clockworkreapers · 11 months ago
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for the anon in my ask box sending me a screenshot of an ask: idk what to say you probs have the wrong person here- that or I just dont know why you sent it to me. While I'd like to help , Im not in that server I dont think I ever have been I just run alternian empire and vibe in fantroll spaces (I actually tend to avoid mainly homestuck spaces). I think that is something you should bring up with admins and mods from that server specifically or just leave. Im not sure who the mods are there or the admins and I dont have much power to do anything- Im like completely unrelated to this idk how I even could do anything. The only thing I can do is have domain over my own servers, im sorry that has happened- I'd just leave tbh, irl stuff has no place in fantroll spaces.
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doctordeathawaits · 7 months ago
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Hey can you please do trans4channer id really appreciate it if you could :>
tell a friend to tell a friend im ba- * gets shot *
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TRANS - 4 CHANNER ...
First familiarize with the website , what is it's concept ? It's a no-signup website , all anonymous , only thing differentiating is randomized numbers for a ' name ' .
Familiarize with the slang , simple things like greentext , op , kek , -pilled .
I suggest lurking first before deciding to fully start posting , just to get a feel for which board you wish to interact the most .
See what other people post in the boards you have an interest in , after observing them , you can try to post things surrounding what you have observed .
How to act like a 4channer ? 4chan to this day is considered the underbelly of the internet ( not really though lmao ) , so holding yourself on a higher pedestal because you browse it could be a start .
Acting like an incel - optional , yet most 4channers are incels . So thinking that everyone is against you , yet also seeing yourself as a higher person . Dislike all people who do not share your beliefs , avoid intercourse since no one will be good enough for you , praise hateful ideology .
( Optional ) Have that incel swagger , V-neck shirts with skinny jeans , optional zip up hoodie or suit jacket , mandatory fedora .
Hope these helped even just a little bit , Happy Transitioning < 3
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antiv3nom · 7 months ago
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Bedman (Romeo)
omg havent had an excuse to talk abt bedman in a hot minute thank u anon...
favorite thing about them:
i love the tragedy of his story arc... that feels like a weird thing to say but its the first thing that came to mind! just. look. the road to hell paved with good intentions bit taken to the extreme really works here!!! the idea that he remembered the name of every person he ever killed because he was under the impression he could bring them all back, only to have the rug pulled from under him? hurts me! in the best way!!!
other than that i do enjoy his design, both romeo himself and the bed :] i wanna give my bedman cosplay another try sometime for sure, it didnt work out for various reasons but i have most of the components and would enjoy cosplaying him fr in the future
least favorite thing about them:
i think i dont really dislike anything about the way bedman is written in the source material strongly enough to point it out here? i think my main gripe is the way the fandom treats him to either extreme, like theres "bedman did nothing wrong ever" people and "bedman is horrific" people and i wish both camps would chill out and recognize hes like. a complex character? but i do think most people do this already which i can appreciate
favorite line:
im a little obsessed w his win line against may in xrd
"I do not understand humans who are motivated by love. A person is born, lives for a number of years, and interacts with up to eight billion people. What proof is there of something they can't even define?"
bc like. buddy. you dont even realize it. YOURE driven by love. all this shit wasnt just for yourself but it was for delilah too!!! fuck!!! you dont even see it as love you see it as necessary because shes that important to you!!! and dont even get me STARTED on the bed in strive and how its still running because of his last minute code additions which almost act as the last part of his will to protect delilah. GAHHHH
brOTP:
BEDMAN AND AXL INTERACTIONS. PLEASE. PLEASE. their dynamic is so interesting as characters with such fascinating ways of interacting with the world...gah. GAH. and no one fucking talks about it!!!
OTP:
sinbed. must i wlabo.
ok but i will, im not as into them as i was like a year ago but i still do really enjoy their dynamic. sin being such a beacon of hope and being so willing to see people as good contrasted with a post-xrd living bedman (bc all my sinbed stuff exists within au but im having fun out here so sue me) seeing himself as inherently evil due to his actions despite his intentions and believing no one would ever care for him? it hits for me
nOTP:
i dont know of anything off the top of my head that ive seen for him??? nothing prevalent at least.
actually on second thought i think ive seen like one instance of bedman and ram in a romantic sense, and that im not a fan of but i guess i could see the appeal, just not my thing
random headcanon:
this motherfucker would have gotten heated in some internet forums or wiki talk pages, DEDICATED to accuracy out here and he WILL fight you about it
unpopular opinion:
not entirely certain i have one? i think the "bedman while flawed is not actually a terrible person and was doing his best given his extremely fucked up circumstances" is a pretty cool take by this point for most people
i think the only thing i have is that my interpretation of bedman has always been as like a young adult rather than a kid but like i dont really have a concrete opinion on that and i totally understand people who do see him as a kid like its entirely understandable to do so
song i associate with them:
other than his character themes, its GOTTA be dramaturgy by eve, which just. it gives the vibes. read the english lyrics it will make sense i prommy
favorite image of them:
THE EEPER...
