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nururu · 1 year

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me full of love and whimsy: liking everyone's story posts on instagram

everyone else: only likes mine if it somehow pertains to them

like this isn't a big deal but where are the ppl like me who are enthusiastic about ppl they like having fun and being happy or just sharing parts of themselves? I need more ppl that enthusiastically support me even if it doesn't have to do with them. I deserve the energy I put out. I stopped doing that bc y'all make me insecure like I'm doing something wrong.

#if i dont get the same energy i just stop doing it #bc im autistic and thats a big sign that im doing something wrong socially #and like #i want to be enthusiastically supportive so bad #am i allowed to????#is it normal or is it annoying?#idk i get really happy when ppl do that for me #if i dont do it #is that like a sign that im cooler? that i couldnt care less?#but i do care? a lot #if ppl don't do that for me #does that mean they think my posts are stuoid and annoying?#that my selfie is ugly?#that they hate me?#is it rlly that cool to be detached and uncaring and unsupportive?#idk man

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up-in-flames-writing · 9 months

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In lieu of Stuff Your Kindle day, can we talk about the issue of how the m/m genre of books, romance or not, is almost entirely dominated by women? Can we talk about how the most recognisable gay couples in media are written by women? Can we talk about how queer men can't even write about ourselves, how we are only allowed to exist when it's from the point of view of a straight woman sexualising us?

Can we talk about that? Or am I going to get called misogynistic for pointing out the disparity between who gets the writing deals, & who gets their books turned into movies, & whose shit gets popular versus whose doesn't? Can we talk about how m/m fiction is only allowed when it appeals to a cishet gaze, or is that too much for tumblr to take?

Can we also talk about how trans queer men are even more hated by publishing? Can we talk about how we get shit from both sides? Can we talk about how books about the experiences of being a queer man, written by queer men, never get the same recognition as books written by women on this subject (barring academia which has its own problems)?

Can we talk about that? Can we?

#booker speaks #no bloody clue how to tag this #this is for the tags only but #people would get up in arms if the f/f book scene was dominated by cismen only #why are we not extending this same energy to ciswomen writers of m/m?#why did we forget about the original meaning of own voices?#why are queer men pushed out of publishing in the way that we are?#& im not just talking about romance here #like there are fantasy & scifi & contemporary novels about men loving men that are written by ciswomen who have a very narrow view of what #m/m relationships are like. & this extends towards stuff like manga too but im not gonna get into that cause i dont read mangs/comics #can we talk about how hard it is to find queer masc authors nowadays?#saying this both as a reader & as a writer #can we also talk about how lists of queer & especially trans novels almost always forget to include anything by transmascs & gay transmascs #or if they do include us its 1 transmasc book to 1 enby book to 8 transfem books or books about the 'trans experience' in nebulous terms #can we stop reccing detransition baby & start reccing the spirit bares its teeth?#can we look at works written by queer masc people that arent just red white royal blue & stone butch blues?#go read cemetary boys #read alexis hall & max turner #read bloom if you like comics. or nimona #read my shit too!#im gonna be focusing on my writing blog way more this year #& im working on some projects that may or may not end up being published in physical form #read more queer masc stories by queer masc authors!

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stardustdiver · 1 year

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ynow i always feel like caffine does absolutely nothing to me

bc i can have coffee and im feeling anywhere from on any given day: tired sleepy, riddled with anxiety and/or hypersensitivity, and 🧍 emoji irl

then days where i give the coffee a skip, i can range from: tired sleepy, riddled with anxiety and/or hypersensitivity, 🧍emoji irl

i dont think days with coffee strike me as any particular state more than others compared to days without coffee

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mantisgodsdomain · 3 months

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We ought to write more Pokemon fic some time. We want to recreate the Pokemon Manners/Human Manners cheat sheet that we made a few years ago we think that this site would like the Sliding Scale Of Politeness When Greeting A New Pokemon You've Never Met Before.

