#i'm so confused wait theres really so much in my head ;;;; but one thing i know for sure is that

[noxtivagus]

gna be productive now

[teddybeartoji]

mickey i need ur thoughts on jjk men (esp satoru) helping out and showing love for their partner with autism

like uuuuuuuu i was thinking abt toru keeping a pair of his sunglasses with him hust in case youre visually overwhelmed. ORRRR him teleporting you to a quieter space when he notices that theres too many complex sounds that are upsetting you.

ughhhhh like imagine one of them remembering that pressure is soothing for you and js puts their full body weight whenever you come back home from a bad day.

GUHHHH them keeping candles of your favorite scents and alwaya makes sure to keep your safe foods stocked up whenever you visit

OH NOW I'M REALLY KISSING YOU GRAY MY BELOVED!!! THIS IS SUCH A WONDERFUL LITTLE ASK WAHHH I GOT SO GIDDY

i agree with everything you said!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i know that every single one of them would do anything and everything to help you out!! but i did pick some things out that really made me think of them!!! anyway hello my fellow autistic ppl this one is for you all i love you very very much<333

satoru 100% carries extra sunglasses with him and i think he'd actually carry his black blindfold aswell. obvs he's not gonna make you wear it as you're moving through public but he'd lead you to a quiet spot and then just let you have a moment. he's either sitting you down next to him or he's holding you against his chest, protecting you from every single ray of light that could possibly make it any worse for you. bc honestly... sunglasses are sometimes just not enough for me personally. i've had my fair share of times where i just have to cover my eyes with my hands bc it just hurts so much.

we all know that satoru is a big yapper but i know he needs his quiet time too. i think he would love to just Do Nothing with you in complete silence. maybe you're both just taking a nap together, maybe you're just laying in the sun out in the park. maybe you're resting your head on his lap, maybe he's resting his on yours. it's all just about gentle touches and looks.

he loves it when you ramble and he's literally your biggest hypeman!! he's ready to spend all of his fucking money on you and any fucking equipment you could ever need. you want a new game or a new console? they're both already waiting for you at home. you want to start drawing? he has already ordered a tablet for you to practise on. you want to get into photography? he's buying you a camera and three different lenses. he wants you to be happy and he wants you to be able to do everything you could ever possibly want. he's just the sweetest guy ever i am crying rn actually:((

he's the best little autism bf btw. bc he gets it. he understand. he knows. he knows all about the light sensitivity. he knows all about the difficulty of eating "normal" foods, always munching on candy and snacks bc that's just easier. he knows about the fidgeting, he knows about the innate need to have somebody lay on top of you. he knows about the rambling and the hyperfixations. he knows about the confusing social clues and the ridiculous differences of speaking tones. he knows about the eye-contact problems - whether you're someone, who struggles to keep it or you're someone, who can't tear your eyes from everybody else just like him - he understands! he knows about being straighforward and speaking exactly what's on your mind and then being scolded for it. he knows about Not Really Understanding personal space. he truly does understand and he's ready to do anything and everything to help you cope with Life.

toji is theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee best weighted blanket and i stand by that. he's so fucking huge and he's so fucking heavy - he's perfect. he's gonna tease you about it but just a little!! you tug him by his hand and he gladly takes his place on top of you bc let's be honest... he's gonna love it, too. he's protecting you! he's taking care of you in a way that doesn't need words! he's trying his best! and if this is what you need - he is going to do it!!!

also with the light and sound sensitivity - he'd gladly pull you into his chest and cover your eyes with his big ass palm. and it would feel soo comforting wtf. the weight of it and just the fact that it's him?? fuck, i know it'd be so good. or your ears. he's placing them on your ears, muffling the overwhelming sounds while cradling you and wahh:(( he'd make you feel so safe.

suguru and shoko and parallel play. it's amazing. they will read a book while you're gaming. or suguru's painting while you're reading. or shoko's having her morning smoke and coffee while you're doing your skincare (i'm sorry i just can't get out the beautiful picture of her sitting on the little windowsill of your bathroom, a cig inbetween her fingers and a cup of coffe in her hand. no words are being spoken - it's just the sound of the birds outside, the water running and her gulping down her little espresso. thank you for listening.)

or suguru's doing his little home workout routine as you're crocheting. or it's you and shoko just laying on your shared bed scrolling on your phones in silence. could literally be whatever. they're gonna glance at you every once in a while, they're gonna ask how you're doing, how you're feeling and then they're gonna give you a tender smile and a kiss on your cheek and continue on. i'm melting just thinking about it.

suguru is obviously also going to be there for you if you have sleeping problems. he understands them all too well and he's pulling out all the stops to help you fall asleep (and himself). he's gonna make the tea one night and you'll make it the next night. it's equal. maybe you're also going to take a lovely little bath together, you'll giggle exhaustedly as you both slur out very stupid jokes and after that you'll both climb under the covers and take turns in listening to each others heartbeats and (hopefully) fall asleep.

shoko and sarcasm. she definitely makes a lot of sarcastic jokes and comments and she'll be a bit confused at first when you just blurt out the good-old "i don't know whether you're joking or not". but i think she'd find it super cute. she'll still occasionally make the comments but she'll make sure to check in whether you got it or not. i think she would tease but she'd do it very lightly (she definitely cackles when satoru doesn't understand sarcasm though lmao but you're her baby and she doesn't want you to feel bad). and i think she would love if you made terrible sarcastic jokes. like she would laugh until there are tears prickling in her eyes and you'd still be like ????? i don't understand and then she'd laugh even more. she's so cute.

kento is always ready to cook for you. he understands how hard it can be, how overwhelming it can be. he doesn't mind it a bit. i truly think this would be good for the both of you! he loves to cook and it's such a relaxing thing for him, and it's even better now that he knows he can see you fill your cheeks with delight. he needs you to eat well and he will make sure you do!

i also think that he's so patient with you and he'd never ever make you feel like you have to speak with him. he buys little plushies that you can turn inside-out, a pink side and a blue side - indicating how you're doing on the Speaking department that day. and these tiny interactive pins and you can express whatever you're feeling without ever speaking a word. he never pressures you in any way, always just reward you with more reassurance and a kiss to your temple.

he's ALSO the best listener. like he never talks over you. never. not even on an accident???? it's a superpower i think. he let's you talk at your own pace and he just stares at you with very soft eyes:((

wait i also think that shoko, utahime and yuki would gladly speak for you. in a sense of if you have social anxiety or you stutter or anything like that, they'd easily take up the task of ordering for you! they literally have all of your orders remembered and everything.

[starfoundnight]

Part 3 and final part-ish

Yakuza boss! Sukuna x chubby! reader

Warning: blood mentions, killing, smut(istg theres more smut then the actual build up to the story),smut also includes name calling degrading, praise, a lot of freaky shit, idk what it's called but you're turned on by how dangerous and strong sukuna is. READ AT YOUR OWN HORNY RISK!!! Honestly it ain't proofed read at all so there is a lot of fuck ups.

You finally wake up with a banging headache caused because of the hangover. You just lay there...opening your eyes you see a big tv in room you've never seen before. 'Where...am I?' You mumble to yourself as you slowly sat up on the couch. 'Morning y/n, welcome to my home' You look behind you seeing sukuna walking into what you think is the lounge. 'Not the best way to enter my home but I'm not too sure on where you live, you drank a bit too much for your own good and you started saying a lot of things, except your address, since you said we were friends and you gave me the sweets for free I owed you one'

You were still waking up and heard the key words:drunk, saying things, and address. You lay back down on the couch 'Morning kuna...' you groan out not wanting to be rude. He hands you a cup of water. 'You have to drink it all for your own good, it'll help you with your hang over' you hesitate at first since you and sukuna have only known eachother for 2 days. He takes the drink and sips it 'I wouldn't do anything to harm you on purpose, you are my friend right?' You nod and drink all the cold water 'thank you' you lay your head on his shoulder 'would you like to watch some TV?' You nod 'yes please'

Time flies and the sun is setting

You go to stand up feeling much better after all the water and food sukuna has given you to eat and drink. 'I should really get go-' He pulls you onto his lap and leans into your ear softly saying 'Don't go yet...stay a bit longer' you blush a lot on your face and you begin to stutter feeling yourself get hotter 'ok ok ok just let me get off your legs I might hurt you' you say mumbling feeling a bit shameful '....you hurt me?' You look up to see sukuna look a bit...offended? 'You think I'm weak enough to get hurt by you? Look at the size diffrence between us' yeah, he was really tall but what about the stomachs? You could tells who's is bigger...Suddenly he stands up carrying you 'do you trust me y/n?' He says holding you around his waist. You nod a bit confused '...yes?' Soon you regret your decision and you get thrown in the air like a baby, getting caught once again just to be chucked around. You can't help yourself but just giggle at the excitement never in a million stars have you thought someone could throw you around like that.

Sukuna finally catches you and let's you back on your feet 'no matter how big or small you get, I will always be able to hold you like grapes' you smile so joyfully to sukuna and sukuna can't help but lean in and softly kiss you. You get taken by surprise but you softly start to kiss him back until you remembered that you are sure how to kiss someone and so you push him away to tell him 'sukunaidontknowhowtokiss!' You yelp and he chuckles 'I wouldn't something to confess as well and you tell me if I'm still allowed to kiss you...' you look upto sukuna as he gently caresses your cheek 'have you heard of...ryomen sukuna the one who thirst for blood?' You nod your head slowly and you lean a bit back 'that's...that is me' you froze from shock.

Weirdly...you get a bit turned on about how dangerous sukuna is but still he's so gentle with you 'kiss me sukuna...please teach me how' sukuna sits on the couch and leans back tapping his lap 'c'mere pretty girl'you get nervous but the way he just looks at you, it's like hes a predator waiting for its prey.

You get yourself onto his lap. He softly grabs your hand 'I'm taking it that you're a virgin?' You nod while having a bit of blush onto your cheeks 'you like the sound of not being one in the morning?' He says while starting to kiss your neck once he feels you nod 'use your big girl voice' you two lock eyes with eachother 'please...use me as you please sukuna...' he chuckles and continues to give you hickeys on your neck 'say "blueberry" if I get a bit too rough, only use it when you want me to stop not when you want a break, you want me to just pause everything and stop and just...love you' you nod understanding what he means and he grabs your round ass roughly while making out with you 'I've wanted to do this ever since you were first nice to me...and you weren't scared of me as well' you softly giggle at his confession 'the day you were so gentle with the kitten in my shop...I wanted you to ruin mine' you whispered just under your breath and your lips slam together becoming more lewd by the second.

He begins to take your shirt off and you start to do the same to him seeing his abs, it felt so unrealistic. "Get on your knees for me baby..." you do as you're told and he unbuckles his belt and unbuttons his pants. He see practically sees sparkles in your eyes "unzip is and take it out of my boxers" you snap back and start seeing the huge imprint "yes sir..." you mumble and slowly unzip it, before you could even take it out of his boxers it sprung up and put its self right infront of your face "can that even go inside anyone...?" That was your first thought when seeing his thick and long cock, it was staring at you...throbbing for you. Sukuna wraps your hair in his fist "you know what to do princess..." you nod hesitantly and open your mouth to wrap around his tip. Holy shit and that's only his tip in your mouth. You can't take it all in your mouth let alone half. "Take your time....just suck what's in your mouth" the reassuring words from sukuna comforted you and you just sucked his tip and you start to Bob your head slowly taking more and more in your mouth going down your throat before your realize you have half of his cock in yiur throat. "Fuck baby take it out of your mouth now." You slowly take it out and there's a pop sound when you take the tip out of your mouth. "I might of just nutted down your throat...fuck, you sure this is your first time?" You nod "mhm only your cock has been in my mouth...the only one I've seen in real life..." hearing that turned him on way more than it should have. "Turn around and bend over for me baby..." you hesitate but the way he looks at you...the lust in his eyes, it's so dominating and you turn around but that's all you get upto before he pushes you to bend over on the small coffee table "sorry baby, hopefully you remeber the safe word" He pulls your pants down and pulls your panties to the side lining himself upto your pussy entrance "fuck your pussy is drooling just from sucking my fucking cock" He rubs it against your slit trying to push it in but it's just so fucking tight and he's so big you think it's impossible until you feel your pussy stretch making you scream from the surprise. Holy shit how can it even fit inside you? He slowly loves deeper "get use to my size...I'm fighting every thought in my mind and muscle in my body to not just thrust inside you breed you like a fucking animal in heat..." all you could do was nod and whimper. He starts to slowly thrust starting to get faster. Hearing you moan and whimper because of his cock was making it throb even more. Giving you a slap on your ass if you try to crawl away and pushing his cock deeper into you. He just loves the way you are crying for him to stop but also begging for more and for his babies inside your womb.

You're now overestimulated. Your brain is mush by now and you can't even speak properly except for begging and moaning. Seeing him lay next to you all sweaty and messy hair was somewhat comforting. Maybe your fucked out brain could comprehend that it was finally over, just for this night atleast. Feeling the cum flowing out of you you put your panties on properly again "fuck...first time having sex and I'm gonna get pregnant..." you mumble and you hair sukuna laugh softly and pull you into him "fuck, I love you."

[divorcingjimmatthews]

jade comforting a new resident through their second night in the town

this was gonna be a one shot but the status quo changes way too fast this season so i might as well get the idea out as quickly as i can 😂

it's an hour or so before nightfall and jade's settling in at his new home at the bar

finally somewhere he can be alone

he hears a knock on the door

he opens the door and sees you, a stranger, with a backpack and a small suitcase by your side

"h-hi. i'm (Y/N). i... my bus stopped here and..."

oh, no. no, no, no, no

he asks why the fuck are you not at colony house

you stutter and mumble your way through an explanation

basically, someone just told you about what happened there the night of the party, so you just grabbed your things and came back to the town

you wanted to stay at the diner like on your first night but it's closed for the night

someone told you the bar would be empty

you're such a mess

jade hates this but hes like okay okay fine come in jesus

he offers you a drink. there's potato vodka and potato vodka. also water

seeing your state he withdraws the alcohol offer quickly, on second thought

he watches you not really look any better after sipping your way through some water

"hold up. i'm going to see if they have something at the clinic"

you're TERRIFIED like NO YOU CANT GO OUT THERES THOSE THINGS OUTSIDE

he tries to convince you that there's still plenty of time but you look so scared to be alone that he ends up staying just in case

he just sits next to you for a while and you finally start to calm down

"how is... how is any of this happening?"

"that's what i'm trying to find out."

