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ashsimpsalot · 4 months

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thank you for doing god's work and blessing us with wonderful monkey man fics 🫡

if youre taking requests, id like to make one with a blackwidow!reader, she's undercover at the hotel as well and was confused when someone made an attempt at rana singh then tracks kid down and even helps him train. they go through the fight together and after that they start a new life in the end 🫶

sorry if its too specific, feel free to make any changes however you like and tysm in advance if you decide to do this 🩷✨️

The lack of kid x reader content is killing me. I'm glad you liked my fics though, thank you for reading! THIS IS MY FIRST REQUEST EVER ERM

I've never written action before, hopefully I do this fic justice. Im sorry if it just seem like I'm yapping😭

Hands Up (Kid X Blackwidow!Reader)

Holy Fuck!

You've been undercover in India for almost 2 months and you didn't even know autos could drift like that!

You're hot on their trail, abusing the throttle to its limit.

Whoever this guy is, he's either extremely ballsy, or extremely stupid to go after Rana Singh like that.

The helmet didn't help with the shooting sounds at all, you couldn't take it anymore, drifting away and avoiding to be near but near enough that you could see where the guy was going. Your already ringing ears would go deaf if you trailed them any closer.

Shit he went into an alleyway.

Your eyes trailed around the road.

Bingo

Another alley that links to his spot.

Maybe it took you 5 minutes extra but once you got there, the auto was already flipped onto its side, empty. The policemen were chasing someone who's running on foot.

Running on the fucking roof!

Limping.

You twisted the throttle of the motorbike to chase after him but he ended up falling onto the road after an officer shot his leg

You hit the brakes. Tires screeching loud at how sudden the brake was. Stopping the bike right in front of him.

"get the fuck on! Hurry!"

He looked confused but decided to question it later and hopped on.

You zoomed away from the place, going into an alley an coming out the other, making sure no one sees where you guys were headed.

His grip on your waist loosens.

Oh no he's losing blood.

"man don't pass out on me yet!" you yelled, making sure he heard but his answer was mumbling and gibberish. Before he could limp off of the bike, you reached back and placed one hand on his back.

You sighed and accepted your fate, your arms going to hurt from the weird position but at least he won't fall off.

You zoomed right to the temple, dragging this tall building of a man in with you all by yourself.

You called on Alpha, she almost chuckle at how you struggle to bring the man in.

"I told you, child, if you need help, ask for it," she said like a mother nagging her child while helping you steady the man.

"I am asking for help, help this guy," you reply mumbling like a teenager after being scolded, she let's out a huff and guided the man onto the makeshift bed.

"wait outside, take care of your own wounds, hm? There's food in the kitchen, eat up," she said softly then closes the curtain.

A pang in your heart, she's like a mother to all these people here and to you too. You didn't expect to step foot on the motherland and gain an actual mother figure.

When you hear the man screaming in agony you knew exactly what she was doing as you yourself was on that makeshift bed a month ago.

You chuckled and went to the kitchen.

After indulging in a plate of naan and a cup of coffee, you sighed and lean against the chair, closing your eyes, floating in a food coma. finally taking the well needed rest you've been procrastinating.

That is until a soft pinch on your shoulder startle you.

"I told you to tend to your wounds first, child," Alpha scolded, dragging a chair in front of you with the small medical box in her hands.

25 years of training, nothing could get past you.... except for Alpha. For some reason she has a way to sneak up on you.

You gave a silly smile, letting her tend to your light wounds. "I was hungry," she hummed dismissively.

"the man is alright, he'll need a few hours before he regain consciousness. Who is he?" she asked, eyes still pinned onto the cut on your arm.

"he tried to go after Rana Singh, all by himself, in Queenie's hotel with a small gun. I think he could've succeeded but not sure what made him miss the shot," you said simply.

"why did you help him?"

"he's stupid but I saw how he fought, he's got potential,"

Alpha hums and packs the medical box. "and maybe because he has a pretty face," you joked while grinning at her. She chuckled and shook her head and stood up.

"your bed roll is still unused," she said, some guilt creeps up on you. You left, after staying with them for a month, to go after Queenie.

"thank you,"

You went to take a little nap.

When you open your eyes again, you heard chaotic voices of confusion. The guy had woken up.

"hey, clam down,"

"you? You're... The chef?" he's more confused than ever. You nodded. "look, you're still recovering, take it easy and sit down. I'll explain everything."

He seemed reluctant but sat down on the nearest branch anyway.

"who..are you?" he asked, eyes pinning on his fidgetung hands.

You started with your name and he nodded. Taking a few seconds, wondering where to start.

"I'm a blackwidow, well, was a Blackwidow, after the fall of the red room most widows just work with each other trying to free others who were injected with mind controlling serum."

Blackwidow? His mind flashed to pictures of the only famous widow, Natasha Romanoff, the fucking avenger? He looked confused but try to take in what you said.

"but I didn't do that. I came for revenge."

"revenge? On whom?" he looked up at you, you knew that look in his eyes, you see them in your own everyday, the thirst for revenge, sunk in a sea of violence.

"They ship kids, the red room, they take us in very very young." you started with a heavy voice, you've told this story multiple times but fuck, knowing you're so near to where it happened is just too much.

"and where do you get kids, untraced, unwanted, unregistered kids?" your eyes lifted to look at him, as if quizzing him. He shook his head as a sign that he never thought about that.

"human trafficking rings, prostitution rings and Queenie just happen to have the biggest rings in whole of fucking Asia,"

He furrowed his eyebrows. He's known a fair share of prostitute, most of them keep their kids, at least his mother kept him, but his mother did left to live somewhere else.

"Queenie has a reportation to uphold, she can't have legal cases against her, she can't have her girls die from multiple abortion, the kids will just be threads someone could pull and find out the truth so she cuts em. Take all the kids and ship them for the red room. She got a ton of money for that too,"

He looked horrified, he didn't even know that was a thing people fucking do.

"I want to put a stop to this, maybe there red room is gone but she's still doing something with those kids,"

He looked up at you and nodded, he understood.

"what about you? Going after Rana Singh by yourself like that, in his own slice of heaven,"

He sighed then stared off into the distance, he's eyeing the kids who were giggling and chasing each other in the middle of the temple.

A sense of innocence both of you lost a long time ago.

"he killed my mother," you sucked in a quick breath. Mother, you're both avenging your mothers then. Though he's avenging a woman he knew and you don't event know the name of yours.

"then we better get ready. I saw you, when you were fighting. You fight a lot?"

"at the ring. For money" you nodded, you know of the tiger temple, an excuse to gamble, honestly.

"I realise you let your left hand go idle for too long, we'll work on that," you simply said and stood up.

"though for now, you should rest, I'm going for a shower, Alpha will bag my ears off if she realise I took a nap before showering."

You offered him a smile, half joking.

The next few weeks are dedicated to teaching him, reminding him not to neglect his left hand. Another habit you see is that he sucks in and hold his breath in while throwing a punch, leaving his breathing a little erratic after a long fight.

"there you go, Kid!" you yelled with a smile after he basically torn the makeshift punching bag.

He walked towards you. "was that good?"

You nodded though a silly smile creeped on your lips. "yeah, had the whole temple screaming, I bet it was because your lack of clothing," you teased. Kid smiled, a genuine smile, and thanked you.

One night he went missing, two nights before diwali, a bag of money was hung on one of the branches with a note with his writing on it.

You went to find him and when you did he looked apologetic.

"I told you, we're doing this together," you said, hitting him with a slap on his stupid face. He turned back to look at you. "I'm sorry I... I had to fight in that ring alone."

His voice soft but fuck, his lips looks softer, maybe he saw that desire in your eyes because he had them in his own. He pulled your arms softly, leaning down to kiss you on your lips.

"we stick together, that's the plan," you breathed softly after he pulled away. Kid, being himself, didn't say anything and nodded.

He didn't think he could've kept that promise but he did.

The night of diwali, you dragged him out of the burning hotel, he had passed out after killing Baba Shakti.

He woke up to the same scene he did almost 2 months ago but this time with familiar faces and a heavier feel in his chest, relief. Relief that he's alive, that's new for him.

"you're awake," you said. He looked dreamy, that's also new.

"why are you looking at me like that?" you asked, worried if he had lost too much blood or hit his head too hard somewhere. Your hands carefully trace his face, head even body to inspect if Alpha had missed a wound somewhere.

He shook his head, toon your wandering hands in his and smiled.

Fuck, he's finally home.

With the woman he loves, a sanctuary that might need fixing but filled with pure love, a worried woman that plays a role his mother played years ago.

He had a reason to live.

"I love you," Kid whispered, he trued to think of the last time he's said that but no memory came up.

Your eyes soften and that day he fell deeper.

"I love you too"

A few years later he'd tell the kids that laid on his chest, with his hair and your eyes, a smile on his face, proudly tracing the memory of how the wild monkey finally find his peace with a spider.

The little girl laughed. "amma'a a spider!" she would repeat that again and again as if that's the funniest thing her appa ever said, her brother chasing after her, suddenly it's a game of tag.

"don't run!" Alpha would scold after the two almost bumping into her, scared that she'll accidentally spill the drink she's taken for herself.

Kid laughed.

His life is perfect.

It's perfect.

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Subway to Stardew - Passenger Events - Saloon Part 2

This plays after you see the first saloon event (submas having lunch with Elliott!) and visit on a Friday after reaching 3 hearts with Elesa.

Commentary under the read-more!

Did you notice the sprites? No? Great! I finally stopped procrastinating and recolored their spritesheets so now they don't share the same brown outline and match vanilla style a bit more!

Sprite-wise... they're over 80. Emmet's in his 90's.

So many sprites.....

Also... Elesa's back! We have a basic outline for what would happen in Elesa's events, but we haven't written anything for her yet... She has plans though! She's rounding up all the artists for it. Meanwhile, submas are still struggling with passenger relations.

Elesa's storyline is going to be fun to plan out but one of her B plots is making sure Ingo and Emmet take their breaks!