#we speak #writing #we grew up with pmd games and we feel like the way that pmd pokemon's dialogue tends to be excessively... direct?#should be a feature and not a bug when any pokemon that you meet might be totally unfamiliar with your species and biology #it's probably very polite to start up front with some basic facts about yourself so they know how to act going forward #the very upfront feel to dialogue also very much helps with keeping the dialogue feel more... pokemon #people mock the series for weird npc dialogue a lot but we think that taking these things literally makes for more fun society building #it doesn't all have to fit with socially acceptable for our world we think. polite in our world isn't even consistent by household.#sometimes a polite interaction sounds like “hello! i'm poochyena! i like to chase people and bite!”#name and immediately socially useful information. now you know about the chasing people and biting so you don't assume it's rude #of course poochyena bites and chases people. it likes to do that. you can say you don't like that and it might stop doing that to You #but it will not stop biting and chasing people because that's what it likes to do and it will probably only befriend people okay with that #it makes a very specific dialogue feel that's very fun to do. we like how the pokemon world tends to treat any sort of like #disability or “weird” things as something that you just say out the gate and everyones like “oh okay”#and then treat that as Part Of Interactions going forwards. there are a surprising amount of parts of the pokemon manga #that are dedicated to working around a character's disability after one or all of their means of dealing with it get taken out #admittedly we aren't that caught up on newer content but we find the way that it tends to be just Accepted as very refreshing #making the dialogue this direct does also tend to make it read as more “childish” in english and particular because a lot of Maturity's jus #learning how to dance around what you're saying or phrase it in different ways to get your idea across differently #whereas here everything is just as direct as possible. “i don't like charmander”. “i like roasting berries”. “i want to dig things up”.#all pokemon dialogue tends to go towards being exceedingly simple and it makes for some very distinct writing #especially when you have to tackle complex situations with characters who probably dont employ that sort of vocabulary #though we personally enjoy doing this sort of stuff your mileage may vary ofc #we are biased towards this sort of thins because we find it MUCH more fun to build up what we're talking about from blocks #than to like. try and use more indirect wording that may lose things in translation #unfortunately this is not fun in irl conversation. everyone has to be on the same page and you need to use the same playbook to communicate #we REALLY wish people said what they meant though. we're really tired of being asked shit like “is this accessible”#when what they mean is “can you climb these stairs” a question which depends on the day our energy level and how things have been going #there are a lot of things we could say that would make us feel like some sort of anti sjw type guy and a lot of em boil down to just #"for the love of god dont dance around a Sensitive Topic just get to the point and ask us about it this just makes things harder for everyo

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fleshdyk3 · 27 days

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god i fucking hate my dad

#he came home today from a bike trip he went on and he's been arguing with me about honeybee the whole fucking day #he keeps saying just let her out let her run around! every time i put her in her pen to nap #and he refuses to stop her from biting him #and he got mad at her for playing with his socks when she'd just been playing with mine and he threw them on the floor of the living room #which first of all stop being such a fucking slob #and second of all what the fuck did you expect to happen? it's a soft new toy on the floor where she spends most of her time. where all her #toys are. very similar to the two soft items she's allowed to play with (my socks)#she's fucking 3 months old she doesn't understand the difference between my socks and his socks #and i keep telling him i know what im doing i was doing all the research while he went to buttfuck nowhere on his midlife crisis motorcycle #but he just wont fucking listen to me #and hes like oh youre at that age where you think youre right about everything and are so stubborn like fuck you actually #first of all im stubborn about this because its a living breathing puppy and his actions will affect her behaviour as an adult #and bc i know what im fucking doing. ive been an animal person my entire life. i did all the research. i did this exact same thing with #parrots for five years.#and hes like you cant just put her in her pen every time shes being a dog like no i fucking dont. i only put her in her pen when it's time #for a nap and she's getting overtired. you can't just let her run around until she collapses bc for one she never fucking will #second that's only going to make her energy threshold higher and then she'll be absolutely impossible to handle #and i told him that and that i read that on like every professional dog training source i read #and he said that might be true or might not be #like it fucking is bitch omfg #and then he tried to one up me like um i actually raised you guys for a long time i know what im doing #like a child is not a fucking dog. also my mom raised us lets be fucking serious. and look how well adjusted i turned out #and he told me to relax and calm down like i wasnt even arguing with him but i sure as hell will now #like dont tell me to fucking relax. when has telling anyone to relax ever made anything better. especially a teenager. especially a (for #simplicity's sake) woman.#and i told him dont tell me to relax and he got all pissy and stormed off #like literally fuck you #im my fathers daughter. im just as stubborn as he is.#rambles

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moonlit-orchid · 5 months

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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

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majorshatterandhare · 1 year

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I’m thinking about how the Mechs use energy, because they do things and live and therefore they *must* use energy, that’s how physics (and biology) work.

