#lmao making myself sick so I’m gonna post this now

[shadow--writer]

Maeve birthday asks!

🍷- share a drink

🎁- give a gift

🧁 - share a treat

[blupengu]

Y’all is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??

[landososcar]

lover ; LN4

pairing(s) ; lando norris x swiftie!reader

summary ; in which y/n just wants to post pictures of her boyfriend, not expecting people to get the wrong idea

warnings ; smau, lots of fluff

note ; its 3am and i didn’t want to sleep til i finished this so idk what mistakes there probably is lmao😭 also just pretend the twitter stuff says 2024 i cba changing it all

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yourusername i saw the dimples first and then i heard the accent 💓☺️

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user1 who are you

carlossainz55 you tagged the wrong account silly

yourusername you replied with the wrong account moron

nando4lorris you two aren’t slick

yourusename yeah ok mr nando lorris

nando4lorris you’re supposed to be on my side wtf

user2 i’m so lost 😭😭

user3 i’m confused someone explain

user4 babe everyone’s confused

user5 wait so is this carlos’ gf or not

user6 idk who you are but you’re hot as fuck

user7 ok i swear i’ve seen carlos wear that top in the 4th pic before

user8 yeah i think i’ve seen lando wearing it too tho

user9 but lando isn’t in this girls likes and comments

nando4lorris yeah guys you’re right she’s gotta be carlos’ girlfriend

yourusername nando4lorris fuck off i hate you so much 😭😭😭😭😭

user10 ????????

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yourusername i’d like to hang out with you for my whole life 🤗🧡

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user1 crying because lando liked on his main AND his burner (confirmed)

yourusername p.s. the tag in these pics is for PHOTO CREDS 😁

user2 LMFAOOO HER COMMENT

user3 girl said my mans is NOT carlos sainz jr🙅‍♀️

user4 i have so much to say

user5 the taylor love lyrics, the orange heart emoji, the flowers, the ladybugs, THE CAT CARDIGAN

user6 i think i would die for her

nando4lorris 🧡🧡

yourusername 🥰

carlossainz55 i thought you guys were still trying to be sneaky

yourusername carlos you’re the one making it hard to be sneaky

user7 oh it’s so lando

carlossainz55 oh well it’s been 4 years everyone already knew

user8 ITS BEEN WHAT JEHFKSKKS ????????

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landonorris i’ve loved you (five) summers now honey but i want them all 😁😁

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user1 oh my god

user2 FIVEEEEE SUMMERS????? EVEN MORE THAN CARLOS SAID !/?;&2!@:9(

carlossainz55 i’m sorry i just guessed how many years because i didn’t know exactly just that its been a long long time

yourusername it’s ok carlos you were close

user3 SHES BEEN TO RACES AND NO ONES EVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT HER OH MY GOD

maxverstappen1 finally mate

oscarpiastri wooo secrets out 🥳

user4 he used a taylor lyric for the caption im gonna be sick

user5 if you zoom in on the second pic you can actually see me drowning myself in the background

ciscanorris1 💓💓

yourusername love you🥰

user6 wait i don’t have twitter can someone explain

user7 oh BABE you’ve got some catching up to do

yourusername my fav boy love you to saturn ☺️🧡

landonorris i love you more than you love taylor swift🥰

yourusername ok settle down babe don’t go too far

landonorris no sorry you’re right

user8 when he understands that ones love for taylor is never beaten >>>>>

user9 i need them biblically

user10 i still don’t understand how they hid her for 5 years lmfaoooo

user11 yourusername ok y/n but did he take you to the eras tour

yourusername he got us tickets for a uk show later this year 🥰🥰

user12 now, how’d that curly haired vroom vroom bitch pull HER

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[sirensplayhouse]

hii it’s ‘🪦’ anon. i wanted to come back for a quick second and share some stuff. recently, i’ve manifested so much stuff since i first sent an ask and even before that with only being in this year for two months.

month of janurary in order:

- my parents divorce being over after years (everything working out how we planned). this was also the reason i had got into LOA all those years ago, so i did cry for like a day straight, it was really my wakeup call.

- 2 week vacation to my favorite tropical area for the month of feburary (i just got back from traveling and i enjoyed myself sm)

- i tapped into the void state about two times that month as well. i affirmed for always being aware of when i’m in it.

- a healthier relationship with my family. the past few years i did struggle with feeling close with them but we’ve grown so much in a short amount of time now.

- 300 dollars worth of clothes + a skims dress (the package was gonna be way more and i had already spent a lot of money for the vacation in advance)

- three new pairs of desired shoes

- this was random but, my mom always gives me money monthly to spend freely or to save but i had already gotten that months worth. so i was like my mom is gonna give me more money, not even 30 minutes later she’s asking how much i wanted?? 😭😭

month of feburary in order:

- over the years my family has definitely gotten more lenient especially since i’m damn near grown LMAO but it feels nice to do stuff without feeling like there’s going to be consequences, so i manifested for my family to be more lenient with my desired things.

- to get rid of my cold/flu a few days before vacation. i had gotten “sick” (like a common cough and runny nose) from a family member. i haven’t been sick in years so i was genuinely pissed about it. i affirmed one night when i was sleepy to wakeup without the sickness, and when i woke-up it was gone.

- my sister got paid earlier than she expected. and the amount was a few more thousands than she normally would get. it was funny when she came to tell me because she always has to make a joke out of everything. 😭

- my mothers approval for more piercings and maybe even a tattoo? (probably not, i’d def pussy out LMDAOO)

- so this was the biggest one besides the divorce but we got offers for two homes. the same homes that we looked at years ago and it honestly freaked me out. i genuinely did want to move again so i could be closer to my friends house to hangout more (we both met through LOA about three years ago and just so happened to live almost an hour away). i glanced at both house listings online after talking to her and i believed that i was gonna move. NEXT DAY, MY MOM AND SISTER GOT TWO CALLS BACK TO BACK. so now we’re moving into both homes because of something that happened 😭 it’s not bad but it was funny. i’ll be there in less than a week so i’m excited!

- another thing that happened was earlier this month. i tapped into the void for fun through this guided hypnosis video post made by gorgeouslypink and i was curious. i didn’t have any intent on manifesting anything there nor did i actually think i was gonna go through with it. i laid down right after and i tapped into it immediately while following the last speaking. personally, i don’t feel the need for the void because at the end of the day, ts is a deep meditative state inside of me. manifesting in the void is instant, and so is manifesting any other way. i also texted my friend right before and after. she thought i was gonna do it another day by u disappeared for like an hour or two and she was shocked. i was gonna send proof of everything but idk how to do this shit through anon but changing the font tbh this is sad.

all of the stuff that i mentioned within these two past months were all manifested without using the void. i hope that this can bring more positivity and enthusiasm for a lot of people who’ll see this post. ofc you can use the void but realize your power, it all starts with you and ends with you. don’t forget that you promised yourself these things so give them to yourself. sending love 💓 i’ll check back in monthly probably bc this is fun sharing my experiences and using the pink font color 💟 see you next time!

babes……. HELLO YOU DID THAT🥺i’m so proud and happy for you ! 🫶🏾 you’re only gonna get better and better and i can’t wait🥰i hope you enjoy all you’ve manifested 🕺🏾and have an absolute ball

[celtic-crossbow]

Hey there, its me again, the favorite anon (it seems weird for me to call myself that, i have to find another way to make it known its me) and i just wanted to give a simple answer, felt like i left you hanging about the art thing so sorry. I’ll try to be brief with my answer, about the whole thing that happened that day, i didn’t really get it all just came in and saw there was some weirdness going on, we all make mistakes we’re human after all so its good you apologized, i think.

