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bloodydeanwinchester · 2 years

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can someone please tell me what happened between this scene where it is clearly the middle of the night and dean asks cas where he wants him to take him:

and this scene where it is clearly the next morning and dean is dropping him off at work:

where did they spend the night??? what did they do??? i NEED to know these things...

#i think they spent the night parked somewhere in the impala #and like nothing really happened...cas spread out in the back seat #dean in the front and they just like talked #and eventually they both fell asleep but still the entire thing felt very intimate because #it is the first time they've really spent any time alone together since cas became human #and maybe for once dean felt like castiel wasn't this larger than life unobtainable angel...he's just a human like him now #and castiel is feeling things as a human for the first time and so suddenly his feelings for dean are just so intense #and he's not sure what to do with them #but STILL neither of them has ANY idea that the other is thinking these things #just some rambling thoughts here cause that whole jump from it being night to dean dropping him off in the morning made me so curious!#destiel #jenna.gif #jenna.post

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mumblesplash · 5 months

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man. not really an original thought but i’m always so deeply…annoyed, i guess, by media where there’s a category of instantly recognizable Bad Guys that you’re just meant to accept are Supposed To Die, because they’re Bad and killing them is therefore Good.

obviously more knowledgeable people than me have already pointed out the issues with things like inherently evil fantasy races and that’s an entire problem all on its own. i have nothing useful to add there, i agree that it’s bad. but even aside from that it just pisses me off. i can’t get my head around the appeal, it feels like the least interesting possible way to interact with a fictional world

it’s actually a pretty big part of why i have such a hard time getting into video games, even good ones. i couldn’t get more than ten minutes into playing breath of the wild when a friend let me try it out because i ran into An Enemy i was supposed to fight and it broke the immersion too much for me. why do i have to fight them? am i supposed to want to? why do they attack me? who are they? are they alive? sentient? angry? following orders? whose orders? what are they doing here? i kept asking all the wrong questions and they just kept trying to tell me which buttons to press to attack and eventually i got so frustrated i just quit and handed the controller to someone else

#mumbling #i’m honestly fascinated by the disconnect between the way i think and the way video games seem to expect me to think #feels like i’m missing a whole lobe of my brain or something sometimes #back in england there was one night i spent like 3 hours talking to a bunch of guys just trying to understand what ‘playing lame’ means #(in the context of fighting games)#and i mean fwiw. they did concede that a lot of the time it doesn’t really mean anything #but it’s fun to try to understand #and i think being forced to explain it to someone who probably can’t ever fully Get It was kind of fun for them too #like again. this was for multiple hours and everyone was very enthusiastic about it pretty much the whole time

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procyo9 · 1 year

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reblog to have the big sad™ Raziel on froggy chair™ spin on your blog

#loved working on him so much that i did this speen thingy #hes my toy now :3 #legacy of kain #legacy of kain raziel #legacy of kain soul reaver 2 #lok #lok raziel #soul reaver #lok meme #legacy of kain meme #raziel #animal crossing #froggy chair #nge #nge meme #gif #3d #.obj #it only took me 2 whole nights of rendering (because i made some mistakes first time and had to redo lmfao)#spent about 60+ hours working on the first still render AND this silly animation which is nuts?? i really need a better setup for this #i want to make more stuff but first i gotta get my claws on more models from the games and im dead set on achieving it soon #fixed his pose a bit there!!! (lowered shoulders; sat him in the middle of the chair; most importantly now his hands look more natural)#fun fact: i rigged his wings with breast bones which makes raziel an enby icon (real)#i wanted to upload fly me to the moon with it but tumblr shat itself orrrrr copyrighted music is illegal now which is actually more likely #+ idk why his back is shattered like that and idk how to fix it lol sorry

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averlym · 8 months

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some very very quick costume shorthands!

