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volatilechemicalz · 10 months

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I'm gonna go to bed so here's all of the sleep deprived writing I've done for part 3

(Under the cut just incase you wanna wait or smt)

A small sob escapes their throat, which makes it harder to hold back the tears that burn in their eyes. They hated it. They hated it so much. Ve wouldn't even look at them. Not a single glance. Not even now, when they were on the verge of breaking down into incoherent sobs. They knew why ve hated them. Like they said, they would feel the same.

It didn't make it hurt any less.

They weren't sure why it felt like this. Like they'd been hit where it hurt most. Maybe they expected ver to get along with them. Accept them. They were the same person, after all. From wildly different timelines, yes, but they still had the same name.

They quickly realized that this was a stupid thought. The problem was that ve had witnessed a war that was caused by the very thing that possessed them. The thing that had killed all of ver siblings and verself at one point was in them, and it was painfully clear. With the eyes and the patterns, it wasn't like they could hide it. Although now they wished that they'd tried.

Nothing could change either of these things. They knew that, of course, but it didn't help in the slightest. When ve was around the others, ve smiled and laughed a little. Ve was nice and even joked around sometimes, like everything was as it should be.

But as soon as they entered the room, ve wasn't like that. Ve got a certain look on ver face (one that they absolutely hated, because it was one that they couldn't decipher) and left the room. Occasionally ve would stay, but their presence would be completely ignored no matter how hard they tried.

They regretted addressing this. They should've kept their thoughts as internal ones and not external ones, but it was too late for that now. They knew this wouldn't change anything because when they looked over, the second they spoke, ve had that expression on ver face again. Still refusing to look at them.

#noodle talks #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #tmnt #save rottmt #shitty drabble time #drabble #yetd #yellow eyes in a turtle disguise #f!donnie #this is going to be the death of me #im gonna write so many words #hopefully #if i dont die in the process

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dremiru · 11 months

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The fanfiction writer curse is real and it got me. Remember the long fic which was supposed to have a chapter out each Saturday? And how it hasn't had a chapter out for 2 weeks now? WELL, I GOT SICK, ALMOST ENDED UP IN THE HOSPITAL, got better, wrote another 3000 words (although this is a big chapter so it's not finished yet), AND THEN ALMOST GOT IN A CAR ACCIDENT??? AND THEN GOT SICK AGAIN?????

it's coming for me.

#for people interested in when it's coming out #probably in 1-2 days since its almost finished #and ill try to get the new chapter out as soon as i can #if i dont die in the process #eah #ever after high #fanfiction #ao3 #fic writer problems

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tabooiart · 6 months

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THIS thing ^ says hewwo. UNIRONICALLY.

#my art #fanart #wiggly #wiggog y'wrath #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #npmd fanart #starkid #team starkid #jon matteson #the way the lighting on this one is so weird because they lit him from both sides. why does team starkid hate me personally #actually i had a rlly hard time finding a screenshot i wanted to reference of wiggly #like tink and nibs i was like oh yeah theres one specific pose that i know i want to do #but tbh most of the time we see wiggly in the proshot is full body shots instead of closeups #and what closeups he did get hes moving a lot or just dont have a pose that makes for a fun portrait composition #gr. whatever #willing to struggle and grind for my perfect special boy #i recorded a timelapse of this that i will be posting.. tomorrow probably #a couple people have expressed interest about my process for these painted portraits #and i loveeee talking about process #<- art major moments

