#like we made SUCHHH GOOD TIME

[bibleofficial]

my mother came w me to my visa appointment & we were out by 9.30 only to have the car battery fucking die

[mustainegf]

Reader giving 80s James titjob backstage

THIS IS SUCHHH A GOOD IDEA WSPECIALLY FOR 80s JAMIE

𝐒𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐄𝐙𝐄 ¹⁹⁸⁴

The feeling backstage after the show was always exciting. The crowd had been wild, and James still rode the high as he usually did. His hair was all over, sweat glistening on his forehead and his eyes shining with adrenaline. I watched from the side, and almost every moment of that stage made me fall a little more in love with him.

"Hey, you," he called out, noticing me standing there. His grin was adorable as always, and I couldn't help but smile back as he approached me.

"Hey yourself," I replied with a flutter in my stomach. "You were amazing out there."

He put an arm around my waist, pulling me close. "Thanks, babe." He grinned, a slightly sheepish look in his sweaty face.

We found a quiet corner backstage, away from the chaos and noise of the crew packing up. James was leaning against the wall, still catching his breath with a heaving chest. His black tank top clung to his body, damp with sweat, and his leather pants hung low off his hips.

"You were so hot up there," I confessed, my voice barely above a whisper.

James' grin grew as his eyes seemed to turn darker. "Yeah? You liked what you saw?"

I nodded, almost purring as I leaned into him. "I did. A lot."

His hand slid down my back, resting on my ass. "What do you wanna do about it?"

His question was so bold, as James usually was with me. I moved even closer to him. "I want to make you feel good. Really good."

James's breath hitched, and he shifted away from me so he could look at me, his eyes fixed on mine in curiosity "What do you have in mind, sweet thing?”

I glanced around to check we were still alone, then reached for the hem of my top, carefully pulling it over my head. James's eyes shot wide as he watched me, his gaze riveted on my bare breasts.

"Fuck," he muttered, his voice a lustful purr. "You're gonna get us caught..."

I smiled, pushing him into and empty dressing room. "You ever had a tit job before?"

He shook his head, almost looking embarrassed as he sat down, the door shutting behind us. "No, never…”

"Well then," I said, falling to my knees in front of him. "Lets see if you can handle it."

James's eyes never left mine as I reached for his belt, unsnapping it with excitement. He was breathing harder. I unzipped his pants, freeing his already hard cock. It sprang out, proud and ready, and I couldn't help but lick my lips at the sight.

"Fuck, baby," he groaned, his hands grazing my shoulders.

I got down on my knees between his legs and pressed my breasts together, squeezing them around his shaft.

The warmth of his cock against my skin sent a tingle through me, and I began to move, sliding my tits up and down his length.

James' reaction was instantaneous and bursting of sensation. His head fell back against the wall, his mouth open in a silent moan. "Oh, fuck," he breathed. "That feels… fuck.."

I kept moving up and down slow and steady, watching his face as he became overwhelmed further by the second. His eyes were closed tight, his jaw clenched, and every now and again, a moan would slip past his glistening lips.

"God, your tits are perfect," he muttered, his hand tangling in my hair. "So soft, so fucking… good."

I picked up the pace further, and now my mouth was slick with dripping saliva to make his cock glide in and out even more fluidly. James's moans became loud, and I could feel his body screwing under my ministrations.

"Fuck, yeah," he groaned, tightening his hand in my hair. "Just like that, baby... Keep going."

The sound of his voice, all rough and needy, drove me wild. I wanted to give him everything he wanted, to make him feel every second of pleasure he deserved. I pressed my breasts in tighter around his cock, moving faster, and his hips began to jerk and thrust in time with my movements.

"God, you're so sexy," he panted, his eyes flicking open to stare down at me. "Fuck, I'm so close..”

His cock jerked between my breasts, and I could tell he was close. I moved forward a bit, so that the sensitive head of his cock would brush on my lips as he rocked back and forth.

"Cum for me, Jamie," I whispered, glancing up at him through my lashes.

His response was immediate. His body tightened with a loud groan, and hot thick ropes of cum spurted from his cock to coat my neck and breasts. The force of his release left him watch a tremor, his breathing like he’d just run a marathon.

"Fuckkkk," he whispered, his hands tangling gently in my face. "That was…."

I smiled up at him, and he could see that I really was proud of myself, satisfied. "Good boy..." I whispered, slowly releasing the pressure of my boobs, watching his shaft twitch in protest.

[youremyheaven]

with that Venusian man 👨 hmm 👀👀 spill the tea girl

Not the 33yr old, this is the friend from a few nights ago 😜 whose arms I liked 🤭😩

They're both Bharani Moon tho 😌 which is my favourite among the Venus naks 😌😌😌 so I do feel like God's favourite rn lmao 🤪

Idk why I never felt this way about him before but looking at his pictures and talking to him, didn't make me feel much , like he's objectively good looking, a veryyyy handsome man, 6'2 😩😩 (the 33yr old is 5'7 max 😔) BROAD ASF SHOULDERS, BIG ARMS, but I was never attracted to him. He has a very sweetie personality too, he has Mercury in Purvabhadrapada atmakaraka and lots of Jupiter in his navamsa chart and he feels veryyy Jupiterean, which according to Claire's video is the nice guy you friendzone etc which is what I did too 😜🤭🤭but OH MY GODDDDDD THE MAN IS DEMONICCCC IN BED 😩😩😩😩😩

He has a veryyyy masculine presence and I love love love love LOVE his body 😩😩😩 he's so bulky and so big, I just get butterflies looking at him 😍😍

So we agreed to book a hotel room that you can rent for a couple of hours??? BEST DECISION IVE EVER MADE 😩😩😩

and from the minute he picked me up, I just had to have him inside me one way or another like 😭😭😭 he's SOOO manly, that I just WANT to get on my knees for him 😭😭😭 I can't believe I'm saying this out loud 😭😭

He's so affectionate and SOOOO gentlemanly, like DAMN he was raised right ✨ he prioritizes foreplay and spends a lot of time on my body, just kissing me all over, I remember when we were friends, he'd casually point to the moles on my arms and say shit like "would be nice playing connect the dots with these 😏" but I just saw him as a friend and I flirt with all my friends male and female and vice versa so i didn't think too much of it but tonight 😩😩😭 as he took my pants off, he saw the mole on my upper thigh and he was like "here's one I haven't seen before 😈" (and all of today, his voice has been deeper and more 🥵🥵 usually he sounds all 😃😊😃☀️🌸 but today he sounded so 😈🥵😈 even tho he was just talking about normal shit) and then he kissed it and licked it 🥵🥵down until he reached yk where 🙈 and BOYS' GOT THAT TONGUE TECHNOLOGY 😩😩😩I was shook 😳😳😳too stunned to speak 🙊😳😳😳😳I was physically glitching 😭 i literally had to beg him to just put it in because I cannot take it anymore 😭😭 and the wayyyy he grabbed my legs closer to him 😩😩😩we fcked thrice 🙈🙈🙈🙈 he only had one condom 💀💀💀 and y'all should always use protection when you have sex but when he pulled out and jizzed on my stomach, I lost my mind, idk it was so hot 🙈🥵

And just the way he holds me, touches me etc it makes me feel 😩😩😩

I'm sorry to share such filth detail with y'all but I don't have friends I can share any of this with (so instead I'm telling thousands of strangers lmao 😭) idk why I'm giving such a blow by blow account of this but honestly it was suchhh a good experience 🙈🙈🙈

We were just lying down talking between rounds and we have such a good bond y'all it's so funny 😭😭 like we're talking about random shit, he was asking me about stuff and I was telling him and he was smiling kissing my body as he's listening and then he holds my face and says "you know this is pillow talk right" and idk we're both blushing 🙈 and he's like "I love listening to this, don't stop, keep talking" 😩😩 (fastest way to my heart lol)

Anyways, we leave the hotel (super cute place btw) and when we're by the reception the staff (just two dudes) look at us like 😏but tryna remain professional and I feel so accomplished like ??? I just had sex with this tall handsome man ??? 😩😩And everytime others looked at us, I was just like 😌😌hehe this hottie was inside me 😌hehe 🤪😜🤭 and ngl we look reallyyy good together 🥵🤭🙈but anyways although he pulled out in time, he did cum outside my yk what and I told him I'm taking the pill just to be safe and he parked a little bit away from the pharmacy and went and bought it for me???? Like that's well raised right there 🥹🥹 (he didn't want them to see me bc this is India and women are judged heavily for having sex and he bought it bc he came inside me so that's the least he could do 💀but just the fact that all of it was so unspoken and he just did all of it intuitively was sooo hot to me, like I said I'm turned on by gentlemanliness) you should have seen the way he looked when he walked back to me 🥹🥹🥹🥹 just the finest man alive 😍🥵😩 idk how someone can go from being some guy to THE guy in a couple of days but it's happened 😭😭😭

he texted me asking if I reached home and then asked me a little later if I took the pill 😭😭 I never ever EVER thought that him and I would be at a point where we fuck raw and he reminds me to take the pill 😭life works in mysterious ways 😭

[x-glisteningblonde]

