#if I win the lottery there will be signs tho

[a-very-fond-farewell]

me: *tries to watch a 8min video while eating*

the video: *plays 6 whole ads during its runtime*

[ayosdesignz-blog]

Real quick 3 things!

1) I know the "Lyoko Warriors" were all hella committed to the group and the missions but from what I remember and am witnessing in my slow rewatch...Ulrich was the realist. Like...is his dedication even properly appreciated? Aside from all of them risking life and limb... So far as I've seen (and remembered) Ulrich in particular has: leveled with and helped Jeremy from day 1 with like no fuss; found a trustworthy member for their group(Yumi); continues his karate training with extra combat classes to continue performing his best in Lyoko; will put his stoic reserved self out there and suffer public embarrassment for even the chance of helping "the mission"; will make deals he detests with even Sissi to help his friends; has actually found his way to his friends to help them in Lyoko while suffering memory loss; has faked an injury in an important game he needed to win to gain approval from his (fanon theorized abusive) dad; had memorized an unclaimed winning lottery inorder to help his financially struggling friend inorder to keep the group as a whole, together; and of course the way he's just sorta always there for any of them and being encouraging even if he's feeling snarky.

I'd honestly like to see the UlrichxEmily timeline. Bro don't deserve the grief Yumi insists on giving him. Like I used to ship them fully despite how frustrating they were but Yumi was lowkey messy💅🏽

She literally strung him along in her confusion (and bcuz I think she liked that he liked her) and refused to talk feelings despite his confessions and efforts and the mixed signals she'd give. But anytime she's jealous over him seeming close to another girl she acts like an angry entitled girlfriend. Yet as I recall, had the nerve to be upset when he acted similar about William. Requiring Ulrich to gain forgiveness as YET when things are reversed its still Ulrich who has to gain forgiveness and explain himself.

I'm not caught up to William's time yet tho so maybe it's different from what I remember 🤔

Regardless it's made me more frustrated with Yumi because I don't think the fandom appreciates the emotional damage she's doing to this boy. Growing up I was frustrated with both but most others thought Ulrich was the problem from the start.

Like...No? Actually.

Ulrich, when tricked by Sissi, thought Yumi liked and confessed to him 1st. He was confused and concerned and ultimately a gentleman about it and took it seriously. Our boy actually took the time to REALLY think over his feelings and determination to proceed with something more with Yumi, someone he'd apparently hadn't really viewed that way before until he believed he was confronted by Yumi's "true feelings" from the girl herself.

Only for her to ignore his reciprocal confession with the reveal that she had never written him a written confession. Mortifying enough but the interaction happened in public where he was also loudly mocked by onlookers(and the culprit Sissi) which...woof. I currently have no words for how AWFUL it must feel.

And while Yumi vocalizes maintaining their friendship she never rejects him and gives him signs both subtle and nit that she's interested but anytime he tries to get an answer, attempts to communicate (despite the clear awkwardness and hesitation he has likely from that 1st confession) she tends to: ignore him, blow up at him, or pleads with him to drop the topic and for both of them to never speak of it if not try to forget it happened.

And I find it astounding how much of it I apparently don't remember because all I recalled b4 the rewatch is Ulrich confessing from a misunderstanding and getting turned down only for Yumi to start liking him back and not want to admit it. And Yumi being really damn weird jealous about Emily to then still not be with Ulrich after almost kissing him. AND HE STILL RESPECTS HER REQUESTS AND GOES AT HER SPEED DESPITE HIS INSECURITIES ON HOW SHE GOES ABOUT IT.

Clearly, kid me had good tastes when deciding he was my favorite.

~Anywho~

2) Sissi is pretty great as a character. Like other than the absolute savagery she'll display when choosing violence (as I've mentioned in a previous post) that girl shamelessly proclaims to all that she is not only an icon but also 🤌✨️ The Drama💅🏽✨️

It actually kinda took me until this moment:

to realize that maybe there was legit reasons for why it kept being implied and outright stated that she’s pretty much the most popular girl and considered one of the prettiest there. Pretty and popular enough to warrant her own fanclub somehow too.

And realizing all the bits of info they give of her makes it clear to me that Sissi is actually an interesting character. Unlike other popular mean girls the main cast doesn't like that I could name coughcoughMandyfromcoughTotallySpiescough

I mean they show she's not academically inclined but she's clearly capable of getting the necessary grades, she's a people person/social butterfly who knows how to persuade or even manipulate others, she has wit and some athleticism, and despite her blunt abrasiveness can actually be nice, helpful and caring. She's also a girl of her word.

So far as I can tell every time she makes a deal, even nasty ones she orchestrated, she keeps her word. Whether that's talking to her dad the principal on another's behalf, providing a role in a play to a girl she doesn't like inorder to help with her parental problems (Yumi), or being a distraction.

When someone is really hurt she's willing and wanting to help.

She got two weird little self professed fanboys wanting to follow her around and she actually gave them a chance to explain themselves (shown to be due to her vanity) and at some point actually befriended them to where she willingly hangs out with them in public and private, knows personal things about them and their interests/insecurities.

She's also pretty observant. And a little silly just cuz she can be.

It's a shame they didn't keep Theo in the time line where he was fast tracking to be Sissi's boyfriend.

How awesome would it be to have Sissi mellow out quicker, gain less and less interest in Ulrich romantically, and manage to keep the tentative almost friendship she wants to form with Ulrich and his group.

And before I forget, if She's the school cheerleader where are the other members??? There should be a squad.

And now 3!

Jim is kinda strange as a faculty member and teacher. Like he's obsessed with rules and quick to think the worst of the Lyoko gang for...what reason?

No seriously I don't get it. Especially when we're in the timeline where he caught Jeremy and Ulrich spray painting him as awesome royalty on a school wall.

Like most of the things they'd be in trouble for are reversed with time travel anyway so the amount of times they're seen sneaking or hanging out would be a fraction of the amount it actually is. Infact there were several moments of one of the kids being stopped by or observed by a overly suspicious teacher (typically Jim) when they aren't actually doing anything to cause alarm bells.

Like Yumi rushing from point A to an unknown point B with a book.

Or Jeremy reporting a trashed area and clearly upset by the shock.

Or Odd being accused of stealing a laptop when he could have just as easily been looking to use it while in the room-maybe sit on the floor since yknow you can DO that kinda thing with a laptop.

Or the group hanging out in the dorms outside of classes, even if its nice outside that isn't weird.

And all the kids have a decent to great reputation from their peers to their academics so why they get those looks and assumptions

at inappropriate times is just weird as hell to me.

[zahlibeth]

i'm too sleepy for bingos today, so my predictions/hopes for 911 6x13:

poker date poker date poker date (free space)

sneak peak is the start of the poker date scene, we don't see anything before this, no explanations just two dudes dressed up for their date

poker date is close to the beginning of the episode and it's how we find out about Buck's new brain upgrades (if they really exist). i.e. poker date is a date from the start

not my idea but agree that likely there's a 'lafd/first responders trauma group' element to the meeting up. if this is not confirmed then i'm back to agreeing that they're all queer tho

my og theory on this one was that the poker game is a way of eddie showing buck that his luck hasn't changed - the talk of the lightning strike and lottery winning in 6x11 feels like it's due back around. this would also parallel buck taking eddie to equine therapy re: 'what if it's all random'. not sure how this plays out with buck having sudden poker luck due to maths though, this either doesn't work or there's a complex metaphor i'm too sleepy for (something about making your own luck/opportunities maybe?)

praying 4 bobby chimney shenanigans re: the neighbour issue

praying 4 bobby and jee!!! the jee babies were on set in Madney's garden at some point but i don't know which ep it was

i wonder if this is the ep we get someone hinting at Madney re: marriage? the neighbour presumably, and may play into 'performance anxiety' next ep

i don't think anyone's having a breakdown in a bathroom, sorry fam. at least, not buck or eddie (though i love the spec). maybe grossly related to the spin class 'tea' issue. oh i just checked the synopsis, maybe it's the husband and wife in a compromising position 👀

poker date is probably the main buddie scene in the ep - otherwise probably ensemble conversations and spare glances during calls

i have no spec for the hen/karen/denny storyline but i am itching to see how they tackle it

uh i guess i'll throw my hat in the ring for mehta making a shooting arc reference, because it feels like it should happen. i'm not quite sure how it's going to fit in the plot beats though so I won't be surprised if it doesn't

that's all i got today. signing off for ~14 hours and i'll see y'all on the other side

[ellebeebee]

today i saw a red volkswagen beetle with, not one, but TWO confederate flag stickers. i hate living here sometimes.