"what have you got so far?"

he scoffs

"fucking nothing"

you smile a little, incredulous

"you have to know more than me"

you pull out a notebook and a pen and write "monsters" as a heading, then underline it

jade takes a deep sigh and starts listing what he knows. they come out at night. they don't run. they shriek. and so on.

while you're formulating a theory, you ask jade if he knows what an endless loop is in coding

he stares at you like i'm jade herrera, well-known tech enterpreneur

you blink, confused

he realises it may be time to maybe shave

the activity is pretty engaging and the time passes quickly

you're so relieved. when you realise it, you even smile

"h-hey. this is... actually, this is okay. this isn't too b—"

the monsters start shrieking in the distance

"oh, jesus fucking christ"

jade realises that there's not gonna be a point where you're gonna be okay to fall asleep and not bother him for the night

"wait. i'll go get blankets"

you don't even want him to leave to go into his room, but you'll have to be brave about it

he comes back and throws a big blanket over your shoulders, then sits back down and throws another blanket over his legs, and leans back on a pillow he brought

he hands you another pillow and you cling to it immediately

reluctantly, jade tries to reassure you

"listen. all you have to do is stay put. a baby could do this, okay? there's no fucking it up."

you're so tired from being scared that you actually fall asleep as soon as you feel safe

the night goes by with you asleep leaning on jade with your pillow in between the two of you, and jade borrowing your notebook to continue with the theories

eventually, some hours later, he also falls asleep

he would never admit to himself or to others that he actually slept well that night

who would've thought other people just being there could be good and comforting huh jade

maybe isolating yourself is not the solution to anything huh jade

he will learn nothing from this

he really doesnt want to share but he ends up letting you stay

he tries to sleep alone in his room that night

he ends up conceding that you're a much nicer roommate than the ghost of that cristopher guy manifesting through his visions

grabs his pillow and blanket and pretends to be intending to go check on you. what a gentleman

you're actually soundly asleep

"are you kidding me?? really?"

accidentally wakes you

"hm? jade?"

"sorry. i just wanted to check if you were..."

you're too sleepy to make much sense of what he's saying, but as soon as you notice his pillow and blanket that he's carrying, you get a rough idea of his reasons

you move a bit to make room for him and he immediately takes the cue

you fall back asleep like, right after

he's just thinking "fuck this, fuck this, fuck this"

leans into you a bit to make himself as comfortable as he can

his back is really noticing the sessions he's missed so far at the gym but this still beats his usual sleeping situation

oh well. he can be embarrassed about this tomorrow

right now, he'll just close his eyes and get some proper rest, for once

[mydarllinglover]

SafeHouse || Five

Previous

"Wait, so basically, you want me to leave my Brother and his friends alone, to hang around with you lot and "act like a Slytherin" just to piss them off?" I raised my eyebrows "Ha, Ha funny joke, thank you very much for wasting my time but i'll be off now-" I said about to get up and leave, but was stopped.

"Weasley, you will do it or else" Malfoy threatened

"Or else what? if this is how you guys get girls to hang out with you? no wonder the only one who clings to you is Pansy, you really need to work on your gentleman skills"

"You know we can make your life at Hogwarts miserable, right?" Nott told me as he squat down, resting his elbows on his knees, to look me in the eyes

"Oh dont worry, another minute in here and you will have sealed the deal, I'll have nightmares for the rest of my life just looking at your faces"

"Whats Weasley doing in the boys dorms?" Zabini asked

"I heard Weasley's first kiss was a house elf" Nott joined in

"I heard Weasley was secretly dating Goyle"

"you three are a bunch of mean girls, oh my god" I said

"I heard Weasley spent the last few years in Azkaban"

"I heard Weasley was sent away at birth, because her parents didn't want her"

"I heard Weasley was really half goblin"

"I heard Weasley was only friends with Potter for his riches"

"What-No I'm not!" I protested

                                                               

"back to the matter at hand, Rumours can ruin just about anyone, especially around the certain crowd, and we have a big influence on The students at Hogwarts and what they believe, so make things easier for yourself and agree" Malfoy said, with an air of authority

"You really think i'm that scared of a few rumours, nice try, I've been dealing with them since I got here, besides, I thought you all hate me for being a supposed blood traitor, whatever that means" I crossed my arms over my chest

"Yes, well we all make sacrifices, and you're close to potty and weasel-" Theo said

"Hey! thats as much an insult to me as well as him you know!" I argued back

"Does Your brother really know why your home?" Malfoy asked me

"what?" I snapped my eyes up to look at him, I could feel my cheeks glowing red and my arms loosing from the criss cross

"What would happen if he and everyone else found out the real reason you left, sorry I mean got thrown out of Beauxbatons" He raised an eyebrow, knowing he had finally caught my attention

"Malfoy, no! you can't, how did you even, you wouldn't" I gasped

"I have my sources, Weasley, now agree if you dont want your little secret spilled"

I looked around the room,  by the looks of it, Malfoy had told Zabini and Nott, thats if he actually knew and wasn't just bluffing, but I couldn't take that chance, dropping my head to stare at the floor in defeat "fine" I whispered

"What was that?" Nott had put his hand to his ear

"I said fine" I said a little louder

"Brilliant, lets go get dinner, I'm starving" Draco stretched, being mindful of his arm and they went to walk out.

Nott grabbed my wrists and pulled me up before putting his arm over my shoulder, I didn't have the energy to shrug it off though.

Before we went down the stairs I went to sprint to the girls dormitories but was unsuccessful with Nott's hold on me and Crabbe had returned to block the way

"tut tut, Weasley, its dinner, you dont want to miss that, anymore" Draco  mocked.

I dreaded it when we got to the Great Hall, My cheeks instantly blushed when i looked over to the Gryffindor table and caught all my siblings and Harry & Hermione looking at me in confusion to be with not only Malfoy but Zabini, Crabbe and Goyle but Theodore Notts arm around my shoulders, I was hoping that they could see the pleading look in my eyes and realise that I didn't like this but all I could see on my twins face was hurt and anger, even Fred and George looked annoyed.

"Cheer up Weasley, theres Pie!" Nott cheered as we sat down at the Slytherin table, me sandwiched between Nott and Goyle, Malfoy and Zabini sitting opposite and Crabbe next to Goyle.

I just sat there, staring at my plate, feeling miserable for myself ignoring Nott who had started piling food on to his plate and mine

"Eat up, Weasley" He patted my back hard.

I continued to stare at the food as they delved into conversations about Quidditch and the game coming up Saturday, Slytherin vs Gryffindor, until Malfoy and Zabini revealed that Slytherin had decided to swap with Hufflepuff due to their seeker having an injured arm but really it was because they didn't want to play in the horrible weather.

I hadn't said a word the rest of the night, it felt like a weight was lifted from my chest when I went to bed and could sleep this horrible day away.

It was Friday, the day before Gryffindor Vs Hufflepuff and I was sat in Defence Against the Dark Arts, next to Hermione.

I had got to the Classroom extra early just to avoid the Slytherin boys, I don't think I could cope being sat next to, either Nott, Malfoy or Zabini for another class.

Ron was sat on his own at a desk as Harry hadn't shown up, he refused to even acknowledge me and instead moped at his desk.

I was surprised when Professor Snape had been the one teaching the class today, I was curious to know what had happened to Lupin but bit my tongue, knowing Snape wouldn't have the patience for my questions.

It was Ten minutes into the lesson when Harry had dashed inside.

"Sorry im late, Professor Lupin, I- he finally looked up to realise that Lupin wasn't here at all, but actually it was Snape, bless him, I was getting second hand embarrassment just watching.

"This lesson began ten minutes ago, Potter, so I think we'll make it ten points from Gryffindor. Sit down" But of course the bloody idiot didn't.

"Wheres Professor Lupin?" Harry had voiced my question

"He says he is feeling too ill to teach today?" Snape said with a smile, kinda strange if you ask me "I believe I told you to sit down?"

And yet he still decided not to move

"Harry, just sit down!" I told him, having a hard time keeping my mouth shut.

I was shocked when he actually listened but I knew he wasn't finished with his questions

"I am very capable of handling my students, Weasley!" Snape snapped at me, making me shrink in my seat

"Whats wrong with him?" Harry had asked instead of just shutting up

"Nothing life-threatening, five more points from Gryffindor, and if you ask another question it will be fifty" Harry had decided to save his house by not saying anything further

"As I was saying before Potter interrupted, Professor Lupin has not left any records of the topics you have covered so far-"

"Please, Sir, we've done Boggarts, Red Caps, Kappas and Grindylows," Hermione rushed out from beside me "and we're just about to start-"

"Be quiet" Snape cut her off coldly "I did not ask for information. I was merely commenting on Professor Lupin's lack of organisation."

"He's the best Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher we've ever had" A boy from Gryffindor, I'm pretty sure was Dean Thomas had said boldy, the other Gryffindors and myself agreed, and this seemed to piss the old slime ball right off, it was all over his face, awe we must of touched a nerve.

"You are easily satisfied. Lupin is hardly over-taxing you - I would expect first years to be able to deal with Red Caps and Grindylows. Today we shall discuss- he paused to flip the book "Werewolfs"

Malfoy mockingly howled like a wolf, The Slytherin boys laughed.

"But, sir, We're not supposed to do werewolves yet, we're due to start hinkypunks-" Hermione burst

"Miss Granger, I was under the impression that I was taking this lesson, not you-

"Well then teach us what we're supposed to learn, oh wise Professor, or you might as well bugger off back to the dungeons and 'Mione can teach it, I'm sure I can speak for the majority of us when I say we will learn a whole lot more, and better" I spat, having enough of him disrespecting my friends and acting like he was on his high horse.

"Miss Weasley, I hope you have no plans for the rest of this week, as you will be spending it in detention, am I understood?" Snape curled his lip as he said this, I could just feel the Slytherin boys eyes drilling into the back of my skull

"Eye eye cap'n" I saluted, that man doesn't even know how much he just saved my arse and helped me get out of being with them.

"Now, all of you, turn to Page three hundred and ninety-four Now!"

"Which of you can tell me how we distinguish between the werewolf and the true wolf?" Snape asked the class

Everyone sat in silence, except Hermione, who shot her hand up in the air so fast, I thought she was going to take my ear off

"Anyone?" Snape asked, completely ignoring Hermione

"Oh this is just cruel" I mumbled

Snapes creepy smile was back "Are you telling me that Professor Lupin hasn't even taught you the basic distinction between-"

"We told you" said another Gryffindor, but I wasn't sure of her name  "we haven't got as far as werewolves yet, we're still on-"

"Silence!" Snape barked, making me jump an inch in the air "Well, well, well, I never thought I'd meet a third-year class who wouldn't even recognise a werewolf when they saw one. I shall make  point of informing Professor Dumbledore how very behind you all are ..."

"Please, Sir" Hermione practically begged "The werewolf differs from the true wolf in several small ways. The snout  of the werewolf-

"That is the second time you have spoken out of turn,  Miss Granger, Five more points from Gryffindor for being an insufferable know-it-all."

I watched as my friend had gone bright red and her eyes pooling with tears, before I could say anything back, Ron had said loudly "You asked us a question and she knows the answer! Why ask if you dont want to be told?"

"Detention, Weasley, Maybe the both of you can learn some manners and how to properly behave inside of the classroom then" He said snidely as he looked at me and my brother.

We sat in silence for the rest of the class, letting the over grown bully win this round.

"Very poorly explained ... that is incorrect, the Kappa is more commonly found in Magnolia ... Professor Lupin gave this eight out of ten? I wouldn't have given it three ..." Snape said as he examined the work we had been doing for Lupin.

"correct me if im wrong, but im sure he taught potions, as he's not good enough for this one?" I whispered to Hermione, who bit her tongue to hold in a laugh.

When the bell rang I was ready to thank Merlin but obviously we were not that fortunate as the slime ball held us back

"You will each write an essay, to be handed in to me, on the ways you recognise and kill werewolves. I want two rolls of parchment on the subject, and I want them by Monday morning. It is time somebody took this class in hand. Miss Weasley and Mr Weasley, stay behind, we need to arrange your detentions."

Everyone else had left the classroom, leaving only Snape, Ron and I.

Snape went into detail about our horrific and unjustified detentions for a solid Five minutes, throughout the whole time Ron didn't even take a single glance at me, he was seriously getting on my nerves with his bad temper.

After Snape dismissed us, Ron marched out the room, leaving me to jog a bit to at least try and catch up to him.

"Ron!" I called his name out in the hall when he joined Harry and Hermione "Ron, will you just listen to what I  have to say!"

"Piss off, Keira" He snapped before storming off with Hermione in tow, trying to calm him down.

Harry lingered back a bit, offering me a sympathetic look then soon followed them, I watched their backs disappear around the corner, my shoulders dropping.

"Detention for the next three days, huh? do you really find my handsome face that hard to resist you seek out ways to stay away from us" Nott teased as he draped an arm over my shoulders and steered us in the direction of the dungeons.

"Oh Theodore, you Pronounced heinous wrong, and no, I did not get them just to give me a reason to stay away from you, I was sticking up for my friend , that was just a bonus" I grinned up at him and patted his cheek "ta ta Nott"

Before any of them could stop me I ran to the Library to start my studying on Werewolves, I didn't even care if I looked dumb.

•

"Weasley" Draco drawled as I walked into the Slytherin common room and headed for the girls dormitories to get ready for my detention with Snape and Ron.

"No, I'm busy" I said, not even bothering to look towards the group and rushed out of sight so I could get changed for my detention, in a pair of baggy pyjama bottoms and one of my brothers old t-shirts, that drowned me in the fabric.

Clever thinking Keira, cause now I could jump right into bed without disturbing the others.

I then ran back down stairs, after reaching the bottom of the stairs I doubled over to catch my breath, I really needed to start working out more.

"She's back!" Theodore cheered

"Still busy" I said as I tied my hair up in a pony tail and sped walked back out of the Slytherin common room before I was any later than I already was.

•

"Ron, please talk to me, this would be a lot easier if you weren't ignoring me!" I whined at my brother for the Forth time in the last two hours

"Shut up, Keira" he snapped, continuing to scrub a bedpan

"I don't actually know why you're mad at me, by the way, so I have no clue how I can make it up to you if I don't know what I did"

"you serious- are you for real- do you ever think"

"yes, actually, I do!"

"Pha, okay, nice one"

"Will you stop! I just want us to be alright again, please Ron" I dropped the bedpan I had been scrubbing, to show how serious I was.

"just get on with it so we can leave" He said in a final tone, and didn't say a word for the rest of the detention.

Luckily the Common room was empty by the time I had got there so I could easily pass out in my bed.

•

"I am not going!" I crossed my arms over my chest "I don't like quidditch, and its cold, and the weather is horrible"

"Then be sure to wrap up warm" Draco said flatly

"Aw, is the Malfoy brat not used to hearing the word No? see it means I'm not going to do what you say just because you told me, here it is again, ready? No!"

"I hate you all" I groaned, huddling up closer to Zabini under the umbrella in order not to get soaked in the rain, Nott and Malfoy sharing one next to us

"Look theres Potter!" Nott pointed him out causing him to look in our direction, the three of them laughed and jeered at him, but I tried offering him a comforting smile

"Hi Harry, Good luck!" I shouted to him, him blushing and mumbling a thanks in return

"You know, you could at least act like you're a Slytherin" Zabini told me

"Did you see how he blushed, where's my camera when I need it, that was adorable" Nott laughed "Why was he blushing like that?"

"I dont know, But Ron did mention how he didn't shut up talking about me when I said I was gonna kiss him" I thought out loud "What? stop looking at me like that! I wasn't actual- holy gargoyles, who is that?" I pointed at one of the Hufflepuff players he was tall and extremely handsome with chiselled features, dark hair, and bright grey eyes.

