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thelifelessgirl · 1 year

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Everyone gets tired of me at some point.

Then eventually they’ll leave.

They all do.

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hacked-by-jake · 4 months

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I'm sitting outside. It's slightly windy. Not much. Perfect amount for me. And it gives fresh and clear air. I have music. And my thoughts are circling about moonvale of course. So I just want to leave a couple of spontaneous words. Just letting out what I think and feel at the moment.

I'm sorry, Everbyte. I'm sorry for all the hate. And I'm sorry for the amount of people being disappointed in your work. Because, well, there's still this little sprikle of hope in me. Of hope and disbelief. I'm thinking about Duskwood and what you created with it. I'm thinking about all the love we felt through Duskwood. You could see the effort you put into it. We saw the improvements and amazing ideas. Good plots over and over again. New ideas every single time. The quality was already amazing, in my eyes. Sure, some little bugs here and there, but nothing huge. Nothing bothering.

But all this. All things we saw in Duskwood. It made us believe you care about the fans. It made us feel like you hear us, as you said once. It made us feel so happy because it looked as if you're really doing this game for us.

And this.. My brain refuses to believe you really just want our money. My brain refuses to believe that you did, what you did in Moonvale, on purpose. My brain wants to believe that you never meant to make us feel this way.

My brain wants to believe that it all made sense to you, and that there was nothing wrong with it, that it was harmless in your eyes. In your world.

And because my head wants to believe in the good, my heart hurts to see how much negativity you get. My heart hurts to see the hate. And the critism.

But sadly, even if it hurts, sadly it's necessary at the moment to share constructive feedback about it.

But even that must be incredibly stressful, because there are thousands, tens of thousands of people who are currently pointing their fingers at you. And that must be hard. Even horrible. Awful.

As I said, my brain refuses to believe all this only happened because you didn't care about your community and you only cared about and wanted our money. I still have hopes.

And I want to belive you had the same love for Moonvale as you had for Duskwood. If I imagine.. You let your new baby out into the world with the hope of making people happy... And as answers there's nothing but negativity in any way. I have no idea how this must be. And I'm incredibly sorry for it.

And even if I'm completely wrong. Even if you really just wanted money, even then I still feel bad for you about the amount of people looking at you. Even then, although you would deserve it in this case, even then I would still feel bad for you. Empathy is an interesting thing. And parasocial "relationships" as well.

We see what we want to see. But I'm sure, in Duskwood, during Duskwood, we saw who you really are. Because there was no hint of what we saw in Moonvale. How could you fake what we saw in Duskwood?

I wish it wouldn't be the case. But you deserve critism for it. Normal criticism, of course. No hate or insultings. But feedback is needed. In our eyes.

And I just hope that there will be a solution. I hope the situation will improve. I hope so, so much.

Duskwood saved me in so many ways. And it's the truth. Not just a saying or anything. It did. And it gave me so much.

Maybe we completely got everything wrong. Maybe we understood some things wrong.

I just hope that a lot of criticism will be noticed and reflected and that you will find a solution. Because I simply think.. I'm sure we all want to play Moonvale. We all want another amazing game from you. Because Duskwood was an incredible game. A game we loved. And we also want to love Moonvale.

In my eyes, there's so much potential. And I really hope in the next episodes we will see more of it. And less worrying about money.

Of course it's your game. Do whatever you want. And if that's the path you want to take, go for it.

But I really want to say, you have an amazing Community behind you. And if there will be improvements and some changes, I'm sure we all will still be by your side. And we all will support you. This time, gladly. And not because we had to in order to play.

I'm sad. I'm desperate. I'm confused and overwhelmed. And..

I'm sorry.

For everyone. For Everbyte. And for all of us.

I'm sorry about this situation...

#I'm frustrated and sad #And don't get this wrong okay? Just don't. I share the opinions and I think the critism is justified #but this coin has two sides as well #And if I want or not I'm thinking about both #because the whole situation is sad #Doesn't matter which side you are #It's sad #And nobody of us deserved how it turned out #you can disagree with me #But this is how I feel #the last straw of hope for something I cared about so deeply #that's it #hbj mv talks #hbj mv x dw talks #moonvale x duskwood #moonvale game #everbyte studio #everbyte game #moonvale episode 1

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seiya-starsniper · 8 days

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#the seasonal Sadness is hitting hard today #there's nothing particularly wrong or bothering me just a general sense of Dread #it's honestly more annoying than anything #especially since I have plenty of things that I'm delighted about but then there's the yawning maw of emptiness whispering #that everything is meaningless and nobody cares about me #like shut the fuck up sad brain you're not getting enough sunlight is all stop being so dramatic #hoping that screaming into the void helps with the exorcism of Bad Vibes thoughts and prayers appreciated 😂#seiya talks

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spark-circuit · 3 months

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i'm,, , , ,,,,, n-not crying,,,,, , ,,,,,, big strong trailblazers don't cry,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

#*sniff.* *sniff sniff.*#............WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#WHY DID THEY HAVE TO TAKE MY BOYS FROM ME #JADE WE NEED TO TALK. LIKE RN.#honkai star rail #hsr #honkai star rail spoilers #hsr spoilers #spoiler warning #hsr 2.3 spoilers #hsr 2.3 #farewell penacony #spark's honkai adventures #spark talks about nothing of relevance #I'M SO SAD NOBODY TALK TO ME. THEY MADE POM-POM CRY TOO THE FUDGERS #not the hound statue's eyes being dull too....................#hsr gallagher #hsr misha