[saang]

ok but the azutara charm school au tho 👀👀

here it is 😌😌😌😌😌

katara is the lost princess, baby sophia, who showed up on iroh’s door step when she was one. hakoda and kya are king reginald and queen isabella. lu ten, without katara’s knowledge, signs her up for the princess charm school lottery knowing it would be the only chance to get enough money for iroh’s chemotherapy.

katara wins and gets sent to the princess charm school where she meets headmaster kyoshi. she accidentally bumps into azula who is set to inherit the crown at the end of the year. ty lee is a much smarter version of portia, and mai is there too now.

katara meets her roomates, suki and toph, they all get along swimingly. toph loves music. since she’s blind, her hearing is heightened and she can express herself with it. suki is sporty; gymnastics, soccor and martial arts are her main focus.

dame devin is ursa, but she acts more like ozai. she staged the car crash that killed hakoda and kya. she didn’t know katara had survived. a passerby found her and set her on the doorstop of a tea shop.

kyoshi sees how much trouble katara is having in school and tutors her. nicholas is sokka and instead of a romantic relationship, what they have is strictly platonic and more sibling-like.

aang is a civilian hired by the beifong family, there’s a supblot that toph’s parents don’t approve of their relationship. it makes toph want to rebel and not become a princess at all; she doesnt mind that they might not get to coronation all that much.

azula sees that her mother wants to put so many people out of their homes and she starts doubting her. she tricks the guard into giving her the key and gives katara, suki and toph the blue prints. she stalls in everyway she can at the ccoronation.

toph, having really good hearing, listens to when ursa changes the code. they eventually get to the coronation, and katara makes a claim for the throne. in the scuffle azula catches the crown and instead of putting it on and becoming queen she gives it to katara, she also admits her crush. they both become queens and ursa goes to jail. her lady royal is smellerbee

also zukki supremacy, i guess zuko is just like a prince at prince academy. they meet at the coronation and bond over the fact there are so many pompous and pretentious people.

[isrustandstardust]

1: Full name: Selena.

2: Zodiac sign: Scorpio.

3: 3 Fears: Abandonment. Not being good enough. Being lied to.

4: 3 things I love: Bones. Corpses. Books.

5: 4 turns on: Intelligence. Perversions. Sarcasm. Violence.

6: 4 turns off: Stupidity. Ignorance. Lack of hygiene. High pitched voices.

7: My best friend: Is the best bitch ever.

8: Sexual orientation: Bisex.

9: My best first date: A dinner and a walk by the lake.

10: How tall am I: 165 cm.

11: What do I miss: Woland, sometimes.

12: What time were I born: 3.45 a.m.

13: Favourite color: Teal.

14: Do I have a crush: Yup.

15: Favourite quote: So it goes.

16: Favourite place: Como.

17: Favourite food: Red meat, raw.

18: Do I use sarcasm: Way too much.

19: What am I listening to right now: I’m watching ‘my 600lb life’ on tv.

20: First thing I notice in new person: If he looks me in the eyes or not.

21: Shoe size: 38/39.

22: Eye color: Reddish brown.

23: Hair color: Chocolate.

24: Favourite style of clothing: Urban/edgy/grunge.

25: Ever done a prank call? When I was little.

26: What colour of underwear I'm wearing now? Black.

27: Meaning behind my URL: It’s a Nabokov’s quote.

28: Favourite movies: The Fountain, In the mood for love, Bin Jip, The pillow book, Only lovers left alive, Stoker.

29: Favourite song: Too hard to say.

30: Favourite band: Same. Maybe Tool.

31: How I feel right now: Relaxed.

32: Someone I love: My hubby.

33: My current relationship status: Happily married.

34: My relationship with my parents: No relationship with my mother, a distant one with my father.

35: Favourite holiday: Christmas.

36: Tattoos and piercing I have: 15 tattoos, no piercings atm.

37: Tattoos and piercing I want: I want to do some surfaces again and I want to ink both my arms. Full sleeves.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: I wanted a safe space to write.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? No, we just have no relationship whatsoever.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? When my husband is on tour.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Yup.

42: When did I last hold hands? A few hours ago.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes.

44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days? Nope, I don’t need it.

45: Where am I right now? On the couch.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? My husband, my friends.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Way too loud!

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? No. I live by myself since I was 18.

49: Am I excited for anything? In a few days I’ll begin renovating my home!

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Sure.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Daily.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Today.

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? That could be a problem.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? No, I’m very careful when it comes to trust people.

55: What is something I disliked about today? My stomach aching like crazy.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? I’d love to have a chat with Jodorowsky.

57: What do I think about most? Work, work, work.

58: What’s my strangest talent? I can fit my whole fist in my mouth.

59: Do I have any strange phobias? Deep water, strange fishes.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind, I’m a director, not an actress.

61: What was the last lie I told? I’m not hungry.

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Texting.

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I believe in aliens, I’m fairly sure that something similar to ghost actually exist.

64: Do I believe in magic? Kinda.

65: Do I believe in luck? Yup.

66: What's the weather like right now? Fucking cold.

67: What was the last book I've read? A criminology book.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? A lot.

69: Do I have any nicknames? MissFortune, Sally.

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had? Never had one.

71: Do I spend money or save it? Save it. I know what it means to have nothing. At all. I don’t want to find myself in that situation ever again.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Nope.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? Nope. I don’t like pink very much.

74: Favourite animal? Snakes, moths.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Still working.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? I know his name is Woland.

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Do you realize - the flaming lips.

78: How can you win my heart? Be kind, be honest.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I don’t want a tombstone, I want to be cremated.

80: What is my favorite word? Weltschmerz.

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr. No idea tbh.

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Read a book, study something, stop being stupid.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Nope.

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Mind control.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? When was the last time you ate?

86: What is my current desktop picture? Mass Effect’s reapers attacking earth.

87: Had sex? Two days ago.

88: Bought condoms? A few years ago.

89: Gotten pregnant? Never.

90: Failed a class? Never.

91: Kissed a boy? A man. A few minutes ago.

92: Kissed a girl? Cannot recall.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yup.

94: Had job? Of course.

95: Left the house without my wallet? Maybe.

96: Bullied someone on the internet? Nope, been bullied tho.

97: Had sex in public? Yep.

98: Played on a sports team? Nope.

99: Smoked weed? Yes.

100: Did drugs? Three times.

101: Smoked cigarettes? Yup.

102: Drank alcohol? Of course.

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Nope, been vegan for a year but my health went to hell.

104: Been overweight? I was a little chubby when I was little.

105: Been underweight? Almost all my adult life.

106: Been to a wedding? Sure.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Daily.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yup. I love binge watching things.

109: Been outside my home country? Sure.

110: Gotten my heart broken? Once.

111: Been to a professional sports game? No.

112: Broken a bone? Never.

113: Cut myself? I self harmed for years. Been clean for the past four and a half.

114: Been to prom? No.

115: Been in airplane? Yup.

116: Fly by helicopter? No, but I’d love to.

117: What concerts have I been to? Slayeeeeeeer! This is the first that comes to mind.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Of course.

119: Learned another language? Yup.

120: Wore make up? Daily.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Nope.

122: Had oral sex? Sure.

123: Dyed my hair? The last time I went blonde for my wedding, almost three years ago.

124: Voted in a presidential election? I voted, here in Italy, for every election.

125: Rode in an ambulance? Sadly, yes.

126: Had a surgery? Nope.

127: Met someone famous? More or less.

128: Stalked someone on a social network? A few times.

129: Peed outside? Yup.

130: Been fishing? I actually enjoy it a lot.

131: Helped with charity? Not that I recall.

132: Been rejected by a crush? Not in a while.

133: Broken a mirror? Nope.

134: What do I want for birthday? Being spoiled.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? One. Nero if he’s a boy, Alya if she’s a girl.

136: Was I named after anyone? After a book character.

137: Do I like my handwriting? It’s not bad.

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? I didn’t have one. Maybe my art supplies.

139: Favourite Tv Show? Atm: Supersized vs Superskinny.

140: Where do I want to live when older? Iceland.

141: Play any musical instrument? I’m learning to play drums.

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Almost all my scars are from self harming.

143: Favourite pizza toping? Cheeeeeeeeeese!

144: Am I afraid of the dark? Nope. I feel at home in it.

145: Am I afraid of heights? A lot.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Doing something bad, surely.

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Sometimes.

148: What I'm really bad at: Bowling.

149: What my greatest achievments are: I earn my own living since I was 18.

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: That I should never been born, I guess.

151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery: Sell my house and go live abroad.

152: What do I like about myself: My willpower.

153: My closest Tumblr friend: I don’t have one.

154: Something I fantasise about: My future.

155: Any question I’d like: I have no preferences, ask away.

[altrcistics]

❄️❄️ –––– have you seen [ ESME MACMILLAN ] since the storm? some say they look like [ DANIELLE CAMPBELL ] but they’re [ 21 ]  & go by [ THE TACITURN ].  [ SHE ] lived in halloway for [ 11 YEARS ] & they are originally from [ LONDON ]. before the town vanished they were studying [ MEDICINE ] and lived at [ UNI BLVD ]. most people knew the [ CISFEMALE ] as [ ALTRUISTIC ] but i’ve heard they can also be [ RETICENT ]. for some reason, they feel [ UNEASY ] about the town’s disappearance.    ––– 

–––––– well , well if it isn’t me , b , with a broken theme !! but i’m too eager to pay any mind to it right now , and i’ve got homework due at midnight that has to happen after i get this baby posted . hi friends !! very excited to be here . this is my soul baby esme who is just trying her gd best and is stressed out 99% of the time . needs a 12 hour nap and maybe a therapist . summed up in a word ? soft , probably . i hope you love her like i do anYWAY GONNA leave this here and get to plotting so you can also hit me up at  b a y#9956 on discord!! 