He was perfect in every way

"Him? Thats Cedric Diggory, Hufflepuffs seeker" Malfoy said

"He's all looks but no brains" Nott said

"He's the love of my life" I sighed "Oh my god! he just looked in our way, hows my hair, is there something on my face?" I freaked out

"He was probably looking at Draco and Blaise because they are on the Slytherin Quidditch team" Nott rolled his eyes.

"I thought you said you liked Wood" Malfoy said

"Hush Malfoy, No, not since he kicked me out of the Gryffindor practise cause he thought I would rat out their plays" I mumbled the rest and rolled my eyes

"I thought you didn't like Quidditch, why would you go to their practise?" Zabini asked

"Shush, the games starting" I hushed him and stared at the Pitch

"No its n-

"Shh".

•

"See, Diggory is obviously more fitter, but I dont know, that Scottish accent gets me excited"

"Right!" I slapped Theodore's arm and agreed "and the way he's so passionate about the sport"

"Will you two shut up!" Malfoy shouted at us over the howling winds

I had no idea what was going on and who was winning, and I didn't care, the only interesting thing was just Hermione casting a spell on Harry's glasses so he could see in the rain, yeah, that was it.

I was soaked from the rain, my hair a mess from the wind and I could barely feel my hands.

"Can they just hurry up already! I wanna go in-

"Woah, look!" Theodore cut me off to point at Harry who had slipped on his broom, falling down a few feet, he seemed to have regained control, Diggory speeding on his tail, he noticed the  snitch and sped for it, and thats when they came.

Hundreds of Dementors surrounded the pitch, everything freezing over, it was like they were absorbing happiness, i felt even colder on the inside.

The Dementors swarmed Harry and suddenly he was falling to the ground, I couldn't focus on anything but Harry's body plummeting, And then he hit the ground. Ron and Hermione had already ran to him as well as the other quidditch players and teachers, I went to run to him but was stopped by Malfoy

"Get off me!" I barked at him, ripping my arm out of his grip and legged it.

I felt awkward in the hospital wing, like I shouldn't be here, should I be here? I counted Harry as one of my friends, but maybe I was just his best friends twin sister to him, not to mention I was the only Slytherin in a room full of Gryffindors.

We gathered around his bed looking over him,  I was stood next to Hermione and George, Harry was still unconscious.

"Lucky the ground was so soft"

"I thought he was dead for sure"

"But he didn't even break his glasses" I saw the slight winces and Movements of Harry as he was gaining consciousness

"That was the scariest thing I've ever seen in my life"

"Guys, shut up, Harry's waking up" I cut off their whispering 

"Harry!" Fred had said "How're you feeling?"

"What happened?" Harry asked, and sat up so fast I could tell I wasn't the only one who got hit with worry

"You fell off, Must've been - what - fifty feet?" Fred told him

"We thought you died" Alicia, who had introduced herself and the rest of the team to me, had said

I heard Hermione make a small squeaky noise, I quickly put my hand on her shoulder to calm her, I dont really know if it helped but I didn't really know what else to do.

"But the match, What happened? Are we having a replay?"

No one answered his question, I didn't simply because I didn't know what happened.

"We didn't- lose?"

"Diggory got the snitch" George sighed " Just after you fell. He didn't realise what happened. When he looked back and saw you on the ground, he tried to call it off. Wanted a re-match. But they won fair and square ... even Wood admits it"

"Where is Wood?"

"Still in the showers" Said Fred " we think he's trying to drown himself" I Turned my head so fast to look at my brother in shock, I thought I gave myself whiplash, at how casual he said that

"Should someone go check on him?!" I asked him, but he just shrugged his shoulders

"C'mon, Harry, you've never missed the Snitch before"

"There had to be to be one time you didn't get it" George followed Fred in trying to cheer him up

"It's not over yet, We lost by a hundred points, right? so if Hufflepuff lose to Ravenclaw and we beat Ravenclaw and Slytherin ..."

"Hufflepuff'll have to lose by at least two hundred points" George said.

"But if they beat Ravenclaw..."

"No way, Ravenclaw are too good. But if Slytherin lose against Hufflepuff..."

"It all depends on the points - a margin of a hundred points either way-"

As they were all discussing the points and how they could possibly have a chance of winning, I watched Harry lay there in silence, and my heart hurt for him, he probably felt like this was all his fault, I wish there was something that I or all of us could do to make this better for him.

I dont even think he knew about his broom yet.

Eventually Madam Pomfrey kicked us out so Harry could rest.

"We'll come and see you later" Fred reassured him "Don't beat yourself up, Harry, You're still the best seeker we've ever had"

"Yeah, Harry, I dont even know whats happening half the time but from what I could tell, your brilliant" I smiled at him before following the rest out, except for Ron and Hermione, I chose to leave as, one, I thought we all were, and two because I guessed he would probably want time alone with his best friends.

"So, is the boy who lived...alive?" Theodore asked me, when I walked into the Slytherin Common room, trailing water and mud behind me, filch would hang me by my wrists if he saw.

"Yeah, He's awake, Ron and Hermione's with them" I waved them off and then walked up to the dorms to get changed and warm up, readying myself for my second detention in a row.

Next

[comvi]

Hi, I heard you liked Spearmaster, I'm begging you please tell me how

Im suffering

Red lizor mean =(

im a bit confused by what this means, but i think you’re asking me how i like spearmaster & how i deal with red lizards, so im just gonna go with that!

when i first started my spearmaster campaign, i admit the red lizards scared the SHIT out of me from just how absolutely SPEEDY they were and their spit- but like a lot of other lizards, they can only directly get to you if they have a pole to climb or some pipe that’ll bring them up to your level.

I use this to my advantage when i want to get through an area but a red lizard is blocking the way (and i probably wont be able to kill them)- i’ll wait until it goes into a pipe away from me (whilst it does that freakout-thing lizards do when they cant get you) and once it starts heading to me again from another direction or that same pipe, ill speed on by to wherever i need to go while they cant do anything for that time in the pipes.

Ive only encountered them in outskirts, and once in another region, iirc? So I don’t really have a set way with how i deal with them, or a way i could tell you how to deal with them- but when i was stuck with one and couldnt just run away (red lizards as much faster than spearmaster), i just kept juking them by re-entering a tunnel over-and-over, and when that red lizard wasnt facing me anymore i kept throwing spears until it died.

sorry if this isn’t much- i haven’t encountered them enough to familiarize myself with them, and when i play rainworld i tend to either “think way too much” or “act now, think later” with no in-between (because rainworld is absolutely brutal and will not wait up for me, i tend to just go foot-first in situations and deal with stuff in the moment as it happens)

Otherwise though- i haven’t had much trouble with other lizards, dropwigs, etc. My own issues lie in having trouble getting access to their backs so that spears will actually do damage, but when i cant do that, that juking technique i mentioned before where i’ll keep re-entering pipes has always worked for me nomatter my location.

Spearmaster is pretty cool when it comes to how they eat too- it’s really made me have to go into encounters with enemies even if i would’ve rather not (as thus i’d like to think im a lot better at using spears & dealing with lizards AND vultures). and if you didnt already know, if you hit a popcorn plant with one of their spears, it’ll replenish all of your food pips! really helpful for when theres no creatures around but the rain in coming & you need to get in a shelter quick.

overall though i like that guy a lot!! I think compared to the other slugcats ive played (excluding gourmand), they’re a bit slower & their slides dont go as far, but their advantage of forming spears at any time is super neat for getting to new areas by climbing walls with them.

also the whole spear-forming thing in general is absolutely insane to me ive never willingly killed as many scavengers and vultures as i have when i started playing as them LOL

[petrichoraline]

wait stay by my side is good??? and no one told me??? or maybe i keep confusing stay by side and stay with me lol

as someone who is all caught up on both shows - they're both fun 😄

this ask is from three days ago when I talked about how stay by my side (taiwanese show about a boy who can hear ghosts and the guy who gives him a break through touch) had a very fun sixth episode. i wasn't into the show that much but ep.6 gave me some heart-fluttering moments and cute angst that I neither took seriously nor disliked - it was fun for me because of the execution, the fact I don't take anything happening in the show to heart and because the show is short enough so I sensed a resolution was coming very soon 😁

now ive seen episode 7 as well and I can say 6 is definitely my fave. the conflicts are predictable, theres nothing really new but thats what goves you the safe feeling - you dont risk breaking your heart watching it haha. i'd recommend this in case you want a quick sweet watch with "cute silly boy denying his feelings" and "cold rude guy turned passionate suitor". it's the lightest watch i've seen in a while and it's my palette cleanser these days (everything I watch is angsty apparently and the angst supreme™️ trio of loa, of and dr hasn't even reared its ugly head yet lol)

stay with me (the og title of which I find real cute: "gege, don't run") is as far as I know a remake of addicted - a chinese bl that was Very direct in regards to what it's about and therefore got canceled AND banned and the main actors - banned from interacting with each other on tv or at public events for years; I thought swm would be a story set in the same universe or smth but as I watched the first episode I kept getting deja vu until I realised it's the same plot lol

it's about two teens whose dad and mom, respectively, got together - the boys claim to hate each other before they even meet, then fate brings them together without them recognizing each other and shenanigans ensue. it's about found family, finding common ground with parents you can't communicate with, about forgiveness and acceptance. the characters are very lovable <3 the crew is doing their best fighting censorship so it's very clear that the couple are not just bros. they can't, however, do what addicted did so many might prefer the 2016 show. I, personally, was not a fan of the mains in that - wu bi is too possessive for me in this version but his predecessor was Something Else

it's a very standard modern mainland china show. the reason im mentioning this is because of clips on tt and having not seen a cdrama in a while, i had the impression itd be more like a taiwanese or korean bl. the editing, dubbing, bizarrely cut scenes - nothing new in cdrama land. i was wondering if I would recommend it but I think I would, yes. some coincidences and plot points are just so beyond belief that you'd roll your eyes but it's not smth unheard of when it comes to asian dramas haha and I think you'd get so caught up in the angst, domesticity and hunting down hints spread around like easter eggs that you just won't mind the convenient plots (if you would care bout such a thing in the first place)

I'm doing a bad job at promoting this show but I do want more people to see it. the cast is perfect imo (..except for duo duo, I'm sorry but that bby cannot act..her face and aura suit the character though), the sets are all amazing (I like the school, I like su yu's home, I like the shared space later on etc.etc., all decor is very well picked and pleasant to the eye) and the moral of the story is heartwarming, its execution too.

you get passionate hot-headed athletic rich boy who's crazy for his equally smitten furrow-browed genius humble guy - they both value family and each other very much and are willing to do everything for those close to them. it's very endearing and their dynamic is swoonworthy, they're a complete power couple.

(also, spoiler, you get enemies to friends to lovers which is pretty neat)(the spark is there from day 1 tho)

EDIT: i wrote this before the final two episodes were released so disclaimer - POST FINALE SPOILER: if you don't like open endings, esp distressing ones, i don't advise you watch it now - better wait for a secure second season

[interview-with-the-vlfote]

i sent that way too early oops fbvdgjsh

i'll put a readmoe cause this is going to be Long

anyway the first thing!! i was running to the building cause i thought i was late (i really wasn't) but i was running and this guy. is like trying to get my attention and i'm liek this is weird wtf cause i Do Not Know this person but anyway i stopped running and took out my headphones so i could hear them and??? they're like "the lady you ran past back there is my friend and she said i should talk to you and be your friend" and i'm like .what but also? ??? thank you i think?? and he thought i was really cool apparently jsdhfbgdjsdh and also he thought i was a girl so that was. kind of awkward i had to be like "oh actually. no i'm Not htat" but he was really nice??? he didn't have the right language (he asked if i was like a "man man" and i was like..well i'm trans if thats what you mean) but he was super polite and it was a very strange but nice experience ndhkj

the next thing was my friend's dad being there!!! which makes a lot of sense in hindsight given my friend is literally in the show and he's frequently backstage at things but i didn't have the hindsight. so. but it was really nice to see him and he was the first person there that i actually knew so it was super comforting :D and also he's very funny

OMG ALSO BEFORE I GOT ON THE TRAIN THERE WAS AKITTY AND I GOT TO PET THE KITTY AND I TOOK A PICTURE THAT I WILL SEND YOU LATER!!!!!

i was wearing a nametag (most of the props people were) and one of the people playing the parents referred to me by name and it scared me cause i forgot my name was on my arm i was like who a re you how do you know my name

when i was bringing some of the props out onstage my sister's friend waved at me from the audience and i saw my sister as well because my sister. was sitting next to her nbdgsjhd

also i saw my old teacher/the director and it was so nice to see her again omg

they changed some things which is to be expected cause it's been like. three years since i've been there but Still,,, like one of the dolls boxes is purple but it used to be pink (why couldn't it have been purple when i was in it. smh my head) and also they added a cannon in battle scene????

speaking of battle scene!!! they changed the rats costumes a whole bunch. they used to be like..ok so they were bodysuits? i guess? like uh

ok yeah like that but without the head, feet, and hands covered, and they had rubber masks with glowing red eyes. basically they were creepy as FUCK i loved them especially because the rats entrance is through the audience so you're just sitting there and the music is playing and all of a sudden theres GLOWING RED EYES in the aisle. fabulous. but now they're much cuter, like more like a rat stuffed animal than a rat that Wants To Kill You (except the masks whihc are still less scary than the old ones but don't have glowing red eyes) and it's also kinda sad because you can't see the dancer's movements as well? like the costumes are so fluffy it's hard to actually see what they're doing (not impossible, but still unfortunate)

when we were going over battle scene i was waiting in the wings and talking to my friend and someone comes up to her and asks her "hey have you seen a box full of santa hats?" which she had not. and i was very confused but also didn't want to ask. also i got to hold her sword (technically it's a sabre but whatever) and!! when they were running the other cast i held my old friend's sabre and while we were waiting for them to sort out the fog machine someone said something about a lighter? talking about clara's candle and we were like omg. what if instead of the candle clara just has a lighter and she runs around onstage with it and sets everything on fire. and it turned into us just making an au where clara is an arsoninst and kills everyone which was very fun <3

anway!! the most insane thing that happened. we were rehearsing snow scene after blocking it, and it was just before the blizzard part. actually i'll link the music because it's important (timestamped) and the music just stops. a literal record scratch. remember those santa hats? like a third of the snowflakes get up and 5-7 other people come onstage. and they're all wearing santa hats. the music starts playing again, only it isn't snow scene. it's the jingle bell rock scene from mean girls. they're all doing the dance from it. it's incredible. and they even do the part with the pushing and the music player breaking and then they all sing the rest of the song it was fucking incredible ndbhfdksdjn

most of the rest of rehearsal was pretty normal umm i talked to two of my old friends and we talked about sewing which was very fun cause their moms are the heads of the costume department and also one of them said i gave them gender envy <333

but yeah thats most of the things that happened i think!!! if i remember anything else notable i'll tell you njsbhd

dhewjfbrnsdh hes a little confused but hes got the spirit

AHJSDVSB OMG KITTY <33333

NHBSDSJ they have psychic powers called reading nametags

OH THAT SOUNDS SO COOL WITH THE GLOWNUG EYS

SABRE!!! and omg i love that au

holy shit that's fucking incredible

!!! slay

!!!! afsdhfbsdjhg it all sounds so fun omggg

[corpseaten]

hm, ill allow it then, so don't be surprised if im a bit off one of these days in your inbox... and scoot is very cute! one of my fav villagers at my island other than bangle. bangle is sweet as well. theres a hippo with pink colors that i forgot the name of, velma or something. i stole her from one of my old friends' islands, haha. she's with me now..... ..... and it's unfortunate we can't be friends on the games, but that's okay! i'm still here and ill always be here, so look out for me. i'm still new to enstars (less than 2 months i've been playing) so all of this info is rly helpful and a bit confusing ahahah. i have to get more into the story. and ive never seen the bandori anime(s) because s1 was so boring.. honestly... but i have so much free time outside of work i might as well check it out. i love so many bandori covers but most of my favs are roselia and herohapi, so thats that AHAHA, i think guren no yumiya (i forgot how to spell it omg) and butterfly on your right shoulder (both by roselia!) are my all time favs, with bad apple on there ofc. and loving characters that remind you of yourself is so adorable, and i can see him for you, too. you're just like all the shy, cute characters, which is so accurate to how you actually are; a sweet and adorable girl. my sweet and adorable girl, yes? my girl who'll do anything i say, whenever i say it. ofc i only want you to pay attention to me, im the only one that matters right? im your lifeline, im your heart, i own you, so don't go talking to anyone else.

