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ageless-aislynn · 1 year

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My goal for 2023 is to post one more chapter of one of my WIPs. Just one chapter. Of just one WIP. In this year. PLEASE.

I’m tired of being so tired that I can’t write. I have the words in my head but I’m so exhausted I can’t sit down and write them. I have an entire short, (hopefully) funny little John/Cortana fic completely written in my head. I mean, opening line, first section, second section, ending line. All are right here. *taps head* But trying to just write them down feels like it’s overwhelming. Like I’m trying to lift the world over my head.

For 2023, I just want to have the strength to write again. That would be so nice.

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wellthatschaotic · 13 days

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neurotypicals are so frustrating,, i keep forgetting that "can you do x" means "go do x"

#yesterday i was At Work #i opened alone (we are so fucking understaffed)#at like 945 (coworker came in at 10) these two women-#who until now have done NOTHING managery. they have walked around and talked to each other and asked questions #come up and in a pissy voice like um why hasn't group started #i say i'm the only one back here #'well can't you start ONE group?'#no...im the only one back here #'can you start individuals?' yeah i'll ask [host lead]#(annoyed voice) 'um why do you have to ask her?' because i'm not a lead so she's in charge?#(angry voice) well WE are GENERAL MANAGERS and we are TELLING YOU to do SOMETHING like START INDIVIDUALS #like. chill i am literally just some guy and i am the only guy back here #i also feel its worth noting that apparently since they caught me in the hallway they assumed i hadn't been doing anything #when in reality i hadnt sat down since i got to work. all i did was doing things. there is more to my job than Watch Dogs. especially when #im the only guy doing any of the anything #and i couldnt start individuals immediately because i had to do spot cleans. because i prioritized Not Letting Dogs Sit In Their Own Shit #before dog getting some playtime #like. yes i am a Lower Level Employee. yes i havent worked here that long. but i have worked here longer than you #and im gonna take a wild guess that i care about the dogs more than you #also worth noting that i got no breaks that day (if you work a 6+ hour shift you get a 30 and a 15 at my work)#so i sat down for a total of 5 minutes and that was to take a piss #for context. i worked 7 hours. 6:15am to 1:15pm.#so i have a Bad Feeling about these new general managers. really hope im wrong and this is a one-off thing but. ohhhhh boy

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beliscary · 26 days

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there's a tower in belisaere called dolorous bastion

#g*rth n*x does things to make me specifically insane #me pulling up scherzo di notte in another tab #arghhh given the quality of his recent works I don't. want any more... but also. Wallmaker lore. blease #if I don't finish goldenhand it will continue to not be real and not hurt me #but I can try clariel again... for the world building.....#did you know bellis is part of the scientific name for a daisy #and sayre can be linked to carpenter #anyway listen. listen. lean in to Sam being a little too much like rogir for a kingdom that just returned from chaos #he's a little vain. a little reclusive. went to ancelstierre and came back... odd. deeply involved in magics no one understands #and he has no mentor. no guidance. just an unhelpful chaotic neutral cat. he's the last first & only wallmaker atm.#but he's just a moody artist ok. a total sweetheart just at turns manic and melancholic.#who is also capable of forging an executioner's blade that can imprison orannis the destroyer.#and. you know. a prince.#he should have a terrible complex about Being Like His Evil Uncle #in addition to his own shame at his perceived cowardice & failures. and his fear of Death #and his anxiety that he'll one day pour himself into the Making of something like the og wallmakers did #(and all this could. also swirl around Rogir's classique villainous queercoding. just saying.)#put a mentos in that bottle of diet coke and watch it go okay!!!#I'm sitting here shaking the narrative like If People Behaved Like People The Court Would Deeply Distrust Him #not his family obviously!!! but everyone else.#especially for facilitating a student exchange of ancelstierran soldier mages and also bringing in new citizens #who only treatied with him. not with the future queen.#and he looks and sort of behaves like his usurper murderer uncle. JUST SAYING.