I had the idea that they are always absolutely frigid to the touch because they suck in heat from the environment like an endothermic chemical reaction.

#the mechanisms #another crack idea #it would make the most sense for them to be able to run on multiple kinds of energy #and yes i know the actual answer is that they just do. its magic basically. but thats not fun for me.#what is fun is trying to figure this shit out #and if you disagree. thats fine. disregard my musings. but like. idk what to tell you. im autistic.#of course the way i enjoy the media is different than most people #i dont think its surprisjng that the way my autistic ass likes to interact with the mechs is to disect every little bit and try to fill-#holes in ways that make sense in our understanding of the universe and their world #like you could just say that in the universe that the mechs live in physics doesnt work the same and energy isnt needed #which is fucking insane #but you could. my question would then be how the physics does work and trying to figure that out.#i just wanna stick my fingies in the holes in the story like its a crochet blanket and make flex them around #thats whats fun for me. which means that its super frustrating when i pose these questions looking for people to play in thd space with me-#and they just get shut down with answer like ‘whatever serves the narrative’ or ‘the mechs are unreliable narrators’ or ‘jonny lies’#tbc unreliable narrators can be very fun. but its not fun when it stops the possibilities or the conversation.#its not fun when ‘unreliable narrator’ is the end.#i think other people may enjoy the freedom of just doing anything that that gives them (or ‘whatever serves the narrative’ does)#but i dont because im a scientist which means i want to figure things out which means there must be a framework #if anything could happen at any time then you can’t make a cohesive story.#and i coukd argue we know thats not the case since ivy predicts stuff based on likelihood #anyway i managed to go down a rabbit hole tangent of why apes and roundworms hybridizing is the most ridiculous ‘scientific’ answer ive-#seen in scifi. so if you’re interested in that. hmu

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skitskatdacat63 · 8 months

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vettonso soulmate au im begging catie

Soulmates x Teachers

Hehe ty Ari, I had to think on this for a bit cause I don't tend to do modern AUs, but I think what I came up w is pretty fun and silly. As you can probably tell, I like forcing them to be in situations. This is very personal to me, but I love to imagine them as foreign language professors in a relatively small department. Fundamentally they should get along, as they have very similar backgrounds, but they have to fight for resources, so they despise each other…yet feel an inexplicable pull to each other and can’t stop bumping into each other. Anytime one of their students references even just the other’s courses, they just can’t help themselves from making some petty comment, like: “Oh you’re going on an abroad trip? But it’s with Dr. Vettel? That trip sounds cool, but I wouldn’t want to be stuck with him that long.” “Spanish? Oh yeah I wouldn’t take any classes with Dr. Alonso, I’ve heard he’s a pretty ruthless grader.” But on one fateful day, the department head decides that as a bonding activity, they will have to accompany the French professor on a multilingual abroad trip as additional guides. Oh no, their planes seats are next to each other, uh oh the hostel messed up and now they have a joint room, uh oh! Is it soulmates if they’re constantly forced by outside forces to constantly be around each other? They don’t have a lot of obligations as they’re mainly just in France, so they have a lot of free time and don’t want to be alone, so they begrudgingly hang out. And now that they’re away from the hypercompetitive environment, it’s just them walking around on the quaint French town like “omg you like [blank] too??” And then in a couple semesters after the trip, they run a joint linguistics history class, and finish each others sentences and grade papers together, and everyone wishes they'd go back to pretending to hating each other. The petty remarks were more palatable than having to watch them practically commit HR violations in front of a class of innocent students bystanders

#lmao i constantly think abt how my one prof unprompted said that exact remark about abroad trips abt my other prof #and afformentioned other prof constantly makes petty remarks abt Russian(said other prof's department)#not that theyre soulmates LOL but like that is the petty energy these guys would have #just absolutely cannot have a convo without namedropping the other and its always something super petty and not at all related to the convo #and then they get together and do the same thing but now its gooey compliments and thinly veiled declarations of love #all their closest students before this were like omg how do we fix their toxic relationship :( and now are like 'oh god theyre soulmates'#also i hope this is soulmatey enough for you????#they're pretty drawn to each other but dont want to get along w each other cause theyre in compeition(to win the hearts & minds of students #but as stated feel inexplicably drawn to each other and cant stop running into each other at every turn #and this trip is just the final straw and they cant keep away from each other anymore #vettonso #catie.asks