Cabin In The Woods 👱‍♀️💞

We’ve had suchhh an amazing few days. Me and Danny went to our favourite place for a little break, somewhere we can relax and be cut off from everyone and everything ☺️

We got there on Tuesday night, ordered pizza, watched a movie and made love. That’s right ladies and gents, Danny doesn’t alwaysss fuck my brains out 😜

Wednesday was a nice day but it was colddd in the morning. We woke up and stayed in bed for a couple of hours. We were mainly just kissing but Danny did feel the need to tease my pussy. He was rubbing me and letting me know he had some biggg plans for me later 😉

Once we got up and the weather had warmed up, we went for a walk in the woods. I was feeling sooo teased from the morning so I thought I’d get him back, flashing my tiddies at him and putting my hand down his joggers. Teasing Daddy as payback neverrr works, I’m too obedient. Once I’d got him teased, he ordered me to my knees right there in the woods and like the good (or bad) little girl I am, I couldn’t resist. I loveee making Daddy happy and I loveee hearing him tell me how pretty I am with his cock in my mouth. Sucking his cock out in the woods made me feel sooo naughty, I went to rub myself but Daddy said no. He was veryyy clear that he could have pleasure but I couldn’t, good job I love sucking his cock whenever he wants 😜 he had me suck until he was ready cum then told me to open my mouth. Standing over me, he stroked his cock and let his cum shoot down my throat for me to swallow 😋

Back at the cabin, with a belly full of cum, hubby had me strip naked and let me know he wanted me like that for the resttt of the night. We had food, put the fire on, cuddled and he was soon teasing my pussy again. I was sooo wet, sooo horny, sooo needy. I looked at him with his hand between my legs and begged him not to stop this time. Either my begging worked or this was his plan allll along. He rubbed me until I was at the edge and stopped, I looked at him as if to say …“not again” … to my delight, he only stopped so he could push me back, get between my legs, bury his hard cock inside me and make me scream. He fucked me sooo hard and made me cum sooo fast 💦

Having just cum sooo heavily, he picked me up, took me to bed, threw me down on it, got back between my legs, wrapped his hand around my neck, pinned me down and pounded me senseless. Omggg, with all that teasing earlier in the day, I was now getting all I wanted and more. Laid on my back, taking such a harddd fucking, I looked up at him and moaned repeatedly… “use me Daddy, use me”… he slapped my tits, squeezed my neck and fucked me like I needed a reminder of whose little slut I am 🤩 filled with cum and having had multiple orgasms, I went to sleep the besttt way I could… in Daddy’s arms, exhausted 🥴

Thursday was a farrr more relaxed day. We had a day of just chilling around the cabin, comfy clothes and loving life. We got in the outdoor hot tub at night, had a few drinks and had gentle sex in bed afterwards. I was on top and just gentlyyy grinding on him until we both came 😍

This morning (Friday), Danny brought me breakfast in bed and once I’d finallyyy got the energy to get ready, we headed home. I wish we could have stayed a few more days but ohhh well, as hubby says, you have to come home to look forward to going away again ☺️

💞👱‍♀️

[casualhedonists]

i know you have a fic recs tag but was hoping youd maybe share what you love about some of your fave fics!

good lord anon first off i’m SO sorry it took me so long to answer this. it’s been in my drafts with the list half written since forever but here we go!

also i’m so honored you’d ask!! there’s not nearly enough room in a post for me to mention all my favorites, but i’ll tell you some of my current faves and why i like them (i made a post with my faves quite a while ago here, so i’ll try to mention others so i’m not spamming those writers with mentions!)

blue, bambi and you by @darby-rowe (and every fic of theirs let’s be real) what to say about this fic except the wonderful dally blows the roof off every fucking time and it’s suchhh a perfectly executed threesome, the voyeurism guilt is explored so nicely and adds to the atmosphere, the tension is just perfect and the resolution is chefs kiss

constantly in the darkness by @divineidolatry my beloved friend june went off on this holy shit. wonderfully executed exes to lovers, emotional fuckery, and artfully crafted bdsm scenes my belovedddd also the buildup?? are you kidding me??? also an amazing reader / clemensia friendship dynamic which is something that can be so personal. i’m never shutting up about it thank you and goodnight 🫶🏼

the roommate snowjanus au by @euphemiaamillais (her masterlist is here, do yourself a favor and stalk it rn) my GOD words can’t describe how much i love this universe and we’ve been graced with so so many fics and i devour them everytime. i love the power dynamics, little subtleties and the characterisations with it being in a modern setting are just everything! the sexting. the threesomes. are everything. the strip poker game?? call an ambulance for me type beat

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Can we get some book recommendations by any chance? 🎤

OF COURSE!!!!! i made a little book rec post a while back, but i …. can’t find it :’) so. i’m just gonna mention a few of those same books again <333

if i had to narrow my list down, i’d say my favorite books atm are beartown, eureka street and kafka on the shore ….. i say that very hesitantly though because 1) my memory is very bad and it’s been a while since i read them 2) i have many books on my tbr that i think will shoot up the rankings…………..

but yeah!!!! beartown is … probably my favorite book of all time and i will recommend it to the ends of the earth. it’s very heavy though!!!! content wise. and it’s long. but like, really easy to read because you just get sucked up into it. it’s about a small town that stays alive through its hockey team!!! but it’s not really about hockey . more about culture in general. family, friends, sports — etcetc!! i would absolutely look up the cws for this one though because it did give me a crisis 😭 it’s a really devastating book. but it means the world to me. backman’s writing is sooo pretty and i applaud him for carrying swedish literature on his back because god knows most of it sucks 🙏🙏

eureka street is, at its core, a love story <3 with a lot of humour sprinkled in. but it takes place right at the end of the irish troubles, with bombings and death all around, and it paints … a very vivid picture of those troubles. right in the middle of the book it switches genre for a chapter and is like……. devastatingly detailed & grim. only to switch back immediately after. it gave me chills bc the book just. does suchhh a good job of showing how desensitized you get to war and conflict after a while . but again, it really is mostly a story about love!!! and wilson’s writing is soooooo gorgeous i was fuming with anger while reading because i was so jealous 💀

kafka on the shore is another looong one and it’s also super weird, murakami is a freak, i don’t like him, unfortunately his writing is also gorgeous . i could give you tws for this one but we’d be here for a while. cat beheadings, sexual assault (almost)(in a dream), fantasy incest? (maybe?)(maybe not?)(it’s up for interpretation), etc. it’s so weird. but that’s exactly why it makes for such a wonderful coming of age story……. murakami likes to play around with the line between fantasy and reality and i think he does it sooooo so well . if you enjoy magic realism you’ll probably enjoy this book. the vibes are also very tasty in general……. the writing 😔…………… (<- is jealous)

…… also . this is a poetry collection not a novel but i need to recommend war of the foxes at any given opportunity………. richard siken you are the love of my life…. his crush collection is suuuuuper good too but i think i prefer wotf just a teeny tiny bit

[yyyyanyan]

Book Club: The Heroes of Olympus series by Rick Riordan

part 2 of my Camp Halfblood Chronicles binge!

It had suchhh a strong start with The Lost Hero. I love all three of them to bits (especially Jason but also ALL of them are my babies I'm holding them in my palms). The Roman/Greek split blew my mind when I first read this book years ago and honestly I'm still kind of processing it LOL. I'm obsessed with how Piper works on her charmspeak and getting comfortable in her own skin and Leo and his relationship with his fire powers??? god amazing!! And Jason I always felt like was such a strong stern type and I'm just attached to him. I think specifically he came off super perfect at first (especially with how Piper had her crush on him) and it was so pleasant to see him failing.

I like The Son of Neptune slightly less but not for any specific reason I can pinpoint--I think I just really vibed with the Jason-Piper-Leo trio. I did think it was absolutely sick that we got to see Percy is utterly insanely powerful and Hazel's backstory had me on the edge of my seat the whole time. I also have a soft spot for Frank since he's Chinese-Canadian (one nitpick: what is his Chinese name Fai supposed to be?).

