#i dont eat i dont sleep i dont take care of myself i dont clean my room because i genuinely cannot fucking stop thinking about glsneegsnag

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

"im basically hyperfixated on *thing*" people when i tell them that a hyperfixation is infact NOT just liking something alot

[cannibalkissies]

I'm having the worst health issues this month ;~;

[pizzapizzadickz]

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[honeytonedhottie]

the tea on self love⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🍵

the most important relationship that you're ever going to have during your lifetime is the relationship with yourself. its the longest relationship that you'll ever be in, therefore its crucial to make this relationship flourish.

first understand ; love is unconditional. theres no such thing as conditional love, if its conditional then it is NOT love. that means regardless of past mistakes, your love for yourself is still there and its still strong. the love for yourself is the only love that will always be there. because people change and they come and go, but you're with yourself ALL hours of the day, and forEVER.

because people change, you cannot rely on the love of others all of the time. the love that u feel for urself shouldn't decrease just because your surrounded by individuals who love you a lot. if anything ur self love should grow, but never shrink.

its easy to grow dependent on the love from others, your friends, family, partner.. but the truth of the matter is, if ur self love isnt solid and grounded then when that person inevitably changes or grows or leaves ur life, then you perception of self love will crumble.

practicing self love ; start asking yourself "how i feel today" or "what do i need/want today" be more conscious of urself and ur feelings, just as you would if u were being thoughtful and considerate to a friend or partner that you loved.

do not EVER speak badly about yourself. even in a "joking" manner. bcuz guess what, ur brain can't tell the difference between when ur joking and when ur being serious. your words have power!! the same love and support that u provide to ur friends when they've made a mistake is the same, if not more, support and love that u should give urself when u make mistakes.

often times we beat ourselves up over mistakes that we make but thats not healthy at ALL. make ur mind a peaceful, beautiful, and safe place to be, where u can cultivate ideas and growth. instead of a place where ur walking on eggshells all of the time bcuz ur scared of imperfection.

make a promise to yourself that regardless of how u feel or what happened in ur life, that you won't talk badly about yourself. only tell yourself good things!!

be conscious of how you treat urself ; are you considerate enough of ur own health or well being? if the answer is no, then what are you even doing? treat urself with tender love and care. if you feel tired, sleep. if you feel hungry, eat. if you long for something, give it to yourself. dont deny yourself anything and please please look after yourself.

ways to show yourself love depending on ur love language ; if u dont know ur love language, take this quiz ✨ and find out.

if ur love language is physical touch...

try yoga

take a bubble bath

buy a weighted blanket or one of those pregnancy pillows

if ur love language is receiving gifts...

go on solo trips

investing in yourself

buying gifts for urself when u go out

if ur love language is words of affirmation...

practice gratitude

practice saying ur affirmations out loud to urself

give yourself compliments

if ur love language is acts of service...

practicing self care

meal prepping meals that u know u love to eat

clean and organize ur space

if ur love language is quality time...

go for a relaxing walk

start journalling

try meditation

have some quiet time and replenish yourself, take a long nap, do whatever u need to do to show yourself that YOU LOVE YOU, bcuz u should 🫶🏽

the mindset of someone who loves themselves ;

"im going to give my body the best that i can possibly manage"

"my body is a temple, so im going to treat it as such"

"im going to be conscious of what i say and think to myself about myself, and only feed myself good thoughts"

[snowivivienne]

VIVI GLOW UP GUIDE: SLUMPS

“That’s okay, you are you, I am me. I enjoy taking care of myself.”

STEP ONE : FIND THE SOURCE

Finding out the source of your slump is always the first thing you should be doing, is it because you have low energy? are you beating yourself up every-time you aren’t doing something perfect? is your environment dirty.

STEP TWO : THE BASICS

Once you have the source, you find the solution. Literally write down, “I am in a slump because of insert reason, but this is the solution right here,” and start with it. Most time it’s basic, you haven’t been eating right, hygiene isn’t good and perhaps your sleep is off. Try to get a quick healthy meal (smoothies are life savers) and tidy up your space before you do anything.

STEP THREE : TWO MINUTE TIMER

If you don’t have the pure will to do step two on it’s own, set a timer for two minutes and pick something productive to do. Usually by the time it’s up you are already focused and feel no need to stop.

STEP FOUR : NEGATIVE SELF TALK

No more negative self talk, it does nothing but bring you to the slump and hard to get out ? Oh you are in a slump, so what, you simply get out of slumps. Don’t drag yourself down even more.

STEP FIVE : RECOGNIZE TRIGGERS

Once you are out of your slump, and check weekly on yourself. For me, I know I am getting to a slump once i have no desire to brush my teeth, but some people it’s their laundry piling up. Everyone is different, start to note them so you can check a slump before it gets too bad.

STEP SIX : DONT MAKE EXCUSES

This can be controversial but coming from someone clinical depressed, and chronically ill there is something said about working out, eating healthy and sleep. Until you master those, you are not going to be feeling mentally peak so start with one and really get confident in it. Don’t let depression or anxiety hold you back, a healthy life style can make it go away. It’s hard work, but it is worth it!

STEP 777 : MAKE ROUTINES

Have a cleaning routine, hygiene routine, morning and night routine. It doesn’t need to be ridged but something there to help you keep up with things that can lead to a slump.