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arvoze · 11 months

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the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

#i am making this post to ramble. idk if it will actually change anything but i am trying 2 be hopeful .#ive been very. Rough all month thus far both physically and mentally and occasionally both at the same time #i am just hoping tht wat i am getting soon will help me do things bc ive rly had no energy to do anything at alllllll #and i rly dont want to like. Explode i would like to get things done #i have things i owe to people!!! i just dont have the spoons to do it Ever and it piles iup and up in my head #it fucking blows dude i have been stuck in a horrendous loop for like almost 6 months #i just want 2 be normal u know . i am hoping something will change soon #if it does not change in the nesxt few days when my shit arrives i think im like. Done For in general #like if im unable to get anything done in the next few days then i am going to very seriously have to reconsider #literally everything i do online i think. its a bit fucked up #ik it sounds like an exaggeration bu there is noooo way in hell i am Surviving like tihs !!!!!!! slash srs #i wish twitter circles did not die so i cold blow up in there bu back to ye olde norm of tumblr tags will have to do #also it feels less invasive so like. win for me ig. i do miss rambling nonstop in tags #i miss tumblr!! i miss a lot of old stuff. reminiscing for reasons both good and bad. the tumblr stuff is the good side tho #anyways i have been slowly chipping away at writing thigns this month and ik its like. not a lot at all.#but its a lot to *me* and when youre someone whos only capable of doing so mch its like. a big deal #(im writing pmdnd stuff finally getting back into gear nd stuff i have been trying to slowly draw the npcs #that ive made whilst trying to recover in other areas bu rghghrghgrgr i dont ewant to draw #i havent wanted to draw in a long long time blows up)#i shuld. stop typing actually i am rambling too much i jsujt have nowhere to mindlessly ramble anymore technicaly #i dont want to bug my friends w me being unwell all the time DFJKGHDFKGFG #mayne i will try to ccontinue with the npcs. we will see based on if i post again in the next 30 minutes

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duckduckngoose · 6 months

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Can my dnd character PLEASE stop evading every attempt at me trying to either develop her backstory or just anything

#the duck quacks #primrose i love you but girlie. you have got so little going on for a 1 year character STOP REFUSING TO LET ME GIVE YOU ANY NEW INFO #i always get blocked when i want to do something with her kglfdkgfd. my DM is asking what direction i wanna take her and like! i want to do #something! its just idk anything. our campaign was built for a oneshot and this character was also very much built for that. like she just #had a couple notes for playing (like 1-3 personality traits) and thats it hhhh. as the campaign got longer i thought id try to figure it ou #but! brain said no sadge #mmmight ask my dm if i can switch characters but idk. its been a year jgfkdgfd. someone else switched a bit ago tho so i might do the same?#idk. ill probably end up with th e same problem of sketching out a very basic character and not developing them JGKLFDJG #and i dont wanna play most of my premade characters bc theyre like a tad too complicated to introduce? that might just me being nervous #about playing them idk. roleplaying is harddddd and our dnd sessions are like super late for me so i never have the energy to focus on stay #ing in character #idk im jsut screaming into the void aaaaaaaa

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konfizry · 6 months

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Anyway speaking of the sun did I ever tell you about the tales of arise eclipses

#im thinking about it again xyhdfgdchdchjh #do you think they like. considered it #i MEAN ofc they did #they cided that sun disappearing behind rena but dO YOU THINK #that they initially planned to have that actually impact like. the WORLD #in a significant manner?#with the actual luminosity level being affected and all #because like for cyslodia iirc this means no sunlight in the morning #(or cyslodia that we get to explore cyslodia's pretty big after all)#but like i can see how this is a problem like #you liberate cyslodia that is the One Realm where its always nighttime except when you end the renans' grasp on the region there #it still doesnt get a full day of sunlight because of astronomical reasons that we cant do anything about yet #also probably the region of the Central Ocean is in perpetual darkness as well but for those same astronomical reasons #like it GERS CONFUSING it would confuse everything idk #but heres the solution: you ditch that cyslodia in endless nighttime idea bc it was stupid in the first place #like. in calaglia they harvest fire astral energy so its a fiery place. theres fire everywhere. in menancia theyre harvesting #earth astral energy so its super lush and green. and so on and so forth #and in cyslodia theyre harvesting light astral energy so theres. theres no light. its dark. because theyre stealing it!!!!!#well why usnt menancia a barren wasteland then. why isnt ganoth super dry. wha #i COULD accept it if like. maybe. if like the completely stealing the light thing us like. ganabelt specifically.#like hes just a Special Boy and found a way to pull all the stops #and something like that has never been done before in the history of the crown contest #but no this has been going since the great conquest apparently so???#like how arent the other lords doing something like that too?#is light astral energy like so fundamentally different that the harvesting process is the opposite of what happens in other realms?#and if thats the case why dont they ever explain it in the game. or just make a pasing comment about it. I'm not picky #aaaanyway. just get rid of that specific cyslodia plot point #and THEN you can focus on how living in the shade of rena influenced what parts of Dahna #like. to just kinda like. cement the world building a bit?