I’m really invested in how Daryl and Birdie’s relationship will develop, i just knew he was gonna be the biggest helicopter parent lol, bet he’ll be the kind of dad that freaks out after the kid sneezes just once and i’m here for it, i did note that Daryl didn’t really have any suggestions even when reader commented about the name thing way back when he was sick, but didn’t really think it would come into play, i thought it was more of him being sort of insecure haha but i knew it would be Bird related, come on, Bird blanket and her dad is Always wearing a vest with wings? To me, thats cinema.

Also i forgot to comment on the last ask, but Daryl knowing all this stuff from his books but not knowing about the placenta??, its so funny to me, come on man it was too good to be true, most realistic moment for me honestly, men just operate on a different frequency i swear.

And about Lori, well i did note that Daryl joked about her on the first ep of season 3, wasn’t really malicious tho i think Daryl just kinda secretly likes to gossip, like that time he told everybody Merle had the clap for no reason lmao, the idea of Daryl secretly being a gossiper is hilarious. And more Lori? I’LL BE EATING IT UP I KNOW IT, and getting to see more of her and Rick?? Might as well be christmas for me, i’m curious to know what advice she has, i’ll be waiting eagerly for the moment where she just goes ‘’Y/N can you watch Carl for me?’’ that’ll be the moment we know their relationship has peaked. Alright i’m just joking, i love her so much in this fic.

Carol is the gift that keeps on giving, i love how she immediately knew she had to save birdie from these fools, poor kid doesn’t deserve to suffer with a messed up diaper on her first day on this Earth, i’m guessing she’ll be Birdie’s Godmother, if that’s a thing to them anyway, i have a feeling her bond with Birdie will also be very special and just motivate her to be even more of a badass.

Alright about the art, its totally fine, you know its out there sorta like a message in a bottle, it now belongs to the world not me haha i want to keep practicing with these characters when i have more time, this one was made on a tight schedule but who knows, i’m already thinking of what else to make plotting like a supervillain in my lair, but for now i only have a few hours, if you want to post that one its totally cool with me.

Thanks for being so sweet, i hope you are taking care of yourself and taking your time to write, its very important, and yeaaaah 600 words thats me being ‘’brief’’ somebody needs to take this keyboard away from me.

Bye bye <3

My favorite Anon! You just let me know what you want me to call you and I will! 🩵

Don't worry about not answering right away on the art. I just wanted to make sure it was okay before I showed it off. :) I was worried all that shit had chased you off. I felt/feel horrible about it but it's done and in the past now. I'm sorry if it affected you in any way.

I have just started chapter 31 and bless these two. A newborn on the road is really going to test everyone. He's going to be talking about the name a little in this and why he chose it.

Bless him, he didn't get that far in the books. He kept telling her he hadn't had time to read and how he felt bad about it. He really wanted to know everything but when it came down to reading or providing/protecting or reading, he of course chose the first. I just could not have him being like what?! when she pushed it out.

Daryl being a gossiper! LOL YES.

Reader is definitely going to need help. Lori will play a pivotal role, along with Carol, of course. I want there to be a real bond with Lori, something that will tie reader to Carl and Judith after that day. Daryl loves Judith, we already know that but I want there to be this real bond with reader and the kids.

I still have a while to explore before we even get to the prison, so buckle up! :)

Thank you for always sending these. They seriously make me smile! 🩵🩵🩵

[chthonicgodling]

long rambly post incoming💞 had been handed the perfect avenue to find out fast exactly how ~quirky the TaKi baby is: Hecate examining Loki and kindly asking if he wanted her to divine out the nature of said baby-or-babies

me being very eager to reveal The Surprise™ vibrating OoC VERSUS me also absolutely needing to stay In Character when allowing our lil guys to make decisions fgkfkg. of COURSE the latter won and obviously this didn’t happen,

Loki’s twitchy as hell around all his pregnancies, it is a shocking miracle that he hasn’t fully vanished from the second they knocked him up even after promising them he wasn’t going to. sure this is because (SELF ADMITTED IN WORDS LMAO) in the end ✨lust has won out over anxiety✨ but he IS still twitchy and he IS still cagey and that’s coming across in, literally now the only people he’s been letting touch him/near him has been ONLY Maci and Tory - again, a shocking miracle ; he also has not told anyone else he’s pregnant yet!!!

this is the part where I admit to you all again (I said this in that other pregnancy trope post here) that this aaaalllllll is a thinly veiled excuse to create angst really 💞 specifically if he doesn’t come out of this having cried a million times then I haven’t done my job. Actually allow me to quote MYSELF from when I was vagueposting about figuring out a way to make him have a Taci baby back in NOVEMBER before FENIXE BEAT ME TO IT ahemmmm from the beginning I have said;;

…I can’t make Loki do a plot right now cause he keeps climbing past my schemes to climb on top of Maci and Tory and I can’t stop him 😔 Like ok fine just keep doing that I guess! I’m still gonna make you cry no matter how long you try to stall!!

so!! SOOOooO!!!

so this is all fun and games and Loki agreed to let Hecate come by in desperation wrt unbearable morning sickness that Maci and Tory refused to let him just suffer through (and also Hecate can be persuaded to take commission for fun sex curses which Loki was more intrigued by than her involvement for any other LEGITIMATE reason lmfao) but!! there was real anxiety spiked when she offered to magic-look at the baby. well it’s not any of your business I don’t see why it should matter what shape the baby is!! why what are you all going to do to it if it’s not a shape you prefer??? h ey whoa Loki calm down you’re suddenly shaking?????

:( ah

it’s fine happy ending (Maci and Tory pet him until he pulled himself together and she of course immediately did back off) but

oh. yes. more of this.,,,,,,, oh sure this whole thing is Sexy and Cute and Fun and Hot and ✨yayayay new babies✨ (nothing willl happen to baby-or-babies dw!!) but —

make no mistake it has all come upon me for a very specific purpose. and I will force this emotional vulnerability upon him (& dump him upon Maci/Tory) if he it kills me hhhHH-

[teethw0lf]

I had the horrific idea to get high and write about Mista and Narancia getting high using a concept I had already joked about with a friend and this is how it turned out. I wrote it in notes app so I’ll just copy and paste it 💀.