Unfortunately, I really lost my drive by the third and fourth books ToT I think there was just too many POVs and every time I was getting in the swing of things it was time for a new character in a new situation. And I'm sorry but Tartarus was such a drag for me!! I feel like I didn't get enough of a sense of just how miserable and horrible it was and honestly I just felt sad for Bob/Iaepetus all the time. The one positive of the variety of perspectives was, again, seeing Percy being a madlad from outsider POV <3

Anyways once once I finished Book 4 and went to the last book (Blood of Olympus) it went way faster--I was so excited about reading from Reyna's and Nico's perspectives! Reyna and Nico are sooo good together they're my #1 brotp (maybe). Honestly though once I got to this point I was kind of like, "seven halfbloods" answering the call feels so arbitrary to me? Both Reyna and Nico play such critical roles--especially Nico--that I feel kind of robbed that they're not officially listed as people in the prophecy. This is also the place where I say: ngl I think Annabeth being one of the seven was totally lame LOL (I like Annabeth though!) I feel like she had more of a supporting role and her Athena prophecy could have been a quest that was helping this big one (also 'cause it wasn't listed in this one). However this is definitely also my Nico bias talking because Nico is definitely one of my top blorbos in PJO

Anyways it's been like maybe two or three weeks since I finished the whole series and I have to say the ending was really underwhelming to me. I'm literally not even sure I could tell you what happened in Blood of Olympus in detail. I was so sure it was going to be even more epic and even grander and it kind of totally missed the mark? I remember being so moved and feeling the battles in The Last Olympian so vividly and this one felt so weak. I also thought that Gaea would be like... more prominent I guess? I literally think Tartarus ended up being more scary and he featured so much less. The final defeat was so underwhelming lmao :'D

Kind of related to the above is: I also felt more and more as the series went on that Leo really was a seventh wheel, in the sense that he just didn't seem as close to everyone else. I wish his relationship with Frank had been less prickly especially after the main point of their antagonism was resolved (like why did Leo ALWAYS have to make Frank the butt of the joke?), and I also wish the weird almost-Hazel/Leo thing just didn't happen? I feel like at that point she already liked Frank and neither she nor he really got invested in the sort-of-romance and I feel like if they had just settled into just being friends after the whole revelation thing then it would have made sense. It was exciting that Leo was the key to winning the battle, but I felt like it lacked emotional impact because he felt so separate from them all. Calypso and Leo ARE the cutest though and I was/am rooting so hard for them

The last thing is, I feel like there were a lot of like... plot points that didn't go anywhere? I can't tell if they were put in so they would get resolved in the third series but I'm kind of disappointed that they weren't dealt with in this series. So the ones that I picked up/am really interested in are:

Percy getting more violent/merciless and being scared of it

Jason's sort of... struggle between Roman and Greek? Specifically I feel like in the first book he was so Roman and then suddenly it became that he had a conflict(??) and felt more Greek. I guess with this one it's less that it was unresolved but more it came out of nowhere for me and I kind of wish it had been laid out more from the beginning. I will continue my salt in my ramblings of the sequel series btw

Hazel coming back from the dead?? Did Nico just see her and go "I'm taking her" and that was it lol or was there something else...?

[feuqueerfire]

Century of Love Live Blogging

For a couple weeks before this show's release, I had been getting some DaouOffroad videos on my Twitter timeline and man, I was really getting into them despite never having watched Love in Translation. I knew this was releasing 2 eps a week and the concept was interesting enough, so was eyeing this for live-watching since like July 2, a week before the show released. Now I'm finally watching it after my other on-air shows (My Stand-In, Wandee Goodday) are done and 6 episodes of this have released. People seem to be really liking this, even though some people were critical about the concept once the trailer was released. Hope I love it, I enjoyed To Sir, With Love which I think is the same team? Gotta love a lakorn BL.

Ep 1 (July 27)

1-1

1924

old-timey lakorns really do have the same vibes as the indian serials or historical bollywood movies, loveee

the graphics when San's being healed are killing me

San and Wad are cute from the 2 seconds we get to see of them lol

tragedy strikes

eat half of the stone now -> body frozen for a hundred years but endure pain every night -> Vad feeds second half to him when they reunit and San's body returns to normal

1944, 1974, 2004 - so it's like a new generation of the Savant/shring caretaker's family

2024 - 100 year anniversary

100smth-year-old young-looking San is so funny, especially the grandpa calling San great grandpa

so true, young Juu teaching old ass great grandpa San about victim blaming

Juu is soo cute omg

omg a century's worth of wounds and injuries reopen every night?!?! girl, love cannot be worth this much pain

1-2

2 more months left until March 15

pls this would've been romantic and beautiful if this was a different show and her name is even Wad

SanVee first meeting

ah, Vee just moved here, so that's why they just met

1-3

omg the make-shift red string of fate in front of the goddess

the ring going to Vee, how cute

Juu is seriously sooo attractive

Khun Wad reminds me of Namtan a bit

Vee is quite charming

incredible lack of dust underneath that cabinet

San being charmed by Vee despite not wanting to be

I wonder if Vee knows he likes men/knows he's starting to like San? He seems like he'd know

1-4

okay Vee knows

I know this scene is a dream that San's having, I wonder how it was watching it without knowing that omg they went from 0 to a 100 for seemingly no reason

120smth year old grandpa's wet dream smh

Vee reminds me of somebody but who... I thought it was Lee Dohyun for a second but I don't think so. Maybe OnePact Oh Seongmin??

Suchhh a good first episode. I was anticipating this show and really hoping I like it and so far, it's great. Can't wait to watch ep 2.

Ep 2 (July 27)

cryinggg at San going to tell Tao about his wet dream

Vee has a sick grandma. I think I read about this

Actually I think I also read a stray post or tweet about grandma and Vee living same man, so I’m gonna assume this guy who saved grandma as a little kid is San lol

not the kind pratfall kiss

loll Juu knows about the dream and being able to perform again

hmm this uncle who made a bad investment… is the police record real

a literal tiny child 120smth year old great grandpa!!!!! I was spoiled about this too but omg

not Vee being in trouble and chased the way San kind of was in ep 1 beginning

lmfao San finding a way to get Vee's birth time, location details

Juu: "If you can't accept that he's a man, then just have him complete the ritual and part ways." okay I was thinking this esp because some people are guessing a bit that maybeeee Vee actually isn't Vad reincarnated. So if that theory's true, maybe San will indeed meet the correct reincarnation and just have them feed him the stone but continue being in love with Vee?

Vee saying what comes to his mind but it clearly stings deeply for San. Vee saying that he wouldn't want the other person to wait if he were Wad because when would he come back, what if he looks different, what if he has a worse personality, like omg these are all San's current struggles

who took that video of San healing? was it Vee or somebody else?

Vee possibly linked to a shady businessman who searches for the 5-coloured stone

oh, the people are straight up robbing them for the stone

omg, San is so mean to Vee here yelling at him about the stone and calling him a thief and letting it slip that he'd done a background search on him

but if indeed Vee knew about San and is after the stone, then Vee is a great actor within the show

ah, the shady businessman

Ep 3 (July 28)

wtf the Youtube vids don't have English subs? agh

dang, unexpected time to turn into a child

pls San has never needed to think of a name for the kid version? I guess he can just use San because usually it's not like people know that he's related to San somehow

plsss not the naked San + Vee toppling over him + fall into the bathtub and turning the shower on + the family all coming home and seeing them

ah, marriage is brought up because of this

aw, Vee got framed for that criminal record bank account thing. the bank account fraud also reminded me of DFF

Vee's lack of money or status reminds San of how he originally was with Khun Wad

ever since I first saw the clips of the scene of San describing who he loves and their characteristics and Vee being like "o! that describes me!" it has reminded me of a very similar scene with a different Vee... Love Mechanics Mark telling Vee his ideal type's character traits and Vee being like oh! I fit all of them! even though he fits none loll

dang, he's plainly telling his grandmother about the fake wedding and getting paid for it and she doesn't seem to care. kinda interesting, i'd expect more scolding and disapproval

don't hide your face in the towel you were using to clean her feet!

but Vee doesn't deny liking San oof

the uncle guy doesn't approve of the wedding, who would have guessed?

San being so grouchy to vee during the wedding while Vee's trying his best and is so smiley >:(

ahh the serendipitous bride veil

I wonder if Vee will ever ask why they call San Great Great Grandfather lmao

not the attacks and gunshot wounds! how must San feel to see Vee take a bullet for him when Wad had died that way

Vee finally finds out about San's situation and the stone + that he's maybe/maybe not Wad's reincarnation

I think I saw something about Vee trying to steal the stone... will it be for his grandmother?

kinda bad acting when Vee's sad about his grandma but the situation is indeed devastating and he's going through so much

beautiful, gorgeous Juu

Ep 4 (July 28)

Vee's plan to steal the stone step #1: start living in the house lol

my poor fucking Vee fr

stoppp San being rude and clippy but still being like if you want anything tell Juu + puts some meat on Vee's plate

San's nightly pain and horrors being stopped by touching and being near Vee omg, this show is soooo good and handles the tropes so well

"It must hurt a lot... but it's better than being dead, right Phi?" Vee... it might be worth it for San who has a mission but it's senseless to have your grandmother go through that when she has lived a full life

the first night in a 100 years since he's had good sleep was when Vee was near him, running his hand through his hair, like bruh the tropes and the implications!!

this annoying ass uncle mans

I think it'd be nice if Vee really isn't the reincarnated Wad but just shares the same fate as people keep saying

ah, Vee going sneaking and getting caught by San, though he managed to not give his position away

Aw, San's kinda cute, putting on the music and smiling while watching Vee go through the photos and such

yaas bisexual king Vee who's dated and messed around with men and women lol

grandpa San having a breakdown hearing about homosexuality like whelp you're gonna have to come to terms with it sometime

not Juu telling Vee about San's horny dream about him to console him and tell him that San's actually into him lmfaooo

Vee's next plan is to seduce San lol but Vee looks so good with slightly messy hair standing at the doorway omg

San to Vee: "Where your clothes at?"

kitsune Vee! San's wet dreams are great lol and the water glass motif in all of them too lmfaoo

girl you're married! fuck meditation, go have sex with your husband

a fake stone in place of the real one?

oh man, cliffhanger with injured Vee who found the (fake I guess) 5-coloured stone but then was stabbed by one of the guys searching for it who then took it from him. + the grandpa got taken too.

also the robber guy has to be the annoying uncle mans right

Ep 5 (July 28/29)

as expected, the uncle is in kahoots with the stone stealers

damn, San meant that the doctor was a fraud who doesn't know about the stone's realities, right? not that the doctor was working with San or anything. because mans got shot in the head

hmmm Suchat and them escape, right?