LONDON.

weston and anna macmillan never planned on having a child. they were young and in love, and both had struck the genetic lottery – weston with his brains, anna with her trust fund. while weston was up and coming in the world of corporate law, anna had spent her life in pointe shoes and was at the top of her game as a principle dancer for the royal ballet in london. they were picturesque… perfect, even. until anna found herself to be three weeks late and their dazzling little dream life reached its first hiccup.

that hiccup entered the world screaming a whole nine months later!! tiny blue eyed esme grace macmillan was a fuckin handful even before she was born. as anna went through prenatal checkups, she found that her heartbeat was irregular. further tests concluded that she had hypertrophic cardiomyopathy (hcm) which is a genetic condition that affects the muscles in the heart and causes irregular blood flow. it’s not fatal, but it is hereditary and gets riskier with physical exertion. being a new mother, anna made the decision to shelve ballet and focus on this new chapter of her life.

which was probably a good thing! she loved being a mom, and it was safe to say that having a set of eyes on esme at all times was the right choice. she was restless and constantly full of energy. from a really young age, it became apparent that esme had inherited some of the best parts of her parents. she got her dad’s brains, catching onto things quickly and learning to walk and talk earlier than most. this turned into simple reading and messy writing shortly after. she wasn’t a very social kid though, didn’t talk much.

as soon as esme was old enough, she was put into tiny pink ballet slippers. she took a liking to dance, and this is when they realized she’d also inherited her mother’s natural grace. early on, it looked like she’d easily follow in her mother’s footsteps.

dance really really opened esme up. it was here that she started making friends and began tip toeing outside of her comfort zone and opening up a little bit, but her direction changed when she was six and discovered figure skating.

it was technical and lyrical like ballet, but it was far more challenging. even as a kid, esme loved a good challenge. so her parents bought her a pair of skates, and the rest is history. as she grew up, her weekends were occupied with practices, performances, and eventually competitions. she was a natural. and for the first time there was an air of confidence about her.

though she loved it more than anything in the world, her life soon came to revolve around school and skating.  it caused her to miss out on a normal childhood, never really making friends close enough to be invited to sleepovers or birthday parties.

that made the move much easier for esme. when she was 10, her father’s firm went international and he was put in charge of the american branch. thus, the macmillans hopped across the atlantic and moved to halloway for a fresh start, a new adventure.

HALLOWAY.

she took a small break from competitive skating when they moved; it was her parents’ choice in hopes of her actually making friends in new hampshire. and it worked! for a while. esme was still quiet, still a little too book smart and a little less than street smart. even as a kid, she was awkward, but she was kind and clever and for the most part — people liked her.

and life was good for a long time! she got back into skating, and around the time she was thirteen she showed no signs of stopping. in fact, her sights were set on an olympic medal, and though her parents were wary of her inherited condition, they supported her in every possible way.

entering high school, life got a little bit harder. her schoolwork and training kept her pretty tied up, and it was often really hard for her to balance a social life along with that. she didn’t show up to every party. she didn’t really have any interest in going on dates. she kept up with her friends and made time for the important things, but she wasn’t exactly the most open person.

this backfired real quick!! as a freshman, at a bonfire, a senior boy kinda came onto her and when she said nope no thank you, he got pissed. instead of taking rejection Like A Man, he decided to spread a little rumor about them hooking up. this combined with her quiet nature kind of caused her to get a bit of a reputation of being aloof and a bit easy which is so far from the truth. but high school is high school!! and people were fuckin mean about it for a long time thereafter!

around this time was also when her parents sorta…. fell out of love. as in… her father got a little power hungry, a little bored of his life, and like the cliche he is started having an affair. the secrecy of it didn’t last… long and he ultimately left both anna and esme. she felt kind of.. abandoned. like they weren’t good enough almost but.. she and her mom got . even closer because of it tbh. the macmillan girls don’t need no man!!

so she threw herself into her studies and even more so into skating. she trained in the morning and on the weekends, year round. winning competitions made her feel good, and she kept doing so. when she was fifteen, she competed at the world figure skating championship. though she didn’t medal, her scores were impressive and she became an alternate for the us figure skating team at 16. being so close to those five rings was enough to push her further.

she left traditional high school and threw herself even further into figure skating. (this only fueled halloway rumors that she was a bit of a snob akjdfha) after graduating, she enrolled at halloway part time in order to slowly get through her gen eds while training for, yup, you guessed it, the 2018 olympics.

and ya know what? it paid off. at 20, she’d had two world’s silvers and a world’s gold under her belt as she competed in the winter games. her whole life had been leading up to that moment, and she brought home an olympic gold medal in women’s figure skating. that’s right, ya girl fucking peaked.

it was a high, for a while. and she rode it quietly and gracefully. idk she was PROUD ok she worked so hard…. but her incessant need to be perfect and to continuously better herself was nagging in the back of her mind. she wasn’t sure how you could really get better than gold at the olympics.

needless to say, she’s in the midst of a bit of an identity crisis. with her heart condition and ya know aging… she knows figure skating isn’t a forever-thing. so she went back to halloway, taking an interest in medicine and trying to understand her own weakness— a weak heart. she began studying medicine and to fell in love with that profession, but . she honestly can’t stay off of the ice. activate existential dread! she doesn’t actually know who she is!

and then the heckin storm happened smh

NEW HALLOWAY.

with a calm exterior and a notorious knack for being maternal . . . someone , somewhere along the line said hey let’s put esme in charge of the hospital to which she said in a john-mulaney-esque voice . . . huh ? what ? huh ? what ??? huh ???? and then did it anyway

if she’s not on call or working at the hospital , best believe she’s studying because she’ll be the first to tell you she has no business calling herself a doctor 

it’s been months!! since!! they disappeared!! and she’s sort of adjusting to this new life which often makes her feel very, very guilty because she doesn’t know what’s happened to her mother at this point

when everything was frozen she still found time to escape and do some skating on the lake aksdjfhas

for the most part, she keeps herself busy ... someone like .... help her tho

PERSONALITY.

esme’s naturally introverted. she likes people, but she’s a textbook people pleaser and gets exhausted quickly when she’s socializing. she’s always been quiet, never the center of attention (unless on ice) and never the loudest voice in the room. when she does speak, though, it’s purposeful and articulate. the sort of ‘she doesn’t talk much but when she does it’s important’ kinda thing idk. she’s not meek ya know.. just reserved

she’s naturally… very kind. cares a lot about other people but struggles to express that which is why she gravitates towards the profession of medicine. she enjoys helping people ya know

ya girl keeps her shit close to her chest. doesn’t really want to bother anyone with her own shit and takes her anger out in physical activity, disassociates from her sadness by reading. a lot of people know her but not on a deep level. tbh does she even know herself? prob not

she’s not a stick in the mud, but she does need a little push every now and then. she lets loose when she’s around people that she’s comfortable with tbh. behind the prim and proper macmillan facade is.. a bit of a goofball. does not hesitate to participate in dramatically karaoke or midnight swims in a lake.

SOFT as fuck but she’s not one to be walked all over. she’s clever as all get out and when snapped at harshly enough won’t hesitate to snap back. she doesn’t get angry to the point of showing it easily, but when she does, she’s very purposeful with her words. don’t underestimate her she hATES being underestimated

competitive as heck. in academics, in sports, in board games. she’s a sweetheart but she will wreck you in spite and malice or sorry bc she just… has a competitive nature

really does give a shit about what people think of her. like… wants to be liked. not being liked by some people in high school really fucked w her bc she just….. can’t help caring about how other people perceive her and wants it to be positively. it’s in part because of how she was raised?? she grew up in a pretty monitored, strict environment between rigorous training and her parents’ world of the rich (will this change after the storm tho??? we’ll SEE)

values honesty like has absolutely 0 time to be lied to and 0 time for bullshit

SO curious, always ready to learn more

will make a fool of herself to see you laugh

a lil bit of amy santiago.. a lil bit of rory gilmore.. a lil bit of caroline forbes..

needs to relax; constantly Anxious

s t u b b o r n

literally never sleeps

doesn’t curse bc there are more clever ways to express anger

reputation: aloof and stuck up. reality: literally just shy lmao

is TRYING VERY HARD

WANTED PLOTS.

i have a few connection ideas here!! and a tag here!! but also…

friends from halloway that she’s just… straight up been pals with since she moved there

i’m… constantly thirsty for … girl gang shit. any of y’all watch the bold type? i eat that shit uP AND IT’S all i NeED TO BE . HAPPY OK

esme’s an only child and i would love to see a sibling-like bond for her

academic rivals pls and thank!! mayb in their major…. mayb back in high school…. paris vs rory anyone?

the maya to her riley oh man

a bad influence or even… the polar opposite . to her Mom Friend-ness

someone else who grew up in the realm of rich parents like galas suck but at least we got each other!!

neighbors!!

new friends! people who she’s met through halloway and quickly taken a liking to. super interesting dynamic bc… while she’s eager to know u she’s not so eager to …. open up lmao

previous roommates

y’all into angsty exes? i know this is the end of the world and all but that don’t mean wE CAN’T get SAD

someone she became friends w via… skating yikes akjdfha i swear that’s not her only personality trait

someone she agreed to tutor!! or study buddies!! ‘i’m going to cry literal tears on my flashcards please study with me!’

someone she was forced to be friend with post-storm. they step on each other’s toes but suck it up for the sake of everyone else

i .. love combining ideas and brainstorming too so!!! we can also do that!!

if you made it this far i’m literally going to cry bc i love you already for reading a rambling like this . aNYWAY !! that’s my esme. feel free to smash the like and i’ll come to you or message me on discord!! 

