#i love harajuku drag

[shaisuki]

What if reader is the insane one..😳I love these yandere characters but what if reader--

❝ 𝚰'𝐋𝐋 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝚰𝐕𝐄 𝚰𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ❞

FEATURING. GOJO SATORU, NANAMI KENTO, TOJI FUSHIGURO, GETO SUGURU

CONTENT WARNINGS. yandere reader + angst + gore + murder + enabler characters + body mutilations + stalking + torture + blood + mind games? + manipulation + gaslighting + rushed writing + implied established relationship + unhealthy relationship dynamics

NOTES. hiya anon! you got a brilliant mind that tickled myself into writing this one. yandere reader is absolutely a first to me considering the characters i wrote are the yandere ones. i apologize for the shitty writing.

SYNOPSIS. you hate the attention they get and the adoration you shared with the people that surrounds both of you and it's up to you to take care of those who threatens your love for them.

GOJO SATORU

satoru is truly mesmerizing.

everywhere you go with him around. everyone stops and looks to stare at the man besides you. mouth agape, with their eyes glimmering with awe from how handsome he looks. who wouldn't admire him? he's everything. blessed from the moment he was born. tall with the hair white as snow and you know he's the only one in the whole world with it. he's godly and so you worship him. a devotion from a mortal to his immortal lord.

he keeps you close. his hands tangled into yours while you both walked in the streets of harajuku. he wants to try they new crepe stand with you and you smile a bit. admiring his sweet tooth that needs to be satiated.

being with gojo means that he attracts the people who's walking in the same street as him. women craning their necks to get a glimpse of him and those who dared to get close to him which is happening right now.

she's pretty. they all are. every woman who approach satoru were the same mold where they come from. petite with tiny waists and a delicate body. small faces with glitters in their eyes while they flutter their eyelashes on him. hoping that satoru would leave you for them and they don't even notice you. these are the consequences and you try to pry your hand on his but he tightens on his grip while he declines the offer. he didn't budge not when she traces her fingers to his chest.

it breaks your heart when girls like her would openly flirt with him and treats you like nothing. you understand that you weren't them, you didn't know why he was with you! you want to cry and hide from them and to him. you don't deserve him. no one deserves him and so you pull your hands but he still keep his hold tight in you and with a scowl, he says the most bone chilling tone of his voice. “leave me and my girlfriend alone.” and it's enough for her to stop flirting to him and that's the time she will realize you were there the whole time and she would shot you a glare and a million insults are running inside her head and you're not able to know it cause satoru's dragging you away from her and keeps a protective hand over you. “only look at me, pretty.” is what he says and it turns your frown upsidedown.

there's a cry and then a snap. her bone cracks under the weight of the hammer being slammed to her hands. that's what you get for touching satoru. you pull a hidden knife strapped in your boots. unsheathing it in with precision and twirling the handle. “please... i'm sorry....” you hear her say it but she was never sorry. she let her speak out her mind and flirts with someone who's clearly committed. promiscuity left a foul taste in your mouth. she can get all flirty with your boyfriend and she would be praised for being suited to him while you, you get the side glances, faces etched with disbelief why someone like you would score someone like gojo.

she's so pretty, like the models in the magazines and on billboards which you cried in front of it. wishing that you were them but it never occurred to you once again since satoru came into your life. you never wished anything something as shallow like that again cause you were enough for him and that's what it matters and this bitch had come to ruin it for you. you despised destroying that is something beautiful but it was her sin, she should have never tried her luck with gojo and so with a tight hold in the handle, the sharp edge of the knife pierced in one of her eyes.

her screams are loud. wailing and screaming for someone to help her but there's no one around here. it's only you and her. the blood come pouring in her eye socket and you pull the knife and you were splattered with her blood. staining your cheek. it was warm. fresh and you smell it.

“satoru's really handsome and you wondered at that time why he was with me.” your look is solemn, no remorse in them and she's forced to listen to your spiel while she tried to staunch the blood flowing from her once pretty eye. “i don't know.” you whispered. dragging the edge of your knife to her rosy cheek. nicking the skin and blood poured out from them. “i don't know why satoru is with me.” you repeated it. your own eyes getting glossy. “he could have left me and have gone to you in a heartbeat but he didn't. he stayed. he stayed.” you whisper it like it was unreal and the tears came pouring out. you sniffle and sob. cause it was too good to be true.

“can you let me go now?” she begged of you. watching you bawl your eyes out while the knife you were holding drips with her blood. it's a lesson she's going to learn is never to flirt with someone who have their girlfriend by their side. a crazy one it is but it's too late for her now. you were harmless with a touch of innocence but she never thought you were capable of doing this. she can't move her hands, both broken from being shattered by the hammer and she's closing her destroyed eye to keep the blood from pouring out. “no.” wiping the tears from your eyes with the back of your hand, you sniffle. “i can't let you go. you're going to ruin another relationship cause the man's tickled your fancy. you deserve to die.” and she prayed for whatever deity to come save her cause you're raising your hand which holds the knife and it's going to be the end of her but she's not ready to die. she wanted to live and so she prayed and prayed and her prayer were heard.

there's the sound of footsteps nearing in where she lays and where you stand, about to end her life. she lets out a cry. her tears streaming down her face cause she was about to be saved. she was crying in relief cause she's about to escape this hell but it was replaced in horror when she sees who have seen you. it couldn't be but he won't like it, would he? his girlfriend's murdering people. girls like her.

something was up with you. he knows it. the underlying insecurities in which you evaded when he asks and brings the topic up. you only distract him and pretends there's nothing wrong and he let it slide. there's multiple killings happening in the area and coincidentally it's been the girls whom he interacted with. the ones who flirted with him. he could have returned the gesture but he's committed to you. anyways, he began to suspect you and later confirmed it was really and he thought he's the deranged and the unstable one in the relationship. as if he's not done the same things you did.

there is something sad about your crying about your relationship. he stayed. you repeatedly spoke of it like you can't believe that he lasted so long to you and you have been eliminating the girls who have threatened your relationship with him. he can't let you go on this path of destruction just for him. it's his job.

you were about to finish the girl and he interrupted. “you don't need to do this, angel.” he watch as your shoulders tense. recognizing his voice that it returned you to sane state. hands trembling, you slowly turn around to see him behind you. just standing. you gripped the knife tightly while your body quivered like a leaf. slowly you faced him. your head hung low. ashamed from what monster you turned out to be. a monster made from your insecurities and fear.

“i didn't want to. she's going to ruin things and i'm sorry.” you explain to him. surely, he won't side with her, right? everything so wrong about it. “help.” she croaked out to get his attention and he crouches to inspect her. he clicks his tongue. shaking his head in faux sympathy. “she got you good, huh? don't worry it won't last long.” he says and then stands to deal with you.

“look at me.” he softly mutters to you. holding your soft jaw for you to look at him and you cry again. his blue eyes is enough to make you cry. everything about him makes you cry. he's too good to you. he shushes you. “don't cry. don't cry, angel.” he coos at you. wiping your tears with his thumb. caressing your round cheeks and cups your face. oh, his pretty angel. looking so good in red. the blood smeared in your cheeks suits you well.

“it's okay. i also did it when somebody looks at you the way i do. those who harmed you and i'm going to do it again.” and with a raise of his hand. the woman lying in the ground lets out a noise. a choking sound and then gurgles. you look at her. watch as the ground stained with red. the gash in her neck pours out liters of blood. “see. no one's going to harm you. i'm here for you, my angel.” kissing your forehead while the cold body of hers slowly bleed out.

“i'm yours?” you ask him. he nods. “only yours, my beloved.” gojo assures you with a smile and he melts at the sight of your worries dissipating. if only it could stay like this forever. oh, it will. he won't allow it again for someone to ruin you and doubt yourself again. “let's go home.” he says before picking you up and cradles you in his strong arms. pulling you closer to his and you placed your chin in his shoulder and peered over at his shoulder to see her dead. good for her. now she won't ruin anything. you smile in a contented manner and satoru hums. glad, his beloved is at peace in his arms.

NANAMI KENTO

there's the act of loving someone who is on the verge of breaking.

of how him, nanami kento managed to keep his lover at bay. the danger of someone who's mentally incarcerated. a prisoner of their thoughts that there's a day that doesn't go by without thinking of him and only him. love should be unconditional, the deep part in his brain says and nanami agrees with it.

who knew, his wallflower of a colleague can be this dangerous. he watched you from your quirks down from the littlest of it. the blonde concludes that you were no threat. your round face possessing the most innocent of looks and it looks like you could cry at the tiniest of criticism. has eyes like an angels and the tears flowing like dew drops from how they roll down your cherubic cheeks. you were every bit what nanami can think of and it's ironic how you can muster the look of it despite being caught in the act. the coldest a person is capable of.

the workplace can be toxic as it can and nanami was no stranger to unnecessary criticisms of the higher-ups from his works. it wasn't perfect nor inadequate and somehow he still get caught particularly from one who's in a bad mood and so he takes the blow off it. revise what it's needed to be revised or he can do it all again. no big deal but to certain someone who's been admiring him for months, it wasn't an excuse of a behavior.

her beloved being treated like that, it isn't acceptable. you knew how hard your beloved worked for that. he even pulled an all nighter! you stayed with him when he did that from the safety of your own cubicle and how dare that asshole to blow him off like that. not appreciating his efforts and making him redo it all again. he should be punished. no one's allowed to treat your beloved like that. he needed to learn and he's about to learn his lesson from a accident. sure, a accident. you can make it look like one.

the fucker have been staggering. it was his obvious from how he walks across from the office and is slurring and when he's near in the emergency exit with the hundred of stairs waiting for him, you followed him. no one ever noticed you and they wouldn't even suspect what you're about to do. thanks to the prescribed medication you have and the cup of coffee that did the job. caffeine isn't something you can fuck up with certain medicines.

he didn't even noticed you behind him and with push. shoving him a little to hard, he fell. rolling down the stairs like the trash but it wasn't enough. you hear the thud and soft clanging of metal and was it that something broken, a bone? you hope so. it wasn't enough but it simmered the anger boiling in your system and with a sigh, you left but before you can take a step, you notice him.

from the looks of it, he wasn't mean to be in this situation and he just walked in and seeing the blank look on his face is enough to bring you in tears. lips trembling with sharp baited breaths. now you've done it! you're a monster! a hideous being standing in front of him like a deer caught on headlights. he's going to hate you now. you just know it and you hate yourself for it.

in turns of an event, one you didn't expect. you were engulfed in his arms and nanami saying he was sorry for making you do this. that it was his fault and how much it killed him that you're harming others for the sake of him. his own creation that can't be tamed without him and you cried, a little harder. this is what you've been wanting for a long time and then, nanami starts to question his own morals.

nanami loves you, truly. that he was willing to overlook the deeds that you had done in the past no matter how grave it was all. an attempted murder of a colleague, the almost absolute death of someone who shouldn't got closer to him.

it's wrong and he knows about it all but he's long gone to get past through it when he have you. it was just a lapse of judgement of why you did that and the reasoning and the planned medication for you to tone down the impulse of hurting someone and hurting yourself, he couldn't beat that and so, he keeps you in his arms. in which you will never do anything cause you'll disappoint him.

a routine was born from it. you both agreed on it that while he works, you will be home. tending all the chores and freely being able to do whatever you want and you'll wait for him after work and he'll be on his office. signing papers and dealing presentations like a regular employee but sometimes it wasn't enough.

what if there's a coworker who flirts with him? what if he falls for them? what if he finds them interesting more than you? what if he finds attractive and will you just be thrown aside for this new woman he'll have? all these questions running in your mind and it sends your heart beating fast and your brain formulating into a hundred thoughts of how you can get rid of them who threatens your relationship with him.

you have the ring but it wasn't enough.

so when he got home, nanami sensed that you're having those thoughts again. plaguing you with every waking thought and possibility that he'll leave you cause you were too much and he wants someone stable and love isn't enough to keep this relationship afloat so he assured you. the only thing that will put your mind at ease.