San being so nice to injured Vee, cooking for him and feeding him

ah, especially because San believe Vee got injured in a fight to protect the stone from the thieves, not knowing that Vee was stealing it himself

the stone stealing has to come back some time later for angst purposes, right? can't be a secret forever...?

ah, the Prince Trai who killed Wad accidentally is back as Wee's friend and doctor Third

omg nightmare where Wee takes Wad's place in the dying scenario...

damn, San even being rude to Third who's like ...? but hmm why did San seem familiar to him, did he just happen to see him around or is he really reincarnated Trai and somehow remembers from his past life?

lol Vee really invited Third to San and the family's house to hang out pls

San seething with jealousy and stalking Vee lol

Vee being like wow this grumpy poser dinosaur sure reminds me of San

I was wondering if San and Juu were gonna be seen at the back when they were taking selfies! he just saw it later

ahhhh San doesn't quite want to reaaaally find Wad (as he's falling for Vee) but that obviously makes him feel confused and aimless

Love to see Vee being straightforward like don't be controlling and say what you mean, i don't like to guess

ahhh cute cute cute even though they didn't actually kiss

Ep 6 (July 29/30)

insecure San

ahh the perfume wrist sniffing scene i’ve seen around so much lately

not Vee going to get hotpot with Third

what a gracious back down from Third compared to the gun! that Trai had brought out lol

ahh I thought Vee was gonna come from behind and hear the confession and it’ll be a comedic moment but it just became angsty though i wonder if Vee hadn’t actually heard… and is trying to avoid San bc of it…

them looking at each other and smiling as Juu guides Vee up the stairs to get ready is sooooo good

ah date and dance

okayyyy Vee did indeed hear

confession and kiss ahh

okkk i was wondering if i can continue watching this on my phone at work (i’ve been watching this ep on phone) but uhhh they are shirtless and maybe sleep together so ig id rather not. will watch when i get home today huhu

now what does San even know about sex, man hasn’t had a boner for a century

ok vee started leading the sex thing after a bit

idk whether to believe Vee really is the reincarnation or not

oh, grandma and San became friends afterwards, I thought San and her only met like once when he apparently saved her

grandma and grandson in love with the same man reminds me of Blank where mother, father, daughter all loved one woman loll

Nuwa is crying and the weird dreams…

omg a kuhn wad lookalike/real reincarnation? is she for real or is she possibly sent by the enemies?

I sooo wish the YouTube episodes were subbed bc it’s a hassle to watch it on random sites lol and i can’t just easily download it for commute

omg antsy teaser for next ep, so glad I only have to wait one day and that we’re getting 2 eps within the next 48 hours. I'm excited to see what questions and conflict and angst is in store.

Ep 7 (July 31)

I'm getting to watch this finally 7 hours after its release. I hope it breaks my fucking heart.

the thing is i kinda want her to be rencarnation fr bc its angsty and means more if san still chooses vee but also i just don't think shes her fr

san didn't even do anything fr he caught a scared crying girl in his arms but ig it can seem that way when you don't know the background info...

I need her to say something from her memory that nobody else except her and San would know because he might've told somebody else/the nephew-uncle mans and he might've told the new Wad if she is indeed a ploy from him

damn, they're just showing every single step to get this stone

the stone not giving a clear answer but still San can die if the wrong Wad reincarnation feeds it to him oof

Ouchhhh Vee being like "at first I thought she's stealing you from me but in fact, I'm the one who came later" as he's leaving San's place back to his own. but San's gotta stop him cmonn

good Vee and San still sleeping in the same bed

she's too insistent on Vee giving up San + her being the real Wad, hmmm. like girl you don't actually even know San

...Wadfah said she remembered... but Third walked right beside her, did she not realize that he looks exactly like the guy who killed her?

oof, Vee really wants to save his grandma with this stone. girl it already bestows a lifetime of pain on San, your grandma's gonna get even more fucked up if you feed this to her without San's permission since the stone's tied to him

at least Vee's telling the grandma about it instead of secretly feeding the stone to her, whew

Vee's so naive and eager and sad and DESPERATE when it comes to his grandma owwww this convo so sad

Wadfah trying to sow discord... I mean she's correct that Vee did steal the stone to save his grandma but... she's too eager to declare she doesn't think Vee is trustworthy... then again, if we were following a story of a reincarnated Wad who comes to the house to find somebody else has been thought of have been her and is living the life that's supposed to be hers and has fooled everybody into trusting them, we'd be on Wadfah's side in this story

San in tears after confirmation that Vee stole the stone omgggg

THIS IS SO FUCKING SAD, THE WHOLE FAMILY FEELING BETRAYED and the story of Vee trying to originally steal it resurfacing even though they thought he'd tried to protect this whole time omggg

returning the ring !!! T.T

nooo San steal loving and believing in Vee and calling after him owowowowowowowwwwww T.T

aw man Vee living with Third for now

stoppp don't think about the cute good and hot times while looking at your bed you shared with Vee, San :( also they do a whole lot of flashbacks to scene we've seen (and repeatedly too like 5 times seeing flashbacks of the same scene), so I'm glad that they showed a completely new cute scene of them together.

this fucking perfume coming up multiple times T.T

ahhh San's intense confrontation with Third omg, this was so good and it felt in character with both of them and the amount of drama/the conclusions that people drew from the confrontation also made sens

okay I just feel like San should at least bring up Wadfah's lack of reaction to seeing Third what the hell

nooo my poor Juu crying nooooooooo

San kneeling in front of Wadfah gave me a heart attack like omg 120smth year old guy please get up

OH MY GOD WE'RE REALLY GETTING SAN CHOOSING VEE REGARDLESS OF WHETHER HE IS WAD OR NOT AHHHH

now why did it start raining and thunder and lightning appears

girl, Wadfah outright asking for the 5 coloured stone... if the antagonists sent her, then they could've sent her to get the strong from San out of his own will

tears down Nuwa's face pls

whelp goodbye stone. i don't think San has another stone decoy to give to her

ah, he's again weak and in pain as the stone is far away

Wadgah's delighted smile while looking at the stone...

The angst is so good because it's something tangible and real and has been leading up to this for the whole show and there are so many people involved like San and Vee but also the family and Wadfah and the stakes are so high (100 years of waiting, true love, death if we have the wrong person, etc.). Becuase of it all, the angst doesn't feel over-dramatic or drawn-out, like this is big enough that people would be having these sorts of reactions. Similarly with San and Third's conflict, that was also violent and dramatic but it makes sense that San would get angry with Third because he's been jealous of him from the beginning and can't let go of Third's past life Trai's crimes while Trai is like mad but not over-the-top until he sees Wadfah and thinks San cheated and so everything came crashing down; the escalation to the punch and yelling made sense then. ahhh so good

I got San choosing Vee without knowing whether he's the real Wad or not, which was great and incredible (even though it hasn't led to their romance again yet) and even gave up his fucking stone for it. We also know Wadfah isn't really a good person and was after the stone. Ideally for me, I think the show would have Wadfah indeed be Wad's reincarnation but just be a different, worse person - not the same Wad as a century ago, the same way Third is a better person than Trai a century ago (unless he too is hiding something and is secretly a villain...). So have Vee and San end up together even though Vee's not Wad. However, I think maybe Vee really is Wad because somebody's gonna have to feed San that stone and if Wadfah's not a good person, we're gonna have to have Vee do it. so idk maybe neither of them are 1-1 Wad's reincarnation since we know both Vee and Wadfah share similar fates? and were born same time and place nad the stone glowed for them both... so maybe Vee and Wadfah could both have the power to feed San and Vee ends up doing it.

What a good episode omg

Although that's not to say everything was perfect and dandy; I think some more reasoning or conflict from Vee's end about stealing the stone would have been good. Like stealing it again without any thought to San? crazy. they should've at least had something like Vee believes very strongly that San would be fine without the whole stone, just a little bit. or like when Vee asks San for the stone, we don't see what San says except no but maybe they could've had San downplay the problems if the stone was gone and just been like no, not worth it to make your grandma be in pain, making Vee think there aren't too many consequences from San's end. or SOMETHING because it's wild how callously he just stole it and ran. or at least stronger sense of regret once he come out of the panic of thinking his grandma was dying and being like omg what have i done? i was in a zone when thinking about my grandma dying that i didn't stop to think omg like at least acknowledge it on text.