I hope this helps you dolls out !! ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

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[444princesa]

things i have done this month to prep for january

i decided to act on my new years goals in december instead of january to get a kick start so come january, my goals are already becoming habits.

now lets go to what i have done:

started working out or moving my body everyday for at least 45 minutes. i aim for 2 hrs of walking which equals to 10k steps and stretching for 10-25 minutes. i find that this has boosted my energy levels and i really feel good but i also do other workouts like taebo if walking isnt doing it for me.

eating cleaner and making my own meals. im not a super unhealthy person but i did indulge alot which i knew wasnt good and i regretted it right after. eating unhealthy foods made me feel so groggy, heavy, bloated and just BAD. i started to cook my meals and eating more whole foods. i still indulge but in moderation. drinking a ton of water throughout the day and eating veggies or fruits before and after a meal really changed my body for the better.

doing my skincare. i was lazy about my skincare like i didnt put on sunscreen everyday and i didt take good care of it. now my skin isnt bad and i never struggled with it but i knew skincare would benefit me in the long run, plus its a nice way to incorporate self care daily. i started to do my AM and PM skincare everyday and it has been such a luxury to do.

decluttering and organizing. i have been decluttering like a MANIAC this month. it has been so freeing to get rid of anything that i do not need. i have decluttered my whole space so i am ready for the new year.

living more slowly. now this wont last but i am currently on break so i honestly have alot more time. i don't wake up super early as i did and i dont make my day so jam packed that i never have time to do simple things for myself. i sleep in (which is waking up at 8am lol, im more of a morning person) and it feels nice not having structure to my day at the moment. its odd honestly because i am a person that plans her month, week, and day no matter what but this semester really drained me so i needed to give myself time to be lazy. BUT i do want to go back on a schedule come january because i cannot live this freely for a long time, that is just not me haha.

not much preparation but it has helped me to start fresh come the new year. i mainly have been enjoying life, workout, cook, clean and organize. i know when january comes my life will get busy because of school and life. i wanted to get a few things into habits like skincare, workout, eating better, taking time to relax, which i feel i have gotten that down. these were things i struggled with on a daily and practicing that everyday for nearly a month has made me feel better but also it has been part of my routine now. i do have more goals i know i can do daily which i will share later on.

[spacexseven]

(2/4 sorry realized dazais was super long split it into two its 4 parts now) ur sooooooo right about dazai and this scenario SO right the fucking bastard probably does this to randoms for fun on the weekends. sidenote im going with mafia dazai for this just cuz he has more room to be Evil and i also dont think kunikida would allow ANY of these antics if he was there. warning hes gonna be SUUUPER mean i kinda softboy-ed aku but i cant bring myself to do the same to dazai </3

darling is just some civilian with ties to an enemy syndicate or works somewhere they need access to as an average employee with a convenient amount of security clearance, no one really that special on paper, and he’s pissed. he’s stuck with some no-name loser for the foreseeable future? how demeaning. this work is so beneath him as an executive, can’t he make one of his subordinates do it?

he’s amazing at the flirty coworker persona, and even BETTER at the loving boyfriend schtick. scarily so, when you consider that he spends a lot of his downtime thinking about how much you bore him and he cant wait to get rid of you. similar to what he does to chuuya in wan, every perceived slight you commit against him is put down to paper so he can get his appropriate vengeance when the time comes. you hummed and it got on his nerves, he’ll be sure to break  your jaw. you touched his hand today, for that he’ll rip your fingernails off one by one. stuff like that.

he starts to warm up to you as time goes on. the surefire way to dazai’s heart is to give him unselfish care. something as small as packing him something for lunch since he only eats crab out of a can; to something as big as nursing him through a drug or alcohol induced stupor after one of his many attempts on his own life. he wakes up the next morning clean, comfortable, and with a very minimal headache due to the cold washcloth you put on his head. why did you bother doing that?

yea i don't think ada dazai could do half these things and get away with it either so we'll stick to pm dazai!! i do have a question tho, can you find crab in a can? is it edible?? it sounds strange to me i only eat tuna (lol) out of a can...lol this got much longer than i planned for, sorry in advance!!

cw: yandere character, obsessive behavior, possessive behavior, unhealthy relationships, toxic relationships, dazai is an asshole, mentions of violence and murder, manipulation, deceit, emotional abuse, jealousy, kidnapping, imprisonment.

ask continued: (3/4) good news: he’s attached now! at the hip! hes a little obvious, really. dazais always flirty, but now hes CLINGY. and JEALOUS. he seemed so Above being affectionate or possessive of you, before. much too self-confident, you supposed. but now you’re lucky if you can manage to get out of bed without having to escape the IRONCLAD GRIP hes got you in, and do NOT even get me STARTED on how he reacts to ANYONE so much as looking at you! you’re his! his his his his HIS! you both love each other, so you belong to one another! simple as that!

bad news: you have recently figured out that you shouldve been scared of him. of course, you find his little notebook, and something inside of you is SCREAMING at you to read it, and what you find shatters your view of him forever. you brushed off the really weird vibe you got from him initially, cuz he was so nice! attentive! you never really got attention like that from anyone before, it was all too easy for him to get you caught up. stupid stupid stupid. 

worse news: he notices, when you start to pull away from him. you’re making excuses not to see him, not to sleep in the same bed as him. you get all stiff when he gets too close to you, and you wont kiss him back. doesnt take him long to figure out what happened. takes him even less time to come up with a plan to make sure you cant run away from him. don’t be scared, he loves you so much! he’ll show you how sorry he is for saying all those mean things!

it's not like dazai was new to the whole leech-out-information-from-an-unsuspecting-victim-and-kill-them-after routine, but he definitely didn't like this part of his job. it's so terribly boring as compared to his go-to way of getting information (interrogations! torture! shorter and less effort needed!) it takes too much effort to make sure his target likes him enough to lower their guard around him and spoonfeed him the information he needs. it takes even longer to safely send back acquired information to the pm without anyone suspecting him to be the mole, and usually these missions take months if not years. he doesn't want to invest to much time in something like this, especially when he knows his target is the most boring person to walk upon this planet.

if he was assigned to the leader of some crime syndicate, or maybe the secret mastermind behind a revolution, or even a top-level military agent, he might find the thrill somewhat entertaining. after all, there's something quite wonderful in wrapping an untouchable person around his finger.

but you...

you were painfully ordinary. he understood why it had to be you, a somewhat 'regular' member of the ability group, trusted enough to have access to information that would be useful, but not too high up in the ranks. not to mention, you would eventually be moved up and allowed access into even more highly guarded secrets. if he didn't get to you now, he might never get you at all. if you were too important you'd never trust anyone, and you'd be too paranoid to let slip even seemingly unimportant details. it had to be you, and now.

