#not even a little similar to mcr if you want to check them out. but soooooo soo good. at least. i have nostalgia factor

[coldbug]

even mcr doesn’t hold a grip on me the way stornoway does. i don’t even care about vinyl or collect it but i spent the $60 on the 15th anniversary limited 500 pressing run of beachcomber’s windowsill today _(」∠ ､ﾝ､)_

[pasta-in-the-pudding]

Hey!! I really loved your writing of some of the proxies with a child! Spoiled reader (can’t remember exactly what it was called, but the reader was bratty and princessy) and I’d like to ask for something similar!

Could you possibly write jeff, toby, ej and anyone else you’d want to add with a child! Reader that’s a lot like young Ellie Williams from tlou 1?

So swears a lot, a bit rude/blunt, quite tomboyish, but overall just a funny and badass kid?

(Extra points if you make them good with weapons, like guns, knives, bows, etc.)

If you can’t do it, no worries! I really love ur writing and thought I’d leave a request <33

Ooooh! I've been wanting to play tlou for so long!

Thank you so much for requesting!!

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Creeps with a Child!Ellie Williams!Reader

Jeff

You are Jeff's favorite

You are often his "sidekick" on missions

He gets in trouble for teaching you new swear words

If one thing doesn't go your way, you are screaming "MOTHER FUCKING BITCH"

Everyone in the room gives Jeff the stink eye

Jeff just laughs his ass off

You are also his personal fashion advisor

"Should we go clothes shopping at Hot topic or Claires"

"They're both overpriced we're better off dumpster diving"

"sniFF...im so proud 🥹"

Hes a big brother to you

If you're on a mission with him, you will be the designated weapon carrier

And the sneak attack

You run up his arm, jump off his back and ATTACK!

He dresses you up in his mcr merch and you absolutely go to concerts together

You get to ride on his shoulders, and he buys you anything you could want from the venue

Even Smile dog has taken a liking to you

He wil lick your face, and protects you like you are his own child

Mind you, this is the dog that hates everyone

Toby

You make him nervous/pos

With you being so reckless, and clearly lacking a positive adult influence, it makes him worry

But he does enjoy your wild side

For instance, when being introduced to his raccoon children, you were the only one that actually cared about them

The raccoons like you too, knowing that whenever you're around, they get treats

He is one of the few creeps who helps you set up your room when you first arrive at the mansion

He buys you your first set of toys and new clothes, as well as getting you your own pocket knife

"For protection" he says

He knows good and well youre gonna use it to dig out your toenails lmao

He also pays you to do his work for him

Example:

"Heeey y/n! You want some candy?"

"Hell yeah!!"

"Thats greeaaaat! All you have to do is wrangle smile dog for me and bring him back inside!"

Challenge accepted

And hey, you when he took you to the gas station, he even let you get a slushie!

Eyeless Jack

When you heard of all the nasty stuff jack keeps in his medical wing, you immediately wanted to check it out

You found all sorts of things

Liver, intestines, blood bags...

Lots of gross stuff to fuel your interest

For about 30 minutes

Then jack came back into the medical wing

He picks you up by the collar of your shirt and glares at you

You giggle innocently "um...oopsies?"

"Don't try that with me. What were you doing in here"

"I just wanted to look..." you mumble in a whiny tone

He sighs and rubs his face, before placing you back down on the ground

"Well, you've had your fun. Now get out."

You pout "awww come on! Can't I stay just a little longer?"

Good lord how your whining hurts his head

He massages his temples before handing you a scalpel

"Here. Now run along and go find something dead to poke at"

You gasp and observe the shiny metal for a moment, before running off and doing just that

[polyamorouspunk]

A lot of people have been asking me for punk band recommendations which I’m very honored by! But I take a VERY long time to get into music and right now I’m exploring music outside of the strictly punk genera in favor for a subset of punk music which more fits my interests. However I did want to say that if you are coming from listening to bands like Fall Out Boy or something, you shouldn’t expect yourself to just be able to “jump into” punk music. I’m sure there are people out there who can, but I know for a fact I am not one of them. It took me years to get from where I started to where I am now. I had to desensitize myself to what I listen to now, take it in stages. I’m sure I’ve told this story before but one time when I was a wee little highschooler I went to go see a little band called Palaye Royale at Warped Tour who had DMed me on Twitter and told me to check out their music. I’m talking before Boom Boom Room even came out. Like literally they were DMing people on Twitter telling them to go listen to them. I met up with my friends there and the first show we went to was a band called Ice Nine Kills and let me tell you I. Fucking. Hated. Them. I hated it. I had the worse time of my life. People were CROWD surfing? Someone got DROPPED on me? There was SCREAMING? Hated it. Last show I went to before that was literally FOB and everyone was just vibing and smoking weed. I was not prepared. Fast forward to now and I have a 2 foot tall poster of Spencer above my bed and I have sold my soul and my wallet to them. But guess what? It took a LONG time for me to get here. I went from FOB to MCR to PTV/SWS to CTE/MMF to INK/MIW to finally I’m getting into Slipknot now. But I couldn’t have just gone from FOB to listening to Slipknot in a day.

TL;DR if you aren’t already into something similar or related don’t expect to be able to just jump into hardcore punk. Maybe start with folk punk or something a bit more mellow. Maybe you can, but it’s okay if you can’t.

[thekidsare-not-alright]

as a follow up on my last post I also want to add that to suggest bands/musicians like evanescence, avril lavigne, and green day joining the emo trinity is kind of missing the point and history of the emo trinity existing. it formed a trinity because usually if you liked one of those bands, you ended up liking the other two, or were in extremely similar circles (esp online). the term itself is from a specific era

green day is from a different generation altogether that cannot be classified as emo (punk, pop punk, etc), evanescence has that emo taste but again isn't really part of that same exact scene or fanbase, and avril lavigne... basically all the same things, plus she isn't a band, which is where the "trinity" aspect finds its roots -- groups of people are more appealing to a wider audience, and those members can interact with the other bands, etc. if that makes sense.

I don't think of paramore as part of a "new" emo trinity, rather they just should have been there in the first place. there's a tumblr joke out there about paramore being "girl fall out boy" (every band but it's fob meme or something idr), and while that's a little blegh because they are so much more than that (misogyny check), it proves a point. they are a lot like fob and vice versa when it comes to certain key qualities, and that's important. that bandom and fob's have never been completely different. I'm seeing posts all over getting excited about fob, paramore, and mcr being active all at the same time -- that's not happening with the other bands people suggest. and it's not even an echo chamber situation, because I have never once engaged with paramore on its own since I don't consider myself a fan. it's just naturally there unlike the others. the panic fandom (the current brendon urie stans, specifically) disengaged from the emo trinity a while ago, and paramore has been there this whole time. so of course it makes sense that they can slip right into the groove of things.

they're not replacing p!atd, they're filling a hole that was meant for them

side note: if you think that the emo trinity bands need to stay consistently emo or get out, you're missing the whole point and I don't know how to explain that to you

[wallflowerimagines]

Hi!! Just wanted to say your blog's are super fun and I love them!^^ also if you could can you make one of the lord's reacting to there S/O as an emo rock/ pop punk fan and listening to the music they like? Sorry if its wierd <3

THIS ASK BRINGS ME JOY !! Pop punk reader let's goooooo!!!

Alcina Dimitrescu

Oh god, Not again. She has to keep you away from Daniela

Alcina is so goddamn tired of pop punk. It's not your fault, but all three of her daughters simultaneously had an emo phase, and if she has to hear "Welcome to the Black Parade" one more time, she's going to LOSE HER MIND.

...If you give her puppy dog eyes she would be willing to give it a chance. The entire 'Death of a Bachelor' album by Panic At The Disco is probably the only thing she would enjoy, since it has a bit of a classic Frank Sinatra/Rat Pack style. Other than that, you probably won't be able to sit with her and enjoy your favorite music.

She loves you Darling, she does, but please, please don't play your music where she (or her daughters) can hear it.

Donna Beneviento

You like this kind of music? Great! Donna is absolutely willing to give it a chance--OH GOD IT'S SO LOUD

Please curate a selection of quieter music for Donna to start out with, or she's going get just a little bit overstimulated. Don't be discouraged, though! She does genuinely like it!

She likes when you two share hobbies in general, but when you like similar music it feels even more like a special connection.

Once she gets a little more used to the genre, she definitely picks Paramore as her favorite band. "Still into You" checks a lot of the classic relationship goals boxes for her, and she feels a little fuzzy and romantic when she listens to it. Donna will absolutely give you heart eyes when it comes up on the playlist.

Salvatore Moreau

Unironically? This man Vibes Hard.

It's not a genre he's had any exposure to before he met you-- he was peripherally aware of it due to Alcina's deep and vocal disdain for the music when her daughters went through the Dreaded Emo Phase, but he didn't really know any songs or bands to make a judgement call for himself.

You decide to play a little selection of your favorites for him, and when 'Crawling' by Linkin Park comes on he starts sobbing. Salvatore gets the appeal instantly.

There's so many emotions being screamed out, complicated lyrics and metaphors that just strike a chord with him, no matter how 'cheesey' or nonsensical. It... just makes him feel things. He would absolutely lie down on the floor with you and just listen to music while absorbing the moment

Karl Heisenberg

Guess who kept sneaking MCR albums to the Dimitrescu Daughters?

While Karl doesn't know a lot about the genre, he does have his favorite songs from the limited selection he's been exposed to.

I think I've said this before, but if not: Heisenberg likes any genre of music as long as it's loud music. Stuff where he can sing and curse along, if he wants. He likes to drown out the sounds in the factory, and if it's something you like that's just a bonus!

This man will scream out the All American Rejects "Gives you Hell" with the most insane smile on his face. While not All of the lyrics apply to his seething hatred towards Mother Miranda, enough of them do. Heisenberg will stomp his feet and clap his hands to the beat, it's super cathartic for him.

[batarangsoundsdumb]

guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.

For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell

fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one

i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft

that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you

tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again

as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)

hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s

holy shit yes.

SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe

superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'

does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom

it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.

I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?

as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)

somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.

and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!

babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence

babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to

JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT

again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song

The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian

oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag

soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"

i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage

Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?

don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)

What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk

stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.

This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it

This is canon now @nctxrejects

lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out

idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family

bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another

I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.

yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.

Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings

smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn

Duke was adopted by Bruce?

not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?

True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live

true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?

apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome

ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.

ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut

lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash

oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man

while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.

dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie

magnum hot take

hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth

thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)

why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???

what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones

oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no

I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked

yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends

"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years

i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.

BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them

lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.

I am in love with your posts your honour thank you

omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?

The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john

Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian

yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.

tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.

and what about it?

when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST

oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat

Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes

lmao i do too

I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it

he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.

you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank

babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)

ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something

that's a very good vocabulary upgrade

somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”

steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.

Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious

babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks

In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97

lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)

You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.

bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers

How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?

horrible, next question.

I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid

yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'

I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.

superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time

bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)

lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)

Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje

he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'

I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??

i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way

SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed

'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'

i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam

fair enough

[unmaskinglynz]

THE BANDIT’S NANNY NIGHTMARE

This text was posted by the page “ugly confessions of MCR”

this confession will be long, I clarify 2 things:

* I’m not a fan of MCR or their music at all.

* I do this for my best friend who is a fan of this page and MCR

I start

I was Bandit’s aupair (something like her substitute mom than her simple nanny for over a year) this was thanks to AuPairGlobal and my first host family recommendations. my first family was a pair of dad (both man) who had two babies and I was with them for almost a year until they had to move and I didn’t want to go with them, so they recommended me to a family who were friends with them from the art world. 