Pizza Heroes

Five edibles. Five. One two three four five. That was the bet. If Mista and Narancia could not finish watching “Low Quality Family Guy Memes” without even so much as cracking a tiny baby smile. The tiniest of all smiles ever in the whole world. They’d have to wake up in the morning and take 5 edibles or more. They’d never done more. But they did today. Fuck them. They were underestimating their power. They were gonna prove them wrong so good. Holy fuck LMAO.

So it was five. That was the requirement. But no. What they took was 10.

Narancias muscles had just started to go on strike just as the both of them got epic fnaf ninja mr. beast jumpscared by Mistas phone. It was loud as all hell and it almost had a rude ass tone to its voice, like it was going “HEY YOU PIECE OF ASS POTHEADS PICK UP NOW.” so naturally mista picked it up, while Narancia stared on in bewilderment only properly described by a cursed emoji reaction image from the depths of Gen Z Pinterest.

“Oh hell- nah. Oh sorry haha. No I was talking to somebody else. Um I’m sick. Cmon- dude ok alright uh. Ok.”

Mista hung up.

He faced Narancia with a look of horror.

They faced eachother with a look of horror.

Only properly described by two cursed emoji reaction images from the depths of Gen Z Pinterest.

Oh god oh fuck.

“Narancia we gotta go to work dude.”

They weren’t even all the way high yet but the thoughts in their brains were already falling out of their nostrils and also ear holes as soon as they formulated, leaving no time and no ability to maintain a proper conversation with anything and anyone. Including the house fly that was annoying them.

“Hey MOTHERFUCKER”

Narancia threw a gnarly punch at the fly but it landed on mistas huge tit.

“AAAAUUUGGGGHHHHHHH’!!!!!!!!!”

He threw his hands up in agony like that one cursed emoji reaction image gif thing where the emoji disintegrates away while holding its hands up and making a face of true and utter distraught.

“Sorry bro. There was a fly.”

They managed to drive to work by sheer luck and sheer luck alone. Narrowly missing a cruel and painful death several times over and somehow not really realizing it unless the other car honked then it was “WOAH FUCK!!!!!”

Dominoes

Expensive ass overrated pizza. Mista and Narancia thought their pizza was just any ass pizza and that that good and definately not $45 for like a medium pizza or something fuck them. But they worked there so whatever.

After clocking in, the two of them put on their dominoes pizza hats with the anime lines behind them and victorious and suspenseful music playing and they grasped each others hands in camaraderie and best friendship and possibly maybe a homestuck romance reference or something really fucking nerdy and cringe and gay like that and they posted up behind the counter. Alone as the fly in Narancia and Mistas house thought it was when Narancia punched it into a tit that must have been like a gigantic and majestic mountain to that tiny little fly. Death by boob mountain. That is hilarious Narancia decided and he randomly doubled over and lost his shit laughing. He could not hold it in. He could not even try to hold it in. He couldn’t. It just came out like vomit except it was laughing. What was he laughing about? Idk honestly I myself can’t remember what I just wrote so you put two and two together okay? Ok.

Narancias laughing made Mista start laughing too.

“Bro stop that you’re making me laugh”

He said with a breathless “heeheehaahaa”

Omfg he sounded just like a donkey.

Narancia was laughing like that chimpanzee at the campfire named Sugriva when asked “is it dinner time”

“Hey mista. If you had a fursona do you think it would be a donkey?” He asked, giggling.

“A donkey? Fucking why.”

Mista asked pretending to be offended because technically he was being called an ass. But ass is a butt and that’s fucking hilarious oh my gods.

The gods are probably shaking their heads at them right now as they stand there making stupid jokes and forgetting what they were supposed to do right here and now. Unbeknownst to them both they are ignoring several orders and are both standing behind the cash register and 4 people have come and and then left after seeing these weirdo loser furries talk about their fursonas.

“Mine would be a chIIIMP-“ Narancia couldn’t finish that last sentence before he started laughing again and it forced the tail end of his sentence to get all loud and yelly. Fuck chimps are so fucking funny. They are so fucking silly and they make loud screaming sounds and it’s hilarious.

“Nah!! Chimps are scary! Buff as hell. Stronger than any man.” Said Mista.

“I’m hungry” said Narancia.

“Oh wait FUCK OH SHIT.”

They both turned their heads so fast the air went through their ears and made a SHOOSH sound.

They’ve been sitting here ignoring 10 orders.

Mista and Narancia scramble into the kitchen like shaggy and scooby doo. Or more like shaggy and shaggy because they are both human men and not a dog. Mista pulls out his Bluetooth speaker and it starts playing his playlist for work. They are not actually allowed to do this but nobody is here not even a manager so fuck those bitches.

They make artful and beautiful pizzas. Narancia sways back and fourth while putting toppings on his pizza to Slow Dancing In The Dark by Joji.

The music fills him with such a floaty and blue emotion. Oh it was so pretty. And sad. Slow dancing is such a pretty name for a song. Slow dancing in the dark. That was just classically romantic and so so lovely. It was roses and dewdrops and a faun stumbling in the rain with an arrow in its back.

Damn it NO this fic is supposed to be funny, Narancia thought, the fourth wall being held in his determined and angry grasp and shaken by the throat. This will NOT become an angsty crush fic.

But then, suddenly, Mista turned around to face Narancia and he said “I want to talk to you about something I saw the other day and it’s really interesting and cool.”

Narancia nodded. Still schmoovin except the song has changed to “Fourth Of July” by Sufjan Stevens.

“No what change the song Mista this song makes my eyes water.”

“I was trying to tell you something hold on-“

“Mista my heart is SENSITIVE AND MUSHY!!!!”

“Okay okay fine”

“Alright tell me”

“Okay Narancia so there is this thing called homestuck-“

Narancia was trying to listen to Mista but he was too busy on trying to make sure the pizza didn’t look like it was made by a person who was extremely high. Oh shit. What if they could tell based off of the pepperoni symmetry.

The phone started ringing. Oh fuck. Oh shit. Wait how long have we been making these pizzas. Just two pizzas. No way….an hour? Oh fuck. No no no.

He picked up the phone.

“This is Pizza”

They hung up.

Mista was laughing at him.

“Mista we are going to get fucking fired I’m so scared bro I’m so fufkced I’m so fucked oh fuck.”

Mista was reminded of the vine with the kid slamming the oven to the beat while his dad plays the horn and they are wearing sunglasses. He thinks about imitating the horn tune and slamming the oven to the beat like the video to make Narancia laugh and stop getting scared, but he didn’t wanna break the oven. What if he was accidentally too rough. So he just went

“Doodoodoodoodoodoodooodoodoofooodoodoodoo”

“Mista what are you doing. Holy fuck we have like. A million orders.”

