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favouritefi · 2 years

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i think the reason young edizzy is so compelling is bc its like: i knew you when you were a boy, i knew you when you were a man, i knew you before you became legend and fairy-tale and self-made monster. i knew you when you had scraped knees and not enough to eat and we bonded over the bruises on our wrists like they were war trophies and not the last signs of our youth. i knew you were running away, i was too. i knew you, i saw me in you.

#i knew you were going to be amazing #and i didnt want to get left behind #now look!#my worst fears realized #edizzy #izzy hands

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aimlesspoet · 5 months

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a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

#my worst fears have been realized #i should trust my instincts sometimes #autism #asd #autistic #autistic community #actually autistic #autistic adult #autistic things #neurodivergent #neurodiversity

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knifearo · 10 months

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being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

#aromantic people are just sexy i'm not making the decisions here it's just facts #course ur hot as fuck. it came free with the aromanticism #being sexy is just default settings for aromantic people 👍#hope this all helps. anyway i'm on my 'i hope i die alone <3 i can't wait to die alone <3' kick rn #i think the existential fear that people have of Not Partnering specifically is so. well.#obviously that shit is strong and it is SO awesome to be free of it.#realizing you're aro and you don't Want a partner can be such a hit to the solar plexus #cause society says that's the only thing that'll make you happy. so either you go without that thing or you force yourself #into doing something you don't want which would make you unhappy anyway.#so you think it's a lose lose situation and you have to come to terms with what amatonormativity presents as the worst possible situation #but then! whoa! turns out personhood is inherently valuable in and of itself and romantic partnering is just a construct!#and that nightmare is now your life to do with as you please... define as you will... structure as you want...#best case scenario. is what i'm saying.#every day i wake up ready to spit all that amatonormative rhetoric back in life's teeth by being alone and being happy #and it's so fucking satisfying. every day.#fucking JUBILANT being by myself. and i love being a living breathing 'fuck you' to the romantic system #you need a partner to be happy? oh that's sooo fucking crazy guess i'll go be miserable then. in my perfect fucking dream life lmao #yeah obviously it's the worst possible outcome on earth to die without a partner. so terrible. can't wait for it :)#aromantic #aromanticism #aro positivity #aroace #arospec #sorry to bitches who are sad about not having a partner. i could not give a fuck though get better soon #you couldn't EVER pay me enough to go back to a mindset in which my inherent value wasn't enough by myself.#FUCK that shit. absolutely miserable and a bad life outlook in general. like genuinely do the work w/ amatonormativity and get better #life is something that can be so fulfilling whether someone wants to kiss you or whatever or not #i'm on antidepressants and i have people i care deeply about. what the fuck would i need a partner for lmao

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shivjoys · 1 year

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i was so caught up in the euphoria of logan roy dying that for a minute i lived in a world where shiv pregnancy arc didn't exist

#succession spoilers #SHE NEEDS TO KILL TOM FOR REAL.#MY WORST FEAR HAS BEEN REALIZED....#i'm weary of pregnancy arcs in general. i feel like they're often very weak but here's hoping this will be a fun kind of miserable #i trust them to narratively make it work but. sigh.#in this case it feels like low hanging fruit to isolate shiv as the odd woman out

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atopvisenyashill · 3 months

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the part of b&c that hits the most for me. is that they mention that helaena picks maelor because she’s trying to spare him some pain. he’s the youngest, he’s the spare, how aware is he at that age anyways, so maybe death, for him, is less traumatic than watching his brother die. not just the horror of choosing to save jaehaerys because he’s the heir, he’s more important, but also that she picks maelor because maybe for all of them including maelor it won’t hurt as much.

and then they make sure it hurts so much more anyways.

#this isn’t a critique by the way i was just thinking about b&c #like part of her hoping the one that dies will be spared some sort of pain had they lived. but b&c says ‘no we’ll make sure #that maelor understands exactly what’s happening here in the worst way possible.’ sucks 😭😭😭#blood and cheese #helaena targaryen #i know they’re gonna stay really vague with the magic bc they hate being a fantasy show #buy god i wish helaena was a dreamer in george’s canon there’s just so much here.#of like. everything she could be thinking. when she’s realizing. it’s going to happen exactly as she feared.#getting on my soap box

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silver-cyn · 5 months

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X men ‘97

Ya’ll, I was on episode 3 and tonight I blew through the rest of the episodes. I am all caught up.