So Lindsey was introduced to me as a painter and artist (of art not as a musician) until that moment she seemed an extravagant woman but I worked for these two (she refers to her first family) enough to know that everything could be expected, after doing the exchange process and the fine payment for my first family, I went to live about a 9 miles from my first home (this is important) at first I had understood that It was only mother and daughter since her english was with another accent and, well, I continued being a latina with a very basic english. 

the rules were clear from the beginning, I couldn’t have my cellphone or my computer unless the mother were supervising me, also she installed a spy app, that apps they put on young children devices, I could only use the cell phone “freely” when I was away out of the house (but with the app she could see everything I did in real time) I couldn’t make video calls with anyone in spanish and If I did, I had to tell her who I was going to talk, I also had to suspend my social networks completely, this may sound extreme but If you have been an aupair you probably know that the more money families have, the more paranoid they are. 

The first days everything seemed calm, it took me a while to adapt and my latino family to accept that now I couldn’t make video calls every night, but the pay was double despite the fact that my contract said that I received the minimum acceptable salary, so everything was ok for me, I was saving to pay for my own car for when I got back to my country. everything had been quiet and excellent until I met Bandit’s dad. 

I’m not gonna lie, Gerard is almost 6.5 ft and for someone as shot as me (5.1 ft) he was a super man and handsome. he got very excited when he knew where I come from and he tried to talk to me in spanish all the time. I would say that he never tried to flirt with me, rather he was very paternal, even more when he knew that I did this for my little brothers and for a car to take them to school. 

after this, hell started.

Lindsey became jealous of him making comments about me, and telling me outright not to wear certain clothes when her husband was at home, which was rarely the time he was at home. 

she also tried several times to check my phone directly with the excuse that I had taken photos of her house, which was huge and beautiful but I wouldn’t never do somenthing like that, it was stipulated in our contract. 

Bandit started an alliance with her mom and she had gone from being a lovely girl to being a total bitch with me, there were times when I had to take her to the mall with her friends and she would just hide from me and I would spend hours crying until she deigned to appear, other times she made comments that I would never have the money to buy the things she used or had. 

As I said, I was 9 miles from my previous home and those who were my first and only friends during my two and a half year in the USA, so on my only day off I had to travel those 9 miles, pay for my own uber because I wasn’t allowed to use the car and I had a set time to come back to the house. that’s why I stopped seeing my friends and everything started to turn into hell, not because of Bandit, but because of her mom who had entered into the paranoia that I was trying to steal her husband. 

Winter came and I already had symptoms of depression from being away from my only latinas friends, the constant pressure and control of Lindsey and the many extra activities that Bandit had (from music classes to visiting her friend’s houses who lived in the other side of the city)  I had the “fortune” to have 2 weeks off

up to this point, I only knew a few things about the family, the father (Gerard) traveled a lot for his work, which I didn’t know what it was until that christmas. the mother (lindsey) worked from home painting, and that there were 3 rooms in the house that were forbidden to me. 

As I said, that Christmas, they were away and I went with my aupair group, most of them from families similar to mine. that was the moment when one of them told me who my family was, I heard MCR and MSI for the fist time and knew why so much control and I decided to quit.

I had obtained enough money for a car in my country, the contract had already expired and I could leave whenever I wanted. The relationship with the father (Gerard) was super sweet and tender when he was at home, he even gave me a small keychain for my car which I currently use and I have no idea what it is or where it’s from. He told me about his tough adolescence and how he hadn’t left his garage until he was older than me, but after all this came the storm of living alone with mother and daughter and the jealousy of both, so for my birthday 21, I packed my things and came back to my country 

[anxiously-unsatisfied-world]

A Coffee For Here (So I Don’t Have to Leave Yet)

Pairing: Sleepxiety w/ background Roloceit Word Count: 6,292 Warnings: Vague mentions of pain (not too descriptive), lemme know if there's anything else. 

A/N: So if anyone remembers the Sleepxiety coffee shop/tattoo shop au I was working on, this is it! I’m really happy with how this came out (I’m not used to writing fics over 2k long ^^) I hope you all enjoy :D 

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Remy sighs softly as he steps into the café, shutting his eyes for a moment as the comforting scent of coffee washing over him. When he opens his eyes, he gives the place a once-over, liking the warm and cozy layout of the place. This café is shaping up to be one that he frequents regularly, but first, he must check the most important part. Sure, the atmosphere may be great, but if the coffee sucks? There's not much of a chance he'll be returning to this one.

He strolls up to the counter, barely glancing at the menu. There's no point when he already knows what he wants. "Hey, babes. Could I get a cappuccino with hazelnut and two extra shots of espresso?" The words are already out of his mouth before his eyes settle on the person in front of him. His eyes widen behind his sunglasses, a smirk spreading across his face.

Okay, so the barista is cute. That's a bonus. Remy eyes the way their black hair falls in front of their eyes, similar but not quite the 'emo fringe.' Their eyes look up from the notepad they'd been doodling on and Remy's heart stutters at how pretty their silver eyes are. He glances at their nametag, which is accompanied by a small purple pin reading they/them,  and smirks. Virgil. It's a nice-sounding name, definitely suiting the emo aesthetic.

"Yeah, that'll be $4.50. For here or to go?" Virgil says, sighing internally that they managed to say that right without stuttering. Social anxiety's a struggle especially when the customer is unexpectedly cute. And 'babes?' That kind of nickname nearly made Virgil swoon on the spot, only stopped because doing so would be too embarrassing and way too much like something Roman would do.

"For here." Remy finds himself saying. He had been planning on taking his coffee and going home now that his shift is over but maybe he'll stick around for a little bit if he can. Not that there's any particular reason behind his decision. Of course not.

Virgil takes Remy's money and counts out the change before looking back up. "Okay. Take one of these." Virgil hands him a buzzer, "It'll go off when your order is ready."

Remy nods, used to this whole exchange, going to find a seat while Virgil busies themselves with making Remy's coffee. Remy pulls out his phone and makes a show of scrolling through it, though he keeps glancing up to look at the pretty barista.

It isn't long before the buzzer vibrates and Remy stands, sliding his phone back in his pocket as he approaches the counter. He sets the buzzer down, picking up the mug and strolling back to the booth he had chosen but not before saying, "Thank you, babes."

Virgil's face flushes slightly at the nickname and Remy smirks when he catches it, bringing the mug to his lips. He lets out a soft sigh at the flavor and leans back in his seat. The coffee's delicious and the barista is cute? Yup, Remy's definitely coming back here soon.

While drinking his coffee, he alternates between looking at his phone and glancing over at Virgil, watching them wipe down the counter just long enough to get caught. Virgil raises an eyebrow and leans on their elbow, "Y'know, if you're going to keep watching me, maybe you should actually come talk to me."

Remy's eyes widen and he snickers at that, "You have a point, darling." Remy rises from his seat and perches on one of the barstools lining the counter, taking another sip of his coffee. "Uh, you okay there?"

Virgil had frozen, internally panicking at how smooth that was and why did they call Remy over here? Now they actually have to talk to him and oh, shit, he just asked them a question. "Yeah, I'm fine."

"Okay…" Remy says, dragging out the word for a moment before shrugging and electing to ignore it. "So, lemme guess, your favorite band is MCR?"

Virgil's eyes widen and they tilt their head just barely, "What? I mean, I like their music, but no?"

Remy chuckles at how confused they sound and smirks at them over the rim of his mug. "No offense, babes, but you look like the epitome of emo right now."

Virgil groans and Remy snickers, taking the last sip of the coffee and setting the mug down, pushing it slightly towards Virgil. Virgil takes the mug and goes over to the sink to wash it, Remy watching as they do.

"So, if your favorite band isn't MCR, then what is it?" Remy asks, leaning forward on both his elbows.

"Uh… Panic at the Disco…" Virgil admits and groans softly when Remy starts laughing. "Okay, fine! I'm still emo. Happy?"

"Sure am, darling," Remy says in between laughs. Virgil just rolls their eyes, but it's hard to be annoyed too much when someone's laughing that genuinely, even if it's at his expense.

The two of them talk for a little while longer before Remy realizes that he's the only customer in the café. "Babes? Am I keeping you from locking up?" Remy asks, feeling bad if he has. He didn't mean to stay so long.

"I mean, kinda?" Virgil shrugs, "But I don't really mind. You're not like the other customers who stay too late, you're actually fun to be around."

"Oh am I?" Remy says, perking up a bit.

Virgil groans at the smug tone to Remy's voice, knowing that they accidentally just inflated Remy's ego. "Don't let it go to your head. You know what I meant."

"Too late~ and yeah, I do," Remy says with a shrug. "Either way, doll, I should probably get going. Don't wanna keep you here too late." Remy stands, smiling a little softer, not quite his usual smirk, when he sees Virgil deflate slightly. "Don't worry, babes. I'll definitely be back. But before I go?"

"Yes?" Virgil cringes a bit at how quickly they responded but Remy just laughs.

"It was nice meeting you, Virgil," Remy says with a grin, blowing a kiss in Virgil's direction and wiggling his fingers a bit before ducking out of the café.

Virgil hides their face in their hands, blushing hard from such a simple gesture. Damn… That certainly wasn't what they expected when they came into work this morning. But if only they'd gotten his name. It never properly came up in the conversation and know they're kicking themselves for not asking. At least, he said he'd come back so they have that to look forward to.

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The next day, through his various appointments, Remy cannot get Virgil out of his head. It's been a good bit since he's laughed that genuinely. And thus, he finds himself once again at the café after work, hoping that Virgil will be there.

Virgil perks up when they see Remy come through the door, causing Remy to laugh softly. "Did ya miss me that much, hun?" Remy asks and Virgil blushes a bit, smirking at him.

"Wasn't expecting to see you back quite so soon," Virgil says. Remy shrugs and goes through the process of ordering his coffee, staying up at the counter this time.

"You'll be seeing a lot more of me from now on, I can promise that." Remy leans against the counter, watching Virgil prepare the cappuccino, a little distracted by how gracefully Virgil is moving.

"Oh, joy," Virgil says with heavy sarcasm, both of them snickering afterward. Virgil walks over to where Remy's sitting and slides him his coffee. "Oh, by the way, I don't think I got your name yesterday?"

Remy chuckles as he sips his coffee. "The name's Remy. It's a pleasure to meet you." Remy says with a hint of sarcasm, even going so far as to mock-bow, the effect lessened a bit since he's sitting down. Still, it causes Virgil to laugh and so that's a win in his book.

"Charmed, I'm sure," Virgil says, causing Remy to snicker. It's not often that he finds someone who's willing to and able to put up with his sass, especially not one who's able to sass him back like this.

"Of course, I'm the most charming one around," Remy says mock-seriously, grinning as soon as Virgil snorts.

"Sure, you are," Virgil says sarcastically, but there's a hint of truth to their words. Well, Remy may not be charming in the traditional sense, but there's something to him that's managed to charm Virgil. Otherwise, they wouldn't be so comfortable talking to him right now.

They talk once again, getting interrupted by the occasional customer, until it's about time for Virgil to close up. "I'll be seeing you, darling," Remy says, going out a limb to take Virgil's hand and squeeze it softly.

"I'll be holding you to that." Virgil says with a soft laugh, "You make the last bit before closing a lot more bearable."

Remy snickers softly and lets go of Virgil's hand, taking a step back. "Thank you, hun. I'll see you soon."

"Bye, Remy." Virgil waves as Remy leaves, unable keep a soft smile off their face while they close up the café.

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Remy starts coming back to the café often, most of the times after his shift as it's a reliable way to tell when Virgil will be there. Sure, there are some days where an appointment of his will go longer than expected and he misses those nights, but he's at the café more nights than he's not.