[szopenhauer]

Assuming that you’re a girl, when you’re on your period do you use tampons or pads? pads

Do you like taking pictures of yourself? funny ones if any 

How much have you won on a lottery ticket? like 2 PLN lol  *I tried few times out of curiosity to see if my strategy works and besides once I was always winning this amount of cash

What is your favorite thing to do on your phone? play Choices <3

Was your first phone a flip phone? nope Have you ever butt dialed someone? from what I remember it happened in the bus one time when I was coming back home from school What is an old website that closed down that you miss? polyvore  If you’re a girl, have you ever had an embarrassing period story? not really Do you watch America’s Got Talent? I watched polish version at the beginning but got annoyed and bored with it, saw some foreign videos on yt tho Which country has the best accent? England? (british) Did you cry at your high school graduation? I don’t think so Who is a former friend that you wish would come back into your life? sigh... Have you ever been in a serious romantic relationship? this one’s serious to me Who was your favorite Spice Girl? I don’t remember Did you ever want to be in a band or music group? if I had a talent... What instrument did you play in the marching band? I wasn’t in the marching band If you could take any one type of dance class right now, what kind you take? vogue or some classic in pairs maybe to remind myself what I learned in middle school but tbh I’m not much into the idea of attending any dance classes Who got kicked off of your favorite talent show that you were mad about? more than one person actually :( Do you own the entire series on DVD of any TV show? If so, what? I wish!  Can you tell the difference between Mary-Kate and Ashley? I can’t  Who is your favorite set of twins? hmm... What is the grossest thing you have ever vomited up? don’t wanna think about it Did you ever take your dog to school? never Name one person you know who had a baby in high school. I don’t know personally anyone like this Do you keep a list of your favorite quotes? I try Describe your dream wedding in three words. small boho rustic Have you ever seen someone throw up on a plane? wasn’t on a plane but if that happened then I’d parachute myself outta there, yeet

Has God ever healed you of anything? If so, what? hope he will now but doubt it Do you believe in God? yes? Do you pray, and if so, to whom? to God, Jesus, Virgin Mary, saints, my brother...

Do you find church fun or boring? irritating and sort of tiring but if I had to choose between fun and boring then I’d go with the second, sorry What is your favorite thing to do in a swimming pool? pee *I’m joking Which part of your body is the most muscular? eyes from rolling them hahaha Have you ever painted a sugar skull on your face? no way Are you an artist? some sort of Did you ever take Latin in school? floristry Do you prefer to run in the street or on the sidewalk? *shrug* Which holiday is closest to your birthday? Valentine’s day if it counts

What’s the weather like for today? similar to yesterday’s Have you eaten breakfast yet? I have What have you accomplished today? nothing What curse word do you use the most? kurwa? Would you ever make out with someone of the same sex? as a lesbian XD What is your mother’s and father’s names? personal Last person you text messaged? dad

Would you ever volunteer to pick up trash around your town? count me in

Do you think desktops are more comfortable than laptops? they’re not Do you freak out when 666 appears somewhere? would say so Do you think it’s gross when you see gay/lesbian couples out in public? excuse me?! Was last night enjoyable for you? not really Can you go in public looking like you do? I suppose

So how are you today? not well

Do you enjoy going to the library? my library is really small and we don’t have lots of interesting books but I don’t mind visiting

Do you know anyone who has a pet bunny? my gf’s bestie and my ex friend had one 

What store or website would you most like a gift card for? uh oh can’t choose :3

Do you use Pinterest? no longer but I thought about making a new account, what do you think?

Do you know any sign language? wanted to learn but then I found out every country has it’s own and gave up

Do you have a favorite poem? Posłanie do nadwrażliwych is one of them, I like just a bunch, prefer to write poems than read ‘em

Describe your favorite scarf, if you have one. I own so many... 

Do you have a dog? yep

Have you ever read the Little House on the Prairie series? I watched a show but I read Mały domek w wielkich lasach

Have you ever performed in front of more than 100 people? in school

What do you do when a man you’re not interested in asks for your number? luckily I’ve never been in such situation and hope I won’t be

Is there anywhere you like to go because you find one of the employees attractive? what? Is there a big age gap between your parents? not big If you watch Glee, what has been your favourite song so far? If you don’t, why do you choose not to watch it? I’m not into musicals Did your parents ever forbid you from hanging out with anyone? oh well... If you drink, why? If you don’t, why not? I don’t like the smell, probably wouldn’t like taste either, my stomach is untolerant to lots of stuff, I don’t want to lose the rest of my health and being drunk might have bad consequences, also it’s expensive and addictive to that

What’s a word that begins with the first letter of your bf/gf/crushes name? monkey :P Have you ever heard a song mash-up? Did you like it? some were nice If you had to choose between being a garden gnome or a gargoyle, which would you be? gnome, yay!

What kind of dog would you get if you could choose any breed? chihuahua, pomeranian, pug, miniature poodle... Do you like to decorate? mhm Have you ever done anything sexual in exchange for something? nah Do you have nice legs?: pfft Do your parents ever try to tell you what or what not to wear?: my mom - she’s always saying my clothes are old or that they don’t match the weather  Has a gf’s sibling ever hit on you?: nooo Do you have a nice butt?: do I? How many cell phones have you gone through in your life? about 5 Do you go to concerts?  wouldn’t say so Do you shop online?  very rarely Are you a fan of dogs?  could say so

Is there a map hanging in your room? there isn’t Would you rather hold hands or link arms with your significant other? depends Did you ever throw up while kissing someone? it’s a fear of mine, it didn’t came true so far  Do you like Batman? yep Who is in the room with you? nobody

What was the last food you put syrup on? I don’t use syrup

Can you see more than one computer from where you are right now? there isn’t any other in my house Ever had paranormal experiences with a OUJIA board? don’t mess with ouija boards Did anyone close to you pass away this year? no one close Have you ever been locked in the trunk of a car? luckily not Does your refrigerator have one or two doors? two: one for the fridge and one for the freezer Are you allergic to any animals? no idea Do you have any friends you like to visit whenever they’re at work? just my father Do you have a bathrobe? but I don’t use it Do you get bored easy or can you find ways to amuse yourself? I find ways, only boring ppl get really bored, I might lack energy or motivation but that’s all Have you ever been submitted to the hospital due to a car-related accident? not accident

[caixxa]

Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better

I was tagged by @sergio-para-siempre​, thank you! It was days ago and I don’t always do these but now I did

Nickname: none

Zodiac sign: Sagittarius

Height: 173 cm (too lazy to convert to ft sorry!)

Hogwarts House: I got hufflepuff in one quiz and gryffindor in another, both were very flattering :)

Last thing I googled: probably some word in english for writing, I think it was about parking spaces

Favorite musicians: Bob Dylan, Neil Young among so many

Following: 245

Followers: 171 on this blog (my hockey blog is slightly more popular)

Do you get asks: rarely

Amount of sleep: 6-7 hours

Lucky number: none (these days i pick Sebastian Aho’s number 20 for lottery tickets tho, never win anything so I guess it’s not my lucky number haha)

What you’re wearing: a dress

Dream job: No job, just the money pls

Dream trip: A rented secluded villa on some beautiful coastal place in Italy

Instruments: don’t play any

Favorite songs: Right now: Fuck Time - Green Day, Strangers in the Night - Frank Sinatra, Me ollaan runkkareita - Pertti Kurikan Nimipäivät, After the Gold Rush, Powderfinger - Neil Young

Languages: Finnish, English, some Swedish, mostly forgotten German

Random Fact: I have never been outside Europe

Aesthetic: country mom

21 is a stupidly excessive amount of people ot tag! I’ll randomly pick @dangerousillusions @pretty-mint @the-sad-law-student @thecanesfinns and @teravaisteuvo @i-like-hockey-a-latte & @eafay70

[dontwantthenextcommanderiwantyou]

1-70 🙊

really… Really... R E A L L Y… How very fcking BOLD of you 😂

You know what, since I’m in such a good mood after watching Juliana “Braver than every Marine” Valdes go off on her deadbeat abusive father and defend her love for her soulmate Valentina, I’m actually gonna answer all 70 for you.

1. You just opened up a web browser. What is the first site you visit?

Tumblr of course, gotta get caught up on today’s gayness.

2. You just walked into a bookstore. What section do you go to first?

Mystery, I only go into a bookstore for one author and it’s Iris Johansen.

3. You are hanging with your closest friends. What are you most likely doing?

Something that could probably end badly for us lol My friends and I always look back on our nights out saying to each other “atleast we didn’t die tho” 

4. You just turned your car on. What station is the radio tuned to?

I don’t have radio stations set because I can’t stand the commercials, I need constant music when I’m driving so I always have my phone playlists on.

5. You have just woken up for the morning. What is the first things you do?

Go to the kitchen because I’m hungry, look around at the food, then go back to bed because I’m still too sleepy to make something to eat.

6. Complete this phrase: You cannot buy happiness, but you can buy____.

“but you can buy things that will MAKE you happy… such as dogs, a house in a safe neighborhood, a reliable car, medications and medical supplies, etc.”

7. What would you do if you woke up as the opposite gender?

First, I’d cry. Then I’d go practice my aim peeing standing up lol

8. Are you more likely to cook for yourself or buy food from a restaurant?

More often than not I’m cooking for myself, especially if I’m training because it’s cheaper eating healthy with homemade meals. 