and he was good at his job. he was charming but not suspiciously so, and not so well known that he would be identified. still, as he watched you before his infiltration had officially started, he realized that you were a fool. too trusting, too smiling, and far too friendly. even akutagawa would have been suited for this job, you wouldn't have suspected a thing. maybe you'd even like the whole grumbling outcast thing he had going on. but no matter how much he whined or complained or groaned, nothing was done about it. he was stuck with you until he finished the mission.

it was probably his hatred towards you that caused him to act so recklessly, and moving the relationship so quickly—from strangers to moving in together within a month. it wasn't hard to have you eating right out of his hand, with some saccharine smiles and soft looks, gentle stroking and—you practically had stars in your eyes. what a fool, he thought, ignoring how the softening of his eyes when you cheerfully ran into his arms happened somewhat naturally. you must have been desperate if you so eagerly accepted his sudden advances.

he still hated you, of course. he recorded your wrongdoings so he could unleash his fury later, when you were no longer of use. that time you ran your fingers through his hair, he swore to break each and every bone in your hand. and when you dragged him out on dates he planned out the appropriate punishment, same as when you touched him or kissed him or smiled up at him with so much warmth it made him sick—you made him sick, and you'd pay for that, eventually.

surprisingly, despite his overall sleazy and cruel demeanor—he never paid for dates (even though he was given the funds), and never bought you presents after the third one. he never initiated any physical affection, and straight up ignored your calls sometimes—after you were officially dating you still seemed to like him. you probably idolized him, after being starved of affection for so long. any crumb of affection he gave you, whether it was a fake smile or a stiff pat, you'd eagerly eat up. it was so pathetic he almost felt bad for you. even know, this relationship wasn't real, but you were a fool who thought you found love. not like this arrangement was anything you should be mourning.

were you hoping he'd turn back to the charming guy you met all those weeks ago? did you really have no clue that you fell in love with a lie? or maybe, you just couldn't comprehend someone using you. after all, you weren't very wealthy or connected to anyone influential. all you had was your job, and that was meaningless to most people. perhaps you thought he was most people, because it was so easy to get things out of you. at night, when the two of you were awkwardly lying down in bed, he just had to roll over, throw an arm around you and whisper into your ear, asking about your day. and then everything came pouring out. you weren't so stupid as to directly admit you worked for an ability organization, but the details were still correct. you'd tell him about the planning you had to do for a company event nearby, and just as you said, a week later the group he was targeting was there for something. it was so easy, now, to intercept all their plans. you were annoying but...somewhat useful.

and then...it happened.

dazai didn't realize there had been a last-minute change in plans. your group had come onto the meeting spot earlier than you had said they would be, and he was caught red-handed inside the building. to his surprise, you, without even stopping to consider his intentions, immediately shot up to defend him, excusing him saying that he probably just stopped by to visit you. your coworkers relaxed and slowly agreed. they, too, thought dazai didn't know about the 'company' you worked for, and thought he was just being a considerate boyfriend. it couldn't be farther from the truth, but he didn't care what they thought.

you saved him.

and it wasn't the only time, either. there were the times you've nursed him back to health after yet another one of his stupid stunts, the times you've waited hours for him to turn up for a date, complaining but never actually mad, the times you've made him something to eat, knowing he didn't care much about eating healthy. it infuriated him how genuinely selfless you were, even to an asshole like him.

you cared about him, like you cared for everyone else in your life, even though he knew he didn't deserve it. it was so nice, though, as much as he hated admitting it, to be cared for. to be looked after and loved genuinely despite his shortcomings. sometimes he wondered if you'd only love him more if he cleaned up his act. the more you smiled at him and gently nudged him awake and asked him if he ate and showed him things you thought he'd like, the more he realized he was getting a little attached to you.

and then, he came to a decision.

you were far too nice to him for him to just leave you to die after this mission. and you were far too kind to have such a terrible boyfriend. he could at least try to completely win you over now before you inevitably found out about his true intentions and then, you'd really hate him since he would have killed your friends. he decided you would stay with him, regardless of how the mission went.

he probably should have considered your confusion when your usually aloof boyfriend suddenly became a completely new person. you'd wake up and get ready to leave when an arm suddenly wraps around you and dazai whines at you about not leaving. whines! the same man who'd rarely say a word to you until breakfast was acting so...clingy all of a sudden, though you'd be lying if you said you hated it. suddenly your days were filled with constant kissing and an arm always around you, dazai showing up at your workplace more often to grab lunch with you and boldly flirting with you. sure, there was something quite terrifying about the way he glared at your coworkers, his eyes so blank it was eerie, but you forgot all about it once he snuggled into your neck and placed a kiss on your collarbone.

and then there was his insistence that you were being overworked when he normally wouldn't have cared what time you came home, as long as you did come home, going so far as to contacting your boss to demand you get more time off. of course, everyone laughed it off as your boyfriend simply being concerned for your health and your boss complied, shortening your hours and granting you a long overdue break. your life was just so perfect now. and to think you were worried about him wanting to break up. whenever you asked dazai why he was suddenly so expressive, however, he would only give you a vague answer about realizing it was unfair of him to let out his anger by treating you coldly and wanting to fix things. because, as he said so often, he loved you.