i should also clarify a few things about me: i'm a girl (technically) but i also use he/him most of the time, im sapphic as well. and my actual name is adonis (guess who i got it from?) but you can ofc use clover because it's sweet. i'm 19 (i've told you before, i think). nice to properly meet you, sweet girl. - 🍀

I wont be! I’ll make sure to reply and comfort you the best I can, sometimes it takes me a while to regulate my words so if I ever take time in replying it’s most likely because of that. Bangle is adorable oh my! You like some really cute characters, I ought to explore the realm outside of cats and wolves. Kyle my beloved. Wait! I managed to add someone with the bandori id you gave me, was that not you? Tilting my head. You are new! I have been an enstarrie for over two years now, did you know theres also an enstars anime? There’s so much lore to it spanning back years so. I hope you aren’t overwhelmed with everything . . I barely know anything about half the units still. Recently I have been really getting into Fines music, I cannot stop listening to Miracle Dream Traveler. The enstars story is so good though. I recommend getting into valkyrie and their lore if you haven’t already, they have the most development in. the whole game. and it’s really good. I have cried several times over them. Season one was boring. I kind of dropped the main anime after it, but I got back into it when morfonication (stupid name.) came out. You can always spend your free time with me as well, dear. Roselia have so many good covers, Aiais vocals are so. amazing. I love her. I think my favourite roselia song isn’t a cover though, I really like Sanctuary. It is a beautiful song. Oh! ! ! I guess you are right . . I am pretty shy and reserved and. cute. I don’t know if you’ve seen it but you remind me of Reina from Hibike Euphonium. You’re making me blush, staking a claim on me already? You’re lucky I like people who are forward, darling. I will do anything you ask of me. I’m so obedient . Aren’t I good for you? Yes you do own me. I will never talk to anyone ever again. I am getting. what’s the word for like. nervous in a good way. Brain isn’t working. Short circuits. This is quite long . . I have just enjoyed going back and fourth with you, my apologies.

Thank you for letting me know! I would return my information but It is already on my profile so I am presuming you know. Adonis, that’s a lovely name, almost as lovely as you are. I’ll call you both of them , I think. My name isn’t what’s on my profile, I don’t want people online to know it, but i did use to go by sylv. I only changed it when I linked that name to a not so good person, so I don’t mind being called it here. I don’t fancy sharing my name publicly, but, I’ll tell you when we progress to the next step, which I don’t want to rush into too quickly, love blooms when you truly know someone, is what I believe! It is nice to ‘meet’ you too, I cannot wipe the smile from my face, my dove.

[monchouliz]

Thursday December 7, 2023

Believe me, I was seriously about to write an entry on the 5th but got distracted and didn't realize it was already 3 something or 4 maybe so I just slept it out. I got lazy but I had a valid excuse, I was really tired. I even forgot what happened in these past few days. My head was hurting a lot too, I got soo dizzy often it was kind of frustrating, I even did something so embarrassing because of my dizziness that it made me want to kill myself.

Like I said I don't really remember what exactly happened so I'll just tell you what I remember. No specific dates though. Lol wait, I think I remember now. I scrolled through my gallery and saw the pictures with the dates so... I'll start with tuesday. Nothing really happened except we practiced and I slept inside the dance room, it was cold so it's nice. I thin I actually fell asleep or I was about to drift away when my damned bladder couldn't hold it in so I had to get up from my comfortable position to go piss, even met sir when I was about to go to the bathroom. He asked what we were doing, told him we were sleeping lmao. It was so awkward. Wait... what the fuck. I just had a realization, Ok so I think that didn't happen on Tuesday but instead happened on Monday, because I suddenly looked at my wallet log and realized that theres no classes yesterday so our performance was on Tuesday lmao. Fuck me, Im so sorry. See? I told you my headache was so bad it made me confuse reality. Well So yeah that's what happened on Monday.

Tuesday, it was a big day. I spent a total of 120 that day fuck me. It was a 50/50 situation for me, I was both sad and happy. On the mornings I felt fucking exhausted and I was constantly thinking of depressing things— just like how it is everyday, what the fuck is new. Shaina fucking annoyed me so much too, she won't just leave me alone she was annoying like hell. Of course I wouldn't talk back to her, I don't want to cause a fight ++ It would make me look fucking pathetic because that was only supposed to be a "joke". So yeah we performed the line dance, It was so hot, the sun was angry and glared at us. I felt like I was a marshmallow getting roasted. It was so embarrassing, I was like doing a lot of mistake it was both funny and embarrassing. If I was like on the back I wouldn't really mind but no— I was next to the person in front, basically the second one in line. The girl infront of me was short too, that made my mistakes so much more noticable it made me want to off myself. Well, after that we got ready for the opening. It was funny, I did my makeup there, which is very embarrassing but, I told myself I shouldn't give a fuck about them and did my make up. It was refreshing. We took lots of pictures but that damn bitch still won't send it so annoying. Yeah so I thought I looked fine myself, not that ugly but also not that pretty. Still, at least I looked decent to look at. It was funny performing that, It was sooo hot when we were waiting and then when it was out time, our performance was a mess! Kristina made soo many mistakes, Thank God I was behind someone tall (Not at all I'm so angry, at least let me be seen like wtf I'm being covered.. Fuck Sir jeff, he can fuck off) It was so funny I laughed when performing, she was such a mood booster, yeah I don't think Sir was having fun tho. he was definitely angry, too bad I didn't look at his expression. Well after that we just stayed in the dance room exhausted and laughing. Fast forward, I went to the booth with Tina, Sam and their cheerleader teams. It wasn't fun at all so I had to back out I was feeling out of place, So I hurried back to dance room and found jhamire and Alexis. They asked me if I wanted to join them so I did, I told them to wait a bit because my stomach hurts (I bought a 30php red tea and ran on the way there). And then jhamire told me "tumakbo ka siguro" I replied, "Oo, ang daming lalaki e" I think he said something like "feeling" or something I forgot, then I told him that "Ano? kahit pangit naman nababastos ng mga lalaki ah" and then he replied "Sinabi ko bang pangit ka?" WELL he didn't say it but he was implying like I wasn't even that attractive for guys to hit on me and become assholes because I was ugly. Does he think I'm pretty or what? I don't know, it made me upset. But anyways we went there and Alexis and I had to go back in the dance room because it was so hot and crowded and jhamire was talking with his other friends so.. And then I waited for a moment and went home. By the way I chose to do the long ride, It would take too much time to wait for jeeps so I had to. When I was getting on it was still moving a bit so I fucking slipped, that damned driver. Thank goodness a kind lady grabbed my hands and helped me get on, fuck the driver seriously it was so fucking embarrassing. I bought chicken skin btw, so yummy.

Nothing happened on Wednesday, I literally just chilled and lazed around. Now Thursday, today, I finally cleaned my room. I spent the whole fucking day cleaning it and having mental break downs in between I wanted to like destroy everything in my sight I was so pissed. Gtg, I'm going to piss lol and take a shower I'm like so nasty right now and I smell bad.

[speakyskelly-1999]

okay so i finally get to watch more sailor moon

but before then

i also started both kotaro lives alone and revolutionary girl utena

i'm just gonna combine a mini review of them here cos i've only seen 4 epidoes of utena and 2 oh kotaro and i'll just get them out my head quickly

oh and minor spoilers for both i guess

i lied

nah i'm just kiddeing this shouldn't be too long

utena first

so like it very much is what if we did avant guarde sailor moon with more lesbians. i already new some bits about it (for example the fact that pearl and rosequartz/pink diamonds relationship was based off of utena and anthy) but yea it's really cool. falling under the scope of left field magical girl (this also includes like kill la kill and little witch acadimia in my mind) it's very good. it's one of thoes shows that, cos some of it is up for interpritation, i had to double check some stuff on the wiki as to not confuse myself with the previous notions i had (like checking if two characters are the same or legit different people) which meant i got some minor spoilers but it's nothing i can't deal with. i'm very curious to see where it goes/how it gets to some rough stuff i know. i love the animation. like, and this goes for like sailor moon and cardcaptor sakura. it's really nice going back and watching the 90s style of anime. very satisfying. the music in the show wasn't what i was expecting but is a banger (i litterally have the appocolyse song stuck in my head while writing this). i really like utena as a protagonist. i love her drive and ferce sence of justice and the fact that she was like 'i respect this prince so mush imma become a prince' yas home girl wear that boys uniform and slay. anthy is interesting. she's very intreging, as she's meant to be, and i'm curious to see more of her personality as we've not seen to much of it yet due to her always trying to conform to what others want of her. nanami is a bitch and i love her. like in the same way people like regina geroge and hether. she;s such a bitch. i cannot wait to see where she goes (i'm ignoring her obsession with her brother. tbf it's very much one sided to the point where her brother just don't really seem to notice to berating her if she gets in his way but yea). then there are other characters. anthy's fience when the shows starts is an arse and is in the like the first two episodes and i don't wanna see more of him but i might have ot put up with him. nanami's borther, i don't remember his name, has a thing for utena and has decided to try and manipulate her. it's not working for him. micky is nice, genuinly thought he was a girl for a really long time, he's just oretty sweet so far. and that's it really. there's the animal side kick monkey. he's cute. 8/10 anime so far

err so yea

kotaro lives alone

so one of my friends said it was just really wholesome and cute while my other friend said that they couldn't watch past the fist episode due to the weird vibes. they're both right. it's a cute aime about a 4 year old boy who lives alone in an appartment block and the other tenant's become his family. why he lives alone... i don't exactly know yet and from the sounds of it why he either chose or had to live alone won't really be explored fully. like theres hints of what he endured (hell the show is rated a 12 which the tag of child abuse on it on netflix). the friend who has seen it won't tell me cos they're very none spoilery but i also have an incling that it would be talked about in that much detail. hell kotaro's neighbours won't ask him about it properly due to the fact that it could be quite unsetting for him to talk about/not really knowing how to bring it up. but asides from that it is very cute. the fact that he's able to get his family from his neighbours is great. the guy who lives next to him is his surragate dad, the woman next door again is becoming his mother figure, and the yakuza looking dude downstairs is his creepy uncle. every family needs a creepy uncle. (okay but in all seriousness he's not actually like creepy creepy, he has a kid of his own which he can't see cos i'm assuming previous gang affiliation so kotaro is like a suragate son for him but he goes too all in with it). it's only 10 episodes so i'm quite excited to see where it goes. okay but like the one thing that bug/urks me (and it's not the darker undertones of the show) it's kotaros eyes. idk why they're not even that creepy. and it's not like i'm not use to unusual eyes in anime and cartoons. my brain just really dons't like how his eyes are done. like this neighbour, who's like his dad, has a similar thing going on but without the pupils and that's whatever to me. it's kotaros eyes shape and stuff with the pupils that unnerves me so. i hate that it does so. 7/10

[glassartpeasants]

PLS CAN WE GET A PART TWO ON THE SIREN FIC LIKE AFTER READER TURN SHIGARAKI INTO A SIREN TOO???????? i loved that fic so much omg you write so well !!

Oh im so glad you liked it! I had a really fun time making that one!

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Title: Deeper In the Waves

Tomura Shigaraki x Siren!F!Reader

Warnings: Death, angst, mentions of past sex, blood/gore, spoilers for MHA, jealous reader, fluff? Theres gonna be a part three cause there was more I wanted to add I just didn't want to make it confusing for you guys that's why it took me so long to get it out haha

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It's cold.

All Shigaraki remembers is one moment he's having sex with a hot siren chick and the next he's getting dragged to the deepest parts of the ocean. No time for him to scream for help or even get air. He can remember the burning feeling of water filling his lungs. It was the most painful thing he's ever experienced.

His entire life had flashed before his eyes as he was dragged farther and farther to the ocean floor until everything went black. Remembering how close he was to destroying hero society. Remembering that fateful night his family had returned to nothing but ash and blood. Meeting and starting the league. Kidnapping that annoying brat Bakugou and everything in between.

All of it gone with a second.

So when Shigaraki opened his eyes to find so many unfamiliar faces looking at him he panicked and tried running away only to realize it wasn't doing him any good. They all gave him a questionable glance.

"This is who she chooses to be her mate? Him?" One of the sirens talked to the other in hushed voices. You hated humans so why did you take one down here? Many sirens didn't understand but they had heard of Shigaraki's powers and were quickly on board with the entire thing. With someone as powerful as him, catching humans and finding safe spaces to stay was so much easier.

Shigaraki's eyes widen at the word 'mate'. He flipped his head around to look at the siren who said it before looking down and seeing that he no longer had legs.

"What the fuck?! Where are my legs?!" Instead of legs, a beautiful pitch-black tail was in its place. Scales shiny enough to glimmer in just the right light.

"Don't worry (Y/N) will be back soon to help you." The sound of your name brought a deep rage to bubble inside him.

"(Y/N)?! Where is she?!" His voice boomed in the siren's ears when it hit them. Many sirens have done this before so it was nothing new. It just seemed this human had more of a tongue than the other humans who they converted.

"Calm down. She should be back in about 5 minutes. In the meantime, do you want to learn how to actually move instead of struggling like a fish caught in a net?" One of the sirens offered. Of course, they were going to be a safe distance away from him. His power or 'quirk' worked on humans so it wouldn't be surprising if it also worked on sirens. They also didn’t really know if it stayed with him after being converted.

"I don't want help from any of you! I want to go home! I need to leave!" This couldn't be happening. He was having a horrible nightmare. There's no way that this could be actually happening to him.

"I'm very sorry but once you've been turned there's no way home. You can have a human form but you need to be back into the water in 20 minutes or there are terrible consequences." Many sirens started trying to console the newest member of the pod but it seemed like he wasn't listening which was fair. They expected such a reaction just not as huge as this one.

"Do you guys just do this for shits and giggles?! Fuck all of you!" Shigaraki tried to extend his arms to touch one of them but each siren quickly moved away. They all looked at each other and nodded.

