#my brain is so fried and idk if i should laugh or cry

[silentmoths]

any of my moots or followers that bothered with education past highschool

please know you have my utmost respect

[adelaidedrubman]

wednesday once again.

i was tagged by my ever beloveds @socially-awkward-skeleton @direwombat @fourlittleseedlings @henbased @unholymilf @florbelles @corvosattano to share something for wip day, thank you!! passing tags along to @poetikat @roofgeese @ishwaris @confidentandgood @a-far-cry-from-my-main @locustandwildhoney @shallow-gravy @purplehairsecretlair @derelictheretic @jackiesarch @newknife @blissfulalchemist and anyone else i am missing because my brain is fucking fried today<3

wildfire chapter 17 my detested. warnings for implied ongoing bliss intoxication and. well. idk. jestiny.

The first thing Jestiny noticed upon waking was that the smell of bliss no longer made her nauseous.

It was certainly there, honeysuckle hanging thick and potent. But it didn’t cause her stomach to twist, her head to dizzy.

Nor did it make her limbs feel unbearably heavied the way they had, as if weighed down by the syrup of its perfume soaking the air. In fact, she felt as if she were made lighter by the breeze carrying it. So that she was able to easily lift herself, to peel away the skin of her shoulder blades from the rocky surface they had baked into to rise without complaint or care for the way dead layers of flesh clung to the ground with futile resistance.

That was the old her, anyways, staying stuck dead to the hot surface of rock, she thought, jagged lines tearing themselves into her back to leave it raw and bleeding.

The new her was someone who —

Well. Someone who still didn’t know where the fuck they were, she admitted to herself, glancing along the sprawling hills before her as she tried to map something resembling a route back to the Jail.

She took a deep breath, setting out on her path with confidence before she’d even plotted it.

A certain cellophane gloss seemed to have settled over the world, down to the edges of every last blade of grass she passed. A morning dew that coated each inch of her surroundings despite the fact the deep oranges of the sun had sank well into the telltale signs of afternoon.

She twisted her neck abruptly, jerking back with sudden paranoia to look over her shoulder — the scraped skin of her back stinging as she did. She paused, laughing to find only the looming presence of Joseph’s statue behind her.

She waved a lazy hand over her shoulder as she looked forward, snapping a finger gun at the seemingly indestructible idol of Joseph Seed towering over her. “I’ll deal with you later.”

Maybe she should come back with Adelaide’s helicopter. The thought didn’t seem so scary, anymore.

Until then, Tracey would just have to understand that she tried.

[yumethefrostypanda]

Leah x Ghost

WIP snippet, this is just an idea sketch 8)

WITHOUT MY RAMBLING: (...) A small icebreaker what got them a bit closer was the interesting jokes Ghost rarely spoke. No one really got it, or laughed. Untill Leah heard it for the first time in a full room whilst Ghost was telling someone his joke "Two goldfish are in a tank..one turns to the other 'You know how to drive this thing?'" ..for everyone to hear. Leah burst out in laughter, her first genuine cry laughter since they found her. She laughed so hard that tears were starting to flow down her cheeks, quickly putting her hand flat against her mouth from embarresment of not being able to stop laughing. Everyone had a smile on their face. Especially Simon, smiling behind his skull balaclava. His brown eyes following her frame as she waved everyone goodbye with her free hand as she left the room, still laughing. (...)

A small icebreaker what got them a little bit closer was the silly/weird/dad jokes Ghost rarely spoke. No one really got it, or laughed/found them funny Q_Q.. untill Leah heard it for the first time.. in a full room with 141, Laswell (etc.) whilst Ghost was telling someone his interesting joke (idk yett, how or who or what let alone the joke.. halp, would he even tell a joke in a full room tho? he must have reason right? maybe i'll even change the whole ass setting WIPP). I like his jokes tho, esp; "Two goldfish are in a tank..one turns to the other 'You know how to drive this thing?'." Leah burst out in laughter, her first genuine cry laughter since they found her (months later after being held captive for 6ish years, underground WIP). She laughed so hard that tears starting to flow down her cheeks, quickly putting her hand flat against her mouth from embarresment of not being able to stop laughing and (almost) everyone had a smile on their face (or something argh idk yet). Esp. Simon, his smile and soft (short?my brain is fried)chuckle behind his skull balaclava. His brown eyes following her frame as she waved everyone goodbye with her free hand as she left the room/area, still laughing.

But just imagine ^_^ Thanks for reading! Hope u like it.

Some quick facts about Leah: - Female - Early/mid 30's - Halfblood - Height; 160cm - Hair; brown - Eyes; brown - Occupation: Trauma Surgeon in training in the end she will be the field surgeon for TF141/under Laswell's command.. she has no military experience (yet) tho, but i got it 80% worked out how it's gonna work :3 Seeing Ghost learning her how to use a sidearm in later stages *_* - Was in a serious relationship with John Price (in one/this universe 8)) - Went on a fieldtrip with other students, got caputered and used/abused for her/their skills (heavy WIP) - Was pronounced dead a year later, police reports seemed believable - Laswell received an audio file -from one of her contacts- 6ish years later. On that (short) audio file she heard Leah in distress, calling out for help.

No faceclaim for her yet, but i'm leaning towards Tifa Lockhart from Final Fantasy VII, since she's my fave female fictional character.

©Square Enix. FFVII If u want to know more about my OC Leah Vos (who is barely alive rn as in, me too busy and not serious enough to finish it since i lack writing skills.. but i like the thought Q_Q) my askbox/dm's is open :) I got the blue print/story in my head for about 80%. There should be a snippet of Leah x Ghost and Leah Vos x John Price on my tumblr somewhere.

Well then..

[itsthe-grim-reaper]

okay so what about tired Kuroo and tired reader relaxing in a big ass hot bathtub? it's quiet and nice, no screaming or work to do, all good untill Kuroo splashes water and starts war? idk man my brain is fried and I want Kuroo rn 🥹

I LOVE THIS!! SO SORRY ITS LATE!!

“Wow babe..shit, this looks amazing!”

You’ve just gotten your master bath all set up. Before you two had dated, it was a smaller tub. Now, it had enough room to seat two people. You had dressed it up with candles and lavender bubble soap to prepare for Kuroo.

“Thanks!” You reply, motioning to the water. “I’m so glad it all worked out with the jets and everything. Though, I turned off the jets for now.”

“Wow, thank you.” He starts to strip, muscles rippling in the low light. You were surprised, with all that sitting around in the office, that he kept his muscle from years of volleyball in a club.

He only sits down when you are ready, settling in behind you. It’s calm, one would even call it tranquil at first when he’s massaging your back and asking about your day. With you two, it never lasted long.

It starts first with Kuroo splashing you.

“Hey!” You cry, turning to face him and splashing him back. It becomes a game of throwing bubbles and warm water, punctuated by giggles from both of you. It finally ends with you two holding each other in lukewarm, soapy water.

“Maybe we should get out, Im getting wrinkly.” Kuroo complains. “My complexion…”

You sigh, and he laughs. “Yeah, alright, I agree with you for the most part.”

“Most part?” His voice trails along behind you as you wrap yourself in your towel. “Baaaaabe—“

“The most part.”

[writers-worst-nightmare]

say could I have you take on how Juno, Legoshi and Sheila reaction lets say human are from a totally different galaxy and they came to the Beastar world and Juno, Legoshi and Ellen know that on the human world there are animals like them but not them and thy befriended a human S/O who is from an animal sanctuary so S/O too them to the sanctuary and thy see all the feral animals and S/O takes them to see their wolf buddy and thy meet a big white wolf with yellow eyes that looked intimidating but S/O Gives the big white wolf lots of pets and says "This is Tina she was the runt of the litter and was rejected by her mother so I raised her and look how big she has grown"

Juno, Legoshi, and Sheila reacting to having a human s/o who is from another galaxy but that isn’t important to the story because there is a hot wolf:

A/N: this was a LITTLE confusing but after a lot of hard work and a Mother Mother playlist I figured out what you meant (again, if I got this request wrong just like re-send It or explain it. My little brain cells are srsly being fried)

Request are always open!

Warning(s): N/A (please correct me if wrong though)

JUNO:

- when you first arrived she already was pretty shocked and honestly just clung to Legoshi

- but when she saw YOU

- oh God I hope you are ready to get spammed with a bunch of questions

- I will DIE on the head canon that Juno LOVES to learn about new things and ask a bunch of questions whenever a new topic is introduced to her

- like I think that would just be super cute and funny

- idk honestly

- when you explained everything to her she realized as fast as she could and was actually the one who suggested they went to the place where you worked at

- I know what it is but I have dyslexia and it is like SUPER hard for me to spell it out I am so so so so sooo sorry

- once you took her to the place she was honestly afraid

- I mean, she wasn’t far from the animals there themselves either

- so whenever you said that you where going to take them to the wolf section Juno got REALLY nervous

- she feels self conscious as she walks over there, feeling her energy going down the drain as she stares at the wolves in front of her

- then you guys got to the biggest wolf their probably (although she didn’t pay attention to size that much)

- she was pretty afraid

- this was a white wolf so she was already small compared to them

- but when she saw HER

- the strong teeth of the wolf that looked like he could bite her head off without even trying to

- and don’t even get her STARTED about the yellow blazing eyes that looked like a warning on it’s own to not go NEAR that wolf

- she hid behind you as everyone went up to the wolf

"This is Tina she was the runt of the litter and was rejected by her mother so I raised her and look how big she has grown"

- you said as you bent down and petted the white wolf on the head

- Tina wagged her tail and lolled out his head slightly to the left

- you bent down and scratched the wolves ears, the wold looked away in embarrassment but still secretly wanting more

- she instantly felt bad that she thought Tina was a big bad wolf

- and honestly she felt selfish

- I mean if anybody looked at Juno they would guess that she is feisty because she was a wolf

- and because of that she did not have a lot of friends,

- so she went up to Tina and head butted with her

- Tina looked taken back for a moment before a big goofy smile played on the wolves face

- the piercing and once cold yellow eyes seemed less of a warning and more of a welcome sign that you would see on somebodies door mate

- Tina and Juno stood their for a while before Juno howled out loud as in a celebration of welcoming somebody in the pack

- Tina jumped up and down with excitement before joining in

- You also got the hint and joined in as well

LEGOSHI:

- “Is there a book about this..?”

