#imissher

[instantsandwichkingdom]

When she's in testing all day

@melon14

[adrenalinejnkie]

dont kill yourself, lets go have a drink

[bee-flower01]

GOOD PARENTING 101

This is one of my favourite stories about someone reacting to my mobility aid:

Little girl in the therapy waiting room to her mum: Why does that person have a stick?

The mum: maybe they just need a bit of extra help and that’s okay.

the kid: oh okay! 

(2 weeks later at another session)

*The girl whos waiting again gets all happy to see me*

me: Hi!

the girl: HELLOOOO!

*she then grabbed a bunch of beads from the toy bin and started making a necklace*

Her mum: what are you making?

The girl: a necklace for them *points to me*

Me: *MELTS* 

*she then walked over to me holding the necklace and put it around my neck like i was being knighted*

Me: thank you!

The girl: YOURE WELCOME!!

i also met her brother who was equally as sweet. that mum was doing parenting right.

(and yes i did sob after every interaction)

[caleyselflove]

Still trying to move on

Its really hard breaking up with someone that you used to be best friends with, because now ive lost that friendship forever. But to be honest im not even sure i want it back. I feel like i will never be ok again

[thedaintydoe]

here’s some olympias from the new sketchbook

[nastymeowmeow]

"Never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm."

My friend shared that quote and it's so good? I'm definitely having sad thoughts right now, and it's 10pm so... they are invalid by this logic.

I just really miss her. I know I'm being so annoying and pathetic about it. She's like at minimum 50% of what I write about, but she is at minimum 50% of what I think about all day. This is so stupid.

Would I go back in time and change things? Probably not. There were so many amazing feelings she gave me, and I wouldn't want to have had it any other way with anyone else.

When we first saw each other to play Magic in my living room, I remember thinking how much I loved her voice. It's sexy no matter what she says. The way she says certain words would immediately light a fire in my soul. She had a random anxiety attack when she left my house and immediately called me. I was weirded out because nobody makes phone calls these days, but I thought it was cute because she was truly embarrassed and nervous and apologetic and when she saw how I reacted, she was really grateful that I wasn't judgemental or standoffish, and I didn't invalidate her feelings. I was happy to be talking to her even though she had just been in my house.

The first time we went out together I did the most embarrassing thing ever. I'm almost 30 years old. I've been in at least 10 serious relationships. I've flirted before. I've been with women before. I should be chill by now, but we had a moment where I felt a romantic tension between us and I felt like she was going to make a move on me, and she was so close to me, I panicked and I literally side-stepped her and FUCKING RAN AWAY. I got so nervous I literally ran away from her. I can imagine she probably felt like she did something wrong or like I didn't like her like that, but it was the exact opposite. I still can't believe I did that. I felt like a fucking virgin.

When we kissed, it was amazing. I've never liked kissing. I have too many traumas that make kissing a trigger for me. It was a problem for a lot of my exes, because they felt like I wasn't affectionate, but kissing just makes me uncomfortable. I didn't feel that way with her, though. I felt safe, and kissing her felt so right.

Everything felt right with her. I think that's why I fell so fucking hard. Bitches be tripping status. Straight tripped and fell right in fucking love like an idiot. I never had moments with her that made me uncomfortable. I never felt unsafe. I didn't feel the need to protect myself. I should have. I shouldn't have let my guard down so quickly. That was my mistake, but I really thought she was going to be the one for me.

I could literally type for hours about all the things I loved about her. I just really miss her and what we had. I wonder if things were different in her eyes, though. I wonder what kinds of things she saw in me that made her want to leave.

Thank fuck for Tumblr. Being able to post to here any time I need to vent has been a fucking Godsend. Without it, I probably would have messaged her a million times and really pissed her off. Or pissed off my friends for talking so much about her. At least I get to be weak where nobody I know will see it. Except for Amber but she literally watched me cry in bed and on my couch for a week straight. She don't count.

Big sigh. I'll be rewatching the first season of American Horror Story to distract me from the sad thoughts. The only thought that's running through my head is "I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her." I wish my brain would just shut the entire fuck up.

[bestrevolver]

Echoes of the Heart, Shari - I Tremble (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1416892699-echoes-of-the-heart-shari-i-tremble?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=bestrevolver Poems of remembrance

[sarahs-disposition]

she's got glitter for skin, my radiant beam in the night .

[allthetime-23]

it's been 22 years since we lost aaliyah, she was truly an angel on earth as the late dmx said, 2001 was not a good year (and a third and final one was 9/11.) for me, i lost so many, it's sad #RIPAaliyah

[mothersrevenge]

[whatsheread]

When your daughter in Scotland surprises you with flowers. 🥰 #apictureaday #2022inpictures #ilovemydaughter #raisedherright #imissher #iwantherhome #specialdaughter #winterbreakcantcomesoonenough #icantwaittohugher https://www.instagram.com/p/CkwsPz6LN9e/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[1nsidemymindseye]

It's silly to think that you'd want something for someone so badly. For their dreams to be your dreams, for their wants to be your wants. The truth is if she wanted to be an astronaut I'd help her make it happen. There isn't a thing in this world I wouldn't give her within my power. It's from a pure place too. A place of love and belief. A place where I can be a fortress or a gardner dependent on the day and need. Of how I hope to see you bloom. I've seen it when I sleep.