"Here's what we'll do. We'll leave you alone, and you can wait for (Y/N)." Before Shigaraki could even respond all the sirens left him alone. He finally got to take a look at his surroundings. Taking a better look at everything, it seemed to be in an underwater cave. It was pretty he'd admit but the most unsettling thing was all the human remains that covered the floor of the cave. Some still with a bit of decaying meat on their bones.

Sure he may have killed people but when it came to him, they would simply disappear into bloody ash. Seeing people decaying bones with their faces still screaming gave him a horrible shiver as he felt as if every single one of them were staring at him, asking him why this had happened to them.

Shigaraki tried to 'swim' away but due to his lack of training. All he was doing was stirring up the bottom of the cave, making the dust fly all around him as he lost his sense of vision and coordination. He could feel the dirt enter his mouth and cover his body. 

He opened his eyes for a second only to see a single skull right in front of his face. He let out a scream as he desperately wanted out of this cave. 

“Shigaraki? Are you in there-oh jeez!” Your voice filled the cave as he tried to look for your figure but couldn’t see anything with all the dust surrounding him.

“Stop moving I’ll get you out of here!” He felt your cold hand grab his arm as you yanked him out of the cave and into the open water.

Once he was out of the cave is when he truly realized that he didn’t know the way home. There was no ocean bottom he could see and nothing around for miles it seemed like. Just clear open water.

“What the hell was that?! Where the hell am I?!” 

“Your in the training grounds. Newly converted sirens get trained here. At least how to sim at first. There are many courses you have to go through.” 

“Well, news flash I don’t want to be a siren! What the hell is wrong with you and these freaks!” You knew this was the expected outcome, but you weren’t gonna tolerate him calling the only family you’ve ever known freaks.

“Now you listen here Shigaraki.” You say swimming over to him. Grabbing his arms and pinning them to his side.

“You are to never call my family freaks again or I’ll make sure your our next meal.” Or course he didn’t know that you’d never do that but what he doesn’t know doesn’t hurt nobody.

Shigaraki just looked at you with hatred as he tried struggling to get out of your grip. He didn’t really process the strength sirens really had.

“Do you understand me Shigaraki?” Knowing he was out of his element he nodded his head yes in defeat. This seemed to have put a smile on your face as you gave him a kiss on the forehead in approval.

“Okay then. Let’s get started.”

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It had only been a few months since his life was suddenly ripped away from him. Everything he had worked hard for was gone. He didn’t even know how the league was doing or what their reactions were to him missing.

So there he laid. On the same rock that sealed his fate that wretched day. The waves were calm as he heard the sounds of people talking and little children yelling. He rolled over onto his stomach as he moved his arms and positioned them to be makeshift pillows. He laid his head on his arms as his eyelids grew heavy. He let out a loud sigh before it went dark.

“Yo Shigaraki where you’ve been buddy? We’ve been looking all over the place!” A familiar scarred face looked him in the eyes as one of his hands placed itself on Shigaraki’s shoulder.

“You won’t believe what happened to me! But what’s going on with everything? What did I miss?!” Shigaraki had a sickening feeling that all his hard work would be gone and he’d have to start all over.

“Don’t worry everything is still the same. But we have been talking to the Shie Hassakai in some sort of partnership. Now that you know what’s going on, I believe you owe us an explanation.” And explain he did.

At first glance, no one believed him but once they saw his face and how detailed he told the story is was concerning that it was. Sirens in Japan? A cave of human bones that have been decaying for decades? The siren chick that made this all happen? They all listened in shock as Shigaraki looked like he was about to have a panic attack. But just as he did an unrecognizable look spread across Shigaraki’s face.

“How good are you guys at swimming? Cause we have a new target.”

Just as soon as he fell asleep, loud splashes woke Shigaraki up from his dream. Once he opened his eyes he noticed that instead of a sunny calm day, it had turned into a hellfire of a nighttime storm. Whitecaps were everywhere as waves splashed against the rocks.

'Shit I should probably get back.' Shigaraki ducked under the waves and quickly started to swim his way to his new home. He could hear the sounds of the waves hitting each other and even the booming of lighting under the water. A worry took over him as he realized that this was his actual first storm as a siren.

Not to mention he'd always had trouble navigating the area at night so that's why he never goes out at night or any time near it. He must have fallen asleep for longer than he originally planned.

The water started to get darker and darker to the point where he couldn't see anything. North felt like South and East felt like West. The darkness surrounding him felt suffocating as he feared for the worse. He began to scratch at his neck profusely. Even as a siren he took that trait with him. And to his happiness, his quirk too.

Funny enough, his quirk had got the attention of other sirens, much to your displeasure. One time he had decayed the bottom of a ship cause it was a little too big for all the sirens to get a meal.

Once the bottom of the ship decayed and it started to sink, a female siren came over to him and begin to compliment him on his work. It was obvious that she had an attraction to him. On the back of every siren is a dorsal fin that started at the middle of their shoulder blades and ended right at the top of the pelvis. When a siren is attracted or aroused by something, the fin tends to move.

So when the female siren had taken an interest in him, he could tell. While she wasn't as pretty as you, he'd gladly fuck her just for a chance to get back at you for what you've done to him. he would have to if it weren't for said siren trying to fight you for the right to call him their mate.

Turns out said siren was a newly converted human too cause she didn't stand a chance against your strength and skill. She was quickly turned into a corpse and he saw her sink to the bottom of the ocean. This was a very obviously fucked up 'family'. Apparently, he still had a lot to learn when it came to lovers and duels.

After that many were afraid to show even the littlest interest in him. According to one of the other sirens, he was the only mate you've ever had. That could have been what caused such an overreaction that lead him to be a siren.

A hand wrapping around his arm tugged him out of his thoughts as he was getting dragged through the waters forcefully, but the grip made sure it was light and not hurting him. His red eyes squinted to get a better look at his helper only to see your familiar (h/c) hair.

It only took about 5 minutes to get to the cave where almost everyone was sleeping, except for a few sirens who were to keep guard and switch up every few hours. You took him to the very back of the cave. You turned around and grabbed him by the face and had a worried expression.

"Are you okay? I got so worried when you didn't come back on time. I was worried you got lost at sea considering it's your first real storm as a siren." You took one hand off his face as you brushed some of his hair behind his ear.

A weird feeling took over Shigaraki's body. A warm fuzzy feeling that he hasn't felt in a long time. He had shut his eyes and unintentionally leaned into your clawed ones. You rubbed his cheek as you looked at him with fondness in your eyes. You pressed a kiss to his lips before putting your forehead against his.

"Come on, let's go lay down. Let's hope the storm is gone by tomorrow." You led him to lay down beside you as you wrapped your arms around him tightly. Thinking that he might escape if you let go. His head was laying on your chest as he let out a little sigh.

"And if it isn't?"

"Well guess it's a good time to help you navigate stormy weather." You chuckle before closing your eyes in which Shigaraki soon followed.

[quackisinnit]

What Dream, George, Sapnap, Karl, Quackity, c!Techno, Wilbur would get you for Valentine's Day

Note: probabaly the biggest headcanon i've ever wrote KDSHJS i'll only do this when theres a speacual occasion. sorry it came out so late!!

Genre: fluff, romantic, irl and in-game, gender neutural, they/them

Warnings: none

Navigation

Dream

Heart Shaped Balloons and Flowers

he would bring you to a fancy restaurant

like he would go all out

anyways

he gives you the gifts like before you leave the restaurant

he payed for the check

and he just stands up and says "wait here, i'll just get something real quick from the car"

you're so confused cause like

he already brought you to a fancy place?? what other surprise does he have for you

and he comes in with the balloons and flowers

and you're all like

"dream you're too sweet, i'm gonna cry"

"aww no dont cry D:"

when he gives it to you he kisses your cheek and say some romantic stuff

"i love you so much y/n"

"i'm so grateful for you, thank you for sticking withme theough thick and thin"

George

Chocolates and A Teddy Bear

you would both be at home

just hangin out

cause why go out if you can just stay at home an watch movies together??

he'd even make you pick the movie

which is pretty rare

cause in his words,

"you always pick the worst movies"

"wdym??? i pick the best movies D:<"

and while watching

he gets up and you dont really expect anything

cause yaknow he could be going to the rest room

and when he comes back,

he calls out to you, gifts in hand

"y/n,"

you then look at him and he smiles at you

"happy valentines day:)"

and he'd give you the tightest hug in the world

"aw george thank you, you're the best"

"i know😏"

"oh shut up"

Sapnap

A Big Teddy Bear and Flowers

he would try to plan something big

like a big banner with "happy valentines day!", lots of flowers, etc

but he couldn't cause he was busy:((

and a few days before valentines day he'd just buy you flowers

he planned to give it to you before you wake up

so he woke up earlier than you

he tried to make breakfast for you

but he was so nervous so it was pretty hard

like he would be trying to make you some eggs but heended up burning them on accident

in the end he just made you a sandwhich

when he went in you were still alseep

and after a few minutes of deciding,

he called dream LMAOO

"DREAM HELP WHAT DO I DO"

"JUST WAKE THEM UP"

and so he did

you were greeted with a very happy and nervous sapnap

"happy valentine's day:)"

and he'd give you the flowers and sandwhich

later on in the day you both went to a carnival and win you a big teddy bear in one of the games

cause he felt bad for just getting flowers djshsj

Karl

Cupcakes and A Teddy Bear

he'd first greet you in the morning by peppering your face with kisses and handing you the bear

"here you go love, happy valentines day"

and he'd be all giggly that day too

for the next surprise

he would make this a bonding experience

like you would both make the cupcakes

maybe even make a contest and see who makes the better cupacakes

and it'd be so much fun

he'd throw flour at you, try to mess up the color of your icing by adding more food color in it, etc

like you'd be mixing and he just comes up behind you and probabaly throws an egg at your head LMAOO

"okay so i nee-" you feel something hard hit your head and then hear a cracking sound

you turn around to see that karl has thrown an egg at your head

but it didnt break, it only broke when it finally hit the ground

"oh karl you're in for it now-"

you'd be throwing different ingredients at eachother

maybe even spoons and spatulas

"HA get recked y/-" he pauses

"y/n."

"did you just hit my head with a fork?"

"... maybe"

just really chaotic honestly

and cleaning up would be pretty hard

like there would be flour and icing everywhere

but the whole experince was fun<3

Quackity

Flowers and Song/Poem

he'd be stressed about it

like "will they like it?" "is it good enough??"

just lots of thoughts racing through his head

when he gives it (the flowers) to you

his hands would be sweaty

he clears his throat and gets a piece of paper from his pocket

and its the poem

he starts readibg the lines

(spoiler, its a joke poem)

"y/n, the first time i saw you, i pissed my pants"

"and i like ants"

or somethimg like that KSJAK

he'd just say stupid stuff to make you laugh

then after that comes the real gift

the song

this man makes his own song and tune

nothing was taken from the internet

like he wrote the lyrics himself and the tune

and he'd sing it seriously

when done with the song, he looks at you

"did you like it??"

"like it?" you scoffed

his heart fucking STOPS

"i loved it:)"

and he'd just let a sigh of relief

"dont ever pull that shit again i thought you hated it >:()"

Techno

Going on Picnic and Poem

at first he wouldn't know what to give you tbh

he'd be asking phil what to give you

"phil what should i give y/n?"

and phil would help him

"just give them anything, i'm sure they'll love whatever you get"

"but phil what if-"

he'd want something good enough for you

like he doesn't want to get you just flowers

it needs to be something better than that

but at the same time he's just too lazy to plan anything that big

so he just decided on going on a simple picnic

and he also decided to write you a poem

so you're picnic takes face in a large field

in the middle of nowhere

"techno, where are we?"

"you'll see"

you both to a hill where you find a blanket and a basket, filled with various kinds of food and drinks

"aww techno, thank you. you're so sweet:D"

and he'd be all flustered

"yeah but its just a picnic.."

you both sat down and just talked about things

and before you left he told you he had one more surprise

he reaches to the bottom of the basket where a paper lays

he gets it and begins reading it to you

spoiler alert, its the poem

when he's done, just like quackity, he looks at you

"did,, did you like it?????"

"i loved it techno" and you peck him on the lips

and techno?

boom, his heart explodes

"i'm glad you liked it"

he's so awkward and flustered brrr

Wilbur

Chocolates and a Song

with the song he just speedran it

but at the same time he didnt

like he made the tune quickly

but he took a long time with the lyrics

trying to find the perfect words

but it was hard

because you were so perfect and lovely to him

also cause you were always around him

and you might see what he was doing:((

obviously that would ruin the surprise

so he tried his best to keep it a a secret

and he was able to do it

soon valentines day came

and he sang his song to you

in a blanket fort he made

out of chairs, blankets, and pillows

the fort was filled with stuffed animals, snacks, drinks etc

anything you could think of, it was probably there JSJAJSJ

and if you had a pet

they would just be chilling in the fort

he sang his song there

after, he gave you choclates

cause why not??

he loves you so much so why not more gifts???

[2jaeh]

INSUFFERABLE l  KIM DOYOUNG 

GENRE: mature theme, slight smut

WARNINGS: choking, dom themes, cursing

asshole! Doyoung , enemies to ???

Words : 4k 

You’re put in a group project with the most annoying pretentious jerk your law class had to offer. Immediately Doyoung tries to boss you around but you being you, you weren’t taking his shit...soon enough he finds out he can dominate you after all...in a very different way. 

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“Theres no fucking way...no fucking way” you groaned looking at your group project list, eyes narrowing on possibly the worst people within your course year. Slumping in your seat you half smiled at the girl who approached you, one of your fellow members from project hell. 

“Heyyy y/n I think we're in a group together” she grinned and took a seat next to you, flipping her red hair over her shoulder and checked herself out in her mirror covered cellphone. 

Dami was probably the most narcissistic person you'd ever met and being in law, it was definitely a common trait around here. Dami sat up and began tapping you on your shoulder frantically “He’s in our group! Kim Doyoung is in our group” the two of you watched as the dark haired man conversed with the lecturer, casually turning back to look at the table where you guys sat, in annoyance. 

“That guy is such a prick” a guy who slid in the desk behind you, Seungmin said and Dami nodded in agreeance as you all continued to watch him. 

“Ive never really spoken to him before” you cocked your head, “What’s so annoying about him?” 

This time another group member joined in, a quieter girl who normally sat in the back Jisoo, cleared her throat, “He is really bossy and only likes to do things his own way.”

‘Well he is about to meet his worst nightmare’ you thought knowing nothing pissed you off more than someone telling you what to do. 

The muffled conversations around you began to soften as you felt someone stand over you and drop a file on your desk. Looking up, you locked eyes with the one and only Kim Doyoung, dressed in his usual black slacks, black turtleneck and clear rimmed spectacles. He raised his eyebrow at you as if you were supposed to guess what he wanted.

“What ?” you challenged him, folding your arms across your chest and returned an eyebrow raise. 

Doyoung sighed in annoyance, his long slender fingers moved across the file and opened it swiftly, “I want you to do roll call” he said coldly. 

A lump formed in your throat. You felt like you were being talked down to, it was something that infuriated the hell out of you. He wasn't older than you, nor was he getting better grades than you but somehow he had a superiority complex. Dami quickly nudged you and you rolled your eyes, “Seungmin ?”