- Legoshi would whisper as you drag him to the place you work at

- let’s say you took everyone to meet Tina (omg why did that autocorrect to Tian so many times) different times so the white wold didn’t get stressed

- Legoshi isn’t one to judge on looks so in his spare time, while everyone was looking at the birds and other animals he did some research for the white wolf

- he learned quiet a few interesting things

- a lot he didn’t need to know, but still it was nice to read it

- another head canon that I will die on is that Legoshi likes to research

- like he does research in his free time, he does research when he is suppose to be doing homework

- he does research EVERYWHERE AND ANYWHERE

- that and reading classics

- BUT THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO TALK ABOUT THAT NOW IS IT!?!?

- he found out the best ways to approach a white wolf and how to get the old acquainted with you

- so best be prepared when you called Legoshi’s name for him to see the wolf, he wasn’t that surprised when he saw how Tina looked

- I mean, she looked like any other regular wolf

- however—even he had to admit—the wolf did look more scarier in person then in pictures

- and the yellow gleaming eyes didn’t help either

"This is Tina she was the runt of the litter and was rejected by her mother so I raised her and look how big she has grown"

- you explained as you gave Tina some pets

- Legoshi nodded his head then literally plopped on the ground

- he read somewhere to keep your distance and look them in the eyes

- Legoshi tried to look this wolf in the eyes, but he couldn’t

- leave him alone, best boi tried :(

- Tina had to come to Legoshi and give him a few licks

- Legoshi would laugh breathlessly

- and that was the first time you saw Legoshi smile

- he usually never smiled because of his sharp teeth but now, his has kind of forgotten that he was wolf

- You smiled warmly as the two greeted each other with smiles and hugs and affection

- Legoshi’s head would be basically exploding he wouldn’t know what to do

- and what he ended up doing

- was crying

- for the first time, it hit him like a train,

- what hit him like a train? You might ask

- well it is…

- that nobody could love him if he didn’t open up and expose his trauma

- he has closed his doors and kept up his walls for so many people

- but this wolf, this wold, didn‘t know anything about boundaries

- all Tina knew was hunt, eat, sleep, love, repeat

- and that

- that made Legoshi cry tears of joy

- this wolf would never face the dangers that the world had to offer because she was with you

- and that was all it took for Legoshi to cry while smiling

SHEILA:

- I honestly have no idea what to do for her, she is such a side character oml

- POOR GIRL WAS SO CONFUSED

- “won’t there be like…herbavore’s there…?”

- she would ask as she shifts her feet in discomfort

- “not for now…although I do plan to open it to both herbavore’s and carnivore’s!”

- you cheerfully boasted as the cheetah looked at you through narrowed eyes

- “I don’t think we should mix with the—“

- “for the love of God, shut the hell up!”

- she gets very worried when she goes through the butterfly section in fear of hurting the precious creatures

- you had to calm her down and actually go through the steps with her on how to not hurt a butterfly

- she mostly spent her time with the cheetah‘s and butterfly’s so she got a little pouty when you said it was time for her to meet the wolf

- I mean she didn’t even LIKE wolves so why did she have to put up with one!?

- but when she got into the area her blood ran cold

- right in front of her was the largest white wolf she had ever seen with menacing yellow eyes and long sharp teeth and matching razor sharp claws that could most certainly kill a butterfly AND her with no effort whatsoever

"This is Tina she was the runt of the litter and was rejected by her mother so I raised her and look how big she has grown"

- you stated as you started scratching Tina’s ears

- Sheila calmed down almost instantly when she heard the soft whimpers and the way Tina positioned her head so she wouldn’t accidentally bite your hand off

- that was actually really nice of Tina

- so once you got done petting Tina Sheila started to gently soak Tina’s back

- the swipes where soft and filled with meaning behind every stroke

- she ended up sleeping with the friendly giant on her lap like she was a puppy

- and you of course took pictures so the Drama Club could see that Their amazing club meme bear had a soft spot for Tina too

- and it got on the first page of the News

[solaeter]

hate that I love you - Naoya Zenin [18+]

I haven’t actually written smut in like two years..well finished smutty content. I can barely start it and finish it, shame on me but I am pathetic °(ಗдಗ。)°. I am so nervous and shy, so pls no pitchforks and tomatoes _(:3」∠)_ this is a repost cause doubt hit me for a hot minute, but we gon be brave (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑ 

Word Count: 2311

Request Status: OPEN

Warning[s]: Adult content, minors dni!! idk proper warnings cause my brain is fried atm, but there’s oral [f receiving], penetration which is given, slight manipulation? Naoya cause he’s a warning all on its own, noob attempt at dirty talk [I died k]. reader chan tries to hate naoya but can’t. It’s just porn without plot unless you squint.

Just when you thought you were safe, reality had another thing in mind. Strong hands pulled your hips up with a force that had your face hugging the pillow before you could register how you even allowed yourself to end up like this.

Why did it have to be now? You really thought you managed to get away. "Why are you doing this?" You turn your head, teeth latching to your bottom lip when two fingers glide along your clothed slit. 

"You don't seem to mind." Naoya remarked, his voice laced with disinterest and boredom while his eyes roamed your body. Three months..that's how long he's been without you. His favorite toy. "You're already so wet for me, miss my cock that much?" He questioned with a sneer, sliding your pretty little panties to the side. The sudden chill made you squirm and his words bit at your budding arousal.

"Couldn't you have found someone else to toy with?" You avoided his question, voice hitching when he slid a finger up your dripping slit, stopping at your clit and circling the bud ever so slowly. It wasn't fair how he could work your body so effortlessly. Your mouth parts as your eyes squeeze shut. 

Naoya smirks, his eyes never leaving your cute little cunt while you try to look as displeased as possible. You should have known getting away from him was quite literally impossible. He owned you. 

"Why should I find someone else when I only need you?" The sentence itself sounded sweet, but you knew it was far from what it suggested. Ever since you met Naoya, he's had you by the palm of his hand. He used you for his own needs, taking and taking before tossing you to the side. Yet, you lingered and remained loyal until you tried to end things. Naoya let you live in a false sense of newfound freedom, giving you just enough space before making your world tumble back down, right where he wanted you. 

Now, there was no denying that you looked absolutely stunning before him. Your body was meant for him, made for him to fuck over and over. You were his missing puzzle piece. When you don't answer Naoya, he clicks his tongue and brings his fingers down to your entrance, the tips teasing your hole before plunging knuckle deep, your walls clamping around him beautifully while you cry out.

The sudden intrusion made your thoughts muddle together and everything seemed to spin. Naoya could make you so stupid so easily and he laughs, so humorously. "Why would I find someone else when you're so..fucking worthless without me. I haven't even done anything and you're already stupid."

You glance back over your shoulder, cheeks burning when your eyes meet his cold ones. He never showed you an ounce of love, only half an inch of interest and a load of selfish, one sided desires. "I hate you." You spat while gripping the sheets when another finger eased its way inside you, stretching you further. Naoya curled his fingers roughly, swiping over the one spot that had stars in your eyes. He knew your body better than you knew it. Or so he claimed with a sense of pride. 

No matter how long you've been apart, Naoya would be sure to remind you that no one else will make you feel the way he does. Even if you're spouting words of hate, he just knows you won't stay away for too long. "Heh, sure you do." 

You wanted to be angry, call him out for being a vile piece of shit but nothing came out of your mouth besides helpless moans. 

"Look at you, so pretty and fucking useless. Baby can't even argue with me." Naoya talked down at you, thrusting his fingers in and out of your pretty cunt until you're clenching around him with a strangled, frustrated cry as pleasure washed over your body. "Damn, you couldn't even hold it in. I'm disappointed." Naoya removes his fingers and your hole clenches around nothing, searching for more.

Oh his little whore. To ruin you is his greatest desire. To have you so wrapped around him, that nothing else in this world can compare to what he does. It makes his blood boil in such a way he can't describe and it shoots straight down to his cock. But he can't have you just yet. 

Naoya has to break you more, see you crumble. So he flips you over and the gasp that leaves your pouty lips is nothing short of stupidly adorable. Even more so is how you look at him with wide, teary eyes. As if that would make his heart soften.

"Finally have something to say or are you just gonna stare at me like a fucked out fool?" Naoya spread your legs, bending to hike your skirt around your waist before fully removing your soaked panties. You were compliant, unmoving while he did as he pleased. To be honest, words failed you more when you needed them most. 

"I– please forgive me for leaving.." 

Naoya perked up when the words left your mouth, his own lips twisting into that of a sinister smile. "So you decided on being a good little bitch." He murmurs, placing a hot kiss on the side of your thigh. You always looked so good sprawled out before him, at his mercy. It had his mind spinning in circles, all the possibilities running rampant. "Where's your fight?" He asked casually, inching closer to your puffy cunt and you look down at him only to snap your head back onto the pillow. 

"I have none, I should have listened the first time." 

That sentence you knew by heart considering you've had to confess your wrong doings on multiple occasions. Naoya hums, content as his nose brushes against your sensitive bundle of nerves. Your body reacts on its own, knees bending and toes curling into the satin sheets. You tried to resist him, tried your damndest but it never worked. It frustrates you, so much that you groan and nearly close your legs around Naoya's stupidly pretty head. 

Firm hands catch your legs and dark eyes land on you. "Oh [Name], tell me what you're feeling. I'm dying to know." He didn't care. You let out a half laugh and sit up on your elbows. 

"I hate you. With my entire being but I can't get away. It's not fair. You're– ahh not f-fair." Your words falter when Naoya's tongue slides up your cunt, lapping up your essence before going back down to your entrance.

"Mhmm.." He listens half heartedly, instead enjoying the sweet taste of you that graces his lips. You became putty in his hands, just like that. So simple, one movement. One hand threaded through his short locks, fingers grasping onto what it could once his tongue dipped inside your awaiting hole. 

"Fuu–" You toss your head back, involuntarily pushing Naoya closer which causes him to chuckle and the rumbling of his body only has you sinking further into his palm. He watched you, how your chest would rise and fall as you panted, moaned and clung to him helplessly. Your reactions had his cock throbbing in his pants and he wasn't going to be able hold out much longer. 

