#now i’m sad

[briefhottubcoffee]

I think Twilight/Loid Forger (or whatever his birth name is) is a huge romantic. I think he truly believes in love, true undying love, soul mates, family, permanence, etc. he’s just convinced himself that he isn’t capable of love or doesn’t need love because, sadly, he believes he doesn’t deserve all those things. He can’t be happy, he can’t be at peace. He has to work endlessly to save the world. He’s punishing himself by denying himself true love, happiness, and permanence (he really, really wants these things)

So what’s happening in the story is, he finds Anya and feels himself loving her and being her father, and he loves it, he loves being her dad. But he can’t have a daughter, he needs to create world peace. So he pushes back and fights against all these happy feelings.

And with Yor it’s even worse. He could be falling in love with her, true love, and he’s blown off his feet. I don’t think he’s ignorant or oblivious to what he’s feeling for her at all. Like we laugh at him and make fun of him because he’s an obtuse, oblivious spyman. But he’s actually well aware that it’s love, but he’s denying himself. Because he believes being in love with his wife, and raising a daughter with her, and being happy together forever is the most wonderful, precious thing in the world. And it’s not something he is allowed to have.

(I think if anyone is confused and oblivious about what they’re feeling and what it means, it’s actually Yor. Her feelings are more obvious to us, the audience, because she’s allowing herself to feel openly. But she is just now coming to understand that she’s falling in love.)

Like, Twilight secretly loves romantic movies and books and stuff but all along he’s thinking “Oh I’ll never feel this ‘true love’ thing they’re talking about, ima SPY.” But then he meets Yor and it’s an immediate kick in the gut, fly off a cliff, swooning music when she walks in the room, I finally belong somewhere feeling. And in the story right now we’re seeing him go through the “Oh fuck no there’s no way this can’t be happening I can’t love her I’m supposed to love spying and the shadows and being alone forever”

I mean come on, this guy right here loves romance. He loves dates with his wife. He loves love. He is trying to create a world where children don’t cry and the world is at peace and everyone is happy and in love. Except himself. He’s the sacrifice.

This right here is Twilight indulging himself. Feeling that true love feeling and relishing in it, like soaking in the sun. But then he takes two giant steps back and distances himself from her, and shuts himself off from his family. They all suffer because of it. It’s like he’s torturing himself and unknowingly hurting her in the process.

I think what needs to happen in the story eventually is his acceptance. He’s in love with her, he loves his daughter. He’s allowed to keep them and openly love them forever. He deserves it.

[sugartoken]

i sometimes get very sad when i remember that dream said that his brother was badly hurt and was constantly passing out during the making of twwth and we didnt even have a suspicion that something was That wrong until he talked about it in interviews about invincible (like u) It was probably around the time when everyone was pounding him to finish up the dsmp too ToT

The thing with Dream is that he does not like to talk about bad shit happening to him, especially in regards to anything not content related. The little scraps we have picked up show that he has struggled a lot throughout his life with all sorts of things, but he never really goes into detail about any of it, and usually only lets things slip if he's joking about it. He's just like "oh yeah my dad hit me until I was bigger than him haha" "oh yeah my brother had to sleep on my floor for a while to make sure I didn't do anything stupid and so that's a great lyric I think!" "oh yeah I was coughing up blood and writing my will in a notes app as my mother rushed me to the hospital because I thought I was going to die lololol" and all sorts of other shit that I won't even go into. Which is interesting to me for two reasons, the first being that if he was maliciously attempting to foster deep parasocialism, he would talk about his pain more. The other is that, every time he has chosen to be vulnerable or been forced to be vulnerable, he gets laughed at by the internet at large (Mask, his ex gf/DV experiences, any time he shows emotion).  Ahhhh my poor dog. 

[chrollohearttags]

fuck man, i thought my mind was made up but I’m sitting here crying 😭 makeup running and everything. Y’all need to cut it out!!

[ange-lica-3]

No matter how many times I rewatch atla, I always watch it with the hope that zutara is endgame and just end up being sad because it’s not

[cleffalover173]

Great, now I’m SAD!

[testure-1988]

Guts & Casca

Art by : Aki

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[magixbeans]

Apparently today at 1.30 pm Sirius (the brightest star in the sky) meets the moon. Which is a once a year phenomenon and i’m here feeling emotional cause Remus met Sirius today…

[locklyle1kanij]

The urge to make a locklyle edit to this is is so huge but i don’t think i will live up to my mind plans for it

[channieandhisgoonsquad]

NOT SKZ RELATED.

SORRY NOT SORRY.

I NEED TO VENT.

I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WAS THE LAST EPISODE OF SEASON TWO OF JJK AND NOW I AM A WRECK. 😩😤😭

Much sad in this brain.

I never prepare myself.

Guess I’ll have to find time to read the manga. 😒

[climbdraws]

Oh

[frog-0n-a-l0g]

Aggro is trying to rip my dangly earring out

He’s eating my hand as I type this 

This man has issues 😭

[wreeeee]

Mutuals going ghost? 😔

Thought we were pals…

[little-cereal-draws]

So I was thinking abt Ballister going straight for the throat in their training fights when he was younger and accidentally on purpose hurting a bunch of kids. The only way he knows how to fight is with his life at stake but that’s not conducive for a classroom setting. And then this happened

*the director brings young Bal to the queen to knock some sense into him bc she is at her wits end w this child*

Ballister: I hit Todd Sureblade today

Queen Valerin: you hit him??

Ballister: after I bit him

Queen Valerin: you BIT him. Ughh, Ballister, you know you can’t-

Ballister: people treat me different

Queen Valerin:

Queen Valerin: they just don’t know what to say

And now I’m crying

[sexy-sea-basss]

GIVE ME REPUGNANT OR GIVE ME DEATH!

[byler-twitter-escapee]

I’m really sad today because I never realised that Dustin and Joyce hugged in the goodbye scene in s3 and now i want to cry for half an hour

[ghost-bxrd]

Are you planning on releasing part 10 of owl song exactly on April 27th? Because if so, I will actually cry.

Huh, that’s… actually a pretty neat idea honestly.

I mean to be fair we still have about— three parts coming, with the fourth being the disaster one, so depending on how kind writer’s block is treating me it’s entirely possible that we’ll be seeing a ver nice parallel happening there 😌✨