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quotemenevervore · 2 years

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I really just need to write it but now I’m thinking about Sapnap and Bad in SM..

How Bad hadn’t been stored in a very long time if at all so he was nervous/scared of being stored, and that Sapnap took that into consideration and did his best to keep him from getting too scared

Or how Bad notices that him being shrunk led to Sapnap’s instincts going off and he gets emotional because despite everything with the Eggpire he still means enough to Sapnap for his mind to consider close enough to protect-

#mcyt g/t #shrunken manhunt #mcyt gt #mcyt vore #maybe I’m a little emotional today #idk not really feeling the best #kinda drained tbh #I’m working on some fics though

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floral-hex · 1 month

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One of my brothers is moving away to college today + I have to skip therapy, so it’s a lot of… a lot. a lot.

#he was just a baby! he was just a little kid I carried around and took care of!#no nope. not gonna get into it right now. I WILL cry. it’s not even 6am and I do not need that right now #and I don’t really know if therapy today would really help #if I got into it I’d just start crying in front of this nice dude for an hour #though yeah… might be nice to.. I dunno… just talk about it.#I am always simultaneously ‘therapy is good’ and ‘what’s the point in talking about it?’#so maybe I do need that person that’s like ‘this is your time. just fucking talk.’#but also right now it’s like… talking about it won’t take me back to when my brother was little and far off from leaving #blegh…#whatever. anyway. it’s gonna be a sad day. I’m gonna cry A LOT. I’m gonna be alone in this apartment and just sooooobbbbbbing #and then keep this inside for another week before I can go to therapy and talk about this bc god forbid I talk to a family member about it #ok now it’s 6am. I think he’s leaving in about 4 hours. it’s cool. it’ll be cool. 😎 I’ll just miss my bro so dang much #but maybe I’ll walk down to the dollar store and stock up on snacks and I’ll get blasted and fatter and try to stay positive #uggghhh #I’m too emotional #time just keeps moving for us all. to my dismay.#’time is the fire in which we burn’#you can ignore this #I don’t think I’ll ever have kids. I’ll never have kids. and being there. with him. with my brothers. that was the closest I’ll ever get.#and it’s over… so… 🤷🏻‍♂️… it’s just done… they’re grown. and I’m still here. I don’t know what else to say…#but that’s life. they’re doing their thing. I’m happy for them and I want them to be happy too. I’m just a big crybaby #IAN!… stop typing!#just making myself sad at this point #it’s fine. it’s fine. I’m fine. I’m cool. everything’s… cool 😎#this isn’t important #text

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deankarolina · 4 months

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anytime I’m in a city it’s like oh I have fallen in love with the world 100 times over again and also I have never felt such intense rage in my life

#just wildly oscillating between these two emotions constantly #Like oh god this is too many people -> falls a little bit in love with a stranger on the bus ->#why is this man shouting i hate everything -> tiny dog with a gay bandana -> etc etc repeatedly #I was gonna say anytime i go outside but that’s not true mainly just quite populated areas i mean by a city #cos like i go out to my park wood walk and it’s like different vibe #ramblings #I have a lot of waiting time with only my phone today so I maybe have more useless thoughts that normal #I’m gonna try not to post all my dumbass thoughts today tho no one needs to see that

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themoonunderstoodmydadjokes · 3 months

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#not sad because today has ultimately been a good day #but like… emotionally wrung out maybe???#like running on very little sleep #had a very heavy emotional tarot reading that resonated pretty deep #and I like… just wanna be held maybe 😅😅😅#like I think I need someone else to maybe ground me emotionally #because I’m feeling a lot right now lol #but pinky promise not sad just oversaturated with emotion #mine #text post

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milo-is-rambling · 6 months

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I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist #anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind #nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work #into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup.#can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro #what the hell okay fine #well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every #part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again #I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge #fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my #brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame #for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man #idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs #which is good that means it’s working #I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake #later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently

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1ovestay · 9 months

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oooo the melancholy is strong tonight….