Narancia started shaking his hands next to his head and pacing and sobbing and crying.

Mista didn’t like seeing Narancia cry! Oh no? His friend. He had to create a distraction. Woah man his muscles were totally not having it. His brain was just a big playdough mound bumpin around in his skull. It was like he was made out of lead. His tounge and his fingers were getting numb and tingly. Yo he was SO high. Woah. Uh oh. Oh no.

Right distraction.

“Okay Narancia so like listen this might make you feel better. So theres this thing called homestuck and there are humans and trolls and they play a game. And theres different kinds of romance but I can’t remember the one that makes me feel about-“

Oh fuck he almost said ‘you’. Narancia can’t know that Mista was totally mega cringe down for him?!!!!!!!

“About this person I think is pretty cute and stuffs.”

His story was not helping Narancia. In fact he was sitting on the floor rocking back and fourth and sobbing but almost completely silent with his mouth hanging open and his eyes squeezed shut like he’s a toddler that fell down and it hurt. The door rang. Oh shit. He tried to pretend like Narancia wasn’t losing his mind behind the counter.

It was Trish.

“Why the fuck are you guys at work like this.”

“Because they wouldn’t let me call out big cheese says I’ll get a write up.”

“You guys look like you’re totally pulling this off and having absolutely no problems. Where is Narancia.”

Trish looked like an emotion Mista couldn’t comprehend. Like dorcelessness. Or maybe she was being sarcastic. Shit was he autistic?

Narancia tried to say “I’m here.” from behind the counter but he only made a sad sobbing sound.

Trish peeked from around the corner at him and he almost got ejected from his body.

“AAAUGH!!!”

he sounded just like Darwin from the amazing world of gumball.

Oh fuck his heart. It was so fast. Holy shit he can’t swallow. It’s like he can’t swallow what if he starts choking. What he he has a SEIZURE!! oh-

“Mista I think Narancia needs to go home.”

Trish poked Narancia like he was a roadkill.

“I need to go to the hospital guys. Can you overdose on weed? I think I’m dying. PleSe don’t let me die.”

“No you can’t overdose on weed, Narancia, oh my fuck- Mista. MISTA.”

Mista was thinking about troll romance.

Then Fugo walked in.

“Did you get the pizza or what it’s been fucking 35 mins- oh my fucking god why are you guys at work.”

“Fugo please tell Trish I could be having heart failure!!!!”

Narancia wailed.

Trish rolled her eyes so hard that it looked like it hurt and it probably did because she rubbed them after.

“Oh god you guys I swear I’m not crazy. Was our shit LACED!?”

Fugo scoffed “no you fucking idiot you took ten fucking edibles that’s what’s going on here.”

“Fugooooo” Narancia wailed.

Trish and Fugo looked at Mista who was staring off into space still standing behind the counter and thinking about troll romance. He couldn’t wait to tell his friends all about this new cool and very much brand new thing called homestuck.

Fugo leaned over to see the absolute state the kitchen was in. As expected there was a burnt pizza in the oven and a pizza that was halfway made and stil frozen halfway falling off the counter. The speaker was playing “DICKE TITTEN” by Rammstein. Ah hell yeah. This was fugos groove he loved pissed sounding German men singing industrial metal.

[bellysoupset]

SOUP!!!!!!!

HI HI HI HI I CANT EXPLAIN HOW HAPPY I AM THAT YOURE BACK!!! oh my goodness i was literally typing this when i saw that you asked where i’ve been💀 i’ve been reading fics as you post them (i don’t have notifs on but i check your blog for updates on a regular basis LMAO) but life shtuff has only now died down enough for me to actually write/comment on things!! gosh i’m so excited you’re back!! in the LEAST pressure-y way, it’s almost embarrassing how slowly days went by as i was waiting for you to start posting again LOL like at one point i was telling myself “okay she said 20 days, it’s probably been at least a week”. it had been literally 3 days 💀 HAHAHAHWH

ANYWAYS

AHHHHHH MY BABIES MY BABIES!!!!! i don’t remember what the last thing i talked about on here was but WOW these last fics have made me cry and laugh and blush sooo many different times!! wen finding out was CRAZY and i literally sobbed w her bc the way everything played out was so unfortunate but also so realistic and raw and i had so many mixed feelings about everything!!!! and then wen isolating and bella checking on her!! and wen trying to push her away and then admitting that she felt so lonely GOD THAT WAS DEVASTATING but then bella being so supportive and comforting AGHHHH my girlsss <3333

and then omg the fic after that one??? i was SO surprised that wen forgave vin? and that they’re trying long distance??? i’m so fucking excited and happy abt that but god i’m sure it’ll be hard 😭 but YAY I KNEW THEY LOVED EACH OTHER TOO MUCH TO GIVE UP LIKE THAT ♥️

side note, luke being so depressed and struggling so much to adapt to his meds is so sad but so realistic too :,) i’m glad you’re making this a part of the plot!! but my man is def off his meds already lol im interested to see where this goes!! and also i LOVE how well jon and leo are doing <3 despite everything going on, they’re in their happy era fr <3

and now i’m sorry but the sick vin fic?????????? FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, IT WAS EVERYTHING I NEEDED AND MORE‼️ first off, leo talking to him and being so real but also like calling him out like that??? while still being super supportive??? and the way he described wen was so accurate and so him-coded??? and then AHHHHH i’ve ALWAYS loved vin and bell’s friendship, i’ve genuinely always thought it was super adorable and i wanted more of them, so this fic was gold 🤭 a trope that ALWAYS gets me is when someone is ANGRY at someone they love and ofc being bitchy and sassy until they realise said someone is very much Unwell (it’s especially good if they’re so sick that they’re really out of it), and when they realise how sick they are they IMMEDIATELY switch from mad to concerned + caretaker mode!!!! so yeah you can imagine this whole fic had me on my knees 🤭 obsessed w how protective of luke bell is, and how protective of vin wen is, but also how both girls just jumped straight into action when he was clearly not feeling good <333 and then vin realising wen was using her dr. voice, and then the pure ANGST at the end when he sobs and they just hug and the “god i’m gonna fucking miss you” SOB SOB SOB SOB 😭😭😭🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

bell sick and luke taking care of her was also AMAZINGGGG🫶🏽 i always love when my girls get whumped <3333 omg and AHHHH luke and vin finally talking abt shtuff���� the “nothing to forgive” 😭 luke knowing he’ll get sick AND holding him closer??? GOSH THE BROTP MAN !!!!!

and oh my goodness i just read the most recent fic with the new OC!!!! this is so exciting and cool and i love his vibes ahhhh <3 i love how nonchalant max seems abt shtuff and im so so excited to see where things go!! i hope vin and him become friends but also i feel like there’s gonna be some tension and weird banter going on between them at least at first hehehe

ANYWAYS

your writing is fucking incredible and whenever i see a new post from your blog it genuinely lights up my day <3 i am completely in love with all your characters and the depth and intricacies behind each of them ♥️ i’m so thankful your blog exists🫶🏽 also, i saw you were really struggling for a while and i just wanted to check in and see if you were doing better? you’re so loved and talented and appreciated and you deserve all the peace and love and happiness in the world!!! i hope things are going well/better!

i can’t wait to read more of what you write! i’m super excited about this new character and about reading more stories abt your lovely OCs <3

YOU’RE AMAZING THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND KEEP SLAYING!!!