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wispforever · 7 months

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Crucify Him

#Naruto #Itachi Uchiha #Kisame Hoshigaki #Kisaita #itakisa #not really but we know how i feel about them #this is right before he wrecks kakashi #i dont remember the exact sequence but whatever #I'm very curious of Itachi's hostility toward kakashi specifically #you could make the argument that he's just doing his evil villain act #but god DAMN #did you have to crucify him #he puts his own ass in a sling too but overusing his sharingan #itachi says I don't care if I die #as long as I kill you in the process #I like to think itachi bears animosity toward the leaf kakashi the rest of his superiors his family really everyone #because he was forced to choose between two very unattractive options when he was just a kid #not just that but he was expected to take full responsibility for his decision and bear whatever consequence came about #of course an adult could understand that the uchiha needed to right their position of inequity in the leaf #but itachi as a literal child and a child of war could not hold those stakes in his mind and think of anything but disaster #an inevitable war that would be his fault #he couldn't think of anything more awful than that even murdering every member of his clan and his own family #ANYWAY #what im trying to say is I think he would grow up as a rogue ninja and realize how fucked up and unfair it was that he was put up to that #and how he was groomed by a bunch of adults to be a killing machine just bc he happened to be an excellent shinobi #in this case #kakashi is the unfortunate object of his wrath #a very good representation of everything he was a victim of as far as itachi knows him #his superior in the anbu and someone who was willing to conduct surveillance of the Uchiha whether or not he knew what would happen to them #an indifferent bystander. one more person who didn't help itachi (kakashi probably would've had he had the whole picture)

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maukiki1 · 6 months

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They are twinning✌️idk i just wanted to draw them or somehting idk.

#start of my yugioh arc #get ready #or dont #i havent posted beyblade in a while sorry fellow bladers #this is am unhinged evil spirit who posses some random ass silver haired twink whos done nothing wrong ever competition #like what did tsubasa even do #let him fish #and bakura (normal one i dont refer to yami bakura as just bakura) looks like a curious little animal with zero survival instinct to me #if they were in a zombie apocalypse he would die first #hes so funny to me cant look at him without laughing what is his deal #the difference is one of them waits a bakurbillion years to do anythign also gets his ass kicked during process .#other one goes insane . absolute berserk calm down do you need papatya çayı #mischievous little guys nonetheless #yugioh #beyblade #mfb #metal fight beyblade #tsubasa otori #bakura #yami bakura #tsubasa ootori #beyblade metal fight art #beyblade metal fight fanart #beyblade metal saga #beyblade metal fight #yugioh duel monsters #yu gi oh #crossover #yugioh fanart #when i was making this during the sketch phase i wrote dont forget to make possesed tsubasa purple and i still forgot at first attempt

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im-not-a-l0ser · 29 days

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Am I rewatching the hatchetfield trilogy today? Maybe. You can't prove anything.

#idk if i actually will #im starting it #but i might give up #like ive already seen them a few times yknow?#and i want to experience rewatching them again #but i dont actually want to go through the process or rewatching them #did that make sense?#starkid #the guy who didn't like musicals #black friday #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetfield

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dizzybizz · 1 year

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a nighttime teru

#i would tuck him into bed and give him a glass of warm milk. i would laugh while kicking him down the stairs.#i would die for him. i would kill him.#i hate him #he is like 9 times out of 10 what drags me back into tbhk ugh #toilet bound hanako kun #tbhk #jibaku shounen hanako kun #jshk #minamoto teru #my teru to kamisato ayato to shi wudu pipeline #its so real and makes so much sense- source: trust me #fanart #my art #also this is a redraw of a piece i didnt like at any stage of the process and i still dont like it :))))))))))))))

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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"I feel like the abuse I went through wasn't bad enough :( I don't even remember it"

Yeah so... are you prepared to hear information that could potentially hurt you

#i feel bad like skgkfjfg thats the point #you dont remember it because your brain is protecting you #sometimes its because the true nature of the situation was so harmful to you that your brain feels threatened by admitting it happened #other times (its still technically the same but in a different font) you subconsciously know you dont have anyone #who will believe you or will invalidate you or otherwise jeopardize your mental or physical wellbeing if you tried to tell them #like if you try to tell someone abuse and youre scared they will tell you it wasnt that bad sometimes YOU say it wasnt bad first #to protect yourself #i guarantee it was bad enough though. it doesnt even matter if the situation involved brutal abuse or was just an awful circumstance #if you dont remember it... that was trauma #thats what trauma is. it doesn't feel traumatic when it happens because your brain just cant comprehend it #it feels traumatic LATER when (if) you eventually realize you really thought you were going to die and it was that bad #your brain hasnt processed traumatic events as memories yet. because it was traumatic

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duskrosesims · 7 months

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"Did it work?"