“do you not want me anymore, kento?” you mutter softly. your head on his lap while he stroke your hair. moving to face him and look the sharp jawline of his in this angle and so you can see what his reaction at your question. there's a brief pause and his touch seems to stiffen up before relaxing.

hazel eyes meets your own and nanami smiles at your question. “i'll always want you, darling.” it's terrible cause you know it's not a lie and you easily melt at his words. he's so patient that no matter what question you have stored for him he knows the right words to say to you.

strange for a man to say the things that felt wrong to say to a human like you. unstable and was ready to break at any more but somehow he gets by. he's not blind to your acts. to your tendencies that is beyond normal for anyone to understand and when he sees your slowly dozing off at his touch. his voice like lullaby to you that is where the time where he will continue to judge himself. why he allowed himself to be with you but it's out of the questions. of the what-ifs and other uncertainties.

in this madness where he will stay cause he just loves you so much.

FUSHIGURO TOJI

the heavy rain didn't deter you from staring at his windows. watching his silhouette move and whatever shit he was doing. with the rain drops at your rain coat and splattering you with a splash of the water, you didn't dare to move from your hiding spot. not wanting to missed the life he was living and you were contented with it.

god, you haven't interacted with the man and you're this head over heels for them when the closest you get is being able to sit a few tables behind him and you can make the every details of him. from the twitching of the scar on the corner of his lips and hear that voice of him. you were a goner.

you didn't dare to get near to him. not yet. you have a plan for it and that would begin tonight.

there wasn't anything special in this place he calls home. devoid of anything personal and it was like it has been abandoned and is a shelter to whoever hoodlum that decided to hole here but despite that it's his. in the past few months you have followed him. there hasn't been a change of his habits. disappearing for days and then comes back.

how heavenly. the apartment's a dump but your infatuation didn't mind. as a special gift and successfully infiltrating this home of his, you will be doing something special to him. you cleaned this apartment of him. inhaling the cleaned shirts of his and laid on his futon where his scent lingers. you made the most of it and then you left. with a thought that you'll be visiting him once again.

something's wrong and it was the most obvious. he got a visitor. he wasn't the most neat and can manage this dump of a apartment of his and yet, he comes home to a clean house. his laundry done. dishes are washed and neatly stacked and the trash that's been scattered are nowhere to be found. to whoever been doing this tasks to him, he made sure to thank them and he left with a smile on his face.

there's a prickling feeling in your nape. hairs rising, a sign of an impending danger and your gut tells you the same but what could happen? you're just going to visit like the hundred times you did. bask in the scent of his comforters, take what somehow valuable trinkets that reminds you of him and put them in your little shrine of him and then you would go but all your senses says that you shouldn't continue. clenching the raincoat you have on, you slowly backed away in the street whereas you can see his house and then you hear a voice.

“cancelling your own little visit, huh?”

your eyes widens at the comment and recognizing the voice where it belongs to the man who has been the subject of your love. “don't worry about it, i made a quick trip to your own and what a coincidence, i also did that.” your blood runs cold at how the tables have turned. you're the one being hunted right now.

he wasn't lying. similar to the shrine you have for him, he also had one. your pictures in similar places where you have been stalking him, it's everywhere and more detailed. close up shots of your face, your own personal belongings displayed and you think you're the one who have been going this obsession. hiding in that secret room of his of where you didn't found and you say he's predictable with his routine.

toji trails the curves of your body with his hand. a squeeze there and then a pinch while he stands behind you. his tongue came licking the scar in the corner of his mouth and then leaning to take a lick the shell of your ear. he almost shivers at your reaction. mirroring it and watch as the disbelief painted on your face.

“i'm not the only one, sweetheart. in exchange for your daily visits to mine. do you mind having you for me?” he whispers and he chuckles at your reaction. speechless as you can be. “very well. don't mind me then.”

GETO SUGURU

the chunks of human flesh or whatever remains of them came splattering. a thunk then a thud upon hitting the ground. splashes of blood covering the walls and you were showered from it. the sensation of their blood to your bare skin feels like a burst of rain on a summer day. there wasn't even a tremble nor a slight quiver of your clenched fist, only a contented smile on your face having the deed done. it was a quick death for them and a quiet one. there's no pleading for mercy nor a cry, only a mumble of prayers. calling whatever deity they know or repenting for the sins they've committed. good. it should be. it's already a sin to defy geto.

they know it, of course. it was bad enough that they didn't have an ounce of cursed energy and was only good at donations and yet, it wasn't enough not what they demanded in exchange for it. the nerve on them to want more for geto and thus, the execution. it was the easiest task since you've joined geto's little family. whatever he wants, you obliged to it. it's your duty. you share the same beliefs with him and it's for a good cause. the eradication of whole non-jujutsu sorcerers will be the good of all. now, you need to focus to remove the filth of their blood clinging to your skin. you don't like when you're covered by it and be seen with it by suguru. you know how much he despises the stench of them monkeys.

there's a huge grin plastered on his face. his deep purple eyes glinting in satisfaction at what you have done. he didn't even need to order you and you're doing a good job minus the filth that is covering you. he find it scenic as he watched you above where he stand in some post. his robe moving gently along with the breeze. no one had made him feel strongly like you did and it was indeed the best decision for him to let you join in his cause.

a soft gasp left your mouth when you've seen him, standing in front of your own room. geto chuckles at your reaction. “forgive me, geto-sama if you need anything. i need to clean myself before serving you.” you say in a timid manner. aware of your unkempt appearance and the dried blood isn't so pleasant sticking in your skin anymore and you smell like death. it was embarrassing to be seen by this by geto. he dismisses your theory with a laugh. “no need for formalities, (y/n).” the way your name is spoken by him is enough to make your stomach flutter. “allow me to help you. i know how tasking it can be to rid of someone.” your face are warm by his statement. “i appreciate the thought, geto-sama but i'm covered by blood from head to toe and i don't want to taint you with it.” you said and he was quick to smile. “nonsense. you're my family and it's my job to take care of you.” he said and you loved him more than anything. “if you insist.”

the water turned a dark shade of red and then slowly turning into a muddy color of pink as it slowly disappears in the drain. you were greatly embarrassed even when you're fully submerged in the tub full of warm water. his touch electrifying to your skin and it took you a great control to not flinch and your body is covered with flaws. despite the insecurities plaguing you, you relished in his touch. it's not like every day he helps you with this kind of menial task and him taking care of you.

geto knows he have that effect on you and also to him. his gaze unknown to you is filled with hunger. it's only an excuse to touch you like this when all he wants to do is pounce on you and make you say the things you will gladly say to him. your body is now clean. devoid of any stains from that monkey and is replaced with the sweet scent of soap. you remained silent the whole time he bathed you. basking on the glow of his warmth and touch that you so deeply craved from him. “say, (y/n)....” he trails off in his sentence. you hum in response. “will you do anything i ask of you?” there's a ripple from the water when you moved. shifting and turning around to meet his gaze. “everything. i will eliminate everyone who stands in your way and will do all of your bidding. you don't need to ask. i'll do anything.” you say without hesitation. your eyes brimming with faithfulness to him and he felt a little stupid to ask you that when you're willingly offering yourself to him. grasping your soft jaw with his fingers, he look deeply in your eyes and then without hesitation, his lips meet yours and it was a deal. sealed with a kiss.

[inupibaldspot]

Sunglasses

Paring : Gojo Satoru x Reader

Note: My Blue Eyed King is indeed handsome without his glasses, it even makes you who is so oblivious realize your feelings for him.

“No Shoko.” Gojo’s face had as frown on his face as he stands near the alley way. Shoko really needed a smoke break but then the closest smoking zone was still a considerable distance away so here they were, in an alleyway Shoko smoking with Gojo as company. “I think I have been very obvious by now.”

“No shit, I think even Yaga knows by now”Shoko let’s out a chuckle. “Buts it’s also funny how oblivious y/n is.”

Shoko smiles as Gojo’s face contours in a frown further. She remembers when Gojo took a sip from your drink followed by a wink and despite Shoko giving a snide remark of ‘Wow~ An indirect kiss!’, you were pouting saying Gojo was after your drinks and scrambled away, hiding behind Geto.

“Even yesterday, we were in Harajuku.” Gojo huffs as Shoko takes a final drag from her cigarette and crushes the item beneath her feet. “I won a pop-ring from the pachinko and put it in her ring finger; RING FINGER!”

The duo starts walking back to where you and Geto were sitting at, Gojo still yapping away recalling the recent incident. “You know what y/n did? That idiot pulled it from their finger, bit the candy from the handle, threw the ring handle away and said it was inconvenient to eat candy that way.”

“Well, Y/N doesn’t like having things around their fingers and wrist.” Shoko smiles as Gojo huffs in frustration. “Have you maybe tried confessing?”

Gojo looks as her as if she had grown two heads. “Why do you think I was ignoring them for 2 days last month?”

“Pfft… You sulked only for two days?”

“Yeah, they called me over to their room to play Mario kart.”

Shoko cackled thinking how Gojo really can’t ever be genuinely upset at you,ever but smiles as she sees Geto and you not too far away. You were standing behind Geto and your hands were combing through his hair, Geto sitting comfortably with his eyes closed,undoubtedly a bit drowsy. “Your love of your life is being taken away though.”

Gojo follows his friend’s line of sight and sees what’s was going on making him screech. “Geh!”

You were combing your hands through Geto’s hair. Geto who always had his bun high and tight in the morning would always start to slouch and become slightly messy towards the evening, so you being a good friend offered to help.

Geto denied it at first. Gojo would blow a fuse if he sees his crush so close to him. But on second thought, Gojo did eat the yogurt he had saved up so it was a good chance for a payback so he agrees.

“Suguru!” Gojo slides infront of him in great speed, a trail of dust behind him. “That’s breaking bro code!”

To which Geto just sticks his tongue out with a smug look on his face. You tilt your head in confusion. What’s Satoru going on about? You think as your hands still. “I’m fixing his hair,Satoru.”

“Let me help you then.” Gojo scoots your away gently, as he then takes over making Geto’s hair as his hands swiftly takes over. “Done!”

Geto stills frozen for a second as he sat with his hair in a twin tail, his bangs covering one side of his face as usual with a proud looking Gojo beside him. He looks stupid. This make you and Shoko burst out laughing.

A nerve pops from Geto’s forehead and he swiftly swings his fist.

*Smash!*

“Ah!”

That’s how you guys ended up in a glasses shop, after Geto swings his fist on Gojo his fist collided with his face which in turn breaks the Gojo’s sunglasses.

“How about this?” You stand on the ball of your feet as your outstretched your hand to put on a sunglass on Gojo.

Gojo stops breathing for a second on how close you were to him, the tip of his ears felt hot. You put him a heart shaped pink glass, stupid he know but when sees you slump back and giggle, he thinks it’s worth it.

Geto and Shoko looks away from the pair. We’ll give you two space. Shoko has whispered to him and they walk around the store keeping a distance.

“Yeah yeah.” Gojo sings and you still continue laughing; he brings his hands to the frame of the glasses and removes it. “I know I look handsome but let’s get serious.”

