper/demo/scout one that focus on demo? I just think it would be neat! since you've done ones with scout and sniper as the focus, and all! no rush, of course, and only if you felt like it!
welcome to âdemo has a self-stated alcohol problem and frankly his boyfriends are very worried about him and wish he would just talk to them instead of making himself sickâ. a long one because demo deserves it (warnings for alcoholism and a brief situation of dubious consent, however it is not taken advantage of)
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Demoâs head was pounding, and he blinked his eye open.
Alright. His own room. That was good. And he was clothed, in his pajamas, something very soft. And his mouth tasted absolutely terrible, and he had a splitting headacheânot like migraines, like hangover. Not unusual. Maybe just worse than usual.
He was warm, maybe too warm, and seemed to be having a hard time pushing at his blankets. Weighty. He looked first to his right, and blinked when he saw a pair of dog tags a few inches from his noseâScout was here, apparentlyâthen craned his head to look to his left, and could just barely catch sight of Sniper, yawning, blinking awake.
He looked over, apparently noted that Demo was awake, and promptly reached to fumble on the bedside table, passing Demo a bottle of water first and foremost.
He took it gratefully, sitting up a bit while he drank so as not to drown himself, hoping to wash the bad taste from his mouth. Then he blinked down at Scout for a minute. Scout was in a cozy pair of pajamas, as was he, and even Sniper (who generally tried to sleep in the buff when he could get away with it) was in a sleep shirt and presumably pants. Despite feeling like absolute hell internally, he didnât feel particularly disgusting.
âWhatâsâŚ?â he tried to ask, even as his voice croaked, and he registered that his throat hurt.
Sniper nudged him back into lying down, taking the water bottle back gingerly, setting it down before he too laid down. Demo felt a little uncomfortable in the back of his mind at Sniper being in his blind spot, but he didnât really have it in him to say anything, or to do anything about it.
âMe and the kid noticed youâve been in a slump lately,â Sniper said softly. âI asked him to check up on you, see if youâd rather be around us for it, and he tracked you down and saw youâd nearly drank yourself to the floor. He pieced together that there was something wrong, bolted to go get me, brought me over, and we took care of you for the night.â
âFeel like utter shite,â Demo managed.
âYeah,â Sniper said, as if heâd assumed. âYou threw up, quite a lot. Cried. Kid couldnât understand a word of it, but, I picked out pieces.â
His voice sounded sad, and that worried Demo, quite a lot.
He took a deep breath before continuing, yawned. âScout managed to convince you to take a shower after all the mess thatâd happened, got you in your pajamas and all, I brought some over for us two. He was worried we couldnât leave you overnight, thought youâd⌠choke on your own throw-up, something like that. Told him we canât die anyways, but⌠you know him. He worries.â A pause. âWe both do.â
He felt queasy.
âWeâreâŚâ An inhale, an exhale, Sniperâs breath tickling at him. âWeâre going to need to talk about it at some point. Not now, not while youâre still feeling like a buggering wreck and all. But at some point.â
âDo we, though?â Demo tried, tried to tint his voice with an amount of humor, a shot in the dark based on what he could hear of Sniperâs mood.
âYou scared the absolute hell out of us, Tavish,â Sniper said, voice hushed, no humor, no joy, just terribly, terribly tired. A pause. âAnd weâre not⌠upset that this happens, that you have your off days. They happen, thereâs only so much we can help that. But you scared the hell out of us because you didnât say anything, didnât try and⌠tell us, or ask for help, nothing. The only reason we knew something could be wrong was that Scout noticed you didnât talk to Soldier very long yesterday after matches were up. Thatâs all we had to go on.â
Demo looked over at Scout, who was more often than not a light sleeper, and who hadnât shifted even a little bit at their tossing and turning and talking, out like a light.
âWe just⌠look, weâll talk more about it later. And we arenât angry. Weâre just worried about you.â
Demo squeezed his eye shut.
âJust go back to sleep for now,â Sniper said quietly. âHeadache?â
âYeah,â Demo nodded.
âIâll get somethinâ for that, be right back. Drink more water,â he directed, getting out of bed and putting the water bottle where heâd been.
Scout woke up before Sniper got back, shaken awake when Demo sat up to drink from the water bottle. âHwhat?â he mumbled, blinking. âHey. Hey, youâre up. Good morninâ. Itâs morning?â
âItâs morning,â Demo assured, further ruffling his hair.
âFuck.â Scout sat up as well, tucked himself into Demoâs side. And he was always a cuddler like that, always craved contact, but it was a bit much, even for him. âHey, whereâs Legs?â
âWent to get⌠headache medicine, I think,â Demo replied, took another drink, winced. âTold me I was a damn menace yesterday.â
âGod, yeah,â Scout sighed. âWhat allâd he say?â
âA good bit,â Demo shrugged. âAbout the sick, and my throwing a wee bit of a tantrum.â
âDid he tell you about when you were getting pissed at me over the showering thing?â Scout asked, still having not come up for air from where he was cuddled into Demoâs shoulder and arm.
âNae?â
âGoddamn, like⌠okay. Usually when we three get together itâs a thing we know about before it happens, and usually if weâre drinking weâre all drinking, but this time we were both just likeââ
âVolume, doll,â Demo warned, wincing a little as his headache throbbed.
âSorry,â Scout whispered. âUh, but this time we were both stone cold sober and you just felt like total garbage, but then when you felt good enough that we could try and get you to take a shower without like, drowning, you started getting pissed off at us because you figured us not wanting to be all cuddly and kissy with you was our way of breaking up with youâlike, seriously outta nowhereâand you kept insisting that you were totally fine and that you wanted to⌠first you were saying you wanted to blow Snipes, then I think you were asking me to do it? I dunno. But we kept saying no, because you were like gone and that would be fucked up, and you got like upset about it. But yeah. Kinda washed out your mouth and got even more annoyed and stuff, it was a nightmare.â
Demo felt guilt stabbing deep into his chest.
âIs that a thing you worry about a lot?â Scout asked gently. âThat weâre gonna just, outta the blue break up with you?â
Demo didnât know whether he should answer that honestly or not.
âWeâre not gonna,â Scout said quietly, interpreting his silence. âLike, if anything isnât that what we should be worried about? Youâre the guy whoâs wicked fuckinâ smart and can bench press me and is also just super nice to everyone, and real funny too. And sure, Snipes is hot and cool, and Iâm a healthy young guy, but itâs like, câmon. Youâre way out of our league. Weâre super lucky.â
âYouâre gonna try and tell me, after that whole bloody nightmare I cannae damn well remember, there was no point of you wondering whether Iâm worth the trouble, doll?â
Scout pulled back to level a look at him, all the more inescapable since he was directly in Demoâs line of sight. âBabe, remember that time I got all upset about shit because I thought you guys hated me because we had to cancel date night that one time and I forgot to get dinner and I was acting like the world was ending? Did you wanna break up with me over that?â
âNo,â Demo admitted.
âRemember that time Snipes was talking about his shitty dad and growing up in Australia and getting all broken up about it because it sucked and he still isnât over it? Did you wanna dump his ass on the curb over that?â
âNo, but this is different.â
âItâs totally not though.â
âDamn it, Scout,â Sniper said, and Demo looked up and saw him closing the door behind him, a small box cradled in one arm. âDonât have the conversation without me. And not while heâs hung over within an inch of his bloody life.â
âHad worse,â Demo defended, watching Sniper start fumbling his way through his little box.
While Medic was a well-trained certified medical genius, Sniper tended to take pride in his knowledge of home remedies. Demo was given simple mint and ginger candies for his nausea, honey to soothe his throat, and some sort of something to help speed up his hydration.
âThen this is just proper headache medicine,â Sniper said, shaking out two pills into his palm and offering them to Demo. âTake these with water, mind.â
âCanât I wash it down with something stronger?â he asked.
âStuff it, Tavish,â Sniper said sternly, and put the box aside, and once Demo had downed the medicine, he pulled him down back into bed, and Scout followed with no hesitation. âMore rest, I think. Twenty minutes until the pills kick in, then youâll be right as rain. And the kid needs sleep, besides.â
âDo not,â Scout protested around a yawn.
Demo didnât argue, just letting the two of them hold him and trying not to feel guilty about it, even as he drifted back off.
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He avoided the conversation as best he could. Mostly by distracting Scout, prompting him to continue whatever he was on about at any given point when the three of them were reasonably alone, knowing that as long as he wasnât thinking about it he wouldnât remember and Sniper wasnât the type to cut him off to talk about more serious things. And on their usual date night, he showed up already well into tipsy, if still alert and comprehensible.
But then they cornered him, finding him in his workshop and plopping themselves down on either side of him at his bench and moving right into what they wanted with no time for him to redirect.
âOkay, so since you donât wanna talk about the thing,â Scout started to say, and shushed him with a hand on his arm when he started to protest. âNonono, no, listen, just hear me out. Since you donât wanna talk about it, we donât gotta talk about it. Not for real. But me and Snipes still have some stuff we want you to know.â
âSo we wonât talk about it,â Sniper agreed, hand on his shoulder, gentle but weighty. âWe really wonât. Could you just follow us, darl? Please?â
Demo was suspicious, but not suspicious enough to disagree with them, not when they were making it pretty clear that they were letting him off the hook. So he just gently asked them to wait a few minutes and wrapped up what he was doing and put things away, then stood to follow them.
They led him into Scoutâs room, a place they didnât tend to frequent, a bit more cluttered than Demoâs room and with a slightly smaller bed, and less private than the camper van. Sniper sat down at Scoutâs bed and gestured for Demo to join him, and he did.
âSo what have you gone and dragged my arse to a secondary location for, then?â Demo asked, raising an eyebrow at Scout, who was digging through his closet across the room.
âWell,â Sniper started in carefully. âRemember that time this little bugger was having an awful day and we coddled him over it?â
âWe figured, hey, youâre not into having a whole talk about stuff. Thatâs fair. But we gotta let you know we love you, though. So,â Scout shrugged, and came back with a box, roughly as big as a shoebox. âWeâre just gonna try and give you a real good night to take your mind off stuff and help you feel better and then maybe youâll⌠I dunno. It made sense when me and Snipes talked about it.â
âThe idea is that we love you and we need you to know that,â Sniper simplified.
âYeah.â
âI donât needââ Demo started to say, flustered.
âItâs not about whether you need it, Tavish, itâs about what you want,â Sniper sighed, stroking a hand down between his shoulder blades. âYouâre allowed to want things. And what we want is to make you feel good, get your mind off things.â
âPlease?â Scout asked, putting on his very best puppy-dog eyes for the effect. And damn it all, they almost never worked on Sniper, but they could convince Demo to do just about anything in a heartbeat.