#just so y'all know all of the lords in black simultaneously pissed themselves in the process of taking these photos #i dont know why it happened but honestly i wouldn't put it past them so #this took so long oh my god #i put off taking ingame photos for so long because I K N E W #but i really love how these turned out soooo #ts4 #the sims 4 #simblr #starkid #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #my sims

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skull-ishcloud · 1 year

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I think my biggest problem with RR is that I love the idea he has but not the execution.

Like, nice ADHD guy who uses humor as a coping mechanism. Nice, war between Greeks and Romans. Nice, Poseidon and Athena children couple. Nice, gender fluid badass character. Nice,

Then you realize the ADHD guy doesn't get much deeper than that. That, the war was caused by some flat ass character with no personality aside from killing panda plushies and superiority complex. That the A and P's relationship was kinda forced and toxic. That the said badass character is only gender fluid bc of her mom.

#rick riordan #percy Jackson #alex fierro #percabeth #leo valdez #octavian pjo #anti rick riordan #and all that adhd meds are bad kiddos #dont use them bc the teachers are actually want to get rid of your differently abled shit #like fuck you man #like as a person with adhd like you can totally see that he probably isn't #like the characters symptoms are used as comical relief #that they barely experience #besides like what was that shit of battle skills bc of adhd #like dude im pretty sure I wouldn't hyperfocus on battling a random ass monster #like ok my life depends on it #but i cant even process fast to hearing people talk #or catch a ball on PE #you think I would react fast enough to not die #im editing this like crazy but here we go #i went search for like where did rr's hate for meds come from #apparently his son (harley) tried ritalin #which sucked for him as it did for me #I have a few posts on this im just not in the mood to elaborate #and like Rr just dropped it and like gave up on trying meds?? like???????#idk if its true ok just saying some random things that appeared on google

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jackklinemybeloved · 1 year

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went into this episode excited to see ylfa and the beast interact and crossing my fingers for a good elody and gerard union and came out with an existential crisis about these young nihilistic women running themselves into the ground and destroying everything because they don’t know what else to do

#part of their argument is interesting but like.#i dont think theyve had that many more 'times' than the rest of the cast?#like the vibe ive gotten is that like. cinderella and snow white have been to more but not like. a ton. like not a ton of sets of memories #like 5/6 TOPS #and they're like 'oh no theres no way to make this better and if i still exist that means my stories where i dont have free will still live'#WHAT #idk.#i find them very interesting but.#it's very weird ya know #like at this point theres no real difference between them and the stepmother #other than maybe their motivation #like obviously things have to come to an end but like. that's what the wolf is for #the way he talks i think it's clear that ALL of the worlds wont last FOREVER #and everyone has said the worlds arent limitless #like once you die you cant go back to that story #idk i still have to process this episode. a lot happened #i have a lot of thoughts about the princesses but #it was really cool and funny to see rosamund do a full fucking 180 with 'D FUCKING W'#anyway. what an ep.#neverafter #dimension 20 #neverafter spoilers

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wall-e-gorl · 4 months

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got comm'ed to draw haiphie kiss like the atelut rian kiss gif i did! only pose not gif cause i dont do gifs as comms* but its coming out SO cute. i need to wrangle pose a little bit more and fiddle more with ephie face (its not as 3d as it should be >:T) but i need yall to look at it anyway.