🦦

Soup found DEAD from love cardiac arrest outside of Miami beach.

🦦!!!!! Honestly I don't even wanna post your comments, I just wanna stare at them for hours 🙈🙈

Don't worry about catching up on fics, they'll be here when life slows down!! I know very well how sad it is that we must Adult ™.

I am SO HAPPY you liked the Wendy/Vince developments!! In my head you're like THE Wendy/Vin supporter, so every time I write something with them I'm like "uhmmm wonder what 🦦 is gonna think??"

Caretaker who's pissed and then switches to comfort is also one of my favorite tropes, I looooove the spiciness of guilt thrown in!

Take care babe 💛💛

[ovaryacted]

HIIIIIIII!!!!!! How you doing Nic <<3 I haven't been on Tumblr for ages so idk if I missed any new fanfic from you? (Though I guess I'll find out soon enough cause I'm about to stalk ur blog again)

What have you been up to besides simping for Leon? And has the holiday mood hit you yet? I hope you're doing great!!! My days have literally been PACKED with exams I'm so exausteddd. I'm really proud of myself today cause I think I did very well on an exam I literally started studying for this morning (gonna get that stupid degree 🫡🫡) the exam was a nightmare cause the professor was literally like fifteen minutes late and she made it so damn difficult for no reason 🤧🤧 FUCK PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY I'M SICK AND TIRED!!!

But anyway, ur blog always gets my mood up tho!! Even though I don't have a lot of time lately I love binging ur posts whenever I have a second to breathe. I know I've said this before but you're my favorite blog on here! Keep up the good work pookie <33

Also I just got a notification of you saying you want someone to bully you into writing so I guess I gotta make this ask meaner like...

START WRITING RIGHT THE **** NOW YOU ******* PIECE OF **** DON'T BE SUCH A ***** *****🤬😡😤

Did that help ☺️?

Anyhow yeah, just felt like sending an ask cause I haven't in a while. I'm really proud of you btw, don't overwork yourself Nic! Quality over quantity is te way to go <33 byeee lovelieeee ❤️❤️❤️

-🌑

MY NEW MOON ANON BABY HI HOW ARE YOU I’VE MISSED YOU!! 🩶

I’m decent, kind of just trying to survive and go through the motions. November’s been rough, December is kinda worse BUT I’m chilling for the most part. I hope you’re doing alright especially with your studies!! I’m super proud of you for focusing on school work and getting good grades. And yes, fuck physical chemistry, but the real bitch in the sciences is physics (I love biology and chemistry lmao, but absolutely can’t stand physics!). I’m sure that you will do great for this semester, I wish you the absolute best on your finals. Take care of yourself, eat well and stay hydrated, and do get your rest. I remember how I was during finals when I was still in school, absolutely tore me apart I was running on lattes like it was water LMAO. But I hope you get your break very soon!

I always love seeing your messages, they make me happy. But I also feel ashamed I haven’t written anything new though I am in the process of getting back in the groove of things. My brain just hasn’t kicked in when it comes to smut and it’s like I know what to write, just never know how?? I have so many ideas, and usually I’m very good at creating intricate hcs or plot points or need be, but when it comes to writing it out it just takes me forever to do it now. It’s a process, but I know I’ll have something for you to read soon. The bullying is working tho, I will say that because the second you sent me that message I actually opened up my computer and wrote something 😭 So thank you!

And btw, I got your longer ask, I didn’t forget about you wanting more sub Leon. I have two WIPs in the process, jumping between them, but now I’m changing the way I’m seeing and writing for Leon so I have to tweak some things out. Don’t worry, I haven’t forgotten. Thank you for the lovely message seriously. 🫶🧡

[blue-jayyy8657]

(somewhat) LONG ASS POST!! redoing my about me post so i can pin it and look interesting:

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heya:) i’m jay, and this is my blog,, where i do really just whatever the fuck i want and say whatever strikes me as interesting or funny at the time. welcome!! really all im gonna do here is kinda say a lot of random things, go on hyperfixation rants, talk about my creature moments, and occasionally sprinkle in things about my life that i feel must be shared….. and basically all i really wanna do with this blog is just make my own little,,, Place in The World……. like somewhere i can just kind of Be Myself? i guess? so here i guess this is my attempt at that lmaoo

ummm things i should prrrrobably say about myself to either make me more interesting or just kind of warn about:

- i have adhd and all the fun side effects that come with it :P

- maybe asd but im not entirely sure yet? i’m doing my research i promise promise promise

- pronouns: it/he/neos (+they, but preferably the ones i already mentioned)

- sometimes i use Random Capitalization to Emphasize my Point and that’s Funny To Me

- if you wanna talk to me or ask me something or whatever, just,,,, ask!! normally i’m really shitty at responding to asks and stuff but i promise i’m trying and not ignoring you, it’s just im really really bad at it and i think it’s just my executive dysfunction so….. sorry about that lmao but im tryingggg

- I LOVE EDITING STORIES AND THINGS - if you or someone you know is looking for a beta author or really anyone to just read your shit, i would absolutely fucking love to i promise

- i am transmasc genderqueer !! really doesn’t need much of an explanation ig?? that’s just part of who i am and i feel like it should be made aware of lmao

- if you send me an ask, i promise promise promise i’ll try to respond but i’m really not good at it so if i don’t respond to it i’m really sorry but i either can’t find a way to respond or i Forgor and i apologize ;;

- if you don’t like me or something i say or embody, just don’t interact with me? i don’t feel like i should need to say this but just in case,, like just don’t be rude? i will just block you so there’s really not a point but like… just don’t be an ass i guess

- more bullets as ideas warrant i suppose? i’m definitely gonna have more ideas it’s just i’m kinda sick rn so everything’s a bit fuzzy lmfao

my current list of special interests i will most likely post about/reblog posts about:

supernatural, marble hornets, neurodivergency/disabilities, horror, aesthetics (mainly dirtcore, crowcore, goblincore, grungecore, etc), five nights at freddys - movie AND the games!!, detroit: become human, LIST WILL PROBABLY BE UPDATED AND CHANGED AS MY INTERESTS EBB AND FLOW LIKE THE TIDES

MY DNIS:

if you’re just gonna be mean, don’t even bother like just don’t. i’m not gonna do shit with you, i’m probably just gonna block you and i don’t wanna like start shit. also homophobia, transphobia, racism, ableism, pedophilia, all the good shit - please also just….. don’t. um, i might add more but really i don’t honestly have any specifics, just if you’re gonna be an asshole just like stop lmao idk what to tell you i just Don’t Like You so go away?? thank yewwwww <3

but anyways, i think that’s it? at least until i decide to add more cause i don’t like the way i wrote things ……. i know this will happen because idk man it always does lmao :P hopefully i seem interesting or at least somewhat confusing?? maybe???? yeah but anyways imma shut up now so HAVE A GOOD WHATEVER-TIME-IT-IS !!!1!!!!11!!!