You nod at him, your face still had a dust of red due to laughing. “Fine I’ll pick out a good one.”

“Ah! Look at that guy~”

“The white hair one…He is so tall!”

“Kyaa~ He looks so dreamy.”

Gojo puffs his chest in pride. This wasn’t old news at all as he always knew he was a good looking guy. He may have actually missed this kind of attention since no one at Jujutsu High would react like that.

“Try this one.” Your stiff voice breaks him from his thoughts as you once again put him a glasses; another stupid one where the frame was shaped like a flower.

“Listen.” Gojo says. “Let’s pick a proper one.”

“Why?” His heart skips a beat as your lips turn into a pout, your eyes look at him as if you were a puppy. “You like the girls fawning over you?”

“Wha-“

Before Gojo could respond, you held the cuff of his shirt as you pull him towards Shoko and Geto.

“Ehh~ He had a girlfriend.”

“That’s boring.”

Gojo gulps loudly as he racks through his brain. No way? But then you- Damn I really don’t want to get too confident. He thinks as Gojo then opens his mouth.

“Hey? Don’t tell me you’re jealous?” He tries to keep his tone in his usual teasing one but there was a slight tremble at the end.

“I-“ You swiftly turn around, your eyes was nervously wandering as you try to look into his eyes, face increasingly red ; Gojo wished he could kiss you then and there. “I just- I guess I am.”

Gojo stills as he then breaks into a series of laughter. What the hell, all these time of him pinning on you, trying to make you realize the Gojo Satoru loves you and all it took was some random group of girls gushing over him?

“Fuck.” Gojo covers his huge grin on his face with his hands, and maybe the blush aswell as he then warps his hand around your waist and twirls you around . “You’re so fucking cute.”

[mirai-e-jump]

Murakami Erica Photobook: Admiring Erica (select pages and translation below)

Publication: May 29, 2024

Erica's Story

An ordinary high school student who was suddenly scouted one day in Harajuku, won the Grand Prix of an audition, and quickly became a "ViVi" model. After that, she also expanded her activities as an actor, and by taking on the challenge of the Super Sentai series, Erica became the nation's "princess" loved by people of all ages and genders. Including stories about her beloved family and work, this is the beginning of Erica's true story, which can only be told in a photobook.

"Congratulations on the release of your photobook 💛. What were your thoughts when you heard about it?"

Somehow, I always thought about wanting to publish a style book or a book related to beauty someday, but I never considered a photobook at all! I was surprised at first, and I couldn't imagine how it would turn out, but I knew that if I teamed up with ViVi, it would definitely be stylish, so I was really looking forward to it!

"How did it feel to actually shoot?"

The moment we started shooting, I was so excited because the photos were so stylish and had an atmosphere that only ViVi can create!!! The clothes were cute and had alittle bit of an emotional vibe to them but with the lighting that's so ViVi, ViVi is the best~ 💛.

Family Stories

-Talkative and mischievous. I'm a lively girl who grew up carefree in Fukushima-

"Erica is loved by her family, fellow models, staff and co stars. What kind of child were you during your childhood?"

I did things at my own pace from the moment I was born. I wouldn't shout, and was the kind of baby who would look around at the new world with wonder. I've been talkative and mischievous since I was young. I was a lively child, running around at the front while dragging my younger sister, younger brother, and the neighborhood children along with me. I grew up carefree in the rich nature of my hometown, Fukushima, so of course I was good with bugs. I loved to play pranks, and would catch grasshoppers and cicadas and release them at home, where my mother would often become furious with me. In elementary school, I did swimming, karuta, and piano……Since I had plenty of energy, I was able to learn a bunch of different things. From middle school, I started to dress up alittle more, and became interested in fashion and cosmetics. I'd wear the magnetic earrings I bought at the general store, and borrow and try out my mother's eyeliner without permission. In middle school, I joined the Soft Tennis Club, and while leading a club centered life, I became addicted to "Detective Conan." Mori Ran-chan was so cool, that I even tried karate for a brief time (laughs). I fell in love with the scientific field because Haibara Ai-chan was so cool, and she made me aspire to become a science researcher. From that time on, I had an otaku mind set, and would always get completely into whatever I liked.

"You must've been an actively curious child."

I was always active! I was always willing to try anything without hesitating, and even now I'm still the type of person who's curious and quick to act on whatever I want to do.

"Your father is originally from Canada. Did you go to Canada often?"

My grandfather and grandmother lived there, so I used to go there often when I was younger. When I was in middle school, me and my younger sister would spend our Summer vacations in Canada. I'd speak English together with my father, so I was able to speak it when I was a child, but I regret that I gradually became less interested in English. Now, I think I want to study English again.

"Being blunt, were you popular?"

Eh, not really (laughs). The only story I can tell you that made me alittle bit excited was when I was in high school, a friend told me that a boy from another school wanted to know my contact info. Unfortunately, I don't have that many stories of bittersweet love 💛, as I tend to become friends with the opposite sex pretty quickly.

"What kind of girl were you in high school?"

I decided to seriously pursue a career in science when I was in my first year of high school, so I went to cram school and studied hard in order to focus on entrance exams. I was involved in club activities, such as baking sweets in the laid back Family Life Club. If I got a job, I'd probably return to my hometown, so I wanted to go somewhere where I could do what I loved while being a college student, I even though, "Maybe I can study abroad!" So, I guess leaving Fukushima was the image I had in mind for my life plans. Rather than saying, "I definitely want to go to Tokyo!" I just felt like college in a city would be more exciting. I hoped that in the future I'd be able to work for a company involved in the development and research of cosmetics.

-I can be my most relaxed self when I spend time with my siblings 💛-

"Are you close with your siblings?"

My younger sister is 1 year, and younger brother is 5 years apart from me, and the three of us used to play together when we were in elementary school. When I started to enjoy fashion in high school, I lent and borrowed clothes with my sister. Since moving to the capital, I've been spending more time with my sister and brother whenever they come to Tokyo, and we often play together. It's probably because I'm the eldest daughter, but I have a strong desire to do things for my younger sister and brother. I lived with my sister when I was in college, so we were together alot. My brother's a spoiled brat and would call me to say, "I'm going to Chiba tomorrow, let's go to Disney together!" or "I want to eat sushi," and so I'll go with him. My brother has been in Tokyo since April, so I'm planning to take him to lots of places. I can be my most relaxed self when I'm spending time with my siblings.

"Do you ever fight with your siblings?"

When I lived with my sister, she often scolded me about not doing housework. My sister got angry with me when I was too busy and put off doing the laundry or dishes (laughs). Even now, I feel really bad about that. My sister was the kindest, cooking dinner for me when I worked late at night and prepping my bath. When I complained about how tired I was from work, she just let it slide in a nice way. I appreciated that as well. She knows how to treat me. Of course, when I was really having a hard time, she'd be there for me and listen to me seriously at dinner. She's my younger sister, but she's become like an older sister to me and supports me emotionally. My sister is the one who gives me the most objective opinion. She's the only one who'll say, "Onee-san, you don't look good in that outfit."

-I'm working hard at my job to show my family good things!-

"Erica loves her family."

I think my family is really close. I didn't have much of a rebellious phase, but when I was in middle school, I would pretend to be abit cool and listen to music by myself with earphones. My parents were the type to let me do what I wanted, so I was free to do whatever. On Friday nights, when my father came home alittle early, I'd fill a big bowl with my favorite snack, order pizza, and watch a movie together. My grandmother and grandfather took care of me when I was a child because both my parents worked, so I'm also very close with my grandparents. Even now, if I have two or three days off, I go back to my parents house and tell my family everything about work. I feel refreshed when I have conversations with them because I can talk with them while organizing my thoughts. They're so positive about everything I do, so if I feel like I'm lacking energy, or my self esteem is alittle low, I'll just video call them. No matter which one I call, they always come up on the screen, they're both adorable parents, always wanting to talk to me before anyone else (laughs). Once I've reached the point where I can put a pause on work, I'd like to take a family trip while my grandfather and grandmother are still healthy. The world is changing rapidly, even in just one year, so I'd like to give back alot while I can.

"What does family mean to Erica?"

It's healing. Part of me works hard because I want to show my family good things. Because I grew up in a close family, I long for marriage and want to start a family myself. I hear that many people don't want to get married these days, but I really do! (laughs), I feel like, "If you want to get married, come to my house." If there's anyone out there who's a good person, I'd like them to come and join my family.

Beauty Stories

-My private time is devoted entirely to beauty. "Erica's method" is to make a plan and keep at it for a long time-

"What's the number one thing you're interested in right now?"

It's beauty! I actually really love beauty. I love skin care and cosmetics, but I'm also interested in pilates, moxibustion, acupuncture, nutrition, diet, and anything related to health in general. I love it so much, that I now spend most of my private time on beauty.

"How long have you been into beauty?"

When I was in high school, my father had an opportunity to reevaluate his diet, and since I also had a weak stomach, we started together. The first thing I took care of was my eating habits. I started eating less additives and prioritized the vegetables from my grandparents garden. From there, I became interested in intestinal health, and since I like to do research, I got more and more into it. Since then, food and health have always been on my mind. I think that my family created the base for my healthy diet. When I was in college, I cooked for myself with vegetables from Fukushima that were sent to me, and even now I still cook for myself. Just recently, during the filming of "Ohsama Sentai King-Ohger," I brought my own bento to keep myself healthy, including onigiri for breakfast and fruit for a snack. Food is important to maintain my figure, especially during busy times. But, when I go out to eat together with everyone, I don't worry about it and put priority on having a good time. I do care about it when I eat alone, so I like to find the right balance. Instead of making everything perfect, I try to be more flexible and make the best of what I have. The important thing is the long term, so I think it's those small steps and accumulations that have led me to where I am today.

-Occasional treats are OK! If I eat, I'll cover for it the next day with adjustments and exercise-

"How do you stay in shape?"

Honestly, when I first started modeling, I thought that if I gained weight, I wouldn't get any work. Currently I don't think it's enough to be thin, and I know that it's not everything, but when I was 18 or 19 years old, I was absolutely convinced that, "I should never be fat!" The idea of exercising never came up when I thought about eating less. I went without meals for about two days for my first swimsuit shoot, which was a complete disaster as I got heat stroke and felt sick. I learned to reflect on why I needed to be thin even though I was ruining my physical condition. Now, I think it's more beautiful to have abs rather than just being thin, and I've started to take up pilates not just to keep thin, but to improve my posture. I like pilates because it builds more flexible muscles than weight training. Exercise makes you more positive, and it's good for your mental health. When I have time, I sometimes go swimming. Now, I go to do pilates 2-3 times a week, and have incorporated walking. I love walking, so I wear comfortable shoes and try to walk around as much as possible when I can.

"What are you conscious of in your daily diet?"

I eat three well balanced and proper meals. If I don't take in enough nutritions, my complexion will be ruined. Now, because of the action in King-Ohger's stage play, I have to use alot of energy, so I eat sweets every time I take a break. So, I make sure to bring dried sweet potatoes, chocolate with at least 70% cacao, and fruit for snacking. I think it's important to know what to eat, not to refrain from eating. When I occasionally receive sweets as gifts, I enjoy them and try to move my body as much as possible. In my refrigerator is natto, mozuku, mekabu, and also dried wakame and koya dofu. The freezer is always stocked with burdock and beans. When taking meals on location, I just put bonito flakes and miso in a soup jar, add hot water, and I'm good to go. Miso soup is truly great. Speaking of, the miso by my grandmother is homemade. I heard that bacteria is important, so for awhile, I'd mix my grandmother's homemade amazake with yogurt.

