#i'm talking like i just discovered this as tho it hasn't been one of my fav songs since it came out

[blackeyesandfistfights]

have you guys heard this holy fuck

[nogenderbee]

♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ 𝔼𝕪𝕖𝕤 𝔸𝕚𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘 ℍ𝕚𝕘𝕙 ₊˚ˑ༄

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ TW: mentions of rat/animal killing sorry :'<

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ @bleachtheidiot @prsk-krow @wholesaleboi @miya-akane

ᵀᴼᴰᴬʸ'ˢ ᴬᴿᵀ : Eyes Aiming High - Honami Mochizuki

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Honami was called to a village that claimed to be harassed by scarry and powerful demon. Being one of the best exorcists she is, she immediately accepted it, motivated to do her best to help the villagers.

She wandered around the darker part of the city, it had few cheaply made protections... and that was first thing telling her, she doesn't know entire truth...

"(If this demon is as powerful as they claim, cheap charms like those wouldn't stop any harm... they must've exaggerated... But I still need to get rid of them so everyone can feel safe again!)"

She entered the dangerous area with a bit of courage, preparing all her holy equipment and anything else she might need, her eyes all around her head.

It was quite a scarry place, she can't decline the facts... even she was a bit spooked... so when she suddenly got spooked, she immidietly jumped back, preparing to defense herself just to see... you...

"Surprise!!"

You were a demon, sure, but she could tell you had that childish aura around you and meant no harm... at least for now. But she also knows not to let her guard down.

"Do you have a sibling?"

"Awh c'mon... I know I'm not the 'big scarry demon' most want me to be, but I assure you I am powerful!"

"Well those charms-"

She wanted to explain a bit but she was interrupted by demon who seemed to be quite a rambler actually...

"Oh, that! I simply know that means villagers don't want me in their village so... I respect that!"

"(That's weird... they shouldn't be this considerate if they're this much of danger... unless they aren't...)"

Brown haired girl decided to let her guard down just a little bit to talk with you and discover few things villagers must've hid from them.

"What did you do to make them 'lock you' here?"

"I don't know... I think I just misunderstand the signs... Once, villagers complained there hasn't been rain so I used my power of mischief to flood the whole village so they'll have water for whole year!"

This left her thinking even more... were you this impulsive or.. dumb? Either way, she saw that you meant to be of help, even tho your actions turned out to cause a lot of problems to the village.

Seeing how she was lost in her thoughts, trying to understand your actions, you waited patiently when you saw a rat near her foot. Wanting to be nice again, you quickly used your long nails to stab it and then show off.

"Here! This is for you!"

"This..."

"Yeah! I saw other humans do that! They kill animals and they offer it on their tables!"

"I think I see where the problem lays now..."

Exorcist sighs, knowing she can't kill good demon like you but also not wanting to leave you here all on your own. So she deciedes to still believe in humanity.

"It's nice but... it's not really a pleasant gift... Instead, let me help you. I want to talk with villagers about you with you on my side."

"Are you sure I won't scare them?"

"I'm sure they'll feel a bit safer if I'll be nearby."

Her words reassured you a bit, so you excitedly nodded and began walking out of this dark place even before she took the first step! But you stopped at the entrance, wanting her to go first, just in case...

"I'll explain to them, you're sweet, simply unaware soul. You have my word."

She gave you last reassuring smile before collecting everyone in the village. And oh boy, wasn't it a long speech... but all that matters is that she not only helped you get accepted, but also promised to visit you more often!

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[bandzboy]

I'm asking this question because I'm genuinely curious. If you don't want to answer it, please do as you want.

I know you're studying music so I was wondering if realising that most of the music industry has a link with i****l has changed the way you see it. Have you considered changing paths or do you have the same passion as you had before all of the g word happened?

this is a great question that i'm happy to answer! and yeah i would be lying if i said my perspective of the industry hasn't changed in the past few months because it has and unfortunately, i think it's the only industry that has to deal with this at the moment and i feel especially people who are in artistic fields are trying to navigate this because i won't lie it's hard. i did feel very hopeless for a while but even tho all of this is happening and i'm discovering new things every day about this industry as i go, i don't wanna give up on music especially because i worked and fought so hard to pursue this path and i feel like giving up on this would be throwing all my hard work away and it also means that the zionists have won and that's something i don't want to happen at ALL and i feel like these people are ruining what these artistic industries should be about and i think it's important that we don't let them do that! i literally saw today how macklemore in his recent concert said that art in its purest form is resistance and if we stopped making music, writing, making movies etc it would also mean there is no sort of resistance! music, like a lot of art forms, gives us hope and makes us think and sometimes understand each other better and that's why we should keep doing what we are doing even if these god awful people try to ruin it. it's something so human that should connect people and spread of message of unity! there have been so many movements that have been immortalized in art and as artists, we should talk about the world around us and give people genuine hope when everything is so shit you know? but i made a promise to myself that i want to keep making music no matter what because this is my life as corny as it sounds my life just has meaning if i am singing, playing an instrument or making music at the end of the day! i just want to be an artist who inspires people, spreads to right messages and speaks about what is right and also i feel like it's sort of my duty to call this industry every day for zionism and a bunch of other things that i think are wrong because i just honestly want it to be better and i am making it my life's mission to better it and not stay silent on things because artists deserve better especially the ones that are dropped from their labels for speaking out about important things and people that are exploited and overworked for money. but in conclusion: i won't give up on music! i still want to be a musician i will find my way eventually i can take years i will just have to refuse to be associated with an industry that is still very zionist but that won't make me stop making music or doing what i'm doing

[shpadoinkle-day]

hi again!! its 1st time cannibal the musical watcher again- i might start signing my asks or somethin cus i keep wanting to talk but like you're always sharing such obscure random stuff.. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE THING YOU'VE DISCOVERED OR FOUND?? specific quote of an interview or a particular photo you've found ???

hiii anon lovely to see you back! feel free to tag yourself if you prefer that way, but either way you're much appreciated 🥰

I have so much stuff I found (I'd say it more like... was lucky to run into while researching 😵‍💫) that I love, but to name a few...

"My lovely wife Matt Stone" aka Trey's BOM speech from Feb 25 2013 at the first west end preview. How I found this: So, sometimes when I'm bored I'll pick a random mattrey blog that's been active for a long time, open an old post from their archive, see if there's old inactive mattrey blogs in the notes, and look through their archive to see if there's any posts I could make resurface that had stopped circulating, right? The funny thing is I'll go on reblog sprees, so I actually hadn't listened to the audio when I reblogged it. I was only informed of what it said when I saw others freak out about it.

Daily Show with Craig Kilborn. Why it's my fav? Well, aside from being adorable and iconic, it landed my youtube channel in the lost media wiki! How I found it is actually quite easy, when you look up fansites on the web archive you can do specific search for the files the web archive has saved from it. Turns out sometimes quicktime files work! Four parts were in canniballovers and one in dtisfu if I remember correctly, I just edited them together and posted it. Still wish someone could find it in better quality though. 😔

I'm gonna list a bunch of pictures now... because there's many. 😭 But my absolute N1 is probably the Halloween Robert Smith Trey picture. How I found it is simple, just looking up random words on facebook. Probably "trey parker", nothing special. This and this from the Ron Jeremy website on the web archive, though I think maybe the second one had already been circulating I'm not exactly sure. Showgirl Halloween Trey. The kiss pictures. Pink haired Trey!! This NATPE (?) picture. These older Trey pics where he's serving absolute cunt. This Lapdance/Sundance (?) pic. And these too. This reverse cap one altho this was from twitter I don't think I was the first to come across it tbh. These three from the "A Million Laughs" fb page... Bowl hat... Trey with the blue umbrella full pic... tho I wouldn't say I "found it" only that I got to it first the day it was posted... Trey in the matching christmas pajama from 2018... I'm gonna stop but my heart is pretty big and I like all pics...

These measly 7 secs of SDCC footage only because of the first mattrey pic included because that pose from Trey is everythinggg.

This oscars clip because Trey does such a graceful hair flip 😭

Le Petit Package pics though all I did was waltz into the lost media thread and see they had been posted...

The forbidden mattrey slides which we may never see... these were all from worthpoint, which is just a website that archives past ebay bids.

Annual Diversity Awards for the Trey serve ofc.

And finally, I'm very partial to "Matt's a cock".