9. If you had to lose one of your senses, which one would you rather lose?

I need my sight, hearing, and touch for sure, and I already know how much it sucks to lose taste after my radiation treatments, so smell would have to go.

10. If you could relive any one year of your life, how old would you be?

17, I’d wanna relive my first year of college.

11. Would you take a bullet for anyone you know?

My mom, brothers, nieces and nephews.

12. Would you rather be rich and dumb or poor and extremely intelligent?

Poor and intellige– nah fck that, I’d legit take being rich and dumb because if being dumb means I can secure my family’s future then I’m good, I could always pay someone to handle the brainy shit for me while I’m swimming in money lol

13. What TV character do you most relate to?

Tasha Williams from The L Word.

14. You just walked into a supermarket. What section do you first go to?

Sports & Outdoors… knowing damn well I don’t need to be buying anything but hoping to find a good deal on something so I can justify buying it.

15. Is sex before marriage wrong?

HELL NO! Sex is right… Marriage all together is wrong, wouldn’t recommend it.

16. You just won the lottery. What is the first thing you do with your winnings?

Buy a new phone and one-way ticket outta the state so no one can hit me up asking for money lol 

17. If your best friend admitted that they have a crush on you, how would you react?

I’d be flattered and make some joke about her having horrible taste in women.

18. Will the USA ever have a female president?

**I’ll have an answer to this question after November 3rd 2020**

19. You are carpooling with your friends. Are you more likely to be the driver or a passenger?

Unless it’s my turn to be the DD, I’m not driving with my friends.

20. How short is too short for skirts and dresses?

That’s not for me to decide because I’m not the one wearing them so if a woman is comfortable with a skirt that barely covers her labia, then more power to her. 

21. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, without any consequences, what food would you choose?

Pizza, there are so many variety of toppings that I’d never get tired of eating it.

22. It’s Saturday night. What are you most likely doing?

Reading fanfiction

23. You go on a blind date. Your date is extremely beautiful and physically captivating, but you hate their personality. Would you want a second date?

Ab-So-Lute-Ly fcking not! All of the beauty in the world can’t make up for an ugly ass personality. I mean we could be fck buddies, but never a “dating” situation.

24. How strict should gun laws be?

25. Would you rather be the worst player on the best team or the best player on the worst team?

Worst player on the best team because I wouldn’t be able to stand being the one putting in all the work while my teammates slack off. Atleast if I’m on the best team I’d be able to learn from players who are better than me. 

26. How well do you work with others?

Not well at all unless I haaaave to.

27. You have the ability to cure only one fatal disease and eradicate it forever. What disease do you choose?

Whatever disease is most deadly to dogs, I’d eradicate that one. 

28. If you could go back to college and choose a different degree to study, would you?

Nope, forensic science is what I was meant to study, I loved every minute of it.

29. Where do you see yourself ten years from now?

Bish I can’t even see myself 10 days from now, I don’t fcking know lol

30. Are you pro-life or pro-choice?

Pro-Choice Pro-Choice Pro-Choice Pro-Choice Pro-ChoicePro-Choice

31. Would you attend a same sex wedding if invited?

Yes my gay ass would happily attend a gay wedding.

32. So far, what has been the greatest day of your life?

The day I landed in Germany for my first duty station.

33. Has anyone you know ever been arrested?

Yeah.

34. If it could be one season year-round, what season do would you want it to be?

Winter.

35. What is your biggest regret in life?

Not making my ex sign a prenup smh

36. If you could bring one celebrity back from the dead, who would it be?

37. What offends you the most?

Non-black people saying nigga. I don’t care if they’re white, latino, asian, any other person of color… or if they’re gay, bi, trans, any other minority… or if their sister-in-law’s baby cousin Tracy got a brother and his girlfriend’s black. If they aint black & they have nigga in their vocabulary, they’re a piece of shit, periodT

38. Would you rather have an ugly hairstyle or be bald?

No question about it…

39. At what age did you have your first alcoholic beverage?

Listen, I learned when I was like 8 or 9 to keep my ass in a child’s place when I tried to be slick and take a few sips from a beer can my cousin left on the table… only to get a mouthful of cigarette butts -_-

40. What do you think happens to us when we die?

Nothing, you just dead.

41. What do you think is the best way to quit smoking?

Have some willpower to not be an asshole who pollutes the air I gotta breathe. 

42. If you could take home any one animal from the zoo, which animal would you choose?

Penguin 

43. We’re humans created or did we evolve from earlier species?

44. What scares you the most?

Dying and being the introvert I am, no one would even know anything was wrong until 6 months went by without hearing from me, and my body’s just laying there decaying and making me unpresentable for my own damn funeral  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

45. What personality trait turns you off the most?

Being disloyal. 

46. You got offered a job to do something you hate, but the pay will make you rich. Do you take it?

Yeah… then once I’m rich I’ll quit :) 

47. If today you only had what you were thankful for yesterday, how much would you have?

Enough… not enough… 

48. How often do you get mad or upset at yourself?

Every damn day

49. If you could choose one celebrity to be your parent, who would you choose?

Michelle or Barack Obama.

50. If you could only listen to one musical artist for the rest of you life, who would you be listening to?

The Rap God himself.

51. Have you ever used you cell phone while driving?

Guilty.

52. Had anyone you were close to die way too young?

Yes.

53. Is world peace possible?

*Refer to question 18*

54. You go on a blind date. You date is extremely ugly and physically appalling, but you are madly in love with their personality. Would you want a second date?

A bomb ass personality is worth a second date.

55. How did you discover that Santa Claus isn’t real?

When I realized that whole story never made any sense… no white dude was coming to the hood to give niggas toys for free. Momma aint raise no dummy.

56. Do you believe in God, or some form of higher deity?

I believe in Deism, the knowledge of a God based on the application of our reason on the designs/laws found throughout nature. The designs presuppose a Designer. Deism is therefore a “natural” religion, not a “revealed” religion. It is the recognition of a universal creative force greater than mankind, supported by personal observation, perpetuated and validated by the innate ability of human reason coupled with the rejection of claims made by individuals and organized religions of having received special divine revelation.

57. If you could save someone you deeply cared about, but it meant breaking a law, would you do it?

IN A HEARTBEAT! 

58. What is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done for money?

Enlisted in the military.

59. If you were to make a YouTube video about what you know most about, what would the subject be?

Being a ✊🏿 black 🌈 lesbian ♀️ woman. 

60. What do you think is your greatest personality flaw?

I have very little patience. 

61. If your friends spoke to you the way you speak to yourself, would you still want them as friend?

Hey, if they’re honest then I can’t be mad at em.

62. Have you ever “woke up like this”?

Sometimes I do be waking up like this if I may say so myself

63. You got offered a job to do something you love, but the pay is one of the worst out there. Do you take it?

If it’s not a livable wage then obviously no. But if it’s a livable wage that doesn’t leave me with extra money, then yeah doing what I love is worth the sacrifice.

64. What do you think is your best physical feature?

100% my muscles, I don’t put in work at the gym and eat vegetables for nothing!

65. What do you think is your worst physical feature.

I’m 5′1″… 9 times outta 10 I’m the shortest adult in the room… aint that a bitch

66. Do you know anyone who has committed suicide?

No.

67. What is the nicest thing you’ve ever done for someone you don’t know?

Not knock them the fck out when they said black people need to be happy white people haven’t made us their slaves again yet.

68. Have you ever had a night’s dream come true?

Idk but I swear I have moments of deja vu tho, then I think maybe they were actually just things I dreamed about in the past… hell if I know.

69. How would you reject a date offer from someone you didn’t like?

Tell them I don’t like them. I’m all about being direct. 

70. Which do you think is worse: Failure, or never trying at all?

Never trying. Nothing wrong with trying and failing, everything wrong with being too lazy to even try. 

[kronos-the-timelord]

Dude, do all of the numbers for that getting to know you better ask! Or half bc 200 is a lot :0

ahhhhhh,, you so nice

1: My name? - Margaret

2: Do I have any nicknames? - maggie, mag, mags, maggles, at one point my friends called me parky

3: Zodiac sign? - libra

4: Video game I play to chill, not to win? - i’ve never been too good at video games (but i like watching ppl playing them) and i’ve only ever had a wii so my sims kingdom was a favorite of mine

5: Book/series I reread? - divergent and pjo

6: Aliens or ghosts? - yes

7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? - @kata-chthonia

8: Favourite radio station? - 103.3 fm, although i mostly listen to spotify now

9: Favourite flavour of anything? - grape and blue raspberry

10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great? - great or cool

11: Favourite song? - a to b by matt hires

12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better? - it usually has to do with what drew me to them in the first place followed up by a version ‘why do you think that?’ i like knowing how ppl think bc it gives me a better way to start understand their view

13: Favourite word? - aurora

14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them? - i can’t really remember, so i dont know what that says :/

15: Last song I listened to? - serial killer by moncrieff

16: TV show I always recommend? - dexter or if they don’t like blood and violence, any of john mulaneys specials

17: Pirates or ninjas? - i liked pirates when i was younger, but ninjas are cool

18: Movie I watch when I’m feeling down? - any studio ghibli or song of the sea

19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song? - lately its been SLUT by bea miller

20: Favourite video games? - i really love boderlands, the art style is great

21: What am I most afraid of? - snakes and failing at something i’ve been saying that i wanted to do my entire life

22: A good quality of mine? - im nice??

