An Americano, Please? Part 3
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A/N: Just an FYI, I don't usually upload twice a day, I just felt particularly inspired today. As always, italics in quotation marks signify the speaking is using romanian dialect.
Y/N's POV:
I gotta admit. It hurt when Jenna didn't send me a text immediately. It's been two days, and still nothing.
Maybe it was a meaningless banter. Oh well. I guess I just really thought something could come out of it.
"What are you sulking about?" Nessa asks me one day after our shift.
"I'm not sulking, I'm just a little sad because I didn't get a text from someone," I explain, "It's not like she owed me a text or anything, but I don't have to be ecstatic over the fact that she hasn't done so."
"Oh my god, you're into the American one," Nessa exclaims, "I knew it! I mean, she's gorgeous. Like if I were into girls I would definitely be into her." I take a sip of my cortado (half espresso, half milk) as I listen.
"Well in any case, she's probably not interested."
"Stop sulking, Y/N," Nessa scolds me, "Let's do something fun. Gotta get your mind off of this girl."
Since our shift just ended, and we have a whole afternoon ahead of us, Nessa and I take her car to Predeal, the closest thing to a modern city we have around here.
It's about seven miles, so about twenty minute drive. The town's mostly filled with ski resorts, but there's a few fun places to shop.
A great deal of the afternoon is spent sitting outside a store judging the tourists.
"Oh my god she's probably saying something stupid like, 'I know it's winter but my husband will love this hawaiian T-shirt I bought in Romania,'" Nessa mimics the normal thought process of the typical tourist.
"This guy's even worse though," I stifle a laugh, mocking his actions.
After a thorough mockery of all of the Predeal tourists, we head back to our town, content with our afternoon.
I still haven't stopped thinking about Jenna, though. I wish I could have gotten to know her better. It's so nice to finally have someone I can talk to in English.
All I can do is hope that she comes back to the shop. Even then though, she probably won't want much to do with me.
Nessa drops me off at my apartment, waving goodbye. Almost instantly, I shed my winter coat, relieved by the warmth of the building.
The first thing I do is turn on the TV and open Netflix. A new baking show just dropped, and I'm not the type to turn down new entertainment.
The show turns out to be a combination of baking and engineering. It seems cool, but it's hard to tell from the first episode.
My phone lights up with a bright reminder Remember to feed Cupid!
Sighing, I get up from the couch and grab my fish flakes.
Cupid is my purple betta fish. She's about a year old and as of yet hasn't had too many health issues, which is super lucky for both of us. She's at the point where she recognizes my face. So when I go up to the tank, fish feed in hand, she eagerly swims up to the glass.
"Hey Cupid," I laugh, sprinkling some food into the tank.
After feeding her, I head back to the couch, where I continue watching my cooking show. Before I know it, I'm five episodes in and the sun is starting to set. I look out of the window, trying to gauge the temperature and weather condition.
It's a fairly clear twilight right now. There's a good chance I'll get to see stars tonight. Actually, I've decided I will see stars tonight.
I don my winter coat and make my way down the apartment complex stairs. One of the perks of not living in a huge city is that I can see the night sky beautifully.
One of my favorite places in town is on the outer edges of it. At this point, all of the buildings are housing, be it apartments or actual houses. The long stretches of pavement are perfect for strolling down while admiring the night.
Not a lot of people choose to come out here late at night, which is honestly their loss. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm super into nature and the great outdoors, but when I am outside, I can find an appreciation for my surroundings.
So that's how I found myself strolling the streets of Bușteni Romania, not looking at the cement in front of me.
BAM! I find myself crashing into another person, almost knocking both of us over.
"Fuck, I am so sorry," I find myself defaulting to english, "I- I mean, I'm so sorry, are you okay?"
"Y/N?" A familiar voice asks.
"Jenna?" It may be dark, but I can just barely see the details of her face. God I hope she's not mad.
"Yep, it's me," I hear her faintly laugh.
"Are you okay? I almost knocked you over."
"I'm okay, just a little rattled."
"Sorry for that again," I apologize, "I should have been watching where I was going."
"You could make it up to me by walking me to my apartment?" she offers.
"I'd like nothing more," I laugh, linking my arm with hers and we start to walk.
"So, Y/N, tell me about yourself," she starts the conversation.
"Well, my name's Y/N L/N, I work at a coffee shop. I speak English and Romanian, which is useful for when people like you come to the shop."
"I know that stuff," she interrupts me, "what do you like to do outside of work?"
"You know, the normal things, be around the people I care about, watch shows, I read sometimes, listen to music, that kind of stuff. What about you?"
"Well for starters, I'm Jenna Ortega, I also love to read and listen to music," she tells me, "I also like to write though, I have like, twenty scripts and stories sitting in my FinalDraft™ folder."
"Damn, you must really like writing," I respond, "that's pretty awesome."
"I guess so," she shrugs.
"Have you ever considered publishing your work?" I ask.
"Yeah, I actually published a book called It's All Love," she answers proudly.
"That's like, the coolest thing anyone's said to me all day," I tell her.
"I guess I'm just a cool person," she jokes, "I'm kidding, I'm kidding, only an arrogant person would say that."
"No, you have reason to say, it. You're a published author, the lead in a TV show, and fun to talk to. Don't discredit your own awesome-ness."
She laughs, "thanks for saying that."
"Sure thing."
"So, does your offer to take me around town sometime still stand?" she changes the subject.
"I'm a woman of my word, Jenna, if you still want a tour, you have my number," I remind her, trying to sound kind and cool at the same time. Which is kind of challenging.
"Oh my god, I forgot to text you, didn't I," she gasps, "I'm so so sorry, Y/N. I've just had so much going on." She starts to talk herself into a panic, "I have work for like, eight hours a day, plus cello lessons, plus german and fencing, it's just so much." If I had known how busy she was I never would have felt so hurt. That must be so overwhelming.
"Hey, it's okay, I'm not mad about it." Which is true.
"That's such a relief," she exhales, "again, I'm so sorry."
"Hey, Jenna, it's okay. How about the next time you have a day off, we get in touch and I take you around town."
"Well, conveniently enough, my next day off is tomorrow, so how about I see you then?" she offers.
"I wouldn't be opposed to that," I smile, doing my best to hide how excited I am for this.
"Well this is my place," she announces, "thank you for walking me home."
"Anytime," I reply, sad to know the night is ending. She heads through the door to her apartment, leaving me to walk the short five minutes to my apartment alone.
As soon as I get home, I dash to my bedroom, putting on pyjamas and getting ready for bed. I'm tired from the day. At at the same time, I'm so happy I got to see Jenna. I'm so excited that she wants to see me again, maybe tomorrow! I can't wait to get to know her better.
My phone lights up with a text from a new number
+1 ***-***-****
Does 11 AM tomorrow work for you?
-Jenna
I smile, quickly texting back
Sure thing, see ya then :)
I can hardly wait.
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Roses, Thorns, and Buds: A Last Twilight and The Sign Breakdown
AND WE'RE BACK! This week, we're unpacking the way Last Twilight let us down and all the ways The Sign tried to be so many things with mixed results. We tried a roses, thorns, and buds framework to find interesting things to talk about in our disappointment.
This week we're joined by @wen-kexing-apologist to discuss Last Twilight, and then by @so-much-yet-to-learn to discuss The Sign.