Adjusting one of his arms, Naoya's fingers soon met your clit and circled it quickly, building you higher and higher. Your body jerks and he keeps a hold of you, halting your hips to keep you still. 

You tasted divine, like a special wine made just for Naoya. Your pretty moans were like music to his ears and when he pulls back, the whine that leaves your lips sounded almost sinful. "N-Naoya.." You look at him, eyes blown wide and vulnerable, so close to paradise. He smirks and continues his assault on your clit.

"What? You seem to be getting off just fine with my fingers. Now be a good little slut and cum for me." Naoya coos and just like that, your body listens to his every command. The coil snaps and your body trembles, legs spasming and threatening to close around his head but his unoccupied hand keeps them open while you cry out, incoherent words leaving your lips. 

Naoya can't deny the sight and he groans, the desire to fuck you clouding his thoughts. ""Ah– fuck – what a good girl." He praised, an odd thing coming from him but it has you smiling so stupidly. You watch Naoya through half lidded eyes as he eases you from your high, rubbing small, slow circles around your sensitive clit. Your hips still move with him, your body wanting more.

"Naoya..I need you inside me." You barely manage and if it wasn't for the fact Naoya was so turned on, he would have bitched at you. Instead he uses his free hand to undo his pants and free his aching cock from its hellish confines. 

Your eyes lock onto the throbbing member that now rests in his hand as he pumps it languidly. "Do you really deserve my cock? Last I checked," Naoya hovers above you, situating the tip right at your entrance. "You've been a bad girl." He teases you, pushing the tip just barely inside you before pulling back out. You whine, loudly with a pathetic pout forming on your lips. 

"Please, I need you. So bad, I'll never leave again!" You cry, beg and lift your hips in search of what you wanted so bad. All fight, resistance and negative feelings vanished when all your mind and body wanted was him to consume you..

“Is that so?” Naoya hummed, bottoming out inside of you before you could continue your pleas. Your eyes roll back and he has to suppress the groan that dares escape his own mouth. He never grew tired of how you felt; how your walls fluttered around his cock, how you took him so willingly. So easily. You were truly meant for him. 

The pace is set with languid thrusts, Naoya driving himself deep into your velvety walls. He watches your face contort and twist with pleasure and pain due to his size, it had him surging with a sense of animalistic pride. “Remember who you belong to.” He says lowly in your ear and all you can muster is a quick nod of your head as whimpers and cries leave your delicate lips. Your arms snake around his shoulders, keeping Naoya close while your legs lock around his waist.

“Look at you,” Naoya groans, shifting so that you now sat on his lap, his cock hitting places that made your head spin, “Taking me so well- goddamn - be a little louder. Let everyone hear what a slut you are.” He demands, his voice low and strained. You helplessly comply, bouncing up and down on his lap like a good girl. Your head was warped, just like he wanted. Every moan, cry and wail sounded like a symphony that was only meant for him. Naoya held your hips tightly, guiding your frantic movements, hitting every spot inside you that made you grasp onto him like some type of savior.

Ah yes, Naoya definitely is your savior in his sick twisted head. Though he hisses when your nails scratch his neck, leaving noticeable marks that surely would be questioned later. He didn’t mind, not in the slightest. If anything, it made him fuck you harder, his cock ramming your drenched hole as if it were his last day on this earth. The lewd sounds of your juices squelching every time he fills you had him going crazy and he ignored how you drenched his lap, uncaring of the mess since he so graciously caused it. 

“So close, Naoya please,” Your voice is weak and broken, body trembling as it reaches the peak of nirvana. Naoya wasn’t far off from his own release and instead of being a total asshole like he wanted to be, he held you close.

“Let it go, baby.” He urged before biting down on your neck, sucking the tender spot to leave a claim on your body. You whine and unravel, pleasure overwhelming your body, legs trembling and shaking, you were thankful to be on his lap or you would have gone down. Naoya continues to fuck you, chasing his own release and groaning loudly when hot ropes of cum paint your delicate walls. He fills you completely, uncaring if you ended up bearing one of his kids. Hell the thought only made him feel more possessive. It would give him a greater claim over you, keep you with him.

Before Naoya allowed himself to get aroused once more, he removed you off his lap and got off the dirtied bed to fix his clothing. You watch in your fucked out daze, the grips of confusion and longing playing tug of war in your heart. 

“W-Where are you going?” Your voice sounded so soft, so submissive. Naoya glances back and he admires his handiwork. You were an absolute mess. “You can’t..just leave me like this.” 

How desperate. Naoya bit back a laugh, bending to pick up your discarded panties and toss them onto your stomach. 

“If you want me so bad, you know where to find me.”

With that, Naoya bids his farewells and leaves you like you did to him three months ago. But he knew that you’d come crawling to him before the night ended.

On the other hand, you stared at the ceiling until your heart calmed down and were able to get off the bed. Would you run back to him? Even though you wanted to say no, your body said otherwise with the longing for his touch.

The only thing you knew for certain was that you hated that you loved him. 

[kpopmakesmequestionmylifechoices]

Kingdom Round 3, pt. 2: How to discourage idols and kill versatility in K-pop - a guide by "experts".

As in my last post I'll talk about my thoughts on the performances, but mostly I'll question the freaking ranking because wth those experts should really reveal themselves at this point (I'm salty). Anyways, let's get into it.

1. A small "disappointment" and two big surprises.

ATEEZ: Oh guys the beginning made me emotional because it reminded me hardcore of Block B Very Good hahaha. Generally I must say, ATEEZ rearrangements are always good. It just sounded very ATEEZ-ish, and that's cool. I personally prefer the original Rhythm Ta over the rearrangement tho. About the performance, I don't have any criticism I think. I personally found that rope scene a bit strange tho, and overall I just wasn't impressed by that stage. Possibly because nothing can top the Symphony Nr.9 for me hahaha.

BTOB: First of all, SKZ X BTOB interactions are peak comedy I loved this so much. Minhyuk fangirling on SKZ back door stage is me tho. And "Kingdom is 15+ right?" Oh man I love those dudes.

About the concept, totally loved it because it was super fun to watch. I was worried beforehand because I couldn't imagine anyone pulling off SKZ' powerful rap. They didn't tho. They did it their own way and I was surprised. The meaning change to a more uh...mature sorta concept was also quite interesting. The moment Eunkwang knocked and opened the door: chefkiss. Those lyrics? Rude but chefkiss. I in general really liked the rearrangement, but in the end it lost its power a bit. Maybe also because I have the original Back Door burned into my brain and the ending just rocks af. But honestly, my brain also was fried by THIS:

[*my edit/gif - I made a full gifset in that style now]

Stray Kids: I must say, I was a bit scared before because anyone having to do a BTOB cover must have absolutely stable vocals. This was the stage I was most concerned about when I heard about the song choices. Without a reason. Because SKZ absolutely killed it. Sure, I.N didn't hit that note as it was planned but let me tell you, it didn't affect my enjoyment of this stage at all. The stage setting? Fantastic. Changbin's rap sounded as if he's in utter pain and despair, Felix added to that with his hyper low tone part which was ABSOLUTELY cool. This was just great, full of feels, and I have NO criticism, bye.

Recap: When thinking about the past 6 performances, I feel that ATEEZ and iKON did the best job with making the others' song their own. In my eyes, SF9 and TBZ both stayed in their comfort zone with their song choices, while BTOB and SKZ took on the extreme challenge to pick songs that are basically the opposite of what they usually do. As I Iove versatility and surprises, SKZ and BTOB have a special place in my heart with those two stages.

Hence, my personal ranking looks as follows:

1. BTOB & SKZ (tied): For me those were the biggest surprises and caused the biggest enjoyment and entertainment for me. If I HAD TO choose a first place, I'd pick BTOB - because Back Door is one of my FAVOURITE songs of all time, and solely evaluating the songs, I heavily prefer Back Door over I'll be your man. Anyways, with that ranking, SKZ jumped from my personal lowest rank in the first round to my personal highest rank.

2. SF9: After seeing SF9's stage last week, I was sure that I'll have them as #1 in today's post. I loved everything about the performance (besides the weird gun dance sry), and I especially loved how they stepped up their game without making the perfomance too huge and too overwhelming. Nevertheless, due to the fact they stayed pretty close to their usual style, I'll rank them 2nd because I was more impressed by the others' style change.

3. iKON / ATEEZ: The performances were good, but to me personally they were absolutely not memorable. It's a matter of taste after all.

4. TBZ: I know, I again rank them last. And again, no I don't hate them. I simply neither am touched by their stages, nor do I understand their plots. So I once again rank them last. I don't find their performances bad tho, because as all groups, they're doing an amazing job. The stages are simply not my cup of tea.

2. Oh you prove that you're a versatile artist? That must be punished!

↑ That's how I imagine the experts' thoughts. Expert ranking was as follows: ATEEZ / TBZ / iKON / SF9 / BTOB / SKZ.

Okay I must say. Which freaking expert would place SKZ last??? I'm not biased in the slightest, if I'm biased then for SF9 and BTOB, but bruh. SKZ last? That's like, ridiculous. Considering the immense challenge SKZ had from switching from their usual style to freaking I'll be your man?

I don't know man, I can't take this ranking seriously. I really wish we'd know what the criteria is...It's a mystery to me how this could happen. Those boys get punished for stepping out of their comfort zone and doing an amazing job? Literally same story with BTOB. Both groups completely stepped outta their comfort zone and that's what they got for it...Well done, experts, well done. This is how you destroy versatility in K-pop, but sure, go on.

Honestly at this point I hope stays and melodies work together to catapult both groups up in the ranking because this is just utter nonsense...

3. Ya all groups, why don't you support your exchange partners :')))))))

↑ This is me hysterically laughing and crying at the same time at the fact that they don't vote for each other. Groups' ranking was as follows: ATEEZ / SF9 / BTOB / iKON / SKZ / TBZ.