[kadee-pn]

summary of thanksgiving break!

technically my time at home isn’t over yet but i wanted to hop on to tumblr w the kappas :) so here i am hehe.

i haven’t been home since september which doesn’t sound like an awfully long time tbh but for me it’s been a while. i missed my fam and my sibs a lot, so i was super excited to fly back. i’m sitting in my dining room writing this and it still doesn’t feel real. like whenever i go home it just feels like i never left :0 it’s such an odd, out of body feeling. anywaysssss i love fall in alameda bc of the changing leaves and the crisp air. like the bay weather is where i thrive i’m channeling my inner rory gilmore rn i’m so at peace. taking sm pics here inspired me to make a photo dump ig so i did FULL SEND :D subtle plug it is @_huongthy . that’s my viet name hehe. i like posting pics without judgment for my friends it’s so relaxing

i’ve been hanging out w my cuzzos and sibs a lot- walking around the neighborhood, grabbing boba, watching community + other movies. it’s always a good time w them. i also saw my childhood friends for a bit and imma hang out w them tmr too <3 we text and call all the time but in person is just different. OH YA i also watched black panther and i loved it. so sad and so good. still thinking about it now

i spent a lot of money on makeup today too. but i’m hyped for them to come (I GOT SAILOR MOON PALLETE) bc i rarely buy makeup so this is a bday gift for myself … ;) that’s how i’m justifying it at least. today was fish (that’s my lil bro btw for those who don’t know his nickname LMAO), but he was sick :,( poor boy. first day being 8 and he’s bedridden :(((( hope he feels better soon. we were gonna hang out in sf today but those plans fell through. i have so much schoolwork and studying to do sadly bc i have two finals on week 10 sjdhksjs but it’s ok i’m hanging in there. almost thereeeee :) i’m excited for winter break i’m literally gonna be back here within a week LMAO and the fam is going to oahu again and vegas as well. oahu is one of my fav places ever and fun fact i’m going w my friends for spring break too AHAHSHHAJA i’m practically living there this year. so crazy. and very looking forward to exploring da island w them. anyways this is EXREMEELY lengthy i bet no one is gonna read this far

love

kd

[stillgeekingout]

it’s time once again for my time-honored tradition of recapping my year. I always say I’m not gonna make it unbearably long and it always gets longer. as always this is mostly for myself and no one is obligated to read. reflections on 2022 lezgo

started the year with covid. so really, it can only go up from there

that being said, being quarantined allowed me to finish a story I’d been working on for 3 years (and maybe someday will actually post somewhere despite how niche it is bc I’m v proud of it)

spent most of the first part of the year intensely preparing for wedding

GOT MARRIED! it was great! I love my wife! I loved having a big party with all my friends and her family came from London and we just had a really nice time! selfishly I loved the speeches, I loved hearing everyone I love say nice stuff about us lol. I go back and forth on if the amount of work we put into it was worth it bc it really kinda wrecked me for a bit there but like, it did turn out beautiful and very Us so now that I’m out of it I guess it was worth it. but I would not recommend that amount of DIY to anyone hahahaha #wifecity

we had a second wedding related party in london over the summer and I got to meet a ton of people from ingrid’s life which I loved! and my family came to london and all our sisters got to hang out together :)

honeymoon in france! it was very nice despite being very chaotic at the end

went to atlanta two times and miami for the first time despite having always lived in fl (and st augustine and tally to see a play and tampa where ingrid befriended azizi the penguin)

concert year for real. did not get to see twice (and I would’ve seen lucius if it worked out) but I DID see bleachers (even tho I was very sick lmao) (not contagious but I was miserable), aly & aj, the chicks, and muna!!!! (ps my love for muna is so so strong this year) (pps we made a friend at aly & aj and now her and her partner are our friends)

full year of porch garden had its successes and failures. two hurricanes and two freezes in one year didn’t really help but I’m learning more things about how the sun works on my porch throughout the year and that’s helpful (one of those two hurricanes had my name)

in general working at a plant store for 8 months of this year taught me so much more about plants! I love plants I can’t wait to have a real garden

a lot of really upsetting political stuff but let’s not go into that

ok but speaking of politics I became so much more into socialist alternative this year lol I would join if it wouldn’t mess with ingrid’s visa application (us govt if you see this no you didn’t)

speaking of politics again I think I have gotten better at having actually productive conversations with people bc I’m trying to focus more on local policies etc

didn’t watch as much new tv this year but I did finally watch russian doll, also our flag means death & a league of their own both came out this year and were great. oh and heartstopper was cute and several shows I like had a good s2. when did abbott elementary start? I’ll mention that too

got another new roommate & she is cool :) she also has a gf (now fiancee) in england who stayed with us for the summer lol it’s a trend

we played a variety of dnd: my sisters/family, murder mystery that shannen & I planned, a lil mini game with our roommate and ex roommate and shannen... didn’t play a lot of times but when we did it was fun

I won’t say I kept up with yoga but I kept up with intermittent yoga

I read dracula lol (I’ll put goncharov on this same bullet point cause it entertained me a lot)

(carry on people if you’re reading this I apologize in advance) I joined a carry on discord after lurking on the fandom for years and it has been... idk. interesting. I like the people a lot. I am really not a fandomy person and so being around it All The Time has made me like the books less lol just from exhaustion. I did mute all the fandom related channels tho and that’s been a better experience though I still debate if it was worth it. but I keep not leaving bc I like the people lol. also it led to some fun gift exchanges (I made a very elaborate puzzle game insp by shara wheeler) and me doing (a lot of) goattober so I got some hand lettering done

related, wrote my first (and probably last) fanfic that wasn’t about my or shannen’s OCs. it was about agatha wellbelove and I’m glad I did it but overall I don’t think I like writing fic (which makes sense, I don’t really like reading fic either)

I’m gonna give infamous a bullet point why not (I just really like having access to be able to message writers I like about their writing) (hype for gwart)

speaking of, rainbow started posting on instagram more and I started commenting more and now I have deluded myself into thinking rainbow and I are friends :)) she posted my embroidery and called me “a very generous reader” what else am I supposed to think

continued torturing ingrid with black midi memes

went to a friend’s wedding and had complicated feelings

ingrid and I made a bunch of playlists with characters that exist only in the playlists. I got very attached to the characters but I had to stop bc it was getting to the point where I couldn’t listen to music without trying to connect it to one of them

spent a lot of time and money (and wedding gifts) to make our apartment really nice and I love it now! we have decorations and art and lamps and nice kitchen things and I just love it. despite a brief very annoying time when we had a leak in the ceiling it’s been a v good year of our apartment. now I just need to save up for new couches lol bc our couches are. not great.

we hosted some parties at our house (gay wrath, halloween, painting night...) and just generally are trying to hang out with a variety of friends!