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cruelsister-moved2 · 1 year

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that thread i rbed like ages ago about men's urge to disagree/object to/obstruct women for no reason has seriously reset my brain its so crazy but i think actually one of the rare things that actually might represent a way forward for how men engage with women. like there's always going to be the rightwing ardent misogynists who don't care that they're doing this but for all the men in the middle that do on some level want to be better it represents 1. fairly confronting evidence that your position in the patriarchy actually affects how you relate to women much more than you realise it does even if you think of yourself as self-aware and 2. a genuine example of something that makes us all suffer because the fact you niggle on every single issue like what flavour of ice cream to buy is unhealthy for relationships (of any kind) AND introduces unnecessary amount of background strain to your life for no real gain. maybe im being an idealist but i love the idea of a man experiencing a certain amount of horror upon recognition of this as a catalyst to other more meaningful recognitions and changes both in how he evaluates the competence of women but also in recognition of the subjectivity of he perceives things i.e i think one of the biggest barriers to confronting the housework gap is often that men don't SEE how much women are doing and also don't SEE things that need to be done, to the extent that ive seen men argue that the solution is just for women to not care about being surrounded by mess. anyway no conclusion but i cant stop thinking about that thread both super horrifyingand also kind of hopeful

#i absolutely think it applies to other forms of marginalisation as well #but can take different forms e.g a man assuming he will make better choices than his wife even about something really minor and stupid #vs an abled person assuming they have more insight on a disabled persons' experienes/condition #but i think its the same fundamental urge going on #but yeah like personally i find disagreeing with ppl really unpleasant when it builds up that its like you need to pick your battles for #when it matters. of course you can go to far and avoid conflict but like as a perfectionist autist i have to constantly address my tendency #to like. get annoyed about someone pouring milk wrong or something. like even when they are actually wrong. sometimes it doesnt matter.#and i think the fact that this is how you treat people you LOVE and in many cases would probably say you respect #should make it liek especially wounding to realise #i also dont think women are immune to this behaviour as i said above and after all we pick up communication habits from the people we #communicate with. but i think it stems from patriarchy in pretty much all its iterations #and theres also an answering affect women can develop where you just shut down and learn to give in on every issue/devote your energy to #avoidit coming up in the first place #like you stop saying what flavour of ice cream you want at all. which i think is the end goal of this behaviour whether thats actually what #the person doing it desires or not thats what it seeks to achieve

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electricpurrs · 1 year

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do you think if i went to college id have the opportunity to hang out with friends and kiss cute boys. is this where im gonna need to find the motivation to go to college

#everytime i go to therapy its always the same thing my therapist just talks about how i need to stop mopping and doing nothing #and go to college and do something with my life. its what my friends and my parents say too and what i know i should do #but my response is always ''i dont know'' and i dont make any plans or do anything #i dont know. i have nothing im interested in enough to study. nothing i want to go to college for. nothing id like to work with forever #i cant get the energy to leave my bed and i cant imagine getting the energy to study hard for several years and then work hard forever #with how i feel right now i cant imagine myself having the energy or the strength or the motivation or the focus to do anything like that #all i spend my time hoping for is just the general idea of feeling better. i want to make friends i want to hang out #i want to date i want to transition i want to play videogames i want to live by myself and not have to worry about money or about my parents #but i imagine these distant things refusing to admit that to achieve them i need to do these impossible things first #so i come back to having to think of college. and im stuck again #blehhh #ALSO SORRY FOR THE TONE SHIFT BTW the original text post was supposed to be a joke but then i start actually ranting in the tags

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heyitslapis · 9 months

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I don't have time for people who don't have time for me

