#like i feel like only children don't get the absolute hatred that comes from having a sybling

[animated-bone-noises]

me: *opens my lil snackie and prepares to eat it* 

my brother: *eats it right out of my Fucking Hand*

me: *suddenly understands why the first murder was Cain killing his brother Abel*

[jujusjunk]

I have a mean and unabating hatred of people who think I'm only allowed to care about Israelis OR Palestinians.

"Oh if you want the hostages released you must not care about the people dying from bombs in Gaza" or maybe I just don't want people to be tortured violently by bigots? I hate saying 'I hope the rest of the hostages get to come home' and someone saying 'oh so you want little children to be bombed in Gaza???' like no bitch that's a whole new sentence

"Supporting Israel means you want all Palestinians dead" the argument can be made that supporting the Israeli government means you want all Palestinians dead (either that or you're ignorant to a dangerous degree) but supporting the presence of Jews in the Levant with a government that won't violently oppress them actually doesn't have any implication about my view of Palestinians and I happen to want them all alive and well thanks

"Supporting Palestine means you want all Israelis dead" Why the actual fuck would that be true? Do you think Palestinians want that? Cause that means you have a weird and probably racist view of Palestinians and you should check that.

"But they're inherently opposed to e/o and will always be enemies" cool so you're a kahanist or an actual Hamas member and this is not in any way a moral position conducive to peace

"But (either nationality) is just a bunch of bloodthirsty violent maniacs who (repeats blood libel or Bush-era racism)" absolutely insane take and you should really examine whether or not you would feel okay saying this about any other group cause that's weird. Like that's really weird.

"But Palestinians will never accept Jews living with them" You're just wrong and stupid

"But Israelis will never accept Palestinians living with them" You're still wrong and stupid

Peace is possible and these people are just too lazy to do the work required to achieve it so instead they pull a 'clean slate burn it all down' and root for more death.

I honestly don’t know how to answer to this because I agree with it 100% and I genuinly don’t have anything to add to it. It’s perfect.

[bonefall]

What did Sagewhisker do? All I remember was that she was Yellowfang's mentor, and I used to love YS. (I was a lot younger at the time, though.)

oH Lord, a lot of people who read YS when they were younger kinda don't pick up on how shitty Sagewhisker is. It goes over their heads that she is the one who's actually responsible for Yellowfang being forced to be distant from Brokenkit

From a young age, Sagewhisker is pressuring Yellowpaw to be a medcat, when she doesn't want to

Yellow LIKES the satisfaction of healing itself, but LOVES being a warrior more.

She's a fantastic hunter, has always wanted a family, and is just genuinely filled with a lot of self-satisfaction when she gets to do her warrior duties.

(They also had to retcon the stupidest magic power, super-empathy, into Yellowfang so that she nonsensically wouldn't like fighting. Yellowfang. The cat whose first appearance in TPB is attacking Firepaw and didn't hesitate to blind Brokenstar. THAT Yellowfang.)

In contrast, when she starts healing, she's constantly filled with shame or horror. She also gets bullied viciously by several cats, while others do that Thing that an older family member does when they don't like what you're doing. You know;

"Ohhh that's so good, for you. If it makes you happy it's good!! I mean, but, wouldn't you rather do Other Thing? I mean no, I understand, you like This thing, but Other thing would... no no it's okay, nevermind. I'm happy for you."

This while she's already courting Raggedpelt, and planning a future with him.

So to begin with, she has a lot of negative feelings when Sagewhisker tries to pressure her into this role, especially as Sage insists she "Wants HER" and "It's your destiny." But that's not all;

When Cloudpaw (later Cloudpelt) gets viciously mauled and might not survive, Sagewhisker takes one look and says, "It might be kinder to let StarClan take him now."

Yellowfang is FURIOUS at how quickly Sagewhisker gave up, and Sage just waves this away with "oh I won't stop you but be prepared for heartbreak lol"

Sage continues to tell her shit like "You can't save every cat" after Cloudpaw's mother sees her son all cheese-grated up.

So... either Sagewhisker was going to just leave Cloudpaw there to bleed out or die of infection, OR she was implying euthanasia.

And it's probably euthanasia, because when Yellowfang is pregnant later, she says,

Sooooo... considering how WEIRD WC generally is about abortion, acting like it's not even an option and giving Clear Sky some Angel Fetus Children in DOTC...

Sagewhisker was probably implying that Yellowfang would smother infants. Or do whatever Sagewhisker was planning to do with Cloudpaw.

I don't even know if pressuring Yellowfang into an abortion would have been better... honestly this exchange is uncomfortable no matter how you slice it.

It gets worse ofc. Yellowfang gets this warning from StarClan about how “Only one thing can stop the tide of hatred this birth cursed cat will bring: the courage of a mother to know her destiny.” Silverflame also suggests just being his friend, if she can't be his mother.

Forget that though, because Sagewhisker continues to snap at Yellowfang and remind her that she can't look at him for too long, else people will get suspicious or something.

"It's a woman's responsibility to have children for our glorious war society, Yellowfang, unless they have A RARE GIFT THAT MUST NOT BE WASTED."

In the same conversation she's then like, "Also don't go into the nursery, the child I forced you to give up needs a chance to bond with the abusive foster who hates his little guts."

In general Sagewhisker also prevents Yellowfang from standing up for herself or her position in a way that is absolutely infuriating. Foxheart comes in and starts bellowing about "HOW DARE YOU HAVE APPRENTICES RUN ERRANDS FOR YOU?" and Sage is just like, "Turn the other cheek uwu"

Yellowfang is punished constantly for the sin of being Yellowfang. She is not allowed to be snarky at all. It fucking sucks. This book is MISERABLE

SO basically, Sagewhisker forces her into a role she isn't very happy in, stops her from standing up for herself ever, guilts Yellowfang over "wasting her special gift," gives up on cases that are too hard for her, suggests killing kits, says some wildly misogynistic stuff, prevents Yellowfang from doing anything about Brokenkit, and then dies.

She's the worst and no one ever talks about how fucked up this character is. and I really mean AS A CHARACTER

Because her PURPOSE in the story is to do all of these things and be hailed as a good mentor in the end. But the fandom is REALLY bad at analyzing characters as narrative tools.

She's right to pressure Yellowfang into her role, with the ending comic even trying to have Sagewhisker apologize for pressuring her and Yellow going "d'aww dwai you didn't force me into anything 8) ignore the entire fucking book before this point"

Giving up on a battered teenager is supposed to show Yellowfang's talent and resolve, not reflect poorly on Sagewhisker.

WC fully believes that "wisdom" she espouses about Lizardfang. Lizardfang is a bad woman because she doesn't accept her place as a queen. This kind of guilt and blame is reserved exclusively for mothers in WC, not fathers, note how Mudclaw doesn't help at all but no one gives a shit.

Killing the baby would have been the best option because, again, Brokenkit is BORN. EVIL.

I'm pretty convinced that "Courage of a mother to KNOW HER DESTINY" refers to the fact she is supposed to be a medcat, who kills her child. What FINALLY ends Brokenstar's reign of terror is being poisoned-- not the kindness she was finally able to show him in TPB while he was prisoner.

So Sagewhisker guilt-tripping Yellowfang into a position she doesn't like, keeping her away from her child, suggesting murdering the baby... that's all good, actually. That's something that is framed as correct.

And I think people really sleep on it. Sagewhisker is like this perfect little encapsulation of how shitty clan culture is in WC, an enforcer of the series' misogyny while being a woman herself, someone who makes Yellowfang's wife HELL.

But because she didn't do it violently, no one notices it.