âFine, knock yourselves out,â he sighed, and moved to start stripping when Scoutâs hands started nudging at his clothes insistently.
Soon he was just about bare, although he kept his eye patch on, as he tended to do, less out of embarrassment and more because the damn thing always got lost in the sheets. And Scout had stripped down to his own boxers and socks, and Sniper had at least stripped to his work pants, probably more for the sake of comfort than anything else.
Then Scout was pulling his arm, urging him into some position. He found himself on all fours above Scout, and the smaller man wrapped arms up over his shoulders and legs around his waist and kissed him full on the mouth with no small amount of enthusiasm.
Demo settled forward, already enjoying the way this was going, and was only idly surprised when he felt a pair of hands on his ass, parting exactly long enough to tilt his head up a bit.
âWhatâre you up to, Mundy?â he asked idly, like he didnât have a flushed, athletic young man kissing across his well-bearded jaw and demanding his attention.
âWell, the gremlinâs been teasing me for a while about some toy he bought a month back and getting use out of when Iâm âtoo grumpy to mess aroundâ, see,â he quoted dryly, and Demo rolled his eye at the self-satisfied little grin Scout gave at that. âHe gave me a spin on it, and itâs properly good. Thought itâs only fair you get to try it too. That awright?â
âOnly if you promise not to enjoy the view too much,â Demo teased, wriggling enticingly before dipping back down to finally give Scout some more attention, chuckling at his enthusiasm.
He had to part for a moment to steady his breathing as Sniper started coaxing him open patiently on two fingers, and his brow furrowed a little bit as a familiar smell hit his nose. Like cinnamon, maybe, and why did he smell cinnamonâ?
He gasped outright at the feeling of a mouth against him.
His thighs trembled a little, and he panted against Scoutâs temple at the feeling of hands spreading him wide and a tongue setting to work, moving against him in patient, teasing throbs.
Heâd honestly forgotten about the flavored lube. It hadnât come up in a while.
âFeels good?â Scout asked gently, pulling back to look Demo in the eye, cupping his cheek. Demo nodded distractedly. âGood. We wanna make you feel good.â
âYou do,â Demo managed, voice a little tight, jolting at a sudden press inward, inward, before Sniper pulled back and set to flat-tongued lapping again.
âWell, we wanna make you feel extra good,â Scout said petulantly, kissing him just below his eyepatch, and when had Scout unhooked his other arm? At some point, apparently, because then Scout has a hand around his dick and was moving in nice, steady tugs against him.
It had taken Scout a while to get used to dealing with an uncut dick, but once he figured out the basics, he was a bloody master at it, drawing the pad of his thumb against sensitive points as he gave steady pulls, milking precum out of him so easily it was almost embarrassing, spreading it all across the head.
The two-pronged assault had him shivering and shaking in ecstatic spasms, trying to jerk his hips and finding it difficult to stop himself.
âMickey, you filthy-minded lanky bastard, Iâm not lasting into you using that toy youâre on about if you keep doinâ that,â he warned almost desperately, an embarrassing squeak escaping him as the thumb that heâd been circling against his perineum pressed just a bit harder in response.
âThen go on, Tavish,â Sniper replied, kissing breathlessly at his tailbone before he dived right back in. Scout meanwhile leaned up to nip at his bottom lip, coaxing it from between Demoâs teeth as he tried to muffle himself.
âCâmon, youâve got two rounds in you,â Scout urged, rhythm increasing and for a moment unintentionally matching the rhythm Sniperâs tongue was moving in, and that was it for him, shuddering and groaning, mouthing praises against Scoutâs neck insistently as the lad tugged him right through it.
He was distantly aware of Scout squeezing the last drops free of him and smearing them against his own thigh before releasing Demo and moving to just wrap arms up around his shoulders again. Sniper detached, kneading soothingly at his thighs as he slowly came back down, breathing hard.
Demo managed to sit up a bit higher, hoping to address the both of them, then he saw the well-past-satisfied look on Scoutâs face, and looked down a bit further and saw that Scout hadnât bothered trying to catch Demoâs orgasm, instead letting it splatter out onto his own stomach and nearly up to his chest.
âYou ever get tired of getting filthy just to look good?â Demo asked, admittedly feeling his face heat up as he looked at the sight.
âNah,â Scout said smugly.
âOh, whatâs the damn kid gone and done now?â Sniper grumbled, leaning down next to the two of them and planting an elbow next to Demoâs, eyes widening a little at the sight. ââŚChrist, nevermind, carry on,â he said, leaning his cheek on his fist as he ogled.
âPretty little thing, aye?â Demo asked, adjusting his weight to stroke a hand down Scoutâs side, grinning at the shiver that drew out of him, Scout clearly all keyed up.
âYou wanna talk about good-lookinâ? I know Iâve got a mirror for you around here somewhere,â Scout replied, even if it wobbled a bit with Sniperâs free hand moving to tweak at his nipples. âFuckinââquit it, Snipes, câmon.â
âNah, nah, keep on, Mundy,â Demo urged, shifting to better balance as he moved a hand down between them to grip at Scoutâs dick, hard and demanding, probably bordering on painful.
Scout jolted, a sound of pleasure punching out from deep in his chest, and he squirmed a little bit, breath picking up. âY-you guysâhey, I thought weâre, this is Demoâs night, okay?â he tried, even muddled, even trying hard not to arch into Demoâs hand.
âYouâre good for more than one round,â Demo taunted, echoing the earlier sentiment. He leaned down to murmur right into Scoutâs ear, enjoying the shiver he gave at it. âAnd besides, lad, I think Iâd really get a kick out of you makinâ an even bigger mess all over yourself, aye? Hearinâ you moan for it. Gorgeous little thing.â
Scout bucked, and spilled, and moaned just as heâd been asked to, embarrassed and defeated.
âMmm. Lovely,â Demo purred, and Scout just burrowed into his neck to hide, face bright red. âNothinâ to be ashamed of, lad. Especially since you bounce back so quick after, see?â
Scout grumbled something at that.
âYou hanginâ in there, Mickey?â Demo asked, looking over at Sniper, who looked very pleased with himself, stroking a palm over Scoutâs ribcage where there wasnât much mess.
âEnjoyinâ the show, Tavish,â he replied evenly, eyes flicking up to meet his gaze. âAnd seems like you are too.â
He wasnât as young as he used to be, but Scout did tend to make a nice view, and his body was starting to react again upon seeing it, member growing heavier between his thighs once more. âI am,â he agreed.
âCare to take a spin on that toy, now?â Sniper suggested.
âWhereâs that leave you?â Demo asked, eye flicking down to glance at where Sniperâs pants were growing properly snug.
âBuggering the prettyboyâs mouth once heâs found it again, Iâd bet,â Sniper said, reaching up to stroke his thumb across Scoutâs bottom lip. Sometimes that was a great way to get Scout to bite you, but now heâd been unraveled enough that instead he leveled a heated look at Sniper, moving instead to lick at it partingly. âYeah, isnât that right? Thereâs a beauty.â
Sniper returned to his previous position behind Demo, slicking something up and spreading him open with one hand. âSlow, now,â Demo warned.
âOh, âcourse,â Sniper agreed, and then something slightly chillier than the room was pressing at him, then pressing in.
Scout helped distract him from the odd feeling of it by laying kisses all across the underside of his jaw where beard started to fade to neck, nose tickling where it brushed. Demo jolted as the toy pressed just right, and he heard Sniper chuckle behind him, and felt his face burning again.
âReady, then?â Sniper asked, smoothing hands down the outside of Demoâs thighs.
âGive him a minute, Legs,â Scout warned, then set back in again.
âThink Iâm probably ready,â Demo said hesitantly, frowning a bit.
âHah! No you arenât,â Scout scoffed knowingly. âLike, three more minutes. Trust me.â
Sniper continued on with teasing touches across his thighs and ass, and finally made an impatient little noise. There were sounds of shuffling, then Sniper was back, much closer, grinding at the back of his thigh idly while he continued spidering hands all over his skin. Demo was starting to feel a bit warm, a bit sensitive again, and it was then that Sniperâs hands fell down to the base of the toy again, hesitating, waiting for something.
Demo startled a bit when he realized what it was. âGo on then,â he urged, rocking back for emphasis.
Sniper obliged, and the toy clicked to life, and his breath caught.
It wasnât necessarily the strongest vibration heâd ever felt in his life, but pressed just there against his prostate, humming steadily and unrelentingly, it had him feeling overwhelmed within moments.
He sagged against Scout, moaning and mouthing nonsense into his collarbone, more desperate noises rising up from the back of his throat. Scout pet encouragingly over his shoulders, saying all sorts of sweet little things that Demo could barely process when it felt like his soul was about to damn near leave his fucking body.
He jolted as Sniper reached around and beneath him to cup and roll at his balls and to fist his erection in steady motions, grinding idly against his thigh again, not demanding, not really even asking, just scratching an itch. Not that Demo could particularly pay attention to it.
The first time getting off wasnât a problem, but this second time often ended with the other two being finished first and needing to end him off with a hand or mouth. At one point Scout had finished while Demo was fucking him and heâd urged Demo to fuck the space between his thighs, and that was damn nice. The point was, though, often his stamina on the second go-around could be an inconvenience.
This time, he was concentrating hard on not coming undone within five damn minutes of the thing being turned on.
The two of them went easy on him, at least, sensing that all of this was bordering on being too much for him, movements slow and gentle, handling him like he was something delicate, and had they not so carefully pulled him apart at the very seams he mightâve had it in him to be irked by it, but as it was he couldnât help but agree.
âGood?â Scout asked softly, pressing a kiss below his eyepatch again, and it was only then that Demo processed the tears leaking out of the corner of his good eye and dripping to land in Scoutâs hair.
âSo good,â he agreed, practically wheezed, and now he was the one hiding his face in Scoutâs shoulder. âDonât you dare stop.â
He absentmindedly worried a mark into Scoutâs neck, distantly feeling the edge creep into view, and he heard Sniper whisper some kind of encouragement and felt Scoutâs arms tighten around him before he finally careened over it, crying out in his pleasure, hips jolting raggedly as he tried to chase the high for just a little bit longer.
For a bit, he couldnât process much of anything. The toy was out, and he was lying on his side, cradled between the two of them, held tightly. His breath was shuddery.
âWeâve got you, Tav,â Sniper was murmuring, gentle and soft.
âWe love you,â Scout was assuring, quiet and tender.
And he drifted off like that, and couldnât seem to remember a single time heâd ever felt sad in his life, his chest far too full to make way for bad memories.
God, he loved them.