Timestamps
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00:00:00 - Welcome
00:01:16 - Introduction
00:03:54 - Last Twilight: Roses and Thorns
00:09:35 - Last Twilight: Failed Expectations
00:15:54 - Last Twilight: Ableism
00:22:02- Last Twilight: Buds
00:25:22 - Last Twilight: Final Thoughts and Ratings
00:29:26 - Intermezzo
00:32:43 - The Sign: Roses
00:39:32 - The Sign: Thorns
00:48:43 - The Sign: Buds
00:56:03 - The Sign: WTFery
01:04:24 - The Sign: Final Thoughts and Ratings
01:10:02 - Outro
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00:00:00 Welcome
NiNi
Welcome to The Conversation About BL, aka The Brown Liquor Podcast.
Ben
And there it is. I’m Ben.
NiNi
I’m NiNi.
Ben
And we’re your drunk Caribbean uncle and auntie here sitting on the porch in the rocking chairs.
NiNi
Four times a year we pop in to talk about what’s going on in the BL world.
Ben
We shoot the shit about stories and all the drama going into them. I review from a queer media lens.
NiNi
And I review from a romance and drama lens.
Ben
So if you like cracked-out takes and really intense emotional analysis…
NiNi
If you like talking about artistry, industry, and the discourse…
Ben
And if you generally just love simping…
NiNi
There is a lot of simping on this podcast…
Ben
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00:01:16 - Introduction
Ben
And we're back. Last week, we got to have a lot of fun talking about She Loves to Cook and She Loves to Eat and dunking on Chaser Game W. This week we're talking about the confusing messes that were Last Twilight and The Sign.
We ended up bringing two guests on at different times for this one. You’re gonna feel it in the listen for this, we had a really difficult time working through our feelings on Last Twilight. And I think, unlike a lot of the shows we talk on here, where we're just sort of talking about a story that we're having a little fun with, because Last Twilight was a disability narrative, it felt inappropriate for us to maybe make a ton of fun of it and dunk on it. And so large sections of our discussion are us spending a great deal of time personally unpacking where this show let us down.
So it's not [laughs] our favorite discussion we've had on The Conversation. The show kind of let us down in ways that we didn't really recognize until we were in the booth together.
NiNi
Yeah, Last Twilight kind of bummed us out, and I think you definitely hear it on the recording. There was so much that we wanted it to be and so much that we thought it was being, and then the way that it went in the end… yeah, it bummed us out. And you feel that.
Ben
However, when we get to The Sign, we will be back to poking fun at some of the silly things that that show was trying to do and try to unpack everything that was the smorgasbord of genres and waistlines.
NiNi
[laughs] Not waistlines!
Ben
There were a lot of great ones in that show.
NiNi
When it comes to being able to have a little bit of a cracked out time, it seems like IdolFactory is always going to take us there. I think this is the most fun that I've had since we did the Gap episode. Having a good old cackle with Aiden; talking through action and all the different myriad, many, multiple genres that this show tried to achieve all at once and didn't quite? I think overall we were just looking in this episode at things that didn't work, why they didn't work, and particularly why things start well and then don't, in the end, deliver.
Okay, so first up, you'll hear us talking with Captain Hands about Last Twilight.
00:03:54 - Last Twilight: Roses and Thorns
NiNi
So we are here with friend of the pod Captain Hands. Say hello, Captain Hands.
Captain Hands
Hello!
NiNi
And we are going to talk Last Twilight. Ben, take it away.
Ben
So, Last Twilight is the last directorial outing that we can expect from Aof Noppharnach for a while — at least that’s what he told us. A young college-aged athlete, after an unexpected injury, begins a rapid decline in his vision. He is no longer really capable of taking care of himself on his own, as he's adapting to his new circumstances, and his family decides to hire a caregiver to help him out. The young man's name is Day, and he is resistant to having someone else following him around, most especially his older brother Night. He is eventually paired with a slightly older young man named Mhok, who is an ex-con who ended up in jail because of a huge street fight he got into. He is struggling to find work, as an ex-con, and he has never really taken the time to properly grieve the untimely death of his older sister. Over the course of the show, Mhok adapts to his new role as Day's caregiver, and because we're in BL, the two of them end up becoming very close and finding something more than just friendship between them. The show wants to follow Day's journey as he comes to terms with what it means for himself to be blind, and Mhok essentially changing his career path as a result of contact with Day. We'll get into how the show tried to wrap up some of these threads.
NiNi
Okay, so this is the roses, thorns and buds episode. So let's start with that. Captain Hands, why don't you start with a rose.
Captain Hands
A rose for me was the physical intimacy. They did a lot really well with how they used touch in this show, and that I was really thankful for.
NiNi
What about you, Ben? Give me a rose.
Ben
Every rose does have its thorn. [NiNi laughs] Let's see. I'm going to give a rose to the teamwork between Jimmy and Sea. I don't think that we were necessarily positively disposed to them when we were entering the show. I've been watching some of their BGP for like the last year or so, and I know that they've been working really hard at being comfortable around each other, and I think their teamwork and all the effort they put in really paid off. I think the… pacing of the intimacy between their characters was really easy to follow, and I think a big part of that is the two of them having a lot of trust in each other.
NiNi
I am also here to praise Jimmy, not to bury him. I am not a Jimmy fan. I am on record as being terribly worried about how this was going to go because I was not so sure about his acting. I come out of this a little higher on him than I went into it. I think that he did an okay job. And I came out of this really loving Sea.
In terms of what my rose is, my rose is definitely some of the visual filmmaking. I liked some of the style that went into this in terms of what was happening with the camera, and where some of the shots landed up.
Okay, so [laughs] I feel like there's gonna be a lot of thorns that we're gonna get into, but everybody just hit me with one thorn. Let's go in reverse order, Ben, what's one of your thorns?
Ben
My thorn for Last Twilight is the Dangerous Romance mistake with Jimmy's character, in that they started the show in his character’s perspective, but then wanted to switch over to Day's perspective for basically the rest of the show. It creates this imbalanced expectation in the show for me. I was waiting to get back to the drama that they set up with Mhok, like his issues finding work. What does it mean to him to be coming out of prison and struggling at this point? Or his un-really resolved trauma around his relationship with his sister. I did not get satisfaction in the writing around his character.
NiNi
Captain Hands?
Captain Hands
My thorn is episode 12. Just all of episode 12.
NiNi
I mean, that's one hell of a thorn. [laughs] My thorn is that I think the show was conflicted about whether it maybe wanted to be about temporary disability or permanent disability, and that conflict led to what felt like a swerve at the end that was not handled well at all.
00:09:35 - Last Twilight: Failed Expectations
NiNi
We'll save the buds for later so that we have a little bit of hope at the end, but let's kind of dive a little bit more into how you felt about the show, what you were hoping to get out of the show when you went into it, that kind of thing.
Captain Hands
I was really interested in coming into Last Twilight specifically to see how Aof handled a disability narrative. Of the 109 BLs I have watched, I can count about six that have some form of physical disability or chronic physiological illness. Four of those are Aof’s shows. And so when GMMTV announced Last Twilight was going to be about a character going blind, I was like, oh, cool. I want to see what Aof does when he has a full amount of time to dedicate to a disability narrative.
NiNi
Ben, what about you?
Ben
Going into this, I was hoping that they were going to delve more into the complexities of class. Day’s family… currently, it seems like they're rich, but it doesn't seem that they started this way. And so, like, Day’s currently a rich kid, but now that he's seen as in some ways an invalid, he no longer feels like he has the status that he's used to having. And so I was really hoping that we’d get this examination about who Day used to be, who he is now, how people used to see him, how people see him now. And use Mhok’s place of always being poor, but now also being considered a criminal…I was hoping there would be way more play with that going into it. I was really hoping that because we were going to be focusing on cross-class romance, and also what it means to care for someone with a disability, that this would be a more… active part of the show?