#got into a spiral of panicking that something bad is going to happen to people i care about when i move #and there won’t be anything i can do about it #and the scary part is that is not even like that’s not impossible #like it quite literally happened in june when my grandma passed while i was on the plane back #and like i know there’s no use in worrying about it because i can’t change the fact that it’s a possibility but it’s making me feel sick #i’m going to be on the other side of the world and it costs thousands to fly back #and im also just really going to miss everyone.. 2 years is a long time and like yeah ill come visit but my heart hurts thinking about it #i wish the hard parts were easier #it’s still worth it to me especially because i know that if things do get bad i have el with me and we can face it together #and im so so ready for our sweet little life together #today i’m just caught up in the bad scary emotions..#anyway… i think im going to go cry again and then maybe watch eeaao #p

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spookyboywhump · 2 years

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Zander wakes up to a text at like 3am from cain but it’s just a video of cheddar making biscuits and purring because cain can’t sleep

HE’S A HARD WORKING LITTLE MAN,,,, 😭 MAKING BISCUITS FOR IN THE MORNING,,,,

#I should probably go to bed I’m getting emotional over a fictional cat #cheddar is actually short for Red Lobster Cheddar Bay Biscuits/j #I feel like cheddar has never experienced a thought in his life and he purrs like somebody revving a fucking motor #Cain has a lot of sleepless nights but he’s probably at least a little less miserable with a cat to keep him company #I’m sure sometimes he’s like. this shit rocks why did my father get me a person instead of a cat.#maybe he’d be happier today if somebody had just given him a cat #anonymous

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pepprs · 2 years

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ok i took a nap sorry for miseryposting

#purrs #i don’t feel better per se but i do feel less angry so i think that’s good. but i did have a fucked up and disturbing dream so now im #focused on that a little bit but it’s whatever. i think i just feel stuck in my life and overwhelmed rn but i have to be gentle with myself #and okay with accepting outcomes that are compromises even if i really don’t want to. but idk. i have to think on it more. and i wish i felt #less lonely bc i KNOW i am not it’s just i have no emotional object permanence and i keep dismantling all my inoculations and then crying #out for more inoculations and i don’t know how to stop. and now im getting upset again typing this so I’m going to stop even though i havent #gotten to the end of my thought yet and like reblog some things or watch a video idk. i really need to find a counselor and speaking of #which i feel like someone told me lately (on here probably and ididnt reply im sorry) that my counseling place should give me referrals to o #other places and they didn’t and maybe it’s bc i told them i was taking a break from counseling but i am kind of like 😐😑. but i’ll figure it #out and find someone. i think there’s a thing i can do through work i just have to gather the spoons to actually do it and i spent all of th #them on the drivers manual today. also i read like half the drivers manual today! which is something to acknowledge. ok im done now bye

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willowfey · 1 year

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sometimes life is boohoo sad and then ur mom brings u back a creamy mango lemonade freeze with mango boba and hello kitty halloween spa things and suddenly u are woohoo glad

#it is not even a little bit frozen anymore but it’s SO GOOD i don’t even care #i accidentally killed a frog last night and got locked out of the house and had to throw pebbles at my window until my sister noticed #and then she teased me and called me a murderer for accidentally killing the frog and that made me feel like an EVIL PERSON #so that was traumatising #also the hot guy on hinge who said i was ‘very very cute’ & looked like i walked right out of a disney movie & was asking abt my hobbies #and almost accurately guessed my meyers briggs except for one letter i think is ghosting me #which i guess was to be expected bc we have like Nothing in common and both matched on looks alone…. still #i’d hoped to get a Little more fun out of it first #aaaand what else…… my room is a mess i have a million things to do & instead i’m sitting on the couch with my neck pillow reading fic #and i think. i THINK. i am done descending into a hole of depression. and i might have the strength to at least sit still for a minute #before attempting to climb back out #i am still very sad about a lot of things and i still feel tired and helpless and anxious and all sorts of things but #it feels like something i recognise again as opposed to some eldritch beast taking over my body #maybe it’s because i cooked yesterday that tends to help. maybe it’s experiencing emotion vicariously through little fictional guys #something like that. also the road in the neighbourhood was repaved today #a new path ahead of me it seems.#anyway if u see this pls come tell me about ur day ! i want to connect with other humans