“Here!” 

“Jisoo ?” you placed a tick as you called out each name. 

“Dami, Jangjun…?” you looked around and noticed that the usually loud comedic relief in your classroom was nowhere to be seen. 

“I think Jangjun is late, i’ll text him” Seungmin sighed and pulled out his phone. You turned back to the roll call sheet and pursed your lips, “Kim Doyoung ?” 

Doyoung just looked down at you, sucking in his bottom lip and raised that damn eyebrow at you again. 

“You need to say ‘here’ do you not know how roll call works ?” you tested him and he rolled his eyes and sighed, “here.” 

You smiled to yourself, completely satisfied with pissing him off when your internal celebration was interrupted by an out of breath Jangjun, who threw his bag on the floor and took a seat on Dami’s desk. Doyoung looked at him disgustingly, and even though you too were obviously annoyed by Jangjun’s tardiness, was that reaction really necessary ?

“Be on time” Doyoung sneered and grabbed the roll call file making his way back to the lecturer. 

“Fuck Kim Doyoung is in this group ?” Jangjun groaned, sharing the sentiments of the entire meeting. You couldnt believe these were the people you had to work with for the week. It's like you could almost feel an outburst waiting to happen, whether it be from you or Kim Doyoung. 

Doyoung returned and took out his phone, not really looking at any of you as he spoke, “we should make a group chat to update each other on work”

The group hastily shared each other's details and Doyoung created the chat and pinned a set of three rules. 

The first was the group was strictly to be used for the project, no small talk or any other messages that weren't related to the project. The second rule was that no one talks about the group content in private chats as it will cause confusion among members. Lastly you weren't allowed to message after 9pm unless it was an emergency, a very serious emergency. 

“Dang is this the military ?” Jangjun snickered as Seungmin and Dami tried their best to hide their laughs. It was typical of people like Dami and Jangjun to not take anything seriously. Their families were well off and they were just studying just for a piece of paper you call a degree. Doyoung couldn't even hide his annoyance, not like he ever did but he seemed particularly pissed off today. 

“Look, just follow the rules and all of you get a free pass and then we never have to speak to each other again” Doyoung spat and made his way to the exit leaving the rest of you in utter shock. 

———

The first two days were utter hell as Doyoung tried to take control of almost every aspect of the project and frankly you didn't even mind because his business proposal was flawless, it was just the way he spoke to all of you that drove you insane. 

“Dami its not fucking rocket science all you need to do is make a clientele spreadsheet with the mock list the professor gave us” Doyoung didnt even lift his head from his laptop, unaware of the impact his words had on her. 

Dami pushed away from the desk and her eyes began to well up and before you knew it she was running out of the library, with Jisoo and Seungmin following quickly out of concern. 

“Nice move asshole” you rolled your eyes, continuing to work on your laptop. 

Doyoung peered up and pushed his spectacles up, “what was that?” 

“I said nice move asshole, do you intend to talk to your future clients like that?” He initiated a different kind of anger from you but you managed to keep your cool. Doyoung shrugged as if what he had said to Dami had not carried any weight and continued typing away. 

A few minutes of the members disappearance quickly turned to an hour and Doyoung’s nonchalance about the whole ordeal really ticked you off to the point of slamming your laptop closed and pushed back from the desk. 

Doyoung quirked his eyebrow at you, “Is something wrong ?” 

“Is something wrong” you mimicked him, “Jangjun hasn't come in today because you sent him on multiple errands, and you just made Dami cry over something so ridiculous”

Doyoung sat back in his seat and rubbed his temples, “They're all freeloaders, you and I are the only ones doing work, why do you care so much about them?” 

“Basic human fucking decency maybe?” you groaned and ran your fingers through your hair, “listen im not like them, i'm not gonna take shit from you”

“Sure”

“Youre a fucking asshole Kim Doyoung.” 

—-

You lay in bed and replayed that scene with Doyoung in your head multiple times. He was so unbothered by your antics nor did he care about anyone's feelings within the group. He was cold, heartless all he thought about was himself. His cold expression was practically engraved in your head, spending all these hours with him was really not your favourite pastime. 

Group 7 gc 7:00pm

KDY: I posted a schedule for tomorrow we will be working in pairs on the highlighted sections. 

You took a look at his document and groaned when you saw your name placed next to his. There was no way, no way in hell you want to work with him one on one. Not caring about breaking his rule, you pulled up a private chat with him and began expressing your concerns. 

y/n  x  KDY : 7:10pm 

Y/N: Hi, there's no fucking way in hell am I working with you. Change It. 

KDY: I said no private chats and no, I'm not changing it. 

Y/N: Wouldn't it be better for us to split and have the others actually DO work for once ?

KDY: I barely gave them room for error, we're going to be the most anyway and besides, I'd prefer someone who can handle...my personality. 

Y/N: …..so you agree..you are an asshole ?

KDY: I give people a reality check that's all..

Y/N: whatever makes you sleep at night...can I atleast choose our work venue because If I were stuck in a library again with you I might kill you. 

KDY: haha..

KDY: sure. 

Y/N: mango drop cafe, 10am. 

KDY: cool, see you then. 

‘Haha’. You had no idea why that text in particular riled you up. Did he find all of this amusing ? Was he making everyone's life a living hell because he enjoyed it ? You stared at his messages and somehow ended up on his profile picture. He was leaning against a railing dressed in all black with his hooded eyes concentrated on the camera lense, Your realization of how attractive he was came from the fact that you stared at the picture for a good 20 minutes. You wondered who took the picture, a girlfriend maybe ? You shook your head. He seemed too uptight to be getting laid. You sighed, closing your phone and awaited yet another day with the insufferable gorgeous man that was Kim Doyoung. 

You arrived quite early at the cafe but of course Doyoung was here before you, already typing away at his laptop, in his usual attire. You greeted the barista and placed an order for a chilled cafe latte before making your way over to him. 

“Hey” you said simply and took a seat opposite him in the booth. Doyoung’s ears perked up at the sound of your voice and made room for your books on the table.

“You're here early” 

“You're already picking a fight with me?” you said casually setting up your workspace. 

Doyoung chuckled under his breath and shook his head, “I just didn't expect you this early y/n it's not that serious.” 

You ignored his words and got straight to work, not in the mood to play his little game. You felt Doyoung look at you a few times. You weren't sure if it were to check if youre doing the right thing or he was just looking at you. 

“Well i'm done with my part” you stretched your arms above your head and yawned. 

“Yeah I'm pretty much done too, Do you want another cup of coffee ?” Doyoung offered pointing to your empty cup. You were taken back by his softer demeanor but quickly nodded, “uh yeah sure.” 

Doyoung returned carrying a tray of two fresh cups of coffee and a slice of cheesecake. Setting everything down he handed you the extra fork and placed the cheesecake in the middle of the table to make it easier to share. 

“H-how much do I owe you ?” You fumbled in your bag for your wallet. 

“It's okay, it's my treat” Doyoung replied, placing a piece of cheesecake in his mouth and slowly licking the fork clean. You gulped as his tongue darted out carefully licking the cream from the metal, not leaving any residue behind. You had no idea what the hell was going on but you felt hot, almost claustrophobic. 

“You're okay?” Doyoung asked innocently, unaware of what he was doing to you. 

“Why are you being...nice?” You questioned, knitting your eyebrows together as the man continued to act as if this was his usual behavior. 

Doyoung pursed his lips and placed the fork on the plate, “You want me to be mean to you?”

“No I just don't get-”

“I apologized to Dami and she told me she only overreacted because the guy she likes, Seungmin was there” Doyoung explained and removed his spectacles, “she was embarrassed to ask anyone for help, I paired them up for today.”

“Wait wha-”

“Also Jangjun works at the campus radio” Doyoung continued, “I had only found out the day we all met, I gave him tasks that will allow him more flexibility, that way he doesn't have to join group sessions often.” 

You blinked, unable to form any words in order to reply to Doyoung. Especially after he chuckled at your speechlessness, knowing you didn't bother getting his side of the story at first. 

“You were right y/n I dont have to be an asshole all the time, I just like to get my work done” He shrugged. You kept eye contact with him but somehow it felt as if he were still toying with you, waiting on your next reaction. He seemed like he played this game often, making sure he always had the upper hand. Doyoung seemed relaxed as he stared at you, taking another scoop of the cheesecake and slowly ran his tongue over his lips after his bite. What the fuck was he doing ? 

“Y/N ?” you heard a familiar voice come from the entrance of the cafe. Your attention diverted from Doyoung to the blonde haired boy who began approaching your table. 

“Jungwoo ? oh my God what are you doing here ?” You stood up and pulled him into a tight hug and pecked his cheek. Doyoung shifted awkwardly in his seat as he watched your exchange with the stranger. 

“I got off early from class about to go to Subway, are you still doing that group project thing?” Jungwoo looked over at your table and half smiled at Doyoung who tried to distract himself with his phone. 

“Uh yeah but i'm all done here I think, wanna hang out ?” you hooked arms with Jungwoo as he nodded enthusiastically. You turned around and scratched the back of your head, 

“So...uh”

“Were all done you can go, I have somewhere to be anyway” Doyoung smiled as you slowly began packing up your things. 

“Alright, see you tomorrow I guess” you bid your goodbye and headed out for lunch with Jungwoo. 

—-

You had just finished up your skincare routine and caught up with a few instagram posts when you noticed Doyoung had followed you. Sitting up in bed you scrolled through his feed curiously. Every post was aesthetically pleasing and he looked absolutely hot in every single one of them. He had to have a girlfriend right ? No guy posts pictures this good without women flooding his DMs. 

There was no harm in doing the same since he was in your class, you decided to return the follow and close the app. Suddenly your phone vibrated with a new message in your chats. 

Y/N X KDY  10:30pm

KDY: hey 

Y/N: aren't you breaking two of your rules right now ?

KDY: haha 

KDY: I didn't realize what time it was…

Y/N: ….anyways..is this about work at least ?

KDY: kinda… you left one of your books at the cafe. I have it with me. 

Y/N: oh… thank you.

KDY: no prob...oh I hope its not a problem I added you on ig

Y/N: no its okay we are friends I guess

KDY: haha I thought I was the insufferable asshole..

Y/N: you are...but not all the time. Look im sorry for saying shitty things about you. 

KDY: its all good. 

KDY: …….

Y/N: ..whats up?

You twirled your fingers as you watched the three dots from Doyoung pop up and disappear over and over again. What was taking him so long ? 

KDY: that guy….that you met at the cafe..is he your boyfriend ?

Y/N: Jungwoo ? no way we've been friends since high school.

KDY: oh..

Y/N:....why would you even ask that ?

KDY: curious. 

Y/N: curious about who I'm dating ??

KDY: A little. 

You frowned at your phone and noticed Doyoung had changed his profile picture to a selfie. The picture was..something alright. You bit down on your lip as you enlarged the picture, which showed a wet haired Doyoung with his head resting in his palm and his long index finger was placed between his plump lips. 

“Fuck y/n get yourself together” you gave yourself a pep talk before opening his chat back up again. 

Y/N X KDY  10.54PM

Y/N: fine if you can ask a question can I ask one..

KDY: go ahead 

Y/N: who do you keep thirst trapping for ?

KDY: ….haha thirst trapping ? 

Y/N: Yeah who do keep posting these hot pics for huh

KDY: …..

KDY: You think i'm hot ?

Fuck. Why did you word it that way. You groaned immediately regretting sending that message but something in you was so curious about him you decided to just risk it, what was the worst that could happen ? 

Y/N: well yeah, I mean I'm sure everyone thinks you're attractive, you seem to know it too. 

KDY: wow. 

KDY: I think you're hot too. 

What the hell was going on. You felt your face heat up and you placed your pillow in between your legs as you turned on your side. 

KDY: I was almost disappointed when I thought Jungwoo was your boyfriend, he's way too passive. 

Y/N: ...and what makes you think you know what kind of man I need ?

KDY: hmmm

KDY: first of, with that fucking attitude of yours..A dominate one. 

You swallowed hard as you felt a tingle in your stomach, squeezing your thighs together on the pillow to create more friction. 

Y/N: I could say the same for you. 

KDY: You may think youre dominate in many aspects...but when it comes to fucking..im the one in charge. 

God you hated how hot that sounded. He had you in the palm of his hand through text. You were a mess and he wasn't even the room to fuel it. You wanted him so fucking bad it was insane. 

Y/N: running your mouth doesn't equate to doing it you know...

KDY:.....

KDY: then would you like me to show you ?

Everything happened so damn fast. One minute you two were texting the next minute you were sharing your apartment location and Doyoung was on his way over. You scrambled to put on sexier underwear and do your hair, still in shock by the fact that Doyoung was on his way over to bang you. 

You jumped when you heard the doorbell and realized it was him. Opening the door you were greeted to a very different look of Doyoung. His hair was messy and reached his eyes. Instead of his usual black academic attire he wore a loose white vest that showed off his toned chest and arms, along with a pair of grey sweatpants. 

“Hi” Doyoung smirked, his eyes were dark as he scanned your figure. 

“Hi” you responded, leaning against the wall in the hallway and looked up at him. Doyoung slowly approached you, like a lion circling its prey. His slender fingers danced lightly along your body, drawing a line from your waist until he found your throat and wrapped his cold fingers around it. He bit down on his lip as he studied how perfectly his hand looked around it and squeezed gently, smirking after hearing a soft moan emit from you. 

“I want you to do as I say, any back chat from you will get you punished you got that ?” he brought his lips down to your neck and exhaled. 

You nodded in response but that wasn't good enough for Doyoung. You felt his squeeze on your throat once more and he used his hips to pin you against the wall, “use your words” he gritted his teeth. 

“Yes sir” you replied obediently, and felt him smile against your neck. 

“Good girl, and if i'm too rough let me know so I can stop okay ?” he replied, his voice changed and it was much sweeter and genuine than before. He placed a soft kiss on your cheek when you nodded and led you to the bed. 

Doyoung lay you on the bed, already stripping off his shirt and ordered you to undress yourself and rid him off his sweatpants. You bit down on your lip taking notice of how aroused he was when you palmed his member. 

Doyoung watched you through hooded eyes as you discarded his sweatpants and boxers. He softly patted your head and grabbed a tuft of your hair in order to make you look up at him. 

“Spit” he ordered, and held out his hand and you did as you were told. You watched as he lathered himself with it, moaning as he stroked himself. He was so damn sexy, biting down on lip and slowly pleased himself as you watched. 

“Do you want this inside you sweetheart ?” he cooed and placed a finger under chin. 

You nodded quickly, “Yes please” 

“What do you want me to do baby ?” He purred and hovered over you as you lay on the bed, breathing heavily as his fingers moved against your warm skin, tracing your curves, ghosting over your heat and returning back to your lips to insert a digit inside. 

Doyoung watched diligently as you sucked on his finger like the good girl he knew you were. He finally pulled his finger out and with one swift movement entered with his member before you could even respond to his question. You moaned as he quickly slammed his hips into yours, wasting no time in gaining a rhythm as you marked his back with scratch marks feeling as though you were on a high. 

Doyoung fucked you like a pro, wasting no time to switch positions and had you on all fours, slapping your ass before slamming into you again, that pretentious smirk forming on his face as he heard your whimpers asking him for more. 