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Would you be able to go into the katya stuff if you dont mind ?? Im not sure if its being released after this so im just curious what exactly happened
Okay so clearly after all of the speculation and hostility in the fandom recently, some people are interested to learn how exactly Trixie Mattel: Moving Parts portrays Katya. I was at the premiere at Tribeca, and Iâm happy to give you a brief overview of what was shown and my opinions on it.
FROM THIS POINT ON THERE ARE SPOILERS FOR TRIXIE MATTEL: MOVING PARTS! SCROLL PAST NOW IF YOU DONâT WANT ANY SPOILERS!
So while this is a film about Brian Firkus, the lynchpin of the whole film (the underpinning that holds the story together) is really Trixie & Katyaâs relationship. Which is perfectly reasonable! They are a huge part of each otherâs lives, and they just happened to be filming this documentary while all of Katyaâs health issues were going on. To completely strike what happened from the record would, frankly, probably mean they couldnât use a lot of the footage they had- to the point where I really think it couldâve scrapped whole chunks of the movie.
One of the first things they show in the film is Katya gifting Trixie with dolls that look like the two of them; it really portrays their friendship in a lovely light. Trixie also talks about how much she loves Katya and loves working with her, and about how everyone got to see their friendship develop over the course of filming UNHhhh. For those of us who know whatâs coming, this obviously produces a lot of anxiety. But I have to tell you: that is just good filmmaking. To create a level of suspense like that is almost Greek Tragedy-eqsue with its dramatic irony.
The next part Iâm going to talk about is one of the parts everyone is worried about: Katyaâs last day on set at the Trixie & Katya Show. You can tell sheâs unwell; she has a very short temper and very little patience for anything happening around her. But she also says âWhat I need is to quit, but she [Trixie] is my friend and I wonât do that to her.â Even though Katya is clearly unwell, the perspective of the film also paints her as sympathetic. Trixieâs reactions to whatâs happening really does indicate that Katya is not in her right mind, and itâs not her fault. Obviously it hurt Trixie, for multiple reasons: one of her best friends is unwell, it seems like an important relationship in her life- and we learn that she doesnât have a lot of them- is unraveling, and in addition to that, whatâs happening could potentially permanently damage her career. The fact that she handles all of those issues with such humility and grace, while still trying to be understanding towards and a good friend to Katya really, REALLY speaks to her character.
The part that is most unflattering to Katya are the text messages she sends to Trixie after the premiere of All Stars 3. She says some incredibly nasty things about Trixie. She is downright mean. For those of us who know Katya though, that is just a clear indicator of how sick she was. I think we all know Katya in her right mind would not send someone- let alone one of her best friends- messages like that. But yeah, I can see how someone might feel hostile towards Katya after seeing what she did. But again, this is a thing that happened. Itâs not made up for the sake of the film, and itâs not anyone slandering Katyaâs name; itâs a real thing that really happened, and the only difference is that now you know about it. And again, I would like to remind everyone that this is a film about Trixie, not about Katya. So while you do walk away from the scene feeling sad for Katya (because obviously no one wants her to be unravelling like that), you mainly feel bad for Trixie. She clearly doesnât deserve any of the ire Katya is throwing at her, as weâve seen her trying to be a good friend. And that is what is expected! This is a film about Trixie, you know? Of course sheâs the protagonist!
Overall, through the whole arc of the film that focuses on the dissolution of Trixie & Katyaâs friendship the theme is really that Trixie wishes Katya was better, because she misses her friend. Thatâs the take away. Not that Katya is evil or anything, but that Trixie misses her friend. So do I think the film portrays Katya in a negative light? No. I think it shows the things she did- and they were not good things by any means- but, 1. It doesnât blame her for her mental illness or addiction, and 2. It isnât focused on the things that Katya did, but the way that it affected Trixie.
By the end of the film, we see that Trixie and Katya are friends again. It shows them having some funny- and at times tender- interactions backstage at Trixieâs LA Moving Parts show. Katya mentions that sheâs better now, and we wrap up the film with Trixie & Katya back together again, and ready to take on the world. In terms of the storyline, it does feel like thereâs a bit missing, because it goes from Trixie & Katya not being friends- and the uncertainty in the air over that- to suddenly theyâre friends again with no explanation. From a story standpoint, I wish they wouldâve included something about how they started on the road to recovering their friendship, rather than just jumping to it recovered.
Personally, I think the reason some fans are so freaked out about the way Katya is portrayed in the film is because they hold her up as this beacon of perfection. Sheâs mentally ill, but sheâs still so funny and personable. Sheâs an addict, but she doesnât appear to struggle- or if she does, she turns it into comedy. I think sheâs what a lot of people who view themselves as broken hope they can be. But sheâs not perfect. She is capable of hurting people. Sheâs capable of making horrible decisions, and getting sick, and relapsing, and ruining friendships, and honestly that is just the reality of it. Weâre all capable of things like that! But you donât love Katya because sheâs perfect, you love her because sheâs real. So if youâre angry in the name of your love for her that her reality is being shown, itâs possible that you love the idea of Katya, and you love what she represents, but you might not love the man himself. Just some food for thought.
Can you imagine if Katya heard everyone freaking out about the film portraying her in a bad light? The kind of pressure thatâd put on her, to feel like her fans will only like her or support her provided she doesnât slip up? Certainly that is not conducive to being supportive of her. Personally, I think holding celebrities to a level of perfection is just unfair. I think we as a fandom need to accept that sometimes Katya may not be well, and sometimes she might make mistakes, and itâs okay to acknowledge the things that have happened, and to still continue to love her.
One thing I can tell you for certain is that Trixie is NOT exploiting or taking advantage of Katya. From a purely legal standpoint, the filmmakers would have had to get Katyaâs written consent to have her in the film. Katya quite literally would have had to sign off on it. Additionally, Trixie said that Katya had already seen the film. Katya was already aware of what was going to be shown. People seem to forget that Katya is a grown-ass man with autonomy, and that it wouldnât have gone ahead without her foreknowledge. And after watching the film, I can say with certainty that Trixie absolutely wouldnât have kept in anything that Katya didnât okay; sheâs too good and too thoughtful of a person to do something like that.
Another major thing people are forgetting, it seems, is that this is not a movie about Katya! This is about Trixie! There is a part in the movie where she says something along the lines of: âNo one will want me without Katya.â It absolutely breaks my heart to think that Trixie has no idea how much we love her on her own, how much she means to us, how funny and talented she is by herself, and how much worth she has by herself. And the fact that all anyone wants to talk about is Katya- regarding Trixieâs movie- really irks me. Because sheâs basically being proven right.
My last big point Iâd like to make is directly related to something Trixie says in the film. She talks about how she gave all of those vague answers about Katya because it wasnât her story to share, and she didnât want to make the issue about herself when it clearly wasnât. She points out that other queens were like, âwe all struggle with things! Personally, Iâve dealt with [blank]!â And while the other queens were trying to demonstrate that Katya wasnât alone, what they were really doing was making it about themselves. I canât help but see a parallel in the fans that are angry over Katyaâs portrayal in this film; the issue is about Katya, and Katya is clearly fine with it, so when youâre freaking out over it, arenât you really just making it about yourself?
So, there are a plethora of reasons I think people should stop sending hate Trixieâs way because of this movie:
1. This is Trixieâs story. This is really what happened over the past year. To cut half of it out would be doing a disservice to Trixie and to the filmmakers.
2. The filmmakers had final say. They shot all the footage and edited it all together. Trixie really had no part in the creation of this movie aside from being the subject of it, and itâs not fair to throw hate her way for something she had very little control over; thatâs like being mad at an actor for a decision the showrunners made.
3. To cut out the parts where Katya is unwell would be a disservice to Katya, because it says âwe only want you when youâre perfect.â
4. Maybe someone who is struggling with addiction or who has a loved one struggling with addiction needs to see something like this! No one is being helped by just sweeping all the ugly parts under the rug.
5. Both of them have seen the movie, knew what was going to be shown, and were clearly okay with it because it went ahead and made the final cut.
6. Itâs not anyone elseâs business how either Trixie or Katya live their lives, or what they choose to share with their public.
7. Katya is not painted as some kind of monster. Sheâs painted as someone who is mentally unwell, sometimes sympathetic, sometimes not, but ultimately as a flawed human being, who does in fact get a redemption arc!
8. This is a movie about Trixie, not about Katya, and I think people need to respect that and stop shifting the focus.
In conclusion, what I walked away from this movie with was that, yes, it was very sad and at times disturbing to see Katya so hurt and broken. But more than anything, I walked away with an appreciation for Brian Firkus. For how selfless, and caring, and giving, and hardworking the man behind Trixie is. If you get a chance to see Trixie Mattel: Moving Parts I highly recommend you do so; I hope youâll be just as in awe of Trixie as I am.
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c.z.k. - high school (Part 2)
PART 1Â / PART 3
Note: I was asked to turn this into a longer story, so hereâs part 2! I donât know in what direction to necessary go with this and how to end/wrap it up, so if you have any ideas message me pls! Iâll try to make this a 5-part-imagine.
Also: Edwin crackhead hours have arrived. Again
âSo, youâre cool with that?!â Edwin shouted in disbelief.
Nearly four months had passed since my little moment with Zion and a lot had happened during this time. After the party, everything seemed to go smoothly between us. Probably way too smoothly. We spent most of our free-time together, doing god knows what. However, at the end we decided we would be better off as just friends. He reasoned that it was unfair to the boys and only made the whole group dynamic odd. I was okay with that. Okay, scratch that, I wasnât okay with that. But I wasnât going to throw a fit or anything and honestly it ended up working out better than I would have thought.
âSure, why shouldnât I?â I asked. This only made me earn a scoff from him. âAre you okay? Do you have a fever or something? Did you catch a cold?â Edwin pressed the back of his hand against my forehead, trying to see if I was indeed getting sick. âStop thatâ Nick mumbled, swatting his hand away from me. âBro, sheâs okay with that, though!â. The neighboring table turned around giving us glares for being so loud. âExcuse my little idiotic friend over thereâ Austin apologized in behalf of Ed. He was just about to protest when he got interrupted by Brandon. âSheâs okay with what âŚ?â.
He had spent half of the lunch-time in the art room, trying to compose a beat he couldnât get out of his head and for which he might have earned himself detention from our English teacher for âmaking too much noise during classâ.
