#now serving: angst

[ky-landfill]

[bluecoolr]

"I don't love you, Bo."

"No matter what you do. No matter how hard I try. I don't think I ever will."

"I know, Momma. I know."

[guardian-of-da-gay]

The Wachowskis coming from a safe environment and an individualist society, so they want Knuckles to relax and not try so hard. No need to train constantly, no need to stay up late keeping watch, no need to be on guard all the time. Trying to be supportive by encouraging him to do nothing.

Vs.

Knuckles coming from an unsafe environment and a collectivist culture. He cannot do nothing. And his idea of 'support' is that they would help him protect the tribe. But they won't because they see no need and if they won't offer, then he won't ask! So he trains alone. And he loses sleep keeping watch alone. And he stays on guard at all times. No one else will, so the task falls to him.

[graysonsmullet]

jason promised to love bruce all his life

but that life was too short

[thedukeofhastingssexyrobe]

I literally had to fight back tears while watching the wedding scene because of princess augusta and charlotte brother' reactions to seeing george and charlotte smile during their wedding.

[dearyuomi]

an excerpt from my unnamed & heavily unfinished lyney fic:

Thin, frail hands reached out to grab hold of the brass knob that was cold to the touch, slowly twisting and pushing open the grand doors. Their deafening sound disrupts the unperturbed silence of the other room. At first, Lyney is hesitant to continue further in. The lack of human presence indirectly urged him to turn back and find Lynette.

However, as his curious eyes wander across the hall that appears to stretch on for what seemed like several miles, he unknowingly finds himself walking forward. The plush carpet below softening his footsteps as he gazes in awe at the room’s emanate opulence: pedestals where pristine ceramic vases sat upon holding flowers, modest paintings of pleasant fields or mountains of solitude, and the array of tall windows that filter in ample sunlight through draping curtains.

Though he walks a good distance away from such novel furnishings, he continues to remain careful for the unknown fear that he may accidentally knock something over. Forget damaging—he may as well leave a stain on this place with his own breath.

Wavering footsteps eventually recede to a halt as his eyes catch sight of a particular painting.

Gilded in gold, it depicts a woman elegantly sitting upon a throne. Her black gloved hands rest leisurely upon her lap, contrasting her straight and refined posture. Rose gold hair styled in a loose braid that falls seamlessly down her shoulder, complimenting her poised sea-green eyes. Though she displayed a cordial smile akin to that of a loving mother, something about her gaze unsettled Lyney. Like it held a glint of rancor that most would not perceive.

Stationed beside this painting, was another more distinguishable portrait. It portrayed yet another woman of equal eminence, if not more. But even at a mere glance, it was obvious she held more eccentricities about her. She sat upon the throne as though it were any other seat: one leg crossed over the other and cheek languidly resting upon her hand, further emphasizing her impartial demeanor. Layered black and white hair that extends almost down to her shoulders on one side and—her eyes.

They are not ones Lyney has ever seen before. Black as a moonless night with striking red pupils shaped like “X’s.” Compared to the previous woman, this one evidently held a more daunting presence, even within the confines of a painting. Yet despite such looming authority, something about her held more sincerity. For what exactly, Lyney has no clue.

All he knows is that should he ever come face to face with such a woman, he would undoubtedly take her words as they are, without question.

Gradually peeling his eyes away from the paintings, Lyney’s gaze then landed upon another item of interest, one that stood at the center of the room and that he’s surprisingly failed to notice until now—a grand piano.

Approaching the instrument, Lyney’s eyes examine its spotless condition. Free of any marks or scratches as his fingers gently grazed along the black and white keys before taking a seat. He plays one note, and then another, the soft sound managing to echo throughout the entire hall. He definitely shouldn’t be touching this, his mind tells him. Though his actions speak otherwise. Slowly positioning his hands on the keys, Lyney begins to play.

It’s a melancholic tune that plays, but one so cathartic it brings the world to a standstill. He was never one to find great enjoyment in playing such an instrument. Lynette had often told him to put such talents to greater use, perhaps performing in the grandest of stages like the Opera Epiclese, but Lyney never indulged those possibilities.

Such an opportunity should only be granted to those who have a true passion for playing a beautiful instrument like the piano. Not someone like him who only used it as a means to get by.