Honestly my only explanation for this result is that the groups don't vote for those people they see as their biggest opponents? It's weird man. I personally for example don't understand why the groups which exchange songs don't vote for each other? None of the performances was bad, and I think it's low-key a matter of respect to give the group you exchanged songs with one of your votes? Because after all they tried their best to present your song in a presentable way even tho it's not their own? Idk man. I don't like this weird feeling of "hostility". But might only be my own feeling idk hahahahaha.

Honestly I wish we'd get to see the groups' evaluation and reasoning behind their choices...

That was it from my side this week...As always, thanks for reading! As for next episode, I'm super excited to see proper interactions and them finally having fun...ouf and after all those years Minhyuk going back to vault jumping I'm hyped hahahah. And now I'll go rewatch SKZ and BTOB lol.

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i want it, i got it | p.p.

a/n: okay this writing in this is meh IM SORRY i think my brain is fried since i've been working on my independent book a lot 🥵

summary: newfound confidence during karaoke night certainly can end up in peter parker making bold moves

warnings: uhhhhhhh idk sam and bucky are at it again with the teasing??

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"no, absolutely not," you say, shaking your head. natasha wiggles her eyebrows at you and you huff.

tonight had started as just another one of the galas that tony hosted, adults and liquor everywhere. and then he got on the stage and there was a stage? what is he doing?

before you knew it, the gala turned into a karaoke party. adults you'd either never seen or had seen take down hydra were belting their hearts out. steve and bucky sang "the time of my life" and attempted the lift from dirty dancing, tony and rhodey yelled an obnoxious cover of "back in black," and peter and bucky did a rendition of "you're the one that i want," which had you falling out of your seat in laughter as they ungracefully attempted to twirl around each other.

when peter got back, he was breathing heavy and sweating, wrapping a smelly arm around you to which you couldn't even shrug off because you had yet to catch your breath. he looked at you like you were everything in the world.

and now he's yelling at you to go onstage and sing "7 rings" with natasha.

of course you knew the song. it was all over the radio and you'd even caught scott and thor having a dance-off to it. you just weren't keen on karaoke. the thought of getting up there and having to figure out how to not look awkward while pulling off a very confident song seemed impossible, especially since you'd never done karaoke in your life.

"please, y/n," peter pouts. the puppy eyes he gives you almost make you angry; he's practically manipulating you at this point. "just do it, it'll be fun!"

you sigh. "fine."

the crowd around you cheers and you immediately regret your decisions as you stand, nat grabbing your hand and excitedly dragging you towards the stage. happy hands you your mics with an excited smile and you seriously contemplate punching him.

when you see the crowd you almost walk away right then and there. but then the music starts and peter is smiling so brightly that all of a sudden you're singing, and nat is behind you hyping you up.

"breakfast at tiffany's and bottles of bubbles girls with tattoos who like getting in trouble lashes and diamonds, atm machines buy myself all of my favorite things"

tony whoops so loudly that you almost drop the mic (pun intended), but peter's cheering the loudest. when he's not clapping or yelling he's staring at you like you own the world. you make a mental note to run to the kitchen and stick your face in the refrigerator after this, you're sweating and blushing so hard.

natasha begins singing her part and you pull your gaze away from peter to hype her up. before you know it, you're actually getting into the song, figuring what's the worst that could happen?

"been through some bad shit, i should be a sad bitch who woulda thought it'd turn me to a savage? rather be tied up with calls and not strings write my own checks like i write what i sing, yeah"

you channel your inner ariana grande and flip your hair, fist-bumping nat before beginning the chorus.

"my wrist, stop watchin', my neck is flossy make big deposits, my gloss is poppin' you like my hair? gee, thanks, just bought it i see it, i like it, i want it, i got it"

at the last lyric you wink at peter. the way his eyes widen and sam and bucky nudge him suggestively makes your confidence falter for a minute before you get distracted, natasha going off way harder than you expected on the rest of the chorus. you laugh and clap, swaying along to the beat.

peter watches in a trance, body getting abnormally hot.

"oh, she totally just winked at you," sam smirks, bumping his knee against peter's. peter gulps.

"she likes you, kid," bucky says, then mumbles, "if you somehow managed to not pick it up before."

peter feels overwhelmed with an emotion he can't describe. his eyes dart nervously between his teammates, all of their faces looking far too suggestive. he sucks in a breath before standing up and walking towards the stage.

and then a pair of familiar hands twist you around and cup your face, pulling your lips to theirs. you freeze before inhaling, peter's cologne overflowing your sense and holy wow it's happening.

peter pulls away all too soon, his hands still cradling your face and your hands frozen midair. natasha stops singing and you don't even have to look to know that the whole crowd is staring at you. the music continues playing in the background as you crack a nervous smile.

"how did you get up here so fast?" you ask breathlessly.

"i don't know," peter smiles sheepishly, hands falling from your face. "the wink made me a little gutsy, i think... plus bucky wouldn't shut up about telling me to go kiss you."

you don't get the chance to react before a yell erupts from the crowd.

"DO IT AGAIN!" tony shouts, hands cupped around his mouth. a few whoops sound out and you laugh, resting your forehead against peter's before softly connecting your lips, his hands wrapping around your waist to pull you closer as you wrap your arms around his neck.

a giggle bubbles out of you and you pull apart, smiling like fools.

"okay, this is the last part and i'd really like to finish this, so..." natasha mumbles into the mic. you laugh and hold up your mic, looking over at peter. before you know it, he snatches it from your hands and begins belting it out with nat.

"i want it, i got it, i want it, i got it i want it, i got it, i want it, i got it you like my hair? gee, thanks, just bought it i see it, i like it, i want it, i got it"

and after seeing peter pretend to flip his hair, it was very difficult for you not to pee yourself out of laughter that night.

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that last sentence I Don't Think I Worded That How I Wanted To but it fine =D

ALSO Z GOT AN EMMY NOMINATION AS SHE SHOULD AND I STARTED CRYING IM SO PROUD OF HER AND LITERALLY HAVE LOVED HER SINCE DISNEY CHANEL AND SHE DESERVES IT SO SO MUCH I JUST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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A World Without You |P.P| 1/2

pairing: Peter Parker x fem!reader

summary: after Peter gets stuck in an alternate universe, and makes some new friends he finds himself having to save the world yet again, all while trying to get back to you. 

AN: Peter is around 23 in this, and still in uni bc boy can't do more than 2 courses per semester and fight crime ok. I was watching into the spiderverse a while back and wrote this, I was going to make it one big part but decided to split it in two parts instead. I basically thought, what if Tom’s Peter Parker was one of the spideys that travelled to Miles’ dimension? I changed it a bit, but its also a lot like the movie except for a couple of things, there’s also gonna be a time skip from this part to the next one bc we’ve all seen into the spider verse so I’ll highlight most of my favourite parts. 

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part 1 

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Peter was used to weird things happening. Well, he should be at least, given all the weird things that are constantly happening to him. This time though, the word weird didn’t even come close to explaining what happened.

It was a cloudy Tuesday afternoon in Manhattan and he had just finished webbing up some bank robbers he cornered in an alley. They were stuck on the wall along with his signature note for the police department, that after his call were already on their way. He leans against the wall, checking his notifications and smiling when he spots your text.

Might escape work early today, how does pasta for dinner sound? - YN

Peter starts typing a response, It’s a date!, but before he can even hit send he feels himself being pulled backward into the wall.

What the hell?

The force with which he is pulled grows and it’s not just him being pulled back anymore, the trash and part of the fire escape in front of him are moving towards him as well. He shoots a web at the concrete wall directly in front of him, trying to move away and glance back at whatever is behind him. A black portal, there’s colors and shapes he can’t really make out but one thing he knows is that the portal is getting bigger. Almost half of his body is inside it now, the other half trying really hard to pull himself back out by shooting more webs anywhere he can. But his efforts are not enough, a few seconds later all of them snap and he is swallowed whole by the wall behind him and moving incredibly fast through what seems to be galaxies grouped together with spiderwebs.

Peter feels like he’s being shot out of a cannon, his eyes shut tight by the sheer force in which he’s moving forward. His arms are pressed tightly to his sides, his legs straight behind him until he’s falling from the sky at an incredible speed. That’s when his reflexes kick in and he opens his eyes just in time to shoot a web at a billboard to soften his fall. He stabilizes himself and looks around at the times square screens surrounding him, only that these are completely different than the ones he sees every day. More importantly, it’s already nightfall, which confuses him even more as he was pretty sure it was around noon just a couple of seconds ago. Scanning the screens for some kind of explanation, Peter turns around and all of the air in his lungs disappears in an instant. There you were, beautiful as always on the screen above him, the problem was that the breaking news tagline under the picture says you’re dead. Spider-Woman, Y/N L/N dead at age 25.

Wait, 25? That’s not right, you’re 23 not 25. Most importantly, you’re not dead. No, you can’t be! Spider Woman?! What is happening!

His mind is trying to process everything that’s happening. Is there actually a chance that he’s in another dimension, and that the portal was the one that got him there? If so, why only him and who is messing with the multiverse? Peter pushes all of this to the back of his mind, his heart is beating wildly in his chest and there is one answer he really needs right now. He shoots a web at a building and makes his way to Manhattan’s graveyard, New York city’s streets a blur as he swings by them. Until an intense pain rushes through his body and he misses the building he was aiming at and he falls face first in the snow. The snowbank is just outside of the graveyard and he ignores the pain he felt as he runs towards the Spiderman balloons hovering above a tombstone.

Y/N L/N, (1995 - 2020)

“No.” Peter falls to his knees, a hand hovering over your name. He takes off his mask and covers his face with his hands. He can’t explain the sobs that are leaving his lips, or why his heart feels completely shattered by this news. “No, this isn’t real. Wake up!”

He slaps himself to try and leave this nightmare, but it doesn’t work. He really is stuck in another dimension where one of the most important people in his life died. He knows this isn’t his Y/N, it’s another version of her but his brain is taking some time to catch up. Peter lets himself cry, he cries for what feels like hours and he’s run out of tears. Not only that but his spider sense makes him look up and be alert of his surroundings once again. Wiping his eyes and putting his mask back on, Peter follows the feeling. He leaves the graveyard and walks down towards Brooklyn until he’s in front of a diner. There’s a teenager there, he has dark curly hair and is wearing a too-small Spiderman. He’s also sitting next to an older man, who just ate a burger in two bites. The man is also wearing a Spiderman suit, but he’s paired it with an olive trench coat and sweatpants. Huh? Peter goes in and his spider sense tingles again, making both Spidermen look up.

