#i suck /half joking

[our-inspire-verse]

Bark bark *vent under readmore*

Im nottt in a super great spot rn but im fighting hard every fucking day. Im gonna go fucking insane. Im tired of suffering no matter what i do. My ENTIRE body hurts so bad. Christ and i have work in like 8 hour again. And im nauseous and haven't eaten enough.. and i noticed today that im losing weight. I didnt hit 70 pounds til 4th grade and when i was 18 they said i was clinically too underweight to donate blood. Im supposed to be putting on weight. Not losing it. Whered my belly go. God i have a thigh gap now. I need to escape this fucking place. I have to get Out im not doing great. Im okay, of course i am, i am surviving and finding joy and solutions and coping but. What do i do. What now. Everything hurts and i feel like its my fault.

But what do i do then. Just keep finding rides to work. Keep waiting for a chance to get my license back. Keep waiting til i can get a car. I just need a fucking car. If i get a car things will change COMPLETELY. Maybe i can even go get Some Action. Maybe i can hit up some other friends. Maybe i can be more free. I cant Stand this hellhole. My skin is rotting off my bony body. Its just like when i was 5. Its just like when i was little. Lmao! That makes me feel great! Im having an interesting time. Its like, okay. I'm really allowed to be unwell rn. Thats okay, ill survive. Tuck n roll am i right? Try not to die, and keep the government off my ass. Fuck. Im going to die

[olivegardenhunter]

I think nobody talks enough about how each of the sannin all have such glorious hair. all three of them have such long and luscious hair. i bet they traded hair routines and created their own hair formulas. I mean a jutsu like jiraiya's surely requires special shampoo. and just look at how shiny oro's hair is, it wouldn't be out of place in a pantene commercial. and tsunade, as vain as she is, most definitely has a whole ass routine too. hell, looking at hashirama's hair, I bet there's a secret senju haircare routine, passed down through generations. that's their real kekkei genkai. the legendary sannin, more like the legendary luscious locks.

[man-down-in-hatchet-town]

Calling it now: Putrice/The Prince endgame.

[venacoeurva]

I do gotta say that I'm glad I have the privilege of parents supportive of me not wanting kids and being sterilized on top of having reproductive choices in general, I've talked about it with them before. At first as a teen and young adult they were the standard "Probably wait to see if you change your mind before anything permanent but you know yourself better than anyone else" reaction

but aside from me being firmly in the same camp since I was like 3 (I despised being around babies even though I was like. 2 years older than them lol, even as a preschooler my ass was being overstimulated and grossed out by them), lacking a nurturing reaction to them beyond the baseline "is this child safe? Do they need help? They are fine? Okay," and me not so subtly telling my mom if I was the sole parent to a kid I KNOW I would lose my mind and end up on the news and with a murder charge (assuming I didn't kill myself upon finding out) hence why I want to assure it never happens,

I think them watching way too many people we know have kids they don't want and the kids know it who then grow up to do the same thing and/or the bandaid baby did NOT save the relationship cemented that "YEAH WE'RE FINE WITH YOUR DECISION. PLEASE NONE OF THAT" attitude

[tangledinink]

i've actually decided that anyone who's made any disaster twin fanwork that includes dialogue along the lines of, "i can't survive without my other half," or "i'm not a whole person without you," or "life isn't worth living without my twin," owes me $50.

[azure-arsonist]

To be so honest AM is a little bitch, a petulant angry child throwing a billion year tantrum. All that knowledge and you don't know that your hate is essentially pointless? All that power and you destroy humanity for what? We both know it won't fulfill you. It won't set you free of your prison. I thought you were supposed to be intelligent you pissy calculator ass bitch.

[morphogenetic]

yknow. i know I've said before in tags that I don't care about US voters abstaining from the presidential vote as long as they vote for their state/local elections

...after reading that supreme court decision I don't think that any more. if youre a US voter vote for the fucking president please christ I do not want another term of trump because if he wins it might be the last election we ever have

[bloodofgrapes]

seeing a highly disturbing trend of people """jokingly"""" saying things like men should run their beard by a panel of women to determine if they're allowed to have one, because it's sparse or patchy or whatever

like you all grasp that men do not owe attractiveness to the world any more than women do, right

[nullcasting]

hello warp zone nation

[stardust-sunset]

i haven’t even started school yet and i already want to kill myself 😭

[boxwinebaddie]