"What's important in maintaining your figure?"

Of course, I don't always follow a stoic diet, if there's something I'm concerned about, I eat it, but I try not to do it continuously. People don't gain that much weight if they overeat for a day or two, but if you reward yourself every day and continue to do so for a week or more, it becomes a habit and will absolutely affect your figure. Swelling is a habit after all, so I'll take care of it on that day. Of course, not eating is also stressful, so when I eat, I try to exercise as much as I can. I used to worry about swelling, but now I don't. I'm more concerned about what kind of condition I want to be in on a regular basis. Rather than cramming everything together and doing alot of different things, I'd rather be in a state where I can make consistent progress every day and not have to do anything special. That's what motivates me, and when I want to have fun, I enjoy myself to the fullest and then make adjustments the next day. I guess that's the most like me.

-Always checking beauty care info while taking a long bath!-

"Tell us your at home beauty routine!"

At home, I use a foam roller to stretch and loosen up my muscles. I also use an easy to apply sticker type of moxibustion to warm up pressure points on my feet and improve blood circulation. When I'm tired, I love to use "Kyusoku Jikan Pressure Point Stimulating Gel Sheets" and going to bed because it makes my legs feel lighter 💛 also, it's important to take a long bath. I add bath salts like epsom salt and himalayan salt, and while soaking in the tub for 40 to 50 minutes, I'll search for beauty care info. When I want to warm myself up, I sometimes add sake. When I sleep, sometimes I'll wear medical compression socks. Also, I heard that it's good to sleep with a warm body, so until Winter ends, I put disposable hand warmers on my futon and wear "Nightmin Warming Earplugs" when I sleep. Recently, I bought a Zojirushi humidifier and it works great! It's good for my health and makes my skin feel soft.

"Do you take supplements?"

Honestly, I don't think anything can compete with food, but for this photobook, I also took extra of my favorite supplements. Recently, I've been taking Lypo-C in the morning and Lypo-CC+D at night. When I was alittle concerned about the condition of my skin, I got a prescription for coix seed from my hospital. I started taking it to treat water warts, but at the time, I got compliments on my skin, so I only take it before important events. Plus, I take Vitamin B for skin and fatigue, and glutathione for when I'm drinking alcohol. I heard that glutathione improves liver metabolism, and since I also like to drink, I always keep some handy. I'm currently interested in collagen supplements. As I get older, my problems will also change, so I'm always exchanging information with hair and makeup artists and beauty authors, and I actively try out new things that interest me. By the way, if I'm really busy, I can also rely on nutritional supplements. I use Chocola BB and Alinamin, and also the Orthomol that I bought from Korea, as they give me energy.

-I love acupuncture 💛 I also incorporate beauty clinics for skin care-

"Tell us what beauty places Erica goes to!"

I've been going for acupuncture once a month for about 3 years. I started going to improve my poor circulation, sensitivity to cold, and stiff shoulders, and I became addicted to how good I felt when waking up the next day. It seems to have a detoxifying effect that makes my body feel refreshed. The doctor is very knowledgeable about beauty and taught me some basics, like because I have a weak stomach, eating too many raw vegetables isn't good for my digestion, and that I should avoid coffee as the first thing I have in the morning.

"Do you go to beauty clinics?"

I go! Basically, my main focus is skin care, as I had rough skin around the time I moved to Tokyo, so I started looking for a beauty clinic to fix it, and then I started going to different ones. Laser toning treatments had visible results, and that's how I became hooked. Currently, I use a proper amount of both aesthetic and beauty clinics. I regularly go to "Aesthetic Salon CIEL" for facial contouring, where even sensitive skin can be managed. I don't do strong procedures that require downtime, but when I want to feel the power of medical treatments, such as toning or making acne scars less visible, I sometimes turn to cosmetic medicine. Recently, I heard that titanium lifting is a good thing, so I immediately made an appointment. I'm also interested in skin boosters. The idea is to not just slim down facial lines, but to have skin that looks healthy and tight.

-Beauty is my hobby. I always want to improve myself-

"What skincare regimen are you into lately?"

Since the beauty clinic will be thorough, my skin care regimen is basically protective. Currently, I love carbonated beauty. I like carbonated face washes, and use things like suisai's "Beauty Clear Fizzy Powder Wash," which I think as a side effect feels like it refreshes the area around my face! For a period of time, I was so addicted to it, that I used to make carbonated water with a "Soda Stream" and wash my face with it. I'll often use foam carbonation packs on my scalp. I also like fermented ingredients and will try out various kinds.

"What is Erica's goal with beauty?"

Smooth and soft skin! And above all else, health. Rather than wanting to be like someone else, I always want to better my image. Beauty for me is a hobby. It lifts my spirits and helps me "reset." It's my precious time 💛.

Work Stories

-I want to try something new! I dove into this world out of curiosity 💛-

"Now then, let's look back at Erica's work. When was the turning point?"

I participated in "High School Quiz" when I was in my second year of high school. I won the competition and was going on to compete in the national level, and while I was walking around Harajuku, excited to be in Tokyo for the first time, I was scouted by my current agency. I had previously been scouted in my hometown, but I turned them all down because I was preparing for exams. However, they asked for my contact info since I wasn't affiliated with an agency, and so we exchanged info. About six months later, I was recommended to audition for ViVi by the agency, and thankfully, I won the Grand Prix and became a ViVi model.

"Why did you decide to audition?"

I'm not swayed by trends, I'm just an ordinary girl. I had read ViVi before, but I was just a high school student who thought that the entertainment industry was a world I had no connection to, and that I'd just go on to higher education and find a job. Still, I like to try new things, and I thought it'd be simple and interesting, so I dove into this world out of curiosity.

"You auditioned as part of the experience and it changed your life."

I had a simple feeling about the audition, thinking, "I get to go to Tokyo, it's like a trip, it's going to be fun 💛." That's why I was really surprised when I passed. More than anything, my mother was happy. My mother's a huge fan of Hasegawa Jun-san, so when I told her about the ViVi audition, she was excited and said, "I think Erica will definitely become a ViVi model!" and I think she was more excited than I was when I passed. I was also happy to win the Grand Prix, but it was memorable to see how the many people around me, including my family and grandparents, were happy for me.

"Was there ever a moment during an audition when you thought you'd be accepted?"

Not at all. For the second round of selection, we were allowed to wear casual clothes, but I was told by my agency to "wear a white T shirt and shorts!" and I went to the venue as instructed, but everyone there was very fashionable. I thought, "Ah, I look completely out of place. This is the end." But, on the other hand, I think I stood out (laughs). Until the end, it never once crossed my mind that, "Maybe I'll be accepted?!" I felt like I'd just be lucky if I made it to the final round.

"The final selection was on the runway at the "Girls Award." Were you nervous about walking in front of an audience?"

To be honest, at the time I had no idea how enormous the "Girls Award" was. I was nervous, but I didn't really feel like I was standing on a big stage. It felt like, "There are so many famous people here!" If I failed here, I wouldn't have been able to study for entrance exams, and I wouldn't know what to do about going on to college.

"Tell us how you felt when you passed!"

Simply put, I was shocked. I received a bouquet of flowers from Yamashita Tomohisa-san and thought, "Ah, so this is Tokyo. I'm standing in the same place as a celebrity." I think I was rather calm.

"When did you finally realize that you had become a model?"

I commuted from Fukushima during high school, but at first I didn't get much work, and I guess I didn't really feel like a model. During my first year in college, I was so focused on my schoolwork to earn credits that I had very few jobs outside of ViVi. Toward the end of my first year, the amount of work gradually expanded, and I felt that my modeling work was becoming more and more fulfilling.

-Balancing schoolwork and being a ViVi model. My friends were there to help me get through it-

"Did you decide not to apply for college after being accepted as a ViVi model?"

I had always wanted to go to college, and I thought it'd be more fun to try different things and absorb different things than to follow one path. Since I suddenly became a model, I think I had the sense that college was my base, and I just happened to be lucky enough to be able to model. Since the path of modeling is a narrow one, I was determined to try to find a job if I were to stop modeling. I went on to study business administration at a science college, and what I studied has led me to where I am today, and as a result, many things have turned out well. The biggest change since becoming a ViVi model is that it's become easier to try new things. I think I've become more willing to try anything and everything without being afraid.

"Was it difficult to balance college with your career?"

In my first and second year, I prioritized my studies, and I didn't feel like I was doing that much work, so it wasn't hard. I was also living on my own for the first time and enjoying college life. In fact, I even talked to my agency about wanting to work more. But, it wasn't easy getting work, so I was prepared to do my best for when the opportunity arose. Around the beginning of my second year, I started taking more online classes due to the covid pandemic, which led to more jobs outside of ViVi, so I started to enjoy modeling more. Since that time, I've been trying my hand at acting during long vacations. The end of my fourth year (second semester) was honestly a tough time for me because I was balancing modeling, acting, and schoolwork. However, I think I was able to overcome these challenges due to having friendly competition with my college friends.

"What inspired you to start acting?"

It all started when I was asked if I wanted to audition for the drama "Black Cinderella." Everything was new to me, so I didn't know right from left, and it all happened so fast~. I did the best I could everyday, and afterwards I'd feel like I was burnt out. My first acting job was a bigger role than I expected, and the pressure was also intense. I had to memorize my lines and act. I started it casually, wanting to take on a new challenge, but it was harder than I imagined. I felt so tense for so long, that when the drama ended and I went to a ViVi photo shoot, I couldn't help but cry because I felt so relieved. I think I was able to overcome a large part of it because I was blessed with the right people. I'm still good friends with the Black Cinderella members, and my connection with its staff led me to my current job with King-Ohger. I'd like to help others someday myself, but I can't afford to do so yet. I'd like to return the favor someday.

"Did Black Cinderella inspire you to become an actor?"

Honestly, I felt I had to work harder because I couldn't do anything. I didn't have anything in mind for my next project, but I started attending private lessons that I found on my own, preparing for the day that would someday come.

-If I'm going to do the same thing for a year, I want to spend a year different from the one before. With this in mind, I challenged myself to Super Sentai-

"Erica's popularity has grown dramatically with King-Ohger, but how did it feel to take on the challenge of joining Super Sentai?"

When I was in my fourth year of college, I was asked to audition. But, to be honest, I wasn't sure if I'd accept the role at first. It isn't often you get approached for an offer for Super Sentai, so I think it was fate that I was asked. However, I talked to my parents about what to do since it was too different from the career I had been doing up to that point. At that time, my parents told me that I had once said, "If I'm going to do the same thing for a year, I want to spend a year different from the one before." I had forgotten those words, but when I heard them, I thought that was the way I wanted to live my life, so I made the decision to take it.

"What worried you the most?"

Honestly, Super Sentai has a tighter schedule than regular dramas, and you have to focus on your role for a year and a half, so I was worried that I wouldn't be able to work as a model. I thought that if I left for a year and a half, alot of new kids would come in during that time, and that once I went, I might not be able to come back. As you can imagine, I was hardly able to shoot for ViVi when filming for Super Sentai began. The number of projects decreased all at once, and there were months where I had no shoots at all, which made me feel very lonely. I couldn't wait to appear in ViVi.

"That was the most difficult time for you to balance both."