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midnightwind · 2 months

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shout out to a guy I was friends with in high school who invited me to hang out at his place to play Halo who proceeded to do 0 things to help me, a person who openly stated they never played the game let alone shooters, find enjoyment or weapon spawns or Anything and spent like 4 hours sniping me from across the map then wondered why I never came back unless the other token girl was coming along

#I was more i to fighting games because of my initial (and mostly better) friend group #but when I introduced it to the new group I'd play a character I wasn't famoloar with and help them learn controls and combos #and then they'd be like okay can we play Halo instead #anyways I stopped talking to that guy the second I was socially allowed to which was basically 6 mo ths before he graduated #because he broke my sweet bean's heart and I had been Just Waiting for an excuse to drop his ass #also he would do something shitty or rude and if you got mad or called him out he pulled the “I'm schizophrenic and off my meds”#like that sucks dude and I'm here for you but you can't harass cosplayers at the con and film them without permission???#long way to say this is why I just don't play games in person and sit in the corner watching #it's 4am and my antibiotics are sorta working but I am in agony so you get HS stories of my life I guess

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cantsaythetword · 3 months

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Aaaaa social situations hard

#he speaks #im in a social NIGHTMARE lmao #its my gf's sisters bday #and this event was described as a “family dinner”#which im like oki cool dinner with gf's mum and two sisters #but them i found out it was not that #it was in fact not only with her mum's new boyfriend #it was being held AT THE BOYFRIENDS PARENTS HOUSE WITH THEM THERE #and just to make matters worse #her mum was running late to the thing so i was like nuh uh we waiting outside til the mum gets here #but apparently her mum called the boyfriends parents to TELL THEM we were outside #and so the parents WALKED DOWN THE STREET TO LOOK FOR US AND BRING US INSIDE WITHOUT ANYONE ELSE THERE #so i had to make awkward conversation with these people IVE NEVER MET #then they arrived #but halfway through food something happened and gfs mum had to go home to get something for the sister #and my gf was staying in the bedroom with her sister #LEAVING ME ONCE AGAIN ALONE WITH THE RANDOM PEOPLE #i am now sitting next to them on the couch on my phone while yheyre watching avatar 2 #i want to leave #but we cant until gfs mum comes back #which could take anywhere from 10 mins to another hour #depending on how long it takes to find the thing #fuck this is awful im stressing so much my anxiety is BAD #not bad enough for it to show on my face or anything #but still internally im SUFFERING

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star-mum · 1 year

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If i had a nickle for everytime a loved 2000s/2010s latino show was rebooted by Netflix for American/english speaking audiences, I’d have 2 nickles.

Which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it’s happened twice

#this isn’t hate for either one of the new shows #specially JATP because the creator/producer/idr is a really big fan of the OG show and cast #ngl i was a bit bitter when it was first announced but seeing interviews with him made me feel better #but there’s just SOMETHING about the OGs #also — what triggered this post actually — WHY DO THESE GRINGOS GET FANFICTION FOR THIS MEDIA BUT I DONT ????#like there’s literally ONE og Rebelde x reader fic #and i have never seen any Julie e os Fantasmas fics - specially x reader things #and i dont wanna read about these new bitches (respecfully) I DONT KNOW THEM #*sitting here kicking my feet waiting for my (1) brazilian mutual to see this and interact :3 #this was also prompted by me watching Rebelde for the first time #it’s really good yall #netflix did yall dirty by not adding it to the catalogue

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youcanfacethis · 2 months

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Remember when I went to the rep pop up a few hours before Taylor decided to go and had just gotten home and got a twitter notification like…. the timing will never align for me!

#idk why I’m thinking about this #I was looking through old stuff and I posted something like ‘I feel like I’ll never be interesting enough for Taylor to want to meet me!#which holds true to this day #and now with m&g and rep room/t-party etc over I’m just…. feeling sad #but also to be a fan is not an all access pass to meet anyone ever I’m #I’m just reflecting rn #and gonna go watch tv #it’s been a bad Monday #but at least we get a new ts album this week!!!#I was approached on the street #earlier today about donating money to this guy via Apple Pay #and I wanted to help him out and now I’m sitting here in my head thinking oh this was a scam #somehow???#but it wasn’t? but the thought won’t leave my mind!#getting a new therapist when?#field notes #🗂️🗂️🗂️

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wayward-wren · 3 months

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Classic Who explores ideas, New Who explores morals

classic who is like 'i see this trend, lets explore what might happen if that trend continues and let the audience figure out what it's talking about and come to their own conclusions.'

new who is like 'this trend is BAD and i'm going to PREACH A SPEECH about why it's going to RUIN EVERYTHING' and it's so much more exhausting