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whimsyprinx · 1 year

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i truly should’ve been born to a noble family that has more rivals and enemies than they do allies so that one day I would inevitably be caught in the crossfire and dies tragically coughing up blood (and tea) after succumbing to the poison that has laced my tea

#whimsy whispers #hi #I think this would be the ideal way to die for several reasons the main one being ✨the drama of it all✨#like sure yes it would be quite painful I’m sure I’d be writhing in pain but like let’s be real most ways to die currently are also painful #and they’re not nearly as fun and dramatic as this #picture it: I’m sat outside viewing the garden there’s a slight breeze and all is calm #I’ve been slowy sipping at my tea so the poison hasn’t yet taken affect maybe I’m in the middle of a conversation of little importance then #BAM I feel a painful tingle in my chest and caugh into an embroidered handkerchief only to find that GASP it’s covered in blood #by that point the pain has gotten worse and my vision is blurry and then I DIE #can y’all tell I read a lot of webcomics where similar things happen #can y’all also tell I’m unhappy with my life and don’t wanna be alive but am coping by making posts like this #Can Y’all Tell?#anyways hi #goodbye #I’m bored out of my mind and sitting here trying to ward off The Horrors #because as mentioned earlier today kane is gone for three to four days and when he’s gone that’s typically when my emotional state gets the #worst because like I’m all alone and lonliness is like a big problem in my daily life #so ya know fun times

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asexualjedi · 1 year

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Was like damn there should be an ace dating app for people who are like asexual or gray romantic or gray sexual. And then I went to google that and realized that would involve sharing my information with an app and giving up personal info to people. And I’m reminded of the people I had to block and the issues I’ve had with guys™️ in the past and that makes me want to break out in hives. Like would hopefully ideally be different. But. Alas. I’ll just have to believe in rom communism.

#normally I’m like whatver who even knows if I’d wanna date someone I feel bad about like trying to date someone if I was unsure if I’m #capable of having romantic feelings #my wanting to date people only happens after we become friends #and I have trouble understanding the difference between romance and friendship #so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#normally I’m like romance averse or neutral but sometimes I am like longing and I do want romance and I guess that’s today just randomly got #emotional studying during for property #I was like thinking about how I have as to explain to my dad like I don’t think I’m every gonna date or marry someone #and he’s like u could still date even if u don’t wanna do other things you should try to meet that #idk everyone I’ve ever liked sex has been a thing that’s too important to them lol or they ended up dating my brother #or it was a crush on a someone who lived way too far away for it to be realistic #idk. and normally I’m fine with that #but then (I started thinking about this bc of the Buffy danny poll bc it reminded me of my little cousin who really liked danny phantom #and who had a crush on danny when she was like 10 it was cute #BUT then I was like wait she knows I’m gay but does she know I’m ace and then I’m like well I’m 25 and have never had a date she’s probably #pieced something together #but then like also why would she think about it or care she’s a teenager #and then I thought about fi I’d ever have to explain which reminded me about the convo with my dad which made me think of all this idk #I truly thought maybe I was internally aro after all bc I hadn’t seemed for care or think about dating for like a few years now but then #boom maybe not as much as I thought #ignore me