“What are you doing?” A stringent voice cuts through the somber melody, immediately making Lyney’s hands flinch away from the keys and head dart at the person standing a few feet away. Their expression mirrored their tone of voice: cold and apathetic. Had they been here this entire time?

Upon receiving no response, their eyes narrow at him. “Who are you and what are you doing here?”

“Lyney!” He blurts out immediately, shooting up from his seat that almost knocks over the stool behind him. He winces a bit at the commotion he’s now caused. “I mean–my name. My name is Lyney…”

“...Lyney?” The person repeats, voice dripping with doubt and ready to suspect him of hiding his true identity. But then there’s a pause and Lyney watches as their face morphs from a look of ponder to a scowl before they speak again. “Oh. So you’re the one “Father” talked about bringing in.”

[aceofnace]

"Ace is basically experiencing what Nancy was experiencing in 4x02: because of the black door, his feelings for her have been locked up and kept out of his reach, and it’s making him a little crazy." - I'm so glad there is an explanation for the way Ace has been acting towards Nancy!! I have been so disheartened to see Ace not care about Nancy being in danger and for them to have been so hostile towards each other (his anger towards her was scary). I'm glad there's reason for it but I'm also super sad we had to waste so much time on these horrible interactions instead of cuteness.

Keep in mind, this is all just speculation! I'm not sure if Ace yelling at Nancy has anything to do with the black door or not, but I really hope it does. Otherwise, I have no idea what the writers are thinking with some of these out of character choices they've been making all season.

I personally didn't find his anger toward her to be that bad (it was honestly no worse than when she was yelling at him about Chunky in 4x07), it was more the reason why he was yelling at her that bothered me. But hey, the season synopsis did mention we'd see "the ire of Ace", so here it was...3 episodes from the end...following 2 episodes of no interactions or even mentions of each other (other than Nancy alluding to Ace being immature and closed off when talking about how great Tristan is).

How the hell we'll get to a "satisfying" Nace endgame at this point is beyond me. With only 2 episodes left of the whole series, we have Ace falling madly in love with a ghost and Nancy most likely being soulmates with a Sin Eater. They're going to drag these other LIs out until the very end, which makes me wonder if Nace even kiss and become endgame in the finale, will they be cheating on their new significant others? Somebody please make it make sense!

[mysisypheannightmare]

Failure

Word Count: 493

Warnings: Negative thinking

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It was a constant nagging thought, the idea that he would never be good enough.

He’d been falling behind more and more over the years, the workload taking up more of his time and energy than ever before, but there was no one else to pick up the slack so he would just have to bear through it, for everyone’s sake.

But now? Now the other sides were consulting with one another and Thomas was building himself a habit of checking in with Virgil and Patton and Roman, and even Janus on occasion, to make sure they were communicating and staying on the same page. They were improving, doing better, even if it was only enough to figuratively tread water instead of going under and drowning in the ocean of responsibilities and incomplete tasks.

Logan had to admit, he was proud that Thomas was doing marginally better.

He was failing Thomas.

Unfortunately, Thomas’ improvement was a stark contrast to Logan’s nosedive of failure and lack of progress over the years. There was no hiding Logan’s lack of upkeep in the memory records, with unimportant files going missing or misplaced.

And you could easily tell Logan hadn’t made progress on most of his plans, a bunch of non-starters that he could never convince Thomas to take on. He’d been stuck for what felt like ages of trying different ways of convincing Thomas to pick up a cleaning routine for his apartment, only to finally realize it really had actually been years now since he’d been even slightly successful in his attempts and he’d failed to make progress or move forward on more taxing or beneficial projects because of his misguided focus. He spent so much of that time trying to maintain a baseline and create some consistency in Thomas' life that he never had the chance to move on to his plans for improving his life beyond that.

In retrospect, it made sense that Thomas was able to improve his life so much more once Logan stepped further out of the picture. Taking a backseat and letting the others fill in the tiny space he still occupied at the time, Logan quickly learned that Thomas didn’t just need a break from logic, he needed a vacation from Logan, too.

But that vacation eventually became a sabbatical, and would surely soon become full retirement.

What a fool he was.

It was difficult to admit it to himself, but he couldn’t argue with the truth; Logan wasn’t needed.

