#inklingofadream

[suttttton]

vampire fic made me realize i never commented about ghost jon so i'm gonna use your askbox to avoid the energy cost of swapping sites. I! have been thinking! about jon curled up in his sad lil corner ever since i read it. Also thinking about a variety of one shots and aus related to it. what if elias DID get jon a lil friend or marry him or etc etc. About Jon being dropped on the hard cold floor when he's so desperately sick and seeing elias walk away and leave him in the dark AGAIN. it made me fully cry, tears running down my cheeks, as your work so often does

(ghost jon context)

i am so glad you brought up elias leaving jon to die alone because that was my favorite part of the whole thing. i rearranged the whole story like twenty times trying to figure out the right time to reveal that detail, and I'm really proud of how it turned out where jon is thinking about it constantly but the reader doesn't find out until he's deep in the revenge 🔪🔪🔪

that scene also made all of elias' whole deal so funny to write. man could have easily avoided the whole haunting if he had simply stayed with jon (or even just left him alone in the comfy bed!) instead of being The Worst

elias in general was really fun to write in the fic ESPECIALLY with his lil fantasies about marrying jon and moving to some picturesque cabin somewhere. elias literally all of your friends and business partners know jon as a) your nephew and b) EXTREMELY mentally ill. like. i think someone would have objections, or at least questions??? idk maybe it would be an "official-in-elias'-mind" marriage where there are no witnesses or officiant or documentation, but we're married now trust me <3

thinking about jon as a tragic ghost is making me want to get the olivepilogue finished (fingers crossed for halloween??) but as a teaser here's the blog post gerry wrote after his interview with elias (under a cut because it's p long):

On June 5, in a series of events that I'm sure my readers are by now very familiar with, Elias Bouchard turned himself into the police for the crime of kidnapping, falsely imprisoning, and eventually murdering Jonathan Sims.

On June 6, Jonathan's remains were recovered from the Bouchard estate and taken to Westlake Mortuary Services for cremation. Westlake is a mortuary company that specializes in identifying psychic activity in their deceased clients, and every member of their staff is a certified medium. In their official report, they found no unexplained psychic activity or spiritual manifestations, and Jonathan was officially ruled a departed spirit.

Because of that, none of the journalistic coverage of the Elias Bouchard trial has made any attempt to contact or interview Jonathan, despite substantial evidence that Bouchard experienced psychic activity in the months after Jonathan's death.

On July 1, I obtained an interview with Bouchard. However, if you're looking for more juicy insights into the leech, you'd be better off checking the tabloids. My purpose in going was to look for signs that Jonathan is not departed at all, and after my experience, I can say with absolute certainty that Jonathan is very much still here.

Before all the skeptics jump down my throat, I know better than anyone that being clairvoyant is not the same as being a true medium. I'm not claiming to have spoken to Jonathan. I do, however, have an eye for psychic activity and spiritual anomalies, and Jonathan was making no attempts to hide his presence. He spent most of the interview leaning over my shoulder, presumably looking at my notepad. I felt his mood lighten whenever I said something rude to Elias, and I felt him darken at times when Elias said things I can only assume he disagrees with. When my interview ended (early, because apparently Bouchard is the easily-offended sort), Jonathan followed me all the way to the door.

I don't know if he heard me, or even knew I was speaking to him, but I told him to keep up the good work.

Manifesting a haunting is no easy task for a spirit. From this side of the veil, it seems like the simplest thing in the world—wouldn’t we all choose to keep living, rather than die? It’s important to remember that the dead belong to the beyond. The moment you die, your soul, your very essence, longs to be gone, longs to rest.

Imagine you’ve been awake for forty-eight hours straight. Finally, you’ve lain down in bed, beneath your most comfortable blankets. Your white noise machine is playing soothing ocean sounds, and just keeping your eyes open feels like a monumental effort. Is there anything that could pull you away from your rest?

Now imagine you’ve spent the past four years being tortured by a psychopath. You’ve long since given up on rescue or escape; it’s all you can do to make it through every day with your mind halfway intact. Then, finally, for the first time in four years, the pain ends. You don’t hurt, you aren’t trapped, and your tormentor is far away.