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OTHER than this one its more an animation but his 6p in xrd is so silly i love it so bad...and for a more serious option his instant kill is really cool
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limeade-l3sbian · 10 days ago
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hi i know this is weird and tmi but idk i need to get this out of my system and tell someone anonymously
tldr I live with my parents & was using my dad's computer and he had a porn tab open. not that surprising unfortunately. but the reason im freaking out (& cant tell if im overreacting) is bc it was stepdaughter stuff
and i went in history and typed in 'daughter' and yup theres a couple months of history there
i don't know it's just scary. i have a good relationship with my dad generally but there's definitely some Complicated elements to it. he's very affectionate to me above all my siblings. and now i'm just like.. freaking out.
Is it a coincidence?? There's no way for me to know. I just have to hope it is. Idk it's weird and scary knowing this. I feel like my perspective has totally changed and when he comes home in a couple hours I don't know what I should do.
I'm sorry if this is upsetting or disturbing, if u wanna delete this that's fine. I really hope this isn't out of line to send I'm just upset and disturbed and can't find anything online and aaaah i don't know
I'm really sorry, anon. That is a fucking traumatizing thing to see and you the fact that this is not the first time he has just left porn tabs open for you or siblings to discover is concerning in and of itself.
I don't have a clear answer. Know that all of my suggestions are coming from someone who does not know the finer details and dynamics at play within your life. I also do not know the cultural complications of what my suggestions might bring so PLEASE use your personal discretion. This is your life and I am some random lesbian on the internet just concerned for you.
If you can, you need to tell someone. I don't know if you're underage but if this is unsettling you to the point where you are feeling unsafe, you need to tell someone. I don't know if telling your mom is a viable option but if you can, please do. I say this with the admonition that you may be brushed off or his deeds will be considered as "normal" and that you have nothing to worry about. But if nothing else, have this behavior on public record to those around you.
"But what if it embarrasses him?" He should have fucking thought about that before he left porn tabs open for his literal daughter to find. You deserve to feel safe as much as anyone else, and if you don't, then something needs to change.
Not to make any assumptions, but it concerns me that if this not the first time you have found a porn tab open, that he might have intentionally left it open to be discovered to inspire curiosity in the things he is watching.
Please be careful, anon. I wish I had better words and better advice to give. I'm hoping other women on here will have better advice.
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ganondoodle · 1 year ago
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(this is not about anyone in particular but i have encountered this argument alot too so i wanna say sth about it)
the thing that people like to use as an excuse to why totks story was so lackluster that they think of the gameplay first
but how is that an excuse for bad story and inconsistency with the game its supposedly a sequel too? does good gameplay suddendly mean that the story gotta be bad? they made it work just fine with botw, sure its got its problems and there are things that could have been better like in any game, but they made it work with the themes, it felt harmonical with the rest of it
yeah the story feels like an afterthought in totk, bc it probably was, but it didnt have to be, and not to toot my own horn here but thats what im trying to do with the rewrite, yes im including some wishes i have that would never be canon but this is ultimately wasted work im doing anyway, im restructuring the whole game bc i want it to be in tune with itself, i took the route of most changes bc its my little brainfart were i can make it into something i really want while using the real game as a basis, all that work is in vain anyway so why not go all out, but i have several ideas, some even written out, on how you could have made it better, sometimes with minimal changes even and even then, they dont matter, the game is done and higely successful, im just a random dude on the internet thats part of the 0.01% of fans that dont like it, im just insane enough (or autistic enough lol) to basically do game design and writing for an entire game IP i dont own and never will for a game thats already finished and wont change regardless of how much work i do or how much i yell about it
if you think its 'unfair' to the canon game bc some things are not doable (tho honestly given what they have already been able to do nintedny would absolutely be able to do everything im writing) or bc im changing so much then ok? if you think they had their reasons and thats ok with you then ok?
im not tho, and no i dont think they had a good reason nor good excuse to do it like this, thats my opinion anyway, and my opinion doesnt matter in the grant scheme of things
like you dont have to like anything i do with it, its not a demand of the devs, the games done already anyway and nothign will change that, im literally just making it into the sequel i would have loved, i would have wanted, i would think is better but thats just me, all of the work im doing for this project is an outlet for my frustration with the game that i cant let go bc i love the franchise, and most importantly botw, so much that i cant let it go
so if you dont like what im doing, thats fine, but move on then pls bc im not demanding anyone to like it and if you choose to engage with it despite not liking it thats not my fault now is it
and if you do like it i want to thank you for your support!! it means alot that maybe, even if its technically wasted work and time, its really not fully useless, if it can bring even one other person a little joy, thats a good engouh reason for me to keep posting it :3
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sutherkins · 1 year ago
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for the peter sutherland girlies 💌
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people had always judged him. it came with having a father who was branded a traitor. he didn’t even care when people talked about him, but now the conspiracy nuts were targeting you. a completely innocent person, all because you had chosen to associate with him. he didn’t understand it, didn’t think he ever would. and to make it worse, you wouldn’t even let him defend you.
if you were being honest you didn’t really mind the rumors. at least, not the ones about you. the things people said about you bore no comparison to the horrible lies they spread about peter simply because of who his father was.