Also, Wandee’s necklace returning scene was a let-down fr, so I’m glad it hurt more and had more weight here

Okay somebody mentioned that in First Love, Again (I've watched this kbl but don't remember a single thing), the reincarnation started 1 cycle earlier and during that time the 2 men were together? or smth? and so maybe there was an earlier incarnation of Vee and San and then San and Wad came later. Also I'm nosy and forgot and so went to look through First Love Again, wasted 10 minutes of my time but couldn't find that part while skimming. whelp

Ep 8 (Aug 1)

ummmm why did I see some screenshots on Twitter with San clutching Vee's (??) body on the floor and crying... If this episode doesn't end happily/ends on a cliffhanger, I'm gonna lose my shit

ouchh San and Vee's scene

kiss w/ tear-striken faces aw

damn the ash baggie got lost so quick

Third is here too

not the "I don't wanna live if it's not with you" and resignation to die in a few weeks without the damn stone. San I'll smack you

okay they made up hehe hug

loll maybe Third really is a clueless nice dude like I've been hoping. confused af at these revelations

bro i'm so freaking sleepy but i also wanna finish watching this episode...

Juu my beloved finally realized Wadfah not recognizing Third is weird

lol not her being a seasoned criminal okayyyyy let’s go loll

fake stone trick again

man i can’t chill knowing that those screenshots exist like Vee probably gonna get shot this episode

did Chen and whoever keep the fake stone or give it back to wadfah bc it’s annoying if they kept it

not them all actingggg lmfao both Wad and San’s side putting up a play

ah oof, the stone not with Wadfah, I wonder if she will also come up with some fake stone to trick

oh nvm she got the stone from Chen unless They gave her a fake stone lmfaooo

they’re so fucking cute man

now why is San the bold one while Vee is shy, Vee’s the one who was talking about fucking people loll

cryingggg at Juu swearing on Dr. Tao’s life that the fake stone is the real stone lmfaoo

ohhh omg we’re the screenshots from San’s vision that Nuwa gave him?

girl i’m nervous the stone gonna suddenly stop glowing

lmfaoooo just in time

replicas so good neither of them can tell the difference?!

oh it’s flowing for Vee fr

are they gonna have to team up with Wadfah?

the shooting is very funny idk

the end?! girl what the hell

Pretty enjoyable show so far, I think the writing for this is quite strong, which is fairly rare. Hope the next 2 episodes hold up and that the show ends well.

[icharchivist]

was having banri thoughts lately just bc like. why not right. and then i suddenly remember u mentioning that some ppl... did not like banri at the start? which is wild to me bc in my mind ive always been ride or die for him. like i love juza so much but i feel like. that doesnt rly oppose liking banris character as well? banri is such fun character drama at the beginning of autumn and then his and itarus dynamic is fun from the start... gosh and the acting in the final bits of the autumn troupe between him and juza! suchhh fun tension. like. idk. it just started making me think like wow. digging thru a3 on my own with mostly the influence of like, just you has probably skewed my opinion of what the common perception of a3 is like. for example in my head winter is the most popular troupe which... it maybe isnt? i feel like recently i saw u mention summer might be the most popular(? this couldve been a dream) and i didnt realize itaru was super popular until like. last month. i mean if i had to pick a character i thought was the most popular i'd pick. misumi.

LKFJDLKFJD god what an ask

yeah i doubt i'm exactly the "common a3 experience" but to be perfectly honest i haven’t really kept tabs on the fandom per se since hh mid-2020 when i started to dig into some tags and saw so much negativity i was just :/ and stopped doing so (the curse to liking rascals </3).

Nowadays my knowledge of the a3 fandom is mostly the people interreacting with me, which already generally means that they vibe with what i post, so it gives me a skewed vision of the fandom like, are we all like that? or are the loud voices that made me go avoid the tag still here yaknow?

More stuff under cut

For Banri, i'll admit i wasn't too hot about him when i started the game, which now i regret so bad because he's my precious little meow meow hands down. He has such a good arc!!!! I know in my case i just had a hard time because i cared for Juza right away and i was still so high on Summer's development i kept comparing Banri to Tenma and going "here's why Tenma is amazing and Banri is cringefail". But it lasted me until a bit before Banri sees the portraits, when he starts to be conflicted, after that i was all, oh wait i like that guy. And then the more content i saw of him the more i loved him and he became my fav Autumn Chara. (so if you want to ramble about him more you’re free to do so because i’m team i adore this guy. please do. you’re so right in what you say of him.)

But so i did expect people to have my experience - hard time in the beginning, then mellowing on him before the end of the Autumn Chapter. And it wasn't the case 😭😭😭😭 At least at the time, the Banri's takes were rancid. Like it was genuinely annoying at a point, you couldn't go anywhere without some Banri bashing fuckery, even after his initial arc, people just. really hated him. My most hated takes were that i saw so many people say Banri would bully Yuki or stuff implying they would have an antagonistic relationship and it's probably why i cling to Into the Night so much, like HELL you're going to twist one of my fav crosstroupe dynamic!!! I legit saw so many things reducing Banri to a menace and a bully, and if not that, talking about how much everyone in the dorm hated him, and it was really driving me insane then.

I remember once making a post about how i was so close to blacklist "Banri" because people didn't filter this bashing with tags so i was just ready to just, not see Banri anymore, but it was breaking my heart. But somehow after this post i got a few people coming back at me about how it annoyed them too and i saw some of those people make their own posts in a more. direct way. and after that i never saw Banri bashing again. My power (< absolutely not, coincidence at best i'm sure).

A lot of Banri bashing i saw back then were from "newcomers" in the sense that it was after the anime aired, and a lot of people were just coming in without knowing about the events. imo i think the events do help giving a better feel to Banri in general so the fact people were fresh from the anime might have skewed things. I remember a friend who was in that case, newcomer and all, only read the main story, didn't like Banri after reading the main story. Then, Main story act 2 came out and while they didn't read the events, they read the main story and they started liking Banri there (because he did develop so much since then)

And as a whole i'd say, by act 2 it must have died out a bit.

There's another chara who gets bashed a lot but. Act 2 stuff 😔. Unfortunately a chara i like a lot so this was my breaking point of "i'm not checking the tags anymore none of you know how to behave". I think it mellowed since then? and i know the chara is popular in the JPN fandom meanwhile.

else i've seen like, Tasuku having very little content from fans and a few people being mean to him when they talked about him, but it was a long time ago and i sure hope it died out. I don't think i'd say he's bashed, more that most folks don't have strong feelings about him and stopped just with a bitter taste over his anger toward Tsumugi in the first winter chap.

Now. About popularity, Winter is DEF NOT the most popular troupe. Pretty sure it plays between Autumn and Summer in term of popularity. That said it's not like any of the troupes are unpopular so any ramblings about each Troupe would be meet with pleased reactions from the fandom, so it is harder to gauge that but yeah.

Troupewise something i noticed is that i think Summer is the most popular in term of GROUP, while Autumn is the most popular in term of Individuals. So a lot of people liked Summer specifically for their dynamic and how each of those charas played out each other more than individually liking each of them, while for Autumn it was, they liked all of them strongly! not specifically for their dynamic, though of course it plays a part, but as individuals. I mention it because i think it was the key difference in rank up in why i think Summer plays were okay to rank up to while Autumn were a nightmare. (that said that can also be "blamed" on "fans gravitate around characters that have elements they have as well" or something which means Autumn fans were more likely to be competitive and stubborn in a way Summer were more mellow.)

Itaru is definitely the most popular character of the whole game, period. It's not even a competition at this point it's so funny. when the EN server was live, anytime Itaru had a rank up card was a bloodbath (< survivor of Kniroun ranking up at 0.2%. Didn't sleep normally for the whole duration of the event it was so much.).

By the end of the server things were dying out a bit but still in general you could get a vague idea of popularity by how wild the rankings could be. For instance the fact Tasuku's ranking was a breeze without even trying was indicative of how he's not that popular.

In general i've noticed, at the time at least, that Winter ranks up were rather easy. I've ranked up for a few of Summer and i didn't see much of a problem otherwise*. Spring was really chill unless Itaru was in rank up. Autumn was THE Bloodbath. There were Autumn Stans organziation all over, the appp SYSTEMATICALLY broke EVERYTIME Autumn was around, it was always much more challenging, so yeah man.

Misumi* is probably the one i'd consider the second most popular character of the game, pretty much.

(*The funny thing is that Misumi got his lead play very early in the server's history, and i know i ranked up for him then and i didn't think it was too hard. In retrospect i'm sure it has more to do with the fact the game didn't have as many people playing it, than it had to do with popularity, so my word on Summer not being a problem is based on weird stats)

A while ago, for the Taiwanese server, there was a special set of cards in term of popularity on this server. Itaru got a SSR, Masumi got a SR, and Misumi got a R.

Masumi is in a weird position because i'd say he's fairly unpopular in the EN server, while he's popular in the JPN and Taiwanese server. Honestly i'm assuming he's especially popular with the teen audience.

AND THE MOST TELLING PART:

The first Cross-troupe's play was involving the most popular character of each troupe, by a poll being made by the JPN server. The leads were Itaru and Banri, then Misumi as a secondary character and Tsumugi as a more support character.

Meaning at the time, this was the order of the 4 most popular characters of the game.

When the mixed troupe event came to the English server, i remember a poll circulating on tumblr and likely twitter as well, trying to see if the EN Server had different favorites. Itaru still came on top, Misumi followed closely afterward. For Autumn, it was Juza and Taichi that were on the top of the Autumn poll, not Banri, and for Winter, i think it was still Tsumugi but Homare was very close behind.

So that was the popularity at least back then, god knows opinions now.