[jewishvitya]

I just wanted to thank you so much for all of your insight and generosity with your perspective as an anti-zionist israeli, something you absolutely don't owe us but I feel immense amounts of respect and admiration for. from an American jew, it's been so valuable to know there are people like you out there, it's made everything feel much less hopeless despite all the hopelessness. I've felt very alone recently, surrounded by all the Jewish people in my life who are pro-israel and don't seem to grasp the gravity of the situation and my pro-palestine gentile friends, and I've felt very alone in my grief as I've only really started to unpack and dismantle my own biases very recently. reading your posts and your perspective on everything has just made me feel very seen as a jew in this situation, especially as I try to reconcile my feelings about everything going on with my own feelings about my faith and my identity.

you've probably seen that I've gone through a lot of your posts and that I've followed you. i just want you to know that I'm not necessarily following you just for that, I know you're just a fandom blog, it's just that after looking through your posts I feel like you're just a really nice person and seeing yoi on my dash from you would be endearing coming from you even though im not into it myself.

just. thank you again for sharing your story and continuing to share. you have no idea how much it's helped me.

I'm in tears. I've been crying way more than usual over the past couple of months, but it's nice for a change to have those tears to come from being touched instead of grief. I apologize if I'm going to ramble.

You say I didn't owe you all this, but I do feel responsible. I'm watching so much destruction and seeing how comfortable people around me are with the loss of life. This is why I've been talking about what we do and not as much about the impact of October 7 on me or people I know. I did a bit of that in the beginning, but pretending it was the start of everything to keep going back to that one day, after two months of horror, as if I can't count past 7... I didn't choose to be born where I am, I didn't choose to grow up in the most extremist community this place has to offer. But since I'm here, since I'm comfortable at the expense of Palestinians and violence is being done in my name and I have the tools to highlight issues within my society, I think it's a moral obligation.

I know how I talk about things here, and that's genuinely because I don't want to minimize the severity of the racism and the nationalism in Israel. And someone perceived my words as showing hatred for Israelis. But... I love my people. I don't expect those who see or experience our violence to feel the same or even understand me, but I do. It's my neighbors and my childhood friends and my family. It's children I see playing outside and getting excited when they see I have a cat, and the random people who stop me in the street and give me directions if they think I look lost.

Even growing up in the West Bank settlements, the people were very good to me. I needed years to internalize the fact that this kindness doesn't get extended to you if you're not part of the in-group. It broke my heart. It still does. Seeing people who I know are capable of kindness and compassion, hardening themselves against the pain of other human beings. Closing their eyes and telling themselves it isn't real. It's all an act.

I told a friend I feel like I'm betraying my mom, who was deeply bigoted, but also a wonderful mother. She taught me a lot of the principles that are guiding me now - I just took down the walls she put around who deserves to be considered. She'd be horrified with seeing the things I'm saying if she was still alive. But she taught me to care about people, I just decided it means all people.

Everyone should be prioritizing Palestinian liberation, and at the same time, I care about this too. I care about the morality of my people. I need us to be better than this. I want to dismantle the nationalism that teaches us hate and violence so we can start to heal and come to terms with what we did (and still do) here. I want us to fix what we can and hold ourselves accountable. I want us to reimagine safety in a way that doesn't cause harm, and build good relationships with the rest of humanity. Every marginalized community is experiencing bigotry in interactions with every other community, that's just how these things work. But I believe healing the world, and healing my society, is possible.

And it's hard, because so much of what we learn is rooted in truth. Antisemitism is real. Millennia of persecution are real. The trauma we carry is real. If the idea of an ethnostate makes us feel safe, and the idea of losing it makes us scared, how do we differentiate between fear as a natural reaction to antisemitic violence and fear that was taught to us for the sake of nationalism? Especially those of us living in Israel, immersed in the propaganda. It doesn't matter in practice, our feelings of safety or fear don't justify an ethnostate, especially not one built on top of another nation, but it matters for the conversations I have with people.

And I said that the violence I'm seeing feels like an attack on my identity. Seeing a giant hannukiyah in Gaza, when Hannukah tells the story of occupied people fighting off their oppressors. Seeing images that echo so much of the horrors that were done to us. The Magen David being used with hate and spite. It's all so painful. And I love this land, it's the only home I've known, so seeing us destroying nature and soaking it with blood and calling that connection?

Judaism does guide me here. The concept of tikkun olam. The idea of לא עליך המלאכה לגמור ולא אתה בין חורין לבטל ממנה - doing what I can, even if what I'm able to do isn't some decisive blow that entirely turns the tide. The idea that every human being is a whole entire world, to me it means that every single person alive is worth fighting for. So no matter how much death I see, there's still worlds more to save.

And Jewitches had this post that felt just healing to read. Nationalism hijacked our culture, and it will always leave a mark for centuries into the future. But I'm not letting go, and I'm not letting that create a rift between me and thousands of years full of history I can be proud of.

I feel your grief. And I'm grateful for the anti-zionist Jews I met by talking about this, because honestly, I need you people in my life. The pain and the anger are both easier to hold together.

So, thank you for following. I might follow back, just to see you around on my feed. And thank you for sending this. Feel free to message me anytime for any reason (I promise it won't result in a lecture every time).

Also, your url gave me pjo nostalgia

[undertheorangetree]

Under the God's Eye

Chapter Five- The Dinner

Summary- A family dinner results in an unexpected rendezvous.

Warnings- MDNI 18+ NSFW. Female reader. Titty sucking. Handjob. Vaginal fingering. Cunnilingus. Smut. Alcohol consumption. Allusions to drug abuse. Severe daddy issues. My bitter and intense hatred for Viserys Targaryen coming through in my writing. Discussions of bad childhood/neglectful parenting.

Author's Note- okay I’m done teasing now. Shout out to modern AUs for letting me use modern terms in smut without it sounding weird to me. Find the rest of this filth on AO3 link below!

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She watches mildly distraught as Alicent flutters around the kitchen, murmuring to herself as she sets pots and pans on the stovetop, pulling out an absurd amounts of ingredients from the fridge.

"Are you sure you don't need any help?" she asks for what she thinks is the fourth time, hand fiddling with the hem of her shirt.

Alicent looks up at her, blowing a wayward strand of hair out of her face with a tired smile. "I'm sure, sweetheart. Don't worry, Rhaenyra should be here within the hour to help me. You're on vacation, go and do something fun. I can handle it."

"I don't mind helping, really. Even if it's only until Rhaenyra gets here."

That earns her nothing but another thankful smile and a shake of her head before Alicent is ignoring her completely, mumbling about where she has left her biggest bowl. A part of her is worried that she's annoying Alicent but she still can't stop herself from asking. She looks frazzled, so much so that it is clear that she is not used to working in the kitchen like this. With her hair tangled in a messy red bun on the top of her head, she has a hard time imagining the Targaryen-Hightower household as a place known for nuclear family dinners. Not with the way Alicent seems absolutely wrought with anxiety.

"Oh, my love," Alicent calls out suddenly and she turns to find Helaena pausing on her way to the stairwell, an expensive looking Russian Blue cradled in her arms. Dreamfyre, she had learned the cat's name was, though she has only ever seen her in pictures on Helaena's phone. She is a reclusive little thing, spending most of her days basking in the sunlight in quieter rooms. Alicent waves Helaena over before jerking her head in her direction. "Take our dear friend here and tell her to enjoy being a guest. She's trying to be too helpful for a holiday."

Helaena huffs a laugh, adjusting her grip on her cat before holding her hand out to her, fingers grabbing at air like a child. "Come on then."

She's pulled out of the kitchen unceremoniously, obediently following behind Helaena, though she can't help but look back at Alicent once more, still feeling guilty.

"I don't know why she doesn't just bring some of the staff with her," Helaena laments as they begin climbing the stairs, still hand in hand. "She insists that she doesn't need them on holiday, but then she plans some big dinner like this and all it does is stress her out."

Out of all of Alicent's children, Helaena is the one she can most see herself befriending. The sweetest, the most down to earth, less obvious when it comes to her family's massive wealth. But it is moments like this where the blatant difference between them is abundantly clear. Her home had never had so much as a maid, much less a whole host of staff. She can do nothing but nod dumbly, agreeing with her as they make their way to the second floor.

"You lost this," Helaena says as she opens Aemond's door, smiling at them both and looking incredibly pleased with her own joke.