23: A bad quality of mine? - im a bit aggressive and im really blunt about things

24: Cats or dogs? - dogs!! I like cats too but i dont know how to interact with them

25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they’re in? - he’s a voice actor, but crispin freeman is really cool!

26: Favourite season? - fall and spring

27: Am I in a relationship? - yeah, but it’s long distance during the school year ;-;

28: Something I miss? - my boi,, he’ll be back soon tho

29: My best friend? @keencheckerboard and @memeathon

30: Eye colour? - brown

31: Hair colour? - brown with red and blonde highlights

32: Someone I love? - my mom

33: Someone I trust? - @keencheckerboard

34: Someone I always think about? - @memeathon

35: Am I excited about anything? - finals to be over!

36: My current obsession? - bnha tbh

37: Favourite TV shows as a child? - i loved avatar and ed, edd, and eddy

38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to? - to an extent, but i dont tell them /every/thing

39: Am I superstitious? - kind of

40: What do I think about most? - right now, school

41: Do I have any strange phobias? - not really, i mean i overthink a lot of things, but there’s no phobias

42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? behind

43: Favourite hobbies? - drawing/reading/writing/sleeping

44: Last book I read? - i think it was called stung, i actually finished it bc i wanted to complain about it properly

45: Last film I watched? - dumbo, my friend wanted to go see it, it wasnt good

46: Do I play any instruments? - i played clarinet for 3 years

47: Favourite animal? - dogs

48: Top 5 blog on Tumblr that I follow? - @wemakuu @wemakuutwo @keencheckerboard @memeathon @kata-chthonia

49: Superpower I wish I could have? - teleportation

50: How do I destress? - getting cozy and warm under my blankets with the lights off

51: Do I like confrontation? - i can be aggressive so i will be confrontational if i have to but i don’t go out of my way for it

52: When do I feel most at peace? - in my bed with the lights off

53: What makes me smile? - my friends, my boi, and goofy animal videos

54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off? - gotta be pitch black

55: Play any sports? - i played roller derby for 3 years

56: What is my song of the week? - really feeling be by hozier

57: Favourite drink? - …..water…. and a slushee

58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody? - i think last summer???

59: Afraid of heights? - nope

60: Pet peeve? - slow walkers

61: What was the last concert I went to see? - does my high school’s band count???

62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian? - nah

63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger? - ob nurse, i still do

64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy? - no, i’ve had ppl i tolerated turn into ppl i hate tho

65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of? - bhna, but i feel the hero drama would get annoying after awhile

66: Something I worry about? - failing my classes

67: Scared of the dark? - nope

68: Who are my best friends? - this is the same as 29

69: What do I admire most about others? - their drive and where their motivation comes from

70: Can I sing? - no ;-;

71: Something I wish I could do? - sing

72: If I won the lottery, what would I do? - pay off my loans and (hopefully) for the rest of my college and then put whatever i had left into a savings account

73: Have I ever skipped school? - yes

74: Favourite place on the planet? - i think the smoky mountains are really pretty and i loved vacationing around them, but colorado was really neat too, so probs one of those places

75: Where do I want to live? - somewhere on the northeast coast!

76: Do I have any pets? - yeah!! He’s a doggo named dageus,,,, here he is,, the big boi!! (hes 121 pounds of love!!!!!)

77: What is my current desktop picture? - something @memeathon drew me

78: Early bird or night owl? - night owl

79: Sunsets or sunrise? - im usually awake during sunset, but sunrise is really pretty

80: Can I drive? - yeah!

81: Story behind my last kiss? - i was saying bye to my boi at the airport

82: Earphones or headphones? - earphones

83: Have I ever had braces? - yeah,, they weren’t fun

84: Story behind one of my scars? - i have a couple little ones from acne on my back but other than that i don’t have any

85: Favourite genre of music? - i think indie rock?? Is that a genre?? Punk maybe????

86: Who is my hero? - florence nightingale,, she was hella cool and i went to her museum in london

87: Favourite comic book character? - i didn’t read a lot of comic books but i always liked spiderman and witchblade

88: What makes me really angry? - when ppl make fun of my friends >:l

89: Kindle or real book? - i like real books but ebooks are nice for traveling!!

90: Favourite sporty activity? - roller derby or skating

91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be? - im not really sure what this question means????? But i didn’t like that in my middle school that the behavior coach(es) would already pick sides or would already hate kids that did nothing wrong and then in my high school no one cleaned up after themselves bc ‘the janitors can do it’ :/ it was really annoying

92: What was my favourite subject at school? - english/creative writing and art!!

93: Siblings? - i got an older brother who’s a big nerd

94: What was the last thing I bought? - i went to target last night and i got $68 worth of stuff including planty stuff, food, and gift stuff for my boyfriend’s moms

95: How tall am I? - 5’6” but i will not hesitate bitch

96: Can I cook? - yeah!

97: Can I bake? - yeah!

98: 3 things I love? - my friends/family, animals, and plants

99: 3 things I hate? - slow walkers, rasict/homo/trans/biphobic (anyone who just hates ppl for no reason tbh), and rude ppl >:l

100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends? - more girl friends,,, i’ve kinda lost contact with most of my guy friends over the years,,,,

101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys? - i feel more comfortable around other girls now but when i was younger i was okay with everyone

102: Where was I born? - in the cornfields of the midwest (i fucking hate this state)

103: Sexual orientation? - straight

104: Where do I currently live? - in the cornfields of the midwest, i am the creature you’re warned about, don’t walk alone at night

105: Last person I texted? - @memeathon : D

106: Last time I cried? - yesterday,,, finals hit me hard but i feel better now :D

107: Guilty pleasure? - uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,,,,,, looking at gross stuff,,, like surgeries and sometimes those pimple popping videos,,,,,,,,

108: Favourite Youtuber? - i’ve been watching a lot of gordon ramsay videos lately but i think brandon rogers or sovietwomble are up there

109: A photo of myself. - heres one i took on my break at work

110: Do I like selfies? - no,,, i don’t really like looking back on photos of myself bc i think i just look weird,, like even in my super nice senior photos,,, or baby pictures,,

111: Favourite game app? - does neko astsume count???

112: My relationship with my parents? - it’s p good :D

113: Favourite accents? - i’m not really sure,,, i think just a flat accent, like midwestern bc its the one im most familiar with so its like homey???????

114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? - japan,, nowhere in specific i just want to see the country

115: Favourite number? - 23!!!!

116: Can I juggle? - no

117: Am I religious? - im a polytheist (a bad one, but oh well)

118: Do I like space? - i love space!!!! Its so neat!!!!!!

119: Do I like the deep ocean? - no!!! Its awful!!!!

120: Am I much of a daredevil? - i think my friends think i am, but i dont really think so, i mean i’ll try anything if it sounds fun, but not everything

121: Am I allergic to anything? - not that i know of

122: Can I curl my tongue? - yes

123: Can I wiggle my ears? - no

124: Do I like clowns? - not really

125: The Beatles or Elvis? - a little bit of each

126: My current project? - my creative writing portfolio ;-; its not that hard but im trying to figure out how to get this character right

127: Am I a bad loser? - depends on what i lost in, like if it was a game i didn’t really care about than no, but if it was something that i cared about a lot than yeah

128: Do I admit when I wrong? - i always try to, but sometimes i don’t

129: Forest or beach? - forest,, i don’t like the beach,, too much sand

130: Favourite piece of advice? - it’s not really advice but just the reminder that your current situation is not your final destination

131: Am I a good liar? - i think so

132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district? - slytherin (its funny bc im scared of snakes)/ dauntless/ and i think district 6 (i live in the crossroads of america so yeah)

133: Do I talk to myself? - all the fucking time

134: Am I very social? - sometimes, i am kinda a social introvert

135: Do I like gossip? - i like to hear it but not be part of it

136: Do I keep a journal/diary? - i have a bullet journal and i try to keep up with my habit and mood tracker daily

137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test? - no, but i have gotten like high d’s and low c’s before that make me sad

138: Do I believe in second chances? - depends on what they messed up on the first chance, like if someone cheated then no

139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do? - i would like to say that i would return it with no money taken, but im just not sure :/

140: Do I believe people are capable of change? - yeah, if they’re really trying and realize that they need to, but even if they do change i know not everyone will accept them back into their lives and it shouldn’t be expected that they should after someone changes for the better

141: Have I ever been underweight? - no

142: Am I ticklish? - very and i have this weird tactile thing thats like i dont like ppl lightly touching me, it freaks me out

143: Have I ever been in a submarine? - no

144: Have I ever been on a plane? - yes!! I love flying!! Its so much fun!!

145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family? - uhhhh,, im going to go by face,, i think for me - shailene woodley bc when she had her short hair ppl told me i looked like her @meme - liana liberato, she got the round face @keen - winona ryder (but back in beetlejuice) boyfriend - tucker west, i know he’s not an actor but he looks so much like him,,,, also it took me forever just to find these guys so im not finding family :p

146: Have I ever been overweight? - no

147: Do I have any piercings? - i have my ears pierced!

148: Which fictional character do I wish was real? - hari jurono,,, i love him ;-;

149: Do I have any tattoos? - no, but i already have some picked out that i want

150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far? - ummmm??? Im not sure?????