One day, he leaves the tattoo parlor and heads to the café, growing more excited to see Virgil with each step. He all but throws the door open, knowing that the dramatic gesture would be something Virgil would laugh at, but freezes when he sees the barista.

Instead of Virgil in their usual purple and black attire, there's someone else in yellow and black. Someone who happens to be giving him a sly smirk, their hands steepled in front of them.

"Looking for Virgil?" The barista asks, chuckling when Remy's eyes widen at the question. "Surprised? Well, he's not here. It's his day off, you'll have to deal with me."

Remy strolls up to the counter, already too intrigued by this encounter to consider leaving. "Sure. I'll have a…"

"Hazelnut cappuccino with two shots of espresso?" The barista asks, raising a single eyebrow.

"How did you?" Remy asks, nearly wanting to take a step back from the guy, already unsettled by him but now he knows his order? He glances at the barista's nametag like it would answer his question, the sight of a cartoonish snake doodled by the name confusing him even more. How can someone this cryptic have something so cute on their nametag?

Declan snickers at Remy's expression and waves his hand, "I'll drop the whole 'villain' facade. Virge says I do it too much." Declan shrugs, ringing up Remy's order while he explains, "Virgil told me your order and that you might be in today."

"Uh-huh," Remy says slowly, reeling from Declan dropping the persona like it was all an act. Maybe it was. Remy's no stranger to friends who put on acts like that. After all, Roman does it all the time. "And you know Virgil how?"

"I'm their brother," Declan says simply, starting to make Remy's coffee to go, figuring he's not going to stick around since Virgil's not here. "Honestly, I couldn't wait to meet the customer they talk so highly of." It's clear Declan's teasing him, but Remy can't help but feel touched that Virgil talked about him.

Declan glances at Remy and sees the softer expression, his own softening a bit to match. "It's been nice seeing them so happy, so I guess I have you to thank for that."

Remy shrugs at that, "It's no trouble, really. I enjoy spending time with them." Remy blinks when Declan hands him his coffee, curling his fingers around it absentmindedly.

"Good." Declan says, looking at Remy for a moment in a way that reminds him of a snake eyeing its prey, "Now, I shouldn't have to say this, but if you hurt him? I'll end you." Declan's voice goes quiet and serious, sounding brutally honest.

Remy gives a nervous smile and holds his hands up in a placating gesture. "Don’t worry, if that happened, Virgil would probably end me first." Remy says with a small laugh, "But I won't let that happen. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt them."

Declan watches him for a moment more before his expression softens, clearly finding what he wanted. "Good. And you're right. You'd have both of us to worry about, but I can tell you'll do your best to avoid that." Declan gives a small, approving smile. "Well, I'll see you around, Remy."

"Yeah, see you." Remy says, giving a two-fingered salute and ducking out of the café, slightly rattled by that whole experience.

Declan simply smirks, assured that his sibling will be safe in Remy's hands if it ever gets to that. He's good at reading people and it's clear that Remy will do everything to prevent Virgil from getting hurt. That's always a good sign.

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The next time Remy goes to the café, he can't help but feel slightly on edge, knowing now that there's a chance that Declan will be there instead of Virgil. Sure, he doubts that Declan would pull the whole foreboding and creepy act a second time, but he can't help the uneasy feeling.

Virgil looks up with bright eyes when Remy opens the door, only for their expression to turn annoyed and a bit downcast when they see how nervous Remy looks, though he's trying his best to hide it.

"Dee did the thing, didn't he? The whole Disney villain act?" Virgil says, tapping their fingers together mimicking the way Declan held his when Remy met him. Remy nods and Virgil huffs, turning to make Remy's coffee to give them something to do with their hands. "Ugh, I told him not to. He likes doing it anytime I make a new friend, says it's a test of sorts to weed out anyone undeserving. His words not mine."

"I can see how." Remy says with a wry smile. "It would be effective for anyone who's easily intimidated."

Virgil snorts, shaking their head lightly, "You don't have to tell me that. Patton wouldn't come by our house for weeks after he first spoke with Dee." Virgil says, sounding both fond and exasperated. "But you're still here, so it clearly didn't work on you."

"Of course, it didn't." Remy says, smiling when Virgil passes him his coffee, wrapping his fingers around it. "I've definitely had weirder encounters."

"Oh, yeah?" Virgil asks, looking curious enough to prompt Remy into storytelling mode. There's no shortage of stories for him to tell, not with his friend group.

After enough of these stories, Virgil laughs softly, "Yeah, I can see now that Dee is hardly the weirdest person you've dealt with."

Remy blinks, awed by the sound of Virgil's laugh. No matter how many times he hears it, it sounds like the prettiest sound in the world to him. "Exactly, babes." Remy smirks when Virgil's face goes red at the nickname, "So you don't have to worry about me, it takes way more than an overprotective brother to scare me off."

Virgil just smiles then, a soft genuine one that takes Remy's breath away. "That's good." Virgil glances around and gives a sheepish smile at the realization they've been listening to Remy's stories all the way until closing time. "I guess it's time for me to lock up."

"All right, sugar. I'll see you later, then." Remy says, once again blowing a kiss in Virgil's direction, laughing in delight when Virgil mimes catching it and holding it close. Remy ducks out of the café with a small wave, unable to keep from smiling on his way home. It really is unfair how cute Virgil is sometimes.

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Remy continues his pattern of regularly going to the café to talk with Virgil until closing time. As the days go by, it's hard to deny how much of a crush he has on Virgil. Even the smallest smile directed at him will make his heart skip a beat and when Virgil laughs? Remy's gone, unable to focus on anything but that sound.

Because of this, he has managed to become even more flirtatious than how he usually acts, greeting Virgil most of the time with some kind of pun or pick-up line and leaving the café with blown kisses, winks, and cheeky grins. For the most part, Virgil responds in kind or just smirks fondly at him.

Honestly? It has Remy absolutely elated.

"Hey, babes. How's my favorite barista doing?" Remy asks as he enters the café one night, grinning when Virgil snorts softly, looking pleased to see him.

"I swear you only like me for the coffee." Virgil says teasingly and Remy plays off of that, gasping over-dramatically and throwing the back of his hand up to his forehead in a way Roman's done several times.

"Oh, my poor heart! How could you say such a thing?" Remy leans against the counter and sighs dramatically. He squeaks when something flicks his shoulder, but the sound of Virgil's laughter halts any complaints he might have.

"Oh, shush. I know you're not just here for the coffee." Virgil says with a grin once they stop laughing. "You're here for my dazzling personality." The words are said with an air of confidence similar to how Roman would say such a line, but also with sarcasm in a way that's uniquely Virgil.

"Obviously, babes," Remy says, leaning forward on his elbows and resting his chin on his hands. "Now, about that coffee?"

Virgil laughs at that, shaking their head with fond exasperation. They turn to make Remy's usual order while Remy fishes the money out of his wallet.

The night continues as it usually would, with them talking and enjoying each other's company during the breaks in between customers. At closing time, Remy gets a burst of confidence to take Virgil's hand again, this time bringing it up to his lips and brushing a soft kiss against their knuckles.

Virgil's eyes widen and their face goes red, but an amused smile spreads across their face. Remy winks at them, chuckling at the darkening of their blush.

"Until next time, babes." Remy says, squeezing their hand once before letting go of it, relishing in the way Virgil's breath hitches at the pet name.

"Remy!" Virgil calls out right as Remy gets to the door, causing him to pause and turn to look at them. Virgil gives a shy grin before blowing a kiss at Remy, who mimes catching it on pure instinct. "See ya later, Rem." Remy nods with a grin before leaving the café, already unable to wait until the next time he sees them again.

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Over the course of them getting to know each other, Virgil's slowly realizing that they want to get a tattoo of some kind, even sketching up some rough designs for one should they decide to go for it.

"Virgil, are you alright?" Logan asks, looking at Virgil with concern. "You've been a bit distracted." Roman nods, a similar concerned expression on his face.

"Yeah, I've just been thinking about something." Virgil says, giving an apologetic look that they've been spacey today. "I think I want to get a tattoo." They admit, causing Roman to brighten and Logan to look at them with mild surprise.

"And you're sure about this, Virgil?" Logan asks, looking at them in that way he does when he's trying to analyze someone.

"Yup." Virgil says, popping the p. "I've been thinking about it for a few weeks now and I have a vague idea of what I'd want and where, so I'm pretty sure."

Logan seems to find what he's looking for since he nods and lets Roman take over the conversation. "If you're looking for recommendations on tattoo artists, I could hook you up," Roman says with a grin. He's got several beautifully-made tattoos himself so Virgil has no reason not to trust his judgment in this instance.

"Sure, that'd be great." Virgil says and Roman grins at them.

"Okay, so, most of my tattoos were done by the same person and I think you'd really get on well with him! See this one?" Roman raises the sleeve of his shirt up to show a rendition of the rose from Beauty and the Beast. "He did this one and look how great it turned out!"

Virgil leans forward a bit to look at it, a bit awed by how smooth the lines are and how well it's been inked. "Yeah, it does look great, Ro. So, should I get my tattoo done by him? You seem to trust him a lot."

"I think you should, but it's up to you. It's your tattoo after all. However, I can give you the number of his tattoo parlor so you can call and make an appointment." Roman pulls out his phone and looks quizzically at Virgil, who just nods. Roman grins and starts typing something before Virgil's phone buzzes in their pocket.

"There. Trust me. He's a really good artist and don't worry about being nervous. I definitely was for my first tattoo but he's also really great at easing any fears you might have." Roman says and Virgil gives a small smile at that.

"Alright. Thank you, Ro." Virgil leans back in their seat, feeling relieved that they at least have a tattoo artist to look into now, without having to do hours of research into it like they'd been planning. Sure, they're still going to be cautious about the whole thing but since Roman's had several tattoos from the guy that turned out well, it seems like it might not be a bad idea to go to this one.

"Anytime, my dear compatriot! Now, let me tell you about the surprise I've got planned for Dee…" Roman starts talking and Virgil's content to sit back and listen to Roman's idea, Logan already knowing about the date as he's in on it.

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Virgil does end up calling and making an appointment with the guy Roman recommended, just a basic consultation to see if it really is a good idea getting their tattoo done there. So, on their next day off from the café, they find themselves outside a tattoo parlor that's actually rather close to the café now that they think about it. Virgil just shrugs and goes inside the building, feeling a bit antsy about the idea of getting a tattoo now that they're actually here.

The receptionist smiles at them brightly. "Please, have a seat. He's almost done with his current appointment."

Virgil nods and pulls out their phone, scrolling idly through Tumblr until they hear an excited gasp, causing them to look up in confusion. Their eyes widen at the sight of the person in front of them, their mind going back to realize that they never did find out what Remy did for a job.

"Virgil, babes! What are you doing in my neck of the woods?" Remy asks with a bright smile, figuring that Roman had something to do with it. Roman did tell him that he'd recommended him to a new customer, after all.

Virgil chuckles a bit sheepishly, "I decided I wanted to get a tattoo. I didn't know you worked here…" Virgil says and Remy smiles softly at them, understanding that they're feeling a bit nervous about this.

"Well, come on in, sugar, and we can discuss what kind of tattoo you want." Remy says, his voice going a bit more professional. "Clearly, I'm the best around or you wouldn't have come to me." Remy winks, hoping to make Virgil relax a bit.

It seems to work as Virgil snorts and rises from their seat, following Remy to a room set aside especially for consultations. The walls are covered in examples of tattoos that Remy's done, ranging from simple outlines to large sleeves full of color and detail.