As to how I come across anything... it's lots of free time. Like I'm talking hours daily just picking a random lead and following it. It may be a website you think hasn't been thoroughly searched (I've tried fb, ig, twitter, worthpoint, ebay, wordpress, tripod, weebly, various fansites on webarchive, footage.net, bilibili/baidu, vimeo, dailymotion, flickr, a load of sketchy other websites I don't remember anymore... basically trey parker has brought me to places I wouldn't go with a gun...) a combination of words, a new search engine that may give u different results (I've tried the ones listed in the lost media wiki guide, my favorite is startpage). Using targeted searching like "word" or site:x "word" or "word combo" before:year, basically trying to make google your bitch. I also use gettyimages like a visual wiki of events Trey's been to+the date, it's quite useful... ik you didn't ask the "how" part but aaaa I like talking about it 😭 I have a lot of fun. Even though sometimes I just come up empty handed even after hours of research. More often than not tbh. Also I'm an obsessed weirdo who checks the words "trey parker" daily on twitter, tumblr, ig, fb, yt, web archive and ebay. 🫠

And also the concept of finding is weird because it has happened to me that I thought I had found something and then it actually had been circulating already, so I tried really hard to answer you by only listing stuff I was fairly sure hadn't been circulating before I got to it, but I mean... it doesn't really matter! I'm here to serve, I just like sharing whatever stuff I run into, it'll happen that it's new to me but it really isn't. 😵‍💫 I try...

I like this too also but I didn't find it, it was pretty available already fjdkg you know Jack Shih was at that dodgeball event?

Favorite funfact that I haven't had a chance to share yet, so now you know!

[mg-dango]

Do you want to take a moment to be infodumped about my TF2 OC? (pls say yes)👉👈

YOOOOO Hi I’m not dead (yet)

College’s been eating me alive with homework, which hasn't allowed me to finish a single drawing or play video-games, not even sleep more than 4 hours haha (send help/j)

HOWEVER- However, I recently got an hyperfixation on TF2 and oh lord I love it, I could talk about it all day. I´ve been reading fanfiction, watching gameplays and SFM videos on youtube. I don't how could I've missed this fandom before iT’S CRAZY-

And like everytime I get so engaged on a fandom, I try to self-insert me with art, and then like everytime I try to self-insert me everytime, it fails miserably because the mf fictional interpretations of me start growing their own characteristics, differences and personalities and when I less expect it- BOOM, they´re a totally new OC with little to no hints of me in them. 

Sooo this is exactly how this OC I wanna present you today was born, usually I just wait until I have 2 or 3 drawings of them and then I present them with little to no explanation on social media, but since my current free time is not letting me do anything and I’ve been dying to infodump about them, I said “f-ck it we ball” and just straight up tell you guys what I have made of this new blorbo until now:

NOTE: Some of the things about this oc are a bit stereotypical about Japanese culture, I apologize and if something makes you feel uncomfortable/bothered about it, please let me know!

Like her name suggests, she is a chef, originary from Japan. The story I currently have for her now is that Miss Pauling temporally wanted to hire a cook to boost the morale on the base, and Chef enthusiastically took the job after being kicked out of cooking school, there was one problem tho

Chef only knows to cook one single thing and It’s sushi, like, if she tries making something else, that thing ends up transforming into some kind of sushi-like thing (Like sushi-getti, sushi-taco, even sushi-sandvich and sushi-cereal).

The team at one point gets sick of always eating sushi, but for some reason (I´m still thinking of the reason) they can't fire her from her new job so they just end up making her a new member of the team

Which is actually bananas because Chef comes from a family of ninjas (I´m still thinking on the lore of that too)

Also here's the thing, everyone on the team thinks that Chef is a man, she was about to correct them but instead she discovered she liked being referred also with masculine pronouns and being perceived as a man so instead she's just internally having an identity crisis figuring out her gender while keeping it a secret.

She's been trying to avoid medic for that same reason, she hasn't gotten her übercharge-thing surgery yet because then Medic would have to see her chest and her secret would spill out

(I actually doubt medic or any other member would mind having a woman on the team but still ohhh the drama)

She can throw smoke bombs that are made of wasabi, uses an Oroshi Hocho (A knife used to cut tuna) as a sword and can make a temporary clone of herself (I’m sorry if this sounds a bit like a Mary Sue I got too excited)

Chef is Aroace (‘Cause I'm aro and I wanted an aro oc to make me feel represented), she values A LOT friendships and platonic relationships.

She likes hanging out with scout bc she thinks he is simply goofy and hilarious and a funny idiot (ur honor they’re homies)

Annnd that's all I have of Chef for now, probably gonna be changing a lot of things the longer I draw her but uh, If you have come to this part and took the bother to read all this infodumping, I wanna hug u virtually and say “thank u” I really appreciate you <3

[rahleeyah]

My boss disapproves of me smoking in a very paternalistic, white guy over fifty way. I have been working for him for the better part of eight years, and he has only mentioned it twice, each time a very gentle attempt to dissuade me but never over the line. He's a nice man he cares and he knows it's not really his place to lecture me so he doesn't, but I know he doesn't like it and so I take pains to make sure I don't smell like smoke when I go in his office and it's not like it's something that really comes up in conversation.

But he has mentioned it to my work wife.

He discovered I smoked back in year 2 of my employment with him. I was going downstairs on a break and I usually smoke 2 cigarettes in those 15 minutes. On this particular day I was wearing a dress without pockets. I didn't want to carry the pack of cigarettes and my lighter and my phone in my hands and I didn't want to take my whole bag so I did what I normally did under those circumstances and I put my lighter in my bra and took two cigarettes in my hand and went on my merry way.

But when I got downstairs on that fateful day I only had one in my hand. I knew I'd taken two out tho, so I smoked the one and retraced my steps. It wasn't in the corridor or the stairwell or the lobby. So, confused, I started to go to my desk and as I walked by my work wife's office she yelled for me to come inside.

And proceeded to tell me that my boss had just been in her office, and had found a cigarette lying on the floor in front of her desk. And he was horrified and she hasn't smoked in twenty years and promptly threw me under the bus. I was mortified, and she couldn't stop laughing. I bought a tiny pouch on a key ring that I now use when my dresses don't have pockets so that doesn't happen again. He never mentioned it.

So anyway today my work wife called me on her way home from work. And told me that she'd been talking to our boss, and he'd said "do you think now would be a good time to talk to Leah about quitting smoking?"

And my work wife, who had to listen to me rant and rave and lose my mind for days and knows that the fact I finally smoked a cigarette yesterday is the only thing that kept me from falling apart completely, was like "absolutely not." He was so earnest, "you know she already had to stop for a few days maybe now is a good time", but he doesn't know that I cussed a blue streak on Tuesday over some pita bread and had my work wife fearing for her life on multiple occasions in the last week. She was like "you can suggest that if you want but I'm not doing it" bc she wants to keep breathing. And it's just funny to me bc this man means well and I appreciate that he cares but he is so clueless. Bless his heart. No, now is not a good time. Quitting is an incredibly difficult thing to do under the best of circumstances you want me to do it now? Oh sir. No.

[choco-cherry-chunk]

Firstly, hello lovely, it's wonderful to see you posting again, you've been missed! ❤️

Secondly, I only watched Glass Onion for the first time yesterday so now I'm scrolling through all these asks with no risks of spoilers and I LOVE!

What if Blanc has no idea he's pregnant in Glass Onion and the idea only occurs to him when he's already on the island? Maybe he's been feeling rough but playing it off because all the Covid tests he's done have been negative (similar to a previous ask). Until some of the others are talking about some celebrity that had no idea they were pregnant until certain symptom. And Blanc sits up a bit where he's eavesdropping, because it's something he's been feeling. Whoever then goes on to list this other celebrity's symptoms, and omg isn't it funny they didn't know they were pregnant for so long!

Meanwhile Blanc is now freaking out a little. Because that sounds exactly what he's been experiencing for weeks, and he hasn't even considered he might be pregnant (au where he and Phillip have no kids, this is one hell of a surprise for both of them). He looks down at himself, wondering now about why his clothes are little tighter even tho he's been watching his weight, trying not to panic.

He has to wait obviously, there's no doctor and certainly no pregnancy tests laying around. The rest of the film plays out but Blanc feels like he's distracted, maybe why he's so impressed by Helen discovering as much as she does while he tries to focus. He's very aware of the danger now, especially when Helen gets shot right in front of him.

Post film and he hastily buys a drug store pregnancy test at the airport, which is positive, and now he's kicking himself. World's greatest detective his ASS, what the hell is he going to tell Phillip?

Oh my God, you are so unbelievably sweet! Thank you so much and I am so so glad you liked the movie. You’ve been missed too, dear, and this idea had be squealing in delight.

Blanc feels crappy for a while, but with seemingly endless negative COVID tests, he just figures it’s the stress of the pandemic and being stuck at home. It must all be psychosomatic, right?

Except it isn’t. While he’s eavesdropping with people at the pool, he ends up listening to a conversation between Birdie and Claire in which they chat about a celebrity they’d read about, and how he’d admitted to not knowing about his pregnancy until near the end of his second trimester. Miles takes advantage of this exchange to share his connection to the celebrity and goes on about the symptoms he had had, and how he’d been the one to push to him that he might “have a bun in that oven, comprende?”.