I've seen Homare be extremely popular on tumblr for sure. I have no doubt in Juza's popularity as well.

I saw a lot of Taichi fan going "Taichi is underappreciated" but i saw so many of them i was kinda just thinking "bro i'm pretty sure Taichi is in the popular character squad by now" But i'm also on the other hand as i've once seen a post saying Hisoka was popular and it stunned me a moment going ????? because as a huge Hisoka stan i don't see it???? There's a few devoted fans, and he has a better fanbase in JPN server, but in EN server??? (I'm comparing the last rank up for Hisoka VS the last rank up for Taichi in my mind and i genuinely don't see it for instance) so i also think it's likely i have a "fav blindspot" where i just don't think people are vibing with the charas the way i'm vibing, just. exactly like what i'm talking about with the Taichi stans so.... (that said i also once was tagged in a post that was going "i don't think i've ever seen a Hisoka or Tasuku stan" and a friend just went @ icha come here. Schrodinger Hisoka who's both popular and unpopular depending on who you're asking. And Tasuku IS MY UNDERRATED MEOW MEOW)

I think i recall Tenma being popular for a time, and Yuki is well appreciated by everyone around here. Kazunari has a loud fanbase but i'm pretty sure the seiyuu thing was a huge blow to them and a lot of them got more quiet at the time.

And for what it's worth i do think there's a sizeable portion of the fandom that really like Tsuzuru, but i think it's just, something you get to see a lot when a huge part of the fandom is creatives. And to be completely fair, Clockwork Heart is the one event i had a massive burn out at and didn't pay attention to the rankings at all, so i can't tell if people went really wild about it. And the next Tsuzuru rank up event was literally the last event of the EN server and i'm sure it's not indicative of anything since a lot of folks just didn't want to bother. So unlike the others were i'm using rank up as a gauge of popularity i can't tell how Tsuzuru's might influence his.

SO YEAH that's for what i could pick up BACK THEN, as i remind, i didn't really look deeply into the fandom itself. I'm really good in my corner so it might not actually be indicative of the fandom trends and i'm maybe completely off base.

Then about how, i, personally, don't represent the fandom, unless the fandom changed since then: When i first liveblogged a3, it was when the server was new and no one was on tumblr about it, so i was a little unfiltered from people's opinions. when i came back about a year later to comment on act 2, getting all worked up, and running then into the growing fanbase on this website, is when i started to run into fan takes and everything.

And, let's be clear, i came back because i was crying very hard over Hisoka and Azuma and the full Winter Troupe, and Chikage, so i really came here with my Big Winter Boots only talking about Winter and then Spring.

I ended up getting a feel of what people were talking about a lot at that time, and kinda ended up talking more about what i considered my Underrated Gems.

For instance, i absolutely adore Itaru. I ranked up for him, i've bleed for him, i love the dude. But he's so popular i figured i legit had nothing to say about him that a hundred people wouldn't have been able to say before. So i've mostly didn't really talk about him much despite loving him a LOT because i just didn't think i had anything to say. (now in my current reread i'm doing it so disconnected from what i know of the fandom that i indulged in talking more about how much i like him LMAO)

Meanwhile, there's characters i love that i know the fandom don't talk about much so i end up talking about them more, and it's the case of Tasuku. I wouldn't be surprised Tasuku is really low on most people's popular list. I'm just Not Most People and you're going to hear me ramble about that hunk of a man every few days or so.

I've made my niche in the Winter Troupe appreciation gang and i'm pretty sure by now a lot of other Winter people follow me as a result because i couldn't shut the fuck up, so then my perception of the fanbase gets skewed because i just think of Them ahah.

And there is the fact i adore the rookies, mainly Chikage and Guy, but don't talk about them so much mostly because they came out later in the main story and i've been rereading act 1 so many times instead,,, and didn't talk much about act 2 in case some people managed to save themselves from being spoiled (like you!!)

So my personal perception of a3 is probably not reflecting the whole a3 fanbase really much. God the amount of times i talked my friends's ears off about Winter, that they kinda just humored me without thinking much about it, until they found out one of the More Popular Chara (Itaru, Tenma and the whole Autumn Troupe mostly) and suddenly they're like *twirls hair* heeyy Icha tell us more about a3. It's genuinely so funny to me.

and again i don't know perhaps i'm full of shit, and it's not like i've kept tabs on the fandom recently either!

But that is at least a bit of what i remember in term of popularity and what i can say is that i shouldn't be taken as an example of the fanbase's views in general.

I'm vibing in my corner, and by experience, it usually meant i ended up talking about more niche things, but since i'm disconnected from the fandom i'm pretty sure i still have opinions that are popular opinions. So who knows! not me!

So yeah that's all i can say about the popularity of the a3 fandom. Def not an indication of it by me.

and it must be funny for you since you only really have me as your fandom gateaway because well. *waves at post* yeah.

The more you know!

[legallyhermione]

Hi....If you don't mind, can I ask, what are your top 10 (or top 7) favorite media (can be books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series)? Why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....

Ooooof this is such a hard question!! Thank you for the ask, I love this kinda stuff!!

Without further ado, and in no particular order, here they are!

1. Any of MXTX’s content (I’m counting them as one because I love too many things 😭): For me, these novels and adaptations were my first foray into danmei and Chinese media. I also discovered them at a time when I was questioning my identity and coming to terms with the fact I’m queer (which is…not really accepted in my family). I watched The Untamed first, then read fan translations of the novels before they started being officially translated, and I keep coming back to them because I find them so thought provoking. I like that none of the characters are presented as perfect people; they’re all flawed humans, but we love them anyway.

2. Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty: found family, Sherlock Holmes-like detective skills, spies, political machinations, food as a form of love? What more could I ask for! I just love this show. Haven’t gotten to read the novel it’s based on yet, but I’m hoping to soon!

3. Yuri on Ice: one of the first anime I ever watched, and it’s just so sweet and lovely. Definitely one of my comfort shows! Plus there are some crazy good fics. Still hoping one day we’ll get the movie!

4. Harry Potter: I struggle with this one a lot, because I very much dislike JKR’s transphobic rhetoric. But the fan spaces of Harry Potter provided me with support and escape I needed many times throughout my life, and for that the fandom of Harry Potter will always hold a special place in my heart. It’s been a part of my life nearly as long as I can remember.

5. Thousand Autumns: another one with some very morally grey characters! I love thinking about who and what is right and wrong, and this novel definitely makes you think about it. Lots of political world building as well, which I love.

6. My Cousin Vinny: a fantastic movie that I have many fond memories about. The jokes and digs about the south vs the north in the US always make me laugh, and as someone who has lived many years in both of those areas, those scenes make me giggle.

7. Haikyuu!: another one of my comfort shows! It’s just happy and fun and adorable. I love this one. I watched it sooooo many times during lockdown.

8. BBC Merlin: was morgana my bi awakening? I shan’t tell! Suchhh a good show, I miss it so much. Another fandom that has some incredibleeeee fanfics. Y’all writers are so talented.

9. Our Flag Means Death: I think this was maybe my first piece of media that explicitly included multiple queer characters but the entire storyline wasn’t only about the otherness and pain of being queer (or just a stereotyped role). This show made me feel seen in ways no other media had before. Plus, the show is gay pirates. It doesn’t get much better than that!

10. Avatar the Last Airbender: me and my siblings all loved this show, and we still watch it together often whenever we’re together. It’s so good. Zuko’s character development is still quite possibly the best redemption arc I’ve seen. I love it.

Phew. It was so hard to choose 10! I’m glad you didn’t ask me to pick one because I’m afraid that would’ve been impossible for me! What are your favorites???

💚

[mirixmoya]

Hey, first of all let me say your writing is amazing. Absolutely, hands down amazing. You truly bring Hayffie to life every single time. Begin Again, Tolerate It and Exile are some of my favorite songs, I'd love to see what you can come up with. Especially in Begin Again, it would be really cool if we could see Effie's other love interests-romances (what are your thoughts on Seneca?) and how they correlate to Haymitch.

hello!

thank u so much for ur kind words omg they absolutely made my morning!! exile and begin again are also some of MY fav songs so i definitely hope to get around to them at some point in the future :) i'm less sure about tolerate it because i'm not sure how i'd approach it in relation to hayffie, but who knows maybe i'll figure something out!

on the topic of seneca, i know his relationship with effie is mostly collective fandom delusion but i LOVE it anyway. i think effie crying over katniss hanging the seneca crane dummy in CF lends some credibility to the headcanon, plus i think it's entirely plausible that they both came up in very close capitol social circles (think late-19th century upper-class new york, the 400 families type of vibe). i like to imagine that effie and seneca were pretty close when they were younger, they eventually dated, and then they sort of grew apart as they got older but they still have the occasional on-again-off-again situation, especially since they work in the same industry. i think in some weird twisted way they're like a safe space for eachother, you know? their relationship is something they know they can always come back to when they need it. i would say that the most i've ever written about effie + seneca is in vi. no body, no crime, but i definitely hope to include more glimpses of them in future!

i do think effie's romantic relationships outside of haymitch are a really good way to explore her character more. ngl i have a pretty detailed list of minor ocs that i use for effie's non-haymitch relationships (cassius gallopetal, glint, old man maximus, and antoni are all the ones who've made brief appearances i believe) because i think it's suchhh an interesting way to explore not only who effie is at different stages in her life, but also how she conceives about relationships / love outside of haymitch. so i definitely hope to explore those things more in the future :)

thank u sooo much for ur kinds words and ur questions, i love talking about this kind of stuff. i hope u have a lovely day <3

[joysbaereal]

Princess treatment (Jaehyun Route of Never Again)

Chapter 3- Hi Jaehyun.