Would you go back?

I am so sick of the narrative everyone seems to agree upon that paints Jonathan as a tragic, helpless victim of a monstrous man. All of these articles and podcasts and numbered-list breakdowns of the evidence stacking up against Elias Bouchard treat Jonathan like his imprisonment and death were an inevitability of the kind of person he was.

At the time of his kidnapping, Jonathan was taking a semester break from working on his Master's degree. According to his academic advisor, he'd taken time off for his mental health. The rigor of the program was causing him considerable stress.

I keep seeing this fact brought up in articles about Bouchard. If I were being generous, I would say that the authors of those articles were trying to humanize Jonathan, to make the audience see him as a real person instead of an abstract. But I'm not being generous. Over and over again, Jonathan's mental health issues are at best held up as potential reasons he was particularly vulnerable to attack. At worst, they are used to explain why he never managed to escape in four years of imprisonment (as if Bouchard hasn’t admitted that Jonathan tried to escape multiple times).

Of course, it isn't just Jon's leave of absence that gets utilized in this way. It's every goddamn thing about him. It's statements from his ex-landlord saying that Jonathan always seemed a bit nervous when putting in work orders and his ex-boss saying that she tended to worry about him because he struck her as a bit naive. It's quotes from Elias fucking Bouchard himself saying that Jonathan was simply "an easy target."

Well, thank god the rest of us aren't easy targets!

This systematic evisceration of Jonathan's agency makes me furious. Jonathan could have left this plane as soon as he died, and none of us would have known what happened to him. Elias Bouchard would not be facing trial; he would still be living it up in his lavish estate, feeling absolutely no guilt for the things he's done.

Maybe he'd even have found another "easy target" by now.

But Jonathan stayed. He stayed, and he made sure that Elias Bouchard paid for his crimes. He made sure that we learned the truth. He made sure that justice was served.

This story is a tragedy, not because Jonathan could do nothing to fight against Elias, but because he fought with everything he had and it wasn't enough to save him. Jonathan died, and then he kept fighting anyway.

Just one more thing before I sign off:

I hope that fucker rots in prison.

[hellopartypeoples]

Yes i did binge all of @inklingofadream 's "Sitting pretty on the throne, nothing more i want (except to be alone)"

And yes I'm now obsessed. And yes I did make a playlist to supplement me until its maybe updated:

TW: the song "bloodlust" deals with intense themes of domestic abuse and manipulation, tread carefully.

See below for song comments.

“Praise the Lamb” by River boy

Unapologetically Cult

“You Are the Moon” by The Hushed Sound

This song sounds like the kind of devotion everyone in this fic has for Jon

“Anxiety” by Lena Raine

I imagine Jon has ALOT OF it.

“Comfort Crowd” by Conan Gray

A Jon @ Gerry song, especially at the start.

“Make you Love me” by Troye Sivan

Elias @ Jon

“Tired as Fuck” by The Staves

Never had a prayer to follow, I'll be coming home tomorrow....

“Discomfort” by AK, Veela

Jon song

“Sedated” by Hozier

Danny & Jon, passing notes between the gift bin

“Running Away - Extended” by Infinity Train

This song started playing DURING THOSE CHAPTERS AS I READ, perfectly fit the tension and hope. Pro tip, the infinity Train soundtrack is a great soundtrack for ANY TMA fanfic.

“We have it all” by Him Stones

A Tim & Danny song, when the truth of their Signing is discovered

“Now Go” by Erato

A song for Jon, during the few moment he wants to be alone in the fic and it’s respected. Could also be interpreted as a Georgie song :c I worry about her in this fic, I wonder how SHE’s been!