“why won’t you let me defend you?” peter asks one night when they’re in bed, some random show on the history channel playing in the background.
you sigh. “puppy, the things those people say about me are even close to as bad as the things people say about you.” shifting in bed slightly closer to him and taking his hand in yours. “besides, as stupid as it is, you have to keep your head down a little. if not for yourself then at least for me. you’ve worked so hard to get where you are and i don’t want some idiots on a the internet to ruin that.”
peter squeezes your hand and remains calm even though a fire was brewing inside when he thought of the things those people said about you. “you see the things they say about you, right?”
a moment passes. “yes.”
“the things they say about you aren’t just nothing. i can barely make it reading through a couple without wanting to punch someone. not that i go looking for them or anything, it’s just frustrating. at least the people talking about me have a story to run with about the son of a traitor. you haven’t done anything wrong. how do you deal with it? that kind of hate, specifically?”
you mute the tv now, being able to tell this was going to be a longer conversation than you anticipated. “you mean the misogyny?”
peter nods.
“i don’t know if what i do is dealing with it, really. none of the things they say are true. about you or me. i know who i am and i know who you are, too. of course it hurts that lies are being spread about me just because of who i love, and it hurts that there are people out there with so much hate in their heart that they feel the need to take it out on me. and on you. but they’re wrong. that’s enough for me.”
a couple seconds pass before you speak again, “i’ll still defend you from stupid trolls online though.”
“so you can do it but i can’t?” he smiles.
you love his smile and wished it was a permanent fixture on his face. “pretty much, bub. i know you don’t like talking about it too much but, you deserve it.”
“and you don’t?”
narrowing your eyes at him, you tell him, “that’s not what i’m saying, you dork. im saying you deserve to have someone looking out for you. i already have someone to look out for me no matter what. you’ve been doing it since we met.”
peters eyes haven’t moved from yours, and they’re full of love for you. “it’s weird.”
you tilt your head. “what is?”
“having someone look out for me. i haven’t had someone do that for me in a while. even when i was with zoe.” he meant it. you were always supportive of him and it never wavered, even when he told you who his father was. when he needed someone to lean on, he always knew you’d be there with open arms.
you smiled softly, your hand reaching up to touch his face. “i kinda figured. it’s not that i don’t want or appreciate your support, i promise. you give so much to me without even thinking about it and i wanted and still want to do the same for you. you’re a good man, peter. the best man i’ve ever known. it kills me knowing what you’ve been through and that no one even bothered to support you afterwards.”
a couple minutes pass, his eyes closed and your palm resting on his cheek. peter savors this moment of peace and unconditional love that he hasn’t known in a long time. soon his left hand was moving towards yours, gently grabbing it and giving it a short kiss. “i love you. you know that, right?”
“i do.” you lean forward to kiss his forehead, feeling the tension leave his body from just your touch. “you know i love you too, right? i know you sometimes have a hard time accepting it because it’s not what you’re used to, but i love you with everything i’ve got. nothing’ll ever change that and i mean it. you’re kinda stuck with me.”
peter lets out a small chuckle, bringing you close to press a chaste kiss onto your lips. “i know. i may not always understand it, but i know.”
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fleapit · 5 months ago
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“No one is saying gender is a choice”
https://www.tumblr.com/genderkoolaid/752910129568055297/we-should-start-having-the-gender-talk-with-our
They quite literally are. Though. As well as identities, treating as them as if they’re just toppings you pick and choose rather than descriptors that have minimal criteria. Calling yourself ftm because you “like the label” and being ftm bc you have sex dysphoria and wish to/try to/are transitioning to a more male body are two incredibly different things, you don’t “choose your gender” you simply are a gender, and the “progressive trans people” (ie people co-opting this for whatever reason, to feel special mainly) pushing this idea are fucking over actual trans people to a fucking giant degree.
dude im going to be so honest with you, youve been in and out of my inbox for three days and it's kind of weird that you keep refreshing my blog to send me asks about this still. that is NOT what the post you linked is talking about and you need to work on your reading comprehension. that post is talking about how we should make it EASIER FOR KIDS TO COME OUT AS TRANS because gender identity is fluid and is something that they can change, which a transphobic society tells them is impossible. fuck, dude.
literally nobody is saying that being trans is a choice. but fucking honestly man, even if it was, why do you care? it doesnt affect you. i mean this in the nicest way possible but if someone does/doesnt experience dysphoria, how they identify, what their personal feelings are on THEIR presentation and their gender? that's just none of your business! and you don't get to go around demanding to know every little bit of someones traumatic experience- or lack there of- to decide if they're 'trans enough' or not.
nobody is pretending to be trans to feel special dude. thats right wing propaganda bullshit that you've fallen for. you just dont know their life and you are not the fucking authority on it. your experience will never ever be 1:1 with someone else and you can't decide that yours is the superior one to have. you don't get to decide that someone isn't trans just because their identity doesn't make sense to you. fucking grow up.
someone else's joy is not obliterating yours. it's not a random trans person on the internet's fault that you have dysphoria. stop blaming other people for your problems when they're struggling just as much as you. you aren't entitled to the details. move on with your life and MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY instead of trying to make OTHERS just as miserable as you are, because no matter how much complaining you do, someone isn't going to just STOP being multigender or STOP being a trans man and a woman or STOP being nonbinary just because YOU DECIDED it wasn't real and they were 'faking for attention'
honestly. we're all just trying to pay our fucking bills. it doesn't fucking matter to the people trying to murder us if you're a binary trans man good perfect ideal tranny who passes 100% or a multigender fagdyke they/its 'pick-me attention seeker' - THERE ARE NO GOOD QUEERS IN THEIR EYES, AND THEY WANT US DEAD. i think that takes priority.
just mind your fucking business and you'll find yourself a lot fucking happier. good lord.