Hell, he may not have been needed all along, really. Perhaps his position should have been filled by someone else long ago, and he had been selfishly keeping Thomas and the others pulled down all this time, because he somehow believed he was helping them.

So it didn’t matter how much it hurt to step away, because if it was for Thomas’ benefit, then that’s what he would do.

He could only hope it was the right decision.

[octoagentmiles]

MILES do you remember when you said you thought Barnacles saying "Protect" in the intro for Octonauts was important for his character? (In the tags of the MV Manitoba theory post)

Because in the A&B intro it's not just him- Paani also says it- and I'm curious what you think about that, like if it's maybe important for Paani's character too?

- Sticks 🦝 (only let me ask on the main blog so Anon it is)

ooohhHOHOHHHHHHH STICKS YOU'RE SO RIGHT. HOW ON EARTH DIDN'T I SEE THIS BEFORE:

Kwazii's always been the one to say "Explore!" which makes sense because of his curiosity and sense of adventure, and now Shellington joins him in saying it which also makes PERFECT sense if you know anything about Shellington lol

Peso has always been the one to say "Rescue!" which obviously suits the brave-hearted medic, but now Tweak has joined him which MAKES PERFECT SENSE TOO WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT because Tweak has so much empathy it's ridiculous, and she makes all her gups not just for the Octonauts—but to make it easier for them to rescue all kinds of creatures in any scenario.

BARNACLES. BARNACLES. Barnacles says "Protect!" in the intro because he's the strong captain with a horrible fear of not being good enough or able to protect his crew, or the people he cares about. It's his job to protect them, what good is he if he can't do that? He demonstrates this fear countless times in the show, and has even been shown to blame himself and become self-deprecating if he fails.

PAANI. PAANI!!!! We don't know much about him yet but almost every episode we've had with him so far has demonstrated him being very reckless, in order to protect someone else.

Those are only SOME examples above. There's more, and that's only season 1!

There's more of him doing it in s2 which I am now freaking out about but I dunno if you've seen it yet/how far into it you are so I'm just gonna freak out quietly in the corner <3

Either way you are so absolutely right.

[kyojurouwu]

finished my first playthrough of twc book 3 with the love of my life mason and it was everything and more ✨ 

[ky-landfill]

[koma-time]

Lawrusso + The Sailor & the Baker!au

[borathae]

i decided that tonight will be the night where i will finally write the probably angstiest, most heartbreaking part of MV and now i am a fucking mess

[bluewaterhigh2005]

vampire academy tv show actually being Good And Fun is so bad for my mental health because last night i literally dreamed a fully formed short story that richelle mead dropped with no warning and it was about SYDNEY AND ADRIAN set post va but pre bloodlines (which is kinda funny because them hanging out then lowkey retcons all of bloodlines skfjskfj) where they teamed up to go undercover on big brother australia. adrian won <3

[connorsui]

Consui regains braincells 🎀

Ight ight ight sooooo I'm a little busy downtown riiighhttt?? ..doing my hairrrr ..cutting my hair..dying my haaaiirrr ..and doing a little spa treatment right m?? Cuz after everything that I have dealt with in college for the past 4 months GRANTS ME A DAY OF COQUETTE FREEDOM 🩷✨️

Like I can't lie to yall when I say I'm waiting for this hair to dry up while I'm reading some of the hottest ...most diabolical ...most sadistic ...most beautifully disgusting SMUT I have ever read so far today 🩷🩷🎀 and it makes me feel so beautiful ✨️ ...I feel like dem 1950s girlies who will read magazines at the barber shop ..

But it's nothing but pure imaginary backshots and cum dumping smut ...

Gooodddsssssssss I can't wait to put my thots together for these laterrrssssss

ANNYYWHOOOO IM DONE I LOVE YOUU🩷🩷

[rabbiteartrans]

Shadow the Hedgehog is a pretty messy dub overall i think, BUT....

Those last like 30 seconds of the opening piano of 'Never Turn Back' and Shadow saying "maybe Maria wasn't all she was cracked up to be"?

Peak fucking cinema. Genuinely gets me emotional even a year later despite it having almost no connection to the rest of the dub at all.

Ryan's such a genuinely great Shadow VA