“Out there” by Nick, Diane, & Julian

Lyrics aren’t perfect, but the desperate passion matches Jon’s and Elias’ and Gurtrude’s manipulations

“Saferoom” by Miwako Chinone

Occasional chapters of fluff are safe rooms in this hell scape of a fic

“Bury It” by CHVRCHES, Hayley Williams

I think I'm funny :> and Elias, Gurturde, and Artefacte Storage song

“Bloodlust” by aeseaes

TW: this song deals with intense themes of physical and emotional domestic abuse

A song for when Elias/similar prove to Jon they’re not above physical torture and abuse, like most cults. The way this song mourns the loss of identity and self autonomy to ones that only consists majority of being physically/emotionally abused amd treated like an onject, up to the point of death and no one noticing....it’s a headspace I felt Jon was in and out of a lot in this fic.

“Afraid” by The Neighborhood

When you start sharing your body with an Eldritch God, can you be so sure it’s you waking up...?

“Even in my Dreams, I can’t Win.” by Bad Suns

THAT MOST RECENT GERTRUDE CHAPTER THO 

BONUS SONGS:

“Shipping Forecast” by the Longest Johns & “Light House” by River Boy

*banging hands, stomping feet, and chanting,” Peterlukaswhen, MartinBlackwoodWHEN

[whumptober]

Completionists of 2023 - 4/4

LBibliophile | @lbibliophile-sw | LBibliophile on AO3

JanetM74 | @janetm74fics | JMount74 on AO3

Pit/Leo | @pitandchase | Pit_and_Chase on AO3

@jinguangshanhateblog | ThebanSacredBand on AO3

@thisfairytalegonebad | thisfairytalegonebad on AO3

Shockdown Defiance | @shockdowndefiance | ThePaladinProse (shockdowndefiance) on AO3

@distant-screaming | onetacoes on AO3

Shiver & Evadenly | @faofinn

Hummus654 on AO3

dylacola | @dylacola | dylacola on AO3

Rocket--town | @rocket--town | cidsorel on AO3

@spirits-shackled | SpiritsShackled on AO3

TheMaddestHatter18 | @themaddesthatter18 | TheMaddestHatter18 on AO3

Riahlynn101 | @riahlynn101 | Riahlynn101 on AO3

Spine | @exquisiteagony | exquisiteagony on AO3

Cricket/Sinner | @donatellokinnersinner | CricketFerguson on AO3

BunnyoftheDarknessVoid on AO3

@justmakeleftturns | JustMakeLeftTurns on AO3

Alice | @alicewritingstories | alicewritingstories on AO3

Whumpslist | @whumpslist

hopeful_foolx | @eternally-hypothermic | hopeful_foolx on AO3

Fly | Fly_dot_net on AO3

two-birds-alone-together | @two-birds-alone-together | two_birds_alone_together on AO3

Sweet | @awesomedurraworld | Awesomedurra on AO3

Surro | @promptsforyourwhumpfic

@catsandgoodbooks | CatsAndGoodBooks on AO3

@inklingofadream | paperdream on AO3

Nyariewen | @elentary | Nyariewen on AO3

@m34gs | M34GS on AO3

Luna | @diegoalvesisgod | lunasenzanotte on AO3

Ace | @acealpaca | AcePerson on AO3

@katstiel | KatstielAri on AO3

FairyGothMother | @fairygothmotherisgay | Fairygothmother on AO3

Glittery | @just-a-glittery-fan | Fangirl_in_distress on AO3

SōryūAleksi | @copics-and-renegades | SoryuAleksi on AO3 | SōryūAleksi on Twitter

Em | @em-writes-stuff

Zee | @whump-me

Cyanide | @ordon-shield | probablyaceok on AO3

whumper-at-heart | @whumper-at-heart | Stark_head on AO3

TimDrakeIsMyPatronus | @timdrakeismypatronus | TimDrakeIsMyPatronus on AO3

jenneh | @wordlesslyjenneh | jenneh on AO3

TheQuietWings | @quietwingsinthesky | TheQuietWings on AO3

Susie | @susiequaz12

Ahmose_Inarus | @ahmoseinarus | Ahmose_Inarus on AO3

@meraki24601

Krokaxe | @krokaxe | Krokaxe on AO3

OuzoAthena11 | @ouzoathena11 | OuzoAthena11 on AO3

Ash | @ashintheairlikesnow | itsalwaystheapocalypse on AO3

Psychologeek | @psychologeek | Psychologeek on AO3

Airlock Failure | @airlockfailure | Airlock_Failure on AO3

Smiley5494 | @smiley5494 | Smiley5494 on AO3

Evan Melbourne | @candycoatedblood | kivancalcite on AO3

BettyCrockersSpoon | @BettyCrockersSpoon | BettyCrockersSpoon on AO3

HarpisrforHim | HarpforHim on AO3

@celira | Celira on AO3

...and that's it! Well done to all of the completionists, and thank you to everyone who participated! We'll see you next year!!