Elesa's fun. She's a bit awkward herself (girl can NOT keep a secret for the life of her) but she's doing things. Nimbasa trio share a braincell and they pass it around throughout this event.

We wanted to show a little more insight into their life in the valley and how others feel about them. This time, you're catching them on a bad day. One of my favorite things about Stardew is how everyone is very much flawed in some way and everyone is an unreliable narrator. I love how it just presents life in a run-down town as is and it's up to you to interpret whatever glimpses you get.

Trying to merge the two different media's in terms of tone and seriousness is a bit complex. Pokémon - as a franchise - is at the end of a the day; kid friendly. Stardew Valley, while may look happy go lucky and cute touches upon some really heavy topics.

We are basically skirting the lines here and there with the themes and even trying to make it in character for the Pokémon characters as well.

Taking a kid friendly characters and just trying to touch upon tough subjects while also trying not to seem OOC or off - is tough. So creative liberties it is.

Not everyone gets along in Stardew. I tried to emphasize that in Sebastian's distaste for submas. He would hate being their neighbor. He's cranky because he can't sleep in until 10:00 AM anymore because they're already at work before it turns 6:00 in the morning. Extreme opposites with their problems.

Sebastian and Submas DO NOT get along... They may tolerate each other at the end of the story but they just do not mix well.

I also think that Sebastian would just project a lot of his personal problems onto them... He already does that with Maru. He's not the best taking out his frustrations in the right direction. Haven't finished Maru's passenger event yet (another battle event...) but submas would be decently close with her since she has an interest in Pokemon and Sebastian would take that as "siding" against him. They are also decently aquainted with Demetrius which isn't the best for Sebastian's dad issues. He's not fond of the invasive species they brought in but they do appreciate infodumping to each other about mechanics and such.

Oh, Demetrius... I'm going to have fun with world building info-dumps with him. Ya'll like world building? Well, talk to the villagers, they may have a glimpse into things.

I do headcanon Demetrius (pretty much painfully canon...), Maru, and Sebastian as autistic themselves just like the Nimbasa trio. Unfortunately, that does not necessarily mean that they'll always have solidarity. For one, Sebastian's sensitivity to loud noises puts him at odds with Ingo. Submas fare better with the more infodumpy types.

Sibling relations are a sore subject for all of them so submas are horrified at even the thought of splitting tracks and hating each other because they have codependency issues; Sebastian has an inferiority complex and hates how they make him feel like even more of a failure because he doesn't like Maru. Neither parties are exactly healthy, but you can pick between who you're going for! (I was curious as to what the deal was with Sebastian so he was the first bachelor I married... I think you can tell that I divorced him.)

Sebastian has his issues... He was also going to be my first bachelor but uhh, I went with Harvey. I still love Sebastian as a character tho, he is really complex especially family dynamic wise. I do feel bad for him....

He does. I do appreciate how messy his family dynamic is, but I'm a little biased against him since I appreciate Maru and Demetrius more (sorry). I really like how he doesn't handle his issues healthily (I mean... look at Emmet.) and it's interesting to compare him to the other characters.

Like Sam! Sam's a good kid (college age 20 something year old...) and actually really emotionally mature even if he's a bit childish at times. Abigail... isn't quite all there yet but she has a strong sense of what's right and wrong. She's less hesitant than Sam when it comes to things, but Sam serves a bit as damage control here. I headcanon Sam and Abigail to have ADHD so they kind of have an idea about submas being autistic and what that entails, but it's not at the forefront of their mind. It doesn't help that their autism manifests in verrrrry different ways and they don't really know them all that well in the first place. It's a bit awkward between them but they're okay with each other.

We had a bit of fun determining the heart point changes between each route. Personally, I think friendship decreases are hilarious. Also if you don't back up anyone in this situation then... 🤨

(1) Sebastian -

Ingo -100 | Emmet -250 | Sebastian +250 | Sam -5 | Abigail -15

(2) Ingo -

Ingo +40 | Emmet +5 | Sebastian -100 | Sam -20 | Abigail -25

(3) Emmet -

Ingo +25 | Emmet +30 | Sebastian -100 | Sam -5 | Abigail -5

(4) Sam and Abigail -

Ingo +20 | Emmet +5 | Sebastian -40 | Sam +50 | Abigail +50

(5) Nobody -

Ingo -50 | Emmet -200 | Sebastian -200 | Sam -50 | Abigail -50

I don't see friendship decreases as characters getting angry at you per se. It can always just be them feeling awkward and wanting to distance themselves from you for a bit. For example, if you reject Ingo in his 8 heart event, you get knocked down two hearts just so you can get more friendly-but-not-too-friendly dialogue before it stagnates again at 8 hearts.

The "true ending" is Sam and Abigail's route since they're fairly neutral picks. You should stand up for them! Sebastian would agree that him lashing out was wrong, but he just doesn't want to talk to you about it. Why would he? You would just lecture him or something.

Bad ending is not siding with anybody like a coward. Sebastian's being a bit of a bully here (mainly to a grown man a whole head taller than him, but still, his friends got caught in the crossfire) and if you're wishy-washy then that's just odd of you as the town's farmer and supposed protagonist that goes out of their way to befriend everyone. Not a good look.

Sebastian's route is a bit of a jab at how his romance plays out. A few people have mentioned Emmet and Sebastian being friends with each other under the reasoning that they're lonely autists (but mostly just being favorites, which I get) buuuut... Not sure why you would go for Sebastian when submas is right there. Pick one or the other. They're enemies here. I can't quite see them getting along past that surface-level analysis. Smoking alone is a hard No. from Emmet since birds are super sensitive to airborne toxins (so much so, you can't even have non-stick pans around them!) and he's protective over his defeatist of an Archeops.

Ingo's route is more for fun than anything. If you really want Ingo, you do get the most points with him for mentioning him, but he's confused as to why you're trying to win him over now of all times. He's concerned about Emmet first and foremost!

Emmet has trust issues so even the slightest red flag puts a quite a bit of distance between you. He has low point increases because it's hard to win his trust. In this situation, a point increase mostly just means you didn't do anything wrong. If you side with him, that's what you're supposed to do since he's the side against Sebastian. He may be getting picked on, but he's a bit of an instigator himself. His own route aside, Ingo would be most pleased to see you speak up for his brother. Ingo's route is only has the highest point increases for him because it's well, his.

As for the bar fight... It was a bit difficult to figure out how to make it play out believably and interestingly despite it being three New Yorkers against some grocery store owner. Ingo is more focused on defense, de-escalation, and protecting his passengers (in this case, the college kids). He can take a hit and doesn't want to resort to making any attacks unless absolutely necessary, so he was blocking for the most part. Had Ingo not been the designated grocery shopper, Pierre and Emmet probably would have already killed each other. Emmet doesn't have the patience to deal with Pierre. He thinks Reshiram will smite him for upcharging them and will take it upon himself to deliver the justice of truth. Emmet's swinging at Pierre. Unfortunately, he doesn't have the best defense nor balance when he's kicking and punching. Pierre's too drunk to talk about it, but even sober he suspects that submas are working with Joja because as far as he knows, he saw Morris walk away from the Railroad when they first arrived.

Ah yes. Joja stuff. *Realigns stacks of papers* Lets touch upon Joja here for a moment and Pierre's view of things. When Submas first came around. Pierre was already suspicious of them - more confused if anything - why are two major city boys who also- mind you- come from a foreign region and bring along Pokémon. Take interest in a small town? With an abandon railroad? Right off the bat he does not have a great view; he is worried about his store, his income, and family and this is stemmed all due to Joja Mart.

Now Pierre spots Morris heading towards the railroad - of course Pierre does not know what the interactions between Submas and Morris are. In his mind it's Submas making a deal to work with them or is already with them! Pierre already hates Morris as it is.

That is why he is so passive aggressive to Ingo and Emmet. Just this time around - Pierre is drunk... and Abigail's friend is being "annoyed" by them.

Well... outright agressive in this event haha. I don't quite remember how the idea was finalized, but we decided that they would get into a barfight when doing another "showing passenger relations at the Saloon" event.

As for Joja itself. I most definitely headcannon them in this whole crossover universe as the typical "bad guy" Pokémon team. However they have already won/succeeded (Pokémon are no longer in The Ferngill Republic....) However things are now being shaken up and changing.

I could go on and on about Joja and how I view them... but I think that will be a separate post (if people want to know)

The fight was a pain to debug. For one, Pierre kept running off into the void like a coward. Ingo's lines about staying behind the yellow line were made in the debugging phase because I got fed up with him for doing that.

Worse yet. 1.6 broke the Pokemon animations so now I have to go back into every event and redo everything (RIP green bean X-Scissor). The old method I was using no longer worked; before, I was using the addObject command. Now they show up as error signs because the sprites that were previously on the sheet called from were removed as they are not valid objects.

I ended up having to figure out the temporarySprites command to replace the "using a Pokeball" animation. There are no instances of it being used in vanilla. Nobody seemed to figure it out either, so I had to make a mini-event just to test its usage and figure it out.

I eventually did. Thanks to the help of my emotional support Emmet.

Ah yes... 1.6 has broken some events. Small things. (events are still playable) But we will definitely be revisiting some events to improve or make better. Or to just fix.

I have so much backtracking to do 😭😭😭😭😭 Oh well... I thought events were safe to work on since barely anything about them changed in 1.6... I was wrong.

The ending had quite a bit of revising for concision and tone. It was much more lighthearted in Kade's drafts, but I figured that Emmet is low on steam and probably would have gone nonverbal after everything. Too much passenger interaction for the day. He just wants to depart back to his home station.

Yeah there was a lot of dialog and exposition cut. (Hmm no wonder why it's only 13 minutes long. lol)

Only 13 minutes... Still a lot considering that most vanilla events are around the 1-3 minute mark...

Poor Emmet.. and Ingo. I won't lie, when first seeing the event I burst out laughing during the fistfight. Just somthing about Ingo suddenly collapsing due to Pierre. BUT THEY'RE OKAY - ISH.