Remy sits down and gestures for Virgil to do the same, giving them a soft smile. "So, darling, do you have an idea of what kind of tattoo you'd like?" Remy asks, curious since Virgil's never mentioned having nor wanting to have a tattoo to him before.

Virgil nods and pulls out a notebook. "Yeah, I've actually sketched a few ideas out." Virgil gives a sheepish look, causing Remy to shake his head barely.

"Don't be nervous, hun. You're not the first one who's brought in sketches before. Now let me see them. Is there one in particular you feel like you're wanting?" Remy says in a soft, calm tone, smiling reassuringly at them.

Virgil's shoulders relax and they open the notebook, flicking through a few pages before stopping and holding out the notebook for Remy to take. Remy looks down at the page, a smirk spreading across his face at the purple thundercloud design. Actually, now that he looks closer, the main part of the purple is actually a galaxy pattern, but it still doesn't look like it's out of his range.

"Ooh, this is real pretty, doll." Remy says, looking back up at Virgil. "So, is this the one you want?" Virgil nods, looking faintly nervous still. "Don't worry, darling. This is hardly a challenge for me. Listen to me for a moment." Remy starts to explain what Virgil needs to know about the actual appointment, figuring that Virgil's too keyed up for it be today. He goes over how long the session would be, how much it would cost, etc. All the important things.

"So, you still sure about this, doll?" Remy asks, giving Virgil the opportunity to back out if they're too anxious about it. He would not want his Virgil to regret anything like this if he could be the one to prevent it from happening.

"I am. I want the tattoo." Virgil says, their voice a lot more certain now that Remy's explained everything.

Remy smiles and shuts the notebook. "Alright, babes. Mind if I hold onto this so I can get a stencil ready for you?" Virgil shakes their head and Remy sets the notebook on his desk, standing up and helping Virgil to their feet, squeezing their hand softly.

"Make an appointment with the receptionist before you go, alright, darling?" Remy brings Virgil's hands to his lips, brushing a kiss across their knuckles. "And I'll likely be seeing you tomorrow night, you do work then, right?"

Virgil nods, a smile on their face at the gesture. "Yeah. I'll see you then, Rem." Virgil says, getting a strangely confident look on their face before they lean up and peck Remy's cheek softly. "Bye, Remy." Virgil leaves the room and Remy laughs softly once they're gone, his heart fluttering in his chest.

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Virgil makes an appointment with the receptionist for the following week before going out and sitting in their car, pulling their phone out of their pocket. 'I'm coming over.' They text Declan, quickly receiving an okay that has them pulling out of the parking lot and heading over to their brother's house.

Once they arrive, they head up and go inside, strolling into the living room where Declan is curled up on the couch with Roman on one side and Logan on the other, an arm around them both. Which is exactly what Virgil had expected when they'd sent their brother the text.

Virgil playfully narrows their eyes at Roman, who just grins at them, feeling like he knows why they're there. "Hey there, emo nightmare. How was the appointment?" Roman says, entirely too cheekily for Virgil's liking.

"You knew, didn't you? That the Remy from the café was the same tattoo artist you were recommending to me?" Virgil says, crossing their arms and mock-glaring at Roman, no heat in the expression at all. After all, it's not like they mind spending more time with Remy. They just want to tease Roman a bit.

"Sure did, storm cloud!" Roman says with a grin, "Or at least, I was pretty sure I did." Roman looks like he would shrug if he weren't pressed so close up against Declan. "Why? Afraid that your crush is the one that'd be giving you a tattoo?"

Virgil scowls slightly at the teasing tone, "Of course not. But what have we said about you playing matchmaker?"

Roman just chuckles. "You'll be thanking me later."

Virgil huffs at how sure Roman is at that, but… He's not exactly wrong is he? Though they didn't really need his help to get closer to Remy, it would've happened eventually.

"Wait, what is this about a tattoo?" Declan asks, looking a bit confused but mostly curious. He knows that Virgil's wanted a tattoo for a long while but they've always been too anxious to actually go through with it.

"I decided I wanted to get one." Virgil says with a shrug. They pull out their phone and open up a picture they'd taken of the sketch they gave Remy. "This is the one I'm getting."

Declan looks at it and Roman leans closer to get a peek at the screen. "It looks good. And you're sure that Remy's a proficient tattoo artist?" Declan says, sounding a bit worried.

Virgil just smiles and is about to answer when Roman speaks up, "Most of my tattoos were done by him, Dee." Declan thinks that over for a second before nodding slowly.

"So, yes. He can be trusted to do a good job." Virgil adds.

"Okay. But V?" Declan asks, looking curious at them, a teasing glint in his eye. Virgil just tilts their head and Declan smirks. "When are you actually going to ask the guy out?"

Virgil groans, flopping onto the couch beside Roman. "I dunno. Soon, I guess?" Virgil shrugs and Roman gasps excitedly.

"Ooh, I know! You should ask him out after he does your tattoo!" Roman suggests, looking far-too-excited to help Virgil with their love life.

"Maybe." Virgil shrugs, thinking it over. That doesn't actually sound like a bad idea if they can go through with it. Roman looks appeased at the maybe, snuggling further into Declan's side. The conversation shifts to something else, leaving Virgil mulling over their decision.

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Virgil swears that time slowed down on purpose between the consultation and the actual appointment just to mess with them. But once the week is over, it feels like it flew by in a flash.

Shortly after lunch, they're once again at the tattoo parlor, ready for the long hours ahead. They pull out their phone while they wait for Remy to finish up the appointment before them, which has the benefit of distracting them from their nerves a bit.

All too soon, they're following Remy into the main room of the tattoo parlor, feeling both nervous and excited, which Remy seems to sense as he gives them a soft smile.

"If you decide it's too much, we can just do the outline today and do the coloring another night, alright, babes?" Remy asks, setting a hand on Virgil's shoulder.

The warmth of his hand comforts Virgil and they nod. "Yeah. I'll let you know if that happens, but for now, I want to get it over with."

Remy laughs and heads over to their tools. "A good mindset to have! Mind taking your jacket off and having a seat for me?" Remy says as he double-checks that everything's ready to go.

Virgil nods and shrugs out of his jacket, sitting down in the chair and watching Remy for a moment. Remy pulls on a fresh pair of gloves and turns around, freezing for a moment at the sight of Virgil in a black tank top. Damn… Virgil's more muscled than their hoodie gives them credit for…

Remy shakes his head, snapping into a more professional attitude. There's time to be gay for Virgil later when he doesn't have to worry about doing his actual job. Virgil smirks slightly at the look and watches as Remy sterilizes the area and puts an initial outline on their upper arm. Remy double-checks that it looks the way Virgil wants it to before beginning to ink the tattoo.

It hurts. Virgil had expected that, of course, but it's a bit different from being mentally prepared for it and actually feeling it. Remy winces sympathetically as Virgil hisses at the pain. "So, what's the inspiration behind this design?" Remy asks.

"So, when Ro and I were kids, he would rope me into playing princes with him and we came up with these designs as the emblems of our two kingdoms and the main inspiration of one of his nicknames for me. We'd go on all sorts of adventures together." Virgil says with a fond smile, "One time…" They start telling a story of one of these adventures, getting so lost in telling the story that they're not thinking about the pain anymore, letting it become something they can easily ignore.

Remy smiles once he realizes this and at how cute the story is. It's exactly how he would have pictured Roman acting as a kid.

The outline takes about an hour to complete, but with Virgil's storytelling, it feels like it flew by. "Okay. Outline's finished." Remy says once Virgil wraps up a story, snickering at the surprised expression on their face. "Want to take a small break before we start the coloring?"

Virgil nods and Remy sits back, grinning at them. "So I'm assuming Roman told you to come here?"

"He did. He was super excited that I'm getting a tattoo and suggested I come here almost immediately."

Remy chuckles softly. "Yeah, he told me he'd recommended me to someone. Didn't think for a second it'd be you, but it clicked when I saw you and from how smug he'd been on the phone."

Virgil rolls their eyes, a faint smile on their face. They talk for a little while longer before Remy sits up and tilts his head at Virgil. "So, you ready to get the color started?" Virgil nods and Remy stands up, going to get the coloring set up before getting into position. "Once again, if you need a break, don’t hesitate to ask."

"Okay," Virgil says and Remy starts working, causing Virgil to wince at the pain, but it's not as bad as before. They'd read that for some the coloring is the worst part, but they're glad that it's not for them at least this time.

Remy starts asking Virgil questions, some having short answers, like what their favorite hot drink is, and some requiring a full story to answer properly. It has Virgil so distracted that when Remy pulls back, saying that they're done, Virgil can't quite believe it. How did all that time pass by like it was nothing?

Remy chuckles at their expression and goes to put the tool away, coming back over and cleaning the tattoo gently. "You want to see it before I wrap it up, babes?" Remy asks and Virgil nods quickly. Remy smiles at their enthusiasm and takes their hand, helping them to their feet and over to a mirror on the wall.

The tattoo looks perfect. There's a pretty galaxy effect ranging from pink to purple to indigo in the center bit of the thundercloud but the rest is a softer purple. It's exactly what Virgil wanted. "Woah… This is beautiful, Remy." Virgil says, their voice awed and soft.

Remy smiles, feeling a swirl of warmth at seeing Virgil so pleased with his work. "Thank you, babes. Now, let me wrap it up and tell you a few things."

Virgil lets Remy lead them away from the mirror and back to the chair. Remy makes sure that the tattoo's cleaned before putting a bandage over it and wrapping it up, explaining what Virgil will need to do to take care of the tattoo until it's fully healed.

"And then you'll be good to go, darling," Remy says and Virgil smiles shyly at him, Roman's suggestion coming back to them.

"Thank you, Remy," Virgil says earnestly. "I was hoping to ask you something once the tattoo was done…" They trail off, a bit anxious, looking away from Remy.

"Which is, sweetness?" Remy asks, setting his hand on theirs, giving them the time they need to regain whatever confidence this question needs.

"Would you go on a date with me?" Virgil blurts out. It's like a bandaid, you gotta rip it off.

Remy chuckles softly and brushes his fingers against Virgil's cheek. "You beat me to it, babes. I was going to ask you if you'd like to come to dinner with me tonight." Remy says, his voice soft and affectionate. Enough so that it makes Virgil melt where they're standing.

Virgil smiles softly at Remy, causing his breath to catch at how pretty that expression is. "Darling, tell me if this is too soon, but I kinda want to kiss you…"

"Please…" Virgil whispers and Remy exhales softly, brushing a bit of Virgil's bangs out of their eyes before leaning forward and kissing them softly.

The kiss is short but sweet and full of promise. As he pulls back, Remy slides a hand down Virgil's arm and takes their hand, entangling their fingers together.

"Come on, Virgil. Let's go get that dinner." Remy says. "You told me so many stories today, I think it's only fair that I tell you some of my own."

"I'd love that," Virgil says and they leave the tattoo parlor, hand-in-hand.

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[dalishious]

not da but I'm getting into Canadian music, I think you've mentioned before you like the tragically hip, what do you think of sloan? any other bands and artists to consider?

There’s a reason The Tragically Hip is so beloved in this country. Their songs aren’t just songs, they’re poetry. If you want to check them out, I recommend starting with the album Yer Favourites, which is a collection of their top songs voted by fans. And also I’d like to give a special shoutout to what I consider to be an extremely underrated album: We Are The Same. Most people will tell you Fully Completely is their best one, but there isn’t a single song in We Are The Same that I don’t love. (Especially Country Days, The Depression Suite, Coffee Girl, and of course, Now The Struggle Has a Name...)

Sloan has some good ones, and I’d be a poor Nova Scotian not to say that lol. If you like any of The Hip’s songs that have a more pop-ish vibe, you’ll probably like them.