“You’re like me,” They say in unison.

The older man stands up and places a hand on his shoulder. “Hey man, are you okay?”

“Why am I here?” Peter asks instead of answering.

“Come and sit down, it’s been a weird day for all of us.” He guides him to the table and pushes a plate of fries towards him. “This is Miles,” He motions towards the dark haired teenager who extends his hands.

“Hey, I’m Miles. Sort of the Spiderman of this dimension.” Peter takes his hands and shakes it once before he lets go.

“I’m Peter Parker.” He says and the older man chuckles. “What?”

“I’m Peter B. Parker, the Spiderman of another dimension.” Is all he says extending his hand towards Peter who shakes it briefly. “Like I said, weird day.”

Peter takes his mask off and looks at Miles. “You’re the Spiderman of this dimension? What about Y/N? What happened to Y/N?” His voice cracks on the last question but he doesn’t care.

“Oh man, this is probably so confusing for you. I’m assuming you’re married to Y/N in your dimension as well?” Miles asks.

“Not married, she’s my girlfriend.” Peter shakes his head. “We’re married in this dimension?”

Miles nods, “Yeah, you spoke at her funeral and all. Kingpin killed her last night because she was trying to destroy his collider, I- I was there and she gave me the override key. I promised her I’ll destroy the collider for her, I need to keep that promise.”

Peter closes his eyes and nods, after taking a deep breath he opens them and addresses both Spidermen in front of him. “I’ll help you, for this Y/N and to get back to my Y/N.”

The older Peter smiles and nods, “We’re going to Alchemax, to steal the code we need to fix the override key.”

“Fix it?” Peter asks confused, rubbing his tired eyes from crying. If he feels tired and broken, he wonders how tired Y/N’s husband feels.

“Yeah, it broke.” Miles grimaces but Peter shrugs.

“It’s okay, we’ll make a new on–” Peter stops talking as he glitches again, the same happening to Peter B in front of him. “Man, that hurt.”

“We need to go. You guys need to get back to your dimensions.” Miles says standing up. “We can swing to Alchemax, you guys can show me the ropes.”

Peter B laughs, “Swing there? You have a lot to learn kid. Come on other Peter, let’s get us home.”

Peter stands up, putting his mask back on and following the other two spidermen, it’s still a lot to process but if it gets him back to you he’ll just go along with whatever Peter B’s plan is.

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idk if its good or if anyone wants to be tagged but hey I liked the concept 

@hollandharrison @madmadmilk @angelhaz11 @parkerpuff @peterplanet @keepingupwiththeparkers 💖

[thismanateelovestowrite]

When you like Rocky but hate his group of friends

Thank you so much for the request! ^^ I haven’t written for ASTRO in a long time and the comeback has left me all excited so it was extra fun to write this~ Please tell me what you think about this ^^

ugh it’s so hard to find angsty gifs of astro lol... i love it though, they’re so precious and happy i love them so much T-T also idk about this plot is this good? i wanted to try something other than my usual “fighting with your s/o” kinda angst so i dug through my brain and came up with this, i hope this is somewhat new to someone~

Words: 2241

Angst with a tiny hint of sweetness

Requested by anon ♥

“Here,” Minhyuk handed you the lollipop he had unwrapped for you.

“Thank you,” you smiled and put it in your mouth immediately. “Here you go,” you handed him the one you had unwrapped. It had become a habit for you two over the years to help each other out with the wrapping.

He smiled and put it in his mouth. “Thank you,” he grinned. “So, as I was saying earlier…”

You two kept walking along the road as he went on to talk about a friend of his who had gotten kicked out of a course. You nodded along as the story progressed, acting as if you were okay, even though the conversation just reminded you of how much you hated that person.

“We couldn’t stop laughing,” he concluded the story and you felt slightly relieved. “He’s hopeless.”

You looked at his cheerful expression and didn’t feel like ruining it by telling about how the guy had acted towards you in the past; how he had said some pretty nasty things to you when you two had been left alone after a party.

Maybe I’m just overreacting… But I probably should tell him eventually… Maybe not today, though…

“Whoa, careful there,” Minhyuk pulled you closer as you almost walked into a street lamp.

“Oh,” you looked at the lamp in surprise and he laughed at your reaction. “Thank you,” you smiled, feeling your cheeks heat up.

“What would you do without me?” he shook his head. “Anyway… Did you do well on your exams?”

“We’ll see,” you sighed. “I-“

“Oh! Minhyuk!” you were cut off by a loud voice and you two turned around. You felt your stomach twist slightly at the sight of Minhyuk’s friends, all heading towards you in a hurry.

“What are you all doing here?” Minhyuk asked them as they reached you two.

“We came to have a picnic,” one of the girls grinned widely. “We’re going to order some fried chicken and drink some beer.”

“Want to join us?” the guy who Minhyuk had been talking about earlier asked and you avoided his gaze. “Or did we interrupt your date?”

“What do you say?” Minhyuk asked you, ignoring the guy’s comment.

“I, uh, I feel like I should leave soon. You can join them, though.”

He nodded with a smile. “I’ll join you, then,” he looked at his friends in excitement.

“Are you sure you don’t want to come with us?” another one of the girls asked.

“Yeah, I’m fine. My shift will start soon, anyway,” you forced a smile and your words seemed to please the intimidating group.

***

A sigh left your lips as you stepped out of the café you worked at. After the tiring three-hour shift, you just wanted to go home and fall asleep. That was until you remembered how much schoolwork was waiting for you at home. The thought made you want to cry. You knew it would be well past midnight when you would be able to go to sleep.

As you sat on the empty bus and stared out at the streets, you wondered what Minhyuk was doing. Had he already gone home or was he still with his friends?

Friends…

It didn’t sound like a fitting word. You didn’t want to think of them as his friends. They were so uncomfortable to be around with, unlike Minhyuk.

Who am I to judge them? You shook your head.

Despite having been on the receiving end of some pretty nasty comments and uncomfortably personal questions from them, you still felt like a bad person for hating them. You had every right not to like being around them but knowing how much Minhyuk liked to hang around with them, you felt bad for disliking them so much. You also couldn’t bring yourself to tell him about it. Instead, you just tried to avoid them as much as possible, turning down every request to hang out with them.

Let’s just ignore them for now… you thought as you exited the bus on your stop.

While the night air felt refreshing in your lungs, your heart was heavy with the stress from school and the thought that you couldn’t bring yourself to like Minhyuk’s friends. You tried to get rid of the lump inside your throat with deep breaths, with no success.

***

“Eating alone?” Minhyuk’s sudden appearance made you smile widely.

He sat down next to you and you nodded. “I thought about skipping lunch but now I’m glad I came. I actually-“

“Look who’s here!” a voice made your body stiffen and as you had feared, Minhyuk’s group of friends appeared from behind you and all sat down at your table. The guy you hated the most sat down opposite you and you felt incredibly uncomfortable as he stared at you with a grin.

“You don’t mind us sitting here, do you?” he asked and even before you could answer, they moved on to talk about some gossip they had heard.

You looked at Minhyuk from the corner of your eye every now and then. He didn’t take part in the conversation and ate in silence, only talking when asked something. Having him sit next to you made you more comfortable, though the loud group of people still made you feel nervous.

“How was work yesterday?” he asked you eventually while the others chatted.

“The usual,” you shrugged.

“Did you get home safely?”

“Yeah. Wait, no, there was something,” your words made him look at you with slight concern. “I got scared by a bird. It flew by out of nowhere. I shrieked a little, for real.”

He was silent for a bit before snickering. “What the…? I thought something serious happened.”

“It was serious! Do you know how horrible it felt? And how embarrassed I was after letting out a loud shriek? People looked at me weirdly.”

He kept laughing and his laugh made you smile subconsciously. You almost forgot that the loud group of people around you even existed. That feeling didn’t last long, though.

“So, here’s the question: are you two dating? Like, do you like him?” one of the girls asked you, bringing you back to reality and causing you to freeze. “Having someone so handsome around, you’ve probably had feelings for him before, right?”

“Don’t be like that,” Minhyuk said to her rather light-heartedly. “Why are you even asking such a thing?”

“Because,” one of the guys said. “You guys have been friends for super long. Don’t tell me you two haven’t had some thoughts about each other before.”

Why this topic of all?

Your long-term crush on your best friend was your biggest secret, hence why the topic made you so uncomfortable. No matter how cliché, you didn’t want Minhyuk to find out about it because you were scared that it would affect your friendship. He had always been there for you and not having him there was a scary thought, to say the least.

“______ probably aims for someone a bit classier, though.”

“Yeah. A doctor or something. Us arts majors are probably a little too rowdy for someone like you, right? You want someone more mature, right?”

“I…” you started, ready to snap at them, but your words got stuck in your throat.

“Stop saying things like that,” Minhyuk stepped in and gave them a look. “Don’t worry, they’re just joking,” he reassured you and you forced a small smile before nodding.

“Sorry,” they apologized half-heartedly and soon moved on to a different topic while you sat there in silence, only staring at your food as your appetite had disappeared.

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I wish there were more moments like these…

You looked at Minhyuk who was picking out a book from one of the shelves nearby. You two were at the library for your traditional study session that you had already been missing for a while. It was one of the rare times you could be alone with him. Being with just him felt comfortable and you always felt happy when you two were alone together.

As your gaze met Minhyuk’s, you quickly looked at your book and pretended to be reading the page you had turned just a few moments ago. He walked back to your table and sat down on his seat. You glanced at him from the corner of your eye and saw a smile on his lips. Subconsciously, you smiled a little too.

Time passed and you two studied in silence. Every now and then you two would check on how the other was doing, occasionally meeting eyes. You both would smile and give each other a thumbs-up at those times and it always gave you a boost of energy.

I can’t remember when I’ve been feeling this happy.

You suddenly got distracted by your own thoughts. While you dug through your memories, there were many unpleasant memories that popped up. Eventually, you forgot what you were digging for and were drowned by all the unpleasant stuff. Especially Minhyuk’s group of friends.