It's a bit comical! I had fun ragdolling them. Emmet was going to be much more swingy in his attacks but I ended up not keeping it in since it just didn't look right when used as an animation frame.

We at least kept one of the rag-doll sprite as a "knock back" from Pierre. Which transitions well with his passed out sprite.

Until next time! Thank you for boarding!

#subway to stardew #submas #pokemon #stardew valley #ingo #emmet #elesa #sdv mods #subway to stardew terminal station

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humanitys-strongest-bamf · 1 year

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"get me a damned matcha" | Chapter 12: May I

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✧ pairing ➼ levi ackerman x fem!reader, college x coffee shop x roommates!au ✧ summary ➼ After you find yourself plagued with misfortune due to struggles in your personal and family life, you find yourself needing to move last minute. As a junior in undergrad with little money and little social support, you considered yourself lucky when you found a sublease that was close to campus and was relatively cheap. Unfortunately, it seemed that your roommate did not seem to be so excited regarding your presence. ✧ content/warnings ➼ fluff, slowburn, mutual pining, idiots in love, negative self-talk, reader being angsty ✧ word count ➼ ~5.3k

"You're still up?"

The time was currently 6am. The last time you checked the time, it was 1am. You didn't intend to stay up all night writing some paper you couldn't give a shit about, but given the fact that it was due in less than 12 hours as well as the fact that you didn't get started on this paper until roughly 10 hours ago, it was inevitable. You were three energy drinks in with eyebags rapidly forming as you tried to force yourself to stay awake.

You sniffled from the mild cold you had been fighting through, but otherwise didn't respond to Levi's question. You were slow to react as Levi walked up to you and immediately shut your laptop in front of you.

"Levi!" you yelled out with panic in your voice. "I'm not in the mood!"

You erratically shooed him away from your computer before opening it up again.

The sudden movement made you shiver. Your face was flushed, your breath was hot, and you felt extremely cold. Your body was covered in cold sweats, yet you still tried to truck your way through this assignment.

You felt your roommate place the back of his hand onto your forehead.

"You have a fever."

You shrugged him off of you.

"It's mild. I'm fine."

You didn't even have to look up to tell that Levi was scowling at you.

"Feels more than mild. You're a fucking furnace."

"You're so dramatic-"

You were interrupted with a sneeze. Although you had brought your elbow up in time for you to sneeze into that instead of the open air, you still saw Levi flinch back from it.

"Sorry," you mumbled.

"Go to bed."

"This paper's due in less than 12 hours," you said as you rapidly shook your head. "And I'm taking the kids on a field trip this weekend and-"

"And who's fault is it for procrastinating?" Levi asked, not letting you finish whatever rationalization you were trying to come up with.

You frowned at him before sticking your tongue out at him, which had become your way of telling him to fuck off when you were being stubborn and defiant.

"Tch," he tutted in disapproval before gently flicking your forehead. "You're so annoying."

You pouted at him as you waved his hand away.

"Go to bed," he repeated. "I'll wake you up in a few hours so you can get it in on time."

He looked you intently in the eye.

"Deal?"

You glared at him for a few seconds before finally groaning and beginning to get up.

"I guess," you grumbled, making your way past him and into your bedroom to catch up on the sleep that you had neglected to give your body for the past few days.

~~~~~

"You still getting over that cold?"

You rubbed your head in an attempt to soothe your incoming headache as Gunther checked up on you.

"On the recovering end, but-"

"WHO'S READY TO TURN UP AT THE AMUSEMENT PARK?!" Oluo ran into the room and obnoxiously announced both his presence and the surprise field trip that you were planning for the freshmen.

Your headache was hitting you with full force now.

"I'm going to kill him if he gets any louder," you groaned.

"Just walk it off," Gunther said as he gave you a pat on your shoulder before heading towards the other officers.

You scoffed at the irony of his comment. You were currently trapped in front of your laptop screen crunching out the numbers to make this trip happen, so it's not like you'd be doing any walking any time soon.

The screen glared into your eyes, making you squint as you scrolled through the spreadsheet of the spendings and earnings that the Honors Society had made throughout the year. You were trying to figure out a budget for going to the nearby amusement park as a special trip for your club successfully making its way through its first year of inception.

You knew you didn't have to go to this extreme. You could have just settled with the zoo or another social at the local arcade or bowling alley, but you wanted it to feel special. You were a social club after all. Your entire purpose for existing was to give the stray students a place to belong and connect. You felt obligated to put more effort into making the year end with a blast.

Since you didn't collect membership dues, all of your revenue came from fundraising and donations. You were looking through the seventh fundraiser that you've held this year and the numbers were adding up much slower than you had hoped. You weren't sure if you'd have enough for the trip.

You heard two sets of footsteps approaching you and saw Sasha and Connie walking up with a packet in hand. They had worked together to compile a money chart for the most recent fundraiser that you weren't able to attend because you had been laboring away at your most recent assignments.

The frown on your face grew as you flipped through the packet.

"That's it?" you asked, your disappointment apparent on your face.

With the bullshit that had happened in April right after spring break and the fact that you were so behind on your paper right as you conveniently caught a cold, you didn't get to help out as much with the fundraiser and, as usual, you were met with disappointment.

"Did we not make enough?" Sasha asked hesitantly.

You remained quiet as you flipped through the packet. She was right. You didn't make enough. You'd be short by a decent amount if you wanted to acquire everything you had planned to get for this trip. You'd have to improvise.

You looked up towards her and shot her a small smile.

"We'll make it work. You did good."

Your smile quickly faded as soon as they turned around to walk away. All this really meant was that you were going to have to do some finagling to get the funds you needed. What was most important was the bus to and from the amusement park, the tickets, and food. You weren't short by too much, so you'd be able to make it work as long as you remained determined.

You sighed as you set the packet to the side and began typing the numbers into the spreadsheet. You had put too much effort into creating this little support group to give up on it now.

~~~~~

You had to pull some strings in the background, but you made it work.

"Go nuts," you said as you began passing out tickets to everyone. "Meet back here like 30 minutes before the park closes."

Most of the members took the tickets and immediately ran off into the amusement park, going for the more popular roller coasters that already had an obnoxiously long line forming around it. Soon, it was just you and the other officers.

Even they wandered off eventually.

You weren't too interested in the bigger rides and you didn't have it in you to be a buzzkill, so you just elected to hang out at the food court in the shade while everyone else decided to get thrown around up in the air.

Since you weren't having that great of a time, you found yourself much more annoyed than usual regarding this type of thing. Although it had gotten better, you still felt a social obligation to the people around you. However, you were now also somewhat aware of how unnecessary that obligation can be, which further poured salt into that wound.

By the time lunch came around, the inside of the food court got annoyingly crowded, so you chose to sit at the outside plaza, finding an empty table towards the outside so that you'd be able to get up and leave whenever without having to swim through an entire crowd.

It was getting quite warm, so you had taken off the thin flannel that you were wearing in the morning, leaving you in only a tank top, shorts, and sandals—although you were quickly regretting the sandals, realizing that wearing gym shoes would have probably saved the strain on your feet given how much you were walking today. You were working your way through a cheap hotdog, with a slushie on the side to try to cool yourself down.

You almost jumped up in surprise when someone suddenly decided to sit next to you. Just as you were about to turn to them and try to figure out who was so audacious to sit this close to you without permission, you recognized some familiarities.

You recognized their body posture from the way they leaned with their elbows on the table. You recognized their pale, yet smooth complexion, as if your fingers would just glide over their skin if you touched them. You recognized that musky, deep scent that you smelled every day in the bathroom. You recognized their raven-colored hair that fell neatly into an undercut. Most of all, you recognized those intense gray eyes that were looking right into yours.

You were momentarily at a loss for words as you looked straight at Levi.

"What the hell are you doing here?!"

He held that same disinterested expression on his face as he looked at you.

"Could ask you the same thing. Pretty big field trip for a club event."

You frowned at him as you slipped at your slushie, which was half melted at this point.

"Yeah, well...missed the event last year because of-"

You paused, trying to recall the shitshow that happened last year. This was technically the first year that your club has been off the ground, but you remembered trying to do a bit of fundraising for a kickstarter event that never came to pass because the world decided to stick its middle finger in your face. That money technically went to waste when things went to shit.

You made eye contact with Levi and some sort of mutual understanding formed in that moment between the two of you. He knew what you were referring to, and he wasn't going to expect you to talk about it.

"-so we had extra funds that I put towards a bigger event."

You didn't mention that you technically did the math wrong and ended up short on the funding, but in the end, everyone was able to chip in a bit and you were able to find a few deals that lowered the overall cost of everything, so you were able to make it work.

"...let them enjoy being undergrads."

That concept was lost on Levi. He never had a good undergrad experience. The only good experiences he'd know of were the ones he'd hear about peripherally. He never experienced any of it, but he knew that students never shut up about the glorification of their college experience.

However, he did get where you were coming from. You were wanting to let them enjoy being kids while they still could—something that was robbed from the both of you.

"Your turn," you said as you nudged him.

He gave you an annoyed look, knowing that you were mocking the structure of the conversation the two of you had last month during the power outage.

"Got some friends in town."

You snorted.

"You have friends?"

He tutted in disapproval, scowling at you. His eyes flashed over towards both Isabel and Farlan, who just got off one of the more exhilarating rollercoasters.

You had never seen them before, but you were able to deduce that they were the friends that Levi was referring to.

"They yours?"

He silently watched as Isabel ran around excitedly, ready to get onto the ride again, while Farlan looked like he was still recovering from getting thrown around in the air.

"Met Farlan pretty soon after my shitty uncle died," Levi began explaining. "Picked up Isabel a few years later."

You were facing their direction, but you were glancing over at Levi. He was much more caring than he had let on. Part of you even wished that he had stayed an asshole. Then you wouldn't have to deal with whatever weird dynamic had formed between the two of you.