#wren rambles #doctor who #this brought on by me watching orphan 55 #which had SUCH a fun concept #and then absolutely FACEPLANTED with the doctor moralizing at the end #like yes doctor who has ALWAYS explored topical and political issues #but never is there a definitive I Am Telling You This Is Right message #whereas now I just had to sit here and watch 13 preaching at me?#ughghg #explore the idea but don't shove it down my throat #classic who had an episode (Ice Warriors) exploring climate change as one aspect of the story #talking about how all the plants were removed and that messed with the atmosphere etc.#but that was just a SMALL PART of the whole episode and it was never outright condemned (it was made clear it was BAD and the root problems #but that was never the BIG ISSUE the Doctor Lectured His Companions about) (not that victoria or jamie could do anything lol)#plus this feeds into my issues with 13's run (which started during 12's somewhat but less so)#where the Doctor is painted as the Narratively Right one #where when she says something that's what the narrative wants you to BELIEVE #which coming from Two and Three's run is WILD #because Two is chaotic and murderous when he thinks he's right #and he's manipulative and deceptive at times #and Three is selfish and pouty and rude #and don't get me wrong Thirteen has her issues and I lvoe them #HOWEVER. she's pretty much always RIGHT she's the Word Of God when it comes to moral things #and this more than anything is my biggest issues with Modern Who #mostly 12 and 13's eras #so i hope we move out of that somewhat in the new era but i'm not super holding up hopes (especially after star beast)#maybe one day i'll write a proper full article about it but GOSH #i don't watch this show to be preached at. I watch it for a fun/tragic scifi romp and also to see interesting ideas explored #and reflect the climate of the world and how society influences media #explore the idea of climate change turning the world into a post apocalypse! that's such a fun idea and topical!

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todayisafridaynight · 8 months

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We’re having an emergency meeting to discuss Chris Johnson and the whitest name ever

absolutely fitting for our white man now innit

#snap chats #speaking of White People and names tho.. i drove out to barnes and noble because if i stayed at my mom's any longer id go insane #and while i was here i read the entirety of My Brother's Husband. VERY good series it was so good i loved it...#its not in my budget today to buy the whole set but maybe one day.. mike flanagan i love you you're so happy and good..#WAIT IT GOT A LIVE ACTION SERIES ????? I HAVE TO WATCH IT LATER I WAS JUST THINKING IT'D BE GOOD AS A JDRAMA #what i did buy today tho was the second volume of The Yakuza's Bias since i loved the first one so much #and ive been PRAYING the second one'd come out soon #i also got another kirby blind box </3 its supposed to sit on your drinking glass but i didnt see who i got yet..#i hope its not meta knight. i love meta knight but i want some variety...#im hoping its the sleeping kirby one but it was hard to hear the difference so idk #and im not checkin til later so i doont get tempted to return what i got to get a new one like a freak ☠️#SO SAD THO when i was getting my stuff they didnt have any more butterfly bookmarks...#i always get one when i go out and sure i have more than enough bookmarks but now it feels weird...#anyway. im gonna get food i havent eaten all day... tho i did want chicken and soju later didnt i...#maybe ill just get something light here i just came here for the wifi honestly lol #god what else did i do.. OH THERE WAS THIS ONE MANGA.#i forget the full name but it had 'akane' in the title so of course i was like 'lol' and decided to read the blurb #IN THE STORY HER DAD'S NAME IS ARAKAWA ? but all of his teachers also have the surname arakawa but theyre not related #arakawa must be a ral impotrant name in the manga.... point is i lol'd #i almost wanna go back to. stopping this post now to do it LOL HANG ON BRB #AKANE-BANASHI THAT'S WHAT IT WAS CALLED and she wanted to be the best rakugo performer after her father's teacher #also named arakawa. As I Said.#failed everyone for no reason #maybe one day ill check it out.. always thought rakugo was a fine art...#anyway im rambling too much im gonna try to write a fanfic. no way in hell im drawing rgg in public LMAO #actually im gonna get food first.. as i said i havent eaten all day... ok bye #anon im so sorry if you ever read these tags LMAO I JUST LIKE TALKING ABOUT MY DAY

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welcometogrouchland · 1 year

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I'm on hiatus from thinking for the next while. Discursive and analytical fandom practices I love you so so much you are in everything I do, including the silliest of headcanons and comics but FUCK I am not equipped to think about. Anything right now