PAIRING: Jaehyun × fem reader; past Choi Beomgyu x fem reader

SYNOPSIS: After finding out about

Beomgyus infidelity you decide it’s time to work on yourself and give yourself Princess treatment. But while on this internal journey will you find someone who treats you like their Queen?

GENRE: angst, crack, fluff SMAU.

WARNINGS: ex-Toxic Relationship, mentions of past Cheating, Substance abuse, death jokes, Beomgyu and you are assholes, suggestive, jaehyun is the sweetest person in the world, crude or disrespectful language, Character development purrrrrr.

Written: 1100+ words

“Beomgyu what the fuck do you want.” You say tiredly as you open the door “its 2 o’clock in the morning” not only are you sleepy but also extremely irritated. As Beomgyu looks at you he wondered how he could ever do this to you. You were gorgeous even when all you had on was some pajama pants and an oversized tee. Even when you had just woken up and looked like you were going to murder someone. You were just as beautiful as the day he met you if not more. And he loved you. He knew he loved you. And you surprisingly still knew he loved you too. So why. why did he break apart and tear something he loved so much “Can I at least explain” he looks at you desperately “I'm not asking you to take me back just listen, listen to what I have to say and ill leave you alone for good” his voice breaks and you feel your heart break a little as well. “Ill give you 10 minutes” opening the door fully as he comes rushing in “Still looks the exact same as the day I left” he jokes sitting down on your couch which you don’t find humorous and respond dryly “was I supposed to completely redecorate my home I’ve lived in for years because my shitty boy- ex boyfriend cheated on me” he winces at your harsh and sharp tone but he notices your slip up. He always notices. He’s always noticed changes in your behavior and has been able to come to a conclusion on your feelings. Even if you walked, talked, or ate slightly different he noticed. Wether it was because of something negative or positive he could decipher it. That’s one of the reasons you loved him and also one of the reasons you stayed even after everyone warned you. Because how many years would it take to find some like that again? Too many is what you always answered it takes too much time for you to find someone that is so connected and in sync with you that knows you’re having a bad day just by the way you breathe.

“Speak” you say in a tone he’s heard too many times to be comfortable with “I never touched her” he starts off and you scoff obviously thinking he’s lying agin and even if he wasn’t what would it matter, he still lied and betrayed your trust but you still listen anyway “Ok I mean- Ive grazed her hand- and maybe moved her to the side- and we hugged but only ONCE but- but it wasn't mutual and other than that I never had any mutual romantic or sexual touches with her” he stutters out “At the mall she tried to kiss me and I pushed her away and- and- when I went to her house-” you cut him off with an angered tone and you quickly spit out “on my birthday” “Yeah- um on your birthday” he looks down in shame “I didn’t sleep with her I just- I just was there and we just talked and-“ you cut him off once again and finally ask the question that’s been stabbing at your heart and keeping you up at night “do you have feelings for her” you ask looking down “No! No! Its just- I- I don’t know” “If you don’t know leave we have nothing more to talk about” you say and point to the exit “Wait- just wait- let me- let me think” he sits in silence for a second “I don’t have feelings for her but she makes me feel- I don’t know- better about myself. She’s SUCHHH a bad person and I guess meeting up with her made me feel better about myself. When I’m with you I feel great but I just don’t feel good enough but with her I know she doesn’t even deserve someone at their worse and I know I don’t love her and I know I love you its just you make me feel like absolute shit sometimes and I wish I could say it weighs out with how good you make me feel but you just- your just so mean and it hurts so bad when you have your little moods and shun me and- and- the only way I could handle feeling not enough for you is making you jealous and seeing if you’d still react. You always coming back made me feel wanted and I- I just took it too far” he spits out and for the first time you cry. Throwing away all your morals and pride you cry and you grab the man you had wished nothing but ill on for the past few months and you cry with him. You never knew how bad he was feeling how horrible you made him feel yes he shouldn’t have lied and he should have comunicated his feelings but you also should have communicated better you shouldn’t have made him feel he wasn’t good enough for you and with that you feel tears shed from your eyes and hug him. Neither of you are saints but right now you're both heart broken and need comfort even if it comes from the person who is the reason for this deep hurt. You stay like this for about 5 minutes before deciding to speak “Beomgyu I love you soooo much but you and I both know we can’t do this to each other this push and pull hot and cold isn’t good we aren’t kids any more” you say pulling away and looking at his equally teary eyes “I know I know just- just let me hold you this last time” he cries and you let him. You’re not the best human being in the world. You’ve made your mistakes and you’ve faced your fair share of consequences but right now you feel no regret. No hatred. You don’t feel vengeful you feel content with this ending and though it hurts so much you know you two needed this and that one day you’ll both look back and see how dumb you two were as kids and how it helped build your character for the better. “I love you y/n” “I love you too-“ suddenly the door starts banging “Y/n are you ok” “hello y/n are you here” the voice reminds you of the man who always responds, always is there, always cares even when your soooo shitty to him “I should go” Beomgyu gets up wiping his tears and opening the door feeling comfort and as he leaves he tells the man he knows will be there with you “Please treat her well she deserves it” Beomgyu looks at the man with his tear shot eyes as he walks out leaving you in his past permanently.

“Hi Jaehyun” 

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[livvyofthelake]

sorry if this is a boring Livvy question to you but what do you think was Livvy’s reaction when she found out about Emma&Jules since we never got to see it on page for some reason, can answer ghost Livvy in the canon timeline and if you want to answer differently for if she hadn’t died too you can additionally <3

rolling up to this ask over a month later. sorry. i was very busy for a little bit there and then i started typing and drafted this because i needed to chew on it more and then i forgot and then i was busy again etc. you understand. i love you so much for asking me about livvy though i love her i miss her sooo bad...

EYE think. that. ok actually wait. FIRST of all, i think thule alternate universe livvy was SO funny when our emma and jules showed up and saw their alternate selves were in a relationship and they were like um omg whaaaaat…. and thule livvy was like yeah that’s just evil emma and jules they’ve been in love forever i’m honestly surprised you two idiots are parabatai in your timeline that’s so stupid…. she was so immeasurably funny for that she was like oh ok good luck with this back in your universe… ok that aside let’s get serious. i don’t remember if ghost livvy was there on the battlefield when emma and jules. did whatever the hell magic shit that was idk (girl who hasn’t actually read qoaad since it came out nearly five years ago…) basically i don’t remember if she found out about emma and jules at the same time as everyone else or if her like. ghostly form was kinda peaced out for a while and she reappeared and had to either find out from ty or via spying. but either way i don’t think she was too surprised. she’s been conceptualizing emma and jules as her parents since she was 10 she’d find out they were together and she’d just be like OH. so normal parabatai don’t act like that then….. like she’d be shocked for a second and then it would Make Sense…. i think livvy as a character has such an obsession with the concept of romance and is constantly in mourning for herself for the fact that it will never happen to her in this timeline. ok that made me so sad to say but like it's real UNFORTUNATELY. it's why she's so obsessed with getting ty and kit back together, why she wanted cristina and jules to fall in love back in lady midnight, she is suchhh a romantic it's one of the most insane things about her that i am not fucking normal about. but crucially, romance is something she does not understand... and i do really think that once emma and jules happens that would be like. her moment of Getting everything. because like obviously their insane dynamic would have affected her so much to the point where she doesn't even knwo what normal people in love are like, because she has been surrounded by people who are so intense and weird and Doing It Wrong since she was 10!!!! it would all make sense when she finds out THEY are what romance is...

and i think she is soooo happy for them it makes her look stupid. i think that when she and ty are at blackthorn hall she definitely spies on them when they're like, making dinner together in the kitchen and think no one else is there. or when they're outside in the garden a few feet away from everyone else and are talking to each other thinking no one is listening. i think livvy is a nosy little weirdo and she WILL be listening to emma and jules be all mushy and romantic... literally what else is the girl meant to do for entertainment she's a ghost give her a break...

ok i got away from myself. basically she's my best friend. one of my forever girls if you will... i think she's a little weirdo freak and she loves her big brother so much and she loves emma so much and if they love each other that's the best thing in the world because they're like. the two best people livvy knows....