“You know he hangs around with you just because he hasn’t had anyone else for a while, right? You’re not hoping for him to date you, are you?”

The mocking voice of one of the girls rang in your head.

“I can walk you home. Minhyuk’s having fun with the others. I’m sure we can have fun without them, too.”

You shivered in disgust at the memory of standing outside a bar with the worst guy of the group.

“It’s quite fun to have a group of people around me. I’m sure you’ll like them, too!”

Your heart ached as you remembered Minhyuk’s words after the first day at the university.

You turned your head to look at him. You almost wanted to cry, remembering how much closer you had been with him before entering university. Having very conflicting schedules and with his friend group following him everywhere, you two didn’t have many chances to be alone anymore.

“Minhyuk,” you called his name while looking at his focused expression.

“Hmm?”

“We’ve changed,” you stated.

“How so?” he turned to you, seeming oblivious.

As you looked in to his eyes, your heart ached.

“Come on, tell me,” he smiled and leaned on his hand while looking at you in curiosity.

“I feel like we aren’t as close anymore,” you looked down at your book to avoid his gaze.

“What? Why? You know how important you are to me.”

“I… Never mind. I’m just acting stupidly, forget it,” you forced a smile and shook your head.

“No, it’s okay, you can tell me,” he reassured you and you gulped down the lump inside your throat. “Is it because we don’t meet up as often these days?”

You hesitated. “Maybe… I mean, of course I understand you wanting to spend time with your other friends but I kind of just… feel left out?”

When you carefully looked up at him, there was a frown on his face. “That’s just silly.”

His response somehow made you feel worse. “Thank you for the empathy,” you failed to contain your emotions.

“Sorry, I just find it a bit weird,” he chuckled and you could feel your cheeks heat up and wanted to hide from the world. “I mean, we haven’t excluded you at all. You’re the one who has turned down the request every time.”

“Well, I’m sorry for not being able to make it because of…” you paused. “Never mind,” feeling uncomfortable, you got up to leave.

“Where are you going?” he asked with wide eyes as you gathered your stuff. “What’s wrong?”

The pain in your throat was causing tears to gather in your eyes and you packed everything up as quickly as you could to avoid breaking down in front of him.

“______,” he called your name as you finally began to walk away from him, towards the shelves where you had gotten your book.

You wished he wouldn’t follow you as the first tears fell from your eyes and you tried to wipe them away. Once you reached the shelf, you put the book back where it had been - struggling at first - and turned around to leave, only to find Minhyuk standing right in front of you. You flinched in surprise.

“Wait,” he blocked your escape by first putting one and then the other hand against the shelf behind you, causing your eyes to widen in surprise. “What’s wrong?”

You wanted to run away, feeling like your cheeks were burning up and your heart was about to jump out of your chest. You couldn’t look at him in the eye and tried to avoid his gaze the best you could.

“______?”

“I… I just need to go right now…” you mumbled silently, hanging your head low.

He didn’t budge and instead kept looking at you. You made a weak attempt to dry your cheeks but he gently pulled your hands away from your face. When you felt his warm hands cup your face and lift it up, you felt your heart skip a beat. It jumped to your throat as he leaned closer to give your lips a kiss.

Not sure how to react, you stood there frozen for a bit before pushing him away. You couldn’t look at him, afraid to see what kind of a gaze he would be looking at you with.

“I’m sorry,” you apologized and hurried past him, your heart beating loudly in your chest.

PART 2

[wheelthefridge]

in honor of last night having been my last ever shift dishwashing at the same restaurant i’ve been at for the past four years here’s an absurdly long list of random chaotic moments that literally no one asked for that i’ve been compiling since day one:

bj, with a half full gallon of orange juice: this expired two months ago. *pours down drain* that was a long time ago

sam: YOU! I HAVE A BONE TO PICK WITH YOU!! *carries on normally with no explanation* bj: smack that! that too! smack those vegetables! punch that burger in the nose! chop that bun! bob: no, flick the bun. you have to flick it. 

*bad and boujee playing* bj: walks into kitchen, singing bj: you better know when to hold em, know when to fold em, know when to walk away, know when to run bj: walks out of kitchen, still singing

me: hey can you put the wet floor sign out for me dylan: sure dylan: *slips while putting the sign out* me:

sam: get this- i haven’t smoked pot in like three days and my brain is ready to roll! yeah!

joe: ha! oldest trick in the book i just started writing 

dude @bar: ten percent of people are over 6'1" other dude: what about 6'2"  dude 1: what? no. ten percent of people are OVER 6'1" - so that includes 6'2" dude 2: idk I know a lot of tall guys. taller than me dude 1: what? i’m saying- just- ten percent of everyone in the whole world- you know how many people there are in the world? 7 billion– dude 2: i thought it was six billion  dude 1: no, 7 billion- ten percent of 7 billion—

joe, digging through the trash: i’m just gonna peruse through here,, aaaaannnd….. nope not here me: what’re u looking for Joe: …..a book

didi: is eating a pistachio  katherine: is that sour cream

sam: some dirty whorebag wants two pickles 

joe: sam she am. that’s right. dr seuss wrote a book about her 

katherine: oh my goddd this song is always on i’m so tired of it joe: is it? i don’t think i’ve heard it before carolyn: eh it’s all just one long brazilian song to me

katherine: look at my straw i put it in the pencil sharpener 

sam: i’m on crack cocaine. you heard it here

sam, aggressively putting silverware in the tray: just the way the cookie crumbles me: yeah? sam, fake crying: yes

adele: if you’re ready- sam: what if I’m not bob: too bad. she only cares if she’s ready

something: *breaks* sam: time for the mop. and by mop i mean… this thing *holds up dustpan*

mike: you should go on junior master chef…. and only make fries 

sam, quietly as she speedwalks by me: panic panic panic panic panic panic panic panic

sam, beginning of the night: my goal is to make at least forty bucks tonight. hopefully sixty sam, later that night: i’ve made five dollars

sam, pouring a drink into the trash right next to the sink: you know, im not sure why i poured that in the trash. i’ve had a very off day

katherine, after accidentally spraying salsa on herself: i just sprayed salsa all over myself bj: i feel like that too sometimes. i love salsa so much

sam: can you imagine if i did like hardcore drugs how messed up i would be- i’m messed up soberly

someone: what’re you supposed to feed twenty kids  kerry: pizza bj: vodka 

sam: will you let bob know there’s gonna be seven in the snug bj: seven in the snug? that’s my band name. we’re really good

edson: *spins cover on counter and stares at it for solid thirty seconds before putting his finger down to stop it* edson: good. 

sam: what should i draw bj: you should draw casey, hanging from a cliff, with a pterodactyl flying towards them who is on fire, but, seems optimistic about it 

bj: life is too short for low fat cheese. remember that. 

sam, beginning of night, in a really good mood: guess what i’m drunk and high right now  sam, later that night: i was just pouring a beer and i dropped it. like my hand just let go of it sam, end of night: i’m never doing this again 

joe: you know who didn’t clock out yet?? i have two thumbs! joe: ……wait joe: you know who has two thumbs and hasn’t clocked out yet?? this guy!! me: there ya go buddy

bob: i’ve slept fifteen hours in the past four days me: that’s not good bob: yeah

edson: look edson: *holds out hand with top spinning in his palm* *giggles*

sam: i cannot wait for this day to be over  me: it’s barely started  sam: i took a shot before i got here. i have more in my car

bob: hi sam sam: hi bob  didi: hi sam sam: fuck off

joe: her? oh yeah her name is sarah whitaker  katherine: oh i think i know her joe: that’s funny because i just made that up. i’m willing to bet money that she’s nineteen tho me: why joe: bc i overheard her say that she’s nineteen

joe: i’m gonna send you a video but you can’t watch it now it’s needs full attention with headphones and the lights off 

bj: if you lose your hand, don’t replace it with a fork. that would be a bad choice. i know it’s probably the cheapest option, right up there with stick, but just spend the money. 

bj, on a different day: i think if you were to get your hands cut off, getting them replaced with plates would be a very bad idea. you can dig. and you can toss. but that’s about it. no playing the saxophone.  

colby: *doesn’t show up to work* bj: maybe i should leave him a message of just me crying 

katherine: i think an old man just asked me to live with him

sam: wait *pulls celery strings out of her mouth* that just came out of my throat

bob: i’m such a grump tonight. i’m in a good mood i’m just so grumpy.  bob: maybe i’m not in a good mood…

bj, after sending christa downstairs to get liquor for the bar: i put a live cobra down there too so… if she comes back with it dead in her hands…. she’s a champ. and that’s that. 

bj: i had a dog today did you have a dog? me: no bj: oh. well. 

dylan, holding phone camera at joe: hey joe can you pull ur shirt down joe, pulling the collar of his shirt halfway down his chest: yeah like this? dylan, taking picture: yeah thanks 

bj: HI-YAH carley: you’re a ninja!! bj: yes. don’t be alarmed. i only use my powers for good. 

bj, with one bottle in each hand, pouring water in the sink, mimicking cow milking motions: it’s like a cow. mooooooeeeeeeuuuuuhhhhhhgggg aaaaaauuuuuueuejhshhsii. that’s what cows sound like right?

bj: we have a dog, and we’re getting chickens. i’m not really sure why were getting chickens. do i consider myself a farmer? not really. 

bj: we should make a youtube channel of just me saying really random things to you and you not responding to me whatsoever me: mhmm

nancy: I’m sleeping

sam: *pours drink out on counter next to sink* sam: wHAT the FuCK was that!? why did i do that?? i’ve lost it! i’ve hit rock bottom!!

sam: *bends over* ughhhhhhhhhhhhh *straightens up* ok i’m fine

bj: yum! that’s how i rate the soup. two yums up!! *laughs for like a full minute*

sam: i got my motorcycle license over the weekend and now all everyone’s saying to me is “no don’t get a motorcycle they’re so dangerous” like shut the fuck up if i die i die it’s my choice 

bj: i think if i were to be turned into some kind of commercial type of food, if i got turned into a nugget, i think i’d be indignant. i’ve lived my whole life and now i’m a nugget??? “oh i was a great roasted-“ i was a nugget. i was eaten with fries out of a box with a small soda. 

