#it feels unlike anything else...

[dog-girl-zezora]

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[batshaped]

the continued adventures of an internet user who was frozen in 2004 and defrosted in 2021: some things are just the way you left them

previous 2004 internet user comics are here: one, two, three, four, five; or just in my 2004 tag

[that-ineffable-devil]

Charles' jealousy at the Cat King is obvious and overt. But he can feel justified in being upset with him because he's trapped them in Port Townsend and keeps interrupting their cases. And of course nobody else would really stop to think about it, because everyone thinks the Cat King is shady as hell.

His jealousy at Monty is more subtle--enough that the characters don't really notice it, but the audience has their attention drawn to it.

The way his smile fades when he watches the two of them together and thinks no one is looking.

The way his nose scrunches up in anger or frustration when he watches Monty show Edwin his astrology reading and Edwin not even acknowledge him leaving.

The way he tries to draw Edwin's attention away from the book Monty gave him and then, when he fails, directly addresses the time he's been spending with Monty, forcing Edwin's attention.

[wackywatchdotcom]

before i go do smth else like smth i think abt often but was thinking abt a few hrs ago in particular is how the circus easily tricks the audience into thinking the circus would be Better Than Real Life. when i think from literally almost any angle you examine it its just as bad (if not worse, depending on your own problems)

i think theres like so many problems its hard to even list them all. some of it is personal taste things. cus i think a lot of people think itd be fun because they enjoy specific aesthetic choices in the circus, or bc of other interest related things. but like. what about people who HATE bright colors. what about people who dont like the idea of not being human. what about people who dont enjoy things like roleplaying. some aspects of the circus are only even appealing to specific tastes in things, making one of the few 'draws' of it not really even being a universal thing

and thats the superficial stuff. because more importantly, if you dont like the real world (for whatever reason), the circus may provide a temporary solution to that, because its so far removed from reality. but i think the circus is way smaller than people realize. theres definitely always going to be things to see since caine can always make things, but its just as limited if not more than the real world, because while the world grows and changes, genuinely new things are created and discovered and stuff. caine will never really get to see that, let alone recreate it for the players- and even then, it still isnt actually that thing. that doesnt even factor in that caine is already operating on limited knowledge of the real world. its not clear how detailed he can get on things, since the accuracy can vary (spudsys being so accurate to the real world, vs the dinner in ep 1 being so flat and lacking almost any detail), but theres a good chance that anything he makes is going to be limited to, at the most, a CONCEPT from the real world, if theres nothing in the real world you like, thats still all youll get, just in a different way.and if you DO like things from the real world, youll never get to truly reexperience it (even if caine remakes it, youll know its not the real thing, and it wont be 100% how you remember it, either)

then theres the safety/pain/horror aspect to what caine makes. i think because there hasnt been gore or anything its easy to assume the circus is still tame, and that anything bad that happens cant be TOO bad. but this is NOT true at all. the teaser of the show establishes that even when caine is not going for horror, he still hurts the players. theres things thatd be physically horrifying to a person like getting possessed, theres physical pain (i see it debated but i think its clear that even if they were to experience less pain, they still DO experience pain, but thats a different topic) or extreme discomfort, theres psychological torment (the exit doors are genuinely very cruel even if that wasnt caines goal, what ep 4 did to jax and gangle. kinger getting taunted in ep 3, etc). its all survivable but even if you like them caine isnt trustworthy enough in this way to never do smth horrific to a person, or cause it through his actions

then theres the complete lack of autonomy, which imo is one of the most frightening things about the circus. bc unless your tastes are always aligning with the exciting, completely family friendly existence of the circus, and you never deviate even a little, you are going to be barred from any semblance of it. its best illustrated in how pomni HATES being touched but caines always prodding her and moving her places and stuff, and in how zooble is denied the option to opt out of adventures even when they state they want to directly by episode 4 implying the choice to even have time to yourself is deeply conditional (plus, the whole lack of an exit entirely meaning that even if you liked the circus, the lack of option to leave would still affect a person. youre getting locked in a big room for the rest of time and youll never get to leave). and also this post