"You're so funny," Aemond says, voice completely deadpan, not so much as looking up from the book he has open on his desk. She doesn't have to look at the cover to know it's a textbook as her own copy is still sitting on her bedside table in her apartment.

She grins. "I know."

Helaena leaves and she has no choice but to make herself comfortable on their now shared bed, propping the pillows up against the headboard and sitting back against them. Aemond continues reading and she takes the opportunity to really look at him, uninterrupted by his own piercing gaze. The long sharp planes of his face, the strong jut of his nose, the line of his cheekbones. The ever present tilt of his lips, as if there is some secret or joke he’s struggling to hide. Even from here, she can see the way his eyelashes curl against his eyelids, the light blonde of them near translucent. His hair is the same almost silver blond and, fleetingly, she wonders how much effort he truly puts into it. She has heard the sound of the hairdryer when he locks himself in the bathroom but has never seen any of the products he may or may not be using. Nor has she ever been permitted to enter, the door locked tight since their post shower run in.

But it's his eye that truly catches her attention. She's sat on his sighted side and she can see the brilliant blue of his real eye even from there, admiring the way it catches the afternoon light. Only the dilation of his pupil sets it apart from the prosthetic and she realizes now how pretty they are when he’s not glaring at her or attempting to stare her into submission.

She nearly jumps when he speaks, pulling her harshly out of her thoughts. "You'll meet my father tonight. And Daemon."

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[obislittleone]

Tw: suicidal thoughts (don't be alarmed I'm just venting)

I am so tired. I am so worn out. It doesn't matter what I say. It doesn't matter what I do. I have been financially and physically giving to Palestinians and Israelis who have been injured and were innocent victims through this war. The organization my family and I are working with has done so much to try and save lives. I have done all I can possibly do, but it's not enough. Those of you who drop in my dms or my asks to call me a 'genocidal colonizer' are so truly lost. I hope you all get help, because the amount of hate I've seen against not only myself but against literally every Jew I know is absolutely abominable. Don't say 'from the river from the sea' unless you know what it means, and if you say it, don't say it to a jew. You may hate Israel, and you may even think that all the people there deserve to die, but have you ever taken into consideration that the innocent Jews of either Israel or the rest of the world have nothing to do with their government or the mistreatment of Palestinians? Did you ever once think before you commented on a Jews post to 'wipe Israel off the face of the earth'? Chances are you did not. Chances are also that if you did, you probably just hate jews. Don't comment any bullshit on this post, I'll just remove it. I'm not here to fight anymore, I'm just here to say a few words, and give a perspective to those who think I'm some devil worshipping satanist just because I'm jewish.

These are the asks in my inbox on the daily:

Do you have any idea how this mentally affects a person? Do you even know how horrifying it is to know that so many people want you dead? I've had run ins with depression and suicidal attempts and thoughts my entire life, but never have I been this influenced by outer forces into thinking that I should be dead. Never once has anyone encouraged me to pull a trigger or off myself. Not until this has happened.

The comments and reblogs on posts about my best friend who lived in Israel, and her mother (who is arab, btw) that was killed in the October 7th attack are beyond wild. I can't even imagine how crazy it must be to live in the middle east as a jew. This is only a fraction of the hate that I experience in my day to day life, now.

The middle fingers I get from pissed off passersby at Walmart because I wear a star of david, or the slurs I get called because I told someone I had to leave an event early for Shabbat. It's all hatred, and it all sucks.

The violence, and the aggression that innocent jews are getting from random people who hate them. The little old man who stood on a street corner and held a sign in protest of Jewish hate that was killed today by a pro-hamas protestor. Its all too overwhelming. Why? Because even if you choose not to see it, or even if you condone it and think its 'not that bad', Jewish hate is getting dangerously close to what it was during the time of the holocaust. What's worse? It's being praised. Not just accepted, but encouraged. I posted on my instagram asking for prayers over my friend who's having to hide in a bomb shelter because of the war. The amount of comments saying 'just let her die' were astounding.

I have to ask you, where is your humanity? When jews can not only feel compassion but openly support Palestinians and try and give their services to save their innocent women and children from dying in the war, where is your compassion for innocent jews? Where is your willingness to feel an ounce of sadness for the loss of a life? Are you so hateful that you will condemn a teenage girl to die because of the violence her government commits? And if it happens, will you be so heartless that you will praise the notion that she is dead?

A common phrase used when I ask pro-hamas bloggers what their stance is on the beheading of children or the raping of women is, it usually comes out as: "well what do you think declonization looked like?"

I am always shocked. Every. Single. Time... why? Because I hope with every shred of naivete i have in me that people who have lost so much will understand the pain of those who are also losing so much. When you condemn one government for killing your children, and bringing a genocide upon Palestinians, why do you not also condemn the murdering of children and innocent Jews? Is it because 'that's not your team?' Is it because you want to win so badly that you don't care what the cost is? Do you think that turning into the thing that killed your people will make you a hero? The only thing I can possibly think of that would make a person respond that way is bloodlust. When you condemn an entire nation (including the innocent people) of killing your own, then turn around and do the same thing to their innocents, do you think you've proved something?

Whenever I address these things I'm usually met with the same stuff about how I'm a Jew so I'm biased and I don't get to have an opinion... but I don't think it's fair to say that to someone who's literally living with the repercussions that your hate is causing. Don't tell me to be quiet if you're spreading nazi rhetoric about jews and telling people to kill us.

Again, don't bring any bullshit on here. It will be deleted, and you will be blocked. I've spoken my piece. If anyone is interested in learning more about the organization I work with and donating to help Palestinian and Israeli families getting caught in the crossfire, please drop me a message, I'd be glad to give you more information.

[furiousgoldfish]

I need to write this down, because I keep forgetting, and then struggle to empathize properly with this issue.

When you're a kid who's being groomed, brainwashed or exploited by someone, you don't feel it as a manipulation or harm; instead it feels like a fair exchange. You feel as if you've found a person, who is offering you some sort of security, empathy, companionship, understanding, safety, protection, even love. It makes you feel special, like you're a part of something important, or even something sacred, irreplaceable, something you will never get a chance to be a part of again. It feels safe, it feels like something you never want to lose, or even something you couldn't go on without. If you're of such bad luck that your groomer was the only person you could rely on for attention or love, then for you they were the only person who kept you from being completely neglected and alone. Children would give almost anything to not be neglected and alone.

And in return, you just have to give them something they need from you, and it doesn't feel like you're losing something important to them, it feels like this is normal, like you're lucky they actually need you back. You'd give them anything, as long as they stay with you, keep giving you purpose and importance and positive self-perception. You don't know what you're giving, you don't understand that you're losing something, or getting hurt or traumatized. You feel like you know what you're doing and you chose this, you need this. Like you need them.

A lot of grooming situations end with the abuser abandoning, or emotionally discarding the child, and this doesn't feel like relief that the exploitation is over, more often than not, it feels absolutely devastating, it fees like you're losing something important, something you depended upon or held onto for dear life. Being discarded after doing so much to try and keep this person wanting you, is crushing and heartbreaking. And then it can take years to re-contextualize the situation and to realize that it wasn't love, that it wasn't a positive bond, or something special, or something fair, that you were in fact, hurt so badly you now have trauma symptoms and see the world in a twisted, self-deprecating way because of what they did to you. That's another layer of unbearable pain, to understand that a person who you believed loved you, maybe even the only person to ever love you, did not in fact care for you at all. That they used you in the worst possible way and then got rid of you like you were nothing. A person who loves you wouldn't do that. They would never do that to you.

It's almost too painful to face this, and preferable to keep believing that it was love, but the person didn't know what they were doing or how it would affect you or was in some sort of dark past situation themselves so they couldn't' do better, so you could live with it somehow. Because to acknowledge that you were a defenseless child and that your vulnerability of inexperience and lack of protection was exploited in the worst possible way, by someone you loved so dearly you'd do anything for them, that is unbearable.