All I can say is wow. Damn.

Gambit 💔💔💔

Genosha 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Rogue went Rogue. Was she right or wrong? I don’t care. Seeing her take the kid gloves off and let loose was cathartic.

Episode 8 Magneto did a thing. And he did it very well! The music and Val’s voiceover went perfectly over what he did.

I really appreciate all the things xmen 97 is saying. Because my ideal way is Charles’s way, but keeping it real, I would most likely be lining up behind Magneto.

Is there a middle ground? Where does it end? When you try over and over to do the right thing, the right way but the people are not having it. When is enough enough? How far can you go before you cross the line? So easy to talk about the ideal way of doing things but when you’re being beat down over and over for just being yourself? It wears you down. It can grind you down into the dust. It’s natural to fight back for your right to live. And then you have others trying to do things peacefully. That is not an easy walk AT ALL. How do they do it? Because they are going through it too .This show omg…

Ok - I’m going to step back and soak in the feels from all this.

I love this show. ❤️❤️❤️

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sunsetzer · 6 months

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On one hand, I want a final fantasy 6 remake, because the game is criminally underrated and the amount of fan content (which is all absolutely fantastic btw) is Not Enough for my neurodivergent, hyperfixating brain.

On the other hand, that would inevitably encourage more people to join the fandom, which would be great, except it seems these days the bigger a fandom gets the more toxic it becomes, and I really like what we have going on over here in our little corner. We all just love the game and its characters and nobody fights about who should and shouldn't date who or who you shouldn't like because they're ~problematique~. Nobody's trying to make one ship morally better than another, nobody's calling anyone names or threatening to doxx people who don't agree with their opinions. It's so peaceful and I love that for us. We're just vibing. Moisturized. Unbothered. In our lane. Flourishing.

#as someone who was in an extremely toxic and chaotic fandom and lowkey still traumatized #to the point where I'm afraid to mention which fandom it was/what my ship was #i have to say #i genuinely love it here #i was nervous at first sharing my ships and headcanons but everyone is so chill i was worried for nothing #thank you to everyone I've interacted with who has made this fandom a healing experience for me #i shudder to think about what some of the people i interacted with in a previous fandom would do with ff6 #probably would take edgar's flirting at face value and call him problematic for objectifying women #instead of considering the narrative and what we know about him and the way he actually treats women #my man drinks loving and respecting women juice he's not a creep #or that weird moment with relm that admittedly made me double take before i realized what he meant #theyd have a whole campaign against him lmfao #bc those people boil characters alive until they're just a formless pile of tropes and stereotypes #and seem to disregard all positive aspects of a character they don't like which is fine #but then they go and try to force other people to think like they do and ugh #theres a lot of silly moments in the game and aspects of these characters that make them well rounded and realistically flawed at times #and i fear that would get lost in the chaos if the floodgates opened after a remake #maybe im just jaded lmao #im jaded and i have anxiety so im always thinking about The Worst Case Scenario #the collective positive spirit of the dwellers in this fandom might actually foster a positive space if more people were to come in #ff6 #my post #i was gonna say maybe this is bc we're mostly adults #but that falls flat when i remember how some of the most toxic and immature people in some fandoms are grown ass adults #who bully each other and younger fans #and some of the most mature and cool people were actually younger #maybe ff6 fans are just built different lmao #also idk how old anyone else actually is there might be teenagers here i just don't think about it a lot

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boxwinebaddie · 1 month

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hey uncle nina do u happen to have that one para where u talked abt how jersey couldn't say ily during sbst and stan was like super sad abt it? i tried looking for it on ur blog but i can't find it</3

t-the...

tHE DIVORCE PARA???>?@?@?@?3/2/

YOU WANT THE FUCKDISNFN DIVORCE PARA????!!!?!?!

noooooOOOOOOoOooOo!!!!!!!!! :'(

i......Siiiigh.

goddamnit, guys. what happened to 'we hope you heal, uncle nina!' wAS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT I DIED ONCE??? I GOTTA DIE TWICE?!

but....because i love you very much, i will link it for you.

edit: oh god, i am reading it rn and it is soooo rough, i'm am so sorry. cringe. goofy aa. oof. later today, i might reopen it and just so we can suffer i will have it start mid sbst ( which, assumes i can write the smut which, no promises ) and then have it end with ravenstan leaving ( fuuuck lmao, like that fight does not even end there, we're in H-E-L-L holy shit ) because i hate my life but...anyways....

without further ado,

Please Enjoy The WORST

( and i do mean THE /WOOOORST/ )

Part Of Your Day...Maybe Your Life.