and THEN you factor in the social aspect. because regardless of how you prefer socializing if at all, the circus is a nightmare. if you dont like people, thats great! you dont NEED to be anyones friend! except that you are going to be forced to interact with them eventually, and when you do its going to be repeated. its not gonna be once. and once caine notices hes going to bother you about it. forever

alternatively, if you DO like social interactions in any way, no matter what, if its not you, youre going to see others abstract. you are going to inevitably watch those you care abt struggle and eventually get stuck in a state that Seems Extremely Horrifying To Experience forever. its long and drawn out and itd suck and it wouldnt happen once

then is the easy to forget fact that if you have psychological problems they can and WILL follow you to the circus. gangle and zooble are the biggest examples of this. the circus didnt get rid of their problems, they just gave it a new, horrifying inevitable consequence. i sometimes fall victim to looking at the circus and assuming that ohhh i wouldnt have this problem! because i wont have to deal w it getting set off! but like... yeah i would. i wouldnt stop having this or that in the circus id just have to deal w it while ALSO going on adventures

theres many things. you cant truly eat you cant die you dont get to decide anything when you do die it seems terrifying to experience and youll be stuck in some level of that forever and anything you enjoy is not with you and anything you dont enjoy will follow you too to some degree and the list goes on and on

all this said i dont think any of this is an indicator that the characters lives are meaningless or smth just because it sucks. theres a reason gooseworx has said that the takeaway from the show should be that theres meaning to be found in a stagnant life. theres still meaning in their existence and i dont think its as hopeless as it may seem- but i think its still BAD. and tbh the idea that its worse only HELPS that theme of the show!!! i dont think itd hit as hard as a theme if the circus DIDNT suck

[theninjazebra]

[beatcroc]

sonic scribbles of varying ages and intents. surge from mid 2022 when i was first catchin' up on idw, silver from a few months ago when i was trying to figure him out, the rest from late 2022 from memory with stylization and redesigning where i couldn't be assed to try and stay on-model

[worstloki]

Loki didn't even do anything to the other Asgardians personally, unsure why they didn't like him so much and thought he was so suspicious

[ganondoodle]

some die hard totk fans can be so annoying

you can like a game without jumping through hoops to justify why its bad writing and questionable choices are good actually, its ok to like things that arent the bestest most perfect thing

you can have your opinion and thats all well and fine but im tired of some people taking my posts as ground to debate me on bc they are 'objectively' more right than me despite their opinion too being based on their own interpretation and bias

i love ww and botw but im not acting like either is perfect, tetra/zelda being whitewashed suddendly when shes revealed to be royalty? bad, very bad actually; ganondorf only having a few lines right before you kill him to hint at there perhaps being more in his head than EVIL EVIL I AM EVIL ARGAGRGAHGHS? disappointing; (and so on and so forth) botw locking zelda away to be rescued yet again in the castle? not the greatest thing but at least it worked with the story and themes better than it did in totk; botw having that orientalist gerudo outfit that to this day is used to sexualize whatever chaarcter is put into it? not cool (as far as i know totk did away with that one at least); the gerudo design as a whole still being on the same level of not cool in botw as they were in oot- you get the point

[kuruk]

genuinely sort of obsessed with suicide and killing yourself and dying lately. main character in a manhwa I was reading tried killing herself kind of late into the story coincidentally at a time where I was already starting to become very obsessed with death wnd now I'm having so much fun finding more killing yourself stories like yes let's all kill ourselves no more I think that'squite enough.. like 8ts really the only thing I look forward to thinking about lately I wake up disappointed that there's nothing to look forward to for the day or life but remember I have time to think about killing myself and I'm like Yay and hurray and such. I've felt this way like twice and it's a comparatively higher risk level of being suicidal for me since I kindof dont care about anything but this focus and I feel almost genuine excitement and anticipation about death and for hours a day I'm just fantasizing about being able to give up or start over, which is worse than having severely sad angry emotional issues kind of depressed where things do matter and they're just not good but in this case nothing matters or excites me except this. it's worse as in like it doesn't feel as impossible to happen but it does feel way better like well at least I still have killing myself and dying we wlways have killing ourselves and dying

[corviddetector]

I know this is not a corvid detector thing to do

But on the other hand, it's Tumblr and I don't really have anywhere else to slap this thought into.