NiNi
This is something that's come up in multiple GMMTV story narratives at this point, where they seem to want to have conversations about class and interclass relationships, and then back away from those conversations almost immediately. The person who is the quote-unquote ‘lower class’ person in the relationship gets lost a little bit? Their problems get subsumed into the problems of the rich person. If you're going to do an interclass romance, do an interclass romance. Take it seriously. Take both sides of the romance seriously — or if you're going to only do one side, do the side of the poorer person. In all these romances, they talk about balance between characters. I don't find these romances are ever balanced. There is always a main character and a love interest, it's never really two main characters. And if you're going to do that, then in some cases I think they need to be switching who is the main character and who is the love interest.
Captain Hands
Aof has managed to do some level of interclass dynamics in Moonlight Chicken and so, like, I know that he's capable of doing it. I think here I'm worried that Aof got too in the weeds with focusing on a disability narrative versus focusing on an overarching narrative structure. For me, it felt like every single aspect of this story, as we approached the end, started taking a back seat to Day and Day's disability.
NiNi
I think a lot of the issues here ended up with balance and pacing. If this is the story that they wanted to tell, then there were better decisions that could have been made in telling this story. Aof both wanted to focus on the disability and in some weird ways, didn’t to want to focus on it too much? There's a weird tension that runs throughout the entire show. Instead of it being finely balanced, it just feels like it's being pulled in several different directions. I've seen shows that feel like they're gonna pull themselves apart — as we say in Trinidad, “I didn't look for Aof there.” This is not to say that Aof is infallible, but in terms of where I think his narratives might fail, being pulled apart by all the things that they're trying to do is not one of the places I would expect an Aof narrative to fail.
Captain Hands
Aof has seemed, in the narratives I've watched of his, to be very intentional with the story that he's telling. That he's acknowledging these gaps in the story and trying to just like, wrap them up with a throw away line rather than deciding to, like, go down those paths. Having Aof open with Mhok with Rung’s death and then to move from that to Day’s blindness during his competition, for me that sets up a narrative where the bones of the story is about grief. Having two different perspectives on grief, following two people whose lives have been forever changed. How those two perspectives could come together to really help each other move on and accept the new realities that they have. And that's not what ended up happening, especially on Mhok’s side.
Ben
This hearkens back to my difficulties with Mhok’s writing. It's like the writers really wanted to focus on what Day was experiencing because they didn't want to feel like they were short changing the experience of somebody who had sight but is now blind. And so they really focused on Day, Day’s struggles, and such. And this would be fine if they had not forced me to think about Mhok so much by focusing on him. It was a bad choice in my opinion, to focus us on Mhok for so long, to then have him just be the perfect boyfriend to Day.
00:15:54 - Last Twilight: Ableism
NiNi
I want to talk a little bit about the threads of ableism. I saw a lot of commentary around the ending, and it's kind of split into two camps: this sucks, Day should not have gotten his eyesight back. And then I saw a second camp: this is what the story set up all along, it's not that giving Day back his eyesight is the ableist bit, but the way in which it was done. Both kind of agree that the narrative got ableist, but they can't agree on why.
Ben
There's, for me, nothing inherently wrong with someone with a curable condition getting the cure to that condition and appreciating that. The frustration for me is they tie it to completing the resolution of the last romantic conflict, as this block that was in the way. It's not what they say from a textual perspective, but it feels like a reward for solving the romantic angst. And then, after spending the first part of your [final] episode in a montage about how well adjusted Day has become, we end on a monologue about how relieved he is to be normal again. And that felt super weird for me, particularly because we come out of the procedure with this really uncomfortable fake out, where we're not certain if Day can see now, and he almost steps into traffic, and then he helps another blind person cross the street. And then like the other guy walks away and is like, thank you. And it felt so weird. I'm still feeling, like, weirdly uncomfortable as I think about that scene.
Captain Hands
I want to make it clear before I really dig into this too much: I'm not blind, but I am disabled, and: in real life, if you have a disability that can be treated, eased, cured by some treatment, and you want to get that? Totally behind you, absolutely support it, go for it, I'm here, I agree.
However, for me this is a fictional story with a narrative structure that I don't think, after episode 9's failed attempt at an eye donation, supports a secondary restoration of Day's vision. Day has overcome the aspects of his blindness that have kept him cooped up in his room, that have obliterated his self-confidence. He was able to not only survive, but thrive with his blindness. He graduated, he opened the bookstore. Great… We don't get enough time with that. I think if you are going to have the moments where Day’s vision is restored, then you need to get the proper nuance and time dedicated to pursuing that.
NiNi
For me, what happens is that I feel that Day actually gets lost in the disability narrative. Day was an athlete before he lost his vision. I don't have a sense of who Day is outside of that, that Day even has a conception of who he is outside of that, that that's something that he's struggling with in any way. I don't have a conception of what he sees his life looking like, whether or not he regains his vision. Day’s hopes, his dreams, the kinds of things that you would talk about with a lover, I don't get any conception of those things. The blindness is just hanging over everything. And I understand that that is a thing that happens, it just kind of blots out everything else, but my problem isn't so much with whether or not Day’s vision gets restored. My issue is really that — other than the fact that he's an asshole, [laughs] I don't have a sense really of who Day is and what his dreams and desires are aside from the blindness, aside from the accident, aside from the cornea transplant, aside from all this stuff surrounding that issue.
If he is in love with Mhok, you would think that these would be things that they would be talking about. You talk about things like your dreams and desires with the person that you love. You talk about your deep feelings. I just don't feel like that happens at all between them, but especially not for Day. And then when Day starts developing his life as a blind person, like accepting being blind, even if it's a long-term temporary thing, it's all montaged. It's montaged before he regains his vision, it's montaged after he regains his vision. I just lose Day entirely in that part of the story. I feel like after episode 9, I have lost both of the characters. I don't know who they are. I don't know where they're going. I wanted it to be deeper. It feels like the narrative of Last Twilight is floating on top of the real story underneath, which is what I wanted to get to.
Captain Hands
Honestly, the thing that bothers me the most about the choice to restore Day's vision is that Day never once does any type of significant support for Mhok throughout the entire show. And then he gets his vision back, and it is the first time that Mhok says he has somebody to look after him and take care of him. It eliminates any potential conflicts in the future with Day’s fears about Mhok pitying him, because now his vision is restored, so what is there to pity? I am all about reciprocity when it comes to the relationships that occur in BL, and that just does not exist in any way shape or form in this story at all.
00:22:02- Last Twilight: Buds
NiNi
I think we've reached the buds with that. So Ben, go ahead.
Ben
Let's discuss how this particular project could have been improved. I will go first.
[Ben and NiNi laugh]
NiNi
Proceed bestie, you have the floor.
Ben
Oh, I'm sorry, did you wanna go first, sis? I'll let you.
NiNi
Oh no no no no, you absolutely have to go first, I insist.
Ben
If we accept the first 11 episodes as they are, we just have to rewrite episode 12. Instead of time skipping three years immediately, we first come back to the day after the breakup and have Day and Mhok talk about what's going on. They could still make the choice to take a break from each other, recognizing that they've gotten way too wrapped up in each other. They could make the realization themselves that they have lost themselves in caring for Day and managing Day being blind. We can still have the episode 11 break up and the drama of that. And then their reconciliation or reunion in Thailand again could have a difference to it of, “I'm really happy to see you again, but I also feel a little bit different now.” And then we can have them working out their relationship together for a few years and then the eye donation thing comes up. We can still do all of that. We just don't do it from the, “I'm not gonna talk to you for three years. Hmmph!”