âSheâs okay with Z and Asya hanging outâ âHanging out? Since when is that a problem? They are friends I thought?â. Edwin slapped him across the back of his head. âAre yâall dumb or are yâall stupid?! They are dating or something, Ion even know. But I for sure saw âem swap spit earlier this morning and thinking about it now: B, you can have my lunch. I lost my appetite.â He shoved his tray in Brandonâs direction, who didnât even notice judging from his perplex expression towards me. âSo, youâre trying to tell me that Z is with Asya â the girl who he said was like a cousin ââ âCorrection, he said little sisterâ Nick chimed in. The boy with glasses shook his head. âAlright, who he said was like a little sister. And youâre cool with that? Even though thatâs low key incest-y If I might add. Besides, do I have to remind you that not even a month ago he broke things off out of nowhere with the shittiest of the shittiest excuses? You cried for the whole weekend!â.
He was right. I had cried about it for three days straight. I really didnât mean to, but somehow, I guess I liked him more than I wanted to admit. The first night the boys had made it their mission to cheer me up, but once they realized it wasnât working, they just joined me and my pity party with some Ben & Jerryâs. At some point, Edwin even shed a tear or two. âI just donât know if I should be sad that my favorite ship just sank or if I should beat his lanky ass for breaking my twinâs heart!â he exclaimed.
âI know, but Iâm over it nowâ I poked in my salad. âAnd frankly, he is too by the looks of itâ. I really didnât mean to look over to her table. It just happened for a split second. Of course, it was right in the moment he was leaning in, giving her a kiss on the lips. She was blushing like mad. âThis is so disgusting. Here, you can have my lunchâ Brandon slid the tray - that originally was Edwinâs - into Austinâs direction. âI just donât get it, man. Zion really liked you. Why did he pull that move on you?â Nick asked. No one could answer him. All of our gazes were pointed in their direction. After what felt like years, I decided that enough was enough and got up. âYo, where you goinâ? We still need to talk about thisâ Edwin stopped me to pull me down again. Though, I ended up sitting on his lap instead of my original spot, he seemed to not care. He was determined to get the truth out of me. If there was one thing you needed to know about Edwin, it was that he cared about his family dearly. Whenever one of his siblings was sad, he automatically was sad, too. Ever since I moved in, that same rule applied to me.
âYou want the truth?â I said annoyed. All I wanted was to get out of here, in all honesty. The feeling of humiliation was getting stronger by the second. He just nodded cautiously, as if he didnât know whether or not to answer me. âI feel like shitâ I said, feeling a little bit relieved to finally speak my mind. âHeâs annoying me. Just last month he was all into me and suddenly heâs with her?! Plus, what type of shitty excuse is that?â my voice was starting to tremble at this point.âItâs unfair to the boys and makes the whole group dynamic oddâ I mocked him. âI am really starting to think that I was just pass-time to him and that makes me mad. Itâs really unfair, okay?! If you like someone else, why in the flying fuck would you even get involved with me? Ugh, fuck this shit. I donât even wanna be his friend anymore. Seeing his face makes me wanna beat his ass and I ainât about that life. My momma raised me better than beating the ass of a bean stick!â.
Once I was finished with my rant, I finally dared to look at the boys. All of them had shock written all over their faces. âAye, Maâ Nick spoke first. âYou shouldâve told us earlier. We wouldâve checked him and at least made sure he wouldnât be all lovey-dovey with her in your presenceâ. All I did was sigh.
âI donât know what to say. Or feelâ Austin looked so helpless. He was struggling to find the right comforting words and suddenly I felt horrible for dragging them into my stupid problems. âItâs alright. You donât have to say anything. I will get over it at some point. Itâs not like heâs the only cute boy in New Yorkâ. âThatâs right, Iâm cuterâ Edwin tried to lighten the mood and it actually worked. We were all laughing before the bell rang, signaling that class was starting soon.
After school, Edwin immediately drove us both home, so I could take a nap before the boys came over. As soon as I was in my bed, I of course was struggling to fall asleep. âCan you come over? I canât sleepâ I spoke into the phone. Not even ten seconds later, Edwin barged into my room, getting under the covers with me. The fact we got so close over the last few months was making me happy, to say the least. It wasnât weird to share a bed with each other, we were siblings after all. âWe shared a womb, we might as well be able to share a bedâ he had said jokingly one day. The silence was comforting me in a way I couldnât explain in words.
âFuck Zâ. Him suddenly speaking shook me out of my thoughts. âI mean, donât fuck him. But fuck him. You know?â. Sometimes, it was hard for Edwin to find the right words. It wasnât because he didnât know what to say, but rather the fact he had so many things to say that it just ended up blocking his mind ultimately. âI knowâ.
âThis is some sweet home alabama shitâ âShut up, Austin. They just fell asleep together, no big dealâ âOkay guys, but Iâm getting hungry. Should we wake âem up now?â. His body started to shift beneath me, both of us fully waking up by the noise the others were making. âGood morning, honey bubbas!â all three of them were towering over us. The sight was rather scary, with their creepy grins plastered on their faces. âWhat time is it?â Edwin asked sleepily. He seemed a bit disoriented. âTime for you to get up and make us some food! Mama Honoret went out with the niĂąitos, so weâre all by ourselvesâ.
Slowly, we got out of bed to go find something to eat in the kitchen. Ding Dong. The doorbell rang. âDo you guys expect someone?â I asked confused. None of them were able to meet my eyes, looking slightly uncomfortable and at a loss for words. Instead of waiting for a reply, I went straight to the door to open it. âWait!â âHold up!â âDonâtâ âNo!â. Too late. There he stood, three boxes of pizza in his hands. âUhm, heyâ. My first instinct was to slam the door shut in his face and cuss the others out for not telling me sooner. However, on second thought, I decided against it. âHi. Come in, I guessâ. Awkwardly, he greeted his friends and made his way towards the kitchen to put the food on the counter. âSo, uhm how about we watch some Netflix while we eat? On My Block sounds good?â Edwin tried to distract from the obvious thick tension in the air. I wasnât going to ruin what shouldâve been a chill night with my favorite people (minus Caleb) and just said âSure, sounds goodâ.
The whole night was spent with Zion staring me down from his seat and Edwin exaggeratedly laughing at the funny moments to avoid the awkward atmosphere. Brandon was busy shoving his face with pizza â probably so that he didnât have to speak. Nick and Austin were arguing about the gang situation in Freeridge. âIf he wants his little brother to live a better life, then why is he dragging him into it? Isnât he the gang leader or something? Just let your brother go to school and boom, problem solvedâ âItâs not that easy, bro! You want Oscar to lose his street credibility? Might as well put his clown suit on alreadyâ.
When I shifted to find a better position, his eyes were still on me. So, I decided to send him a quick text in hopes of making him stop.
< Dude, stop staring. Ur making me mad >
< Iâm not staring, u must be trippin shawty >
< first of all, youâve been staring since season 1 chapter 2. Weâre on season 2 now. Second of all, if you call me shawty one more time imma rip ur ass open >
He visibly gulped at my last sentence, contemplating what to reply but ultimately deciding against it and sliding his phone back into his back pocket. Quietly, he stood up exclaiming to the group that he had to leave. A loud sigh of relief left Brandonâs lips, as if he had been waiting for this moment the whole night. âThank godâ he mumbled lowly, yet everyone could hear him clearly but decided to ignore it. âIâll see you guys on Mondayâ. With that, he immediately left.
âI think Iâll call it a night. Havenât really slept well recentlyâ. It was true, I could barely fall asleep nowadays. Tired or not, the night wasnât my best friend anymore. Everything was keeping me up. The drama with Caleb, the new life I yet had to adjust to â the boys made it easier, though -, and the passing of my parents. It was all too much at once. How was I supposed to comprehend all of this in just a matter of three months? Exactly, there was no waysomeone could deal with that in such a short period of time. The first couple of weeks I was as good as could be expected under the circumstances, but now it all seemed to slowly catch up on me.
âWhat! No! This was supposed to be a chill night, followed by the best sleepover of all time!âEdwin stood up, trying to make me stay by hugging my body tightly. âYeah, you canât leave! Not when Edwin is acting like a crackhead againâ Brandon said, his arms securely wrapped around my shoulders. âAight, I guess itâs group hug hoursâ. Soon, I found myself squished between not only Ed and B, but also Nick and later even Austin. âOkay, you guys won. Iâll stayâ. They cheered at their victory, all pulling away at once. âButâ This made everyone look at me suspiciously. âWeâre gonna do a beauty-night!â I exclaimed happily with the biggest smile on my face. âOh hell nah, Iâm out!â Edwin crossed his arms, slightly turning away with his nose all scrunched up and brows furrowed. To be honest, he looked like a baby right now. â⌠unless this means Iâm allowed to use that weird blue face mask from Lush?â he asked full of hope. âYeah, why notâ.
In a matter of minutes, we were all piled up on my bed, discussing what face mask would be the best for whom. âYour skinâs whack! Go put that charcoal one on, do something nice for your pores for onceâ Ed threw the bottle with the black liquid at Nick who grumpily obliged and started to apply it all over his face. âThis feels nice. What exactly is that?â Brandon was looking curiously at the big tube in his hands, examining it in hopes of understanding what he just put on his skin. âItâs clayâ I told him. âClayâ he repeated quietly and slowly, to no one in particular. Shaking my head with a content smile on my lips, I turned to Austin to see how he was holding up. We decided to let him try a bubble mask but looking at it now we might have made the wrong decision. Every inch of his face was covered in bubbles, and when I say every inch, I mean Every. Inch. Of. His. Precious. Face. âMy eyes are burning, is this normal?â. â⌠Yesâ I lied. Grabbing a wet cloth, I softly started rubbing the mask off of him before he ended up blind.
âOkay, whatâs next? Do we paint each otherâs nails? Do we play pillow fight? Do we talk about our menstrual cycle?â.
âWhat the fuck, Edwin?!â.
âHey! Nothing wrong with talking about periods. Itâs a natural thing and frankly, itâs actually good to talk about it with your friends to see, if â â
âOf course itâs a normal thing to talk about, but I think you mightâve forgotten somethingâ.
Edwin looked at Brandon quizzingly. âWe donât have a uterusâ.
â⌠Ohâ.
Sometimes, he was just too much, but thatâs why we loved him. âI think itâs time for bed, boysâ. Reluctantly, they got up and lied on their designated air mattresses. âBut Edwin can sleep in your bed? Thatâs so rude, Maâ. âShut up, shark boy. Iâm her twin, thatâs just how we rollâ he laughed evilly before turning the lights off and saying our good nights to each other.