[Completionist Post 1] [Completionist Post 2] [Completionist Post 3]

[witherydithery]

Fanart of @inklingofadream's Little Archive!

I do so love free-for-use images that allow me to make collages like this >:3 Gotta love too many eyes

[mistpodfics]

now we're back (to the beginning) written by paperdream | @inklingofadream

A The Magnus Archives Podfic read by mistbornhero with a cover by for VoiceTeam filling the challenge MOOOOOD

Elias releases Jon from the closet to use him to cast something big.

Podfic Length: 13:56 minutes

[you-can-be-what-you-want-to-be]

For my friend @inklingofadream who’s gotten me obsessed with father Arthur rip me

[cobalt-knave]

tagged by the delightful @thewrongshop for Wip Wednesday to post a snippet of my latest wip!

I’m gonna post two actually because why not?

From Whiskelits, Night Enthusiasts, and the Death of Melinda Maudie Merkle, which is a Wrath POV for McGillicuddy And Murder’s Pawn Shop:

“Wrath wanted to laugh. He wanted to cry and sob and clutch at his hair and feel the curls of it without the fine wooden threads that had invaded. He wanted to shake Noble James by the shoulder and be wrapped in a hug. The man he knew. The man he knew! Who knew! Who would ever know?

He couldn’t sleep. That was one of the worst parts of it. He couldn’t sleep in the train car. He couldn’t breathe or sleep or move or speak. He could rarely see or hear let alone touch. He could only stay still and think and think and think, and maybe that killed him! Maybe he wasn’t the man Noble James knew or he knew or ever was! Maybe he was just a wooden puppet. He didn’t care and cared deeply. He’d made a plan and was sticking to his plan.

Damn any of them who tried to stop him.

And yet.”

And from an upcoming outside POV fic for The Magnus Archives, please enjoy Johnathan “Nathan” Smith:

“Forwarded message: October Meeting Schedule

To: jsims@magnusinstitute.co.uk

From: jsmith@magnusinstitute.co.uk

Body:

Another one meant for you, Jonathan.

Have a good one.

—Nathan”

I’ll tag @rainbowstargazerlilies @inklingofadream if you should be so inclined

[theoestofocs]

WIP ask game: Rules are as follows. post the barebones plot of your wips and let people send you an ask with the title that intrigues them the most and then post a snippet/tell them something about it! then, tag as many people as you have wips! 

Tagged by @journalofimprobablethings 😊 thank u for the tag, friend!!

for the sake of brevity i'll only list the wips i haven't published on ao3. this means that all of my wip titles are basically in code due to my organizational system ("FF - [# signifying fandom] - [# signifying fandom-specific work count] - [Acronym That Means Something Only To Me]") but ! a detangled version of my current wips:

batman

"every battrope i love at once" au (in which there are a multitude of wrongfully presumed deaths, jason & tim and dick & damian and steph & cass & helena-kyle-heiress-to-catwoman are all besties, babs kills the joker, and gotham saves itself)

"oh god i accidentally fell in love with each individual canonical talon, send help" (this feels self-explanatory)

Penumbra Podcast

"love letters" (in which nureyev has slightly more perceptive acumen than a brick, and rita is terrifying)

Magnus Archives

"hey what if jon turned into a mermaid but it sucked" (feat. unnecessarily extensive underwater worldbuilding, mer-stokers, mer-sasha, extremely concerned georgie & martin, and the usual bastard elias)

"this one is just titled 'eyes'" (in which i just think the fandom could make more use of the "magnus steals people's bodies & MAG 193 implies they're still alive the whole time" angst potential. i Just Think)

tagging @inklingofadream @blue-mood-blue @suttttton @pathos-logical & @itisi-asimplegay, and anyone who wants to play!