Grieving for what you had with the abuser, how it made you feel, missing them, needing more of what you got from them, wanting their attention, understanding, acknowledgment, apology, wanting to see that they can change and love you - that is normal after an event of abuse and grooming. That is normal for someone who didn't receive normal types of love that they didn't have to earn or deserve or give something in return for. That is not something to be ashamed for - you did not create this situation, and it's not your fault a predator found you and did this to you. You're allowed to grieve what you felt was love. You're allowed to grieve even the illusion you thought was true and built your life upon, it's a real loss, and a big loss.

The anger and the hatred might take a long time to come, or even never, because it's difficult to change how you felt towards someone your whole entire life, to such extreme level. It makes you feel like you were wrong, like you were cheated and tricked, and that's humiliating, unjust and makes you feel helpless, and that's the last thing you want to feel about your life. It's normal to just be sad and confused for a long time, and to take your time figuring out what actually happened, what part of it was intentional, how could a person do that to you and why would they. It's normal to want to cling to every last bit of hope before acknowledging that what happened was traumatic, undeserved and lead by the intentions of cruelty and personal gain. Your little heart did not deserve that, and it doesn't deserve it now. You deserve to take your time processing it.

[therantfairysblog]

Happy birthday Iguro san

✍️ notes : it so lateee for his birthday but I'm getting writer's block and I'm not good at writing sweet stuff. Sorryyy iguro san, happy birthday 🎈🎈🥳🎉

Humming, prettily under the tree, she took a look at a little bento box she prepared. Kanroji sit, under the tree, watching a group of children playing around. She chuckled.

She put out a little mirror, checking her hair she put in a bun, her pink kimono that she never wear yet, smiling a little, showing off her reddish lip.

"hmm, hmmm....🎶

......

Iguro walking carefully among the crowd, to be honest he dislike it. He was never get used of that many people.

Kanroji send her letter to met him today, but she never tell why and she looked excited too.

He arrive at their promised place. Kanroji was there sitting prettily with her new kimono. He stunned. She's always beautiful but that day, she looked like an angel.

"Iguro sann, you come," Kanroji waving her hand. Her smile is so mesmerizing.

"hi Kanroji,....you look fine today"

"hehe thank you. Iguro san too. Come here, i prepared something for you,"

.....

"happy birthday, iguro san. " kanroji put out her bento box, a basket full of sweet and cakes she made herself.

Iguro feels his cheeks reddening. Kanroji prepared a lot and she's absolutely stunning today.

The day was clear with fall wind caressing their face. Iguro watch the love of his life eating with a faint smile behind his mask.

"thank you Kanroji, you prepared a lot," despite his small appetite and his developed hatred towards food, watching kanroji eating, for some reason make him hungry. There's some foreign cooking that he never taste too but rather than afraid of it, he feel curious.

"iguro-san, i made this strawberry cakes by myself. It takes a lot of trial but thanks God, it's come out quite good at last. I hope you like it," Iguro startled when Kanroji hand out a piece of pink strawberry cakes to him, attempting to feed him. He hesitant for a while, it's remind him of his family, suddenly his chest feel heavy, sweating.

"are you okay, iguro san, I'm sorry, are you okay?" Kanroji's voice startled him again.

"yes...yes I'm okay," he slowly open up his bandage, although he still quite afraid of Kanroji's view on his ugliness. As pure as she is, she never complain or questioned his face, which he relief of it but feel sorry for. The cake taste so heavenly as sweet as her. Iguro smiling put her worry away for a bit. He doesn't want Kanroji to feel bad or worry about him.

"iguro san, i wish you happiness, have a long live, i hope we can remain together for a long time," her smile mesmerized him.

'if only, we could meet in difference circumstances, and I'm not an iguro, perhaps'.

"of course, thank you so much Kanroji"

.......

"I don't even remember my birthday, nor today is my exact birthday to be honest," iguro started their talk while walking along the riverside.

"oh...err I'm not stalking you or anything....i wonder iguro san birthday, so i just asking from rengoku san....i mean he told me you live with them for a while....so...hmm, please don't feel weird about me..." kanroji reddening face with her bit panicking gesture chuckled him.

'oh my, Kanroji san please calm down," he laughed.

" it's not that, the way you care about my birthday, is a precious gift alone for me. This day, is just the day kyujuro choose for my birthday, it's the day i was saved. It's not really my birthday,"

There's sadness in his voice. Kanroji stopping her walk, her hand naturally touching his haori.

"Iguro san, the day you born, the day you saved, the day we meet. I wish Iguro san never feel burden, i want iguro san to feel happy every day, today, tomorrow too. At the very least, i wish Iguro san could feel a warm happiness when you with me like this. " her face turned red.

It's not a confession but why his heart beating so hard. Kanroji stood in front of him, with her holding his hand.

"Kanroji san...if you allow it. Can i.."

She just nodding her head. Slowly Iguro pulling her into his arms, hugging her as tightly as he could. Mitsuri hugging him back, tightly.

"I'm so happy, kanroji san. I'm so happy, thank you," he let his tears fall slowly in his cheeks. Kaburamaru moving slowly, as if hugging them both.

That day is perhaps the best day and the happiest day he ever feel in his 21 years of life.

"Happy birthday Iguro san"

[lloydfrontera]

If og lloyd returns to his body after suho crosses the reincarnation gate what do you think will the frontera family and javier feel? Would they be glad for og lloyd's return? Particularly julian and javier?

so uhm. tumblr ate a similar ask i received before this one. like. the same premise so. i'm gonna assume it was by the same person. hopefully. sorry. anyway.

this is an evil scenario. i kinda dig it.

if lloyd crossed the gate and og lloyd returned to his body at that moment,,, there would be many, many conflicting emotions.

i'm gonna take the premise of the other ask and say the og lloyd that returns is the one from right before he got kicked out of his body. this is an og lloyd that didn't see lloyd save the estate countless times, didn't see the effect he had on everyone around him, that never had any reason to regret everything he'd done.

for arcos and marbella i think it would be an extremely bittersweet situation. they would be overjoyed about having their son again, they were absolutely devastated when they realized they'd lost him so i have no doubt they would be so, so happy if he came back. but at the same,,, it would be dampened by their grief over losing lloyd. they came to love him just as much as they loved their biological children, so they would mourn him just as much as they mourned og lloyd. and they would have to be very careful about how they express that grief lest og lloyd take offense to it and believe they'd rather have lloyd with them than him.

plus. well. og lloyd is,,, an asshole. and would presumably resume his terrible habits and attitude immediately, which would be jarring for everyone, but especially for arcos and marbella who deeply love their son and whose grief over suddenly losing him would probably made them romanticize his memory a little bit. it's a natural thing to do, everyone is a saint once they're dead, and while i don't think they completely forgot how terrible og lloyd was, it's a different thing to remember it while you're grieving and missing them than to see it in person again.

i think they would try their best to repair their relationship with him, grateful for the second chance they got with him, but i don't think they would get very far. the problem never was that they didn't care for og lloyd or didn't make an effort with him, it was that og lloyd wasn't interested in reciprocating those efforts. and it's really hard to make a relationship work when only one party is invested on it.

as for julian,,, it's hard to say because we never get to see how he feels about lloyd replacing his brother in the first place, which i think it's a shame cause he's one of the people who by all means has the most extreme response to lloyd in the entire novel. i think his perspective would've been really interesting to have but alas.

but,,, i don't think he would be happy at all. not even a little bit. maybe a part of him would be relieved his brother isn't dead, but that would be it. assuming this is in line with canon where julian has no idea his brother had been replaced, he'd first have to grapple with the fact that the person he came to love and admire was someone completely different than the one he thought.

that the brother that physically and verbally harassed him his entire life never changed. that the person he forgave and made peace with is not the one that hurt him in the first place. that the one that should've apologized and made amends with him is still the same and has no interest in changing.

that would alone would fuck anyone up, but then he has to also grieve the brother he'd come to love and really admire while having to watch the brother who he hated with a passion walk around like nothing happened.

julian hated og lloyd. he had an extreme hatred for him. and he was completely in his right to do it. so add to it the mess of betrayed feelings he would have plus the grief for lloyd plus a healthy dose of resentment and misattirbutted blame towards og lloyd for being alive when lloyd isn't anymore and,,, yeah. i don't think julian would have any positive feelings in this situation.

