#oh oh oh

[sophsicle]

[completeoveranalysis]

[7]

BIRTHDAY CONFIRMED

LAVA LAMP GUY ALSO INEXPLICABLY HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS SAKURA/NOT SAKURA/WHATEVER HER NAME IS

SO ALL THE SAKURA BIRTHDAYS ALSO WERE LAVA LAMP BIRTHDAYS

MEANING HE WAS 14 ON THE SAME DAY THAT THIS ALL HAPPENED

(And what a terrible birthday party)

OH AND THAT MEANS THAT WATANUKI AND LAVA LAMP GUY HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY ALSO, BOTH FROM WHEN THEY WERE THE SAME PERSON (AND SO BORN AS ONE PERSON ON THE SAME DAY) BUT ALSO BECAUSE WATANUKI CAME INTO EXISTENCE AS A SEPARATE PERSON ON THEIR BIRTHDAY

AND

WHEN SAKURA GAVE (CLONE) SYAORAN HER BIRTHDAY FOR HIM TO HAVE, SHE WAS ACCIDENTALLY GIVING HIM THE SAME BIRTHDAY THAT HIS ORIGINAL SYAORAN ALREADY HAD, AND (DEPENDING ON THE TIMING) MIGHT ALSO HAVE BEEN GIVING HIM THE CORRECT BIRTHDAY FOR WHEN HE WAS CLONED AS WELL

SO

The list of People who absolutely have the first of April as their birthday now includes: 

-Cardcaptor Sakura 

-Tsubasa Sakura (Original) (from chapter 1) 

-Tsubasa Sakura (Original) (from Lava Lamp’s backstory) (Who is not named Sakura)

-Tsubasa Sakura (Clone) (Or at least that is the birthday she remembers, so it counts)

-Lava Lamp Guy (Original Syaoran)

-Tsubasa Syaoran (Clone) (Both adopted birthday and real birthday)

-Watanuki (Real Birthday AND came-into-existence-day AND his name)

DOES ANYONE ELSE WANT TO ADMIT TO HAVING THE SAME BIRTHDAY WHILE WE’RE AT IT?

[dilfhos]

sooo this is gonna be a messy rant on the observations ive made between different writer communities, blog interactions and overall “status”. just silly little things I’ve noticed in my 4+ years being on tumblr btwn 2 diff blogs. and this is about no one specific, a very generalized post so if you find urself offended i honestly dont know what to tell you?? :o do better ig. & if you relate, i feel for you. TLDR @/end.

i dont like interacting/ building connections with people but not for the reasons ppl think. im not stuck up or pretentious or weird or anything. just another anime-enjoyer who loves to write in her free time. nobody special by a longshot!! i enjoy writing, always have since before i was a teen. (wasn’t always ff tho!).

but over the years ive just noticed fandom writing has its gritty sides that no one talks about often and its no mystery why so many prolific/ popular writers deactivated, me included. i had some shitty experiences and have seen friends go bc of it.

firstly, I’ve noticed, once you start interacting and building friendships with people, it’s easier to see the bigger perspective of where ppl stand and the blatant hierarchy of friendships and groups. same applies to that outside. like its literally just me n’ my bsf then my acquaintances bc mfs be weirddd omg its like cults or something. like thats why initially I didn’t interact w/anyone starting on my new blog. that n’ fear of drama following from my last blog ugh. ‘Cept the few i’ve met on my old blog (like my wifey)

not to mention i have bad anxiety. and sometimes im cue-deaf. i dont always pick up what people put down and vice versa and it makes me conscious in a lot of my interactions. so a part of me doesn’t want to interact at all to avoid all awkwardness and possible miscommunications. that’s not to say i don’t notice subtle changes in interactions after one situation / conversation or so forth, that in myself or witnessed between other ppl. (im perceptive, just not that good conversationalist lol. like i really have to try.)

but then…if you don’t interact with people on here, your chances of building an audience or a reader base is slim to none. the likelihood of developing relationships is zip. because you’re already perceived and pegged as just another tumblr writer. pause. to clarify, a writer who doesn’t want any recognition or interactions from mutuals or new friends. or just a lonely writer? a introverted, lonely writer. which leads to little to none interactions (anons, reblogs, moots —exposure.)

so then its like you’re kinda placed btwn a rock n a hard place. and there’s absolutely no problem with that! in fact this is the best part—meeting friends and like-minded people! people that make being online all the more worth it right? thirsting over fictional characters and sharing in each other’s works!

but you have to be in specific circles it seems. but then you can’t imply that you want to be in those circles bc then you’re desperate.

but well, then you cant purposefully want to be independent or be on your own or else you’re a hater, hypocrite or stuck up. not to mention, no one will reblog your stuff lol. no one will interact fr, and you’re friendless essentially. and god forbid if you disagree on something as if opinions don’t exist btw! then you’re being ganged up on. (like omg grow up!)