I spent the summer working outside which was horrible and I got sick a lot. also I just generally had not great health this year and kind of came to terms w the fact that my weird body stuff is a type of chronic illness (related I had to deal w depression several times this year boooo)

a lot of coworkers I liked left my old job and then I left too (but not before asking for / getting a raise which I’m proud of myself for even if I did it right at the end bc it led to my coworkers getting raises too)

new job! I work at a college and it’s great! I have a work son aka the flamboyant 19 year old theatre kid disaster who I have taken under my wing, I like my supervisor a lot (just found out she might be leaving us but ahhh not thinking about that), I helped run an art project for a really big event in our department and it went well, and I’m just generally feeling good about the direction of my Career for the first time in a really long time!

midnights & loneliest time on the same day

we had a nice family thanksgiving and a nice family christmas even though I am increasingly nervous about the opinions that some of my family members hold (I had a PAID WINTER BREAK)

the hazers absolutely bombed and made me regret being so emotionally invested in marbles (but also pinkies redemption)

actually muna gets their own bullet point because the take me away video still haunts me. between the singles and self titled album and concert and stupid jokes they brought me so so much joy this year. hashtag greatest band in the world

we filed ingrid’s immigration papers!!!!! now we just have to wait until like mid 2024 and maybe she’ll get her green card

saved it for last bc I’m excited: I started plotting a book! like a for real, I am gonna try to actually write and publish it, book. it’s a retelling of cinderella which I do believe was always my fate (the only other book I’ve ever seriously tried to write past the age of like 10 was also tangentially about cinderella) and I really love the idea and I’m really nervous but excited to write it. it’s gonna have friendship and queer joy and socialism and aspec wlw romance and crafting and language learning and florida inspired nature! been doing a lot of research and planning and going into the woods to take pictures of trees. it’s been fun and I really hope to write a lot of my first draft this year!

anyway I had a really good year overall when I stop and think about it, even if I spent a lot of it stressed or dying in the heat or worried about money. I am hoping for a fulfilling, relaxing, joyous 2023 full of friends and nature and a nice home and creative projects. and I wish the same to everyone <3

[avoidingravity]

PSPSPSSPSP another oc of mine, might make a blog where I formally post about em but I’m also gonna use this post to lowkey complain about my mental health (nothing graphic or like that, just a slight CW for some topics)

BUT FIRST OC

His name is Alex and he’s my MC :) here, his age goes from 15, 18, and 23 respectively lmao

He’s a vigilante that people call “Son” because people mistake him as the offspring of another oc of mine who is a big baddy (read: lovingly) spirit. In reality? They’re just bffs but I’d be lying if I said they didn’t develop father/ son dynamic along the way anyhow

(Rant below)

Hello, hi, my name is Venny and I have been really dumb as of late by not taking my psych meds for like the past month or two. Not very swag of me, I know but I’m not here to rant about that, I’m here to rant over the fact my dumbass went through withdraws only to be fighting with the side effects all over again.

Now enough about him ima complain LMAO

LIKE

I just woke up and it’s just turned 4 am, I have to be at work at 7, but now I’m hyper alert and my stomach hurts and hahdhwnajsjjs my sleep becomes so fragile when I’m on my medicine which is not swag at all as someone who suffers from chronic fatigue

But with that being said, my meds cause drowsiness so where as I was able to actually function and not sleep 14 hours a day without my meds, when I’m on my medicine, my sleep schedule is going to be wonky and I’m once again going to be sleeping an unhealthy amount without ever feeling rested

As much as I hate dealing with these effects of my medications, I am one of those people that overall feel better on them and know I need them to keep myself from being a rock that’s scared of people and believes in total isolation EXCEPT for a singular person

Shout out to that person btw I appreciate you so much for putting up with mentally ill ass it’s never fair to you and I know you know that but I’m vv happy you tell me when I’m sick and not thinking straight so I can back off /gen

ANYWAYS, HOW I DIGRESS

Medicine is wack if I’m dead on here, it’s probably because I fell asleep :)

[bottomvalerius]

okay I’m gonna do the thing where I publicly post like this is my diary but it’ll be under a readmore so it’s still very chill and cool actually LMAO

this is probably like completely nonsensical to most but I’ve been. Really struggling with identifying as a submissive and I can’t tell if it’s just this dynamic isn’t working anymore or I’m just going through some shit mentally, but my domme has given me like. Not much to work with, and it’s making me feel very bitter for some reason ? LOL like the appeal of this dynamic was that she was supposed to be my mentor, and as another switch, she would get where I am coming from and be able to like idk sympathize with where my fears and insecurity are coming from ? I know she struggles with empathy and will not pick up on things unless I’m very explicit about it, but I feel like I HAVE been

The last time we were in person I had a massive anxiety attack and she just did not handle it well. And we talked through like okay well this is how you can identify when things are wrong and this is what I myself can do better and communicate clearly, but then nothing and I mean Nothing has come from it. She said she would check in more but she hasn’t, and idk if she meant just when we’re in person or what. I’m not doing my protocols anymore because writing a journal entry LITERALLY made me so anxious I almost puked. And when I tried to be like “I’m not sure how to engage with my submission anymore” she very quickly hit me with the “I’m not your therapist.” And like. Yes. I know that. I’m not trying to have you diagnose me, I just want comfort from you as my dominant? And some reassurance that these feelings are normal and I’m not some fuck up ???? And that’s like basically been our last conversation because then my job got insanely busy and so has hers. So I’m just like. In this weird limbo. We text every day but it’s so forced and she isn’t like checking in with me anymore, and that to me is making me think I’m doing something wrong and I hate feeling this pathetic about shit lmfaoo

I have a lot of fun with her, and I’ve been learning a lot about myself, but I feel like all of that has just been swept up and I’m left feeling like. Idk like I’m Too Much like always and I’m no longer this perfect, bratty, engaged submissive and it makes me literally sick to my stomach LMAOO WHICH I UNDERSTAND that is super pathetic and shallow of me, but idk like this part of my sexuality is LITERALLY part of my sexuality and I feel like I was so close to reallt getting into the scene and now suddenly I’m like “do I even belong here and am I even made for this ???” which has just. Been. A lot for me LMFAOOO

[translationandbetrayals]

The Makoto scene that hit close home to me

Disclaimer: This post contains spoilers for “Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc” and “Danganronpa 3: End of Hope’s Peak High School”. This post also speaks about suicide and death in general, so be careful if you’re sensitive.