bj: hello everybody. i have arrived. please remain calm.  bob: *screams*

radio: the fastest lawn mower in the world goes up to 150 miles per hour! bob: …….why??

sam: i just meowed in scotty’s face and he was completely unfazed by it. like a full on Meow. 

bob: lemme just touch these live wires with my wet hands  bj: bob has gone offline

katherine: i totally forgot to put their order in for i don’t even know how long me: ……..i’m sure it’ll be fine katherine: i mean, nothing matters, right? right. nothing matters. 

bj: hey did you guys hear that kate: yeah what was that bj: oh i was just yelling……….. about the soup kate: me: katherine: bj: i’ll try to keep it down next time

bob: you sleep a lot when you’re old. it’s just practice for death. getting ready for The Big Sleep. let’s see how do i wanna go out? on my back?? nah not for me. on my front babey! 

didi: hi sam sam: SHUT UP didi, quieter: okay…… sam: i love you  didi: no bj: so you’re a grownup now. that’s means you have to do grown up things, like, pay for dinner and stuff? me: uh huh bj: it’s all downhill from here 

bj: pon pon the van poco. right? me: mhmm bj: probably. i mean. i’m no doctor, but

random woman @ bar: we are the matrix. We. Are. The Matrix. 

bj, to the tune of frosty the snowman: clunkity clunk clunk clunkity clunk clunk look at all this stuff. clunkity clunk clunk clunkity clunk clunk making casey’s job tough! pretty good right?? i just made it up 

bj: *walks into kitchen* YES! that’s all i have to say. that’s it. BOBS killing it. DIDIS killing it. casey MURDERED it. you’re welcome. *walks out of kitchen* bj: today is the second day in a row my dog has eaten my lunch. yesterday and then today. it’s my own fault really bob: well you know what they say about men who like floppy french fries. *doesn’t elaborate*

sam: there’s a toy baby in my section. like just a toy baby taking up a seat in my section. what do i do like do i move the bitch? do i leave her there??

bob, talking to himself: if you get sick tomorrow, just remember. it’s your own fault for eating food off the floor. 

bob, to katherine: no, you don’t have to mop the carpet

bj: cheeeesy. 

laura: if i get through tonight without a heart attack it’ll be incredible. if i do have a heart attack tho just let me go

caldo: *unintelligible yelling* SELLING my BODY for SEX *more unintelligible yelling*

bob: my fathers brother sent all his kids to australia. i guess he figured at least one of them would make it

caldo: i don’t trust people who go out to eat tuna fish

bob: can you make some more guacamole soon we’re running low laura: pulls five (5) avocados from her pockets 

bob: he looks like jesus. well. he looks like what white people think jesus looked like

sam: yeah. Please. eat some more mother Fucking crackers. 

bj: i feel like i gave birth to the eggplant stacks tonight. and honestly? if my child looked like that? i’d be proud. proud to have an eggplant child

bj: alright everybody let’s get the fuf out of here!! i said fuf not f- it’s safe. f u f starts and ends with soft letters no one gets hurt. any word that starts with a soft letter and ends with a hard letter is bad news… i feel like every time i come in here i annoy you guys. casey’s one dumbass comment away from killing me. “hey so what are your thoughts on grass?” “that’s it” *mimics shooting a gun*

ilia: -and the dogs gonna get diabetes- katherine, indignantly: i cleaned it really well!

mickey: i’ll tell you one thing. crack is good. 

sam: some lady just rolled up to the bar, no bra, nipples beamin through the shirt- LETS GET IT!!!!

caldo: *speed walks into kitchen and shotguns a beer over the trash* ok i’m back. i should not have smoked this morning

dom: little kid just picked up a knife and went “oh cool i can stab someone” me, katherine, and sam in unison: good dom: yeah the dad took it away 

sam: my friend was like “why is your go to dance move just to snap” and i was like “i don’t know, i’m white” *shrugs*

bj: someone just asked me if i’m having fun. am i having fun? i don’t know if i’m having fun. there are certainly other things i’d rather be doing right now, but i don’t know if i can definitively say that i’m Not having fun. 

bj: some jobs require Only a ladle bj, thirty seconds later, after walking away and coming back: sometimes, also a funnel

bj, @ laura who’s eating cornbread: you cornbread eating chef!!!  laura: bj: laura: bj: i’m just saying facts in a weird way. you know like you’re in trouble. 

sam: *war cry* *spits out gum* *walks away*

bj: what kind of smoothie? Soup Smoothie!!

katherine: so this woman ordered some hot water so i gave it to her and her husband says you know what that’s for right and i’m like ….to drink? and he says nope! and doesn’t explain so i’m just like ………..okay! and walk away bc i don’t even want to know 

bj: there’s no shame in it! A Grown Man Can Bathe In Yogurt!!!

bj, leaning down very close to to-go box: i love you

bob: anyone want a drink? brian: whatever’s your strongest bob: milk it is

guy at bar: sUE HIM?!?!??? oh i’d sue him yeah

sam: who orders something extra cold?? like, you need to Die now thanks. 

sam: do you dare me to drink this buffalo sauce me: yes laura, walking by: snort it

sam: one more day. just one more day laura: of what sam: waking up

bob: *is trying to explain easter to jewish laura* laura: wait so he died… then he came back to life?? then he died Again??? bob: he died. then he came back just to tell people he was alive. then he said SEE YA and ascended to heaven

sam: i HATE margaritas. i don’t know why i just made myself one. 

bob: wow. i have this overpowering urge to just go home. 

bj, putting back a slotted spoon: this is a bad choice for dressing. a bad choice. 

me: *catches a plate about to fall* bj: woah! smooth moves!! spider-man? maybe. 

danny: so you know how at my other job everyone calls me daddy?

sam: *dumps out two full wine glasses* i fucked up. tell no one. 

me: remember when we used to be able to leave early? bob: no. i think we imagined it. 

danny: i didn’t realize we served DICK here -a few min later- danny: sorry i just got out of work and i’m all fired up

sam: my moms drunk and she won’t go home

bob: hey wasn’t that slang for mari- bj: cocaine. 

bj: *kicks kitchen door open* YEE-HAW!!!!

danny: sorry casey  me: what for  danny: for having to deal with me me: yeah *shrugs* danny: they should pay you more me: yeah

didi: i kill you ilia: do it now didi: no ilia: do it i wanna die

danny, about a burger: we’ve got ourselves a squirter!!

sam: is that a chicken patty  sydney: it’s my dog

sam, on my last night with her: lets get casey TRASHED tonight

sam: are you gonna go dancing in new york didi: yes laura: whore it up

[dorkylittleweirdo]

Last giant camp post unless i think of more stuff and I probably will

So this is from the last day

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We were all in a huddle before any of the kids got there (so all the instructors and assistants) and everyone was saying at least one good or memorable thing that happened to them this summer. SV goes "AL FARTED RIGHT. HERE AND THAT WS THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME" and AL is like oml and our little cheer we did when put our hands in was "AL FARTED"

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One of my girls brought me starbucks and another gave me a popsicle

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Assistants and instructors were playing this game called assassin and we had to mark someone's hand with a sharpie to kill them and everyone had an assigned person so it was a mess

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So SB had me bc she tried to get me twice then DENIED that she had me so I obviously called bs but ya know

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So me and J were in the classroom helping with retakes and NOTHING was where it should be. So 3 different people came in and told him what to do and he got fucking stressed as shit and I was gently like "hey go outside for a sec and take a breather, I can handle everything in here" and he's like "nah I got this" but then someone else came in and told him what to do and he lost it and yelled and said he quit (he didn't actually he was just fed up) and I was like "ok go outside, go to the break room, go somewhere outside of this room for a few minutes and I'll take care of everything and come back for you when it's all set up"

So he agreed and walked outside for a while and holy fuck there was so much to do and so little time. So I was running around making copies and passing out tests and telling people who needed to do what and 2 other assistants came in (SB and ST) and started fucking around and I was like "if you're not going to help, LEAVE" and they never see me pissed off and stressed to that extent so they were freaked. ST left and SB stayed and I was like "ok you need to do this, and this is your one and only warning, my fight or flight instinct is HIGHTENED rn so if you touch me in any way, I WILL hit you with whatever's in my hand and probably apologize later" and she's like "oh shit ok"

so I have a folder in my hand, I'm calling out names, what's this bitch do? Comes up behind me and marks me with the sharpie, I wheeled around and smacked her with it and glared at her and she's laughing like ok bitch sorry this fucking game was more important to you than me not having a fucking panic attack. So I go "leave" and she's like "oh come on it's the game-" "I told you if you weren't going to help, then leave. So get out. Now" and she's like "ok damn" so I FINALLY finished everything and I went out to get J and he's like "damn how bad did it go" and I'm like "what" and he goes "idk man you looked pissed off and you're shaking" and I'm like "oh yeah bc SB and ST were fucking around and ST left but SB stayed and pretended to help so she could mark me after I literally said I was super stressed and to not touch me or Bad Things would happen and now Anxiety Has Peaked" and he's like "oh shit sit down when we get in there"

So I be sitting and then SB comes back in and I'm still pussed at her I'm like "you're grading the tests when the kids give them to you and putting the tests in the folders" and me and J helped answer questions after J explained how to grade the tests

So she finished grading then left and me and J high fived like "we almost fucking died but it's all good now"

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Our boss brought us food and it was Really Fucking Good

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Gave a child my stand up paddle board in exchange for his normal board and he was hype and so was I bc i hate SUPs

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Found out at the end of the day that SB graded the tests WRONG and we had to regrade them

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Dumped ice on SB

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So I never left the lake yesterday and neither did my friend H bc it be like that sometimes. So we went to a burger place and got fries and shakes and banana splits and it was really good

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Got cough drops at the 7/11 and H got a slushie and wouldn't stop singing freeze your brain and I was dying and I joined her but then like 4 other people joined in including one of the workers and I was crying