Anyway, some more recommendations, only English unless you’re open to some French as well, let me know:

MATTHEW GOOD. MATTHEW GOOD. MATTHEW GOOD. (Before going solo, Matthew Good Band.) One of my all time favourite artists. I recently shared my playlist of my favourites on my main blog if you’re interested. Also just like The Hip, his lyrics are more often than not very poetic, and I love that. Especially given a number of them come from personal places and I’ll just say if you have any mental disorders yourself there’s a good chance you’ll be able to really feel when he sings about his own. Anyway, my two favourite albums in particular are Hospital Music and Avalanche, with Moving Walls and Underdogs (Matthew Good Band) close behind.

Our Lady Peace is fantastic. I recommend starting with the albums Gravity and Clumsy.

The Stanfields are a fun mix of what they call Folk’n’Roll. Check out their albums Vanguard of the Young & Reckless and Death & Taxes for sure. (Oh fuck, also check out the video for Afraid of the World because the end of it gets me every time... white woman walks around scoffing at all the pumpkin heads, then goes home and puts on her pumpkin head.)

If you’re interested in another really great mix of Atlantic Folk and alternative rock, I suggest Joel Plaskett / Joel Plaskett Emergency. Start with either the Joel Plaskett Emergency album Ashtray Rock, or the solo Joel Plaskett album Three. Also the album Solidarity he did with his father, Bill Plaskett, is beautiful. The Next Blue Sky is one of my favourite songs ever.

Matt Mays is one more Atlantic Folksy rock guy. Once Upon a Hell of a Time and Twice Upon a Hell of a Time (acoustic versions of Once) are a perfect starting point in my opinion, though most fans of his would tell you to start with the album Coyote, which is also great!

Arcade Fire is... I’m not really sure how to describe Arcade Fire. I like some of their stuff, but they are something of an acquired taste, I think. Try the album The Suburbs.

If I tell you I adored Avril Lavigne and Billy Talent growing up, would you judge me? Because I did, and I still do. If you’re willing to keep an open mind, try Avril Lavigne’s albums Under My Skin and Let Go, and if you’re in a real angsty mood, try Billy Talent’s albums Dead Silence and Hits. (I would especially recommend trying Billy Talent if you like bands like say, Green Day and MCR.)

Okay, some more classics... Rush, The Guess Who, Bachman-Turner Overdrive (BTO), and April Wine are all great. They all have greatest hits / best of albums, so just start there.

Oh shit, I almost forgot Bryan Adams, AKA the Canadian Bruce Springsteen. Though you’ll have trouble finding one of my favourite songs by him, so here it is.

I also feel like I needn’t even bother mentioning Neil Young since I’m assuming you him before, but... yeah. Neil Young, obviously.

EDIT: AAHHH forgot Great Big Sea! Check out their album Play.

EDIT: Yes I love Nickelback too. Sue me.

EDIT: I forgot, Alanis Morissete is Canadian. Listen to her Jagged Little Pill album if you’ve never done so before.

EDIT: I had no idea Three Days Grace was Canadian??? One-X and Human are my favourite albums by them, but Life Starts Now is also pretty up there. (Similar vibes to Bily Talent, but I’d say even more angsty lol)

I also wanna give a particular shoutout to at least some albums from my fave Canadian Indigenous artists:

Shawnee deserves so many more listeners please check her out. Her only full album as of now is Let It Burn, but she’s also got a bunch of released singles. 

Buffy Sainte-Marie’s Medicine Songs and The Best Of

Jeremy Dutcher’s Wolastoqiyik Lintuwakonawa... I know I said I’d limit reccomendations to English but I can’t help it.

Susan Aglukark’s This Child

Adrian Sutherland is a newbie, but I am begging everyone reading this to check out his song Politician Man. Needless to say, I look forward to hearing more from him.

[mychemicalraymance]

ok so a few things!

1. i have a lot of new followers which i love and appreciate!! thank you all so much, it means a lot to me that anyone would be interested in my mcr fanblog haha. this is the first time i have been such an active participant in a fanbase... since maybe ever..... i’ve basically been a silent internet observer my whole life. i participated a little bit in online communities when i was a kid and i was burned a couple of times so i just stopped for a REALLY long time. i never actively participated, really, until recently with mcr returning. it is so nice to have a community around basically  one of the few things in my life that i can genuinely talk about for hours. mcr is one of the longest ongoing interests of mine, i’ve been hardcore invested since i was 11, 2010. i have been around and about for a LONG time, but i’m definitely not an oldschool fan, and not a scholar. as i said i have never really been an active participant, just privately hyper focused. i was an embarrassing baby fan but i’ve grown out of that and it feels really good to re-explore my interest again as a real person with a better understanding of myself and what’s important, with other people with similar life experiences and values. 

2. some basic stuff about me uhhh i dont like to put this stuff in my bio because it feels like a weird laundry list to have on display all the time and i don’t like leaving too much of a paper trail to my real identity (i am an mcr supervillian lesbian by night normal artist/intern teacher by day) but these aspects of my identity are sort of important to what i post and if i ever get out of line i feel it’s important to openly discus my mistakes without hiding behind obscurity. i’m a 21 year old white woman and a lesbian, i use she/her. i have had issues with gender non-conformity but i am cis. i am neurotypical but i have in my recent life struggled with depression, and am diagnosed with pmdd. i’m pretty fat and i like to make very light jokes about weight sometimes because it can be funny to me but i try to be sensitive about it. here and here are two posts about my policy of lesbian jokes/using she. here is my policy about following/interaction with minors.

3. follows! i appreciate them all! i was actually recently followed by a user that i have been following for years now! it was amazing (not going to name names because it feels braggy to me and i dont wanna blow up their spot lol). i only maintained following 2 mcr blogs in the great my chemical recession of 2015-2019 in my life and one of them is the person who followed me and i feel so! happy about it. if you follow me and i dont follow back here a few things to think about 

- i do not follow minors just as a personal policy

- this is a side! my main shall remain a sexy little secret in order to maintain my alter ego and because i like to keep stuff a little close to the vest

-i like to sort of scope out what a person is like before i follow back so a lot of the time i keep an eye on a blog i like and see what they have to say before i hit follow (even with ppl who are not mutuals. often i will check a blog manually for a while to see what theyre about before i follow, just on my own). 

-sometimes i just dont personally enjoy a blog. sorry.

also: mutuals can use my name in their reblogs/tags, i don’t have a problem with it. i just don’t give it a permanent position in my bio.

4. i am not interested in nor do i condone shipping/rpf. i have experience in that realm and it got especially dark for me, and i dont like it as a whole. i’m not going to fight with anyone about this. the end.

5. my art- i read almost all the rb tags on my art and i appreciate all of them. i love it all and it encourages me to make more!! if you like my work, reblogging and saying so directly contributes to my artistic drive. i’ve slowed down a little bit as of late because i’ve been busy with christmas. i cannot guarantee that i will always maintain posting art, but right now i’m really enjoying it and i hope you guys do too. i regularly reblog my art because it is the best way to get traction with art on tumblr. sorry if this is irritating; it helps me get feedback on my work. if you want to use my work for anything PLEASE contact me before you do and give me credit where you use it. this is almost all fanart, i will in all likelihood say yes, i just like to know where my art is being posted/used.

that’s all i can think of right now. thanks again.

[mcrmadness]

Asks! 57&58 ^^

“hanhan156 asked: Lol, 59 piti laittaa tohon edelliseen, mut voit vastata 58 myös jos haluat. :D”

I have no best friend (unless animals are counted in...) so I’ll take the 59 one :D (The text saying she meant to write 59 and not 58 but that I can answer both if I want.)

Get to know me asks:

57. favourite animal(s) Cats, obviously. I was born to a house with 3 cats and the last one of them died when I was almost 13 (he would have turned 16 that December). But during all those years I was living with my parents, we didn’t have a single day without cats. My first time without having cats around was when I moved out when I was 23 and I still don’t have any pets here because they are not allowed in this apartment. But fortunately I can hang out several days a week with the 4 cats (and 1 dog) my parents have and when I was still working, we also had a cat at the stable. And I decided a long time ago that whenever I will move out of this apartment, I’ll get myself an apartment that allows pets and I’ll adopt a cat or two from an animal shelter whatsoever. My another favorite cat is then: tiger. It must be because of their color. I just love them. I anyway really like all of the other animals over people and even tho cat is my absolute favorite animals, I also love horses, dogs, rats, elephants... you name it :D

59. why i joined tumblr My first posts on Tumblr are from 2011 I think. I joined here because people on my MCR forum started to talk about Tumblr and I didn’t get the idea of Tumblr at all but I still joined for some reason. First I was mainly making my own posts and never reblogging because I thought it was such a weird thing to do and “why should I want to spread something that is not originally mine?”, but I think the actual idea behind that was “everyone is doing this, so I’m definitely not :)”, I’ve always had this little rebel in me and sometimes it just goes and does absolutely stupid things (aka does nothing because everyone else already do, or doesn’t even want to have anything to do with something because it’s mainstream, or gave up wearing a shirt just because someone else was having similar and I was no longer Different Enough And Unique :DDD). I’m not actually even sure what changed then and why, but I then got over myself and stopped caring and started reblogging. Mainly just die ärzte stuff, but then several years ago it spread much further and now I reblog everything that makes me smile, laugh or think, or that I just feel like I want to share. And I understand the reblogging/liking system a lot better now than back then and I’m definitely reblogging more than liking. And just crossed my mind that I’m wondering if I did liking mainly back then and if I checked out my likes page, would I found even older stuff from there...

And also, I’m just someone who usually after joining a website or so just sticks to that forever. Like we say in Finnish: ei lähe kulumallakaan :D

Ja melkeen unohin jo, kiitti askeistä! XD (Kirjotin eka “äskeistä” mut se ei kuulostakaan niin hyvältä, koska sana ‘äsken’ on liian lähellä 🤔 Ja “askeistä” näyttää hölmöltä mut voit ajatella sen silleen oikein rallienglannilla suomeks lausuttuna :DD)

[vampire-himbos-of-santa-perdita]

the only mcr songs i’ve listed to r black parade and na na na na na but u make me wanna listen to them lol do u have any suggestions? what r ur favorite songs of theirs?

Oh boy. Alright. Ok. Everybody sit down, we’re about to have a masterclass in everything MCR.

The thing about My Chemical Romance is they’re a concept album band, which means each of their albums tell a story as a whole. For that reason, I can’t just recommend my personal favourite songs because they’re all part of a big whole. I’ll do my best to break them down in order of personal preference.

TL;DNR: For those of you who don’t have all day to scroll through full album analyses:

My Faves:

(Absolute all time faves are in bold; *** indicate I love these songs too much for my own good and I must be stopped.)

The Black Parade:

***Teenagers***

***Mama***

***Welcome to the Black Parade***

Famous Last Words

Cancer

Disenchanted

The end. / Dead! (you can’t really listen to one without the other)

Kill All Your Friends (TBP B-side)

Heaven Help Us (TBP B-side)

Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge:

***Helena***

***I’m Not Ok (I Promise)***

Ghost of You

***Cemetery Drive***

You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison

Thank You For the Venom

To the End

The Jetset Life is Gonna Kill You

Hang Em High

I Never Told You What I Did for a Living

Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys:

***Planetary [Go!]***

***Na Na Na***

SING

Bulletproof Heart

The Only Hope For Me Is You

Party Poison

Vampire Money

Conventional Weapons:

***Tomorrow’s Money***

Boy Division

AMBULANCE

Kiss the Ring

Make Room!!!