You quickly realized that the two people he had come to the park with were who he had referred to a few months ago as his found family. He had mentioned that the death of a parent figure and the presence of a shitty relative didn't mean that you had to be lonely.

You bit on the inside of your cheek as you felt a dull feeling of envy and jealousy arise within your chest. You didn't have that "found family" and you didn't have anyone that really fit the definition for that either. A prime example was the fact that you had been separated from your friends for at least an hour now and they haven't even bothered to check up on you. If things went the way they usually did, they probably wouldn't even think about where you might be until it was time to leave and they needed you to organize the trip home.

"Must be nice," you grumbled under your breath.

Levi raised an eyebrow at you.

"The hell are you talking about?"

"Nothing," you said as you clenched your jaw and began to get up. "I need to go meet up with...someone."

You said that last word quietly. All of your friends had run off, so there wasn't actually anyone that you had to meet. Sure, you could text Petra and figure out where they were, but that wouldn't really make you feel any better. You still felt like an Other.

You were already somewhat grumpy from not wanting to deal with the crowds and the lines leading up to the rides, but now you were considerably more so. You were trapped within your own head. Seeing Levi with Isabel and Farlan brought out deep feelings of envy that made you want to rip your hair out in anger. You weren't sure who exactly you were angry at, but you knew that you harbored deep resentment regarding the topic.

Levi watched as you walked away, being able to immediately tell that your mood had soured. He wasn't able to completely piece together what was going on through your head, but he figured it likely had something to do with why you were sitting on your own when you had originally come with a considerably sized group.

He began to push himself up to go after you, but was immediately distracted as he heard both Isabel and Farlan call out to him from across the plaza.

In that split second in which his attention was pulled away, you had already disappeared into the crowd.

By the time he looked up again, you were gone.

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Several hours later, you were still alone.

You currently found yourself sitting on the grass near the lake at the edge of the park near the Ferris Wheel. There were less people here and you could watch the setting sun in peace.

Although it seemed peaceful on the outside, your thoughts were anything but that. You had still yet to hear a single word from any of your friends, and you were too stubborn to be the one that reached out first. You were absolutely sick of it. You were sick of the pitiful looks that they'd give you. You were sick of how they seemed to give absolutely zero shits until something reminded them of what happened last year and they suddenly began talking to you with feigned compassion.

It didn't feel like they actually cared. It felt like they just wanted to make it seem like they cared regardless of whether their actions were actually helping or not, and at the time, you were much too timid and passive to call them out on it. Meeting up with them would have probably made you feel even worse, but that didn't make being on your own for hours on what was supposed to be a fun trip any less miserable.

You glanced over your shoulder as you heard footsteps approaching. You were off the path. No one should have been casually passing you.

You sighed to yourself as you noticed that it was Levi walking towards you. The last thing you wanted to deal with right now was a snarky comment from him. You were already feeling incredibly insecure and dejected from the fact that no one stuck around with you or reached out to you.

You had told him that you had to meet up with someone and yet you still found yourself sitting here alone, and he was able to see that. You felt your entire body tense as you prepared for some sassy retort from him—but nothing of the sort occurred.

Levi walked up to you and stopped right behind you. He was able to tell the minute that you had gotten up from that table in the food plaza that you were upset and that your mood was off. Part of him had hoped that giving you some space would have helped you sort through your thoughts, but seeing you here now made him realize that that wasn't the case. Part of him scolded himself for not looking for you earlier.

He had been keeping an eye out for you all day, wanting to approach if he saw you, but he didn't. He could've simply shot a text your way to figure out where you were, but he didn't, and he was pissed that he didn't.

You heard him shuffling around before you saw him hand you something out of the corner of your eye. You looked over and saw him holding a Ferris Wheel ticket between his index and middle finger. You looked up at him without saying anything, questioning what he was doing.

"Farlan and Isabel conveniently forgot they're both scared of heights."

You knew that was a lie. You had seen the both of them get off of one of the more intense rides. While Farlan had looked like he needed time to reorient himself afterwards, Isabel looked like she was having the time of her life. Levi had specifically gotten the ticket for you.

You slowly reached out to take the ticket and saw that he had one for himself as well.

"And you're not?"

Levi grunted without confirming or denying, and you looked down at the ticket as you slowly stood up. You saw the timestamp that indicated that the ticket was printed roughly five minutes ago.

What a fucking liar.

While your thoughts were harsh, the corner of your lips tugged up slightly at the thought that he went out of his way to get tickets for the two of you without you asking.

The two of you walked in comfortable silence to the entrance of the ride. There wasn't much of a line since the kids and families had generally cleared out for the night.

He let you climb into the cart first before he got in himself, sitting next to you. The cart was open, with no ceilings or windows, unlike most of the Ferris Wheel rides that had a cabin within an enclosed space. Had you not seen Isabel and Farlan get off a ride yourself, you could've believed Levi's comment about them both being scared of heights, with how open the cart seemed.

You looked off towards the setting sun as the two of you began to get lifted up into the air. The sky was beginning to darken, showing a dark purple hue as the sun continued to disappear underneath the horizon. You listened to the quiet whirring of the motor that slowly spun the wheel up, vaguely hearing Levi shuffling around behind you.

You glanced back at him and saw him leaning on the edge of the cart, propping his elbow up. The breeze gently swept through his hair. Although it was warm earlier today, it was now cool enough that he had put on a thin jacket. The fading sunlight seemed to focus only on his facial features and you couldn't really peel your eyes off him.

"Kids piss you off?"

His question forced you out of the slight daze that you found yourself in while looking over at him.

"What?"

You had questioned him, but you figured out pretty quickly afterwards what it was that he was referring to. He was referring to the freshmen that you technically threw this event for. That part was fine. The annoying part was that he was able to tell that you were upset.

You weren't trying to mask in front of him or anything, but the fact that he knew still weirded you out. He had seen you fully break down in front of him before, and he was likely the only person in the world that could talk to you when you're upset without sounding like they were hopping in on a pity party.

Most of all, the fact that he was asking you about it instead of leaving you on your own to sort through your emotions meant that he cared about how you were doing, and that still weirded you out to this day.

"...not really," you eventually responded, pausing for a few seconds to think of what to say. "I think I just saw you and your friends and..."

You trailed off.

"And?"

A dejected look appeared in your eyes as you felt your heart throb and a lump form in your throat. You were quiet for a long while, ruminating over all the deeply rooted insecurities in your head over your inability to form connections.

His eyes briefly flashed down as he saw you clench your fist.

"...I don't have that," you said quietly.

Levi didn't really comment, opting to simply listen.

"I don't...think I've ever had anyone that I could actually depend on or would drive out to see me or anyone that I could call close, not to mention that 'found family' we were talking about before..."

You trailed off as your negative self-talk overtook you. No one around you actually wanted you around. They weren't even that willing to tolerate you anymore and dragged you around like an extraneous limb, and likely would have left long ago if you weren't so insistent on keeping this silly club together. You were just alone.

You were quiet for so long that by the time you looked up at Levi again, the two of you were almost to the top.

"...and don't you dare mention Petra or Oluo or-"

"I wasn't going to."

Levi didn't ever get to really see your interactions with your "friends", but from the amount of times that he found you stranded with no one else to go to but him, he was able to tell that they really weren't reliable as friends. The social reciprocity wasn't there. He would've cut them off long ago if he was in your shoes, but he also couldn't blame you for keeping them around. It felt better than just being alone.

They were "professionally friendly" at best. Petra will occasionally do a bit more for you, like getting you a low-quality Starbucks Matcha when you were upset or letting you vent to her at your apartment, but even she always seemed somewhat disengaged unless you put in an almost aggressive effort to engage with her.

"I know you said that I didn't have to be lonely, but," you spoke quietly, looking down towards your feet, "I just don't really have anyone I can reliably call or expect to be there, other than-"

You suddenly stopped talking as an equally comforting and unnerving thought came up in your head. You glanced up at Levi right into his silvery eyes, which were looking straight into yours.

"-you."

As you matched his intense gaze, you realized that Levi really has been there for you time and time again. Every time you texted him that you needed him to pick you up, he was always there, no matter how busy he was. He was there when you were depressed after your aunt decided to shit on your entire life, or when you were in the middle of the street having an anxiety attack. He was there to pick you up when you were down.

He even went searching through the entire town for you in the middle of the night to make sure that you were safe.

Levi Ackerman, who hated parties and loud crowds of people, had come to a party with you, electing to spend a night in an environment he absolutely hated just to make sure that you'd be able to come home and that nothing happened to you.

Levi Ackerman, who had driven to the outskirts of town to rescue you from your borderline abusive ex-boyfriend before talking you through a storm that kept you on edge, was consistently there for you, no matter how inconvenient or shitty the situation was.

He has always been there.

"Yeah?" he asked quietly.

You couldn't read the look in his eyes. You couldn't tell what he was thinking.

You weren't sure at what point he went from leaning on the edges of the cart to leaning towards you. You weren't sure at what point you went from gazing dejectedly at your feet to leaning towards him while staring intently into his eyes.

Your faces were close. The night breeze seemed to almost be pushing you towards him, sweeping your hair above your eyes. The sun had completely set and the night lights on the Ferris Wheel were the only thing providing you with illumination. The light fell perfectly on his face, reflecting off of his eyes that seemed to almost glimmer. He was the only thing you could see.

You could almost feel his fingers on yours. Your hands were so close that you felt like any little movement would result in your fingers brushing up against him.

Your breath got caught in your throat as you felt your face heating up as your heart rate began rapidly speeding up.

For the first time, you saw the person in front of you as not just your roommate—and not even as just your friend, either.

Your eyes flashed down to his lips, which were slightly parted. You imagined how soft they must have felt or how gentle they would feel against yours-

Am I tempted...to kiss him?! you thought to yourself as you caught your mind wandering.

Your eyes went back up to his gaze and you saw that he was looking at you in a way that you've never noticed before. His normally disinterested and occasionally judgey expression was nowhere to be seen. His gaze was soft, maybe even compassionate, as the frown lines on his forehead relaxed.