but then if you reach out you’re seen as trying to wedge in or kiss ass? you interact and follow and you’re ignored or left hanging? (bc im gonna touch your hand when i say this—it never gave fan, your majesty of horny nerds) and this is about ALL the writing communities and fandoms—spicy content, black content and dark content. ALL.

yet no one wants to talk about the pregnant elephant in the room—bias. and favoritism. also people seem to have a hard time being direct with how they’re feeling toward/about someone ( in a good or bad way) which in turn leads to a lot of miscommunication and subliminal attacks. (not to mention hate anons? one of my moots just had her inbox flooded w/them recently, ew.)

you can lead a horse to water AND you can write a 500-word essay on the observations made on tumblr writers as a whole. (a long ass post on the truth on behalf of those feeling this too)

also, slapping a HEY LOOK AT ME! IM A WRITER WHO WANTS INTERACTION AND FRIENDS! on a blog is frankly embarrassing. it shouldn’t even take all that seeing how easy it is for others wanting the same thing.

or doing less to achieve the same result.

not to mention, yall shit on ppl who essentially feel this way altogether bc you peg them as sb who doesn’t “try” or just jealous when their own works are phenomenally written themselves. ive seen it. and ive lived it. never gave jealousy baby.

at the end of the day, we’re all writers— either longterm or hobbyists. (personally, im longterm) self-indulgent or not! and its absolutely amazing when people are being fair in how they spread love and feedback to their writers.

Secondly, its not news that people have to want to reblog your fics so that their followers can reblog, so they can reblog, and their followers can reblog and so forth. but ppl honestly dont care atp bc once they’ve already read it, they owe you nothing. and apparently asking for reblogs is crass and bold. (imma do it anyway) but putting your very all into a story just to turn and see a half-thought out hc soaring 3k in 2hrs and 5k in a day — you have to stfu, open your ass and take it. keep it cute!

you’re getting fucked after all!!

because if you complain—you’re just jealous and lazy and uncreative!! and i hate that to seem like a writer worth a damn, you have to change up your writing style every two weeks to fit in with trending waves.

“no more poetic long fics, nobody’s into that! short, snappy slutty shots are all the rage!” “ppl are only into these specific tropes but you can’t exceed 2k words!” “only add trending characters to these hcs! ppl love them only!” “don’t write too much about a specific character or else ill unfollow you!” its exhausting.

i am well within my right as a literary artist to desire more feedback and interaction on anything i put out. period. and you are too! 🫵

God, im tired of that stupid, ‘you have to enjoy your writing for yourself and not worry about notes’ line. i do love my writing! don’t get me wrong there’s nobody id rather write like if not myself fr. not to mention the inspiration i draw from famous literary authors. however, i would love feedback and the same energy that i see with others in my same caliber.

and when i see others that didn’t even try fr—its a slap in the face to put it bluntly.

i can want silly little comments and notes about something i cherish and put out for that reason and yall aren’t gonna make me feel bad about it. sorry! like yall really be making people feel shitty for wanting the same type of interactions you get! especially when its harmless, bye asf. nb want to recipe to ur peach cobbler b!

the only one giving push back are those appointed popular /top blogs n’ cliques tho. now personally, i honestly dgaf if you have 20 followers or 25k, writing is writing and if its good you should want to support it regardless of following count/interaction right?

unfortunately, and quite unsurprisingly its not the case for the rest of this hellhole lol. there’s always gonna be some “big blog” in any part of tumblr or any social media for that matter.

but when the sole purpose being on a site like tumblr to write is mainly exposure, then it just makes it ten times worse especially if it seems that these blogs are steady at the top of every. single. tag. and listen, i know how initially stupid that sounds but when you’ve picked up on patterns for as long as i have, well iykyk.

so imma be real bc no one else will, half of the posts that yall see with 25k notes have alr been done. just different characters, different words, different dialogue. And 8/10 its been done by sb who only received 100 notes. Thats the evil part. whats more is that it lacks the creativity the one post with 100-300 notes is filled with completely.

POP QUIZ! what post would readers be more inclined to read? — one that says 10k (ohhh that must be popular!) or the one with only 150 (oh i guess nb really liked that one) that no one is even willing to reblog for MORE. and BOOM. now yall wonder why so many great writers LEAVE, its a fucking joke.

so unfortunately its no longer only about or only on readers anymore. its about who you know and who you know is willing to support your fr. who is willing to REBLOG your fics for their friends and followers, so that their friends and followers can reblog. to fit in you actually have to get in these days and it makes it all less enjoyable. makes it a chore and if you aren’t ‘doing it right’ ultimately it makes you feel shitty about your writing. (Please don’t, you are doing amazing. its the platform.)

it makes people not want to jump into writing. it pushes away those who actually want to join writing communities and meet people without feeling like they have to jump thru hoops to thrive or worse—live in other ppls shadows. and then it deters those from speaking up in fear of being shut down by bigger groups. ive seen it happen time and time again.

lastly, and this is the juiciest part! you absolutely cannot say anything about any of this bc you’re complaining and a fisher just looking for attention and not someone who just want things to be fair all over. play the game, right? ( wrong. and if this is your logic, you suck! )

its no longer about making flashy banners and pretty themes. its no longer about how many clever directory links you add or how many games you initiate on your blog or whether or not you’ve reblogged your fic three times already. its about your “friends”, other mutuals, and blogs willing to support you too. not just the audience. audience gonna do what they want regardless. reblog, don’t reblog, whatever. “at least ive read it right?” but everyone knows this. duh! but it’s obvious who doesn’t care as long as they’re on top of that tag! its admirable in a way but it sucks for those wanting to break out and build some kind of readerbase and/or make friends.