Miscellaneous:

***Desolation Row***

Fake Your Death

Common People (BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge Pulp cover)

***Hazy Shade of Winter***

Happy Together*

*these last two are just Gerard Way covers, but considering they’re featuring Ray Toro, that’s half the band right there…

The Black Parade

Concept: A man known as The Patient dies and accounts his life and death, dealing with his struggles with war and disease, and his fears about where he’s going to go in the afterlife.

Track Listing:

The end.

Dead!

This is How I Disappear

Sharpest Lives

Welcome to the Black Parade

I Don’t Love You

House of Wolves

Cancer

Mama

Sleep

Teenagers

Disenchanted

Famous Last Words

Blood

The whole album is honestly so good. It’s worth a listen from start to finish at least once. I’ve got absolutely no bad things to say about the songs that aren’t my faves, as they’re equally as explosive as everything else. That said…

Personal Faves:

Mama

Teenagers

Cancer

Famous Last Words

Welcome to the Black Parade

Dead!

Disenchanted

If you want the stuff that’ll psych you up/empower you, go for Welcome to the Black Parade, Teenagers, Famous Last Words, Mama, and Dead. If you want some real sad shit, go for Cancer, Disenchanted, and I Don’t Love You. I have yet to find out how to not weep all the way through WttBP, Famous Last Words, or Cancer, so you have been warned.

Dip your Toe in the Water With…

Welcome to the Black Parade

Teenagers

Famous Last Words

Things to Keep in Mind

Mama’s got an extra special guest appearance by one Liza Minnelli, and oh man, is it absolutely worth checking out. Next to Welcome to the Black Parade, this one might just be the most theatrical song in the entire album??? Bold statement, but I like to call it the Bohemian Rhapsody of MCR. It’s SO. GOOD.

Blood is the hidden track at the end of the album. There’s about 2 minutes of silence in the original album before it starts. If you want the version without the false start, nab the version from The Black Parade is Dead live album.

If you’re madly in love with this album, you can find their Black Parade concert live in Mexico, The Black Parade is Dead for free on their youtube channel. Throw it up on your tv screen and it’s like you’re there in person.

B-Sides

Kill All Your Friends

Heaven Help Us

My Way Home is Through You

All the Black Parade B-sides are great, but Kill All Your Friends is the real standout (and has the biggest connection to Umbrella Academy, if that excites you reference-wise).

Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge

Concept: This is a bit of a split narrative, partially a loving tribute following Gerard and Mikey Way’s grandmother’s passing, and partially a revenge plot. The full plot Gee had in mind took a bit of a backseat after they shifted focus on the grief side of things, but the full original concept is worth the price of admission either way. The revenge plot follows a man who makes a deal with the devil to reunite with his lost lover, if he can collect 1,000 evil souls. He sets out on his murder quest and finally reunites with the woman he loves, only to find she never loved him. He vows to take her down with him, but discovers he’s the 1,000th soul.

Track Listing:

Helena

Give ‘Em Hell, Kid

To the End

You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison

I’m Not Okay (I Promise)

The Ghost of You

The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You

Interlude

Thank You for the Venom

Hang 'Em High

It’s Not a Fashion Statement, It’s a Deathwish

Cemetery Drive

I Never Told You What I Do for a Living

This one is loud and dark, and fast as fuck. I use it almost exclusively as workout music because it will make you want to punch everything in the face. You wanna feel like you could take down all your enemies at once? Listen to this album. This one’s a lot easier to break down in terms of listening to songs here and there instead of all at once.

Personal Faves:

Cemetery Drive

You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison

Thank You For the Venom

I’m Not Ok (I Promise)

Helena

Ghost of You

Some Underrated Gems:

The Jetset Life is Gonna Kill You

To the End

Hang Em High

I Never Told You What I Did for a Living

Dip Your Toe in the Water With…

Helena

I’m Not Ok (I Promise)

Ghost of You

Things to Keep in Mind

Helena is essentially what got the band off the ground. The music video is really something and really set the tone for what early 2000s emo culture would become. If I didn’t love The Black Parade as much as I did, I’d recommend starting with Helena above everything else.

The Ghost of You music video is also a masterpiece. Gerard went to his director and asked for Saving Private Ryan, and that’s what he got! This video also happened to come out around the same time Green Day’s Wake Me Up When September Ends video came out and Gee was worried the anti-war rethorics in both would be too similar, but Billie Joe Armstrong sat him down and gave him a pep talk about how even though their concepts are similar, they’re always going to be coming at it in different ways. 

If you want to get a really solid insight into where the band came from, see the boys goofing off, and see how Gerard’s struggles with mental health and addiction drives so much of what he does, check out Life on the Murder Scene, also free on youtube. It also gives a brief sneaky peek about early days concepts for the Umbrella Academy comics!

Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys

Concept: In a post-apocalyptic California in 2019(!!!), four rebels who call themselves the Killjoys (Party Poison, Fun Ghoul, Kobra Kid, and Jet-Star) set out to recover a young girl from the evil corporation, BL/ind. Their progress is narrated by Dr. Death Defy, a radio dj who maintains public morale in an otherwise gloomy new world where electricity is a rare commodity and people worship at the hands of Destroya, a giant dormant robot expected to deliver everyone from evil.

Track Listing:

Look Alive, Sunshine

Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

Bulletproof Heart

SING

Planetary (GO!)

The Only Hope For Me Is You

Jet-Star And The Kobra Kid/Traffic Report

Party Poison

Save Yourself, I’ll Hold Them Back

S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W

Summertime

DESTROYA

The Kids From Yesterday

Goodnite, Dr. Death

Vampire Money

This album is radically different than the others in that it’s much mellower. The songs are interspersed with narrative interludes by Dr. Death Defy to better explain the storyline. Danger Days came after one scrapped compilation album (which I’ll get to soon enough…) At this point, Gee’s comic career had started to take off with Umbrella Academy, and things had started to naturally wind down with the band. Gee’s mindspace was clearly in comic-mode, and he upcycled a comic book idea he had kicking around with a comic writer friend of his, Shaun Simon for the new album. After the band’s breakup, Gerard took whatever concepts they couldn’t realize through the lyrics and music videos back to Shaun Simon to make a Killjoys comic. Much of the concept backstory explained above is pulled from this.

Personal Faves:

Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

Bulletproof Heart

SING

Planetary [GO!]

The Only Hope For Me Is You

Party Poison

Vampire Money

This is the album where I tend to get bored halfway through and switch over to The Black Parade (whoops…) But it is 100% worth listening to it from start to finish, again, at least once, if anything, because Destroya and Vampire Money are something else… Bulletproof Heart, SING, and The Only Hope for Me Is You are, at least in my opinion, the standouts of the more mellow songs. S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W, Summertime, and The Kids From Yesterday are also super mellow if you’re into the vibe of the previous three and want more of that. 

Planetary Go! is… possibly one of my favourite MCR songs of all time??? (Considering how much I love The Black Parade, that’s a pretty bold statement). It’s the only dance track they ever made, and is it ever a Bop. This is one of my go-to’s when I just need to take a break from whatever’s stressing me out and have a silly little dance party. 

Dip Your Toe in the Water With:

Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na)

SING

Planetary [Go!]

The Only Hope for me is You

Bulletproof Heart

Things to Keep In Mind:

Danger Days is an incredibly visual album! You really need the music videos to get the whole story. Na Na Na and SING tell the whole story pretty succinctly.

If you’re really feeling that cliffhanger from the end of the SING music video, check out the Killjoys comics. It’s a single volume under the same name as the album, following The Girl a few years after the music videos’ timeline.

S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W was inspired by Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds by the Beatles, which really speaks to the overall vibe of the song.

Something I literally just discovered now, looking up the album, there’s an EP of basically fight scene tracks off a special edition of Danger Days called The Mad Gear and Missile Kid. I’ve not listened to them yet, but from the looks of things, it’s got a pure punk rock vibe and they’re apparently what the band imagined the killjoys listened to on the road.

Fun trivia that I personally get a kick out of: Vampire Money was written out of spite after Gerard refused to contribute a song to the New Moon soundtrack for Twilight (Stephenie Meyer was a huge MCR fan and approached them numerous times to get involved in the films). 

Conventional Weapons

Here it is! The scrapped compilation album! These songs were written pre-Danger Days and were presented at a concert in Japan, at which point, Gerard realized it wasn’t the sound they were after and it was promptly nixed. It’s a real shame, because there are some jams up in here, but at least they (or their record label, I can’t remember which at this point) eventually did decide to release the full “album” in 5 two-single EPs at a time.

Number One:

Boy Division

Tomorrow’s Money

Number Two:

AMBULANCE

Gun.

Number Three:

The World is Ugly

The Light Behind Your Eyes

Number Four:

Kiss the Ring

Make Room!!!

Number Five:

Surrender the Night

Burn Bright

Personal Faves:

Tomorrow’s Money

Boy Division

AMBULANCE

Kiss the Ring

Make Room!!!

Things to Keep in Mind:

I often like to give a shout out to AMBULANCE and Kiss the Ring for having opening chords that sound exactly like they’ve come straight off a Queen and Green Day album respectively.

See Tomorrow’s Money for the spectacular way they rhyme “vampire/empire/brush fire/tap wire” all in one verse.

See also Gun. for the far sillier way they rhyme “gun/sun/fun/run”. 

You can tell with some of these songs that there was the stirrings of Danger Days in here. Make Room!!! is the most obvious, with the same mantra of “everybody wants to change the world” from Na Na Na making an appearance toward the end.

I think in some iteration between Conventional Weapons and Danger Days, there were some songs that did make it to the Danger Days album that were called something else. Party Poison, for example, had originally been Death Before Disco.

Covers

My Chemical Romance, in one form or another, have done some spectacular covers over the years. I’m including the Umbrella Academy covers Gerard did with Ray because that’s basically half the band right there.

Desolation Row (Watchmen soundtrack)

Hazy Shade of Winter (Umbrella Academy)

Happy Together (Umbrella Academy)

Common People (BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge)

Under Pressure (ft. The Used)

Those are the ones I’m aware of. If there are more good-quality covers I’m missing, please, send them my way– I would love that!

I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love

Ok, look, I’m gonna upset some people by having this on the bottom of my list. I’m sorry, I feel bad about it, but the fact of the matter is, I’m only now getting into their earliest stuff. Bullets is a bit of an acquired taste because it’s incredibly raw both sound-wise and in terms of content. They recorded it before they had the resources to really put out a crisp sounding album, and they were still learning about how to construct songs, but there’s still a lot of beauty in that that I know plenty people appreciate far more than I do. MCR wouldn’t have gained an underground following without this album, after all!

I have exactly zero stakes in this album, so I’m sure someone else out there has a better grasp of this one than I do.

Concept: I know very little about what’s going on in this album, aside from the fact that Gerard was driven to create the band after being in New York, watching the Twin Towers fall during 9/11. A bunch of his more end of the world storylines from many of his works (including Umbrella Academy) are inspired by 9/11. This is a prevalent thread throughout the album, though I’m not familiar with the how beyond Skylines and Turnstiles.

Track Listing:

Romance

Honey, This Mirror Isn’t Big Enough for the Two of Us

Vampires Will Never Hurt You

Drowning Lessons

Our Lady of Sorrows

Headfirst for Halos

Skylines and Turnstiles

Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

This Is the Best Day Ever

Cubicles

Demolition Lovers

Personal Faves:

Headfirst for Halos

Honey, This Mirror isn’t Big Enough for the Two of Us

Vampires Will Never Hurt You

Our Lady of Sorrows

I’m playing fast and loose with my faves here. I’ve only heard these songs a handful of times, but they’re the ones I’m inclined to at least listen to for the guitar work, which at times, is quite fantastic. I will say though, from what I’ve seen of the lyrics, there’s some stellar stuff in here I hope to properly get into some time soon.