NiNi
So that's actually not my problem with it. Because as I said, Day’s an asshole, and he's also kind of stubborn. I can see him making the wrong decision in that moment, I can see that festering, I can see that turning into three years of silence. I can see all of that. What I can't see is that when Mhok comes back to Thailand, that Day hasn't been thinking about this, that he hasn't, over the intervening three years, realized that he was in the wrong. I don't see him not apologizing. That's where it got stuck for me. Even if it is that Mhok comes back and tries to be the one to apologize, then have Day say, “No, I was wrong.” That's all it would have taken for me, honestly, [laughs] but I'm super easy. We know that.
Captain Hands
I think you have Mhok’s trauma be at war with Day’s trauma, to lead to a bigger argument with more basis for it. Then you could break them up. You have them reconcile, be in their relationship for a while. Day gets to have a relationship with Mhok where you navigate having to readjust from being a caretaker to being a partner, and then you can have Day get the phone call from the eye donation center and you can end it ambiguously. If the last thing that had happened in this show was them unwrapping Day's bandages and us not knowing whether or not the surgery worked? If we could have ended on that ambiguity, that would have worked infinitely better, and also, I don't know that Day owes it to us to show us how that resolves.
00:25:22 - Last Twilight: Final Thoughts and Ratings
Ben
Wrapping up our discussion here on Last Twilight. NiNi, ratings and final thoughts?
NiNi
There are good parts to the show. Mark Pakin, always a winner.
Captain Hands
Always, always, always.
NiNi
I enjoyed Namtan in this. Despite me thinking Namtan is incredibly talented, I have not always enjoyed her, but I really enjoyed her in this role as Porjai. I I liked all the stuff surrounding Day’s old friends with Film and Baby Ohm, but I feel like all that stuff sort of ended up ephemeral. It didn't stick. It didn't feel like it was resonant.
So I ended up at a 6.5. I never rate really in connection to anything else. All my ratings are independent of all my other ratings. I just kind of have general categories of enjoyment that land in certain brackets. A 6.5 on this show for me means that I think it was ultimately a failure, although there was a lot to recommend about it. I really loved Mark and Namtan. I really found myself enjoying Sea and Baby Ohm and being impressed by Jimmy. And then the visual storytelling, the camera work and some of all of that, some of the very real chemistry I felt between Jimmy and Sea in certain parts.
So for all of that, it gets a 6.5. But in terms of the story, I think the story was a failure. I think that what it wanted to say, and what it thought it was saying, and what it was actually saying are three different things, and that's never good.
Ben
Okay. NiNi is going with 6.5. Captain Hands, give us your rating and final verdict on this show.
Captain Hands
I gave it a 3. I don't think that the ending was handled responsibly. There are moments of unconscious ableism peppered throughout that are really solidified by the ending, and I do think it undermines almost all of the narrative structure that Aof set up at the beginning.
Ben
I went with a 5. I think that the character writing for the core couple of this was a bit thin by the end. And it is why I think their finale doesn't land so well, because they're not entirely certain what to do with their own characters in the little tiny world they set up for them, and it eventually just sort of crumbles on itself. You can tell they weren't certain how to end it on a poignant note without feeling like they were going to be ableist, so they tried to go for a more, “everything's okay now” happy ending, and I just don't think it works out the way they hoped it would.
Truly, I don't think the show was unwatchable for most of its run, but do I want to share this show with other people? And I kinda don't, and that's why I'm putting it at a 5.
NiNi
This is one that I think maybe should not have been a BL in the sense of it being a romance. I think that, very much like Never Let Me Go around this time last year, that trying to fit this story into BL conventions maybe harmed it, and what the story maybe wanted to be about got lost.
Ben
So with that, this show gets a dubious 4.5 or 5 from The Conversation. Thank you for joining us, Captain Hands.
Captain Hands
Thanks for having me!
Ben
We'll see you all in the next segment.
00:29:26 - Intermezzo
Ben
Ben and NiNi from the future here again. It's so difficult to listen to this again. We recorded this a while ago and there was a ton that Captain Hands and I said that ends up not making it into the edit because it's a… basically long diatribe against so many things that the show did that were really off-putting towards the end? I feel like part of the angst in the conversation is not wanting to say mean things about Aof, but I think bro has to take his L on this one.
NiNi
I don't think it's necessarily about saying bad things about Aof, because Aof can definitely make mistakes and he definitely made a lot of mistakes on this show. I think it is just more a question of, at what point does our litany of woe start to feel like a real downer? [laughs] Like I said before in the introduction, this show just bummed us out. And the longer that goes on, I feel like the less that you want to keep listening to it.
Ben
I just feel like the next time I'm this irritated with a show, I'm gonna have to hit them with the same three minutes that I did on New Siwaj. [NiNi laughs] We just need to get it out.
I think with any other show I might have just been like, well, this kind of sucked and I would have moved on. It's frustrating when the show feels like it was trying to take us into some really interesting space, and talking about the kinds of people we don't always see in any of our stories, let alone in queer stories, and then just really fucking it up at the end. That was just so truly, fundamentally disappointing. Particularly because we thought that this team had the bona fides to not do that. And I'm kind of bummed that this is the last thing we're going to probably see from Aof, maybe for a while. What a way to go out.
NiNi
If we go back to our recordings from before the show, I think we did have reservations going into this as to whether we were going to like it or not. Like, when we were looking at what was coming up in 2023, I think we were all kind of, “Ooh, I don't know, it's a heavy thing to take on. Let's see how they do with it.” And I think it was that experience of being skeptical going in, having it go well at the beginning, and then collapsing. We wanted to believe and then for a while we did believe and then our belief was not rewarded, and that experience is just never fun.
Let's leave that behind. I think we've aired our feelings about it. It's a wrap. We will be moving from there into talking about something that was probably worse overall, but more entertaining to discuss.
Ben
That's right, listeners, thank you for spending a moody half hour with us over Last Twilight. Onto The Sign! Let's talk about Babe’s waistline.
00:32:43 - The Sign: Roses
NiNi
We are here to talk about The Sign! And we have yet another very special guest and friend of the pod, Aiden, with us. Say hi Aiden!
Aiden
Hello.
NiNi
Ben, take us into it. What is The Sign about?
Ben
The Sign is a multi-genre project from IdolFactory that blends a reincarnation love story with fantastical elements built around Thai mythology about the Naga and Garuda, along with a murder mystery police pseudo-procedural, and also sort of an action thriller? To relatively mixed results.
The show begins with Tharn, a young man who is in a very difficult sort of boot camp experience that's also a vetting process for an elite team of investigators. He's here along with his childhood friend who's kind of like a brother to him, Yai. And they are trying to prove their worth to join this elite unit because Tharn wants to investigate the death of his parents ‘cause he believes foul play was involved. Very early on, we get caught up in the supernatural stuff, where Tharn seems to have visions of impending doom about people, particularly one guy named Phaya who’s in his unit. Over the course of their early training, they end up kind of getting involved in a mystery investigation together… they and some other gays get selected to be part of this elite unit and then start working as supercops or whatever. And then proceed to get their asses beat every time they have to fight somebody for, like, the next nine episodes, while a bunch of other shit happens with the Naga and Garuda stuff.