âIf it bothers you so much, why donât you just tell him?â B looked at the direction my eyes were trained on. Zion would whisper something into Asyaâs ear, making her giggle, then he would whisper something else, making her giggle again and so on. I was getting aggravated. âCanât. Thatâs super awkward. I wish heâd just use one of his last functioning three brain cells to consider my feelings and not do all that while we share the same classâ. Cleaning his glasses with his cotton shirt, he took his time to say something. âTell him just thatâ. Turning around, I rolled my eyes at him. âCaleb, stooop!â she giggled for what felt like the millionth time. Before I knew what was happening, I was right in front of Zion dragging him out of the class and into the empty hallway. âWhatâs your problem?!â I shouted into his face. âMy problem? No, whatâs your problem?!â. I was this close to just going back in and ignoring him for the rest of my life, but something inside of me told me to keep going. It was now or never. âMy problem isâ I began. âYouâre so fucking annoying and mean and selfish as fuck, only caring about yourself and never considering other peopleâs feelings! As if it wasnât shitty enough how you broke things off, no you also have to flaunt your fling-âI knew it wasnât just a fling, but honestly? I didnât give a damn. He was rude, so I was being rude. â- into my face! Be secretive! Or at least just stop when Iâm around. Thatâs all Iâm asking from youâ.
He didnât say a single word. Not one. Instead he was searching my eyes, trying to see if I really meant what I just said. Seconds passed, turning into minutes. âArenât you going to say something? Defend yourself or whatever?â. Him staying silent made my blood boil because I felt ignored and just really stupid for straight up having an outburst without it affecting him. âThereâs nothing to defend because youâre right. About everything. And Iâm sorry for not realizing sooner how shitty I was behavingâ. To say I was taken aback was an understatement. âThatâs all?â. The silence was killing me and all I wanted was to go back to class. âNoâ. Grabbing my hand, he pulled me towards his chest. âWhat are you do-â âShut upâ.
Next thing I knew, (I was pregnant) I felt his lips grazing mine and before I could stop him, he had already fully kissed me. I wanted to feel repulsed, I wanted to feel disgusted, I wanted to feel mad. But I couldnât. I had missed him and I couldnât deny it. When I pulled away, he tried to make me stay in place. Thatâs when my senses came back to me and reality hit me. âDude, whatâs wrong with you?! You have a new girl, remember?â. I pushed his chest, freeing myself. Once I was about to open the door again, I noticed that Zion still hadnât moved an inch. Turning around, I wanted to tell him to move his ass back to class before both of us would get in trouble. But he never gave me a chance at that.
âI know, but I canât get my real girl outta my headâ.
Also2: I donât know if I like this part, itâs more of a filler. I tried to put the focus on the relationship between her and Edwin, but also tried to give glimpses of the friendship between her and the rest of the boys. Zion isnât included much because heâs always hanging out with that other chick. This part is set during the time where both of them try to avoid each other, so I wanted to make it as realistic as possible.
Let me know what your favorite part or line was! Hope you liked it xx
- Cami
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[THE PAINFUL LIFE OF A DELUSIONAL GIRL AT CROSSROADS OF AESTHETICS]
      They say imagination is one of the greatest gifts a human can receive from the God and like every blessing it is nothing but a double edge sword. The whimsical nature of what modern day youths love to abuse, an artist, is a gift of sorts. Do you feel an artist just because you create something? Or are you one simply because you jump off the border of mundane normality? Who is to judge if you are an artist or can you even claim to be one? What is the line between an artist and a decent human normie? Some of those questions hunted me since I was very young. Feeling some kind of disjunction from the rest of my peers, from the adults and youngers I walked fairly boring path of what I wish to become. I drew a lot, I wrote even more and in the feeling of being unusual, I found myself wondering is me feeling different so unique.
      Nowadays when what once was minority and unusualness is whatâs hyped and mainstream hurts to those who walked down that road for many years before it became popular. For instance, I am great believer and lover of 90s aesthetics, some modernised touch to it is not bad, but rather than parroting Pinterest, I chose the bits and parts of actual 90s I grew up in and incorporate it into my own image. Funny enough, the conscious choices I make over my own style would be called something along the lines of cowardice and indecisiveness. Because I donât fully dive into the kitsch of those completely misunderstood years of my youth. In my attempt to redefine myself by the means of picking bits and pieces of certain aesthetics, I am called fake by the mases who cannot come up with their own original approach and only follow the trends blindly.
      Does that mean I am unique? Perhaps, but perhaps also this lack of commitment as it can be identified from bystandersâ point of view is what specifies what kind of aesthetics I crave to create with my own looks. Am I boring? Quite frankly yes, I might not have full confidence due to lack of appropriate figure and perhaps I do hold back in those attempts to showcase my own style. However, for one reason or another, I would rather hold back and slowly discover myself and the road I decide to take rather than blindly and with no understanding follow masses. It is much nicer for my eyes to see more grunge or old school designs all around, sadly, knowing the modern society I feel like these have no deeper meaning behind it and it is nothing but façade to match up with the background.
      How does it correspond to arts? I have been writing for about 20 years now, I took breaks more often than created, leave alone published something and by publish, I mean online of course. I hated and still hate all of my work, but gaining slightly more confidence, or simply learning to care less, I chose to share with the world how much of a crap I can create. I, by no means, am not an artist although I do share oneâs extremely self-satisfactory and needy attitude towards life. In short, I need people to see my creation and whether they crave more of it or reject it completely, I simply cannot stop. It also corresponds to me writing whenever I feel like it, not when I see demand for it. The gift to move someone with my own words is undoubtfully a fruitless dream that even massive authors struggle with. Just because your text sells, does not mean you are worth the title and just because youâre unknown to anyone does not mean you cannot hold one.
      In the end, it comes down to how you wish to express yourself or more like, how you want to be seen by others. For me calling myself an artist would be nothing but pretentious flex, I would rather avoid. Then again, being faced with it and denying it would also make me sound pompous or even ego centrical, fishing for those âOh no, youâre so talentedâ compliments. In either of those scenarios, I would not feel myself to be myself but something that my image demands of me. Then again, what am I even? That is something I still fail to define and with every line of each hated piece I create, I wonder. Writing, reading, writing more, rereading, editing, fixing, deleting, adding, moving on, going back, writing, reading, rewriting and so forth. My life contains of boring daily routines and those writer spikes that hit me like a fucking bolt form a blue, when I cannot live, breath or even function if I do not put those words down. Just like right now, I know it will flop and no one will pay attention to it, but oh damn, I could have not done it differently. This is what you could consider âan artist attitudeâ, while although it sounds all nice and edgy which I would love to go for, the very same edgy and stubborn attitude I showcase would never allow me to admit it.
      Do I feel like an artist? Hell no. But would I love to be in position when I can openly say I am one? Definitely no. Thus, at the same time wanting to be something different than the rest of the masses and desire to keep this image I have craved into my skin over the years is making me unable to define myself still being very strict at how I want to express myself. At this point my toaster brains are already shredded into pieces of unreadable scrawls flying on the soft breeze of an easy choices I wish I was bright enough to make. This is just a pure ridiculousness of modern times. When I was younger because being different wasnât cool or anything, I felt like fish in the water of my own loneliness and by no means it was a happy life, but I felt confident in what I was. Now, when itâs so popular to have depression, be sad bean that likes nerdy things, my emo side kicks in and almost screams that I cannot be like that anymore.
      When I was growing up and slowly discovered my sexuality, not going one-way ticket only, but being totally interested in anyone that was human, despite genders, ages etc, was hellâs porch, because if felt like I was not supposed to be like this. Strangely enough, I felt better about it then as it worked well with my selfish self-proclaimed uniqueness rather than now when it is just as popular as watching anime. And I am not saying there is anything wrong about it, I just do not feel included in those openly open minor groups that are no longer minorities and stormed the social medias with their colourfulness. I no longer feel confident in my own skin, because of how something which once was so unusual you can now see around every corner. I feel like Iâve been stripped of my own integrity because of how popular pro-LGBTQ+ is right now and I watch those young people and whenever I wish to be happy with them over their pride and courage at the back of my head I keep wondering âAre you for real or is it just because itâs popular now?â
      And here I sit alone in my room, completely hopeless, as I not only no longer have what defined me as unique human being, but also donât feel welcomed into the minority I should feel so connected to. Because Iâm not colourful enough? Because Iâm not over the top enough? Because Iâm too normal? I am just a boring girl, living my life, not hiding anymore in the closet, but not screaming at the world with âI AM BISEXUAL, HAIL TO MY UNIQUENESS!â. That way, I do not feel either part of stereotypical heterosexual society, nor part of the new rainbow movement. I feel like I am standing between those two fractions with no place of my own. I still remember that Queer was supposed to be âwe do not label anyoneâ, but itâs the most labelling shit ever from my perspective as it completely cuts out people like myself. For instance, I am bisexual, but I do not feel queer because of how it is advocated.
Finally, I realise that I am not part of anything. I am not an artist, because claiming so would mess up my image and Iâm not that talented either. I do not feel part of LGBTQ+ community because I am too normal for this. I do not feel part of geeks or nerds because I do not find all geeky/nerdy shit that interesting. If I think about it from outsiderâs perspective, I could say that sure makes me quite unique in comparison to modern time young adults, but does it? Just like with my style, I chose bits and pieces of minorities and majorities that suit me and feel right with my aesthetics, but does that mean I am different or does it mean I am just fake and half-assed at everything? I will never know, but there is something both tormenting and fun about this crossroads I stand at and perhaps one day I will choose one way, one mass to follow or just sit here alone and watch it all burn. This is fine.
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que-pasa-calabasaâs Good Omens fic rec masterpost
In no particular order, except for the fact that Iâm putting all the PWP (or close approximations thereof) together at the bottom. Some will be not be show-canon compliant as they predate the release. Summaries are copy-pasted from the ao3 summary; italics are my own commentary added.Â
is it that we are dying? (5k, G): England, 1349, the middle of the 14th century. The black death rages, and Aziraphale has to help a dying demon escape from a church. Sad and sweet, completely indulgent hurt/comfort
Donât Play With Holy Water (30k, M):Â When the Bentley goes missing, Crowley isn't sure what to make of it. Unbeknownst to him, a certain lurking demon is waiting to settle an old score... A wild ride full of peril and body-swapping, Aziraphale is a BAMF
Mirror, Mirror (44k, T):Â Adam, Eve, and Crawly flee Eden through the Western Gate, and it turns out that that simple decision makes all the difference in the world... Parallel-universe Crowley is hilariously evil, regular-degular Crowley takes a turn as the bad-ass
with my mind on my money (and my money on my mind) (3k, T):Â Mr. Fell was as eccentric as Tim might expect a rare book dealer with a connoisseur's knowledge of cannabis strains to be, and he couldn't help being fond of him. Aziraphale and Crowley do weed, what more is there to say?
