#idk how to tag this... vent? negative? idk

[digitalgate02]

something is bugging me and i'm so sorry i'm being picky...

but

1- i'm having a hard time accepting that the black detail on Miyako's (and the other four - minus Ken) is gone missing and...

2- DID THEY JUST CHANGE KEN'S D-3 ENTIRE COLOR PALETTE TO SOMETHING LIKE THE OTHER FIVE!? LIKE???

(I'll pretend this means their D-3 also had updates through the time... but there is a Daisuke D-3 shot in the recent PV released on DigiFes 2023 which does include the black detail on it!!?)

WHAT'S GOING ON!?!?!? (^・ω・^ )

[ilovedthestars]

Sex Positivity post: Sex is good and normal and fine, and people should stop being so weird about it.

Random person in the notes who is probably engaging in bad faith: #not everything has to be about sex #i don't like sex

Sex Positivity OP: You're actually the problem. Not every post has to be about you. Stop being a puritan and censoring other people

Me, an ace person reading this post: I don't actually know whether or not to feel safe with any of the people in this conversation

[starheirxero]

PLEASE become evil on main your thoughts are always very interesting !! :3

Anon I need you to know I was debating just only making that one post and then biting my tongue about the rest but this ask was genuinely so relieving to see that I teared up a little bit thank you HDKSHDJD

I did, however, uhm. talk a Lot. and I'm very much being more honest about my feelings on this than I usually am, so it's going under the cut bdjshdjdnf

Ahem ahem. So. From a meta standpoint? I just have a very, very weird feeling about what's going on with tsams now that they've Also changed Lunar's name. The only information we have on what's happening is from Discord, where Kat mentioned it wasn't her choice to change Earth's name and the mods reassuring everyone that the changes are for a good reason. I've been seeing theories that the changes are to make them more sellable for merch? But I,, don't fully know why they'd have to change their own OCs for that? So idk

From a story perspective though? It doesn't make sense and it's just another vein of Lunar having no choice in what happens to them.

Just because Libra asked "do you accept this permanent name change?" doesn't mean that "no" was a valid answer, because then what would have happened? They say "actually, I like my name, Lunar feels fine" and then what? The astrals, of which are famously judgy and pushy, say "okay, we'll continue to call you Lunar then! (Even though we just said that Lunar is an unfitting astral name)" like?!?!!??? And Lunar just immediately goes home to be like "uh. I guess I have a different name now? and I don't wanna deal with two names, so just call me Cosmos too."

They didn't make this choice. And honestly! They couldn't have because Lunar wouldn't have ever changed their name of their own volition!!! You can't tell me that Lunar—the character who is known for trying to cling onto a sense of identity so hard that it causes more problems for them in the long run—would be willing to let go of their own name? That is the one thing about them that actually hasn't changed since the beginning, the one thing that's consistent in the face of everything.

Plus, on a more personal note? I had an experience with my old username where everyone was calling me a nickname derived from my url instead of my actual chosen name, and the realization that only one person was calling me my actual preferred name made me have a messy identity crisis. If Lunar wasn't just, a character who is unfortunately the subject of bad writing lately, this choice would probably hit them at some point. They'd probably have that same awful, dreadful feeling of "oh god. no one even knows me."

It's just. Earth made sense because she at least gave her own reasons. She said "yeah I'm tryna be my own person now, so I'm Terra!" but Lunar's reason was just "uh. Libra gave it to me sooo.... 👍 yup." Like. augghhh. They could have gone by both Lunar and Cosmos too if the writing wasn't being so weird but !!! ugh. deflates. it's whateverrrrr

[digitalgate02]

Official DP twitter is recapping 02 and it's suspiciously making very strange comments about certain KenMiya scenes in 02. Which is really odd considering they would gush about those scenes instead of recapping the actual episodes' plots...

... Friends and I are suspecting this means something related to the movie might come.

Though, at the same time i want none of this because i know something nasty will happen in this fanbase if we further the KenMiya. And honestly, if i see the next person claiming KenMiya is canon because Miyako is a "female Daisuke"... 🙃

Ken has two hands, he can hold both Daisuke's and Miyako's at the same time.

honestly i still hope that 02tb will show *some* chemistry between miyako and ken. there's no need to pull a kizuna (i loved it but they lowkey tried hard not to mention yamato and sora being together) and beat around the bush with it, no need to be allergic to couples, it's a natural thing that humans do. they're like 21-22... seriously

[mysticalcats]

ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed

ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them

and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it

and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it

so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO

[uravityxo]

GOODNIGHT FRIENDS ,, hope u all had a wonderful day,,, and that life is being kind to u,,,, !!!! but can someone pls hold me tight and let me know things will be okay !! my sleep has been so bad cause i don't like being home alone :(( !! also im sorry i haven't written anything today :(( i wanted to but just,,, one of those days :(( !! aaaa late night thoughts are so stinky !!! sorry for the negativity im just a bit sad and lonely !! night three of being home alone and it's not going well ,,, and i need u guys T-T

[ashsartcorner]

I seriously cannot believe that I have managed to even keep myself alive to make it to being 15. (For context, my birthday is tomorrow, April 4th)

I really have nothing to say tbh

[rhyme-rambles]

i keep forgetting that I probably have OCD and that it probably explains like 90% of my thought patterns

[digitalgate02]

People keep saying Sora hates ikebana/flower arranging but they never actually said or implied it in the entire Adv/02 series and it shows how some people definitely don't understand what they're friggin talking about.

"Oh so they picked those careers because they're women."