"nobody could love you as much as i do," he would say, "seriously, i think i could die in my love for you. you're everything to me and i love you so much."

maybe you should have noticed how...intense his feelings were then,

it all came crashing down one day when you saw a text on his phone—someone asking him to gather more information about the ability users in the group you were in. he wasn't supposed to know about that, and by the looks of it, he had been using you to steal intel the entire time. though you felt stupid now, you were more concerned about how you could put an end to it now, especially because you were in so deep with him. at least a while back you could have quickly ended things with him using the reason of being a terrible partner, but now, it would only raise suspicion with him and your coworkers. how were you to explain your boyfriend had been spying on you the entire time to anyone? what would they do to you, and worse yet, what was he planning to do to you once he had no use for you?

the only logical thing to do, in your eyes, was to slowly drift away and eventually break things off with him. his only source of information would be closed then, and you would be safe. the problem was, it was pretty much impossible to leave him. he was always by your side, held you tight as you slept, dropped you off at work and even knew all your friends. how were you supposed to explain to anyone that your boyfriend was going to kill you once he destroyed your group?

as you already figured out, dazai wasn't stupid. it was about time you found out, but now his plans had changed. no more killing you. he could keep you with him permanently now, after forcing you to quit. he didn't need your help anymore for the next part of the plan, which only required him to eradicate the group since they weren't willing to comply to the port mafia's demands. it wasn't like he expected you to sit down and hear him out after finding out he was sort of using you all along, but still, it hurt when you scowled at him and screamed at him. oh well. he could figure it out.

as he smiled down at your bound figure, your eyes wide at the blood soaking his coat, realizing what he had just done, he decided he would stop at nothing to convince you of how much he loved you.

really, he wouldn't trade this for the world.

[thedeathwitchescats]

daily offerings I want to add into my practice

First up is deities I actively work with and worship heavily

Hades

Tarot pulls

Working on my death alter

Cleaning ((offering both to him and the spirits))

Lighting his candle ((maybe not daily but more regularly than I do right now))

Meditation

Keeping good finances ((once I score a steady job going every day will be devotional time to him as well))

Wearing his necklace or other devotional jewerly

Persephone

Spring and summer

Keeping my room tidy

Keeping my [her] plants alive

Fall and winter

Tarot pulls ((I need to get her a deck))

Moving my meditation with hades outside to honor her as well

Aphrodite

Daily showers

Listening to self love subliminals

Eating fruit

Lighting her candle for skin care ((as well as doing regular skin care))

Daily self cleansing ((even if it is just intentional showering some days))

Remembering to eat every day

Ares

Shadow work ((targeted at anger))

Calming exercises

Deep breathing

Remembering to vent my feelings when they get too big ((even if it is just to his candle))

Dionysus

Sadly I am not able to be medicated ((mental health spooky shit)) yet but that is going to be a devotional act for him once it happens. Currently tho:

Tracking my sh recovery journey

I am going to work on a playlist for him but listening to it will be a daily devotional act ((even just a few songs))

Not daily but regularly watching musical cartoons

Also not daily ((dionysus is very chill in my practice so I dont often work with him every day in large capacities)) but working with and making spell oils

Lady Morrigan

I know some people worship the morrigan as three separate entities but often she presents herself to be as one sole entity ((often as the aspect titled Badb)) so I just refer to her as "Lady Morrigan")) however you work with/worship her is totally valid

Study celtic mythology

Scrying work

Daily coffee with her

Asking for her advice with decisions I know I shouldnt make on my own

Lilith

Shadow work ((general digging into my inner self))

Self love practices ((taking daily time for myself, also considering starting yoga again as a devotional act for her))

Lighting her candle while i get ready ((I wanna do this with a couple people for different reasons but for her specifically I want to devote the time I get dressed to her))

Moon cycle calendar

Queen Maeve

Tend to the plants

Making an alter to the fae is going to be a big devotional act for her as it is gonna be my first outdoor alter

Reading mythology with her

Practicing traditional magic

Now for guides and deities I worship casually

Lady Asteria

I want to start a dream journal dedicated to her

Sleep meditation

Lady Freya

Taking care of my kitten

Caring for my personal relationships

Cerridwen

Writing poetry for her

Working on my stories

Asmodeus

Boundary work ((this was why he first appeared into my space, what him and I worked on most while I worked with him, and it is what he helps with now that he took a step back))

Knowing when to quit some things

Lucifer

Shadow work ((when I devote the shadow work to Lilith he usually pops in too))

[djs-den]

i’ve been wanting more canine posts lately and someone once told me “if something doesn’t exist yet, create it” so heres my 10 tips on how to feel more doggy like

hold things with your mouth - make sure the thing your holding is clean ofc. i always hold my phone in my mouth when my hands are full but i occasionally hold clothes and light bags. makes me feel like a good boy fetching my stuff

eat treats! - im a domestic dog so treats to me look more like biscuits and crackers but jerky is also a great option. i like to make my own and shape it like little bones. if anyone wants some easy recipes just ask. i like to reward myself after doing a task by eating a cookie

wiggle wiggle - i dont have a tail so i like to wiggle when im happy. it doesnt look too strange to strangers and gives me species euphoria. i like to wag my foot when i sit down and shake side to side when im standing.

wear affirming clothes - im not just talking about collars and tails. anything that makes you feel more like yourself. i have this brown fleece hoodie in the colour of my fur and wear a bandanna around my neck like a collar. anything that makes you feel happy

make sounds - i like to make a little ʷᵒᵒᶠ under my breath like a sigh. some people find vocalisations weird so i like to blend it in a way it sounds natural like whining a bit when im feeling sad or bored or bark my words out by saying it loud and quick like HEY!!

walk near nature - i live in a city dense area where theres not alot of (safe) parks nearby. so i always hang around near trees and grass to feel more connected with nature. if you can go to a park or forest then thats amazing. taking time to admire nature feels good

act playful - this is more for puppies or domestic dogs. i like to walk around my friends when we talk and move around. i cant exactly play-bow in the middle of a busy sidewalk so i usually lean on a surface or wiggle around.

ask for affection - im lucky to be surrounded by people who like to show their affection. either by verbal praise or physical touch like hugs. if you dont have access to acts like this then ask (if its safe). sometimes i just ask my parents for a hug or show something im proud of. you can also write down some affirmations on a note and remind yourself that you are perfect the way you are ◡̈

sleep dog-like - most ppl cant roll themselves into a ball but you can definitely hug a pillow. i like to sleep in a fetal position and with my back to the headboard but thats cuz im smaller than my bed. just be careful and make sure your in a comfortable position and not straining. making your bed nest like also fun.

eat out of bowls - sounds like a silly thing to say but i always feel puppy like when i eat from a bowl and not a plate. small things to make you feel more in tune with your true self

[foggylikemyvision]

𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻?

okay so like yk how you get that Urge to bite people? I act on it a lot specifically with like my sibling n stuff. so just.. sagau with a hobgoblin creator. I personally can like vibrate myself and do an a+ goblin giggle and voice- even turning into mickey mouse on accident at times so like- shit wait why don't I just do 'reader but it's just me in genshin' ANYWAYS--

slight suggestive themes at Lisa and Miko's part but also it's Lisa and Miko what do you expect me to do? not make her kinky? lots of cussing. what do you expect from me? also jean and lisa were written at midnight and the rest at 7am :)

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Jean Gunnhildr

So like she's just concerned-

cause you just walk up to her doing a little goblin giggle and give her a hug

and then she

she just feels your teeth sink into her forearm without warning

also the mass amounts of dishes and random shit around your work area??

and how you just don't fuckin sleep? ever?

and when you do you sleep for like an entire day straight????