#my art #crows nest crew #have we even told tumblr that hai and ephie are like. going to be a thing #have we told tumblr that ephies boyfriend is going to die for narrative reasons and we are already invested in haiphie asdfas #DID WE TELL TUMBLR THAT HAI AND SIL TALKED AND HAI OFFICALLY BROKE UP WTH SIL??#FOR CLOSURE ON HER PART??#HAVE WE TOLD TUMBLR ABOUT EPHIE HAPPY EAR WIGGLES #we need to keep you guys UP TO SPEED and i dont think we have #this is what happens when you have hit after hit in every session i suppose #edit i did a whole * and didnt explain #i did a comm for crows dmsona and made it also a gif cause theyre my best friend and i wanted to do something extra for him #thats the only gif comm ill do lol #its be way too expensive. my process is too complicated and fucking bad to do a reasonable price for

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haunted-xander · 8 months

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I'll bury myself with your suffering, if that's what it takes

#girls when they love someone so much yet are all to aware that they unwittingly cause them suffering #and would do anything to ease it for them #even die #i think about how she makes SEVERAL comments on how she wishes she was dead so thancred wouldnt suffer so much #when she suggests fusing with minfilia proper shes literally like. i dont care what happens to me anymore i want to do whatever i can #even if it means dying/disappearing in the process #she genuinely thinks this is the only way her existance is justified #as a vessel and stepping stone for minfilia #bc shes not strong enough not fast enough she doesnt have minfilias powers #and (as far as she knows) she doesnt even have thancreds love. the person she loves the most doesnt actually care about her (in her mind)#all her life shes been a source of suffering for everyone around her #her existance was a threat to vauthry and a source of grief for ran'jit #and grief and hope and hate and love and everything all at once for thancred #like he did love her. but he also hated that it wasnt minfilia. and he grieved having to lose one but also hope for whoever would surivive.#all she wanted was for him to love her for HER and when she couldnt have that she sought his love the only way she know how #by becoming the person he wished her to be instead #ryne waters #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art #xander being insane about ryne #tw blood #cw blood

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erros429 · 1 year

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im the kind of jaune stan that both really likes his character and also thinks there’s too much of him in the show jkhfsakjhfash idk how to explain it

#rwby #rwby spoilers #jaune arc #from the way that his breakdown took away from ruby's in ep7 #actually #not really 'took away' more like distracted from #to the way that he was portrayed in ep9 #there's just so much focus on him and i want there to be more from our main girls #why didn't any of them process that ruby literally just like. chose to die. and instead we focused on jaune's development AGAIN #it's v1 all over again #i miss v7 and 8 jaune #he fits the background supporting role much better than taking the forefront the majority of the time #and dont even get me started on that wh/iteknight nonsense this ep... i really hope they stay platonic #gives me the ick that shes 19 and hes like djhflkasjdf 40 #even tho hes probably gonna go back to being younger again it still doesnt sit right w me #ANYWAYS I DIGRESS #erros doesnt know how to shut up

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welldressedvillain · 2 months

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Promo clips.... the black armor.... THEY PAINTED OVER THEWIR ARMORS ENTIRELY ...... im killing myself

DID THEY REALLY NEED TO DO THIS????? ITS SO FOREBODING WHY WOUDL YOY

#bad batch eve used to be fun #this is the most stressful night of my life #i still haven't processed eps 10+11 and they're giving me THIS to deal with #oh we're so done it's so over #gonna start crying out of anxiety #see yall on the other side (only if i dont die in the process)#im taking melatonin tn #the bad batch #tbb s3 spoilers #the bad batch season 3

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i-bring-crack · 11 months

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If reincarnated into Solo Leveling as Goto Ryuji whats the first thing yall do.

#solo leveling #goto ryuji #i had to put all the characters in a choice poll and this man came out so #its him #truck isekai kuns you and now you are him #literally first thing i do is dont die. and dont be stupid in conquering korea #then process how the fuck does japan survive the S rank gate >:v #oh no responsabilities >:v

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