“Are you ready to cum sweetheart ?” he asked, pulling you up as his strokes became slower and tugged on your ear with his teeth. 

“Y-yes yes i'm ready” you panted.

“What's the magic word ?” he growled as he grabbed your throat and slowed down his pace as you were nearing your climax. 

“Fuck youre so annoying PLEASE, please let me cum Doyoung fuck” 

Doyoung chuckled and picked up his pace until you finally climaxed and he followed shortly after, collapsing in the bed next to you. 

“You have such an attitude God” he rolled his eyes playfully, bringing the blanket over your bodies and grinned when you moved in to cuddle him. 

“I guess you will have to fix that some time” you yawned and wrapped your arm around his waist, “but I have to admit, maybe I do enjoy the insufferable Kim Doyoung bossing me around once in a while.”

[ange1s]

cherry emoji - mark lee

synopsis: in which mark asks to see your boobs, and the idea you had of your relationship is thrown up in the air.

wc: 3.6k

genre: this is so fluffy it hurts, some angst but nothing crazy

tw: suggestive themes (boobs), swearing

playlist: pluto projector by rex orange county, ivy by frank ocean, tapestry by bruno major

a/n: guess whos back ,, back again ,,, ange1s back ,,, tell a friend,,,, also this is unedited so i'm sorry if theres a mistake :')

my anon asks are open !! feel free to ask me anything or request something <3

“i have a weird question.” mark says timidly. you’re sat on the floor, your back against his bed playing a rhythm game on your phone. he is sat at his desk, parallel to his bed, but with the rolling chair swivelled around to face you straight ahead. you don’t look up.

“hmm.” you hum, focused on the game.

mark swallows. “can i see your boobs?”

you drop your phone into your lap, forgetting about the game. you look up at him, straight into his eyes, and you giggle.

“wait, what?”

mark avoids your eyes almost fearfully, as if you were a detective questioning him for a crime. “can i see your boobs?” softer, this time.

you let out a shallow laugh. “don’t you watch porn? there are boobs there.”

mark blushes. “no! i mean, yes i do, but not real boobs.”

you cross your arms under your boobs on purpose, just to push them up a little higher to drive him nuts. mark sits back in his chair in frustration.

“so you think women aren’t real? that all boobs in porn are fake? jeez mark i thought you cared about women-“

“no! that’s not what i meant!” he says, exasperated. he continues to avoid eye contact with you. “of course i don’t think-“

you laugh again, keeling over. “relax mark, i know you don’t think all women are plastic.”

“look, there’s nothing wrong with being plastic, women can do whatever they-“ mark speaks quickly and nervously as if he were on trial.

“shut up minhyung,” you cut him off with a softer, more serious tone. “why do you want to see my boobs? you’re famous and cute. you could instantly find boobs wherever you go.”

he chuckles. “the word boob is so funny.”

“not the point, minhyung!”

he leans back over, the embarrassment slowly washing away. “stop calling me minhyung!”

“never, minhyung!” you retort without even thinking. you stand up to sit on his bed, now at eye level with him. “now, explain.”

“i… i dunno. i’ve just never seen boobs before. like, in person.”

you look directly at him, brain not even thinking anymore. words just fly out of your mouth with ease. “were you breastfed?”

“y/n!” he exclaims out of frustration. the embarrassment fizzles back in. he throws his head to the back of his chair and covers his eyes with his palm dramatically. he runs his hand down his face, tugging on the soft skin as it travels down. as his hand makes it back down to his lap, you giggle a little louder. “my mom’s boobs don’t fucking count. god, you made me think of my mom’s boobs. what the fuck?”

“sorry,” you manage in between giggles. “sorry, this is so funny.”

“this is impossible. i knew i shouldn’t have asked you.” mark pulls himself out of the chair and heads for the door, but you’re just as fast as him.

“now wait…” you grab his wrist to keep him from leaving. a wave of guilt washes over you. “i was just kidding.”

“were you? you didn’t sound like you were.” he says, his face still turned away from yours.

he sounds strangely hurt. “mark, are you okay?”

mark turns to face you and he looks defeated. he slumps down on the floor next to you, his knees up near his chest and his head in his hands.

“mark…”

“they were making fun of me.”

“who?”

“my friends! they were making fun of me. god, i sound like such an idiot now, whining about my friends like this, oh my god. i sound like a child.”

you rest your elbow on his shoulder giving your hand access to run through his soft, black hair. “you don’t sound like a child. you’re allowed to get upset.”

you take note at how the air shifted in the room. how quickly you focused and listened. you’re only like this around mark. with him, conversations can shift in an instant to anything. you understand each other on a deep, personal level. it’s something you don’t think you’ll ever have with another person for your entire life. maybe your soulmate. honestly? you can only dream to have this sort of connection with your soulmate, a connection so alive and so full of trust. is it even possible to have this with someone else? the fact that mark can make you think about how much he trusts you during a conversation about boobs is something only mark can make you feel. no one else. just him.

has it always been just him?

“it’s so stupid though. one minute lucas is bugging me about the fact that i’m a virgin and i’ve never seen boobs before and the next minute i’m on the floor of my bedroom with you, still not having seen any boobs mind you, nearly crying. damn. this is the lowest point i will ever reach.”

you push his hands away from his face and place your hands on his cheeks instead. “mark, please don’t cry. i hate it when you cry.”

the last time you saw mark cry was a month ago after watching a disney movie. seeing him cry just makes you cry, and since you were already crying, you just cried harder. seeing you cry makes him cry too, so he cried harder as well. the two of you just cried together until your heads hurt, to which you both took tylenols and tried to dance it off.

“i’m pathetic. insecure and pathetic.”

this is when you realize that there is more depth to his feelings than you thought.

“look, mark, i’ll show you my boobs. i trust you. i’m honestly surprised you haven’t seen them accidentally yet since i’ve known you for so long.” you chuckled, trying to lighten the mood. didn‘t work. “but i get the feeling that there’s more to this then just boobs.”

mark never really vented to you like this before. despite how close you are, he still kept things from you growing up, as a teenage boy does. you never took offense to this, as you kept plenty from him too. he never quite talked about his insecurities, his fears. he didn’t want to burden you with them. mark, so sweet and thoughtful. maybe too much for his own good. he needs to learn to share things.

he's starting to, though.

it takes him a while to speak, avoiding your eyes entirely. he speaks lowly, as if he was scared to tell the world what he was about to say.

“it’s just… everything about this sucks. everything. i’m kinda scared to tell you things, which can make us drift apart because we lose trust. then again, if i do tell you things, i’m scared it’ll freak you out and i’ll lose you. those are both bad endings. then, i’m scared to put myself out into the world. like, lucas is telling me to just find someone. go out, ask for a number, have a good time, live like someone in their 20s should be living. i can’t really do it though. every time i try, i choke. lucas once tried to set me up, you remember that, right?”

“yeah, that was the girl who stood you up.”

“yeah. it’s awful. every time i try it fails. i’ve been trying to get to the bottom of why it fails every single time but i just couldn’t. but then, i realized.” he shifts and faces you causing your hands to fall off his face and into your lap. “when i came home after being stood up, i wasn’t sad. i forgot the moment i left the restaurant. i texted lucas that the date didn’t happen and just shut my phone off and went to your place. i wasn’t sad because i knew i had you. i knew that you were going to make me feel better and that made it all go away.” he pauses. “you know? sometimes i get worried that i put too much on you. you’re my happiness, my relaxation, my joy. i worry sometimes that you’ll suffocate because i take so much from being with you. i keep this in the back of my head all the time because i just don’t want you to go. ever.”

holy shit.

“mark…”

“let me finish. i talked about this with lucas, and he told me that i can let myself be selfish sometimes. he said that i can want this that… that i can want you. i can think about you and how you make me happy and i can want that happiness yesterday, today, and tomorrow, and the day after. shit, i care about you more than anything. my heart swells and my stomach gets all these annoying little butterflies when i think of you. it’s fucking crazy. and now, today, here i am. you know, lucas, jaemin and i were talking about girls and boobs and fuck i don’t know, jaemin said that i just had to get that intimacy with someone. and it just fucking clicked. the only person i want to be intimate with is you and i’m thinking now that maybe i was stupid for asking to see your boobs. which is so stupid, i could’ve just asked to kiss you or share a bed with you or i don’t know. i’m really sorry if that was gross of me. i just wasn’t thinking. it’s so damn hard to think straight when it comes to you. i just really want to be closer to you, however that might be.”

your heart races at a speed that doctors would deem impossible. you don’t know what to think or where to look. you feel like you’re going to explode. though, if you explode, he’ll probably explode too. that wouldn’t be good.

mark looks down. he fills with regret. he doesn’t think he should've said that. maybe you'll hate him now. maybe you’ve never felt this way about him before.

you inhale slowly, trying to convince your lungs that breathing is normal and not something that can just stop when hearing speeches like this.

what is the proper thing to say? mark i love you? but do you love him? everything is so confusing right now. of course you love him, but you never considered love in this way. can i kiss you? too forward? but he wants intimacy, and you want it too. i feel the same way? boring. you can do better. mark, and his way with words. so beautiful. how do you compete? mark, you’re beautiful. mark is so beautiful. you try so hard to compose the words. maybe too hard. maybe it’s okay to go with option 3.

now, they just flow out. “mark… i think i feel the same way you do. i don’t know it’s just- i’ve always felt some sort of way toward you. something is so special about you. i spent years trying to decipher it, thinking it was just something platonic or brotherly or i dunno. i just never considered… this. i don’t even know what to call this. but it feels right. you’ve always felt right.”

he has. and he always will. he looks at you so lovingly, his enamoured gaze stuck on you. you can’t look up at him, but he watches you.

you continue. “fuck, i don’t know what to say. i’m so… god.” you run your fingers through your hair, as if to comb your brain in search for the right words. “i think you’re so beautiful. everything about you. and i’m so fucking grateful to have someone as amazing as you in my life. i don’t know what i did to deserve someone like you, and i feel like i really don’t deserve you. but it feels right. to be with you. to be alone with you. it’s just right.”

you let a little tear trickle down your cheek. you know if you look up at him, you’ll probably cry harder. you know this well, yet you look up.

“i don’t know what i did to deserve you either.” mark sighs. it’s his turn to wipe your tears now.

“so… what is this? what… are we?” you ask, melting into his hand, which somehow feels softer on your face.

“i don’t know. we can be whatever you want us to be.”

you playfully punch his shoulder, his hands sliding off your cheeks. “come on, you know i hate it when you say that.”

he gets defensive. “and you know i hate it when you hit me! you have a strong hand, yanno? shit!”

you laugh at him, clearing the last unwanted tear off your cheek with the pad of your thumb. “what can i say? gained strength from all those pillow fights over the years.”

“yeah, pillow fights i won.”

“shut up! you know i won the one at jeno’s party!”

mark laughs aloud. your favourite sound. “yeah, because everyone was drunk and you were still on your second drink. it was a very unevenly matched fight!”

“i still won!” you cross your arms and sit up straight as if you assert dominance over the conversation. who are you kidding? it’s all a joke anyways.

you crack after a moment and both of you erupt in a fit of giggles. his head falls into the crook of your neck, and it feels right. it’s almost as if your skin buzzed. you don’t know why, he’s done this many times before. but now, it’s different. the air has shifted again, so quickly. only with mark.

when he comes off of your neck, you stand up. you walk up to the door of his room, and lock it.

“y/n, what-“

you sit on his bed. “can’t have someone walk in while you’re ogling at my boobs, right? i know you and you’d never be able to live that down.”

mark is quick to stand up in defence. “what? no, we don’t have to do that anymore. i said my piece and im over the boob thing and-“

“shut up mark. you know you want to. and i kinda wanna show you too.”

he sits down on the bed across from you without another word but before either of you can move, he speaks again. “wait, kinda? please don’t feel obligated. only do this if you’re-“

“minhyung, please! i want to, ok? i really appreciate how you’re taking care of me but it’s fine. i trust you, and you trust me, right?”

he swallows hard. “right.”

“okay, perfect.” you pull your shirt off over your head, leaving you in your bra. if this was with any other boy, you’d be self conscious about literally everything: the bra you chose, the shape of your body, the hair in the places you let grow out. with mark, none of it matters now. he’s seen you in bathing suits before, this isn’t much different. and knowing how much he cares for you anyways, you know his head is clouded with praise and nothing less. his brain is working so fast right now, he probably won’t even register any imperfections.

“can i take your bra off?” mark sputters out as if he were holding onto the words for hours. “or wait, fuck-“

“yes, you can.”

he is almost shocked at your answer, and it shows. mark’s hands move slowly, his skin slightly cold as he grazes your skin. he leans in unbelievably close to wrap his arms around you to reach your back. he feels your breath on his chin, and your beautiful eyes look so sweet as you look up at him. when he finds the clasp, he kisses your nose as he pulls away, your bra coming back with him. you straighten your arms so the straps fall right off, showing your boobs.

mark is shocked. flabbergasted, even. his jaw almost drops in a shameless, teenaged boy way.

“dang. they’re so cute.”

you scoff. “cute? first boobs of your life and all you have to say is cute?”

“well what else can i say? i am not very well versed in the vast vocabulary that exists to describe your boobs.” he chuckles. “jeez, why is the word boob so fucking funny?”

you can’t help but smile timidly alongside him. that is what mark does, he makes you feel safe no matter what the situation. mark is always worried about you, worried if you are feeling comfortable and if you are okay with what is going on. he never wants things to be tense when you are around, because he hates to see you upset.

right now, you are the opposite of upset.

“y/n,” he brings your attention back to him. you hum in response. “can i touch?”

you freeze for a moment, and nod timidly. mark scoots a little bit closer, and reaches out with his right hand to gently cup your left breast. his hand is warm, and your skin needs a second to adjust to his temperature. he squeezes the flesh in the absolute slightest way, and quickly brings his hand back. he laughs almost exasperated.

“oh my god, it’s squishy? boobs are squishy?! why did that never register in my head?” he laughs loudly, as if he had just discovered something monumental.

“you’re just finding out now? oh my god mark, that’s common knowledge!”

mark looks down, his cheeks red from laughing. “dang, i’m so touch starved that i never knew until now that boobs are squishy. insanity.”

“the more you bring it up, the sadder it gets.” you reply.

he looks up at you with scrunched eyebrows. “don’t be mean. can i touch again?”

“yes, you can.”

mark cups your left boob with his right hand again, this time running his thumb softly over the supple skin. he doesn’t know what his limits are yet. can he go further? can he touch other parts of your boobs? can he touch other parts of your body? he is scared of going too fast and scaring you. mark is doing his very best today to be as careful as possible, as this is probably, remarkably, the best day of his life so far.

he pushes his index finger into your boob gently to poke it, and you laugh softly. at this point, you are just looking down at mark’s hand on your body. honestly, the fact that he isn’t doing anything is almost relaxing.

you look at how slowly his finger moves, like your skin is made up of the most delicate material in the world. he holds you with such care, such control. it is a feeling you want to feel again, and again, and again.

mark inhales slowly. he wants to go further. he wants more. he doesn’t know how you feel yet, but he will wait for you every step of the way.

but just as he opens his mouth, he hears a thud on his door. “mark hyung, we’re home! is y/n here? come eat with us!”

you both jump, as jaemin’s loud voice destroys the entire atmosphere. mark turns a cute shade of pink almost immediately, and takes his hand off of your skin. you are surprised at first, but lose all tension as you watch mark’s reaction. the poor boy is so embarrassed, but even more upset at how shortly your time was cut off. you laugh as he grabs your bra and tries to put it back on you. unfortunately, he cannot figure out how to close the back shut.