You concern this woman.

Severely.

Ignore how she constantly gets Barbara on your case about eating and sleeping healthily.

it totally wasn't her she isn't concerned for you at all psh who do you take her for?

also ignore how you feel her relax now whenever you chomp into her

just a little chomp

a nibble.

Lisa Minci

when I tell you this bitch is kinky ASF

just moans as soon as she feels you nom her shoulder

it's ironic of course but this bitch sends you into shock!!

fucking goes 'augh harder daddy!'

you moan? you moan in readers ear like they are your lover? jail for Lisa!! jail for one thousand years!!!

goofiest mf you'll ever meet.

does apologize while laughing later but you are forever scarred

oh um also

she fuckin gets jean on your case

who then gets Barbara on your case.

who gets the whole of mondstadt on your case.

so like have that hehehehhe

when you vibrate I hate to say it but her mind goes to the most unholy places istg

has you say the lewdest shit in your mickey voice

lowkey threatens you

she forces you to take naps with her

Venti

goblin ass mf

bites you back. doesn't apologize.

this bitch bites HARD

you go around pranking the citizens of mondstadt together

definition of *bites you cutely*

chaos bringer with you

he force feeds you apples and water

oh and he will make you float if you refuse to clean your shit

if you have a fear of heights?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

all jokes aside probably the chillest out of mondstadt.

doesn't really care

he's a biter too tbh

ACTUALLY FUCKING UNDERSTANDS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A BITE, CHOMP, AND NOM. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD

NO ONE GETS IT RIGHT!!!!

fyi bite is malicious, chomp is playful, and nom is just soft.

also forces you to take naps with him.

bullies you up into the windrise tree lmao will not let you get down

finds it funny when he lifts you into the air and you panic

and just turn into fucking MICKEY MOUSE

Amber

does not care about the biting

noms you back aswell

this bby dealt with collei's emo ass she can put up with you

completely oblivious to the fact you're constantly moving in some way

sometimes is a goblin with you

you two annoy eula together

she gives you a non-explosive baron bunny because you're one of her favorite persons yk?

enjoys your mickey voice thoroughly

warmest bitch

if you cold? hell yeah cuddles

if you're touchstarved? hell yeah cuddles

she will DROWN YOU in affection

has bitten you before

loves you /p or /r its up to you the author has no opinion

deals with your damn bone crunches and helps you work by humming slightly

helpful little baby

i dont know if you can tell but i really love amber she hHhhjm

Shenhe

also a chaos bringer

but in a calmer way

doesn't really understand the biting but is okay with it

is practically your bodyguard

just with more affection

and love

and okay she's nothing like your bodyguard

doesn't know how to get you to clean your shit

just cleans it up for you a lil

does get fed up with you sometimes and just leaves for a few days??

i dont know either

shenhe is concerned with how you just summon the souls of the damned in the middle of a conversation- sometimes on accident, even.

you could be playing uno or something with shenhe, paimon, and the traveller and then suddenly just rip your vocal chords to shreds after they +4 stack you.

its really funny to watch actually :))

you both have godawful sleep schedules and diets.

she cannot help you.

tldr clueless dumbass in the best way

Ganyu

bb

she sleeps through everything you do

if you're tired you two just evaporate

also she is confused the first time you bite her but afterwards she doesn't really care

will hold your hand while she's working and apologizes if she needs 2 hands to do something

you have to beg her to take time off which is incredibly funny considering its coming from you

overall she's just so cute i love her

drown her in affection!!!

do it!!!

Raiden Ei

ditzy airhead

as usual ofc

she is completely oblivious to your chomping because if this is pre-traveler then she just cannot feel it. the shogun cannot feel

she has no nerves lmao

post-traveler she is just.. concerned?

why the fuck did you just bite her what the fuck is wrong with you??

doesn't get the Urge

yells at you gently to clean up your shit in the most passive-agressive way possible because jfc she can smell it from the next room over and why the hell are you sleeping on the ground go get into bed

laughs at you

if you're feeling touch-starved she just,,, sits there. gives you sweets.

idk what you really wanted she's also touch-starved she hasn't had human contact in 500+ years

100% tries to sic sara on you at least once

ignore her she's wanted in several countries

Yae Miko

also a kinky mf

but in a different font

bites you back maliciously

also chomps you but its usually malicious

similar to venti in several ways and also similar to lisa in another several ways

beats you up if you don't clean up your shit and doesn't eat and drink a healthy amount

moans in your ear like lisa

except she does it and then bites you

doesn't apologize either

teases you relentlessly

miko 100% has tried to push you down the mountain at least once

it was very funny

wants your readussy /p /j

overall she's mean to you and i love her for it

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

lmao sucks to suck they all bite you >:)

-myx

[fish-at-fish-fish-resort]

*ring* *ring*

"allo?"

"hey candi, its me mahi"

"oh morning mahi. why're you calling this early? did something happen?"

"more or less. do you think you and ikkan can handle the store alone today? i couldnt sleep a wink last night and REALLY dont feel capable of going to work today. *sniff* i dont wanna lock myself in the bathroom like neta always does hehe"

"take your time darling, well handle the shop today. take care of yourself alright? if you need to talk to someone i can always lend an ear."