151: Do I believe in Karma? - yeah

152: Do I wear glasses or contacts? - contacts during the day and glasses at night

153: What was my first car? - i have a subaru crosstrek named inko!!! I love her!!

154: Do I want children? - no

155: Who is the most intelligent person I know? - my mom tbh,,, shes really smart

156: My most embarrassing memory? - omfg,, so this goes to show how oblivious i am about social interactions, but it was my first week in college and this junior was talking to me and i didnt realize he was flirting with me until after we traded snapchats and he left, so i panicked and never said anything to him again and blocked him

157: What makes me nostalgic? - when i walk around my neighborhood sometimes (i live near the preschool i went to) and i was over at my elementary school almost a year ago now, but i remember walking down the hall and seeing all the different teachers there now and it made me sad

158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter? - yes, just last week

159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? - brains

160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe? - darker colors like black and blue, but im trying to get lighter ones in there too

161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience? - yes, many times, but the one that sticks out to me is that one night i woke up at like 5 am for no reason, but i was just suddenly wide awake and something felt off, so i was trying to get comfy again and flipped over on my other side so i was facinging the door into my room instead of my wall and in front of my door was a tall black figure with red eyes staring at me and when i blinked it went away,, now i know this can be explained by some other things but with my family it seems more likely to be paranormal

162: What do I hate most about myself? - uhh, i procrastinate way too much

163: What do I love most about myself? - i always support my friends

164: Do I like adventure? - depends on the adventure,,, i like traveling, but not too much walking bc i have bad knees

165: Do I believe in fate? - not really

166: Favourite animal? - question 47

167: Have I ever been on radio? - no, but i was on my school’s announcements and i hated it

168: Have I ever been on TV? - no

169: How old am I? - 19

170: One of my favourite quotes? - “The Gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment could be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed”

171: Do I hold grudges? - im petty

172: Do I trust easily? - no,, im just cautious around ppl bc i just don’t know them

173: Have I learnt from my mistakes? - some of them

174: Best gift I’ve ever received? - im not too sure,,, i got a p cool backpack for my birthday tho that i use everyday

175: Do I dream? - yeah, cant remember too many tho

176: Have I ever had a night terror? - no??

177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? - can’t remember a lot after i wake up, but i just recently had one with some bnha characters in it, i can’t remember what happened, i just know that they were there

178: An experience that has made me stronger? - i know this might sound a bit morbid, but my aunt’s funeral, it was the first funeral i went to where i understood what was happening and it made me more open to learning and accepting death

179: If I were immortal, what would I do? - want to fucking die,,, i’ve never understood ppl who are scared of dying/want to live forever,, like why would you want that??? What’s the point??? You’ll just watch everyone you love die,,, i know it’s going to be hard on me when that happens to my closer family members, but even the new ppl you befriend,, i just couldn’t

180: Do I like shopping? - yeas

181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do? - tax evasion

182: What does “family” mean to me? - the ppl who i care about deeply and who love me, not all of them are blood related and not all the blood related ones are part of it

183: What is my spirit animal? - idk?????? Maybe a turtle???

184: How do I want to be remembered? - tbh, i don’t really want to be remembered

185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose? - drawing

186: What is my greatest failure? - im not sure

187: What is my greatest achievement? - uhh, i feel like its hard to point at a specific point and be like “that was the best thing i could have done, if i didn’t do that i wouldn’t be who i am today”

188: Love or money? - money

189: Love or career? - career

190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go? - probably to some point in the future,, i dont know where tho

191: What makes me the happiest? - the ppl i care about being happy

192: What is “home” to me? - the house i currently live in,, my family is here and im surrounded by ppl i love,, it’ll probably change with time, but for now its here

193: What motivates me? - spite

194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be? - it’s important to keep moving forward, don’t let the past hold you down

195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens? - kind of, i think it would be p cool

196: A movie that scared me as a child? - it wasn’t a movie but i know the animated wolf from peter and the wolf freaked me out

197: Something I hated as a child that I like now? - i hated mushrooms, but i love them now

198: Zombies or vampires? - vampires

199: Live in the city or suburbs? - suburbs super close to city

200: Dragons or wizards? - DRAGONS

201: A nightmare that has stayed with me? - its silly but when i was younger it would be my mom and i going to the mall downtown and the escalators were missing the part that connected them to the floor so you had to hop over it and when we would get to the 4th floor i would miss the jump and fall

202: How do I define love? - i know a lot of ppl are like “i would die for you or kill for you” something along those lines but i think it’s more living for someone, wanting to see them accomplish everything they wanted, being there for them during their lows203: Do I judge a book by its cover? - yeah, i wont pick up something that doesnt catch my eye

204: Have I ever had my heart broken? - no

205: Do I like my handwriting? - yeah!! Its loopy

206: Sweet or savoury? - sweet

207: Worst job I’ve had? - ive liked all the jobs ive had

208: Do I collect anything? no

209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without? - a hoodie/sweater of some kind

210: What is on my bucket list? - going to greece

211: How do I handle anger? - i usually rant for a bit, maybe cry to get the extra hormones out, maybe break something

212: Was I named after anyone? - no, but i did have the same name as my great grandma

213: Do I use sarcasm a lot? - yes

214: What TV character am I most like? - im been watching bnha a lot so i think either kirishima or uraraka

215: What is the weirdest talent I have? - i can cross my eyes and then move one of them

216: Favourite fictional character? - ,,,,, im not sure,, i really love eric from divergent

[fvckastrology]

the signs as google™ searches 🔍

(tag ur friends, yeah?)

aries: how many mountain dews does it take to pass out

taurus: how much does paula dean make

gemini: what’s the longest letter in the alphabet

cancer: worlds fattest cat ever like ever

leo: why am i so ridiculously good looking

virgo: how to factory reset human

libra: how to get over people getting over me

scorpio: real live dead people

sagittarius: do old people still fucc even tho they old

capricorn: how to win the lottery 2018 with cheatsheet

aquarius: hentai wit da titty out

pisces: where does santa go in the summer

[harristops]

Ok but with Gotham trading Caprice can we have right back Krieger make a return

Dude more than anything I'm impressed at how big the league has gotten. Like Houston picking up a solid right winger who hasn't had the best season but was starting to look better, and now getting some good money in return? Like a team that is actually making trades for the sake of winning?? Bro unreal.

Tbh I think it's the sign that Gotham ain't trying to play for a playoff spot but instead try to go for a fresh start next year. I can't remember, does the NWSL have a draft lottery system where the lower you are on the standings the higher likelihood your draft pick spot is? I don't know anything about the 2023 draft class but if there's a good enough player worth tanking for, maybe that's their idea. Either way, it's a huge step up in the league where a defender is evaluated at 150k compared to the usual 50-75k in the past.

But yes, I hope we get right back Krieger too. And replace Freeman with Jean on the inside and have Dorsey and Johnson on the other side. I am gonna miss Cappy tho she was one of my fav Gotham players even tho this season was rough and it's sad she's gone but it may have seemed like she wanted out?

[smonchbeyblog]

Tagged by @littleagranger​  (thank cooldude!)

-Age: 27 (I’ll be 28 next month :3)

-Birthplace: Canada

-Current time: 4:09 PM (16:09)

-Drink you last had: Cream Soda

-Easiest person to talk to: My bros

-Favorite song: I don’t have a fav, it constantly changes haha

-Grossest memory:  Oh god there is too many to choose

-Hogwarts house: Dunno tbh xD My pansy ass is probably a hufflepuff tho

-In love: Yass

-Jealous of people: Nahhh

-Killed someone: No surprisingly

-Love at first sight or walk by again:  No

-Middle name:  Danielle Marie (I got 2 xD)

-Number of siblings: 2 (An older sister and little brother)

-One wish:  To win the lottery Hahaha

-Person you called last: Mom :P

-Question you are asked most:  Whats for supper>?>>>>>>????

-Song you last sung:  Aint nobody gonna catch me singin’ xD

-Time you woke:  7:30 @.@

-Underwear color: Pink 

-Vacation destination: in my basement with no interuptions LOL

-Worst habit: Procrastinating and then forgetting to do said task

-X-rays: If dental counts, have had that. Other than that just pregnancy ultrasound? I haven’t really injured myself bad enough to break anything (somehow lol)

-Your favourite food: Chinese fried rice. Also can’t turn down a good Donair

-Zodiac sign:  Virgo

Hahaha I’m to awkward to tag people, so go ahead and do this if you like :)

[truthnotdespair]

Tagged by @akaashist ♥ ayy thank you cza! ♥

answer 30 questions + tag 20 people you’d like to know better

I tag: @kvnma @sorrowseason @sengohku @shinpaci @blissful-killua @1tobio @theladystrikesagain @ranpohedogawa @atsushisnakajima @aizawashoutah @toshiirou @ulurus @tkoyami @niki-fforov @pokkipo @todorokishto @dekuzs @nagihtos @atsumus @ANYBODY ELSE WHO WANTS TO //ONLY IF YOU WANNA OR HAVENT DONE THIS YET (if u did do it already, pls tag me or link me to it, i like reading your answers lol) 

-nicknames: pame/pam; my dad used to call me mela

-star sign: virgo

- gender: female

-MBTI type: infp

-height: 165 cm

-time: 12:55 pm

-birthday: sept 08

-favourite bands: top, fob, patd, arashi

-favourite solo artists: um, i dont think i have one??? ;3;