In which Adam challenges Crowley to a drinking contest and it is a terrible idea (1k, T): It is a rather foolish thing to set a bet with the devil, or even with a devil, unless you have an aceâor better yet, all the aces in the deckâup your sleeve.But if you are the Antichrist, the Adversary, Destroyer of Kings, Angel of the Bottomless Pit, Great Beast that is Called Dragon, Spawn of Satan, etc., etc., wellâŚyou were born with all the aces up your sleeve, and the only admonishment you need is âHave fun, kiddo, and donât screw him over too hard.â Pure humor, entertaining drunk!Crowley
Game Over, Insert Coin (14k, M): An Account of Certain Events occurring in the Groundhog Day AU no one asked for, in strict accordance as shall be shewn with Narrative Interference of an (Un)predictable Nature for the Sleepless Reader. Exactly what it says on the tin, all your normal Groundhog Day AU angst
A Matter of Convenience (12k, T): âYou know,â Crowley rasped as he struggled to scrape himself off the ground, âI can't shake the feeling that there must be an easier way to go about this.âA possible take on the birth of the Arrangement. Thereâs some sadness, some historical fun, and some Hurt Boys (tm)
Rarefied Air (3k, E): Earth is getting older, news is getting worse, and an angel has to go to extreme heights to get any peace and quiet at all. But as close as you can get to Heaven, you're still never far from Hell. (Hell hasn't frozen. Crowley nearly has.) Thereâs explicit sex in this but itâs so much more than PWP
Dark and Stormy Night (or Never Underestimate an Angel)Â (5k, T):Â âHmph. I suppose you think that, just because Iâm an angel, that Iâm too tame to read a scary story properly?â Silly and cute, Crowley and Aziraphale are weird godfathers to the Them
The Curse of Horemheb (66k, M): âThe locals call her Bibân el MolĂťk, but sheâs better known as the Valley of the Kings.âOr: Aziraphale and Crowley run into each other in Luxor in 1908 and find themselves confronted with the consequences of actions three thousand years old. Sprawling multi-era adventure with some good fun tropes
off the record (8k, T): Crowley has to submit a biannual report, but there are some things that he often neglects to include. Cute, sweet almost-meta on the natures of Crowley and Aziraphale
A Sticker Situation (1k, G): Everyone's favorite angel and demon are innocently driving past a gas station when Crowley notices a giveaway that he absolutely must participate in. Crowley is a huge James Bond nerd
Under the Apple Tree (6k, T): Crowley finds himself in a tight spot, and Aziraphale dares to hope his help could turn into something more. Devastating, if you like tragic hurt/comfort this is the one for you
Essentially Social Chameleons (2k, G): In short, Aziraphale and Crowley are not as good at blending in with mortals as they think they are. There are better places to discover this than Newton and Anathema's baby's christening, but, well, we're here now. Very silly, one my my favorite genres (humans are confused by Crowley and Aziraphale)
the bucket list (13k, E): There was a certain look that Aziraphale wore occasionallyâa pinched sort of moue that looked like heâd just taken a very large mouthful of cinnamonâwhich meant he thought Crowley was being ridiculous. He had put it on.âHang on,â he had said. âYou want us to do human things?â *If you're going to go native, you might as well go all the way. Crowley and Aziraphale decide to try some fun human things, thereâs some obvious smut but itâs not what itâs really about
Milton Was Right (1k, T): Adam knows where most babies come from, but is pretty sure that doesn't apply to him. Aziraphale and Crowley show their usual levels of competence in explaining where antichrists come from. Just...extremely funny
it's the light (it's the obstacle that casts it)Â (5k, T):Â It's like having a curtain pulled back on something he wasn't expecting to see. A surprise punch-and-judy at an up-scale restaurant, a lobster thermidor when he's ordered an ale.Crowley's gleefully trying to wrap his head around the fact that Aziraphale is speaking Polari. Because of course he is. Or: The Patron Saint of London's LGBT Community is real, and he lives in Soho. One of my favorites
HERE BE SMUT
The One in Which Crowley Discovers Wanking (5k, E):Â It began, like most memorable events in Crowleyâs life did, with a bad decision; like most bad decisions, it involved poor impulse control and copious amounts of alcohol. The Antichrist had been born, and he put on lipstick and kitten heels to deal with it, but knew that the clock was ticking, and at times when time was slipping away, it helped to hold onto a bottle of gin. Also what it says on the tin, Crowley jacks off while Aziraphale sort of helps
Come Fuck Me Hips (5k, E):Â Crowley has had a fantasy about Aziraphale for centuries now. Too bad the angel would never take him up on it. Except, as it turns out, he absolutely would. Crowleyâs a bottom and Aziraphale is a service top, this is pretty much the only dynamic I accept
I Was Born to Love You (28k, E):Â Crowley shows up to take Aziraphale to lunch, and for the first time in quite a good while, he flashes just a bit of ankle. And that's how it all begins. Fun banter, hot sex
The Mysteries of Ladiesâ Knickers (2k, E):Â Somewhere in the fall of 1963, Aziraphale was issued a new body. Later, he was never entirely sure if the mix-up following the assignment of its replacement was intentional or purely accidental. He had his suspicions. Crowley was not sure how to feel about it. Itâs hot, Aziraphale is a woman temporarily, thereâs sex, you know the drill
Love Hath Made Thee a Tame Snake (3k, E):Â He was the bloody Serpent of Eden, and he wasnât going to stand for this kind of flagrant trespassing. Kind of borderline fluff/smut, the first half is mostly cute snake!Crowley
Killer Queen (2k, E):Â In hindsight, Crowley reflected, it was probably not one of his best or brightest ideas to introduce a six-thousand-year-old virgin to the subtle and intricate matters of sexual intercourse. Things could, frankly speaking, get a little out of hand. (Or, Aziraphale has a sexual awakening.) Oh God, hilarious and sexy, Aziraphale treats sex like food and wants to try aLL THE THINGS
Tryst on a Hot Church Roof (2k, E):Â Crowley has some fantasies. Aziraphale encourages him to explore them and not to be embarrassed. Neither of them can really take roleplay seriously but they still have a good time. Those nerds trying to sexily roleplay and failing is one of my fav tropes
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Thirsty Tweets
Hello! Happy Monday! I had a job that it turns out I canât take because the hours are piss poor and unreasonable. But I hit 190 followers so sweet! Iâm also a tad feverish so forgive the rambles. Below youâll find the first of six requests Iâve taken off of the lovely @loki-the-fox. It says reader but so sorry- I typically write for OCâs and when it comes to RPF I refuse to write reader inserts- itâs my line. Sorry!Â
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Request by Anon on 11/15/18 Hello! I had this sorta funny idea that I wanted to request? But basically Tom and the reader are both on the set for âreading thirst tweetsâ and while they both read them out loud they get shocked, flustered and possessive over each other as each one goes. The reader even agrees with some of them. I was either thinking that they could do a joint interview, like Kevin Hart and his wife, or they could watch each other read em out loud behind the camera ??? idk, I just thought how funny it would be to see Tom react to all the thirsty tweets he gets. If you canât incorporate everything though, thatâs completely okay!!
Thirsty Tweets
âMonica,Tom! Set in ten!â A crew member yelled after popping her head into the room I was currently pacing. Interviews and such were always hard for me. I had never really thought I would get to a place where Iâd be doing interviews on live telly. Iâd never thought Iâd get this far at all to be honest, yet here I am.
âYour hands are shaking.â
Tom came out of nowhere or so it seemed. His footsteps always seemed soft and it never made any sense to me. The way he moved and walked showed his confidence. His steps would echo on solid floors but in here, the carpet silenced his movements letting him sneak up on me. I hated it. I hated how he would catch me off guard.
âIâm fine.â
I hated him. Or at least, I wanted to. He was tall and lean and beautiful. His kindness was remarkable. I could swear his voice, accent and all could melt butter fresh out of the fridge. And I had to spend the last year working with him. It wasnât fair.
Before I would have sworn men like him were imaginary. Nope, turns out thatâs not the case. They just are never interested in girls like me. Thatâs why I got the role of âMaryâ. I was plain compared to the actresses he was used to working with but could clean up pretty. That was just what they needed.
Now I know the sad truth, men like him exist. I want one and canât have one. Well, thatâs not true, I had one. Well almost. I got to make friends with one while he pretended not to be one.
I know itâs a part of the job but after some of the scenes weâve filmed together itâs hard not to get flustered around the man. Heâs just so perfect and then knowing first hand what it feels like to have him almost naked and rutting against me- itâs just too much. I know what the manâs ass feels like for godâs sake. You grab that ass while hearing him moan in your ear and not feel anything. Iâm an actress yes but Iâm not immune to him.
I didnât think it would be a problem. Donât catch feelings for your coworkers. It seems like an easy enough rule and he played a bit of an asshole in his part. It should have been easy.
If it was so easy why was having him even in the same room as me making me turn into a freaking mess. It was honestly annoying. It wasnât like me to be a flustered mess because of a man.
Filming is one thing. Itâs my thing. Itâs what I do. I always felt in my element. Getting on that stage where Iâm just me was different. And being just me next to Him? Oh no, thatâs a whole different ballgame and I suck at ball.
âYou two are up.â The same woman popped her head in again and waved us on. Yay!
âIt will be okay.â The sound of his voice drew my eyes to him and I hated it how the sound of it relaxed me. âIâll take care of you.â He promised me and my mind went right to the gutter.
Rather than say the not so professional thought that ran through my head I just nodded mutely and went to follow him out. Tom however wouldnât have that and instead he took my hand and tucked it around his arm. This man, I canât even begin to deal with him. If only he wasnât so nice. That would make it easier.
âWelcome! Iâm so glad to have you both!â Neil stood from behind his desk on the bright stage as they stepped on. âIâve got Tom Hiddleston and Monica Martin from the new film âBefore Dawnâ here with me today. Gosh, itâs so good to have you both here.â
Neil shook Tomâs hand and pulled him into a quick hug, clapping him on the back before turning his attention to me with a whistle. I always hated how I felt like a piece of meat on these type of shows.
âYou look amazing, Monica. Doesnât she look great, Tom?â
âThank you.â I hated how my face felt warm as Tom took a moment to eye me as if he hadnât seen me pacing around the room for the last 20 minutes or so. He was such a good actor that he could almost convince me that he was impressed with the little blue dress I wore when he agreed.
After being pulled into a hug I took my place on the couch next to Tom. Heat radiated off of him and I tried to ignore it. I really did. It was just as hard to try and ignore how good he smelled. But I had to try. I had to somehow survive this interview and the rest of the press tour.
âNow, Monica- Youâve made a bit of a splash with your role as Mary. This is your first major break, isnât that right?â
I nodded but Tom answered before I could find my voice. âSheâs amazing in it.â
âThank you.â Donât blush. Donât blush. Iâm blushing.