Blanc is quick to get out of the pool and get to the bathroom, looking over himself before Helen can get in there. Sure, he’s put on a couple pounds, but that must be a result of quarantine weight, right? Even with how limiting his appetite has been and how nauseous he’s felt. And surely that doesn’t link to his fatigue or his moodiness or aches or—

He’s flustered and distracted. He does his best to remain focused on the case, especially with making sure to protect Helen as best he could and holding onto the events at hand, but he still loses focus at times. Thank God for Helen being such an intuitive detective in her own right.

When the events of the film are over and they’ve all spoken to get police and Helen runs off to her flight, Blanc races off to find some kind of pharmacy in the airport that can get him a pregnancy test (a mystery in its own right) and when it comes back positive, he sinks to the floor of the bathroom stall, nasty airports be damned. He’s pregnant and has no fucking idea how to tell his partner.

[lucyglassesstuff]

Working with yourself and not against yourself.

As I was writing the title I made a mistake and wrote "Dealing with yourself and not against yourself" and now I think that's a good way to put it too.

But anyway, what do I mean by that? Well- I think I been working against myself for a while now.

Just hammering myself down into a mold that would fit society's expectations of who I should be to be happy.

Have you realized that? We've been given, since birth, a manual with pictures, instructions, teachers, movies, whatever the hell you want, on "how to achieve happines and success".

I never really thought about it until someone asked me to redefine success to my own liking.

How does success look to me?

I'm still figuring it out btw, but the question did made me start thinking- Why are we all after the same things?

Cause when you think about it- we kinda are.

We were- molded since our first breaths to pursue a modelled life style.

*sits in contemplation*

Is just wild to me-

And then we have people who have actually achieved that portrayed success telling us "Y'know? It hasn't made me happy. Like at all"

And we listen without listening because... society's standards and social conditioning are stronger.

I guess is just that going against what we were taught since, as I've said, birth, is not natural to us, to our survival instincts.

And also most of us are just following like blind ants whatever path will lead us to said success and happiness because pack instincts are a thing.

We do follow the crowd.

It is a thing.

And all this just makes the breaking of the pattern all the more difficult.

And so we keep on circling this idea of what we should accomplish.

But if we look back, throughout the years many parts of what was supposed to be a certain way have been questioned and destroyed when they turned out to be just- impossible to follow.

Say women's roles, for example, although there are many others.

We are collectively questioning this models of who we are supposed to be like, look like, feel like.

You can see it everywhere everyday, the redefinition beauty, sexuality, gender identity.

We are making changes.

And one I want to contribute actively on is the redefinition of success.

Of happiness.

Tho, I think that's the end goal of all the ones I just mentioned, I think we're all just looking to create a world that's more free, accepting and diverse.

More loving.

But here, if I need to narrow it down, I think I'm talking career.

My eternal struggle.

Finding what to do, who to be should not be so hard, so constricting and overwhelming and- such a pain God.

If you've known what you wanted to do career wise since forever and you find no problems with the process you need to go through to get there I- envy you so much.

But still, we were talking about success, and success is not only career, is family, is friends, is romantic relationships, is status, is health, is all that should be, written down, depicted and explained to us since our brains started to comprehend thought. This is something that all of us are subjected to, so- as much as I envy you, don't leave, this might get you thinking too.

What if you didn't need to be rich? Or famous? Or healthy? Or have a house and a family? Or pets? Or whatever you were told you needed and now you want?

Do you really want it?

If so, why?

What will that give you that you feel you want and/or need?

Just- Stop to think about it.

I have had a tough time answering those questions for myself, and I have yet to answer many of them.

It takes time, to construct and deconstruct our wants and dreams and all that.

It takes time and effort and energy.

Like a lot of it.

But in my opinion, doing that is the best option. At least compared to the one where you work your ass, mind, and overall health on achieving something you didn't even want on the first place.

Do you picture that? Climbing all your years of being alive the huge and awful mountain of life to get to the top and discover it's cold, lonely and the view is disgusting.

It happened.

It happened to lots of people.

People who looked back and said: "I shouldn't have done that"

All those "The only things you take to the grave are your memories" and "I wish I spended more time with those I loved" and you know- those.

Oh and also this is a great place to quote Mr. Jim Carrey who said "I wish everyone could experience being rich and famous so they'll see it wasn't the answer to anything" and for some reason really stuck to me.

That man's words stick man, idk.

Anyway, point is: What if what success promises is not what you want?

What your heart wants?

What if success makes you miserable?

"Then I'll be miserable and rich"

Shut up. Be smart.

Just- Just think about it.

That's all I'm asking.

What do you want?

How does success look like under your light?

Work with yourself for what you want.

Not against yourself for something you were told you should want.

[the-amalgam-house]

Very sleepy but want to share before I forget. System update stuff.

There's a lot of change happening all at once in the inner world and with a few of the roommates. Don't know if I'm awake enough to properly explain but anyway.

Greyson and I have been far more blendy lately. We had a talk or two about not knowing one's purpose or place in the world and having been forced into unwanted roles and stuff. He's been going through Some Shit mentally and I told him whatever he needs to do, rest for a long time, travel around the Nexus, whatever he can do it. There's no obligations here and plenty of other ppl to help out and he deserves to have a break and be the one being taken care of for a change. I think he wants to experience more of the outer world as well, which is prob why we're so blendy all the time now. He's also getting into upgraded/alternate prosthetics for his legs lately which is pretty cool.

ilo is slowly but surely discovering who she wants to be. She's becoming more elven and more magical and more corporeal, like a slow reincarnation?? Or something like that. She still doesn't want to front but is also slightly warming up to the idea of interacting with the outer world again I think? But milo isn't having it for sure, and since they occupy the same space it's causing a bit of internal conflict. They just want to take care of each other tbh, which is valid.

Noey still hasn't changed in age in a very long time. I don't know if it bothers her or not, she won't really say, but she has been far more talkative than she used to be at her older age. I'm too tired for it rn and would fall asleep in the middle of the convo but reminder to myself to have a chat with her if she's willing.

Oracle has been quiet for a long while. Not to the point of dormancy, I can still sense it around, but it's been very distant and almost solely lives in the tower now. It spends its time looking at the stars as often as possible and I have no idea what it's thinking or what it wants. It also occasionally uses she pronouns when it's feeling a more humanoid corporeal form? I think it's also trying to find and understand itself.

Idric, Frelly, and Belly all seem to be the only unchanging people right now. They seem to be content in themselves atm and I'm glad for that. Feels like even just a small bit of stability. They mostly ask just do their own thing, Belly the only one that stays in the house really cause he's a very small child.

I'm not entirely sure still about what some parts are and aren't, like if they're separate entities from me like my roommates or simply a personified piece directly of me but... Ten has definitely started to feel like a separate entity, and idk if that's cause I did that on purpose to sort of compartmentalize my own self judgement and hatred, or if they've always been there as the persistent negative voice that constantly nags on me since I can remember. Maybe some kind of fragment, not a full on alter? If that makes any sense at all. It does make it a little easier to pull out of negativity spirals to face a separate entity to blame and tell them to shut the fuck up. Kinda like when I actually verbally tell my intrusive thoughts to leave, tho the intrusive thoughts and the self degradation feel like two separate parts themselves.

Bleh bleh bleh all of this is a lot to deal with and I'm too tired to do so right now. Maybe later.

[thatoneidiotdts]

Sleeping (+morning routine) headcanons for some genshin boys

A/n: hello ladies and gentlemen I'm happy to announce that I may be back now that my life has decided to stop throwing endless shit at me. Now I also write for genshin so feel free to send asks in my inbox!!

