Ngl, I always feel so weird at the thought of actually trying to date other dykes bc I'm disabled. Like...how many other dykes actually wanna date a dyke like me? I can't walk a lot, which is an issue for a lot of people, I'm chaotic as hell and yeah, I'm hot but I've also got a fuck-ton of scars [which scares people] and sex would have to be made accessible for me.
Like, I've got a lot of awesome friends who're dykes but I feel amazed I've even got that? I always feel surprised when people like me so the idea that anyone would wanna date me, especially in the context of me being disabled, is just...I feel like it's absurdly optimistic to think someone would want that with me. But then part of me is also like, isn't that just internalized ableism/insecurity? Or is that me being realistic? I don't know.
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i posted abt this on my tiktok story but i need to rant more so im putting it here 😭😭 the way a lot of mikosai shippers (on tiktok, pinterest, reddit, etc) are is such a big reminder to me of why i hate the strictly romantic soulmates trope with every fiber of my being 😭😭😭 people who interpret soulmates as "that means theyre canonically together" regardless of how the characters actually feel about each other and if they ACTUALLY get together is so fucking gross to me oh my god its so fucking gross i hate forced romance so bad 😭😭 someone cant just say "hey, we're soulmates so you HAVE to date me and its literally weird and impossible for you to like anyone else because i said so!!" and also aiura WOULDNT do that anyway ???? HELLOOO???
you have no idea how many people ive seen call all saiki ships with anyone other than aiura "problematic ships" just because "theyre soulmates"
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choices - batman: haunted knight
[ID: six panels of Bruce Wayne and his date going on a carriage ride. They're in monochrome as the only colour is the red rose his date is holding. She's presenting topics in hopes to find something he's interested in. "Politics?" Bruce reluctantly answers, "Not... Intentionally. I find it... Time consuming." She prompts, "Travel?" Bruce replies, "Not... As much as I like to." She leans closer as she asks, "Theater?" Bruce sits up slightly as he excuses, "I've missed a lot. I'm... Often busy at night." She attempts once again, asking what about music, to which Bruce tentatively responds, "I try to keep up with... um... What kind of music do you like?" She looks down at the rose with a soft smile before looking back up. She holds it underneath his nose as she leans slightly on his arm. "Mr. Wayne, are you involved with anyone right now?" Bruce looks at her as he says, "I... Have a number of obligations. But, none of them are romantic." END ID]
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i made a dol oc... her name is evangaline
did i create her in a span of 2 days? yeah. what about it.
general info:
- she's aromantic and asexual
- literally moved to town just to watch the shenanigans ensue
- crippling loneliness
- freelance gardener who sells dried flowers at the market
- broke
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When I think about Mizuki in aini it’s like, I know something is just so off about her but I have trouble articulating it. It’s really frustrating cuz she was like my favorite character in the first game and when I play the first game I feel like I have a really good idea of who she is as a character. Like she acts strong and and hangs out with people much older than her and has to take on a fuck ton of responsibility but she’s also just a kid she cuddles with a rabbit toy she raises fish in the fridge she can be kinda gullible in the way that kids are and she doesn’t always understand more mature jokes. She acts sassy and hostile towards Date but she’s described as kinda and compassionate by Hitomi and she defends the weak and loves her friends deeply and thinks Aiba is cute. She pokes fun at Date for being grumpy at the shrine and then excitedly holds his hand and drags him over to the offering box to pray for his safety and she gets scared when there’s danger and she hugs Date for comfort but then tries to brush it off because she was taught to feel shame whenever she required basic attention and affection. She was hurt badly by her biological family and finds herself at home with Date despite her fears of him not caring for her. Like she’s a really solid well rounded character with strengths and weaknesses and her story makes me feel every possible emotion known to man
Then I play aini and I was soooo excited to see that Mizuki was gonna be a protagonist and that she had Aiba (its what made me buy the game immediately after finishing the first game lol) and then like. I honestly can’t tell you a damn thing about her character in aini. Like she’s the protagonist for half that game and I can’t think of any particular struggles she has as a character or like any moments where she stands out. It’s like, I know this is Mizuki she has the same basic features of that character but she’s not really given much? And anything new you learn about her is just like, retcons of her already established and well written backstory that just. Really didn’t need to be made and honestly they just kinda do a disservice to her character
Like first off there’s the Bibi twist which. Oof. I have some pretty complicated feelings about Bibi in general like okay. When she appears as the masked woman I was totally on board and thought she was really interesting and I was so prepared for her to be a favorite character her somnium is probably my favorite one in the game. And then she was revealed to be Mizuki. And it was revealed that we were playing as her for half of the B side of the story and we didn’t know it. Like, where to even begin. They stopped writing Bibi as her own character and she pretty much just became Mizuki except idk, she has a bigger grudge against Ryuki and has a heart condition I guess. And like I think it really speaks to how flat Mizuki was in this game if we can play as two completely different characters and have them be indistinguishable. Bibi shouldn’t be anything like Mizuki, they’ve lived completely different lives. And I hate the clone twist like good god I really hate the clone twist because IT ADDS NOTHING TO MIZUKIS CHARACTER