i think he would stay just long enough in the estate to be with his parents while the worst of the grief passed and then leave, with no plans of coming back unless his parents needed him to.

also i like to think that at one point julian snapped at og lloyd for one reason or another and when og lloyd went to hit him like usual not only did julian not flinch like he used but also sheherazade went absolutely ballistic on his ass. straight up trying to cut off his arm for it. javier was quick to stop her but like. it was a close thing even considering he's a grandmaster at that point.

after that og lloyd just avoids julian like the plague which suits all of them just fine. sheherazade especially. scary wife privilege <3

as for javier. god javier.

if arcos and marbella were happy about og lloyd coming back and julian was upset about it, javier would fall somewhere in the middle and also create a metric of his own.

just,, imagine the devastation he felt when lloyd crossed the gate on his own, his despair at not being able to protect the person he swore he would die for, then the bright spot of hope and relief when he sees him open his eyes and wake up, thinking that maybe, just maybe, fate was kind to them this time, maybe they get to have this one miracle, maybe they both get to life and be together like they wanted to... only for the slow and terrible realization that this isn't the lloyd he was hoping for. it's not his lloyd.

i think for one brief moment of grief induced insanity javier would genuinely consider throwing og lloyd into the reincarnation gate and see if that would bring back his lloyd. he doesn't of course, he immediately shakes himself out of it, but... the thought would've definitely crossed his mind.

because the thing is, while i've talked before about how javier wasn't glad about og lloyd being replaced and genuinely felt guilty for not being able to help him and for choosing lloyd over him, that's not,,, really because of og lloyd himself. like. it sounds harsh but javier kind of really hated the guy's guts. he cared for him as a member of the frontera family and would've genuinely tried to protect him had there been any need, but it would've been strictly professional and out of duty and loyalty towards arcos, not to og lloyd. which i don't really blame him for tbh! you reap what you sow and og lloyd earned himself nothing but javier's disdain with his actions and words.

but the point is! javier's interest in og lloyd is directly related to him putting his loyalty to arcos above all things. in the hell railroad arc that's his main reason to feel so conflicted about who to choose.

but at this point in the novel javier's loyalties have shifted. he's still extremely loyal to arcos, he still loves the frontera family, he still would protect them with all his being but... now his heart's loyalty belongs to lloyd.

I want to protect him. Lloyd is my true master in my heart.

and i think that, for one split second at least, the part of javier who would do anything for the people he cares about and is loyal to, would genuinely contemplate throwing og lloyd back into the reincarnation gate if there was even the slightest chance it would bring his lloyd back.

but he would quickly snap out of it. he is still very loyal to arcos and marbella, and this is their son, he's still a part of the frontera family and javier cannot, will not, risk his life on the small possibility it will save someone else. not even lloyd.

he would even feel guilty for having considered it in the first place, for letting himself be swept by his emotions, for being so selfish as to think about trading the frontera's son for the chance to get lloyd back. for knowing that even though he didn't do it, a small, grieving and half mad part of him still thinks it would be worth it.

i also think he would have a very hard time being around og lloyd but even a worse one trying to stay away from him. being in the same room as him would be bitter, disappointing and painful, but not being there would be maddening, every instinct telling him to go back, to see if he's alright, to be at the side of the person he'd spent the last few years protecting with everything he had. the one he'd been planning on staying with the rest of his life.

i think it was hard for him to come to love someone wearing the face of a person he hated. but it would be excruciating to see someone he hates wear the face of the person he came to love.

all in all. not a good time for anyone! which i think fucks i love this scenario it really woke up the brain worms <3

[fuck-you-upmusicbracket]

No Children (The Mountain Goats)

I hope that our few remaining friends/Give up on trying to save us/I hope we come up with a fail-safe plot/To piss off the dumb few that forgave us/I hope the fences we mended/Fall down beneath their own weight/And I hope we hang on past the last exit/I hope it’s already too late

I hope it stays dark forever/I hope the worst isn't over....And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out/You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning/There is no sign of land/You are coming down with me/Hand in unlovable hand

And I hope you die/I hope we both die

"The song of all time. It's the soundtrack for countless bad vibes ships (affectionate). The phrase 'hand in unlovable hand' has immutably altered the brain chemistry of thousands with its underlying sentiment and launched a hundred accompanying memes. 'I hope you die, I hope we both die' crams such incredible rawness and depth of feeling into all of nine words. It also makes for a great singalong."

"I need to leave. I need to LEAVE. I need to get out of this situation and I'd hope that if i found the strength to walk out, you'd stay the hell out of my way. I need to leave. Please. Let me out. HAND IN UN FUCKING LOVABLE HAND"

"Just. Man. These two are so broken. They want to be in love. They aren't. They hate each other so much. They are the only ones who understand each other. They wish that they weren't so close but all they can taste is ash when they think of leaving each other. Just, mutually assured destruction tastes so sweet when you can taste the blood on their tongue."

"It's No Children."

"goddd man this song is about being an irredeemable freak with another irredeemable freak and i think that's beautiful. there's something so fuck you up ish about the person you hate and despise the most in the world also being the only other person who is like you, who gets you. im going down, but youre going down too. we can be terrible people together... even if i hate you... even if you're the fucking worst. because we don't have anyone else. there's always a sort of comfort in knowing that there's someone out there who's as terrible as you are, and maybe you only hate them because you see yourself in them a little, too. anyway clay and bloberta from moral orel"

"The sheer emotion packed into the way it’s sung, the lyrics themselves, all of it just screams ‘clinging desperately to someone you hate because you don’t have anyone else and you burned those bridges yourself’ and I find that painfully relatable"

"It's a song about both virulent self-hatred and virulent hatred of someone else and yet you see yourself intertwined with that hated person forever."

Poll runner: Do I even have to add anything? This was the tournament's most submitted song.

Agree to Stay (Liquido)

You held my hand, I slipped away/We'd sleep beneath the stars/How I hate being scared/The more I think the more I do. Still anything reminds me of yo/I smell your hair/I hear your voice/I feel you.

"Okay look for this one I have to give a little more context but... so worth it. There's this fic. Absolutely HEARTBREAKING angsty fic featuring Major Character Death that has been living rent free in my brain since I first read it. And it's UNCANNY how well the lyrics of this song fit that fic and they just make each other's effect SO MUCH WORSE (affectionate). OKAY SO. The fic. The main characters (two brothers) have been kidnapped and one has been poisoned in order to extort information from the other (which he doesn't have). The fic follows them as one gets increasingly sicker and the other increasingly worried and scared ("How I hate being scared, the more I think the more I do"). They are kept in a windowless room and they talk about how they miss the sun and how they'd sit outside in the rain and have huge windows if they ever get out ("A brick of light reveals the day", "We'd sleep beneath the stars"). They reminisce about their childhood, how they would hide from monsters in their pillow forts and now the monsters have become real ("I wish we knew a place to play, where no one could find us"). The sick one keeps trying really hard to reassure the other, even as they lose hope ("you lied to me the other day, don't keep it all inside"), the other is really scared they won't get out in time, BUT THEN when they realise the sick one hasn't got long left, his brother starts telling HIM all the reassuring lies he's been told the days before, and the LAST WORDS the sick one says as he dies, his brother holding his hand ("You held my hand, I slipped away"), are "I'm really scared, brother" ( AGAIN "How I hate being scared", but this time UNO REVERSE). Second half of the fic deals with the surviving brother trying to cope with the loss as he's eventually rescued, just a bit too late. ("How I wish I was free, the more I think the more I do. Still anything reminds me of you. I smell your hair, I hear your voice, I feel you.") JUST. WHY DO YOU HURT ME IN THIS WAY. (I made a podfic of that fic and used this song as Intro/Outro music because FUCK if I have to suffer like this so does everyone else)"

No Children submitted by @leovaldezdefender + @diogenescynic2288 + many others

[marshmallowprotection]

Thinking about how Saeyoung only 'forgives' V in his after ending when he brings Saeran back (and even then not really, I think it's just the immediate shock of seeing Saeran again) and it made me wonder how he would feel about V after the SEs.