I want to describe the plot of this in a more coherent way, but it is kind of hard to because it isn't? There's a ongoing bit of drama with the doctor who's close to Tharn, who's also reincarnated, might be the same dude who's been trying to fuck Tharn for like, eight millennia or whatever. This is supposed to blend in with the cop mystery shit and the corrupt politician. It does not all come together well.
NiNi
This is the roses, buds, and thorns episode. So what are the roses on The Sign?
Aiden
They did a really solid job with the opening action scene. The trainees storming this compound and having to rescue different hostages, that was pretty well done. It was clear to me that it was a team that was in training or not really well gelled together. Really well done.
NiNi
Aiden is our resident action specialist.
Ben
We got tired of watching mid-tier BL on Mondays and started watching action film. [laughs] We watched My Dear Gangster Oppa like, “That's it, we're watching John Wick,” and then started watching all other sorts of action stuff. So we've been spending our boy time on ass-kicking lately.
Aiden
We wanted to enjoy the good stuff.
NiNi
Ben, do you have a rose on this show?
Ben
Oh yeah! Babe’s waistline.
NiNi
[laughs] Ben’s like, “that boy is beautiful!”
Ben
He is! All right, let's talk about Babe for a second, let me be real. I think Babe is one of the most perfectly designed BL boys we've had in a while. He has really well-cared-for skin, ample lips, an incredible waistline, and he plays off of his scene partners really well. It’s kind of notable when you look at some of the early sequences, when he's mostly in bro mode with Yai, Khem and Thongtai. He's very much playing the role of dude and bro with them, but there’s a much softer and more sensual aspect of him that we see a lot more of in his scenes with Phaya. I think Babe transitions into either of those modes fairly well across the show, even if I think he often gets let down by the script and unclear direction, particularly in the back half. I feel bad for Babe because I think he's really good in about the first six-to-eightish episodes? As things get really muddled in the last four to five episodes of the show, Babe is struggling a lot in some of his scenes, but I don't really think it's his fault.
I actually think the cast chemistry of this show is really good. All of my favorite scenes in this show are when their cohort is together and just having a good time. Another rose: Yoshi Rinrada is in this! I was watching with David and in the first episode David made me pause. He's like, “We gotta stop. Who is this big ass man with these arms?” And then in like episode two or three, we meet Sand, his wife, and David's like, “Who is this woman and why does she get our man?”
And I'm like, “Dude, that's Yoshi Rinrada. She's Miss Tiffany Universe 2017.”
“Oh shit, she's a sis? Well, she looks good in that top. I'm really glad that one of ours got this one.”
[NiNi laughs]
He's like, “Who is this woman, I'm gonna fight her. Oh, never mind.”
NiNi
Love it.
Ben
[laughs] I'ma count it as a win for us.
NiNi
My rose…I'm gonna give it to Billy actually. I've seen Billy in a few things at this point, but he used to act mostly opposite Seng Wichai, and Seng Wichai is so dazzling that I did not notice anything that Billy was doing next to Seng Wichai. Watching Billy in this and finally really seeing him, really paying attention to him, he is quite a good actor. He puts a lot into it. His character is very…stable, I guess is the best word? I don't lose bits of the character.
Ben
I think his performance is really consistent. Like, you can tell when he maintained the right level between takes.
NiNi
Yeah, definitely. He's very good. And I had not noticed him really before now, and that was my mistake. So Billy is my rose, Billy and Gap Jakarin and his arms and his face and his everything.
00:39:32 - The Sign: Thorns
Ben
Let's get to thorns, let's talk about things that the show fucked up on. Let's start with the worst thing that this show did. This show sets up a multi-millennia reincarnation story about cycles repeating over every lifetime, does not do a great job showing us how this has been expressed through multiple lifetimes, has Tharn/Wansarat die in the same way like two or three times? And then the resolution to this conflict that has existed across eons happens off screen in the final episode, and they're just like, “It's over!”
Aiden
For me, I think the most egregious thing was to set them up as trainees for an elite fighting force that are supposed to be these top-of-the-top investigators, and then at every turn they fail at both investigating and action, and every major interaction that they have is ineffectual at best? Like the finale, the bit where everybody is lining up in a row in front of the Jeep, firing in a line, standing still. [NiNi laughs] Phaya doesn't even have armor!
Ben
It was very much giving, like, recent Fast and the Furious movies where, like, they're joking about how bullets don't touch them.
NiNi
Aiden is being very gentle and super sweet about really nailing this shit to the wall. Y'all know me, I'm about to be crass. What the fuck was this show? It wanted to be 17 things in a sack, and it ended up being sort of none of those things, and then ends as a wet fart. It just kind of [fart noise] ends. Like, what's happening here? What's going on? Why is this where we are?
It all happens off screen! And then we get exposition at the end of the show! And then we're supposed to be excited because in a post-credits scene, Saint shows up and he has Garuda wings. No, absolutely not. Y’all did not earn any excitement for a potential future. Absolutely not!
This show pissed me off. And I did not realize how much this show pissed me off until right this second.
Ben
Good. Kill ‘em, bestie.
NiNi
Like, legit. So earlier in this episode, we talked with Captain Hands about Last Twilight, and the problem with Last Twilight was that it was going pretty well, and then went completely off the rails right at the end. This show has been wobbly from the start, but it was still enjoyable. And then it started just sinking and sinking and sinking. It's like that horse drawing meme where the ass end of the horse is all beautiful and shaded and drawn correctly, and the front end of the horse is a fucking stick figure. And that's what this show is like. This show feels like whoever was doing the show ran out of steam. In terms of the story, they just kind of hand waved it at the end. Nothing made any sense from somewhere in the middle. There was way too much of this cop shit. Nobody was interested in it. Nobody says you can't do a cop show, but if you're gonna do a cop show, let's be slightly critical, I think, of what it is you're doing. At least in my personal view.
I am just really upset because this show had so much potential, it just tried to do too many things at once and ended up doing none of them well. And I am much more pissed about that than I realized, whew.
Aiden
Feel better now?
NiNi
No, [laughs] I do not, in fact, feel better.
Ben
And another thing!
[Ben and NiNi laugh]
NiNi
If the show wanted to be a fantasy BL about this mythology of the Naga and the Garuda and this love across millennia and multiple lifetimes thing, there is a way for it to do that really well. They had all the minerals to do that really well. Then they decided they were going to mix it up with this modern era cop shit. Okay, there's a way to make these two things play off of each other, and then it didn't do that either. And then, in the action BL, nobody can fight, even though they spend the first two episodes getting really good at fighting, apparently?
Ben
Mmm yes, let's discuss this more.
Aiden
A training montage for nothing. [laughs]
Ben
In the final episode, everybody's getting shot at, people are getting tied up. They get into this showdown where it's them against the mini boss who's been whooping their ass all season. And I'm like, literally, nothing has changed. He's just gonna kick their asses again. Oh, nevermind. I guess snake dude is here. Whatever.
NiNi
[laughs] But up until snake dude showed up, he was in fact whooping their asses.
Ben
They're like “Oh Tharn, go get him,” and I'm like, by himself? Again? Tharn has literally not won a fight in this show. [laughs] Why are we sending him out here by himself?
NiNi
Not won a single figh—like, I don't even unders—like, you're supposed to be an elite, highly trained, weird paramilitary cop thing, and literally, you have never won a fight. Not one!
Ben
They go out of their way to establish these guys are good because they want to highlight that these other guys are also very good? But, like, we don't see them having moderate wins against other opponents. We just see them getting their asses kicked all the time. What was the point of the two fucking episodes of super cop shit? We don't get the transition of, okay they're good cops now doing good cop shit as we're dealing with the supernatural and the romance stuff, we just see this weird, useless cop shit happening. Just this meandering plot of whatever this fucking group is supposed to do. They end up doing guard duty at a party at some point. Why? They're a team of elite investigators! I don't get it.