When the number of projects decreased, I wondered if ViVi no longer needed me. I wanted to spend more time modeling, but I also had to make sure I was doing my acting work, so I was really stressed out. I wanted to make ViVi my top priority in the past and still do. But, I didn't want to give up the acting career that I've secured. I was conflicted and thought, "I want to do both!" Moreover, I also had to give up modeling to take on Super Sentai, but my acting wasn't perfect, and it was really hard to keep up with everyone. I was also writing my college thesis at that time, so I was full of energy both physically and mentally. In my spare time between filming, I communicated with my professor and worked with all my might to finish my thesis.

"If you had to give yourself a score as an actor, what would it be?"

It'd still be a minus. However, I think it's a huge plus in my life. My values ​​have changed in alot of ways. At first, I thought I was a model and not suited for acting, but recently, I've come around to where I think acting might be kind of fun.

"What did you gain from working hard in modeling, schoolwork, and acting?"

It all comes down to experience and time, doesn't it? In both modeling and acting, you learn by doing things over and over again, so in that sense, I think the past year and a half has been really important. I tried to pick up everything I could, and absorbed lots of different things. Also, by trying to do many things and working hard, I don't focus too much on one thing, so I don't have to think about unnecessary things. Besides, people I've worked with in the past say they want to work with me again. In the entertainment world, you don't have a job unless someone needs you, so I feel like I'm able to work thanks to people like that. All of my work comes about through fortunate connections, so I want to cherish each and every one of those connections.

-Modeling and acting, I want to do it all. That's because I love it all!-

Please give a message for those who are struggling to balance multiple things they want to do!

If you have alot of things you want to do right now, I think it's okay to try doing both. Of course, there'll be hardships, but sometimes you'll find help from places you least expect. It's important to have goals in life, as it'd be a waste to spend time doing nothing. In my case, both modeling and my acting jobs have had a big impact on my private life. I feel that we can learn alot about how to live from our work.

"From now on, you'll work hard to balance being both a model and an actor."

Currently, I really enjoy working as a model as I did before. It's like I'm back 💛. I've had very little time off this year, but it's been so fulfilling that I don't find it tiring at all. I think it's best to have a job while you still can. Some models focus on acting, but I want to keep being a model and actor at the same time because I love it all. I love ViVi, and I'd like to increase what I can do based on that, and give back to ViVi what I've gained in other fields. Some people leave a group or graduate from a magazine to take the next step, but I think it's good to try a variety of things while staying in the same place, and I think studying and trying different things at the same time, rather than just one thing, fits my way of life.

"Since overcoming the challenges of balancing studies and a job, has your attitude toward work changed?"

In the past, I used to think that I had to be cool or be nice to get a job, but now I think I've become able to prioritize being myself. Even with ViVi, I used to follow the backs of my seniors, but before I knew it, I became a senior myself, and I felt I had to stand tall. Sometimes I think I need to be more firm with my juniors and show them that I'm good at what I do. However, I think it'd be better to be friendly and expose my faults, because then people would talk to me openly. Of course I do it when I need to, but I think that maybe it's more like me not to try too hard. I can't "graduate" when I haven't done anything yet. I feel like I want to be spoiled even more.

"What kind of place is ViVi to Erica?"

ViVi has a very strong sense of camaraderie, and I feel like we all look out for each other and help each other improve. ViVi is my home, my family, and a place that inspires me. Modeling is also where my roots are, so I'd like to challenge myself to various things without losing sight of my role as a model.

[tuituipupu]

i'm having such an emotional time lately so i'm gonna be candid for a minute (i'm ok dw just feeling a lot h hh)

though everything feels heavy atm, i can at least feel happy in recognition that when i look back - i certainly have come a long way.

i've always thought i didn't care what people thought of me or my interests (but i think truthfully, everyone does deep down - even if it's just a small bit)

my old blog was SO PRECISELY curated to a tea that i would rb things in a certain order. to keep an aesthetic. and i hated it. it felt like prison (and this place of all online spaces is meant to be free - at least free of judgement!) i deleted that blog a couple of years ago.

now i post whatever i want when the impulse hits me.

i felt like there were lots of aspects of my interests that defied each other too strongly. but human beings are complex. and we can like different things at once (and post about them!)

and i think this is a big problem with aesthetic culture (and don't get me started on core culture on tiktok) i've always loathed it. like you have to tick certain boxes in fashion and culture and lifestyle to be an acceptable being and true to a community.

i'm really grateful for artists like käärijä or more recently, chappell roan. not only for their music ofc, but where many find a relatability in kä for his body positivity, he rly helped me accept the side of myself that is sexual. i always felt like i've buried this part of myself and felt shame and embarrassment. i even feel awkward talking about this now and a bit silly, but idk if some people might be able to relate and if so, i'd be interested to see if anyone shares similar experiences?

i feel like it's ok and above all safe to express myself sexually. i think it comes with being a woman for me, just feeling watched and exploited all the time. which makes me in turn feel awkward to express my sexual needs or desires. or talk about anything sexual. but where käärijä is so free in talking about these things or performing in a way that includes sexual elements, i feel free and like yes. this is normal and human and ok. a lot of people feel this way.

and with chappell roan, her drag elements of her makeup and fashion really inspire me and almost mimic harajuku elements to me. i love the over the top rhinestoning. i definitely feel more confident experimenting in makeup and wearing things i want to wear or have been scared to pair together.

idk i guess it comes with growing up and i'm still very young. but i guess it feels like for me, its taken me a while to get to this point. i know in reality my peers probably have their own battles but ig i don't see them and maybe deep down i almost feel like the odd one out and just idk... awkward?

idk it just feels better to write this now. when you realise things that have maybe been bothering you in the background of your mind and then it suddenly clicks into place.

[strawberry-s0ap]

❀✿＊* favourite media ❀✿＊*

i’ve had a few asks about it, so i thought i’d make a post with some of my favourite media! please note that this doesn’t mean i don’t make content for other media!! these are just some of my favourites and i’d be really happy to get requests for any of them :)

ones in bold are my very favourites!

❀ pokemon

❀ yokai watch

❀ super mario (this includes paper mario, mario rpgs and most other spinoffs. if it has mario in it, i have probably played it)

❀ nintendo in general

❀ nanbaka

❀ ace attorney (including tgaac, aai ect)

❀ the dinoverse games (vtsom, twdak ect)

❀ vocaloid/utauloid

❀ sailor moon

❀ magical girl anime in general

❀ mlp (mostly fim, including equestria girls)

❀ silent hill

❀ dhmis

❀ jojos bizzare adventure

❀ lucky star

❀ moriarty the patriot

❀ junji ito manga

❀ the magnus archives

❀ kirby

❀ undertale/deltarune

❀ stellar firma

❀ the devil is a part timer

❀ sanrio

❀ faith:the unholy trinity

❀ the royal tutor

❀ the disastrous life of saiki k

❀ stardew valley

❀ animal crossing

❀ potion permit

❀ lacey games

❀ style boutique/ style savvy

❀ doki doki literature club

❀ hunter x hunter

❀ obey me

❀ scott pilgrim vs the world (mostly the comics)

❀ how to train your dragon (books, i’ve not seen the movies)

❀ hades game

❀ cowboy bebop

❀ death note

❀ the stanley parable

❀ care bears

❀ studio ghibli

other interests -

❀ the ocean and marine biology

❀ video games

❀ sylvanian families

❀ dolls/doll customising

❀ fashion (lolita, ouji, gyaru, j-fashion/harajuku in general and goth especially!)

❀ drag

❀ horror

❀ baking

❀ music (metal, nu metal, glam rock and occult rock are some of my fav genres!)

if you have any requests for any of these things i would love to hear them!

[ferns-island]

Crawls out of hole

Welcome everyone to the new year! and how do I start it? by dragging out an art piece I've had in the works since 2021! For those of you who may not know this is based of an animated series called Artiswitch. Its free to watch on youtube and was made as a collaboration between Sunrise and the Japanese talent agency AsobiSystem. Its a lovely series that deserves more love and is a whole love letter to Harajuku art, fashion, and music.

If you have time you should check it out! Giga does the song for the first episode.

excuse me while i attempt to get my art work schedule back in order

[hey-khara]

Hi there! I'm finding that life is boring and I have no friends to count on, so I'm looking to find fellow mutuals and make friends. I love the following:

Overwatch

Arts & Crafts

Academia (philosophy, science, psychology)

Creative Writing

Witchcraft & Spirituality

Animals

Alternative and/or Harajuku Fashion

Being a ditzy dipshit

Weed/420

True Crime

You can also follow me if you experience the following:

Cluster A + B personality disorders (Cluster C welcome, but may not find me relatable)

Traumagenic OSDD/DID systems (my doc says I could have this so)

Queer, lgbtq+, polyamorous, and/or perform in drag shows

Being neurodivergent

A dark sense of humor because of your mental illness

Chronic illnesses (autoimmune disorders)

[jovialplayground]

hello !! can I please request head cannons of some of the Jovial Playground staff ? particularly Lacustrine and Eidolon ? if not that’s okay ! ^^

p.s. I love your blog ! so fun !

Omg, I didn't know how to check my inbox till now, so yes I'll answer this !!!

My Jovial Playground Character Headcannons!

Plum: Uses hair rollers at night to get their hair extra fluffy in the morning | Has a lot of fashion magazines including harajuku fashion | A really good latte artist | Showed Aubade drag fashion and sucked him into it, sometimes tries makeup on him in the style

Scrith: Nail biter | Wears as little clothing as possible because she gets overheated easily | Enjoys when Plum brushes her hair, will play her tomagachi while they brush it or do her hair for a while! | Mumbles when she talks because of her self consciousness

Lacustrine: Hates the sound of kids crying | Watches alot of old artsy french films, Plum is confused by it, but Lacy says "You wouldn't understand..." (Pretentious) | Likes dark black strong coffee | High maintenance, takes at least an hour in the shower and always does their nails nice

Eidolon: Hates eye contact, will always look away if speaking to someone | Very soft and fluffy hair | Uses fingers as fork sometimes cause they cant find one | Smells like warm sun and dirt (the good dirt smell) | The kids are curious about him since he only shows up at night, so they leave notes for him to find and he's kept every one

Illusia: Squishes bugs whenever they can and enjoys hearing the crunch | Whenever Eidolon is sad, will sit next to him and lay their head on his shoulder for company | Secretly uses a night light to go to bed | Can't swim | When they get angry they grit their teeth and stop breathing till their face goes red, or just cuss a lot | Yells at inanimate objects when they bump into them

Aubade: Takes Plum and Scrith fishing every weekend | Loves tuna sandwiches | Has Plum help shave when he starts growing a beard, hes embarrassed by it! | Usually lets it grow out when a Jov dies though :( | Hums and whistles to himself alot | Gets bored doing paperwork so he wanders and finds his workers to talk to, procrastinator

Okay those are the ones I can think of off the top of my head!! Hehe that was fun thanks for the ask and im so sorry for replying so late!!

[pa-stella]

This was requested by the lovely @ssubby ! I hope this will help you recovering faster from you widsom tooth removal!

(gif almost unrelated) Title: Befriending Fandom: Hypnosis Mic Characters: Ramuda and Jyushi Prompt: "Your style is just so cool." Content: Ramuda’s cute way of speaking

“Hey, hey, hey! What is this little bat doing in Harajuku?” 

A known sugary high-pitched voice made Jyushi almost choke on his crepe. He had taken a day trip to Tokyo to visit a famous idol’s personal exhibition and, since he had booked the train to go back to Nagoya late in the night, he had decided to spend the entire afternoon shopping and enjoying the vitality of Omotesando. What were the chances of him running into Fling Posse’s Ramuda that day?

“Ah… Amemura-san.” He lowered his head a little in respect.

