#love is not something that can be wasted

[septembersghost]

on the subject a handful of you and i have been discussing lately in regards to being enthusiastically loving and heartfelt and open about the things which move you, rather than feeling obligated to layer that in snide commentary or participate in some of the more unsteady and unkind aspects of fandom, i also want to acknowledge that's really scary! one of the absolute worst feelings is trying to share your excitement and passion and thoughtfulness with someone and having them entirely reject it. you tell anyone about something you love and you are revealing and holding out a part of your heart, and there are times when that's going to be brushed off and you'll feel unheard and it hurts. so of course vitriolic rhetoric, even from complete strangers, feels horrible. to love anything you're giving it a piece of who you are and letting it become entwined with you in turn. it gets into your essence. (loving you is not a choice, it's who i am...as my dear mr. sondheim wrote in the incisive, breathtakingly human way that only he could. just as he said, anything you do, let it come from you, then it will be new. give us more to see. and make me aware of being alive.) it can feel simpler to make that into more of a joke about being trash or dismiss yourself (we've all done it, i certainly have and do), or engage in that cyncism because it's protective. yet you keep loving anyway, even when your hand's at risk. loving anything makes you vulnerable, and sharing it puts that vulnerability in danger of being turned away. BUT, it also always gives you something true and beautiful and the possibility of connection and a bridge with people who will understand and value it or be inspired by it, and who will take your hand. that love is never wasted, and it belongs to you. you are what you love.

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

[hansoeii]

let time pass.

[fortheloveofexy]

it's a pet peeve of mine when ppl frame Andrew as hating Aaron and being needlessly cruel to him... bc while yes, their relationship is fractured and strained, Andrew genuinely cares about his brother and wants the best for him, he just doesn't know how to show that in a normal way.

like he might not know how to express it in a healthy manner but Andrew LOVES Aaron, like he truly just wants Aaron to be healthy and safe. It's like, his whole Thing. Aaron is one of the most important people in his life. Andrew wants him around. He'd do anything to protect him.

I guarantee Andrew wants to be emotionally close to Aaron too, he just doesn't have the tools to do that and the thought of letting someone in terrifies him. He also has no concept of what a healthy sibling relationship looks like, so he has no frame of reference to work from.

[delizbin]

:)

[exigencelost]

Season 1 put soooo much work and spectacle into showing us all seventeen fucked up ways Louis eats and we have never seen Armand eat. The man is killing people every night I know this for sure in my heart

[manygreetingsfriend]

i’m sooooooo normal about the god of war series. so incredibly normal i liked it a normal amount and would be so chill talking about it. don’t worry about the sign

[carlyraejepsans]

you've made posts before about shipping charisk, but toriel is frisk's mom pretty much and chara was considered a member of the dreemurr family (frisk can call them mom, she calls frisk "my child", and she adopts them on the surface in some playthroughs) (it's said that chara and asriel were "like siblings" and it's implied that the "mr. dad guy" sweater that asgore owns was made by chara)

i am feeling like "oh no, if this person realizes that the characters they are shipping together are pretty much siblings and is doing it anyway, i will be disappointed and will have to stop liking their cool art" so i am really hoping you just do not realize

begging you people to go outside

[samwitcch]

everyday i wake up and think about how much stronger and better sam larusso's character arc in season 5 would be if she realized she were a lesbian

like what do you mean that the identity crisis you're having based on societal norms and high expectations that surround you and suffocate you AREN'T based upon compulsory heterosexuality and the realization that you are actually into your mortal enemy that's actually crazy

[swiftfootedachilles]

im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character

[dayurno]

my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me

[weaverofink]

Danny Temple you will always be famous to me. also your unnamed twin brother that showed up in exactly 3 panels

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 736: The night of the training camp

Pag 1

2: Who is it? Someone is there....

3: …. rain

At the training camp.....

4: An umbrella....

Pag 2

1: Yo, Onoda

3: …. Te

…. ah..... Te

Pag 3

1: Teshima-san!!

Have you been well?

It's been a while, we haven't seen each other since my graduation

Pag 4

1: Waa- Teshi- Teshima-san! Di you come here on puropose to see ho-how things are going!?

Have you- have you been woll too, Teshima-san!?

Yeah, as usual – woll? (haha)

2: So-sorry this is so sudden and I'm so surprised! Co-come in!!

You do seem very surprised

3: You can put your shoes here, and your umbrealla here

Yeah, I know. I've had the training camp here for three years, too, after all

4: Ahh... but, it started to rain so suddenly

Good thing I had a spare umbrella in the car

5: Sorry I came here so suddenly

Pag 5

1: I thought you guys would have “prepared” if I had contacted you beforehand

2: Training camp is busy, you can't waste even one minute of these four days. I know how busy you are

When a senpai comes in the middle of that, it makes you waste too much time

3: … Teshima-san

4: Bu.... but, it's not a waste

Uhm- ah- we really owe you so much, Teshima-san! 5: And alos, at last year's Inter High.... uhm

6: I think we could win thanks to you, Teshima-san!!

Pag 6

1: Thank you

When you say it with such earnest eyes, I'm happy to think you really mean it

2: No no, I mean, it's true!! On the mountain during the first day... and of course the mountain stage on the third day...