âNow youâve both been working very close during filming. Whatâs it like working with someone as well known as Tom?â There was no way to avoid answering that question myself. When the weight of Tomâs hand settled on my knee I took a deep breath to try and steady my voice. He gave what Iâm sure he thought was a reassuring squeeze. All it did was send butterflies into a frenzy inside my stomach.
âTomâs been amazing to work with.â I freaking gush and itâs hard not to cringe at how fan girl I sound. âHeâs been so kind and patient with me.â
âSuch glowing praise.â Neil opened two envelops of and pulled out stacks of cards as Tom laughed and fidgeted in his seat. Even when he is fidgeting he looks good and I hate him for it. Or at least, I want to.
âWeâre going to play a game.â Neil announces to us and frankly I hate games.
âA game?â I parrot back dumbly and instantly wish I could just keep my mouth closed. Games on shows like this were never a good thing.
âIâm going to give you a stack of cards with tweets on them about Tom.â Neil reached out with a stack of cards over his desk and reluctantly I take them.
âOh gosh.â As I take the cards I canât help but laugh. I donât want to play this game.
âAfter heâs going to read some about you.â Tom snags his envelop with his stack of cards still inside.
âThis will be fun.â He says as he laughs and itâs not fair that his laugh sounds that good.
âGo on, letâs get started!â Neil sits back in his office chair behind his desk to enjoy the show.
âThey could make a movie of Tom Hiddleston just drinking tea and Iâd fucking watch it.â I couldnât help but laugh after I finished reading the tweet. âYou wouldnât be alone.â I admit.
âWould you watch it?â Tom nudged my shoulder with his as he laughed.
âIâve seen you drink plenty of tea already, thank you.â He pouted and I laughed harder at him because what else can you do? âOkay next one. âTom Hiddleston could run me over on his run and Iâd suck his dick.â Well that escalated.â I laugh and look to Tom. âPlease never run me over during your morning runs?â
âI promise not to!â We both seemed to be working hard to ignore the fact that I just had to say âIâd suck his dickâ. I mean- thatâs what the tweet said but still. There was a blush on his face and Iâm sure I looked no better.
âOh god.â I laugh before reading the next one. âTom could not shower for six months and Iâd still let him fuck me.â
âWhat?â He couldnât stop laughing. âIâm worried about this person. Value yourself. Know your worth. Insist on regular showering.â
âIâd not let you near me if you havenât showered in even a few days. I know how you sweat after your runs.â
âThey are just getting worse and worse.â Tom was fidgeting more and more. He took his glasses off and cleaned them at least three times since we have started and in general he was simply not sitting still.
âTom could-â my laughter cut off the words. âTom could bend me over and.. I canât read this. I- Nope.â I tapped out as Tom snagged the last paper from me.
âOh dear.â He said sternly. âI think Iâd like to try this.â
I could have died when he winked at me and slipped the paper into his pocket. What the hell did that even mean!? Who did he want to try that with? Why did I care? Oh right, because heâs fucking beautiful and sweet and sexy and the idea of him doing what was written on that paper was so out of left field.
I mean really, Handcuffs? Bent over a counter? Mirrors? Thatâs not exactly light weight naughty in my book and while it totally would fit the character he played in âBefore Dawnâ I didnât expect that out of him. And why for the love of god and all that is holy did he wink at me?! Why the hell did I feel like I was on fire? Am I on fire?
âYou still with us Monica?â Neilâs voice cut through my thoughts and oh fuck, I zoned out thinking about Tom and handcuffs. Itâs a good thing Iâm not a man because there would be some damning evidence on cable TV of where my thoughts went.
âYeah sorry!â This could be easily brushed off, right?
âWhere did you go?â Tom asked and I wanted to kill him, I really did.
âOh, just you know.â Great. Classy. Good job Monica. Way to go. Could I make it any more obvious? Someone stop me.
âWell youâre done for now. Iâll let you off the hook. See, that wasnât such a bad game!â Neil laughs as he motions to Tom. âTomâs turn to start reading.â
âOh god.â The groan comes out before I could stop it as he pulls out the cards.
âMonicaâs got that girl next door youâd like to bone thing going on.â Tom reads before laughing. âNone of the girls next door looked half as good as she does. Where did this fellow grow up? I should have lived there.â
I try not to blush. Itâs just an act and itâs whatâs expected of him. Still, itâs hard not to have butterflies when someone like him agrees with something like that.
âWhatever.â The word is mumbled and I did mean to say it.
âWhatever?â There is a hint of challenge in Tomâs voice. âIâm serious.â
I try and deflect with fidgeting and laughing. It works for him, it could work for me, right? Yeah, no. Iâm pretty sure Iâm not selling the fidget look like he does. He had to plan his fidgeting. Thatâs the only way it could come off so well for him. That made sense, right?
âNext up! Weâll do a few more then switch again. They get better and better.â Neil urged and I was worried.
âOkay, okay.â Tom relented and I could feel the seat of the couch shift as he moved to try and get comfortable. ââIâd like to put Monica up on that counter and eat her like a sweet potato pie.â Wow.â It was weird seeing Tom as a loss for words. His cheeks burned and the blush looked good on him.
âThatâs⌠Iâm never going to eat sweet potato pie again.â I force out as I tried to act like I was okay with strangers saying that to me. As if they hadnât been screaming those things at me since I was 13.
âIâve never had sweet potato pie and now IâŚâ Shaking his head, Tom fidgeted more, loosening his tie as Neil laughed. It was entertaining for him and for the masses. Our âfansâ would eat up our discomfort and weâd play it off as if it was nothing because we are âactorsâ and weâre âpublic commoditiesâ.
âNext, next.â Neil urged.
âMonica could take a strap on and wreck my ass and Iâd thank her.â Tom cleared his throat. âWell now. Perhaps these thoughts are better kept to oneself.â
I tried to laugh and something managed to come out of me. The look Tom gave me made me think he didnât believe I found it funny at all. Heâd be right about that. I wanted nothing more than for this interview to be over.
âMoving on.â I was thankful he didnât want to dwell on that one. I wouldnât be able to look him in the eye after him reading these things about me. âMonica is so hot Iâd like to...â
âWhat?â Tomâs voice trailed off and his whole body seemed to stiffen next to me. It was confusing and I couldnât understand what was going on.
âIâm not reading this filth.â Tom ripped the stack of papers in half before stacking them and ripping them again.
âHey now, donât be like that. Itâs just a game.â Neil was clearly caught off guard by Tomâs reaction. I was as well, to be honest.
âActually, no. I will be like this. I laughed and played along while you made her read inappropriate things said about me but Iâll not subject her to hearing such filth about her. Further, the things I am being asked to read about her are significantly worse than what you asked her to read of me.â Waving the stack of ripped papers at the desk. âThis game is bloody disgusting. No one should be spoken about by strangers in such a way as they are speaking of her. No one.â
âNow, we didnât mean any offense. It was just a fun little game.â Neil back peddled as Tom stood. His back was straight and his shoulders back. It was an impressive sight that made my breath catch in my lungs.
This wasnât in the plan. We knew what sort of games Neil liked to play on his show. The only surprising thing was Tomâs reaction. It made no sense to me. Why was he acting like a noble and why the hell am I picturing him on a white horse sweeping in to save me.
My internal rambling is cut short when he reached back and plucked my hand up. With a firm tug he pulls me to my feet and I go willingly enough. What the hell is going on?
His grip was warm and firm and good god was his hand large. I wanted him to always hold my hand like this. Looking back, Neil was protesting and trying to salvage the situation but it was clear our interview was over. Tom pulled the microphone off and snagged mine off as well before tossing them both onto the couch behind us.
âDonât worry, the fallout will land mostly on me.â Tomâs blue eyes turned back on me as he marched forward, pulling me along behind him even still by the hand.
âTom?â Finally I was able to get control over my feet and plant them on the linoleum in the hall. Heâd managed to make it a good ways dragging me behind him. âWhy did you do that? What the hell?â
âI...â His voice tapered off and I was stuck watching as he fidgeted more. It really wasnât fair how good he looked as he raked his fingers through his disheveled curls.
âYou what?â I didnât mean to snap at him, honest.
âI wonât act like Iâm okay with people saying those things about you.â That made no sense. It comes with the job. Hell, it comes with being a damn woman.
âWhy?â A sigh rips itself through my chest. âItâs not like you have a reason to care.â
âI beg your pardon?â The look in his eyes gave me pause. It was fierce and strong and sharp. He still had my hand in his iron tight grip. âI have every bloody reason to care.â
âI donât understand?â Look at me, Iâm clearly following what is going on here. Actually no, no Iâm not. Because what it seems like is going on here is that Iâve lost my damn mind. Either that or Tom-
Never did he let go of my hand. That sticks out in my mind. Donât judge me, it all happened so fast. One moment he was looking at me with that fierce look and the next his other hand was resting on my neck and pulling me toward him. I came willingly enough. How could I not? My whole brain seemed to stop working as he leaned down.
âMaybe youâll understand this.â What does that even mean? Oh- Oh thatâs what he means.
His lips were warm and soft. I could feel the scratch of his stubble against my face as his warm breath fanned out over me. He stepped forward and I blindly allowed him to lead me. How could I not? Part of me was scared that if I dared to open my eyes this would have been some crazy dream.
My back met the wall and that snapped me back to reality. When the hell did I put my hand on his chest? Why the hell am I running it up and wrapping it around his neck? What the fuck is going on? He pulled back, giving us some space between us and I gasped for air.
âForgive me, that was very forward. I just-â
âDo it again.â I demanded even as I pulled him to me. âDo it again if you meant it.â
He didnât need to be told twice. As his lips molded themselves against mine again I took a quick moment to mentally thank god and Neil for the Thirsty Tweets game.
Tag list for Tom: @dangertoozmanykids101, @alexakeyloveloki, @theoneanna, @0-0-0-0-0-0-0-7, @j-u-s-t-4, @winterisakiller, @wegingerangelica
Want in on future tags? Drop me a line and let me know what type of stories youâd like to be tagged in and Iâll add you to the list. I write for Tom and marvel.Â
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queliot + 20 if you want!
Thank you!! This gotâŚ. maybe longer than I was intending for it to. Itâs possible it no longer counts as a mini-fic. But like. Thatâs fine, right? Thatâs fine. (I also posted it on AO3)
Things You Said That I Wasnât Meant to Hearâ
In the end, when the mirror fragmented Quentin into pieces, hisshards scattered to the wind. Pieces of him ended up in trees, floating in the ocean,in the backyard of his childhood home. He couldnât have told you how manypieces there were.