“No need to be so formal, Jyushi-kun! We’re friends, aren’t we?” The short man winked and Jyushi looked at him in confusion. Friends?

“Oh, do you know him?”

“He’s cute!”

The visual kei singer noticed at that moment that there were other people with Ramuda. One looked like a photographer. The other was a young woman dressed in a frilly dress.

“Isn’t he a rapper too?” The woman asked curiously. “From the Nagoya Division?"

“Hatsuko-chan, you’re right! We’re basically besties!”

“Uh… wha-” Jyushi tried to speak again but Hatsuko interrupted him.

“He’s very beautiful and has a nice figure. Maybe we can ask him…”

“That’s exactly what I was thinking!” Ramuda nodded and hugged Jyushi’s arm. “Will you do it, Jyushi-kun?”

“Do… what?” 

“Ah, of course you don’t know!” He giggled and pointed to the woman. “Hatsuko-chan is a fashion blogger and we collaborated to create a few clothes. We are now looking for random people to take pics in them!”

“Oh.” Jyushi tilted his head. “I don’t think I’m the right person…”

“Nonsense, nonsense!” Ramuda took his colorful phone out of his pocket to search for 14thMoon’s instagram. “You have many followers and like the attention! Plus, your style is just so cool! You’re perfect for our creations!”

P-Perfect? “Do you really think my style is cool?” 

“I’m one-hundred-percent honest!” The designer nodded before getting closer to him to whisper a few words. “That girl wanted me to take pics of way more famous guys, but they lacked a true personal style. I’d really prefer if you were the one to wear my clothes!”

Jyushi didn’t have the time to reply to that because Ramuda and Hatsuko dragged him into a nearby small shop. They showed him a few garments and accessories until Ramuda chose for him a lavender leather jacket with star shaped details. When he tried it one, he had to admit it was equally beautiful and comfortable. 

“Wow 𓂅☆ Jyushi-kun, you look gorgeous! Even better than what I had imagined!” 

Hatsuko agreed with the designer. “Now we just need to adjust the make-up and hair…”

In a vortex of compliments and praisings, Jyushi let them do whatever they wanted with him. He knew he shouldn’t trust his enemy, but he was actually having fun.

In his heart he just hoped Kuko wouldn’t kill him once back in Nagoya.

[kayssweetdreams]

A Wonderous Christmas Ch 2

Meanwhile, at the Timeville Mall...

Mei and Rebecca weaved and dove through the crowds of people in the middle of the holiday rush as they looked for their friends "Where did Leo say that they were?" Mei asked over the crowds "Near NeonTropolis!" Rebecca yelled back. The group of friends had agreed to meet in the mall so that they could find the perfect present for everyone. Although, the crowds were large, the two girls could spot Leo and Emma near the storefront.

"Mei! Rebecca!" Emma shouted, waving to the two of them as soon as she spotted them. "Leo! Emma!" Mei cheered, she and Rebecca finally meeting up with them. "There you guys are! Where's Kaylo and Trisha Jane?" Rebecca asked. "Trisha Jane's almost here, and so is Kaylo." Leo said, adjusting his scarf.

Just then, the unmistakable flash of pink hair was seen, along with Trisha Jane's voice calling out for the group "We're over here!" Mei yelled out, making the pink hair get closer to them. The children smiled as their two friends got closer. "Hey guys!" Trisha Jane said cheerfully as Kaylo flashed her own smile.

"Ready to go shopping?" The pink haired girl asked, holding out a rolled up paper from her bag. Mei gave a chuckle "Easy tiger, we need to know what we're getting first." Mei reminded "I know what I'm getting! I always make a list, and I check it twice!" Kaylo said "What next, you're gonna see who's naughty or nice?" Leo joked. The kids gave a chuckle at Leo's quip before they all began wandering the various shops.

The children's eyes all darted at the items in the shops and stores looking for the perfect present for those they love. However, this didn't mean that the all got somewhat sidetracked at times. Leo had to pry his eyes away at a new music player, while Emma's gaze followed the twinkling of brand new earrings in a window. Mei almost was tempted by a beautiful new Qipao, and Rebecca's money was almost used for a brand new art kit. Trisha Jane resisted the temptation of a brand new science kit, before the kids had to drag Kaylo out by her ankles, when she spotted a new Lolita outfit in a window.

After a few hours, the group decided to take a break at the food court. Mei and Emma took a look at the list the Kaylo had been carrying around, and were shocked to see all the stuff she wanted to buy for her family. The pink haired girl simply shrugged and said "I do have a big family." Leo sighed as he took a bite of his burger "I wish it was that easy for me..." He moped. Emma raised an eyebrow "What do you mean Leo?" She asked.

Leo looked down "It's not that easy, My mom is great, and it's not like we have a humongous family like Kaylo's...but I want to get her something PERFECT. Like that one present that she'll treasure forever..." He admitted. Trisha Jane gave him a knowing look "Well, I'm sure that you'll find it. Maybe you're just looking in the wrong place." She suggested.

"We can always go search downtown!" Emma suggested "I suppose so, since I haven't found anything for my dad yet." She added "Alright, As soon as we...where's Kaylo?" Mei asked, noticing that the pink haired girl was gone "Hang on! I'm coming!!" Kaylo's voice said. The kids then saw her, at least her legs, as her body and head was behind a mountain of presents, packages and boxes.

"They had a few things that my cousin and aunties wanted! So I just had gotten them real quickly! And I had seen some piano cleaner my dad wanted, so I grabbed those too!" She said. Rebecca looked up at the mountain of boxes "Erm...Kaylo? How are you going to get these boxes back to your house? Or even out the door?" She asked.

"I had a feeling that this would happen, so I called in a little help!" She said, the honking of a horn is heard as a car pulls up outside the Mall "You guys go ahead! I'll catch up!" Kaylo strained from the box mountain. "Meet us near Harajuku Isle! That's when we'll start looking again!" Mei said.

"Got It!" The pink haired girl replied before she slowly trekked to the door, hoping to not drop anything. "Oh goodness, do you need any help?" A voice asked. Kaylo turned around to see Sana and Iben shopping as well. "Hi Sana, Hey Iben, I'm good! I've got it!" She reassured, still slowly walking towards the door. Suddenly, the weight of the presents got lighter as she saw Sana taking some of the packages off of the mountain of gifts.

"Maybe I should have gotten a little help huh..." she said, a red blush appearing on her face as the two adults helped her to the door.

Meanwhile, Somewhere else in Timeville

While most of the town was excited for the holidays to roll around, The Keller family were...let's just say less than enthusiastic. Especially towards the Bruno family...Walt Keller was hanging up an ornament that had a small voodoo doll version of Stefan Bruno, who was getting eaten by pirhanas. "I hate that family. I hate them SO much." He grumbled.

Walt's wife Wilma walked in, Holding a mug of spiked hot chocolate cocoa "Oh quit thinking about them Walt. Maybe later on we can throw some snowballs and knock Stefan and his wife off the roof." She said, hoping to cheer her husband up.

Walt however brushed her off "It's not that. I know for a fact that every year, when they help around town for the festivities. They always have a touch of Wonderworld Magic. Be it during the lightning of the tree, or the Light Parade. There is ALWAYS a touch of magic to them. Their direct connection to Mirabella, and Wonderworld...and yet. Everyone thinks that I'm nuts." He grumbled.

Wilma narrowed her eyes and shrugged "Well what do you expect, You've been stalking them so much that I'm surprised that they don't have a restraining order for you yet." She reminded. Walt didn't respond, but instead, a cocky, and unsettling smile grew on his face "Yeah, We'll that's not gonna happen this year. Because this year. I'm FINALLY gonna expose Wonderworld, AND get make this miserable town BOW to me!!" He yelled maniacally, holding what looked to be a snowflake, and a old, tearing parchment that read "Winter of Woe"...

Mei belongs to @sundove88

Rebecca belongs to @thehypercutstudios/@thehyperrequiem

Trisha Jane and the Kellers belong to @lovelyteng

[sugar-and-pearls]

Does anyone ever sit down and start to think about all the crazy stuff you would do with your f/os? I think I think about all the time

I can feel the pounding of my heart as I hurriedly search for Eren in the scouts wagons before they head out past the Walls, the rough tug of his clothes as I half drag/ half carry him away by the scuff of his neck from another fight. We’re so different and yet so alike; Where I bite my tongue, Eren will react to the slightest perceived injustice. We I will try and think things though, Eren will dive in head first. Though I must admit he’s getting better at thinking things out. 

Despite this we don’t argue too much, only really when it comes to big things like when he joined the army or when he went to Marley. We also have vastly different views on forgiveness and on what is best for Paradis.

I can feel the ice cold hugs that cool my skin and the wind that fly past us as we racing each other, feel the snowflakes that brush against my fingers as they fall out of his hair when I ruffle it.  Sneaking into Santa’s workshop is a common past time but always getting caught. We never make it pass the guards but we have a lot of fun trying.

Jack is a creature of forced solitude, he thrives in the company of others and even though I have been able to see him for most of my life - he’s still not used to someone noticing him and so often afraid that there will come a day where even I stop seeing him.

I can smell the thick cigar smoke as it swirls around the room, can see the glint of a blade and hear the clang of metal as it sails through the air before being deeply imbedded within the mahogany floor, hear the voice that calls “dirty pool old man”

Since the moment I stepped foot into the Addams mansion Gomez teaches me things. Sword play,  knife throwing, juggling - the works. He brings a joy and zeal to life that you just don’t see in people, all with a grin on his face and a cigar in hand. But the proudest grin always appear when I call him “Dad”

I can feel the cool silk of a kimonos Himemiko dresses me up in as she slides them up my arms. The vibrancy of her wardrobe always surprises me. All the pinks, blues and greens. She is a much smaller size than me she most of her stuff doesn't fit but there is a kimono in the back that is too big for her that Himemiko loves to dress me up in.

The feeling of my feet hurting after hours of dragging each other all around Harajuku, cold rush of the water as we swim in her swamp together. We love to go under the waves and blowing bubbles at each other.

[glamoureddreamer]

Hiya ♡⸝⸝

Im here to request two matchups!

I would like to request a matchup from Spooky Month and Eddsworld

Sorry if I have to much information in this I kinda got carried away ^^’

Here’s the rundown of me:

- Starting with the basics I prefer to go by she/her pronouns and I am a bisexual who is open to being in poly relationships

- My personality type is infp and I’m a capricorn sagittarius cusp

- Im Hispanic and I have some chub and am also smaller then average (I’m 4’11)

- I smell like strawberry pound cake 24/7 because I am in love with it (this is not sponsored by bath and body works I swear TT)

-I like pink an unhealthy amount

More in-depth look into my personality:

An introvert who has the skills to socialize but doesn’t use them cause they have a low battery when it comes to interacting with others. I’m rather dramatic or eccentric when speaking to those I feel more comfortable around but to others I look like I’m constantly annoyed due to my natural resting bitch face- if anyone does desire to talk to me though I am rather nice and lively in conversations! (Might just be confused why you’re talking to me though)

I am very in tune with others around me or someone that I know and can tell most of the time how they feel just by looking at them.

Affectionate (in my own way) and talkative are two words I would describe myself in any relationship (platonic or romantic)

Side note; I do struggle with clinic depression, anxiety, along with ADHD as well

Small quirks about me:

- I curse often

- Mainly active at night

- I am generally louder then most others

- I like to give people nicknames so I can remember them easier

- I mostly talk in all caps over text most of the time

- I threaten and be mean to people in a loving way/ out of love (goes for friendship and probably a relationship if I know they can handle it)

- I like my alone time

The bad about me:

I self isolate myself a lot from others and am generally bad at keeping communication with someone even if I like them or consider them a friend.