-uncle nina, who is going to request a lobotomy at her doctors appointment to forgot the divorce happened.

#yall would do this to me #right before my doctors appt #GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD #no i am so sad i am actually so sad and this is just a fragment of it the whole thing is so fucking upsetting and sad #LIKE HE WANTED TO SAY IT HE JUST CANT HE HAS TRAUMA LIKE HE MEANS IT THO HE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #it was so horrible like the second raven realizes that hes just #been saying i love you this whole time #and jersey has just been saying me too #FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK #HORRIBLE #AND DURING SBST TOO LIKE MAN WHAT THE FUCK #MID SBST LIKE THAT IS JAIL WORTHY THEY WERE HAPPY #and when i tell u ravenstan NEVER EVER EVER GETS MAD EVER you know it was GNARLY u know it ruined his life </3 #lover boy king wow its so horrible bc like no one has ever loved anyone more that jk loves rs too hes just a weapon #and doesnt know how to emote and turned that part of his brain off and cant switch it back on and its scary and #dO YOU SEE HIM STRUGGLIN LIKE JK NEVER EVER EVER BEGS ANYONE AND HE WAS ON HIS HANDS AND KNEES #SCARY ASS JK LIKE SCARY AS FUCK LIKE WHIMPERING AND SHAKIN HE WAS SO SCARED HE WAS INCONSOLABLE #and it triggerin a rs bp episode and him goin out into the snow in a tshirt and shorts and Leaving which is jks WORST FEAR #like losing him AGAIN???? AND ITS HIS FAULt #help im gonna end it all if you dont hear from me im ruined #jk cried after that btw for the first time in a very long time #and he did it alone and in rs clothes knees to his chest :(

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aahsoka · 1 year

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ok conception dream call is funny but are you actually trying to imply shes pregnant after their FIRST time having sex?? i know theyre in love or whatever but did yall not use protection ?????? i guess if theyre happy but an unplanned pregnancy is like a nightmare to me hahaha

i hope she just means like. in the future

#jordan talks #destined with you #i dont like ‘they have a kid’ plots unless its a time skip ……….#like i want that child to be planned if im gonna find that sweet lol #ITS ESPECIALLY HEINOUS IF ITS THE FIRST TIME YOU SLEEP TOGETHER LIKE OH MY GOD #the episode was really cute but now she’s unconscious again i guess #i just hate the idea of getting pregnant after the first night together like let them have some fun procreation free sex for a little bit ok #let them have some fun .#a child is a lot of responsibility #i mean its a kdrama its gonna be a lil heteronormative its gonna be a lil conservative #its just like oh thats my worst fear realized #i know they arent me but it is kinda like damn now ive been taken out of the cuteness and confronted with reality lol #is it too much to ask for a planned pregnancy ………….#me and my bf are just like extremely overcautious people so i just cant see how that happens tbh lmfao

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love4hobi · 1 year

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who goes away to the military for 3 months and comes back this cuntalicious i need to study him

#like this is my worst fear realized that he pops out at the end of his enlistment serving harder than ever before

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frmulcahy · 1 year

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#I personally prefer an Adam parallel but I realize that’s a bit more like reincarnation and christianity doesn’t fuck w that #also. would it be another immaculate conception or another baby swap #because if it’s the former fucking rip to whoever gets stuck in the role of mary that was my Worst Fear growing up 💀#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens theory #good omens season 2

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angelstrawbabie420 · 2 days

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grief will have you saying shit like goddamn and fuck maybe the abuse was worth it