[pilotheather]

ok ep 1

the way i was like... unsure if gallifrey was dead or not.

his theme is insane btw. like what is with that. its so good

LETS DO A SILLY ONE A RANDOM ONE HE SAYS

idgaf btw i said that right

idgaf

i mean i think actually my same issues as before still stand i kind of wish there were just more quiet moments in between thats what my issue was before with the other rtd specials like i LIKE how slow the original rtds were

him-

sorry? did she make a star trek re

I WILL SAY. WHENEVER THERES A SOFT RESET THE FUCKING INSANE FUCKING EXPOSITION DROPS EVERY 2 SECONDS KINDA KILL ME.

ok b ack to my point about the speed the pacing genuinely takes me out of it sometimes like help me like the dialogue isnt bad their performances arent either its all good but like ruby has had like several insane WOWWWWWWWWWW moments in 10 minutes with the tardis, with the going back in time, with the seeing the planet- CAN YOU . SLOW DOWN. LIKE DO ONE EPIC THING. BREATHEEEEE. the time in between HELPS man and the score thats just CONSTANT it feels so... im never a fan of it it feels so inorganic

i dont have a job either made me laugh a little sorry

im crying the dorky fucking exposition again ruby. i can do this look. (conects her phone). its so silly

I LOVE HIS FUCKING PERFROAMCNE THOUGH, PLEAAASEE NCUTI IM OBSSESSED

what the fuck is occurring

this is so goofy

this cornball shit

rtd is so funny for doubling down so hard on timeless children.

DOGGO?

THE FUCKING BABIES ARE GENUINELY STARTING TO GIVE ME THE HEEBIE JEEBIES

WHY DID HE DOTRHAT

NAN-E YOU;RE SUCHHH A GOOFBALL

SPACE BABIES

god we need a game do shots for all the cliche expositiony bits

THEYRE EVEN EXPOSITIONING RUBY IF YOU DIDNT FUCKING CATHCH THE CHRISTMAS SPECIALSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

YAPPINGGGGG

their fucking trekky outfits

the accountant is kind of a slay

that is an insane abortion line

girlie thats insane.

you dont know. 🤔

eric you fucking mad man

I KNOW JOCELYN IS CUSSING DOWN THIS FUCKING KID ALL THE TIMEEEEE LIKE FUCKKK

THEY KILLED THAT FUCKING BABY?

oh they could have killed that baby

are we sure jocelyn is not trying to fucking kill them

the censoring bit is actually funny as fuck i wont even lie

again with the fucking music can someone HELP ME WE DONT NEED THE FUCKING FANFARE AFTER EVERY SINGLE FUCKING INSTANCE IT JUST DOESNT FEEL. RIGHT. SHUT UP . CAN WE ENJOY THE SCENES PLEASE

ewwwwwww

ITS SNOT its not

i kind of love her drama shes silly

RUBNY SUNDAY MONDAY TUESDAAAYYYY I LIKE THAT I SHANT LIE

jocelyn is the real one i'd kill that thing with hammers i tell you that thing for free

his insane trauma youre watching a thing of snot deteriorate

JOCELYN IS LIKE NOT LISTENINGGGGG SHE PUT THAT PHONE DOWN SHE WAS LIKE IDGAF DIE

i thought this was like all building up to a sugarbabes thing i wont lie

ARE THEY JSUT GOING TO FUCKING KEEP IT IN THERE

GOD I FORGOT HOW FUCKING DUMB AS SHIT RTD WAS

WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH ERIC LIKE SOMETHING ABOUT HIS FACE IM SORRY IF THATS LIKE HSI REAL BABY FACE BUT HH

he's so funny

the gorgeous paradox looming above us all does anyone wanna go rewatch fathers day with me

IN THEIR KITCHEN?

[w0nd3rb0ii]

GOOOOOOD MORNING MY MENTALLY ILL POOKIES (5.5.2024)

my life is suchhh a mess helloooooo im back

im just gonna post a little life recap because last time i was actually active on here was like may

june '23: binged ALL MONTH but was like leftover skinny from getting down to like 118 , life was insane, partied a ton, rehearsals all the time, was 6 months into a relationship

july '23: kept on eatingggg, broke up w my gf and started dating this guy frankie (shameless namedrop) which was a whole like plot arc a year and a half in the making, wizard of oz happened (i was tin man), i went to x games, also new york!

august '23: disney trip w frankie, week long beach trip with my friend whos super hot and skinny and it made me sad but i got a tan and it was super fun overall, i was literally js getting fatter and fatter tho, so yea. also i went to scotland and got cast as ms trunchbull in matilda! also school started so that was fun

october '23: relationship was still slaying, i was still fat but not getting fatter, i went to hoco and school was schooling

november '23: mini relapse got me skinnyish, school existed

december '23: binged consistently, was ugly, bf was still amazing, school was scary but ended up fine

january '24: pregnancy scare started a christianity arc for me, i joined choir, i consistently was only eating like 400 cals and i was feeling pretty good ab my body but then after matilda show weekend i started binging like crazyyy (show weekend slayed but everyone got sick during tech week)

february '24: winter formal happened and was sm fun, dance comp season started, still fat, me and frankie went on a break at 7 and a half months because we could never see each other, spring semester started at school, i went to church camp and broke up with him on the way home because religious guilt about all the stuff we had done together (so we lasted almost 8 months)

march '24: aftermath of breakup was a lot, i auditioned for this crazy hard to get into choir at school AND GOT IN (!!!). kiiinda messed up God era because this guy i met at the start of spring semester and i started talking and it became a whole fwb thing WHICH WAS FUNNY because i definitely was not and am still not all the way over my ex. but me and the other guy started dating! (on my bday actually lol), ALSO I GOT CAST AS CINDERELLA IN CINDERELLA FOR MY LAST SHOW AT MY STUDIOOOO

april '24: still fat but i feel like ive gotten a little prettier recently, school is terrifying because i cant make myself do anything productive, me and the guy slaying but we got into like 2 fights over spring break but we fixed it both times! (it was my b bc i lied to him ab drinking and vaping), we went to the renaissance faire and it was sm fun!

may '24: i found out my ex bf might have been talking to another girl towards the end of a relationship, theyre going to prom together, theyre a thing now and its like really hurt which is dumb bc ive fully been in a relationship for like a month now but idk if im fully even in it because the bf is transferring and going to college in the fall and im staying at our community college bc performance opportunities and choir. and i kinda have a crush on the guy thats my prince for cinderella but im not doing anything about it because if anythings meant to come from it hes coming to my school next year soo yea well see idrc. but yeah so that happened, me and the current bf saw john mulaney last night, im js now getting back into caring ab my body because i do NOT WANT TO BE FAT FOR SUMMER. so yeah. idk how much i weigh. ill figure it out as soon as i can but my mom hid my scale. well seeee

so yea thats my update ill try to be active on here bye pookies

[blackvail22]

11/2/23 — 10:05p

y parents say this was a good vacation, and my sister said she enjoyed herself too. i just cant shake the feeling of that it wasnt?

am i overthinking it?

i mean, it wasnt the worst vacation we've had.. its probably the best one, if we're judging it on how much my parents argued. they didnt really argue this time, but its because my dad just went with whatever my mom said.

i think not being able to ignore my mom's behavior is what ruined it for me.

but also, its my fault, too, i guess.

i guess i made her act up sometimes. i got yelled at, i think, twice? by both her and my dad. the first time, they both yelled at me at the same time. i didnt take my medicine that day (because i dont have to take my vyvanse every day), so i felt more sad than usual. when im sad, i have a disrespectful tone to my voice, and im irritable. it didnt help that my dad called the waitress in the restaurant short as soon as we entered the building. anyways, they yelled at me because of the tone of my voice. if im being honest, i tuned out what they said so i didnt remember what they said. all i remember is my mom saying, "this is why i hate talking to you," and i said, "then dont talk to me." which, i admit, was a bad way to respond.

the other time was earlier today. we were sitting in the hot tub/spa thing, and my family were talking. my dad was talking about how he didnt want to go back to work, and my brother said he likes his job. then, he talked about how he was thinking about college or smth like that. my dad responds about how some colleges are pro-palestine, like, my dad was saying it like it was a bad thing. not wanting to hear my dad's bigotry, told him that i didnt want to talk about that right now. whatever, whatever, my brother talks abt how him and my sister can get their concealed carry license, or whatever tf if, is when we get back in town. my dad was like basically challenging my brother in like "you dont need one anymore... not if you go down [enter highway number here]" and my brother said that they travel outside of that route number, and my dad ways like "where do you go, huh?" and my brother said "everywhere...." and i didnt want them to fight abt it, so i said, "can you please just let them do what they want to." my dad said, "are you trying to pick a fight with me or something? why the fuck are you acting like that?" i just stayed quiet the rest of the time and was in my head the rest of the time.

maybe im just in my head.

maybe it was a good trip, and i just cant feel anything positive

maybe i just have to find something wrong in everything.

noo, my mom does that. she finds something wrong about everyone she sees. she assumes everyone has negative intentions. the server today asked us if everything tasted fine, and asked if we needed anything. my mom said, "she probably doesn't think shes going to get a tip because we look poor" i just looked at her. it took everything in me not to say something because theres no fucking way 😭 she says that ALL THE TIME, and it frustrates me. the woman is just doing her job, leave her alone :,)

i need to write out what we did each day of my vacation in detail so i can go over it with my counselor. i cant do it until i get home, though, because then i can type as fast as my brain goes lol.

typing these out on my phone is so hard. im not an extremely slow typer, but i am suchhh a fast typer when i have a computer keyboard. sometimes i get so frustrated when im typing on my phone because my brain is moving so fast, but my fingers cant type it fast enough, lmaoo