Low self esteem is something I struggle with and the biggest factor behind it being I don’t consider myself good enough.

Even though I am rather ambitious in life and want to do a lot of things but my depression drags me down for having any motivation to do them- which just leads to me doing nothing.

I tend to overthinking a lot

I have a very pessimistic and cynical way of thinking but it doesn’t come out much

Interest and hobbies:

There isn’t a lot I do in terms of hobbies but I do like to draw! Small doodles are usually my go to but I am trying to get better at anatomy so I am practicing that

I like to read aswell (manga, comics, and books in general) but I don’t think that’s a really interesting hobby

Singing is another thing I enjoy doing and I’m hoping to do something more with my voice in the future!

I really want to take on more hobbies in the future so I can actually do something in my free time TT

My interests are harajuku fashion, Sanrio, animation, stationary, picrew, baking, anything cute, nail art, plushies, cats, anything pink, calming video games, selfcare, dresses, singing, abandoned places, coloring, anime, makeup, history, witchcraft, learning more about myself, dark media, magical girls, writing, cafes, shopping, and flowers

Here are some of my kins if that can help you! ˊᗜˋ

Toast (Bee and Puppycat)

Sayaka Miki (Madoka Magica)

Vanellope Von Schweetz (Wreck it Ralph)

Mabel Pines (Gravity Falls)

Karen (Mean Girls)

I hope you still enjoy despite the minor inconvenience this was really fun to write! Thank you for the request

For Eddsworld I match you with EDD!

Edd is the type of man to love you no matter what shape/size you are he thinks you are perfect just the way you are. He doesn’t mind that you are bisexual he’s definitely not straight himself (e.g. him calling Tom hot). He will joke with you about your height though- in a playful way. If you are insecure or you start to get upset he will stop it immediately with lots of apologies.

While doesn’t completely understand why you run out of social battery he does know that it’s emotionally overwhelming so he would take you to your comfort place and make sure you have everything you need to recharge- if you want him to stay there he would be more than willing to cuddle you and just hang out doing whatever you want, but if you want alone time he also completely understands and leaves you alone (of course checking in on you every 10 minutes). Edd would be extremely happy and honored when you are dramatic around him, the thought of you being yourself around him because you trust him makes him very happy. Edd fully understands that just because you have an RBF doesn’t always mean you are mad (thanks to Tom).

Edd is also the time of man to hold you tightly during the days when everything is too much, he’d whisper sweet nothings into your ear and words of affirmation as a way of comfort. He’d also get you anything you’d like! You need candies? You bet. Need another drink? He’s already on it! He cares a lot for you and your mental health. Edd is a kind individual and definitely has his own type of humor and form of love (both platonic and romantic) Edd is rude to his friends but always cares about them in the end.

Prepare for a lot of teasing if you pick on him he’s going to do it back, but like stated before if you actually get upset he apologizes and stops. Edd wouldn’t understand at first why you are not talking to him and so you’ll probably have to explain it to him.

At that point, he’d tell you that it’s okay and that you don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. He will totally! And I mean totally draw you often, especially if you have low self-esteem about your body, and if it’s about you and your personality he’ll leave sticky notes all over the place with small words of affirmation or sweet little reminders like “you are more than good enough” “there’s always a bright side” “I love you more than anything” living with him will totally help with your motivation. He won’t allow you to sit around all day if you wanted to do something the day before he’s taking you to do it. But he does understand that sometimes you need a day off and will take that day off with you to cuddle and relax.

I think you two would totally bond over drawing and if you want to get better he will be more than happy to help you! He will totally listen to you sing! If you love it he’ll take interest in it, even if it’s just you talking about it. The same with reading he’ll constantly ask what you are reading and what it’s about.

Yes- you two will totally bond over animation, baking, cats, and coloring he loves and lives for anything to do art and crafts. If you bake he totally is trying everything or asking you to make him things. If you don’t bake he finds a baking book and plans dates where you to can try together.

Will let you try makeup and nail art on him but nothing too over the top. Will love to take you shopping for clothes, he loves to watch you come out of the changing rooms with a big smile on your face when you find something you love!

Overall I think he would be your perfect match because he is very kind and caring but is also playful/childish and loud. You two will never run out of things to do with each other. Edd will always take joy in the things you do and will always be willing to try things for or with you!

[alexin-wonderlust]

Day Eleven - Tokyo

17th November 2022

How much Tokyo can we do in 3 days -- LETS GO!

Today is Ikebukuro -- first off, breakfast. We found some cute pastries, but also wanted McDonalds... Surprisingly -- some of the best Maccas Ive had in the longest time. Ben had the "World Cup Burger" and I had a Chicken Teriyaki burger and a strawberry and white chocolate pastry... OMG YUM. So good.

Next up to Sunshine City -- we are going to a Planetarium. There are about 5 (?) planetariums in Tokyo and some of them have cafe's and show movies, and we really just wanted to experience one. They're not super expensive and are a cute way to spend some time. We watched a documentary about space and the Earth -- it was in Japanese but, it had lovely music and amazing visuals. It gave us a chance to relax before our day really kicked off. We went to the Food Hall and looked at the over priced and fancy groceries, grabbed snacks -- of course. I went to the Evangelion Store and spent a small fortune, then NEXT -- to Harajuku.

There was a lot of construction happening along Takeshita Street so we didn't spend long in Harajuku -- but we did get the candied strawberries again (the ones in Arashiyama were better!) and went to Harajuku Zoo -- a petting zoo with small animals like meerkats, ferrets and apparently a capybara (I didn't see him!). They were cute and stinky! They seemed to be looked after well enough, but the monkey there wasn't having a good time. :(

As we were walking back to the station we were looking in the P's First shop (Petshop) and the girl was getting sassy with us for being tourists -- a guy was walking 16 dogs at one time! So cute! SO MANY FLOOFERS!

Apparently I haven't tortured Ben's feet enough today -- so our next stop is Shibuya, and we walked. It's honestly quicker than the train at 6pm, and its a nice walk. On the look out for food always, we walked past some interesting spots to check out later... but we are going to the Nintendo Store before they close.

The Nintendo Store is part of the Shibuya Parco and its on the same level as the Pokemon Centre, as well as some other nerdy shops like Capcom and some Anime brands I don't know. The Animal Crossing merch was my favourite -- I almost cried when I saw you could buy the floor mat, the slippers, hat, shirt, fan... all the Nook branded items from Animal Crossing New Horizons. That game was so much to me during 2020 lockdown and recovery.

There was a huge line to check out, and Ben went and sussed the food options on other floors while I waited in line. We tried a ramen that claimed it was Tonkatsu, but it DEFINITELY had fish in it and it was not good. Even I couldn't stand it. Ah well. One failed meal! Not too bad?

Downstairs there was another area with bars and izakaya type places with some finger foods. We had some olives with bread and an amazing yuzu olive oil and some cocktails. Then we went somewhere else for sake tasting -- then I managed to convince Ben to go to a Drag Bar where there was a Japanese Drag Queen! It was amazing. Back to the hotel and I relised, we still hadn't really eaten much since breakfast... I got Ben to find another ramen restaurant close to us and we managed to find an absolute WINNER. The pickled ginger was crunchy, like nothing I have ever eaten before... the Melon Soda was huge. Bigger than a pint glass -- and the ramen. So good.

Ben was happy!

IG Post: "Day Ten: Ikebukuro, Harajuku, Shibuya

Now, no judgement on the maccas first up. It was actually really good! I love getting McDonald’s in foreign countries.. the menu is always different and it was amazing. I had a Teriyaki Chicken Burger with a white chocolate and strawberry pastry thing… it was AMAZING. 🥰

The rest of the day we snacked… then we were starving and tried to find some food. Ramen? It wasn’t good. I left it out of the photos. So instead we got snacks and got drunk on sake. 🍶

When Ben was still hungry, it was late night ramen adventure and we found a winner. It was so yum!"

"First full day in Tokyo so we are heading to the big ones first. Starting with Ikebukuro to the Planetarium— no photos though. It was a nice, relaxing movie about Earth and how things work. (In Japanese…) but the music was nice and the visuals were awesome.

After, we went shopping, ended up in Harajuku and visited an animal cafe and I got to hang out with a furry noodle and a meerkat, who was very lovely.

The new Pokémon game is coming out tomorrow, so I made the genius decision to go to the Nintendo store today; before it gets mental. The Nintendo store is awesome. I cried… you’ll have to wait for my vlog 😂

After, we tried to find some food… but being that both Ben and I aren’t fish eaters… it gets tricky. The ramen we settled on definitely had some sort of fish in it and we couldn’t finish it. So we just got drunk instead. Found a drag Queen bar and then walked back to Shibuya station to see the crossing and Hachiko. 🐕🥹🙏"

[homoishharajuku]

Yo + HoHoHo Fix Tho: kisses ,mwahahah

Yo Creator Heart’s HOMOISH HARAJUKU!!!!!!!

rawr!!

Do your homework, and you won’t look pathetic tho!! Pity pity.

Awe iPhone on darn hand ,in game tho. 🤳🏾⌚️+🤳🏾⌚️

If you don’t like braggadocio w/ humbleness and party like fun, you won’t like Yo Creator + i’s Music. Super positive fo upping your personality and ideas. The Motto to Our Music is ShoutingOut + Repping God “Yo Creator” and giving credit to Marilyn M + James B (take note, my Play Pops + Moms”)— it is kicky buttish, knowing of Self, power and loving Self, smile and Bragging on and on about Our Life + Body Cards tho, and plus those who We love and dragging those We don’t love! Something Deity/Godly like, fo you to look up tooooooo tho. Shouting Out Your Wifey + Hubby and Kiddos + Friends or gang and crew. Fun, party like euphoric ,and up to par + out of this world Authenticity.Rapping Bars .+ beats= Cartoonish Trap Rap!! Dot + Decoding Jailing, hence the punchlines ,metaphors sentence structure ,play on words ETC , Etc!! it’s Yo Creator + Homoish Harajuku ,w/ all new music ,not using auto tune tho!! Far more of happiness can be stated, but Yo Creator + i leave that up to your imagination tho.

i dot f’s, 🤳🏾🗺️⌚️ follow the rules!! Keep Handing it over, & don’t act like you don’t understand rotfl!!! WE.HEARTY.YOU.THO.

🤳🏾🧁⌚️+🤳🏾🫃🏾⌚️=🤳🏾🎭⌚️x🤳🏾👹⌚️

[benefits1986]

Candied Breakfast, Lunch & Dinner

As a donut seeking peace of mind, we fought a good fight yesterday, I guess.

And soooo, my 4th panganay aka pinsang Gen Z cheered as we rode our Grab kahapon. "Bring your daughter to office day" daw ang it's giving ng Thursday niya sa BGC pa. HAHAHAHAHA. Iyak ang funds at medyo bawas ang limit ng landi budget neto. Alam mo na... priorities.

Syempre, ang lala ng palpitations and overthinking ko kasi 'yung behind the scenes neto, mala-kunin ang ID sa matang-lawin manong guard levels na sumbungero sa nanay kong Taurus, ages ago.

This one should be easy, theoretically. Basic. Pero syempre, bumusina naman ako ng mainam sa abot ng kaya ko at nagbigay ng context sa mga kinuukulan kahit 'yung totoong ako e, okay, I won't explain and not give a damn because, I can and I will. Periodtzzz.