Aiden
It's for the tuxedos.
Ben
Oh, there you go. Thank you, Aiden.
NiNi
But even the tuxedos were ill-fitting. The only good thing about that episode was Nat Sakdatorn. Hey, boo, hey, loved seeing you. You were fantastic. You deserved so much better than this.
Ben
In the case of an action story, the action has to help tell the story, and the problem with The Sign is most of its action sequences feel unmoored from any sort of character building and storytelling, and mostly just tell us that these guys are actually not that good. For all that we ragged on it, My Dear Gangster Oppa communicates that Thiu is actually good at violence: the storytelling and what they put him through reflects that he is competent at the violence portion of his job.
Aiden
If they wanted us to believe that this team was elite and effective, they needed to show that, and they jumped straight to the part where these bad guys are so powerful and effective that our elite fighting force is struggling. But you missed the point where you established them actually being an elite fighting force.
Ben
I really wish they had done, like a case of the week format, at least for a few episodes once they transitioned into being the investigators, because immediately throwing them into this meandering-ass police plot was just so fuckin’ boring and unsatisfying. And I'm an American, I've grown up watching a lot of fucking police procedurals. I don't remember the fucking plots of most of these fucking mysteries, but I remember following the format and being like, “ooh, look at everybody doing their job, solving the case, working together as a team. I love that shit. They got pensions, too. Amazing.” But that is just not here. At all. It sucks.
NiNi
[laughs] Not pensions! Not pensions, I hate you, bestie.
Ben
That's the primary appeal of the cop procedural. You're watching people who seem to like their jobs, seem to like and/or respect the people they work with, and pursue those jobs, and also sometimes try to maintain meaningful relationships inside and outside of that job. And we know that they're all gonna get to retire at some point, because older characters retiring is often one of the big struggles of, the team’s gonna change because [old cop voice] “It's been 40 years, man, it's time for me to go.” [NiNi laughs] Like, you don't get that in these when they don't build out those dynamics.
This cast has good chemistry, but this whole work is bloated but also weirdly empty. There are moments that were really fun, Babe and Billy do a good job at the scene work between their characters, but the overall flow of this show is just not great.
00:48:43 - The Sign: Buds
NiNi
We're clearly into the buds now.
Ben
We're in the weeds!
NiNi
[laughs] I wanna pick up on something that Aiden said about there having to be wins before the last boss, mini bosses in an action drama. You need to establish the competence of the mains before you throw them into a situation that they can't handle. This show seemed to be lacking that.
So, my main bud is probably going to be throwing in some sort of shorter episodic case-of-the-week kind of things to build up that competency. I don't mind the way that the show was structured in arcs, but the arcs they chose were just weird, yo. Basically, none of the arcs made any sense. They didn't connect what was going on in the worldly arc to what is happening in the otherworldly arc. It just feels like a big ol’ mess. Like the first case, the first arc…
Ben
Now you made me mad. That arc could have been really interesting. It could have been this whole reveal about Chalothorn’s twisted sense of ire about this whole thing. He feels like Wansarat was stolen from him. There could have been this whole thing with the guy trying to torture all of the survivors conflating this with Chalothorn’s fucked up perspective that he is owed Wansarat’s affections, because he's like a fucked up men's rights activist type? But they don't really connect that back to the Chalothorn stuff.
There's this clear Naga influence over this guy where he gets powered up and Tharn has to maybe tap into latent Naga powers that he may or may not have? That whole flare up of Naga nonsense never really got explained or tied into some of the stuff going on. There's like a whole bit where they're having Phaya take a break from regular police work to be like, what's all this weird shit happening? And there's not a lot of great payoff from that. And then there's, like, the point you made about some of the structure of when certain things should happen. Would you like to go on that rant now, bestie?
NiNi
Oh, the way they should have fucked in Nong Kai? Hello. [laughs]
Ben
There you go. How about you tell the people why they should have fucked in Nong Kai?
NiNi
Before we get there, Aiden, why don't you tell us some of your buds?
Aiden
I think the largest bud that I would have is the involvement of the CGI, the special effects. Saint has said in interviews that he sunk an awful lot of his own money in this, which seems to be a trend for him. Buddy, you gotta get stable here financially. But he really wanted to make sure to do it right, and take the time, and spend a lot of effort on those scenes. And it does show that that level of passion was there, but it could have been utilized plot-wise better. The choices of when and where, and the scenes that they portrayed, just like with the rest of the plot, it lacked the connection to really make it have that emotional resonance, or furthering the relationships in some way.
Like, the Naga and Garuda fights? Well, they, that's awesome. Good job! It didn't really have much of an impact on the relationships as a whole. They could have had just the scenes of them in human form fighting and it would have had the same effect.
NiNi
Those Naga and Garuda fights, they had, like, a certain anime energy that I quite enjoyed, but I think there were too many of them. So by the time that you get to the end, you've kind of lost the freshness of the first one. The first Naga/Garuda fight was actually pretty good, but by the time you see like four or five of them, you’re just kind of like, “All right, what else have you got for me?” If they had used some of that CGI money to do like a whole episode of the Naga and the Garudas—
Ben
They tried. I think that was episode 7. It sucked.
NiNi
But they only did maybe one part of an episode? I think that there should have been one or two episodes of the backstory. We're talking about love across centuries, millennia, through multiple lifetimes kind of thing.
Ben
We get the backstory and it's weak. Why did we spend 20 minutes on info that we basically already had? The whole reveal about Wansarat and whatever Phaya’s last character's name was—because I don't even think they mentioned it in that episode—is not that compelling. It's basically what we already knew or presumed.
NiNi
What happened in that episode: it gives us the plot, but not the story. There is no resonance from what they gave us. They don't let us sit in it. They don't let us feel the feelings. We don't even know how they fell in love! One moment Wansarat is saving the Garuda from dying because he was fighting with Chalothorn in the sky and, like, fell to Earth. She's like, “I hate you, but I guess I'll save your life.” And then the literal next second we see them, they're already in love and we're like, “Wait, how did this even happen?”
Ben
I wish they had kept the original plan, which was it takes them multiple lifetimes before they fall. That her initial reasons for getting involved were more noble and not romantic.
NiNi
This show put its energy in all the wrong places. All of the energy of the show went into things that were around the edges. There's too much going on and none of it is connecting. There's all these things that they wanted to do, they wanted to show off that they could do these things. But the center of this feels hollow, it feels really empty at the core of it. It doesn't feel like there's anything to hold onto. It feels like an orb of glass, and if I grip it too hard, it's gonna shatter and there's nothing inside. Like a sugar cube. They spent apparently something close to three million dollars on this show. I don't feel like that money was well spent, I just don't.
Ben
I think it stands out in the fuckin’ finale, where we're about to have their last sex scene. Whatever he agreed to with Chalothorn happens off screen. We know he's gonna leave, but Tharn doing self-sacrificial, stay-away-from-me-bro shit because he's worried people are gonna die is just in line with his character. So it doesn't really land as this major moment of, like, a sad choice happening. I'm just like, okay, whatever, you guys can have your sex, I hope it’s good.
NiNi
It felt empty, like everything else towards the end of the show felt empty.
Ben
That shot of the water under the bed, though? That was really fucking cool.
NiNi
That hit—
Aiden
Definitely.