TLDR; people need to stop being bias and be fair and open lol. stop picking favorites and share the love all around. you see another person writing your favorite character or trope, give them a fucking chance and reblog, regardless if they’re in your ‘circle’ / radar or not. regardless if you know them or not. hell, let them put you on to a new fandom. bc writing is writing and making new moots and finding new fics seem to be what everyone loves to showcase until its time to actually do it. no wonder people get discouraged to make friends and write, yall treat it like some kind of secret society when its supposed to be fun💀 not a competition. (yall need to dead this clique-y shit. )

[avernine]

chookum doodle!

[lumiilys]

Do you ever just think about the red silk and the moonlight moment and you wear fine things well and just

[guettaes]

I think it's a good or bad sign if Call of Duty is here.

[nthflower]

PEEPERRRRRRRRRR KING IS HEREEEE PEEPERS PEEP!!!!

Peeper nation celebration 🎉🎉

Me too me too me too

[calcium-makes-ur-bones-weak]

HEY GIRL WHAT THE FUCK

[loife1m]

my mating song is ‘chamak challo’

the end

[weltato]

Priceless being an analogy for family. And uh, Scrooge calling Bob priceless bc he saw Bob and Emily and the kids doing that. Bc family is priceless guys. And Scrooge becoming like a second dad to Tiny Tim.

They're family and you can't convince me otherwise. Also Eleanora is part of it too bc um Scrooge adopted her and she's besties with Tim.

And then when Jim and Della are expecting a kid they go to the Cratchits bc they've got six and can give advice LIKE FAMILY-

I love them.

[bezzplaining]

[cryingatships]

OH MY MY is this a call out to Mint Magazine??? *mad cackles*

[sherlokiness]

Through the quiet, the singing pulled at her. Sansa turned toward the sept. Two stableboys followed, and one of the guards whose watch was ended. Others fell in behind them.

Jonsa wedding after they defeat the Others.

[everythingbutresolved]

💝🎄 Kneel 🖤🎁

Foreplay for us doesn’t start in the bedroom.

You, absentmindedly dressing before working,

I, walking through the parish garden in bloom.

I dig my teeth in my palm until it’s hurting.

Remembering our first meeting like it is the very same day.

You asked if I was allowed to be your friend.

I told you I would be there for you and I told you again today.

A thousand wild horses couldn’t stop me from wanting you in the end.

I said something stupid and your laughter hit me like a a wave of bubbles.

It was that moment you had my heart on a silver tray.

A man’s delight turns quickly in another man’s troubles,

Nevertheless blue skies appeared were there was only grey.

A God's servant with a sorrowful face,

Yours is the hand that so firmly grasps

Our lips pressing together in a slow pace,

As mine open and close on the pew with tight clasps.

Knocking at my door under the light of a new moon,

I begged you to have mercy and leave me alone with my needs.

Your gentle body cradled mine like a spoon.

The leap of faith was a rosary of pleads.

In my dreams I explored each one of your curves.

The trembling of my fingers was ignored that night.

Every inch adores as it deserves.

Learning how and where do you like me to indulge and bite.

Peeling our selves a little further with each open button,

Breath synchronizing in accelerated rhythms.

Lying down among moanings we were gluttons .

Loosing concept of time or holy theorems.

Soon the adoration leaves room for the smut.

My fingers find your core, your knees all the way up.

You quickly discover I’m uncut.

While my hands hold your legs like stirrups.

Obscene words the tongue employs.

This angel that got me in chains.

Did you have fun of me? Am I now one of your toys?

Deeply seated inside you my mind can’t tolerate games.

Night after night, perfecting my skill set,

Welcoming every request and begging for another,

Your flesh and my skin must not forget,

The blasphemy of taking pleasure from your priest, your lover.

You left a trail of kisses on my face

and you bite my lips again.

I whisper you to move faster.

I don’t know how this is a sin

Forgive me Father 'cause I won't abstain

Merry Christmas 💕 @littleredwritingcat @jyngerpeach @ebiemidnightlibrarian @agirlinherhead @plainlo-inthemorning @supplanther @aherdofbees @girlwiththenegantattoo @waytkayt @rothko-mirror @i-was-ok-then-i-saw-hamish @apbajs