[fizasjam]

У меня появился фанфик к фанфику :D

Это далеко не первая работа, которую я пишу, но первая, которую я собираюсь выкладывать (не считая одного маленького драббла) и у меня лёгкий мондраж

Поэтому я прошу взглянуть на мою работу тех, кому понравилась серия The Archivist and the Andventurer от @inklingofadream . Если вы ее не читали, то почитайте, она прикольная.

У меня расхождение начинается где то с середины "Human"

[bonesbuckleup]

i also would like to solicit a hot take

A lot of YA books aren’t actually YA, they’re fantasy written by women/women of color/queer folks and thus not viewed as “worthy” of an adult audience the way that fantasy written by their white male counterparts is viewed.

[suttttton]

re: vampire polycule, does Elias let everyone come as they are to the reunions, Jon included, or does everyone have to be Happy To Be There? Do the other symbionts who don't wanna be there get to see how scared Jon is, and reach out to him, or does he have to be Happy so no one can tell which of the others wants out and who'll turn them in for trying to find a way to get away? WHAT is the tone of these reunions, every option is so tragicomic...

(context)

this is going to be long and scattered because i have so many thoughts, but to sum up: the tone of the reunions is so, so deeply weird, and there's no possible way jon is prepared for these people he's about to meet.

the thing is, elias does, on some level, think it's bad and morally wrong to use his powers to overwrite his symbionts' emotions and personalities. but he is willing to make exceptions for extenuating circumstances (like ordering jon to 'make good choices'), special occasions (like making jon's transformation night nice instead of traumatic), or, you know, because he's frustrated or annoyed (he can always change them back! as long as he doesn't forget).

so by the time they get to the reunion, i think elias would have lifted the order for jon to be happy (side note: at some point over the weekend jon got to have a nice cathartic cry about this whole situation, don't worry). jon, having come to the conclusion that the best way to protect himself is to go along with whatever elias wants, is trying to pretend that he's very happy to be here. but jon's a bad liar and is still adjusting to the idea that elias can and will change anything about him at a moment's notice, so everyone can tell that jon is Having a Rough Time. elias isn't very happy about that, but he's hoping meeting the others will help

so they walk in and jon initially thinks, 'oh, all of these people have been ordered to be happy to be here' because they're not crying and screaming or whatever. but then he meets melanie who's just blatantly like, 'i would slaughter you if i could, elias.' and elias??? doesn't do anything??? obviously jon gravitates towards talking to her and she's like yep i hate it here anyway here's the rundown of everyone here and how tolerable they are to interact with.

i think there's a bit of a generational divide between the older symbionts and the younger ones, both because there's a world of difference between being 30 and being 130, but also because elias used to be a lot more transparent in the process of acquiring people. it used to be that the second time elias bit you, he would tell you what was happening and what becoming his symbiont would entail and give you the choice to come or not. (of course, there was quite a bit of coercion involved, especially because vampire venom is addictive from the first time you're exposed to it, but the illusion of choice was there at least.) however, after some... incidents, elias switched to the current model of erasing your memory of him until you literally can't leave :))))

so it's hard for the older ones to empathize with the younger ones, and vice-versa. the only one of the older ones that melanie really deems trustworthy is jonathan, who is skeptical about the morals of this situation and gives jon tips about how to make sure elias isn't slowly eroding his true personality (@this-is-such-a-bad-decision suggested that they could make written notes about elias' orders in order to remember who they actually are)

the #1 person on melanie's Do Not Trust Ever list is martin because this vampire polycule situation has been nothing but Benefits upon Benefits for martin, and he even lives with elias, which is suspicious as hell. (in reality, martin doesn't really want to be here, but elias is paying for his mother's care home, as well as providing him with a very nice place to stay, and good food, and nice clothes, and he doesn't even have to work except letting elias snack on him whenever he wants, and Oh God he's a vampire sugar baby How Did He Get Here????)

the other important dynamic at play that jon finds out the hard way is that elias isn't remotely fair and equal in what he's willing to tolerate in his different symbionts. (he has different relationships with all of them, obviously!) he's fine with melanie outwardly hating him, but if anyone else tried that? absolutely not. so jon is basically guessing at what elias wants from him, and it's very very stressful!!!!

