#i want to everytime I see myself

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

The fact that every single person who looks at me doesn’t immediately vomit and rip their eyes out astounds me every day.

[hgduo]

Okay so, I fully agree that q!Bagi is not obligated to stick by Cellbit or watch over him- and that it's healthy for her to grow closer to other people who make her feel happy and focusing on them could really help her start to heal from years of trauma she's gone though. I'm all for her finding people that feel like family when her brother doesn't right now. She is so much more then just his sister.

... but I don't agree with the common take that q!Cellbit doesn't care about her- I just don't think it's fair to take the way he's acting lately as truly reflective of how he feels towards the others, his mental health is at it's lowest, he's lashing out in self-destructive ways, and hasn't really had a moment to just take-in and process everything he's learned about the past that was taken from him with all the other stressful garbage going on. 'Course none of that is to say the weight of how he's treating people like his sister (and the others) should just be ignored and it's fully up to them to decide if they still want him around or not- I just don't agree with writing him off as not caring for her.

It's a painful, messy, complicated situation... but he knows she's been hurting for a long time- and I still believe that him hunting down fed members is as much for him as it is for her and everyone else whose been hurt by them even if Bagi openly hates what he's doing. He may not want to admit it, but I think he does care about her deep down- and he wants to push her away like everyone else (who isn't Baghera) right now.

I don't know if they'll ever be able to be a 'family' again let alone as close as they once were, but I think there's still some hope left that they can make something work... maybe.

... I also don't think she's ever going to truly 'give-up' on him because Bagi is simply a VERY determined person and not one to let her dummy little brother tell her what to do lol

[alexjcrowley]

Rip most frenemies from F1 you would have loved the Andrea-Emily relationship from The Devil wears Prada

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

[cnl0400]

A rant about recent Thirteen cards

As peer tradition in this blog in the last months, I want to complain to everyone that yeah, this Ssr Is two separate stories for not good reason, and honestly it's so fucking ridiculous that every time Thirteen appears, she's forbbiden from participating with the full cast, be It Devilgram or Event

And this Is not a coincidence, this has happened since the launching of Nightbringer, More specially, everything began with this card

Normally, all her Devilgrams are:

1.- There's a mains conflict with the "main" characters

2.- Thirteen appears in part 2-3 and does something completely unrelated to the Main plot

3.- Conflict resolves, nobody acknowledges that she was here or that she's a character at all.

When was the last time she talked to someone else other than MC?? Without counting Mephisto at the end of S2, the last time she spoke to anyone else was Little D no 2 in the Halloween event.

And I mean, I'm not going to say that I dislikes any of these Devilgrams (Your Shinning Moment Is so good, almost Made me forget all of this) but It feels so... Othering? Thirteen Is a much as important as Mephisto or Raphael, why these two can be involved in storylines but she doesn't? And I don't say this because I hate them or want them to be involved less (I love them, If you follow me you know), I want Thirteen to be involved MORE

I just wanted to vent again, I know that not a lot of people cares, but while I liked the DG, I was kinda wondering why I keep pulling these cards just to get mad in the end, maybe because I wish that next time will be different? But I mean, I think there's this saying that goes like:

"insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"

I guess this applies to me...

[bayleequits]

PLEASE I CANT DO THIS😔

[bungobble-my-balls]

Re-reading the bsd manga and picking up more stuff now and it is an experience.

Because Asagiri and Harukawa wtf is THIS

You can't just drop this and never bring up these two together again.

I know WHY this is here. It's at the end of volume 10 where it's revealed that Gin is Akutagawa's younger sister, so it's art showing the two younger sister's in the Mafia and the ADA.

But WHY do they look so good here! They look straight up devious too like they know something or have secrets?? Naomi I am looking directly at you because you look so suspicious here but I don't know what to suspect you of.

They're back to back and melding into eachother like they're rivals or something too, this single image feels so important but it's literally the ONLY mention we ever have of these two at the same time.

This literally gives me the same feeling of looking at art of sskk in the ying/yang position or soukoku in opposing/matching colours.

I know it's probably because they're the sisters in opposing organisations but why does this art make me feel like this is much less about their organisations and more about THEM opposing/paralleling eachother.

I am now hoping so much that this art is also foreshadowing because whatever this art of them and whatever dynamic it implies is just so interesting to think about.

[detransraichu]

hiiii gyns i have a date on SUNDAY!!!!! :D her name is precious (adorable!!) and she's soooo cute she's a writer like me and an anime lover too and just seems like a total sweetheart! it'll also be her FIRST DATE EVER????? 0w0 she has never been with anybody ever????? so the pressure is on for sure omfg... i want to make it super special for her even if we don't work out!! we're going to my fave froyo spot and then anime & weed back at my place!

she's also british and she sent me voice notes and her accent is SOOO ATTRACTIVE AAHHHHH and she's only looking for a serious relationship which is super attractive too!!! <3 we'll see how it goes, but either way we both agreed to be friends if the vibes aren't gay!

[creature-of-pizza]

I've got nothing left to prove

'Cause I've got nothing left to lose

See me bare my teeth for you

Who, who are you?

[necessarymeanstoanend]

string the sinner by his wings. in his head, a brittle bone. (advice - alex g)

could not for the life of me think of a background so we’ve got this weird circle thing happening again.

this original piece was called “nosebleed” for this reason but i decided that i liked the other version better

without background and sketch

[rocicrew]

THE EXPANSE 6.04 REDOUBT

[raincamp]

anyone else with sm ever get that thing after you finally open up and speak a few words somewhere you finally feel comfortable, or after putting all your effort into masking, where you go home and have this sinking feeling of intense dread and hatred for yourself, where you want to throw up or punch a wall or punish yourself, because what you said was so embarrassing and shameful that you want to eradicate yourself from the face of the earth, or never talk or show your face anywhere ever again

[fuckyouheresyourcoffee]

had the most mediocre breakdown. (and before you ask no its not over how I can't build relationships and tend to suppress myself.)

4.753/10. do not recommend. anyways. Shop's open. I'm not open (for questioning, or emotionally open).

[loafbud]

[sirensea14]

Me with who

I trusted, Let you in

Let you see through my broken skin

Let you tell me, People would love me

Not get sick of me, Get rid of me

I know you rarely open your Tumblr from your browser but if ever you do so, well, sana matamaan ka.

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

"im basically hyperfixated on *thing*" people when i tell them that a hyperfixation is infact NOT just liking something alot