If you had paid more attention, you'd realize that he had been looking at you in this way for a while. You were just never this close enough to notice it.

The two of you looked into each other's eyes for an undetermined length of time, exchanging silent messages that neither of you were able to fully read.

You could almost feel his breath on yours. You could imagine how his lips would feel on yours and how gentle he would be when he finally planted his lips on yours and how his touch would send chills through your body. You could almost visualize the way he'd cup the side of your face as he slowly kissed you, full of affection and compassion.

One of you moved closer, it was unclear who.

Your own lips parted as you felt your breathing grow unsteady. You had never thought you'd see Levi Ackerman, who was the absolute bane of your existence, in this way, and you had never thought that his pull would be as strong as it was.

Just as you were about to take the plunge and plant your lips on his, an obnoxiously loud ring came from your phone as someone called.

You immediately cleared your throat and averted your gaze from him as you pulled away. He followed suit and awkwardly shuffled to the opposite side of the bench.

You scowled at your phone as you saw the caller.

"What?" you snapped into the phone, more than grumpy that you had gotten interrupted.

You listened to Oluo on the other line, who was ironically sounding somewhat panicked over where you were, although it was only because the buses were leaving soon and you were nowhere to be found.

"Shit," you muttered as you checked the time on your watch. The buses were set to leave in ten minutes. You had lost track of time on the Ferris Wheel ride, while you were questioning the nature of your relationship with your roommate.

By the time you were off the phone, the ride was over and the two of you found yourselves at the exit.

You slowly put your phone back into your pocket as you looked back up at Levi's eyes, which now set your heart rate through the roof every time you saw them look intensely into yours.

"...I guess I'll see you at home?" you said hesitantly as you gave him an awkward smile.

He watched as you began to turn away.

"...See you," he responded quietly.

Both of your bodies were stiff, as if you were unsure of how to behave around one another after your exchange.

Even after you had fully walked away from him, you still felt that tension. You couldn't help but glance back at him as he walked away towards the parking lot on the other side of the park. You still felt that draw to him, even though he was far enough now that you could barely see him.

Levi was on your mind for the entirety of the bus ride home. You barely processed your friends talking about some dumb ride they had struggled getting onto or the excited freshmen yapping about how they really needed a field trip after their first successful year of college. The entire time, you could only think of him and the imagined feeling of his lips on yours.

Recalling that memory of your faces being inches from each other as you moved in to plant your lips on his brought another blush to your face.

It weirded you out.

You couldn't have possibly caught feelings for your roommate.

You were so close to going through with kissing him. You couldn't believe that the temptation to kiss him was even there, but you found yourself disappointed that you didn't.

You bit on your bottom lip in anxiety as you pulled out your phone, wanting to shoot him a text about it. You weren't sure what you wanted to say, but you felt like you had to say something to acknowledge that the whole thing even happened.

Your thumb hovered over the keyboard.

What if he doesn't feel the same way?

The excitement turned into anxiety as your stomach churned. What if you were on the verge of making a horrible mistake that would destroy the friendship you had finally formed with your roommate?

You figured it would be best to address this in person, so you finally put your phone back into your pocket, intending to bring this up once you finally got home.

However, upon getting home, not a single word of this exchange came out of either of your mouths, leaving your almost kiss up in the air to eventually fade away as a distant memory.

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cheesemonky · 7 months

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Hello!

Leisel here with some exciting news! We have finally reached 100 followers on this blog! Thank you all so much! I'm so glad that you all like me and my writing enough to want to stick around and see more. Onto the more exciting part..!

This blog is mainly a Stray Kids blog, but if you've looked carefully, you'd have seen I'm a multistan, so... NEW BLOG!! I'm not getting rid of this one, but, so I can indulge in writing for more groups, I'm giving it a sister blog.

Introducing.... @cheesebytogether!!

Very obivous, but this blog is TXT focused!! First fic is coming out hopefully soon, but don't get your hopes up because I am an extreme procrastinator :< Thanks again for 100 followers and happy reading!

letting you know! : @mumusreblogs @kai-lee08 @2minstan @painstakingly-juno @jinnie-ret @juskz @nvmkyuu @asp3ntr33 @cinnabunnyongbok @mirbokk @stardustlixie @vampcharxter @michelle4eve @silverstarburst @luvyev @want2besomeoneelse @luvyblossom @atinyniki @writingforstraykids @minholing @lilmisssona @skzoologist @beesspacedotorg

#crazy talk #also....maybe....more blogs in the future.....#hehe :3

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thecryptidzenith · 4 months

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I was thinking today about a timeline where Midnight Oil Riz gets back to his mom and somehow ends up in a party with the rest of The Bad Kids in Junior year (ignore the logistics). Thinking about him having to interact with the Rat Grinders is so funny; I feel like he'd see Kipperlilly being mean to Kristen, immediately try to find something to blackmail Kipperlilly with to force her to drop the election, and accidentally uncover Porter's whole plot in approximately four days.

First of all, I'm delighted that my silly little fic lives in your brain enough that you're thinking of alternate timelines, that's incredible. And thanks for sending this to me! I love excuses to procrastinate and excuses to yell about my guy.

So obviously, I'm God, and there's a lot of stuff prior to where this would be on the timeline that would have an impact, but I'm going to keep my cards as close to the chest as possible, however I think the thing that would impact this the most has already happened: which is that Poxson Tiktaalik is a student at Aguefort. On that, Kalina says "I have contacts at Aguefort." and "There’s more than one conspiracy going on at Aguefort," (to which Riz's internal response is 'what a fucked up school,' a sentiment made extremely funny both because he's an Aguefort student in canon and because he'd be an Aguefort student here.) This will be said directly soon, but Riz has met Eugenia, he's passing rogue class. Logistics aren't a problem at all.

But here's the fun part: the second conspiracy Kalina's referring to is Porter's plan to take Ankarna's place in the pantheon. Him and Jace are her contacts who take care of the administrative aspects of Poxson Tiktaalik being a student there. And Riz has already passed freshman and sophomore year with flying colors, and Eugenia knows who he is. The only thing that would need to happen would be changing his name in the system, and that's not technically necessary. Porter knows Kalina, and he knows Kalina wanted Riz in Aguefort's system for some reason. Throw in anything he may have heard about Poxson from Eugenia or any other networks he may be a part of, and suddenly, he looks like an incredibly useful ally with a high likelihood of helping them. If Kalina did, surely her protege would too, right?

Plus, this is a super tumultuous time for Riz. His living situation has changed drastically, his mom is alive, and he only recently found out that his godmother--his closest confidant--kidnapped him as a child and groomed him to be her actor in the physical world. Kid's not doing great as a baseline, and this makes everything so much worse.

How much does he really know or care about the Bad Kids? He's not exactly a team player here, and these kids are directly responsible for his ability or lack thereof to go to college. In canon, Riz doesn't have any resentment for them, but here? That's likely to be a different story. The two people he actually cares about are his mom and Aelwyn, the later of whom is working for Kipperlily Copperkettle.

Would it be so wrong of him to be a little angry? After everything he's been through, would it be unreasonable for him to get a little mad?

This isn't to say he'd join--there's no way he wouldn't despise the Rat Grinders, especially Kipperlily. He'd find them incredibly entitled, petty, and incompetent. Porter and Jace would probably annoy him too, their final goal is just to make Porter a god, and that's not something Riz would find worth it. Maybe his complicated feelings about Cassandra/the Nightmare King have solidified into hatred and he just wants her to hurt when her wife's domain is given to a new god, but that's the strongest motivation I can devise. Compare this to Kalina, who gave him a personal reason to help her in bringing his parents back and a societal reason in using the Nightmare King's power to fix the ugly parts of the world Riz got to know all too well in Gravalvia. Porter and Jace just aren't that good. Sorry to say, but nobody's doing it like Kalina.

And then there's the Kalina of it all. Does he want to help them because it seems like the thing she would have wanted him to do? Or is he spiteful and works tirelessly to destroy them instead? There's no way he isn't curious about what in the hells she was up to with them, but what does he do with that curiosity? Maybe he plays both sides until he knows exactly where he stands. He could pretend to infiltrate the Rat Grinders for the Bad Kids and the Bad Kids for the Rat Grinders. It'd be hard to pull off, but he's Riz 'Poxson' Gukgak. He excels at hard things.

#also riz's reaction to kalina coming back would be insane #i don't even 100% know what it would be but *anything* having to do with kalina would be so fraught for him #if he saw that image of Kitten!Kalina at Cass & Ankarna's wedding...#i don't know it'd be something.#to be clear riz would care about the Bad Kids (mostly adaine. cause she's aelwyn's sister)#but care is not always enough #*especially* when riz is in such a bad spot emotionally & psychologically #poor boy #he's so messed up #<- is the one who messed him up #oh i should probably come up with a tag system for Midnight Oil in case I want to talk about it later #midnight oil fic #midnight oil fic spoilers #there that should cover me #fhjy spoilers

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palfriendpatine66 · 7 months

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15 Questions

A friendly (maybe paranoid, maybe just old person) reminder from your Pal: don't give away answers to security questions in one handy location on the internet :)

1. Are you named after anyone? Nope! I like it that way, and genuinely like my name

2. When was the last time you cried? A couple nights ago. I'm not usually a crier but I've cried more in the last two months than I have in two years tbh.

3. Do you have kids? I do

4. What sports do you play/ have you played? Extremely not athletic. I danced from toddlerhood - college (more than casually but never competitively) and miss it dearly

5. Do you use sarcasm? Way more than I should

6. What's the first thing you notice about people? How they talk to other people.

7. What's your eye colour? I say brown but actually hazel.

8. Scary movies or happy endings? I don't *need* movies to happy ending - I love a good tragedy and to fight back the tears - but that's definitely my pick of the two. I *cannot* do scary movies. One day I might be able to talk myself into watching Dr. Sleep (pretty much proving I would in fact watch anything for Ewan)

9. Any talents? I put the pro in procrastinate, baby.

10. Where were you born? New England region (United States)

11. What are your hobbies? Fic reading and writing (minimal as of late 😞). Cross stitch. I've been trying to teach myself how to draw and play guitar. I enjoy painting but have no skill. At one time I was into crochet. I just really like creating.