Hindi naman ito first time, kasi 'yung kapatid kong naa-anxiety attack ages ago rin, sinama ko sa pitch, sa OB at kasama sa kotse ng tatay ko sa start up. HAHAHHAHA. Pero noon, wala akong pasabi. Dumating na lang ako sa office ng bitbit ko siya. Syempre, gulat AF si itay at pati ang team ko. Sabi ko, hindi ako puwedeng pumili sa dalawa --family ba or work. Wala po tayong generational wealth, generational trauma lang. CHZ. Niloko ako ng frat boy tatay ko na grabe daw grit ko. Ako naman e, parang gipit, gitgit at gigil level 1000 lang talaga kasi bakit ba naman sa dinami-dami ng oras, ngayon pa ako walang choice kung 'di all of the above kasi nga... 'yun na nga.

I remember umupo pa 'yung kapatid ko sa pitch table kasi stable naman siya. Sedated. So parang naging plus points pa kasi dumami 'yung lean pitch team namin. Hay. Baliw talaga me. Yes po. Opo. Keep up.

Syempre, 'yung mga ka-team ko jaw drop szn sila. Sobrang strict kasi and by the book ng tatay namin hataw na hataw. Sabi ko naman, wala e. Sumubok lang ako at nilaban ko naman, since sanay naman akong matalo lagi.

Pinangaralan pa nung tatay ko at nung officemate ko 'yung kapatid ko. HAHAHAHAHA. Shemay. Probably, one of my longest days and nights since love ko nga mag-work, work, work noon sa isang male-dominated set up with my ultra feminine and unapologetic ways of getting ALL things done. Tabi. I told you, I have scarlet sins.

And sooooo, I dragged my palpitating self to the office yesterday. Sabi nung 4th anak ko, iba rin. 'Yung drip ko raw is giving Harajuku Barbie Baby Girl na dark and deadly. ULOL. Sabi ko naman, since 'di pa ako makakapag-Japan soon, practice OOTD muna ako, saka as a batang ina at 13, dapat our looks should be aligned. Fit check pa kami bago umalis. Tinanong pa ako neto kung puwede daw sa office suot ko. Gago talaga. Sabi ko anong mali sa drip ko. Sabi niya, wala. O e 'di, tapos. Sabi ko, puwede naman kaming mag-stay na lang sa house kung naabala siya ng look ko. More importantly, I follow the dress code and my body, my rules gaming lang talaga ako. Wala akong pake kasi I dress depending on how depressive I am. Happy? Mema din talaga 'to e. Pota. Gen Z --ingrown na may nana talaga ano? Hahahaha.

Sailor Mercury x Ravenclaw lang naman peg ko pero plus size. CHZ. Saka delulu vibes kasi inisip ko na lang potential Kawaii comments 'pag nakapag-Japan na ako ng malala with private onsen sa dojo with tea ceremony and traditional dinner while overlooking Mt. Fuji or something more interesting. AYWAW. :D Ganyan na lang talaga ako mag-overthink para hindi ko damdamin masyado 'yung fucking palpitations ko.

7:05 am kami dumating sa office para may runway akong 'di gaya ng NAIA. LOL. Naging smooth naman ang landing because I can and I did. :D Hahahahahahahhaha. Shemay. Ang aga. Hulas na bait-baitan vibes ko kasi Friday na, at weekend naaaaa naman pala.

Sabi ko sa kanya, 'pag may kumausap sa kanya unless kasama ako, sabihin: Sabi ni Bene, siya raw kausapin mo. LOL. 'Di naman daw siya mag-small talk because her social battery is so low, almost empty. Okay. Good.

Actually, puwede ko naman siyang pakawalan sa concrete jungle ng shithole ng Manila, BGC. Kaso, ayoko ng masyadong maraming variables sa constant silent battles niya. Mahirap na. Darating din kami sa part na 'yan mala-guryon style sa tamang panahon.

9:00 AM nasa standing desk na siya and nakapag-breakfast na. Para lang talaga siyang Tamagochi, kaya ang task niya is to take care of my Tamagochi. Hahahahaha. Tinanong kung puwedeng mag-laptop. Sabi ko, anong gagawin mo dito until lunch? Magmumukmok? Syempre, yes. Nu ba. Baka daw gagamitin ko personal laptop ko. Sabi ko, gusto mo, sa'yo 'tong work laptop ko. Ikaw mag-meeting. Tumigil siya. Dami ko pang need itawid kasi Thursday is fully booked day sa calendar ko among other things pa after the meetings.

Gave her a 32 oz flask of iced water to check her progress sa hydration since I think her pimples are not pimples. Stress-induced allergies na. Pinagsabihan ko pa na baka dahil din sa hair color niya because even her scalp is flaking so badly. UGH. Sabi ko magpa-check up na siya kasi lala 'yun dahil she keeps on agitating her face, ears, neck and the works.

I also had to do 1 meeting sa tabi niya para ma-sure ko anong headspace niya today. Feeling niya na naman kasi hassle 'yung pagsama niya sa office. :D Sabi ko, I got this. Tabi. 'Wag maarte. After the meeting, niloko ko sa kung anong feedback niya. Siya: Ay. Ganyan ka pala sa office. Mabait ang voice. Sweet girl. Sabay tawa. Saka inspiring daw ako and always guiding the team. Me: Bayad kasi 'to kaya malambing ako plus walang sunog at bagyo, this is utopia, for now. CHZ. Deep inside, tawang-tawa ako kasi mga kausap ko rin ay mga tulad niyang Gen Z who are growing their muscles na protein-deficient pa sa ngayon. Went to my desk of the day na kasi 'di ko na kayang mag-ipit ng boses at gigil. HAHAHAHAHHA.

'Yung utak ko, nasa pagtungga na lang ng naiwan kong wine. I like wine best when downed right from the bottle. 'Di nakakabitin. JUSQ. Kaya 'pag uwi nito, back to the ball game, baby. Babawi tayo ng malala. Hahahahahaha. 'Yan din reason why I like drinking alone. I don't like counting glasses, goblets and the like. Hassle. Too much fuss and pretentious. O kanal lang talaga ako and I don't care.

So, lunch time. Ayaw daw niya sa mahal since may allowance siya today. HAY. Pota. Hahahaha. Sige, convenience store galore. I can't decide what to eat. Dapat binaon ko na lang 'yung adobo kaso tinatamad akong bumili ng kanin pero, now, naisip ko lang, may kanin naman sa cafeteria namin. Nakatipid pa sana ako.

Ni-inception ko siya na punta siya sa Mitsukoshi after lunch. Tinuro ko 'yung daan na kita sa window ng office namin. Google maps na lang daw niya. Sabi ko, andami niyang alam. Hahahaha.

This Thursday lunch in BGC may be my most memorable one since kahit ilang subo lang ng bacon na ugh and masyadong matamis na macaroni salad, I saw her laugh one too many times. HUHUHUHU. Partida, may malalang palpitations pa ako niyan. BOOGSH. 'Yung lala ng palpitation, parang mapapa-clinic na ako levels TBH. Pero, sige... itatawid natin. Let's fucking light myself up like Ember. :D

Mahirap magpatawa ang mang-barda since I figured out she is one of my triggers. Lahat na lang, trigger ng sugatan, luhaan, 'di mapakinabangang nilalang. Off the roof po ang ating impostor syndrome na need ko pang check ang spelling rn.

Her effortless laughs and wicked comebacks over lunch naman are my glimmers. OPAK. 'Di ko kinaya 'yun. Alam mo 'yung nakikita kong she does not have social awkwardness, big win sa akin 'yun. Daig pa KPI kong 'di umaayaw. Kasi, 'pag napapatawa mo ng malala ang isang taong may mental health right after the spiral tapos mas malinaw na isip at intention niya, that is... magic.

Mga tanong at comeback pa neto e ang tinde. POTA. Palibhasa June moonchild. TACCA. Ilang beses ba namang tinanong kung sure ba akong ayaw kong magka-anak and family. Sabi ko niraspa ko na DIY mga egg cells and fallopian tubes ko para super duper safe na ang lahat kahit anong mangyari. Saka, I feel like, I can't afford to have another me. Sa kanya pa nga lang, suko na ako e. Paano pa 'pag 'yung sa sinapupunan ko na mismo galing? Anong kababalaghan at kashitan ang bitbit niya sa mundong ibabaw tapos true kasi talaga na, may mga ugali at quirks na manggaling sa sperm donor aka ama ng theoretical bata. E paano na 'yun? Hindi ko gustong alamin. Let's not go there, Satan.

Nung nasa Mitsukoshi na kami since clingy shitballs din 'to saka natuwa siya na in the zone siya sa office for her commissioned works na in fairness, 30K per pop, aba akala mo naman nakawala sa koral. Sabi ko sipat siya ng bet niya since parang maraming anime sadbois (LOLLOLL) naman sa mall kagabi. Sinulimpatan ba naman ako ng mata? Shet. SOOO ME. Sarap ingudngod. In fairness, tinanong ko saan napunta ang hustle funds niya, she plows it back to her biz PLUS syempre her manga obsession.

Dami niyang tili sa Fullybooked e. Tapos iyak na naman funds ko. Hahahaha. 'Yung gusto kong postcard ng Ghibli, from soft pass, naging hard pass. Tapos pinaka bet niya 12K na Bleach boxed set. 'Yan ang dahilan na isa pa why ayokong mag-anak. POTA. Paano na Shein finds 'pag stressed out ako? Mga 3 weeks from now na lang ulit siguro among other things.

Sabi ko, bilhin na niya 'yung 2 books niya after 3 hours of waiting na almost nakatulog na ako sa seat outside the bookstore. TACCA. Ayaw-ayaw pa. Papilit pa. Pero kilig level 10000000 nung inabot sa kanya 'yung haul niya.

Kumain din kami ng hindi mura and hindi masarap na dinner dahil gusto daw niya ma-try ang food court. Sabi ko naman, okay lang kasi 'pag nag-Japan na siya, wala na. Finished na. 'Yung food court kasi ng mall na 'to, parang Starmall Alabang levels. HAHAHHAHA. Wala akong pake kung 35M 'yung presell ng condo kakabit neto. Wala.

I remember nung nialok ako ng condo dito, sabi ko talaga na I have my tiny house na po plus I don't have funds. Thank you. Sinabi nung taga-benta na, okay lang daw basta kunin ko 'yung flyers and leave contact details. JUSQ, mhie. Condo fucking living. So much hassle pero I do get why it works naman lalo for those who can afford it at gusto ng own world nila. Gets ko. Easyhan ko na. Eto na.

Pagod na pagod ako, pero kanina woke up at 4:10 AM this yaya-mayordoma. LOL. Palowbatt na laptop ko, so, let's slay Friday, Saturday and Sinday. Sunday pala. CHZZZ. PS: BL vibes na lang din ang naging baon ko para sa Huwebes. So, share ko na rin dito and nakahanap na rin ako ng BL babies sa team. It's giving... :D Armiiiiiiiiii!!!! Wagas kang tunay. HUHUHUHUHUHUHU. PS: More and more and more hustle and work, work, work, kasi in a parallel universe, gusto ko na bitbitin 'tong 4th anak ko sa Japan tapos alam na ang mga paganaps. Darating din ako diyan. For now, sabakan na duguan muna. Nag-message pa after ng call: ...Don't let it eat you up. Keep me updated. May emojis pa. Yes, emojis. Thank God for my people, my tribe. Thank you, universe.

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I am looking up cyber fashion right now

And I think I finally realize what my nieces mean maybe when they say I do mejo style but not like a particular named style

I just literally cannot stick to a specific style rules unless I'm in costume