#ive made this post before i just cant find it and it’s all im feeling rn #god i miss my parents so fucking much even though they were the cause of SO MANY of my problems that idk if i’ll ever heal from #but navigating life w this grief and without their support- however little it was- feels like hell #but the abuse felt like hell too.#ive said it before but i was JUST getting to a place where i felt i could stand up for myself and knock down thwir shit a few pegs. or at #least become more resistant to it #i saw a future with them in it for the first time in my LIFE #and it was bc i’d done SO MUCH FUCKING WORK. and now i feel like it was all so fucking useless #it’d be easier if i was still in the phase of anger i was at like 19 #but i’d processed that quite a bit and was trying to move on #FUCK. i had made SO much goddamn progress right before my mom got sick #then everything went down the toilet cus i cannot fucking have anything #it’s so unfair. i wish i could at least redo the last 3 years of my life #i would’ve done things so much different but i was so traumatized and still so angry and bitter and trying to preserve myself #ive come to the realization tjat the person i am today did not exist back then and therefore i shouldnt beat myself up bc it literally wasnt #available to me. i couldnt have done anythimg different bc i was in such a state of survival #and truthfully ive grown a lot since then even if im still in the trenches #the timeline of my entire life has been so fucking unfair #and i dont know how to reconcile any of it i dont know how to cope with my worst fears coming true #and i mean worst fears. even the way they passed. spot on to my worst fears #i despised what they did to me but i still didnt see life without them until i was at least 30 #it was all so sudden and quick and shocking #yeah they were horrible parents but i was a horrible kid too. maybe i straight up just deserved that shit #and i’d go back to that and seeing a future with them in an instant #over this bullshit #it’s so hard. and then losing all my pets too at the SAME TIME. all my babies #everything that i loved ripped away from me in the span of MONTHS #it’s all too much. l oh fucking l. no wonder im 3 shots deep at fucking 3 pm #it just hurts so bad. so fucking bad.

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jentlemahae · 12 days

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#just had my worst fear realized #my wheelchair stopped working while on the way to uni so i was literally blocked there #worst of all it wasnt on the road it was in the metro so i just spent an hour blocked in the metro #and my mom wouldn’t return my calls bcs her dumb ass left her phone in airplane mode and she had the instruction manual #now im going back home idgaf about uni i still haven’t stopped crying #worst panic attack ever #god bless a guy on the metro who helped me

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hatake · 9 months

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realizing your family doesn't really love you and they're all you have is honestly heartbreaking. these people take so much from you and you're trapped with them and it's such a deep hole to crawl out of.

i want to feel hopeful at the prospect of moving out in the future, but i just feel crushed knowing that future isn't soon. the hole is so deep and they had me convinced for years that i was just making it up.

i can't believe i've ever trusted these people. i can't believe i ever thought they cared about me.

i don't belong here and it hurts being the peg that doesn't fit.

#eh.txt #the hardest part of therapy has been having all of my worst fears be realized as true #and just like grappling with the unfairness of it #i've known for a long time i was on the outside of this group #but for a long time i could just delude myself into thinking i was being negative or it was my mental illness #but like you don't treat someone the way they treat me if you love them #i would never put someone i love in the positions these people put me in #and then to turn around and act like it's my fault #and they'll never reflect and take responsibility #they all get to rejoice in their dysfunction and blame it on me #it's so frustrating #no wonder i've been crazy this whole time!!!#how could you not be!!!!

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peachyfnaf · 2 months

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what if i cry what if i just break out in a cartoon waterfall or tears what then huh followers (< shaking like a leaf in a hurricane, full of love)

#yapping about smtn tag #the 'i love you person. you're cool.' one got to me the most. my mentally unwell ass started tearing up when i saw that IAGISGYQ #im always rather fearful that people dont actually like me and theyre just talking to/interacting with/tolerating me to be polite. but then #i get things like this randomly n it makes me realize i actually make someone *smile* with my silly art and silly 10 am-12 pm spam reblogs #ive never received harrasment or threats or anything in my inbox before. the worst ive gotten is a mildly aggressive question or so. idk if #i just won the tumblr followes lottery. but i appreciate it very much. youre all so nice ODHIHOWHW #okay done being sappy in the tags i need to start thinking about how im posing that sun in a strawberry dress thing ODHDHSKS #asks tag #(< technically lol

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the-descolada · 3 months

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I miss the me before I was hurt

#I know they never really existed bc a lot of this goes back to childhood but #before I got hurt as an adult. before I started making friends with people with abusive tendencies and not realizing it.#before I found out what an invisible power differential in relationships could do #before I found out the worst kind of transmisogyny comes from not being seen as a person in a conflict just a locus of harm #before I found out that people will invent conflicts just to cover up their fucking insecurities and guilt and I would just take that fall #I thought I was safe trusting this time because my love didn't feel like fear #and then it did. and then I wasn't.

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