Warnings: nightmares for xiao, favoritism in diluc's part, purposeful misspelling and slander in C*ilde's part,overall tooth rotting fluff

Zhong li

Sleeps like a rock (pun intended)

This man will not wake up unless there is an emergency

No matter how much noise you make or whatever is going on around him he'll stay there laying in bed completely silent

His breathing is so quiet you think he's dead half the time if not for his endless sleep talking

And you can actually have full on conversations with him while he's asleep

Also he sleeps in a solider position which leaves you to cling on him like a koala on a big ass tree

Sleeps in really soft bamboo pyjamas that you bought for him

Zhong li will only wake up at exactly 7:30 am no matter if it's a week day or a weekend/ his day off

He also doesn't stay in bed for more than 10 minutes unless as stated before its his day off and you aren't awake yet

The man will stay there taking in the sunshine rays from the window as he's looking at your peaceful face

After an hour or two hell rub your back and gently wake you up with forehead kisses while softly calling your name

When you finally wake up you usually start with the morning hygiene and whatnot

Also he will ask you if you want to take a morning bath together but absolutely respects you decision if you won't and you don't need to even give him a reason you declined in the first place but will make sure you know he loves you no matter what

After that he will sit down with you and drink tea and have breakfast with you for the next two hours

It's the only reason he wakes up so early

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After that he goes to do his usual shift at the wangsheng funeral parlor

Venti

Menace to society

He either sleeps sprawled out in a starfish position with his arm and leg over your body or in a fetal position with his face buried in your breasts/chest

He usually sleeps in your clothes or in his everyday clothes

His little snores are super cute tho

Venti's snoring isn't super loud, it's actually really quiet but still there

Since he's a bard he stays at the Angel's share until it closes which is usually very late into the night so he sleeps until like 2pm

He isn't a heavy sleeper so you usually accidentally wake him up if you have some errands to run early in the morning

Venti will cling to you and pretend that he's asleep so that you can stay in bed with him

After like 20 minutes of this he finally let's you go and makes you promise him that you'll be back quickly

When you returned to your shared house from doing commissions you found him still sleeping in the bed so you quietly took a shower and snuggled in with him for another hour or two

After he finally wakes up for real this time he has breakfast lunch with you and goes off to Angel's share but not before giving you a thousand kisses

Kaeya

He's sleep schedule is ON POINT

He always gets back from Angel's share at exactly 1:00am, showers, eats and does his skin care routine and gets in bed around 1:30am

He also wakes up at exactly 9am but stays in bed until ten

He trashes through the night, he also talks in his sleep but it really weird and it's mostly things that are in English but you can't understand them at all

Kaeya is also a blanket snatcher and will snatch your blanket if you aren't holding it tightly

I feel like he also sleeps with socks on but has a few special pairs of socks that have some cute patterns that he would rather be caught working with the fatui by his own brother than wear them outside once

Also sleeps in silk pyjamas, doesn't care if the cotton ones are easier to breathe through, he likes the feeling of silk on his skin

Kaeya loves his personal space and he doesn't like to be touched while he sleeps but makes up for it when he's awake but still in bed

The only exception is when it's cold outside, I headcannon he's naturally cold and he doesn't like it at all

His morning routine is 90% of him taking care of his face and showering

His skincare routine is also more expensive than some people's houses so don't touch his products plz

Kaeya will gladly teach you the basics of skin care and will buy you your own products that thinks will suit your skin better

He's also almost late to work every day so every day you see him put on his shoes calmly, take in a deep breath and then he kisses you goodbye and runs off like a mad man in order to get to the headquarters on time

Diluc

He has so much unprocessed trauma I would be surprised is sleep schedule is anything but a mess

Diluc doesn't sleep a lot, he would have a normal sleep schedule but since he has a lot of stuff to do all the time it stops him from sleeping property

Not only does he work as a bartender at Angel's share when Charles can't he also works as the Mondstat's one and only Dark Night Hero

He usually comes home around 4 or 5 am and will only sleep until like 8 and you will have to force him to have a nap in the afternoon

Also he sleeps in his everyday clothing and he's sometimes too tired to even take his coat off

Diluc sleeps on his stomach which causes him to have back and neck problems but it's the only way he can actually fall asleep

He's a really light sleeper which also adds up to his sleeping problem

Also he snores loudly, like really loudly, and he only snores at night for some weird reason

You discovered that because one day you accidentally woke up at like 6 am and you couldn't fall back asleep because of his loud snoring but you didn't dare to move since you knew how little rest he gets

He's not a morning person at all, if he didn't hate alcohol, he would be the person that chugs half a bottle of vodka in the morning just to keep him awake

Diluc usually starts his morning off with some personal hygiene and then starts doing the endless paperwork without even having breakfast or anything to drink

So out will have to force him to eat and drink so that he doesn't pass out from work

On the rare days he doesn't have any work to do he usually sleeps them off to make up for the time he didn't sleep

Albedo

Chalk boy over here also has a terrible sleep schedule

He's not really forcing himself to stay up but rather doesn't realize how late it is

You will have to pull him out of his work in order for him to go to sleep

Albedo has a special pair of pyjamas that he wears when he's sleeping and he only wears them because for his last birthday Klee has given him a pair of pyjamas that were originally grey but she hand painted them herself with the help of Jean and Lisa and he's been sleeping in them ever since

And when i say every day I mean every day

But don't worry he hand washes them every two days and takes special care of them in order to not wash of the fabric paint

His snores are also really quiet and quite cute, I recommend commenting on that if you wanna see him blush ^-^

Albedo usually sleeps on his stomach but unlike Diluc he is small enough to not crush you under his weight so he usually sleeps with his head on your stomach or buried in your neck

Pease touch his hair he melts when you do

Albedo can sleep for a looonng time if you don't wake him up so he relies on you to wake him up or else he'll spend the next 16 hours in bed sleeping without a care in the wold

When he wake up he does his usual morning routine, which is usually a quick shower, breakfast, brushing his teeth and his hair out, and then goes off to work

He will absolutely make you have a nap with him in the afternoon or whenever he feels tired

Xiao

He doesn't sleep much, hell I don't this man sleeps at all sometimes

Adepti don't really require sleep or food like normal humans do

It took a lot of time for him to trust you enough to sleep besides him

Xiao doesn't feel safe while sleeping at all, he also fears that his karmic dept might take affect on you so he keeps his distance for quite some time

For the first month or two he would wear his normal every day clothes but then you gift him a cute plain green onesie and at first he straight up refused to put 'that thing' on but he gave in and hasn't sleep in anything else since

At first he would be the big spoon so that he can protect you from any harm but when you spooned him for the first time he felt so safe and warm he never wanted to let go of that feeling ever again

After that he would ask you under his breath if you could spoon him more often, you barely understood what he was saying but perfectly understood what he wanted and needed.

He also regularly has nightmares which causes him to trash around and maybe whack you in the face once or twice but you're quick to calm him down

Xiao never really realized that he was hurting you until he gently hugged you and you winced because he accidentally touched the small mark he left the previous night after having another nightmare

Doesn't touch you or sleep with you for a week after that, he already hurt you enough but you don't really care so you coaxed him into sleeping with you again very easily since he missed your warmth a lot

He doesn't really have a morning routine but he does wake up every morning before you so that he can teleport to the Huaguang Stone Forest to pick some Qingxin flowers for you

He's also gets back into your arms right before you wake up so that it seems like he never left in the first place

But you always notice the new fresh bouquet of the beautiful white flower on your desk and thank him for it

T*rtaglia

Listen here ok I'mma be real with y'all

Turbulence sleeps exactly one hour less than normal people but makes it seem like he gets like 2 hours of sleep per night

"Ugh I didn't sleep last night at all😩😏" Like bro stfu

He also makes jokes about sleeping so little because he was with you last night or that he was training so hard or doing a mountain of paper work

While you know damn well he was with you entire night sleeping like a baby right by your side

He sleeps naked solely so that one day when a hypothetical intruder gets into your home he can scare them off by yelling at them while being completely naked 💀

But he will put a pair of pyjamas on if you're uncomfortable

He mostly sleeps on his side because he needs to hold something while he's sleeping, if you aren't with him that night he will hug your pillow and sleep like that

Tagliatelle also doesn't like to sleep when in a cold room so he will have one of those water bottles that people use for back pain and will put one in the pillow he's holding and two in the blanket itself

He's totally a morning person and has no problem with getting out of the bed in less than like 10 minutes unless you ask him not to

If he has a day off he won't sleep in that much but he will curl up beside you and 'accidentally' place his head on your boobs/chest

Y'all saying Terrorism is the caring older brother? WRONG he's the forgotten middle child. we ofc know about Tonia, Anthon and Teucer but he also has two older brothers and at least one older sister

I feel like he's the middle child that had to take all the responsibilities when the older three/four moved out

So yeah he can make a damn fine breakfast for you without skipping a beat

But don't let me even start on his personal hygiene

Like shower are fine ok and he baths once a week only because he can but like

I know damn well his back teeth are ROTTING

He only uses mouthwash and brushes the front and bottom part of the teeth so that they look presentable meanwhile his back teeth got their souls sucked out

Moving on from that Tellurium can't really spend the whole morning with you so he will have to leave you late in the morning.

Coffee? :>

[rocketmuse]

I thought I'd share my playlist for the anniversary of the boathouse kiss. :)

Song translations, MANY thoughts, and timeline under the break.

Noise warning for song 19, Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 4:23 to the end. Loud high pitched beeps.

YouTube music version to be made soon.

Translations for foreign songs:

Ewan [Dunno] — Apo Hiking Society — Filipino/Tagalog

Amour plastique [Plastic love] — Videoclub — French

Panalangin [Prayer] — Apo Hiking Society/Moonstar88 — Filipino/Tagalog

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita [I'm Looking For You] — Rivermaya — Filipino/Tagalog

This is a collaborative playlist made with my friend.

Thought Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy would be a good starter song. Something about the music. Represents a good start of Alec persuing Maurice, like, hey, I can be yours... Whatcha doin'?