#yes yes i know adult life leaves little room for spending time with people who you care about & even if we have time we're burnt out #but my whole adult life has been white-knuckled clinging to relationships or people that barely if ever send that energy back #as soon as theyre onto the next person that will entertain them. as soon as theyve found something to fill the time that i usually take up #as soon as theyve gotten all they wanted from me emotionally. as soon as its inconvient to see me. almost as soon as theyre bored #then suddenly its me waiting for a text. waiting for a day to hang out. hearing over and over again that yet another thing is more importan #than me. and i get it. life happens. schools important. work is important. rest is important. but at the point im at in my life #im looking for people who actually make an effort not just give months and months of excuses as to why they suddenly cant hang out #im a pushover. im easy-going. im a very understanding person. i get it bc theres also very few days per week that im free to socialize #but i cant keep letting myself act subservient to everyone else in my life. i always put my friends & potential friends so high on pedestal #i treat them & their time as precious. now i refuse to let someone do anything but the same for me. my time/energy/love is just as precious #i dont deserve only a text when you need something from me or just to act as a treat to tide me over until the next transgression #and i certainly am NOT going to be the person that you can stand-up and then expect to still answer your text. not anymore.#in prioritizing my mental health lately ive realized that this pattern HAS TO STOP. i cant allow myself to continue the same harmful cycles #i deserve better. i need better. i WANT BETTER #emma vents #vent tag #healing tag

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castingcomets · 1 year

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Every summer I feel like i've grown a lot and I'll do better this time around but then the Autumn hits and the specific way it makes me feel has changed and grown and compounded too and now like every year im sitting here with so much homework feeling so lost and uncertain. And I want to make cookies

#GIRL .. GET A CLUE. Every year #Last year i remeber feeling at first that the autumn madness was the same as the winter madness and that #it shared elemnts with the spring madness #and i stopped thinking of it like that bc Thats Stupid.#I understand seasonal nostalgia sure but you dont need to put it quite like that . Im sure theres too much overlap for discretion of terms #But right now im like. OK this is autumn madness ceritifed like 100% pure #Lastb year i had a lot of energy so the signature enervation was curtailed so i confused it with some other things #But this is certifed . And i feel like an idiot #''oh i can do fall classes of course i did that my whole school career didnt i? my whole life'' DROP OUT OF HUMANITIES NOW .#Im not sure if there even is a winter madness but i know that there is the January Reckoning to be weary of (seasonal deporession)#I feel like winter classes would be easier at this point come on .#I was hoping that this year would be easier bc ive grown and learned stuff and like #I DID NOT WANT TO RELIVE THE MISERY OF LAST YEAR DOING ONLINE HOMEWORK IN THE BASEMENT #THINKING ABT dbgt characters like my life depended on it even though i hadnt the time .#And it's already better im sure bc im doing in-person school now which helps but STILL. I just want to sleep for forever #I did this last year too i made a post like this and ranted to myself in the tags EXPECT ONE NEXT YEAR TOO

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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and if i think of jo being really good at extremely niche things for masato's sake who's going to stop me

#snap chats #'extremely niche things' bitch its housework #now we all know how i feel about sharing ideas that i plan to doodle at some point.... it feels illegal to me. spoilers...#HOWEVER i wont get to this for a while prob and ive had this on the dome for months so. ill let my demons free #like i keep being haunted by the idea that masumi leaves jo to watch masato for like. the afternoon or something #and of course Kid Has To Eat but does jo know how to cook? n. no.#he tries giving masato burnt eggs and kid almost throws the plate at the wall #pleaaaase give me a montage of this man sitting on masumi's kitchen floor with cook books next to him #sir you do not need all this material for scrambled eggs just watch the eggs and butter the pan 😭#please let me see him get frustrated trying to read a set of ingredients but then looking over to masato who's sitting Right There #and he's just. Do It For Him Do It For Him Do It For Him Do I all the while masato's pouting at him ☠️#stop i just reminded myself of this one post yk the fuckin post thats like. 'what i think of while doing a set' and its just #'if i dont do this set some burglars going to break in my house and kill my dog and i wont be able to do anything also ill be gay'#thats jo in my heart. same energy. its 100% or nothing #'if i cant cook these eggs my sons going to starve and im going to be an even bigger piece of shit'#i spent all my tags just talking about cooking. good god. but do we see my vision

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