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teruthecreator · 2 months ago
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looks at you with huge eyes. Pink Mage
im going to rip all my hair out i literally answered this and went to post it and tumblr was like “teehee no internet connection” which is a FUCKING LIE
ANYWAYS (rips off my shirt to reveal an I <3 EVERHOOD shirt) LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO
Sexuality Headcanon:
uhhhhhh (blasts them with the lesbian beam) anyway
Gender Headcanon:
agender!!!!!
A ship I have with said character:
i dont rlly ship anything in everhood tbh. no time for dat goku we have to KILL EVERYONE
A BROTP I have with said character:
pink mage and rasta beast make me INSANE. so much of their implied friendship is so fucking real and god just like. imagine being rasta beast man that shits gotta SUCK! YOU KEEP HAVING TO STOP YOUR BEST FRIEND FROM KILLING EVERYONE AND IT SUCKS AND YOU MISS THEM BUT THEY JUST KEEP GOING BACK INTO THE DOLL BC ITS MORE STABLE THAT WAY AND AUGHHHHHHHHH. i also think pink mage and blue thief post Everything is great. like a pink thats able to accept red mage as a part of their identity would get along great with blue thief :-) they can reminisce about their journey…
A NOTP I have with said character:
kind of hard to have a notp when u dont rlly ship anything. However comma i will literally attack you with hammers if you put ANYONE next to orange mage. i dont like them
A random headcanon:
okay this kind of goes into my personal interpretation of how everyone got here and how the mages became mages but i think pink used to be some sort of scientist/researcher! i think all of the mages were and thats why they were the first ones to discover the passage to everhood. but before pink could cross over they got hit by a car and Died but oops not actually dead bc something something destiny soul potency made them into a light being! and thats how they crossed over and why they are the way they are. i know this sounds insane but it MAKES SENSE TO ME OKAY…
General Opinion over said character:
love pink mage!! love the kind of moral quandary they have with red mages existence bc on one hand they wanted to do all that but on the other they didnt want to be Responsible for it. i think the way they interact w the player is interesting and i wish we got to see a little more of them in-game/talked about by other characters but whateverrrrrr pink mage forever yay
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kalpeavaris · 7 days ago
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FAQ & Info Post
Some Information upfront
(just something quick to link in my pinned post)
Something I gotta mention upfront is that I’m a blind artist. Please do not send me asks/DMs in different fonts or e.g "l33k speech", I can't read these. I take some time to respond, dw, you're not being ignored! Sometimes I just get overwhelmed writing.
Also, my blog’s a safe space for queer and disabled folks as well as mental health topics. I don’t tolerate any ableism or queerphobia on this blog nor do I wish to discuss that. I don't take myself too serious on the internet & am mostly just here to share stuff that makes me giggle like a hyena on adderall. B)
I speak both English & German, so feel free to use these languages with me! My English is better though (despite being german lmao)
FAQ below the cut!
Do you take requests/commissions/art trades?
I don’t do commissions (anymore), but I am open for art trades if I pop off with someone’s art & OCs. c: Usually for Art Trades I'm not thaaat picky about "quality"/"artist level", I just go off of vibes.
If you're interested in like an Art Trade or Collab just shoot me a DM and I'll see how my schedule's going. Can't promise to accept everyone, though. Sorry!
I do draw random fanart for other people from time to time if I'm in da mood so I don't get burned out on my own stuff. BD
Can I DM you?
I mean I can't stop ya- if we’re mutuals go for it! I usually check all my messages, but it might take a second or two for me to respond. ;;
Can I send you asks?
Sure! I love recieving asks and answering them if I can from both non-mutuals and mutuals. c:
Can I draw your design/oc?
Omg ya! I love fanart! Doesnt matter if its for AU re-designs, own designs (like my personal Drone!Tessa or own characters). Do tag me in it if you wanna, idm tags!
Can I use your AU redesign for my AU/story/etc.?
Generally speaking I dont mind. Most of my redesigns are fairly minor in the way I change them up.
The only two designs I dont really feel comfortable with being included in other stories are my Drone!Tessa and Cyn Synemy redesign. Fanart absolutely, but I feel uncomfy with them being used in third party medias as seperate entities.
Is your blog 18+?
Uh tough one. I do not draw (and will never draw) nsfw content on this blog. a) Because I do know minors follow me and b) I'm just not… vibing with nsfw lol (esp not with MD).
But generally speaking I do sometimes mention slighty “suggestive” things, but the farthest I go are either punchlines for my shitposts or like… people kissing before marriage. And affectionative biting. lol.
I do post about mental health topics and stuff like trauma, I usually put TWs on these posts so you may block them if you want to (e.g “tw: death, tw: abuse” etc.)
Still, if youre below 18 and wanna soley follow that’s totally gucci, I just ask of you not to DM me if you’re below the age of 21 (asks are fine!)