#&juliet #had the absolute luck of watching this live the other night and it was. truly amazing!!! aaah #rough character designs for the younger leads (excluding like the Grown adult duos..) because?? idk #this is how it always starts. once the character designs start getting simplified like this that's when it all begins #which is hmmm timing but i really can't shut up about this musical it was so so fun. absolute vibes and energy #made me laugh and cry and was such an Experience. i adore them all but may specifically made me sob at some parts dfjkldfh #lots of thoughts! but one of the favs is how they wrote it so the existing songs and actions fit so well.#like in a rhyming bit they had frankie accept a drink and then the song was like ''drink in hand'' and i was all !!!!!!#also maybe it's local censorship? but there wasn't the kisses.. they replaced it w kissing hands and then holding hands #which is like a cute nod to the ''hand to hand holy palmers kiss' or smth but also maybe two guys doing that would not have made it past :/#oh my god i. the way rnj parallels the shakespeare duo... whdskjfhgh. may + not being a Girl kdjhgf. frankie and may. aaagh.#angelique being so so badass. i . the speech about Gender by anne and the Proposal by angelique both made the whole theatre cheer love that #also rotating stage lives in my mind rent free i ADORE the set holy moly.. also also the actors were so good. also the Projections.#also the music and costumes and special effects and aerial moments. and the ensemble. and the choreo #also the cast is so talented. and pretty. and the whole confidence part vs the vulnerability of some bits... whshjfgjkl. hhh #im just listing stuff now but it was so vibes. what an experience ever. it's also shot me directly into 14-years-old again so #spent the morning alone vibing to the soundtrack intensely... i just... sometimes things hold special places in your heart idk!!!#i don't know what to do with these designs though... like the show is such a lovely Spectacle but also idk where to branch out by myself no #there's so much to Absorb again and again. i get the feeling any true work from this i would do in a form of an animatic though.. oops #tldr? 1. &juliet very good just as itself 2. we have History 3. i got to see it live which always propels me into bonkers over musicals!#so so rough but i needed to get smth out and . whatever. an art blog is an art blog. back to hiatus now i think #<reminder to myself: this is essentially an artchive.. there's no quality control if you don't want it! have fun!! ily>

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wildmelon · 2 months

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i don't understand the urge to write hate think pieces about video game characters/their writing on here like at all

#NOT constructive criticism HATE #the wyll fans esp are critical geniuses #i mean actual mean spirited morally superior hate posts #like guess what guys: i used to dislike gale #and i just kept that shit to myself bc why would i come ruin everyone's fun why does it matter #then i spent more time w the character and engaging with him and it opened my eyes! love him now! it's chill #there r a couple things i do find triggering also... wyll's first kiss being locked behind a persuasion check #and really just the whole premise of astarion's first romantic encounter #but like ik that's a ME thing and it's not inherently evil and there are many ways to interpret etc #but yeah i just never kiss wyll that night #astarion i have more trouble with and im trying to headcanon my way out of it after avoiding his romance for awhile #i just personally can't deal with the idea of someone engaging in sex while dissociating/not being wholeheartedly engaged #now im rambling lol but yeah confessions #lush.talk

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valka-arialitan · 2 months

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He forgot about it. His crew didn't.

#I planned on making a short fic to go with it BUUUT as I spent the WHOLE NIGHT on this well maybe not #picture Jack calling the cookies ''space cookies'' and Shepard freezing while eating one like ''oh.''#'' ''space'' because they look like PLANETS sheesh.''#mass effect #commander shepard #mass effect fanart #mass effect 2 #marcus shepard #happy birthday commander shepard #I'M LATE I KNOWWWWW #featuring the space hamster #of course #Sputnik Shepard #Blender's denoise made some weird artifacts all over the place #I hit render past 5AM and really said ''Photoshop have mercy on me.''#also that's april 11th 2186. So just a few days before the Alpha relay... incident :''')

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anaalnathrakhs · 17 days

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love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what

#school and home life are too much to handle so i skip school #because i cant kick my parents out #and appartments cost money #and i dont have a car to sleep in #i could maybe try to dig up my old childhood tent but that brings a whole host of logistic questions + im scared and it's difficult #anyway. it's fine. it's cool. i just have to hold on until i graduate high shcool and then ?????#find a way to live without my parents money OR scholarships #all for some nebulous end goal of having a job (the only field i'm interested in and good at offers two options:#to become an academic #or to become a freelancer #i do not have the fortitude to be an academic and being a freelancer is convoluted and pays like shit)#i might've spent 24h without my parents occasionally if i spent the night at a friend's place once or twice recently #but besides that the last time i've gone 48h without my parents was when the mental health center organised a week camp uhhhh...#two summers ago #incredibly good for my mental health as you can see #god i remember like... years ago. around 13yo maybe or 14. a guy. i dont know if he was a mental health professional or like social cases #but anyway he told me ''you're too afraid to be away from mommy and daddy'' and it made me want to rip his eyes out #several other people have implied or suggested that too over the years and it's just #am i too dependant on my parents? yes. will it be difficult to take my independance? yes.#does it means i don't both rationally recognize and feel that this is really fucking unhealthy and hindering for me #on top of being unpleasant?#FUCK NO #i want out my guy. there's just not many opportunities for an already mentally ill teenager #now that i'm eighteen i have to grapple with the logistical problems of the money needed and how to continue my education #and im sure a billion more if i start searching a little more seriously #perhaps i should kill myself that way i don't cost anyone any more money #broadcasting my misery #vent