"thanks candi. but dont worry, mizoles coming over in a bit anyway. im good. i promise. see you tomorrow."

*click*

"mahi?"

"over here"

"babe..... what happened"

"nothing... im just overreacting...."

"no youre not. tell me whats on your mind"

"youre gonna think its dumb..."

"i should feel insulted you think that about me"

"pff ur right. im just worried about neta and warabi. especially warabi. actually only warabi, i know neta can handle himself. and i know neta said its just a low risk mission but what if something happens to him. what if he gets into some dumb argument with some other soldier and gets beaten up. what if he gets lost. what if he dies. and- and i cant call or text him or anything because they couldnt *hic* couldnt bring their phones and im just so lonely and i dont know what to do without him here *sniff* i miss him so much"

"and its just the 3rd day of their mission and theyll be gone for at least 2 more days and i already cant sleep! i just want him back home.....ugh sorry i probably sound pathetic"

"no you just sound like your wife died"

"i FEEL like my wife died!" *uncontrolled sobbing*

"hey... cmere... look at me. theyll be fine alright? warabi managed to get on netas good side im sure the other soldiers will warm up to him too. plus neta wouldnt let anything happen to his number one employees best friend and husbands bandmate, right? and im sure if it was actually dangerous his parents wouldve intervened"

"*sniff* yeah... youre right.... i just miss him....."

"i have an idea. were gonna have a fun day together: eat breakfast at a nice buffet and go to wahoo world. we can also call your friend, uhhh what was her name? umami??"

"umishi?"

"yeah that one! she can join too! i wanted to get to know her anyway"

"hehe i dont know if shed like to get to know you though"

"whats that supposed to mean?"

"oh nothing nothing hehehe"

"hmmm fine whatever, ill excuse it cause youre cute."

"youre such a sap"

"and you smell like rotten sushi. get in the shower, im cleaning your kitchen"

>this plays parrallel to @yesyourstalker's posts w warabi and neta. :) just thought hmmmm how does mahi feel about this

umishi was metnioned sooooo @catastropic

[sexisdisgusting]

Hiii I hope it’s okay if I rant about a male to you but feel free to ignore me if it’s not ^^

So about a year ago I let a male friend live in my tiny, one bedroom apartment with me. He slept in my living room on a mattress I gave him.

He literally trashed my apartment—he left fast food bags, wrappers, cups, dirt, etc. all over my floor; he practically refused to do ANY basic household chores; he brought his other male friends into my home, most of the time without my permission, and played video games loudly in the next room at night while I was trying to sleep.

All I asked of him was $200 a month to help with rent, groceries, & the utility bill. This fucking asshole couldn’t even scrape up that much money when he had absolutely no other financial obligations. I worked full-time, 40 hours a week while he worked 10, sometimes 15 hours a week. And I still had to do all the chores if I didn’t want my apartment looking & smelling like an absolute pigsty 24/7. He was fully able-bodied btw and there was no reason he couldn’t get a full-time job like a big boy or at least do basic chores.

Instead he stayed home, watched TV, and played video games all day long while dirtying up my house, running up my utility bill almost three times as much as it was without him there, and eating all the food I bought with my own money.

Not to mention he litERALLY BROUGHT FUCKING BED BUGS INTO MY HOME MAKING ME HAVE TO THROW AWAY MY ENTIRE BED AND BUY A WHOLE NEW ONE. FUCK.

Thankfully this is the closest I’ll ever get to having a man-child husband as I’m a lesbian, but the experience was more than enough for me. I kicked his ass out but not after enduring his shit for a few months.

I feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I am known by most people as a tough, strong-willed woman who doesn’t take shit from anyone, especially men, but somehow I let this male walk all over me bc I cared about him.

And it was easier for me to get rid of him than it likely is for straight/het-partnered women to get rid of their man-child husbands/boyfriends. I feel for them sometimes, I really do. Some of them are dependent on their husbands/boyfriends in more ways than one, but especially financially.

Well, I will never, ever let a male (aside from my cat) live in my home again. FUCK that.

HIII!! yes of COURSE its okay for you to rant to me about a male, i encourage all my followers to rant to me about the shitty males in their lives!

after reading your entire ask all i can say is... holy fucking shit

why are men so repulsive and dirty, i swear to god its like theyre in a constant state of being mentally two years old, they cannot clean up after themselves, take care of themselves and dont give a fuck about anyone else except themselves, NOT EVEN GIVING A SHIT ABOUT THOSE WHO HELP AND CARE FOR THEM!!!!

listen, you have no reason to be ashamed of yourself, if anything it shows that youre a good person, and friend, youre kind and thats a terrific trait to have

unfortunately someone took your kindness for granted, and im proud of you for sticking up for yourself and kicking his dumbass out

i love you so much anon, i hope youre doing okay now !! <3

[honeybeewhereartthee]

MY DARLING DOLLS 38

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In the mansion that seems to lost its life, a steady footstep of someone who's trying to make sure to not wake anyone up gaze at sleepless figure that continue to sew even it's no longer daylight.

Not caring about he never taken a sleep or rest for months as he continues to sew while tears falling from his eyes.

"you should take a rest, mayochi." Niki commented as he place some midnight snack for the other to dig in to. To restore energy and vitality. "... I can't." The other cried. "Each seconds is important... "

"So are your health. " The other resorted. He sigh before he pulled the sewing kit and the doll that being made away, the other wanted to get it back but his too weak. Niki push the cake in front of him.

"Go eat before you sleep to rest up. Your not a doll anymore. Your human and humans tends to be weaker than dolls." He added as he watch mayoi takes a bit of the cake while tears falling from his eyes.

"It supposed to be birthday cake for rinnes younger brother since his birthday is a few days ago." He mumbles as he remembers that the birthday boy said he will only celebrate it once you return. His blue eyes gaze at the phantom. "Sometimes I wish I can loath you but I loath myself more than I do to you." With his words it felt like thrown in the others.