Are there DNIs?
Im generally chill with most things. Only things that’ll land you on my blocklist immediately are suggestive/nsfw messages, asks or comments or if you send me like really vile shit.
Also please do not sent me asks/DMs with links to other websites, I generally do not trust those.
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a-small-batch-of-dragons · 3 months ago
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How do you feel about all the attention you get? How does it feel? Is it sort of surreal? Are you used to it? Is it something you've been working towards or something you changed upon?
I'm a writer myself and I find myself sort of in awe of the work you tend to do and the attention you get for it. You're a very good writer but your methods are also good advertising in a way. Though, it's not really advertising, it's just work that draws attention to itself.
Sometimes I find myself wishing I could have your sort of attention, other times Im glad I don't.
I hope you don't find this ask offensive, I don't mean it to be rude.
I got this so long ago I'm so sorry it took me this long to answer it I'm just really bad at cleaning out my inbox.
I'm going to be completely honest: most of the time I don't...realize it? It's a weird thing over the internet to be like 'oh yeah there's this many people reading and engaging with my stuff' but it's a hard thing to realize over what's mostly numbers and notifications. That sounds really bad, I know, but every single time i genuinely get to connect with someone i'm always like OHMYGOD WAIT YOU READ MY STUFF??? IT RESONATED WITH YOU???
It is a dream of mine to be a published author who can support myself entirely through my writing. In that very cynical capitalist way, sometimes i think about it like building my reader base??? but i do wonder like if I wrote original fiction would you guys read it, or are you just here cause i can make tropes and characters and fandoms that are popular? on the rare occasions that i do want to post original work i get scared that people won't like it or won't be interested in it and lose interest in me as a writer in general
one of my friends once told me that they were having a conversation online just with a random person and they said that i was their favorite ao3 author and i fully shut down for like 20 minutes. sometimes i say something out loud to a friend (or a moot) about how i don't feel like i'm that big of an author and then they go asbod what the fuck are you talking about so that's always fun
i do get scared that i won't be able to keep writing, like at some point people are going to either get bored of me or decide i'm actually not as good a writer as they thought i was, but it is surreal that someone who's never met me in real life has been impacted by one of my little scribbly things I posted online
i dunno if that answers your question (literally half a year later i'm so sorry again) but those are my nonsense thoughts on the matter
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multigenderswag · 2 years ago
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ranted about this to my friends but a lot of times when it comes to genderqueer and multigender people dating there’s a persisting idea that someone’s identity is being “invalidated”
straight guy dates a multigender person? he’s either a queer in denial or he only sees his partner as a girl.
lesbian dates a multigender person? they’re not *really* a lesbian since they like men, or their partner is “just nonbinary”
those two example are probably the same thing twice, but my point is it always comes down to “they see you as only one gender!” or “you’re not *really* your label!” no matter how you spin it.
I feel like I can’t exist because of this. like I’m a cursed object that if someone touches one of our identities magically falls apart.
I wish I was strong willed enough to be celibate. Im not religious but nunneries seems really good right now.
Regarding the first example, I feel like there's a lack of understanding in queer spaces that heterosexuality can sometimes be just as nuanced and complex as other sexualities. I've often seen the idea that straight people can't date nonbinary people and truly respect their gender. If someone can be gay and date a nonbinary person, why the hell can't someone be straight and date a nonbinary person? Heterosexuality doesn't have to be super simple and one dimensional.
And regarding the second example, people just reallyyyy like to police lesbianism.
The idea that a monosexual person dating someone genderqueer really sees them as [x] gender is such bullshit. You're not a part of the relationship. You don't know how these people actually feel about each other, you're a random stranger on the internet. Shut up.
And the idea that the person is actually a different gender, or their partner is actually a different sexuality, is also bullshit! Revolutionary concept here: People are the experts on their own sexuality/gender, and you have no right to say you know their identity better than they do.
As a bigender person, I would personally feel most comfortable with a mspec partner, but that doesn't mean no multigender person could ever be in a happy, gender affirming relationship with a monosexual person.
People will also doubt the identities of binary trans people's partners. Like, if a trans man is dating a straight woman, people will doubt the woman is really straight. It's all the same old shit that gets directed at all trans people.
If someone doubts your identity or your partner's identity because you're multigender, just tell them to fuck off. You don't have to avoid relationships just because someone outside of the relationship is an asshole about it.