-song stuck in my head: watashi no ai wa chiisai keredo by okazaki ritsuko

-last movie I watched: atomic blonde..? i think

-last show I watched: bnha. im about to watch bey im excited asgklajkh but i have to finish something first sagjlakhg

blogs:  only this one, its a mess,stay away lol

-when I created my blog: march 2013

-what I post about: anime (hq, bnha, bey are my mains rn), some arashi i was originally an arashi blog but i dont post much anymore, i still love them with all my heart tho ; u ;, eh tv shows and movies (got, sense8, mr robot, spn, mcu, etc)

-last thing I googled: “How can I find out when I joined tumblr?” lol i knew abt archive but i was hoping there would be an easier way??? skghaklhg

-following: 500+

-followers: 700+

-favourite colour: blueee

-average hours of sleep: 5-8 hours

-lucky number: ekk idk, if i win the lottery, i’ll tell u

-instruments: guitar (just the basics)

-what I’m wearing: t-shirt + shorts

-how many blankets i sleep with: one/if its hot then none lol

-dream jobs: eeehhhhhhhh fml

-dream trip: japan bc weeb, also i think its really pretty there reallyy

-favourite food: fried chicken !! same cza! also carbonara

-nationality: filipino. you too @akaashist?? i didnt know!! :))))

[submissivejungkook]

About Me Again (Lowkey addicted to questionnaires)

Full name : Alyssa >.>

Zodiac sign : Gemini

3 Fears : Spiders, the dark, heights

3 things I love : BTS, writing, sleeping

4 turns ons : Being called baby girl/princess, someone who smells amazing, butt grabs/slaps, and neck kisses

4 turns offs : Bad odor, huge flirts, bad grammar, and try-hards

My best friend : I have a few best friends~

Sexual orientation : Pansexual

My best first date : My best first REAL date was.. dinner and a movie with @daddyoppa​

How tall am I : 5′4, I think

What do I miss : Being little

What time were I born : Idk

Favourite colour : Black, purple, red, white.. I have so many. 

Do I have a crush: Yep~

Favourite quote: “Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect” but there are others, too. So many amazing quotes~

Favourite place: Disney Woooorld

Favourite food : Sushi, Steak.. Can I have both?

Do I use sarcasm : Plenty

What am I listening to right now : KeemStar’s live

First thing I notice in new person: I usually notice a person’s smile or eyes first

Shoe size : 9 - 9 1/2

Eye colour: Bluuuue

Hair colour : Natural - Med. brown, Dyed - Black

Favourite style of clothing : I love casual, but I also really love dressy clothes~

Ever done a prank call? : Yeah

What colour of underwear I’m wearing now? : Pink

Meaning behind my URL : I’m obsessed with Sub!Jungkook. Need I say more?

Favourite movie: I love so many movies

Favourite song : YOU CAN’T ASK ME THIIIISSSS

Favourite band: BTS

How I feel right now : Sleepy af

Someone I love : I love a lot of people.. @gleamingjimin​ <3  @daddyoppa​ @ya-boy-bambam​ @bangtanprincesss​

My current relationship status : Single but.. hopefully that changes soon?

My relationship with my parents : Eh.. 

Favourite holiday : Either Halloween or Christmas

Tattoos and piercings? : Neither but they’re hot

Tattoos and piercing i want : I want a monroe piercing.. or maybe dimple piercings? (I only have one dimple tho) - Tattoos... I’d like a tattoo on my wrist.. Maybe of a semicolon or a line from a BTS song. 

The reason I joined Tumblr : Well, I wanted to test it out for a while, but I never have until just recently. I don’t really have a big reason tbh

Do I and my last ex hate each other? : No but we don’t speak to each other much anymore.

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? : Yes :3

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? : Nope

When did I last hold hands? : I don’t remember

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? : If I have to shower that morning then about 45 minutes. If not, then it takes about 15-20 minutes

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? : Yep~ Shaved them last night!

Where am I right now? : My bedroom

If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? : Hell.. Idk

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? : LOUD. THE LOUDER THE BETTER 

Do I live with my Mom and Dad? : Not technically. I live with my aunt and uncle, but my parents are right next door.

Am I excited for anything? : BTS’ comeback

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? : My brother

How often do I wear a fake smile? : Pretty much every single day C:

When was the last time I hugged someone? : 1 hour ago, maybe? I hugged my brother.

What if the last person you kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? : Eh, I haven’t kissed anyone sooooo

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not? : I don’t think so. I have trust issues so if I trust you, there’s a good reason for that.

What is something I disliked about today? : Finding out I have to write 10-12 pages before next Tuesday

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? : @gleamingjimin​ and BTS

What do I think about most? : BTS

What’s my strangest talent? : I don’t have any talents

Do I have any strange phobias? : Escalaphobia

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? : Behind

What was the last lie I told? : “I’ll be fine”

Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? : On the phone

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? : Yes and yes

Do I believe in magic? : Yes

Do I believe in luck? : Mhmm

What’s the weather like right now? : Humid and stormy

What was the last book I’ve read? : Well.. Now the Spanish dictionary pfffft

Do I like the smell of gasoline?: Oddly enough I do

Do I have any nicknames? : Lys, Scarlet, baby, baby girl

What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? : Sprained ankle

Do I spend money or save it? : I save it for a while but then.. you know.. BTS. 

Can I touch my nose with a tongue? : No 

Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? : Well.. my panties are pink

Favourite animal? : PANDA

What was I doing last night at 12 AM? : Watching public freak out videos

What do I think is Satan’s last name is? : Wut

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? : Yes I Am by Mamamoo

How can you win my heart? : Wut

What would I want to be written on my tombstone? : Ummm... I really have no idea. Just have BTS lyrics all over it.. or even their faces :D 

What is my favourite word : FUCK

My top 5 blogs on tumblr : Cries I’ve already done this. // i love everyone okokok

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? : STOP BEING SUCH FUCKNUGGETS AND USE THE DAMN BRAIN YOU WERE GIVEN. 

Do I have any relatives in jail? : Nope

I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? : Psychokinesis 

What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? : I really don’t know

What is my current desktop picture? : I have a slideshow going of BTS

Had sex? : Nope

Bought condoms? : No

Gotten pregnant? : Helllll no 

Failed a class? : Yeah 

Kissed a boy? : Nope

Kissed a girl? : The cheek counts, right? 

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? : No

Had job? : Babysitting count?

Left the house without my wallet? : Once and I flipped out

Bullied someone on the internet? : Hell no

Had sex in public? : Nope

Played on a sports team? : Yeah

Smoked weed? : No

Did drugs? : No

Smoked cigarettes? : I tried once when I was little and burnt myself... then threw up.

Drank alcohol? : Yeah

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? : No

Been overweight? : Always been overweight, but that’s due to a medical condition and it’s hereditary. Of course it doesn’t help that I eat away my stress and depression :’)))

Been underweight? : Pft. No. 

Been to a wedding? : Yesss

Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? : ...sadly

Watched TV for 5 hours straight? : Nah

Been outside my home country? : Nope but I plan on traveling

Gotten my heart broken? : Yeah.. 

Been to a professional sports game? : Mhm

Broken a bone? : Not that I recall. KI mean, I sprained my ankle but that’s about it

Cut myself? : Yes.. I advise anyone who is thinking about doing it or currently doing it to get some help. It does NOT solve your problems.. 

Been to prom? : Yeah and it sucked

Been in airplane? : Yep

Fly by helicopter? : Nope

What concerts have I been to? : When I was in like.. 6th grade I went to the Jonas Brothers’ concert and March 29th of this year I saw BTS

Had a crush on someone of the same sex? : Yep and I do currently

Learned another language? : Spanish~ I’m currently trying to teach myself Korean

Wore make up? : Yeah

Lost my virginity before I was 18? : No

Had oral sex? : No

Dyed my hair? : Yessss

Voted in a presidential election? : fuck that

Rode in an ambulance? : No

Had a surgery? : Yes

Met someone famous? : Namjoonie noticed me in a vlive once... Does that count??

Stalked someone on a social network? : Yes XD

Peed outside? : Yeah

Been fishing? : Mhm

Helped with charity? : Mhm

Been rejected by a crush? : Sadly

Broken a mirror? : Yeup.

What do I want for birthday? : BTS merrrcchhhh

How many kids do I want and what will be their names? : At least 2. As for names, I’m undecided.

Was I named after anyone? ; Yeah, you know.. Alyssa Milano?

Do I like my handwriting? : I like my cursive

What was my favourite toy as a child? : Barbies

Favourite Tv Show? : Impractical Jokers

Where do I want to live when older? :Northern United States.. or New Zealand

Play any musical instrument? : Nah

One of my scars, how did I get it? : Bike wreck

Favourite pizza topping? : Pineapples and pepperoni

Am I afraid of the dark? : Yes

Am I afraid of heights? : Yes

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? : I got caught watching porn when I was like 14 or so

Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? : MY LIFE

What I’m really bad at : Socializing 

What my greatest achievements are : Idk

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me : There’s so many.

What I’d do if I won in a lottery : Pay off my brother’s college, buy my parents a new house and car, buy a little something for me, and save the rest (depending on how much we’re talking pffft)

What do I like about myself : I like my eyes and hair

My closest Tumblr friend : @gleamingjimin and @daddyoppa

Something I fantasise about my ex : I don’t