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tuituipupu · 2 months

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well i cried heavily and my eyeliner didn't budge so that's a slay at least

#i was scrubbing my eyes and shit too so impressive #i'm still seething about being mocked for my anxiety tho #and i yelled hard and he quietened down then #i hadn't eaten all day and i defo wasn't in the mood for taking shit even when i'm scared i had to yell i had to.#it's sad every day i find it harder to forgive him bc he is getting worse and i like to move on from things #i have to make myself more distanced bc i can't stand the aggro of it all #+ then he'll be like wah nobody likes me :( well maybe if you were easy to talk to but ur not and ur never approachable so #also he gets so envious of my sister and competitive even my mum notices it now it's toxic and it's just been brewing in the bg #being a daughter (esp as an eldest for me) hardest job on planet earth #personal

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rubenesque-as-fuck · 19 days

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Anyway I got notified that I'll be getting a nice $$ bonus from work today and I wish that I could celebrate with someone in a way that didn't just feel like obnoxious bragging. Like beyond the financial aspect, it's just nice to be recognized for good work and I actually feel... good?? about this job??

But it feels so silly to say I want to celebrate when I just got back from what felt like my first real vacation in a very long time and am doing cool comic con stuff this weekend and am scheduled for a new tattoo next weekend. I am already doing lots of things to try to make myself feel good! It feels selfish to want more!

But I guess even with all of that, there's just still a hunger for external validation from trusted sources. Will I ever grow out of wanting someone to be proud of me?

#stoned ramblings #life of faye #i swear I'm not as sad right now as this makes me sound just kinda lonely is all #work bonus #boss also said that if i wanted to take on more responsibility we could talk raises as well #and like most days I'm done by like 1 so it's not like I'm wildly overworked as it is #I'm going to set some aside for fun stuff and the rest is going in my savings #i am finally FINALLY trying to build up a savings again #it's probably a silly dream but I still want to save up for a house #so what else can i do but try and save?#rent's gone up so damned much everywhere that for somewhere halfway decent it costs about as a mortgage to rent anyway #the only reason my rent is semi-managable is because I've been here for 8 damn years so they haven't been able to drive it up as much #other apartments here start at hundreds more per month for new tenants #so i feel like I'm stuck here until i can afford a place #my one real hope is that I inherit enough from my midwest grandma when she passes to make a good down payment somewhere #sometimes to torture myself I like to go look at houses that I think are in my approximate realistic price range if i could cover the down #i want a yard for velma #i want to be able to open my blinds and/or windows and not feel like a whole apartment complex's worth of people can see me #i want a kitchen where all the burners work and I have enough counter space to work #i want a dryer system where my apartment doesn't get filled with warm wet air when the neighbors are doing their laundry #i want to do nude gardening #and have backyard bbqs with friends #i want enough dedicated space to do art that i don't constantly have to shuttle the easel around the living room and up and down the stairs #all pipe dreams i know #but hey the grandma did say that i was one of her three main inheritors in the will #so we'll see #just to be clear she has not passed but she's nearing 90 and keeps talking about it so it's hard not to think about you know?#anyway these are the sorts of things that i would talk about if I had someone to cuddle on the couch and talk to about my day #texts to nobody

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sysig · 6 months

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It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar!#He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!!#Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪#And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪#I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :)#The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent?#Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it-#I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien!#I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

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mod2amaryllis · 1 year

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why am i sad :/ (works at the sad factory)

#there is. a tenderness. to jobs that work with death. but it's still really sad. hmm.#i try not to death post too much BUUUUT #a patient with a poor prognosis i worked hard to at least get through surgery recovery so owners could euth on their own terms-#-passed away over the weekend. and they thanked me for my help. and the doctor gave me the news softly. like hmmmmm #hm feels complicated every time always #and one of my favorite patients we've been working with on a long difficult recovery for osteosarc amp is gonna be euthd in the next few-#-weeks. just talked to his dad #ughhhhh grr sad factory #work stuff #animal death #nobody needs to say anything btw I'm just throwing feelings into the ether

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skinnypaleangryperson · 7 months

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Life would have been so beautiful if people in this generation had decided to actually care about each other instead of arguing on apps all day. For example, I would be alive by 40. Lol

#The way my mother looks at me sad and tired as the years go on because she knows I'm not going to make it #nobody cares about each other in this generation and I know that more than anyone #there's nothing that I can do or change or post or be or meet to be able to change the fact that I will be utterly alone once my mother is #dead #I've tried this app I've tried Twitter I've tried other apps I've tried real life #I've tried my whole life and I've only become more off putting and more undeserving of people's even tolerance as I've got an older and I #can't give a damn about it because I don't care about anyone and nobody ever cared about me my whole life except for my very mother #can't drive no resources and can't even have anyone to talk to about it because everybody's so vapidly superficial these days anywhere you #go #The irony of me posting this on Tumblr which is one of the main Pinnacle points of mine bitterness at this point #I tried to commit years ago to save my mother from the even longer death for the both of us #of her gradually aging and seeing her daughter withering away with her quite literally attached to her hip #but she made her choice of keeping me alive and forcing me to even pay for the hospital bill #so I guess she wanted the much longer and more detrimental painful fate #but not because she's thoughtful #it's because she's a f****** idiot

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luvsavos · 8 months

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random vent(?) in the tags, feel free to ignore i just have a lot of pent up emotions to get out today apparently