OR HER CONFLICT. In fact it like, actively goes against her arc from the first game??? Cuz like half the point of Date and Mizuki’s relationship is there to show that family isn’t what you’re born with, it’s what you make. Both Date and Mizuki feel like their little family can’t exist because they’ve been taught, like most of us have, that biological family is the most important and real and valid way to have a family. You’re supposed to love and respect your biological parents because they MADE you, and Date has to live with the anguish that he can’t be Mizuki’s REAL father because they aren’t blood related. So like, to pull the rug away and go "oh yeah btw I guess Mizuki was adopted lol" it just completely erases what made her story so impactful to most people. And the clone reveal adds nothing like Mizuki doesn’t NEED this at all she wasn’t looking to discover the truth of her backstory because. There wasn’t any truths that needed to be discovered, we already know her deal and so does she. And her having a clone doesn’t really fit with the half to whole theme cuz like, she wasn’t looking for a fucking clone or like a secret sister or anything like that. It’s just stupid it’s so stupid
What Mizuki needed was like, a new actual conflict that required her to overcome challenges and grow as a character. A lot of people, myself included, have complained about how her relationship with Date just isn’t talked about hardly at all, how he went missing for 6 years and they didn’t even get a proper reunion and the game kinda mocks you for wanting one. We dont get any context as to how Mizuki coped during that time like she was completely alone for the most major years of her life she was separated from the one person who was her real family and we don’t know what she felt during all that cuz the game refuses to talk about it. And there isn’t much indication that the adults care about this either, Boss maybe has a soft spot for her but that’s kinda the extent of it, she makes a joke that Date is probably off chilling in a hot spring in Atami so clearly no one is giving Date’s disappearance the weight it deserves. So like, we have this potential thing we could work with here like why is Mizuki a detective now and why does she care about this case? Because her dad was taken by tearer and has been gone for 6 years and she’s been all alone and she wants to find him and find out if he’s even alive and she wants to kick tearers ass cuz he tore (hehe) her family apart. And this can also give her an actual connection to Ryuki too like Ryuki is the one who betrayed Date and knew some shit about tearer and saw what happened to Date and he just never told Mizuki the truth and she’s spent all this time looking for Date so this would be like, pretty major conflict when it all gets revealed. And it actually gives what Ryuki did actual consequences that affect him cuz honestly the fact that no one seems to care that much about Date’s disappearance makes Ryuki’s guilt and depression seem completely fucking useless lol. So here we go, that’s some conflict for Mizuki to have and it gives her a personal connection to the case, we can add more to it but really even this alone is way more than what she’s given in the actual game. And I think just the big problem with her in aini is I think the writers were too afraid to do anything that could ruin her character or cause her to change too much so they just like. Didn’t write anything that could allow her to develop and instead just fucked with already established information about her which. I honestly don’t know how that is seen as better??? In what fucking world. It just feels really pointless to have even made Mizuki a protagonist to begin with since they don’t really do anything with her and lol I think the writers realized this so that’s why like. Ryuki gets all the character conflict but makes lowkey no progress in the case and the real investigation doesn’t happen until the Mizuki side cuz they needed to make up for the fact they didn’t write anything for her alskla
So yeah just to wrap things up, Mizuki just didn’t get to be a character in aini and she wasn’t given any interesting conflict despite how easy it would’ve been cuz the writers were too scared of doing anything with this character that could ruin her but dude. Dont fucking make her the protagonist then if you’re too scared of doing anything with her. Don’t piss me off like that
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i think an important thing to learn re interacting with other people is how to recognize what you actually want from them and whether that is actually in their control to give you?
because sometimes it really is as simple as "i want you to do the dishes", and that's a thing a person most likely *can* do and most likely will do if you express that want to them in a reasonable way.
but a lot of the things we want from people aren't actually that easy, because we don't just want them to do a thing, we want them to *want* to do that thing. it's not really "i want you to kiss me" it's "i want you to want me". it's not "i want you to leave a comment on this thing i wrote" it's "i want you to be excited to read the things i write and to be inspired by them to leave a comment". it's not "i want you to meet me for beers tonight" it's "i want you to miss me as much as i miss you".
and it's hard because those yearnings are real and the rejection of them is real and it does feel bad, but also... it's not anybody's fault or responsibility. it hurts to care more than other people, but they aren't not-caring on purpose. and you can't ask people to care! you can't ask people to want. because it's outside of their control and you'll only make them feel bad for no reason. and sometimes (a lot of times, even) they really *do* care but there are circumstances that prevent them from showing it in the way you are able to receive it! and you won't always be able to tell the difference. and you have to just trust that everybody is doing their best, one way or the other.
it's very hard! it doesn't solve the yearning! but understanding it makes it easier to be respectful of other people, and kind, and forgiving. and it makes it easier to appreciate the times when your wants overlap with somebody else's in whatever beautiful way.
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