"Because I can't be you nor I wish to be you. I dont want to call you stupid for wanting them for yourself. Every dolls wish they are the only one cared and love by their owner." He take a bite of the cake as well as he felt stress out by all of this again.

"I... "The phantom wanted to say something but he slowly felt drowsy as if sleep is slowly taken control of him.

He stared at the person before him who's giving him a soft smile on his face. "Have a nice sleep, mayoichi." Niki tells him before he surrender and enter a dream world.

...

Niki put the cover over the sleeping phantom before standing up to clean the plates. "Is it interesting to watch someone again?" He don't even look up to realize it was Rinne who's spying on him earlier. Pretending to be asleep but was awake the whole time.

"You put sleeping pills in his food. What if you put too many huh~ ? Nothing good will happen if something bad fall upon him." The red haired chuckle as he approach him.

"even if I wanted to or not. I cannot do that. MC will be sad if they know." Niki mumbles with a soft chuckle. "They'll hate me. I don't want that." He can't even think of it. He wonders if being humans made him weak to the emotions of attachment he have with you.

"ahh..." The chief pause at his work as he think of something. "Hmm. I guess I care too much about them." He mumbles as he analyze his emotions. His mind is full of you and worries about you instead of the food he wish to eat. He want to eat new meals and cooked mean he prepared with you soon like last time.

"hmm..." He starts to humm as he decided and planned to do once your back.

"it seems shiina have a conclusion of your own." Himeru commented as he stood from the doorway.

"oh... is that you Himeru? Your awake too.." Niki was surprised at the other but smiles as he went to get some cake that's not spike with sleeping pills from the refrigerator to give the two.

"Do you want guys want to eat some cake with me? As we chat." He invited the two. Himeru give him an odd look before joining Rinne to seat around the table.

"Heyy..." From the doorway as the three was going to take a bite of their cake Kohaku who heard the noise from the kitchen approaches them. "It's already late at night what are you--"

"Come join us~" Niki chuckle as he pulled Kohaku to another set with them serving him, his own slice of cake. The pinky who's also getting hungry for abit of snack, comply.

They all look at one another through they all silently eating before Rinne poke some icing to Himeru face. "Ahaha~" he laughs, through his trying to break the heavy mode. "Shut it Amagi." Himeru mumble before Rinne proceed to put icing on Niki instead.

"Rinne!" The chief called out, Rinne is wasting food again! He was going to complain but war broke lost between them and now there's food everywhere.

Their face full of icing as they lay on the floor, not caring if it's dirty or not. They have smile on their faces before long the silence is broken. "Do you guys miss mc..." Niki began.

"Hmm... No." Rinne thought about it..that rascal that did nothing good for themselves unlike they do to others is gone for so long. "They'll come home when they are done with what they are doing."

"when is that..." Kohaku.

"who knows?" The leader of the batch can only laugh as the pinky glared at him.

...

-PAST: MC-

You stared at the reflection of yours in the water. You give a cheeky smile as you try to remove the heart paint that the lady of the house painted on you earlier.

"who are you..." You mumble confuse at your own reflection. You felt that's not how you look like before but so many things have happened. You felt so confuse each days, months and year goes by. A bit of yourself felt lost, almost as if your no longer you of before.

"the dollmaker." You heard someone spoke to you across from the river bank. You stared up and meet red orbs of a black cat. "MC." His eyes seems full of sadness as he look at you.

"Man I most be going crazy there's a talking cat now." You spoke out loud as you rub your eyes and still see the black cat.

"It's not a dream you silly." The black cat rolled his eyes at you. He was about to jump but you saw him limping and something red start to flow out of him causing him to slide on one of the rocks.

"Hey!" Your eyes widen in worry and before you know it you jump on the running water to rescue to talking cat. In the dark current of the water you reach out your hand to him and secure the kitty in your arms and forgetting to breath in your own as your too surprised but you made sure to have the kitty above water level and everything turns black when you hit your head on the big rock on the river.

'fuck...' you cannot help but want to scream why your luck is bloody as this. The last thing you remember is someone calling out for you.

[homo-rashi]

personal vent post TW CPTSD, Sick Animals, blood, Death,

long story short, I took care off a sick family pet for multiple years, they were very, very sick and it was very overwhelming for me. I was by myself due to covid lockdown most of the time and it was just me and the sick animal. I was in my late teens during this whole ordeal, but its normal to live alone in my country for attend high school in different towns.

I loved this pet so much, but they were pooping blood at an uncontroableness but they were still happy and eating and fine in every other aspect until they passed...that being said, they were about 80lbs. a large pet and they were in my bed most of the time and I couldnt move them by myseld. (im skinny and not very strong)

due to laundry services being closed in my country to covid, I couldnt due laundry and was often sleeping for days on end in blankets covever in blood and liquid poop from my pet. I would find one clean spot and cover myself up with it. I would spray a sink cloth with cologne and press it too my nose so i could sleep because it smelled so bad.

this was my life from just before covid lockdown to late 2022. I was living hell. I would often times find myself hiding in my closet away from my pet (they were safe and didn't need constant care) with my hands over my ears because they would cry if they were along and hearing them cry made me shake, I was terrified. I didn't want them to pass, but I couldn't take taking care of them at times. It was traumatizing.

I have a new pet now who is older and not always in the greatest health and whenever she gets sick, I go back to that place, how I was in lockdown. I freeze, I cry, I cant stop myself from shaking and I often throw up because of how afraid I am of being around a sick animal or any of my animals being sick again.

I think I have either PTSD or CPTSD from the entire expirence but I feel stupid because when youre googleing symptoms of CPTSD, is states its a response to thinks like years off sexual or physical abuse...so me being this...messed up over a sick animal? I dont know I just feel like i'm faking it but, i'm not.

does anyone have any expirence with trauma around animals? pls talk to me.

[cheriiyaya]

Okay so— feel free to ignore but I need to talk about this with someone and know if I'm alone or not.

I HATE most fics where the reader has anxiety, maybe is anxious that the partner is getting tired of them, or cheating or them or anything along those lines, and the only thing that the partner does to make up and """"reassure""""???? the reader is with sex.