I added Puppy Princess because of the chorus but I know some people don't like that song so... You can skip if you'd like. KISS MEEEEE KIISS ME WITH YIIR EYESSS CLOSED . ALL I WANT IS YOU YEAH YOU. TELL ME I'M NOT FUNNY TELL ME I'M LEGIIIIT

Ewan. OH MY GOD this song is so them. Alec cares for Maurice, and doesn't like not being taken seriously or being treated badly and brushed off.

"I don't know why you're like that, you're difficult to talk to and you're a snob" COME ON IS THAT NOT THEM — Just a smile from you, and I'll be in heaven. Please give me a response, anything but "No idea"... What a perfect representation of Alec's continuous persuit of Maurice, always talking, always trying...

I could go on with every lyric.

Edit: I just realised this song fits so well for Alec's letters and meeting at the museum. Must resist the urge to add the same exact track twice.

So about Touch Me... Some of the lyrics apply better in other versions. Spotify just has this version tho. Touch me, just like that.

All I've Ever Known. Maurice discovered so much that night about touch and sharing and being with someone. He wants to be with Alec. "All I've ever known is how to hold my own, but now I want to hold you too. [Hold you close, I don't wanna ever have to let you go. Hold you tight, I don't wanna to back to the lonely life.]" Alec opened up his eyes and he'll never be the same.

Can't Help Falling in Love With You. 'Did you ever dream you'd a friend, Alec? ... Someone to last your whole life...' 'Alec, you're a dear fellow and we've been very happy.'

I'd Like To Walk Around In Your Mind was added from Maurice's perspective. Perhaps it fits Alec too...

I think Love At First Sight has the double meaning of the literal title, as well as "wouldn't you like to kiss her" perhaps being... Something Maurice would hear.

I Don't Dance. Based on this post/edit. Please watch this video oh my God.

Pink in the Night. Alec yearns for Maurice in the boathouse. He hasn't come. He hears his heart breaking tonight.

Every lyric is perhaps pulled straight from Alec's brain, to be honest. I remember seeing a post with this song in other contexts with them too. So yes, a few meanings.

Amour plastique. Alec reminiscences on the night in the Russet room. Why hasn't he come?

In my mind, everything goes wild. I lose myself in your eyes. I drown myself in the vagueness of your loving gaze.

And at night I cry tears that stream down my cheeks. I think of you only when the days ends, only when my sad demons descend upon my mind, into the bottomless abyss.

Waiting in the boathouse at night, when the day ends.

I ring out in kisses all down your chest. Lost in the avalanche of my heart astray. Who are you? Where are you?

The moments of then repeat in his mind. Where is Maurice?

I suppose Hopelessly Devoted To You and I'm A Fool To Want You are self explanatory. Maurice should really come... Alec really toughed it out, 2 days he spent in the boathouse, really wanted to see Maurice, really knew they had something, and doesn't want to be treated like a dog. Generally, his 1st letter.

Moon Song. My friend said they added it as a general love song. — Why do you treat me like this? Why didn't you come to the boathouse? — Alec's 2nd letter as a whole. Plus bits of 1st.

And you pushed me in, and now my feet can't touch the bottom of you. ... So I will wait for the next time you want me, like a dog with a bird at your door.

Ewan would fit here tbh.

Panalangin. My only prayer in this lifetime: to be beside you, to be together with you, that's my prayer.

"I since cricket match do long to ... place both arms round you and share with you, the above now seems sweeter than words can say."

And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me, my love, please listen.

It also fits the end of museum.

I Want You. Maurice, can you come to the boathouse already? Alec has no power to teleport you there. I hold one card that I can't use.

I found you. I found the door, but when I stepped through, there was no floor. He found Maurice, bit he's not being here for Alec.

You're coming back And it's the end of the world We're starting over And I love you, darling And I am done, dear

Alec wishes this would happen. Also, he does come back later and they love again over, and "it is finished".

Credit for suggesting the next two songs goes to @beatle-capaldi!!! He also wrote was in quotations!

English Summer Rain

The Most Radical Thing To Do

Hinahanap-Hanap Kita. 1st letter, he's looking for Maurice. Thinking about them together.

In my thoughts and dreams, in every turn of destiny, I look for you. Also applies to that hotel/post-hotel feeling. I look for you, even if I try to forget you, saying goodbye, looking back...

Wildest Dreams. They think a lot of each other. They share once more. But they must say goodbye. Alec saw this coming. Maurice hopes that Alec will remember him like this.

I Hear a Symphony. Alec truly opened up Maurice's eyes. Maurice was meant to be with him. He helped Maurice, changed his life. But now Alec is leaving on ship... Or is he? The symphony leads into...

An orchestral sountrack. The Boathouse. Unfortunately the Maurice soundtrack is not on spotify. It's on my personal YouTube music version. I added it because it just captures the boathouse the only way the sountrack itself can.

The Word of Your Body (Reprise). MLM people have moment of romantic tension, which culminates in confessions of love. Just had to add it. "Haven't you heard the word of your body?" perfectly describes Alec gifting and showing Maurice the wonder of truest physical affection and love. He lets Maurice be okay with himself, and again, changes everything. Every lyric is perfect.

Also, sorry JBW, I like other versions more... Too bad Spotify is mean.

I See The Light. Yeah. Every lyric. Maurice is Rapunzel. Movie Blond too. Both the morning at Russet room and the museum. And the world has somehow shifted. All at once everything is different, now that I see you. "By now they were in love with each other consciously."...

Suddenly Seymour. Suddenly see more, yeah? Clive = ass and someone gives him affection for once, wow! Sidenote, I want to sing this with them and their accents... Suddenly SCUDDER...

Helpless. Musical theatre songs seem to be good retellings of their love story. It's why they belong in post boathouse. Summaries and retellings. They're also good at conveying love they'd feel for each other in general, all times ever. Like loving men, retelling a story.

I'll Cover You. Cute love song feat. gays. I like to imagine them dancing around, declaring their love and devotion for each other. Walking and dancing around like in the original scene, sometime post canon. In my own imagination, I thought of Alec as Angel and Maurice (Christopher) as Collins.

Video Games. They must love spending time together. I thought this to be Maurice POV. Only worth living if somebody is loving you I mean, come on.

It's you, it's you, it's all for you. Everything I do. I tell you all the time, heaven is a place on Earth with you.

Un sospiro. I headcanon that Maurice picks up the piano and plays for Alec. Perhaps he picked it up bc of/after Clive, but now can play it for someone who gives a shit.

Something about the melody reminds me of them. And then it gets more intense... A bit like the passions of love, showing up in sharing and touch and more, too.

Liebestraum. I mean, it means love dream/dream of love. I just had to. Also I just like Liszt.

Take Me Up With You, Dearie. This song is just so sweet... So soft... Edwardian to boot... I love how quintessentially 1909 it is. Discovered it in a YT video. The thought of them getting married makes me cry. This song in general makes me want to cry, it's so romantic, tender, and exudes my favourite era...

Let us float, float, float through the clouds, and just have a lot of fun. We'll go up, up, up as two and then come down as one.

Put Your Head on My Shoulder. We Belong Together. I always imagine Maurice and Alec slowdancing to songs that come on the radio together, when the 1950s hits... Alec probably rests his head on his shoulder as this plays and they dance...

I'm using a lot of ellipses, am I secretly Rupert Graves?

Welcome to the 70s and 80s. They love dancing together and being with each other. Now, Panalangin can be a happy song. My only prayer for this lifetime ... To be together with you. And this heart won't allow if you will be away from me.

Just the Two of Us. What a nice, vibey song. Great title, great scenario of them dancing to this...

Tiny Dancer. Your Song. MLM people in the 70s + Radio, being happy and in love with each other. — I just thought I should add some Elton. A different friend, and I, like him. Maurice sings to Alec, "And you can tell everybody this is your song." That I put down in words how wonderful life is with you in the world.

Electric Love. Fun fact: this song got me to share the playlist. Got me thinking about them and their anniversary again. The funky busy instrumental describes well their passionate love. The highs of electric LOOOOOOVE describe the intensity of them.

Alt text continued: themselves together under and the love. And the love. The song has its own tension and it perfectly pictures their own tension. So yeah, this is THEIR song quite literally.

Sorry if my music taste is perhaps basic. I just made it for when I hear songs that are Them.

Falling for Ya. Alec falls for Maurice. "I saw you when you first drove up, Mr Hall..." Something about Maurice, right? Plus really nice vintage vibes with the music. The bit about Into your arms and it's a secure sure sounds like Maurice. Awh, they're falling for *each other*...

Rainbow Connections. Gay and bi people. Marriage. Everything that Maurice and Alec went through to get here, where they were meant to be. Clive. Working for Clive. Leading up to now.

All the things that had to go right, all the things that had to go wrong, that lead us to the place where we were going all along.