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raeathnos · 3 months

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#oh man not so great news at the follow up to yesterdays ER visit #so the good news is they misdiagnosed me and I do not have an ovarian cyst #the bad news is it’s my endometriosis flaring and worsening #I just had surgery to remove it again last November and it’s bad #the doctor who did the surgery kind of glazed over details- I guess cause she didn’t want to alarm me #but I was told there was some that was inoperable #well different doctor today cause she was the only one available and wow I really liked her #but it’s mostly inoperable #I have legions and lacerations and scar tissue on my uterus + both ovaries + bladder + intestines + colon #I’m packed full of it again #if my iud stops managing the symptoms (which this flare up may be pointing to) there’s a medication I can try #and after that it’s so severe I’m at the point of needing a hysterectomy #which like I do want one but also I’m too young so there are some major side effects #but this new doctor said she would absolutely approve me getting the surgery and I literally cried #I felt heard which like wow I cried a lot #no surgery yet we’re gonna try to push it back as long as we can because it can shorten my life span if I have to get it before 45 #because like it forces you into menopause but she said she absolutely understands how debilitating of a disease it is and quality of life #so uh… very emotional… relieved I don’t have to fight for it anymore if I do need it #mourning the last 22 years I’ve spent fighting it #feel bad cause I knew a hysterectomy could shorten my lifespan but my husband didn’t so he’s a little freaked out #but he’s seen me suffer and he said he understands #hopefully I can keep pushing it off but I am so relieved that if I need it sooner I can get it #just a lot to process and it was not what I was expecting to hear #relieved and sad and angry and happy all at the same time you know?#I’d rather have a little less time here then live linger and be in terrible pain #but a lot to process still #and again not needing it yet and even if it is spreading and worsening my symptoms are mostly well managed still #so maybe I make it past the age of it shortening my life and get it after actual menopause #but if not I’m okay with it #but oh boy not the news I wanted

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celestialmancer · 4 months

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#horrid day. try again tomorrow.#between overthinking every little thing i feel or do or say & anxiety beinf extremely high #to physical pain giving me hell & just not feeling well #& then just power outages ruining my plans & everything #& then this. fucking. dread i feel abt somehow causing problems on accident. or aomehow fucking things up & feeling like.#i’m walking on eggshells with MYSELF #over analyzing every single little thing i say or so to where i end up in this nasty loop of worsening anxiety #this feeling also that anything i say or do will be taken wrong bc for some reason thats been a thing today too #hell on earth. its exhausting.#i cant even at least sleep because its fucking humid as fuck too.#& my body doesnt handle that kinda weather well it feels horrid so its just…#i really dont wanna go to work tomorrow i just want a self care day or somethn atp bc no #idk im just barely handling anything well rn.#shoulda expected this mess from the moment i woke up & felt this anxiety & dread idk #maybe im just getting too caught up in my head.#i wish i could just go wandering get lost in the city or wander my neighborhood or. something. take my mind off how haywire its going over #quite literally EVERYTHING. & also ig certain memories too but we’re not touching that #just tired of this shit. & wishing i had a means of grounding myself.#tbd i suppose. idk.#ishtar rambles ;#im kinda just falling apart emotionally but is finee #emotional state falling apart faster than a nature valley granola bar AYYY

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recurringzombiedreams · 7 months

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Damn. The first kid that they used Marburg EX19 got her leukemia cured, and then died in a car crash on her way to senior prom. She was the only one in the trial who didn’t reanimate, too. There’s just something so awful about that…

#i’m very emotional today #i slept (?) for idk maybe two hours #and I question whether or not i took my seroquel #so i’m also a little crazy atm

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technicallyaminecraftsimp · 1 year

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Mmmmm hot shower in the fading sunlight mmmm

#feels really nice #very relaxing #and I didn’t procrastinate till the last minuet on my essay due tonight #so I don’t have to stress and can head to bed a little early #maybe #anyways I feel real good today #The Crab Speaks #I’m not gonna get emotional but god… comparing me now to me two years ago #it does get better

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noctilucous-sunni · 1 year

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started doing kaveh’s hangout today AND THE PICTURE

IN HIS MOM’S FUCKING NOTEBOOK

LOOKS LIKE THEM SO DAMN CLOSE

Look at this shit omgg only thing that doesn’t really match is the dark haired scholar (instead of cyno who has white hair and some others but small differences)

wtf mihoyo fucking knows what they’re doing

part of his hangout makes me want to shrivel up inside because of how sad his lore is :(((

ahahhaha

baby boy deserves the fucking world

#sunni rambles #i just had to say something about that #and the password being ‘companionship??’ 😭😭😭#the fact that he and his mom look really similar apparently #I haven’t finished the whole thing but I’m really starting to love his hangout #nah because i want to give him the world bc hes so fucking soft and he deserves it 😤😭😭😭#did i mention im particularly emotional today #maybe thats why its hitting a little hard :(((

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