The last time they saw each other, the only thing holding Saeyoung back from physically hurting V (more than he did) was his own injuries - and not wanting to upset MC. Then, everything happens at Mint Eye and suddenly V is dead and Saeyoung seems to have let go of all of his anger.

Is it the same scenario as in V's AE, where the initial shock of grief over losing V makes his anger recede a little? Or is dying the thing that redeems V from what he has done?

I think that's an interesting question. I don't think I've ever thought hard about that before due to the immense hatred I know is inside of Saeyoung's hatred. We don't really see his reaction to V's death in the After Ending because he wasn't conscious when it happened. He has to be told AFTER the fact about what happened, by either one of the parties that witnessed it. I don't know who told him.

Jumin is one of those options, as is his MC, Vanderwood, or Jaehee. Saeran isn't going to bring it up. He's traumatized by what he's done to V. He didn't intend to shoot anyone that day. He was caged like an animal and reacted as such, his entire worldview crushed the second Rika admitted she never wanted him for Mint Eye, she wanted to use Saeyoung. Rika could've just as easily died that day as V.

So, I doubt anyone is going to bring that up around him. Neither is he going to bring it up. But, I have my opinions about SE Saeran that are not what you asked so I won't get into that.

This is about Saeyoung and his feelings. His feelings that never seem to change no matter what ending it is when he learns the truth of his life... and the lives of those around him. He hates them. He hates the lot of them for lying and using him... and Saeran. They were children. Children who needed help. They were played for fools like a fiddle in the devil's hand, and it's been years since Saeran was pulled into the lawless cult.

Saeran was tortured for YEARS.

It's not just the year that happens in Another Story. It's almost three years of absolute madness for Saeran. Saeyoung doesn't even get to know all the details of what happened, all he knows is Saeran had lost his mind in Mint Eye and was willing to do things he never would've as a child because of the brainwashing and cult manipulation in Mint Eye. That adds to Saeyoung's anger tenfold.

Think about how he feels in his Route when the truth comes out and he confronts V for the first time after Saeran gets kidnapped by the agency and Vanderwood.

Do you know why he mentions that V is the reason why he was put into the Agency? It was V who did that. V meet someone from that agency at an art auction and was talked into getting some help that way for Saeyoung. He thought it was like the "movies."

That's what he admits in a call with you during Saeran's After Ending. He was a young adult helping another child, but that doesn't excuse what he did. He was clueless. He didn't think harder about it. He just took that route because he thought it was for the best since he was afraid to ask anyone else for help (I.E. Jumin).

He damned Saeyoung to years of trauma that we're never going to know the extent of. We only see bits and pieces of what happened during his time in the agency because Saeyoung won't talk about it normally. The most we know is horrific, though. He spent days in a hot building thinking he was going to die by someone's hand or from the lack of food and water in that place. He almost died there. There are probably more times than that.

But, that's not even what Saeyoung is angry about. He could excuse the torture he suffered. But, he won't excuse what happened to his twin brother when he signed his lie away knowing that he might be forced to go through Hell. It was worth it if it meant Saeran was the happiest and safest person he could be. But, it was all a lie. It was a damned lie.

Saeyoung only holds back during this conversation with V because you're there. He doesn't want you to see him kill V with his bare hands in broad daylight. But, God, if you weren't there... he might've done it. I can't promise he wouldn't have done it. The anger is inside of him all the time and it won't leave. He wants everyone to suffer for what his brother went through. All of them.

I don't think he's over his anger in the latter half of the Secret Ending. He's bottling it up because Saeran is more important. The safety of his brother is more important to him than his anger. V is dead, he got what he deserved, he's angry he couldn't do that himself, but now he needs to protect Saeran from their father. He's fixated on that for a reason. If Saejoong found Saeran in the hospital, they'd be fucked in more ways than one.

He doesn't have time to fester on Jihyun Kim. V is dead. V is gone. He is in hell. That's what Saeyoung believes. He has to protect Saeran at all costs right now, and once he knows that Saeran is safe, I have no doubt in my mind he's going to have a crisis about that. How can he contend with that truth? Not that V is dead, but the fact that Saeran is guilty.

He has to come to terms with the fact that Saeran killed V, accident or not. He will be in denial about that. It's going to be complicated as hell.

If we see him shed any sorrow for V, I'm sorry, but it's a mask for the sheer fact that Zen and Yoosung don't know the truth. That's it. He's not in a position to talk about the truth. The RFA doesn't know all the facts. Only half of them do. V isn't redeemed for him, his anger at V doesn't decrease, we're just not seeing it because he's prioritizing his brother's safety right now.

I don't think it's anything like V's After Ending. I just genuinely think he's wearing a mask again and it's only a matter of time before you've got to talk to him about this because it's only going to fester inside of him. He needs to talk about this stuff. I hate that for him because he needs to have a healthy outlet but... it's Saeyoung. Old habits just die hard for him and he needs more time to focus on himself.

How does he confront Saeran's actions?

How does he let go of his shame over not being the one to do it?

How does he see the world knowing that he might never have all the answers he needed?

How does he face everything?

Saeyoung hates V, and he always will. But, the sad thing is that he'll never get any solid closure about it. I just hope he gets to talk about it with someone in a healthy outlet.

[papirouge]

The message you got about conservative men being closeted gay/bisexual came right on time because I've been thinking about it lately lol.

I always suspect these trad men when they talk too much about a woman's role and constantly criticize women, on top of the homophobia like atp i know it'll be a matter of time when something related to his sexuality will come out... Remember that scrote who gave that speech saying women were wasting their time with their careers and should become housewives and have children instead? And how some gay men started exposing him saying he had a "gay past"? I believe many of these men are lowkey jealous of women and have a hatred of them bc we are "allowed" to be with men and they can't... Like the way many of these men are obssesed with feminity and think any woman not shaving or wearing pants or prioritizing work is masculine.. If there's a group of men obssesed with hyper feminity is gay men, that's why they like those hyper femenine pop stars like Lana del Rey, I just feel these conservative men wish they could be one of the lolita stay at home gf coquette girlies lol.

That's also why I think it's funny when these conservative guys make fun of leftist men for wearing nail polish or being feminist or being pro-lgbt and imply they're gay. These men are not the ones having scandals for being closeted gay lol it's always the right wingers. At least leftist men don't have issues accepting their sexuality - you'll in fact find guys trying to hide their heterosexuality to be trans inclusive like the guys who say their pansexual bc they like "cis women, trans men and afab nonbinaries." lol And many times conservative men have been found to be closeted it's rarely through something more "innocent" like holding a man's hand, it's always something like participating in a gay orgy, or being with a prostituted man (or boy 🤢) or watching trans porn (even though they denounce porn and say it makes men less manly... One has to laugh).

Controversial take, but there's nothing less revolutionary or subversive in male gayness. Homosexuality is the peak of male narcissism and this tracks back to the dawn of time. Greeks & romans were huge male homosexuality apologetic societies. And *pikachu face* they were also patriarchal and pedophiles. Funny how those are often linked.

History is just repeating itself. Conservatives are actually consistent in trying to get back in their old way of those old times. Those maga/redpiller account with greek statue are such glaring giveaways.... lol

I think conservatism is pretty coherent with a form of patriarchal misogynist homosexuality.

I'm not surprised by those stories of closeted gays caught in 'extreme' situations, I guess that's what unchecked & unhealed sexual frustration will do to you

Yeah I remember that moid and talked about him here lol I think tiktokers dug out some statements he previously made where he said back in highschool he had a crush on one of his teammates or coach?? His Instagram is pretty zeisty too👀 There's something definitely fishy with him..his speech screamed like some major copium. Something tells me that since he struggled with his sexuality, he now wants to impose the same sexual control onto women. He's definitely not one of those people who "recovered" from homosexuality

And you know what? I think everyone would benefit having more sexual continence, but dude messed up by compelling women (and only women) to do the opposite and jumpinto marriage and childbearing. He wants to control women into motherhood which is absolutely irresponsible.