In part because he was in pieces and therefor could nottalk. In part because there were too many pieces to count.
Itâs a funny thing, magic. Things donât necessarily happenthe way you expect them to.
Quentin, for instance, expected death.
He could feel the pieces of himself drawing together likemagnets. He could gather himself up, slowly put himself back together piece bypiece. Minor mending, as it were.
He was half-aware, uncertain if heâd remember this when heâdmanaged to get back together completely. Unsure if heâd remember the piece ofhimself heâd found on the bow of the Muntjac. Or the piece of himself heâdfound on a farm in Indiana. Or the piece of himself heâd found amongst thetiles of the Mosaic.
It was strangeâhe was traveling more than heâd evertraveled before, but in this unreal, dreamlike state.
He got more aware as more pieces came together.
He figured that once he found the last piece, heâd rejointhe land of the living.
In a distant sense, he understood that everyone believed hewas gone for good. Heâd, after all, found one piece of himself hidden among thecards that Julia had sent flying in the air. Another piece next to a burnt,blackened peach. Another piece caught in the pages of a book.
He hadnât been quite near whole at that point, but heunderstood that he was seeing a memorial for himself.
That was before heâd found the piece that had his name, soit hadnât hit him yet.
Now, there was only one piece left, only one piece to find,one last minor mending to perform, onlyâ
Onlyâ
Onlyâ
He was hereâso close to being corporeal again. So close tobeing able to come back. Sensing, a little bit, that the final piece he neededwas nearby.
But something had caught his attention.
Eliot, pacing, frantic, angryâ
He was in the Physical Cottage, watching Eliot and Margo.Feeling like it was something he shouldnât be seeing. Unable to turn away.
âEliot,â Margo said, in an uncharacteristically placatingtone. âCalm down. Youâre gonna give yourself a migraine. You donât mean that.â
Eliot scoffed, his mouth twisted into a humorless,disbelieving smile. âOh, donât I?â
âEl, come onââ
âBambi, he had no business being there! How could heâhowcould any of you, frankly, send him in there?â Eliot snapped.
âEliot, he volunteered.â
âWell, thatâs the problem. Isnât it?â Eliot groaned, leaningagainst the wall heavily. He tipped his head back to look at the ceiling. âHimand his stupid fucking heroics. Him and his lack of self-preservation. This is justlike Castle Blackspire, how didyou not see that?â
Flashes of Eliotshooting the Monster went through Quentinâs mindâEliot had stopped Quentin fromplaying martyr once already.
âOkay, no, that wasnât that sameâBlackspire was him trying sell himself foreternity, we all knew that. This wasnât supposed to be a dangerous mission. Noone knew anyone was going to die.âMargo was crossing her arms,looking like she was losing patience.
âWhat are yousaying, it wasnât supposed to be a suicidemission?â Eliot bit out. Quentin startedto take a step towards himâuncertain, hesitant. Still incomplete enough to feellike this was a dream. Complete enough to know what Eliot was trying to say.
Margoâs eyeswidened. âEliot, Iâd be real careful about the next words out of yourmouth,â she replied through her teeth.
Eliot rolled hiseyes, turning away. âWhatever, Margo. He knew what he was doing.And you shouldâve been paying closer attention.â
âFuck you,â Margospat. âYou donât get to blame me for this. Sorry I was a little preoccupied savingyour ass.â
âWhat, you want toshift some of the blame onto me?â Eliot said, losing the fight in his voice. âGoright ahead, I wonât disagree. Thereâs plenty of blame to goaround. We could blame Julia, who shouldâve known better. Penny, for lettinghim do it. Alice, for being there. Or hey, letâs blame Quentin. Heâs the one that chose to sacrifice himself.â
Margo let out asigh. âOkay, baby, Iâm gonna let how much of a dick youâre being slide. I knowâIknow what he meant to you.â
Eliot shook hishead. âYou donât, thatâs the thing. You donât know what hemeant to me. No one does. Hell, hedoesnâtâI never got the chance toââ
A spark of somethinghappened inside Quentinâs almost-chest. There was something he was missingâsomethinghe didnât understand. The unreal quality of the air sharpened.
âOh, honey,â Margosaid. She took a seat on Eliotâs bed, hanging her head a little. âYou think youwere subtle?â
Eliot half-laughed,but the sound was brimming with nerves. âBambi, you have no idea how much Iâveheld back. How much Iâve hidden.â
She raised hereyebrows. âGiven how obvious you were, Iâd say that must mean he was yourfucking soul mate or something.â
Eliot glanced ather, his eyes pained.
âWell, shit,â she said.
âDid he ever,â Eliotstarted slowly, âtell you anything about the Mosaic?â
She shrugged. âIread the letter. I know that like, some other versions of you got old and died.What about it?â
âWe remembered. Weremembered everything.â
Margo stared for afew moments. âAnd you never toldme?â she said, and it came outstrained.
Quentin studied Eliotâsface, taking a few weightless steps towards him. He knew, he rememberedâbut therewas so much distance. He understood in a vague, barely-there sense what washappening. But the part of him that understoodâ
Well, it was havingthe noncorporeal equivalent of a panic attack.
Which is to saythat Quentin was actually quite calm and clear. There was just somethingbubbling below, like a threat to erupt when he mended that final piece.
âBambi,â Eliotsaid, his voice cracking just a little. âI so wanted to tell you. I couldnât, Iâyoudonât understand what I did.â
âSo explain it tome,â Margo said, almost gentle. Her eyes were both soft and flinty.
âAfter we rememberedâlook,alright, it was fifty years of memories, fifty years of feelings, justall at once, okay? So just like. Try and imagine itâin a matter of moments, yougo from being you to having this whole other life in yourhead, alright? All at once, all at fuckingonce.â Eliot was talking fast, hishands moving. âIt was overwhelming, and terrifying, and nauseating, and yeah,alrightâkind of beautiful. We wereâGod, we had a son together, Margo.â
Margoâs face wasslack and her eyes wide, any betrayal at being left out of the loop seeming tohave been forgotten.
âHoly shit, El,â she breathed.
âNo fuckingkidding,â he said with a heavy sigh.
âA son?â
A small, sad smile appearedon Eliotâs face, fading quickly before it reached his eyes. âHis name wasTeddy,â he said softly. âAnd he was smart, and he was snarky, and he wasâGod,Margo, you wouldâve been a great godmother, you know that?â
Margo sniffed, andQuentin realized, vaguely, that she had tears in her eyes.
âI thoughtâor rather,I remember thinking about that a lot. How much Teddywould have loved you. I told him stories about you.â Eliotâs gaze dropped tothe floor. âGod, it really was beautiful.â
It really wasâQuentin could almost understand howbeautiful it had been. He knew, on some level.
âFucking hell,Eliot,â Margo replied.
âYeah.â
âWait, butâthat was,like, the middle of the fucking key quest, why werenât you and Q allââ Margogestured vaguely.
Eliot looked up ather, a bare, hopeless smile on his face. âMargoâŚâ he said, softly.
She stared at him. âWhatdid you do?â
Eliot took a breath,exhaling slowly. âWell, you know our Q,â he said steadily. âHe wanted to jumpright in. Give us a shot. He said we had proof of concept.â
Margoâs gaze wasback to being that soft-flinty, like she couldnât decide between anger or sympathy.âWhat did you do?â she repeated, sounding borderline disappointed.
Quentin watchedEliotâs face, curiousâ
âI told himâthat itwasnât us. Those memories, it wasnât me and it wasnât him. Not if we had achoice.â Eliot pressed his palms against the wall behind him, tapping with hisfingers. âI told him no, you know? I was⌠Afraid. Afraid of what would happento us. Afraid ofâI donât know. Something real.â
âOh, Eliot,â Margosaid, her face softening. âYou must have broken his heart.â
At that Quentinfelt somethingâsomething come back to him, a feelingâ
Eliot let out ahuff of laughter. âI know. All because I was afraid. I never got the chance toâIwas going to tell him, Bambi. I was going to tell him.â
âAll of this, itjustââ Margo sighed. âIt fucking sucks,Eliot. Jesus.â
âI know.â
âIâm sorry.â
Eliotâs lips twitchedup in a smile. âYeah. Me too.â
The piece, themissing pieceâ
Quentin had to findit. He felt an urgency in him, like he was out of time, like he needed to beback now, even through the dreamlike hazeâ
The last piece wason Eliotâs windowsill.
Minor mendings.
Quentin put himselfback together.
It wasâa strange experience,to say the least.
Like all of Quentinâshumanity and baggage and emotional weight came crashing down. He crumpled tothe floor, gasping for air. He was back together, back together andâ
And he remembered. Allof it.
âWhat the fuck?â Margo yelped, getting to her feet.
âQuentin?â Eliot said, disbelief and confusion in hisvoice. âHow the hellâwhat are youâQ, Q, are you okay?â
And then Eliot wason the floor next to him, shaking hands touching his shoulders lightly. Like hewas afraid of Quentin shattering again.
âWaterâI need waterââQuentin managed to croak out.
âMargoââ Eliotstarted.
âIâm on it,â shesaid, rushing out of the room.
There was a heavymoment of silence. Eliotâs hands grew steadier on Quentinâs shoulders and he wrappedhis arms around his back.
âQ, how are youhere? I donâtââ Eliot breathed out, pulling him close and tucking his headunderneath his chin. âI donât understand.â
âIâI fixed it,âQuentin said softly, his voice starting to come back. âI put myself backtogether.â
âWell, I still donâtquite understand, butâGod, Q, Iâm so fucking happy to see you.â
Quentin shivered alittle, leaning closer into Eliotâs chest. He felt overwhelmed with feelings,overwhelmed in a way that had only happened once before.
âEliot?â he saidquietly.
âYeah?â
âI heard.â
Eliot stilledaround him, his hand pausing where it had been stroking his arm.
âYou heard?â hesaid.
âEvery word,â Quentinreplied.
âOh.â Eliot clearedhis throat. âAnd, um. What do you think? About what you heard?â
Quentin considered.The feelings were overwhelming, but he knew.
He knew with every ounceof certainty and clarity heâd always had.
âI thinkââ Quentin started.âI think we have another second chance.â
Eliot laughed, butit sounded like it was to cover a sob.
âWeâll run out ofthose soon.â
Quentin smiledthrough the tears welling in his eyes, burying his face into Eliotâs shoulder.
âBut not yet,â hesaid.
âFifty years.â
âProof of concept.âQuentin tipped his head back, gazing up at Eliot with all the adoration hefelt. âLetâs have fifty more, yeah?â
Eliot leaned down,kissing him as an answer.
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