All the guys are still plugging away and releasing music either in their own bands (most recently, Frank Iero andthe Patience and Mikey Way’s band, Electric Century) or solo (in the case of Gerard Way and Ray Toro). I wish I was more well-versed in their goings-ons, but I’ve not been following their musical careers beyond Gerard’s (come back and talk to me if you want to get into his Hesitant Alien solo album and his more recent releases).

And that is your crash course in all things MCR.

[gaylotusthatexists]

The Same Four Notes

Chapter Twenty Three - Logan

Logan had never felt that good in his entire life. He had never really felt before in his entire life. Or, at least, if he had, he had never understood it. But when he was with those three, everything seemed perfect. For once in his life, he was completely sure of his feelings. He knew that he loved them, loved them all. And he knew that they loved him back. Having that knowledge was the best feeling in the world.

He hadn't arrived home that night until one in the morning, but he didn't go to sleep straight away. Which was not like him at all, but he couldn't go to sleep, not after all those intense feelings rushing straight to him. Thoughts were racing around his brain, screaming too loud for him to get any peace. He definitely couldn't sleep when all he could think about were those boys.

He turned on the lamp on his desk, and grabbed a couple pages of lined paper, along with his best pen. He had to document this event. These emotions. He began to write, not thinking at first. He let his hand move across the paper, watching the ink swirl and transform his random thoughts into a something coherent. A poem, he supposed. Or a song. In his mind, they were basically the same thing.

Everything that he had given to the others as a 'song' had simply been a poem that he wrote when he needed to let something out. This was any different, he supposed. Maybe this could just be the next song for them to work on. If they wanted to, of course. This was probably the most personal thing he had ever written. He was really letting out his thoughts in this one.

"Logan?" a voice called, from the door.

Logan looked up, spotting his dad standing just outside his bedroom. He had left the door open, of course. Like a complete idiot.

"What are you still doing up?" his dad asked.

"I couldn't sleep," Logan replied, truthfully. "I was just writing."

"It's a school night, son," his dad said.

"I am aware." He put his pen down, and packed the paper away in his school bag. "I have finished now, anyway. I'll head to bed."

His dad nodded. "Good. Goodnight, Logan."

"See you in the morning, Dad."

He turned the lamp off, and listened as his dad shut the door and walked down the hallway. Letting out a sigh of relief, Logan climbed into bed, and shut his eyes. He had written the poem, at least. He could show the others tomorrow. Perhaps they could do it for the talent show - Logan had checked earlier that day, and they had made it through.

As he drifted off to sleep, their faces were all he could see. They were really all he could think about.

This was new. Different. Exciting. And Logan was loving every minute of it. He loved the way that his heart beat faster whenever he was around them. He loved the way that they would smile, laugh, just... be happy. He loved the way that he loved them. That they understood each other.

Sometimes he felt as if they were the same person. As if when they were created, they were all separated, and now that they were back together, everything seemed right. Like they were puzzle pieces that, when put together, created something beautiful. Like they were components of a computer, that would only work then they all worked with each other.

He realised that he was just listing off things that he had included in that poem. He had to stop with that. He had to sleep. He would see them tomorrow, at least. That was enough to convince him that sleeping would be the best option at that moment.

Soon enough, the world slipped away, as he drifted off to sleep.

The next day, Logan had stood by their tree at lunch, waiting for the others to arrive. He hadn't seen them in the morning, surprisingly. He supposed they were busy. He didn't really care too much, no matter how loud his mind was screaming at him to just run to them.

He still had the poem - song, whatever - in his bag, ready to show the others. He hoped it would be alright. And that they would have time to actually do something with it, if they did want to use it for the talent show. Although, they only had until tomorrow night until the performance, so Logan wasn't entirely sure. He was hopeful, however.

Eventually, he spotted Roman and Virgil walking up the hill. He frowned as he focused in on Roman, who did not look like himself. Was that... Virgil's jacket?

"Roman, are you wearing Virgil's clothing?" Logan asked, once the pair had arrived. Now that he could have a closer look, Logan realised that Roman was also wearing a pair of ripped skinny jeans, and a My Chemical Romance t-shirt underneath the black hoodie.

Roman sighed. "I didn't have any clothes at Virgil's house. Turns out we're a similar size, even if he is a little taller than me. He let me borrow some of his stuff for today."

"Also, you look hot as hell in that MCR t-shirt," Virgil added.

"Yes. This was all Virgil's evil plan to get me in band merchandise and ripped jeans," Roman said, a hint of sarcasm in his tone.

"Yup," Virgil confirmed, popping the 'p'.

"God, he had so many band t-shirts, as well!" Roman exclaimed. "Like, I swear to God, half of those bands I had never even heard of. They all screamed Virgil, though."

"I let him pick one out," Virgil said. "Gonna be honest, I was kinda surprised when he want for My Chemical Romance."

"Totally didn't choose it because the name technically has my name in it."

Logan frowned. "What are you-"

"Y'know, romance? Roman?"

"Ah." Logan nodded. "Yeah, I got it."

"Also, Welcome to the Black Parade is a jam," he added.

Virgil raised an eyebrow. "You like MCR?"

"Why else would I choose this top?"

"That..." Virgil shrugged. "Yeah, that makes sense." He smirked. "Although, still kinda surprising to find out that you're a closeted emo."

"Not exactly closeted, definitely not emo," Roman countered.

"Whatever you say, Princey."

Patton came running up the hill from the back, and threw his arms around Logan. Logan didn't object - instead, he just laughed, and pulled Patton closer. Not something he usually did. Wow, this really was different.

Patton leant in, planting a small kiss on Logan's cheek. "Hey, beautiful."

A light blush formed across his face. "Er, salutations, Patton."

"Salutations," Patton repeated. "You're so cute, Loggie."

His blush darkened.

"Okay, gays, chill out," Virgil interrupted. He sat down, with the others following suit. "Now, lets get down to business-"

"To defeat!" Roman shouted.

"The huns!" Patton joined in.

Logan sighed. "That... That was not what Virgil was on about, at all, I'm presuming."

"You guys are great, though," Virgil said. "But, yeah, I was not talking about Mulan. I was gonna mention the talent show tomorrow."

Logan clicked his fingers. "Yes. I was going to show you guys something." He opened his bag, and handed the piece of paper to Roman, who read the lyrics out loud. It felt... weird, having the words read to him. It didn't sound the same as how he read it in his head. And he picked up on so many mistakes, so many lines that he believed he messed up. Possibly because he wrote it at two in the morning, when he was half asleep. However, he was relieved when the others sounded impressed.

"This is brilliant, Logan!" Roman complimented, after completing his read through. "Do you... Can we use this tomorrow?"

"If you want to." Logan smiled. "Assuming you have time to put it together, of course."

Virgil bit his lip. "Would there be enough time? The school have already put together the lighting for our other song. And we haven't even started this. It is good, though."

"I can sort out the lightning," Logan offered. "I used to help out with the lighting for assemblies, I think I can quickly put something together. Are you guys coming round to the café later?"

The three nodded.

"Then you can sort it out tonight. You did the first song in one night, why not this one?"

They looked at each other, performing some sort of silent communication, then looked back at Logan, smiling.

"Let's do this," Patton decided.

[queercapwriting]

I'm feeling really shitty today because of dysphoria and shit, can you write something about Adrian feeling dysphoric? Or maybe NB college Alex? I love you Cap

Okay but what if Adrian and nb!Alex went to college together? Strap in, my darling human: it’s AU time. (And I love you too. So much.)

He keeps flinching when he tries to get out of bed.

He keeps flinching because at least when he’s laying down, his chest falls a bit flatter. When he gets up, he has to go through the whole showering thing before he can even tug his binder on.

He keeps flinching, and he groans.

There’s a knock on his door, and he groans louder.

“Whaddaya want, Winn?” he calls out to his suitemate. 

“Hey man, just wanted to see if it’s okay that I have some of your Cocoa Puffs for breakfast.”

Adrian frowns and is distracted from his own self for a moment.

“Winn,” he manages to sit up. “You hate Cocoa Puffs.”

He hears Winn sigh, and he ignores how heavy with depression, with immobilizing anxiety, his body feels.

Because if Winn is asking for Cocoa Puffs, something must be wrong. He tosses on a huge sweatshirt that somewhat comforts him, and he opens his bedroom door.

“You okay?” Adrian asks, still rubbing sleep and anxiety from his eyes.

Winn shuffles his feet. “Yeah, dude, I just wanted some chocolatey goodness.”

“Your dad loved Cocoa Puffs. So you hate them. So you sure as shit don’t want any of mine.” Adrian gives him a gentle, affirmative shove. “So what really is it, Schott? You can tell me, I’m here for you.”

Winn sighs and shoves his hands into his Star Wars pajama pants pockets.

“I heard you tossing and turning and generally sounding like you feel like crap. I wanted to knock and see if you were okay before you started blasting MCR and wouldn’t be able to hear me.”

Adrian scoffs and shakes his head and scoffs again.

“You’re a good egg, Schott,” he tells him finally, and Winn’s eyes crinkle into a soft smile.

“But uh… do you know if Alex is around?” 

Winn’s eyes flicker with understanding, and he reaches for his phone. “They’re probably still in bed with their giiiiirlfriend,” he singsongs as he texts them. “But I’m sure they’ll be right over. Do you uh… do you wanna be alone while you wait, man, or – “

For a moment, Adrian wants to say yes. But Winn doesn’t usually call people “man” and “dude.” He’s using those words just for him. Because he’s kind and because he understands and because he doesn’t think anything is wrong or weird or freaky about Adrian. 

He wasn’t one of those kids who made his life hell in high school.

So Adrian just steps back into his bedroom, climbs back into his bed, and pats the mattress next to him. Winn hops on, knees first, before checking his phone again.

“Okay, Alex’ll be here in – “

There’s a loud knock at the door.

“It’s open!” Winn shouts, and Adrian curls his knees up into his chest, hugging himself.

“Hey, what’s – “

Alex is breathless and half dressed as they poke their head into Adrian’s room, Maggie right behind them, a half-formed hickey on her neck.

“Oh, shit, guys, I’m sorry, you were clearly uh… busy, you didn’t have to – “

“Hey, no, not at all.”

“Don’t even worry about it, little man,” Alex and Maggie say at the same time, asking before Adrian nods, before they shove Winn playfully over and all four of them sink into Adrian’s tiny twin bed.

“Wanna talk about it?” Alex asks, their voice low, their eyes gentle. 

Their hand hovers near Adrian’s ankle, and when he nods, they touch the hem of his plaid pajama pants.

He shifts so his head rests on Maggie’s shoulder, and she puts her arm around him and kisses his forehead. Winn and Alex exchange a soft smile.

“Not really. I just have orgo today, and it’s lab, so everyone’s always talking and carrying on while experiments are running, and like… when the guys treat me like one of them, it’s nice, you know? Validating, like. But then sometimes they’ll talk about girls in a really gross way, and if I accept like I’m one of them, does that mean I’m accepting like… their attitudes? And I don’t want to be distant from the girls, just because I’m not a girl, and I have to get dressed, and how I dress is gonna effect how they treat me, and I just want a break from having to calculate everything I do, you know? I don’t want to have to… overthink everything. I just want to… be.”

He’s nearly crying, now, and so is Alex. So is Maggie. So is Winn.

Adrian shakes his head and leans closer into Maggie’s embrace.

“I’m sorry, guys, you were having a good morning, I – “

“Hey, no, this is what roommates are for,” Winn tells him before the others get a chance to speak. “And raging lesbians just trying to start their morning as gayly as possible.”