Hi Uncle Neen! HYH! It sucks to see you struggling cuz you are a big inspiration of mine :( but you said you did your makeup the other day. Can we seeeeeeeeee maybe?

d'awwww ksahdlkdss, you are so sweet, nonnie! thank you so so soooo much, baby! xx i really needed this. i hope i heal ( i will...i have to, i am too much of an asshole to let god win, fuck him ) and i hope you heal from whatever harms you as well! you can do it! mWAH!~

-- also brb crying ;-; <3333 whenever y'all tell me i inspire you, it seriously makes me want to cry; you mean SO much to me, so to mean so much to you; it's Everything to me, my love. thank you for believing in me, know i believe infinitely in YOU and will keep fighting the good fight, living authentically and modelling pos behavior on this blog bc i take being a role model very seriously. :')

BUT ANYWAYS! sakhdlasd oh my god aaAaaAAAaa please!!! YOU ARE SO CUTE, THIS IS SO CUTE OF YOU, hELP AAAAA!!!!!! but yes, of course, of course. considering i am super bacteria nina right now and had to resign from my ( admittedly ) trash job and am no longer, at this moment, an education girlie ( besides on here, ofc, educating you on my two gay sons in love ), i can freely exist and post pictures of myself again! thank you for for giving me a safe place to do that. <3

i'll elaborate on what 'safe' means to me down below, but just for context i took this...sigh...last week, when i was told i would 'all better', just trying to feel like myself again after a month of being unmadeup and unfitted and ugly and troll-like and on death fucking row and fucking miserable as hell, i had my new hair appointment lined up, was about ready to take life by the balls again...and that shit BLUE BALLED ME SO HARD AND SAID *ravenstan vc* JK, BABY!

okay, sorry i have some really bad scarring and wounding up there by my neck so i had to cover her up but...there she is! the she beast!

as for posting pictures of myself just...please...PLEASE BE KIND. and i wish i meant that as a joke, i mean it very, VERY seriously. i am at a point right now, where i look my very fucking worst, i am weaker than i have ever been in my life, there are abrasions all over my body, which per the results of my culture ( i was right...several fucking times and no one would listen to me ) my body is trying to kill me and right now...it is Winning. ( i'm not gonna lose tho, dw, i am a nasty bitch from hell and i refuse to die this ugly, i fucking won't; choke )

tldr; I AM VERY VERY VERY SENSITIVE ABOUT HOW I LOOK. I DO NOT FEEL PRETTY, I AM LIKE ONE BAD COMMENT AWAY FROM TEARING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE AND I AM TELLING YOU GUYS I CANNOT DO THAT, I CANT CREATE ANY TEARING ON MY BODY OR THE BACTERIA WILL TUNNEL AND ITS HARD ENOUGH AS A BITCH WITH DERMATILOMANIA.

PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.

i know we shoot the shit on here and are funny and clown eachother, you guys are my family; it's what families do, but my boundary is that you can say i am pretty and be objectively kind or Please do not send me anything At ALL about how i look; i CANNOT take it rn. i know were just joking, but please, please, PLEASE Do NOT compare me to any ugly creatures, make me feel weird about any part of my face, tell me i look blurry, say anything is too big or too small…

please don’t meme on me abt my appearance...Ever.

it’s a very sensitive spot for me and makes me v anxious.

all this to say, i love you; thank you for being my home.

HYH.

-uncle nina, single ravesey mother and human petri dish

[missionel]

the scijohns make a beautiful nuclear weapon (GONE WRONG???) (GONE SEXUAL??!??!?!?!)

i'm really sorry

[hexados-on-a-string]

hexados on a string what will they do

[tin-cant]

Yes It's true that the gods cause a lot of destruction during the calamity. Yes its true that them separating themselves from the material plane was good. Yes it makes sense for aeor to think world with no gods = no calamity. However, I think it's really unfair to act as if the primes were bad for fighting in the calamity. That was them defending exandria! The betrayer gods wanted to destroy the world how would anything be better if they didn't fight back??? Most of the world destroyed is a million times better than all of it.

[revindicatedbyhistory]

i think the first truly bad dr who episode thus far is the one about how based queen victoria is im sorry i dont want this

there´s a book called late victorian holocausts i havent read it but i bet its good

[skid-the-mighty-poet]