#just something im thinking about :-)

[angelpuns]

Something I've been thinking about today ( I am babysitting once again :/) is like ...the tendency to pass down music/traditions that came from some sort of media and by the time you're old enough that media is no longer being shown day to day. And so you don't know that its FROM something. Its just something you do/say

Was thinking about it cause I turned on Bear in the Big Blue house which was my favorite show as a BABY ( as in I don't remember most of it ) and the cleaning song started playing. And there's thus bit where they go ' tidy it up tidy it up' and for years I thought it was just something our family did but actually my parents got it from that show and I learned it and then they taught my little siblings and my little siblings have no clue that's its FROM something because by the time they were born Bear wasn't on air anymore

[livepoultryfreshkilled]

i grew up as a boy in that i was never considered a girl without forcing my way into it. i described myself as a “man-hater” just to PROVE i was really a girl, i had substitute teachers not only think i was a boy but NOT BELIEVE ME when i said i was a girl until i got other students to confirm. i didnt have a lot of friends and those that i had were not because i was “one of the girls” or even one of the boys, i was a boy by process of elimination. (my friends were mostly someone who eventually came out as a nb trans lesbian and a ride-or-die who by her own admission never thought of me as a girl either.) i came out as a trans boy when i was 12, right before middle school, and have lived as such since then, and during that time i at least had a reason for my exclusion from gender. at least now my gender is as mine as i think it can be.

i grew up as a boy against my will, and i wish i hadnt, because then i mightve actually gotten to belong to some gender in my childhood. if it had been left up to me, if i wasnt pushed out of womanhood by other people and instead got to determine my gender on my own terms. i was a boy the whole time, but i didn’t get to draw that conclusion myself (at least not at first), and that sucked. it’s made me feel like i can’t believe anything about myself or who i am unless someone else confirms it because my grasp of my identity was constantly challenged and denied by most adults (barring my parents, baruch hashem) and almost all of my peers. really fucked up to grow up with constant degendering and masculinization as a child if youre transmasculine of center cause it makes accepting your own identity feel like youre agreeing with the people who wouldnt believe that you’re a girl. like i wasn’t a girl but they didn’t know that, they just thought i was too ugly to be one. it wasn’t liberating and it takes away my ownership of my masculinity. i had to argue with people to prove i was a girl, do you get how fucked up that is as a child? and now i have to argue with people to prove i’m a man. no matter what i call myself (it feels like) no one is ever going to believe me. do i even belong to myself? 

the thing about transphobia is that it is a direct disregarding of someones humanity. you are telling them “you don’t know what you are. you don’t know who you are. you are not your own. what you are is up to me.” it’s denying their reality it’s denying their humanity it’s denying their ability to know themselves as a person. do you have any idea how fucked up that is to do to someone? to constantly actually gaslight people about one of the most basic facts about themselves? god. 

[bli-o]

hey autistic people who get overwhelmed by large groups or noise or conversation or etc etc etc you’re not evil for wanting to leave a family gathering. just so you know.

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

[delicourse]

i miss them a little if im gonna be honest

[phyllisandstuff]

Controversial opinion:

Person: Man I'm so bad at [insert skill here], I'm the worse :(

Me: Maybe you can work to become better at this thing if you wanna be better at it so bad?? Do that instead of woe is me-ing yourself all the time?

Person: :(

Person: >:(

[puppyeared]

these two are so interesting to me

characters belong to @canisalbus

[salemoleander]

I am BARELY resisting going full red-strings-corkboard on this season. And by barely resisting I mean not resisting at all here is an extremely long list of the events those pins would be marking out.

BigB getting a Task that was a different color than everyone else's. It's not just a randomly assigned Hard Task, bc Scar rerolled for a Hard Task and his was also just a white envelope. It's fundamentally different.

That task taking BigB away from socialization, and seemingly being an incredibly time-consuming and dull request. Of profound disinterest to any watchers.

The phrasing of his Task!!

Dig a big hole. All the way down. At least 3x3. Make it your base if you want.

Everyone else's are direct and formal - the only one with more than one sentence was Skizz's, with the rule clarification of "One attempt only." Bigb's Task is four short abrupt sentences. It is also the only Task to contain extraneous information, 'Make it your base if you want.' The requirements (at least 3x3) feel like an afterthought to mimic the numerical/specific demands of the other tasks.

Evo symbol on the face of the Secret Keeper statue.

The fact that there's a statue at all; the fact that there is a physical representation of what is assigning tasks that everyone must complete, when previously everything was always handled via commands and unseen RNG.

Grian talking to the statue, and (bc of his Actual Role as game organizer) acting as a mediator for the impartial decisions handed down, speaking for it.

Grian making one last bad joke and saying he doesn't know if it counted or not- depends on whether we the audience laughed.

Grian asking for task recommendations from the audience. The watchers are making the tasks. The Watchers are making the tasks.

Again I could be off-base, and I'm not usually even that smitten with bringing in Evo lore. I don't want a Big Bad really...but. It feels like something very unusual and intentional and cool is happening in this series. And I'd guess we'll know if theres something going on once we have more than one data point.

My largely unfounded suspicion is that there is another being (maybe Listeners, maybe something else) trying to reach out to the Players via decoy Tasks, and BigB was the first recipient. Get them alone, make them of disinterest to the watchers, and tell them something we don't get to know.

Because that's the really, really fucking cool part (if my wacky theory is remotely right): We're the bad guys. We're the ones giving out tasks - hell, we're the ones actively brainstorming harder and crueller tasks in Grian's comments!

If they actually made a story where the Players have to keep secrets from us I will be delighted. Bc that is the same genius bullshit that made Evo Watcher lore so fun

[etchif]

Jesus imagine if we confirm the existence of extraterrestrial life the Taxonomy would be insane

[houseswife]

practically emanating

[juniemunie]

[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]

Hitting a lil' too close to home?

[catmask]

i know everyone said 'replies from sideblogs could go bad' though personally i was excited for them (for topic specific sideblog running purposes) but i do think we should be able to send asks from sideblogs too tbh. it could also get exceptionally ugly very fast but i think that for all the topic-specific blogs like ask blogs, for systems who have headmates with diff sideblogs, and for people who want to make friends in smaller communities focused on niche topics unrelated to their main i feel like it would be worth it

[vero-niche]

can i just say how much i adore how Nao-chan's gender is treated so casually in skip to loafer

like, as a white cis woman who is also quite tall and havent read the manga i didnt even realize she was trans until this scene in ep2:

and i didnt even have the time to get nervous how they would handle this as they already moved on, ignoring the comments (just like queer people learn to do so) except for Mitsumi's comforting touch (implying she also heard the comments):

and there were no sad words or anything about this either, it was just handled so.... normally. which should not be something worth highlighting, but, well, you know. also on that note, special shoutout to P.A. Works for casting a woman as her voice actor as well.

she's shown being the supportive and lively aunt and like seconds later in this scene she's back to being her usual self again:

in conclusion

[slymanner]

God dude these two scenes and how roxie moves hurt my heart so so bad 🥹

it's like a mix of anger, feral, emotional breakdown, and complete sadness that just fucks me up soooo fucking bad.

it's like she's a pet who got abandoned by their owner but they see them again after years of sadness and depression of them being gone and leaving them like that and all that anger and sadness just manifest's into one bundle of emotion's towards them they cannot control.

roxie baby ur gonna be okay u deserve better :[

[wasyago]

so, would you?

nothing important under the cut, you don't need to look haha

[potatobugz]

dugon my friend my buddy my pal