On the YT version there's a soft/jazzy cover of Panalangin here. Because they're old and spending time together and being happy. What a throwback, a defined meaning in their lives over time.

Still Into You. After all these decades... Old and grown, together... True soulmates... Two men can defy the world... Maurice and Alec still roam the greenwood. Imagine Maurice meeting Alec's mom in this context. If only.

Postmodern Jukebox cover, because they are a quintessentially 20th century couple. They exude vintage.

Some piano playing for Alec. Soft, tender, romantic, emotional, true. Feels like nighttime. Feels like Maurice and Alec. And a throwback to the pre 1914 world as well. Claire de Lune feels like... A credits of life piece. Time spent in the early 1980s. Nocturne feels like that too, but more romantic. Smidge less nighttime. Ah yes, Gymnopédies. The truest credits feel of them all. None of these actually are credits for Maurice and Alec, but I struggle to find the word for this feeling. But yeah. These all have Them vibes to me. Piano of the time just does I suppose. Glad to be reminded of them at any time.

What a long playlist. Like going through almost their whole lives together. 1:52 hrs. Almost like a movie. Imagine that. A full movie of THEIR lives... But leaving to the imagination was a good thing. Led to this such action. Thank you E.M. Forster.

Timeline:

1. Pendersleigh

4. & 5. Russet Room. Night, then Morning

9. Cricket

10. Boathouse Nights

18. The Museum

20. The Hotel

21. After

23. The Boathouse

24. They Still Roam the Greenwood

I just like to imagine them dancing to songs on the radio, for decades to come...

[thetaoofbetty]

i'm busy but i'm gonna throw these anons under the cut so their voices get heard even if i really don't think the voicemail is/going to be a big deal in the end. i do, however, think the fandom reaction makes me think less of all these teenagers (and some adults) on twitter tho.

people making jughead making a mistake into it still being totally about betty's mistakes is very telling and loud. people want fully fleshed out and complicated characters until they get them. people make mistakes. that's part of being human. forgiveness, even if it's only us forgiving ourselves, is how we grow.

see you on the other side.💜

"yes she deserves it"

literally gonna need some people to realize that losing her relationship and her best friend was the consequence for her actions, people thinking she needs further punishment and hoping jughead calls betty a cunt by the same stan twitter teens who will scream about giving their fave males second chances and "he learned his lessons, he apologized!" pretty much tells you everything you need to know about how women treat women.

Anonymous asked:

veronica forgave archie, jughead still talks to archie, archie hasn't suffered any fucking consequences of his actions. but betty? betty is constantly hated by the fandom, jughead stans have already started saying that she deserves it, making misogynists comments when, dare i remind them, she stopped that shit. yes maybe for what she did she deserves it but archie is everyone's golden boy, no one said anything about him, because being archie is “something he would do”. bullshit !! if the roles were reversed people would say she's a whore and jughead doesn't deserve all those words because it was just a kiss from a traumatized kid. and I'm not even angry with jug because i love him too. i just hate this show and misogenic fandom. betty always has the consequences, archie doesn't because he's archie. this fandom is still mad at ONLY betty for the kiss !! because she hurt their favorite male character. why everyone including VERONICA AND JUGHEAD moved on but not them???? and why archie is gonna get his girl so easily and betty needs to suffer??? i don’t get it. maybe i’m too young, maybe you know more about fandoms than i do but i will never understand why betty is the only character that has to face consequences. i hope with ur takes this voicemail thing will be more easy to face with all this betty hate out there…people really like to make you feel bad by liking a flawed female fictional character.

i've been labeled a betty worshipper, ha. i love betty and jughead. i think they're both imperfect people who are perfect for each other.

i'm okay with them both making mistakes and getting past them.

i also think archie is rarely held nearly as accountable and men, in general, are given leeway that women (fake, real, and everything in between) are never given. so it irks me, yes.

and yes, there's a shit ton of horrifying amounts of sexism in all fandom spaces i've discovered. ask me about my time in the star wars trenches one day, haha.

Anonymous asked:

wow ginger judas really got away from everything. vas saying that no one deserves to be cheated on, yet they're so in hype for their epic reunion. jug stans can't stand the fact that they're making him make a mistake when the writers made betty the villain all this time, red-headed boy instead was vibing with his so-called bestie whose kissed his gf and didn't even stopped ! it's just angst, they're making bh hurt each other for plot. if y'all so scared your man is gonna be the "bad guy" why betty, a woman, has to be called bitch all this time. i'm gonna defend both jughead and betty always but i can't stand the fact that a woman is treated like this in the fandom. i mean NO ONE GAVE A FUCK ABOUT ARCHIE CHEATING. but betty? betty is a slut ! betty deserves it ! betty is the only one who as to suffer ! really fuck all of this.

genuinely sort of amazed how some of that fandom really turned it around to make archie some sort of martyr like he wasn't part of the equation.

and you're right, archie got handed excuses by people who don't even like him and betty got called a whore. can't imagine why...🤔

[everyhowlmarksthedead]

Not bad at all.

FRANCISCO ‘CATFISH’ MORALES. ┃ TRIPLE FRONTIER.

❝ request by @chibsytelford: Heyo. What about reader being very shy around Frankie on the first date, who's also shy, and one of them just cracks a joke and they just laugh and laugh and the ice is broken, and they have the best date. ❤ Thank you.

❝ words: about 1.9k.

❝ a / n: first time writing for Frankie! I'm really excited and I hope you all enjoy it.

Gif credits to the author.

“Santiago García, I swear that if you stand me up, I'm gonn—”.

“(Y/N)?”

Your blood freezes at the call as your eyes go wide, keeping the phone in your ear as you spin around with a forced and ashamed smile on your lips, you feel your knees weak watching Frankie some steps away from you with both hands inside the red and black flannel jacket. Son of a bitch. Hanging up the call —or better said, the voicemail— the two of you come closer to each other.

“What 'you doing here?”

As the question comes out of his mouth, there's an awkward moment where you don't know if you should greet with a kiss on your cheek or hugging, being a mix of both that makes you giggle.

“Well, uh… It was supposed I'd have dinner with Santi, but… he hasn't shown yet”. You reply puckering your lips, noticing the change in his gesture. “I've been waiting for the last twenty minutes and I'm really hungry”.

You can't help but frown watching him rub the back of his neck, slightly moving the hat covering his softs curls. Squinting at him you don't really need Frankie to speak to know what's happening. You can feel your face and the tip of your ears burning because of the embarrassment. Last week you confessed to your best friend the things you were starting to feel for Fish and he has decided to force you to take a step ahead.

And seems like Santiago has done the same with him. But, does it mean he feels something for you too? You sigh rubbing your face trying to calm down the heat covering your skin, while he babbles random words. You see him waving a trembling hand between the two of you, perceiving he's as nervous as you are. That causes you to curve your lips up with a soft funny smile.

“Listen, we don't have to do this if you don't want to. I— I— I… shit”. He ends up grunting stroking his lips and his chin passing his palm over them, putting his terrified dark chocolate eyes from you. Frankie looks like a pudding and you can swear it's the sweetest thing you have ever contemplated. Too captivated by the way he has to raise his black hat from his head to brush his hair using only three fingers, before putting it on again, he takes your silence like a negative. “Lemme walk you home at least”.

His beg throws you back to reality, finding an insecure gaze looking for a positive this time. It's the first time since you met him two years ago that you watch him doubting, feeling unsure of himself. He has always given you the impression of being a cool-headed and confident man, but now Fish is quite the opposite.

“I'm hungry tho”. You reply as soon as you can react. “I just… think he did it on purpose. Making me wait for dinner, you know… So I wouldn't say no”.

Santi knows pretty well how to play his cards. It is his specialty. But that hasn't sound how you were expecting, as Frankie continues feeling ashamed, probably misunderstanding you.

“I me— mean, I wouldn't say no anyway”. You confess with a soft whisper, bowing your gaze down to his boots for a second. A brief second that seems enough to offer you a hand without noticing it.

Your heart races with the deep belief it could fly off from your chest when your cold fingers get laced with his warm ones. An electrifying shiver roams your body from your tiptoes to the top of your head, as he secures your hands together to come inside the restaurant. Only like a gentleman would do, he keeps open the door for you to walk in first, not loosening your connection at any time. For an instant, you can't help but fantasize about having real dates with Frankie, with him falling for you while continuing to believe he's just being polite and compensating you for Pope's ambush.

You lead your steps through the hallway between tables with old couches just in like the fifties, till the end of the place with the last table free close to the large window from where you can see the street. That's when, much to your regret, your hands are separated to take a seat in front of the other, occupying yours then with the menu to calm the nervousness shaking them briefly. You're going to kill Santi tomorrow. How does he dare to play dirty to you? And poor Frankie who —probably— could have a better plan than having dinner with you, if it wasn't for his friend.