[evoanakin]

Make me forget.. but remember it her for me:

She likes the moon, especially when its bright and big. She always once to be an astronaut.

If she can’t decide on anything, play rock papers scissors with her

She loves watching Dr. Dray on youtube and other skin care or anything in her interest for a long time to learn new things. She’ll research anything that puts interest on her or things she doesn’t know yet. If she sees something she likes, she’d look for it and find a way to look for it.

She loves tortang talong, ground beef with 80% lean with little of onion and more of the torta and egg. Sinigang na hipon with lots of tomato (don’t forget to smash it). Tinola with lots of ginger and bokchoy. No to pizza unless it margarita pizza or anything mushroom. She loves mushrooms on burger, burger steak, pasta etc. She only eats outer and mid part of a chicken. Never put cilantro on her food. She loves crabs it especially dungeons one. She drinks water after meals with lots of ice. French fries should be inside the bag and close it, she likes it a little saggy. She loves beef belly, mostly she likes beef and not pork. If its work, she likes the fat toasted. Never do double dips on dips. She likes her egg sunny side up and burnt in the bottom.

Too much heat causes her to panic, bring a fan for her cos she can faint. Day or night, her sunshade should be put. No food in the car only in the trunk. She likes a “new car smell”. Her favorite car is the GTR. When she gets home, she wipes her phone, bag, wallet, AirPods and her make up. No shoes inside the house. No outside clothes in the bed. When you use your pants in a dirty place, be mindful, don’t sit on the sofa just on the floor. She likes taking really hot showers, never cold even if its hot outside. She brushes her teeth no matter what, 3 times a day and always in circular motion. When she gets off the shower she put lotion when a little bit bet so that it sticks to her body more. Turn of the AC when she comes out. When its cold, she likes heater on her especially her feet. When on of her skin care falls, wash it and let it dry before putting it back. Anything that falls on the floor, wash it. Never touch her face or anything without washing your hands first. When shes laying in bed, never open the lights when she about to sleep, it wakes her up. Brightness should be low and no loud sounds. She likes sleeping with one pillow between her feet, in her side or to cover her head and one her actual head. She wears jogging pants and shirt/tanktop. She a light sleeper. When she snores, roll her or wake her up.

She likes cracking her body. Crack her back at night, every night. When she has headache, advil not tylenol. When she has stomachache or cramps, give her hot compress in her back cos it hurts the most. She gets panic attacks sometimes or anxiety, have a paper bag and she has her inhaler. Lets her do her breathing exercise to calm down. Never tell her to calm down or relax, but just hug her or give her a moment. When shes sick, give her ginger soup or ginger boiled in water with honey or ginger tea with 1tbps of honey. She bites her nails when she nervous or scared.

She loves Chester Bennington, her song to her mom is perfect. She cried when he died also with Avicii. Her crush are Chris Hemsworth and Erika Linder. She listen to different kinds of genre but mostly western music or hiphop. She loves Britney spears and a little bit of Mariah. She loves dancing hiphop music and sexy like when she could wear heels. She likes being the DJ on roadtrips or in a party.

Her favorite color is pink and purple/violet. But she likes gold and anything sparkling. Something boho style or vintage. Anything that looks girly, she likes it. Anything thats boyish, she likes it. She likes doing different colors or styles of make up she sees online. Not just that but also the hairstyles that she sees, she can do it. She doesn’t wear socks most of the time.

She likes the beach but can’t swim, bring her a floatty and never leave her alone in the water. Bring sunblock always and put again after 1-2hrs. She likes drinking in the beach and having snacks with beach towels and beach chairs. She doesn’t like walking especially when its far. Drop her off at the nearest entrance.

Her favorite flowers are peonies like blare. She loves gossip girl one of her favorite shows. Atypical and favorite movies is harry potter all of them.

She allergic to cinnamons

She needs wipes when shes taking a shit. Her shampoo and fem wash should be a cold one.

[modelsarecrazyclothing]

*in a room full of people the gorgeous lady at work's roommate and guy at work who started 3 months ago catch eyes, start laughing while listenin to the gorgeous lady who always ask them to chug champagne w/ her to gain trust. try to convince 93k people she's not interested in guy at work who started 3 months ago or gorgeous lady at work's roommate vibe but they already got a text for a new years eve party from her*

1 week later

*gorgeous lady at work's roommate and guy at work who started 3 months ago pass each other in the hallway*

gorgeous lady at work's roommate: sup

guy at work who started 3 months ago: remember when we thought the gorgeous lady that asked you to chug champagne w/ her to gain trust was joking about not being interested, she meant it. I saw her burning scripts in the parking lot

gorgeous lady at work's roommate: really

guy at work who started 3 months ago: for real for real well…bye

[bestrevolver]

Echoes of the Heart: A Collection of Poems for Shari - How Your Beauty Fills My Every Sight (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1415882645-echoes-of-the-heart-a-collection-of-poems-for?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=bestrevolver Poems of remembrance