#ive got severe depression

[just-mya-writing]

Based on the worm post. I made doodles

[heartxdecay]

the weird part about being suicidal when you have ASPD is that it's just such a logical thing. People talk about attempting impulsively or because of intense emotions and I'm just like... "oh, I should just kill myself. It'll solve my problems and it's not like I'm contributing anything to society anyway."

[nachosforfree]

I need a hyperfixation that lasts a year and a half before disappearing forever so i can be good at drawing

[13eyond13]

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[letnirvanarain]

u know what's wild is that I came back on my 20 follower count little blog last year bc I got obsessed with tma then bodies & was there at the start of a lovely little fandom & then I went thru a big break up and got nerve damage & disappeared only to find 700+ notifications when I log in 2 months later lol

[robotwrangler]

Thinking about how the lovely person on deviantart who emailed me a copy of Undertale in exchange for a sketch of their oc when I was 15 will never know about the profound effect they had on my life..

[brunetteaura]

i have nothing good to say tonight i need to be shot

[pidgeyatto]

if i dont get to writing tomorrow, someone's gotta kick my ass. sorry i haven't really been online lately, depression has me by the ass Again and making me look at my hobbies as if they're a chore so i've literally just. been sitting here. unable to do anything because i can't bring myself to do it.

but i think i am slowly starting to pull myself out of this slump, i went to a doctor about it and things should hopefully be okay again soon.

[nicepersondisorder]

guess who's splitting on his one and only friend. 😁😁 just guess. 😁😁

[kcrossvine]

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[hermitagereheadcanons]

oh there is. exactly one post in the queue. time to panic

[elftwink]

every time i reflect on anything that happened in my childhood im more annoyed that at no point did anyone take me to see anyone for anything despite the myriad problems i was constantly experiencing that nobody could properly explain including me but my family did get a kick out of comparing me to sheldon from the big bang theory. like oh so we were all aware of the problems. if i acknowledge the problems because i think something is wrong w/me i’m selling myself short and i need to apply myself more but if you acknowledge the problems to joke about giving me a sarcasm sign that’s fine and all in good fun. sheldon from the big bang theory set society back by several decades and im not joking

[actual-sleeping-beauty]

Me: finally feeds my body enough to make it operate as it should, for the first time in at least a week, probably two. Also goes for a walk to clear out the cobwebs in my brain.

My brain, immediately: okay can we please clean up this hot mess of a room? For the love of all that is holy? Okay thanks I love you!

Will I learn anything from this? Probably not. But my therapist says frequently that we can use our rooms as a measure of how we're doing mentally, and for the first time in weeks I have a bed made up with fresh sheets, the duvet cover is actually on my duvet, not a basket on the floor, and my collection of empty clothes hangers has dwindled down to just the ones for what's finishing up on my drying rack overnight.

Sometimes I just have to be proud of my small wins, and this is one.

[lesbiten]

too many serious songs on the fiddauthor playlist i need to balance it with more funny ones

[itsadragonaesthetic]

Hey wtf man

[rainbowgothdisaster]

oh :) hey depression :)