Now, I want to specify; I have NOTHING against who write these, I have nothing against who likes and these, and damn, sometimes I also find myself liking them.

But some are just so... I don't know how to put it into words. Like, where is the comfort? Frankly, eating out the reader's feminine area or fucking them senseless does not ease the paranoia or erase the problem at the beginning of the fic.

Most of these I found are: The reader is anxious. The reader talks with the partner, the partner understands (sometimes after an argument), and decides that for showing that they love the reader they have to fuck them, make love with them, depends on the way the sex is written ig lol.

And that's it! Where's the reassurance? Where are the kind, soft demonstrations that are not carnal desire that could actually ease the reader's anxiousness??

I am an anxious person if you can't tell LIKE LMAO YOU CAN NOTICE SO WELL AFTER EVERYTHING I'VE WRITTEN BYE, so when fics like this happen I kinda a lil bit gets frustrated (I repeat nothing against who likes/writes this).

And no, I don't mean aftercare; I don't mean after sex a softy partner who cleans them up, showers with them, brings them to bed and cuddle to sleep. This may be enough for a normal person, but an anxious person does NOT work like this.

Now, please don't come at me pls pls I don't want anyone to write in the way I desire or feel judged because honestly I appreciate most writings and most of these stories I stumbled upon are written BEAUTIFULLY, HEAVENLY. It's just something that gets me a lil frustrated.

Idk, hope this won't come off as mean, or rude, or anything.

Have a great day/night, DON'T FORGET TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, eat healthy and drink water! Okay so— feel free to ignore this but I need to talk about this with someone and know if I'm alone or not.

NONNIE !! NO I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHA U MEAN !! i dont read smut n i usually just delete asks that hafta do w it BUT OMGGGGGG THIS ACTUALLY ANNOYS ME SM

LIKE I HAVE ANXIETY AND IK IF IM FEELING ANXIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING GUYS FUCKING IS NOT GONNA FIX IT FRANKLY I'D FEEL EVEN MORE ANXIOUS (especially bc i have sexual trauma) LIKE I'D THINK U ONLY WANT ME FOR MY BODY NOT THAT U ACTUALLY LOVE ME NBVJKWFNVWEKJGVNJN like im sorry but it wouldnt fix the problem (at least for me) and im not gonna come after u bc i understand completely wha u mean !! personally while i dont read or write it i think smut can be a way to show that strong connection w someone BUT ISTGGGGGG THESE PPL WHO WRITE THESE FICS USUALLY DONT HAVE ANXIETY actually most fics where the reader is insecure or anxious, whether sfw or nsfw, usually does it rlly badly and im saying this as a person w diagnosed anxiety qwq

[libbee]

Whether anything in life is significant or not?

We are often taught, "You are insignificant in the grand scheme of universe. Nothing matters. You will die anyway". If I accept this assertion, then how will I know what things are significant in my life? If everything is insignificant then why do I live and why do I exist? Why make any effort at all?

If everything is insignificant then will you ever defend yourself in an argument? Will you ever act in self defense? Will you ever protect your family and tribe? If yes, then how are these things insignificant? It means that those things ARE significant. That those things do matter. That you do matter in the grand scheme of universe.

Is this an arbitrary decision between which things are significant and which are not? If my father is significant to me, is a stranger man also as significant to me as my father? How so? 1. The stranger man could be father to a child; 2. The stranger man had emotions and personality; 3. The stranger man has a life history and destiny; 4. Do unto others what you would want to be done to yourself. In this way, even a stranger man in streets is as significant to me as my father. If a stranger is valuable to me then his life does matter in the grand scheme of things.

Life is significant. Life is meaningful. What is 'meaning'? It is anything that helps me learn something, improve myself or unlearn something that no longer serves me. Is self improvement meaningful? Is it significant in the grand scheme of universe? It is significant to me.

For so long I am here alive on earth, I will deal with my inner conscience and emotions. Doing self improvement makes me feel right. It makes me feel worthwhile. It gives me self respect. I feel like I belong to a team of "the good citizens of the universe".

I want to make a good impression on others. Doing self improvement, being authentic, socializing with my real face, doing work, in every day of my life I have to engage in a lot of things that make up my life. I want to leave a good impression on others.

I believe that anyone behaves in "good way" only because of knowledge of consequence. If a so called evil act did not have any consequence then anyone would do it without any second thought. It is not just about legal or social or financial consequences, sometimes people worry about karmic consequences. For eg, if I abuse someone, karma will come back at me. In other cases, wasting your time, energy, resources are the consequences of engaging in useless arguments.

Nobody likes being around "negative" people. If I go around saying nothing matters life is meaningless, I will make no friends. It does not imply that I am a people pleaser. It means that such nihilistic attitude towards life gets on your nerves. For eg, why go to school or college or job if nothing matters? Why do marriage or have kids or take care of your parents if nothing matters? Why have doctors or scientists or service workers if nothing matters? Why cook or clean or eat or sleep if nothing matters? It means that life does matter. We have to have some meaning in life to even survive.

Does this mean that I am not Nihilist? I am Nihilistic. I believe that life is meaningful. And I also believe that life is meaningless. It is a balance of meaningful and meaningless. Everything matters yet nothing matters.

So I personally chose to apply nihilism in mindless situations. Like gossiping, partying, watching movies or porn or listening to songs. These are the things which I find to be meaningless in my life. 1. I dont make money from them; 2. They do not give me happiness; 3. They dont make me feel worthwhile. They dont make me feel like I am doing something right with my life. 4. I have been to "that" side of the world. The dating, smoking, drinking or the so called "cool" side of the world. It looks rebellious from a distance. It looks like they are living out their shadows. They are free in the ways I was not. They were having fun, enjoying life, giving a middle finger to society.

Until I got even closer to the scene and realized that the whole cool vibe thing is just a glamorous smoke. Those people were hiding massive insecurities and terrible character dysfunction behind the mask. The difference is that those people chose to deal with their insecurities and flaws with mind numbing distractions. I finally decided to walk a path o self development and meaning.