12. Do you have any pets? 🐶

13. How tall are you? 5 ft 7 but I slouch a whole inch down. Not good man.

14. Favourite subject in school? psychology

15. Dream job? Fun fact: In 5th grade I listed my dream job as writing Star Wars novels. I guess I've sort of kind of made it there with fics. I really *really* wish I could write for a career.

tagged by @sky-kenobye and @fangeek-girl (thank you!) Open invitation to anyone who wants to play.

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accidentalcookies · 3 months

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hello!! i kept procrastinating this, but now i'm actually buckling down to do a shaoyuan intro post!! i will get to the others sometime in the future... but for now, onto sy!!

(picrew here)

so for context, sy is actually my dnd character in a friend's campaign, but i simply love him so much that i plucked him out to shove him into various aus for my entertainment 😂

which also means that this character intro is less about an intro of him in a specific universe, and more just the key traits and backstory aspects that need to make it into every au in some way to make sy, well, sy. if i ever refer to a "canon" sy, that would be his original, dnd character version.

this got longer than i expected, i'm putting it all under a readmore 😅

full name: shaoyuan nie, 聂绍淵 (yes technically the last character is the traditional version but... it looks cooler than the simplified so i kept it SKDFHG)

age: it depends. canon sy is currently 28, and typically i do put him in his late 20s (unless i'm writing his younger self)

height: 6'3" (tall boy)

the gist of sy's backstory is that he's born to some sort of high ranking, nobility-adjacent family as the eldest of a set of twins, him and shaoquan. he has two older sisters, qinhui and qinli (twins) who are around 5 years older than him, and two very much younger siblings (also twins), nianxiu and nianping, who are 17 years younger than him, and whom we will refer to as the babies, because that's what they are to sy 😂

the reasons for it differs between aus, but when all the nie siblings are younger, each set of twins is forced to fight each other to the death (or near-death), sometimes alongside other kids in their age bracket. usually i translate it as something like a "training from hell" thing, such as in the mafia au with aristides.

whatever the reason given in-universe, though, sy takes it extremely seriously. like, way too seriously. essentially, if you give him a task, and convince him that it's necessary, he will become absolutely singlemindedly determined to complete it, and will give it 1000% effort. given that the context for this is fratricide (and often fellow child murder as well), you can imagine that 1000% effort is not great for his twin, sq.

these death-fights typically end at a certain age (adulthood), and it isn't until the very last set of death-fights does he suddenly have a moment of clarity, staring into his twin's eyes as he murders them. it's sort of a moment of like, "what was even the point of this? why was i even doing this? why was i going so hard on fratricide?"

cue the ensuing downward spiral! because in this moment, sy realizes that "hey, i'm an awful person! i do awful things! i only feel bad about the fratricide because i only just realized that it was all pointless and cruel! if given another purpose to fulfill, i would absolutely do similarly heinous shit! i'm a monster actually!!"

in canon, after they meet up again after that last fight, sq absolutely tears into sy about it and absolutely rips him to shreds with their words, and i usually translate this over into the aus, too. it's actually one of the pivotal moments in sy's psyche, the gordian knot that ties together all his guilt and regret and repentance and self-destruction.

following that, it becomes sy's life goal to get the babies (here they are!!) out from whatever situation the family is in, whether that be training from hell, or a cult, or whatever. some aus i set for before he manages it, and others i set for after. all that really does is affect his self-preservation-from-death mindset, where if it's before he's gotten the babies out, he's determined to live solely so he can achieve this goal, and if it's after, he's determined to get himself killed somehow 😅

as a character, sy is a deadpan sarcastic motherfucker. he will snark about anything and everything, and his internal monologue is always a joy to write, because he's also just a little bit weird! and as evidenced with the babies, he has an extreme soft spot for children, and has a big brother instinct a mile wide (and, if we're being honest, a parental instinct too). he has a tendency to take things way too seriously (if fratricide wasn't a good tip-off already..); if someone he trusts tells him something is necessary, it won't even occur to him to question it. and when it comes to it, he's ruthlessly cold. there's nothing he won't do, to achieve his goals. and he won't feel guilty about it either, if it proves necessary, despite his all-encompassing guilt complex. he'll feel guilty that he doesn't feel guilty, if that makes sense? he is also an incredibly avoidant bastard, and his main coping mechanism is repression. to him, talking about his feelings is worse than death, and he will do his utmost to avoid it. he also doesn't believe he deserves to be loved, so when it turns out that people do, he has absolutely no idea what to do with himself. "no don't, you're making a mistake, wait," he says

some additional facts about sy that i don't know where to put in this post:

in his dnd incarnation, he used to be a high level evocation wizard, with an elemental affinity of acid. he has since burned his spellbook in an attempt to declaw himself, and is now a rogue-warlock

i try to keep the aspect of acid elemental affinity across universes in some form, and his hatred for his inherent affinity

so yes, this does mean that he melted his twin's face off with acid in their fights.

he is trans!!

he is also undead in canon. shit happened

in canon, because of Reasons™️ (AKA being literally haunted by his own regrets), he's got a sort of discoloration on the left side of his face and his left eye that's in the shape of the whole melty-twin thing, and parts of his hair is slowly turning white. i typically try to keep this across aus somehow, and it's why i put it in the picrew, but it's not technically a scar.

for a man who is 6'3 and is typically dressed in a classic black suit, tie and all, his stealth stat is absurd. it's his highest stat in dnd, and i keep that trait through every single au. he's like a cat

this isn't important but i do think it's funny: in canon he is an accountant. just a normal accountant. and is also causing the in-universe equivalent of the prime minister to have an affair.

i also have the following aus in the works for sy, in case anyone was interested in asking about any specific au :3

mafia au: i've been posting about this one! sy is the somewhat-indentured assassin to aristides, head of a mafia. celestinus is aristides' bodyguard and general assistant, kinda, and also serves as the rapid response medic (when sy's done something stupid)

trigun au: come on, there's a fratricidal older twin brother, how could i not? this one is actually super fleshed out, i keep meaning to buckle down and write it.

borderlands au: i actually fucking love borderlands so much you guys, if you ask about this one i'll be eternally grateful. you can have my firstborn.

venovea (my dnd world) au: this one involves more worldbuilding lore, since it's my original dnd world, but holy moly if you ask about this one, you can have my secondborn too. short description: he was raised in a cult, got his siblings out, and is now the divine champion to the god of vengeance. recently, he accidentally started a world war (oops)

mer au: he is a mer. aristides and celestinus attempt to domesticate him (not literally, they're just trying to make sure this rare marine animal has the enrichment and habitat it needs) (they are marine biologists). shenanigans ensue. somewhat accidental baby acquisition too!

if you made it to the end of this post, thank you so much for listening!! please take this gold medal and slice of pie as a token of my appreciation 🪙 🥧♥️

tagging @whumpbug, hope this wasn't too long of a read haha

#oc: shaoyuan #my posts #my characters #my writing #whumpblr #can you tell that i'm so normal about him #i love putting him in the metaphorical blender #bring on the torment

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"He is half my soul, as the poets say."

Hi! I'm kiyomarus!

You can call me either Anni or Kei. Maybe even just Kiyomarus if it works better! I was born in America, but I am technically a full Filipino! more simplified: [ 🇵🇭 (born in 🇺🇸) ] I'm bisexual and agender, so pronouns don't matter. I speak English and I'm out to learn Italian! I understand Tagalog, but I don't speak it fluently.

"I am made of memories."

I am a(n):

-novel writer -ISTP-A -traditional artist -theater kid -professional procrastinator -HUGE nerd

I absolutely love:

--Voltron: The Legendary Defender -> Favorite character: Lance Mcclain --EPIC the Musical -> Favorite saga: Ocean Saga --Rick Riordan's books (PJO, HOO, MCGA, TOA) -> I'm a Dionysus camper <3 --Mario Kart / Mario Superstar -> Main: Waluigi --The Deathcast series -> Favorite book: The First to Die At the End --Yaelokre !! -> Favorite song: Hartebeest --Writing books + making covers of them -> I WILL rant to you if you would like

I'm known for:

--Artistry in my elementary school -> I made posters and even our school mascot --Competitive swimming -> If you know me, please pretend you didn't. --Voice acting -> This was for previous Danganronpa fan games. -->None of them have been released with me in it, so don't go looking. --My extremely old fanfiction! -> My Wattpad is atrocious and so are the comissions I took of my classmates.

"Philtatos," Achilles replied, sharply. Most beloved.”

Books that I am currently working on:

Symphonic Verse:

A Demigod’s Symphony: (Series) 1. The White Lightning 2. Of Athens and Sparta 3. Ichor of the Gods 4. A New Segment in Life

-> My Chaos in Death: A Zagreus Philia Story -> Symphonic Imperfection

A New Pledge to Victory: (Trilogy) 1. The Recollection of the Symphony 2. The Athenian Acropolis 3. The Rise of the Demigods

The Ghost King: (Trilogy) 1. Stone of Metal 2. Legend of Vengeance 3. Goodbye Sweet Mirage

-> Outcasts of the Outcasted

Escapism Duology:

Adriana’s Escapism: A Trial to the Future The Veil of the Forest

Soul Haven Duology:

We Were On the Run But No One Stopped Us Two Souls Yet One Haven

Lancaster Duology:

The Eye of the Underworld The Blood of Our Nightmares

No Series Books:

Agents of Angels The Forbidden Library Gilded in Gold

"Name one hero who was happy."