“i’m here! we’ll be there in a sec.” you shout, sparing mark from saying something stupid. you clip your bra straps together, and pull your shirt back on.

mark looks upset. “i’m so sorry they cut us off. they were supposed to be out all day, fuck. i’m sorry-”

“mark, baby, it’s okay. you didn’t know. besides, this isn’t ending here.”

mark looks up at you. “baby?”

“oh gosh, i don’t know where that came from. i’m sorry.”

“no no, its cute. i like it. baby. it just…”

“makes sense?”

he nods. “yeah. this makes sense. it really does.”

mark’s heart pounds in his chest as he takes your hands in his. today, they feel softer, warmer. he inhales sharply once again, hoping this time jaemin doesn’t break his door down, or something of the sort.

his thumb does the thing again, rubbing your skin gently. “y/n, i don’t want to be friends anymore. i think we are more than friends.”

you smile. “i do too. this makes sense.”

mark feels like he is going to explode. that would be bad though, because if he exploded, you would too. that wouldn’t be good for anyone.

“so i guess you’re my girlfriend now.”

you giggle softly. “that sounds so much better than best friend.”

“dang, it kinda does, doesn’t it?”

you let go of his hands and climb off his bed. he follows instantly after you do. right before you go to unlock the door, mark takes your hand once again, and turns you to face him.

you heart races as you lock eyes with him. you cannot believe everything that happened today. how your best friend, who you’d known for your whole life, confessed everything he felt for you, and poked your boobs mere minutes after. and that’s okay, because that’s mark. your mark.

“do we have to go down? i really want to see your boobs again.”

you lean over and place a kiss on his cheek, which causes him to lose his train of thought completely. “you’ll see them again soon, i promise. but if we don’t go down, jaemin will come upstairs and try opening your door. you know him, he’ll freak out when he sees that it’s locked. we’d get found out before we even have a chance to start.”

mark sighs. “fine. no more boobs today. guess i’ll just have to suffer without your boobs in my hands. shit, how am i going to survive?”

you unlock the door, and twist the handle. “well baby, i guess you’ll have to figure it out.”

[peterrparrkerr]

Size difference - read on ao3

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"Being on top isn't that hard," Peter scoffed playfully, bringing a spoonful of his sugary cereal to his mouth.

Tony couldn't help but smirk at that, amusement twinkling in his eyes at the surety of Peter's words.

"No?" He asked -challenged.

Peter shook his head. "I could do it."

"You think you could top me?" Tony grinned, raising an eyebrow. "You're cute."

Peter gave an indignant huff, shoveling more cereal into his mouth before setting the spoon into his bowl and pointing a finger at Tony.

"M'not cute," he started. Tony would've argued the contrary, but the boy continued. "And I could totally top you. I've been topped enough to know how to do it."

"Theres a difference between being topped and topping, sweet thing," Tony chuckled, cutting into his eggs.

"Have you ever bottomed?" Peter asked, chewing his cereal. Tony thinks its Captain Crunch, but he's not big on the brands.

"A few times," Tony shrugged. "When I was your age."

Peter rolls his eyes at that, pointing his spoon at Tony. "If you can bottom, then I can top."

Tony smirks at that. How does he tell Peter he wasn't cut out for it? He was much too soft for topping. The poor thing slips off into sub space far too often to ever really enjoy taking control in that way.

But, Tony also knows Peter. Knows he won't stop pestering about it until Tony agrees to let the boy try.

Which is what he does.

"Okay, you can be on top tonight," Tony said with a smirk. He wasn't opposed to the idea of bottoming, and he could always guide the boy in the right direction.

*-*

That night, Tony spent some time in the shower, stretching himself on his fingers, cleaning himself out for his boy. Its strange, the feeling of his fingers in his ass familiar but also foreign.

He hadn't done this since his days in college, when he was still figuring out his preferences.

He spent extra time getting himself stretched, wanting to make it easier on the both of them. Peter wasn't large by any stretch of the imagination. He was shorter than average and a little thinner than most, but Tony wanted to be prepared.

Once finished, Tony turned off the shower and towel dried himself before making his way into the bedroom he shared with Peter.

The little thing was already looking excited as he crawled to the edge of the bed, smiling at Tony as he got closer.

"You ready?" Tony asked softly, smirking down at the boy as he ran fingers through soft curls. Peter's eyelashes fluttered, his head tilting into Tony's touch.

Peter nods, grin pulling at the lower lip he's suckling on. Oh, Tony can't wait to see Peter out of his element.

"Okay," Tony hums, removing his hand -smirking when Peter scowled. "You're in control, sweet thing."

Peter blinked, looking slightly lost, before that excitement had him near wiggling out of his clothes -all while kneeling on the bed.

"Okay, lay down," Peter said. The smile Tony wore felt permanent as he did as told, indulging Peter in his little stint with topping.

The towel around Tony's hips was yanked open by eager little fingers. Tony couldn't help but hum approvingly as Peter sucked his length into the sweet warmth of his mouth.

Tony was much larger than Peter in every sense. Taller, built broader. Peter was fairy-like. Ethereal and so tiny he was usually mistaken for a teenager.

The boy sat so prettily between Tony's knees, sucking at the first three inches of Tony's cock while his hands worked on the other three. His fingers barely overlapped.

Tony let his head fall back, enjoying the slight pressure Peter created every time he lifted his head.

"Dont let me cum," Tony murmured. Peter pulls off his cock with a wet noise, eyes blinking at Tony in confusion. Tony smiled. "You want me to cum on that little cock of yours, don't you?"

Peter's cheeks flame hot as he licks at the spit coating his lips before nodding. "Yeah, yeah I want you to cum on my cock."

Tony's smile widens as he spreads his legs, drawing his knees slightly up until his asshole is on show.

"Show me what you got, sweet thing," he encouraged. Peter shuffled closer, looking equal parts overwhelmed and giddy.

"Take your time," Tony murmured. Peter gave another little nod before timid fingers felt Tony's hole.

The older lets out a small hum of encouragement, shifting his hips so more of himself was on display.

Peter's fingers were small, he barely felt the intrusion.

"You already stretched yourself?" Peter asked, sounding disappointed.

"Next time you can do the honors, sweetheart," Tony smiled.

"Next time?"

"Its up to you," Tony hummed, feeling Peter fit another finger in. He wasn't really doing much, more exploring, which Tony was fine with.

"Whatcha lookin' for, sweet thing?" Tony chuckled, seeing Peter's eyebrows furrow with concentration.

"Your prostate," Peter huffed. Tony can't help but chuckle again, wiggling his hips.

It takes a little longer before Peter brushes against a spot that pulls a sharp moan from Tony, body jolting with the sudden zing of pleasure.

"There it is," Tony moaned. "Good boy."

Peter let out a noise of his own, high pitched and embarrassed. He continued to rock his fingers into Tony's prostate. God, Tony forgot how good it felt to be stimulated down there.

"How about you use your pretty little cock," Tony suggested, feeling himself draw tight like the string of a bow.

"I know you want to," Tony murmured. "Know you want to know how it feels to top me. You want to feel in control, huh, sweet thing?"

Peter keens as he pulls his fingers free and wipes them on the towel under Tony. He crawls forward and drops onto Tony's chest, their mouths meeting seconds later.

Tony doesn't lick inside. Doesn't dominate the kiss in anyway. This is Peter's show.

Peter's hesitant at taking control of the kiss. Tony knows the boy wants Tony to take charge, but the older is curious to see how far Peter's willing to go before he begs for it. Before he gives up.

"You gonna get your cock in me, or just rut against my belly?" Tony asked, smirking against Peter's lips.

Peter pulls back. "Gonna get my cock'n you," he murmured, climbing off of Tony and reaching for the lube they keep in the nightstand drawer on Tony's side.

It takes Peter a little longer to pop the cap open and  wet his cock, but Tony lays patiently. Peter then drops the bottle onto the bed after clicking the lid closed.

He wiped his hand on the towel again before looking at Tony.

"Go on, baby," Tony nods. "Gonna line yourself with my entrance, and then all you gotta do is roll your hips forward. You can do that, can't you?"

Peter gives a mute nod, throat clicking as he swallows. Tony smiles as he shuffles even closer, getting his thighs under Tony's until the older's ass is practically joined at the bend of Peter's waist.

"There you go," Tony praised, pulling his legs up a little higher. He's not as flexible as he used to be. He'll never be able to bend in half the way Peter can, but he gives the boy enough room to work with.

Peter's already gone a little soft in the eyes at Tony's encouragement. He slips into such a pliant little thing so easily.

But he must really want to prove to Tony that he can top, because he reaches down to fist his cocklet, pressing the head to Tony's hole before pushing in.

"Oh," Peter whimpers, breath hitching as he rolls his hips forward until he's completely sheathed.

"Feels good, doesn't it, sweet boy?" Tony hums. "You like the feel of your cock in my ass? Feels so warm, hmm?"

Peter shuffles even further forward, making sure he wont slip out of Tony as he begins to hitch his hips back and forth.

"Y-yeah," Peter moans, high pitched and keening.

"Lean forward," Tony urged softly. "Hands on my chest, there you go. Now try. You feel the difference?"

Peter hummed an affirmative, hips barely leaving Tony's ass as he rocks into the older.

"Look at you," Tony nearly purred. "Such a good boy, doing so well."

And he was. Tony knew he wouldn't be able to cum like this -Peter just shy of his prostate- but he enjoyed it all the same.

Loved watching Peter pant above him, lower lip caught between his teeth to try and stifle the breath leaving his lungs.

Peter whimpers at Tony's words, leaning further down until his head pressed into Tony's sternum. Tony's hands run down his back and sides, pulling shivers from the younger as Peter continued to roll his hips.

"Doing such a good job," Tony hummed, smirking as Peter's hips stuttered.

"Tony," Peter whined, leaning up so his nose was pressing coolly into Tony's collarbone.

Tony felt the wetness of his eyelashes against his skin and curled both arms around Peter's tiny frame.

The boy mewled helplessly, his cock slipping free as he moved his way up Tony's chest, tucking himself into Tony's neck to mouth at his skin.

"Please, Tony," he whimpered, cock pressed between Peter's abdomen and Tony's stomach.

"Oh, sweetheart," Tony hummed sympathetically. "You did so well. I'm so proud of you."

Peter snuffled against his neck st that, wiggling his hips a little.

"You want me to make you feel good, sweet boy?" Tony asked, murmured into Peter's ear.

The boy nods, continuing to mouth at Tony's neck. The older man smiles before rolling them, trapping Peter under his much larger body.

Peter's cock rests glistening against his torso, tip barely reaching halfway to his belly button. Tony quickly fists it, stroking him softly as he murmured softly in his ear.

Peter keened and mewled, chest lifting and hips rolling.

He pulls back, settling his hand further down until his fingers press at Peter's hole. The boy lifts his legs, hips rotating and giving Tony more access.

This is where Peter belongs. This is where he thrives.

"Poor thing," Tony mused, beginning to finger the boy open. "You can't help it, huh?"

One finger, then two. Peter whimpers.

"Can't help that you prefer receiving, huh sweetheart," Tony said, voice dripping with honey as he continued prepping the boy; avoiding his prostate.

"Please, please, I need-" his breath hitches, tears welling in his eyes.

"Need daddy to take good care of you, huh, sweet little thing?" Tony continued, reaching for the bottle of lube with his free hand.

"Yes," Peter sobbed, head thrown back as his hips roll against Tony's fingers.

"Alright baby," Tony hummed, removing his fingers and slicking himself up. "Such a good boy for me."

Peter wailed when Tony slipped inside, stretching him wide open. Tony smirked, rolling his hips softly, each time pressing in just a little further than the last.

"Such a good top for me," Tony sang, leaning forward to press kisses along Peter's jaw and neck. "But an even better bottom, hmm."

Peter nodded, breath hiccuping and wet as Tony impaled the boy on his cock.

Only when Tony was fully seated inside Peter did he lean back, looking down at his boy.

He groaned at the sight of his own cock pressing along the skin of Peter's belly, a grossly large overshadow to Peter's cocklet.

Tony watched as he pulled back. Watched the tip of his cock under Peter's skin drag closer to Peter's belly button before he snapped forward.

Peter's little frame moves with the punch of his hips, muscles tightening around Tony at the assault.

"Did you like how warm I felt, wrapped around your little cock?" Tony asked, rolling his hips, watching the bulge in Peter's stomach dance under his skin.

"Thats how you feel, sweet boy," Tony continued, wrapping his hand around Peter's little prick and stroking him in time with Tony's thrusts. "Do you like the feel, Peter? Like your cock stuffed in my ass?"

Peter mewled, back arching.

"L-like your mouth!" Peter sobbed. "Like your mouth better, daddy!"

Tony let out a groan, half in approval and half at the way pleasure slithered down his spine to settle in his balls.

"Such a pillow puppy, aren't you, sweet thing?"

Peter couldn't help but nod frantically, chest heaving as Tony kept the pace brutally even.

"Now we know, don't we?" Tony prompted. "Daddy's always right."

Again, Peter nodded, whining as Tony continued stroking his cocklet.

"Al-always," Peter whimpered.

Tony smirked. "Good boy."

Peter came seconds later, body convulsing through the waves of pleasure, eyes rolling back and mouth hanging open on a long moan that has Tony's balls tighten.

Once he's come down, Tony releases his cock, settling both hands on either side of the boy before pistoning his hips, chasing his own release.

Peter wraps his arms around Tony's neck and the older drops down low, allowing most of his weight to settle against the much smaller boy.

He groans again at the feeling of his cock -so deep in Peter- brushing against his own stomach.

Peter curls his legs around Tony's hips, allowing the older to drive in deeper, desperate little pleas falling into the little space still between them.

Tony cums with a curse wrenching itself from his throat, his hips stuttering to a stop deep inside the boy.

Peter whimpers, gripping onto Tony tightly as he empties himself deep.

Tony settles his mouth along Peter's neck, suckling open mouthed kisses into his skin as he rides the last of his orgasm.

"What a good boy," Tony murmurs. Peter hums as the older slips out with a wet squelch.

He takes the towel to clean the two of them up, then folds it twice and settles it under Peter's rear. The boy usually doesn't go straight to the shower to clean himself, and Tony found it easier to settle the towel down instead of remaking the bed.

He smiles down at the boy, leaning over to kiss at his soft lips before laying down beside him.

"So," he hummed, tracing the soft curve of Peter's stomach. Peter tilted his head up and to the side, peering up at Tony with wide brown eyes.

"How was being on top?"

He can't help but smirk as Peter pulls a face.

"S'not as fun as being on the bottom," he confesses. Tony chuckles and leans forward, pressing a kiss to Peter's pouty lips.

"Told you so."