Maggie tosses a pillow at him and Alex straight up smacks him with one, and Adrian laughs as he wipes tears from his eyes.

“I know it doesn’t fix anything, Ade,” Alex sighs after their laughter dies down. “I know it doesn’t make it better, not all the time, but… you can take a break right now. We can be your break. That’s… that’s what it feels like for me. Being with Maggie, with you and Kara and James and even this nerd here.”

“Takes one to know one, Danvers.”

“My point, Adrian, is… is we can be your break. Because we love you. And you’re real. And other people’s misogyny isn’t your fault, as long as you don’t reproduce it and make sure they know you don’t approve when you feel safe and healthy enough to do it, and all that. And how do I know? That you’re real and all kinds of badass for being you? Because this is exactly what you and Maggie tell me when I’m feeling similar to how you’re feeling. Isn’t it?”

Adrian sighs and Maggie’s hand hesitates before touching his cheek. He presses his face into her touch and they both smile as she exaggerates flinching at his newly-growing stubble.

“They’re right, Ade. I promise. We love you so much. And it’s okay to have a crappy day. It doesn’t make you a crappy person. Doesn’t make you less you. Okay?”

Adrian nods and sniffles and, finally, smiles. 

“I love you guys, too. Thank you.”

“Always,” all three of them assure him at the same time, because that’s exactly what they mean.

[flarebossmalva]

Hey can I get some mother mother song recs? I rlly liked Little Pistol and Infinidecimal

damn you’re speaking my language

first off i’m gonna tell you to listen to both Eureka and The Sticks all the way through, in order, cause those both have fucking awesome thematic coherence and work really well as concept albums

individual tracks… i’ll go by album, and i’m also gonna try and give you a little bit of what each album is like. under cut. sorry if this is too long but i get this question from time to time so i wanna be thorough lol

Touch Up: this is their first album so it’s fairly rough around the edges, but that’s not a problem as far as i’m concerned. thematically it’s all over the place but there are still some very good songs in here

- Oh Ana (mentally ill god complex but also powerlessness feels, cw for self harm / suicide in the lyrics)- Love and Truth (wanting more out of life but being unable to achieve your dreams)- Neighbour (stalking/spying cw; about voyeurism, spying on your neighbor, but feeling that it’s justified because you think they’d do the same to you given the chance)- Ball Cap (i’m honestly not sure what it’s about, but it’s really good)- Touch Up (holding yourself to impossibly high standards of beauty, to the point where it’s obviously self-destructive)

O My Heart - as an album this plays like “we just started listening to Pixies and we’re obsessed, also every track now needs extended intros and outros” but don’t get me wrong, some of their best songs are off of this album

- O My Heart (feeling that something’s wrong with you but being unable to fix it)- Body of Years (no clue what it’s about, but this is a great track regardless; when they do this one live they always mash it up with another song, which is super fun. check out the iTunes live version they did, where they mashed it up with Gouge Away by Pixies)- Body (wanting to stop existing in material form; cw for gore, i guess)- Ghosting (feeling like you’ve become a non-entity in your relationship with your lover, and wanting to reconnect; or, taken less metaphorically, it’s about being a ghost in love with the human you’re haunting, if you want. either way, the descant rules)- Hay Loft (really fun upbeat track about two lovers who fuck in a hay loft and then have to hide from the one lover’s dad. i’ve also decided it’s about lesbians)

Eureka - a bit of a departure from their earlier sound, but in a really really good way. this is my favorite album of all time so it was really hard not to recommend every single track on it

- The Stand (lyrically seems to be some sort of uncomfortable interview; musically it’s one of their best tracks, has a fun give-and-take structure, and also when they do it live ryan always jumps up and down during the instrumental parts)- Simply Simple (about being dependent and needy, like an overgrown baby, but the song doesn’t really judge the narrator for it either. really pretty song)- Problems (this is like the indie rock version of MCR’s I’m Not Okay)- Aspiring Fires (about attempting to explain how serious your mental illness is to a loved one, and feeling like you have no choice but to lose your grip on reality and yourself)- Calm Me Down (sex as a pure and healing force. nice counterpart to all the songs this band does about how fucked up romance is)

The Sticks - although Eureka is my favorite i maintain that this is their best album. you’ve already heard two tracks off it so i’ll skip those even though i love them both

- The Sticks (wanting to escape civilization and go into the wilderness, live simply, maybe shack up with a pretty girl, get away from the world)- Let’s Fall In Love (the lyrics make love seem base and animalistic; prior to the chorus, you’d be more likely to assume it was a song about sex)- Happy (the best song about depression i’ve ever heard, honestly. captures that feeling of emotionlessness and emptiness perfectly)- Bit By Bit (lyrically very similar to The Sticks, but also contains the line “fuck off, all you people on the ground” which imo is in the running for best lyric ever)- Cry Forum (seeing all that’s wrong with society and being unable to help or to get to the heart of what’s wrong)

Very Good Bad Thing - not as thematically tight as the last two albums, but a big step forward in terms of sound (i think they got a new producer on this one, actually)

- Get Out the Way (loud aggressive song about, essentially, social anxiety)- Monkey Tree (probably the happiest song this band has ever made. back on the themes of escaping society and living simply and happily in the wild)- Reaper Man (feeling like a bad person, struggling with self-acceptance and self-love)- I Go Hungry (cw disordered eating; starving yourself to be beautiful, or for enlightenment, or for Something)- Very Good Bad Thing (being in messed-up, star-crossed, destructive love with somebody, and wanting to leave but staying because it’s just as good as it is bad)

No Culture - their latest album, and another step forward in terms of sound; playing a lot with loss of innocence as a theme

- Love Stuck (about creator’s block, according to ryan. he wrote it trying to work through his own creator’s block. really upbeat and catchy)- The Drugs (the cw here is obvious, but it’s about coming out of a depressive, drug-addled funk because you found something better than all that)- Back in School (being trapped by the educational system. at least one member of this band is really messed up about childhood)- Mouth of the Devil (kind of missing the times when you and your friends were doing a ton of drugs, feeling the call of your previous life, and trying to stop yourself from slipping back into it)- No Culture (about cultural appropriation)

BONUS ROUND - B-sides, bonus tracks, and cover songs (you can find most if not all of these on youtube and elsewhere)

- Heart Heavy (avoiding romance because it seems awful)- All Gone (cw for self-harm and suicide; trying to get rid of whatever it is that’s wrong with you but being unable to succeed)- Love to Death (being hurt by loving too much)- Kiss Off (Violent Femmes cover and honestly one of the few cover songs i prefer over the original, and i quite like Violent Femmes. this takes the song to the next level, imo, and i don’t feel ridiculous comparing it to Nirvana’s The Man Who Sold The World cover in terms of elevating the original track)- Empty Hands (seeking to help and be helped but being unable to do either)

okay there you have it, i’ve gone on long enough

[helenamayhathaway]

im a junkie for mcr's old stuff (bullets to black parade). i like bmth, pierce, ghost town, and franks stuff from leathermouth. what bands would you recommend?

Sounds like you’re into post hardcore and metalcore which I can dig, personally my head is shoved up the ass of pop-punk but that genre is probably like top five on my list. (followed by a rating of how much I think you’ll like them out of 10)

Obviously if you’re into PTV I’m going to recommend you Sleeping With Sirens because like, that’s what you do when someone says they like PTV? You say “hey, you’re into pierce the veil, well how do you feel about a guy with an even MORE feminine voice?” (9/10) 

I’ve recently gotten into Hawthorne Heights which are defo close to those bands (7/10)

Ice Nine Kills is probably my favorite metalcore or whatever you want to call them band, especially their album Every Trick in the Book where all the songs are based on books and just 👌👌👌👌👌 especially listen to the song me, myself and hyde which is like in my top ten favorite songs ever, it’s fucking GREAT. also they have a song called “the fastest way to a girl’s heart is through her ribcage” and i really respect that. My friend once bought drinks for these guys actually, she says they’re really nice dudes (and it doesn’t hurt that they make good music) (9/10)

Some people are into motionless in white? I’m not one of those people but like, to each his own? (5/10)

Bit of a throwback but Breaking Benjamin are pretty good. (6/10)

You Me At Six aren’t like super similar to the bands you mentioned but they’re an honorable mention, you can always check em out and decide you hate em. (5/10)

Of Mice & Men are an older favorite of mine, gotta love a bit of them in your life amiright (8/10)

Wouldn’t be a complete list if I didn’t list A Day To Remember. Great band, defo some pop-punk inspirations too, I mean just look at that one song where they complain about their hometown ahaha (9/10)

I’m really not into marilyn manson, i think he’s a bit of a jerk and I don’t really dig the music either but I mean there’s probably a reason they’re so famous? I just don’t see it. (6/10)

Crown the Empire. Kind of tame I guess but like I can dig em. (7/10)

Definitely check out the Used if you haven’t already they have a very similar sound to Bullets/Romance MCR (8/10)

FUCK Ronnie Radke and everything he’s ever been apart of so just like fucking forget about Escape the fate and falling in reverse. Far as I’m concerned Ronnie Radke doesn’t exist. (-1,000,000,000,000/10)

Taking Back Sunday? Also a bit of a throwback but I mean they’re definitely similar to the whole genre. (6/10)

I’ve not heard too many being as an ocean songs but I liked the ones I have heard so ya know, take a crack if you want to. (6/10)

Memphis May Fire, I’m not up in arms about them but I can dig a little if they’re playing, like I’m not gonna turn them off or anything (7/10)

We Came as Romans, forgot about them up until now, but I’m actually a pretty big fan, I would definitely recommend these guys!!! (7/10)

Avenged Sevenfold, don’t know how I forgot them up until now, either, but I did and I’m sorry. I would definitely definitely recommend them if you like BMTH or more like heavy guitars and anger ya feel. (9/10)

I mean it’d be off brand of me to not mention Young Guns at least once? I’m not gonna lie you might honestly like Young Guns given your taste so I’d definitely try out their first two albums Bones and All Our Kings Are Dead, and if you don’t like them don’t tell me to my face because they’re my babies and I’d kill a man for them. (1,000/10 but i’m biased)

Run out of bands that are coming to me like right now, but I mean that’s a pretty good list. Like as far as bands go, there’s like a spectrum which I’ll try to chart out for you because maybe you can figure out which genre you like best and then google more bands:

(these aren’t like definitive or anything but in general I’d say this is how the scale goes)

Pop-punk this is like the tame stuff which is usually about as catchy as pop but whiny AF and with musicians who actually write their own music, so this is like Fall Out Boy or All Time Low, or Danger Days era MCR

Hard rock Hard rock is basically like rock but with more intense guitars? Breaking Benjamin and Marilyn Manson would probably be here or metalcore, depends on who you ask. I’d probably put Revenge and black parade era MCR hereish.

Post-hardcore Post-hardcore really really ranges which is why I put it in the middle it’s like not always intense, but it’s usually more so intense than pop-punk? You Me At Six would probably go here and with pop-punk, so would like PTV and A Day To Remember. This is probably where Bullets era MCR would fall on the spectrum.Can be really screamy but can also be very not screamy, it varies a lot. 

Metalcore This is where you’d put all the stuff that’s definitely not pop-punk but is still kind of whiny and has that warped tour vibe so PTV would probs be here and SWS might also be here but probably not, but again, it varies who you ask. I’d probably but A7x here though, and A Day To Remember is like not really metalcore but they’re close enough that you might say they are, it depends on how you define “screaming” though?

Screamo This is where oli sykes hangs out with his friends Hawthorne Heights and occasionally me when I’m having a bad day.