Thanks for looking :)

#anni rants #intro post #introduction #introductory post

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undercat-overdog · 7 months

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In “Dwell in Death’s Shadow” you have a Maedhros who is of the opinion that elves shouldn’t bring children into the world when they may experience extreme hardship. In canon, Aegnor was of the same opinion because of the war and so refused to marry Andreth, despite the fact that he loved her. Do you think that this type of opinion was more popular amongst the Noldor vs the Sindar and other non-Noldor elves? What is your opinion of Aegnor and Andreth? I always thought that it was sorta unfair that the one canon male-elf and female-human pairing in canon didn’t get their (sorta) happy ending of being together. Even though Aegnor was always likely to die in the first age anyways. I wonder if Aegnor was motivated by the fear of having mortal children in a land with an undefeated Morgoth.

Thanks for the ask, anon! Always love asks, and love procrastinating. Fair warning, I didn't actually reread the Athrabeth before answering; it's been a few months since I read it.

Link to the fic for the curious: it involves bb Celebrimbor eavesdropping on Maedhros, Curufin, and Mrs Curufin talking about his existence.

Do you think that this type of opinion was more popular amongst the Noldor vs the Sindar and other non-Noldor elves?

I think it was more common among the Exilic Noldor who had come from Aman, but both Aegnor and the Maedhros in the fic have an opinion about it that is unusual even in that group. We know there were lots of elves born in First Age Beleriand, many from Noldo/Sinda unions, and there wasn't an active war at the time either.

The time between the Aglareb and the Bragollach was mostly peaceful. It was a watchful peace, a frozen conflict, with the occasional skirmish, but a peace nonetheless. It's not 400 years of constant battles, and when Fingolfin proposes restarting active conflict and attacking Angband, and only Aegnor and Angrod are in favor; the sons of Feanor are the loudest in opposition. And: Thus the designs of Fingolfin came to naught, and the land had peace yet for a while.

Finrod in the Athrabeth does saythat "This is time of war, Andreth, and in such days the Elves do not wed or bear child", but his statement contradicts what we see in canon: there are weddings and children born during the Watchful Peace, the time that the Athrabeth takes place. But Finrod is explaining Aegnor's reasoning to Andreth and trying to bring her closure.

I think if I were writing the story now... I don't know how I would? In that I think my conception of Maedhros has changed and I'm not sure if he'd feel as strongly about not having children in Beleriand as he does there. (The Noldor did not yet comprehend the fullness of the power of Morgoth, nor understand that their unaided war upon him was without final hope, whether they hasted or delayed. But because the land was fair and their kingdoms wide, most of the Noldor were content with things as they were, trusting them to last)

I wonder if Aegnor was motivated by the fear of having mortal children in a land with an undefeated Morgoth.

Oh hmm, fear of mortal children in particular? I'm not sure, anon; interesting question! I do think that mortality is the default of half-elves (it's specifically Earendil, Elwing and their line that has the choice, and if Aegnor and Andreth had had children, they would have been mortal - certainly it was before the Valar considered the question).

I do think kids would have been a fear of Aegnor's. Or at least it would be reasonable to think it was a fear of his: we know "[Angrod and Aegnor] dwelt in regions whence Thangorodrim could be descried, and the threat of Morgoth was present to their thought."

I always thought that it was sorta unfair that the one canon male-elf and female-human pairing in canon didn’t get their (sorta) happy ending of being together.

It is unfair! Someone smarter than me - I don't remember where I saw it so unfortunately can't credit - pointed out how Aegnor and Andreth are both very entwined in their own culture and people, unlike the Big Three elf/human romances, where the human half of the pairing is separated from humanity (Aragorn the least so, but he was raised in an elven settlement). Whereas Andreth is not that, holding not just a culturally important role but being a keeper of her people's knowledge and history (she shows up a couple other places in the Legendarium disconnected from Aegnor, including as the author of a prophecy). Aegnor likewise does not detach himself from his people.

I wonder about Andreth's death. She would have been in her 90s at the Bragollach, so if she were still alive, she would have almost certainly died in it.

One interesting thing: iirc we don't actually know what Finrod advocated for with Aegnor. When he talks to Andreth about Aegnor's motivations, he's talking for his brother, not for what he felt himself. I'd be curious to see something that posited that Finrod thought Aegnor should pursue a relationship.

#ask #anonymous #meta #aegnor #andreth #thanks for the ask anon!

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calamari-ao3updates · 10 months

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Raph's Chicken Coop has been finished :D

Definitely not procrastinating Turtle Hot Pot <.< I ended up extremely disliking the rewritten chapter 7 while coding it and I'm very badly reconsidering rewriting it once more.

So it might take a tad longer TvT

Anywho o/ here's the labours of my procrastination

Raph's Chicken Coop

Obviously Raph kept the chickens, no matter how much Mikey protested. They've been his little treasures for years, coming a close second to Chompy.

The chickens themselves have always loved and favoured Raph over his brothers. Even if their favourability with Raph himself shifted when his Number One spot became shared between three different parties. The chickens have known Chompy since they came to live here, just like they have Mona.

And when they adopted a tiny little Meerkat mutant, the chickens didn't think too bad of her when the little girl started chasing them.

Also, fun fact! More often than not does Raph "forget" to lock the fence gate behind him, resulting in his chickens finding their way out. And if Mikey just so happens to be outside, let's just say his day is about to get a little wild.

Leo's Garden

Since Leo is physically unable to participate in missions, he's taken on a role as Bishops counsellor. And because cases are spread out far and wide between, Leo keeps himself occupied to a little veggie garden right outside in their backyard.

Mikey, Chloe and Casey collaborated on making him a scarecrow, while Donnie installed a sprinkler system (even though Leo does prefer to water everything by hand, on a Bad Knee Day it is welcomed with big relief). Raph makes sure to bring seeds from the city whenever he visits the place, making sure Leo's chest stays stocked.

And if one of the kids asks to help in the garden, Leo just can't say no. He absolutely loves having them do small tasks and teach them about things in ways a child can understand.

Leo's Greenhouse

Aside from his vegetable garden, Leo was also gifted a greenhouse!

Yes, gifted, because he had no idea it was being built. It just popped up between his visits and his name had been hung on the doorknob alongside a multi-coloured ribbon. "For your new hobby!" had been written on the backside, the squiggly handwriting evidently had been Mikey's.

And he thought nobody had been listening or thought him to be serious when he'd expressed an interest in floral arrangements and gardening.

The picnic basket on top of the chest usually signified one of his brothers had brought him something; Mikey usually brought snacks, Raph always gave him seeds known and unkown and Donnie - although rarely - left him little booklets on gardening or newly discovered plants from some corner of the world.

The little bonsai tree is Leo's way of remembering his father, and is extremely well cared for. When he gets particularly nostalgic for Splinter, you'll find him absentmindedly preening it. His brothers have to pull him away from the little tree more often than not when he turns up late for dinner.

The tables is where the magic happens, where Leo puts together flowers he grew into bouquets to cheer up the house. He makes a lot in a single month, both to give to friends for special occasions or to just hang up around the house.

The multitude of flower wreaths hanging around the house is definitely his handiwork.

The Patio

Where the adults hang out on warm summer evenings. Kids (and pets) allowed.

The bar is equipped with all kinds of beverages; juice for the kids, plain water, beer and all necessities to make yourself a gooooood cocktail (Donnie doesn't care they're considered "feminine", Casey). Not to mention the alcohol brought back from Mona's planet, but that's only accessible when the kids have already gone to bed or went to spend the night at Hiroto's and auntie Karai's.

That's about it for now!

I'm very much procrastinating on all my projects, and I do apologize for that. I'm, again, unhappy with the rewritten chapter and am in a similar situation like chapter 4. I pray that it won't take me too long.

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Pride Month Character Sexuality Headcanon Moodboards 1. Yasmine - Lesbian 2. Demetri Alexopoulos - Gay 3. Moon - Bisexual 4. Eli "Hawk" Moskowitz - Bisexual

Next up is my favorite little gayboy in the whole world!!! Why am I so dead convinced he's a little gayboy and not a little biboy??? I'm so glad you asked!!!

Yes obviously he's in love with Eli, a boy, but I firmly believe Demetri has never once genuinely yearned for the touch of a woman akidjsilufhk

MF literally spends his first scene of the show limp-wristing. I am not kidding in the least.

Like even Eli is sus in the first pic akajsldibhodfku

"But that's circumstantial evidence, tumblr user demetriandelibinaryboyfriends!!!" you say. "He starts simping for Yasmine immediately after, so doesn't that cancel it out?"

Well, see, that's exactly what he wants you to think.

The reason he does this imo is actually kind of sad. Miguel comes to the table (Demetri's first potential new friend in like 10 years!!!) and immediately shows an interest in girls, establishing that he's probably a Regular Straight Guy. Miguel has seen Demetri talk in a slight gay lisp (he does!!! Don't @ me!!! Like maybe they were going for "nasally nerd voice" but it just sounds like the stereotypical gay guy voice???), have Some Kinda Fruity Vibe going with Eli, and limp-wrist all over the place, and Demetri knows this. He's also just met Miguel, and has every reason to believe this straight dude will ditch him immediately if he suspects Demetri's gay (high school kids really ARE that cruel sometimes), so...he tries to cover his ass and pretend to be straight so Miguel will stay :(

Speaking of Yasmine, though!!! Basically every time throughout the series that he shows an interest in her, it feels extremely performative. Like he's just saying what Miguel (or whoever else) would expect him to. And it's only ever about looks and social status in a way that suggests he sees Yasmine as a kind of placeholder/cover-up--"the conventionally attractive girl I act obsessed with so no one suspects I'm gay."

On that topic, the irt S1 Demetri, the fact that he picks a very unattainable girl to show blatant interest in is huge. Like what better cover than "pining" for a girl who you believe there is 0% chance you could ever actually date??? Indefinitely permanent beard without once having to fake a straight relationship!