Ahh, I did win that

Yeah well, it's beacause of that....

3: Ah- uhm, dammit I forgot to offer you some tea.... is the tea from the vending machine okay?

Ehi ehi, it's okay. You choose

Huh!?

4: I came all the way here, let me be your senpai

Pag 7

2: Teshima.... san

3: Than-

4: yo-

Waa- Onoda!!

5: My- my bad

So- sorry, this kind of things....

You're really not good at them... I forgot....

Pag 8

1: I see, so Danchiku.... and Sugimoto, too....

2: Yes

3: Well, you have no choice but to watch over them

Yes

6: That's what I intend to do!!

Pag 9

1: You got the “face of a third year”, Onoda

You change like that, when others count on you as a “third year”, your face....

2: Taking good care of the others isn't the only role of a third year

Sometimes, turning them down, or turning your back to them is also important

Just like Makishima-san once did

3: with you

6: Even so, you chased Makishima-san's back and admired him

Pag 10

1: Kohai watch their senpai's back and grow!!

2: If you slack off, they slack off

3: If you work hard, they imitate you

Pag 11

1: If you smile, they smile

2: Who's that guy, teh

He's talking with senpai.... here in the back

How can I know!!

But, he's smirking and has long hair, he's suspicious

4: Earlier, you said that last year's Inter High was thanks to me- what about this year's Inter High?

Thanks to whom will they work hard this year?

6: You

Pag 12

1: This time, it's your turn to become the object of their admiration

Pag 13

1: Onoda

3: That's what brings Sohoku together!!

4: That guy his Onoda-san!!

Do you think we should go there and help him, teh!?

No, wait, now he's stroking his neck!?

5: Honestly, choosing the members is hard

You trouble yourself, pace around, and still you'll have no answer

Ah-

6: But the important thing isn't how it was decided but “who you decided”

Pag 14

1: If you find the answer to “who” after worrying about it a lot, everyone will accept it and move forward

2: …. Teshima-san....

3: Uhm... how did you know that that's what I was worrying about....

I'm the former captain, am I not? Also, it's written on your face

Ah-

4: He wants to strangle him ike that!? That guy with shaggy hair!!

Ahh- this is bad, teh, we have to protect Back-gate-slope-san!!

5: Let's go!! Don't hesitate, Rokudai!!

Yeah, teh....!!

6: Eh!?

Huh?

Pag 15

2: Huh!?

Senpai, let's get away

3: Who are you!? Back-gate-slope-sa.... What do you want to do to Onoda-san!!

Pag 16

5: In the confusion I called him by his real name, “Onoda-san”, teh!! Sorry!!

6: Unathorized people shouldn't be able to enter, it's reserved!!

Right!! Shaggy-hair!!

Rokudai-kun!? Kinaka-kun!?

7:  N-no, you two got it wrong-

8: Onoda....

Pag 17

1: You're really protecting your team members with all your strength

2: Eh-

3: Since you're protecting them, they're protecting you, too

4: What's your name

Yessir, my name is Rokudai Renta- no wait, that's not right!!

5: Huh

6: Since I'm protecting them.... with all my strength.....!!

Pag 18

2: Rokudai, if

Huh!? What

If you clear this training camp and get chosen as a member for the Inter High

Huh!?

3:  Protect Onoda like this with all your strength

Pag 19

1: Huh

…. yes

2: Idiot, Rokudai, don't let your guard down just because of those sweet words!!

Ah!! That's right, teh!!

I'll introduce you: this is Teshima Junta-san

You have some goos first years!

He graduated last year and is now an university student, but

3: He's the former Sohoku captain

4: Cap....

I was nominated captain by Teshima-san

5: ta....in?

Pag 20

1: We- we- we're so sorry!!

It's nothing

2: We did that, teh....!!

To- to such an important senpai!!

3: Ah.... uh... thank you for your work!! What brings such an important senpai like you here?

He came to encourage us

4: Ah also, I brought

6: some new pedals for Onoda!!

[willowser]

gaining all those new followers from plagiarizing poc and running them off tumblr you're a terrible person and i hope you rot

so this is another really heavy accusation that i take very seriously.

who is it that i've run off, exactly ?? if you are said person or know them personally, i would love to have the ability to speak to you/them one-on-one, like grown adults, so that we can clear the air or discuss whatever issue there seems to be.

i doubt that you'll respond legitimately but this has always been my stance on your issue with me, that has kept you coming back to, not only my main account but also my nsfw account, daily. sometimes multiple times a day. you've also never once given me any kind of definition on what it is exactly that i've "plagiarized" — which, again, leads me me to believe you're just choosing to be hateful for no reason ?? the ONLY reference that's been made in the last few weeks that this has been going on, is the love island bakugou concept, and if that's what you're still sticking by, then — again — i urge you to understand what plagiarism actually is.

[soupnoodle]

my friend who went to see the new master and margarita movie, not familiar with the book: what the fuck is going on

me, watching the new master and margarita movie, familiar with the book: what the fuck is going on

[isekyaaa]

One thing I did not expect tho was how incredibly smooth Cornelius was in his side story with Leonore. u///u