NiNi
—I do have to say, but it was just a moment. It hit, yes, but the resonance that I wanted to feel, I wanted it to hurt, not just hit.
00:56:03 - The Sign: WTFery
Ben
What the fuck does Tharn’s grandmother know, by the way?
NiNi
Oh!
Ben
I do not trust that woman.
Aiden
Too much and she doesn't say enough.
NiNi
Aiden, I need you to get into this because I feel like you are probably the most pissed at how little anybody told Tharn about what was happening.
Aiden
He was shut out from everybody in his life. His grandma, the monk, and then Phaya also is told by them to not say a single thing to Tharn to keep him informed, to make the decisions of his own life. This entire time, the grandma has known that Chalothorn is bad news and has never said a single thing to Tharn about it.
We were also robbed of the old woman yuri! [Aiden and NiNi laugh] That's another story.
NiNi
Ooh, she fainted directly into homegirl's arms and it was beautiful.
Ben
Right into her titties. [NiNi and Aiden laugh] Rest on her boobs, it will help.
NiNi
I hope we get more lesbians this year because we need them.
Aiden
Speaking of which, the side with the sister and Dao, that was another potential that went nowhere. That seems to solely have been put there for soft launching their pairing.
Ben
[whispers] Oh my god.
NiNi
What was even the point of Dao as a character?
Ben
She came. She served. She left.
NiNi
Did she serve?
Ben
She did.
NiNi
Where?
Ben
When she wore like a little booty dress [laughs] to the fucking hospital. [NiNi and Aiden laugh] Like, oh, is your brother having a hard time? Well here's my thighs, maybe they’ll help.
Aiden
I mean, was she wrong?
Ben
Yes! That was not hygienic.
Aiden
She's not a doctor.
NiNi
She’s gonna end up with a staph infection in her coochie or something. It’s not good. You shouldn’t wear anything that short to the hospital, bestie! You don't know what's floating around out there. No!
Ben
I don't feel like the Khem and Thongthai backstory did much for us, either. It was implied that they were having, like, gay relationship drama, where like Khem is a pretty affectionate lover, but he struggles with exclusivity, and then they just don't do anything with that? The seal clap shit was funny, but–
NiNi
Hilarious, I do have to say. [Aiden and NiNi laugh]
Ben
–I don’t think it really adds anything to the experience we got with them as characters or their role in the story. The sides aren't really used well. You’ve got Khem and Thongthai, who could have served as, like, a foil or comparison for the relationship that Tharn and Phaya were having, or maybe even one that Yai was having with Sand, and that just doesn't really work that well here. We came close to that once where Tharn is having the conversation with Sand about his reticence, about how people around him seem to die mysteriously.
Again, there was potential here with Chalothorn fucking around with Tharn’s life, killing people close to him because he needs to fuck him so badly. But that also has no interesting payoff whatsoever.
NiNi
Let's count the dropped plots and the dropped threads. So that's one, anything to do with Dao, that was a dropped thread. Mayris. Where the fuck did Mayris go? Could somebody tell me where Mayris is? Where was she last? When did we last see her?
Ben
She was crying in the finale somewhere.
NiNi
What? Where? I didn't see her.
Aiden
Outside the interrogation room.
NiNi
Oh, I desperately must not have paid that much attention to the finale, then.
Ben
See? I mean you asked, damn.
NiNi
I did not even see her.
[all laugh]
Ben
Chalothorn clearly manipulating multiple people around their cases.
Aiden
Having powers over their mindset. Montree was kept aside to turn on whoever was behind him. That went nowhere.
Ben
I guess that's supposed to be a season 2 thread.
Aiden
Of course.
NiNi
No.
[Ben laughs]
Aiden
Chart being shot and then, he's fine!
Ben
Offscreen–he's fine!
NiNi
Not just Chart, Chart and Khem both get shot!
Aiden
Yes, yes.
NiNi
And they are just like, “ehh, they're okay, they're gonna be fine.” Can we see them? That would be good.
If I start counting these things up, it's gonna be dramatic.
Aiden
Tharn’s Exposition Fairy and her thing that she had for Chalothorn went nowhere.
Ben
Oh yeah, the sister. Wanwisa.
NiNi
Where did she go?
Ben
The Abbott’s ability to speak.
Aiden
Yeah! [laughs]
NiNi
There was an implication that the Abbott was also a Naga, and that got dropped. When you're doing fantasy, you have to explain the world and the rules of the world. However you choose to do that, there are multiple ways to do that. But this show does not explain the world, it doesn't explain the rules of the world, it doesn't explain the backstory of the world, it doesn't explain how these characters are all connected in that backstory. It just kind of hand waves a lot. It leaves some pretty big gaps. I don't even know that it expects the audience to fill those gaps, because how would the audience fill those gaps? There are no clues for the audience to fill in those gaps. It's just, holes. Like, [laughs]. Holes, I’m 12.
Ben
Did you really just send yourself into a giggle fit over that?
NiNi
I did!
Ben
There was a whole joke in, like, “This show just leaves a Gap everywhere (the Series).” Insert it instead.
[Aiden laughs]
NiNi
No, but the thing is, people complain all the time about these shows, about, “Oh this is a plot hole and this is a plot hole” and most of the times, these are not plot holes that they're complaining about, just stuff that they didn't like or stuff that you could actually fill in from the context clues. This show has actual plot holes in it, like, massive, could-drive-a-truck-into-them plot holes. It's not good besties. It just really is not good.
And then let's talk about the cash grab at the end and how it ruined any chance the show had of being successful. When a show is fun but not great, you want to keep the momentum going so that people don't have time to stop and think about how the show is not great. For them [laughs] to spend three weeks between the second to last episode and the last episode in order to do a cash grab in the middle, killed any sense of momentum they might have had going into the finale and makes the finale feel even worse and emptier.
Ben
That's true. Being away from the show for two weeks, I had no real sense of anticipation coming back into the finale. I'm like, what the fuck was happening? I heard, like, Tony the Tiger was loose in the jungle or some shit? I don't know.
Aiden
They fell off a cliff.
NiNi
That's another dropped plot thread. How did they fall off the cliff and end up in a cave? Nobody knows. And then they're in the cave for like two minutes, and then Yai comes and gets them. This show pissed me off so bad.
Aiden
I want to mention the bit where they changed the ending for the censored version that aired on TV in Thailand to be the tragic ending where Phaya is just grieving. That wasn't it.
NiNi
Yes, but also, given the actual reconciliation, who really lost? Was it the people who watched the censored version [NiNi and Aiden laugh] or the people who watched the uncensored version? I don't know.
01:04:24 - The Sign: Final Thoughts and Ratings
NiNi
[sighs] I am going to have to give this—let me count up the things that I enjoyed about it and the things that worked and balance them against the things that didn't. I'm probably gonna give this a solid 5, and why it's getting a 5 among everything else…let's go back to the fact that they should have fucked in Nong Khai. Let's talk about the actual romance [laughs] and how the contours of the romance are also not good, and this is a BL! The romance is supposed to be the point! So the fact that the actual shape and plot and arc of the romance does not work because they're trying to be precious about the sexy times? Horrible. It's a 5. It's bad.
Aiden, give us your rating. What do you think?
Aiden
Oh goodness, I very very rarely give things an actual numerical rating. I'd say 5.5. With a half knocked off for most of the finale that failed to stick multiple landings. I would have given it a 6 right up until then, I think.
NiNi
You only knocked off a half for that? You are such a generous and kind soul. [laughs] Ben, what about you? What did you rate it?