I also think this is why Demetri is so gloriously unbothered when he botches hitting on Yasmine in 1x09. Like sure, he's socially inept, but he's not unintelligent; anyone with two brain cells could tell Yasmine wasn't interested (and he doesn't have the Eli-esque ego-driven delusion to think he's doing better with girls than he actually is). So why does he happily say "I think that went well!" when Yasmine walks away??? Because he's filled the Expected Straight Guy Quota beautifully by shooting his shot with a hot girl, and now that that failed he's off the hook!

Another funny thing is that he ONLY goes and hits on Yasmine after he's seen Eli making out with a random girl. I think it's both a mimicking kind of thing ("well, shit, if this is what Eli's doing I'd better do it too!" they're like cats I love them) and an "I guess if Eli's gonna start kissing girls and be unavailable now, I have nothing to lose so I might as well" kinda thing.

Generally speaking, S1 Demetri, um...sure does procrastinate getting romantically involved with girls. We're meant to believe it's solely a lack of confidence and his general defeatist nature, but like. Every chance he gets, he puts off making a move on girls. He straight up tells Miguel he's going to wait until he gets a well-paying, respectable job before asking any hot girls out. Homeboy literally putting off dating girls for like 5 decades. Not to mention the Halloween dance, where he tells Miguel to "slow his roll" asking girls to dance and says it "could've been worse" when they in fact don't end up dancing with any girls. Both rather flippantly and cheerfully, too! Like Demetri only ever seems to care about girls when Miguel is around, which goes back to my theory that he's worried Miguel would abandon him and Eli if he figured out Demetri was gay.

Tbh I don't think Demetri's lack of initiative with girls is because he's a defeatist because...he seems indifferent (sometimes even chipper) about his lack of luck with women. But when it comes to Eli being bullied??? He is ACTIVELY bothered. Like he's clutching the back of a chair in a silent rage during the library scene. He looks heartbroken when the cafeteria kids start snickering about Eli's mom calling the school. He goes off at Johnny when he makes fun of Eli's lip! Clearly Demetri doesn't like being at the bottom of the school food chain, even though he's also a defeatist about getting bullied. But when it comes to girls??? Every time the loser trio fails with women, Miguel tends to take it 5000% harder than Demetri, who legit barely bats an eye!

I feel like I don't need to convince you of the Demetri-Eli subtext, because otherwise you wouldn't be on my page, but...it's worth mentioning that Demetri spends all of S2 being a sad little simp for Newly Evil Eli and completely forgetting Yasmine's existence while she's in France. Moon is the only one who acknowledges Yasmine's existence all season, but that gay subtext is a conversation for another day XD In any case, Demetri quickly 100% forgets the girl he was supposedly "so into" during S1. Wack! Speaking as an ex-high schooler, btw, you don't just forget your crush over the summer if you really liked them that much. You yearn and talk wistfully to your friends about what they might be up to XD

Also worth noting that as soon as Demetri does drop the Aggressively Straight facade and forms genuine relationships with women, platonic bonds with girls seem to come second-nature to him! He very easily befriends Moon and Sam, despite being scared to so much as interact with girls for years. But as soon as he does, connecting and being amicable with girls seems effortless as long as it isn't romantic. It brings to mind how gay men often have a lot of close female friends and tend to be more at ease around them because there's no concern of underlying sexual/romantic tension.

Tbh you could argue the only time Demetri's relationships with women suffer is when he Tries Too Hard To Be Straight. He has healthy and solid friendships with Sam and Moon, and he has never once tried to flirt with either. Among all the girls in the cast Demetri regularly interacts with, Yasmine is actually the one he has the most contentious relationship with. And why's that? I would argue it's because he feels obligated to hit on her whenever they're together, lest his hard-earned new friends suspect something is abnormal about him. Not Moon as much, but Sam and Miguel for sure--as far as he can tell, they are both 100% straight and it's very possible he's worried about them abandoning him for being a "weird freak" the same way Eli did. In any case, him hitting on Yas makes the atmosphere between them tense and uncomfortable, making his relationship with her feel more stilted than his more organic-feeling interactions with Moon and Sam.

Worth noting that he only really brings up Yasmine/waxes poetic about how "into Yasmine" he is around the people he MOST wants to think he's straight--Sam, Miguel, and Eli. Sam and Miguel are his best friends sans Eli, and Eli, well...of course he would constantly bring up his Girlfriend He Totally Likes So Much around the dude he absolutely does not want to suspect he's into!!! In S4 especially he just got Eli back, and shies away from anything that might open a rift between them again, especially a big fat gay crush he's been harboring since the jump!

The whole Demetri-Yasmine relationship is super shallow and performative--in my opinion, from both sides, but Demetri's side especially. He seems to see Yasmine as more of a concept than a person, calling her the "girl of his dreams" and saying he's "101% in love" while...not appearing to know anything of substance about her. He literally never alludes to knowing anything about her personality except that she's hot and mean. And sure, you could chock this up to him being a shallow, horny teenage boy, but...we know he's anything but shallow, given how he loves his childhood best friend so much and so deeply that he forgives him for all number of horrible things in 3 seconds flat because he is that certain that Eli means his apology and is a good person deep down. Given that he has absolutely undying loyalty to his other best friend Miguel Diaz, despite Miguel being (indirectly) part of the reason that he and Eli got estranged in the first place. Given that he also has so much undying loyalty to Sam LaRusso that he backed her up in a dangerous gang fight and got his arm broken for it. Demetri clearly sees and understands the nuance and complexity in people. So why does he talk about his own girlfriend as if she has none???

Something else to note is how in S5, Demetri reveals that he and Yasmine fight so frequently that her arm is literally weighed down with all the make-up bracelets he buys her. This is just supposed to be a Funny Bit, but...I can't help but notice that this is a stark contrast to S4, where they seemed to be all over each other every time we saw them together. Maybe because when they're alone together, the facade falls away and their "relationship" doesn't really have any leg to stand on? Also one has to wonder why anyone would stay in a relationship that dysfunctional. Makes a lot more sense looking at it from the perspective that Demetri feels like he needs a beard, and isn't sure he'd be able to find another girl willing to date him. Besides, as far as fake-girlfriends-to-make-people-think-you're-straight go...well, you're really not going to do much better than Yasmine.

Mentioned in many other posts, but I firmly believe that Yasmine is a closet lesbian and she and Demetri are a case of "gay and lesbian date in high school because they subconsciously detect the gayness in each other and mistake that sense of kinship for romantic attraction."

I also think it's very possible that a little ways into dating, one or both of them realized they were gay, and they made a mutual agreement to "stay together for appearances." Yasmine's social status plummeted after the end of S1, and it's possible she had homophobic family in the picture who would make publicly coming out impractical. And Demetri, while definitely more popular than he used to be, likely thought he could stand to lose all that if it got out he was gay.

Tbh maybe it was a mutual fake dating situation from the jump!!! Point is that this relationship is WAY too stilted and awkward for me to believe one or both of them ISN'T hamming it up a little. It just does not feel genuine or natural at all :/ Although they DO actually have a lot of platonic potential (especially taking the mlm/wlw solidarity aspect into account, or even just the trope of a popular alpha bitch having a sassy gay best friend aidpsiufhodly), which leads me to believe there's more going on than just Demetri using Yasmine as a beard. I do think he likes her and admires her a lot, just not romantically or sexually!

I've actually heard from my mlm friends that it's relatively common for gay guys to be drawn to powerful and outspoken women, and mistake that admiration for a romantic crush! This is probably what happened with Yasmine, if Demetri did believe he had genuine feelings for her and wasn't faking a crush to actively hide his sexuality. I'd also imagine this is where the "bitchy queen bee girly-girl with a gay best friend" stereotype comes from!

A big part of my gay Demetri/bi Eli belief comes from how different their relationships with women are. Demetri is more comfortable with women from the jump, befriending Aisha, Moon, and Sam fairly easily in a way that could indicate a lack of attraction (so, once again, less pressure and more freedom to be his authentic self). Eli, on the other hand, seems to have more trouble with girls in a way that leads me to believe he IS attracted to (and intimidated by) them to some extent. Although he does form a close friendship with Aisha, his other relationships with girls seem to consist of him awkwardly flirting with/trying to impress them, antagonizing them (e.g. Sam in S3), or not really interacting with them at all. In S2, Eli doesn't even seem at ease around his own girlfriend! He's quick to jump to snapping the MOMENT Demetri says something that might make him look bad, like he doesn't trust Moon to like anything other than his "coolness" (which, to be fair, she...doesn't really lmao). He does befriend Tory, but it's more of a casual "work friendship" and it's nowhere near the kind of easy, close-knit friendship Sam and Demetri have. Even Dem's relationship with Yasmine is amicable enough when he's not trying too hard to hit on her. Point being that Eli struggling with girls more than Demetri kinda gives me the impression Demetri doesn't get (romantically) nervous around girls much at all. Not to say someone like Tory wouldn't make him nervous about getting punched in the face or knifed in the gut XD But nervous about dating girls??? Nah. He's only nervous about keeping up the appearance of wanting to date girls!

Just LOOK at what this mf wears!!! Like he LITERALLY has the mlm flag on a hoodie!!! With fucken purple-ass skinny jeans, the fucken bottom stripe of the mlm flag and also the gayest color alive!!! Like all throughout the show this mf's color motifs are CONSISTENTLY blue and green. The blue we could say comes with the Miyagi Do color motifs, but what of the green??? Why he wearing so much green, though??? To match Eli??? His BOYFRIEND???

Yes, it COULD be a reach, but like. It's SO CONSISTENT throughout the show!!! So much blue!!! So much green!!! And when he's NOT wearing those colors, whatever colors he's wearing usually match with Eli's outfit!

Sorry but color-coordinating your outfit with your bestie shows the fashion sense and awareness of a gay man. Demetri Alexopoulos...

As always, pic credits available upon request!

#demetri alexopoulos #demetri cobra kai #cobra kai #aesthetic #moodboard #ck pride month moodboards #gay #mlm #cobra kai season 1 #cobra kai season 2 #cobra kai season 3 #cobra kai season 4 #cobra kai season 5 #happy pride 🌈#lgbt #lgbtqia #queer #queer pride

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