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luetta · 4 months ago
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i'm going back to what 16 year old me used to do in full swing i think. type to myself on dead forums. wanna know a story about me? i used to post on that nazi reddit alternative website voat. for years. not anything political, i just made a subreddit that was my username and made posts everyday about how obsessed i was about a girl called rebekah in the grade above me. i never talked to her a single time in my life. she was just pretty. hundreds of posts. eventually randoms on the website found my posts through the new section and started commenting how creepy i was. and then i guess i referred to myself as a waitress and they started thinking i was a girl who had a lesbian crush. of course i did nothing to disavow that notion. and then when i was with my friend finlay in class, i was on a school provided laptop, seeing what the suggested autocomplete web searches for a, b, c, etc were. and when i looked up 'v' it came up with 'voat [my username]. i guess on this laptop sometime before i had searched it up. i begged him not to look it up and deleted it all the moment i got home but he just went on internet archive and essentially held this blackmail over my head for about 3 months. at the end of high school finlay wasnt popualr in our group (there was always someone who was the cyberbullied person of the day in our group.) and i honestly did a fucking asshole thing. i always say that i was nice and just a victim of this mean group but i did this thing, which completely undoes all that. there was a barbeque for the entire grade on a saturday, school organised but essentually our own thing. in the discord finlay was wondering whether to come, lots of us were there already. i said that there was barely anyone here lol. and that was a complete lie. i lied and made him miss this event for no reason other than to dogpile on him. that night everyone was fighting and i chimed in and he told everyone about my voat account and also about how we had accidentally discovered each other in a league of legends erotic roleplay discord server. so yeah that was fun. i refused to talk to him for like 2 years lol. anyways. the point of this is to say. that im gonna start doing that again i think. post a bunch of stream of consciousness text posts of angst and self loathing and envy and hatred. cus i feel like shit and that's my self harm. im too much of a pussy to do anything else when i feel like shit. i just sit on the computer and make myself feel worse. this can be my self therapy. getting my thoughts out instead of letting them fester inside my brain forever. i can't be fucked going to therapy properly. it doesnt help cus idk how to articulate anything properly. ill get asked whats wrong and ill be like. i dont know. and honestly thats barely a lie. i dont fucking know whats wrong with me. i know that there is something wrong with me, but i dont know the reason why ive turned out like this. im just a fucking weirdo i think. i literally thought that i wasnt a creep anymore after transitioning, that i figured it out. but nope. im still a fucking creep, thinking about girls that i know, obsessing about them. urgh. i feel like. i've fucked my transition up. i fucked up the choices that i didn't know were choices and now im someone i don't want to be. i just want to be someone else but thats not possible because the person that i am, currently, isn't someone that can be someone else. i know that you can just change who you are ! you can do new things and stop doing old things. you can be someone else. but i just cant. i try but i just always circle back to this. uninteresting blob of a person. who does nothing except sit in their room and wish they were someone else. an uninteresting blob of envy. that's all i am and will ever be, i feel. and that sucks. i dont want to be that, but there's nothing else i can do about that. im too uninteresting and unadventurous and afraid to reach out and form connections to people that i wanna. cus thats how you change as a person. by being with other people. you slowly give each other parts of yourself
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shoheiakagi · 6 months ago
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I agree with you about the tags u left on that anon being rude to ciassu! Seriously thats just plain so fucking rude smh. Anyway u ended your tags with mention of shuhei x yata that op was going to write and it got me curious bc ive never thought of that pairing before lol so now im wondering if u have any other yata or shuhei ships u like/can think of? Sorry for the random ask i just want to see if theres any other ships i can add to my list other than chitose x yata lol
Hi!! Thank you for reaching out! And yeah, I feel like some ppl just like to send anon hate cause they’re bored? Like what is the end game here? You’re not gonna be the person with the last laugh cause your ask is either gonna be deleted or responded to in a post. And like, if you think there’s other writers who post the same type of fics, then why don’t you just focus on them? People need to realize that writing fics and drawing art is a skill, and that the creator puts in a lot of time and effort into perfecting it for the audience. I just don’t get why some ppl act mean online, when they don’t have that same persona irl?? Like why act like an internet thug??
Anyways!
Yes, I was also intrigued when I saw how op was working on a ShouheixYata fic! Like I know some bits and pieces of how they’d interact as friends, but as romantic partners? I’ve seen some EricxYata and and ChitosexYata, but never a ShouheixYata. I’m sooo curious cause Yata is terribly shy when it comes to romance, while Shouhei is charismatic and nicer than the other abc boys. Like is Shouhei going to be all flirty and try to charm him?? Does Yata develop a crush on Shouhei which he tries to hide but miserably fails at it??
And I do!! So to start off, I’ll be honest and say that I’m not really fond of romantic!banshou. Its weird cause i have other ships with similar dynamics, and i also adore both characters individually, but im not the biggest fan of them as a ship. I think its probably bc i dont like how its portrayed by the very few fans they have, and how a lot of things about shouhei, end up revolving around bandou’s inferiority complex towards him (which really sucks as a shouhei’s girl who wants to learn more about him).
But despite being in my y/n feels for shouhei, i do have a few ships for him! I don’t think it’s as obvious as it was when i first created this blog, but shouhei/eric is the closest to an otp i have for this fandom. Its probably bc theyre my top two faves, but i do think they have strong potential to be a sweet and interesting ship, and the few interactions they have are so cute 🥺 the fact that shouhei is the only person Eric refers to by their first name other than Anna 🥹🥹 (although i do think its probably cause everyone refers to shouhei by his first name lol. If im not wrong, i think eric refers to fuji by his last name despite being very close). I also do think they’d look really good together! Despite Eric being unkempt and not into fashion, he is objectively very good looking and i think his sharp and cool features are a good contrast against shouhei’s softer and warm features. I genuinely do think shouhei is the second person eric is comfortable with, after fujishima. I also ship shouhei with chitose and akiyama! I think i started shipping shouhei with chitose sometime last year and honestly? I think they’d be a fun and hot pair. I can’t really see them being them in a serious and committed relationship, but i do think they would probably hook up here and there (or even just be really good friends, since theyre pretty similar to each other except for some differences). Akiyama/Shouhei is always going to be that one opposites attract/enemies to lovers ship for me lol. I wish their fight scenes from s1 were longer, im so curious on what the dialogue would have been like.