[suzukiblu]

A lil' turtleduck for @inklingofadream.

[bluejayblueskies]

1, 11, 15, 23, 30

weird questions for writers!

1. What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?

i write pretty much exclusively in times new roman! i usually switch to lucida grande for editing since that's the ao3 font and it helps me catch typos, and occasionally i'll write in arial in google docs if i don't feel like changing it from the default, but 9 times out of 10, it's times new roman. i don't really care much, but i've also gotten used to writing in tnr, so if i try to switch it messes with my flow and makes me think more about the font than the words, so i think i'm pretty much stuck with it XD

(more under the cut!)

11. Do you believe in the old advice to “kill your darlings?” Are you a ruthless darling assassin? What happens to the darlings you murder? Do you have a darling graveyard? Do you grieve?

i had to google what this means askldgag ('to get rid of an unnecessary storyline, character, or sentences in a piece of creative writing') but i do think it's good advice! i've been working a lot in the past few years since i started writing again (first for tma, and now for malevolent) to clean up my writing style, and i think this is part of it for sure. i get very attached to my long sentences, and learning to cut them up or delete them altogether was very hard for me. i'm still bad at outright cutting scenes or storylines that i'm fond of, and honestly the ones i'm less fond of as well. i'd love to get in the habit of re-writing an entire chapter to cull out unnecessary things, but as i'm not planning on writing for profit, simply for fun, and that doesn't sound very fun to me, i haven't put much weight on that

i do have a darling graveyard! i usually plonk sections that i discard into either my notes app or my outline, and sometimes i go back later to recycle, but most of the time i realize that those chunks are better off dead and buried and i don't resurrect them. there was a really good piece of advice i read once that said 'if you run into a block in your writing, the issue is probably 10 lines back' which has helped IMMENSELY, and that's where a lot of my cutting comes in, where i'll just chop a whole section i wrote and start over to get the flow better. thus, the darlings are usually better off dead, because they were causing more problems than solutions.

15. Do you write in the margins of your books? Dog-ear your pages? Read in the bath? Why or why not? Do you judge people who do these things? Can we still be friends?

i write in the margins of textbooks that i own, and that's pretty much it. i like keeping my books in good condition, so i usually don't write in them, dog-ear my pages, etc.. (i don't take baths, but if i did, i don't think i would read in the bath.) i don't judge people who do, though! it can be very satisfying to mark up a book, and when i do it with textbooks, i love it a lot. it's just not for me with fiction (though i think i would feel better marking up a second-hand book than a bought-new book since it's already no longer in pristine condition!)

23. Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me what’s around you as you work. Paint me a picture.

the physical environment i write in changes, but lately (since i moved) it's been mainly one of two places

i sit in the black faux-leather bucket chair i have in my room, one blanket beneath me, the other covering my legs, feet propped up on my bed (which currently has bookbinding stuff strewn all over it). i have the worst posture as i hunch over my laptop and write my silly little words. i have earplugs in and over-the-ear headphones on, blasting 'Heavy Rain Sounds | No Thunder' from spotify at max volume to drown out the sounds of living with five other people. i probably have some sort of beverage slowly equalizing to room temperature as i get caught up in the writing and forget about it. it's either too hot or too cold; there is no in-between

i sit at my desk in my office at work, where i basically sit around and wait for people to have a/v issues and thus have essentially 6-9 hours of free time to do whatever interrupted by occasionally having to explain to people how an adapter works. there's probably somebody singing vocal warmups in the background, or playing slightly-out-of-tune jazz saxophone, or playing the same piano piece ad nauseum. my coworkers could definitely see my computer screen if they looked; i've still got ao3 pulled up and visible in the background. i may still be listening to heavy rain sounds if the vocal warmups are bad enough, and i almost certainly have coffee that i'm chugging like it's the nectar of the gods because i probably got there at 7:30am and have to make it through to 11:00pm without leaving the building once. it is a Tuesday and i have not seen a window for seven hours <3