A couple of days ago, while watching Danganronpa content to feed my new hyperfixation, I came across a specific video which was titled “Despair Naegi”

Having watched Danganronpa the animation fully, this clip caught my interest as in both the game and the anime, Makoto never falls into despair. So I wanted to check if this was a real thing (I am one who watches a lot of spoilers lmao) and indeed: it was real.

For context, this was the video.

https://youtu.be/dFL3CO0BV6Q

(If you don’t want to watch "Danganronpa 3: End of Hope’s Peak High School spoilers" then just keep scrolling and ignore it.)

And I watched it. And I’m not sure if I regret it or not, but I am sure of one fact: it broke me.

Not only seeing Makoto being faced by the ghosts of his dead classmates on his despair brainwashing video, but also seeing him falling to despair and grabbing a knife, seeing suicide as his only way out (by following the voices in his brainwashed state, which tell him to join his dead friends; they tell him that's the way), that's something a lot of us can relate there, those who struggle with suicidal thoughts and just like Naegi, fall into despair and see to take away their lives as their only way out of their current situation.

Sure, on my way.

He's determined, he's about to do it, and he doesn't think it twice until the knife he's grabbing is thrown away by Juzo Sakakura grabs him and by force he gets Makoto out of his despairful state, with the latter finally reconsidering it when he's stopped.

Juzo then tells something to Makoto which has a strong message behind those words, in my opinion.

You’re the man who defeated Junko Enoshima… If you think I’m gonna let you kill yourself, you’re dumber than you look! Hear me ya little punk?! Not now… not ever!

Those lines can be interpreted as he’s saying “you have done some truly amazing things in your life, you really can do great things, and you're just gonna throw it all overboard? No. I'm not gonna let you do that. I know it's hard right now, but you can overcome this, come on. This is not the way out. It will never be the way out"

Sakakura is telling the boy to not give up, to continue... to not lose hope. Let's not forget, Makoto Naegi has the title of Ultimate Hope, but this just shows how like everyone else, Naegi is one person who can break down when put on a situation where things are so stressful and horrible, that you can only see to take out your life as your only way out, losing all hope in the process.

Is at these moments where it's crucial to have someone to stop us from doing that, to remind you that there can be a way out and you must keep hope that you will be able to get out of that hazy abyss of despair you're in.

Believe me, having someone to stop you and make you rethink your choices and reorganize your thoughts, show you some care and support when you most need it, it can be such a helpful thing for someone who battles with suicidal thoughts.

In my personal experience... I wish I had someone to tell me to keep hope when I was struggling a couple of years ago.

TRIGGER WARNING: SPECIFIC MENTIONS OF SUICIDE ATTEMPTS ARE GONNA BE MENTIONED.

I've... tried to kill myself twice. Life was being really bad for me during the pandemic, and I lost all hope of things getting better. I was tired of everything and I tried to put an end to it, August of 2020. It didn't work, somehow the pills didn't have an effect on me and I only got to get stomach-sick. And nothing else.

When my parents got to know, instead of asking why, of supporting me, they were mad at me. They said "don't do something so stupid ever again" and it made me feel ashamed. I also got assigned a therapist (but it didn't help much in the end) and again during 2021 (can't remember specific date) I drank (a shot? idk, it wasn't even a glass or half a glass but it wasn't just a sip either) bleach. Somehow... nothing happened? Yeah. Nothing happened. Absolutely nothing.

Remember when on my "Public apology to Nagito Komaeda" I mentioned I was somewhat of a "lucky" person myself too...? Well, here's pretty much the reason of why I said that... haha... hah... okay it's probably not funny, sorry. But you can't deny it, I lived out of pure luck.

I haven't tried anything like that ever since. And most of the time, I've felt better. I've been better. My life has been pretty better ever since, and I also have a better therapist now who has helped me a lot during these times... but sometimes I fall into the abyss again, and the thoughts once more plague my mind. 

Not so long ago, actually. During the end of the semester, I was so stressed and emotionally drained after also dealing with a couple of fucked up situations with people I used to call my friends, my mind felt hazy and when I tried looking at the future, trying to give myself some hope that everything would be okay... I didn't see anything. I saw no future for me. Only the dark hazy consuming my mind.

I was losing all of my hope again.

But this time fortunately I had people to tell me to not give up. That I'd find a way out of everything, and that I would be fine. So I just had to keep my hope and keep pushing through until I could see the light.

I could say I had my own Juzo to snap me out of my own despair. 

And, curiously, while I was struggling with my thoughts again, is when I came across with this video. And it really broke me, I felt like the message was directed to me. And it motivated me to keep pushing through, and here I am today! I found my way out and things are okay again. I'm glad I didn't give up this time.

What I'm saying is, all of us can be there at least once, in Makoto's place. And if you are there, please seek for someone to pull you out of your own despair, or if you know someone who is struggling, please help them, give them a little of hope that things will be okay. 

Because things are okay in the end.

I promise they are. And they will be okay, as long as you always have hope.

Beatriz Aqueveque Henríquez.

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im sorry but i’m begging you to read these cause y’all are being ridiculous 🤦‍♀️ i know y’all aren’t gonna change w your toxic brainless opinions but i cant hold myself back😭 i love byler but please stop with some of the shit you are saying and honestly almost every byler. you guys just start acting so weird just cause byler isn’t canon rn you stop seeing normally. but whatever here have this maybe it makes you get a bit more idk… this is also not meant as an attack but bylers on here are starting to really annoy me but also make me sad. i get you guys are sad too but!!! ok i’ll shut up now. it’s pointless anyways most likely lmao.

https://aquariusdeanw.tumblr.com/post/688862844526133248/how-could-mike-say-that-his-life-started-the-day

https://aquariusdeanw.tumblr.com/post/688810146585018368/s1s2-mike-wheeler-would-hate-s3s4-mike

just trying to let y’all see it in another way too then the oh so bitter way. even when shipping byler you can still admit mike still really cares about el. just put away the thought you find them cringey or whatever. also realize mike is traumatized asf too. and the constantly comparing him to previous seasons. so sick of it. he wasn’t perfect back then either. just focused on el. but he really tries idc.

Could you please elaborate on the "toxic brainless opinions"? I'm not sur I get it.

As for Mike, he was weird this season. Very weird. His behavior to Will made no sense. The scene at the airport made no sense. His avoiding Will made no sense.

So either Mike is repressed, or he's just bad written. We're comparing Mike to past season because characters need to have a consistancy. It's the basis of character growth. Mike's character in S3 and S4 hasn't grown at all. He's stuck inside himself.

As for El, yes, he cares about her. But I will never believe he is in love with her. Not a second.

So I'm not sure I understand your point here.