I also think the obsession of Conservatives with Epstein super weird. Sure his "suicide" was suspect but it's very suspicious to see them act like he and his list were the only pedo network in the world. Same with Balenciaga. I hate how sensational headlines made people lose focus and forgot that this isssue is more culturally pervasive How many of the ppl who clutched their pearls are the tragic Balenciaga campaigns watch #teen porn? or entertain anime lolicon/cute japanese girl fetish? shame grown women for looking old and not forever looking like prepubescent girls? Balenciaga wouldn't have done that campaign is they didn't feel like society was ready to accept it. It thankfully didn't, but it's time for everyone to acknowledge this decision didn't happen out of a vacuum. Society is being groomed into sexual & moral degeneracy, and many of the people who went off at Balenciaga are actually part of the problem.

I'll never forget how conservatives almost unanimously defended Andrew Tate because sex trafficking & rape is apparently okay as long as the victims are not children somehow🤡

[bbygirl-aemond]

Say that rhaenyra three eldest children died leaving her pure and step daughters. You think the greens would fight the blacks now after viserys death

this is a great question! and a nice follow-up to the previous scenario that i discussed in way too much detail here. i mentioned in that post that i think the greens' lives were in genuine danger because of the instability of rhaenyra's claim, and that they usurped her not out of hatred of her but of fear for their lives. i also explained the two major factors weakening rhaenyra's very legitimate claim to the iron throne: her gender, and her bastards.

in this new scenario, we've maintained the potential issues caused by the precedent of putting an eldest daughter on the throne. so lords with older sisters and eldest daughters would likely still be pretty unhappy. but we no longer have the aspect of the bastard issue, which could also happen if rhaenyra made aegon the younger her heir if the idea of the strong boys dying makes anyone too sad! so what changes? let's discuss!

of the two issues (bastardy and gender), the gender issue will be much easier for the lords of westeros to swallow, for a few reasons:

there are likely fewer lords with older sisters/eldest daughters than there are lords with bastard siblings or children given how rampant infidelity seems to be in westeros, so fewer lords will feel negatively impacted by this.

pretty much all of these lords were willing to swear fealty to rhaenyra as viserys's heir back when she had no bastards (though i do acknowledge that aegon didn't exist yet so it's not a direct comparison). still, this means lords who are okay with rhaenyra but not okay with jace remain on rhaenyra's side.

the legal precedent actually allows lords to choose whether a change in their succession takes place. viserys didn't institute a law that makes absolute primogeniture mandatory. he simply created a precedent where if a lord wants to they can name their eldest daughter heir. so lords will feel that their claims are more protected by the law here, because they are still the ultimate authority on their succession.

overall, i do think this means rhaenyra would have more support than in canon, and significantly so. in canon, the greens only very narrowly had enough supporters to carry out a successful coup, and so even a small loss of support would make it pretty much impossible for them to do this, even if they wanted to.

otto would still be as manipulative and anti-rhaenyra as ever. but as i mentioned in my previous post, that isn't enough to get alicent and her kids to turn against rhaenyra. in this scenario, rhaenyra's claim would be much stronger in canon, and it would be much less likely that any of alicent's kids could pose a political threat to rhaenyra because there simply wouldn't be enough discontented lords to make them one. of course, things are still a bit iffy, but it's fair to say they would come down on the side of being willing to back rhaenyra. especially alicent, who we know loves rhaenyra and maintained her support of her for many years even after the strong boys were born.

that's not to say this wouldn't require a big adjustment for the greens: in your proposed scenario, rhaenyra still maintained her bastards as heirs for years. so alicent's kids would have still been brainwashed against her from childhood, and lords would have still begun to mobilize against her. hostility between the two sides of the family would still have built up over the years. i don't know that these broken bridges would have ever really been mended. but i do think alicent and her children would have felt able to let rhaenyra ascend since it wouldn't have risked their lives so directly.

[gilly-moon]

[5 Characters & 5 Tags]

Tagged by @harleyshahas (thank you ♡!!!!)

Riku/Sora (Kingdom Hearts) - KH is the game that got me into video games, and inspired me all the way to getting my current job in game dev, and Riku is at the heart of why I love the games so much. But I had to put Sora too, because one without the other just doesn't work. Without Riku, Sora couldn't have his arc of "I want to be better than Riku" to "I want to be better with Riku". And for Riku, his transition from dark & edgy to chosen keyblade weilder all ties back to how he looked down on Sora, then tried to make up for his mistakes, and finally trusted and loved Sora completely. They complete each other and challenge each other to grow and become better at every turn. Also their reunion in 2 absolutely ruins me every time. Sora crying on his knees will be burned in my brain forever.

Zack Fair (FFVII) - Crisis Core was at one point the only game that would work on my PSP lol. But I didn't need any other games because Zack the puppy was everything to me. Watching him struggle with the morality of being a SOLDIER, all while desperately trying to protect his friends and failing at every turn...that shit hurts, and yet he keeps his smile and honor right up til the end. He is THE sunshine boy of sunshine boys and I could gush about him all day long. His scenes in Advent Children destroy me.

Oikawa Tooru (Haikyuu) - the real blorbo of my heart, the bitch I latched onto and will love to the end of my days. His ability to take even a team of strangers and lead them flawlessly within just a few minutes is so admirable. He knows exactly how to bring out the best in everyone on the court. It hurts me to this day that he never got to wreck Shiratorizawa before he graduated (also that moment where he falls and slips in season 2 uggghhhhh) but jokes on them because he's the one who got an honorable position on an irl team!! I get some people call him an insufferable asshole but thats exactly why I like him! Let characters be insufferable!!!!! Its fun!!!!! And besides, when it comes down to it, he's genuinely a good person who wants everyone on his team to be involved and be their best. Love of my life. No Oikawa haters allowed on my blog.

Pitch Black/Kozmotis Pitchiner (RoTG) - basically since the movie came out I have been ready with a "Pitch did nothing wrong" speech at all times. I feel like I don't even really have to explain this one, I mean....yall get it. You know why we're all still here, loving him and the Guardians to the end of our days. I will say, though - idc if it's book version or movie version, my love for this asshole remains the same.

Nico di Angelo (Percy Jackson) - ah, the original blorbo. The queer awakening for so many people even before he was out in the books. This is another "I love him because he's kinda rude" character. His hatred towards other characters is always warranted tbh, because they ostracize him for?? No good reason at all???? No one wants to or tries to be his friend in heros of olympus for the first four books (except Hazel, who practically has to force others to talk to him) and it pisses me off to no end. Percy spent battle of the labyrinth hunting him down, but would he have been so dedicated if he wasn't getting the iris messages??? Doubt it. Anyway. I adore Nico, he deserved better, and I'm so glad he's got a wonderful bf and his own book now. I will never get tired of him and I really hope the tv series goes well so he can finally come to life in live action ♡

Honorable Mentions: Ronan Lynch, Cloud Strife, Roxas, Hiccup Haddock, Sasuke Uchiha, Portgas D. Ace, Killua Zoldyck, Allen Walker, Vlad Masters

I don't rlly talk to many people on here so...if one of my picks was also yours, consider yourself tagged!

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Vent ig

Fandoms will always be more willing to humanize and excuse the male antagonists but will take any chance to further demonize female antagonists (or just female characters in general lets be honest) and turn them into cartoonishly evil ppl.