The silence is installed soon around your table after the drinks are served, feeling the tension in the environment while you continue not knowing what to say or how to break the ice. You're about to tell him that he doesn't have to stay, just like he has said a couple of minutes before, but when you open your mouth nothing comes out; totally enraptured on the way he's looking at you waiting for something. You can't help but force another smile pursing your lips shamefacedly. Putting down your eyes over the menu between your hands, you try to pretend you're actually reading it, but your mind is busier on how the simple touch of his hand stole the air from your lungs.

“Pope told me you're learning Spanish”.

You have to hide your face for a second, cursing your damn best friend in silence before sticking your head out of the carte nodding with your cheek.

“Why?” Frankie sounds so curious that makes you think he maybe knows the real and main reason.

“Oh, uh… expand knowledge”.

You're a terrible liar and he doesn't need to be a genius to notice it.

“Tell me something in Spanish”. He asks cockily, placing his arms over his backrest.

You chuckle shaking your head this time while saying no once and once. But when he leans over the table, forearms against the edge of it, you have to gulp before choking on your own saliva like an idiot. The heat invading your whole anatomy again causes you to lick your lips, hoping that gesture calms you somehow.

“There's a… sentence that… I find funny for some re— reason”.

“Okay… Go'head”.

You make a short pause, finding some encouragement to utter it by remembering why you started to learn it. To impress him. To talk with him and call his attention.

“Juan come manzanas”.

(Juan eats apples).

Your accent is horrible, that's a fact, you knew that; but you feel more embarrassed when he remains silent for a second, breaking into a burst of loud laughter after not being able to contain it. You can't avoid a chuckle either, leaving in the background your shame, to focus on the beautiful melody his laugh is. You could spend all your life listening to it without abhorring it.

“Your pronunciation is awful”. He giggles adjusting his hat, raising a little the visor to look you better.

“Woah, thank you”. You reply with a humorous grimace drawn on your lips and a light sarcasm in your tone of voice. “I really appreciate it coming from you”.

“You're welcome”.

Shaking your head you begin to feel somewhat relaxed, finding a topic to talk about and joke about it so this situation is less awkward. You grab your beer to have a sip whilst he continues keeping visual contact with you, noticing he wants to add something but he doesn't dare. You know what it is, tilting your head as your eyes are narrowed.

“I don't trust you to be my teacher, surely you'll teach me the wrong things to make fun of me”.

“Meh…” He replies waving a hand jokingly, causing you to chuckle again.

As the night goes on and you discover more interesting things about him and his stage in the army, the dinner comes to an end and he insists you to walk you home. He doesn't want either to finish your conversation, talking about everything and nothing, in reality, just enjoying your voice and how excited you sound while talking about one of your hobbies or your favorite tv show. Just like you, he couldn't get tired of your company.

You reach your house sooner than expected, having been entertained and feeling this time your way back home has become shorter than ever. The nerves kick you again standing close to your porch not knowing what to say, what to do, or offer him a last drink. You'd sell your soul to the devil for five minutes more, but maybe you need to take it easy.

“Thanks for walking me”. You utter in a thin voice thread, playing with the keys between your fingers.

“It's been a good night”. Frankie opines then keeping a hand in a pocket and using the other to scratch a side of his neck. “I mean… we can repeat it whenever you want”.

Like another date? Has it been a date, actually? Or just two friends hanging out?

“Yeah! Yeah, sure. Sounds good to me”. You nod an instant before letting go a soft sight. “Uh… I should… you know”.

“Yeah, 'course. Good night, (Y/N)”.

“Good night, Fish”.

Offering him one last smile, you turn around to go upstairs your porch straight to the front door. But as soon as you introduce the key in the lock, you're interrupted.

“Hey!” You face him again, curious and intrigued, watching him coming closer towards you with his hat now in a hand. “How bad would be if… I kiss you?”

That's the most unexpected question you have ever heard, causing your brain to collapse momentarily until you realize it hasn't been a figment of your imagination. The smirk on his face curves shyly in the right corner of his lips, stopping his feet not too far from yours.

“Not… bad at all”. You giggle in response. What else could you say?

His mouth meets yours with a soft sweet touch. Just a touch, until they get used to each other. Slowly, Frankie places his hands on your lower back seeming afraid if you suddenly decide it's a terrible idea, and take a step back. This feeling disappears when yours land on both sides of his neck, securing a little more the grip and shortening the small distance between your chests. He tastes like beer and chocolate, after sharing a piece of brownie like dessert. For you, Frankie tastes like heaven. And without planning it, he needs the urge to slide his tongue between your lips to find yours. By inertia, your fingers tour his skin till being gently nailed in the back of his neck, breathing through your nose not wanting to finish the kiss.

As both of you swirl your tongues around the other, you become a little addicted, almost moaning inevitably against his lips when you have to stop not having enough air filling your lungs.

“How bad would it be if I ask you to stay?” You murmur unable to believe what you have just said.

“Not bad at all”. He doesn't hesitate, caressing the tip of your nose with his, wrapping his arms around your waist to hold you tighter and pepper your lips as you try to open the front door.

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[semi-imaginary-place]

few3h special chapters

glowing symbol on sword not a known crest. artificial?

2 of them. so this is epimenides i assume. the "race" they talk of at the brink of extinction, are those the agarthans? they discovered how to body hop and i assume this is how epimenides ended up in shez's body. but why do they look all dragon-y? my guess is human dragon experimentation on themself to gain power. why send the 3 leaders to zaharas tho?

is epimenides implying that all of the people of the surface are descendants of the goddess/dragons? like we know that isn't true (probably) since the saints talk of passing blood to humans. and nemesis was just a random bandit

epimenides should know what has been going on since he continually gets new bodies. he hasn't been locked in zaharas the entire time i think...?

or maybe they are stuck but projecting their conscious into another body???

idk

i always wondered what degree of apocalypse happened to the planet. was it like nuclear wasteland?

yeh my alien dragon tinfoil hat conspiracy is going strong. did i ever post that one?

yeah so epimenidies has been awake and aware the past 1000+ years he should know what's been going on

yeah this my brain is going into overdrive over this. the little hamsters in my brain are running on their little wheels like crazy. what does this mean?????is it just because of the crest blood/crests??

hnnnnnnng brain hurt

yup more mildly suicidal dimitri

these are all statments epimenides thinks will unnerve the gang and here he thinks claude is struggling to hold back. i wonder if they are implying claude is considering backstabbing dimitri and edelgard

lovely counterpoint to claude's b+ support

well at least she's aware of her trust issues

enlightened one was a class with a mix of swords and faith magic. asura seems to be a mix of swords and dark magic

hmm for arval and epimenides were sharing a form. still don't know what's up with that. but i have to watch that another 2 times so i'll save this for next round.

i wonder why shez could then manifest powers if they came from epimenides originally. did they absorb epimenides' power? i assume they cut their way out like byleth did

anyways yeah i read the clues right. agarthan artifical god to counter sothis.

arval's name in jp in larva which fits narratively and visually. mmm a larval state of epimenides? they are an artificial being made from epimenides' experiments into soul transferring.

ooooh epimenides wasn't awake this whole time, he was dormant? inside of arval. lol shez woke him up

???: It has been a long, long battle. My race wavers at the brink of extinction. And so it falls upon me to reclaim this world, that what was stolen from my people might be theirs once more.

Arval: Which is why I was born.

???: Yes. I created you. The cycle of the world... The rehousing of souls... How desperately I sought this secret art! But it demanded precision. One defect-one essence wrongly transplanted-would lead to consequences more irreparable. I knew I must oversee the process myself in order to save my beloved people.

Arval: When my consciousness first initialized, I was nothing. I remember the sound of water... Of bubbles... The sound of a massive object slowly lurching along... I thought the noise would continue for eternity. But then...a change. Something gave way. The water began rushing rapidly. Pale shadows closed in around me. Amidst deafening sounds, I walked desperately in search of light.

???: That was an unforeseen accident. I was sure all had been lost to the waters. It was fortunate I had created you, for you proved useful in a way I never expected.

Arval: I am to become you. That's why I'm here. That's why I've been compelled to remove every obstacle in your way. Only by destroying the abomination inside the Ashen Demon can we bring salvation to the world.

???: Then you understand. Then return that body you two share to me. It pains me to do this to you, but alas, all was written from the beginning.

watching this again and this is the most we get on arval and epimenides' relation. arval is like a backup clone? and looking at the opening cutscene the agarthan group epimenides was leader takes a direct hit from the rhea beam, his body might have been destroyed so his conscious was rediected into arval? still not sure about this one or how arval got from shambhala to zaharas. but arval is in zaharas and they share a body with epimenides.

it is possible to get out shez presumably uses epimenides/arval's power to return so epimenides should be able to get out himself. so if he needs shez' body i assume he has none of his own.