Yata was my first ever fave character/crush when i first got into K back in 2012, but unfortunately that died out. But i do think ericxyata is such a cute and funny pair! I remember reading this really old fic on them in which yata learns english just so he can finally respond to eric’s taunts, only to have the story end with eric kissing him on the cheek 💞 i don’t remember being sold that quick on a ship like i did with that fic lmaoo. They’re like my second favorite pair, but theres sooooo little content on them :/ thats what i hate about k. Most content are on the popular/designated ships, you barely see anything on different pairings/dynamics. Yata and Kamamoto are seen as platonic for the most part, but i can see some potential for it to turn romantic! Kamamoto is a ride and die for yata. Like if theres ever a rare chance that yata decides to leave homra (unlikely, i know), i do feel like kamamoto would probably join him idk. the loyalty there is really strong. I think yata and chitose would be interesting since chitose is a playboy while yata is a virgin, but its probably gonna end with a nasty heartbreak on both sides 😬
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bookwyrminspiration · 1 year ago
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quil I love you so fucking much you are the entire basis of this fandom
also thank you for pointing out the stuff about the satire blog it was making me really uncomfortable but I felt guilty about it cause im supposed to try to be a better person ya know? but im just a teenager trying to have fun on the internet in between school. yeah I get obsessed over random gay ships that have no chance of becoming canon but so what????
it's not wrong to try to see yourself in the story you're reading, is it?
sorry for the rant, I just wanted to say thank you for pointing that out
No need to apologize, Nonsie, and thank you, you're very sweet :)--though I'd say the fandom is based on the community of people, not any one person. I don't want to take credit for all the lovely individuals here that make this fandom what it is! Which might just sound like lip service, as I know I'm a big blog in the fandom, but I do mean it
As for the satire account, you're not the only person I've spoken to who's uncomfortable with it. Satire is a tool at the end of the day, but just in general I think mockery and negativity isn't an effective tool to get people to change--if that's truly what they're aiming for. I cannot speak to the motives of who runs the account, but sometimes it seems like being a "satire blog" is a cover/excuse. A kind of "it's just a joke" and "if you're uncomfortable, that's because you're the target and should better yourself" thing. Disclaimer: I am not saying that's what this mod would say, or that that's their motivation, just that it's the impression and vibe they're giving off so far. It inspires doubt
And it's not wrong to try and see yourself in what you read--that being said, it's important to be aware that not every story is for you. Sometimes stories are meant for other people to see themselves in it, to speak to experiences and identities that aren't yours, and that's okay. We shouldn't dismiss something's importance just because we're not in it; there should be variety, and it's an important skill to be able to engage with media and messages you don't see yourself in. It's part of how we learn about others and just good practice.
Given that the series we're talking about is kotlc, however, it's not one of those kinds of stories. So wanting to see yourself in it is a very reasonable, understandable thing! And you're not alone in it! I wish I saw myself represented as well, and so do many others in a variety of ways.
Anyway, point is that we are all people at the end of the day--and people (including us) can be shitty, yes, but people can also grow. But mockery of our peers doesn't encourage growth, and you're not alone in wanting to see yourself and express yourself without fear of ridicule.
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go-learn-esperanto · 2 years ago
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Hi there! I know that this is really out of the blue but im asking for a favor or some help w/ my cats current medical needs. Please if you have an extra time to boost/share it for us so that we could get some traction or it could reach more people, it would definitely help a ton! I understand if its not okay, Im so sorry for taking some of your time and I wish you to be safe and healthy always, xx.(Please considering answering my ask privately or probably hit me a msg if its fine! 😭🙏
Hi! I will choose to not reblog it and I will give exactly the reason why so in case you are a genuine person you might get the problem and be able to address it and give a reason as to why you just have a blog that is just like any other scam asking for help.
You have posted the post about your cats on February 3rd
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Nothing strange there.
Now your blog is very bare bones. It doesn't even have the custom Tumblr URL showing up. No theme. Just an icon, banner and description.
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Again... Not that strange on it's own. But! You have archive disabled.
Which seemingly stops me from checking when your first post was created. But in the end that's not necessary because scrolling down a bit makes me able to find it easily. Too easily.
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Posted on... February 3rd. The exact same day the post asking for help was created. In fact not even an hour before your asking for help post. And this is not a side blog. You sent me an ask after all.
You know how many scam financial aid stuff I get in my inbox? I reblogged stuff that ended up being a scam before. At this point I only reblog after doing a bit of a check.
Because you know, there are real people in need of help, people I will look and have old Tumblr blogs with posts of their own and clear interests. Not some reblogged posts of what's on the popular tags and suddenly a post asking for help.
Your blog looks like many scam blogs exploiting the kindness of people who want to help. Why would you have a need of making a whole new Tumblr account with a new email, reblogging some random posts before posting a post asking for monetary aid not even 20 minutes later?