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hella1975 · 5 months

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girls will say they’re tough shit until 7 by catfish and the bottlemen comes on

#AND ID BEG YOU BUT YOU KNOW IM NEVER HOMEEEEE AND I LOVE YOU BUT I NEED ANOTHER YEAR ALONE #literally made a whole playlist based around the specific feeling this song evokes #like is it really a sad song or is it just one of the bands you listened to religiously as a pre-teen with friends you no longer talk to #specifically this band bc they were only active for a few years before breaking up and my friendship group was OBSESSED w them #i saw them live and everything and all my big memories from the ages like 14-16 remind me of this band and vice versa #im nostalgic for what was probably one of the worst times of my life. fucking hell #would i go back there? no. do i miss what we had? a little #what's the stand by me quote. does anyone ever have better friends than the ones they had when they were twelve. or smthn #that for pre-teen girls. the other night i spent over an hour going through old snapchat memories #'seshes' babies 😭 but the vibes were so real #actually there's one girl that i was best mates with that i have an INSANE storytime about now lmao like it was so fucking random 😭#catfish and the bottlemen #song rec

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cinnamonisclown · 6 months

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lovsome · 2 months

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……. i might be seeing someone 😳

#we might have spent the whole night out together yesterday and maybe there was a little smooching……..#i dont think i slept at all last night i was too all over the place lmao #he is the biggest set of green flags ive ever seen 😳 …….. i really like him 🙄

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keclan · 7 months

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on my 18th birthday, one of my family friends had a heart attack, and while my stepdad was visiting him at the hospital, someone broke a window at our house and robbed us. set the bar low for adulthood so everything has been mostly improvement for me 👍

#my birthday money all got stolen #but it was really nice my moms coworkers passed a hat around to get me some birthday money which was very sweet #my 19th birthday i told all my new college friends that my last birthday was awful #and they spent the whole day with me and threw me a really nice party #so that was definitely one of my best #my 21st birthday i stayed up all night the night before playing dragon age #and i didn’t want to sleep through my birthday so i just stayed up #and at dinner i was falling asleep at the table and the waitress came over and said #after just one drink?#in a really patronizing tone #i’ll have you know i’m falling asleep on this table for much stupider reasons lady #even my 2020 birthday was pretty ok bc zoe sent me the winchester dean sweatshirt

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brightbluekicks · 8 days

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2 days to graduation. i can’t help but feel as though i’ve been pretty significantly missing out on something i didn’t know that i wanted until now

#got together at a friends house to watch the real madrid game today and its the only occasion in which ive spent like concerted time outsid #of a school thing while sober with a bunch of straight guys my age. and it was nice. and all of the people there were at the party i was at #last night too and anyway i cant help but wish that one i had had male friends leading up to this point but i also wish something couldve #ever happened to me romantically. bc the guy whose house i went over to is the one who i have a crush on and hes currently involved with #this other girl. and so nothings gonna happen and i probably wont see him over the summer bc we’re not friends like that and hes going to #college on the other side of the state. and anyway theres all these things and people who i know im gonna miss in college but theres a lot #more who im gonna miss what they represent. social connections. parties #a sense of not being left out or alone because really its not that ive felt left out this whole time. ive had a relatively good high school #experience. but im being introduced to all these things all this social world just as its ending. i wish i had known i wish life didnt work #like this. and dear god i wish i couldve kissed someone last night #txt #🚙

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archduke-enver-gortash · 15 days

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i’m soooo tired brain bad body bad romeo bad

#taking steps away from things is really like #wow my paranoia & insufferable personality & of course my creations will absolutely always make me an outsider on here and other spaces #but i’m dealing with it. much more chill about it when more detached like this.#i may be an eternal outsider but i will have fun w it #that’s a promise #sitting in the corner having a blast #that’s the goal at least. working towards it self-isolation helps gang #creating for myself being by myself #y’know. anyways i’m tired as fuck i spent the whole night writhing around in pain

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qrovidcore · 4 months

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absolutely EATING THE DRYWALL over the act 2 resist!durge scene. it’s been three fucking days and im still like. you MEAN i have to Get Up and Go To Work and Function when ALL i can think about is this and it makes me go INSANE. like the absolute emotions of that are something i haven’t felt from anything less than actual tabletop and it’s just. here. in this goddamn video game. and fucking. we all know the scene. probably everyone knows the version of the scene i personally got, even if they didn’t get it themself. and yet. and YET. i cannot even put into WORDS exactly how all of that hit because it’s not even just the one goddamn scene it’s the 60+ hours of choices i have been making up to that point and 60+ hours of time i have put into the relationships i have built with the rest of my party and cutscenes before it that maybe only went the same way for like 0.1% of other people as they did for me or even happened At The Same Time as they did for me and i just. i just!!!!!!