30. Talk to me about the role dreams play in your writing life. Have you ever used material from your dreams in your writing? Have you ever written in a dream? Did you remember it when you woke up?

hmmm, i used to use stuff from my dreams as the inspo. for original writing, but i don't do that as much anymore because a) i don't do much original writing anymore 😅 and b) i don't dream as much anymore! at least not in coherent, recognizable ways that aren't just like. stress dreams. i suppose the tradeoff is that i haven't had a nightmare in a while either so ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯ i get inspiration from daydreams if that counts lol?

and i don't think i've ever written in a dream! the closest i've gotten is dreaming that i had a writing-based assignment finished, then waking up and finding out i did not in fact have it finished 😔

[disregardcanon]

27 & 28 for the ask game!

27. favorite fanfic author of the year

hmmmm. hmmmmm...... well i'd have to say that my two favorite new authors i discovered this year were ProfessorSpork, who wrote some absolutely AWESOME rwby fic, and you, my dear mutual who may or may not be fishing lol. love getting a jarchivist suffers update email ;)

28. longest fic you read this year

if you count all the fics in Painted Shut as one "fic" then i think it's that. if not i have no fucking clue.

if you're a tma, i would HIGHLY suggest this series. it focuses around an au where jon wasn't hired at the magnus institute until they were interviewing for archivist and tim was selected as archivist because elias thought he knew how to manipulate him best because he had the clearest motive. jon is.. .offered the role of receptionist.

it's hard to get into everything that i love about this series without getting into major spoilers, but let's say

1. well handled abusive jonelias

2. polyarchives rights

3. everyone is an avatar and everyone is getting very good corruption arcs

[voiceless-terror]

wordless i love you prompts: 40 and/or 45 with jonmartin :)

Of the two of them, Jon’s the one more likely to initiate affection. 

It’s not that Martin’s cold, not at all. Just that Jon’s kind of...needier. Martin finds this endlessly amusing, but is generally a good sport about it. If Jon leans into his side, he throws an arm around his shoulder. If he rests his head on Martin’s chest, he’ll run his fingers through his hair. He hugs him from behind on the rare days Jon deigns to fix dinner. It’s nice to feel wanted. Martin can understand that. 

But if he really wants to fluster him, it’s as easy as taking his hand. 

Martin discovers this while they’re sitting on a park bench after a lunch break. He takes Jon’s hand almost absent-mindedly, it just feels right.

Jon freezes.

At first, Martin thinks he’s done something wrong. He loosens his hold, ready to apologize when Jon suddenly squeezes his hand, grip almost painfully tight. Martin squeezes back and the two of them sit there, faces red, not meeting each other's eyes. Feeling bold, Martin runs his thumb over the back of Jon’s scarred hand, gentle and slow. Jon does a full body shiver and melts into his side, like a plant reaching for sunlight. 

Needless to say, Martin uses this secret weapon in any and all situations.

Sitting on the train? Check. Out to lunch with Tim and Sasha? Check. Walking down the hallway and passing Elias? Check.

But his favorites are the times when they’re alone, curled up on the couch or nestled in bed. When Jon, half asleep, burrows into his side at the gentle touch. When no one else can see but Martin. 

It is nice to feel wanted.

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3 ships: Houlihawk, JonMartin, and Croachsparks

First ship: Uhhhh probably prideshipping from Yugioh (Kaiba and Yami)

Last song: Brutus

Currently reading: like fifty fucking things I should be finishing 🙄 I guess the main one I’m working on is son of a witch the wicked sequel it’s really fucking good

Last movie watched: the willoughbys

Currently consuming: tried to eat cereal and the milk was bad :/

Currently watching: I’m listening to the film reroll podcast? I’m not a tv person really

Currently craving: something with lots of garlic

No pressure tags: @camphoteric @thebreakfastgenie @fakecrfan @inklingofadream