It's a bit weird and personal too, so if you don't like that just continue your day and scroll past, it isn't required or needed to read this.

I've never, ever. Understood Love as a concept.

I've tried to understand it, and tried to experience it, all the way till I turned 19-20 years old.

But it's never felt, right?

To be fair, you can never know how something is supposed to be if you haven't experienced it, but with love that was just kind of different, you know it feels off.

What I came to realize is, we seem to mock, and ridicule those stories

Or the concepts of love at first sight and so on-

They seem so irrational, and weird.

I've never once been able to understand them at the time. Wasn't even able to relate.

I've honestly believed, for most of my life, almost all of it- that love is just a word people use, because it's common, and almost kind of... Expected?

I didn't get it, not at all.

It was weird. Awkward. Kind of just embarrassing.

I blamed it on the fact that I have a different opinion on beauty, or maybe just the fact that I'm weird or something-

The fact that, I'm biologically seen a trainwreck, or something like that.

In a weird way I refused to acknowledge the concept of love- I at some point even refused to acknowledge it existed. I buried myself in the belief that if I just stopped caring, it wouldn't be a thing I'll need to continue thinking about.

Weirdly enough, all those thoughts seem so foreign to me now.

There's actually people out there, just by knowing they exist, you begin to smile.

Just because they are there, your day turns sunny, and even the worst mood becomes better.

It's real weird, how it works. But

I'm sure glad it does.

I'm glad I randomly met the person that is able to put a smile on my face, just by existing.

And if I had a chance to change the past, however unpleasant and wrong a lot of it was, now I wouldn't change any of it.

Because I know, that that way, I can meet them.

If you've read this far, I thank you, but most importantly

If it hasn't happened to you yet. I want to let you know that when they say, that there truly is someone out there for you they mean that.

Life can be real random sometimes

And it may happen tomorrow or in a year-

Just be yourself, and enjoy yourself out in this wonderful world.

You'll surely find that person too.

And when you'll do... You'll understand what I'm trying to say. Till then, just have fun!

Kay? :D

I'm off for today. I got a job interview in 5 hours, but I can't sleep for both of these feelings, love and anxiety xD

But I hope you have a wonderful day, or night today.

[ana-cantskywalker]

Regency doctors were right, you really should go to the sea for your health

[ameliafuckinjones]

the special relationship between arthur (england) and amelia (america), to me:

[space-spring-art]

Drawing a comic about Orlaea and Zigmunt and it still needs a lot of work but I'm posting a WIP shot because I like them :)

[mellowwillowy]

On hiatus for an indefinite moment.

[golden--doodler]

Guess who just got some new fancy Ohuhu Markers and Fineliners and couldn't wait to use them?

Yup! You'll probably be seeing some more traditional art from me, because these Fineliners and Markers are freaking incredible. 11/10, would recommend. I also had to start out by drawing one of my favorite Louise moments from The Amazing Rudy.

[ID]: Traditional fanart of Louise Belcher from Bob's Burgers. She can be seen from the waist up and is wearing a dark green dress. She has her arm bent, covering her stomach, and both of her hands can be seen. On one of her wrists is a bright orange bracelet, given to her by her older sister, Tina. She has black hair that's tied into pigtails, and most of her head is covered by a bright pink hat with bunny ears. In the drawing, she has a wide grin and bright blue eyes. She's saying "I can use my bronze knuckles! :D"