#I JUST HAVE TO GO TO WORK AND PRETEND TO BE NORMAL MEANWHILE IM SITTING HERE EATING THE DRYWALL LIKE #THEY DONT KNOW I ALMOST KILLED MY VAMPIRE #WHO SPENT LITERALLY THE ENTIRITY OF ACT 1 BEING STANDOFFISH AT ME #WHO ONLY DECIDED HE TRUSTED ME LITERALLY THE NIGHT BEFORE #WHO FUCKING STOOD UP FOR ME TO THE REST OF THE CAMP AFTER THE FIRST TIME I KILLED SOMEONE EVEN THOUGH HE DIDN’T LIKE ME YET #THEY DON’T KNOW THAT I LET HIM KILL ME WAY BACK IN ACT 1. THEY DON’T KNOW ABOUT THE PARALLELS.#THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW THAT THE INCANTATION FOR THE LESSER RESTORATION HE HEALED ME WITH THE FOLLOWING MORNING MEANS *i absolve you*#SCREAMING AND CHEWING THE DRYWALL AND CRYING #god fucking. neil newbon put his WHOLE CHEST into voicing that scene!!!!!!!!!!!#COMPLETELY ripped and tore into my entire heart #unquestionably my favorite moment in a video game i have EVER experienced and like. i eat up rpgs constantly. i have a lot to compare to.#that was really something fucking *incredible*#and to think i have a good hundred hours left to go!!!!!! screams!!!!!!!!!#who even knows what will eviscerate me next!!!!!!!#bg3 #the paranoid android speaks!

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blujayonthewing · 1 year

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honestly? what a blessing to be an intensely curious person in the age of ubiquitous internet. do you think that thirty years ago my adhd ass would have followed up the passing thought 'what's up with mangoes' while making dinner by going to a library and trying to find the right books to actually research the horticultural and culinary history of mangoes

#you KNOW I would have had to own an encyclopedia set #but goddamn how often does a person replace those things with new editions?#and what if I got really interested and wanted to learn more?#GOD. VIDEO!! what a time to be an artist!!!#I spent the whole evening the other night watching videos of eels! while eating dinner and doing other stuff!! because I could!!!#I can look up photo and video references of almost anything I want forever!!#I can look up free tutorials for art forms I would have never even imagined without running across them online!!!#THANK GOD!!!#about me

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siriuslynephilim · 2 months

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my sister called me and kept asking excitedly that what's happening in my life and

#like life as in. i can't say love life but like you know what's happening with the guys and the girls #girl #and i was so tired #am so tired #i just made up an excuse that im too physically tired too talk to cut the call and told her id call her back but i won't #i want to okay i really do I want to hear about her life what's going on but she's not that type of person jinke saamne #i can just divert the topic from myself avoid talking about me she's determined and caring like that😭#just. kya batau main #i spent the whole day working but really if i stopped doing anything for like 2 minutes all the last convos i had with everyone i #liked loved whatever started replaying in my head constantly making me feel all down and sad in public yk that empty heaviness inside chest #i mean. what is there to say. i feel truly pathetic #everyone just keeps leaving me. they decide one day that oh nope she's not for me not interesting anymore doesn't understand is too much #draining and destroys my peace and then they leave #it doesn't even matter the weight of the relationship #whether it's been a year of being in love or two weeks of talking till 5 am or a week of wishing me good morning and good night #every day. it doesn't matter they leave and they leave and they leave and they don't look back and im left to pick up the pieces go on #pretend to be okay and normal and fucking focused on like. studying accounts as if my heart isn't breaking #into a million tiny pieces everytime #i don't know how to tell her. the sister you love so much the sister you can't live without imagine life without. the #sister who you thought about holding on for because you couldn't do that to her leave her alone when you had suicidal thoughts. she's #she's actually deeply unlovable undateable unfuckable and like truly lonely and easy to let go of #i know she loves me and i know my bestfriend loves me and she would fall apart if i wasn't there for her #but it's not enough. i really wish it was. but it's okay it's enough for now it's enough to keep me going it's enough to make me not wanna #die yk? like i don't love myself enough to live for myself get better for myself but they need me so i need to be okay be happy because i #need them to be happy. and they're happy when im happy #does that make sense #okay bye i should really start writing a diary

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