I hate making everything about RQ but Elara is what sparked this from me, or at least something I remembered pushed me to want to vent about this. It kills me that ppl in this fandom will sit and make excuses day in and day out about how Maven actually isn't to blame for any of it and how it actually isn't that bad that Maven killed thousands of ppl and physically and mentally abused Mare and Iris (and hell maybe even Evangeline who knows at this point) but will then turn around and exaggerate what Elara did to the absolute extreme. I am NOT saying that Elara didn't do anything wrong or should be excused cause I don't think that! What I am saying is, I loathe when ppl will talk about her and erase parts of her character in order to turn her into a cartoonishly evil stepmother. You don't have to like her, you don't have to think she had anything but bad intent, but don't talk about her if ur just gonna ignore or change part of her character because for some reason u can't fathom her not being 100% rubbing her hands together maniacally laughing evil. (Especially considering Elara barely has any character so like how r u just missing shit that easily?) And it doesn't just stop with her. It happens with characters in every media! Alicent Hightower gets half her character IGNORED because god forbid she not be 100% evil and u feel anything but hatred for her! Sansa gets demonized for shit she did at like 11 like come on. I mean hell, even characters from children's media get demonized for existing (like I'll never forget hearing that ppl HATED Mable Pines for being what? an annoying 12 year old?)

Ppl also love to claim they stan or love female characters but in reality they only love that character in relation to their male love interest. If she ever goes against her male love interest then it turns into "she's such a bitch" or "she's so selfish" like I mean thats literally what happened to Mikasa the moment she "turned" on Eren.

Idk im so tired of ppl stanning and loving evil male characters and finding every which way to justify their actions but then going out of their way to make female characters WORSE than they actually are.

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Curious gives Daemon is well…. Daemon and etc, what do you think he would have been like if he had been born a woman ? Would have there still been dangerous and etc ? And her influence? ( Might be strange question I know).

I think the copout answer would be to say "probably a lot like Rhaenyra", but I don't do copouts.

I think what we'd know first and foremost is that Daemon would never have been thought of as Viserys's heir. Daemon in this case would be the King's sister, and never even considered as part of the line of succession, and even after naming Rhaenyra, would still be behind her, and behind whatever children she'd have with her husband. So that sense of entitlement, and subsequent anger over being denied, never would have existed. Any influence had over Viserys would have been not as an heir, or even as a peer, but as a sibling, and likely with a closer relationship in childhood due to them both being orphaned at a young age, especially for Daemon, and general "men protect women" sentiment compounding that. I think hints of stuff we see with Daemon in the show, like his abandonment issues, his yearning for acceptance and connection from loved ones (no not even I am immune from Daemon's poor little meow meow forehead touches to Caraxes or Viserys or Laena), would be hyped up a bit, as there's rarely a position more suited to loneliness than "royal female relative who can't even be considered in the line of succession).

Personality wise, it'd be interesting. A lot of Daemon's traits are gendered, like that aforementioned sense of entitlement and his disdain for nearly everyone around him, born out of his vaulted position as brother of the King and de facto heir to the Iron Throne besides. If Daemon were a woman, traits like that would likely be lessened, or even outright taken away, given that there is no vaulted position involved anymore. Daemon's other traits, like his intelligence and his cunning and his propensity for restlessness and his need for independence would stay the same. The hair trigger temper would still be there, but not in the same way. In our own world, women who get vocally angry about things are subject to misogynistic comments and dismissal (if you're American, we've become all too familiar with the phrase "nasty woman"), and Westeros is much more patriarchal than our world. Any anger Daemon would feel would likely have to be kept severely repressed, bottled up deep inside and at risk of exploding out only in moments of extremely high stress (much like Aemond, wow he really is eldest daughter coded), but even then never in public, almost exclusively in private. Daemon would be much more publicly reserved, but quietly a maelstrom of emotions. And obviously there'd be elements of haughtiness and pride and derision of people she doesn't like, because Daemon would still be royalty and also Targaryen exceptionalism, etc.

One thing that would likely stay the same is the issue of marriage. Daemon's hatred of Rhea Royce (setting aside his misogyny and just general bad attitude) also comes from the fact that he was married to someone not of his choosing, and that he apparently had no say in it (I know there are people who say that he could have wormed his way out of it if he wanted, because he was a Prince, but ultimately a command from the King is absolute law in Westeros, and Daemon in universe wasn't risking his position as heir over trying to fight against a wedding). Were Daemon a woman, that tension would still be there, and probably exacerbated (again, not dissimilar to how Rhaenyra feels when she thinks Viserys is trying to marry her off), especially due to the fact that Daemon as a woman would be considered a really high prize. Hatred of whatever spouse exists would absolutely be present, and likely more vicious, likely on both sides, given that a Westerosi man might not be super stoked to have a wife higher in rank than him. It'd still be the same in regards to living situations, because Daemon would still likely have a dragon (more on that in a bit), and could just be at court and use the excuse of "oh yeah hubby's tending to his lands and whatnot, if he wants me back he's a big strong lord he can come and fetch me back".

We'd likely see a lot of Cersei parallels. I know Alicent gets them mostly (for some reason even tho any comparisons to Cersei are incredibly surface level), but a female Daemon would be where it really hits. Because Cersei hates her gender. She doesn't particularly care for men either, but that's because she thinks the men in her life have flawed personalities. Women, on the other hand, she detests as a whole. She has some of the worst internalized misogyny I've ever seen, and so much of her POV is devoted to how she wishes she were born a man, but not in the way you might expect. Cersei likes being a woman herself, she enjoys things like her allure and the fact that men find her beautiful, but she wishes she were a man instead of the men she knows, because she'd be better at it. She wants to be a man not because she actually wants to be a man, but because she wants to be not a woman. She despises being a woman, and despises other women for also being women and inherently weaker and setting the stage for her own gendered upbringing and the misogyny and abuse she's faced in her life. And that'd be Daemon. We see Daemon react violently in the show when realizing that Viserys never wanted him as his heir after all, Daemon as a woman would have that same loathing for the idea that she doesn't get what she wants, and a similar detestation for being denied things solely on the basis of her gender.

Two things that would immediately become more interesting is a) Daemon's bond with Caraxes and b) Daemon's charisma. For one, the show made a choice to have Caraxes be a deformed dragon, to have been born faulty and likely the runt of the litter, which is OK for idk their second son thing they've got going but would become amazing were Daemon a woman. Then it's a deformed dragon and a girl who is never even considered a candidate for any succession or power in her own right, two creatures barely given a second glance who bond and grow stronger and more impressive and fearsome. It'd give a female Daemon power she never would have expected otherwise, and would likely give them a much stronger bond, almost to the level of Aegon and Sunfyre or even Dany and her children. For two, Daemon is (we are told) incredibly charismatic. Do I see it? Nah, but it's there, there's a reason why the City Watch is so loyal to him personally, and why people keep following him into battle in the Stepstones, hell probably why Viserys keeps letting him get away with shit. And as a woman, who likely cannot be as militant and as strong in warrior prowess, that charisma would be so much more honed and so much more necessary. It wouldn't be dissimilar to what we've seen in leaders like Cleopatra, or her rival Octavian, both of whom couldn't be strong military commanders and unrivaled soldiers and had to rely on political skill and forging personal bonds due to femininity in the former and having the same health points as a soaking wet chihuahua in the latter. And that would likely make Daemon an incredibly skilled politician (which he is Not in the show, at all, he's got the political skills of a worker ant), practically silver tongued, and far more adept at getting people's love and getting others to do things for her than we see in regular Daemon. A Princess of the City, just in a very different and likely much more personally loyal way.

Would there be danger? Not overtly, not to the level where Otto is constantly warning everyone and their mother that Daemon is a problem that needs to be dealt with. But it'd be there, and very much more of a "serpent in the grass" kind of danger. Would she have influence? Most likely, just a different kind of influence, drawing on a different set of skills and a much different relationship to Viserys than current Daemon has.

As for interpersonal relationships, it'd be a mix of changes and similarities. The relationship with Viserys would likely be much closer, due to Daemon pushing buttons less and aforementioned gender roles and parental loss mentioned above, while the relationship with Rhaenyra would be much more distant (or maybe not, but adding discussions of sexuality to this would make it longer than it is and it's already pretty long). The relationship with Otto would be much less contentious, and all other relationships Daemon has tend to arise from the story, which is more up to interpretation based on just rewriting everything from the ground up with "Daemon is a woman now".

In short, not the strangest question I've ever been asked, but certainly a very interesting one.