And you only want people to answer to your ask privately. You don't want it to be known you asked for it. Because if I just reblogged your post it would seem more trust worthy. I reblogged a post from the source. "Maybe they even know the person" my followers might think. You even followed me because I will be so much more willing to reblog it if it means I get a new follower who's definitely interested on hearing me talk about Minecraft YouTubers on the daily.
And I'm sorry if you're telling the truth and I sound cruel (And I hope your cat gets well soon if that's the case) but... I don't feel well making my followers possibly giving money to a possible scam because I promoted it. You have to prove to be an actual blog, genuine person, for me to actual consider reblogging a post asking for money.
And in part I am answering this because your post seems ok. Believable. But I also know the ability of Tumblr scammers I have fallen for some beforehand. Because even though your cat pictures seem to have originated on your post that doesn't really change much because I could share a photo that I took of a cat last week, that was never on the internet, and do this
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I am so sorry to have to ask for this but my cat, Plinko, had to go to the vet because he was breathing weird.
Now the doctor has said we need to do more tests and with possible medication it can be quite a lot of money.
I am asking for $300 for now but things might get worse. :(
So please if you can help (you don't have to) it would be really appreciated if you helped with the costs. 💜
Ca$happ: xxxxxxx
It's not difficult. The certificate you showed? Not difficult to make in Word. There's not a single signature from a veterinarian (which you could fake anyway), neither a stamp (more difficult to fake)
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This logo is available online in a transparent format.
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So is this one...
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demonicintegrity · 8 months ago
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Watching from the sidelines as photomatt makes a fool of himself. and I'm just tired.
Listen im not gonna say "i hope someone dies in a car explosion full of hammers" has like, the strongest high ground standing. I'm above that. So may you. But I am gonna say it highlights the double standards pretty well. Are we gonna pretend like half the site wasn't openly wishing for Trump or any sort of alt-right politician to die? Not even like in a cartoony way? Just straight up memes about preparing the crave rave if anyone went? Which was a lot more passionate and strongly motivated than this? I watch so many people get straight up nazis in their askbox. I see so many bigots remake blogs without a sweat if they're even deleted in the first place. Misinformation and racist memes abound. But this small thing gets someone and all their blogs nuked off the website? Okay. Sure. Yeah. That tracks.
Hell, the fact no one can even tag him now shows a special standard. Wdym none of us can blocked being mentioned by others but the specialist ceo can because he's getting flamed for his own double standards? We can actually, its just buried in my settings I didn't know was possible until writing this and double checking. LMK if yall knew that was an option cuz I sure as hell didn't. @staff can still be mentioned and replied to on some of their posts, I'm sure some genuis is gonna have the bright idea to bother them even though they have no control over him. Hell, I've seen them being tagged in posts about policies and drama and all that! The ability to bother the working folks is never taken away but the ceo is above that.
(and no, it's not comparable to a kys joke, which I have never and will not ever condone. That's a fucking crime and terrible.)
(And if the average person can't get the police to do anything about the weirdos in their dm's, if celebrities couldn't get the police to help by being stalked by paparazzi, I doubt they're gonna take "someone on the internet I don't know wished I would be dead by a silly way" seriously. They wouldn't even take my roommates bike being stolen on camera seriously. That was a bluff out of his ass and we know it. He just wants to throw around power he doesn't/shouldn't have.)
("I hope X person dies" is harassment at best but not a credible death threat. It's hard to prove any sort of legitimate attempt behind the words. I would know, queer people get told they should be dead all the time and there's nothing that can be done because it's not a threat. I don't even think it was mentioned at him or anything like that, so it wasn't even intended to be seen by him. So yeah.)
And that's what all the outrage is about. It's the double standards. It's about how all these legitimately awful people still stick around because its not hard, but some random queer or otherwise marginalized person will get scrubbed off the face of the Earth because they were a little rude once. Or because they've done nothing at all. Remember when normal-horoscopes' blog got nuked for no fucking reason at all? Have no idea if that blog was ever restored. But man, all those posts unable to be searched for again.
And to be clear, I'm not surprised by this. In the slightest. When have ceo's ever reacted will to the people using their product not giving a shit about them? I may not know the entire story of who this trans women is and her history but like. But this part doesn't shock me. It sucks but its not surprising when Whatever Rich Ceo picks an enemy out of thin air and tries to drag them around as an example. It's happen so many times. I'm not shocked.
Nor does seeing the transphobia spike AGAIN because of it.
It's just exhausted that I set up myself here all comfy and everyone I follow is considering jumping ship again. I doubt I'll ever use any of the tumblr copycats. I got rid of my twitter. I've been putting off making an instagram for forever. If this goes assume your best chance is finding me on discord or by carrier pigeon. And ill be upset as hell because I love tumblr, it's my homebase, and I just set up my art blog here.
Yeah. So none of this is surprising. Disappointing, but not a surprise. You mean the website that regularly thinks any depiction of a queer person deserves a mature label with no ability to really appeal and fight against that, is being mean to a trans person?? Is the sky being blue also shocking??
Yeah whatever. This isn't changing or personally affecting me in any way but like. Man. Sure. Okay. Might as well be an issue on top of the others on this god forsaken webbed cite.
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