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So we were doing our rewards ceremony and assistants sit with the instructors up front so we all had to introduce ourselves when our group went up. E and J introduced themselves and people cheered, the other 2 assistants said their names and how long they've been there and stuff but nobody did anything, then it was my turn and I was like "hey what's up I'm JC-" and it was too loud for me to finish right away bc ALL my kids were SCREAMING and the top of their lungs like normal screaming, "woooo", "we love you", normal stuff, then when it was dying down and I was about to finish my thing one of my boys screams "CHEESE BUTT FUNGUS" bc that was our inside joke for the session bc reasons and I was laughing while I finished and one of the supervisors is like wtf

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I won a leadership award ^-^

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All my kids ran for me and were crying and hugging me and I'm like "I'll see you guys next summer it's oK"

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I thanked all the instructors for everything and they're "oml child ;0;" and there was a lot of hugging and crying

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TL pulled me aside and was like "ok so I might not be here next summer-" and I was like ";0; nooo TL-" and she's like "bruh I'm not done" and told me how proud she is of me and how much I've grown since i was a tiny 12 year old and she hopes I'll have a good life and be more confident with myself and that she can call me her for real coworker in a couple years and I was Crying and so was she and it was a mess

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I was the last assistant left and I was helping clean up and JJ saw me taking in the last few paddle boards and it like "JC what are you still doing here??? l e a v e" and I was like "oml fine" I said bye to everyone and that I'd see them next summer

[yellowpeach]

For the film asks, all of them? (2010/Chris Evans/Brie Larson/Edgar Wright for the *insert here* questions)

ahh!!! thank you so much for asking anon! this will take a while so i will probs stick most of it under a cut :)

a movie you’ve seen most times in cinema.

i answered this one here!

your most rewatched movie.

that’d be between toy story, the lord of the rings trilogy, moulin rouge, to all the boys i’ve loved before and this weird animated film called tubby the tuba. my grandma owned it on vhs and i spent basically every school holiday at her house so i watched it more times than i can think of!

a movie you quote on a daily basis.

i quote dumb youtube videos more than films on a regular basis, but i do quote a lot of lord of the rings lines like “it comes in pints?!” or anything else that comes out of one of the hobbits mouths.

favorite movie soundtrack

probably moulin rouge? that or the first guardians of the galaxy. they’re the only two that i still own on CD..

top 5 films of your favorite actor and actress

okay so my initial thought for favourite actor is actually tom hanks, so in that case.

forrest gump

philadelphia

toy story

 the green mile

larry crowne (not the most amazing film in the world but it’s so endearing to me!)

and for actress i would probably say toni colette? her or blake lively, but i don’t have a top five for either of them. for toni it’d be;

about a boy

muriel’s wedding

miss you already

and for blake it’d be;

a simple favor

the age of adeline

elvis and annabelle

top 5 performances of your favorite actor and actress.

see above, they’re one and the same to me.

a movie storyline you wish you had actually lived.

about time. might be biased since i’m watching it now, but it’d be nice to do things over if i could.

a movie that reminds you of your mum.

local hero. i’ve watched it with her many times and it’s one of her favourites.

a movie that reminds you of your dad.

any of the harry potter films. we went to all of them at the cinema together.

favorite movies from your childhood.

it’s gonna be toy story again. this will likely be a running theme, i fucking love this movie.

favourite quote(s).

too many to count from the lord of the rings. sam’s monologue at the end of the two towers, gandalf speaking to pippin in return of the king. also sam saying “i can’t carry it for you, but i can carry you!”. this is really just a love letter to sam now, isn’t it….

top 5 favorite female performances.

i would have to come back to this, i can’t brain right now.

top 5 favorite male performances.

see above.

favourite year for movies.

after googling, it looks like 1993 was a bloody good year.

your favorite movies from [insert year].

2010 is the year you mentioned and from looking on google, my faves are toy story 3, how to train your dragon, black swan, scott pilgrim vs the world, easy a, megamind, tangled, AHH DAYDREAM NATION CAME 2010!! MY FAVE!! man, 2010 was a good one :D

favorite [insert actor/actress/director] movies?

so you said chris evans, brie larson and edgar wright. so faves in order would be:

short term 12

captain america: the winter soldier

hot fuzz or the world’s end (can’t pick between the two soz)

list all you’ve seen from [insert actor/actress/director].

so many, my dude. so many.

an underrated actor.

brain is fried. i’m sure there’s some but i’m blanking hard.

an underrated actress.

see above.

an underrated director.

see above.

an overrated actor.

johnny fucking depp.

an overrated actress.

scarlett johansson soz lol

an overrated director.

QUENTIN FUCKING TARANTINO

a film you wish you had seen on the big screen.

like any of my favourite 80s movies or the original psycho. also the lord of the rings, for some reason my folks didn’t take me to those.

a movie you’ve seen that you think no one else’s here will have heard of?

i am yet to encounter someone who knows the previously mentioned tubby the tuba.

favorite movie characters.

steve rogers, rapunzel from tangled, leia skywalker, lara-jean song-covey

a film that was better than the book.

i love to all the boys i loved before, but the film captured me in a way that the book didn’t as much.

best remake.

i’d watch tom holland or andrew garfield over tobey maguire for spiderman any day fight me.

your first favorite actor.

probably orlando bloom? back when i was a wee bab, i watched anything of his that i could find at the video rental.

your first favorite actress.

hilary duff probably. child me watched all of lizzie mcguire and any movies of hers.

favorite animated film.

if you’ve read this far and can’t figure it out, i don’t know what to say. it’s toy story, obviously.

your most anticipated films.

endgame and basically any other superhero movie coming out, toy story 4, the sequel for to all the boys i’ve loved before, the richard curtis movie called yesterday that is coming out in june (???) i think, STAR WARS.

last movie that disappointed you.

sierra burgess is a loser. fuck, no one else wanted that movie to be good as much as i did.

last movie that surpassed your expectations

nothing will ever match how blown away i was by pacific rim when i saw it. i went with my cousin knowing literally NOTHING about it. also i guess 2017′s it. i’m not big on seeing horror at the cinema and i didn’t expect to find it as funny as i did because the kids in it were so great.

actor in need of new agent.

idk bruh, i can’t think of anything right now for this.

actress in need of new agent.

see above.

share an unpopular film opinion you have.

idk how unpopular this is because i’m pretty sure thanks to #metoo most people want these kind of people want out of hollywood, but i despise woody allen and roman polanski films. the fact that i had to study them while getting my degree is despicable, and the argument that they’ve done a lot for the film industry is trash. don’t make their work important, studying it so thoroughly gives it power and i want to never have to speak about their trash again.

favorite Oscar win/speech.

who couldn’t say olivia colman’s from this years oscars. that warmed my cold dead heart and i cried for her.

biggest Oscar snub(s).

arrival should have won/been nominated for more than it did.

who do you think is overdue for another nomination/win?

amy adams!!! she was so fucking amazing in arrival, i wanted her to win all of the things.

how many movies have you seen (rough estimation)?

must be hundreds (not that these answers are any indication since i’ve talked about approx four films) since i own hundreds of DVDs, i go to the cinema regularly, i am constantly watching stuff on netflix and any other streaming services.

a movie that made you go ‘wtf was that’.

un chien andalou, requiem for a dream and mothlight. the first two because they’re fucking disturbing, the last one because its just close ups of parts of moths and i had to watch it for a film paper. it’s a no from me.

a film that scarred you.

the mummy. the beetle under the skin gave me nightmares and i haven’t been able to watch it since.

most movies watched in a single day.

i havent’t taken notes, but i did watch all of the mcu movies with cap in them recently in a day?

a film that always makes you cry.

coco. i’ve yet to make it through without having a full on mental breakdown for the last third of that movie. also marley and me because doggos. and the last part of mamma mia: here we go again. and philadelphia. the take away from this answer is that i cry a lot in movies.

a film that always makes you laugh.

hot fuzz. in my first flat we watched it nearly everyday for like two weeks when we all moved in and watching it makes me think of how much we all laughed and quoted it to one another.

movies that you think everyone should watch (not necessarily your favorites).

get out, psycho, star wars, at least one classic film noir, arrival, the cornetto trilogy, back to the future. there’s more but i think this is a good starter for what i at least find to be important viewing.

a movie that took you a couple of viewings to appreciate.

honestly probably the lord of the rings. they didn’t really click with me until high school, and then they really really clicked. also fight club i guess; the second time around watching it, i got the toxic masculinity themes more. it sucks that men read that movie as the exact opposite.

a book you want to see adapted to the big screen.

i believe i already answered this here!

a book you really, really, really don’t want to see made into a film.

does jk rowling’s twitter count? i want to see nothing more from the harry potter universe that she has had anything to do with.

favorite child performance.

the kids in the goonies and it 2017 come to mind. let kids act like kids!!!

favorite pre-code.

mate, you are making the assumption that i remember enough of the old films i studied in my degree, and that i remember the pre-code dates. i’m sure i have one, but that is buried far too deep in my brain to actually remember.

Favorite silent film.

i really enjoyed the buster keaton stuff we watched when i did my history of film paper.

favorite coming of age film.

boyhood, love simon, the edge of seventeen, my girl (i’ll be honest, i just googled coming of age movies and picked my faves from the top results. doesn’t mean i don’t stand by these!!)

favorite superhero film.

captain america: the winter soldier, spiderman: into the spiderverse, black panther and the dark knight rises.

best cinematography.

i still really like her and wes anderson for their cinematography.

movies you know you should watch, but can’t bring yourself to do it?

so fucking many, my dude. the amount of movies i wrote essays about when i had watched maybe three scenes and read the synopsis is insane. after getting a degree in it, and with how burned out i got, i found it very hard to give a shit about classics that lecturers told me were important. the big one is the godfather; it’ll be a cold day in hell when i finally watch that one.

favorite genres.

i’m a sucker for anything romantic. also film noir, superheroes, animated, female-led, stuff set in the 80s, lgbt film (that isn’t gross and exploitative), comedy horrors. idk man, it’s hard to describe.

least favorite genres.

dull as fuck period pieces that say approximately nothing new and hash out the same old tired shit about treatment of poc and/or women. comedies in the same vein of austin powers, napoleon dynamite and sasha baron cohen stuff. white feminist narratives. anything that is shitty about fat women. 

biggest movie pet peeve.

dark for no fucking reason!!! let films be bright and happy!!! ya girl hates having to strain her eyes to see what the heck is going on.