Kiddo, please read what Shiha wrote about iemoto on Sora's portrayal. Also Sora's career is not even related to ikebana, she's a fashion designer specializing in Japanese style instead. Please go rewatch the series again.

Mimi's case is not because she's a woman. It's because Mimi likes to try EVERYTHING. You can notice this from the stage play, which has Mimi state she doesn't know what to do when she had a ton of things she wants to do. And this tracks with Kizuna, as she's running her own online store with cute articles/products. Also, there's stuff lost in translation too, as Shiha pointed out here.

Also, both camps they got are basically male-dominant.

So yeah, please. before you complain about the girls' jobs in the epilogue, do a friggin research.

[shdwtouch]

also uh. this is part inquiry, part vent ? I know it's kinda shitty to be like "do you like my character ?" but now that I've gotten through more of act 2 and done the questlines involving the shadow-cursed lands... I honestly feel kinda silly. like.

knowing what happens with oliver / thaniel, as well as what is implied with arabella, I'm worried that shade is a little... redundant. I don't know. like. if people like her as a companion and the way I've built her lore that's good enough for me, I just. worry. and I worry that people may think I'm trying to replace those narratives. I don't know. it's hard to explain just how I feel. but mostly I feel silly. and worried.

probably overthinking it but. input would be most appreciated. honest input; I just want to know what people think / feel about shade in relation to the characters and lore we already have in the game, I guess. I am genuinely curious what people think.

edit: read the tags but also I should post a disclaimer, I know that if people didn't like shade they wouldn't be following or interacting with me. that's not the question I'm asking here. I'm asking for input on where she stands in the game canon lore, on what people think about that. I am honestly so, so thankful for the support and love I have received in writing shade. <3 I was not expecting this kind of love and interest, and I am grateful for everyone who has given her / me a chance !

[this-hopeless-war]

me when being disordered actually disorders me

[colorfulpaintspills]

Just an early morning vent. Ik I don't usually do these but I feel like I need to get my feelings out. Just a warning...it kinda gets rough...you're basically about to see how I see myself./srs

Feel free to ignore, I don't mind ^^/gen

I just woke up. It's currently 6 in the morning. And somehow I still feel awful.

I don't. Feel like I belong here. I feel like I shouldn't be here.

All I seem to do is make people upset and I'm scared that it'll make them hate me or drive them Away from me.

Is that my only purpose here? To make my own friends feel like shit??? To be upset by their "friend"?

Am I even a good friend if all I seem to do is say things and end up making them upset/angry one way or another?

Am I just...a toxic person?

Maybe they were right. I probably am a toxic person. A toxic person who should just. Hide away and never be seen again. I would be doing everyone a favor at this point.

Me leaving Tumblr, Discord and Twitter would probably be the best thing to happen right about now.

They would probably be happier without me. Everyone would.

Maybe I'm just a terrible, awful human being...and I never fucking realize it until it's too late and I end up hurting someone.

How do I stop being like this. How do I stop hurting others..?

I hate this. I genuinely Hate this.

[withered--s0uls]

*having a good evening :) * Brain: "ok but what if you suck and fucked up really bad and everyone secretly hates you" *feeling empty ensues*

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

I read that same fic earlier and I just straight up muted the person so their works don't show up for me anymore lmao

there was also another one like that posted yesterday because the person was mad at something qBad did a couple of days ago while not at all in his right mind and amnesiac, it was odd (not shitting on the person just confused and slightly concerned)

yeah there’s. a lot of misconceptions around qbad rn lmao. It’s one of the reasons Im so obnoxious about him, tbh, so that it’s not JUST the negativity that gets spread. He’s a really good target for the hate rn, because he has a smaller fanbase and his pvp playstyle + lore lead him to all that antagonizing during purgatory, and that gets vented out into fics.

It’s genuinely really interesting, the dichotomy that seems to exist between tumblr and twitter regarding him. Ive heard nothing but slander about bbh from twitter (again, he is not faking his illness, that is a lie), but he’s got a solid enough foothold on tumblr that ive seen more hate towards the fans that the cc, here. which makes sense, given how we take over the tag almost ever day when he logs on. genuine o7 to people who find that obnoxious but thats one of the reasons i overtag so much, for blocking purposes.

anyway i think all the bbh mischaracterization means that we just need to write about him more >:D please this is a call for more bbh centric fics from people who do not hate him/know a little bit about his lore. blease he’s such a fun pov to write i promise

[shirogane-oushirou]

[cw vent: chronic illness, general world politics mention w no detail)

"man. i'm so tired. i feel like i can't do anything selfship related. is it because my energy's been sapped from family visiting and everyone wanting to do ~summer activities~ nonstop? am i so in my head about "getting ren's story right without stepping over any lines" that i've backed myself into a perfectionist corner? is the world just going to shit so hard that i can't have one (1) minute of escape on this blog before going back to working through the political hellscape we're in? god even trying to make this plushie pattern is killing me even though i want to hold my guy So Badly AUGH."

/finishes the plushie pattern after trying multiple body bases and literally buying a japanese ebook about plushie face and hair design/

"actually what if i lived forever and spent all of that time making an army of these fuckers to swim in? what then?"

[zooblesbutchpuppygirl]

(Suspected but at this point it probably straight up is) bpd is so fucked up like I'm sitting here like "Wow I can't wait for ep 3 of tadc so I can finally have more Zooble content!! :D" but then immediately after I'm like "if they give Zooble a canon love interest at any point in this series I will absolutely not be okay"