Ben
I originally gave it a 6.5 because I liked some of the experimental stuff going on on the production side. But most of that was in service to bad copaganda, so, I decided to remove the “you tried” 1.5 I had given it, and I'm knocking it down to a 5. Because, I don't ever want to watch it again, and I really don't want to recommend it to people so that they can then try to talk to me about it.
[NiNi and Aiden laugh]
NiNi
Ben’s like, I'm gonna give this a rating so that you know we shall never speak about this.
Ben
It sucks! I don't really wanna rate one of Saint’s projects poorly and dunk on it, but this was a miss. It was an interesting swing, but it's a miss. I'm not mad at this show, I'm just bored and disappointed. This is not what I hoped we were getting. Oh well, I hope I get to see Babe again. That's where I am. [laughs]
Aiden
Likewise, they had so many good potentials with the cast, they spent a ton of time training for the action sequences, and they spent a lot of money on the CGI. I love that they gave the attempt. It just fell flat on the writing.
Ben
You know why I'm also giving it a 5? Phaya wanted Tharn to rail him and he didn't get that.
NiNi
Thank you, bestie! Thank you so much.
Aiden
Mmhmm.
NiNi
Billy was giving out top quality rail me energy the entire time and the character did not get railed. And I am very upset about this.
Aiden
He's due on the next one.
NiNi
So let's see. 5, 5.5 and 5, it gets a 5 from The Conversation. The Sign is not recommended.
[Ben and NiNi laugh]
Ben
It's not a show that's worth recommending. If you watch the show through gifsets only, you have seen the best of the show. The version of the show that exists in your head is the best version of the show you're gonna get. Do not ruin that by actually watching it.
NiNi
I'm just so disappointed. Before the show started, given all of IdolFactory’s work up until now, I thought the show was going to be saying something about queerness. The IdolFactory work that we've gotten so far, what we've gotten in Gap, what we got in Secret Crush on You, they're delving into fats and fems, delving into lesbians. And this show, I thought it was gonna be about hypermasculinity.
Ben
And they brought Surprise back from when he played the chunky friend, and he was fit this time!
NiNi
Waste of time. What was he even there for?
Ben
He was there so I could make surprise, Surprise jokes every week.
NiNi
If you are the writer — or worse, if you are the editor. Looking at the script and looking at the footage that you have in front of you, this is the story that you cut together? Legit, what's going on here? We need to have a conversation.
Ben
IdolFactory’s run by actors, and it's very clear that the writers, editors, and the money nerds are not the ones who are in the strongest decision making position. It's clearly the costuming team and the actors who are in charge.
[Ben and Aiden laughs]
NiNi
Everything always looks really good. Everybody's very pretty and it makes no goddamn sense. [laughs] But when it makes no goddamn sense, it could still be fun like Gap was. How is Secret Crush On You, like, its high water mark so far?
Ben
Because Cheewin’s work is usually coherent. Well…sometimes.
NiNi
[laughs] I was about to say, coherent is a very strong word, but um, it usually… has something to say.
Ben
Yeah.
NiNi
I feel like I don't know what this show wanted to say.
Ben
That's really the thing. It felt very vapid at the end.
NiNi
It felt very vapid, period. We don't like it, besties. It's a no from us.
Ben
One chop.
[Ben and NiNi laugh]
Aiden
Two chops.
NiNi
Three motherfucking chops.
01:10:02 - Outro
Ben
Ben and NiNi from the future for the last time, for the first time.
NiNi
For all the times. [Ben and NiNi laugh]
First off, we didn't get to let Aiden say bye to the people, so—
Ben
[whispers] Oh my God. [laughs]
NiNi
— I just wanted to say, I just wanted to say from the future, thank you, Aiden, for joining us. And next time, we will ensure that you say bye to the people properly. [laughs]
Ben
Oh my God.
NiNi
Okay. So we talked about Last Twilight, we talked about The Sign. Now we're going to talk about why Thai BL has been having performance issues. This is definitely something that Ben has been very grumpy about recently. I have also been grumpy, but probably to a slightly lesser extent. Ben, what are you feeling when it comes to these shows sort of going down at the last hurdle?
Ben
The concern I have is that it doesn't really matter. The finances of BL don't really care about endings, they care about pitches. They just need the audience to think that the story is engaging or interesting or pretty enough to commit on the front end to line up all of their sponsors, to get them in the room. And it doesn't exactly matter if the story is good or bad because we already got paid, and the actors were charming enough that we can milk that for more advertising later, and then move on. And I'm concerned that we are going to see a lot more products designed to just titillate fan interest in the actor pair, and not care about whether or not there's anything meaningful from a storytelling perspective happening around that, because it doesn't matter. And that irks me as a lover of stories. There is not a financial incentive, I think, with the way romance is structured, for them to stick the landing. The writers’ pressure that they're feeling, economically and financially, is not about finishing the story strong. It's about starting them strong and holding through, like, the 60% drama part. As long as that part isn't horrendous, they're gonna get paid and they're gonna be fine. I don't know that Thai BL exists in a framework where they have to care about how their shows end.
NiNi
I think all that said is true, but I think when it comes to these two shows in particular, I'm not sure that the failures are that mercenary. And this is where I am giving a little bit of grace based on the past when it comes to these two creative teams. When it comes to Saint and IdolFactory, I feel like Saint definitely has a mission that he wants to fulfill outside of the financial.
When it came to the story of The Sign, this is an adaptation. This is not an original story. I just feel like maybe they took on too much and ran out of steam more, necessarily, than they didn't care about what the ending looked like. When it came to Last Twilight, which is an original story, I think it's just a question of the writers getting too cutesy around an ending. Everybody wants to have an ending that gets people talking, and they fail at it because… sometimes you just need to end the story. Sometimes you just need to take the story through to its logical conclusion and do it well.
We talked about that when we were talking about La Pluie, how good it was at doing that. La Pluie is not gonna light the world on fire in terms of novelty, but what it was was a solid story. I think that what happened when it came to Last Twilight, is that they didn't know how to end it.
Ben
I just would like to not always feel this way. It's not fun to watch shows falling apart narratively in real time. For all that we enjoyed Last Twilight through episode 9, and for all that we enjoyed parts of The Sign through maybe episode… 5ish?
NiNi
Oh bestie, I was done when they didn't fuck in Nong Khai.
Ben
We walk away from these shows in the end, feeling dispirited or kind of baffled or dismissive of them. And like, that's fine. But it also just sort of depresses the conversation around these pieces for me. How do we have interesting conversations about these things going forward? “Well, everybody was pretty and I enjoyed that.” Okay, but like, is that enough? For some, not for me. And it bums me out. When these shows are so fundamentally disappointing in the end, they don't inspire me to share them with other people. And a big part of what I want from BL is to have discerning viewers with taste connect to it, and to have other queer people connect to it, and it's really hard to do that when a significant portion of it doesn't satisfy the viewer at the end. Finishing strong is a really important part of telling a good and compelling story.
NiNi
I think that there definitely is something to the cumulative impact of these shows sort of falling apart one after the other, especially when you watch a lot of them.
Ben
This is fatiguing as viewers. It's not fun to anticipate every show you enjoy shitting the bed 60% of the way into it, and I would really like for that to not be a common experience going forward.
NiNi
Okay, and on that downer note [Ben and NiNi laugh] that is going to wrap us up on our Roses, Thorns, and Buds episode. I think our next episode is going to be a lot more fun. We're headed into some grab bags, ladies and theydies. So, look out for that next week. Until then, we out. Say bye to the people, Ben.
Ben
Peace.
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