[dokyeomini]

how could i not ask about monsta x (if someone hasn't before), but also: everglow & victon 👀

[ if i stan ] monsta x (any attempt to deny my stan status would not hold up in court)

favorite member / bias line i've said this before but it's literally impossible to have one bias or even just a few there's one for every day of the week you know?????? (kihyun was my first bias tho and i sometimes it feels like he still is but every single one of them is bias wrecking me yk? like... relentlessly)

which member I’d fight (& why) minhyuk... bring it.. it wouldn't be a fistfight tho, we'd have many rounds of games (im not a gamer but i am very competitive), or smth else literally any stupid game and we'd be the last ones standing probably

favorite song(s) oh boy..... get ready i'm pm gonna spin the wheel on my mx best of playlist lmao: autobahn, gasoline, all i do, diamond heart, stuck, jealousy, my beast, u r, monsta truck, whispers in the dark, shine forever, in time, no reason, myself, lost in the dream (what a song......), fallin' (oh to experience that at a concert...), spotlight and livin' it up.... and more........ solos (i'll stick to just one per person): jooheon's king, wonho's stranger, i.m's burn

favorite thing about the group (pls i could literally write an essay 😭) sb described them as hella loud but down-to-earth at the same time and that sums them up perfectly. i have fun watching any content with them and they're the only group with whom i for real keep up with constantly (i mean i save videos to watch later usually and watch them when i'm having a bad day). it's hard to put into words what they mean to me bc it's been an immense comfort to watch their videos and listen to their music (i discovered them when i was stuck at home with my neck injury and in pain every day and also covid had just started.. fun times lmao). and idk how they keep making music that always feels fresh and new but still very very Them?? (also with three of the members writing more and more of the songs i think/hope there's little chance of their discography to become stale). their music is literally custom made for my brain it's like a drug i need to feel normal. and it's not like i *know* them but in general they do seem very..... down-to-earth and their banter doesn't seem artificial ever iykwim?? i think their relationship with the fans is very special and cheesy but actually rly cute mfdgdhfgkd. this is stuff that has stuck out to me bc i think it's not easy to pass my vibe check for celebrities lmao i do trust my gut bc im usually right irl. each of them is so special and has their own things going for them and i could write a paragraph for each f them but i won’t (please watch and admire my self-restraint) IN CONCLUSION: they're a chaotic comfort to me <3

something i’d like to see from them wonho back in mx some day or like a collab situation 🤡🤡🤡 other than that like a looong vacation or just keep doing whatever they want. i think it's incredibly impressive that they've put up so much stuff and i hope they're not overdoing it. i also think everything they’ve put out last year has been good and they’ve released a looot. i think they’ve been doing well lately and seem pretty happy with their situation in genral at this point (i mean after wonho leaving, i think they’ve all adjusted to it pretty well and wonho seems to have a blast working with the ppl he’s working with rn :’) so i’m relieved + they can all see each other just not talk about it to the fans which must still suck). tho i know they could really benefit from some rest man. even if they want to be constantly working i hope they know their fans would be here waiting for them once they take a break. also i rly would wanna see more title tracks by jooheon in the future bc gambler and rush hour are mwah chef's kiss

oh and i just realized there's two more groups haha i'll put hem under a cut

[ if i’m familiar ] victon

favorite member if I have one sejuuuuuuuunnnn (taurus brother and insane man)

favorite song(s) nostalgic night, what i said, chronograph, howling (i haven't dived deep into their discography)

why I don’t stan (yet) / if I want to literally just have my hands full with mx lmao. i do casually stan them tho i guess

question for veteran fans same as for any other ig: what are their most insane moments?

[ if i’m familiar ]

favorite member if I have one yiren but im rly not very familiar with them. i watched her diy vlog and i was like yeah that's my girl :)

favorite song(s) first, pirate, don't speak, la di da, dun dun (haven't listened to a lot of their songs)

why I don’t stan (yet) / if I want to want to and i've watched some of their recent content. but i'm again a casual stan

question for veteran fans copy+paste: what are their most insane moments?

[demigodemery]

Don’t leave us

For anyone who read the last fic I posted on here, ‘Star Smile’, I wanted to say that that was a preview of what I primarily write now: BakuKami, fluff, with progressively lighter angst. Now I’ll be posting in order of how I wrote them, which means, primarily, a lot of angst, tho I think this is the darkest, like two or three KiriBakuKami ones, and some fluff. Anyway, enjoy!

TW: Suicide attempt, blood, probably medical inaccuracies (when it comes to blood loss) because I'm dumb and don't do research.

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Kirishima, Bakugou, and Kaminari had been dating for nearly half a year, it was going pretty well, most people at UA excepted them and they only got a few weird looks and harsh comments when they went out.

They loved each other with all their heart's, and would do anything to protect each other, they were happy, or at least Kirishima and Bakugou were.

Kaminari loved his boyfriends so much, but he couldn't help but think they didn't really feel the same way. Kaminari didn't really mean to pull away at first, his insecurities just got the better of him, but neither of his boyfriends seemed to notice, or care, that he was.

He saw the two of them together and he couldn't help but think they looked happier then they ever had when he was around.

Dark thoughts plagued Kaminari's mind, telling him Kirishima and Bakugou never actually loved him that they were much happier and better off without him.

So he continued to pull away, making up excuses for why he couldn't hangout with them. He knew he was spiralling, his thoughts becoming darker as he fell into depression, he knew he should probably talk to someone about what was going on in his head, but couldn't help but think they wouldn't care, and even if they did, he didn't want to bother anyone with his problems.

One night Kaminari couldn't sleep, he couldn't get his mind to shut up, he just wanted it to shut up, usually at times like this he would just simply fry his brain to get the thoughts to stop, but that was such a temperary solution, he wanted them to stop for longer then just an hour, he wanted everything to stop, permanently.

So he grabbed a razer blade and bottle of sleeping pills from his nightstand and locked himself in his bathroom. He stared at the pill bottle for a moment, considering whether or not he really wanted to do this, in the end he decided he did and began swallowing the pills. When all the pills were gone he picked up the razer and brought it to his wrist, he stopped when a thought floated through his mind, he should text Kirishima and Bakugou to say goodbye.

He dropped the razer, and picked up his phone, opening the group chat he hadn't used in a month, texting a simple 'I'm sorry' before turning off his phone and resuming what he was doing.

~

Kirishima and Bakugou had known something was wrong with Kaminari for a while now, even before he'd begun to pull away from them. They were worried but neither one said anything out of fear of him pulling away even more, they regretted it now.

They were both in their respective rooms when they got a notification from the group chat Kirishima had created for them when they first started hanging out together. Kirishima texted back, 'For what?' 'Denki?' 'Denki, plz answer' when he got no reply he got up and ran out of his room and down the hall to Kaminari's room, Bakugou was already there when he arrived.

    "Sparky, open the door! Open the door or I'll break it down!" He threatened.

Kirishima showed Bakugou his phone where the group chat was still up, "He hasn't even seen my texts, we need to get in there, now!" He told him.

Bakugou told him to stand back while he blew the door off it's hinges with his quirk. The room was even more of a mess then usual but otherwise empty, both boys turned to the bathroom door, Bakugou quickly tried the knob only to discover it was locked, this time he didn't even bother calling out, he just blew up the door. It took a moment for the dust to settle, but when it did they both gasped at the sight, Kaminari lay fully clothed in the bathtub, both wrists slit and there was an empty pill bottle on the floor along with his phone.

Bakugou rushed forward, pulling his boyfriend out of the bathtub and cradling him close to his chest, "no, no, no, no, no, no, no!" He mumbled, holding him tight as tears began to escape his eye's. Then he felt breath against his neck, "Eijirou, he's alive!" Bakugou said, looking up at the other boy, only to see him on the ground, tears streaming down his face. "Eijirou! Eijirou!" the red head looked up, meeting Bakugou's eyes, "he's alive, I need your help." Kirishima nodded.

Quickly the two wrapped hand towels tightly around Kaminari's wrists in attempt to stop the bleeding, then they ran, Bakugou carrying Kaminari, all the way to Recovery Girl's office in the main building, ignoring their friends questions when they ran through the common room.

Recovery Girl was able to heal Kaminari but he had lost a lot of blood so he didn't wake up for a few days. When he did wake up the three boys had a long conversation about what had happened, the rest of class 1-A came to visit too, almost everyone cried. After he was released from the infirmary Kaminari went into therapy, which actually helped a lot.

Two months after his attempted suicide, Kaminari lay in bed between his two boyfriends, glad they'd found him. He shivered a bit and cuddled closer to Bagugou, who held him closer in return. He loved his boyfiends, and he now knew for certain that they loved him just at much.

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I didn't really edit this, despite the fact it probably needs it, why are all of 1-A plus Recovery-Girl up at what we can only assume to be the middle of the night? Idk

Written: 1-31-2021

Posted: 10-23-2021

Word count: 915